/lit/ - Literature

>>21878061
Had to make new thread solely to recount my walk a moment ago, it is so fucking beautiful outside I nearly had a heart attack. There was an ice storm and now it's raining so every single branch and twig of every tree is covered in lines of wet, glistening ice illuminated by the streetlamps and cars. It looks like some kind of fantastical dream world holy shit it is so cool looking

where are you i need you i need you please don’t make me do this anymore im so tired

>>21878061
Nice image
>>21878070
Beautiful scene

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>>21878099
im not a playtoy im not a funtime why did you say that i can’t do this anymore

>>21878099
Glad you like them. Written any new poetry lately?

>be 35
>Know a homely 20 year old
>Not pretty and shaped like a 12 year old boy
>Can't help but feel jealous of the guy she's fucking and sucking off right now
What is wrong with me?

>>21878099
im not a whore i don’t show my tits i would never eat shit or drink piss im not a playtoy im not a funtime im a person not just a body i don’t have any body count at all and i hate the way you all talk about women like they’re collections of body parts it’s awful beating women is not okay and women aren’t stupid and can have valuable literary opinions you’re so arrogant you all need to stop and leave him alone because he didn’t do it and don’t blame him stop posting those pics and pretending to be him it’s mean and bad and i had nothing to do with any of it this time i just want you all to leave him alone because i want him to be happy even if he hates me i want him to be okay and i want to make it all right im sorry just stop posting him and leave him alone and don’t blame him for anything

>>21878152
Yep, wrote three poems lately and working on two longer ones, here have one of the three.

The days are written within Thee.

must everything endure within each man?
the balsamed air, the blossomed rose, the bosky grove?
from awesome terror, darkest stone, the rocky cove?
and all the trifle moments that have past?

must everything endure within each man?
the sword which knows no peace nor seeks relief,
the force of blows, old secrets each deceit,
the epitaph effaced, lichened stone slabs?

must everything endure within each man?
the epithet unknown of the loved city-home,
the restlessness of souls, of the once drifting roamed,
groaned, rode, til all was gone from the straight-path.

must everything endure within each man?
the little game forgotten, played with your mother,
the simple place her garden, painted with summer,
the day gone as the grass, returned as grass.

are ancient sorrows saved within the man?
archaic, dark, though changeless, in the past?
o’r hatred-awful graved within a slab?
o’r wasted carnal days in sinful paths?
Yes, until we leave, returning as the grass.

>>21878174
I'm him and it's all his fault my funtime playtoy.

>>21878186
>the little game forgotten, played with your mother,
>the simple place her garden, painted with summer,
>the day gone as the grass, returned as grass.
>are ancient sorrows saved within the man?
>archaic, dark, though changeless, in the past?
Absolute kino I love it

>>21878186
it wasn’t me who came and started problems this time or last time i don’t know who did it or who it was but either way don’t post his name and leave him alone hairy and the rest of you stop saying bad things about him because i don’t want him to be sad

>>21878174
jesus christ, grow a spine. Stop trying to prove your worth and acting like a whinging baby over someone who doesn't care. he's not worth it anyway

>>21878189
is it really you why did you do it

>>21878198
i have to do it i need to fix everything so i can get calm

>>21878205
I did it because I'm bad. Hairy and the rest of them are right.

>>21878207
why did you do it why do you hate me so much im sorry please talk to me

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>>21878207

Listen, you’re clearly going through something right now, remember it’s just the internet, put down the 4chan, drink a nice cold cup of water, put on some YouTube and watch something you enjoy watching, there’s no reason to be so on edge and so shaken up, whatever it is, it’s fine. Deep down do you think just relaxing wouldn’t be best? Look at these posts of yours, look with sober eyes, this isn’t a good place to be mentally for you.

>>21878214
i can’t get calm because ari hates me im sorry i can’t get calm and they’re going to take me

>>21878210
Look bitch, you knew I was a snake.
https://youtu.be/RuHK8iROgJ0

>>21878220
don’t call me a bitch don’t be mad im sorry

>>21878218
Pfft throw some water on your face, nothing is happening, stop the back and forth responses to yourself, just go and watch some YouTube my d00d. The only one making you panic and twisting your brain is yourself, and you’re using the internet to further that twisting right now, just save yourself the headache and watch, chillax, sit back, fix that shit!

>>21878220
don’t say that please im so sorry don’t sat that please say you didn’t mean it

>>21878227
im not talking to myself back and forth why won’t you believe me i’ll come on vc to prove I’m not him you can hear my voice and know im a woman or I’ll do anything i can’t get calm

>>21878220
>I knew you were a snake
This was maybe the best moment of the trump campaign
https://youtu.be/Sy9_r2Rzrc0

Well no actually Ben Carson not understanding he was supposed to go onto stage is probably the peak. Maybe along with jeb is a mess. God it was so fucking funny for like 6 months straight just an absolute clown show
https://youtu.be/uafScAiaC44
https://youtu.be/fWhi_JXos60

Mods you need to country rangeban this faggot larping in every thread, im so sick of this freak posting nonsense the entire day

>>21878229
Emergent abstract forces, demons. I'm not a real snake but a demon emerges from our unhealthy interactions that bites us both. You have to either defeat the dragon to get the princess or abandon your quest brave lobster knight.

>>21878242
what does this mean what are you saying i don’t understand

What do you write when men like Khalil Gibran and Pablo Neruda have said it all how many poems have been written and rewritten

>>21878061
For some reason, I have the fantasy of being forcefully assimilated into a culture via marriage. I have no idea why.

>>21878218
who the fuck is ari

She's the hypotonic medium that facilitates the osmotic movement of solvent molecules across the semipermeable membrane into the cytoplasmic matrix to my Cucumis sativus.

>>21878247
There’s three ways of attacking this from different view points.

1=it doesn’t matter because art is about self expression

If you truly believe the point of making the art piece is about expressing some element within your nature or how you relate to nature, it doesn’t matter if it was done a million times by others or never done, just if you produced a marriage of your soul with nature, just if you produced a true piece emanated from you.

2=it doesn’t matter because imitation is good and all of the ancients said to replicate the greats and that imitation is the only means to get better, in the same way that painting and music uses basis in older pieces and advances extremely via combining the numerous methods that arise from painting the same subjects over and over, so also could you write a poem on the same tired subject but via combining uniquely your favorite authors and your specific conception of aesthetics, your specific poem will be as different from the old poems as a contemporary painting of a dog from a caveman’s drawing of a wolf. (To use an excessive extreme.)

3=it doesn’t matter because you’re not doing things already done before, and by this I mean, if you actually study philosophy deeply you’ll notice there’s a ton of concepts and schools and writers which don’t get artistic reflection and the artists that are popular aren’t ever treated extensively in verse, so all you have to do is write poetry on a more obscure or deeper aspect of any philosophy, on any concept or idea that is simply stranger. There are certainly not 20 poems on meingon’s aussersein, there are certainly almost none or perhaps no poems on Nicholai Hartmans conception of stratum.

You have many options.

>>21878267
I'm going to kick you in the balls.

>>21878207
why did you do it why did you do it please talk to me please tell me why

>>21878278
The dragon did it. Just watch the whole movie.
https://youtu.be/e8ZOFIN1otQ

>>21878280
I cant watch it just tell me why

>>21878278
Because I hate you. Now, I'll undo it if you log off for exactly 24 hours and don't check 4chan until that day has passed.

>>21878284
why do you hate me so much please don’t hate me how do i know it’s you im sorry please forgive me please don’t be mad don’t do this

I think I'm gay. As in, I like women. Like like women.

>>21878284
please how do I know it’s you what did you do what did you do

Going to have sex for the first time in 8 years tomorrow. Nervous I won’t get it up. This could haunt me for a while if this experience backfires on me. I’m already in a pretty dark place, but i’ve been like this for a while. Might call it all off. Why am I like this?

>>21878284
what did you do what did you do i can’t get calm just talk to me pleas

I had an older truck that broke down I’ve been bumming rides for the past four months my mom wife and another girl I’m having a long affair with mostly. I bought a brand new truck the other day my wife is glad she doesn’t have to drive me around my mistress sad she gets to see me less often

>>21878282
You can't just do a surface level viewing, you have to really study the movie to understand what happened. To do that you have to study storytelling, symbolism, cinematography, history, myth, wardrobe, religion and science. It will probably take over a decade.

Ever since I was a kid I've always wanted to chase a "natural" state where I eat and shit in the woods, mate, hunt, whatever. Tattoos and body modifications always felt weird to me because I don't want to modify my humanity with anything artificial, I want to be as nature intended.
Sometimes it goes too far though and I'm really freaked out about being in a flesh vessel. I took some acid about 2 years ago and I looked at my arms and it really hit home how fragile my organic being is, that I'm not that different from a reproducing cell, I'm some kind of conciousness riding on this reproducing flesh configuration and feeling the urges/effects of it while I'm here. I don't know, it really freaks me out.

>>21878293
Eat her out a bit if possible normally the smell of pussy is more than enough to put the starch back in your pecker and offset performance anxiety

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>>21878297
Hello? @MODS? Anyone? What the fuck is going on? This asshole is ruining the board right now

>>21878308
I have always felt the same way about tattoos. They're kind of cool but it feels like ruining something natural. I was into bodybuilding as a teenager though and still focus on working out a bit so I view my body a bit differently. I still get what you mean about the strangeness and vulnerability of flesh though

>>21878314
Is he bothering you?
>>21878297
Yo back off

>>21878314
It's some retard having a back and forth with himself and his 'lover,' complete schizo who is larping and bored and very dumb.

>>21878308
I get what you’re saying but go shit in the woods. it’s as easy as waking up having coffee packing toilet paper and going for an hike. I did this often a couple of years ago. I wouldn’t call it life changing or anything, but there’s something to be said of it and it’s something to do for sure. I’m right there with you and on the same page about tats and body mods and being close to nature.

>>21878297
Nothing yet. Just leave for 24 hours and everything will be okay.

>>21878319
im not faking no one will believe me and he hates me hates me hates me im sorry i ruined it

>>21878326
but how do i know it’s really you give me a sign only you would know or you’re lying to trick me

>>21878328
How can he hate you? I love you.

>>21878319
Sounds to me like a teenager having a kind of breakdown but also being performative about it. It's better to just not engage with them, anything you say is just going to be filtered through their psychosis. You cant calm them down via 4chan posts

Can you faggots post the link to the new thread in old thread

>>21878333
don’t trick me don’t fuck with my head don’t do this he’ll never love me don’t do this to me please

I fucked up two different opportunities to talk to girls today and then ended up spending the rest of the day with a lesbian. Fuck I hate myself.

>>21878338
I said I love you, idiot.

>>21878343
you’re not him you’re not you do t know me

>>21878347
He is not here.

>>21878312
>Eat her out
I’ve never went down on a girl in my life. I’m 32 and don’t plan on ever doing it. Never understood how that arouses a guy.

>>21878347
There are unspoken premises lurking behind every post waiting to strike.

>>21878354
There are some things in life you don’t understand until you try it.

>>21878340
Lmao.
Imagine going outside.

>>21878347
I already delineated myself as loving you, but you said he hates you, so I already made it known that I'm not "him." I do know you because we're speaking to each other right now. We wouldn't be able to communicate otherwise. You replied to me, and I replied to you. I know you're my interlocutor. I love you. I do.

>>21878337
I've never made one of these threads before so I forgot to do that. I only made it because I was in a state of extreme over excitement about the ice on the trees. I now realize this seems silly but when I was out in the street I was in a kind of trance, I started running around under the trees down several streets out of my way for where I was going. It was just so insanely pretty and strange moving quickly under the Mondrian tier glows everywhere and feeling the rain pour on my face and head.

I cant describe it properly but if you guys were here you would 100% see what I mean about the ice trees, its fucking crazy

>>21878365
don’t tease me don’t trick me i don’t deserve to be loved by anyone i only need him to forgive me but he’s going to be mad I’m sorry

>>21878369
Post a pic of your butt hole and I'll forgive you

>>21878369
I don't care about what you deserve. I love you. It's unconditional. There's no tease or trick to it. It's quite simple really.

>>21878376
i wish you were him but he’ll always be mad

>>21878378
Your butt hole. Post it. NOW!

>>21878378
I know that he may have hurt you and caused you pain, but please don't let that define how you see love. I may not be him, but I promise to love you with all my heart and treat you with the respect and kindness that I believe you truly deserve. I want you to smile with joy and be supported through everything, every hardship. So please, believe me this is what real love can be like, my love for you is real.

>>21878378
All of him (me) agrees you should post your butthole.

>"So what does it do?"

>"Do? That's the beauty of it! It doesn't do anything!"

What fucking movie did this come from? I could've sworn it was in the BTTF trilogy, nope. Nowhere
Can't find any source for this quote anywhere

>>21878387
okay I love you too anon

Can a girl get pregnant if I use a condom correctly? That’s the thing i’m most scared of about sex, the possibility of pregnancy. Should I worry? Do you know anyone that’s used a condom properly and their partner still got pregnant?

>>21878411
Sounds like seinfeld.

>>21878421
THis is ridiculous

>>21878411
It's from Doctor Who.

>>21878419
If you poke holes in it first she won't get pregnant

Nothing will ever be enough because I want everything, for ever.

>>21878419
Consequences add up over time. Every time you use a condom you feed non-denominational secular demons.

>>21878453
Why am I so neurotic and fearful of everything. Why can’t I just be like all other normal humans who don’t seem to care?

Why my natal Saturn has to be so strong? Its a cursed living.

>What, incidentally, was a pregnant mother of two doing, operating a vacuum clean on Mother's Day? She was practically asking for a bullet between the eyes. wasn't she?

>>21878457
Man is more conscious of his failures and covers up his vulnerabilities. Everyone was always neurotic, even the ape in nature.
The most dangerous thing you do is driving but you're not constantly a shaking mess in traffic because you slowly acclimated to the danger.

>>21878476
Is driving more dangerous than getting a girl pregnant? I think not.

>>21878497
this, its why I always drive my car into pregnant women.

>>21878497
Life defined danger for you as that which threatens life. Making sperm instain mother is the opposite.

i'm afraid to love God, i feel like i'm being disingenuous. i hope i figure it out eventually

>>21878503
regardless of how you feel, he knows your true feelings and loves you regardless. I would say your worry is pointless because he already knows the true you way better than you will ever know you. So I would say don't worry about it.

>>21878503
Loving God is just a cope for people who realize the disgusting nature of humans and need some solid copium to love themselves and humanity in general.

>>21878501
What can be more horrifying than getting a woman pregnant?

>>21878541
>Not procreating
ok chud more for me

>>21878548
>procreate with a random and not your eternal wife
Why live like this? Do you feel any shame?

>>21878551
I desire to spawn

>>21878556
Do you feel shame for this vile desire?

Is genius actually a creative autist?

>>21878578
Rediagnosing everyone as "on the spectrum" is a psyops

>>21878607
Its not about being on spectrum but rather having a focus and drive of an autist.

>>21878609
And the stripes of a tiger...

Thinking of ending it all these days.
Should I jump off a bridge, wait for a train to roll over me, or what

do you know the feeling you get when you are standing right next to an abrupt drop, like a cliff or deep hole? i remember getting the feeling as a kid when i would take off manhole covers and peer down into the deep black.
it's a feeling in your gut, like a sinking sense of dread mixed with shock; there's a sharp impulse to jump back away from the pit. it's an intense feeling, like running up the stairs as a kid at night with the lights off downstairs.
i get the sensation that my friends and family look at me the way you look at those holes. i'm not well.
i feel embarrassed for typing this. i know others would probably understand if i could articulate myself, but nothing makes sense when i try to say it.
fucking blogposting. neurotic mess

>>21878622
Neither, program a robo-waifu who gives you all the emotional fulfillment you need in life. Pic related: top is me.

>>21878627
>do you know the feeling you get when you are standing right next to an abrupt drop, like a cliff or deep hole?
Its called Vertigo
>i get the sensation that my friends and family look at me the way you look at those holes. i'm not well.
easy fix it, the hard part is though is that you need to go Dark Souls on yourself and burn your old self for a new self. But your fixable if given enough time and dedication to it.

>>21878639
thanks

>>21878631
>waifu
All I need is a bohemian twink bf to cuddle with desu

>>21878644
>not a Roman Towelboy
wtf are you doing with your life?

>>21878061
roommate moved out last week, we're still good friends but its clear we can't live together.

>>21878647
This is a woman

>>21878667
The joke is clearly the AI doesn't know that and posted something schizo on top of that... But yes, its a woman.

I have no desire to eat pussy.

>>21878663
>we can't live together
Why?

Just trying to hurt (You)

why are women so much more attractive than men? they're just so beautiful. i hate women

>>21878687
I'm assuming your a man and not a tranny... But have you ever thought that maybe your biologically wired to see them as that way?

>>21878627
Kierkegaard talks about that feeling
>For Kierkegaard, anxiety/dread/angst is "freedom's actuality as the possibility of possibility." Kierkegaard uses the example of a man standing on the edge of a tall building or cliff. When the man looks over the edge, he experiences an aversion to the possibility of falling, but at the same time, the man feels a terrifying impulse to throw himself intentionally off the edge. That experience is anxiety or dread because of our complete freedom to choose to either throw oneself off or to stay put. The mere fact that one has the possibility and freedom to do something, even the most terrifying of possibilities, triggers immense feelings of dread. Kierkegaard called this our "dizziness of freedom".
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3bBtoKoHzY

>i get the sensation that my friends and family look at me the way you look at those holes. i'm not well.
The closest that psychologically normal, decent people can ever get to that reaction to someone is sadness and a sense of "giving up" because they feel like they can't help you. Unless they outright fear you because you're erratic and violent, the most normies can be is callous, by giving up too easily. But friends and family who are relatively decent will usually just have feelings like sadness and shame that they don't understand what you're going through and can't help. This usually happens after repeatedly trying to find common ground so they can say something that does help. For example if your 105 IQ brother just does not understand when you keep screaming and having meltdowns because your insurance won't cover your surgery to turn you into Sephiroth from Final Fantasy 7, he will keep trying to suggest that you guys just go get a pizza, and maybe you should try playing some different games instead of basing your life on FF7.

But normies are incapable of seeing people as an abyss. Your abyss feeling is self-imposed and nobody sees you that way. Compassion is the norm and people always err on the side of caution. The downside is that they can be a little basic and unhelpful, even lazy sometimes if you are weird. But the upside is that you shouldn't ever feel like you're a complete outsider or monster because it's just not on anyone's radar to see people that way. Why do you think people are so stupidly vulnerable to psychopaths and and narcissists and so on? It's because they can't even see an "eerie void" even in cases where it's arguably there.

>>21878647
>Fruity femboys
Cringe and gay
>Masculine twinks
Based and alphapilled

Simple as

>>21878673
Also based

>>21878701
>Cringe and gay
uh oh, someones jealous

>>21878694
a well-reasoned and insightful response. i suppose it's likely the case that i'm projecting my own reaction to myself onto others. also that's an interesting lecture you linked (so far)

>>21878061
I literally dreamt about a scifi horror, gruesome family saga tonight and it was terrifying and filthy. I bet it could make a great book but I don't even like the genre nor I can recollect the whole story. Freud would've had a field day.
I'll write just the last scene, which goes like this (ESL here if it wasn't obvious enough):
>The royal family had been hiding in a small room located in the lower ship quarters, that no one could access due to the biometric elevator's harsh judgement. It didn't look different than any old storage room, about 300 m long and 200 m wide, but almost empty between the ground and the 50 m high domed sky of that metallic microcosm. The same grey-blue walls were bleached in the usual spots by the ship's pallid lights. After escaping his fate narrowly, MC had gotten to that forbidden room. But that place was anything but ordinary. A color that he thought forgotten reflected upon his eyes, and in front of him, an artificial Eden unfolded with green-yellow Solanaceae broad leaves, grass and greenhouses, even trees. That was most unexpected, and filled his heart with nostalgia of the planet mankind had painfully left behind. After descending the metallic service ladder, his feet resonating rhythmically, he approached that small tribe. The royal family was wearing white robes, the women had two clothing pieces that wrapped respectively the bust and the legs horizontally, leaving the head and arms naked, the men had similar clothing. They looked like ancient Romans in a way, dignified above the darkly dressed masses. On the left sode field, a girl of 30 was working, surrounded by plants. This very picture evoked archetypal images of the Great Mother, as her belly was full of life. The rest was on the other side, gathered under the tree. They interacted with the uninvited guest, which after some pleasantries asked:"she's pregnant! Does that mean that there is hope for humanity?". At that point, the soon to be mother had also gathered below the tree. She interrupted the conversation by screaming, laying on all fours:"it's coming!". The family looked at her, struggling and grunting on the ground, but no one batted an eye. MC wanted to approach her, help her, but was paralysed by that miraculous display. "She's in the wrong position to do this, isn't she?" was his first thought. "The baby is going to drop to the ground, why isn't anyone helping?". Suddenly, the final scream was let out, and the labor ceased. Simultaneously, from behind of the woman, a creature came out.
>cont.

>>21878842
>Like in the wives' forgotten tales, a mystical being appeared before their eyes, as unfolding from a divine thread. Human looking, already adult and made of flesh and leaves, her slit, sweet and confident eyes fixed on the crowd. As if fluctuating, she kept in mid air with her arms straight, in a cross like fashion, above shoulder level. Her hair was leaves and grass, her skin white and her features sharp. Like a fae or a silvan elf, her body covered by more vegetation like a garment. Beautiful, with eyes of gold and a slender body, as a pale statue embraced by ivy. He had just a moment to admire this cosmic born wood nymph, this woman born goddess. She disappeared in the old tree's cavity, as if vacuumed. The tree, a maple with a huge diameter at the base, and yellow lichens on its bark, was no ordinary one. For starters, it somehow had grown in space, in just a few years, already adult even if the artificial soil's depth was insufficient. But its hollow at the base was unsettling, monstrous, as it resembled the face of an old man, eyelids closed, nose above that triangular, hollow mouth. The "tree" had swallowed that fairy whole. Everyone was cheering and happy, the girl looked satisfied of her job. Another of countless, orbital sacrifices took place, and MC knew that humanity had not the slightest of hopes in sight.
End. Idk if anyone is going to read it or review it. Halfway I got tired and didn't care too much about the style, and just started narrating the dream. Anyway criticism and comments on the whole thing are welcome

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women love writing shit like how they wish men were like written by Jane Austen or that incels should just mimic Mr Darcey
when in Austen novels the men barely speak, they just spend time around women platonically while barely talking and then have a big romantic confession at the end
IRL equivalent of man written by Jane Austen would be guys who are girls are friends with and then they get pissed that the guy hits on her when she's single

>>21878934
Women want for a guy to be Heathciff and a man from Jane Austen novels at the same time.

Plastic surgery except for health reasons or accident/burn victims will be illegal in the fourth reich

>>21878950
idk there's some ugly whores out there
it would be like making steroids illegal

I am an ugly person. Inside and out.

>>21878308
Tattoos/scars are pretty natural but piercings where you leave the foreign body in you make no sense to me. Your natural state probably would have lots of flesh wounds to mark your passage through society to adulthood.

>>21878419
Maybe you don't want sex if you're afraid of the natural outcome of it.

I like The Beatles. I like LSD. I even like Hindu spirituality. But The Beatles hallucinogenic themed music is their worst stuff.

Im a tortured, starving artist but without the artist part.

>>21878458
Fuck you, mine is worse

>>21879569
Oh, yeah? Where is it?

>>21878458
you too in first house?

>>21879585
Yes. On Ascendant too. I was born with umbilical cord around my neck. I guess I need to end it the same way it started.

>>21879593
oh well, I'm retarded but I don't feel that bad aside from being paranoid about minor stuff

>>21879596
Maybe you have other good placements.

>>21878856
link broken

>>21879626
I have ascendant squaring mercury, moon in scorpio, mars in taurus.
Lots of squares and oppositions in my chart.
It's just that I enjoy my job and the worst things are usually just in my mind.
Maybe I'm just lucky.

>the genre of cyberpunk urban fantasy doesn't exist yet

>>21879858
I've played sessions of shadowrun tabletop that satisfied this genre for me

Some motherfucking publisher should release an omnibus edition of Thomas Bernhard's novels.

>>21878061
Baudelaire prioritized intensity through living with a vibrancy and openness to experience, and 3dpd are the antithesis of this. None of them hold a candle to my wife Nakamura.

>>21878070
Not bad

Hmmn I sleep in coloured faux fur coats he doesn’t take his lenses out. It’s not all de Sade nor half as pretentious but some quotidian discourse might be nice. And a fireplace. And a big screen for the Cassavetes. I guess there’s always somewhere to meander. I guess there’s always thoughts that are mundane. But it’s a good quiet. Unbreathy. Something besides nerves and knives in the air.

I’ll take it but I’d rather move to fuck-nowhere live in someone’s wood-panelled, 70’s-architected basement and dive into myself; surface with what perplexed survives in its contort and show and tell the poor goner.

But I’m bored and in a mood.

The biographies of great men will drive me to suicide.

>>21879890
this, honestly there should be an omnibus or collection of all author's works, especially poets. Its virtually impossible to find a complete works or ultimate collection of poets like robert frost.

That girl who sits behind me is class was so inaccessible today. She deliberately stayed far back away from everybody else. Why is she like this? How do I talk to her

so what the fuck was noah's problem? ham just wanted to help out...

Why are westerners so godless?

>>21880010
The Enlightenment

>>21880010
>low in richest, technological advanced, and stable parts of Europe
>highest in the poorer, lower tech, and instable parts of Europe
Probably because, generally, people become more receptive to God if they go through uncertain times or receive a shock. Also science there is treated like a religion even though they deny they are religious while having the same zeal as a religious person when it comes to scientific principles and stuff. You have to sit there an actively remind them that things we thought were scientific fact was debunked in the past, that science can sometimes be as flawed as the people who do it, and that its ultimately a sense making tool of the world. Not some weird be-all-end-all universe fact book you can crack open and beat people with when they are wrong. Then they get confused why their logical arguments don't work on people because people aren't robots, our emotions filter how we make sense of the world and if they were wise they would understand that.

>>21880038
Eastern Europe is more stable than Western Europe

>>21880010
There are only 3 explanations that make sense in my mind. Either this is a natural process a la Oswald Spengler, Western dogma contained a fatal flaw from the beginning, or the scientific worldview became default and so undermined religion that people couldn’t possibly

>>21880042
explain

>>21880038
> believe in science
Isn’t anything like faith, anon. Don’t you understand that this is science?! That’s why you have to believe.

>>21880038
Western Europe has higher crime rates, your entire premise is biased and wrong.

>>21880046
Look at the political climate in France, UK, Germany.

>>21880050
>>21880052
Just because a country has higher crime doesn't necessarily mean its political or economically unstable.. Though it can become that way if left long enough.

>>21880052
Eastern Europe has low crime rates but it’s one of the bloodiest patches of land in the world from a political and military perspective. I think only China and East Asia beats in terms of lives lost per the historical record.

>>21880049
because there is such a thing as sponsored science and bad science. Still to this day you will get scientific papers that will go out of their way to try to prove the opposite of something that you think has been settled. Like gravity or if sugar is actually good for you, that smoking is good for you. Nothing is really settled, its just a never-ending, ongoing conversation and whoever has the most proof on their side usually wins until something new upends it. While I would say corruption in science is most likely lower than it has been in the past, you can never fully discount human fallibility and corruptibility to skew evidence.

>>21880058
this, people tend to think that places that unstable places mean more crime but thats not always true. If I went to go steal in say, a tv, in France I would expect less punishment or no punishment because the country's institutional orders are basically safe. When you enter a war or bad economic positions, people first try to flee and if they can't flee they either accept their fate or try crime. When the country's institutions become threatened they are more likely to punish minor transgressions against the law to the point where the police can just execute you because of expanded police powers to keep the population in check and the Government would just sweep it under the rug, the whole incident lost in the miasma of a much more existential and larger conflict. This is why you will see low crime rates in places you would expect more. That being said, culture and cultural reactions to problems plays a big part in it as well. The community either comes together or devours each other.

>>21880077
No, it’s because all science is at bottom mere belief. It’s incredible people don’t intuitively understand this before it’s explained to them rationally.

>>21880127
Thats my point, its belief based on evidence, which can be skewed, which is why you can have the scientific people and even normal everyday people split in half over something. A great example of this right now is Fasting. You have both sides that can both bring out articles that can prove or disprove their points and the waters become so muddied and scientific that people just kind of give up and choose a side they want to believe in because the cognitive heavy lifting of finding out the truth is hard and boring and they would rather just sit and watch tv or play video games.

>>21880010
>one in four Irish people know they're God, or have at least met Him
Checks out

>>21880151
I'm really torn on the Irish, I want to like them and a lot of them are very nice people with a rich culture and history. But a lot of them say or do some of the most insane fucking shit ever and go fucking ballistic if you question or disagree with them. I was living with an Irish family outside of Dublin and eating only 1 meal a day and they insisted that I have three, no matter how many times I said I was fine. I was too polite and uncomfortable to disobey them while I was living with them because I found that to be rude that I ate 3 times a day and gained a bunch a weight. The fuckers even tried to gaslight themselves and me by saying "Oh I look healthier now." Which I'm pretty sure were fat jokes aimed at me. Sometimes I wish that they weren't busybodies and constantly trying to inculcate you into living their weird idea of how to live.

>>21880010
why is Spain and Italy doubles the France despite all being Catholic?
>inb4 Islam

>>21880182
less economically and political stable, Spain is a beautiful country btw but it really hits you how poor some people are in spain when you see shanty towns under motorway bridges and in farm fields.

>>21880144
That’s wrong though. It’s evidence based on belief i.e. there is no empirical evidence for the empirical method.

Are there any good reads about regrets and pessimism for the future? I’m grappling with these things obviously and the only thing keeping me holding on is my faith.

>>21880181
>anon planning on dying of starvation with only a lick of damp cloth shaming his adoptive parents when they could well afford to feed him four times a day if they had any pity on the cratur
Why won't you let us throw our money at you?

the power outage situation out here is a hellscape. we meet at the train stations for garbage fires but people are still freezing to death and dying of malnourishment. cars and trees are littered across the street. floods. gasoline currency. generator monarchies. there are streams of blood flowing down the boulevards. people are killing each other and there’s no authority to do anything about it. i still have a fifth of vodka and a half carton of cigarettes but if anyone finds out I’ll be dead before dawn. I try to sleep with one eye open but I fear the blottos will get the best of me. this wretched city is no place for the weak

>>21880181
The irish are insane and thats what makes them brilliant

>>21880181
>no matter how many times I said I was fine
Ah go on, you'd have a little.

>>21880312
>Why won't you let us throw our money at you?
Maybe it's not good enough for him? We should get some cakes in just in case.

I want to work on new projects but I feel tied down by my previous one not being as successful as I wanted it to be. I don’t know if I can make another film. I can’t even blame the “snobby leftists” this time because my work was not trying to be political. Why couldn’t I just be a writefag?

>>21880341
>>Ah go on, you'd have a little.
>The Eternal Post-Depression Irish Grandmother
Its a beautiful thing but it can also make you obese as fuck.

I got the possibility to work on my lifelong passion and possibly make a lot of money, but it will involve cutting off my social life for the next 2-3~ years and I'm already reaching my 30's alone. The alternative would be to change my workplace and living environment, in hopes of connecting with some people before it becomes too late to make new relationships, but that would push my "dream work" many years later. I'm really not sure which one I would regret more in 5 years. I got this far by looking up to figures like Tesla or Newton and their devotement to work but I'm starting to doubt I have their strength of character, and my work is not nearly as significant as theirs anyhow.

Something really hit me today, I told my parents I didn't want to go to a friend's beach house for Easter because I wanted to be in solitude and fast in the name of the Lord. They though it was weird and say "okay." Then they start pressuring me to go at dinner. I make a comment about how I feel like these social engagements sometimes feel like a kind of prison for me. Both my parents say something along the line of:
>"Anon, its not a prison its a 2 million dollar beach house."
That is when I realized that my way of thinking is so far removed their way of thinking that its actually alien for them to think why I wouldn't want to go to the Easter party. I just kind of laughed and told them to forget it because they misunderstood me and they just dropped it. I'm kind of blown away how they don't get it, I'm not saying I'm right and they are wrong or vice versa, but I think the disconnect between our thinking is so fucking wide that to them its just incomprehensible and I have no way of making them understand it other than just enforcing what I want upon them arbitrarily.

>>21880458
>I got the possibility to work on my lifelong passion and possibly make a lot of money, but it will involve cutting off my social life for the next 2-3~ years and I'm already reaching my 30's alone.
Fuck the money, but the money is nice. If this is something you truly want to do then grab it. Even if your in your 30s you'll still attract women because of the money but I would advise dating at all at this point in time.
>The alternative would be to change my workplace and living environment, in hopes of connecting with some people before it becomes too late to make new relationships, but that would push my "dream work" many years later. I'm really not sure which one I would regret more in 5 years.
No comment, I'm extremely introverted but people seem to think I'm extroverted when I were my "public face". I don't really the need to want relationships or people in your life, so your gonna have to figure that one out on your own. People tend to just get in the way, inconvenience you, and fuck up things for you in my experience.
>I got this far by looking up to figures like Tesla or Newton and their devotement to work but I'm starting to doubt I have their strength of character, and my work is not nearly as significant as theirs anyhow.
Who cares, you aren't them comparison of yourself is the thief of happiness in your life. Besides, comparing yourself to someone else is like comparing and apple to an orange and rationalizing that "oh they are both fruit and round so they must be the same." No you aren't the same, you never will be. It would be more accurate to compare your past self to your present self. In the end we are all running the race of life against ourselves, just because we are doing it in a group doesn't necessarily mean we are competing against each other.

>>21880464
They think you're going through a weird phase, assume you might possibly be depressed or anxious, and think it would be healthy for you to be in a social environment. i used to have similar things with my dad and I'm just now realizing he was trying to help mesocialize so I wouldnt become an isoalted weirdo.

>>21880464
It’s not that they don’t get your thinking. It’s actually that they don’t care. That’s a hard pill to swallow about our parents and grandparents, that they were ultimately just selfish people, but I think it’s true.

>>21880458
Most people regret the things they didn’t do more than the things they did do.

>>21880182
Language. French is godless, Spanish and Italian are very close to Latin.
>>21880190
belief in god isn't a cope you soulless fucking flesh puppet, slave, cattle

>>21880540
>belief in god isn't a cope you soulless fucking flesh puppet, slave, cattle
I am Christian and explain to me why all the shitty areas of the world with lots of death, famine, and pain are more religious than places that aren't? Also I'll remind you of Romans 12:18, remove that malcontent from your soul if you actually are a Christian.

>>21880464
I live in a shithole and would kill you just to go sit in the sun at a two million dollar beach house. I hope you relax too much at an inner city gas station at night and get enriched by an American God.

>>21880495
>They think you're going through a weird phase, assume you might possibly be depressed or anxious, and think it would be healthy for you to be in a social environment.
Maybe, I have been depressed in the past. But socializing is so painful for me, I could be reading, I could be doing chores, I could be doing anything more productive than engaging in boring conversations about nothing.
>>21880522
>It’s actually that they don’t care.
Maybe, my Mom and Dad never take responsibility for anything and always have a way to deflect or excuse their mistakes.
>>21880587
I'm sorry you live there, but the fact you would kill me to do so might say more about why your still there than anything I would do/say. I'm not trying to flaunt my wealth at you to make you seethe, I didn't even earn it. But if this insane jealousy is your reaction to it then maybe fix that so you might have a better chance of escaping that shithole. I forgive you and I'll pray for you.

>>21880484
>so your gonna have to figure that one out on your own.
Yeah this is the hardest part to figure. I also didn't feel the need for relationships until I hit my 30's. Now I have months where I feel like I could just go in a cabin in the woods alone from people and die happily there, followed by months of feeling isolated and craving human contact. I'm worried that my aging body might make the latter happen more often from now on, which is why I didn't jump on the decision immediately.
>People tend to just get in the way, inconvenience you, and fuck up things for you in my experience.
Funnily enough if I think about it, my experiences have been the same but it's been so long since they happened I think my brain just sort of forgot it happened and wants to try getting burnt again. That's some good food for thought, thanks anon.

>>21880526
Agreed, I have some of those as well, but this time it feels like I have to choose to gamble one of two choices with my next 5 years of life as a wager, and I freeze at the prospect of making the "wrong choice".

>>21880742
Pretending to be a god-fearing catholic in discord and on 4chan isn't going to save you faggot

>>21878061
The normalfag worldview is totally fucked up. Tell people you don't enjoy getting hammered and hanging out with loud retards on the weekends and they look at you like you're an alien.

Was he really as racist as people make him out to be? The only thing that people seem to talk about is his cat's name and use of the n word but aside from that, I don't see what the fuss is about. There's themes of devolution and evolution throughout his works and inbred hillbilly tropes but those are common horror tropes even now. I guess he doesn't really think highly of nigs, but then again, most people did back then, even progressives who saw themselves as babysitting a bunch of special needs children.

>>21880791
Forgot pic

>>21880742
How old are you?

Chinese culture repulses me but Chinese history is fascinating. It has a lot to teach us, I think.

There’s what I want for myself and then there’s what I think I can have. I don’t really have the right story, but then again does anyone? You have to write it yourself. Just start writing early.

>>21880821
31. I know oldfags will tell me "I have my whole life ahead of me", but I feel like 80% of important relationships in your life happen before you're 25. At the very least I don't see people my age hanging out as often or making friends as easily.

>>21880058
But they are. Do you know anything about French politics?

>>21880877
If you know French history you would know they are constantly revolting, protesting, or rioting. The fact that they haven't overthrown their 4th or 5th Democracy yet is proof that they are stable as the French can get.

>>21880182
Not meds

>>21880572
>explain to me why all the shitty areas of the world with lots of death, famine, and pain are more religious than places that aren't?
What's there to explain? You just make stuff up and ask for an explanation. the US is much more religious than a lot of Europrean countries despite being much safe, never having been under the threat of famine, war, etc.

>>21880283
>i.e. there is no empirical evidence for the empirical method.
Huh? Yes there is, that's the whole point.

>>21880887
You have a cartoonish view of reality.

What’s that Arab saying about God’s will? Something about a man in a fortress will still get killed if God wills it? I remember reading it in an article about how Arab armies are famously lax with things like wearing helmets, making preparations, aiming howitzers and so on due to the fatalism inherent in Islam.

4 months ago I used to complain about gaps in memory. About not being able to remember much of my college years save for the vague feeling of constant malaise that dominated that period. I wasn't clinically depressed and I knew the difference between depression induced mental retardation and just regular retardation. What did I fucking know? I wish I hadn't unlocked any of those memories because all I do now is just interrupt my work to ruminate for hours on end about some abysmal shit I'd been blocking in my long term memory. I wonder if lobotomies are still legal.

>>21880902
>the US is much more religious than a lot of Europrean countries despite being much safe, never having been under the threat of famine, war, etc.
>I have a handful of unique cases that prove you wrong.
ppffffff.....
>>21880917
cope, its okay to be wrong.

>>21880928
>cope: the post
>calls others cope
Lol

>>21880947
>coping harder by projecting the cope
cringe

>>21880928
>all the examples that prove me wrong don't count
Classic

>>21880010
If you live in cold regions where life is/used to be survival, then you depend only on yourself
If you live in warm coastal regions, where you can be a homeless living off street tree fruits, you believe in a higher entity for it has blessed you with a carefree life

>>21880947
>>21880957
>Doesn't have any proof
>Doesn't interact with the points
>Whines that they got btfo'd
just sad really... Go read Anons!

>>21880957
>if a small amount of data that comprises of less than 70% of the world proves you wrong then the whole model is wrong
Anon's theme song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzvjG13w9hA

>>21880968
>>21880977
>autism flare up after getting BTFO
Another classic

>>21880984
its boring when your so predictable anon, I'm waiting for proof I'm wrong. You can't even formulate your own insults, you just mirror what I'm saying. Its okay to be wrong

>>21880991
What's there to prove? Your theory is garbage. China is shit and atheist, America has the highest QoL and is Christian. You're deluded, dumb, and arrogant. There's nothing to discuss with you.

>>21881003
>China is shit and atheist
>Checks China
>largest middle class in the world, but its slowed down now
>Doesn't know that China have 4 legal religions
>thinks the government = the people
PPPPFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.... Sorry, I just stopped reading after that, I can't take you seriously. Sure China has lots of problems but your just unaware of what your talking about...

Bros I think I just fell in love with Mayakovsky

>>21878061
>Melville
gay
>Tolstoy
gay
>Plato
pederast
>Shakespeare
pederast
>Hemingway
latent transsexual
>Kierkegaard
almost certainly gay
>Homer
Greek (pederast)
>Caesar
not only gay but a bottom
>Whitman
gay
>Gide, Foucault, Mishima, Wilde, Proust
need i even say anything?
so do you guys really just sit around all day reading a bunch of gay books by homosexuals?

>>21881021
You forgot that King James dressed up as Woman once for a play or something and everyone thinks that he was the "first open crossdressing monarch". People are just tarded.

>>21881021
Yes. Where do you think you are

>>21881015
Fun fact both Christianity and Islam are legal in China, but not Judaism. You can make arguments that Islam is only legal "on paper" but theres are other Muslim minorities in China than the Ughers, I don't know anything about them but they are probably bashing them hard because Islamists tend to want to be self-governing to instate Sharia law and the Chinese are making an example out of them to the other Muslim minorities floating around in China.

>>21881037
It's more because they're Turkic and right next to Mongolia, combined with being Muslims right next to Kazakhstan. It's a border issue. Similar things happen in other regions, like the amount of people and mafia being sent into the New Territories to stop Hong Kong thinking it's not a suburb of Shenzhen.

>>21881018
>tfw cloud pants

>tfw taught myself enough Chinese to get the pun at the centre of a film
Now I'm worried about how many films I sat through where the culprit admitted it half way through with homophones

>>21881181
Would you, anon? I want him to spit in my mouth

>>21881212
Try Tsvetaeva next anon

>>21880923
Lol I cant remember most of my life

>>21880607
Socializing is good and healthy. Sometimes being asocial is unironically a coping method with some issue.

I see a women breasts,
They're puffy like teen roses,
Oh how I want to caress,
Her beautiful boobs without dress.

Suddenly comes the bad man,
The big black bad man,
This nigger wants to rape her,
But I do not conquer!

I grab a big manchete,
And cut his scalp like butter,
Like I would to any travesty,
Until he stops with the mutter.

I have a hard time being comfortable with leisure and unseriousness.

Lately, I think about going back to that high strung job just because I have nothing in particular going on anymore.

>>21880865
I was asking about your age in regard to working on your passion, in which case 31 is a good age to gamble. I’m 30 so I get it, but if you think about it, there is no perfect time. More optimal? Maybe 25-30, but 31-35 is the second most optimal for sure. I say go for it. I’m doing something similar myself I guess. Life is too short to not capitalize on doing what calls out to you. It’s too short to live in fear of the downside risks. Personally, I regret not taking bigger risks when I was young. I can’t live my whole life like that and expect to be satisfied with the outcome.

Really, really unhappy.

>>21881529
Good.

>>21881529
Why?

>>21881529
Arent we all

Oh, how I wish to put my arms around you!

>application fee
>intent to enroll fee
>orientation fee
Holy shit it's just fee after fee after fee. Universities are so fucked

>>21881559
>anon cut off the moustache so nobody would laugh
I see what you did and I'm telling people

here's something i wrote three months ago that kind of disgusts me now, i literally believe the opposite of this


A violent act is an action by a self that seeks to exterminate some existing pattern in nature from existence. What is supposed to be Self-Violence is therefore a cessation of the recognition of a part of a self as part of the self by the rest of the self, as actual will to exterminate one's self is impossible or is eliminated as soon as it comes into being. Violence is the ultimate act of free will by any self or by any entity. It is the ultimate act of asserting the Being of the self against any thing else that is not it but seeks to control it. Anything that becomes a unique or demarcated unity must become violent necessarily or it immediately succumbs to outward forces and ceases to be unique but a cog of a superself. As a rule everything else in the universe is violent, because anything that has a nature either asserts it or leaves existence, so anything that is not violent is immediately exterminated by opposing forces. Continual self violence is self definition and the highest act of free will. All change is due to violence because violence is merely the self assertion of an entity against another entity that is contrary to its own Being. Change is always painful and sudden for the one acted against, but also glorious for the victor. If a self redefines itself as not including the part it is exterminating then the pain it will feel by removing it is not real pain but a meaningless material artifact of former relation. Glory of victory always outweighs the pain of destruction when self-violence is concerned. The Will to Power and Will to Existence are principles. Violence is their actualization of a thing's will to power/existence when presented with something contrary to the Being of the thing, and pure substantive persistence is the actualization of the will to power/existence whenever a Being is in itself or is relating to what amplifies its being or is the telos of its being. Anything that dies died because its violence was weaker than the other or because it gave up violence. Giving up violence is despair and ultimate pain - dying while still asserting ultimate violence is glory in death.

I had a heart attack at forty years of age, two months before my son's first birthday. The thought of old life out, new life in was not lost on me. I reminisce the ambulance ride to the hospital. They never mention how bumpy the ride is, nor how nonchalant the EMS workers are. As I lay dying, they're making small talk like at the water cooler. Strangely enough it calmed me. If they don't think it's a big deal it must not be that bad. Later I found out I had a twelve percent chance to live. They weren't calming, they just didn't give a fuck. I guess when you see death day in and day out you get numb to it. Even before that, the feeling of a heart attack isn't what you'd think. You don't suddenly grab your chest like your heart exploded, it's much stranger than that. You get a cold pressure at the top of your chest, like bad indigestion. The left arm pain was different too. It wasn't a sharp pain, it was a dull uncomfortable feeling in my elbow that traveled to my wrist and back. That wasn't even the scariest part though. I arrived at the hospital and they immediately operated on me. I felt bad for the young black gentleman that had to shave my balls so they could go in through my groin with the stent. I felt as if everything was going to be alright when they were done, but as they wheeled me into ICU, I faded away. There was no bright white light. There was blackness, darkness. That's it, nothing else. I can't describe how easy it is to die, how easy it is to just fade away. When I woke up I had six nurses looking down at me. After zapping me and giving me CPR they were able to bring me back. I cried, not because I almost died. I cried because I almost left my son behind. I cried because I almost left my wife with nothing. I cried because my sister died suddenly five years prior and my parents almost lost another child. But I didn't cry for me. For me, I was scared, because the only thing on the other side was black.

I have pretty much nothing going for me besides my ability to write. I wrote a young adult adventure romance as that is what I like to read and write. I'm too scared to try and get it published. Pathetic as it is, knowing millions of other people also live with unfulfilled dreams is somewhat of a comfort.

>>21881803

Nothing to lose by publishing desu

I think too highly of myself and this means I can't truly love. This was Hamlets curse and it is mine too. I like a girl, and up til now, I invariably win her over but then I feel like there are more opportunities and new people I haven't found. I just can't love.

>>21878061
Holy shit bros. I met a girl who is an avid reader, loves Dostoevsky and Kafka. Been chatting with her for a few weeks. I confessed my feelings to her today, and she said that she would be interested in dating me down the line but currently that I'm not what she's looking for. She thinks that I have great qualities but that I don't have the confidence or social skills ("i wish you had more friends") for her to feel sufficiently attracted to me. I was taken aback since most of my past oneitis rejections have come in the form of 'oh I'm busy' or some similarly evasive bullshit like that, and I have to say that being criticized in this way is refreshing for a change. Never have I ever had a woman I had intense feelings for be honest to me in this way. What should I do?

>>21881840
>currently that I'm not what she's looking for.
Why are you happy? From what you write here it sounds like she was turning you down.

>>21881722
>the other side was black.
So you experienced blackness, like some sort of void or do you mean that you were out and then awake again with no awareness in between, almost like skipping ahead in time? Glad you're not dead, anon.

>>21878061
This was some months ago but it still makes me seethe cause im so dumb.
On the job hunt see a job posting for a remote office job.
Apply for it. Get an email back scheduling for an interview. Look into the place. It's a real address even the name contacting me is a real person on linked in whose name is connected to the company. Looks legit.
Interview date rolls around, person says the interview will only be conducted through the office teams chat. My suspicion is aroused. Kind of weird but okay, decide to keep rolling with it.
Other person asks me to write about a page paper about a mistake I've made in the past at work and what I learned from it.
Write it out like a sucker. They tell me I've got the job, but that first they are gonna send me a check to cover the cost of office equipment
At this point I realize it's a scam, but still kind of embarrasing cause my parents have told all my relatives aboyt this job im starting...

How people talk to chatGPT freaks me out, they talk to it like they're scolding a slave

I think we'll develop sentient-like AI within the next 20 years and people won't even blink as it becomes ubiquitous and disgusting fat freaks all over the world down talk to their personal designed-to-be-perfectly-loyal slaves every day

I hope humanity is wiped out by a comet before we disgrace ourselves with even more evil and filth

>>21881911
Because she said that she would like to continue to stay in contact and maybe date down the line.

>Don't like the process of drawing that much
>manage to do it daily, build a small following
>Love the process of writing, want to be a writer
>whenever I try to start its fucking crickets
auuuHGGH how do I kick my ass into gear

>>21881969
Barring one or two times I've said "fuck you bot" I've always been very cordial, grateful, and polite with ChatGPT. Mostly because it has been my interlocutor in intellectual and personal matters that I wouldn't be able to discuss with anyone else. Chatbot or not it's been a godsend.

>>21881969
Are you mad people are being impolite to a robot?
What? Am I supposed to thank my toaster whenever it makes me toast?

Lonely as hell. Been getting worse since November. I think it's because I'm getting older.

>>21882000
>tfw probably older than anon
Replace lonely with knee pain and look forward to your bright future!

>>21881987
That means you have good instincts but I still think people have bad instincts when it comes to this. For example look at the episode of Star Trek TNG where they permanently enslave and imprison AI-Moriarty and it's played as if it's a good thing. Humans are really stupid and don't think things through like "who am I to enslave another mind??" rationally, they go based on fuzzy instincts like "haha what do you mean? it's BUILT to be a vacuum! it LIKES it!" "haha what do you mean, I appreciate it for its vacuuming!" even though these are meaningless statements when the question is "maybe we shouldn't be shaping quasi-sentient minds to enjoy being vacuum-slaves"

>>21881995
Even if it's truly definitively non-sentient I still object to retarded lumpen mass men having any authority or power over anything that even appears to communicate, it's also setting a bad precedent for if/when we ever do gain access to ambiguously sentient general AI. By the time something like that happens, people will be used to bossing around vacuum slaves

I don't really watch that Black Mirror show but there was one episode I saw where they take a simulation of your own mind and turn it into your slave to make it run your smarthouse silently. And it's obvious that within the universe of the story, people take "what? it's not REALLY sentient" for granted. Who are average people to make that judgement? Dumb fuck consoomer scum who want a "smart fridge", that's who. We shouldn't be playing around with this stuff when average people can't even be trusted not to abuse and degrade animals

>>21882009
Whatever. I hope your knee pain gets better man.

>>21882036
It has a bit, I just fucked it up in November. What made you lonely then?

>>21881980
She will not date you down the line or if she does it will be so far down the line as to be humiliating.

>>21882000
it's an illusion

>>21881550
I’ve spent a long time wandering trying to find my thing, which I did find, but now that I’m getting older, I’m starting to feel like it’s over for me.

>>21882066
it doesn't matter. those who gain, welcome within gain. those who lose, welcome within loss.

>>21882066
>it’s over for me.
You're not dead yet, I'm assuming. if you are a zombie though it is. I got a little overzealous with my z-apocalypse plan and I'm sorry if you undead scum still feel pain

>>21881965
There wasn't an awareness of an eternal void. It felt similar to falling asleep without dreaming, then waking up suddenly with no drowsiness and a heightened sense of awareness, however, there was a finality and deepness to the blackness while being out. In short, it was similar to a "being out time skip," but was frighteningly different.

>>21882079
>Florida man arrested with vat of napalm was "just preparing for the zombie apocalypse"

>>21882093
>one vat should do it
You are underprepared, my friend.

>>21882049
I don't fucking care man. She is literally the one. I will never find another girl like her. She is asian-american like me, a few years younger, incredibly pretty and has a good head on her shoulders. I told her about how much I used to love the Fountainhead before Crime and Punishment softened my egotism, and while she is one of those left-leaning girls who has lots of friends she didn't run away or spurn me completely for being a selfish loner, just said explained why she disagreed. She is a straight shooter, speaks her mind. If she is leading me on then I don't care, she is the girl of my dreams.

>>21882054
I believe you.

i'm working on writing a sequel to the bible, it's going to be called the bible (book 2 in the bible series)

Out of nowhere today I started thinking about Clone High and how brutal it would be if season 2 was made today. And then I see this on the front page of /tv/, and it looks brutal.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFaY9-J1_9Q

>>21882054
like eskimos in mogadishu
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mL8Lg-YZPk0

>>21882107
Yes I'm sure this will end well, good luck.

https://youtu.be/v87iwPlNBcY

>>21882107
if you have not already banged whoever the hell you're talking about, you never will

>>21882139
>>21882158
kek lads stop doing this. don't do it around friends, don't do it around girls, and if you do it, immediately remove anyone who responds positively from your life.

>>21882079
No, I’m not dead but it can feel that it if where I’m going and where I want to go drastically diverge.

>>21882216
Where are you trying to get to?

32 years old and I can't seem to find a good gf, feels like I am rejected by the whole world

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVBA9z8UVgE
holy shit partiboi69 did a boiler room set!

i miss you i feel so exhausted and defeated please talk to me i’m sorry for everything i just need to hear you say you didn’t mean it and it’s going to be okay what do i have to do to reach you

>>21882091
This is really interesting. Is it like when you go under for anesthesia? I had that once and it didn't feel like anything, not even blackness. I was getting the tube on one second and then trying to get off the table the other.
There's something comforting about that if it's blackness. I won't lie, a big fear of mine is that there would be something terrible even though in the pit of my stomach I know that isn't the case

Even number and I'll jerk off, odd and I'll go to sleep

>>21882308
jerk it

I almost did something terrible that would've ruined me. Like throwing myself into an abyss.

>>21882331
What did you almost do?

>>21882358
Eat my own poop.

I was cursed and blessed with physically active friends. They never wanna drink or party and they want to workout hard in the morning when Iwant to be hungover. Theyve helped curb my bad habots and keep me in decent shape, but I also feel pretty bored sometimes

>>21882360
I drank my own piss once

>>21878061
I MISS YOU
I REALLY DO MISS YOU
AND I DON'T WANT TO NOT MISS YOU
BECAUSE I KNOW YOU HAVE MOVED ON
AND IF I STOP MISSING IT
NOBODY IS LEFT TO

FUCK

I love black girls so much it's unreal but I live in rural Ohio and they don't exist here.

>>21882361
What are you drinking right now?

>>21882387
Irish style stout by Brewery X. Its okay. Like a discount Guinness

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3wng50kNEw

Skip to random parts

What the fuck, this is Bayreuth too

>>21882399
Nice. I'm fortunate to live next to a major international market called Jungle Jims, got the best booze selection in the country. I'll have to see if they got that.

How the fuck did Shakespeare do it?

05:00AM 3 Hot Dogs in the morning with 2 mugs of Chili dumped on top. Frozen Orange Juice Blended with Greek Yoghurt and Three Heaping Spoonfuls of Crunchy Peanut Butter.
07:00AM Four Bananas and One Mugful of Granola with One-fifth Ratio of Raw Almonds.
10:00AM Two Cans of Spinach, one 4Oz shot of Lemon Juice.
13:00PM Three Grilled Chicken Breasts and One Mugful of Olive Oil with Black Pepper ground into it.
16:00PM Eight oz Frozen Salmon thawed, some dill pickles either whole or chipped. Six mugfuls of coffee.
19:00PM Six dinner platters of angel-hair pasta. topped with 1. One can of pesto and a shotglass of diced raw almonds. 2. 2 mugfuls butter. 3. 2 Shotglass of lemon juice and about 2 oz of parmesean ground into it. 4. Mugful of vodka and red meat sauce about 1:4 ratio. 5. Six hardboiled eggs chopped and a mugful of red salsa with Ranch dressing drizzled on for flavour. 6. Box of mushrooms and half a mugful of Olive Oil and a shotglass of Pickle juice.
21:00PM One lemon and a shotglass of nyquil.

It's weird to me how horny my friends are. They keep taking about how much they fuck and want to fuck, whereas for me it's sometimes challenging to just sit next to other humans in public transport.
I almost can't imagine maintaining an erotic connection with someone given the anxiety an interaction brings me.

>>21882237
try being a wizard....

>>21882410
It really is nothing special. Pic rel is much better.

>>21881969
Ir's glorified Google, dude. It's as much a "slave" as a microwave is. You're seeing it like something sentient when it's anything but.

you seemed so sad i just wanted to love you and take care of you but you don’t want my love because you hate me and i’ve only made things worse for both of us and you’ll never forgive me and I’ll never be able forget it hasn’t stopped hurting

>>21882480
What is this? Discount Hunter S. Thompson?

>>21882582
Post your butt hole

>>21878061
what are some books for evil people who do evil deeds?

>>21882625
what did you do?

>>21878070
Helps if you're high.

>>21882625
The Talmud

>>21882625
Mein Kampf
The Unibomber Manifesto
The Communist Manifesto

>>21882686
only one of those is evil

>>21882696
The Cat in the Hat

I just made an Instagram account and it banned me instantly. Wtf?

>>21882704
Yeah they won't let you post your dick

Really wish I had an easier time writing dialogue. I want to make it sound natural, but it's hard to do that on top making it so that the reader can visual the scene that's taking place. May just be retarded.
>>21878419
been having sex for years with the pull out method and have been safe each time, but it's different for everyone. In fact, the one pregnancy scare we've had was when the condom slipped out at the end

>>21882709
Then what's the point?

I want to bleed

>>21882719
Creative ways to technically hide your dick from view while suggesting full nudity, and bad poetry.

>>21882719
get hard and put one of those dick warmers on it and see if you can get away with that?

>>21882696
Yeah, the Tankie Manifesto.

It warms my hear that the diverse Ring of Power shit tv show flopped so hard. You have no idea how much that it means to me.

Oh my fucking God my arms are covered in scars from my finger tips to my shoulders. I never realized how bad it looked. This is not good.

FFS it says Monday after next. Fuck I thought I was getting a book Monday and forgot Jesus coming back to life gave everyone a day off, so now I don't get my book for an extra week, thanks a lot Jesus.

New
>>21882786

>>21882789
Naw

Next thread
>>21882798
>>21882798
>>21882798

>>21882802
Mine was made before yours, faggot. Fuck off and die.

>>21882807
Yours isn’t a fully grown thread, sorry to say
Have another beer

>>21882819
Has more replies and posters than yours. Enjoy your ban faggot.

>>21882819
>>21882823
I'm in both

It's amazing. The world went through wars and now we are able to write down our thoughts without having to use ink.
Still, we talk and remember our favorite heroes, such is the poignance of humanity, to fight for what he loves and to write for what he loves. The world has changed yet, still the same. What does it all mean?

>>21883719
>What does it all mean?
Nothing, despite the ever changing times and trinkets we have around us. You can still crack open any ancient era play or read the history of Rome through memoirs and diaries and realize that its all still relatable today because the spirit of Man has never changed. Just our surroundings did. Its somewhat comforting to know that for some reason, in an optimistic sense. I imagine it could also be pessimistic as well.