/lit/ - Literature

First for true love is real

>>22280370
Baste. I agree.

>>22280370
you fed the cats? fancy feast or meow mix?

Why are girls repulsed by me

>>22280379
might be the jorts

>>22280366
Is this LOTR?

>>22280366
Alright well I'm gonna go run now, see you guys in 30 minutes, be nice to each other!

>>22280366
I'm starting my master's degree in lit soon and am kind of nervous because I'm an introverted and increasingly depressed/anxious person who doesn't like giving presentations and group discussion. Honestly dreading it.

>>22280398
WIth that degree you'll be able to make a dollar more as a coffee shift manager.

I looked in the mirror today and thought "whoa, that's literally me"

>>22280406
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hq6I-xPwtU0

I feel like my life is only going to get worse from here. I'm in my mid 30's and I don't have anything I thought I would have at this point in my life. I earn what was a decent amount of money maybe 5 years ago or so, but the economic shift means I can't do simple stuff like buying a house despite working and saving for a decade. I feel left out compared to my peers who got ahead in the rat race and are full on "normal", with families of their own and all that. My parents are older and one has become an alcoholic. All of my ambition is dead and there's drive any more. I want something to change but I'm scared of change because I'm alone and don't have many people to rely on. I haven't read anything really inspiring or something that has changed my mindset and outlook in a long time.

Maybe I need to look at stoicism because none of the material or personal things I want seem achievable.

>>22280370
Yup, also impermanence is real

Fuck your mother. Fuck your ancestors.

>>22280414
cheer up anon, you could be me and nearing your mid 30s and never even held a decent job. I have never made anything over probably 30k in my life and I currently still live with my parents. The only difference is that I'm not sad about it, its just how life is. I have read a lot of Buddhism and Stoicism, I'm also been "odd man out" all of my life so this is literally nothing new to me either. So cheer up, you could have no job and none of that money you currently have in your bank account. Everything is fucked and its okay that everything is fucked. If you don't know where to start, start exercising, lifting or running, if you already do one of those two add the other one. Mental health starts at physical health. Here have a song!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=loPrGiUxze8
Its always darkest before the dawn, anon.

>>22280405
i'm gonna go to law school after I'm just doing it because I was offered a full scholarship

>>22280430
Okay...? So why complain? Your gonna get paid more money that I'll likely see in my lifetime...

>>22280366
So many evil people on 4channel

>>22280438
im just anxious sorry

>>22280366
What's some fun stuff to watch when you're not paying attention, I like to watch videos while I draw but I've already made my way through all jontron videos 2-3x and penguinz0 isn't that good anymore and neither is yms. Oneyplays maybe but I don't like let's plays much anymore. What's some good YouTubes or podcasts

>>22280447
I'm not handsome, and I don't go outside. My pic is literally me.

I just went to /r9k/ because i've never really looked at that board before. It was just...
>Porn
>Mental illness
>Tranny porn
>Sadness
>Ironic porn
>Ironic mental illness
What a shit hole

>>22280447
Is honest evil better than fake good?

>>22280417
I hate that I can't refute this :'(

>>22280480
Someone doing good for ulterior motives is better than someone who does evil

>>22280417
True love is not impermanent

I have a great sense of catharsis after telling my narcissistic father off qith my sister. I really feel I can move on with my life and make the most of the rest of it, now that 27 years of his tyranny have ended. I plan on being a greater father and husband than he ever could.

>>22280478
Turns out actual invels are mentally ill. Who knew?

>>22280428
Thanks anon. I'm going to read Siddhartha again (yeah yeah) and then maybe finally read Meditations.

>>22280417
>unreality is real
Okay siddartha

>>22280478
How is porn ironic

There was a woman in a pink t-shirt today. She was wearing very short shorts, so it appeared as though she was naked underneath her long t-shirt that barely covered her behind. I stopped as the traffic halted me at a red light. Watched as she walked, her juicy thighs had a slight pleasant jiggle that moved in tandem with her steps. A very sexy East-Asian lady indeed. Instantly my cock was a granite mast, and in that moment I wanted nothing more than to bend her over and fuck her hard like a wild Ulfhednar until I finished deep inside her. The green light appeared, I looked away and drove on. This all occurred within a few seconds. The mind is chaotic and can create these deep sexual fantasies within a moments notice. I then continued to think about other banal events upcoming in the day, almost forgetting entirely the sensual woman who, for a split moment in time, triggered a primal instinct which if payed attention to can feel important and enthralling, yet if you detach for a moment, it is just another fleeting thought in a chaotic sea of consciousness that we experience time and again. Like souls floating in the river Styx, you are Charon, and your thoughts are the souls of the dead - constantly swimming and a mass of noise unless you take the time to focus on one and see it as an individual. You focus gives it a name, and a name gives it power. Something past, present or almost entirely forgotten, but if you look away and continue rowing if is just another chaotic idea swimming around in your sea of chaotic consciousness.

>>22280366
Oh you want me to write what's on my mind do you? What is this for, some sort of gay tranny psyop? You're going to collect all these up and sell them as some sort of avant garde masterpiece? Who do you think you are? Paul Town? A retard? I too am a retard and if you put this in a book everyone will know you are retarded. The buyers of the book should feel an intense shame knowing that they are supporting retarded grifters.

Buyers of a book made with stolen content like this are so retarded that they probably don't know how to tie their own shoes. They go about everywhere in Crocs, claiming that they are the bee's knees. Little does the outside world know that they are actually dealing with a full blown retard who can't tie shoes. Or at least that's what you think. If you are reading this, you probably are drooling from your dimwittedness. Everyone sees the drool droplets engorge themselves on a flow of saliva until they become so enlarged that they drop upon your fat man boobs.

Jk I love you! You are probably a genius!

I hate it when poetry mentions modern words. It almost always drains all the romanticism from a piece

My parents and grandparents and greatgrandparents took part in a ritual in which they wore white robes open at the sides and with nothing on underneath and an elder rubbed blessed oil on them and then they swore to God to slit their own throats, tear their hearts out, and disembowel themselves if they revealed what happened next. They were shown secret handshakes used to identify angels. They saw a new version of the story of Adam and Eve with certain details changed. They were given holy garments to wear which were embroidered with symbols and talismans. They did all this, in their late teens or early twenties, for generations.
They told me our church was normal. That other churches had just lost their way. They said the reason we had private temples and public meetinghouses was because we had other scriptures containing truths the Bible didn't have.
I could have stayed in it. Stayed asleep. I could have met a nice girl from the church and had 6 kids and settled in the Promised Land. It would have been easy and natural and painless. It's too late now.

>>22280366
Leaving a Abrahamic religion is very very hard, and obviously I'm still divided. I was raised incredibly traditionally catholic, which I am actually grateful for because my father is a very intelligent man and he taught us logic and math and history very well. He greatly encouraged our education through classical philosophy and such, but ironically it's that sober mindset he imparted which is now leading me away from the Catholic church.
It's very hard to do and I'm still scared of an eternal hell of suffering, but I don't really believe it much. I don't know if people who weren't raised in a similar hardcore Abrahamic religion could understand.
I'm considering just taking Pascals wager and just adhering to the technicalities of how to go to heaven.

A decade ago, I made a post mocking the creator of Zero no Tsukaima as he lamented not being able to continue his work because he was dying of cancer. I made fun of the people who liked his work too, I rejoiced in the fact that he was dying and suffering in his deathbed because his work was just retarded slop. Anyone could do it. There was nothing to his masturbatory retarded stories that should make people miss him. I hated him because he was enjoying his life. I hated him because he got recognition and fame. I hated him because he was doing something I wanted to do, something that took me 10 years to finally sit down and start doing.

Here I am, writing retarded slop that people enjoys and deeply enjoying it myself. Trying my best to actually put something good out. Spending hours developing a story and characters that SHOULD make any adult man cringe. I'm writing a world so removed from the misery and darkness that surrounds me that I'm frankly ashamed of being associated with it out of how saccharine and masturbatory it is... and I'm enjoying it. I'm putting effort on it, hours of my life sinking into this project that has been swimming in my mind for more than a decade, but that I never had the courage or the dedication to start.

I find it almost incredible that people enjoy this... that I still enjoy this against my better judgement. Who knows, if I really give it my all I might become good at it, good enough to turn a profit. Good enough to have some recognition. Good enough to see these characters become something else. Having hope is scary.

I'm writing sunny days from the edge of the abyss.

>>22280782
Mind talking about why you don't want to be Catholic?
I'm the dude ranting about Mormons from the post above yours and I'm actually considering becoming Catholic.

>>22280782
While I think staying is the right choice, Pascal’s wager is a poor reason to do so. It’s okay, but hopefully you will move to a higher form of spirituality. They say there are three levels: avoiding punishment, seeking reward, and for its own sake. Try to move up the ladder but also be honest with where you are at. It’s better than getting off the ladder. I am praying for you anon.

>>22280782
> Henceforth I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you.
The Lord does not call us to be hirelings brother, I said a prayer for you.

>>22280366
I'm done with girls, not with a woman.
And it's not theirs.
Probably victims of the same executioner,
I'm sick of the 'conqueror' mentality.
I have better things to focus on.
Most of the time it wasn't even something I wanted for myself, but to show others how capable I am.
I will love her and she will carry my children.
I'm done with society

>>22280803
The doctrine of eternal hell. To me that makes the entire cosmic reality a tragedy, and God an evil being.
I find this unrepairable with the doctrine that God is goodness and love, he is also justice, but why does the justice have to be eternal and why can he not simply work his wonders and fix the entire state of mankind. So I've been researching universalism (all mankind is saved, eventually, hell exists but is not permanent), and I have found it present in the very earliest church fathers. Origen and Gregory of Nyssa were universalists, but at some point the consensus followed suit of St. Augustine and eventually Thomas Aquinas which taught firmly in eternal hell.
Aquinas's view is the most perverse, not only is hell eternal, but the saved elect rejoice in the suffering of the damned, after all, don't they deserve it?
The whole thing just doesn't make sense to me. Really imagine that. Eternal hell, do you believe you could end up there, forever and ever. It's scary, but if it's just fear that holds you to a belief is that a good thing?

The other thing is the doctrine of the infallibility of Catholic doctrine. Is it not circular logic. How do we know the catholic church is infallible ? Because it is a catholic doctrine that catholic doctrine is infallible. Simply circular. What movement of the mind would you ask of a Muslim to step out of his faith and into Christianity? He has an identical logic loop. The Quran is true. How do I know ? Because the Quran says the Quran is true.
To become a Christian the Muslim would have to at some point say "Maybe the Quran is not infallible", and then seek truth using his natural senses, reasoning, intuition etc.

So the Catholic church asks the Muslim to make this logical step, to trust his natural reasoning abilities, but it does NOT want you to do the same if it leads away from her. Why is that? Aren't they identical logical steps?

I now trust what the very wisest have always said, that we know nothing. But like I said, I doubt I'll ever really leave the church due to fear, but I hope the Catholic understanding of reality is not true.

>>22280475
you are all good
don't buy the 'this kind of living' is normal

>>22280829
The idea is that you don't fully comprehend hell and why God would send people to hell, etc., but in the afterlife you'd have a better understanding of it.

>being a white straight man who wants his wife to take care of children is evil
When did you people become so retarded?

>>22280810
>>22280821
Thanks bros, don't worry I'm not taking this lightly.

>>22280860
It's funnier to me how women think working for a company that hates them is more fulfilling than bringing life into the world and nurturing it

>>22280868
That's why giving women any rights at all was a huge mistake

>>22280829
>How do we know the catholic church is infallible ?
To them its because Saint Peter was following the wish of Jesus and God and they are doing exactly what God and Jesus outlined their church to be.
If you ask me, an Sola Scriptura Anglican, why would you be surprized that a Church that has a history of making stuff up and how most of their traditions and doctrine don't come from the Bible but are rather loosesly (and in some cases dubiously) supported in scripture if you interpret in a very specific way. Why do you think all Churches after the Catholic Church are very specific with how they want you to interpret the Bible? It is because the Church is built around those interpretations and if interpreted "wrongly" you collapse the foundation of the Church.
Btw, I'm not saying I have the Catholic church or that they are a fake religion or anything. But a lot of Catholic traditions are outside of the Bible, so much so that the Catholic Church stresses that knowing and doing the rites and traditions are more important than knowing or following the Bible itself. If you get more consipritorial about it you then see that these traditions usually involve giving money or lending help to the church in one way or another as well, then you have the church also say "be fruitful and multiply... Btw tithing is 10% of your yearly income." Some of the more pragmatic pieces come together. I think the path to Christ, regardless of interpretation and demonination ultimately is an individual experience and vastly contradictory, much like the Bible itself in many ways. While the Bible is more coherent than the Koran, it is also way less coherent (sadly) than the Torah, Taoism, Confucism, or certain foundational texts of different Buddhist sects. So I find arguing what God did and didn't intend unless considering these contradictitons, espeicially if both quotes come from the new testament.

>>22280860
Nobody here said that

>>22280871
Contrary to popular belief, the vast majority of women didn't even want suffrage. I think that on a deeper level, women these days don't want their (((rights))) either

>>22280889
No, I'm sure they do. You can't spend your 20s posting selfies to Instagram, traveling, fishing for dudes on Tinder with shit like "avocado toast is BAE :)" in your bio, and getting wasted at Coachella if you're not independent.

>>22280366
i'm in love, it's unrequited

we spent 4 nights together, she distanced the last night, and has distanced since.

we are both without fixed address. she cried the last night we were together. didn't have sex just held her. left her in my hotel room. flew back home. "lives too unstable to see anything coming of it" for now. apologized if it seemed cold.

she'd flipped hot cold twice before. mindfucked me each time. drove me further passionately. made me almost literally crazy for a couple weeks.

i leave this country in 1.5 months. a little less, actually. i still haven't chosen my next destination. i broke up with another girl about 4 weeks ago. we'd been together for maybe 2 years. i looked at her one day and decided i couldn't marry her. broke up with her a week after.

i haven't seen my family in about a year. maybe over.

i'm very tired. i need a raise. i need a new job. i need to live in the states again. but i can't right now. not yet. i have more to do still.

the woman i'm in love with, which i'm trying to kill my love for by setting up dates and seeing other women, is in my future, and in my friends. i will see her about 3 months from now with approaching 20 other friends. i have no idea how i'll feel then or what to make of it.

i'm very depressed. i wrote about 18000 words of a story over the last 3 or 4 days, but feel no relief. i need to write more. i've put off writing for so long. i think it was a function of my ex. i think she drained me terribly. maybe i write something about that next. but i have +2 years of story ideas in the backlog i need to draft. i have enough material for a book now. but i've already published almost all of it online for free. i need to write a novel. i need to write. i have so much i've been putting off because i'm an alcoholic and a slouch and a coward.

thanks

>>22280916

Alone here like all of us.

>>22280370
Love for children is real. No other love is as real and enduring.

>>22280782
You know you don't have to literally believe in everything or even the general concepts to 'believe'? Just believe in an abstract sense in the power of the teachings, the value in the set of morality and the fact that they are more or less right about there being value in the concept of a God.

What do you mean you don't believe? What don't you believe in anymore?

>>22280868
It's funnier to me how you pass off ideas you become consciously aware of through a meme as your own.

>>22280965
lol

>>22280965
YWNBAW

I feel sick and about to throw up

Why does the penis feel the need to aerate urine?

>>22280889
>Noo bro. Women don't want all the freedom, lack of responsibilities, lack of shame. They really really don't want it bro. They keep pushing for it and vote for like policies. But let me tell you one day they'll not want it so much that they'll push back
Retard and still bluepilled. I can bet you never really thought about it all.

I recently was doing some business with a 'masc' lesbian and was amused that we were basically wearing the same outfit. I wonder if she was studying me then to appropriate more normal dude mannerisms.

>>22280366
How do people in western coutries, like America, the UK, Frace, feel about that their future white gf/wife might have fucked a nog and or has white guilt because of the popular contemporary politics?

https://voca.ro/1gToVkgGHi1b

It kinda sucks to be a NEET in Germany. You are forced by law to pay a monthly fee for health insurance (like 200$ in my case), unless you get state welfare. Since I live with my parents who earn decent money, I don't qualify for state welfare, so I have to pay all that money for health insurance, while I have no income. Let's say you do that for 3 years, suddenly you have 7000 $ debt. Basically I have to finance all the old people's hospital bills while I myself never even go to the dentist in the hope that this system might become useful to me when I'm older, assuming I ever reach old age.

>>22281200
wait but libs in america always say germany is so much better than us cuz u get free healthcare. in america you can just stay on your parents plan until you turn 26. then you can get obamacare which is like the same as what you're paying but most people qualify for a tax credit that makes it cheaper. nyt had a story this week about the aging economy in europe and how it's going to force reforms in the welfare state. seemed grim. america isn't aging as bad as europe and china because we constantly get a stream of new people who have big families for maybe two generations before they get assimilated and exhausted.

>>22280478
It used to be better. Sadly like irl, a lot of 'incels' turned tranny

>>22281200
One of the reasons I moved out of the first world is this. It's impossible to keep any sum of money around after a few months it's all gone to just taxes and gibs. Should have spent that money immediately into something like a hunting license and guns.

>>22281200
rate my Aussprache bitte
>>22281200

>>22281200
rate my Aussprache bitte >>22281196

I'm merely a shadow of my former self.

>>22280366
I should have started learning french when I was 14.

>>22281200
get a job faggot

>>22281200
probably a way to force people into the job market and make them useful for the economy

>>22280366
Reading borges and I don't know if I'm underatanding anything.
I think I kind of get some of his stories but I don't know.
How deep does he even go? Just to make sure I'm not hunting for some extra depth that doesn't even exist.

>>22281330
Side comment. In my opinion, some of the borgesian stories get pretty fastidious if they overdo the typical themes without having anything to prop them up.

>>22281330
If you think something has depth and can explain why that's what matters. it's not a math problem with an answer.

>>22281330
Understanding*

Women never did anything to deserve the attention they have gotten from artists. I'm straight and I can't think of anything less deserving of serious contemplation and effort than women.

I'll give it all I got, I have nothing left to live for anyways. I threw it all away decades ago.

>>22280414

I relate very much anon. You're better off than me though, I'm 40 with no qualifications, long term unemployed, no savings. I'll be alone my entire life. Some people are not wired up to function well in society as it is. Its all such a massive waste of time unless you are "normal" and find the demands of society acceptable and enjoyable. I've obsessed over spirituality and esoteric stuff for a while now but its all just a cope. Nothing makes sense and never will. The whole thing is a total waste of time.

>>22281426
Are you killing time until death?

>>22281365
All the art in the world was made because of women anon

>>22281490

I've killed time long enough but shit is hitting the fan now. I wish I had the courage to an hero. Couldn't do it to my parents, usual story

Sex is best medicine for relationship problems

Getting an army commission or going to law school.

>>22280414
The best ages to embark on a new life journey are 25, 30, and 35. You’re mid-30s so you’re approximately 35. What you should do is identify a mission for yourself and get after it. Life doesn’t just get better for people. Life is the passage of time. How you spend that time is a matter of choice. It’s up to you.

What is with this irritating myth of female warriors in ancient and medieval times? There's absolutely no evidence that I've ever seen to indicate women ever took up arms in any capacity at any point in history, except in moments of extreme desperation during sieges, like the siege of Jerusalem, or when the Bolsheviks took over Moscow, during which times children also helped defend their homes - but movie makers and game developers don't pretend children were warriors in the same way they pretend women were warriors. Most entertainment and fiction is created by people with average minds who have only a superficial understanding of what they're attempting to portray.

>>22281828
Oh no they were not a myth they were not a myth

>>22281858
Your mother's girth is of mythical proportions, thoughever

>>22281871
Nice argument, nigger

>>22281875
Niggers regularly occupy your mother's bedroom, in fact

>>22281881
Your mom is a nigger

>>22280366
Thinking about destroying my computer and never getting on the internet ever again. I won't. But I am thinking about it.

>>22281981
How about locking it up in your cabinet?

Had a dream last night I was in Panera and they were selling a book/pastry where the cover was made from two cookies you were meant to eat while reading it, the cookies looked like a purple guy sneering. I bought it and sat down and was reading it with a latte and eating the cookie and the book was called "man if I do, man if I don't" and it's hard to remember what it was about but I read a couple pages and it was pretty good, it was like American psycho except written in this kind of absurd way where it was hard to tell what was going on you were just kind of reading the character's thought process and picking up pieces of their day through it, the guy just seemed like a normal office worker but extremely unhinged in the way he was processing events. Was entertaining I'd like to read the rest

>>22282043
Your dream gave you a gift. You now have to write a short story based on the book in your dream.

Trying to find the right hobbies

I'm just fucking fed up with this shit!
There is so much to do now in summer, but I'm stuck on this bullshit.

Traveling through space is as ridiculous as traveling through time.

ANOTHER DAY RENNOVATING A HOUSE FOR 20 DOLLARS AN HOUR IN 105 DEGREE WEATHER. THE HOMEOWNER WONT LET US USE THE AIR CONDITIONER. HAHA I'M SO GLAD I DROPPED OUT OF COLLEGE TO DO THIS

I shouldnt do these mistakes, I really shouldnt yet I do. I think it's only a matter of time until I get fired. A good worker doesnt do mistakes.

>>22282192
3200 dollaroos a month doesn't sound so bad

They approved me for the lobotomy.

Do you nerds write in your books? Why or why not.

I am pro book defacing.

It's over. It's so over. We're never coming back from this.

>>22282236
From what?
*Farts

My mother drinks this disgusting sludge she calls tea. It is an abomination.

>>22280829
>The doctrine of eternal hell
?? Catholic here, and that's not doctrine. It's kind of like giving up on Catholicism because "the doctrine of the Easter bunny". There seems to be some fundamental misunderstanding here.

>>22282288
what is the official catholic doctrine of hell?

>>22282315
It's the state of self exclusion from God's eternal grace. God cannot predestine anyone for hell, and the person has to literally choose they would prefer to not commune.

By all the marks & smudges in thy treasured drawers,
I wonder what protects thee from life's mighty powers.
Chastity belt or armor, both seem flawed & frail,
In times like these, one needs something sturdier to prevail.

If thou art armed against the world outside,
What need hast thou of locks & bolts to hide?
But should the foe come forth from within thine own mind,
Then these defenses serve rarely as barriers to thy kind.

So many keys to tear apart our innocence,
From flimsy picks to trusted friends' deceptions.
No lock can keep out what our souls deserve,
And once surrendered, no safekeeping will reclaim our purity.

Our hearts are fragile things indeed,
Mere paper prisons for feelings we cannot but heed.
One swift cut of our own selfish whim,
Will leave us as naked as daring Godiva's quim.

But oh, dear friend, don't lose your faith in truth,
Nor fear the dark corners lurking in your youth.
For though our past may color all we see,
We can become ourselves, & not just anyone else's legacy.

So let your markings chart the path ahead,
& make yourself your finest work of art.
With love as your inspiration strong & bold,
You'll have no fear of need or need of fear:
For nobility is truth's inerrant spear.

why dont i like or care about anything in this world

>>22282441
How would we know?

By all the marks & smudges in thy treasured drawers,
I wonder what protects thee from life's mighty powers.
Chastity belt or armor, both seem flawed & frail,
In times like these, one needs something sturdier to prevail.

If thou art armed against the world outside,
What need hast thou of locks & bolts to hide?
But should the foe come forth from within thine own mind,
Then these defenses serve rarely as barriers to thy kind.

So many keys to tear apart our innocence,
From flimsy picks to trusted friends' deceptions.
No lock can keep out what our souls deserve,
And once surrendered, no safekeeping will reclaim our purity.

Our hearts are fragile things indeed,
Mere paper prisons for feelings we cannot but heed.
One swift cut of our own selfish whim,
Will leave us as naked as queen Godiva's quim.

But oh, dear friend, don't lose your faith in truth,
Nor fear the dark corners lurking in your youth.
For though our past may color all we see,
We can become ourselves, & not just anyone else's legacy.

So let your markings chart the path ahead,
& make yourself your finest work of art.
With love as your inspiration strong & bold,
You'll have no fear of need or need of fear:
For doubtless nobility is truth's inerrant spear.

>>22282451
dunno not even i know

>>22282441
Because you're gay

I was jerking off for 5 hours instead of writing. My dick hurts, my deadlines burn, but I do feel better.

>>22282236
Kill yourself then, weak coward.

>>22281075
>calling someone bluepilled while you unironically type "bro" every other sentence
Are you actually a shitskin? Fuck off, you sound like a dumb immigrant piece of shit, brown turd.

>>22282635
Lmao

>>22280366
I think a lot of things don't matter when you and another person truly love each other.

Reddit should have a feature that allows users to see who upvotes and downvotes their posts. I want to be able to send DMs to passive aggressive users: "Hey faggot, why'd you downvote me?"

The site has a nice setup, but I got tired of my comments being hidden because my posts went against the narrative of the thread, regardless of how well reasoned my arguments were. On second thought, upvote and downvotes are a pretty gay feature. Not as cringe as the icons on kiwifarms, but still.

They should also stop banning people for saying 'retard', 'faggot', and 'nigger'.

Do you guys journal? What do you write about? What software do you use? Do you guys ever fear you'll one day become a famous writer and your journal will be discovered?

I just masturbated to BLACKED while pretending I was the cuck holding the woman's hand. I've reached another new low.
I remember how I used to run around the preschool playground playing tag and imagining how I was impressing all the girls in the class.
I think I did something terrible in a past life.

>>22282750
are you really moping over jerking off to porn? get over yourself. at least thank god that you don't have anything serious to mope over.

Has anyone found it beneficial to their writing and edification quitting 4chan? I spend like 6 hours browsing this place everyday. But when I try to quit I have intense FOMO. Granted, I do get good book recs on here but I don't think it's worth it. Can anyone convince me with their rhetoric? I just think I will be happier off this place for at least a month. I find this place more entertaining than actually going outside and speaking to other people.

mmm ice cream so good mmm ice cream so good gang gang mmm

>>22282802
6hrs is too much. You're not actually doing anything with that time, and you're going to miss more you don't give a fuck about than you're going to miss things of substance. Spend four of those hours doing something that makes you get out of your comfort zone and two of them writing instead.

>>22280366
Can't think about sex anymore because I immediately remember my own penal deformity.
Fuck. Can't even coom.

>>22282782
Mate, he just degraded himself to the level of a conquered broken male. Have some sympathy. It's a confusing time to be alive.

>>22282826
>free from the shackles of lust
some guys have all the luck

I want to kill at least ONE person before I die

The audacity of western women...

>all rights men have + reproductive rights
>can vote but dont have to serve wars via draft
>60% of college students
>despite working less than men in jobs that pay less are responsible for 80% of spending in marriages and relationships
>only 20% of homeless and less than 10% of street homeless
>only 20% of all suicides
>live longer than men
>work less hours than men, take more vacation than men and also retire having worked less years than men
>50% less likely to be sentenced for a crime compared to men and when convicted serve only 39% of the time men serve for the same crime
>only 3% of work related deaths
>are fiscally a net loss for socienty (cost society more than they pay into the system since they live longer and work less than men , which means men essentially subsidize women
>win90% of custody battles and recieve 90% of all paid out child support and alimony
>#1 reason women become millionaires is not work but divorce and inheritance

And they still have the audacity to cry about "muh hard life" "muh oppression"
These dumb cunts should be laughing into the sunset instead crying over nothing

>>22282854
If you're going to murder someone, at least kill a corrupt politician.

>>22282854
Go shoot up* the pornhub headquarters.

*shoot up is a gaming term in minecraft which refers to players who 'shoot up' the ladder of friendship and achieve mutual respect

>>22282857
>>60% of college students
Take away trades and focus only on what most people actually mean by college, 4 year summer camp in an easy major, and it's more like 80%+, with the remainder being made up of foreign students paying full tuition because they just need a namebrand western uni on their resume when they return to home country

If you actually run the numbers on how many "normal" "average" men (working class straight men) are going to university, it's extremely small, and then once you take away Asians/Indians getting STEM degree it's near 0%. White working class men probably make up <5% of universities in the US once you filter noise variables and weird exceptions out.

It's interesting that these very same universities are producing hundreds of trillions of "social scientists" and "data scientists" and "policy wonks" and so forth who can do exquisitely ornate data visualizations for how many black midwives between the ages of 18-34 prefer Ranch to Cool Ranch Doritos, but nobody ever thinks to measure obvious statistics like how many ordinary joe / backbone of the country type people actually attend "their own" elite institutions. I wish some Jared Taylor or Dutton type guy with a talent for stats and data would get a thinktank together to study things like this and put out policy reports or handbooks for basic stats like this. You could have one for "Measuring Disenfranchisement in Western Countries."

CONSCIENCE OF A JANNY, from The Adventures of Sir Duncan Crumb (His Lordship):
>I happened to be away, on /tv/, but reports reached me of some strange mischief here, stories of femanons joining in mock ecstasies among the threads, posting in honor of a certain Sir Duncan Crumb (His Lordship), whoever he may be! I have banned some of them. Those who run at large shall be hunted off the board like the animals they are. In no time at all I shall have them banned to stop this obscene disorder.
>I am also told this tourist, Sir Duncan Crumb (His Lordship), has long yellow curls smelling of perfumes, with flushed cheeks and the spells of Butterfly in his eyes. His days and nights he spends with femanons and noblemen, dangling before them the joys of initiation in his mysteries. But let me bring him underneath that banhammer and I'll stop his pounding with his “crump.” By god, I'll have him range-banned!

I started a Diary today. I think I do enough navel gazing as it is but I’m already in this deep so a little more won’t hurt. There’s this niggle in the back of my mind that one day someone will find it and I’ll become the next Anne Frank except I’m not a jewish girl in a Nazi occupied country, I’m a young man in a declining vassal of the declining American empire. Same difference, really.

I hate AI (the antichrist) and can't trust anything I read anymore.
Books written after 2021 should all be burned.

Hi, zoombrain here. I'm currently trying to read more by reading light novels(yes I know) and I'm getting there, a bit slower than usual. But I find that my concentration wanders after ~15 min. Is there any way to fix or is it just my zoombrain doing its thing. How do I work my way up to the real literature? Help
Also how hard is it to learn something like Spanish if I'm ESL. I think I'm decently fluent in English.

>>22282857
You might be a man but you're still a bitch

>>22282976
Throw your light novels in the trash, that's not reading. You're consuming anime transcripts.

>>22282826
>penal
The word you want is "penile." Penal means related to punishment, like penalty. Penal colony, penal codes, etc.

If you gave a human omnipotence, all you'd see would be violence and sex.
Absolute freedom to humans means violence and sex.

>>22282981
Then what should I read? Classics zoom past my brain, and YA is supposedly bad so idk. And please don't tell me to read philosophy

>>22282990
Read Hyperion by Dan Simmons and The Black Company by Glen Cook

>>22282998
I'll check them out see what they're about

Oh man who dares to question my bare thigh,
I am not here to justify nor plea,
My actions stem from deeper wellsprings than your eye can see.

My body carries secrets, stories unsung,
My heart holds whispers, echoes undone,
Yet I stand before you, unafraid of judgement's tongue.

You think to shame me but instead invite,
The winds of change to ruffle your collar tight,
Filling your senses with something otherworldly bright.

My nakedness is armor stronger than steel,
For it speaks truths unuttered before realms doomed to appease,
Denounces lies that silence victims under looming trees.

Come closer now, and listen well my friend,
Take heed of whispers in the rustling end,
Lest you miss the rhythmic symphony bending.

Oh let yourself be swayed by my motion's graceful arc,
Abandon rigid thoughts that bind and split apart,
Embrace the fluid nature of human's ever after dark.

My bareness is but a glimpse of infinity,
A universe where shackles drop and vanity,
Cannot hold captive those who choose to live freely.

Therefore I say, come join me in this wild adventure,
Leave old tales behind and make new discoveries,
Together may we sail across uncertain seas.

Cystic pimple on my forehead.

>>22281828
Aethelflaed, Boudicca, probably some truth to the Amazons.

There are two ways one can read:

>outward-focused reading:
You try to investigate and get close to the author's intended meaning as well as you can. You want to put yourself in the author's shoes as much as you can, think as he did, and use this thinking to extract meaning of the words he put on the page. You can also deliberately force a text to conform to an intended meaning, like using it for political propaganda or so.

>inward-focused reading:
You observe what is it that you get from your contact with the text. Your meaning comes from the concepts you've built up in your mind with time, and their associations. You can see things the author never intended, because for you the words used bring associations that were outside of his conceptual field.

You don't deliberately choose between one and the other, and often those two kinds are mixed in the same reading without the reader being aware. Hence the debate about whether or not to consider authorial intent. The question is not whether authorial intent matters, but what kind of reading you're doing.

>>22283028
Cool band name

>>22280366
Posting my thoughts on mid-2010s /lit/ here since the meta thread was rightfully deleted but I still want to be a nostalgia faggot. Would love to hear about the even earlier days too, I miss the pre-culture-war atmosphere of quirky, insular faggotry.

>>22283169
>not the default 4chan look
shan't be readin'

>>22283176
Hmm... yes why would the screenshot I took AFTER the thread was PRUNED not use the default 4chan CSS... what a mystery!

>>22280828
Yeah I feel u real hard on this one my nigga, got dam. Too fuckin real

>>22280955
I think you're right, because from my stance now I have no desire at all to attack myself to another church or religion with different dogmatic truths. I'd never become a muslim, protestant, orthodox etc. My understanding now is that essentially all of humanity really does not understand God or religion completely, and that the truth is scattered throughout.
Because I do still believe in an immortal soul and a creator and I HOPE that he is ultimately good. If that's the case then there must be a simple overarching truth that if we try to do what we believe is good, then he will understand us and take care of us.
That doesn't negate the need for institutions and dogma to say exactly what it is that is good. But the overarching truth mentioned above is the only rational way I could understand the entire system to be a fair one, and not completely arbitrary.

>>22282330
And the end of the day you're still saying that individual and real existing people, that you could possibly meet on the street, end up in a state of immortal suffering.
Is that not the doctrine, that there exists an eternal hell?
How people end up there is irrelevant.

>>22283209
*no desire at all to attach myself to another church....
attach, not attack.

>>22283169
I started using 4chan 7 or 8 years ago, but /pol/ was my main board. There used to be (semi) intelligent discussion between all the shitposting and trolling. 8ch*n actually had some pretty smart guys with interesting ideas, but /pol/ on both sites died when the Christchurch shooting happened.
As for /lit/, I've only been here for 3 or 4 years, but even in that time I get the sense that the truly educated people have left, which is probably my fault >:-)

>>22283227
I don’t mind newcomers or /pol/ opinions in themselves, I just hate faggots who come here to give a false veneer of intellectualism to their entitled complaining. It’s like yeah ok I get it you don’t get pussy, can we please talk about something else now? Anyway as long as you post like a sentient human being and not a bot trained on generic shitposts, u aight ytboi

>>22280782
Catholicism ain't the way, and Augustine and Aquinas hold deeply flawed views of scripture, and the church is very fallible (it has to be if it can hold universalists to be saints), you discerned wisely.
We're not saved by works, but by faith.
I think part of the reason why Hell sounds unfair is because people assume that Hell is merely the eternal punishment of finite deeds. However, all fall short of the glory of God and no man is deserving of grace (grace which proceeds from faith is the gift of God) because our own righteousness couldn't hold a candle to the perfect righteousness of God. We could not do anything of our own which would not only be pleasing to God, but would also foster a steadfast and continual good relationship with Him, hence why Christ died on the cross to make that possible.
Understand that what makes Christianity special is not its morals, but the forgiveness of transgression, which is one of, if not the defining features of mankind.
Seeking our own will and placing that before that of God and neighbor is the source of transgression, and it is this source which causes people to be eternally separated from God. The genuine believer in Christ, happily, must not be grieved at their own destinies, as the Holy Spirit, the mechanism of our salvation, is also the downpayment thereof. We could not receive it by fulfilling the works of the law, lest Christ died for nothing.

In Coventry town, beneath the waning moon,
A lady rode, whose beauty was unknown,
Arrayed in radiant light, she let us swoon
As naked grace illumined by a beam of gold.

We watched and wondered at her fearless show,
Her bare flesh blushing shell-pink white in glow,
While horse and rider crossed the square below,
Their fate entwined in labyrinthine ways of old.

Into the caldron dip her tender feet,
And as she sinks, the secret streams congeal
Over hidden depths unfathomed from our seats
That rise like bubbles in some fruity soup concocted neat.

But ah! The vatic voice within us cries,
"This is no ordinary liquid!" It solidifies,
Love's thickness is folded deep within her guise,
As chocolate's touch transforms her very enterprise.

Thus steeped in such bitter fruit's hot caress,
Lady Godiva reigns as our supreme mistress,
The aphrodisiac concupiscence of appetites,
Where pleasure's kiss and pain are intertwined so fine.

From shadowy whispers springs her regency,
And when she rises forth gain from an umbrous sea,
Her legend looms, emblazoned in thickest mystery,
A phantom limb remembered fondly by degrees.

So let us drink deep draughts from her delights,
Imbibe her essence underneath the night,
For Lady Godiva's flavours do not cease,
Like coffee's rich aroma on a winter's eve.

>>22283292
>>22283017
>>22282452

Fix your meter, other than that, not bad.

>>22283217
but they choose to be their by their own free will. It's like being upset about someone choosing to fall off a cliff and being mad that they used their legs to walk off that cliff.

>>22282750
Just stop watching porn, if you can't congratulations! You just found a vice that you are addicted too, devote as much time as possible to fight it to regain control of yourself and your life, your future self will thank you. Oh, and you've never failed to your addiction until you give up completely trying to fix it, expect to fail a lot but it gets easier and you fail less over time.

I'm an idiot. A complete moron. A total baboon. An absolute fool. A fucking failure. A disgraceful waste of oxygen.

>>22283453
also, just as I said in the Freud thread, I dream about fucking my sisters and my mom all the time. WTF is wrong with me

>>22282854
That one person will be yourself.

My boss said he was getting wing stop and hour ago and still hasnt showed up. The mexicans installing the carpets are fighting and I've ran out of work to do. At least its only 99 degrees instead of 105 now.
I'M SO GLAD I DROPPED OUT OF COLLEGE TO LEARN A TRADE

>>22283460
You're not as bad as me. I smoked too much weed and felt an orasmic rush as I failed to fight off the idea that I secretly want my dad to fuck me.
Ruined my life desu.

>>22283529
And they say pot is harmless

>>22283529
well that didn't make me feel good about myself as much as feel bad about you man

Despite absolutely no evidence to suggest as such, I feel like I am destined for something special.
I'm 30. On paper, I guess I seem somewhat impressive. I hold a Masters degree, I speak a few different languages (in the UK where this is actually notable for an anglo), I'm in good shape and have a relatively prestigious job where I make good money.

Despite this, I've never felt, even for a moment of my 9 year professional career, that I was confident in what i was doing. I've never been very successful and I try extremely hard, just to be bang average.

Everything I've done professionally has been mediocre at best. Still, I have a strong feeling that I will be incredibly successful, and that perhaps just the corporate environment isn't for me. Logically, the evidence suggests I should ignore this feeling, and I'm certainly aware it's not very rational, but I can't shake it. Does this go away? 'm constantly restless looking for something to devote my energy too. How can I channel this productively?

>>22283319
>it's like being upset about someone choosing to fall off a cliff and being mad that they used their legs to walk off that cliff
Would you say that could simply be called suicide? If it is then think about how we read to suicide here on earth; we (should) do everything we can to prevent the person from doing it, we appeal to emotions, reason, empathy etc. and if it comes to it, we just forcefully prevent the person form doing it.
That to me is a hard limit on free will. It's not that we're trying to override his desires, it's that we assume he doesn't actually understand what he is doing.
I find it impossible to believe that anyone could have perfect knowledge and perfect will and choose hell. It's a misnomer, it doesn't make sense.

>>22283638
*think about how we react to suicide here on earth

>>22283542
I was already mentally ill the weed just turned the pressure up.
It's probably fine if you are stable.

man this lady at work gave me some of her salad now my stomach is all queasy. it tastes good, but i think it the cucumber was like soaked in vinegar or something. ugh, i'm never going to fall asleep tonight.

If you ever take your Mexican girlfriend to Italy, be prepared for the most fussing and pouting you have ever seen. That ancient Latinium zone makes them seethe for reasons unknown

>>22283529
one time i smoked a fat jay that turned out to be way danker than i expected, got it from some white dude with dreads for 20 bucks, anyways, my friend put easy rider in the vcr and the intro where it's playing that steppenwolf song and the camera pans across the motorcycle started getting me hard idk why i'm not even into cars or motorcycles and shit, luckily this was back when ppl wore baggy pants. i was so fucking blazed.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RXBAgAxn1x4

>>22283777
It's spelled Latium, and if the girlfriend in question is brown skinned, it's called inferiority complex before the myth of Europe.

>>22283777
Love spic girls but just can't shake the idea that she's dragging our kid's IQ down to Mexican levels, I even see the educated/"elite" Mexicans as a little dumb to be honest, they seem like a bunch of happy go lucky idiots. The women are total morons, very feminine which is nice but semi-retarded seeming.

>>22283804
On the balance you’d still rather a feminine but dumb girl over an intelligent career woman

I cant leave the worksite until the carpet installers leave because it's my responsibility to lock the doors. The sun is going down and they're still here.
BOY I SURE AM HAPPY I DROPPED OUT OF COLLEGE TO LEARN A TRADE

>>22283906
The “do a trade” thing is a meme in itself. It’s more a case of pick your poison. Would your rather sit under artificial UV light for 8hrs a day for the rest of your life or have your joints destroyed by 35. It’s gonna suck either way

i have the face of a demon
and the hands of a beast
you'll never see my shadow, or the sound of my feet
as i walk down the street

i can never show my face at noon
you'll only see me walking
in the light of the moon
i must hurry, the sun rises soon

>>22280366
---- Solaria ----
0700
First World Grid

It's been almost exactly 74 degrees and 20% humidity in here
Since the power went out for a while in March.

I like to go shirtless at night, when it's about 65
To look at the stars or the odd hawk moth

With a certain feeling, a certain lightness that feels like day
Of the mind, assorted feral cats underfoot

Huge trees almost completely asleep in the still, fresh, atmosphere.

>>22283917
Guess which tradesman gets to drive directly into the sun after 10 hours of working.

>>22283917
>office job
>sit on ass drinking coffee
>make 30% more than blue collar
>donuts on friday
>air conditioning
>special parking space for being the best boy
>THE UV LIGHT, ITS ARTIFICIAL!!! Nnooouuuuuuooooooo.......

vs

>blue collar job
>break my back all day long
>bad joints
>bad pay
>coworkers are literally retarded
>face like a baked potato from sun exposure
>Ahhhh...... this is the life

yeah, seems pretty equal

>>22283981
It gets worse than that, even for bitches who work in finance and earn in the top 5%. Dear God their hours are insane. Two of my siblings do that, and I'd rather be dead.

>>22283981
The UV stuff was a throwaway example. You could list out far more disadvantages. The corporate world is now filled with zoomers who went through modern universities. You connect the dots

>>22284015
*still, they both work in air-conditioned towers in the scenic North Loop. I'll give them that much credit.

>>22282976
this is a byproduct of over consumption of media. generally we consume media throughout our days to fill in the blanks, waiting in line at the grocery store we look at our phone, etc… if you don’t give yourself time to just be still and think throughout your day, then you will end up at the end right before bed with a million thoughts that have piled up all coming out at the same time. take time during your day to meditate on your thoughts, and when it’s 8pm and you’re sitting in bed trying to read your cringy light novels (i like 86) you’ll find yourself better able to concentrate as it won’t be the first time during your day when you have some alone time with just you and your thoughts.

I saw my boyfriend's ex girlfriend and physically assaulted her. Now I have to pay a fine.

>>22283643
My favorite, and next oldest sister, killed herself about 7 years ago. Circumstantially, she had everything going for her, wealth, security, family. I understand why she did it, but no one else in my family does. Biochemistry can be a real nightmare. So much for the genetic lottery.

Do I regret getting a girlfriend? I almost do.
>have to actually socialize now
>have to attend more social junctions
>have to keep buying clothes
>have to keep traveling
>have to keep spending money
>have to act like a normalfag
I mean yeah, the girlfriend is nice, but is it worth it?

youtube comments are objective proof that average people are born slaves

>Omg!!! As commenter #98542876349234627834 and #875723 to say the exact same thing, your dog is my jam Ms. Influencer!!!
SHE CAN'T HEAR YOU, YOU FUCKING DUMB NIGGER

>>22284169
wtf is this schizo post, just disable comments or even better, just don't use youtube.

>>22284173
>just don't look at bad thing and bad thing will cease to exist
retard, even if you actually held this retarded nonsensical view you wouldn't have replied to my post since you're doing the very thing you condemn. kill yourself immediately.

>>22284176
>If I keep on looking at bad thing it will eventually stop.
I don't know if I'm the retard here anon...

>>22284184
i never said that, i complained about something terrible being terrible. there are many possible motivations for that other than thinking it will instantly magically go away if you do so.

>>22284197
>magically go away
ironic you use the word magical when you are the one who things practical advice is bad. Only reason I can think of for your reaction to it is that you lack control of yourself and you project that impotence upon your environment and then get frustrated when you get the same results.

GEISTERFAHRER!

>>22284201
no thanks, like i said, youtube comments are an interesting window into how the average person is a retard, and so are your posts

Don’t want to be friends with God.

>>22284205
>Let me complain about how I hate doing a thing to myself.
Well at least I'm not an attention whore, go make a tiktok about how your gay lover broke up with you and how much he destroy your soul or some other low impulse control behavior.

>>22284208
what if god could give you a bigger foam cowboy hat?

>>22284208
What about pardners?

God is honestly described as such a scary, lovecraft-esque being by theists. Unknowable, infinite, omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient being of unchanging and timeless eternity. The idea of that existing spooks me.

>>22284208
Anon I hope you came up with this yourself because I'm laughing so hard right now.

>>22284260
Yes it's terrifying. Infinity exists one way or another, that's a guarantee. I'm sure you're familiar with the classical argument for the existence of God, that there must be an uncaused thing, to cause everything else.
We (so we think) can trace everything back to something called the big bang, but what caused it? Did something come out of nothing?
It's either of these;
1. God, an infinite thing caused the universe.
2. The material universe is infinite, goin backwards in time for an infinite eternity and, forwards in an infinite eternity.
3. Something came out of nothing (the universe) and then it will die again and the entire reality will once again be a mute void.

>>22283981
I am complaining a lot about dropping out of college to learn a trade, but desu there are advantages. There is a lot of freedom in blue collar work, and you can have a lot of fun doing it. There is no HR and you can basically do and say what ever you want so long as the job gets done. Worksites are fun too. We blast music and drink beer and make racist jokes. I was able to avoid getting the vax by being self employed. Plus, theres a certain joy and satisfaction to working with your hands. Actually building something feels really good. That feeling of seeing a completed project is like an orgasm. Plus, its the source of a lot of stories. I can keep my friends entertained by telling them all the crazy shit I see working

>>22282976
Train yourself with short stories. Also, as other anon said, we always fill the gaps with stimulation so our mind is never still. Go on long walks without headphones or your phone

Good morning

>>22284073
Post hand

>>22284221
Can God make a foam cowboy hat so big that even he couldnt wear it?

>>22284322
Its nighttime, faggot

>>22284336
Can he make purple green.

>>22284261
I did :)

Do you guys think it will influence zoomers that they never knew economic stability?

Need to switch my major but I'm on the verge of graduating and I'm not confident that my mental health can withstand 2 more years of school studying much harder material.

>>22284369
Nah, childhood experiences dont mean much

>>22284372
Just dont be a bitch

>>22283981
Why are these inhumane working conditions NORMALIZED??

Any other permanent nofap Monks of the Righteous Path on this board besides me?

>>22283981
>coworkers are literally retarded
Same happens in white collar jobs.

>>22284424
May God bless you in your struggle my brother

I just watched the first 2 episodes of the One Piece anime. I thought it was supposed to be bad, but it has soul. Much better than 99% of anime today.

>>22284334
No.

>>22284336
he could even become the foam hat for you if you like

>>22280366
---- Solaria ----
0701
Exquisite Electronica

I can imagine ecstasy that goes on forever,
Though I think you'd have to be there to see it.

Who are those singers so faraway, so abstract, so delighted?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nL1-jnCkfw

Big dicks will rule the world

>>22284550
And so we big dicked Euros will, as usual.

>>22284208
Why is your hat bigger?

>>22284342
thanks doc

I wonder if I have my cat very familiar to my hand by feeding it, playing with it, letting it smell it, etc., then cutting off my hand will the cat recognize my hand or will it become unfamiliar?

>>22284550
>will
What are they waiting for?

MOVE AWAY FROM THE SCREEN
GET SUNLIGHT
GO OUTSIDE

>>22284740
I do that often as not. I enjoy gardening to an almost obsessive degree, as well as fast and long country drives. I kind of hate screens. In my room is a 2K Toshiba and an 4K Samsung, neither of which have been turned on for about a year. The HD600s are another thing. I'd rather be dead than without music.

>>22283777
maybe you're ugly spic gf isn't as attractive or light-skinned as you believe her to be homie

After quite a while of being a post-uni NEET, tomorrow I'm going for my first job interview. Hopefully I don't get lost on the way there.

I turned 29 today.
I'm in a very different position than I was last year. A better one in most aspects. Doesn't feel like a birthday which is nice. I don't like celebrating it.

>>22284923
Happy anniversary of your mortal decay! What would you say changed in particular?

The life of a repo man is always intense.

>>22280366
---- Solaria ---
0702
Rear View Mirror

He's a familiar type, hardworking, beautiful, and essentially tragic.
I never understood him with feeling until now, and

Yet, I am what I am, lazy and comfortable, in a lap of luxury
And music he's never heard of.

>>22284934
I moved from Europe to a Caribbean island, I got a completely different job and am way less depressed than I was on this day last year.
Last year I made the mistake of showing emotion on this day, something I never do.

But at least in that mindset I would have motivations to do certain things. Right now I don't really feel it. No big highs, no big lows.

>>22284949
>I moved from Europe to a Caribbean island
How does this work, don't you have to speak the local language? Or is it enough to speak English?

>>22284949
I guess this kind of indifference is better than being at mercy of the bigger lows in life. I'll follow up on a question from the other anon and ask, how hard was it for you to adapt into your new environment?

>>22284957
I'm half European/Caribbean. They speak my language here plus I can understand most of the native language.
>>22284958
Not super hard, I've been here a lot for vacations and even lived here for the first 7 years. It is annoying how I can't really understand what other people in the office are saying 20% of the time. That makes it more difficult to adapt. I've had thoughts of moving back to Europe but my goal is to save up money and buy a place here. It's either that or go back to Europe and live like a rentoid while indulging in all my vices. I'll have to make that decision for sure in about februari/march.

One big challenge here is that the women I meet are either ugly/fat (Caribbean islands have huge obesity problem) or they're tourists who leave in 2 weeks.
I underestimated that issue, I would like to find someone to start a family with.

>>22280366
Was I raped?

I'm no sex before marriage. Got gf who seemed to respect this. The more we fall in love with each other the more pushy she got with sex. Always resisted but eventually made a "joke" that she was going to say I raped her if didn't have sex with her. Kind of panicked and froze up. She then just was all seductive and sexy and had her way with me.

Honestly it felt like i was going to pass out. I mean she was really affectionate and loving after but I feel kind of hurt yet at the same time I feel I love her more than I ever did

>>22284957
I can't remember offhand what year it was that St. Thomas was raped by a hurricane. The trees of Charlotte Amalie were stripped bare. Have the Feds chased the druglords off that beautiful island?

>>22284993
*St Maarten is apparently ever the same--except for its fame when it comes to a certain runway near the beach.

>>22285023
From what I've heard it hasn't recovered fully from that hurricane.
Glad I'm outside of the hurricane belt, can't imagine your entire island gets rekt every 10 years.

>>22284987
We're speaking a consensual relationship, and not a forced marriage, so I'd say no, you're just being fucking silly. It'd be a different story if you two weren't already commited to some form of a relationship. With respect to your word on sex before marriage, it seems she tested your boundries, and how much there actually is to these words. New relationships are all about experimenting with such boundries, otherwise you can hardly get to know one another. You gave way to her attempt, and that's that, you both learned something more about eachother. As per your other words, in spite of the mixed feelings, you feel more fond of her afterall, and that's possibly the most important thing to conclude from this sexual encounter. You do you anon, but truth be told, sex also takes part in getting to know your partner, as it's yet another form of expression, and a very intimate one at that. Communication is key to a successful relationship, so make what you will out of that.

If I don't get some ass within the year I will go fucking insane
all these teenagers are working out and wearing next to nothing I am so fucking stressed
I haven't dated in forever, I need to stick my dick into a woman, Jesus Christ help me I need a relationship you know I'm a good man after all, I'm just broke, send me some pussy PLEASE I beg you

>>22284987
>dates a modern women
Got what you deserved. I had the same problem and I broke up with her on the spot. She cried her little eyes out and told me that I'm an awful person and all I said back was "Awful people don't respect the boundaries of others." Which caused her to just cry more. I left and I talked to her the next day to make sure she was okay and she told me "...I'm an awful person why would you want to talk to me?" and just like that it was done. If you don't put these bitches in their place ASAP and let them ride roughshot all over you, you let them win. You push back and reinforce boundaries and say "No" they will get all rapey and constantly try to push up and break these boundaries. Its all just a big mind game for control and she will continue this campaign until she got you to remove enough of your own boundaries that she is comfortable with the relationship. That is when she starts trying to change you to her liking, controlling and mainpulating more. This is usually why after a couple of times they attempt to disrespect your boundaries you just pull the ejection seat and tell them to fuck off. If you want to be in the driver's seat in the relationship, you have to be willing to respect yourself enough to not let your standards or boundaries slide and you MUST be willing to walk way. If you aren't willing to walk away, you have no power in the relationship. Period.

>>22285074
A good man in this era is no more useful than a whore surrounded by eunichs.

>>22285082
But I need the ass, I need it anon

>>22285052
I makes me almost glad to live in twister land. It must be about 1000 year intervals to get leveled here, by anything equivalent. Still, I follow Doppler radar whenever I hear thunder.

>>22285074
Best of luck anon, try and increase it by going out to places where there's people of your preffered gender and age, since we can hardly expect changes from within our bedrooms. It's harder to socialize when you're stressed and tired, so make sure work is not getting in the way.

>>22285080
Jfc, good for her that you two moved on.
>This is usually why after a couple of times they attempt to disrespect your boundaries
Having standards is one thing, and not being quick about getting into someone's pants is very much reasonable, but guilt-tripping someone because they tested your boundries is just cruel. Sex is one of the ways many people express their affection, imagine denying someone that possibility, and then also condemning them for having a different love language. Seriously, having a different language is one thing, and at such a point it's okay if you realise there's too big a gap in worldview and values between you two and decide to breakup, but no need to be so fucking harsh about it, holy shit.

>>22285090
just grope your own :^)
But if you want an actual answer, you just found a problem that you need to fix. Women can smell desperation on you a mile away, maybe work on watching porn less and breaking the grip that lust has over you.

>>22285097
I am sociable and I hate porn, what people can smell on me is that I don't have anything resembling a stable career
I don't even want sex or I would've gone with a hooker or went on Tinder, I want just one ass

>>22284987
You sound like a gay faggot unironically
King of the gays actually

>>22285108
Indeed. Was I raped is weird question. And I say this as a disco/house cow bell knowing old fag.

>>22285096
>but guilt-tripping someone because they tested your boundries is just cruel.
No its not, its breaks trust in the relationship. Someone who will constantly try to break boundaries on firmly held beliefs aren't thinking about you, they are thinking about themselves and how much they dislike the boundaries you have. Its ultimately a selfish act that they feel like they can enforce on you because you are attracted to her, she knows it, and she is leveraging it against you to fulfill her own desires over yours.
>Sex is one of the ways many people express their affection
We call those people whores, and even then, yes, you are correct. Sex is one of the most intimate and vulnderable things you can do with a person and should be saved between two married couples, not some sort of temporary arrangement where we both "like" each other and are together to "see how it goes". But voluntarily just having sex with anyone conflicts with the first part of your statement about having standars and going slow. Boundaries are meant to be respected, espeically by the person you are dating if you want any sembelance of a healthy and functional relationship.
> imagine denying someone that possibility, and then also condemning them for having a different love language.
>The weird hedonist academic language comes out
I don't have too, I did and I'll do it again too, she got what she deserved. If the genders were reversed this actually would be grounds for sexual harassment in many cases, even between two people dating.
>Seriously, having a different language is one thing, and at such a point it's okay if you realise there's too big a gap in worldview and values between you two and decide to breakup, but no need to be so fucking harsh about it, holy shit.
Again, she was told multiple times when we were friends what my values were, she was reminded and told multiple times again and the reasoning behind it. Did she heed my word? No, she just heard that it was a "No", didn't give a shit about my reasons and why it was important to me and then tried to trample that by asking again. This isn't hard to understand, this isn't rocket science, it was dead obvious that she did not care for me as a person at all. She only cared about filling her own desires and most likely how I looked (I wouldn't define myself as a chad, I'm average looking but athletic, in part of America where most people are chonkers, and I'm "fancy" because I'm a dual citizen to a European country considered "exotic and fancy" by American standards.) and what I did for her.
At the risk of sound like a woman, I chose God and myself over her and will continue to do so until I find someone worthy, which is most likely, never. Dating is trash anyway, all she did while we dated was nag at me and complain at me over shit that really didn't matter, I would always hear her out but it became apparent that she was just doing it to try to regulate my behavior into something she found more agreeable.

>>22285123
you're a faggot

>>22285146
I accept your defeat!

>>22285123
There's only so much I can argue with, based on what little context I have, so I'd like to point out one thing. Respect for one's values goes a long way in showing devotion, and so boundries are very much to be respected. However, dating someone is ALL ABOUT figuring out both these values and boundries, and so a conflict of interests is very much to be expected, which is why your stance is ridiculous. Literally for fucks sake, how do you expect to find a lifelong partner, if you're not willing to explore associated vulnerabilities? A saying old as time itself goes, that to love someone, is to give them means of hurting you most.

It's fine if either of the two realises on the way that you're incompatible, so you're free whenever you will to, just don't demonize someone because they didn't know better, or simply because their philosophy differs from your own.

>>22285161
That was some other anon, exercising their will to express their distate for you. Also we're not in a competition, so get your shit together, if you want to ever have a genuine conversation with someone.

>>22280766
I was also raised mormon. Did the whole thing. I went on a mission at 18, oldest of lots of kids, went to BYU, and everything broke down 5 years ago. Went through all the stages of grief. Felt like recovering from an abusive relationship.

IDK where you're at in your journey, but I feel like I've ended up in a good equilibrium and am sending good vibes your way that you can as well.

For some unsolicited advice I would've given my younger self...

Zen, stoicism, jungian psychology, and contemplative practices - even christian ones- are some good starting points to find spiritual energy if you are hungry for more than materialistic nihilism. But concepts and abstractions don't matter as much as daily practices for good living. It's easy to treat concepts as cope, though. Let go of things that don't serve you. Commit to daily practices that nourish your body, mind, and spirit. Find a community of people who uplift you, in person or even online. Try to leave this planet better than you found it. Including yourself. True happiness is only found by forgetting yourself.

>>22283217
>end up in a state of immortal suffering.
This is also not Catholic Hell.
>there exists an eternal hell?
Not really. Time doesn't exist in hell because hell is nonexistence. Suffering also cannot exist in hell because there would have to be something there to suffer.
And choice is supreme in Catholicism. So I suspect you're not Catholic because you seem to have learnt about hell from some more fanciful Protestants. I don't know which Protestant hell you're describing, but it's definitely not the Catholic one.

women hate to hear this but it's face > tit's > ass

>>22280766
Or it could've turned out to be a huge and messy mistake, which instead would haunt your entire life. Not to say oblivion is bliss, but I wouldn't trust those, who resort to secrecy in circumistances, which do not require such measures. Nevermind symbolism as drastic as slit throats, torn hearts and guts on the outside.

>>22285228
Very much true. What about men though?

>Stay quiet
>People dislike me
>Say something
>People dislike me

>>22285228
plebeian opinion. ass > tits

I'm reading Aeschylus at the moment, but it's the first time I've read a greek play (or any play I think.) Is there an interpretation of the formatting? Does the right justified first line have a meaning?

>>22285252
Standard to a lot of plays. Allows the next part to read the last line of the first part as the lead in to their line. Generally you have to memorize other people's lines to know when your cue is.

>>22285245
I like what you just said.
Save your words for those, who likewise value them!

I hate that thing that actors do when they rapidly look from eye to eye during dialogue with another actor. Stop flicking your eyes around its fucking weird.

>>22285252
I'm not going to learn ancient greek to read the greeks, so what translation are you reading, is it a good one?

>>22285322
It's the Flannerly translation

>>22285265
Thanks, looking at it again, that makes a lot of sense.

>>22285322
>>22285330
It's the Robert Fagles Penguin Classics.

>>22280766
I wish you well anon. God understands you, try your best to do good in this world. And don't forget you have an animal side. If you are ever overwhelmed with the world, spiritual matters, the future etc. Then take the time to set your animal side at peace, refresh yourself and live simply like a child, attracted to things that interest you, exercise, have some fun. Take a hot bath. Then you will be better able to do anything and everything.

>>22285369
>>22285322
And yeah so far it seems pretty good. I looked up the best translations, and this one seemed to be recommended and was pretty cheap.
The introduction is a good analysis of the themes and concepts of the plays. I'm just loosely following the St Johns reading list so my foray into the greeks has been Herodotus, Homer, and now Aeschylus. (I did also start with the audiobooks of Stephen Frys greek trilogy, which I think was actually a decent primer for the overall general history)

And then there, through extant operational salient

47 Brigade's sacrificial breaching maneuver, failed


We put a lot of hate down range. The tubes fired until their steel was molten and my ears bled

We fired for two hours uninterrupted before their counter-battery caught up with us

and our little lives were bookended by one hundred and fifty two millimeters

My brother is a neet and I worry it’s going to be permanent at this point. I’m a bit older than him and it’s really sunk in for me that while change is possible it’s HARD, especially as the years and years of bad lifestyle pile up. To be honest I don’t know if I would be able to recover from my brother’s situation if it were me.

>>22285444
How old is that nigga?

>>22285239
Probably face > height > muscle.
I think both sexes are primarily attracted to face long term while the other stuff skew you toward short term sex.

ie. Girls with big tits or asses make me immediately horny but nearly ever girl I've dated or wanted to date had a pretty face. From my own anecdotal evidence and surveying couples outside I'm pretty sure everyone looksmatches according to face foremost with the only asymmetry being the guy has to be the same height or slightly taller and the girl has to be skinny.

Do you think fat people are always dumb and incapable?

>>22285597
G. K . Chesterton, Balzac, Thomas Aquinas were fat as hell.

I'm not normally an "I want a gf" poster but I want a black gf.

Choosing the right education and career and running in the right circles are the keys to success. I knew that when I was younger, but I didn’t know which education, which career, and which circles were right. I do now. I just wish I knew when I was younger.

whats going to happen to us?

>>22285682
What do you mean nigga?

>>22285628
Dont do it. Black gfs are a wild ride but they will destroy you

>>22285684
where did we come from? where are we going? its like were all racing eachother towards a red light. where do we go from here? im thinking about doing a salsa class. i like latinas but i love jewish girls. do you feel that it might be over? the dream

life as a dream. life as a worm. maybe as a frog

>>22285716
> i like latinas but i love jewish girls.
> im thinking about doing a salsa class
Don't, you'll massively regret it

>>22285728
whys that? throw another regret on the pile fuck it. im trying to say though, is that all it was supposed to fucking be? was that it? was that life? is it over? seriously though why shouldnt i take a salsa class? its either that or suicide, or worse, starting a record collection, and salsa seems the least obscene option

>>22285758
this nigga speaking like a houellebecq character
Go take a salsa lesson, make memories even if they end up being humiliating or cringe

>>22285758
It's for girlies
Everyone is going to think you're gay
If you're going to take salsa lessons at least larp as gay

>>22280366
Beautiful image. Of the kind that wakes you up on the purer level. Thank you for sharing, fren.

>>22285775
thats the problem. humanity is inherently humiliating and cringe. its funny you mention houellebecq i reread the elementary particles the other week on beach vacation and was drunk 24/7. whats the deal with the beach? the mountains i understand but the beach, you look at it for a second, there it is, thats it. why do people insist on staring at the horizon? sentimental retards if you ask me. i thought the whole time about throwing myself off of the bridge over the intracoastal waterway but like i said before, too narcissistic, too dramatic. memories, lmfao.
>>22285782
im gay but not enough to fit into the lgbt scene so im practically asexual, its unfortunate but so is everything

>>22285826
> im gay but not enough to fit into the lgbt scene so im practically asexual,
Didn't you just say you can't decide between Latina girls and Jewesses? Now if you're going to take salsa classes... you're doing that to get girls right? So you larp as gay so they accept you into their circle. Then you try to date one of them.

I want to die

blablulbuelbualbuoeanobnasd

/lit/ is not a slow board

>>22285841
ive larped all my life, i dont want to larp i want something real. i want honesty, i want someone to talk about how inane it all is, even this interaction. human interaction can be reduced to data now. its all fucked. someone somewhere down the line made a mistake. maybe it was god. kafka says were the product of god having a bad day and i would agree. there is no reason to it, were all mad.
>>22285877
suicide doesnt solve anything, you already suffered and if you really were hopeless, you would just live because death doesnt offer hope. only failed, weak optimists kill themselves, etc.

I want the world to burn

I lost my dog yesterday.

>>22285826
I'm reading elementary particles right now. Thought it was shit until about halfway through. Will finish it probably today or tomorrow if I don't decide to binge some Netflix show instead.

>>22285891
it is either the rope or living a good life
and right now i'm not living a good life

>>22285891
Then don't take girls from a salsa class lol your best shot is going to a club and showing off your salsa moves is that your attempt at getting something "real"?
Get a grip

>>22285895
i'm sure you'll find it

>>22285898
its a special story. most think it hateful, but it comes across to me as incredibly hopeful, in a twisted sense. obviously very pornographic and such but hey
>>22285902
what's the good life?
>>22285906
your retarted stop replying to me

New thread
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>>22284169
I do get the sentiment anon. It can be a little maddening
But it's kind of pointless to seethe about it. You cannot stop people from being themselves. So at least in my opinion its best to keep the rage they create in you at a minimum.
I myself get heavily peeved when people comment on works of fiction (especially if it's a cartoon) like it's real or the characters are real people.

>>22285912
I was trying to help
You're the retarded one lol trying to find real partners by going to techno clubs
No wonder you will be unhappy and the fact that you don't have the energy to defend your words shows hoe much masculinity you lack no wonder you have no gf, stupid idiot

>>22285908
Not what I meant

>>22280370
I broke up with my gf a few days ago, I'm convinced love is a meme

>>22282986
But where are those good old-fashioned values on which we used to rely?

>>22285173
>However, dating someone is ALL ABOUT figuring out both these values and boundries, and so a conflict of interests is very much to be expected, which is why your stance is ridiculous.
>its ridiculous to date people who have the same values as you.
Well I guess the majority of the world is ridiculous too, then. Trust someone on /lit/ to take something that is very commonsense and then say "its impossible to do in the real world." . Chances are you live in a Western country, and if you do, Congrats, you actually don't live in the real world either. You live in some weird fake reality where everyone is a unique and special snowflake. However, in the rest of the world (aka the real world), people who have the exact same value systems marry every single day. Yet to you its this weird anathama that is next to utopian, give me a break.
>Literally for fucks sake, how do you expect to find a lifelong partner
I'm not a woman, I don't need to reproduce to affirm my gender, man have no biological compulsion to have kids only to have sex, so I can take them or leave them. Women on the other hand, do have a biological compulsion to reproduce.
>if you're not willing to explore associated vulnerabilities? A saying old as time itself goes, that to love someone, is to give them means of hurting you most.
It really shows how simps basically run society when I don't the stupid cunt that it was a hardline boundary for me, it wasn't expect, she got what she deserves, yet I'm the bad person for respecting myself. She knew what she was getting into and chose to play a stupid game and she won a stupid prize.
>just don't demonize someone because they didn't know better, or simply because their philosophy differs from your own.
>respect the wahman, even if she doesn't respect you.
I can't believe you wrote this and didn't feel any sort of disgust afterwards. Again, she knew, I told her because I knew it would create friction in the future if I didn't and I was the one being respectful to her. Did she reciprocate? No, she is a piece of shit who does not respect other people and so, in turn, she doesn't get any from me. Btw, I bet she is saying the same thing about me right now because we all know when relationships break up its always the man's fault or the mad that they were dating was "toxic and bad" even if he was the one that broke up with her. Welcome to equality ladies, get use to it.
>That was some other anon
You don't know that, could have been the same one
>exercising their will to express their distate for you.
Yes, I'm aware it was an insult. I didn't need the annotation for it, hence the throwaway reply.
>Also we're not in a competition, so get your shit together, if you want to ever have a genuine conversation with someone.
I have no idea where this schizo statement came from or wtf this is suppose to mean, but something tells me I'm more well put together and socially aware than you are, my friend.