/lit/ - Literature

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/womyn/

>>21727743
"A house divided against itself cannot stand." The pleasure-drive is a dance around emptiness. What it promises it can never deliver, to drink of it and immerse oneself in it is not to find true fulfilling and satisfying Pleasure but to endlessly reach towards that Pleasure, exponentially reaching for it but always infinitesimally distant from it. I, myself, do these things, and I, myself, am disgusted, am horrified, flee to the desert. To bend towards emptiness in the form of pleasure is to annihilate the intellect and all urges of the Soul, leaving only a gibbering, wordless mass of dumb flesh eternally moving towards the great object of its desire, Pleasure, and never reaching it. I must seize control of the coupling, the conduit, the linking-point, the bridge between the Soul and the flesh, and deliberately and purposefully direct it at every instant, or it (I) will fall towards the pleasure-void and be annihilated. One of me must die and one must live on, either the intellect or the pleasure-seeker, and it will be--

>>21727766
baste

>>21727777
checkin dem quads

>>21727778
checkin dat ass

What does it mean when a woman acts all giggly, asks questions, invites her self to do something with you after class, and seems generally interested, but then as soon as you finally ask her if she wants to do something, she starts making excuses like that she's "busy", not answering your messages, leaving you on unread, and avoiding you more generally, like not showing up to class?
Am I delusional? Was she never interested in the the first place? I know that some people here say that it's best to think of women like capricious children, but surely there's some rationale behind this sort of behavior? Is she creeped out? I'm so confused and sort of hurt.

>>21727791
just dont care. move on.

>>21727791
>capricious children
duplicitous imbeciles

>>21727793
You're probably right, but I'd just like to know if anyone has any idea what this type of behaviour means.

>>21727797
maybe something else is happening in her life. you have no way of knowing. you're too in the dark in this situation to make proper sense of it so why bother? it could have literally nothing to do with you.

>>21727806
Hmmph. Never considered that. Maybe I'm a bit narcissistic.

>>21727826
you're on /lit/. of course you are.

>>21727806
This. Also once you made your interest clear - there's nothing else to do. If she's not into you - she's not into you.

>>21727791
Use your new found friendship to fuck her friends like an adult.ndygr

I never had a chance to be a normal person.

>>21727828
Today you anons were not total faggots and actually helped me in navigating this situation. Thank you.

>>21727743
Would a plot based on genetic engineering, be accused of promoting eugenics?

I’m moving in a terrible direction. Can’t really escape. Can’t really change my mind. It’s scary knowing that I can’t.

>>21727846
It's all a crapshoot anyway. Don't take it personally.
>>21727960
All you can do is repent.

>>21727968
Repentance isn’t enough for me to feel fulfilled again. Don’t see a point anymore.

>>21727968
>Don't take it personally.
I wish I could but people around me are just better on fundamental level.

>>21727988
Its not about your personal feelings but rather what is good for you and objectively better.
>If you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.

>>21727990
Stop hurting yourself with those thoughts. I guarantee those people are not even thinking about you. Develop yourself as a person and do it without self-consciousness. You cannot grow spiritually without suffering.

>>21728000
But what if I believe repentance isn’t enough?

>>21728005
Im cursed. Theres no spirituality for me.

>>21727791
Shit test most likely. Just say something like “alright let me know if you change your mind,” that way you are walking away, not acting like it’s a big deal yet leaving the door open for future possibility. There’s really no way to know though. Maybe she just wanted validation.

>another morning thinking about death
>will go to class and lifelessly note take anyway
Idk why I hold on I think I just wanna watch the future

>>21728011
Its the only way out and its your choice. Try believing that its possible.
>>21728037
Same goes for you.

I am a sick man anons......
I have (untreated) sleep apnea which leaves me in a constant state of drowsiness. I abuse energy drinks, but I they have begun giving me heart palpitations.

I have no health insurance, so I need to find a job soon.

Where do you know anon from?

>wake up
>absolutely bloody violent argument in my head
>don't care about either side
>don't think I'm right or even making sense
>still arguing in my head, just angry voices making dramatic statements
Very good I would like the lithium strawberry flavoted

I'm so tired, bros. I'll drown in coffee until I have a heart attack or I wake up. This drowsy feeling is actually good, but I have to work for the next 6 hours.

Accidentally spent an hour on Twitter and now I've gone full chud again.

>>21727743
7 hours

Where’s the link OP? Link back from the previous thread so I know you’ve made one. Geez

i wish this bitch would die
i pray to god that this bitch will die

I'm willing to travel 5 hours on the train to Cardiff just to talk to you and hang out and give you the first twenty chapters of a novel I am writing for you because I really want our friendship to blossom. Like, this is the most craziest thing. I'm willing to do that. You've made it crystal clear that there is nothing between us so why would I do that? I ask nothing in return except a little slither of your time. Does that not tell you anything? I am the laughing stock of my generation. I have nothing to rest my hope on if I had any at all. Yet I would not do this for anybody else. I have not done this for anybody else. Just because we are destined to be terrible texters does not mean we won't have fun together in person.

But alas, I have nothing more to offer you. All this for a look at your triangular smile and your arched raised eyebrow once again. I am a stupid man.

Fleeting visions of a memory abound around every corner I turn; a constant feeling of deja vu is my modus operandi. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm graduating from uni soon. Nothing really piques my interest that much, I picked English for my program because it seemed easy and enjoyable enough. Now I'll reap the fruits of my labor--and since the labor I put in was very slight, I shall yield slight gains from this enterprise. It seems like my entire life has been a fever dream, and that it will continue to be that way for a while, probably the rest of it will be uncanny and surreal in some capacity, at the very least.

>>21727743
I hate my life and have always hated my life.

Art must be free from restraint so it can work for humanity instead of against it. Circumscribed by censors and social stigma, the only function art can perform is as a vanguard for capitalism. Capitalist art, or "content", can pose as revolutionary. Consider Taylor Swift producing a song advocating social equality. Pop songs of today seem greater than themselves in that they are followed by the ghosts of their branding, including videos, media coverage, social media presence. But in the end do they have more clout (or even nearly as much) than an anti-war song from the 1960s, which spread only through radio, record sales and word of mouth? Not while the forces which disseminate them are themselves circumscribed by social dictates.
Over time, society comes to resemble the culture it is allowed to consume. When that culture is not allowed to represent any ideas outside the ruling hegemony, nothing can be new and all art is autophagy. This is a one-way street and it's easy to see where it's going.

>>21727791
i hate that shit man

>>21727960
drugs rule man i envy you but i know if i smoke weed i'll just get absurdly paranoid and if i do any more lsd i'll just become next level autistic

>>21730098
>capitalism
shut the fuck up

>>21727791
Nothing a woman does means anything. Imagine yourself at 8 years old making and breaking friendships and having weird little dramas. All of it matters as long as it's in the moment, but you probably don't remember all the little relationships and group dynamics you went in and out of rapidly as you grew up. That's a woman's ADULT experience too, they never stop living like that. That doesn't mean you should accept it from them, but you should understand that most of them can't help themselves. They are basically dreaming while awake, they are in a reverie that won't end until they're 28 or so, when it becomes a nightmare, and then they only fully wake up into cold brutal boring male reality and join the rest of us around 33.

I'm serious, the sooner you train yourself to stop trying to track or explain or derive meaning from women's behavior, the better, and on top of that, the more they will respect you and be attracted to you as well. It's no picnic to be like they are, imagine never waking up from a perpetual dream, always stuck in dream logic in which emotions and associations flow and interweave with and reconstruct reality continuously. They are children, and not even particularly bright or lucid children. It's their blessing and their curse.

>>21731053
he's wining about capitalism but then pining for the 60s as if capitalism wasn't dominant in the 60s. really stupid post.

>>21731067
capitalism doesn't real. it's a made up word for spiteful and smug young men who want to sound intelligent.

>>21731081
agreed.

My girlfriend told me she had to pee during sex, so I held her close and whispered into her ear, “Release everything onto me.” Kissing her in between the quotes. “Your anger.” “Your hatred.” “Your thoughts.” “Your ambitions.” I’m not sure why I started quoting elden ring at the tail end of those quotes. I’m not even sure why I attempted a British accent to begin with. I’m not sure why I’m analyzing the reason why I’m analyzing—we were dressed up as elden ring characters.

>>21731067
>as if capitalism wasn't dominant in the 60s
Not in its neoliberal form it wasn't

>>21731413
so if we could just roll back neoliberal capitalism to an lbj great society capitalism we could get rad anti-war hits on the radio again? well why didn't you say that instead of bitching about "capitalism" itself. you want capitalism to be regulated differently. say that then instead of sounding like a marxist baby. also, just out of curiosity, what are these anti-war hits you think were regularly on the radio during the 60s?

>>21729648
why?

I read a lot today :)

>>21732572
what are you reading?

>>21728314
it's absurd how much of my day is taken up by this fucking nonsense. arguing both sides in my head like an absolute schizo. i don't even care, i haven't seen anyone other than my mother in like five years. jesus fucking christ.

>>21727743
>bought a crate of beer off of amazon
>cannot be delivered
>ordered it again, have to wait until tomorrow to see if the same thing happens
they better not fuck me on this

The problem is precisely lack of trying. I can't get the bloody thing done, and it's for lack of trying. Now normally the thing has a difficulty and for some people that might be too much or too little, depending on the person, but the usual solution is to try longer or harder and get the thing done. Nobody seems to have anything to say when the trying itself has its own difficulty. Don't even get me started on trying to try, that fucking farce. Give me motivation, force me into discipline, assign me hours, dedicate days, make me listen to people cheering me up, get me extensions for browsers and goddamn child restrictions and all my effort goes into hacking away at them until they're gone. I don't try because trying is too hard, and I can't get it done because to get it done I'd have to try. How the fuck am I supposed to get anything done when the very effort it takes to try to get it done saps all the breath out of my lungs? And it's not that the things are hard. How hard is it to write gibberish on some random topic and copy bits and pieces from other publications and reword them and paste in citations which are already provided? Not hard at all. I'd bet whatever the fuck you want that at least 3/4ths of the world's population would gleefully exchange places with me, maybe more. Or fucking murder someone even, if they didn't have to face any consequences for it, except 30 pages of some bullshit thesis. But that goes both ways. If I could chop wood for a whole fucking day and do nothing except chop wood all day for a week - you can take the saturdays and sundays if you like I don't give a shit - instead of sitting here and having to push that fucking stone up to the foot of the mountain all over again, I'd do it. Hell, give me a year of chopping wood and I'll do it. Just write me my fucking thesis.

wow man some guy is REALLY seething about nietzsche this morning lmao

If you’re thinking about taking a risk and betting on yourself, your poetry, your art and you’re young, just do it. Embrace the starving artist lifestyle and make it work later. If you don’t, and you wake up at 30 having never really taken the risks and given it everything, you will regret it. For a poet or an artist, a normal life can feel like a death sentence and to look back on a normal life something even worse.

A significant part of this board is illiterate. I don't mean this as a joke or in a resentful way. It's just a remarkable phenomena and alternative explanations like that it's all trolling don't fit. How does this happen? I bet most of them have read many books but apparently didn't understand any of it.

>>21732924
A significant part of this board is zoomers

Dating you mom's co-worker: based, cringe?

https://twitter.com/FrancesWangTV/status/1377077876995059716

>>21727743
Why doesn't the department store sell baking soda? I need to unclog my kitchen drain otherwise I can't go back to brooding at my flatmates.

>>21727791
She wanted to see if she could gain power over you, and once demonstrated lost interest.

Women like to have many 'back-up' boyfriends. They hoard self-esteem.

If you needed a place to live but didn’t have an income, would you rent in the city or in the suburbs? City right? Even though the rent will be slightly more expensive, you’ll have more job opportunities if you get desperate.

crossdressing means acquiring feminine energy for me.

>>21733175
Would you still need a car in the city?