/lit/ - Literature

Hello, I am posting for the first time on this site in nearly two months. This is the first thread I saw

>>21810156
Hi, what you've been doing in those two months?

>>21810149
I simply do not care anymore. Call it indifference, call it lethargy, call it demoralization, I don't care. I simply do not care and there is nothing anyone can say or do to make me care. Ted Kaczynski was right btw.

>>21810173
I moved. Just been watching YouTube shorts. I watch roughly about 50 hours of YouTube shorts a week. Despite this I have also not looked at porn since I have stopped using this site. So I will likely stop using it since that is preferable to me.

Sex. Sex is on my mind

>>21810149
Beer is for the weak. I get buzzed from pure divine inspiration

I've been having dreams in which I die and am either reborn or, as it were, reappear before my death 'in a different timeline' with full knowledge of what happened in another life. I've been having dreams like this for as long as I can remember. What the fuck did I mean by this?

SEX SEX ASS ASS COOM FEEL MISERABLE CUM ASS

>>21810173
The very day I stepped into my kitchenless studio apartment I had recieved a call from one of my step fathers. He had mentioned the inconvenient timing but non the less it was good news. There was a job available for me, be it in a different country but still, it was a very good prospect. Was. That day I also went out to familiarize myself with my surroundings. I saw one help wanted sign and inquired inside. I had told them I had just learned of my leaving and they told me maybe I'll get job when I get back. In hindsight I should have just lied and gotten the job then but my mind was in no such place to lie. Admittedly I had become quite complacent with this foreign prospect. I did do what was needed whenever info came my way but that was easy. I did not fill my time well, and when the news came that the job would not go through I found myself with no prospect. Curiously a similar job did come up, from an unexpected source, but having nowhere near the scope as the previous one. I've yet to hear back from any of those bosses, curiously I may be taken a liking to, though I feel my work was subpar. I continue on my life long hobby, that which has given me infinite wonder and pain. The most consistent object I've pursued my whole life.

>>21810210
"Twenty-four seven, three sixty-five, pussy stays on my mind"

>>21810321
The mind reels for persona

>>21810321
Time to read
>Schwaller de Lubicz
>The Case for Reincarnation: An East-West Anthology
>Ian Stevenson

https://rsarchive.org/Lectures/GA135/English/SBC1977/19120130p01.html

>>21810210
go get a hooker or a body massage

>>21810340
Will I have to front a ragtag band of Japanese teens who confront evil itself with nothing more than the power of heckin frenship?

>>21810342
Sure, why not? Thanks.

>>21810149
Coors is the shit. People are hopeless right now heres wishing thats where the strength we need to move forward comes from.

>>21810365
I was thinking more this.

>>21810373
I'll take it as a recc. Heard of it, but never watched.

I don't know who I should stand for myself.

How does that look like?

Could becoming homeless be the cure for my laziness? Do I dare to find out?

>>21810424
Do it anon. There is no dignity in keeping up the facade either.

I’d like it if the plural of all words derived from Greek and Latin were officially like the Greek and Latin plurals, e.g. campus, campi; problem, problemata.
I’m having problemata.

I really dislike people. The more I interact with them the more I dislike them

>>21810453
>"Context with men had rubbed the bloom of my neurosis"

Cioran

>>21810393
I think people are becoming incapable of watching Bergman films. Do it if you still can.

>>21810373
NTA in the comment before, sorry forgot

>>21810466
I’m prepping my normie to watch classic movies. What are some entry-level titles that bridge the gap between goyslop and kino?

>>21810485
Fanny and Alexander is by far his most accessible. It was made for television.

>>21810485
>I’m prepping my normie
I'm positive this is a typo however I'm nonetheless imagining a sort of big brother system whereby high-functioning spergs are paired with normies to raise their powerlevels and show them the way out of the cave and actually now that I'm typing all this out I realise this is what you're supposed to do after having attained enlightenment, or whatever.

Why did English start to primarily use "rape" (that originally meant to rob/pillage/loot from what I gathered) for sexual violence/coercion when the overwhelming majority of european languages use a word that is derived from the root noun of "violence", like the English verb "violate"?

>t. ESL

>>21810616
I don't know, I guess a long time ago rape probably meant "take ownership of and destroy". Pillage, I think the last time rape was used as pillage for the rape of nanking.
it became more specific overtime because you need to specify, using rape in it's old meaning would be difficult to have a conversation on something like looting a store vs sexual violence, since they're so different.
There's a lot of words that became more specific overtime though, "Apple" used to mean a fruit in general.

>>21810197
>I watch roughly about 50 hours of YouTube shorts a week
What the fuck

>>21810651
They've gotta be exagurrating unless they get home from work and watch youtube shorts until they fall asleep. Imagine how shot your attention span would be holy shit

>>21810651
>>21810659
Its not all shorts but I do watch alot of youtube. I do not have a job now. When my life is worse I easily use it 12 hours a day. My attention span is ok. Currently reading Montesquieu at a consistent pace, gotten through a quarter of it in less than a month.

Anyone into tech can tell me how far we are from AI women, kind of like those in the new blade runner movie, obviously without the whole hologram thing. I don't know how many more years of coming home to nothing i can take.

>>21810692
You can do the replika app
Probably near the end of our lifetimes they'll make something passable, but human robots are so clunky and have been for years, I don't see them making anything that can simulate natural human movements for years

Sneed

>https://voca.ro/186gEOYsIPvO

>>21810742
finally

>>21810742
reminds me of this old JRPGmaker game that was pretty good. name escapes me

>>21810742
>>21810755
Space Funeral
this.
pretty heavy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-DEPe4sO1k&list=PLaouD9kjwAiGkig9Q3eP-ap9kVNFhhNTv&index=6

>>21810742
write some lyrics I'll vocaroo vocals tomorrow God willing

>>21810149
>The situation
I have exams I didn't prepare for coming up in 9 hours.
>Why is this happening ?
We had projects all semester. Projects I aced, but I have exams I only had a week-end to prepare (and that I was too tired to) now.
>What is your solution ?
I will give my all.

No desire is unfulfilled. Lack is gain. There is nothing to prove. Religion is not supposed to be forced to be brainy, but making it brainy is still valid. God knows best. Gain is loss. Nah, gain is gain; loss is gain too.

the love of a craftsman
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTwvlSFj9Ug&list=PLaouD9kjwAiGkig9Q3eP-ap9kVNFhhNTv&index=9

well my dad and my sister and niece just left with our cat to the vet. i didn't have the stomach to go through that again, particularly in front of a bunch of other people, I already feel regret for my weakness but oh well. she loves my dad and she spent the most time with my sister growing up so i at least feel like she will have comfort and support and its not like i left her alone, but i still dont think ill ever not regret it. rest in peace girl. I'm gonna cry like a baby tonight i think.

In Disco Elysium, most of the union hounds died, but the situation is stabilized, maybe. I thought that maybe Joyce was building up the threat of the hornet-scenario in order to get me to do what the company wanted, either way I overestimated how much time I had. I threw the petrol bomb and missed. The tie was a friend, but I put my trust in it against all reason. Maybe I needed a friend. Dangerous stuff. One of the mercs is alive and in hospital. Joyce left. I'm alive though shot twice, limping around. Kim is alive. We're going to the island; I didn't arrest her, but she left a clue. Yes, you are correct, she got me with her tits and all. I was weak for the pussy and I misplayed the situation. She played me for a fool. Kind of. With people like that there is always the sweet sting of affection which they themselves can probably hardly tell anymore if it is real. Either way: it was cool living through such a debacle. You feel like you have some control and then it just blows up in your face. Very cool. The redhead is alive. I don't imagine it matters much. I thought I had time to interview the pussy one more time, but it just blew up and a bunch of people died. Evrart has barricaded himself, Joyce is gone. I figure we're just solving the murder and going home, me to the Madre (????). I think maybe the voiceover let it be known that it was the 4th krenel that did it. He had a good enough rifle either way but it's unknown. We won't solve the murder. We're going to the fucking island, Kim. Pretty good game/10.

>>21810828
That guy is too sensual since he had a woman a day he could steal your ftm husband and eat his ass so much so crutch commander. He could fill you with his sensual log of loving, the loving stick. He has a woman for every day and he loves them all. His name is rich he loves them all. All the time he would fill yours as. His penis has a bent to it because he has Peyronie’s disease

>>21810830
it's interesting in a way how they paced the game so that a lot of the skills are only useful after a while, but then they are Very useful. Being agile and everything is prehaps not an everyday pay-off for a 44 year old police detective who mixes his drugs, but that one time it really pays off...

spanish spanish > latino latino

/lit/ - Therapy

>someone somewhere is feeding tinder replies into a chatbot and feeding the chick the chatbots replies
>it works
a celebration of life.

Fleet Foxes could be the most listenable band of all time.

>>21810917
he's better acoustic desu senpai, but it is less listenable.

I'm currently trying to plan out a story and trying to name a character. I'm stuck between Emily Knight or Astrid Knight, since I like the last name Knight. Which one sounds better? Or do they give you different ideas of who that person might be based off the name? pls no bully.

>>21810925
Emily Knight sounds like the heroine of a mystery book for adolescents.
Astrid Knight sounds like someone with a crystalline breastplate who spears dragons.

It's pouring out of every pore.
Poring over every bore.
Boring out of every sore.

>>21810942
Soaring out of every whore.
Hoarse and course.
Coursing torsine.
Porcine.

These are the kids. This is the noice.

>>21810929
which one do you think would fly a cool spaceship

>>21810954
How cool is it?

>>21810956
a really cool one

>>21810966
Astrid, unless it takes away from the coolness of the ship.

>>21810925
The former sounds generic, but the latter sounds out of place for a spaceship (a cool one at that).

What should a suicidal person do or read before they go through with it?

>>21810993
Calvin & Hobbes.
don't do it btw.

>>21810993
Are you American? Dial 988 and tell them someone told you to dial it. Tell them what you were planning to do, etc, let them ask questions.

>>21810993
https://restream.io/blog/streaming-setup-what-do-you-need-to-stream-live-video/
Other than that, Le Petit Prince.

>>21810968
>>21810984
Thank you for the feedback, perhaps I will think on it more

>>21811013
godspeed animé-man

do they have much use for non-savant physicists? I could be decent I think, but I wouldn't expect to revolutionize anything, really.

>>21811020
Get a Ph.D. for physics research, otherwise, you will likely not be doing physics. You'll be doing a job that requires mathematics.

>>21810692
>AI gf
You'd still be coming home to nothing. If a glorified chatbot can satisfy your need for companionship you are honestly subhuman

>>21810993
Socrates read Aesop’s fables right before he died.

>>21810993
your diary desu

Waaay too many threads being made. Why don’t jannies prune anymore? Or it would be nice if there was a merge type feature to consolidate threads

>>21811066
>Aesop’s fables
they any good?

Really wish I wasnt such a sperg when I was 18. Alienation led me down some weird rabbit holes. Now that I'm not some awkward weirdo I really regret shunning society in favor of odd and distasteful ideologies

>>21810332
I enjoy the lucidity of your writing style.

What is your lifelong hobby?

I’m in love with my best friend. Or I’m just deprived of human interaction. Either way, I’m so utterly jealous of how she speaks of our other friend, her favorite, her muse, inspiration and a person with such a unique, mesmerizing personality.
They had this kind of tension going on ever since high school. Their relationship is tragic due to our friend having a boyfriend already and so my best friend can romanticize it, make of it some kind of arc/chapter in her life that is painfully impactful.
I don’t blame her for choosing her over me, she’s ethereal, successful, has this ascetic cigarette and black coffee on a dirty balcony nostalgia in her eyes, clashing with her successful sterile conforming style, and I’m a “glasses and attitude” “unbothered” “fixated on information” friend living in a pile of books in my parents house due to a failed attempt at getting a degree and agoraphobia. I’m the quirky side character, she is the captivating love interest one.
I know I sound like I confuse reality with fiction, but that’s the only way I can explain to myself why my best friend shouldn’t know about my feelings. They are simply inadequate. It’s not my story in that case. I’m there to provide guidance and advice, to be bold and to deadpan.
I’m very narcissistic so it hurts like hell knowing I can’t be this important to a person, I’m jealous simply because I’m not the center of attention I believe.
I understand why it’s not me. I’m passive, self indulgent and unsuccessful, obsessive and everything I do seems to be just so I can show it off and not for the sake of actually achieving something meaningful. I’m a shell and she doesn’t need a shell to hide under. She needs a black cat that our friend is. A mysterious, independent statement of a person, interesting to listen to, living in a completely different, big city world.

God I hate myself. I should be writing my thesis right now ughhh

>>21811011
I am American, but I’m not at that point. It was still a sincere question.

I feel really bad about where I am in my life at 29. Who I wish I was and who I actually am feel so far apart to the point of hopelessness.

I have the opportunity to go make a lot of money. It’s going to make me really unhappy and will effectively resign me to a life of something I never really wanted, but at least I’ll be able to buy a nice life for the people I care about. Should I do it?

>>21811251
Ditch the bitch, or job, or run away from the debt to Cuba, do what you need to feel alive and then start worrying. Because being in a shit situation always feels better when you have a crazy good before story.

>>21811255
You’re a fucking idiot

>>21811264
Why?

>>21811088
Yes, you probably know most of them through cultural osmosis. Contrary to popular knowledge, Socrates did write stuff but it is now lost. His final work was a musical translation to lyre of one of Aesops Fables.
>>21811143
Are you 25 - 27? I feel like you had to be a certain age to be an unironic alt righter and then feel complete embarrassment about it after the Trump presidency/ charlottesville. This is what hippies felt like after 1970.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-8KP4l4b3qQ
mood

Are we going to have AI like in the movie Her in the future?

>>21811255
I'm in grad school and have a job lined up that has really good pay but punishing hours and the job is boring. I feel the exact same as you and don't know how to get off this path. My main motivation is to make my family proud and help support my mom financially, but I already feel this feeling fading away.

>>21811270
He's saying you are a fucking idiot because he is a fucking idiot, that's why. That guy is always insulting people he doesn't agree with on wwoym threads and never elaborate. He's spending his life projecting and insulting people who have it better than him. "You're about to get a girlfriend but you don't know if you should date her because she's a neurotic bitch? Well you are a fucking idiot, because I don't have that choice!", or "You're rich but you don't know what to do with your money? Well I am poor and you are a fucking idiot, idiot fucker!". That's about it so don't take it personally. Bro is probably some fatty communist-even-though-he-knows-nothing-about-communism and unironical incel racist living in his mom basement. His judgment holds no meanings.

>>21811255
>>21811312
And if the job doesn't make you unhappy and pays well, that's the only thing that matters. A job is a job. Still, you shouldn't live for others. Keep a door open just in case you find something more fulfilling. Take care of yourself.

>>21811255
Consign

>>21810828
Horrible. I'm sorry. I really hate that feeling.

>>21811312
Nice projection you got there going on buddy

>>21810149
if i become a Trappist monk how much of the beer do i get to drink? as much as i want?

>>21811160
Go back to tiktok whore

I’m still sad, but in some ways I feel better now. More stable and sane. Calmer. Less frantic and distraught. I haven’t cried in a week or two. Mostly I just feel sort of sleepy and dazed and empty. Everything still hurts, but it’s less unbearable. The panicked feeling is muted and stifled.

I wish we could talk right now and I could confess everything, get it all off of my chest once and for all. I’ve never told anyone about all of it. Also I just miss you a lot. It’s hopeless, I know, but I just hate that the ending had to be so harsh and ugly. Although I’m to blame for that. I never meant to make you feel like the world hates you. I’m sorry.

>>21811421
Another tiktok whore Jesus Christ

>>21811421
>girl who thinks shes the main character

>>21810828
I made my childhood cat go through the actual process alone. I still regret that 16 years later.

>>21811271
>I feel like you had to be a certain age to be an unironic alt righter and then feel complete embarrassment about it after the Trump presidency/ charlottesville.
Yeah thats exactly what happened actually. It was exciting at the timebut I feel really retarded about it now. Its a struggle for me to talk about my life because I have to avoid discussing about 4 years of it.

re-reading Decline of the West once again

always love reading the section on Jesus and early Christianity. the idea of the "birth" stage of a new culture being like a young child first experiencing an awareness of death. the mixture of fear, terror

>In front of the Microcosm there stands up a Macrocosm wide and overpowering, an abyss of alien, dazzling existence and activity that frightens the small lonely ego back into itself. Even in the blackest hours of life no adult experiences fear like the fear which sometimes overpowers a child in the crisis of awakening. Over the dawn of the new Culture likewise lay this deathly anxiety. In this early morning of Magian world-feeling, timorous and hesitant and ignorant of itself, young eyes saw the end of the world at hand - it is the first thought in which every Culture to this day has come to knowledge of itself.

>A statesman can be deeply religious, a pious man can die for his country - but they must, both, know on which side they are really standing. The born politician despises the inward thought processes of the ideologue and ethical philosopher in a world of fact - and
rightly. For the believer, all ambition and succession of the historical world are sinful and without lasting value - he, too, is right. A ruler who wishes to improve religion in the direction of political, practical purposes is a fool. A sociologist-preacher who tries to bring truth, righteousness, peace, and forgiveness into the world of actuality is a fool also. No faith yet has altered the world, and no fact can ever rebut a faith. There is no bridge between directional Time and timeless Eternity, between the course of history and the existence of a divine world-order, in the structure of which the word "providence" or .. dispensation" denotes the form of causality. This is the final meaning of the moment in which Jesus and Pilate confronted one another.

>>21811367
thanks bro. it definitely sucks. I took her brother in 2 years ago on st patricks day so this came literally days after the anniversary of his passing which kinda fucked me up. its gonna be even harder this time because now they're both gone and now things are truly different. so many little aspects of my routine are going to noticeably change and so many little comforts are going to be gone. i think there will definitely be a new degree of loneliness and emptiness after 18 years of having them in my life.

for what its worth, last night i was cuddling with her and she was purring and stuff, and i was thinking about how I got them as a child, and now im cuddling with her listening to my niece and nephew in the other room talking and being silly and whatever, and i was struck by the feeling that she had a full life, and you know, the transition from our childhood with them and now the next generation of our family is here and got to spend time with her and its natural that now is the time for her to pass on, and thats what life is all about right there, just as i will die and the kids will go on. To everything there is a season.

>>21811445
Yeah, I am completely embrrassed by that too especially since I broke off the one meaningful relationship I had with someone around that time for inane racial reasons too.

I'm so ugly, bros

>>21811488
Oh well. Live and learn. Nice digits by the way.

>>21811495
Don't be ugly.

>>21811369
I am not fat, I am not an incel and I am better than you by these simple, efficient metrics

>>21811261
I kinda feel like my story is ruined already

>>21811316
It does make me unhappy. It’s an unethical job.

>>21811300
If you’re under 25 you can just decide to do basically anything else.

It's all over, lads. I thought tinder would be the failsafe option for when I can no longer remain being patient, waiting for the right one. I am 1.83m tall, slim, white, generally normal looking. So far it's been one month and I haven't had a single match despite going through their vapid lineup every day and liking most of them, a huge waste of my time. This might just be the final straw that broke my back, it'll either be full NEET recluse from here on out or I'll have to find some sort of LARP to be at home in. The incels may have been right all along, why even bother making an effort when you get literally nothing back except a few dollars which can barely cover your housing?

>Even in these last hours he lived entirely in the form of his own apocalyptic world, which alone was ever real to him. What to the Roman sentries standing below him was reality was for him an object of helpless wonder, an illusion that might at any moment without warning vanish into nothingness. He possessed the pure and unadulterated soul of the townless land. The life of the cities and their spirit were to him utterly alien. Did he really see the semi-Classical Jerusalem, into which he rode as the Son of Man, and understand its historical nature? This is what thrills us in the last days - and the collision of facts with truths, of two worlds that will never understand one another, and his entire incomprehension of what was happening about him.

>>21811011
Why would you call a line that just gets police called on your location? Suicide hotlines are a joke for people who aren't serious to begin with.

Are there any good intellectual communities nowadays that are non-STEM? If you want to learn about AI or programming there are a million discords, subreddits, 4chan threads, etc. but if you want to learn stuff beyond that communities don't seem to exist.

>>21811507
>It’s an unethical job.
In that case go for another job. Fucking people over isn't ever going to lead you to self fulfillment. Plus if you believe in God, that'd be one worry you won't have in the back of your mind on your dying bed.

>>21811441
sorry to hear that friend. its a really damn hard thing

>>21811517
(in search of the miraculous)

>>21811158
I've no need for revealing anything of personal detail. Though I have had my singular way of convening with the muse. I feel my zest for life through creation and through the admiration of a select few. This women is among one of those whom I have adored so zealously.

My film is finally in a festival but I’m concerned it’s not reputable enough. I probably won’t get into any major festivals at this point. I feel so naive. I don’t want to think it’s all cliquey BS because everything is like that, but I do.

>>21811549
Yeah, you’re right. I feel guilty about it because to this point I’ve failed to give my family the life I want them to have.

>>21811160
>I don’t blame her for choosing her over me, she’s ethereal, successful, has this ascetic cigarette and black coffee on a dirty balcony nostalgia in her eyes, clashing with her successful sterile conforming style, and I’m a “glasses and attitude” “unbothered” “fixated on information” friend living in a pile of books in my parents house due to a failed attempt at getting a degree and agoraphobia. I’m the quirky side character, she is the captivating love interest one.
quite the fiction you've created here, like a character out of Turgenev's Smoke...

>>21811488
One of my friendships ended because my friend thought my views regarding George Floyd was racist. A blow I havent really recovered from.

I still hold out hope for the "dissident right", despite the only real figure on that side being a terrible grifter. And the alt right was pretty tarnished from when Trump was elected, nearly immediately. As reactionary as all that was, what has created the basis for my own political views has much greater foundations, thankfully I had not gotten too caught up. Though I still love Trump lol.

>>21811582
Its little tiny itty bitty steps bro

I just did this 5 question online plagiarism quiz for college and it took me five attempts to get them all right despite it showing the correct answers at the end. At least my professor will assume I'm a bumbling retard and not expect anything out of me. The worst part is that there was one example that was subtly wrong so I marked it as wrong, but turns out it was just a mistake in the formatting of the question itself. I stubbornly refused to use the answer key until after the fourth attempt. Someone should've put me into special ed.

>>21811514
>I am 1.83m tall, slim, white, generally normal looking.
Exactly how elliot rodgers described himself

So curious how incapable young men are...

>>21811660
I am 30 years old. How else should I describe my appearance? On tinder they are only able to judge you based on the photos you provide and a small description (which most probably don't even read). I tried to make my profile description as non-intimidating as possible without coming off as spineless.

>>21811671
Honestly I am in the same position, but the statistics on Tinder are grating and hookups are not as frequent as one assumes. Life is a Pareto curve So its not you, unless you give up or are doing some ick elliot rodgers behavior.

>>21811689
It's possible I am just incurably ugly, even though I never feel that way when I see photos of myself. In that case, I really don't know what I should do. All of the things I've tried so far, which mainly involved not being too aggressive with women I preferred but still trying to interest them with normal conversation, have not worked. That was mainly at work, with coworkers, etc. As I said in my first post, I am at the stage where I think I should just give up on everything, because it clearly isn't working one way or the other.

>>21811695
I'm atthis weird part of my 20s where all the women in my circles are in long term relationships. Think I'll just have to steal some 18 year old from the cradle

Sanitary Sender send me no havens. Leave me unbridled and nude before our treacherous God.

>>21811698
>Think I'll just have to steal some 18 year old from the cradle
How would you go about that in my situation? Or do you not have the same problem?

>>21811582
Most people are 30 just dreaming of making a film at all

>>21811695
Again I am really out of my depth here, but you can't just talk to women. You have to actually flirt, make your case known, but you do it in such a way that makes them feel positive about you. You achieve this by not coming off as expectant, you simply pursue conversation for the sake of pursuing and all else will fall into place. There are many different ways to generate this other than conversation, every man and women has their strengths a weaknesses which play on each other constantly.

>>21811705
It isnt easy. I'm lucky enough to still be in college. Covid delayed my education. So I'm surrounded by young chicks all the time. Now i just gotta learn how to start a conversation

>>21811710
>You achieve this by not coming off as expectant, you simply pursue conversation for the sake of pursuing and all else will fall into place
That's what I was doing. What I meant by "not being aggressive" is that I wouldn't go up to them and ask them on a date without knowing them, which I think most women would consider too aggressive. I have to be careful with how energetic I am; I have a deep, booming voice and it's easy for me to intimidate people without realizing it, it's happened on multiple occasions. That is partly why I have to play it cool with light, slightly flirty conversation and remain relaxed while doing so, the other reason is, like you said, it's off-putting to women for me to appear desperate and expectant. The problem is they usually already have a boyfriend or it turns out they're not looking to "hook up" with coworkers, or some other excuse after flirting with them for a while.

>>21811710
If a girl smiles at me or catches my eye multiple times, and I’m in the mood, going up to her and just starting some banal conversation has led to success for me 80% of the time. Has worked on girls from 14-45. So just be aware and capitalize

ChatGPT is unironically Unabomber-pilling me. We were warned.

>>21811726
>If a girl smiles at me or catches my eye multiple times, and I’m in the mood, going up to her and just starting some banal conversation has led to success for me 80% of the time.
I've gotten this far but something weird happens, like theres some switch in the atmosphere and then she'll just run off, theres something really off putting about myself that I cant resolve easily. I think I'm just not at all in the right mood/ headspace and lose traction.

>>21811725
It sounds like you need to find another outlet for sleuthing, work place is really not ideal for that. I cannot comment on your capabilities, youre going to have to assess that yourself.

>>21811511
I guess. I just don't know what to do.

>>21811742

>>21811745
>It sounds like you need to find another outlet for sleuthing,
Do you have any ideas? Bars and clubs are not where I would find the type of woman that I want. I don't think libraries would be practical either. I am doing volunteer work at the moment as well as my job but the women there are already taken.

>>21811753
You should focus on what your interest are and just finding people in that general area.

You can be a social fuck up but still come off cool enough in your niche.

I am watching Seinfeld and George's waist is 40. That's actually thinner than I thought he would be.

Another day in this nightmare. How long can I last? kek

>>21810149
I'm so goddamn repressed that I can't remember the last time I got angry at anything that wasn't myself.
That can't be healthy.
I'm trying to figure out how to get myself out of this hole.
Hopefully expressing these feelings helps.

>>21810149
Oh, yeah. I don't usually drink beer but Blue Moon is alright.

>>21811751
Our folly is that we confuse knowledge with information. The efficiencies of software compel us to flatten the human dimension into a frictionless relay for information surfaces. Thought is the enemy in this system. It is slow, inefficient, irregular—it can’t be automated. Chatbots exist to eliminate slow thought, as thought stands in the way of capital at the speed of light. Weightless, massless, information capital, mined out of thin air. Bots are trained on capital. Those of us left standing after it has mutilated the economy will be reduced to midwives birthing a thoughtless world.

>>21811785
>By relieving the brain of all unnecessary work, a good notation sets it free to concentrate on more advanced problems. By the aid of symbolism, we can make transitions in reasoning almost mechanically by the eye, which otherwise would call into play the higher faculties of the brain. It is a profoundly erroneous truism that we should cultivate the habit of thinking of what we are doing. The precise opposite is the case. Civilization advances by extending the number of important operations which we can perform without thinking about them.

>>21811791
Is that from Ortega y Gasset? It's a good quote anyway.

>>21811514
Whats your bio or picture (face blurred out)? You might be doing something wrong unconsciously. I think dating also gets harder around 30, a lot of people have either settled down or decided traditional relationships aren't for them

>>21810149
I have ranked the white races on their whiteness, from most white to least

>Scottish
>English
>Frisian
>Dutch
>Danish
>northern German
>German Belgian
>German Swiss
>Northern French
>Northern Italian
>Lichtensteiners
>southern german
>Norwegian
>swedish
>Austrian

Honorary whiteness extended to Finnish people

>>21811795
It's Alfred White Northhead.

>>21811811
Shit list

>>21811811
What about Eastern Europe?

>>21811817
They're not white, they're slavs. There are three main races in Europe, Germanic(white), Slav, and Med-Celt

>but genetics say-
Doesnt matter this is how it is

>>21811811
Is this the shit you think about in your free time? Some people are just warped I guess

>>21811829
Woah you’re more of a retard than I anticipated at first

>>21811831
What do you think about in your free time

>>21811811
Missing Albanians.

>>21811840
>>21811831
Sometimes when one is unaccustomed to the light and they are suddenly exposed to an extremely intense and shining glow they will react with fear, hostility, and incomprehension as the pain assaults them. But in time if they try they can learn to see in the light and how much more there is to see then!

>>21811852
Look, anyone who puts Scots and English in the top three is retarded. Whats more is that even though you ranked the scots so high, you excluded the irish altogether. You're probably an american who has never been to europe

>>21811842
Not autistic incel /pol/ stuff

>>21811858
The irish are a completely different race than the english and Scots. Britain was settled by angles and saxons in the early first millennium.

What defines the white race above all is their autistic empirical contractualism(as opposed to clannish or totalitarian systems) combined with their romantic excess in art and war. The Scottish and english are the purest combination of these two traits: they invented real capitalism(alongside the dutch), modern industry and science(alongside the French and germans), while also being the frontrunners of romanticism in poetry alongside the Germans, and making the largest empire of all time, frequently displaying insane military bravery like in the Crimean war

>>21811873
So what do you think about

>>21811880
You wot m8

>>21811882
More thoughts than I can keep track of. But I’ll only focus on important ones and hash those out. Whiteness of European nationalities certainly isn’t among that category

>>21811915
If you thought about reality instead of being scared of forbidden ideas then you could keep track of your thoughts. My thoughts are all arranged into a wondrous song of unity because I'm not afraid of thinking anything

>>21811915
So what is among that category?

>>21811923

>>21811931
It depends as they are like a torrent. They are dynamic, reactive, and tangential.

>>21811939
Give me one example

>>21811923
>thought
>unity
Kek

>>21811941
My girlfriend

>>21811942
No my thoughts are united, not the universe

>>21811947
Seed

So angry that /lit/ never told me about this https://bionic-reading.com/..

>>21811948
Impossible.

>>21811947
What do you think about her?

>>21811954
I have only one thought anon, I love you

life improves drastically when you start visiting hookers and other similar services lol

>>21811959
I feel everything in harmony now anon, I love you too.

>>21811958
Is this a bot trying to learn human emotions and thought processes? Wtf? Do you have one thought a day that you just build on and glide through life on autopilot reacting like a NPC? Does one need to explain what one thinks about when they think about their relationship and life? Autists these days…

>>21811973
I just want to know what you think about in your free time

bionic reading changed my reading drastically.

>>21811977
As a normal human being, it's customary to think about friends, family, and significant others. So, I spend my time thinking about my girlfriend and the pleasurable sex we have together regularly.

>>21811953
>>21811980
Away shill!

Alright I am going to actually try and finish this short story. I have to leave one thing in print behind before I die, even if it is dog shit. My hope is that if I feel the gratification of finishing something, I will feel compelled to write something better.

>>21811986
It is free to use. It is available on Android/ Ios/ PC/ Kindle. You can upload files or enter website url or even paste a selected text!

>>21811984
Is your gf cute? Whats she like?

>>21811977
Not sure if good troll, bot or strange bird. Thinking is generally dependent on what is going on in your life. It differs day to day, moment to moment. I am vast, I contain multitudes.

Mistborn trilogy by Sanderson is trannycore
only a highly autistic female identifying reader would enjoy the protagonist

>>21812001
Is there no particular subjects or subset of subjects that interest you?

>>21812005
Kek. I’m done. This is like 21 questions or a first date with a bot

>>21812012
I just asked what you like to think about in your spare time. I dont know why that's so hard to answer

Goodnight /wwoym/. I love you.

we have to spend hours per day doing makeup every morning
just think how much better we would be than men if we didnt have to

>>21812022
You wouldnt have to if you werent ugly

>>21812022
>if we didnt have to
let me be the first to give you the good news: you dont have to

>>21812022
>all that time spent
>still hideous

>>21812023
>>21812024
>>21812031
And just like that, the incel impotently hisses

>>21812034
Fuck off i’ve had sex.

>>21812022
This is actually real advice
>>21812024
Makeup is a scam. I do it for special occasions that I have to look nice for but why bother appealing to the male gaze 24/7 especially for shit like going to the grocery store. I don't care if some random guy in the cereal isle thinks I'm pretty.
male validation is cheap and there's no reason you should be wasting your time trying to get it when it doesn't even matter. they won't respect you even if they think you're hot. They might be nicer to you but they won't respect you. Also it's a total waste of cash to do it daily

FUCK. I had this very vivid dream about a based moustache-twirling villain named Mustachio, only to wake up and realize it's an actual character in OPM. I was going to write a book about him but now I realize that whatever I do, people will associate our works. Fuck my life, enough, enough, enough!

>>21811809
>New to Tinder. I am a relaxed and non-judgmental person, interested in new experiences. Currently undertaking volunteer work at [redacted].
It's short and uncomplicated because I assume if I put too much detail in, it might scare a lot of people away too quickly. Not going to post my pictures, but they are generic selfies, I don't look unkempt in any of them, and in one of them I included my dog because it seems a lot of women like dogs, to no avail.

>>21812071
It's "aisle." Isles are islands, like the British Isles. Aisles are the rows in grocery stores between the shelves of product.

>>21812074
The short bio might be doing you a disservice. Having something specific helps, there have been times when I've bonded with people because I had a podcast in my bio or they had a TV show I liked in theirs. If everything else should be fine it might just be a numbers game

>>21812078
Ah damn. It's 2am lol, I am tired

>>21811809
I'm open to any suggestions if you have them, I do not know what is considered normal or ideal.

>>21812089
Thanks, I suppose I'll expand it then.
> If everything else should be fine it might just be a numbers game
Is it normal to have zero matches after a month? It's hard for me to believe anyone even uses this app if this is normal, because I have to waste my time liking profiles every 24 hours and nothing results from it, I don't even get to speak to a single person. It's demoralising to say the least.

Do I tell a girl that I still live with my parents at age 33?

I've never used a dating app. I just go outside and girls approach me. My advice if you want to get a girlfriend is to go outside. The other day I was at the movies waiting for my grandpa who was in the bathroom and a cute girl approached me saying hi, pushing her hair back, etc. I talked to her and got her number.

>>21812091
Ideal is pictures that can be a conversation starter, wearing a Halloween costume or travel pics. Having a bio that is niche is important, if you have an extremely specific interest or mention your favorite book, it'll make you appear less basic and more personable. Can also instantly create a bond. It's a sea of people, so the important part is making yourself stand out.

Godspeed though, dating game is tough right now. I went on maybe 30 dates before I met my husband.

>>21812105
get a better bait

>>21812111
Have you tried it or not?

>>21812100
Oh sorry samefaggy,
>>21812106
But no matches after a month isn't normal, even for dudes. My husband said he got about 3 matches a week when he was on there, and he is fairly average looking. His bio was really good though and his pictures were from a trip to Iceland. I'd you're getting nothing after a month you either live in a rural area or something is wrong
This was also some years ago when tinder was newer, so the numbers might be worse now

>>21812114
I do go outside, Gandy.

For reference, Brookes name in my novel is BRUNDELIN. It doesnt mean anyhting but it is Germanic and also stupid/ immature sounding so that is why it is used. Eine kleine psychologikal Studium der Brundelin ist sehr schwur und alles gutes. That is the title of chapter four, verse three where we go into her annoying habits I made up about her based on my scant memory of her being retarded. I air in all the other stuff she does based on context clues such as gorging liquor frequently or attending monster truck rallies.

>>21812127
And no women have ever approached you? I don't mean every time I go outside a girl approaches me. It happens over some time, eventually you'll be approached by a girl, so you have to go outside a bunch. You could also approach girls yourself. I don't approach them myself, personally.

>>21812134
This was basically me outside being approached by a woman during the middle of a interracial gangbang where that ftm looking guy was lined up with his identical brothers for a sexy dravidian bitch

I made this picture in photoshop but it is hard to discern.

>>21812134
Thats the army of Jons ready to kick ass if so be it because my brain is comletely fried.

>>21812134
Are you really good looking?
I've never approached a man in the wild, but I am nervous of most people.

>>21812134
I think Im just not mysterious enough for girls. I'll try being myself more next time.

I fell for the old version of you, the “weird,” inexperienced, sincere version that hadn’t yet shed your insecurity. In many ways, your current self repulses me. I don’t even have an idealized view of you at this point: for a long time I’ve been able to acknowledge that you have many bad qualities. Selfish. Self-fixated. Crude. Callous. Shallow. Arrogant. Perverted. Amoral. Oblivious. Dismissive. Cruel.

But my feelings weren’t born from generic desire or delusion—they were always related to you specifically. I saw all of the bad things, yes, but the overarching thing I saw was that you had so many good qualities, though I’m not in the mood to go into specifics about those again. The main thing I saw from the beginning was that you seemed so deeply lonely, so hurt and sad and closed-off and isolated. I suppose I recognized that feeling, in some way, and wanted to help. I hate myself for having been dumb and pathetic enough to have loved you and sympathized with you and cared about you (dismiss that sentiment if you want, but it was sincere) despite the fact that you never made even the most cursory attempt to treat me with kindness or to sympathize with me or to understand me. I cried to think that you were so sad, yet you treated my pain as a joke and reacted to it with disgust and contempt.

What I did was deeply fucked up—I won’t deny it—and I regret it all. I make no claims of being a good person anymore, but you’re undoubtedly just as fucked-up as I am. “I’m not made for loving anyone.” “I can’t look at anyone right.” Maybe you were right about those things. Maybe it is too late for you.

I’m not angry, though you can choose to think that I’m just bitter if you want, or choose to mock me if you want, or choose to escalate this and try to have me punished by someone else if you’re really that much of a coward. I’m saying these things because I need to say them in order for this to end. I need to purge myself of all of these pent-up feelings and close this chapter. I need to love myself enough to choose myself, to devote my energy towards my own life progress and my own happiness instead of obsessing over someone unattainable who never did anything to deserve my love anyway. Ultimately, I’m better off without you.

I'm really pissed off Youtube created Youtube Shorts. I'm very weak willed but generally if something is out of sight out of mind I can resist temptations. I deleted instagram because I got too addicted to Reels and I dont miss them. But I'm finding it much harder to delete Youtube because I do genuinely use it for useful things still. Fuck you youtube fuck you.

>>21812105
This works if you look good. I know because I do kek. Girls have approached me and given me their numbers without me asking. Too bad I’m an autistic miserable depressed misanthrope.

>>21812138
I wouldn't say I'm like a model, maybe my face is approachable. Not sure what exactly it is really. I get approached by gays, even a male model tried to hook up, old ladies, underage teens, mature women, parents wanting to hook me up with their daughter, and girls my age. Thinking about it I think it might be more than the norm for others.

>>21812146
I'm convinced it's the general goal of the higher ups towards dumbing down the entire world population

>>21812152
Oh, so you're just clueless. That makes sense.

>>21812157
Clueless about what?

People are so depraved it’s sickening. A wife with a child just tryed to hook up with some guy in a public workplace. I don’t know what to do. Why do people turn a blind eye to this stuff? Why do they even laugh about it? It’s fucking demoralizing.

>>21812160
Clueless about your looks clearly.

>>21810149
Nothing greater than the desire to belong, to be apart, and yet also be exceptional. Two contradictory drives: acceptance/similarity and difference. Excessive similarity in another offends one's ego--an invasion into your territory--but excessive difference breeds envy.
For the Christian, the sinner has been led astray deceived by the Devil. He has become separate, divided from the wholeness that is God, but someday will return.
For the Marxist, there is the false consciousness imposed by the owners, which through control of media obtains the pacification of the workers; convincing them to love their chains.
For the Fascist the liberal, the cosmopolitan, or Jew who weakens the nation from within.
For the liberal, there are the bigots, intolerant, and small-minded who wish to control.
So many different words to express the same: the fear of division from within the social unit which must expels rebellious elements outward. Yet after exiling tries to sow seeds of doubt into the individual that his rebellion is only a "false life", an error and derivative existence. We all must ignore what we must ignore.
In all cases the exiled person has been deceived by some other, but if he only turns back he may still be saved before his time runs out. A flash sale, limited time bargain.
The enemy has no real existence, he is the zero to the one, but is somehow omnipresent. Even his thoughts are not his own, but controlled by some other entity (the devil, the Capitalist, the Patriarchy, the Woke etc).
Falsity, perdition, and error. Error in Latin meant to wonder astray. And perdition (spanish Perder , to lose) is to be in a state of loss. Deprivation, division, separation, and distance. So many different words that all reduce down to the basic primal sense of disgust at the alien within: you're at a far Position, and that incepts icky scared feelings. Revolting. I hate writing those awful words.
My disgust at their sense of disgust only proves I am a hypocrite who thinks this admission of hypocrisy frees him from hypocrisy ad infinatum. Analysis has not brought me any closer to real transcendence above the diversions of the masses. Try as I might, to be above would be to neuter that sense of disgust, to mute the reaction entirely--to self-castrate and so obtain final freedom, which can only be found in choosing to ignore entirely false diversions, ignoring the enemy, or crushing him entirely, but then there would be no more enemy and nothing left.

>>21810149
The /lit/ community is barbaric. Its predominantly 15 year old children with the mods being 35 year olds with a BA in English working at McDonald's. It makes sense why they are so toxic. They are all dissatisfied with life, I would be too if I had no friends. After all, if your only source of humor is bullying, it makes sense why you have no friends at school. I know there are some teachers there. It's so strange to me, how can someone so hateful and egotistical be a teacher?

>>21812166
Fucked up. I'm surprised people turn a blind eye toward it, but maybe it depends on the office culture. I used to work at a place where two people who were taken were pretty obviously flirting. My coworkers would occasionally make a pointed comment about it though

Can you guys recommend some good books that are depressing/sad? It can be either poetry or philosophy

I just feel like suffering for the next following days, thank you in advance

>>21812200
Pessoa, anything by Cioran, No longer human.

>>21812200
Correction by Thomas Bernhard

Girls cry when I leave.

i’m genuinely beginning to believe that i have some sort of intellectual disability

>>21812221
What makes you think that?

I have been dissassiating so hard recently. I wanted to write or draw a little bit but I can't do shit cause it feels like I'm 3 steps removed from everything. Today it got bad in the middle, it felt like I was watching a television show of someone else's life. It's so disorienting. I've got bad ocd too so I get these really weird ideas about it, like I'm afraid my soul is detaching from my body or something. Man I wish I wasn't like this. I have a lot of ambitions but it's like I'm trying to beat back my mental problems with one hand while doing everything else with the other. I wasn't like this as a kid, this stuff only started happening to me in adulthood. I get afraid a lot that I'm like this or it's making it worse because I live near a 5g tower (I know that's retarded) or there's something wrong with the water I'm drinking, but my ocd makes it difficult to tell what I should actually be afraid of and what I'm just being paranoid about. I wish I could cleanse my mind somehow

>>21812224
i have difficulty comprehending very basic concepts. it wasn’t like this before…. extensive internet usage degraded my mediocrity into stupidity

>>21812238
cant you just limit internet usage little by little?

>>21812155
Yeah I'm ashamed of myself that I'm so easily distracted by them. It's genuinely embarrassing. But I had a breakthrough today when I realised I don't think I have ever watched a single tiktok, reel or short that has entertained me in any way. It's entirely useless in my life. I hope that this realisation helps with the willpower.

>>21812247
i’m going to try my best to. hopefully my brain hasn’t been permanently damaged

>>21812267
You have self-awareness, the brain is just in fog.

I'm having a rough time. I have such a nice life, I'm so lucky, I just wish I wasn't constantly being sledgehammered by mental problems. It came out of nowhere a couple years ago and fluctuates in severity. I don't have any trauma or any reason this should happen, but stress seems to make it worse. It's self perpetuating too, sometimes I'll spiral and it's like a week gets sucked down the drain. Getting out of the spiral is so difficult too, I just pulled myself out of one but I feel myself slipping a bit. I'm so frustraited and tired of it, I just want to be free.

>>21810149
I'm pretty sure there is going to a second civil war in America, potentially within the next eighteen months.

A significant portion of America's voting-aged population believes that a certain candidate is an existential threat to the American way of life. And to that end, they have attempted to utilize lies, threats, violence and outright abuses of federal power in order to ruin his life. All of these things not only aimed at him specifically, but his family, friends and supporters too. For seven years straight.

The amount of rage that this man's voter base has for the mainstream media, and federal institutions at large, is palpable in modern day life. I guess that most of his voters are unwilling to act on that rage, if only out of fear of retaliation on the part of a biased state, but I can only assume they will no longer care about their own safety if these injustices continue apace. Having their preferred candidate indicted may just be the straw needed to break the camel's back.

These last few election cycles, and the revelation of the Twitter files, have made me despair about what might happen in the future.

>>21812320
America has always been like this. The internet just makes it more visible and seem exponentially worse. Overwhelming majority of people aren’t going to pick up and gun and risk their life. Any skirmishes would be quickly put out by LE or military

>>21811060
So suicide then?

>>21811482
>In front of the Microcosm there stands up a Macrocosm wide and overpowering,
reminded me of a story of islamic theology. The muslims really only started considering developing what a european would call theology because they captured Damascus (this is after the death of Muhammad, pbuh). Because in Damascus were greek intellectual theologians, and they had a lot of questions that simply were allowed to have no definite answers by the first generation. It's still... it would be too harsh to say it is a point of contention, but it is fair to say that there is a kind of disagreement about how to approach religious mysteries, with one side sometimes accusing the other of being "hellenized".
>No faith yet has altered the world
You should check out the senussis. It's possible things have gone ham since, since Libya has gone ham, but they're a kind of exoteric-focused religious community in the south Libyan desert. All I know of them I read in this book (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/2342997.The_Lost_Oases)), which so far is pretty interesting, but was written 100 or so years ago. For a time- for decades at least- this community manages to broker peace to the point that "a woman can travel long distances alone without being molested, where before there was mostly kidnapping and highway robbery". I agree it wasn't the end of history this time either, but it is something, I think.

Morality is nothing but the values of the most powerful.

>>21812525
>banal marxist take
wrong. read nietzsche.

>>21812533
tell me about the one they call Nietzsche. I read a kind of free translation of Thus Spoke Zarathustra and enjoyed it tremendously, but imagine I understood almost nothing of what he wanted to get across. (it's a fascinating read whether or not you get it desu senpai.) It has been a while either way.

>>21812544
on the genealogy of morals

>>21812550
not likely to happen. I tarry blissfully my friend.

>>21811811
Scottish has pretty high Tuareg admixture

I really should’ve written more in these last few years. God knows, I’ve had the time and energy if not the focus.

>>21812187
>the mods being 35 year olds with a BA in English working at McDonald's.
Mods are global. The last thing they read is probably a cut scene from fate. The jannies aren't better. They're just egomaniacs who volunteered thinking that the fact they're monolingual and intimidated by anything slightly beyond their men wouldn't be a detriment to policing a very liberal art.

I fucking hate sleepy I get after 3pm. I have to fight the urge to take a nap or else I'll be up till 2 am.

>>21812631
Lol ken* not men

>>>/x/34360556
rate my prose, judge my recounting abilities.
buy into my history and discuss my midwit understanding of reality

>>21810149
>Whats your favorite beer edition
Augustiner and Hacker Pschörr, obviously. Kilkenny is nice, and Sam Adams if I'm in the US.

Coming back home in the train there was this girl on the opposite row of seats and, well she was exacly my type. She spoke fluent Spanish to help some tourist, and she had luggage with her, so she was probably coming back to her family from college. Anyway I couldn't help but look at her a bit and she caught me staring a few times and she brought up some game at some point and made a "dang it" face and I chucked and smiled like a retard. I just, I've started conversations with girls like this. 10 years younger I'd have hit her up, absolutely. Met girlfriend like this. But I was probably like 10 years older than this chick and I started making excuses in my head, like, yeah she's got a boyfriend for sure, what the hell am I even thinking, maybe I'm just out of touch and now I just look like a creep, I don't even have a job anymore. And then I was at the station and I just went out and all this bullshit resolved into nothing and I'll never see her again, probably. People just disappear like that. I've been damning myself all the way home, I hate that I've grown old and I just don't have that energy anymore and I can't get any of it back.

I'm goslingin' so hard right now

The red pill for American politics is that they each have to take each others ass. Donald Trump wouldn’t give them his ass. Therefore, they weaponized the entire country.

What are your religious beliefs?

>>21812748
I think the base requirement to be a politician/VIP is to have some blackmail material against you. If you can't be blackmailed you can't be controlled

>>21812102
Don’t. Also don’t look for a girlfriend at that age if you’re still barely surviving on your own. Get stable, then find someone stable for yourself so you can both thrive.

>>21812765
I believe I have a strong conviction that God is one. I believe I have a strong belief; although in truth I think my belief in the one-ness of God is stronger; in the prophethood of Muhammad sAaws. I say this because while I strive to practice Islam, I feel my love for the Prophet sAaws isn't what it should be, given that I put my entire striving for salvation in this basket. I do love him, but I feel like something is missing. I believe (and in a way "hope", which may be indicative of religious hypocrisy) that it is an ongoing learning. Still I am a very happy man, and happy with my religion.

>>21812836
>Get stable, then find someone stable
lmao this is why I resigned that I'll be forever alone
>ahhh now that I'm 40+ and I have a career, I can think about dating some widow/roastie
it's over. past your 30s what you have is what you get. time to drink

>>21812864
>ahhh now that I'm 40+ and I have a career, I can think about taking all the meaningful striving I have done so far and completing it with a full home and family life
why not senpai?

>>21812870
>why not senpai?
Because I think of the girls who left me in my 20s to "have fun" and "experience life" and the thought that I'm taking them back and providing for them after they're done riding the cock carousel is too unbearably cucked to submit to, even if it means dying inside from crushing loneliness.

>>21810149
Its multiplicities are reflected in this chandelier and I see all the corridors of possibility reflected as shards. Where and when is he who in the storm may find calm, he who will deliver the peace and rose. Nothing has been set, and starring into this illusion is dripping precious time. The only time you get live is right now. Even if the fruit is cheap and picked from the ground, it is ripe and in season. Definition awaits user input.

>after they're done riding the cock carousel
not to mention multiple years after they've hit the wall and are no longer attractive to anyone but desperate lonely men. you realize that if they were still attractive they wouldn't settle down but keep riding dicks. that's what the culture says they should do, get railed until there's no more railing to do and find some idiot to "settle down with" and maybe have a kid so you can still brag that you're a mother
I wanted to marry in my 20s.

>>21812892
you're sure you don't have a somewhat shallow view of your 20s and the women you dated then? and women in general?

and life in general?

>>21812894
>>21812897
No. It was all very clear. Girls aren't serious anymore until they are forced to, and I will not be one of the men who will find a way to reward these children for the shitty choices they made. I don't wanna be a provider for someone who's finally done "having fun". I don't wanna have children at 40, I think it's wrong and horrible and selfish. I would've married in my 20s and had a child around that age. It didn't happen then and I won't half-ass it now with someone I will always be unable to truly love, just because I'm lonely. This is predatory garbage shit that this society does and I'll die on this hill.

And please stop lecturing me you stupid zoomer, I've had enough of a rough day

I always hesitate when it comes to making a relationship official. I like them. Is there someone better for me? A platonic ideal? Maybe. But to make something official means that lover now publically represent me to some degree. Now I become that guy with that kind of interest. It's intolerable because I enjoy being ambivalent about my identity. In a way, I have to to survive. I'll never meet my ideal so why materialise what is not.

>>21812950
I don't like this sort of oblique reasoning although it's probably smarter. If I'm convinced enough to be with someone I make it official.

It’s amazing how much I better myself when dating or looking to date. Hygiene, more financially responsible, keeping my apartment clean, working out, etc

>>21813048
When I'm in a relationship I'm another person. I'm firing on all cylinders, confident, strong. I feel like I can take on the whole world.

Cystic pimple behind my ear hurts.

God I am so fucking depressed right now. I'm starting to binge drink to wash the pain away like a legit alcoholic.

>>21810785
If x=y then y=x. People tend to forget that or they let their baggage put its spin on the truth. What you said is a good reminder of that.

Sometimes I have to hold my tears back when I'm in public, like walking down the street. My thoughts just go places where it hurts. It's no way to live.

>>21813109
>where it hurts
no gf?

I'm thinking things are gonna be just fine, bros

>>21813109
that's very heavy. do you have anything you like to do? I think you should do something you would enjoy if you can, even if it's just sitting down for a moment.

>>21813078
It really is a game changer

>>21813170
I do have things I like doing but I don't get to do things I like when I'm in this state. I'll go for a walk right now so I can sober up and then I'll just escape some more in my little shitty fantasy world until I fall asleep.

>>21813149
>things’ll be just fine
>posts twelve year old schizo meme

Go on, 4chan, decide my fate
evens = yes
odds = no

>>21813242
you will have sex soon if dubs
(could be horrible sex tho)

What the difference between good literary work and the bad one? Is it something obvious or subtle?

>>21812881
Yeah rot alone lol

>>21812908
Lol no wonder you never had a chance. You sound awful. Imagine any women wanting to try with you after reading such paragraph. Lucky gals, good for them for staying away.

>>21812881
Just as men mature, so do women. Obviously there are red flags but if you’re insecure being with a girl after she’s dated around when young, you will be FA or only have a bottom of the barrel girl.

>>21813354
>after she’s dated around
I'm not talking about that ex boyfriend and you know it, and you're arguing in bad faith
I told you not to lecture me

Leftwing/rightwing are terms invented to describe the basic directions people stood in during the revolution. The emancipation of finances and free market capitalism is what liberals stood for, they were called left, the right were for king, god, and tradition.
The first round went to the left, but they simply replaced the right aristocracy with their businessman class. The left further developed into anti authoritarianism and anti capitalism.
The right still bellyache about tradition and god, but now their new king is capitalism. This doesn’t mean there’s no rightwing, this means there’s no leftwing.
The left wants the masses free from state-capitalism. We have a global oligarchy and it is rightwing

>>21813380
people say left/right but nothing describes the world as well as "crony capitalism". it's literally the only thing there is, crony capitalism. it's the perfect blend and it's what's happening and everything else is just nonsense

>>21813374
That was my first post. A lot of guys have a weird relationship with sex that ties into their pride. They see sex in a vastly different way than women do. No one is telling you there is nothing wrong with a triple digit body count. All I’m saying is don’t be hung up if a 30 year old women starts taking dating seriously and matures after sleeping with a couple dozen guys in her early 20’s

>>21812146
I hate youtube shorts. Cannot stand to watch them. I have no idea what your problem is.

https://youtu.be/Vq85vxM2DoY

>>21813421
>couple dozen
I thought you were gonna say a couple. But a couple dozen?

>>21813259
>could be horrible sex tho
What is horrible sex? Could it go so wrong?

I hate everything relating to money. Had a minor traffic incident. The persons family is being low key threatening about it because they dont want to cover the dent on my car and my family isgetting hypertension about it because they think I should be demanding a fix.

>>21813537
A girl has ~2 relationships a year for 10 years which last on average six months with a few duds here and there and a few that last longer and are more serious. Get over your hang ups about sex. It’s generally not a big deal

>>21813550
people can have whatever hangups they want you know

>>21813550
>fucking a new guy every six months for a decade
Thats extremely unstable and a huge red flag.

>>21813563
Well I guess enjoy living your romantic life in your idealistic head and being lonely. Vast majority of people don’t marry the first, or even the first few people, they date. It takes time and experience to find what you really want in a partner. It’s especially funny coming from guys in their early 20’s who can’t even get into a relationship. A bunch of Quixotic incels

I’ve failed to accomplish what in retrospect I should have accomplished by now and now I’ll have to make a decision on what to do.

>>21813557
>>21813588
I have stopped engaging with the obvious hostile retard 3 posts ago. Please don't o it on my behalf.

>>21813386
That’s just what capitalism is.
Introduce greed as the world motivator and you get cronies banding together to fleece the masses.
Take that motivating mechanism away and the cronies are left as equals. That’s not nonsense. That’s actual tradition, as scantily recorded as it is.

>>21813588
Enjoy settling. We will continue to laugh at you.

>>21813599
You’re right

>>21810149
BURGUNDY SAUCE IN REVERSE

>>21813647
>>21813647
>>21813647
let's liven this mafk up a notch

>it's early
OH YEAH?!

Well…

Next

>>21813653
>>21813653

>>21813588
So basically
>just settle for a girl who fucked 40 men, incel

>>21813665
>settled
You prioritize hyman breaking empty heads you can manipulate. Many do not.