/lit/ - Literature

When left to my own devices, all I do is drink and masturbate

My ass is a swamp.

I appreciate an old broad with pigtails.

I drank a large vanilla milkshake from McDick'z and promptly took a huge, watery shit.

Kikes really are assholes. I've been getting really into comparative religion (I'm kind of loose Catholic myself) and I've been asking all these questions on subreddits. Muslims are bros, they'll give you thoughtful answers, tell you they pray that Allah will bring me peace and open my mind etc. Any Christian group will do this too, Hindues are the same.
But the kikes alone, seriously, them only, they hate answering questions, they think you're stupid, they mock you and downboot and I get no traction. And I'm asking really specific and technical things, but they're just assholes. Fuck Jews man they're such a nasty people.

>>22244972
It's your own fault for perusing reddit aka kike-central, you fucking guy. You have nobody to blame but yourself.

>>22244891
tomorrow is three months sober. feeling good about it, but also really, really want a six-pack of cold, bottled Guinness you know? a glass of Knob Creek whiskey would be nice as well

>>22244891
I feel like it is unmanly to love more than one woman. A man should give his entire spirit in loving a single woman during his lifetime and then renounce love entirely. There is nothing more disgraceful than trying to resurrect a dying flame instead of letting it burn out spectacularly on the heights of passion.

>>22244985
I thought it might be different for religious subreddits, I know the catholic one is actually faithfully catholic, the users are just pedantic autists with millennial humour, and the muslim ones seem to be good too.
But yeah, I think I'll just look for some good separate forums for each one from now on.

I took a huge shit really not compatible with human life, pray for me anons as I don't think I have much time left

>>22244997
Small dick energy. I love all my baby mommas equally and those hoes worship my dick.

>>22244997
I must disagree. Each love is a different flame, while one is lit let it burn with unmatched intensity. When one dies, whether in a spectacular finale or dreary conclusion, grieve it's loss. But never let yourself waste away worshipping ashes. Light a new fire, let it burn bright, and bask in it's warmth until the end.

Check out this clip from a PBS doc about Fallujah @22:00
https://youtu.be/9qfratsEO_k?t=1315
God damn does that get my blood pumping.
>He's done.

I studied existentialism so hard I connected it with buddhism. I understood the condition of man. I saw beyond time. I lost my individuality so hard I could learn proto-indo-european from my ancestors. I finally understood Heidegger, not his philosophy, but the whole man. I had to hide from the people not to spread my wisdom on the mountain that was growing on an eagle high in the sky. I wrote a book, but the moment I remembered time it fell apart and whithered away, so my book cannot be read without time. I completely abandoned the concept of forms whatsoever and now I cannot be thought about. I couldn't think about myself so I had to ask the greek gods, but they were forms too. I managed to exist only through my will.

>>22244891
Anyone have any good podcast recommendations? , Open to philosophy, history, religion, really any intellectual topic.
I've run dry. Have a ton of history podcasts but I've grown bored of them.
Recently been listening to HermitX, which is just okay but there's not that many episodes.

>>22244897
Reminds me of that experiment they did with the rat colony.
Can't remember what it's called but once the colony got big enough there were always some isolated rats who would display antisocial, addictive, and repetitive behavior.
These rats would just sit apart from the rest spending their time drinking sugar water compulsively.Hopefully we're a little better than rats

>>22245255
Listen to Ricky Gervais podcast and then end yourself.

I don't think anyone truly comprehends my genius. By the time they do I will be dead. I hope there is a comfy afterlife where I can chortle from.

>>22245265
Why the hostility?

>>22245099
I thought of compulsive serial monogamy.
Something a traumatized person would try to fill his holes with. Not in a derogatory sense, we all probably indulge in some acts like these.
But to accept it as natural is a disgrace to human potential.
To true authentic self expression and love that never dies.

>>22245167
What about abandoning recognition and embracing perpetual feeling perception with no interpretation.

>>22245255
Do you think you might've reached the limit of consumed rationalities and it's time to actually apply yourself in practice, discovery, living the studied rather then consuming it?
It is regurgitation of familiar topics, their point was to interest you enough so that you'd become curious enough to apply yourself to these things.

I have the method, supplies, and location for my suicide all figured out. I'm at the point where I don't even really care what it does to my parents. I was never much of their son to begin with. My body is ready.

Recently I've become addicted to nic vape.

>>22245354
I like to listen to podcasts while I'm on patrol at my job or on the go in the car.
I don't treat it seriously. It's just something to put on in the background.
Not sure how I would reach a limit with it anymore than you can reach a limit reading books.

I think about it sometimes you know, what it would be like if I just wasn't around anymore. I think the world would genuinely be a happier place without me. Why was I even brought into this world? To just cause destruction and hurt others? That's all I've ever done, even if I didn't mean it. Alright, sometimes I did mean it. That's my point exactly: It's not right, and it's not fair to all the people that have ever had to work with me. I've tried to rethink this whole thing though too, that it's all just thought patterns, that I'm just in a rut, I'm not thinking straight, I'm not looking at this the right away. But this is just how I think, this is my default.

And what's my alternative? To take pills until the thinking gets numb, and I can't even really be myself anymore? Then what's the point of me being here, if I am not actually there. It all seems like so much work, why not just cut the middle man, see? Oh, what am I saying. I'm a coward too, I won't do anything about it. Mope, mope, mope, whine, whine, whine. What a downer, you don't even have it that bad. You're spoiled is what you are. Yes, that I am.

What kind of life do you even lead, anon, one that doesn't have any real challenges, I'd wager. Not a war, not a famine, not a plague (COVID doesn't count). If you were anywhere else, you would be fighting tooth and nail for what you already have right now, and here you are, oh woe is me, I am... le sad!

And yet, this is my life, this is who I am, until it all just kind of goes away on its own. Perhaps I've done a great wrong in a previous life, that must be it! I can't think of no other reason why things are the way they are, why I am the way I am. This is it, basically, by my luck I'll probably live quite a long time, without ever truly living for one second.

>>22244990
Damn, good for you anon. I've been fucking around with the bottle all year. It's tough. Stay strong for us sinners.

"take your meds" is BTFO by "take your boosters". It's over for normies.

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>>22245552
who cares nerd

I'd like to read a novel set in Hollywood for the summer. anything about the bright side and the dark side of it all. Mel Gibson should have written one by now.

>>22244891
Probably one of Pearl Jam’s only good songs. Far from the best Seattle grunge band.

>>22245638
give me a better one pls plus songtitle

>>22245553
I do, faggot.

I want a gf, I want love

>>22245763
Sorry to say it, pal, but that's womanly thought. All GFs just want to be loved, and your role as a man is to be the lover not the lovee.

I am convinced that people will hate me at once if I speak my feelings, so I keep them swallowed down til they become so acid as to guarantee that prediction. My outer shell is prickly, made of pointlessly nasty passivity, politeness, and a good deal of plain stupidity. I am conspicuously incapable of speaking a simple coherent sentence - for as long as I can remember people have been asking me to repeat myself and then giving up. I suspect I don't understand how communication works on some fundamental level and am simply pouring out a poor selection of the outer part of my innards in some grotesquery exhibition somewhat resembling public urination. I latch onto the first signs of disgust from those around me and berate myself for them on my restroom break, on the bus, at home, and all the more for how infantile it is. I think nonetheless I do so rightly. Then once in awhile, maybe once in a year, I burst. Maybe next time I'll hurt myself in some pathetic display invoking a more permanent sedimentation of that familiar cocktail of fear, pity, and disgust. That might be nice, even, since I am at least sure I couldn't hurt others, and earnestly believe that I deserve the alarm of real, deep, physical pain, or something more extreme. More probably though I will just go on like this, everyone recognizing loathsome I am but not the extent. I am pretty sure I am some kind of narcissist.

trans women are men

In honor of a based anon who posted in one of these threads about a female co-worker who refused to high-five him after the completion of a group project, and who got dogpiled by the sub-25 peacocks this board's infested with, I will now post a list of my most painful rejections for your reading pleasure. In order of least painful to more:

- used to work security, got trained at a new site by an attractive female officer along with a number of other guys. I find out a week later she gave everyone her number "just in case" they needed more "assistance." Naturally, I had no idea she did this.

- met my girlfriend's friends who all shit talked me behind my back and promptly convinced her to dump me. Which she did.

- girl promised me sex if I'd drive her to a cocaine play. I did. She went inside and didn't come out all night. Blamed it on the "cops" after, kek.

- got asked out by a waitress after I'd given up on love. I decided to give her a shot. At the end of the night, she texted me "I wish I could have kissed you :)". I thought I was finally turning a corner. She ghosted me the next day kek

More to come later.

- got told by a good friend at the time that I'll never attract a woman by myself

- got told by an adult that he could never see me attracting a woman

- used to hang out at the mall with my high school friends. Sometimes we'd meet girls from our class. They'd get hugs and kisses and I got a handshake, kek. Friends would dog on me for it

More later.

>>22245779
>At the end of the night, she texted me "I wish I could have kissed you :)".
How is this a rejection?

>>22245811
Read the next line

>>22245768
You and I. We are brothers. I love you

>>22244972
Yep pretty much ditto and amen

>>22245771
Wonderful! I invite them all to combat sports and duels!

>>22245607
Try The Day of the Locust by Nathanael West. It focuses on the dark side of Hollywood, as you can probably infer from the title. The description is very colourful and vivid throughout and there is a gruesome chapter about a cockfight towards the end which is worth sticking around for.

I’ve not turned out to be the person I want to be and it’s probably too late to fix it.

>>22245656
Melvins - Boris

Today is the first day of the rest of ny life

There are people that exist or have lived that have fantasized about you sexually and romantically.
Full fantasies realized exclusively in the minds of people that you have parted ways with.
You will never see them again and they will eventually forget you, but for a moment deep sensual passions for you existed in their minds.
I was once held back by a teacher in the third grade to discuss something. It was before lunch so I knew it was important. A girl had been teased about "having sex" with me and I had become entangled with the joke. The girl had to be scolded in front of me. This private trial left a psychological impression on me.
Years later I copied off her paper and she was accused of cheating. She bawled coming from her meeting with the teacher and there was nothing I could do to help her because I was the one responsible and my academic integrity was at stake. I was so young.
Some people that you can't remember think about you every day.

My university emailed me saying orientation starts at 6am. I get here and they told me it actually starts at 7am. What the fuck. I have a killer hangover andthat extra hour of sleep would been a life saver

>>22245792
I was told by an ex classmate that I’d only get a woman if she was timid and self hating

>>22245965
I know for a fact that I shattered a girls heart into a million pieces in middle school. Then another girl had a massivr crush on me in high school. She even called me a year after graduating.

Listening to Sextape by Deftones made me feel powerful and weak at the same time.

>>22245987
Haven’t been a fan since the 90s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbEMRy-c71U

>>22244897
Same. I suppose it's the loneliness and laziness which stems from depression which stems from life events... Which stems from society... Which stems from... Stems from...

I'm out of my head. I wanna go out of my head

I don't wanna buy a mubi subscription, but I want to HAVE one. I wish I had someone that could share a mubi account with me. Dangit.

>>22244990
Learn some sort of artistic skill like playing guitar or whatever. I used to be addicted to heroin and learned that whenever I was feeling something heavy and had to cope, I'd smoke some (I never got far enough to go IV). Then I learned to draw and whenever I felt like shit I doodled for hours. I think it's a coping method called "sublimation", look it up. Getting addicted to something is a bad coping method, whereas sublimation feels similar and is actually good for you.

>>22245994
I'm not a fan either but My Own Summer is bomb

Then I was curious about Sextape...

I wish I never listened to it because when I do I was I addicted to the feeling of being loved and wanted. I just can't stop. I even listened to it during lab work

It's the feeling of togetherness, reassurance, the feeling that you enjoy each other's company, with nothing hidden, all of you bare to her, and her to you.

It's an addiction that made me strong enough to pursue love but at the same time too weak to love.

>>22246003
>arthouse cinema gave me three months free mubi trial
>still saving it for when they have something I want I can't get elsewhere
There's probably something similar as a package deal near you if you want to cheap out.

>>22246001
Yeah I'm the same. It's hard for me to change now since laying around naked an drunk alone is the only way I ever feel natural. I've been making an effort to be around people more because I know it's healthy, physically and psychologically, keeping me sober and active, but I always feel out of place and weird. I'm only comfortable alone.

Back in university for the first time since 2018. I'm literally having movie tier flashbacks. Fucking weird man.

My unviersity is 2/3rds women. Surely I can get a gf with those numbers

I wish could be 20 again and know how important is to know where you want to be in life also how important it is to establish a career in your 20s that gets you there. You’re actually better off starting college at 28 and staying until you get the highest degree than having a degree and settling for a shitty job at 28.

You wouldn't follow it if it didn't appeal to your aesthetics

Can't find work in my field after graduating college. Majored Environmental Science and minored Chemistry. I know it's stupid and that I shouldn't define myself by my work, but being incapable of finding employment has me feeling mildly useless. That coupled with the on and off depressive episodes has me feeling a bit suicidal. Obviously the answer is to keep on applying and all that but it feels like life is slipping away from me as I age (30 now) and the possibilities are erasing before me.

I dunno. It's like deep down I know the answers to my own problems, but I'm lacking action. If anyone here has any advice or book recs to help me out of this I'd really appreciate it.

>>22246272
>I wish could be 20 again and know how important is to know where you want to be in life
Pretty much no 20yo knows that

>>22246364
Some do. Some are just lucky and just end up on a track that lends itself well to where they end up wanting to go. I’d be happy to be in either of those camps. Failing that, I just wish I had a life worth remarking on. Modern life is so miserably boring. It’s sort of nuts that I went along with it.

>>22246350
Just contribute to the pyramid scheme and become a professor

I think I'm making positive movement towards leaving this nihilistic trap (my third or fourth time)
I am reading thr Courage To Be by Tillich and it's breaking down some shit for me. It's about courage, retard, I tell myself now.
This has also led me down a path of other books which are all quite helpful.

Are there any books that cover modern history and geopolitics similar to how Adam Curtis does in the 'can't get you out of my head' series?

>>22246454
Most pop history/geopolitics books do it to some extent. Popular finance books are always a wild ride.

>>22246350
I think natural science fields are ultra-competitive, almost as competitive as humanities fields. The whole lumping Science in with Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics to form STEM and imply they’re all equally employable is bullshit. Have you considered a graduate program? I am not a scientist but my colleague was in another life. She told me once that she was totally unable to find work until she got a master’s degree from an R1.

>>22246350
>>22246497
Her undergraduate was material science for the record. I’m not entirely sure what she did her master’s in but I think the same.

I thought about it though. I think what you should do is figure out what you want to do with your life. 30 is a pretty good age to set out on a serious career actually. Not everything is equally possible. I think it’s really just a matter of deciding what you want to do and getting after it seriously. I think that’s true whether it ends up being carpentry, science, or poetry.

>>22246494
I need a name. It has to be good.

I want to study in the UK but I don’t want to study in London. I’ve spent my entire life in the American countryside and I want to be able to investigate the British countryside.

>>22246350
You knew what you were getting into and probably did not heed warnings. I'd recommend looking up what people with your degree ended up as on LinkedIn and, from there, building your own road to employment.

t. ex bio graduate working in pharma now (not designing vaccines or anything I set out to do with a bio degree. selling médical devices instead)

I'm incompatible with humans. I'm like a Marvel character.

I think a lot of us late millennials are in the unfortunate position of aging into mature adulthood and finding our path(s) only to realize that you had to do that in young adulthood to actually walk it.

>>22246552
The last Adam Curtis film I watched was Hypernormalization, and I've seen most of them up until that one.
It's going to be hard to find something similar because of the use of music and archival footage and because he is a uniquely talented filmmaker.

The problem with what you are asking for is that you could just as easily end up reading Gun Germs And Steel, but it's not what your looking for.
If you want something like Adam Curtis, make sure you've seen all the old ones.

Death

>>22246603
>>22246350
It’s probably a good idea to send those people emails. You’ve got to find people in the jobs you want and send them emails. Even better if they went to your program and university.

>>22246516
>>22246497
It's looking like either I go back for a masters or find a different path. You're right that it's a fine age if I were to decide on something and to fully commit myself, but there are many paths to choose and the indecision is what cripples.

>>22246388
I've thought about it, though the idea that I'd be working in education selling something that I myself believe to be useless, and by extension that my professors have already done the same to me with a similar awareness, is disgusting.

>>22246603
I'll try this. I've been networking already with little success, the common answer seems to be that they just got in early enough. Too many candidates now. Might try asking what could help me stand out.

>>22246664
I've done a bit of this but I'll keep trying.


Thank you all.

I read Ullyses in Dublin on Bloomsday

>>22244972
>Anon finally figures out that kikes are, well, kikes
They did open your mind in a sense

>>22246552
Dr Strangelove's Game by Stathern
Quinine by Rocco
They both cover a couple centuries where listening to a couple of dumb guys ideas had unintended consequences good and bad

>>22244972
Have you tried asking real life Jews instead of ones on Reddit? Everyone on the internet is a loser and the digital environment selects for bitterness and dysfunction, and more often than not gives you an extremely distorted image of reality.
I would try visiting your neighborhood synagogue and asking them your questions after conspicuously putting a $50 offering in the congregation shekel jar.

>>22244891
fastest IQ test is: tea or coffee?
Coffee is and will always be a pleb drink.

>>22246821
>imagine someone who has to make that choice
I'm a gigamaximalist and drink both.

>>22246823
middle bell curve. lower end is energy drink enjoyers, middle is coffee and drinkmixxers and high is black tea.

>>22246676
I think you’ve got determine what you really want and then just commit to it for a while. Subordinate everything to that. And if you don’t fear poverty, there’s nothing at all stopping you.

>>22246350
Hey man, I also studied Environmental Science. What jobs are you applying for? Here in the Midwest, as a recent graduate you'd be looking for lab tech or environmental technician jobs (things like chem spraying, invasive management, etc). If you want anything good, like an environmental scientist gig, you need good connections and/or a masters. I'm the same age as you, with a bit more experience, and have recently been offered jobs doing pesticide spraying and lab work at a start up. Both $30/h.

You might need to change your mindset on how to advance at this point. I know I originally saw myself as some sort of outdoorsy academic, but if you accept that you won't get that dream gig you actually have a lot of options. If you just want to sit in a lab all day, you'll have to climb the ranks as a lab rat.

I would like to become a harder worker, but I almost don’t even know how. I have a job, but it’s easy and I frankly just don’t even care about it. Working hard on something dumb isn’t noble. It’s just dumb. I also worry that I’m too young to condition myself into this sort of personality.

One-handed deadlifts. Zercher squats. Jefferson curls. Trap bar overhead presses. Handstand pushups. Ring dips. Calf raises on stairs with a dip belt. Weighted stretches. Power shrugs. Atlas stone deadlifts. Block-grip farmer's carries. Finger pullups. Strict muscleups. Deficit deadlifts. Dumbbell crossover shrugs. Ring pushups. Sled drags. Pinch grips. Zercher cleans.

I read these stories of great men and the remarkable events that changed them and I think “I want that” but of course, what made them great is that they didn’t have to force it or even want it. It was just in the cards from the start and that became clear early on.

I don't think negotiating is working so I'm just going to start issuing demands. Loudly. And often.

>>22245552
Thank you!

Fucking lazy OP

>>22245553
Who cares? Well who cares about you? kys

>>22244943
She is kinda cute

What would you do to be just five years younger knowing everything you know now?

>>22247011
>2018 was the year to change everything!
kek ok

>>22244943
>O_O;<

>slinks away

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OEvDqRr898

I may have the ability to write and draw one of the most amazing hentais ever, but I'm pretty sure releasing it would sign my arrival to hell. Knowing the path to the ultimate coom and its ultimate price. What a conundrum.

I can't find a single thing about this online. I get my fair share of female attention, but I don't feel attractive at all.

I feel like shit. I wish I could watch myself with their eyes. What the hell do they see in me. I swear their eyes are haunting me. They all look at my face the same way.

Book for this feeeel. Why can't I just be happy about this and enjoy it.

I have realized one thing: I have realized that in my current state, which is much different than the past me, I do not respond positively after achieving success of any magnitude in any sort of labor, be it completing a simple task, a hard task, women, material success, or gaining knowledge. Nothing at all.
This thing seemed positive to me for a while because it freed me from the feeling of demanding validation from myself or others upon completing seemingly menial tasks from various kinds of people. But it sure as hell came with another problem. The moment you stop desiring is a point of stagnation. There is no going forward, as even labor to help humanity or harm society stems from desires and kind of re-penetrates itself into desire too, creating a self-feeding loop.
When you are out of this loop, you stop desiring any sort of material success or stimuli and simply crave enough time to complete your absolute dissociation. But I can also not ignore the expectations set upon me and some duties that I inherited the moment I was born. Sure, I can convince myself through a number of theoretical and mental theories about how I am not obliged to do any of them, but because my metamorphosis remains incomplete, it still seems wrong or taboo even to back off from my duties.
This unholy combination creates a seemingly irrational problem where I, in the material plane, simply cannot function. I gather enough self-discipline to engage in a struggle that can bring me great material wealth in the future but simply refuse to continue forward, as I know fully well that it won't benefit me much.
I NEED A SYSTEM. I need to go back and somehow convert myself into a barbarian who doesn't have a goal to create something but simply works on two fundamentals: keep walking and follow the framework.
The framework is basically going to be a set of arguments that will help me filter out choices in a situation where my dissociated self and barbarian self fight themselves to death, resulting in mere stagnation. Similar to a soldier who only gets commands but deep down has no idea where he's going to go, his goal changes every moment because it's simply not imagined yet, and every step of his waking life somehow contributes to this goal. Whatever he achieves at the end is declared his goal by him and the others or by him due to others.
BUT, I simply do not know how I will make this system, and honestly, the thing that scares me most is whether my barbarian self or dissociated self somehow tweaks this system in their favor. This would pollute the machine and its entire point, but I can't find a middle ground because time never stopped, and now I'm just an insect whose wings are developed enough to fly, but he willingly pulls his bulk of food with him for the sake of it.
I think I should try new drugs.

>>22247011
idk, you would have to tell me what I need to do with the specifics to let me decide if I would do this. Can't say I would murder a human, cause I don't know about which human we're talking about. It's too broad idea of a task to expect me accomplishing it, you know what I'm sayin'? Can't say I would eat 50 burgers and then you would task me with eating 51 burgers, I might eat them, I might not, I'm not sure, it depends on the conditions I would find myself in, the type of burgers we're talking about, if water is available, can I vomit them out and continue... I. Need. Specifics.

>>22247388
Maybe, just maybe, learning how to draw from life, and drawing self portraits, and maybe other people from life. This will definitely mess the way you view other people too, be warned. I recommend that you try a book named drawing with the right side of the brain.

>>22247011
Rape

>>22247444
to be honest, if I want to imagine how I look like, it's all black,

>>22247011
Have a proper skincare routine even if it's expensive as fuck. Stick with it.
Don't bother as much about what my girlfriend thinks : she'll leave in a few years regardless of what I do. Keep in touch with friends who have good intentions. Dump others. Keep socializing even when I don't feel like it. Be smart about social circles and make sure some of these never cross others.

Take my time and stop stressing so much. If I go to college again, make sure I'm having proper sleep. Doing basic neck exercises to fix the nerd neck early. And finally spending more time with my family.

I made a FOOL of myself on the first date. I knew I shouldn’t have had that cup of coffee, with how it affects me. Psychedelic even if it was landing on a full stomach, but I was empty and one pint of hard cider in. Sweating, jabbering nonsense a mile a minute, looking at my smartwatch to see if I was having a heart attack. We still took a two-station ride downtown together while I said something stupid about not liking theater because Kubrick and Lynch are so great, who needs theater after that. What an ASS, Jesus FUCK.

She hugged me goodbye, but I didn’t look back.

I went to the Ponds (formerly Goat Marsh) because my old time army pal had a day off work, and wanted to buy new glasses at this trendy place that just opened around the area somewhere. I hate the Ponds, wouldn’t piss on the people who live there if they were on fire. I made a point of taking my windbreaker when I left home in the afternoon, but the wind was still too cold. Short summer, I can already feel the autumn on its breath, the smell of rotten leaves. Hobos and FMoIs loitering around, bad boomer power ballads are playing from unseen speakers.

When rounded the corner from behind the station exit, I knew it would be bad. Lobster red, bloated, eyes looking through me. He had a flask of brandy in his Asterisk bag, and I guess a quarter of a gram of coke? Maybe more? I dunno. He offered me some, and thank God for my Herculean restraint, since I was all too aware of how fucked was I from that coffee still. We ducked into some empty pizza place, and he went into the bathroom to do to all by himself.

By the time we got to the optics shoppe, he was getting the FEAR, real bad. Couldn’t properly explain himself so ducked out outside pretending to answer a phone call. The hungry shop assistants swarmed me. Just looking (at your flat-ish chest and wide steppe face, cheekbones like honey-coated chisels), haha. I’m out and on the way to the bar I find out he palmed off his 1,2. y.o. son off on grandma, and had a 3-day coke bender at some badly organized music festival in the weeds. I say nothing. I don’t think we are cut out for this life. We have two Aperols in the bar. Tastes like cotton-candy flavored vomit. He has a B-52 shot and completely unravels, meekly asking our Zoomer art-hoe waitress (great service, she even found a charger for my phone) for a room temperature water. I polish it off with a glass of Chardonnay that tastes like dish soap.

I hug him hard at the station, giving him the Five Points of Fellowship. I make sure he feels it, because he seems to be on the verge of tears. I listen to Akira Yamaoka’s Forest on the way back on a loop.

The Millennial Dream

What would you do to start having an interesting life? It seems to me like if you’re a professional athlete, celebrity, successful artist, successful business owner, or a politician, your life is just boring by default.

>>22246821
>my beverage preference means I'm smart
Retard-tier thinking no matter what

>>22244891
My friend who took my virginity years ago as a teen and was fwb on/off is very possessive and protective of me even though we are nearly 30. As in she says things like how I'm hers, that she owns me, and acts like she has free reign to touch me or cuddle/kiss me as she pleases. She's also very weary of girls I dated and has only really approved of one but that didn't work out. So know she's trying to find someone for me she approves of

Lol why is she like this? It feels like she babies me. We haven't even hooked up in maybe 5 years yet she often likes to just snuggle up with me or kiss my face, but when I get horny over it she says no and that I'm just hers until she finds me a wife.

>>22247609
>free reign
Free rein
>very weary
Wary, weary means tired

I detest the rest of your troon fantasy post

>>22244997
Based

It was revealed to me how a square circle is possible. Yes, I am not lying! Behold, that if one had a square, a figure of four sides, and then replicate it but angled slightly, and then replicate it again angled further, and so on and so forth, you would eventually have a circle... from squares. A square circle. Don't believe me? Try it yourself.

Do with this knowledge what you will.

>>22247609
How does this happen to people? Why doesn't this happen to me?

I honestly don't understand why so many people think the rosetta stone should be returned to egypt
the egyptians didn't care about it for close to two centuries, westerners discovered it as a part of a fort, it super important as a part of western egyptology
the liberals and leftists clamouring for its return seem to think that blood and soil is right in this specific case

I want to do everything in the world and I feel like I'm losing my mind. I have over 6,000 ideas for media to create across every single medium in every single genre. There are thousands of books, TV shows, movies, games, albums, anime, comics, manga, etc. that I want to spend my time getting lost in. I have hundreds of cities or towns across the world listed in a little notebook, places I want to travel to over the course of my life. I want to try as many foods, talk to as many people, and learn about as much as I possibly can. Hell, a few months ago I was trying to teach myself German, Spanish, and Japanese at the same time as learning the piano and guitar.
It's not even FOMO, as far as I can tell. I don't want to do it fast, I just want to do as much as possible before I die. But I have no idea what to prioritize and I feel energized to the point I can't think straight every time I consider the sheer amount of experiences I want to have and things I want to learn. I don't know if this is some kind of early onset mental illness or if I just need to do something to think more clearly.
As of right now, the goal is to start small with the things I care the most about, and slowly build until I'm doing everything I want to do all at once. We'll see if that's the right route I guess.

>>22247701
Read The Failure by Papini

>>22247686
>Why doesn't this happen to me?
You'd have to get out of your bedroom.

Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

>>22247740
isn't this an objectivist monument?

Weird things, man. I am friends with those two muslim girls and I learned yesterday their boyfriends both barely know of my existence. We've been hanging out for months and I'm not attracted to them (they said they aren't either) but shit, I didn't expect to be at the center of a months-lasting lie. One boyfriend (the other isn't even aware I exist) thinks I'm just a classmate and that I've hanged out with them twice in the entire year. I thought they would tell them everything and now I feel bad as fuck.

Man I wouldn't like my girlfriend to lie to me like that even if she was hanging out with a gay guy. I'm not gay btw I just got out of a 5 years relationship and this is making this even worse. Women.

Maybe I would've been happier as a real nerd, instead of this pseudointellectual state. I go through the effort of comparing all the second-hand accounts on different subjects with their videos, esseys and articles, just to get a vague idea of what the original might be, when I could've just reached for the source material. I guess it's dyslexia, laziness, or both in the form of stupidity.

>>22247754
Maybe, but it looks like Atlas is going to the Cathedral, so Jesus can take the world's burden off his shoulders.

>>22247843
kek

>>22245339
It is not optimal, but nothing in life is. There is a certain beauty in undying love, I must admit, but somethings are beautiful because they pass. Is it really sensible to stubbornly cling to what could've of been, instead of seeking something tangible.

Damn, why did I spend so much time reading other books when I can just read Homer, The Bible, and occasional lyric poetry?

A coworker failed to lift a heavy object infront of an audience, then I came in and lifted it easily.

I keep trying to write a novel about an edgy protagonist who enslaves and kills his way through a fantasy world buy I can't stop laughing everytime I write.

>>22244972
Jews don't have an impulse to evangelize.

>>22247627
Incredibly based /lit/ anon. Very rare.

>>22248002
How about an impulse to be humans?

>>22247701
I’m also like this, but I alternate between wanting to do it all and wanting to do nothing.

>>22247609
It’s because she’s single and childless and nearing thirty so she wants to lock you down, but doesn’t want to be judged for it. If you approached her and asked her to date, she’d say yes and probably cry.

This Japanese girl keeps calling me "Master." That's not my name.

At what age do you think it’s no longer worth it to pursue a degree? I am in my thirties now and while I definitely don’t think I’m too old to go get a PhD, there’s also this sense of “don’t you have anything better to do”.

it is up to the artist to save a polarized society by using alchemy and creating art about the unity of opposites thus reshaping the collective unconscious to unity rather than polarization

One bad job after I graduated still bothers me. I still have a hang up about it like I’m a failure or something because of it.

Every moment Canadian populist-progressive-libertarian-nazi-communism grows more empowered.

Visit France or the USA and help the boarder situation.

Be alert to the subversion that happened.

Empower police and empower populist revolutionaries.

Many Europeans are visiting France just to go protect Paris. Many people are also helping build boarder walls in America.
Have agency.

Spread the word UwO
https://on.soundcloud.com/BLbE7QkYdkhoxNpq5

Also protect the soul of 4chan. It’s important for real information transfer and true news.
Every community is a communism.

Every victory requires love.

Paganism: Each girl is a god. Each love is a soul/god. The loveliest love rules all, as the only motive is love. All truest desires are mutual. Yin-yang etc.


Write the loveliest reality.
Every story is a soul.
The stories you write, write you.

All fates are intertwined.
All matters.

Love the strangest most abstract forces/magic.

Every utopia is peaceful good Nazism

This flag is perfect for western communism.

Populist communism.

Thrive the UCCC
United Community County Confederacy.

Regionalism has allowed Oregon to legalize all drugs.

Spread the word

Fanfiction is real writing and I'm tired of pretending that it isn't.

Create utmost transcendent utmost divine truest utopia.

Utmost soulful utopia

Biopunk divinity and utmost empowered regionalism.
Prosperity, peace, sanity.
The end of monotheism/foreign-fag-king-worship.

My type of woman is one of innocence untainted by life's harsh realities combined with a budding sense of self-discovery and rebellion against societal norms.

>>22248378
Are you me? The only difference between your ideal woman and mine is that I specifically like Filipina and Japanese hapas.

>>22248430
Yes, girls like BlueKatie.

I never understood those really gay internet millennial terms like "dad-dicked". My dad's dick is pretty small, although to be fair I have only ever seen it flaccid. He has unusually large balls though.

I remember a guy I went to school with used to say all the time that he had a small dick and made up for it by having large balls. I thought it was just a weird attempt at being boastful but maybe it's true that guys with small dicks have larger balls.

It's no good. Things must change.

>>22248441
Very nice.

I don't know why but it seems they are not only the most attractive women physically, but of course on a spiritual (of course) and mental level. They tend to have very interesting hobbies and interests most women don't have all the while being able to act very feminine. I really don't understand why most women can't be as interesting as the type of woman who is innocently feminine yet ambitious/has a sense of wonder for the world. I also don't see what most men see in the average woman other than access to pussy (which they later regret and learn to hate for one reason or another as time goes on, but don't leave because it's their one conduit to sex).

>>22244891
I fucking hate my arthoe mistress yet I still love her hot ass even though she cucks me with pussy ass basedboys qnd aborted my baby.

>>22247981
Look at you racking up all the sexy boy points

What about a "Dyson sphere" around the Earth, so it protects us from meteors, gives optimal sunshine, etc.? The inside would entirely consist of LEDs, so the megacorporations can play ads instead of showing the sky.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKCY1Ph7T0k

>>22248186
Western communists are baristas and cashiers, not farmers or tradesmen

>>22246821
I’d be a retard than a cuckold

>find twitter account of a woman with an onlyfans and satanic imagery tattooed all over her body complaining about situationships and blaming men not wanting to be in relationships with her.

I swear when I leave my twitter echo chamber and stumble upon some acquaintances 'likes', I'm immediately reminded how incredibly far I am away from their worldview. In general people's online activity reveals so much about their souls it's frightening. IRL there is this innate 'world-building' aspect to relationships where we imagine ourselves in each others world and that they are not so separate because socialization make it so the gaps are smaller in the moment. It's clear at the end of long friendships that the gaps were always irreconcilable and we were mostly compelled to be in each others company out of convenience or habit.

>>22246018
Right. Though I heard Head Up with Max Cavelera on vocals and went down the death thrash rabbit hole

I find very hard to believe there's people with bigger confidence problems than me. I'm basically non-functional at this point

>>22246727
close but not modern enough.

>>22244891
I'm an uncertain about everything and prone to self-doubt. It's built into my psyche at this point. If I were a bodybuilder I would still be as timid as a mouse.
Over the course of my working life, I've met many usually older men that are my polar opposite: always bragging, brash, and always willing to speak their mind. I'm deeply jealous of these people who can go through life rarely second-guessing themselves.
I wear my weakness on my sleeve and am incapable of conflicting with others.
My default attitude is one of placation because it's by far the easiest to just nod along and agree.
A few times this can be beneficial. Since I seem so slight no one ever picks on me as there's little point.
Still I've always wished I could approach life as though it didn't matter to me, boldly go wherever I want, but I feel naturally constrained by myself.
Though I've also noticed how much of this wavering anxiousness changes. Simple physical exercise makes me almost excessively self-confident. Likewise alcohol and coffee both give me a boost, where I would otherwise be a wet noodle (though both often only accentuate what's already there, so if I'm feeling anxious coffee will make that worse, but if I'm feeling good it's great).

>>22244972

you probably asked obviously pol tier bullshit with one layer of concealment. Or you asked something so stupid they had no way of approaching the question

>>22248489

I noticed you and recognize your humanity

>>22248785
I get the sense that others view me as harmless or as like a child. And they think I'm too dumb to be aware that they're viewing me that way.
My appearance and mannerisms--my shuffling gait, my oversized head, my bulging wide eyes, and long lanky limbs--makes others smile, the way someone smiles at kid acting retarded. A smile which seems to acknowledge that this person is a bit ridiculous or awkward in a way that's cute.
Not a smile of respect.
I hate that smile.

I've considered every technology so far, and the greatest one I've come across is sprinkles. I'm not ranking it the greatest based on taste, there's much better tasting food, but on pure invention.

>>22248804
People scare me in their uncertainty, their random predilections towards violence, the ease with which most men are willing to assert or impose themselves forcefully.
Placation is safety. To fade into the background and not draw any attention, to cease to exist in the eyes of others as a relevant social entity. Never to stare into a chimpanzee's eyes.
The insignificance of being a non-denominator ensures my safety, but at the cost of having a real existence.
The slightest possibility of threat frightens me. The entire arena of social life is a bloodsport, a competition for status. It is all extremely frightening to me.
Knowing how to cleverly put down or worsen the standing of those you dislike and to associate with those that help you or who share relevant similarities.
Mutual benefit hinges upon opposed animosities--a mutual benefit directed in opposition to those outside your group.
I don't want to play this game. I refuse to play this game. I will write long futile digressions on 4chan about the unfairness of being birthed into this stupid game.
And the game remains all the same, and I am still outside it. Wishing to take part, but knowing I am too afraid and clueless to ever dare.

>>22248799
Not really, I asked several questions at different times.
I asked if Judaism is for Jews and if, barring some new reformation groups, a gentile can not become a Jew; then what is the correct religion or way of life for a non Jew (because they also say Christianity and Islam are perversions and maybe even more idolatrous than paganism since we "pervert" the worship of the one true God).

The answer is we are supposed to be Noachides, all people are descendants of Noah and received the rainbow covenant, and were given the little known 7 Noachide laws. So we're supposed to follow that. The Jews/Hebrews were given a special and exclusive covenant through Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Moses. But despite me wording my question as sincerely as possible they weren't very eager to give an answer. And I sense a disingenuous streak as they profess we're all supposed to have this Noachide monotheism, yet in reality I suspect they find any gentile who pursues this as a little pathetic and what they really want is for non Jews to leave them alone, not ask questions, not engage in interfaith dialogue etc. They certainly do nothing to try and spread this religion (and it would be their duty to spread it, as they are supposed to be Gods chosen people who carry the true knowledge of God to the world).

I also asked if they have any post Biblical authoritative works. I mentioned the Talmud, but I already knew this isn't quite on the level of the "Old Testament", to use Christian terms, and it's more like an extensive record of individual Rabbis interpretations and debates. There are completely differing opinions within the Talmud, butt he work as a whole is held in very high esteem as it guides and informs the continuing discussion on how to live as a Jew and observe the Law.

The answer is no, there is no additional authoritative work besides the Bible. This one I think they did find offensive as the obvious conclusion is that their "age of prophecy" just so happened to end with the coming of Christ. The Christian understanding is that it's now the church that has the power to make authoritative texts and dogmas, which it did and continues to do. They find the idea of progressive revelation offensive, despite that being exactly what Jews were doing until Christ came along.

>>22248894

You seem like you love chasing your own tail. Buddhism is more your thing

>>22244891
Reading A Tale of Two Cities and found Sydney Carton to be literally me. What does this say about me

>>22244891
Reading through Genesis and I don't really get the significance of the story of Noah's son seeing his nakedness. Why is he punished/cursed for seeing Noah naked?
Is it as simple as it being a transgression or reversal of proper authority, against his father and so by analogy against God?
There has to be some deeper symbolism behind it.

>>22248966
I want to read more about it but I doubt I could ever practise or believe it in a genuine way. At the moment I'd, jokingly, call myself an agnostic catholic absurdist. I don't understand anything, I doubt my ability to actually understand anything, almost as a matter of principle, so rather than pick and choose between all the beliefs of the world, I see the only tradition I can follow genuinely is the one I was given, and now I'm just having seeing everything through a Syncretic-Christological filter (and I'm following the catholic technicalities of how to live...mostly).

Btw Catholicism has always been syncretic, and will probably continue to be, not without growing pains expressed through the opposition of the "traditionalists". The church has a concept of the pillars of the church represented by several cities, Rome, Athens, Antioch, Jerusalem. From each city came important elements of catholic tradition; Rome gave legality, hierarchy and structure, Athens gave formalized philosophy, logic and metaphysics (and maybe gave sacramentalism in the forms of Pythogoran Theurgy), Antioch I forget, maybe mysticism, Jerusalem gave particular adherence to scripture and custom or something. There's more to it though. But the point is the church still maintains that it's teachings are not incorrect, but they are incomplete. This is codified, that the teachings of the church are incomplete, even to the extent that new revelations or traditions could re-frame old ones.

Today you would be labelled a borderline heretic if you looked to other traditions to seek aspects of truth that will further complete the church, but I think this is the reality.

I had 0 luck with women and decided it's good idea to lose virginity before 30 at least so I went to a whore. The whore said I have huge dick I thought she's bsing, but I did enjoy it so I've went to a couple others and they've kept repeating it. You know if that's true then I should be fucking mad at myself because had I just decided to date the mid girls that were interested in me when I was in high school I'd probably start scoring hotties the moment gossip about me being big spread.

>>22249063
And how big is it? Measured from the top, pressed lightly on the pubic bone. I want to know what a whore would consider big.

>>22249064
Sorry I'm at work I can't measure it right now. Ofc chances are that men that go whoring are smaller on average or that they prefer smaller clients in general because it's less tiring with them

Today, I felt a sharp visceral pain in my stomach upon realizing that I have spent so many hours of my life putting together ideas and play acting different creative scenarios in my room at nights, yet I had never truly explored them and went on an adventure with the creative process, mostly out of fear. I hope I can tend to that pain before it's too late. It's never been this piercing before.

I'm from Land of Punt.

I think my best friend is gay

>>22248894
Well no shit a special chosen people dont want to share their religion with you. Retard.

>>22249087
I merely wanted to affirm the common belief that kikes are assholes with my recent experience, not trying to say it should be another way or that I'm shocked and hurt.

Somehow the travel essay is still an acceptable submission to graduate admissions officers. What does that kind of essay ever say other than "I have disposable income and a hard-on for human suffering."

Humans are so cringe it’s unbearable. I want to kill myself because it’s so uncomfortable being human. Even the least cringe people throughout history can’t escape being nauseating. How do I continue? How do you?

>>22249133
Why dont you just kill yourself

>>22249034
>I'm following the catholic technicalities of how to live...mostly
We all know what that means. Stop touching your worm.

Anyways, real Judaism is an exclusive ethno-religion. They don't proselytize, they aren't bent on world domination through conversation (like Christians), and they just want to be left alone. Don't be surprised if the answers they give you are along the lines of 'fuck off, goy'. The ultra Orthodox do respect persistence i think, so if you keep at it, you might get some discussion out of them. But they have a long history of being targeted violently by the goyim, so don't mind them if they get a little touchy when we ask questions about their secret club.

>>22249142
Trying to figure out what others see in humans. Maybe I’m missing something. In all likelihood, I will eventually do it.

I don't even know if I'm straight, gay or bi. The only thing that I like for sure is vore and that's fucked up.

My room smells like a hospital.

can someone help remind me of where i heard this. it was a quote that went something like
"without God they will worship the world and moreover the most powerful thing in the world.

got a browser extension that makes all youtube thumbnails just be a still from the video and not the official thumbnail created by the channel, while also making every video title only have an initial uppercase letter and forcing the rest lowercase

forgot about it since installing it and just remembered, and i realize now, i've been significantly less irritated at !!!!!!!!:O!!!!!!! thumbnails and !!!!!!!!CLICKBAIT TITLES!!!!!!!!! and probably healthier as a result lately

>>22249200
>not having pruned your algo to never show you trash clickbait

sounds cool but given my subs and tendency to kill clickbait that appears on my frontpage I never deal with that shit.

My eyes crossed for a brief second and I got extremely dizzy

All fiction exists in the same world.

Ah stumbled upon a hemorrhoid this morning in the shower. That means ah gotta plop my precious rear end in some good ol' hot water three times a day, 'bout 10 to 15 minutes each time. Now, normally I wouldn't fret too much 'bout it, 'cept for the fact that ah’m a frequent to them gay bars. The friction that comes from constant ass play sure don't help none, makin' that need-to-poop feel like poppin' a zit. Y'know, I reckon they say there's less friction up yonder on the moon.

My throat tickles.

>>22249063
I would have fucked a lean cute slutty picture girl if I wasn't a resentfull bastard all my teenage years. Well, at least I can look at her fanny on the net now. There was another one even hotter (seen her after finishing school), I had a slight chance with her but when I was too young to figure it out anyways. I guess this shit's just how it happens for ones who hate being around women. But I can at least see it maturely now and cope knowing the fact that broads I don't care about wouldn't be that good anyway and I gotta find a sweet girl who's heart is just as warm as her pussy.

So looking at different animals fighting with each other is basically the same as looking at some chemical or physical reaction and the entire architecture of these beings have their origin in exactly that just matter so everything is just will like a magnet attracting some metal is the same fundamental force as me walking around pursuing my goals because everything is still the unfolding the result of the speed / initial force that was the big bang

>>22248489
To be cucked by many cucks and live the cucking by being such an asshole you cuck your wife to. Does it make you feel special, cuck man?

>>22248489
Your life is like pure fiction to me, and yet I dare believe

>>22249475
Nta. Perhaps this thread is for generating ideas to write about.

>tfw you are never socially allowed to be sad because you're a male

>>22249296
My ass joins you in pain. Normally I'd be having issue with them roids, but lately that just doesn''t seem the case. It's like the skin around there gets irritated, but I don't even touch myself there, other than being born to shit, and forced to wipe.

>>22249479
Love and drama ain't my forte, luckily there's other anons.
Also, think you've got a point there.

>>22249133
>Even the least cringe people throughout history can’t escape being nauseating.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLp9OQBnfdA

>>22249487
I can add my words of solidarity as well. Doesn't bother me now but damn if I have it remind of itself. Best thing to do is to apply heparin cream and drink hibiscus tea as thick and red as the blood on the toilet paper.

>>22249496
Sounds like overkill, but so long as it works. Keeping my hairy ass clean with soap and a warm spank of shower seems to do the trick. I should probably just get off my ass more often.

How ill-advised would you say it is to do a master of science in politics?

>>22249133
in spite of others not to be cringe. set the example.

>>22249772
>master of science in politics
Are you rich? If you are go for it, otherwise think better about it.

>>22249155
its not even that, the afflictions they want to lay upon humanity doesn't even have a theological basis but an institutional one. of course they would hide the truth from gentiles as long as they can throw the carrot out and expect others (read: non-jews) to pick up the tab. its a constant game of cat and mouse.

>>22249791
I’m not rich. My parents were working class and I’m a comfortably upper middle class professional who is deeply dissatisfied.

>>22249831
Do you think you have what it takes to make into being an academic? Did you manage to get through graduation just fine with great grades? Go for it if you can handle it, and it is what you feel like doing.

>be me
>relatively handsome, over 6' tall
>have a charming personality (according to my family and friends anyway)
>women never give me the time of day
>figure that the opposite sex simply doesn't find me attractive
>accept that I would live and die alone
>years and years pass this way, now I'm in my early 30s
>meet a Romanian girl who has BPD
>she says she likes me
>soon becomes my gf
There's 4 billion women in the world and she's the only one who accepted me. I don't care about her faults or what she looks like, it feels like I've found a unicorn. Even if she leaves me I'm grateful that I received at least a modicum of affection in my solitary life.

I might delude people into thinking that I have my shit together, but the truth is that I haven't been able to bring myself to delete her pictures despite the relationship ending two years ago. Sometimes I miss you, you beautiful fragile retard. I hope you're doing better these days.

>>22249851
It's depressing. The BPD part. Oh man, I'm so sorry for your future but can't hold you back cause I'm just as miserable and understand what it's all about.

I honestly hate being made of flesh and bones, fucking annoying shit. I have to eat certain things otherwise my body refuses to fucking work. Bullshit flesh.

>>22249851
Is that pic real?

>>22249866
Probably some of those weird comedy movies or whatever.

>>22249868
It definitely isn't real because the computer in the photograph is too modern.

>>22249938
>doesn't know

>>22249938
https://www.timesofisrael.com/netflix-acquires-german-comedy-about-hitler-in-modern-times/
Look who's back

>>22245099
>But never let yourself waste away worshipping ashes. Light a new fire, let it burn bright, and bask in it's warmth until the end.
dark souls headass philosophy

>>22249942
He... he's back?

>>22249949
>timesofisrael
>imagine the glow

>>22249953
Move on, there is a purpose to things, don't waste time on whatever. Don't try to be a smart ass and skip stages, but don't get stuck on anything either.

I really regret the “career” I’ve ended up in. I know I have to move on to something else, but I’ve spent enough time here that there’s no longer an optimal option.

>>22249838
I didn’t. I don’t think grades matter, just receiving the degree. I work in academia now, but I’m not faculty. I’m not interested in pursuing a faculty position, which a master’s wouldn’t secure anyway.

>>22249974
They don't, but it shows that you figured out a way of dealing with their stuff.

>>22249974
Why then? Are you going to write a book for it and sell the book?

>>22249979
Who cares?

>>22249982
Personal interest I guess. I was unsatisfied with my bachelor’s and want a master’s as a sort of do-over. If I can work in or near politics that might be a sort plus. My current career is deeply unsatisfying as well. I really don’t like it actually.

>>22250014
>Who cares?
You? If you already have an easy time going through their shit, it means that you will probably do just fine. Aren't you thinking about changing jobs anyway. If that shit ends up not working, you might have to end up going after something like that.
>Personal interest I guess.
On what? Just a master's out of the blue? Do you have a subject that you would like to check out? Something that caught your attention?

>>22244972
Reddit is a bad showcasing for any group dude. I don’t know if that other anon was joking but there is something to talking with Jews irl. Visiting your local synagogue isn’t a bad idea.

>>22248178
Best post atm.

Love. Vryl. Vryl/Love.

>>22249954
Always was.

My dick is bent a weird but not problematic angle and this fact has been consuming my psyche for like a month now. I can even masturbate because of it.
Fucking shit.

>>22250069
meh as long as it's not bent sideways it can actually be kind of a good thing

>>22250076
It is bent sideways. I doubt it would render sex impossible though.
I've never measured the angle.
Even flaccid the thing looks slightly deformed.
Damned be my father for having me at 50 with a woman on her last eggs.

>>22250014
>If I can work in or near politics that might be a sort plus. My current career is deeply unsatisfying as well. I really don’t like it actually.
I'm not working on the area, but this looks like what you should be focusing. Try to change areas, and then get a master's that would maybe fit your job. Instead of doing the opposite.

>>22250022
I don’t see how it could end up not working. It’s as easy as finishing the degree requirements. The subject of interest is political theory. I picked it half out of sincere interest, half out of a lack of interest in anything else.

>>22250088
That’s too vague to be remotely helpful.

>>22250069
How bent is it anon? Every dick has it's curvature.
You sure ain't exaggerating?

JANJANS deleted the pro-Dharmic thread

this oppression will not stop the giant
spinning cross

>>22250096
It might end up not leading to any job at all or anything, just check out if you can find something in another area and go from there. Unless you are ok with studying and not working with anything related to it.

>>22250069
pyroknees disease bro my condolences

>>22250107
What does that even mean “find something in another area”? That is so vague that it’s practically useless. Anyway, I don’t really care, dude. I just need out of my current life somehow. I’m at a point where I pretty much regret every choice I’ve made since eighteen and now that my young adulthood has come and gone, I need to reckon with the consequences. So it’s either make a chance and take a risk and maybe things pay off, or do nothing and they won’t.

>>22250113
>too vague
Are you high or something? Talk to people in whatever politics crap you feel like doing, ask them how they manage to get their jobs, and so on.

>>22250109
Nah I think its congenitous. Also the bend isn't dramatic enough for it to that. Just looks unaesthetic.

Just realize I can practice my German reading by having google translate open and simply reading the unknown words aloud. My God... I'm unstoppable now. I can feel the power surging through me. Mein Gott!

>>22250117
If it was merely that I was high, you wouldn’t have felt the need to clarify and elaborate like you just did just now.

Regardless, I’ll consider this advice since it’s sound.

>>22250169
You were literally asking people here if you should start a master's and then you start talking about how unhappy you are with your current job and that you want to get into something related to politics.
I don't know, sounds like you are drunk or whatever.

>>22250183
Well, I’m not. Thanks for your advice.

Is painting dead?

Verse 1:
I'm a keyboard warrior,
My shitposts are my only armor,
I make them seethe, rage, and fume,
And leave them all feeling doomed.

Pre-Chorus:
I'll keep shitposting till the end,
And never let the mods be my friend,
I'll keep shitposting day and night,
Till the threads are filled with nothing but blight.

Chorus:
Chudelier, chudelier,
Shitpost until the forums are dead,
Chudelier, chudelier,
Make them feel triggered and misled.

Verse 2:
I'll mock the normies and the weak,
And leave them feeling oh so meek,
My memes are dank, my words are sharp,
I'll never stop until they're torn apart.

Pre-Chorus:
I'll keep shitposting till the end,
And never let the mods be my friend,
I'll keep shitposting day and night,
Till the threads are filled with nothing but blight.

Chorus:
Chudelier, chudelier,
Shitpost until the forums are dead,
Chudelier, chudelier,
Make them feel triggered and misled.

Bridge:
My keyboard is my trusty sword,
And my memes are my deadly chord,
I'll trigger them with every word,
And leave them all feeling absurd.

Chorus:
Chudelier, chudelier,
Shitpost until the forums are dead,
Chudelier, chudelier,
Make them feel triggered and misled.

>>22249785
>do something that’s impossible

I think this site is bad for someone like me. I have an extreme desire to socialize but my autism and anxiety prevents me from going out much and talking to people in person. With this site available though I can essentially endlessly socialize forever if I want to. And it’s not good. This site is like a drug for me, I constantly check and refresh the catalogs whenever I have free time, perpetually hopping back and forth between here, /mu/, /tv/, /x/, /his/, and /r9k/ and I can’t stop. I’m at the library right now with 4 books in front of me yet I cant get through a couple pages without checking my phone. FUCK

Also I’m 28

>>22250202
No i'm just lazy today so I haven't got out the palette

>>22247011
I would take a different direction, one I presume better than this one. That is all I can tell, the rest will unfold itself and that I can't control.

Maybe I would convert to Islam if I had the chance.

Fantasy is a subgenre of science fiction.

might hit up omegle in a minute to remind myself of a simple truth: there is nothing more satisfying than being objectified by a woman.

Hanging out with those single, childfree middle aged women at work and all they talk about is how they hate kids. It's like browsing Reddit but in real life.

>>22244891
I had to spend a night with a prostitute in some third world country for the sake of my friend's birthday and that was legitimately one of the worst things I've ever experienced, I genuinely feel like my life is now worse off for it.
We did *not* have sex, because I am so disgusted by the whole prostitution experience, but I did have to play the talking-entertainer role for a good chunk of the night because I didn't want to be a sourpuss and spoil the mood on my friend's birthday night.
Even so, the mere act of having to walk around town with this girl, occasionally give her a kiss, chit chat, etc. Was harrowing. I physically cringe remembering it all. I am truly ashamed, and paranoid about pictures of us existing out there (friend wanted to take them for the bantz in our group chat). Worst yet, I am now afraid that whatever woman I get into a relationship with in the future will somehow discover those pictures and think of me as a sex tourist degenerate.
I'm not scared of sex, I've had it before with a girl I met in college, but this might legitimately have ruined my ability to do it in the future.
Books for this feel?

>>22250525
>paranoid about pictures of us existing out there
Sounds like you're perfectly sane to me
>Worst yet, I am now afraid that whatever woman I get into a relationship with in the future will somehow discover those pictures and think of me as a sex tourist degenerate.
If you truly didn't fuck the prostitute you will be fine. Guessing your friends never went to college and are retarded? I'd be worried about my career instead.

>>22250540
>Guessing your friends never went to college and are retarded?
No, he's graduated and doing well for himself, even owns his own house in Virginia now. He's just more of a party animal, the type of guy who fucked 20+ women in college (I only did it with 2). I also grew up with friends like that, their dads took them to brothels when they were 15 (mine didn't because we are more traditionalist immigrants), so I never judged them too harshly because I'd have zero fucking friends if I did.
I guess I am being a bitch about it since literally nothing happened. I'd probably have been a fire and brimstone preacher in another life.

>>22250509
You’re implying you have a small dick right?

Do you feel good about your life? Is it normal to feel good about your life, or do people always want more?

>>22248580
>situationships
Just had to look this shit up, what in the fuck. The fact that you could be going on dates and having sex with somebody while not being in a actual relationship is out of this fucking world. Another twittertard term I've seen recently is "love bombing" which pathologizes romance to a disgusting degree. I feel like the modern perspectives on relationships and romance are so irrevocably fucked there may be no way back

How did cigars, these little bundles of leaves from South America of all places, even become a classy sort of thing? It had to have been Hollywood.

>>22250951
Can you not do dialectical analysis?
Tobacco used to be either cigars or shredded for a pipe. Eventually, with the advancement of technology, cigarettes became popular. They were easily mass produced and more addictive because you could actually completely inhale the smoke. Cigarettes take up the majority of the market share. Cigars are still hand rolled due to the various sizes of leaves. The process takes longer and is more expensive. It becomes nostalgic, it gets more expensive. Rich people like using their money on expensive things. Rich people smoke cigars. Things rich people do become classy by definition.

It's not hollywood or the joooos. It's just fucking economics over time.

I fucked myself over by trying to make myself do what I think I *should* do instead of what I can do well/what actually interests me.

>>22250951
It's a whole class divide thing eating back to before cigarettes were possible. Like with pineapples, they used signal trade links of the merchant and upper classes, but then large corporations worked out how to engineer and exploit them better and then had to work out how to sell it to the working classes while still taking a fat margin, which always means scale and running off the original market with the premium priced handmade and authentic aspirational market that wants to elevate itself.

>>22250951
Wops used to gamble in Cuban casinos where slaves rolled black dick cigars to suck on. Blacks adopted it because rgey look up to racist dagos.

>>22250892
>Another twittertard term I've seen recently is "love bombing" which pathologizes romance to a disgusting degree
Don't be retarded, it's romance with the goal of manipulating someone. Romantic gestures early in the relationship are used as justifications of later abuse

>>22250977
Fanfic's against board rules, coomer

>>22250987
kek. How have I never seen this insult here before?

>>22246001
I've been wondering if causes even matter to the person that suffers from them. Either it's something you cannot change or it's something that happened in the past. Either way, you are the one that's behaving in the present and that is the only place where you have some semblance of control. Maybe dwelling on causes is pointless, for you, but for others in relation to your condition, it might be more worthwhile since it might stem from them.

>>22251015
Lol, don't know how Berkeley got there. Didn't mean to post him

>>22250992
Coomer?

>>22250979
>Romantic gestures early in the relationship
To automatically assume these are anything other than romantic gestures is pathologizing them. "Love bombing" may indeed be a real thing practiced by actual psychopaths, but it can only be identified AFTER it's been proven that person was being manipulative. Giving it a name and spreading it on social media enshrines it as a red flag, so your average mouthbreathing twitter user will start to see any romantic gesture as suspect.

>>22250965
How come women didn't smoke then suddenly they did? Economics as well?

>>22251028
Edward Bernays, it was literally one of his first big PR campaigns

>>22250951
Cigars are expensive, offering your guests cigars is a sign someone's filthy rich.

>>22251028
Edward Bernays and his book Propaganda. So, yes.
>For the 1929 Easter parade in New York City, the American Tobacco Company organized a group of women to march down Fifth Avenue holding “torches of freedom”—cigarettes—to start transforming the public perception of smoking as a social taboo for women. The New York Times wrote of the public relations strategist behind the marketing stunt: “Recognizing that women were still riding high on the suffrage movement, Mr. Bernays used the equality angle as the basis for his new campaign. He convinced a number of genteel women, including his own secretary, to march in the 1929 Easter Day parade down Fifth Avenue and light up cigarettes in a defiant show of their liberation.”

I have to read every book ever published. That's like 130 million books.

>>22251030
Did you post this?
>>22250965

>>22251028
Smoking was a form of cross dressing. It's why the first women smokers are usually lesbians/suffragettes/hookers/socialites. Tobacco companies prefer the socialite angle.

>>22251043
No, someone else got to it before me. I posted >>22251037

>>22251037
So "jooos" and "Hollywood are, or are not, part if economics?
The logic here is that it is perfectly fine to initially assume cigars were also popularized in a similar fashion. That there was something to it more than just mere economics, whatever that is.

why im such a fucking pussy? i want to blow my brains out. i never say anything even when i say something fuuck

Any advocates for aristocratic forms of government on /lit/?

>>22251059
Cigars were popularized because it showed your wealth. It's also why the gender divide. Upper class meals ended with the men smoking and drinking, while the women weren't invited. That's why men's smoking jackets became a luxury, because it showed you protected your suit from being in the smoking room. Eventually then men who couldn't afford cigars or a smoking room or dinner parties with the duchess started buying them to keep ashes from ruining pyjamas or just to keep warm. By then they're all made with flammable materials because it's cheaper and larger marker with more margin and you can charge someone lower class £40 for a smoking jacket made out of flammable plastics once it has a warning label on it.

>>22251085
*market

>>22251059
Yeah, sure, I guess when it comes to the zeitgeist of popularizing a given object within a given strata, 'hollywood' and 'joos' propagate and perpetuate the myths that make corporate overlords money. I used the term economics broadly to include the psychology of propaganda and marketing, though I understand I didn't use it well in regards to the difference between the direct acts of people like Bernays and the generalized mass media messaging of publishing and producing companies. But the question always turns into what was the tipping point for any given analysis. The initial question, the answer was the propagation of cigarettes, for women to smoke it was Bernays. But these are purely particulars within the broader context of the history of tobacco. Which goes into the imperialist expedition of Columbus and the west's determination of commodifying everything they ever 'discovered'. The conquering of the Americas for land. The import of slaves to prevent Bacon's Rebellion 2 electric boogaloo. It all seamlessly integrates into each other and we simplify in order to get our minds around these wildly complicated subjects. So, I guess, my bad.

why do murican incels never go on hitchhiking torus from coast to coast? murica seems like a very interesting place

won't yoy find some meaning along the rout? if not you will have lots of experience by the end of it. incels are retarded they have nothing to loose whivh is a power

>>22251101
Imagine the energy necessary to hit on a girl and hitchhiking takes like tenfold the energy. hey're too depraved of energy to do a thing like that.

>>22250965
It literally was a Jewish guy named Bernays
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Torches_of_Freedom
https://www.historytoday.com/miscellanies/original-influencer

See pic related for Werner Sombart on the origins of modern advertising culture in the 18th century

>>22251059
https://counter-currents.com/2011/08/who-killed-marilyn-monroe/

>>22251121
Huh, neat.

>>22251111
>hitchhiking takes like tenfold the energy.
That's bullshite. I have fucked up social skills but with strangers I can shoot shit fearlessly because they don't know me I don't know them. Of course they're men. They it is way easier to deal with bullshit of relationships and shit like that.

I wish I was an american just for this sake of "adventure". There is no way you can starve there. You can do odd jobs and shit and you keep reading the american greats. Imagine having such fertile ground and despite it you keep bitching and moaning about roasties.

>>22251078
You mean hereditary aristocracies? Modern governments are basically elected aristocracies because we're voting by choice rather than lot.
>Montesquieu, founder of the modern constitutional state, repeated in his The Spirit of the Laws of 1748 the insight that Aristotle had expressed two millennia earlier, 'Voting by lot is in the nature of democracy; voting by choice is in the nature of aristocracy.' The elite character of elections was clear to him from the start. In contrast, he claimed, 'the casting of lots is a way of electing that distresses no one; it leaves to each citizen a reasonable expectation of serving his country.'[90] The French Revolution, like the American, did not dislodge the aristocracy to replace it with a democracy but rather dislodged a hereditary aristocracy to replace it with an elected aristocracy, 'une aristocratie élective', to use Rousseau's term. Robespierre even called it 'une aristocratie représentative'...It derived its legitimacy no longer from God, soil or birth but from another relic of the aristocratic era, elections...The fiery revolutionary Jean-Paul Marat denounced the aristocratisation of the popular revolt and took up the cause of the more than eighteen million French people who were not given a vote. 'What use is it to us,' he wrote, 'that we have broken the aristocracy of the nobles, if that is replaced by the aristocracy of the rich?'

>>22251135
>There is no way you can starve there. You can do odd jobs and shit and you keep reading the american greats.

Is there a word for an american weeaboo?

>>22251101
1. Hitchhiking is not socially acceptable like it was in the past.
2. Lodging is expensive
3. There probably isn't much to see or learn while on the highway
4. It takes a good amount of courage and this supposed category of people isn't known, supposedly, to have a lot of it.

It's a better idea to suggest getting a commerical drivers license.

>>22250892
I don't blame the guys since so many of these women are unhinged. i think once you know the type, you make sure to stay as detached as possible and try to just extract sex because these girls are seriously incapable of forming lasting relationships. they are deceitful, vengeful and frankly possessed.

>>22251135
As an European I think Europe is more interesting. I've done a lot of hitchhikes too and all of them have been fabulous. Every place yet so small has it's history. Many people are willing to help too or join you in your ride.

>>22251135
This is the most euro-poor post I've seen in some time.
You have no idea how bad it sucks here because you have rose colored glasses, grass is greener vision. It's expensive as fuck in the usa, you have absolutely no idea.

>>22251145
What you're a trying to say? America gives you THE adventure. That's not true for other countries. Imagine dying in American without ever seeing the great western dreamland.

>>22251152
>1. Hitchhiking is not socially acceptable like it was in the past.
Lmaoooo who the fuck cares?
>2. Lodging is expensive
Buy a fucking camp fag
>3. There probably isn't much to see or learn while on the highway
Terrible cope.
>4. It takes a good amount of courage and this supposed category of people isn't known, supposedly, to have a lot of it.
They enough courage to to blow their brains out so this must be easy. See "they have nothing to loose".

Whole adventure is waiting for american incels. Their sin is not being virgin but not taking THE call

>>22251144
No I mean a government that is concentrated into the hand of a handful of omnipotent priests or nobles who decide everything and do anything conceivably possible regardless of the will of the population. To make part of the government you have to own like a gorillion acres and you have to be equally super-powerful and strong.

>>22251171
>hitchhike
Get arrested
>camp/sleeping bag
Get arrested
>park on side of highway
Get arrested
>ask people for gig work
Get arrested

Your plan sucks ass.

>>22251175
What's the point of that?

>>22251156
Europe is too nice and not challenging enough for the transformation of your being.

>>22251158
Buy a fucking bag and camp and get food stamp faggot

>>22251101
America feels dangerous, dilapidated, and bleak now, the people who still do road trips do it by car and know which cities and areas to avoid. Every small city or town is just a dying meth den or a ghetto now. Even the good ones are just the ones lucky enough to have been selected by fate to become rich people's retirement destinations or enclaves of hipster yuppies who work remote. There's no organicity anymore.

>>22251171
Are you a drunk europoor? Or a retarded egomaniacal jeet? Hard for me to nail this delusional posting.

>>22251178
>ooo blooo the scary blue pig
Terrible cope. Use your brain and balls.

>>22251189
You really are a stupid, stupid retard.

>>22251189
Which country are you from?

>>22251185
This isn't true, you're too sheltered online. The great American road is still a thing. Just drive.

>>22251180
It's giga-based.

>>22251101
I hitchhiked from new york to la and it was fucking easy. Just assume that every trucker is a gay rapist and learn how to steal from gas stations. Europe is even easier since femoids will give you a ride and money just to taste foreign dick.

>>22251186
Cope harder

>>22251193
>>22251195
Just leave your town my nigga. The great american adventure is waiting for ya. Download all of the meme american /lit/ in your ebook and hit the road fag

>>22251183
Depends where. It can be dangerous too, you will get robbed or attacked by dogs if you aren't careful enough, chased by a wolve, almost fall down a steep waterfall but those are all experiences you have to go through if your goal is to become a more spirited man.

>>22251207
You won't even admit which shithole you are from so we can judge you the way you judge us.

>>22251204
I envy you.

>>22251215
Bro I have my sympathies you. I have followed the thread of a hitchhiking anon on /out/. That shit was beautiful and comfy.

Adventure is waiting anon. There is nothing to loose.

>>22251226
I've done plenty of travel, your baseless assumptions mean nothing to me. I want to know which country, or nearabouts, you are posting from.
You so far are just as cowardly as the American incels you berate.

>>22251233
>American incels you berate.
I am not "hating" them kek. Are you new here? You can't see my sincerity behind the thinly veiled seethe? It isn't worth talking to someone who doesn't understand basic memes.

>>22251242
Don't bother arguing with them. The problem is lack of energy. It takes energy to hitchhike, to defend yourself from robbers, to convince an officer of your honesty and they lack all of it.

I wish internet would cease to exist

>>22245345
Could you elaborate?

>>22251248
>>22251242
All I want to know is which shithole country he is coming to us from with his encouragement to see America and find enlightenment.

>>22251278
He says you should hitchhike America because it is dangerous, not because it is easy.

>>22251288
I'm asking him which part of the world he is from not because it is easy, but because it is dangerous to his ego.

>>22251185
I do road tripping a few times a year and this is not my experience

>>22251178
None of this is true

>>22251186
I'm an american and I took a great road trip last year. It was pretty cheap because I ate cheap and the campsites were cheap. Gas was expensive desu, but I had the money because I work. I made no plans or reservations. I just hit the road and stopped off where I felt like. I went to a trucker stop to shower. It was really fun.

I’m going to take the year off work to gamble on myself. I’ll find a way to make more money freely or I’ll just end up broken. Either way, I’ll have tried.

>>22251248
They're the type of people to cry and complain about life, but have a litany of excuses as to why they won't even try your advice. I've told so many people in these threads to literally just go outside and they start making up reasons not to.

>>22251183
>get food stamp
You need to work to get food stamps retard

>>22251551
That must be a state by state thing. Here in California you don't need to work

>>22251459
Are you a boomer?

>>22249851
>Are you crying, my Fuhrer?
Cute

I'm being erased from the world and the only way I can continue existing is through the eyes of a loved one. I can't be alone for another year, my mind will not endure it. This whole volcel vibe is just a lie I'm repeating constantly. I am craving for affection and - I never thought I would say this - I miss my high school years. I was loved then.

How nice it must be to be born rich, to not have to move to the city, stumble through university, find a decent career, learn by thirty-three all of the lessons you could have had a patriarch instill by thirteen, and to just live an nice lifestyle on the family estate.

>>22251078
Aristocratic republic

>>22251612
Boomer website. Zoomers are not welcome.

>>22251907
You boomers are so oblivious to your obviousness.

bout to jerk off for the third time today

>>22252072

>>22252104
my desire for cunny doujin is insatiable, and I'm tired of pretending it's not

>>22244891
Okay, I need an adult!
When I was reading a book today I came across a style of dating that I've never seen before:
>4 B.C. - A. D. 65
I've almost always seen it doen as 4 BC (or 4 B.C.) - 65 AD (or 65 A. D.). Is this actually a correct or even old way of dating something? I mean, I understand what the man is trying to say but the formatting agrivated my autism.

I despise the person I was between 18 and 24.

>>22244891
What are your evening plans?
I'm going to get mildly drunk and read the bible and maybe watch a couple episodes of futurama.

>>22252403
Gonna work on my Twilight fanfic.

>>22251178
Are you black or something?
I've done 4 of those and never had any problems with police. Most of these aren't even crimes.
If I'm parked in a private area, I've had police tell me to leave, but that's about it.
If youre parked anywhere owned by the Bureau of Land Management you are allowed to camp for 14 consecutive days before you have to move to another spot (and even that is not really enforced at all)

>>22251612
I'm 24. Go outside and get a life.

>>22252452
If you were born after 1989 this site is NOT for you.

I did something stupid about a week ago which I will seethe with regret later. Even now.

I've come to understand the NEET's predicament. The NEET has no confidence in his own ability to reason. He fears the outside world so much that he fears even thinking about exiting his room, as this might actually convince him to do so. This makes it completely impossible for the NEET to use logic to take any action.
The NEET is much like an addict in that the only options are outside intervention, or to become so desperate in his misery to feel that the choice to leave his room is a choice between life and death, like choosing to jump off the balcony of a burning building.
Outside intervention comes in the form of material needs that force action such as rent, food, or family expulsion. The other form is through communication. In this case it is my view that the message must be clear and direct. The NEET must be told the hard truth no matter how harsh it may seem. They must be forced to contemplate these ideas, as they will only do on their own at their very bottom.

As to what that hard truth is I am a little stuck, as while it is true that NEETdom is an existence of slow death, it is also a life surrounded by substances and entertainment that numb any concern or significant pain caused by reality. While it is numbness to the point that the NEET may as well not be alive, it is true that it eliminates the suffering. And so the NEET prolongs his NEET existence.
A problem is that the NEETs lack of exposure to reality prevents them from gaining any desires or wants. He views reality as hell and he never gets a chance to contradict this with experience.
I am working a great deal to end my NEETdom and I feel confident that I will escape as I am learning to be comfortable while suffering. I am helped by my memories of my previous years as someone with friends, girlfriends, travel, triumph over opposition and joyous moments in the world, and that my NEETdom has only been 2 years. I also have parents that pressure me by not providing me any money for luxuries and provide in person socialization. I fear that someone lacking this real experience of the world can be truly trapped in their NEETdom if their resources are large enough and there is nothing to force them outside.

>>22252461
Too bad, I'm here

I find life to be so obscenely boring. All I do is work from home, work out at home, and play video games or read at night. My life is miserably boring, but what else to do?

>>22252521

I flirt with people and I know that I hesitate because I am afraid I will get what I want.

>>22252597
>flirting with people ever
eeeeewwwwwwww

>>22252609
I'll flirt with you :)

>>22252619
If your a dude, thats fine, I'm not gay.
If your a girl see >>22252609 and replace people with me
if your a troon then see >>22252609 but replace that with pic related

I think I might be a little autistic because no matter how much I dive into contemplations of bizarre and wondrous or how much I force my imagination to create such things, I never seem to dream of it. All my dreams are boring or uncomfortable, awkward situations and endless moving through familiar places. I wish to have something magical in my dreams besides the non-euclidian geography. I can read all about great dreamers like Jung and Lovecraft, but never experience anything special when I sleep.

>>22252624

>>22252634
Well by not having dreams like that you don't have nightmares either so its not all bad.

>>22252652
Post's Theme: https://vocaroo.com/1lrdnajtTyZx
YOU CAN'T MAKE ME, NO ONE CAN MAKE ME AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I have this memory of high school that has been burned into my mind of me looking down on the courtyard from the last floor. All the motion and life, all the smiles and fun happening down below while I rotted away and simmered in hatred for every single person below.
There were my friends who abandoned me and forgot I existed, there were the people who made my life miserable and enjoyed every part of the process.
I let my weakness destroy me. My cowardice and my inaction twisted me into something less than human to the eyes of society. Not a single friend, not a single word of encouragement, nothing but a bitter loneliness that birthed something horrible inside of me.

>>22252660
>Post's Theme: https://vocaroo.com/1lrdnajtTyZx
what is this
why is a zombie singing this

>>22252676
Its Jiub from Morrowind, its an AI voice singing this song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YS0h2-hy9rw
bass fry has been cleaned since then.

*opens door* The Turd. Welcome.