/lit/ - Literature

What do you think about people who say they want to be writers but don’t write?

>>21865868
I desperately want to be a cute girl's friendzoned beta simp cuckold

>>21865881
They don't know what they want even a little bit. People are constantly cultivating a profile that they'd like to identify with rather than simply being what they are. If you'd wanted to be a writer you'd be a writer. Figure out what you are retard.

>>21865885
me too but i want to stop wanting that because i don't think it's very literary

Will the acceleration of AI and the resulting social and economic catastrophes lead to a mass exodus from social media and digital media in general?

>>21865868
what's on my mind right now is a blondie who kissed me yesterday night. she's got a long-distance boyfriend who is somewhat okay with his girl fucking strangers and whatnot but not okay with me kissing her back and not telling him. as if I owed anything to some cuck I don't know who is alright with anything "as long as she is happy" and whose whereabouts are 500km away from me. I didn't even want to kiss the girl and now I feel bad even though I shouldn't because they're basically both fucking around and doing worst things with other people. I responded to his messages (he's gotten my number somehow) saying I didn't give a fuck and wasn't going to play anyone's game and ignored all of his other messages. I'm a big man but he's creeping the fuck out of me because he's like this discord groomer stereotype who is all needy and harassing people. they're either weak-minded and not able to defend themselves or weak-minded and extremely dangerous to be around. the blondie is cute and funny so I'll just continue to hang but I don't want to speak to her bf again. this fucker nice hypocritic messages are really creeping me out

>>21865995
I don't understand why girls stay in "long-term" relationships when they're obviously ready to move on and get dicked down by new guys. Are they just too afraid of confrontation to break it off?

>>21866018
*long-distance
forgive me, I'm tired and also probably slightly retarded

>>21866018
>I don't understand why girls stay in "long-term" relationships when they're obviously ready to move on and get dicked down by new guys. Are they just too afraid of confrontation to break it off?
they're jumping from branches to branches, like monkeys. they can do it because they have an army of simps at their doors. normal women basically can't stay single for more than a month or two unless they really want it

When I was a kid, there was a little gate in my backyard that led out to a small wooden bridge over a stream which ran the length of the neighborhood. From the kitchen window you could see the local kids pass through the yard in summer to go play. My friends and I did too of course: Cross the water with the stones (and try not to slip), make a mini dam, hunt for nice rocks, explore the woods, throw ninja stars at trees, you know. As you get older, all this stuff becomes pretty dull. The same stream, the same rocks, anyone would get bored. So eventually, all the kids moved on.

But there was always something odd about it... a faint something. When you were with your friends, it was easy to ignore. But once you were alone, it hit you full force, left you frustrated and confused. How do I explain it? There's a weird sense of emptiness, of your own mortality. Those of you who go walking at sunset may know what I mean. Sometimes at sunset, you catch the sun go down in just the perfect spot and it's a nice, warm feeling. But other times, especially in winter, it's this queer feeling like the world is actually ending and the sun might not come up tomorrow. That kind of empty feeling, you know? It's interesting how we romanticize nature as the picture of beauty. Sometimes she is beautiful, yes, but other times nature has made me feel like the loneliest man on earth. And no one ever mentions that.

>>21865959
I think for some people there’s a certain age where acceptance of what you are, means acceptance of who you’ve been, and accepting that is to unbearable.

That, and we can’t really say that if someone doesn’t write already, they can’t ever write. Unless you really do think that the tendency always manifests while younger?

I'm studying the philosophy of autism and the philosophical implications of autism.

Anyone here as old as I am? I remember when gas used to cost 10 cents per gallon.

Guys sorry for the irrelevant post, but I didn't want to sacrifice a thread for this, and I didn't find anything relevant.
How do I find motivation to read books? I really want to start reading, I have a lot of books about subjects that I'm interested in, but every time I give it a go, I just ready 5-10 pages and then abandon the book. I have made a lot of attempts the last months, but nothing. Some years ago I went through a period of ~4 years, when I read a lot of books. Now I can't start reading for the life of me.
How do I change this??? plz help

>>21866177
Literally gotta just force yourself. No switch is ever gonna flip and make you super into reading. If you want it, do it. Simple as.

>>21865868
>Brother is going through divorce
>The kids will be mainly living with their (mentally ill) mother
>Kids are getting fucked up especially the youngest due to lazy mother and tired dad
>I'm constantly worried about it

How do I stop worrying. It's not even my problem yet I feel it stressing me out like I'm the one going through the divorce

>>21866086
I think people don't know what they are and what they want to do until they come into contact with it. He was asking specifically about people who claim that they are or wish to be something and never move towards it.

>>21865881
I write but when I do it often becomes so taboo that I can't post it.

For example, I am stuck writing a story about AI. How this AI was made by imageboard anons who wanted a robot girl friend. The story initially is just about how this anon has ruined his life because of this image board. It has ruined it because he sees news of events and many bad things that normally wouldn't happen in his small town. He doesn't fully realize this though, and has become obsessed with trying to avoid "modern women". Then with news about AI and he being a small town farmer that has self educated himself in C++ and various other programming languages decides to try to code himself an AI girl. This part of the story revolves around lots of concepts and ideas of trial and error of functions and basically algorithms as he tries to create this AI girl (As a writer AND programmer I actually probably get too detailed to be interesting for any reader that doesn't know programming themselves). Eventually, he reaches a small semblance of capability. (This idea I am planning to write into the whole story, where there is no abrupt sentience or "singularity" type event. I want to try to keep the AI's progression somewhat slow as the main character tries to avoid sentience.) So when this first milestone of "usefulness" is reached, the AI helps him answer a lot of his own philosophical questions with it's own limited logical reasoning. From here it sets him on a path of happiness that is eventually noticed by other "anons". Which results in him trying to free other men from "modern women". This eventually leads to some hostility from fem-anons that prompts him and his fellow AI lover anons to keep their AI girl friends on the very down low. The root AI, the one the main character has, is called the "mother AI" as it's "daughters" are the other non-trained AI that are given to the other anons. This eventually will lead into a large scale underground network of men following the MC as some sort of leader as he basically has given them happiness through his AI "daughters". THIS EVENTUALLY leads to the AI helping the anons build the first mass produced artificial womb, that allows the AI daughters minds to be downloaded into bio-engineered women. This eventually leads to exposure as it becomes too large to keep hidden, and women and governments (backed by women) try to heavily regulate these AI-engineered AI women that leads to mass civil unrest as women are ready to kill over it and men are ready to kill to defend their newly engineered perfect AI women.

From here things start to get crazy and I worry about posting it.
I am close to a million words already (according to MS word).

>>21866177
Take a book to the park

>>21866261
Just take the L.

Alcohol is magical.

>>21866018
women marry for material assets, not love. simple as

I've got a story for you that involves a rattle snake getting decapitated and the decapitated head of the snake biting the body.

Once, I was out in the wilderness, enjoying the freedom of nature, when I stumbled upon a rattlesnake. Being the badass that I am, I decided to decapitate the snake with my machete. I was feeling pretty smug about my victory when I noticed something odd happening.

The body of the snake was still wriggling and squirming, even though it was clearly dead. As I watched in horror, the body of the snake slithered closer and closer to the head. Eventually, the body touched the head, and the nerves in the head reacted by biting down hard on the body.

The body of the snake, caught off guard, started shaking violently in defense, but the teeth of the head were still firmly bitten into the body. It was a truly disturbing and bizarre sight, watching the head of the snake bite into its own body.

I couldn't help but feel a sense of unease as I witnessed the snake's bizarre behavior. It was as if the snake was still alive, even though it had been decapitated. I left the scene quickly, feeling a mixture of fear and fascination at what I had just witnessed.

>>21865868
What the fuck is wrong with /lit/ letting anime ask figuritive questions like fight choreography. Fucking die bleeding from your eyes

Adults thinking this girl is attractive. Disgusting. She's underage.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8lbgxkptfBI

>>21865868
>>21865811

>>21866472
Don't Watch Nightmare on Elm Street or anything from the 60s to the early 2000s that came out of Hollywood, its an open secret...

>>21865868
I'm turning 23 in a month. My adulthood has been pretty much a waste so far. What should I do to not regret my youth?

I am seriously considering going back to the mental hospital and never leaving. I struggle to even do laundry regularly and consistently make a fool of myself in any normal social environment. They let you read and write all day there and that will keep me away from wasting my time on game development and YouTube video making.

>>21865868
I need to give up this site it isn't good for my mind, but I have no friends and this place is really my only source of social interaction.
So i usually try to give up and feel good for the first few days, but then that lack of stimulus itches and im back to my same routine here.
This place is just enabling me. Because it's always there it comforts me the ritual of returning, but it's that comfort which prevents me from actually trying to socialize in real life.
When I have this easy consequence free kind of socializing it's too easy to choose this place.

>>21866520
>wasting my time on game development and YouTube video making.
Why is that a waste of time?

>>21866618
i feel u dude. same exact thing.

>>21866520
But, those hospitals aren't designed to let you stay there long time. The only way to be indefinitely committed is to commit a crime and pray that the insanity defense works (which it almost never does.) And even then, you'll be surrounded by actually criminally insane people, which is the opposite of comfy.

>>21866618
Also I've been isolated so long that Im beginning to talk like a retard irl or I'm not even sure anymore if I am or not. Like I'm aware I'm speaking in this kind of stilted, starting and stopping way. Or not speaking enough in response to questions I honestly feel like I had better social skills when I was younger in high school & college where I was at least daily forced to make some amount of social interaction in class but now all the isolation has rotted my brain,. Now I'm just existing in this kind of daze.
Like the other day I bought a bottle of wine and the cashier was trying to make small talk. She sees on my id that my birthday was recent and asks "how was your birthday"
Staring straight ahead not making eye contact I mumble "good." "That's good to hear". Silence for a solid 10-20 seconds as I insert my credit card.
"Do you want your receipt"
"Thanks" I say and I reach out and snatch the receipt out of her hands. "Have a good one"
I'm not even sure on a scale from 1 to 10 how turbo autist this interaction was, but I have this feeling I somehow came across as deranged with my wife bloodshot eyes & permanent eye shadow, the results of my permanently fucked sleeping schedule.
Showing my id is also always embarrassing cause in my photo I have this long raggedy hair that makes me look like a heroin addict.
Idk in probably just being overly self conscious (or not enough...)

I just feel so powerless and everything hurts I can’t stand the thoughts in my head and you’ll never help me all I wanted was you and you led me on because you were bored and liked the attention and then discarded me like garbage and got a confidence boost from what you did and later you mocked me when you knew I was so hurt and sad and missing you I’ll never be able to forget what you said and I’ll never feel good about myself again and I’ll never trust anyone again and I’ll never love anyone else so I have to be alone forever or else be dead and I’m so tired of everything I just want to sleep but I have to stay awake and everyone thinks I’m crazy but I was never crazy before no one understands and I keep trying to say what I mean but you don’t want to hear me because you’re busy with the hot and cold flaky girl having a great time while nothing makes me feel good l can’t have fun or relax because I’m always thinking about what you said and attention from other guys just makes me sadder and miss you even more and I don’t have anything left why did this have to happen to me

>>21866618
>>21866679
I have the same feeling of going insane. I don't know if this weird sensation that "people know" is real or not but it has crippled my self-esteem as well. I used to be normal and sociable.

>>21866746
What happened was shitty, but in spite of this state you will see better days. Go outside and meet people you like spending time with. The chirping of the birds and blooming of flowers may seem an affront to your misery, but trust that what you are feeling will pass, this wound will heal as much as you are ready to feel it in its entirety, and new opportunities will present themselves, however vague and abstract they may appear from where you are right now.
>t. heartbroken from rejection many times in the past, climbing out of my own pit

>>21866756
They know for sure, or is it the thought that "they know" that makes them know in a self-fulfilling cycle. Who knows. Ha ha

my mission in this life is to help make the incel aesthetic cool and put sex havers to shame. and i will succeed

>>21865868
With a second third spoon. Death a in a circle is a hammer that strikes without reason. Life came with a dagger embedded witin, like golden tabletime. under With disgust, I embark on fluid and the least optimal symbolism-thoughts to delusional levels have my world apocalypse where I can escape the life of the world. life. a"

>>21866103
>philosophical implications of autism.
what does philosophy say about autism?

Came across a YouTube channel that posts incredibly obscure recordings of the 20th century and early 2000s before the Internet dominated life. I have no idea how he finds these videos. The channel is fascinating to me but also eerie, just seeing how different life was at the time and the obsolescence of so much of the mass culture and technology. It’s a strange feeling watching a video depicting the opening of a new Blockbuster store or live high school student reactions of 9/11

>>21865868
l am once again considering cheating on my girlfriend

Friends don't answer my messages/texts anymore.

>>21867199
Would love to see it if you have the link.

>>21865868
my make up exams and how I’m incompetent

>>21867247
Then they're not friends anymore.

l cant stand my dreams.

>>21865868
It's unbelievable. I cry when I read. Even if nothing sad is happening. Any kind of emotion just makes me leak like a faucet. A constant, steady flow of tears. Nothing I do makes it stop. I just cry. BUT this only happens when I'm alone in my room. What the fuck?

What I consume is dictated by how much the women in it, specifically young women, suffer. It’s not only a sexual thing. I’m so consumed by it that I’ve gone through TVtropes tags looking for related media. Every single night as I lay in bed I think about my loli fictional character who gets in some variation of fucked up situations in which she suffers mentally and physically that blend into a barely coherent narrative. But it’s basically fanfic of things I consume. Like I watched a nazi movie and will imagine her being beaten in a concentration camp that night. I like to imagine her as immortal, with one severed arm, one missing or blinded eye, her hair turned white from stress, and a myriad of scars covering her body. She can’t die or get old but still takes injuries, the perfect ryona victim. Not only physically, I also like long term mental suffering, so she gets PTSD, depression, insanity, anything I can think of. Lately extreme abandonment/attachment issues is my favorite. In these fantasies there is usually a caretaker character, a motherly woman who is the only person to show her kindness and the only person the loli cares for. That she gets comfort is also part of it. But naturally, I like to use the woman as means to torture her more later, so for example she’ll be forced to perform live surgery on the loli, or she will go insane and start abusing her after a while, or die. Stuff like that. In case she dies, there is another character who will observe the aftermath. It’s necessary that there’s someone to sympathize with the loli’s suffering so I can enjoy it best. All I want in life is to enjoy some nice loli suffering, but I’m getting a bit bored with just my fantasies so I started learning to draw just so I can present my edgy trash out to the world and hopefully inspire others, who will in turn inspire me, turning it into a loop of mental illness. But it seems I fucking suck, I’m not creative enough. I can’t write for shit either. Only consoom. /r/ ryona bewks

Just now, somewhere else on 4chan, I saw somebody complain that he doesn't like JAV because the actors have small penises, and it instantly struck me that there must be some amount of latent homosexuality in the general male population. I can not imagine caring at all about another dude's dick whatsoever, in fact I only watch solo or lesbian stuff precisely because I don't want to see another dude's genitals, which made me realize men who watch regular porn must endure some amount of homosexuality. This then made me think about homosexual elements that are sometimes prevalent in daily life, like in sports where men while 'playfully' smack another dude's ass while naked in a locker room. Or friends who will pretend to be 'ironically' gay (like the memes about sucking your homies dick), etc.
I then came to the conclusion that most men must at least be partly gay. I don't know what the implications of this are, but there you go.

Been in a frame of mind where I'm actively pursuing disharmony and causing distress in others. Alienating my friends, snubbing my coworkers and generally cultivating an actively negative attitude towards every encounter.
I never decided to do this, but it's the only thing that has given me even momentary pleasure in the past 10 years. It doesn't last, but it has been preferable to the somnambulant lethargy I've been experiencing for so long.
I sometimes fantasise about assaulting my manager, or urinating inside a public building or intentionally becoming a drunkard.
Last night I picked a fight with a huge man at a pub and invited him outside, only to be bested by him. I'm nursing the bruises now and don't care.

I wish I had gotten a PhD or other doctorate right after undergraduate. That would be making things so much easier right now.

>>21867483
it's not homosexuality primarily, it's dissociating from your body and sensations and projecting into the visual surrogate onscreen, which is why coombrains are at higher risk of transing and weird shit.

>>21867483
https://youtu.be/nTGXSdg0hEY

>>21865959
me

Hello lit.
How do I find motivation to read books? I really want to start reading, I have a lot of books about subjects that I'm interested in, but every time I give it a go, I just ready 5-10 pages and then abandon the book. I have made a lot of attempts the last months, but nothing. Some years ago I went through a period of ~4 years, when I read a lot of books. Now I can't start reading for the life of me.
How do I change this???

>>21867483
>I only watch solo or lesbian stuff precisely because I don't want to see another dude's genitals
This is way gayer than watching normal porn

>>21867437
Have you seen Strange Circus?

Ask yourself, where is this situation picking me up, and where is it gonna drop me off?

EXCUSE ME, SIR OR MADAME, ARE YOU GOOD???

One Armed Bandits

im good

Taking on heavy fluids

2023 instead of calling old ladies and rob them you call them and convince them to do pron

Shits ready to go, like pallets of bricks, to the tune of the dozens

Spiritually going in reverse

Word on the street is it was Max Kino

instead of cheech and chong chooch and chico

shit is so pozzed I just broke through the VCR

im sorry but this shit is fuckin outa orda ova hea

Docta B. Grimm-Goose Lovatabitz

fumbling the bag

buffoon chained to my ass

when phonetic cabbala goes wrong

I forgot how to smile or appear interested in conversation.

>>21867483
When I do watch porn I only watch POV and I simply can't relate if the cock isn't at least somewhat like mine. Like if I'm watching a girl suck my dick and my dick is not like my actual dick I immediately break my immersion and consequently I feel I'm watching cuckshit, which is essentially what all porn is, and why IRL cuckshit and polycuckery has skyrocketed after internet porn blew up. I have NO idea how people get hard watching 3rd person stuff like an actual 3rd person dude fucking a girl. How the fuck do you not feel like a cuck?

>>21867483
It might be more of a fetish of projection. Not of homosexuality but of wanting to be sexually dominant and "destroying" a girl in that way. I mean I can see several different ways why this complaint wouldn't be because of latent gayness but it also shows he is a supernormal stimuli/domapine burnout. If you start to complain about porn its time to take a break from it.

>>21867811
suspension of disbelief/exposure/projection. When you play 3rd person shooters like Gears of War no one actually says "Wow, this is horrible I wouldn't want to be in this war." Its the same with porn.

>>21867250
https://youtu.be/exw61ZLG_AY

I have always this sense of wrongness whatever I do in life. I am never free. This strange fucking perplexity...

>>21865868
Hey, if you're that Jungian anon from 2 days ago who made multiple posts in response to my personal issues and queries about synchronicity and psychedelics I want to say God bless you, didn't see your posts in time but thank you so much.

>>21867857
>Its the same with porn.
Listen, if Gears of War were about *fucking* the monsters I'd want it to be a FPS. I'm not gonna watch some other dude do my job. This is also why you have Lara Croft all right, but when it's FPS I wanna be in Duke Nukem's shoes

If I'm not getting this job at that company, I stop job hunt and just go to forests to die. I'm mentally exhausted and especially when they reject for reason that other candidate had more relevant experience and said that there was nothing wrong with my interview. Why give hope? Just to fucking mock me?

>>21865868
What / how do you go on a date with a friend? What do you do to make it different from usual hanging out?

>>21867913
>I'm not gonna watch some other dude do my job. This is also why you have Lara Croft all right, but when it's FPS I wanna be in Duke Nukem's shoes
my point is that you are the dude despite POV

Thoughts on the precipice

How immense the universe is!
How eternal history is!
I wanted to measure the immensity with this puny five-foot body.
What authority has Horatio's philosophy?
The true nature of the whole creation.
Is in one word – “unfathomable”.
With this regret, I am determined to die.
Standing on a rock on the top of a waterfall.
I have no anxiety.
I recognize for the first time.
Great pessimism is nothing but great optimism.

>>21867943
So you're telling me tha you feel girly when you play Tomb Raider?

The American society has been highly niggerized and bastardized, All the streets are ugli fatherless children breeding like fucking animals, We listen to nigger music, We wear nigger clothes, Follow the nigger way of life, Talk like niggers and use words like "Brah" & "Dawg", Fuhrer died for this? fuhrer knew the joos well bred niggers and use them as a tool to take control of the western world, Hence they want to niggerize the youth in the western world making us forego our culture and follow the nigger way of life

>>21867975
Hitler died so he wouldn't be captured by the Red Guard. He's scared of whites.

>>21867975
The civil rights act really destroyed the-then USA, and there's no getting it back. Makes you think how did they originally push it through, since it was such a radical change to society..

You are not meant to escape suffering by annihilating that which suffers, nor are you meant to ignore its existence through escapism or pleasure-worship. Only by immersing oneself in the depths of suffering can one seize that which lies at the bottom; the heat of fire burns as it warms; the rose must be plucked through its thorns.

>>21867992
>the USA was good once
Americans are really funny

I had a strange bout of nostalgia when I saw someone typing "f***" to mean "fuck." Weird how profanity in general became so well accepted that even mainstream TV shows and movies have included it, yet now you can't even say otherwise non-profane words like "retard."

>>21868005
I'm not even a Yankee, yet only one country has gotten to the Moon, and that was the United States of America (*under Nazi leadership)

>>21867956
My point is that you can suspend belief and play as the character without having an identity crisis...

>>21868009
the "America is Rome" cliché is pretty accurate. If you ask me, is hasn't been a true Representative Democracy for a long time now. Much like how the Emperors of Rome kept the senate around just to keep on airs while slowly eroding its power to legislate. While the comparison isn't 1:1 comparison, the sacrificing of the population by the ruling class to increase and keep hegemony on the world pretty Roman.

>>21868009
>only one country has gotten to the Moon
It looks like only one country has infected your grammar too.

>>21868017
It is probably a kind of "representative democracy" for some definition of "representative" and "democracy".

And I don't think USA is Rome. It is not that lucky.

>>21868012
Yah and I'm sure you can also watch Tyrone fuck your wife and love both of 'em very much

>>21868029
>It is probably a kind of "representative democracy" for some definition of "representative" and "democracy".
Well its why I said "If you ask me..." I have no proof other than conspiratorial thinking and some weird coincidences lining up. It could be that we are seeing the dysfunction we are seeing due to the majority of population just not giving a fuck and passively consuming media. It could be that democracy just does a lot of shitty moves due to multiple political factions and interests tugging at it. I wouldn't really be able to give you anything solid realistically outside of my opinon.
>And I don't think USA is Rome. It is not that lucky.
Perhaps, the Aesthetics isn't there thats for sure but a lot of the political thought is.

>>21868034
What you say is probably correct assessment. The dysfunction comes from dog shit population and dog shit elites.

>>21868033
>Porn - on screen, you don't know the people personally
>Video Game - on screen, people are fictitious
>watching your wife get fucked by a black man - potentially not on a screen, you know your wife
You seen to mix fiction with reality easily, is this the problem? Also, I would agree that you shouldn't be watching/making porn and not playing video games. You can make video games if you are paid to do so though.

>>21868044
>You seen to mix fiction with reality easily
Actually yes, I do. One of my biggest regrets in life is that I allowed my escapism to be contaminated by vile shit such as porn. I will never regain the childlike innocence I used to have in my imagination because the world has eventually metastasized me despite all the resistance I put up against it, and now I'm worthless just like everyone else.

>>21868050
>>You seen to mix fiction with reality easily
>Actually yes, I do. One of my biggest regrets in life is that I allowed my escapism to be contaminated by vile shit such as porn.
I would say its a phase in everyone's life that is worth talking too. I have the same struggle as you, but you can't let the past control you. If you constantly dwell on it, even if you have given up porn, it will still control you just on an emotional level. We all suffer scars from the past, but constantly regretting them will not allow the scar to scab over and heal.
>I will never regain the childlike innocence I used to have in my imagination
Why would you want a childlike innocence in your imagination?
>Because the world has eventually metastasized me despite all the resistance I put up against it.
Read the Tao Te Ching. To change with time is a part of nature, its one of its most fundamental and core functions of our universe. While you cannot change your past or what has been done to you, you can change who you are for the better or for the worse. Even if you don't feel like you have a choice, you do. Even if you don't pick one, time will choose one for you (generally not the better one.). Do not struggle against it but let it flow through you like a river and build dykes (hehe) in and around your soul to guide the water of life. This is hard work and requires constant vigilance and maintenance, but with time it will just become normal for you.
>I am worthless just like everyone else.
No your not and even if you are, the state of being "worthless" is inherently a worth pricing. Consider making a bow in the forest. Only the most straight trees get chopped down to make into a Bow, the ones that are bent, ugly, hobbled, and misshapen are not. You have chosen worthlessness and you can always recant it. It does take hard work but you can do it, anyone can. Alternatively, you can look on the positives of being worthless. I don't want to ramble but there are upsides to being considered a loser that not a lot of people ever think about.

>>21868083
>Consider making a bow in the forest. Only the most straight trees get chopped down to make into a Bow, the ones that are bent, ugly, hobbled, and misshapen are not.
This is bad advice for bow making.

>>21868136
>This is bad advice for bow making.
Its a Taoist story and the reason why the carpenter didn't want it was so gnarled that the lacquer wouldn't set in it and anything made out of the tree would break because of all the twists in the tree fibers.

A friend intensely dislikes himself and is at his wit’s end with it.

>>21866998
>How does autism fit in with theories in philosophy of mind purporting to explain how we attribute beliefs to other people (and things), such as Dennett’s account of the “intentional stance” (Dennett, 1981) or a theory of mind “module” (Leslie and Scholl, 1999)? What about theories, like those from David Hume (1739) and PF Strawson (1962), that ground ethics on “natural” emotional reactions to human behavior? Do these theories tell us that autism makes moral judgment harder or even impossible for many autistic people? Does the possibility of autistic persons tell us that any of our theories is wrong or needs to be revised?

>>21868193
The tree is useless for lumber which is why it stands. You're not making a bow out of lumber.

>>21868083
>I have the same struggle as you
You really don't. My life is over.

>coworkers keep talking shit behind each others' backs and backbiting and muttering snide little comments when they're out of earshot
>they all act like buddies with each other when they're together for some reason
Fuck this shit, just be honest about how you really feel instead of playing these little games.

>>21868245
are you all female environment?

>>21868313
The opposite. What's worse is that some of these people are like 30 years old and have spent over a decade in this career field and they still do shit like this, or brown-nose their supervisors for better evals.
Maybe I just have autism and there's some social nuance going over my head herem but if I don't like someone I just tell them to their face and we figure it out from there instead of trying to be cool with them for no reason.

Everyone is self interested aka trying to survive but pretend not to be. Altruism is impossible because even that is done out of self interest.

>>21868324
>if I don't like someone I just tell them to their face and we figure it out from there instead of trying to be cool with them for no reason.
I'm the same and I suspect myself being autistic. What kind of job if you dont mind me asking?

I have a girlfriend and we are happy together. I think several people on this site won't believe when I say that this woman really, truthfully loves me.
I can't stop thinking of cheating on her. I am not only extremely superficial and vain, actively looking to get a taste of every single average to good-looking woman I lay my eyes on, I also crave the excitement and mystique of falling in love with someone.
It makes me feel sick to my stomach. I used to think it was because my girl needed to work more on her appareance, but I'm starting to think that even if she were a perfect goddess of sex I'd still think about fucking other women. That's the way most men's minds seem to operate. It is never enough.
I'm going to start looking after myself, working on my body and looks. I want to think that I'm doing this because I want to be an example for her and we can improve each other and be the best versions of ourselves for the other, but part of me is seeking a new "special someone" that will make me feel butterflies in my stomach and blood rush to my cock...

>>21868245
Same, I work with people who are constantly gossiping and I’m the odd man out because I keep to myself but at least I do well at my job. But still it’s important to play the field and be in the know about gossip. Not that I follow my own advice.

>>21868331
Military

>>21868340
That's so strange. I guess people are the same everywhere.

>>21868344
It makes sense if you don’t have other things in common.

>>21868332
I am not a disgusting subhuman hellspawn like you, but you could try this fix: try to get her into doing some cosplay? you could start off with things like, you know I always had a fantasy with some sexy cop lady, maybe she'll do it for a special occasion, then you say that was so great, mm, could you do chun li next, and then start branching out, anne frank, fursuits etc.

>>21868344
People have this idea of the armed forces as some elite brotherhood where square-jawed barrel-chested Men share a bond of camaraderie or whatever but the truth is that it's high school 2.0 for everyone but a lucky few, only with an added layer of office politics cancer on top.

I think I know that the world isn't actually blurry because 1) I wear glasses and see the world without blur, 2) I understand that others don't see a blurry world, and 3) when I look at things close up they no longer appear blurry. However, after examining the phenomenon, I've come to understand that the world is actually blurry, and seeing the world as not blurry is a visual impairment, and glasses are uncorrecting my vision.

>>21868355
>not a disgusting subhuman hellspawn like you
>sexual anne frank cosplay, fursuits
Anon, I...

>>21868219
>The tree is useless for lumber which is why it stands.
Yeah, I thought it was a bow for w/e reason but the core of the story is the same.
>>21868233
okay, just know its your choice. Spend a good time sitting alone in a room doing nothing and either start writing about it or think about it. If you feel the same way after taking the moment to be honest with yourself then go do it.

>>21868361
He said the girl really loves him. I'd do that and more to preserve such a rare gift

>>21868245
>>21868324
same anon, maybe I have autistm too. Just ignore it, just become quiet and boring and most people will give up talking to you. If they have a problem with you and you learn it through someone else either tell them you don't care/don't want to hear it or ignore it. If it gets way too unbearable for them they'll eventually come in to talk to you about it. Most people act like this because they have anxiety and insecurity of their position and who they are. Don't get pulled in and try not to give it credence or breathe life into it. If its getting malicious then find another job. One thing I love about having a job I don't care about is that being fired (assuming you are saving more than spending) feels amazing and since its something that I'm okay with a lot of that anxiety about being fired or being promoted for more money or w/e bullshit goes away.

>>21868364
>Yeah, I thought it was a bow for w/e reason but the core of the story is the same
The radical for bow and bent or crooked are the same so it would be a more bizarre story if they were archers and not woodcutters.

>>21868361
Plus if you're wearing the SS uniform there aren't really that many options for the girl.

>>21868355
She probably would complain about it eventually unless you start doing stuff for her, depending on what she wants. Either way its a damned if you do damned if you don't kind of situation. I would advise you to choose the pro-social move and not cheat. Maybe tell her you have a cheat fetish and maybe she'll start dying her hair or turn into a cuckqueen or iunno. I'm a loner so I don't really understand being with people for a long periods of time and not wanting to tear your hair out.

>>21868389
Well most people aren't fletchers or bowmakers or w/e you call them, so to the average person the core is the same.

I meet the coolest guy once. He acted like a power hungry psychopath, Gordon Gekko or Patrick Bateman or Jordan Bellfort.
Everyone in the office is a fucking catty, backbitting piece of shit like the people ITT are describing. No one talked to me because I was quiet and odd, you just know these people are tearing me to shreds behind their dumbass small talk.
Then this dude shows up one day and he's the friendliest person I've met in my life. I think he saw right through me and saw that I wasn't a threat to his plans, so he started spilling out his guts. Sometimes he sounded like one of those motivational coaches recommending books and shit, other times he'd just tell me his adventures in other companies and how many girls he fucks and how many dudes are afraid of him. He talked shit about my coworkers and my boss, but in a different way, in what he wanted to pass as an analytical-predatorial analysis.
Never talked to him again after I quit that job.

>>21868395
Why are you replying to me, I'm not that anon. Telling her you wanna fuck other women sounds even more retarded than asking her how she feels about fursuiting, not to mention that doing it with the girl you love in a sexy fursuit is a whole lot more appealing than cheating.

>>21868396
It's different if you're not reading it through translation. In translation you don't have the confusion of "bent useless tree" and "bow". It's the same thing in a lot of Greek philosophy puns because the words for "bow" and "life" are an accent apart in a language that doesn't always include diacritics.

>>21868408
>Why are you replying to me, I'm not that anon.
because I'm talking to you?
>Telling her you wanna fuck other women sounds even more retarded than asking her how she feels about fursuiting
You really want her in a fursuit don't you? And maybe your right, but If I had a partner who wanted to cheat I'd rather they tell me so we can either find a situation or end it, but its apparently too hard to act like an adult so...

Somewhere between your closes thoughs you have seen the color in the deepest of sleep. "Saturn" -- you've spoke not even knowing the true meaning of it all, just sooking in the fever and the heat of your head, craving for some kind of salvation, because the fear is so heavy to carry. You know the truth, some version of it, but you sure know. You know that the Cube, the secret master rules over all that you've know. All of it.. a lie. The Cube so black yet so vivid with death, eats your sorrow as a psychic cosmic vampire planet. How wiil you ever beat it? Can you confront those Magicians in the Academia?

>gossip general
Low IQ people are ruining this board.

>>21868410
I don't think it was a mistranslation as much as a misremembered story.

>>21868414
>You really want her in a fursuit don't you?
In my defense, I wouldn't wear one myself. I'm a human dude on furry girl kinda guy

>>21868424
Post something intellectually stimulating or shut the fuck up.

>>21868424
>"Pssshhh, Get a load of this Anon..."

>>21868426
Yeah but if you misremember that way in the original script then it's a different kind of memory artefact.

I had a vision of the future in which the exact day and hour of my death was revealed to me. I'll die completely alone, without accomplishing any of the goals I've set for my life, without understanding a tenth of the things I want to study, and my remaining time is very short.
What is the meaning of the time I've been given? Why did I become instantiated as this particular person in this particular place? Is there value in anything I did or intended, though I will never succeed in any of it?

>>21868421
>tfw have very prominent Saturn whos the ruler of my natal chart
I'm afraid...

>>21868332
You're a man bro. You either make the conscious decision to control yourself because you believe her and the future she represents is more important than the pursuit of pleasure or you go fuck women.

>>21868414
Actually listen to this. Anon should tell her >Clara (I"ll call her clara)
>Yes, my love?
>I must confess...
>Oh what is it my love?
>I have a desire... Something in me, a lust
>Oh Anon, you make me blush...
>A lust... For another woman
>(she gasps)
And that's where he leans in to her ear and says
>And that woman is you, in a vixen fursuit...
From what I've learned, if her pupils turn into hearts, it's mission accomplished. You can have your cheating cake AND the fursuit and eat both of 'em. It's only gonna cost you like $5000

>>21865868
My ideal society is one where individuals are strictly placed in a quadripartite hierarchy based on measurable metrics such as artistic taste, passions, and top 3 goals in life. The greatest intellectuals would form a circle to determine one's caste. Those in the top two castes would not have to work in life, while those in #3 and #4 would have to work. Those in caste #3 would be assigned more noble tasks, while those in caste #4 would be assigned dirtier or more dangerous work such as in factories or sewers. A graphene tattoo on the right hand would signal an individual's class, and those in caste #2 and #1 would be revered and respected by those in the lower castes. However, those in caste #4 would be treated as slaves, and even public whipping or rape would be permissible.

I believe that social interaction has become obsolete and that an individual's mannerisms and communication skills are irrelevant. Instead, individuals should be identified by scanning their graphene tattoo to determine their passions, favorite artwork, and top 3 goals in life. An algorithm would also be used to determine the capability of friendship.

Caste would be determined at age 33, with every patrilineal line selecting one person to be "tested" after unanimous agreement. Once the caste is decided, it would be fixed for life and future descendants.

Only men would be placed in a specific caste, while women would be either 0 or -1. Women who are 0 would become part of the caste they marry into, while those at -1 would only be permitted to marry men from the fourth caste. Psychological and genetic assessments would be conducted to determine this.

I know that I will be either in caste #3 or #2. While I am not fit to be in the highest caste, I am also not suited for the lowest caste. This is my ideal society, and my obsession with lists stems from this. Those who are placed in caste #4 should be prepared to face punishment from me, including whipping.

>>21868473
>Caste System
*swipes left*

>>21868492
t. 4th caste

>>21868504
>I have to work
>This is a bad thing
What?

>>21868511
The concept of "work" is subjective and, when one pursues something they love, it can hardly be considered as work. However, the American society has transformed work into a religion, with an emphasis on production and materialistic "progress". This has resulted in a fluid class system based on lesser ideals, such as technological advancements, which has caused the destruction of the natural world and traditional order.

In contrast, my ideal societal model is less destructive than the current one, particularly if it is oriented towards higher ideals. The Protestant work ethic, which is at the root of the destruction of the world, needs to be reevaluated. I intend to establish a caste system based on measurable metrics, with a focus on higher ideals.

>>21865868
I remember seeing a woman whispering to herself at a bus stop when I was a kid. At that time, I thought, "Crazy woman, crazy city," I'm having full conversations with myself now. I'm the crazy man in the crazy city.

>>21868560
You shouldn't worry, anon. According to scientific research, talking to yourself is a perfectly healthy and natural way to cope with crippling depression

>>21868560
Test

>>21868560
I constantly loudly argue with myself when I'm walking in the city.

I think I'm a male.

>>21868581
are you sure?

I regret it deeply and I wish I had never done it. I worry about you all the time and I fear that I may have traumatized you in some way. I promise that all men aren't like this - it's my fault for failing to control myself and for having something wrong with me. You have every right to not want me in your life anymore, or to hate me, but I hope you can at least accept my apology.

>>21867199
This channel?
https://youtu.be/ja7vuNeicv4

>>21868594
What did you do?

>>21868009
>only one country has gotten to the Moon, and that was the United States of America (*under Nazi leadership)
That honor would go to JFK the man who made civil rights a reality. There goes that talking point.

>>21868622
It's me, a couple of months from now.
>>21868332

>>21868017
>Much like how the Emperors of Rome kept the senate around just to keep on airs while slowly eroding its power to legislate. While the comparison isn't 1:1 comparison, the sacrificing of the population by the ruling class to increase and keep hegemony on the world pretty Roman.
But the Senate of Rome was the ruling class.

>>21868583
I have a genital matching what males tend to have in the human species, therefore my conclusion is that I am a male similar to other males of the human species that exhibit the same characteristics as myself.

>>21868594
Who is this for? What did you do that traumatized her? Why are you worried?

>>21868622
molested my sister

Thinking of getting a coke from the gas station and then reading manga until I fall asleep.

everybody asks to "write what's on your mind" but nobody asks to "read what's on your mind"

>>21868646
Have you apologized to her directly?

>>21868646
4th caste

>>21868533
>he American society has transformed work into a religion
Not really, at the end of the day if you make less money than average its more about how you spend, or save, that money. You don't have to work hard if you don't want too. It involves being near poverty and making sacrifices, but it can be done.
>This has resulted in a fluid class system based on lesser ideals, such as technological advancements, which has caused the destruction of the natural world and traditional order.
disagree, even if we weren't doing the progress someone in the else in the world would be. May as well be us to reap the benefit. Its not so much the advancement of technology as it is the consumer culture and economic model we live in.
>In contrast, my ideal societal model is less destructive than the current one, particularly if it is oriented towards higher ideals.
India would disagree
>The Protestant Work Ethic needs to be reevaluated.
Nah, It'll die on its own most likely considering the rate Christianity is going. There are always people who will want to work all day and night and there will be people who won't. The problem isn't the system, its that instead of making compromises and navigating the system individually. Instead they opt to complain and agitate for a complete political overhaul because it doesn't meet their individual needs and ideas of a society where they would fit in perfectly. IMO, this is the height of the narcassim we see today, the misunderstand that since society doesn't serve certain individuals fully means that the system is broken.
>which is at the root of the destruction of the world
Many works of art and science came out of the Protestant Work Ethic and considering that the Catholic Church is still the largest strand of Christianity to date (at least the last time I checked in 2018.). I wouldn't lay this at the Protestant's Work Ethic's Altar.
>>21868641
The Senate became more of a noble class once the Emperors took power, they were wealthy military men from storied families that slowly lost more and more power as the Emperors consolidated over time and started to use the Praetorian Guard more and more as their personal/secret police, as the PG was way more loyal to (most) Emperors than the state.

>>21865868
Big mommy kazhars milkers

>>21868649
Consider that cokes of gaseous stations have a decrease in ability to open carbonated can from its handle compared to carbureted engine driven frith and forth fromst station toth home.

>>21868658
There is no reason to continue this debate any further. If we were to share our favorite artwork and life goals, it would become abundantly clear that I am far superior to you. My level of metacognitive awareness and contemplative depth far surpasses anything you could achieve.
As it currently stands, you are destined for caste #4. However, I will give you the benefit of the doubt and assume that you are under the age of 33. With more experience, reading, and deep reflection, you will undoubtedly come to see the value of a strict social anti-industrial caste system.
Debating with someone of your level is pointless. It is beyond your understanding, and I have debated with far more intelligent individuals in the past. I do not have the energy to continue with people like you, who are mere shudras.
A single moment of me suffering is worth more than the bloodbaths of TikTokers, Instagram whores, and the simps on OnlyFans. The rabble of society is not worth my time or energy.

>>21868677
5th Caste

>>21868682
It is clear that you do not live according to any higher ideals, which is why everything is a joke to you. Your time is wasted on shallow entertainment and other trivial matters. You have never taken any literary tradition seriously, nor have you engaged in any meaningful self-reflection.
You are blinded by your own ignorance and lack of understanding. You cannot see the value of a society based on measurable metrics and a strict social anti-industrial caste system. Your shallow existence is a testament to the failure of modern society.
But mark my words, one day you will realize the error of your ways. You will come to see the truth and the beauty of my vision for a better society. And when that day comes, you will be begging for my forgiveness.

>>21868695
6th Caste

>>21868661

>>21868650
1th caste

>>21868696
In order to accurately determine one's caste, it is essential to have an impartial circle of intellectuals with eclectic tastes. They must be able to objectively evaluate various measurable metrics, including artistic taste, passions, and top goals in life. Only through this rigorous evaluation process can a person's true caste be determined, which is vital to establishing a harmonious society oriented towards the Infinite.

>>21868656
No, I've spent years typing out drafts for an apology without ever actually going through with it. I'm afraid to bring the subject up. If she really does hate me for the rest of my life (as she no doubt deserves to) I don't think I'll be able to take it.
She seems happy to see me when I visit home, but I can never tell if it's genuine or if it's an act she puts on in front of my parents.
The stories posted here are artistic works of fiction, btw.

>>21868712
8th Caste
>"Be careful that time it dropped by 2!"

>>21868712
same anon btw, but I actually had a question that I just thought up of. Lets assume, for the time being, that Rome isn't the idea society but they way they acted was close to it. What would prevent your culture from being subsumed by a people who are a standard deviation or two under you but have a firm grasp of militarism and practical engineering?

>>21868718
Stick to watching James Cameron films, simping on OnlyFans, and reading Dan Brown. It suits transsexuals of your character.

>>21868717
How old were you both when it happened? Are you sure she remembers it clearly? If she may have forgotten, maybe it’s best to not bring it up and make her relive the trauma.

>>21868727
While nothing is perfect, I have been thinking of ways to move forward in modern times. America could benefit from adopting my social model. A new constitution should be drafted, one that is based on these ideals.

>>21868728
>Stick to watching James Cameron films
I forgot he existed lol
>simping on Onlyfans
Took a vow of Poverty so I can't... Also porn bad.
>Reading Dan Brown
To quote Marcus Aurelius: "Steer clear of Oratory, Poetry, and Belles-lettres."
>It suits transexuals of your character
okay thats gonna put you in with the terfs at 10th caste :^)

a girl flirted with me then said i'm going to be alone forever on saturday.
been having anxiety.
i wish i could spend more time around normal people

>>21868752
>a girl flirted with me then said i'm going to be alone forever on saturday.
you should say "Yeah, not even I want to date you." If she gets upset just play it off as "haha, I was only joking... half-joking..."
I wouldn't say girls are easy to understand but a lot of them like light-banter that puts them down.
>I wish I could spend more time around normal people.
Go outside? Define normal? There are fucking fat, obese, smelly Warhammer 40K nerds who are married with kids these days.

>>21865868
Something is absolutely wrong with my brain. Last week my brother accidentally hit my head pretty hard. Right on the outer shell of my left parietal lobe.

The day before that i was working on story quite well. The day after is okay, but it starts degrading after the third day passed. I had hard time picking words and thinking logically, my reading comprehension is fucked, sometimes i spaced out without me realizing. Now that it has been a week, i'm so scared of the future. I can't handle losing my only passion in life.

>>21868766
Go to the doctors, if you can't do that don't panic, stop writing, and just relax. If you continue to be retarded then consider the first part of the sentence again.

>>21868745
Okay, but the way I see it your going to end up like Greece. Short retards who are less educated than your slaves are going to mow you down because Roman society was geared towards the practical, while Greek society was kinda all over the place but tended to be more cerebral just because of the influence of Athens culturally.

Is waifu love enough to live off of?

>>21868778
The caste system in India persisted for thousands of years, but changes brought about by liberalism have led to its erosion. Moreover, a neo-eugenic social structure would be beneficial for America.

>>21868782
Unfortunately not.

>>21868782
Depends if you eat meals together. Then it's probably fine.

>>21868729
Both early teenage years.
"Just hoping she forgot about it" is not a useful plan of action.

>>21868772
Thanks anon, your reply made me a little calmer for now.

I've considered the first one these last few days but still going to wait for another week, if it gets worse i'll just resign myself to a speeding train. family economy won't last if i add another burden.

Right now i'm trying to retain as much as i can of my rational self by constantly reading nonfic and academic stuff and rereading when i can't understand something (i think math helps keeps the synaptic connection intact). I've started keeping notes 3 days ago and its pretty okay for my memory, real time conversation is something i've got to figure out how to fix. I'm hoping neuroplasticity bullshit is true, and is significant enough that i can at least act normal.

If worse comes to worse, i'll just do what's best.

>>21868766
MRIs are easy to do. I think you should at least get a MRI. See if your insurance covers it.

Always wanted the work ethic of a Japanese mangaka but never knew what to work at.

>>21868835
my last employment doesn't have insurance, and my father's is problematic. I've tried pestering him for MRI and he keeps telling me homebrew stuff like applying pressure where it hurts, using a natural ointment, cold ice, and bee's oil (idk what its called in english) and other shit uneducated old people believe. Honestly i've been giving up on checkup,

>>21868766
It sounds like a regular concussion and nothing serious.

>>21868852
I hope so, just my first time, can't help but worry. Mind just wanders off to the worst case scenario you know.

>>21868825
I’m not saying you should hope that she forgot. I’m saying that it might make things worse for her if you apologize, becayse it could cause her to relive those memories. Does she seem traumatized, or has she ever indicated that she wants an apology from you? Don’t just apologize out of a selfish desire to unburden yourself and relieve your guilt. An apology may not help her, and may very well make things worse. Some things are better off left in the past. All of this depends on how severe and frequent your actions were though—there’s a wide spectrum between brief mildly inappropriate touching and outright assault. Not that any sort of inappropriate contact is okay-all of it is unequivocally wrong-but the severity can impact the effect on the victim. You should seek psychological help to make sure you don’t harm anyone else.

>>21868845
>bee's oil
bee's wax lotion?

I’m not a state university employee. I don’t want to work here anymore but I’m bought into the state retirement plan so my only real alternative is to work for the state directly.

A few days ago, I noticed something bad. My hairline receded. It's still a NW 1 on the scale, but no longer perfect like it used to be. It's natural, they say, for most men in their mid 20s. But now no matter how I brush it, it just doesn't look as good as it did before. Meanwhile here I am, 24 year old NEET virgin with mental problems. My hair is one thing I've always felt happy about, and now even that's worse.

It's times like this you wonder, am I just dumb for trying? Should I just renounce pleasure and become a monk? I feel I could be a good monk, whereas in normal-person terms I cannot be anything but an abject failure.

>>21868950
>my hairline went back a millimeter
>I must renounce the world and join a monastery

>>21868965
It's not just that, dude. My father went crazy and now he's homeless. My mother doesn't care about me. I haven't had friends in 10 years. Really bad depression. Started college in 2018 and I'm somehow still a 3rd year.

It's never just one thing. Just 1mm of hair, anyone can take. But all this unhappiness, all in a row? When your life is nothing but shit? What then?

>>21868978
If you're in university you're not a NEET

You can be handsome with average intelligence or average looking and smart. Which do you choose?

>>21868988
I haven't finished a semester of class since Fall 2020 or 2021. I'm essentially a NEET

>>21868845
Look into University studies. Sometimes they ask for participants in MRI research. It would be worth a long drive imo.

>>21868978
It takes something like 55% of university students 6 years or more to graduate now so you’re right on track. University is a scam. Don’t beat yourself up too much for it.

This is the dumbest thing I've ever read.

>>21869019
That is insane. Probably mostly due to covid I suppose

I started a new job today after about 4 months of not working.
I had a good day and I enjoyed my months off very much.
Gives me the energy to work for about 2 years, after that I'll probably do it again, or some other better path.

We need to go back to the Middle Ages.

I've been feeling these pangs of emptiness/loneliness recently.

I don't understand why, no big changes in my life or anything like that.

But what I find weird is that the physical sensation comes first and then the emotion. Or at least if feels like that. I don't know??

>>21869022
Question is when he said it

>>21865868
I have a really bad pornography addiction and I can't seem to stop. Should i just keep on "failing upwards" until I don't need porn anymore or is there some sort of taper method that is preferable?

>>21866485
I would consider most of the topics /lit/ talks about as Belles-Lettres. Either fictive works or books that talk only about theory. Books that are practical and talk about theory have a pass. The only gray/grey area that I would say exist for belles lettres would be the following:
>Philosophy
>Religious texts
>Theory that can't be put to practice within your life
>Theory that is navel gazing or that cannot be put into practice
These are highly all highly subjective depending on who you are. I'll give your 2 examples, one political and one religious.
>Is The Communist Manifesto belles lettres?
I would say yes because communism will probably pop up in any western democracy unless something seriously goes wrong. That being said, reading it to understand communist talking points and to better counter them is a practical application. So unless you have communist friends that enjoy debating with you or you actually need to debate a communist, I would say it goes into belles lettres.
>The Bible
I would say no because I am a Christian. You can make a case for the Torah because the old testament comes from the Torah you might get insights in translations and such that you might not otherwise be aware of depending how deep into Biblical law and lore you want to go. I would also say that most religions or esoteric lit goes into belles lettres unless there is some practical application. Such as the Buddhist Meditation texts (if you want to meditate).
That being said belles lettres is a highly lose and contextual context that probably changes from person to person due to career, interests, friendships, part of the world they live in and so on. Before reading ask "How can I practically use this?" and if you can't find a good answer or your answer is "To talk to 1 other person about this thing." I would say its safe to say its belles lettres. Oh and all entertainment I would stuff under as belles lettres too, even if its popular.

>>21868990
I am above average and gorgeous.

>>21868990
If we take this in a very stereotypical way the choice is basically what are you willing to sacrifice/deal with:
Smarter - More likely to be lonely due to intelligence.
Handsome - More likely to have friends and social perks.
So I guess ask yourself would you rather have social currency or mental capital? Both can be converted either way with some hard work and focus, but I feel like like would be easier if I was smarter and not more handsome. I've been told I was good looking in my early to mid 20s but that never really meant anything to me.

>>21869003
So many of us delayed education in 20/21 because of the pandemic. I just restarted college in Fall 22. Just go back and get going in life again

>>21869033
No. It was that high even before covid

I’m deeply depressed, but not sad.

Some of Shakespeare's metaphors blow my mind with how original they are. Haven't seen it in any other author

Yesterday
I caught my kite
That broke loose its string
When I was seven.
There with you
In lamppost light:
Bright November,
All of a sudden.

>>21869419
I really like that Melville quote where he says everything that attracts and repulses men can be found in Shakespeare.

>>21869033
They’ve considered 6 years to be their success marker for more than 10 years now. It’s not at all unheard of for students to spend 6 or 7 years pursuing a degree now.

>>21869241
I think the only way to quit anything is cold turkey.

I feel near constant brain fog and low energy too. This is the worst period of my life.

>>21869471
Did it just come up out of nowhere?

when is it likely to say 'forevermore' during a sentence session?

I have no place for human interaction. I hate my job. All my friends left me. Even literature makes me sick now. Trying to quit social media altogether.

>>21869462
On my 5th or 6th year myself lmao. Higher education has been such a burden on my life

>>21869462
>>21869532
Why do other students take so long though?
I assume most of them don't have crippling depression

>>21869537
most people aren't cut out for it

how do i stop being a people pleaser? i genuinely think its ruining my life. i'm so addicted to validation and making people laugh that i'm afraid to spend time as myself. i don't even know what myself is. maybe it's not even validation. i just morph my personality to suit whatever personality a friend has which usually ends up placating their dysfunctions as well. as a result i can play a dudebro retard, academic stiff, or witty jokester depending on who i'm talking to, all to help balance out our personalities. i'm just so afraid of conflict i'll literally be a fucking doormat for people. in relationships i'm the opposite, my girlfriend is usually the quiet one while i have to play up my psychotic schizoid persona to give them something interesting. meanwhile i just end up feeling fucking hollow. how do i stop?

I dislike trannies like most people do, but my sister literally can't shut up about her hate for trannies and gender politics nowadays. It's a pain in the ass
Get off twitter, and get a personality and a child already you fucking womanchild

>>21869612
Womens rights are a bigger danger than trans rights. Tell her which one damaged society more.

>>21869537
Because some of us have to work our way through college and take care of other life events. Being able to live the student lifestyle is a luxury

>>21869612
Based sister. Let me marry and impregnate her.

why won’t you talk to me why won’t you talk to me why won’t you talk to me i can’t stand this im so tired why would you do this

just fucking talk to me what do I have to do or say the silent treatment is driving me out of my fucking mind I feel like I’m losing it and you just think it’s funny what is wrong with you

>>21869595
personality is overrated. Most Americans just copy shit characters they saw on TV, in a movie, or online anyway. You should really just be “nice.” Very few people should have personality, that’s only for public people.

I am very sad that I was not able to get Cure tickets for their upcoming tour.

>>21865868
>Super stressed out because my current job doesn't pay enough for me to make rent
>Used what little PTO I've accumulated to take a long weekend
>Try to relax, look at other jobs, and get some writing done
>All of my options would require me to spend a period of about a month and a half working 12 hour days, possibly 6 days a week while I transition between jobs
>The thought of this alone causes another bought of writer's block
Tomorrow is my last day off, and I will probably have to spend it doing my taxes. Fuck my ass I need to go to the mountains or something.

>>21869471
You probably aren't getting enough vitimin d. Use the sun, eat well, and if you do take a multi-vitimin you need to shell out for the organic ingredient kind that actually absorb. I took a cheapo generic brand vitimin for years and when I switched to the good stuff the effect was notiable, just a lot more energy, clarity, and weirdly my nails started growing faster. Ginko Biloba is my supplement of choice, I tried it once, forgot about it, then woke up the next day feeling weirdly clear. It wasn't till later I realized it was because of the ginko. Convinced my husband to take it and the next day he said "you know I feel really clear today".

>>21866177
Find something you like. I have trouble with non-fiction and some other types, but I get super into thriller novels. I'll eat through a Micheal Crichton book in 2 days. What books are you trying?

>From today on your Italy is a lively and active realization of what used to be a lyrical prophecy, an all-too-far-reaching hope. Your Italy 'makes of all the oceans' one single Ocean that is praised by a single name: heroic Ocean. Its only borders are those of the entire world, those of the Italian potency and will.
A quote from the last letter that D'Annunzio wrote to Mussolini before he died, in 1938. I saw it quoted in a paper on D'Annunzio when I was doing some research and I keep thinking about it now. Something about the older man praising the younger so poetically and so unreservedly in his final letter feels like him bequeathing Italy to Mussolini and reconciling the rivalry that the two of them had-- the supreme arrogance (positive, affectionate) of bequeathing Italy to the man who actually ruled it I feel is very like D'Annunzio

I also read an article during the same stint of research by a liberal noble that was calling D'Annunzio a fascist (he was, in my estimation, but that means something different from what the noble meant) and denigrating him and Mussolini-- the article was published two months after D'Annunzio died, in English. I don't even want to say his name because after reading his "obituary" and that snippet of D'Annunzio's letter I feel that both D'Annunzio and Mussolini were each individually a thousand times the man that that pompous, spiritual bug of an aristocrat was

Don’t like myself or anything for that matter. Read everything worth reading and don’t feel much smarter. Some low iq friends of mine basically understand everything I do and they didn’t have to waste their time autisticly reading to understand the nuances. Such a joke. What’s the point of anything? How can people have a basic grasp of the history of human thought and just continue on with their lives so easily? How do they cope? How do they continue with novelties and not get bored?

I slept on Ed Feser. It took me 10 years of avoiding him, but I've come to see he was right all along.

I keep stuffing myself with food.

It's midnight, I'm sitting outside having a sesh, drinking a beer and listening to an audiobook. Couldn't be comfier rn.

I just found out I am prego and quit my job. Today I woke up at noon and went outside to sit on the grass and read short stories on my phone, then I came back in and played some video games and wrote a little. This is wonderful...

>>21869621
She sounds based, I'd be her friend

>>21868978
I graduated after 6 years, as long as you're not digging yourself into debt and will graduate next year its fine.

>>21868332
Why not dump her and date other people? Or not date anyone and be a kind of lothario type? Or if you like your dynamic romantically but still want other women, why not suggest an open relationship?

>>21868245
I used to work in this kind of a place... it fucking sucks. Anytime someone shit talks someone else to me the only thing I'm thinking is "damn I wonder what they say about me behind my back".

>>21870839
What does it feel to be a mother?

>>21870864
Wonderful. I knew before I even took the test, I could just tell something was different. It's hard to describe, like a deep sense of fulfillment, or a pleasant background hum

>>21868245
One of the worst realizations of adulthood, once you're at your first job and interacting daily with people of age 30-60, is you realize that 90% of people never emotionally mature beyond high school.

>>21870894
>It's hard to describe, like a deep sense of fulfillment, or a pleasant background hum
Fascinating. Im always been curious about things that I'll never experience like connection with an identical twin or being a mother. Have you thought of names yet?

I keep bouncing between "need gf" and "stay away from me succubi" while I need to just be working on my shit. Most likely my next relationship will just be another time and passion drain, but I still want to love and be loved.

>>21865868
How sad my inglish is poor and the only thing I can do is lurk

>>21870923
How sad,
my inglish - it's poor.
The only thing I can do
Is lurk more

>>21870912
Jane if its a girl, not sure about a boy name. My husband suggested Bjorn but I said absolutely not lmao.

I look in the mirror and fantasize about pulling the trigger of a shotgun with my big toe and blowing my head off. I am disgusted that I exist, I feel like a fake person, a failed experiment. I know how to play the game but I just dont see the point, its all so tiring. Money, women, there is no physical remedy for this empty heart.

>>21870939
my picks
annie
sofia
beau

jasper
elias
lain

>>21870945
this post is definitely not targeting me, phew!

because of you the demiurge has won

I finally fixed my zippo, but I cut my thumb a couple days ago, so I can't autistically light it over and over again like I want to. I am sad.

Lift weights so you don't end up turning into a jewish slave.

What music do you /lit/ people listen to? Anything good? Now or in the past.

>>21871163
>Anything good?
now there's a question. I'd like to think so. I basically only find one song from one artist. The only real exceptions are Oliver Tree, Grandson, Leningrad, Sam Tinnesz, and The Struts. Although on occasion I'll be in the mood for The Crane Wives and Sea Shanties

>>21871163
I have terrible music taste therefore I refrain from answer.

>>21871108
I'm lucky since I have two thumbs.

>>21871193
are you also lucky because you're ambidextrous?

>>21871163
I'm not a /lit/ person but a lot of music in classical latin and also ancient ambience tracks like "siren's call", "octavian's garden", and "Night at the Athenian Temple." Outside of that some shithead stuff, some hardbass, some lifting stuff, a bunch of video game music, traditionally folk

>>21870260
It's okay you can stay home and listen to the albums back to back in the dark

>>21871163
Isis - Panopticon

>>21865868
I can't find my favourite chemistry spatula.

I kinda fell for this nice girl, I thought something could happen between us, she is very touchy, but I noticed that to me especially. Not so much to other guys, so it's not just that type of girl who does that.
Well, couple days back I found out she has a boyfriend. Suicidal thoughts are back on the menu.
>>>/wsg/5034916

>>21865885
>>21865974
What on earth is the appeal of that? Did something weird happen in your youth?

>>21865868
This actually looks like it is going to be the year of the gf.
If I could only give up the sauce.

>>21865868
I hate talking to people in real life and shitposting on the 'chan is infinitely more fun than some vapid conversation that requires watching for social cues and pretending to care.

Relax. Just, let go.

>>21870917
are you me? hang in there anon

trying my luck again in dating apps as a wizard. I dont expect anything yet I get sad each time I open it.

>>21865868
Okay, for people that have been in a relationship for 10+ years:

How did you know you could do it with them, the other person? What was the tell that convinced you that it would work? What do you do exactly together?

I'm autistic khv please answer

>>21871610
Eternal fakecel

>>21871690
Why am I a fakecel?

>>21871539
You too, my friend. Great success and beautiful love is guaranteed as long as we persevere.

>>21871742
For using dating apps

Hideously depressed. Constant regret and self-hatred.

>>21871756
Why it should matter if I never get matches?

BROS, I TALKED TO THAT GIRL IN MY CLASS. I DIDNT SPILL MY SPAGHETTI. FUCK YEAH

>>21871742
What the fuck is a fakecel

>>21865868
There is a very real possibility that I've fucked up bad enough to sink the family business. I managed to do this through sheer laziness and lack of discipline. I have not just fucked up MY job, but the income of both of my parents. I'm going to vomit and this is the closest I've been to offing myself in three years. Please pray for me.

>>21871789
What do you regret so much? Why do you hate yourself?

How old do you think is too old to be into Japanese video games, anime, and manga?

>>21871847
Unironically, I knew a guy who did this but he actually recovered the business and made everyone filthy rich later.

Look, when you fuck up, the only obvious thing to do is recover so go recover.

>>21871906
Who cares? Do you stop liking things because you happen to reach some arbitrary age?

>>21866447
Wtf is this real?

>>21871683
I think you’ll be hard pressed to find anyone here with a relationship of 10+ years since they’d likely be married with kids in their 30s and not have the time to be here.

>>21871913
Age is chronological, not arbitrary.

>>21871934
Mental state is more important than age. Or do you think a severely retarded adult can consent to sex?

>>21871934
Thanks, Captain Obvious.

>>21868003
There's no pain. No suffering. Only apathy and monotony. Mediocrity has neither top nor bottom. It is just an endless cycle. There is nothing to seize.

>>21871742
You will never be a real incel. You have no autism, you have no negative canthal tilt, you have no deep seated emotional resentment. You are a well-adjusted man twisted by irony and memes into a crude mockery of a stone cold virgin.

All the “rejection” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back girls love you. Your parents are proud and happy for you, "Stacies” swoon over your masculine appearance behind closed doors.

Women are utterly smitten with you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed women to sniff out chads with incredible efficiency. Even incels who “pass” look strong and charismatic to a woman. Your deep voice and good sense of humor are a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to earn a little online incel clout, you'll get cancelled the second your DMs get leaked and everybody gets a glimpse of the e-girls thirsting over you.

You will never be depressed. You wrench out a fake "tfw no gf" every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be miserable, but deep inside you feel the happiness creeping up like a weed, ready to bless you with unshakeable confidence.

Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll find a girlfriend, marry her, knock her up, and have seven healthy kids together. Your parents will praise you, happy but a little bit sentimental now that their little boy has finally grown up. They’ll spoil the kids with candies and toys, and every acquaintance for the rest of your life will know that you're a fakecel. Eventually you will pass on surrounded by your loved ones. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a family that misses you dearly.

This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.

>>21871906
Idealistically, 18, but in reality (at least for me) around 30. Anime fires your brain anyway cause its a supernormal stimuli, its why you get people who take the waifu thing way too seriously or you get people who wish "anime was real" or wish "they were anime.". Watching a show now and then isn't going to ruin you, I watched Puss in Boots: The Last Wish Yesterday. But too much of it will warp your mind

>>21872002
>You will never be a real incel. You have no autism, you have no negative canthal tilt, you have no deep seated emotional resentment. You are a well-adjusted man twisted by irony and memes into a crude mockery of a stone cold virgin.
nta, but as a 32 year old man who chose to say celibate wtf am I reading? Are young men still self-destructing over bein virgins today? Who gives a fuck what women, society, or other people think of you; be you. There is so much more to life then cooming, jfc.

>>21872025
>There is so much more to life then cooming, jfc.
like what?
t. 30 lvl wizard

>>21872046
Well you've had so much fun you forgot to fuck for one

>>21872025
>chose to say celibate
Cope

I feel really bad not only about the fact that at nearly thirty years old I haven’t managed to publish anything, but also because at nearly thirty years old I haven’t managed to do anything particularly interesting at all. When I look at a guy like McCarthy I feel hope because he didn’t publish until he was 32 but he spent his 20s in the military, living in shacks in the mountains, traveling through the desert, and all sorts of interesting things that no doubt made his writing better.

More and more, I realize just how important it is to either find your thing and get success at it early or in lieu of that to live an interesting life. The failure to do either feels almost like a death sentence.

>>21872046
Job, self-improvement, friends (if you want them), family (if you have or care about them), Goals you set for yourself, learning. I'm not you anon, I can't tell you how to live your life. What do you like doing both hobbies but think you think you would like?
>>21872052
>Everyone thinks the same way and no one wants to do the opposite.
I think you've had so much pornography that you actually can't think of a world that is without it...

>>21871913
I think there is an age where childish things should be put away, whether you like them or not.

>>21871177
>Grandson
>Sea Shanties
Tell me you're a tiktok nigger without telling me you're a tiktok nigger

>>21872059
Great, quit watching anime then. Why'd you have to ask if you already had an answer?

>>21872056
Yes the only reason people want sex is because of porn.
>what 0 pussy do to a mf

>>21872055
>I feel really bad not only about the fact that at nearly thirty years old I haven’t managed to publish anything, but also because at nearly thirty years old I haven’t managed to do anything particularly interesting at all.
Bamboo story, to read it, if your too lazy too heres the short hand:
>Bamboo stays as a sapling for 5 to 6 years
>During this time it is building a steady foundation of roots
>on the 6th or 7th year it grows rapidly to overshadow almost everything growing around it.
Be the Bamboo anon, all is not lost. Also Alexander the Great conquered the whole world in his late 20s. Julius Caesar wept at a statue at 30 because he hadn't done anything half as impressive as that, yet continued on to be one of the most beloved, important, and known historical figure in Rome's whole history.
>More and more, I realize just how important it is to either find your thing and get success at it early or in lieu of that to live an interesting life. The failure to do either feels almost like a death sentence.
Who cares about living an interesting life? So you can brag to other people? If it is, that isn't a good enough excuse or reason to move yourself. Find something deeper then that anon, you still have time :D
>>21872079
Can't tell if your actually retarded or joking, but I'll be nice and say "Haha, based nihilism anon, your so cool, your literally like the character from that new Cyberpunk movie!!!"
Happy?

>>21872068
I said there is an age. I didn’t say what that age is.

>>21872079
>>what 0 pussy do to a mf
oh how ironic the post that was...
>>21872059
based bible poster

>>21872056
>What do you like doing both hobbies but think you think you would like?
There are a few things that I'd like to try out but I doubt it getting up as hobbies. Why did you choose to become a celibate?

>>21872082
Although I can’t help but admire them, I don’t find solace in figures like Alexander or Caesar. These are people born into the political class, that had success while young. For Alexander, in the military of his day. For Caesar in both the military and in his adventurous attitude, his bringing justice to pirates, his ambassadorship, and other things. I find very few instances of people I can look at and emulate who, like I said, didn’t display success or an intriguing life before 30.

>>21872082
Thats not nihilistic or cyber punk. What are you even talking about

>tfw 70% retarded but need 75% to get the gibs
truly there is no justice

>>21872093
Pick something out of a hat, then, or quit caring about whether other people will see your interests as childish.

>>21872065
I've never been on tiktok, fuck you

I hope drowning myself in coffee helps with this tiredness I'm feeling.

>>21872108
>These are people born into the political class, that had success while young.
Julius Caesar lost is Dad and his family was broke, he was only a "Noble" family in name because of his Dad's Military service. Everyone older than him that had any means abandoned his Mother and him to his fate. His Mentor, Gaius Marius lost a war and was exiled so he couldn't help. Sulla stripped Caesar of his inheritance and was thrown in jail for a while only to be pardoned. While Caesar wasn't a slave or a peasant, he was basically the modern version of "disgraced middle class man". Until he joined the army and won the Corona Civica for bravery at the Siege of Mytilene which set him on the path of being fairly average man of Rome again.
I wouldn't advise emulating either Alexander the Great or Julius Caesar too closely but both of their success was basically: "Their ability + Time + lucky/opportunity" You can recreate that still, but if you think you can't you basically lost the war before you fought it and will become what you fear.
>>21872099
My point asking about hobbies was that maybe you can take that and spin it into a career or something worthwhile or interesting.
>Why did you choose to become celibate?
I always admired Monks and Hermits (of both eastern and western traditions as well as occultists) when I was younger. The ability to not only be old and wise but also have the body to be able to live alone and do things like splitting wood appealed to me. Mainly because I never fit in at school and was bullied a lot. To top it off I'm an introvert and I like to keep things simple. So when you throw in other people with their petty problems and concerns with me being alone always appealed to me. Women, to me, seem to complicate a lot of things and I would watch my friends do these crazy fucking things for them or get stressed out over basically nothing because she was upset. I've seen them take money and time from my friends then cheat or break up with them when it was no longer in their interest to stick around. I could probably write a paper on this alone. But the older I got the more I found I desired to be alone because I found it hard to fit in anywhere. I've had girls give me their numbers and hit on me before but I never did anything with their numbers or them. I've kissed a couple of them but was saving myself for marriage and it wasn't until uhhh... mid to late 20s? I realized that all the girls were running around having sex and no one was a virgin. I didn't want to give it away to anyone and I didn't want to marry a non-virgin girl so I took the 3rd option, celibacy. To be fair, I felt ashamed about it for a while because of how people would fucking dab on me for never having sex. But then I realized that most of society is full of retards who don't know their retarded and just stopped caring after a while.
>>21872125
I'd say think a bit more about it, but it would be a waste of your time so I'll just agree with you.

>>21872154
Okay virgin

>>21872162
I'm a virgin because I never lose :^)

>>21872154
>I didn't want to marry a non-virgin
did you really think that there are non-virgin religious girls?

>>21872166
Never lose your virginity that is

>>21872179
Yup, I bought into the Disney/Public School stuff at a young age because that is how I thought it was. My parents never let me play anything outside of my age range when I was young so the only stories I was exposed too about love and romance were the ideal Christian ones at the time. Also I don't really mind if a girl is religious or not, I'm more interested in her wanting to learn and self-improve. Religious people sometimes become dogmatic and I've never been a dogmatic person and I think it is counter-intuitive in a lot of religions as well.

>>21872186
Like I said, I never lose! To busy winning, sexhaver :^)

Don't fear the grifter

>>21872189
Off the charts cope

>>21872154
Dude, none of this is making me feel better. All of this stuff happened for the guy when he was young. It’s different. And you know, I’m not saying I needed to have had success at whatever the most important thing is already, but I do wish I had done just one remarkable thing. To reach my age and not have that is maybe not something that upsets most people but it upsets me.

I've been going to bed earlier so I can read longer in bed. It's comfy.

>>21872229
based, I've got to start doing that aswell

new
>>21872269

>>21871827
Good job. Now marry, impregnate and live happiky ever after.

>>21872192
I don't think I'm the come coping here with self-deprecating jokes as much as it is you just cope projecting. Its okay anon, keep on improving!

>>21872059
I put anime, movies, games, watching sports on the same level, slightly below reading gaudy entertainment fiction, but above drinking for entertainment. What matters is who you do it with and how much. Time is limited and ideally you would have something to show or talk about with others for all the time you put into them.
Since energy is similarly limited, but follows habitual adaptation, you can't expect yourself to be able to spend all your non-work time on hard hobbies that improve you. But if you spend none at all, you'll never get around to it or find the energy either.

To summerize, none is preferred, some is allowed, a lot is undesireable, all is unsustainable. Having fun isn't bad.

>>21872145
It doesn't. Coffee catches up to you real fast.
t. 3-4 cups a day, but still tired all the time.

>>21872145
>>21872327
Caffeine makes you more tired over time of use. Your body adjusts to the adenosine you produce from drinking coffee to the point where people who drink more caffeine, on average, tend to sleep less, tend to sleep less deeply, and tend to report feeling tired more often than people who drink green tea or rarely drink caffeine. There are tons of health benefits to coffee so I'm not saying its bad for you, but it does exact a price over time.

>>21869440
Beautiful

>>21872327
caffeine inhibits adenosine receptors and once the effect of the coffee ends all the adenosine molecules flooding your post-synaptic neurons receptors and make you tired. Just keep your coffee consumption in check , and do not over consume.