/lit/ - Literature

>>21722137
Whoops. Didn't capitalize the F
Oh well.

>>21722137

I forgot her name.

I idealize the strong, brutish, and unthinking man who, at the same time, does what is right when necessary. I wish that I were like that, or at least a stoic warrior-poet. But in reality I am, and I fucking hate saying this, an extremely effiminate faggot-type of bookish maggot. I can't get angry enough at a single villain or trouble-maker long enough to resolve to kill him (or them) because my faggot-soul can't help but to empathize with almost anyone. I've been punched out by a nigger before and all it took for me to forgive him was to see him cry after a phone call.
It's worse than being a psychopath or even a cuck, because I know what is wrong, I know I am an utter faggot, I know what must be done, but I am too much of it to really pull it off.
It makes it even worse that I have been born into a vile, contorted body fit, at most, to be a background circus freak.

I hate this so much bros. I am physically incapable of being the brash man I pretend to be.

I'm a new tripcode user. I'll be posting every day from now on.

>>21722170
Rood Aggie

>>21722186
Hi

Is normal for a man to wonder what is it like to be pregnant

Yikes

>>21722186
Boring. I'm more interested in Xi's bussy

>>21722184
Literally just lift weights

I fail to see what new thing Deleuze has introduced to Kant

This is advice every sad boy needs to hear
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WnEw4f_nwPw&si=EnSIkaIECMiOmarE

Weaponized interdependence is a beautiful thing.

It’s time to start planning my exit.

Agatha is not rude!

>>21722209
>Mentioning streaking
>Incel meltdown imminent

My life finally makes sense. It was so obvious all this time. Now its time to put everything in motion.

AI has made me feel so dispensable. Honestly I think I would support an anti-industrialization movement. Go after AI like rooting out commies and spies.

>>21722313
>like rooting out commies
How counterintuitive.
Liberal state capitalism is the technological path. Anarcho-communism is the environmental traditional community path

>>21722184
I don't even need to be a warrior poet, I just want to have any masculine trait. Some guy was talking about fat, old and ugly sex tourists in Thailand and I was thinking that those guys are still better than me, because they at least fulfil their base male desires, while I'm too much of a pussy and would even treat a whore like a princess.

>>21722326
You're a good guy anon. Sex tourists are scum. Don't take the Tatepill, that path leads nowhere.

>>21722334
stop enabling his pussiness

>Recent studies show that sugar substitute erythritol is connected to high risk of blood clotting, stroke, heart attack and death.
And that about wraps it up for all the sugars and sugar substitutes out there, not a single one is left without fault.

>>21722324
Maybe there’s a third option

>>21722137
I wrote 11k+ words of a fanfiction, and still have another 2-4k left before its finished.

I wanted this to be my last practice piece before writing my own original works but im potentially going to get a new Job at a start up that is going to eat up ALL OF MY TIME.
I'm feeling some regret that I did not get a soulless mindless government tech job to pay the bills for the kids so I can write till I make money off of that.

I'm worried I fucked up.
I need to support my family but if I don't write I will die.

In a cycle right now. Scary how nonchalant it is the way it fucks up your life. I'm gonna break it tomorrow, but that's been the plan for a while now. Good luck to everyone else.

Every time I'm miserable I read Houellebecq's "to stay alive: a method". It comforts me and helps me to get back in path. I should read it more

>>21722184
I can empathize with your plight.
I may not be the same genetically deformed creature, but I understand the problems of pathological empathy and the allure of the strong stoic straight forward man.

I may have been like you a few years ago. Like the other anon said, I lifted weights, and gradually worked on myself. I'm not Heracles yet but it's a processes.

All you can really do is rage. Rage against the pussy that you are, rage against the vileness of the world, and use the spite as fuel. Keeping the balance of righteous spite with your take a stance back empathy and not going over to obsessive cuntyness will be challenging.

The hardest obstacle, in my experience, is summoning that righteous fury when you can so easily imagine what made a person such a piece of shit.

I think the key maybe understanding that although circumstances have brought them here, they are the arbiters of their existence. Hardening ones heart is a practiced, precise art.

Remeber, moderation is a virtue.
We are all going to make it.

How to get an inoperable brain tumor?

I wear shoes 1/2 size too small because it looks better. But my feet are becoming deformed. Sad.

>>21722137
Porn is dead. Porn remains dead. And we have killed her.
With the advent of hi def porn-scapes and holo-porn, we lost touch with pornographic tradition. The new generations openly spurned x-videos and pornhub-- even blaspheming such time honored figures as Hugh Hefner. The death of Porn was slow, it did not occur all at once. First there was onlyfans which generated a whole new genre of personalized porn. Then eventually as virtual reality became all encompassing, only fans was in turn subverted. Whole virtual worlds arose over night cheapening the coomer rites--reducing it to the level of a mere videogame.
Today the coomer can choose a wide variety of pre-set or customized sex avatars. He has all the freedom in the world, but has lost something essential. He no longer cooms with reason or any higher sense of perversion. Today's coomer lacks immorality, with the loss of shame cooming has lost all purpose. His whole world has become coom night and day. From dusk to dawn he sits plugged into his cock-pit, pumping away, penetrated from behind, a continual stream flows from him, returning as recycled Dew.
The 1st gen sex-pits featured customized cock sleeves, multi-probers allowing sexual stimulation from multiple fronts, and a range of sex-scapes. Sex anywhere you want with whomever you want. As the personalized synthetic cock-sleeve wraps around the penis noiselessly pumping electricity is generated. A personalized report on sexual function metrics, and if desired a high score card to see other players' performance metrics. Even the by-product is noiselessly siphoned off leaving nothing physical behind. The cum recycled, synthesized into the masturbator's beverage of choice, and piped right back into his mouth. Nothing is wasted, nothing lost.

>>21722742
Time was a man booted up a crusty thinkpad, browsed such petty offerings as available on X-Videos or Xhamster. All kinds of X-s
Gooning wasn't just a way to pass the time, it was an ideal. X marks the spot. treasure hidden under dirty sand. A Conch shell hiding a pearl. Pry it open to get that milky pearl.. X, a cross-roads or contradiction. X negates what comes after. And X, a crossing to the beyond, a symbol of suffering.
Pornography is the peak of the western tradition. Full of such layered symbolic resonances, it reminds a man of his uncleanliness. That uncleanliness is next un-godliness. To be unclean is to partake in seizing what ought not to be.
Lighting up my screen, I see her face, hesitant and reserved. She glances up and feigns a smile, but her unhappiness is palpable. She does not want to be here doing this. Her debasement inadvertently heightens the arousal. As one goes down, the other goes up...
It will be over soon.

Need a hot vitiligo gf to fatten up for my sexual purposes

i wish i could learn something
i just wanna be good at something, i dont know what to learn or how, its all so pointless feeling. i want a purpose i want to create. i dont know how. why the fuck are there so many people like me?

>>21722137

Alone and all alone in non-alone blood revival
Where dirges do sing and dove doth beat its wing
Like heartful flutters of the heavy phantoms those
Heavy phantoms of fantastic memories t'were never
memorized and cant remember are they memories at all?
or that recurring again stirring within vision of my future
heart stitched by sutures of that spirit primeval of that
old feeling eternal or spirit primeval of the childish time of old
and if that spirit eternal primeval did dwell again and yes once
again once if that child primeval would walk with me again and again
what could that dovebird in sea dream'n all do or do perhaps it could
but love and long longer and lovelier for that strongest desire to
but know and make real realer and knowledge made real in the fire of
spirit of the real spirit of the old spirit made real of the spirit it knows
it must make real for itself and unique to itself for the gods and for
the return eternal for the gods to burn all desire of theirs for greatness
for greatness to admire to burn away in fire on that candlewick of the spirit
created by that child from the wisp it dream'd up on that day on that day
on that day when the world was real like a brother or sister like a brother
or a sister wast the world loved in those days, infinite and new and
pungent and strong and golden and bright and all the senses weaved together
when that pranayama did on that road of fresh air breathe together and say yes
yes to that fresh air and to the smell of dry dirt forged into a memory forged
forged into a memory those and that love were to be stored and why oh why
were they taken from my and mine taken away and was it ever more than
more than a memory or what if it dwelled in this world, to be here again?

One of the worst Op pictures I've ever seem for this general. Fuck you, op, I hope you drown in the shit life you have

>>21722652
Are you a girl or just a fag?

I've read that prefrontal cortex stops developing at 25. What are the consequences if it's underdeveloped and how do you know that your prefrontal cortex is?

>>21722312
Explain.

>>21722137
doesn't the troon in the op have blonde hair now ?

>>21722184
If you’ve never lifted weights or practiced a combat sport, you should start. Get fit. Look into the military.

>>21722184
perfect time to get fit is after you’ve developed the capacity for empathy, patience and tolerance, so i’d say you’re at a great point to start, but being fit doesn't entitle you to be an arsehole or for some reason neglect these parts of you, but it does make dealing with the arsehole side of life a little less painful.

>>21722998
My life experiences were perfectly crafted for singular purpose - me killing myself. It was so obvious all this time. I need to approach this act from a logical standpoint.

>>21722184
>internet tough guy is actually a total sissy
many such cases. in fact, that's the general assumption when encountering an internet tough guy and has been since the beginning of the internet.

The real tragedy of youth is that you have to figure out what you want to do fairly young. If you don’t figure it out until 30 or later, you may have shot yourself in the foot.

>>21722927
Alone and all alone in non-alone blood revival
Where dirges sing and dove doth beat its wing-flooding cycle
Like heartful flutt'ring heavy phantoms gone, gone in time lost
Like heavy phantoms gone and never full again in mine soul
Or are they memories at all or just feelings again come
to stir within a vision that recurs now again now
my Heart is stitched by sutures visions of futures not lost
visions of Child primeval come again staining spirit
With golden ether sprung from wither'd trees, trees so ancient
If only did that spirit dwell with me, what oh what could
It do but love and long much longer failing to fail itself
What could that dovebird dreamin' do but make spirit real its
Old knowledge of what must be to realize spirit made real
Its spirit for itself unique to make real and real for
The gods to love for return eternal that spirit greatness
The gods will burn all desire to greatness admire by fire
On candlewick created from the wisp that that child made
On that day of the world become real like brother or sister like
Brother or sister wast the world lov'd in those days
Pungent and strong and golden and bright and all the senses weaved together
When that pranayama did on that road of fresh air breathe together and say
Yes to the fresh air and the dry dirt in the air
All forged into a memory fair but why oh why did it leave my and mine or
Did it ever leave at all or was it ever more than my memory or
What if it were to dwell in this world again?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKdFdO7--KQ

>>21723283
>If you don’t figure it out until 30 or later, you may have shot yourself in the foot.
I'm 30still havent figure it out

There is another world, but it is in this one.

>>21722186
Fuck off you smelly pajeet

>>21722324
>[Meme ideology] is the [meme phenomenon] path. [Other meme ideology] is the [other meme phenomenon path]

>>21722990
He's an autist who has been posting about his foot obsession for months. Guy already has undersized feet but thinks he looks like a clown.

>>21722326
Anon the most masculine trait of all is to stop giving a fuck about percieved masculinity and focus on living well. The only person you need to impress in the whole universe is yourself. Indulging in hobbies or ideologies purely on the basis of some arbitrary perceived social criteria in an attempt to emulate "manliness" just makes you another sheep. Find your own bliss and be kind to everybody because they are just as lost and disoriented as you are.

>>21723342
You probably have actually because you have inclinations and you know what they are. When you’re alone you think about them. You just haven’t done them, which is really the issue. You can know what path you want to get on but if you don’t get on it until you’re 35 you may as well have not known before you’re 35. Your 20s are a learning experience but some people are lucky enough to get some experience in their 20s which parlays well later, or they have an exciting 20s if nothing else. The rest just waste their time.

>>21722186
You likely won't have what it takes for this line of work.
v_v and fake butters thought they did but they didnt

>>21722184
Same as you, except I'm not bookish. I get easily angry but I'm passive aggressive.
>>21722137
I feel so bad for this chick. People value naivety, but such people are so easy to manipulate. I know because I was one. One of her friends convinced her that she was a lesbian autist and she tried too hard to convince her viewers as if she was trying to convince herself. It was sad to see.

I wish I had joined the army when I graduated. Even if it sucked, I could’ve had the experience of going somewhere and doing something while I was young instead of chasing a paycheck in some shitty analyst job across several mediocre suburbs.

I just went through the frontpage of reddit - I do so occasionally, as an anthropological exercise. One of the top posts was from something called "white people twitter" - apparently, they're doing segregation, which is hilarious - and it was about how Ron DeSantis is ending Disney Land's status as a special district because Disney loves homos and DeSantis doesn't or some shit like that, and then that means DeSantis is a fascist according to plebbit.

Of course the plebbit thread is all ablaze about how they also, as good plebbitors, really like homos, but it is competely insane to me that not one of them gives any thought whatsoever to how Disney has a special district - like a private corporation is allowed the status of a mini-sovereign state within the state. That's completely fucking deranged, and calling it fascism when DeSantis, a democratically elected official, revokes their special corporate nobility privileges, is so far fucking beyond deranged that I am at a loss for words.

Well, that was enough plebbit-anthropology for a month at least. The level of astroturfed, consent-manufacturing and bot-created hyperreality plebbit exists on will give any healthy man schizophrenia in a matter of hours, it is a profoundly mentally toxic environment.

>>21723705
This. I hate my corporate job. Always sucking up to your senior, this data that data. Fuck this.
I wish I had some balls to change my life.

>>21723762
>the status of a mini-sovereign state within the state
Disney World is symbolically important, like a Rome of escapist consumerism. Consider the contrast between the reality of Florida and the hyperreality of Disney. Think about the state of mind required to accept it all and even pay for it. I first noticed something is seriously wrong with the world when I went there on pilgrimage as a child raised by globohomo media. It's the feeling of seeing a nice sturdy castle and then noticing it's made of cardboard, the entire point of a castle is to be sturdy. You don't need to read some masturbation about simulacrum to intuitively feel how wrong the cardboard castle is.

When he built up the courage to act normal
he had thought he had managed. He drove miles
for some laughs and he got to bed light-hearted.

He woke up hungover, for once without bottles
to collect off the carpet. Often, the morning
would dry his spit off the mess he’d abandoned,

often hungover was message-less, rinsing the
night off private dryness, starting over. Often
failing starting-over, or starting-over failure. This time,

he had thought he had managed. He awoke
later than he had thought, hungover and private.
This time, this surprised him, wasn’t message-less.

Two unread texts from two hours earlier. Unexpected.
“We noticed you” sent at seven o’clock, “sadder
than ever.” Then a whole day without replying, without

driving, without a shot. When he built up the
courage to act normal he had thought he had manged.
But by the evening he had decided he had not.

Today I have been feeling better and calm than I have in a long time

Well fuck I have all day today and tomorrow off. Havent had this much time off in months. Only problem is I have no idea what to do.

>>21723664
I'm coming for your bussy xi

>>21723764
I’ve never sucked up or played the political game. I’m barely social. Somehow I’ve survived in it. I just can’t stand being in a meeting or something and remembering how this ultra unimportant thing is how I spend my life. It’s so small and frankly, embarrassing.

I’ve always wanted to do something hard and important, but I fear I’ve already sealed my fate with all this.

>>21724124
>IS THAT A WELL PAYING, AIRCONDITINED OFFICE JOB, WITH A RETIRENENT PLAN AND HEALTH BENEFITS?
>AAAAAAA HELP ME BRAD PITT IM GOUNG INSANNNEEEE

>>21723762
You’re the one who is deranged for not seeing it never mattered to them. Liberal progressives love corporations as long as they work towards their goals and the destruction of their enemies. There’s no neoliberal principle that says they have to hate corporate power, only that they have to feign sympathy for the poor and working classes. I don’t know how you’ve not caught on to this yet.

>>21724133
Physical comfort isn’t necessarily worthwhile. In fact, it can be it’s own sort of suffering even worse than physical discomfort.

>>21723705
Got a Bachelor's? Look into commissioning through OCS. If you really do hate your job you can switch career paths through the service.

I had a really weird dream last night where I was partaking in a hardcore bdsm femdom session. I was wearing all this leather while my wrists were chained to the ceiling, and I was semi suspended and two domintraces were caressing my body. Ive had recurring dreams in the past about some sucubus who likes to remind me that she owns me and I'm her sex slave. Thinking this might be another chapter in that arc.

>>21723705
>>21723764
What do you want?

>>21724174
I have actually. I’m 29. Even though I could still join, I tend to feel like I missed the window where the experience is worthwhile.

>>21724172
You're just romanticizing that. Youve never lived a ljfe of discomfort. If you had you'd know how miserable it is and that you're actually really lucky to have what you do.

>>21722199
Agatha becoming a e-whore was such an unexpected turn of events. She was so incredibly autistic and sheltered. It's as if Reviewbrah got a bunch of tattoos and started a punk band.

>>21724193
And what would make it worthwhile, then?
I'll tell you right now that chasing the sort of camaraderie that you see in a military TV show is a fool's errand. It exists, but whether it happens to you or not is almost completely out of your hands. Look at it more pragmatically, balancing the benefits you could get from service against the drawbacks it presents, and put away the idealized picture of military service you might have.

>>21724187
Don’t know really. I have a few inclinations but tend to think that I’ve already screwed up my potential in them. It’s a pessimistic outlook, but that’s the truth of it.

>>21724194
I did actually. You’re just projecting on me I think.

>>21724249
The military? Nothing short of a war I guess. When I talk about wishing I had joined the army to go somewhere and do something, what I really want to have had is that latter part, going somewhere and doing something. The military is just a way to do that when young. Now, it sort of feels like what’s done is done. The window has closed already.

>>21724262
Do you have to be young to "go somewhere and do something?"
Tons of older dudes join up on special forces contracts and go on to crush it at Group. You don't have to be a fresh-faced 18 year old to do something worthwhile, and honestly you're better off not joining straight out of high school like I did.

>>21724256
Oh great, then you can quit your job and go back it to no problem.

>>21723627
Maybe I dont know how to think because when I think nothing comes to my consciousness.

I'm 29 now. I was with a girl this weekend who was 23, and she called me daddy during sex. I'm not gonna lie, it turned my dick into giga-hardened diamonds, but looking back on it, it's fucking weird, and I resent getting older.

>get home at five from work
>spend hour decompressing
>cook and eat
>too mentally wasted to read
>just mentally fit to post on /lit/ about the books I read back when I had time to read, sometimes thinking about new aspects or perspectives about them
>response is just extreme and unmotivated belligerence or silence
The NEETs have the right idea.

I look like ice cream man she looks like a chunky monkey

>>21724498
>spend hour decompressing
eternally lmaoing at wagies

>>21724534
What?

>>21724307
Both suck. Your little gotcha is retarded.

>>21723463
Yes. This is me.

>>21724583
Yes.

>>21724292
Not necessarily. I think I’m just in a headspace where I feel like because I didn’t do certain things already or did things but in a certain way, that is in some way limiting for the future. Like if I was meant to do some thing, I’d have embarked on that journey already. In regard to the military specifically, I think there’s obviously value in it when there’s a war to be fought but otherwise the value is in sort of growing up in it. I’m not sure that value is there once you’re already grown up.

You have to deliberately and consciously choose good every day, at every hour, from moment to moment. When you allow yourself to go on autopilot, so to speak, you allow temptation and corruption to enter in and disrupt the control you have over yourself.

>>21724583
she a baddie she know she a 10

>>21722137
I wrote an electronic pop song inspired by Blood Meridian

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BfoZGekfahE

>>21724749
>>>/boomerbook/

>All my friends got into 1 subject together
>I'm completely disinterested. Got into another
>It's all they talk about now we're down the line

>>21722137
---- Solaria ----
809
(Surprise)

The natural astronomer,
Comedian comparing views

To circumstance that goes all the way back
Wonders who wouldn't want a huge unwieldy nut

Neighbor chicks delight in,

Unfolding in an arboretum's controlled elegance, or thoughts
About why lawn, at best, resembles carpet in an interior of utmost domestic tranquility

Only brighter, to see it as is, however it came to be,
Considerate to feeling that even I can't see

Before I see it, invisible patrician
Whose affection for you is beyond reason

Almost as a common toad in man's eye is,
Fashion bitches of ideas

Who've lost the splendor of musical sense,
Amiable nature, jests about

Seeds of doom,
The couture of cars,

Life like civilization, abnormal in longevity of mind
And memory of belongings,

Suites about siblings, living monuments to brilliant friends
That were always happy to see you

And couldn't explain the why
Despite the excellence of their recommendations:

When it comes to taste lacking that last measure of permanence
Of something sweet as reflection's limit,

Leisure absolute as sublime silliness,
Calm incandescence

Organized as if by inconceivable trees and manufactured window blinds,
The first and last of everything sensational,

Contrast irreconcilable otherwise,
Heady effects generally--

The good life to which divas aspire and sometimes are,
Hilarious angels to gorgeous boys

Like mothers or fathers are to the mind
And the design of metropoles,,

The scenic eye.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KztNIg4cvE&list=RD_KztNIg4cvE&start_radio=1

>>21722137
That thing is fucking abhorrent to look at it. It needs to be destroyed.

Was there any writer who predicted just how profoundly mundane and lonely modern life could be? When I was a remote worker and lived alone, the only consistent social interaction I had was with the cashier at the grocer.

>>21724708
Great talent wish you the best

>>21724777
Nobody meant to be down the line up the line everybody must go.

>>21724882
Use self-checkout to avoid that. The mountain is not mundane, it is full of spirits that whisper secrets and lies.

>>21724913
I don’t necessarily want to have to no social contact with other people.

>>21724898
Thank you friend, same to you.

Today wasn't a bad day. It seems that I have solved what could have spiraled into a personal and maybe familiar disaster. If this story ends well, I will celebrate it with a bottle of rum. Of course this was only an infinitesimal part of a whole ocean of sorrow and doom. But this day has proved that I can, and therefore must, change for the better.

>>21722137
fuck me lads look who i found https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/26587533-katie

>>21724782
I like your poems, solariaposter. What are your inspirations? Have you thought on uploading them all as a document?

>>21725022
I appear to be 40% compatible with this autistic whore.

I'm really hurting bros...
I want to meet up with someone regardless of sex for non-sexual non-verbal intimate interaction in the southern united states. I'm between the ages of 21 and 28.
I drank a lot of alcohol just now.
It sounds really weird but I have extreme social problems, but I want to feel another human being near me, and I want to be touch by another human. Because of social problems, I will drink a very large amount of alcohol acohol, handcuff, gag, and blindfold myself, and whatever anon is in the agreements will check in at the front desk (identity) this make sure things are safe, then you go into the room and lie down with me.
if you're self conscious, i won't be able to see you, there will be no verbal communication, and no rebuke. (I will pick hotel with camera)
I just want to feel touch before I die. That's it. It doesn't matter if you are morbidly obese or a man.
I am hurting so much bros. I don't know why I'm like this.

>>21725100
Your taste is the better.

>>21725105
>siddhartha 2 stars
>old man and the sea 1 star
>OMAM 1 star
>Gatsby 1 star
>To the lighthouse 2 star
his taste is shit

>>21725111
Yeah I should've given Siddhartha 1 star but it was fun.

>>21725114
Based

>>21722199
No gonna lie, I would, but mostly out of curiosity.

>>21725103
Unhandcuff me before you leave, and I will remove blindfolds after I hear you leave. This make sure you do not become seen, if you are shy yourself.

I'm the greatest writer of all time. Haters stick around

Head compressions after walk. Slight nerve ping near the crotch after posting, just askew of the pubic field. Write that down and forward to TK56E so long as you're headed that way

>>21725143
Affirmative. TK56E notified. Sending reinforcements.

>>21725124
You should sober up, no good decisions are ever made when that drunk.

How do you be happy around people?

I know that I am every negative stereotype. I am so self aware. I am lazy, ugly, irresponsible, a political nut. I know I am, essentially, a manchild. I never really developed past that.
I am okay with that. I just want to connect with a human being. I can't do it consentually. I will run away.
I have always wondered: "Am I a monster?" I can't feel when people touch me. I can't feel intimacy. I have never felt it. I never had a friend, or hugged one, and I have never even been close enough to family to hug them. So I am how I am.
I just want to find out once and for all, am I incapable of connecting with a human being? Am I really incapable of it? I know that I can feel deep, profound love for someone. I feel extreme empathy, I cry inside and am brought to tears when I see someone cry. But this is only in the parasocial sense. When I become the direct participant in an interaction, I am cold. I feel nothing. There is nothing.
The emptiness is as profound as my love. Is this how it will be, until I die? I cannot accept that I am fundamentally broken. I am so full of this desire to connect with someone, but it cannot escape. I am bursting. My head hurts.

I had sex with Ivanka Trump at the 2016 RNC

>>21725161
Thanks anon.

>>21725170
Get the lager in.

>>21724882
The future is an optimized, padded cell replete with all the latest gadgets. No one believes in anything but comfort today, that is the problem. There are no ideals to strive for, nothing to die for, just comfort..

>>21725200
How was it?

>>21722137
I'm extremely irritated that I can't find D.J. Molles complete series of The Remaining. Anyone have a torrent site or epub repository? I'm an idiot.

>>21725228
Like doing pushups

>>21724882
Not exactly a prediction but The Outsider, Colin Wilson is good.

>>21724882
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-11717599/Taliban-fighters-moan-dull-life-taking-Afghanistan.html

Day two of nofap and I'm already succumbing to Satan's fuzzy hand. Send help.

>>21725298
Masturbation is moral.

>>21725310
Masturbation is immoral that is why it's good

>>21725298
Hold in there brother it'll get easier soon, and it's worth it.

>>21725317
If Paris masturbated more, thousands would have been saved.

AI women are the future.

Can I keep coating it in euphemism? A few days ago I left to commit suicide. Was it a serious thought? I don't know. I don't know myself at all.
It is so hard to live. I know that I have been blessed with so much. Whenever I think I am at my lowest, I lose even more and realize, all along, I still possessed things worth having. Now, what will I lose? What will make me realize that it could have been worse all along?
Let's be realistic: I have tried to kill myself a bunch of times. At least four times I really did, honeslly, honestly think I would die. But do I have what it takes to die?
When I left to kill myself, I watched each passing truck with the thought that I should collide with it, yet I did not. I passed over a bridge that left an ample distance from the ground, yet I did not jump. I held a knife in my hands and sung hymns to God, begging for help. Yet at no point did I kill myself. How could I say that I want to die? On what grounds, when such a multitude of death lies before me?

>>21725337
do you mean the troy lad or the rapefugees

>>21725350
Next stop: the psych ward!

>>21725352
The Troy Boy. But both interpretations are valid.

The guy at chipotle told me he liked my vibe and gave me a free bag of chips. I couldnt tell his motive. I asked him if I could have more steak on my burrito and he said he could only give me a little more. At each point on the way with the cheese and sour cream he asked if jt was enough. My assumption was that he was being facetious. But then the compliment at the end and free chips was odd. Was he afrakd I was gonna karen on him and complain so he gave me more, or do I actually have a good vibe, or was he just low key gay for me?

>>21725368
They always make it worse. Never do I have such an urgent feeling of dread and anxiety than when I am at one. I am content to suffer. I will probably never kill myself. Just suffer. Thanks for responding to this attentionwhoring retarded faggot.

>>21725462
You'll ponder this even on your deathbed.

>>21725462
I was once told I'm the chillest person in the world. I just don't talk much, smile, and I always try to find ways to agree with something someone else says. Not out of servility, I just want people to feel good and happy as I'm sure there's some good in everyone and they don't have that much ill will. If they knew any of my political views they would refuse to believe it.

>>21725493
You're literally me

>>21725462
he was gay for you and he added his special sauce to your cheese and sour cream

I masturbate in my bed, so when I masturbate I get a good strong whiff of my own personal scent. Ive been doing this for years, and I just realized that the smell of my own clothes is now a scent I associate with cooming. My own scent arouses me.

It often feels like there’s just nothing left to write. Everything feels so forced.

I did a shitty job for a company once and my shitty work had international impact because I was there in the right place at the right time but I never get anyone to give a shit about my actual work. People either ignore it or say some kind of snarky quip. I don't know why my work always gets this reaction. Maybe they see it's serious and they think it's pretentious because there's no sex in it and it's not making a joke or being subversive so they shoot it down? Is this why people only make meme content?

>>21725558
What if is just an illusion caused by ignorance and it's an illusion that isn't afforded anymore to anyone with internet access?

>>21725581
Whats the job

My girlfriend is a narcissist. She repeats all the time how beautiful she is.

Once we were lying in bed, she was naked, and out of nowhere she just started listing her various assets.
>look how my hips are wider than my stomach, thats so amazing
>i have such nice tits. No wonder you love to touch them
>i am so thin, but I still have a spankable butt. That's so great
>i like my face, its so cute, even without makeup
Then she said she would like to be cloned. Then she also said she would prefer the clone to be male. So she could fuck her clone.

And that repeated several times.

I would like her to come down from her high horse, but I can't. Like, she's right on everything. It's actually worrysome for me how well she knows what the male gaze likes in her. She knows her sex appeal in technical detail, she can measure and describe it, it's kind of disgusting.

>>21725589
I’m not following. What if what is an illusion?

>>21725462
>>21725481
he was homosexual and was attracted to you.

>>21725594
Advertisement gig. It went really big and got a lot of work because of that. Could've started a whole career off of it, I had my foot in the door. Fuck, I had my whole fucking leg in. Went on to chase my retarded shittery instead because I hated the prospect of giving my body and mind away to a company and I don't even regret it. I know I would've been unhappy doing anything else. It's so depressing. Boomers throw their wallets at me for stuff I detest and call me a genius and I don't give a shit because I want a real public but the real public seems to be completely uninterested in what I have to say. It's not even a skill thing, I could be 10 times better, it's like I'm doing the most boring shit in the world or it makes them feel uncomfortable for some reason and all they can respond if they actually give enough of a fuck to look at it is some kind of snarky comment. I got better and better over the years and I still get the snarky comments. It makes me so profoundly sad because improving can't fix it because it's what I have to say that doesn't resonate with anyone.

Shit like Cormac featuring transgenders in his new novel make me think that most novelists were and are funded by the CIA. The guy works for the Air Force in a secret base and comes out a writer? Yeah, okay.

>>21725647
Or maybe you're just a pearl-clutching schizofaggot.

>>21725656
You’re just naive

>>21725656
Reddit McCarthy: dude, like physics and trannies and stuff
You: eats it up

>>21725621
Apologies, dumb formatting mistake. It should be "what if originality is just an illusion".

>>21725647
He also got on Oprah with his cannibal novel. Sus.

>>21725667
Well, not having anything to say and not having anything original to say are different things actually. I don’t necessarily think fiction needs to be some profound social commentary. I just don’t feel like there’s anything writing. Maybe I’m just depressed, but I just feel like everything is so sterile and inert. It just doesn’t flow naturally.

>>21725665
5,000,000,000,000,000,000 years of literature featuring all sorts of wild shit and 4chan draws the line at... men in dresses. They've truly broken your mind.

>>21725679
Yeah, the stuff is trash. It’s not art. It’s an obvious psyop.

>>21725679
Maybe because this is the first one that started mass sexual abuse of children? I don't know, if television channels are showing children dancing on stripper poles and HIV positive men reaching their hands into an underage boy's 'dress' that has been chemically castrated by estrogen, things have gotten a little out of hand.
Seriously. Fucked up shit in a story? Neat! Sexually abusing children? I will commit a mass killing.

>>21725656
The cia has been influencing printed media since the 60s. Thats not even a conspiracy theory, its public knowledge. You're just so reflexively invested in defending trannies that you'll side with intelligence agencies

I hate when fat people have skinny little forearms, it is about 100x more repugnant than if they were completely fat everywhere. Just these grotesque little T-Rex graspers protruding from a sleeve of blubber is nauseating in the extreme.

>>21722466
I can't stop thinking about how he's going to ash his cigarette with wet hands.

>>21725699
>these grotesque little T-Rex graspers protruding from a sleeve of blubber
kek

>>21725696
>>21725697
And all this has what to do with Corncob's text?
>>21725698
I'm not defending anyone, I'm just really fucking tired of hearing about trannies, both pro-tranny and anti-tranny shit. Tranny tranny tranny day in and day out on this fucking site. Get a grip.

>>21725675
I see, I thought by saying "nothing _left_ to write" you were hinting at originality.

I personally also often feel like i have nothing specifically to say that is worth writing down on my own into a text editor. The whole idea or process itself has a weirdness to it, but I think that this can be overcome in part by just habitually writing a page everyday regardless of what type of nonsense it is. Just start typing. Once you get into this habit the words starts flowing and you may end up with some stuff you can consider having been worthwhile to have written.

If you rely on only moments of profound inspiration you never get into creative habits I think.

>>21725716
Then ignore it fag. You expanded the topic by 3 posts. 4chiggers live off of disagreement. If nobody disagrees they just shut up and move on to the next topic.

>>21725716
Tranny

What do you honestly still enjoy?

>>21724172
I wish I could slap the piss out of you. I have worked hard, demanding jobs for most of my professional career. Construction and the trades, steel mill, machine shop, and I'd kill for a comfy ass desk job doing something like data input. It's my ideal job, 9-5 just inputting numbers and mind numbing bullshit. Holy fuck.

>>21725620
run

>>21725746
the creative process but I get an equal amount of negativity from the fact that what I make will never reach or impact anyone

>>21725755
you've impacted me. because that's literally me.

>>21725755
take the janny pill and do it for free

i was enlightened myself when i saw someone who makes handmade felt gnomes and then gives them away or leaves them for children to find. now i do the same with my plasticine hitlers

>>21725746
pretty much every aspect of my daily routine desu.

>>21725716
The main topic of the post was about CIA funding writers, not trannies. Trannies were incidental to the argument. You are the freak that lasered in on the trannies.

>>21725717
I did that for a year and at the end of the year I went back and read it all, but I didn’t think any of it was particularly good. I don’t necessarily think you have to be inspired all the time to write, but you have to be inspired at least sometimes. The feeling I’m talking about is never feeling any inspiration at all, like there is literally nothing in the aether to pluck out and put on paper.

>>21725753
Fuck no. He needs to get her good looking ass pregnant. Also fuck the mods, post her nudes.

>>21725620
Fuck the mods post her nudes.

>>21725780
>take the janny pill and do it for free
The only thing that humanizes the jannies for me and makes me related to them is the very spite in their actions. I'd be spiteful too if I were doing it for free.
>i saw someone who makes handmade felt gnomes and then gives them away or leaves them for children to find
where did you see this person? have you seen this person online because I really hope you're not this naive. are you the person who wanted to start felting and bought the kit with the cat? how did it go?

>>21725802
There's not even enjoyment in the act itself? If there is, I would say that justifies the activity in itself. If there isn't and it's just a chore with no reward then well, I don't know desu. Maybe it's just not for you and something else is.

when I first opened the door to that darkness that darkness did open the door to me. when out I leapt that space collapsed by its own infinity and beneath the wet granite was a vortex of collapsing mind on the other side of which could only be exploding mind. underneath I went and there I saw the forest primeval dark and purple and troupes of panthers with wisps in their eyes track'd me under the moonlight and under the moonlight I ran through the creaking and decaying as the dew began to sprout and the zenith of the moon lit up those droplets in the spider's webs, beasts of the leaves all around until I reached the meadow and the grass under my bare feet touch'd my hands. dim in the distance were a red light like the scarlet of a nightly fever pulsating and this was another vortex and within this world of blood I saw like one sees from above a fish swimming under the water the leviathan's corpuscular body driven through the world of spirit and mist by Lucifer perch'd on top and needing no reigns to conquer the endless beast by strength. Falling through the world greater things than that I soon saw - Lucifer stay'd in the upper realms because he was too weak to approach these beasts more ancient than God and fed and sustained by nothing more than delight in their own mindless power curled and entwined in worm-webs creating a gordian knot of crushing tension like a nest of primordial pythons whose muscles become stronger the longer they clasp their prey and sifting through the cracks I came out on the other side and learned what no-one had ever thought could be true - that Heaven lies beneath Hell and Hell above Heaven.

when I first opened the door to that darkness that darkness did open the door to me. when out I leapt that space collapsed by its own infinity and beneath the wet granite was a vortex of collapsing mind on the other side of which could only be exploding mind. underneath I went and there I saw the forest primeval dark and purple and troupes of panthers with wisps in their eyes track'd me under the moonlight and under the moonlight I ran through the creaking and decaying trees as the dew began to sprout and the zenith of the moon lit up those droplets in the spider's webs, beasts of the leaves all around until I reached the meadow and the grass under my bare feet touch'd my hands. dim in the distance were a red light like the scarlet of a nightly fever pulsating and this was another vortex and within this world of blood I saw like one sees from above a fish swimming under the water the leviathan's corpuscular body driven through the world of spirit and mist by Lucifer perch'd on top and needing no reigns to conquer the endless beast by strength. Falling through the world greater things than that I soon saw - Lucifer stay'd in the upper realms because he was too weak to approach these beasts more ancient than God and fed and sustained by nothing more than delight in their own mindless power curled and entwined in worm-webs creating a gordian knot of crushing tension like a nest of primordial pythons whose muscles become stronger the longer they clasp their prey. sifting through the cracks I came out on the other side and learned what no-one had ever thought could be true - that Heaven lies beneath Hell and Hell above Heaven.

>>21725824
I do enjoy it but it’s coupled with frustration, which puts a damper on the enjoyment. I’ve never wanted to do anything else.

>>21724749
Yeah that seems about right. Are you all good?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-S2qDk9l_jA

>>21725620
That is extremely hot but only if it's not in a basic bitch way like she just sees Instagram perfection in her own body by some accident of genetics. That's just a low confidence person being happy that they won the lottery by having hips that the vulgar crowd approves of. It's only hot if she knows with a certainty that goes beyond any individual or crowd approval that she is transcendently beautiful and you are lucky to be allowed to worship her. Then she can sit on your face and muse out loud about how lucky you are and how you should be appreciating this and you are the lottery winner because she's the only her in the universe and you are the one guy that gets to worship her

I'm not a simp I'm just a pervert

>>21725028
I'm inspired mostly by direct experience in combination with Anglo-American poets from Bryant to Bishop. I admire Shakespeare, Montaigne, Goethe, and even Seneca for how astonishingly advanced he was for his time. But none of them were so accustomed to instrumental music in high fidelity as an everyday fact of life. As themes go, it's a ridiculously underrated one.

---- Solaria ----
812
(Flying Couches)

Of perspectives it
Compares to blue Elysium beyond glittering cottonwoods,

Wishing for nothing more than
Things exactly as they are

And company to go with its
Conversational spaciousness or

A long, lazy, view of a hoverfly
Where bears haven't been for generations,

Fields so eerily automated that one hardly ever sees
A human figure out in the open,

Green the envy of palaces,
Machinery of dreams

Partitioned against sleep almost too slightly to feel the difference
Because it's so responsive to the will for sheer variety.

https://youtu.be/pOfdYnqTHnw?t=402

>>21722137
I wish I could free you, Agatha, of all we did to you.

>>21725620
>she's right on everything
The cope. She’s not as beautiful as you both seem to think.

>>21725910
>"I am free!" the bald, titless creature screeches at you.
>If you raise your weapon to put her out of her misery, turn to p. 326.
>If you turn away and leave her, turn to p. 55.

>>21725910
QRD?

>>21725931
not him but can I just give the she-goblin a hug

>>21725932
/r9k/ waifu'ed obscure semiautistic ASMR girl because she was quiet and dainty (and underage), she increasingly referenced or obliquely referenced the probable majority of her audience that was being weird and perverted, something something, she goes insane and becomes a tranny

>>21725939
More in depth rundown?

>>21724749
Marriage is a huge cope. No matter what century. People pretend they only love their significant other when in reality humanity is in one big orgy with itself.

>>21725939
>and becomes a tranny
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tLYYSofs3U

Unrequited love causes a lot of suffering but it is in a weird way liberating. Especially if the subject is fictitious or unreachably far. In its extremes it transcends the base loving of women in general. The waifu is like a divine carrot on a stick, that you'd follow through hell and to heaven.

>>21726001
can relate. although my "muse" is isn't some schizo e-girl that looks like she smells of cat piss. she was attractive, came from a rich family that let her do anything she wants in life while I was a semi-proficient /lit/ fag from a broken working class family that mildly charmed her with his writing. it was never going to work...

What’s it called when you procrastinate not only the things you have to do but the things you want to do and this goes on for years and years?

>>21726033
giving up

>>21726033
ADHD

>>21726033
i call it "the literary lifestyle"

>>21726033
internet addiction

i just finished my apple watch february challenge with five hours to spare.

>>21726033
I just cope by telling myself that books take time. I'll fart one out every 10 years at this rate...

Pajeets and zoomers who never see real white women are increasingly labelling ordinary looking 25 year old women as "MILFs" on porn sites because the only women they think are under 35 are Belle Delphine pixies and Billie Eilish eyed teens

>>21726001
>The waifu is like a divine carrot on a stick,
Can't relate. Even during a long lovely slow wank that summons past or would-be lovers via imagination, they're never so reduced to illustrative terms, and i always think of them in terms of proper names.

>>21726053
well done m8, did you end up jogging in the living room?

>>21726044
Yeah, that’s definitely a huge part of it

>>21726042
Not that literary if you’re not reading and writing you know? Artists have a tendency to make art early and often. Writers have a tendency to write early and often.

Has anyone ever gotten to a point where they go “wow, i’m no longer mentally ill”? I’m afraid i’m ngmi.

>>21725959
Most of the first part is true, except her content was primarily "mukbang" oriented starting out (not cado tier, she just ate regular meals), and she falls under the meme definition of underage, that is she is legal but is petite. She was doxxed, had deepfakes of her sent to her family, was scammed out of quite a bit of money iirc. I would say it's sort of like what happens to some of the female youtubers of /lit/, but Agatha was harassed by people that outright hated her outside of but site/culture-adjacent to the board(s) that had people that liked her. So there is confusion on that part. She had 2 boards on 8ch, and even an entire imageboard. It was 8ch's /pol/ iirc that did most of the stuff that made her leave the internet.
But she went "insane" because her friend died. Her friend had some fucked up degenerative nerve disease that left her wheelchair-bound caused herself a lot of pain and she overdosed on painkillers. She also didn't become a FtM tranny, but it's some other nongender nonsense.

>>21726098
i walked downtown and back which was like five miles round trip. it was snowy as shit this morning, so i didn't think i get to finish it off.

>>21725931
>p.326

I have the whole day off tomorrow. Not sure what to do. Thinking about hiking or driving somewhere Ive never been.

>>21722137
---- Solaria ----
813
(Sodium Vapor)

The silliness of Leo, Orion,
The lush miraculously diffuse violet

Of lake effect snows, Bryan driving me around
Intimidatingly strategic industrial regions as if I were the cat

He always wanted, always provocative with
Seeming and real questions--

Never about the why, always about procedure.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1Qdcl4ja1Y&list=RDMM&index=9

>>21726001
A waifu can't be 3DPD though. That's just a oneitis, somebody that you're simping for.

>>21726033
total soul burnout

I’m really lucky but I’m overcome with regret at the same time.

>>21726268
Technically waifu does refer to anime-only and more broadly to 2D fictional characters in general, but functionally, at the levels of unrequitedness I am referring to, the difference is nil. Simping comes with the irrational unconscious belief that there is an one in a million chance they will get with you. That is more a symptom of being a failed normalfag than anything. With what I am talking about, there is no chance. It's just that with 2D characters is that impossibility made explicitly clear; they literally don't exist.

>>21726268
While I am not a waifufag myself I admire you for keeping the terminology pure and true to its original meaning. You are rectifying the names and preventing degeneration.

>>21726213
I suppose it depends on where you live. Shortly after a foot of snow fell, I drove to a nearby nature preserve that looked most primordial except for the road through it. It felt like I'd landed on a faraway planet from which I could escape with the slightest touch. Practically, so it was, if not so outrageous in chance as lunar landings and such.

I'm gonna try to get back into committing to writing for atleast a little bit of time every day. I'm going to try 30 minutes to start. I need to stop putting this off.

>>21726384
Do an hour.

Music is really an incredible art form. To be a musician is to contribute something wonderful.

>>21726358
>at the levels of unrequitedness I am referring to, the difference is nil
Anon what are you talking about, waifus aren't about levels of unrequitedness, waifus are platonic forms.

Im at that point of the day where Im just counting down the minutes to bedtime

It bothers me that there's no real place left to discuss philosophy with people who aren't complete college-educated cucks or mentally ill, depraved schizos on 4chan who don't even read the material they talk about.

>>21726458
I'm a college-educated mentally ill depraved schizo on 4chan who reads the material.

>>21726458
worried college educated people will call you out on your blatantly stupid hot takes?

Im at that point of the day where Im just counting down the minutes to weedtime

>>21726471
>he thinks having a college education means anything by itself in 2023

>>21726484
cope

>>21726493
Tell us about your "lived experience," fag! I want to hear about your inflated grade that you got in a class where 40 mentally retarded women got the same grade!

>>21722137
I am quiet quitting my low wage hybrid job. Today I did not even bother going to the office, and I took a nap from 9 am to 1 pm, and had my manager messaging me on that demonic app microsoft teams. I am barely paid a living wage and I cannot afford anything. What is the point? My pay will not change, and when layoffs occur, I will get let go in a second. So why try?

>>21726476
When is weedtime

>>21726471
I can't take people who are educated by Marxist Jews seriously.

>>21726504
well since college is so easy and everyone there is an idiot compared to you, why don't you bang out a philosophy degree in like three years and then blow everyone's mind with your amazing phd thesis? oh ya cuz you're an internet crank educated by memes.

>>21726507
probably every 30 minutes

>>21726458
Describe anything, any experience, person, do justice to any adjective. Philosophy is fine, but like an expensive watch worth nothing without a wearer who can tell the general time of day without it. Never underestimate the value of the sense of proportion, reason as opposed logic.

>>21726507
i like 11pm

>call suicide hotline
>pic related
>constant extreme desire to escape
>run away into the wilderness
>pic related
>can't talk to anybody or pic related
>can't go anywhere
>can't escape
>read book and suffer

>>21726529
Why the fuck would I waste 3 years being forbidden to study actual philosophy so that I can spend all my time learning symbolic logic from a $200 textbook and learning mid-century analytic ethics or some trendy computer science or cognitive science crossover bullshit? Get the same education in logic in one month of reading a few classics and read actual philosophy books.

The only reason to go to university now is to get a STEM degree for money or study some niche subject where the instructors are actual living conduits of vital knowledge of the subject, like certain orientalist fields. Women have turned the liberal arts into a daycare for themselves.

>>21726612
Not a weedbro but for a brief period when I lived alone I had one cigarette sized joint before bed and I slept like a baby. Some of the nicest sleep I've had.

>>21726529
I actually have a philosophy degree. Can confirm that its a meme degree. Oh God I wish I studied something else.

>>21726612
How late do you stay up? If you go to sleep after smoking dont you miss out on the high

>>21722137
What is the apex of each board?

/fit/ has actual bodybuilders
/biz/ has actual millionaires
/pol/ has some politicians and activists
/sci/ has PhDs, engineers, physicists, researchers and contractors in national labs
/his/ has academics and well-read people in general in humanities
/a/ has giga-weebs and anime youtubers
/adv/ has people from all walks of life, from meth heads to dads

With that in mind what is the apex of /lit/ and /x/? I don't lurk either that much

I would be very interested in seeing what a religions board would produce.

>>21726649
>the high lasts more than 30 minutes
also i dont go to bed anytime soon

>>21726662
>With that in mind what is the apex of ... /x/?
Arhats, bodhisattvas, jivanmuktis, Ascended Masters
>/lit/
Whoever most approximates Ignatius Reilly

For a long time I’ve felt this tension between what I feel I want to do with my life and what I feel I should do with my life.

>>21726662
>/pol/ has some politicians and activists
it's technically not a politics board, it's a "politically incorrect" board, so it would be something like stand-up comedians.
/adv/ should have one of those PUA coaches because 90% of the posts are dudes who want to lose their virginity to some thot
sadly judging by /lit/'s general themes its apex would be some retard who reads philosophy books on tiktok
/x/ would have someone who finally managed to summon a succubus
>what a religions board would produce
probably a cult of Kek

>>21726668
What time do you get up in the morning

>>21726691
7:30

>>21726714
that was a perfect setup to say 4:30

>>21726714
If I'm not asleep by 9:30pm a 7:30am morning is impossible

>>21726717
err I mean 4:20
what the fuck does that mean anyway

>>21726682
>sadly judging by /lit/'s general themes its apex would be some retard who reads philosophy books on tiktok
Lurk more, there are good writers here
https://archived.moe/lit/thread/10249418/

>>21726670
Is there a conspiracy theory board? I feel pol isn't the place for it and it doesn't quite fit x

>>21726735
>Is there a conspiracy theory board?
/x/ has plenty

>>21726735
I stand corrected, the apex of /lit/ is actually that guy

>>21726670
>Ignatius Reilly
What a tragedy, if only he had more persistence and patience

>>21726748
>covid vaccines conspiracies are paranormal
I don't think so chief, too much politics involved
https://twitter.com/RepThomasMassie/status/1558299020828753922
https://timtruth.substack.com/p/cdc-removes-their-claim-that-mrna
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWVxVd6IGgg

Apparently the CDC knew things 8 months in advance and decided it was better to not warn the public

>>21722137
Didn’t she used to do ASMR

>>21722208
The former doesn’t believe in objective value like Kant and therefore is cringe

>>21726722
I don't need much sleep. Sure I might be tired for the first few hours of my day but its not a huge problem. You only have 24 hours in a day, might as well enjoy as much as you can. Did you know Nikola Tesla supposedly slept 2 hours a day?
>>21726729
Picrel. Eventually this got spun into making April 20th a counterculture holiday where people generally gather to smoke weed, here they do it on the mountain in the center of the city. For an addict like me its just another day.

>>21722209
Right. So when is she gonna suck my dick? I’d become less lonely instantly if that happened

>>21724172
Begone David Benatar

>>21726777
uhhhh I thought that reptilians and flat earth stuff counted as conspiracy theories

>>21726794
That video is over ten years old. She is long sinced walled

rip van winkle except he wakes up to an America of Aryan Trapstars, negro transgenders, and Indians (Mexicans)

I cant stop ruminating. I fucking hate this. How long does regret linger?

>>21722209
This is OK if you're a teenager or 20 because everyone's still a baby and there are no perceived stakes because everyone's just having fun. Once you break 30 it's over. People look at you and they think is it worth it for me to waste my inner resources on this person, you are your job and your money. That's it. There's nothing else.

>>21726833
What about 24

>>21726838
you have 2 years to unfuck your life

>>21722927
Ye, look upon me. A tranny whom doth utter obscure locutions so that once more I may look away from the shriveled opaque vessel that the lord hath cursed me with. I will never be a woman.

>>21726838
Whatever you do in the next 2 years will be permanently who you are forever after that. Take all the goals you think you'll "do before 30," and if they aren't done or massively underway by 26, I guarantee they aren't happening. Start learning those languages, instruments, social skills, and whatever else now.

>>21726850
you're fucked too, eh?

As soon as l meet a woman attractive enough l'm gong to cheat on my gf

>>21726843
>>21726850
Aw fugg. Okay, will do.

I wanna break into her(his) room and brutally break his(her) finger.

>>21722209
I thought it was just me who got that video. Interesting algorithm.

>>21726529
I studied philosophy at a T10 university in the US, it was literally impossible to get below a B/B+ in the vast, vast majority of my classes. The only way to get below that would be to not actually turn in work, otherwise they just gave all the shit papers a B.

>be me
>tall, not bad looking
>women never give me the time of day
>start hanging out with my childhood friend, who's a girl
>she's overweight, very short, and quite plain looking
>suddenly women everywhere start being nice to me
>an arthoe at Michael's even asked for my number

Go to hell roasties, I'm become numb to your wiles.

Instead of turning on the heat, I've been sleeping in my winter jacket, wool hat, socks, and sweat pants. It's been comfy, but the other day they were a bit wet from shoveling snow in them but was not too bad for sleeping.

>>21727081
Be extremely careful about ever leaving boots on with moisture in them, the army drills it into you that you can lose your feet like that. That's why they're footfags and make you change your sicks every 29 seconds. Thought it was bullshit until it happened to me, was in a warm area and thought who cares if I'm a bit wet from the snow it's hot as fuck in here, take my shoes off a couple hours later and somehow had some frostbite trenchfoot nonsense.

>>21727093
I think that almost happened to my hands. I've been shoveling for about an hour or 2 every day, and my gloves are always soaked in sweat. My hands get very, very cold sometimes, so I have to keep squeezing my fingers into a fist, but after shoveling for about 30 minutes my hands get hot again.

>>21725699
literally me. Im fat but my arms are thin as noodles.

Heavy is the heart of the broken boy,
missing a screw, deployed a tree
The size of which is yet to be seen by the eyes of the homebound harlot,
The weather seems frightfully cold round here
It usually perks up this time of year
The perks are plenty yet paid by fools who let bygones be bygones and by gone
he’s home still awry
in a fog
he’d laid cried
Too much for a man incapable of possessing aqua
the lifeblood runs amok in foreign fields appealing to a never-ending circus of cataclysmic foreboders yet he could not predict the outcome of our once pleasant arrangement
jovial yet punchy they surely trimmed the fat on the meat aisle when you were presented upon a middling bunch,
a bunch no less
a brazen dastardly bunch
culpable not capable
cabalistic
a far throw from any suggestion.
cryptic?
yet simplistic to a fault their own,
empowered by mediocrity,
A sycophantic shrill dwindles from the recesses of an adjourned weather worn new dawn
arrives to an apt applause
Just another day at work, in session holding court honing their craft upon the breakbeat backbench of malevolence,
Swift seas approach the breathing shore,
a light that once registered the hint of a flicker shall rise no more.
Tis I my once forlorn foghorn that proceed to sound the flugelhorn over a once feudal scorn and now these scars I’ve worn that show the path I so expertly tore having traveled thru many a door and now feign rapport no more delays I’m sure to relay the form from the latter pages of the streets big score.

>>21724207
>brother is a crossdresser
>such an unexpected

>>21725103
Why not just get an escort or something? In a way that sounds much more normal.

>>21726800
That’s ok. At my age I don’t have much of a choice

>>21726850
Not true. I didn’t pick up creative writing until I was 37. There’s time

>>21727037
Women literally make no sense

>>21726645
I’d just get one for the recognition

>>21727240
The thing is I can see reviewbrah doing that, just not as a frontman. Dude probably low key at least likes Social Distortion

I think it would be immensely easy to manufacture fake consent here by just sockpuppeting 3-4 "based" comments on a any post that expresses the view that you want to manufacture consent about. Do it for a week, making the majority of the posts and praises yourself, ensuring to lob extra "based" comments on anyone else you see repeating it, and you've probably forced a meme and created a new aspect of board culture, as well as reprogrammed several people's minds, because other anons will chase the dragon of easy (You)'s, much like B.F. Skinner's rats.

Anyway, I just read the FBI has said it considers COVID to have been a chinese lab leak, and once again, I am taken aback at how visciously normies and experts dragged people who even entertained the thought just a year ago. So-called conspiracy theories really do come in very different qualities, and it takes a completely retarded populace to lump in something like "Epstein didn't kill himself" (obviousy true) with "the earth is flat and controlled by reptilians" (giga-retarded), but then again, we are talking the same populace that insisted it didn't matter that COVID case zero happened 50 yards from a biological research facility specializing in these diseases, so yeah, they are completely retarded.

37% of americans believe Epstein killed himself. It is amazing what statecraft can do to common sense with consensus-pressure. It's not that I think /pol/schizos are much smarter automatically, most of what they do is just reflexive contrarianism, but at least it's novel, and when opposing a narrative of power, I think you're probably right more often than not.

>>21722209
how do people not feel intellectually insulted when listening to such vapid, trite nonsense like this

>>21726827
What are you ruminating about? What do you regret?

I went to bed early. 9pm. i wanted to be well rested. Instead I woke at 12:30 totally unable to get back to sleep. This fucking sucks.

Is it immoral do ejaculate on a newborn? There's no harm to the newborn because neither is the ejaculate itself harmful nor is there any emotional damage as the newborn is too young to understand or create memories of the incident.

>>21727570
repent

>>21727318
Too much anxious about it. I am psychology unable to touch humans. kek

>>21727571
Is it immoral to consider the morality of ejaculation on newborns? Because you think if we discuss this that someone might be encouraged to do this disagreeable act?

>>21722313
Imagine this faggot before 'ANYTHING' that hit mainstream news, and now he wants to join some personality "movement". What a fucking tool indeed.

>>21727588
Bro shut the fuck up. You’re a fucking weirdo. You remind me of that creep on pol that cut his balls off.

>>21723068
Don't tell him boyz... Just let him do his thing so he could wake up again reliving the same life... Imagine the existential collapse!

>>21727608
storytime?

>>21727612
>eternal return
fake

>>21727608
I'm unsure if you're thinking that I'm advocating ejaculation on newborns or if you think it's too gross to discuss. 1) I'm not, 2) grow up. I want to know why it's immoral. Let's say a person was going to do it unless you answer him objectively why it's wrong to do. What would you tell him? Obviously name calling or threats are not objective answers about what's true.

how much longer do i wait for "the one"? I don't even know what she would look like. There is this girl that I am mesmerised by. Ive never had an experience like that but then I get bored. I cant break her heart and I like her so Im thinking of committing now. Wish I found someone exactly, to the tee like my mum.

I was thinking that, for example, a man who learns about being ejaculated on as a newborn would likely be distressed after learning that fact, and if that was done by someone he has a relationship with, then his relationship could become ruined, so if we consider it wrong to cause someone distress and to ruin a relationship or to likely cause those things, like in negligence, then an act with high probability to cause those wrongs would be wrong, then that act would be wrong. However, that only works in societies that already consider the act immoral. There could be societies that don't consider it wrong, then there would be no high probability of the act causing distress or ruined relationships, and in that case it wouldn't be wrong based on those premises for wrongness.

>>21727651
Those same arguments are used by child molesters to justify their perversions. Subjectivism is a slippery slope that leads to hell. Even things like "why is it wrong to kill someone" are subjective. Ehy is it bad to cause suffering? Who cares? There is no rational basis for anything.

>>21727668
I was trying to think through secular morality. Christianity is solid as objective morality because of God and the nature of sin. In Christianity, it's clear why the act is wrong as a sin.

>>21727682
Secular morality leads nowhere. Even the most common idea (causing suffering = sin) is worthless as a basis for morality because we find that almost every human action or non-action can be construed as causing, preventing, or alleviating suffering.
Anything at all can be justified based on viewing different problems in different ways.
>Don't let people say what they want to say? Le heckin' bad! That causes suffering by imposing limitations on the individual!
>Let them say want they want to say? Le heckin' bad! That causes suffering to those they harm with their words!
We see with the rise of mass castration and mutilation of children, and the meteoric rise of the "MAP" movement (Minor Attracted Persons, or Monstrous Asshole Pedophiles as I call them) in colleges and around the globe that secular morality has no safeguards whatsoever against anything at all. Anything can be argued to be moral or immoral in a suffering-based moral system.

>can i cum on babby pls
this is why philosophycels get the rope

>>21727570
Even if the baby is unaware, the act might lead the person to engage in further taboo acts. That's what happens with cartel members, or so I have heard, continuously witnessing violent sights normalizes violence. Such that it possibly no longer even registers to them as a taboo. A person breaks one taboo, suddenly he realizes the others can be broken too.
There's an interesting line by the theologian Avicenna that reveals the provisional nature of morality (though he likely didn't think of it this way), by which I mean that moral laws always arise out of the need to limit and control our destructive capacities. Or to put it more negatively, out of the fear of what would happen if people collectively no longer believed moral laws to be backed by anything real:
>Do you not see that if anyone were let loose from both bounds [of divine law and reason] the load of wickedness he would commit would be unbearable and the order of world affairs would be upset by the dominance of him who is released from both bounds?
>
The questions of morality always necessarily relate to this necessity of limiting destructive behavior--a moral law or taboo must be upheld universally because if we allow exceptions, people may come to question the law altogether. Morality can only exist in a social setting, so the problem of a totally isolated act challenges the foundation of morality.
If understand your question, you are asking if no one saw the act and the victim wasn't aware what exactly makes it immoral. A kind of reverse Ring of Gyges. With the ring of gyges the hypothetical was if you were invisible would you still act justly.
You are asking instead, if no one saw, and the victim was unaware is it still immoral?
Necrophilia is a similar situation where if no one knew it happened, no one would be objectively harmed.
The corpse won't care, but the relatives will.
That's part of the issue that in the real world a totally isolated act isn't guaranteed. But if I am to assume we exist on an island, and the victim is unconscious (with 0% chance of them waking up) would raping a person be immoral?
I wish I could definitively say it's immoral, but I'm not sure.

>>21727707
Religion just adds fake authority to the mix. Muhammad was a pedo.

>>21727707
>Secular morality leads nowhere. Even the most common idea (causing suffering = sin) is worthless as a basis for morality
And where exactly does Christian morality lead? My view is right because the Stone Tablets say so?
Such a view gives the person who believes it the sensation of certainty--but that is only a sensation in relation to himself. That is no firm basis for anything. It as arbitrary as the secular utilitarian schema of suffering/pain = moral badness.
Religion which lacks justification beyond reference to an unquestionable absolute cannot justify its own morality. Its empty assurances may bring certainty to the believer, though to no one else. Outside itself this language has zero power or influence.
Where there is no justification, no possibility of reason, any absolute ideal becomes arbitrary in its absoluteness.
>Anything at all can be justified based on viewing different problems in different ways.
Yes, that's just reality. People will look at situations in different ways, and arrive at different conclusions no matter if one is secular or religious.
In your example, the two sides there have differing underlying values: individual liberty v.s harm to some (minority) group.
To get out of that irreconcilable difference, you'd either have to appeal to a shared value, or present an argument showing how one value should supersede the other. The Catholic Church understands this lesson well, nothing has facilitated its growth than its capacity to incorporate symbols of enemy religions into itself.
Religion all the same does not escape the quandary of irreconcilable values or beliefs either:
>le transubstantiation is not real! Le sacraments are idoltry pagan nonsense leading to sensuous debauchery !
>Wrong, le wafers are le body! le pope is infallible head of the one true Church!

>>21722137
Who is this bitch?

>>21727612
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if these three guys could be brought in to the same room, as to Charlie Rose's table: The guy who drew original Pepe, the one who came up with smug Pepe, and the originator of his Apu version. You know they're still out there, but how would one go about summoning them for summit to discuss their consequences?

>>21726662
It's fair to say that 4chan still has rather a lot of range: Half of the people who post on /an/ are sweethearts wise beyond their years, while half of /wsg/'s usual culprits would be better off v& whisked away to a secure facility. Russian trolls and such, like a dose of Polonium 210, have killed /sci/ recently, while /tv/ has turned into a warren of rabbit-holes the creeps of which remind me of trap-door spiders. Of course, questions like this are best conveyed to to the few remaining oldfags of /b/, some of which are downright elderly now.

>>21722137
I write a diary by hand. I write a lot and now I'm tired to keep going. If I do so, whatever i want to express will be shortened and therefore will lose its taste or idea.
I'm here because I want opposite things:
1) To write whats on my mind, close the tab and keep going on with my life, expecting nothing else.
2) To write and also expect an answer because one time some anon just made me realize that some people I used to hang out were not really my friends and it made my life better and more authentic.
It also reminded me that I only love speaking with someone about authentic things rather than small talk.

my insides are rotting

>>21722137
---- Solaria ----
814
(March)

December's mirror can be most Christmasy with fog now and then,
Blanketed with a silent look, atmosphere

Into which bare sleeping trees can seem to soar
Like giant stars in the general mist

Of their exponentially more numerous brethren,
Or a foretaste of galaxy proportions.

i suppose intelligent life is rare as quasars or the sense by which
One apprehends character from the look of rooms.

>>21727931
Rood Aggie

>>21728059
It's just the food

Next thread

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>>21727037
If you have two ATMS next to each other, and one has a line and the other has no people in front of it, people will get in line assuming the other one is broken.