/lit/ - Literature

>>21519351
I am chatting with 9 cute girls simultaneously. If at least one of them doesn't drop me, it's a win.

>>21519351
I'm a Virgo.
and a 30 year old khhv

Genuine question: What are you supposed to do when you realize that you're too attracted to an online woman who is way out of your reach, as in those social media girls with tens of thousands of followers and whatnot? What is the best course of action?

>>21519492
Ask her out, get rejected (or not) and move on. The longer you dwell, the worse it gets.

>>21519492
Either block that woman or delete social media and talk to women face to face

Abu al-‘Abbas ‘Abdullah bin ‘Abbas(ra) reports:

“One day I was riding (a horse/camel) behind the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, when he said, ‘Young man, I will teach you some words. Be mindful of God, and He will take care of you. Be mindful of Him, and you shall find Him at your side. If you ask, ask of God. If you need help, seek it from God. Know that if the whole world were to gather together in order to help you, they would not be able to help you except if God had written so. And if the whole world were to gather together in order to harm you, they would not harm you except if God had written so. The pens have been lifted, and the pages are dry.’ ”

Related by Tirmidhi

>>21519492
Stop looking at her shit and go after a real woman instead of pixels on your screen.
>>21518873
Then why do most people enjoy it? It feels like I’m the one who’s deviating from the norm.
>>21519677
That’s some ancient cope.

I don't want to create a new thread for this, but is there an easy way to check if a book is still under copyright law?

I was wondering this about Richard Willhelm's translation of the I Ching.

Why do spirits lie in wait for me
What have I to give
Winter is all I see
And a voice that whispers "live"

I jerked off, but after cooming my dickhole stings. I was going to read some Goethe afterwards but now my stinging dickhole will distract me from reading. So it is with the ways of this world.

a truly refined and based edition OP, my heartfelt thanks. but what's my mind, you ask? well, i bought a load of gear almost a month ago and it still ISNT FUCKING HEAR. ALLAH GIVE ME STRENGTH. HES NEVER EARLY. HES ALWAYS LATE. FIRST THING YOU LEARN IS THAT YOURE GONNA GET AIDS.

Maybe I’m getting older, but I have for the last 6 months enjoyed browsing r/rsp more than the here. Their reading groups are better too.

>>21519729
Why don't you simply cast the coins and ask the book yourself?

Does this sound like a suicide note?

What is inflicted onto us is in the prejudice that we have chosen to be this way, that we have figured out the puzzles of our lives and are persecuting the world in our incapability. Many of us die engulfed by the world's words, and in our final moments we come to betray ourselves and think the way they want us to, but it is mere cosmic misfortune; the ugly draw.

>>21519809
rsp?

>>21519815
If you know you know

>>21519817
Sounds gay as fuck.

Not a lot of pretty ladies around here

>>21519810
The oracle told me I was destined to ask a taiwanese ping pong forum about it.

>>21519812
no

>>21519351
>David Lynch
Troon OP

>>21519356
I used to do that kind of thing but with 3 women at most. I have 8 pending convos right now that I'm not about to continue because I get bored very quickly. I don't want to date anyone but I enjoy talking to women sometimes. I don't know how people can keep this up and catch up with previous acquaintances for years. It basically takes up hours of my day for nothing.

>>21519919
>I don't know how people can keep this up and catch up with previous acquaintances for years
You have autism

>>21519800
you need to pee right after, and lay off the jerk for a while

In this moment I am euphoric but it actually is because I prayed a lot to the very Real God.

>>21520077
Rather: God knows best why. But I do feel a lot happier after having said my supplications.

I can set you guys free but you wont let me

>>21520305
Lay it on me big wheel

It's finally happened. I'm straight bored of getting fucked up. Haven't got anywhere near the bottom of the barrel, it's just dull. Been trying to spice things up with the odd substance here or there that's outside of my ordinary wheelhouse and it's just boring. I've been staying sober without any particular effort because it's just gotten more enjoyable to be of clear mind and have a good night of sleep. If I have nothing to do I can just sit and look at the clouds for a while like a fucking légume and it's actually just pretty nice.

Is this senescence or enlightenment or something?

>reach 29 years of age
>constant hemorrhoids
>every shit I take is like getting stabbed in my asshole
>the pain is so tremendous I get constipated out of fear of shitting
>constipated shits just make the stabbing pain much worse
Enjoy your youths anon, it truly goes down hill after 25, and it gets turbocharged by your late twenties.

>>21520557
they say moving around helps, that it gets worse if youre sedentary

>>21520557
>reach 28
>no jouissance
>no morning wood
>boners rare in general
>zero pussy, goes without saying
im gonna be a wheelchair bound kobold by the time im 30

>>21519351
how do people do nofap?
im pretty sure that for at least the last 15 years i havent go more than maybe 5 days without jerking off

>>21520636
there can come a point where you realize what the emotional void it is youre filling with masturbation, and after that the desire kind of dies off.

>>21520672
no, im fully aware, i just want to keep filling that void

>>21520557
this isn't age this is just bad diet. eat your veggies bucko

>>21520305
Watch Ginger Snaps or your gay

I guess I would be dumb to give up my remote job if they’re paying me to do practically nothing, huh?

What am I doing? Am I really doing what I want? I've spent 6 years jumping through hoops. I've worked harder than anyone, but I find it all meaningless and I wonder if it's the medication I am taking. I am so close to achieving the goals I set out all that time ago, so close to a middle class professional career, but it all feels meaningless. For what? To jump through more hoops, eternal never ending hoops, which I must jump through until my legs collapse. I don't even know what I want. I think I am subconsciously motivated by the murder of my father and what was stolen from me. So much was stolen, so much pain and suffering, and I have failed to retake it. Should I continue with this, see it to the end, or should I take the short cut to the end. Spite wants to keep me going, but rationality wants to see me go.

>>21521030
Unless you have a really good reason to, yeah. Do you have something else lined up that you *really* want to do? Or do you have a tonne of cash you feel the need to burn through on some kind of adventure?

>>21521084
Tell me about the hoops. What are they? School,tests, internships?

I am thinking about reporting a cousin to the US government for being an illegal allien, so he will be deported and her two children will remain in the US. This is for stealing from my family.

I can never decide whether the fundamental meaninglessness of one's actions should be a source of a sense of liberation or a sense of futility.

>>21521133
so she*

>>21521136
You're a fucking retard. Retards like you make me want to throw up. I want to try to not hate you but it's really hard. We know nothing about meaning. We know it exists among many other things and that all these things have a source.

>>21521086
I have a few things but they’re not steady job sort of things. I have about $30k saved. I just really don’t want to be involved with the job or the people at all anymore.

>>21521108
The hoops are self imposed. What I tell myself will make me happy and content. If I just jump through this hoop, it will all be okay. I am coming to the conclusion that it doesn't matter how many loops I jump through, the final destination will be the same.

Realized recently that I have a problem where I always end up caving into distraction after giving a few days of good, focused work on something. I don't think I've ever spent more than three or four days on a personal project.

>>21520994
I just dedicated 23 minutes of my Friday to finishing the movie, just for (you).
5/10. B movie kino. was not expecting a sad ending

Is this real?

>>21521621
it literally just looks like someone who aged 4 years, assuming this dude is in his early 20s. theres barely any difference between the two. might aswell title this, android camera vs iphone camera

>>21521655
Is this what NPCs see?

>>21521661
Haha, the anon who comes to /lit/ to discuss physical appearance called someone an NPC.

Pseudo-intellectuals always crack me up.

>>21519351
Well here we are again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=co0qrS8wUaQ

>>21521689
>another npc post

>>21521241
How old are you, anon?

>>2152170
Why do you come here?

Is it simply to showcase your mental deficit for our amusement, or do you actually seek something?

I'm trying to be more community minded. I live in the inner city and somehow it had become trendy to shun incidental social interaction. So now I chat to my barista (old Vietnamese woman) and interact with new people and strangers. Last night I chatted to a woman who was visiting here with her kids, she fixes bikes in Ireland. But I'm not used to it and it's sometimes awkward, especially when I can't understand what the hell they're saying. But like any muscle it improves with use, so I'll carry on.

>be me
>come back to /pol/ thread about trannies and Dante
>pruned or deleted
>look to see if it got worse than /pol/ since I left
>anons claiming to be women complete with eggs had taken over the thread to talk about if Purgatory was near Jerusalem or Japan and what the weather is like in Hell
>OP desperately screaming trannies into the night
>OP desperately screaming samefag into the night when tranny didn't get any attention
>femanons with eggs assiduously ignoring him as subpar male and continuing to talk about the weather with each til the end
Women's ability to gatekeep conversation is both the cause and deserved end of incel thinking.

>>21521716
Currently 23.

>>21521759
>an insight into the tranny brain and its worldbuilding

>>21521783
Sorry the bookworm girls ignored you, anon.

>>21519351
so, are we getting any negro riots this year?

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lPMs4qsdsTc

>>21519356
How do I respond to dry texts bros?

>>21521815
Spray gun?

Is it difficult to kiss a woman?

This anxiety makes me nauseous every second of everyday. Can someone help?

>>21521820
it's instinctual
its like youre trying to eat her mouth

>>21521820
It's gross and only women like it

>reading american psycho
>read the part where he says "cool it with the antisemitic remarks"
>heh, like from the movie

What's the best book with 559 pages?

.

It's funny when people give the advice to do what you're good at. Very few people have any certainty that they're particularly good at anything.

>>21521820
I lost my virginity and had my first serious girlfriend when I was 18, which I feel like was a pretty good age. When I talk to people my age (late 20s) who have never kissed a girl and they're really bothered by it, it reminds me that I feel now what I felt after it then and that's something like that "so that's it, huh". Half of the problem has to be considering it this thing that's so much more incredible than it really is.

>>21521828
Focus on where the nausea is coming from (typically the stomach). Try to visualise the nausea in your mind as something real and physical - like a cloud or even a little gremlin or something, something physical. Acknowledge it: say hello, acknowledge that you aren't scared of it, and then wave it goodbye. You'll find that the nausea fades quickly after that.

>>21519351
i just realized how ridiculous it is that there are so many planets in the universe. the variety of human life and culture and religion alone is astounding and the movement of human history is monumental enough to make a man go mad but we are just a single planet in a universe with one septillion stars, and that's only the universe we can observe, and only the universe that has existed for the past 13 billion years, who knows what we can't see or what existed before or what will exist after this universe, who knows what other kinds of life exist, on other planets or inbetween atoms or in other dimensions or in realms accessible yet henceforth never conceived of

>>21521900
I generally feel it in my chest. It’s unrelenting. I cry most days over the fact I can’t beat it. Idk why I’m hanging on anymore.

>>21521828
>>21521964
try to actively make it worse by focusing on it. if it has a cause then focus on the anxiety itself and not the cause. don't focus on it with the expectation that it will go away, just experience it, and lie down and relax your body while doing it because it is just as much physical as mental

Book of Five Rings. The Art of War, or Meditations,
Which of the three is most practical?

>>21521972
>Book of Five Rings
Just study Dokkodo
>The Art of War
Analects and Zhuangzi are better
>Meditations
You could do worse, better off reading Cicero's De Officis or Epictetus's handbook

Finally decided to get my teeth fixed

>>21521890
And/or the ability to beat the competition or network/situate yourself in the best place for whatever that is.
People see nepotism, class-stratification, luck, etc., determining people’s success everyday and still internalise the meritocratic “temporary embarrassed millionaire” mindset.
Not that you should give up, but people that give advice like that just generally want you to stop talking or think they can naively will it into existence for you with some kickstarting motivation.
My father said he wanted the best for me, said I was good at this, good at that, etc., but what did he do other than say “that’s good” when coming to talk to him from whatever hobby I was doing?
People that succeed usually have soccer mom style support from the beginning and aren’t poor.
Those notable exceptions make good for good stories.

>>21521970
Thanks. I’ve tried this before a few times. It doesn’t seem to help me. Sometimes crying hard for hours tires me so I can sleep. Benzos help me sleep too but I don’t have many pills and it’s not worth getting addicted to. And they don’t help for the majority of the day. It helps only at night to sleep. So I can avoid crying.

just installed Bumble

>>21522003
I feel like Dokkodo and Five Rings go together.
I'll check them out, thanks, Anon.

>>21521165
Meaning is located in your brain dummy
If I bashed you hard enough over the head you'd find it meaningless too

hello /lit/, i would like to look really cool. any advice?

>>21519351
>Write What's On Your Mind
women, why are they so fucking difficult to talk to?

>>21519351
Listening to room to dream co authored by this guy. Hot damn is he sincere and inspirational. He is the best artist living, he has so much passion and love for what he does and doesn't restrain his imaginative impulse. Made a few wrong decisions with dune and loads of critics hate his stuff but that doesnt worry him. True inspo

>>21522227
start smoking.
also, try dressing like alain delon in plein soleil or le samouraï.

Any lit on every relationship just hurting so much

>>21522043
Bro
You always be sick if you neglect human nature.
Accept faith in a greater good. Spirituality is integral to human wellbeing. Except the mysterious order of life.
Real food and exercise and sleep and sun are also necessary for health, but you already knew that. You could live in the mud forever or you could stand up straight and face your life head on. I know because I was you.

I've done it bros, I've installed a legit porn blocker. This time, I'm gonna do it

>>21521770
You're par for the course.

Just focus on learning something new every day. Eventually, the cream will rise to the top and you can skim your mind for insight, but it takes a long time to get there. My recommendation would be to focus more on living a balanced life than a productive life, at this time in your life.

People find fulfillment in very strange places in life.

When you find something that brings you fulfillment, then the work will come quite easily. The hard part is just finding the thing that gives your life meaning in the first place.

For some men, it is the duty of fatherhood and raising children.

For others, creating great works of art gives their life purpose.

Yet others may become enraptured by science and find discovering new things about the world around them to be their passion.

At the end of the day, follow your own path, and try to do some kind deeds for folks and your life will generally turn out alright. The inspiration will come with time, but only if you get out there and live first.

I saw a Lynch clip where he talked about fishing for ideas. How all you can do is bait a hook and wait for the idea fish to appear. That made me think about the book "From Normal to Healthy" by Kühlewind. In the intro section he talks about how thought forms appear fully realized in your consciousness. And this all made me think about something I realized while journaling recently - I haven't been truly bored in years, decades, perhaps since I was a kid where I have distinct memories of those grueling moments of pure boredom. Sundays after church when my dad was cooking and the whole house was 80F+, I would sit in my room sweating, looking at the handful of books I had read multiple times each, flipping around the three stations on the TV. Maybe I'd go in the back yard and lose hours climbing on the same tree or scratching at the ground with a stick or throwing pebbles at the fence. Riding my bike down, and pushing my bike back up, the same hill at the end of the street over and over again. These activities were all meaningless but they gave the appropriate space to imagine, to worry, to think. In an effort to fight the boredom, as I always dreamed of doing on those sweaty Sundays, I have created a life in which I can never be bored. And as such, I am no longer fishing. Any idea that could have formed flows right past me. I'm not tuned in to hear it.

Today I did a bit of an experiment. My top priority was to drop whatever I was doing when I had a "distracted" thought in order to pursue it - something Lynch also mentioned in the clip I saw. I would catch the faintest idea and pursue it. Bloom it. At the very least, record it. I wrote pages in a legal pad until my hand hurt. And despite the scribbling and the interrupted reading and working sessions, I feel more centered than I have in some time. I feel less distracted because I gave myself some boring space to sit staring at the trees, and when I realized what the trees looked or smelled like, I wrote about it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldQrapQ4d0Y

>>21522349
You seem like you will be considered a wise man someday, anon.

I truly hope that you don't ever give up on yourself. The world can always use more insightful people.

>>21521352
Thanks bro for comitting

what's on my mind? ok first of all, three day weekend courtesy of comrade mlk so shout out to him for that. next, i've been reading blood meridian and i can't help but notice every other page someone "sits on their heels". how come bloom seethed over "stretched his legs" but "sits on his heels" is ok?

>>21521218
Weird

>>21522494
If I was in America and had access to guns I would have already blown my brains out. I don't want to jump off a bridge or hand myself, in case I survive and end up an invalid.

Don’t you ever feel down when you think of your life to this point?

>>21522543
Oftentimes yes.

Then I remind myself that the earlier version of me was too head-strong and dumb to feel down about things. Reminding myself of this helps me recall that I have grown substantially as a person. It is my belief in this growth, and personal journey, that helps me continue down the road, even when it seems like I'm getting nowhere fast.

>>21522543
I think about hanging myself, throwing myself off a bridge, or slicing my wrists almost on a daily basis. I have enough money to book an expensive hotel in Brazil or Saudi Arabia, on a high floor, and then I can throw myself off it. I spent 10-20% of my daily energy debating this.

>>21522562
Think about it this way.

Have you ever met a suicidal retard?

No, you haven't, because the idea would never occur to someone like that.

When you get suicidal, just remember that means you're not retarded. lol

>>21522572
Maybe the retards have it right. Being introspective and self aware has only brought misery. I wish I was an NPC driven by baseless and shallow emotions.

>>21522558
When I was younger I felt like there was time for things to turn out well. Now I tend to feel like it would’ve happened if it was going to happen.

>>21522593
Sounds like you'd prefer the life of a dog to a man.

Unfortunately for you, you have been cursed with self-awareness and the capacity for knowledge. It's a tremendous burden, but in your suffering there is something valuable as well. I have often found that the greatest things I've ever done in my life have come out of overcoming these challenges.

Often, I've gotten stuck in my own head and ended up spiralling on some dark paths. Many ex-girlfriends told me to get therapy, which was advice I completely ignored. Instead, I spent many years with the crushing feeling that I was wasting my life, or had already wasted it.

Then I read Kafka, and things got better.

I used to briefly hang with a girl, a friend of some friends. She's a bit of a slut, a drunk, cokehead but she inexplicably looks better than girls 10 years younger than her despite abusing her body.

We got to know each other, had sex a few times and she seemed very much into me until about a few weeks later when she very much wasn't. No explanation. Remember, I'm on this website: I'm one of life's failures, especially socially, so for any woman, let alone a real pretty one to throw herself at me like she did was unthinkable, even if she was an emotional trainwreck. She was the first and so far the only one. I was 27 on the night we met which was also the first time I had sex. In the end, she was very clear that she didn't want to see me anymore, neither as a serious relationship nor as a friend (the latter through actions rather than direct words).

After no contact for about 4 months, we ran into each other again last night, as I was with mutual friends who wanted to see her. She was very genial and we could speak comfortably, alcohol helping (she was blind drunk, me slightly less). I had been thinking of calling her since about early December. I thought there might be a chance to try again. Eventually I found out she was seeing someone. I couldn't help but mention that she had said before that she had too much going on for a relationship when we last spoke. She said it was true then but she was sorry and that I never did anything wrong, a thought which has tormented me since it ended. I didn't really have it in me to hide my disappointment, but I didn't push the issue any further. She no doubt noticed the change in demeanour and a few times during the night she seemed to try and make me feel better, despite being blind drunk. We chatted a little more as people started to head home from the bar around 2AM. She seemed to remember the things we used to talk about before we stopped talking; a work deadline I had, a job I had applied for and asked me how those things went. She kissed me on the cheek as she got a cab home.

Anyway, I'm not sure what the point of this is. It's not particularly interesting or unique; I'm not the first loser to get hurt by an unstable woman. I'm just some guy. It probably wouldn't have worked with us in the long term (probably, not definitely). The obvious 4chan answer is that she's a crazy slut, who cares, move on. But I'm also a real piece of shit so a trainwreck like her is probably on my level. At least I thought that might be the case. I dunno, I think I'm kind of fucked in general. I got problems outside of her and I don't see things getting better soon. I don't really have much resilience left in me so I think I'm approaching an inevitable conclusion soon enough. I know bad things happen to everyone but it's more the absence of anything good that gets me; many false dawns and glimpses of better things. I feel separated from others by a thin piece of glass. I can see through it but can't get in.

>>21522558
I don’t have anything really terrible to say about how things have gone, but I also don’t have anything really positive to say.

>>21522625
typically i don't read long posts but yours held my attention. good writing

>>21522645
Well, in that case, you have a blank slate. The only question is what you will choose to paint on it.

There are many pathes in life. The only correct path is the one you choose for yourself.

>>21522651
Thank you.

>>21522625
This sounds like something I just went through the other day, literally down to each exact detail, up until the third paragraph because I first met her not too long ago.

Reality collapsed in 2012.

Fuck the assholes that don't rhyme
Poetry sings when in its prime
Just because you lack the skill,
See me rhyme out of free will

Reject! Reject! Modernity
And rhyme against mediocrity
Such shape, such form, delight to read
You trash and scream but cannot breed

Free verse is weak, I shit you not
The rope awaits, I did the knot
Begone all thots and chuds alike
You break the wheels of your own bike

And rhyming still I say goodbye
Respect the art that shall not die!

>>21522686
We first met in January of last year. On the night we met (the same bar we hung out at last night) she and I and our friends were allowed to stay after closing. We danced and that was when we first spoke to each other and she came home with me, as I was living with said mutual friends at that time.

Last night, almost exactly 1 year later, we were at the same bar with the same friends, dancing to the same music. I didn't have it in me to dance this time though. She dragged me up from my chair at one point but I was back down before too long. It felt almost as if it was specially made for me. It was like a very graphic and surreal sign of a fear that I have, where anything good that might happen to me will come back to me in a negative and painful form.

I'm not glad that you've suffered (I do mean that genuinely because I've suffered for years) but I take some solace in the fact that you're sitting where I'm sitting.

Did yours wear a septum piercing? Mine does. People on here call that a red flag. Probably true. I'd like to hear more about yours if you're willing to share it.

>>21519351
Zoomers have made a mockery of /lit/

>>21519351
What's the ideal traffic rate for /lit/? It seems that 4000+ posts a day might be too high; they're probably mostly made up of shitty meme responses or just images. Maybe there should be ASCII text detector to stop the overuse of memes and buzzwords.

>>21522819
Jannies and mods should just do their job. Traffic would be drastically cut back

>>21522727
modernity and mediocrity don't even rhyme

.̴̸̵̷̶̶̶̯͇̑,̵ ̴̸̶̴̷̦͛.̸̷̴̴̶̗̊,̸ ̷̵̶̷̴̸̹̋̕.̷̸̵̵̵̝͑,̸ ̷̵̶̶̵̷̗̆͊.̷̶̷̶̸̶̷̻̪̂̊,̵ ̷̴̴̵̷̮̈́.̸̵̵̶̷̴̝̯̽,̶ ̴̸̸̴̴̸̗̬̔.̷̸̶̵̵̶̴̯͇̑,̷ ̶̸̸̶̷̦͛.̸̷̵̸̴̗̊,̸ ̷̵̵̶̷̸̹̋̕_̴̴̸̶̷̣̑_̶̷̷̷̶͠ͅ_̵̷̵̵̶͝ͅ_̶̸̵̶̸̞̀_̸̶̶̵̶̬̄_̸̵̸̵̴̈͜_̵̶̶̴̵͇̿_̸̷̷̷̴̻́_̵̵̶̵̷͓͐_̷̴̸̵̸̰͂_̶̸̷̴̵̠̿_̸̴̵̷̵̯̓_̸̵̶̴̶̫̒_̶̷̴̶̵̞̽_̸̴̶̸̶̞͂_̴̵̶̸̵͉̓_̶̷̸̷̵̤_̷̸̸̴̸̡́_̷̶̶̷̷̱̀_̸̷̴̸̴̗̈́_̶̴̸̸̶̹̕_̵̵̵̸̷̺́_̷̵̸̵̸̟̒_̸̶̶̴̵̙͌_̵̴̶̸̴̛͉_̶̶̵̵̴̧́_̴̸̷̸̶̩͐_̵̷̵̸̷̻͋_̶̸̴̸̶̣͛_̶̴̶̸̴̧͊_̸̸̵̵̶̤́_̴̶̵̷̷̮_̸̵̴̸̸̻̐_̷̴̸̵̵̣̑_̶̷̶̷̸͠ͅ_̴̷̴̴̵͝ͅ_̴̸̵̶̸̞̀_̵̶̸̴̶̬̄_̴̵̸̷̸̈͜_̸̶̸̸̴͇̿_̸̷̷̷̴̻́_̵̵̴̷̸͓͐_̸̴̶̸̷̰͂_̷̸̶̷̵̠̿_̸̴̷̵̷̯̓_̷̵̴̶̷̫̒_̵̷̶̵̸̞̽_̶̴̷̵̷̞͂_̵̵̷̴̸͉̓_̶̷̶̷̶̤_̵̸̶̸̵̡́_̷̶̶̸̴̱̀_̵̷̶̸̶̗̈́_̸̴̷̴̶̹̕_̷̵̵̴̴̺́.̷̶̶̵̵͍̈́>̴̷̸̸̸̭̆>̷̶̸̶̸̰̆<̶̶̶̷̶̯̌.̶̷̴̷̶̼̀≯̸̶̴̸̦̈́>̷̴̷̶̴͓͝.̶̵̷̷̷̥̚?̷̸̵̵̶̮͊/̵̵̵̴̴̫̚/̵̴̷̸̵̻̈/̷̸̵̴̸̺͝.̷̴̴̴̷̠̐.̶̸̴̶̵̭͑>̴̷̸̴̸̫̇,̸ ̵̸̷̸̸̬̾,̵ ̴̶̵̴̵̦̿>̷̸̵̵̵̙͌<̶̷̶̶̶̞̈́>̴̶̴̶̵̬͑?̷̷̸̷̷͕͘>̶̶̸̵̶̛̠.̵̶̴̶̵͍̈́>̴̷̵̸̴̭̆>̵̶̵̴̸̰̆≮̶̶̵̶̯̌.̵̷̶̸̴̼̀>̴̸̵̵̸̦̈́>̴̴̷̸̷͓͝.̶̵̸̷̶̥̚?̴̸̵̶̶̮͊/̴̵̸̸̶̫̚/̴̴̶̷̶̻̈/̴̸̴̵̵̺͝.̵̴̸̸̷̠̐.̵̸̸̸̸̭͑>̷̷̵̵̸̫̇,̵ ̵̸̶̸̷̬̾,̵ ̶̶̷̵̴̦̿>̷̸̴̵̶̙͌<̶̷̵̵̸̞̈́>̴̶̶̸̶̬͑?̵̷̸̵̶͕͘>̵̶̷̶̶̛̠.̶̶̵̶̵͍̈́>̶̷̶̴̵̭̆>̵̶̷̸̶̰̆≮̶̷̶̶̯̌.̸̷̷̵̸̼̀>̷.̵.̸.̶.̴.̷

I can’t stay hard during sex. I have a bad case of performance anxiety. How do you guys just do it?

>>21522862
i don't

>>21522862
>how do you have sex
I just pay prostitutes or fuck fat girls (which aren't mutually exclusive). So I fuck these pigs and just don't feel the need to perform.

>>21522862
I tried Viagra but it didn't help. Didn't try since, that was 16 years ago.

>>21522541
I own 9 guns. I would never shoot myself so no fuckig democrat cunt could use me as a stat for gun control.

>>21522593
You can be introspective without being a shut in weirdo you fucking tard

I feel like introspection kind of splits my mind into observer and many observed parts. I feel like I'm falling apart. Now I just try to live in the moment.

>>21522878
keep telling yourself that

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>>21522730
My story is even more pathetic than yours, and now that I mention it, I slightly lied, because the details do not completely match. The way we met differed. I met her because she was trying to make money quickly for some urgent expenses, I just happened to find the ad because I had gradually been becoming sexually desperate to the point of looking around online, and naturally alongside that desperation, also wanting to meet someone who was reasonably intelligent, because as everyone probably knows if there is a big gap in wit it just results in feeling more alone, despite being in company (although ultimately, both situations can lead to increased suffering depending on the actual outcome). It's also the first time I'd done anything like this, though, and quite impulsive on my part.

When I met her and went to the hotel (which was reasonably high class, no doubt, at least as far as I could tell), it was like a nonstop barrage of conversation about virtually anything. She had a personality that was not quite bubbly but at the same time highly open and dynamic, she could talk about virtually anything, a little bit airheaded, but more out of habit than actual stupidity. It was easy to tell she was quite intelligent despite the act, and she was also highly attractive and had a beautifully shaped face, especially her nose. She was complimenting me about everything (physical and otherwise, the former makes sense because I am actually quite tall and in reasonable shape) while at the same time asking questions to get to know more. I did the same to her, to the point where we ended up knowing more about each other than most people would know, I assume, even after going on a few normal dates.

The sex was also amazing. Despite it also being my first time, which means I genuinely cannot tell how well things went objectively or if there was deception involved on her part, it seemed like she enjoyed it more than I did, not just from what she said, but even (mainly) from her bodily reactions.

Last, I ended up overstaying and more or less staying the night despite the intention originally being about an hour. After I arrived back home, I was fine for a while, but the pangs of loss came into effect probably a day later. I messaged her after I left with the complimentary message saying how much I enjoyed our time together, but then later, as the pangs were felt, I likely overplayed my hand by becoming too personal and complimenting her too much on things that are well beyond merely sexual. I say "likely", because despite this she was still messaging back and wanting to see me again, however she was not as open handed as me in giving out compliments. Maybe to stay professional or collected, I don't know. Either way I will probably see her again and follow the road whither it leads.

>Did yours wear a septum piercing?
Not at the time, but I didn't specifically look for a piercing mark to see if she simply wasn't wearing it.

>>21522878
I'm not a "shut in". I've done all the normie shit.

>>21522899
>>21522730
>Either way I will probably see her again and follow the road whither it leads.
I couldn't fit this into my post, but I am already aware that it will likely end in ruin for my emotional state.

>>21522865
>>21522870
Fuck man. This can’t be my life.

Good place to take a girl on a first date? Something simple?

>>21522899
>>21522915
I see. I guess it's a bit different with women who do it as their profession. I know what you mean though. I think these kinds of women are oversharers; I don't think it's intentional to manipulate you but it draws you in. I remember the details she told me about her family; her dad, sick with emphysema, her brother who probably posts on here by the sound of him. And when they say nice things about you which you've never heard anyone say before, what else can you do?

Really, I mostly miss having someone to hold and being held at night. She would hold my hand and kiss it as we lay there. I sometimes wake up with my arm stretched out over the blanket, gripping it with my fingers at the top.

She was a slut by her own admission but what am I?

Somewhere along the way I just because really sad all the time and I don't know when or why.
I think I might be really really low intelligence: I struggle with basic tasks, plans always fall through and I can't seem to hold down a stable relationship. One thing that I've noticed recently is that people don't message me first, if I don't go out of my way to talk to people I won't have a conversation all day. It's strange because I thought I was fun when around others but maybe not. I really don't know what happened

>>21522930
shit ain't sweet son

>Want to open up to my gf about why I'm so odd
>Know that if I do we will never be the same, everything I do or say is because X,Y&Z happened to me blah blah blah
I don't want pity. She won't stop asking

A few years ago I made a post recommending Birds in the Ground by Eiafuawn here or /sci/ I don't remember and a year or so after I realized some anon had made a comment thanking me for the rec.
Comment isn't there anymore. Sad, it was my biggest achievement in life.

I went bird watching today. I saw three ducks, a pelican, lots of pigeons, and a peacock.

>>21523055
Nice. I might walk to uni and see what birds are along the river.

>>21522901
Fuck off normalfag

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-LMYdj-wqo

>>21523055
I'm def going bird watching tomorrow. Thanks anon.

>>21519351
Still going nowhere

I could tell you my secrets but you wouldn't believe any of them.

>>21519937
Seems like you're a psychiatrist and I should listen to you.

>>21522259
all of his movies are hot garbage. lots of people can talk a good talk. he's more like a eastern philosopher salesman than any kind of artist.
>loads of critics hate his stuff
youre wrong. critics love him. like you, they always hail him as best this and that.

I'm going to go try be normal for a couple of months. See you later guys.

>>21522995
>pic
Absolutely kino scene. I think I’ll revisit it now.

>>21519351
Life is just a series of passing dull moments.
I will never be a great writer or artist because I lack that vision, that capacity to see what is special (or imaginary) in the mundane facts of life.
In words I might overlay the mundane world with all kinds of decorations. Yet all our symbols are nothing more than decoration, window dressing. Strip the words away and what is left: sights, sounds, passing desires that strike us randomly.
Desires unfulfilled. Days composed of sensible, moderate pleasures.
And if I were to fill my days with extreme pleasures, that would become too much, and I would desire to return to simple boring pleasures. So in either case, life is unsatisfactory to me.
The only moments of genuine enjoyment I find in argument, and in sudden moments of inspiration in writing. In both my beliefs suddenly seem to come alive. I feel like a real person briefly. Somehow the threat of contest against my own view and the pressure to articulate myself in writing, gives me a brief feeling of renewel. Myself and my beliefs become real, tangible, and embued with a meaing.
Yet once the moment passes, I have the sense that I was only over taken by a fit of delusion.
Irl debates feel like a pointless clash of egos. And my own writing once finished I view similar to how I might feel after achieving ejaculation--this has nothing to do with myself, why did I bother?
Life is not enough for me. I suppose that is only my own fault.
Is life boring or am I simply a uninspired, unimaginative character so it seems that way to me? I know the answer is the latter, and I hate myself for it.

>>21523177
I often blog about my life here qnd people call me a larper for how fucking crazy and ridiculous it is

>>21523220
didn't read past the 2nd sentence
nobody wants to read your dour pessimistic crap
unironically have sex incel

>>21521890
>Very few people have any certainty that they're particularly good at anything.
I can relate. That was my problem when I started out college: complete indecisiveness as to what I'm good at and what I should do.
So many different subjects seemed fascinating to me, I wanted to study them all, but was aware of the impossibility, and felt that every route I might go down intellectually would mean sacrificing all the others that interested me . Like the hair-brained naïve dilettante I was and still am, I would study half a dozen different subjects both on my own and taking classes, wasting my own time while never really grasping any subject in depth.
Now I just graduated from college, and outside of college it doesn't really matter, but have the same total inductiveness as to what jobs/career path I want to follow.
It's just my anxious, questioning personality. Nothing ever satisfies me, I am eternally doomed to half-ass everything.

>>21523240
NTA but you’re too cruel anon.

https://voca.ro/16CAp2zr8S92

>Girlfriend just got a raise of more money than I make total
>She's also a better writer than me
I really don't know what to feel

>>21523240
>nobody wants to read your dour pessimistic crap
>unironically have sex incel
What is it with this latest wave on /lit/zens. Always the same hyper-stereotyped responses.
It's like you people, the terminally online, think everything is just the caricatures/memes you constantly ingest online. You lack the ability to simply apprehend the person in front of you.
Yes I am being pessimistic, as in this moment I feel pessimistic about myself and my life, as I acknowledged in my post.
This is a /wwoym/ thread, I'm writing what's on my mind you thick-skulled faggot.

>>21523271
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xot4z1CKFMo

>>21523273
writing isnt gonna solve your problem incel. go find a woman and stick it in her then see how you feel.
this 2nd post of yours is still pretty cringe but at least it's better than the 1st one. at least i managed to get through it all. you're improving. maybe you should thank me?
>>21523263
did you actually read all that shit?

>>21523282
No. I didn’t. However how could you blame any human for feeling anything at any time?

>>21523283
i didn't blame him for feeling anything. i blamed him for writing and talking like a little bitch. it's better he grow some balls than wallow in self pity and misery

>>21523282
>incel
>incel
I didn't' even mention sex in my post. Like I said you are defaulting to online meme-words and responses. .
If you're trying to troll, you're not really funny at all.

>>21523293
whatever. write more doom tier literature im sure you'll be a hit with the ladies
also i'm not sure why incels are so agaisnt sex? if someone told me to go have sex ill just say "why thanks i'll do that". i mean who wouldn't? sex is pretty based.
at least from what ive read

There's literal living demons who currently roam the world as we speak.

>>21523307
Part of the ship, part of the crew

>>21523307
all me

>>21523301
You're the one who keeps bringing up "incels"
>assumes other person is X group
>X group all believes Y
>why do you believe Y??
Why do you feel the impulse to make a bunch of assumptions all of which have nothing to do with my post?
I'm not against sex. I have not said anything about sex or incels in my post. Jesus Christ you people.

>>21523232
Makes you think how many heartfelt confessions get ignored daily on this website just because it's something a larper would say

Think my brother just very subtly told me he was molested

>>21523366
did you do it you sick fuck?

>>21523271
You're supposed to feel nothing but happy for her. Protip: you won't because you know deep down this situation is not advantageous for you. it's called male instinct and it's not a bad thing to have.
Also divorce rates are through the roof (about 50%) if you live in the West so, compounded by the fact she earns more money than you do, she'll most probably leave you sooner or later. Probably for a coworker who is as well off as she is. It's statistics. Kind of suck to be on the negative side of the 50%, I know. Enjoy your situation to the fullest and stop caring.
I know a cashier dating a PhD. I give them 2 years after her first job, at tops.

>>21523373
Our older cousin did it. Has to be nearly 20 years ago now but it would explain a lot. Stupid bitch converted to islam and lives in Malaysia now.

>>21523375
>I know a cashier dating a PhD. I give them 2 years after her first job, at tops.
I've witnessed this firsthand.
At the student job I worked guy starts dating this girl. She's a real go getter, and becomes an agent at the DOJ, and then some political job.
Meanwhile the guy is a fat druggie that works a shitty food service job. I was not surprised to see about a year later she had broken up with him & I saw on social media had gotten with a nicer looking guy from Sweden.

>>21523375
Let me guess, you're the type of midwit who believes in the concept of "statistical laws" as well.

Is Invisalign really that effective for adults? Invisible braces without any extra downsides over regular ones just sounds too good to be true, but what do I know. I thought I'd ride out the supposed charm of crooked teeth but it's starting to cause me actual physical problems, not just aesthetical ones. Should have said yes to wearing braces when they were offered to me in middle school. Maybe then I wouldn't have turned out to be this self conscious.

>>21523393
I don't have great teeth but my enormous mustache and beard makes it hard to see. I don't really give a fuck though, and you shouldn't either.

>>21523408
If you didnt care you woukdnt hide it with a massive beard

>>21523390
I've seen it too on with some Uber Eat guy previously dating a law student. The guy wasn't even fat, just content with having a simple job that he could leave at the door when he got home. His girl took the piss and dumped him because hers was stressful. Life just likes to flex at people sometimes.

>>21523391
It's bait, isn't it? If it's not please elaborate so that I may laugh.

I forgive it all. Temper frustration, exhausf doubts. I could die in this moment.

>>21523408
I wouldn't be as bothered if it wasn't causing pain. I have this one canine tooth that has turned to a near 45 degree due to crowding and it's been a real bitch. Can't properly rest my tongue either.

>>21523413
>It's bait, isn't it?
Of course it isn't. It's hilarious that you're making concrete predictions as though they were laws, which shows that you fundamentally misunderstand statistics. In other words, you are a midwit.

>>21523456
I'm probably have a below-average IQ since I'm hanging out on this website. But it's quite funny to hear because I work in data management and do statistics all day. Maybe you didn't read the
>most probably
>probably
as it would otherwise mean you are retarded and you, yourself, fundamentally misunderstand statistics, or either know more than I do on the subject. If you are, please enlighten us.

>>21523475
I'm tired and can't write for shit, sorry for this one. I probably have*, if you do*

>>21519351
what are some books for stupid, dumb fucking idiots?

>>21523546
Reading really isn't that hard. You don't have to engage in all that pseud analysis in order to enjoy a book and learn from it.
Books are often very personal, for example in my case I often struggled with my relationship with religion and the secular world. I used to be super religious, I kind of lost faith, I felt guilt about living in the real world with all its imperfection while still wanting some sort of spirituality.
One of my favourite books of all time is Herman Hesse's "Narcissus and Goldmund", about 2 boys in a monastery, one becomes a priest, the other runs away and experiences all the good and bad of the outside world.
I don't care about academic discussion about that book, I've found what spoke to me. So instead of thinking about stupid/smart, find something that you want to explore, if it's something you care about you will "get it" without thinking about it too much.

I wish I could capture lightning in a bottle with my writing the same way Rowling did with Harry Potter. Not because I want to get rich, but because I haven't found anything else that captured that feeling of childish wonder so well. There's nothing quite like it.

>>21523546
Everybody Poops

I have a projeft where I have to write about a major life changing problem which I overcame. Only problem is that I haven't overvome anything. Every challenge Ive had, I've failed. Ive never overcome a problem. They've all beaten me. Not sure what to say desu

>>21523670
Write about how you overcame never having overcome anything by writing a project on overcoming.

>>21523670
Just turn in a single page saying "I overcame this!"

>>21523670
Haven't you overcame anything in a vidéo game? Never had a sudden epiphany in the middle of an exercises? If not, then lie. Choose a simple subject everyone can relate to (e.g talking to a daring girl who smiled at you every day in the bus when you never had the courage before), add context (e.g remembering the only time you tried to talk to a girl for something other than class in public and how everyone made fun of you for being awkward, crippling you for life), then add tragic events. (e.g I tried to be the one smiling that day. She just stared and I didn't see her in the bus for a week afterwards. That's how I knew I was not meant for this, everything repeats. --- but with rebounds ---- she came back on the bus a week later, and sat next to me. I didn't say anything because I didn't want to be the first to talk. It was awkward until her stop came. She asked for my name but I couldn't hear it the first time, so I asked her to repeat. She then told me her name, before grinning and saying she was sorry for being cold last time. Turns out she didn't feel well and I was tried my luck at the wrong time. I excused her and she turned to wave at me as when she got off the bus. I didn't know what to think.) And finally, the conclusion (e.g The next time, I didn't have class but I still got on the bus at school hour. She was surprised when I got off with her and asked her number. She said yes. It was the first time in my life - at this point my really short life - that I'd taken risks. It felt like a tremendous achievement and I couldn't help but jog of happiness on the way home. Her name was Alex.)

>>21523739
>If not, then lie.
Best advice on /lit/

>>21521815
don't. not worth your time

>>21523871
How do you know how worthy is his time? You talk like a woman.

>>21522213
Meaning can't be "located in the brain". To build a brain meaning has to already exist, in the widest sense that includes the relationship between the structure of the brain and its function. No matter how hard you try to convince yourself that naive materialism is the one holy faith materialism can only ever describe p-zombies, mechanisms reacting to stimuli in a world where perceived meaning never actually happens.
You know absolutely nothing about meaning and never will. It's information that's impossible for a human to access yet you pretend you know for some reason. When we trace where you got your retarded ideas from it's all politics. You're a retarded puppet that will never think in your life and it's the duty of every human being to oppose you with their last breath.

>>21523900
>>21521165
Double digit IQ posts

My latest sexual fantasy is raping that chick who had a crush on me like two years ago. I don't talk to her or anything but it does it for me.

>>21523904
Yet you can't say anything on the subject. You can't correct me or present anything at all except by restating your braindead premises that's based on nothing but your conditioned religious fervor.

>>21523908
Another one

>>21523912
Say something you mindless subhuman. Why is that so hard for you retards? Present an actual thought that isn't "trust me bro I know because black science man agrees with me".

>>21523916
>screeching double digit IQer having a meltdown over his low intelligence
Hilarious

>>21523912
>>21523919
What kind of brain damage could possible cause someone to make these empty posts?
If I'm wrong on a "double digit iq" level it should be that much easier to correct me. You can't. You can't say anything on any subject because you don't understand the absolute basics of how to put together a thought.
All you will ever do is repeat premises without even trying to justify them, it doesn't occur to you that it would be needed because you don't think.

>>21523926
Get a load of this monkey

>>21523929
There is no lower creature in this world than you retards with your smug regurgitation of the same tired memes. Just say something that doesn't rely on accepting your retarded premises without question. It can't be this hard to say something unless you really are dumber than a rock.
How does the brain produce meaning independently from scratch or whatever you think you're claiming? How do you know these things about the world that are impossible to verify like your idea about meaning arising independently from a physical machine called a brain? Why can't you explain any of the shit you demand everyone accepts as holy dogma? Why can't you think? Who did this to you?

>>21523944
>he's still begging for a reply

I don't think i can go on living the same after watching a swedish femboy jerking off on to the pages of a bible while watching interracial porn.

>>21523949
You're still replying retard. The question is why reply while saying nothing? Either you're braindead or a huge fan of my posts, hoping for more.

>>21523954
I like mocking you because you're both stupid and proud, the funniest kind of midwit.

I don't understand a thing going on over at >>>/qst/

>>21523961
You "like mocking" because it's all you have. You can't think so you make fun of the heretics for not agreeing with the final word from the reddit priesthood. Black science man decreed it so anyone disagreeing is a fool to be mocked.
An effective mocking would have pointed out the error. A thinking person would always focus on the content and try to be productive. You don't know how. You don't think.

>>21524006
>please respond

>>21524017
Thank you for your invaluable contributions. You have convinced me that saying nothing and refusing to think is clearly the future and the high iq move.
How can all you reddit retards to a man be this fucked in the head? None of you have anything to say. Simply being wrong would be way more interesting than what you actually do which is just absolutely refusing to think under any circumstances.

>>21520553
How delightfully sensible, you've fucked your brain up just the right amount.
Stick with this and I envy you, internet stranger.

>>21521133
blackmail them first then do it anyway

Is the promised land of contentment real?
Everytime I sober up after 6 months or so get a really boring existential dread, see life as mundane.
I think I need to read less and gain some outside hobbies.

>>21524135
Into my heart an air that kills
From yon far country blows;
What are those blue remembered hills,
What spires, what farms are those?

That is the land of lost content,
I see it shining plain,
The happy highways where I went
And cannot come again.

>>21524148
That was striking anon, thankyou for introducing me to Housman.
I actually live in England (no passport, I have never left this island) and it seems a fucking bleak place these days.

>>21524165
>Englishman doesn't know Housman
Truly bleak lad
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHoAQW_DBI4

>>21524169
sorry

>>21522227
double denim

>>21522717
the post cold war 'end of history' was boring
embrace multipolarism

>>21522862
don't care about their experience, vag feels nice on peepee, focus on your own gratification.

>>21522939
> I guess it's a bit different with women who do it as their profession.
In this case it was a very temporary thing for her and by no means "professional." That might clear the situation up a little bit. Admittedly it was still, at least initially, transactional.
>I think these kinds of women are oversharers; I don't think it's intentional to manipulate you but it draws you in. I remember the details she told me about her family; her dad, sick with emphysema, her brother who probably posts on here by the sound of him. And when they say nice things about you which you've never heard anyone say before, what else can you do?
Yes. It really is such a shame coming back to my ordinary life and being fully aware of how empty it really is without her presence, which I was never really quite aware of to the same extent beforehand. I will be able to see her again at this rate, but should I? Probably not. Will I? Probably. If I don't, where is my life going to go? It's just so empty, even with all of the hobbies and aspirations I have. They all seem to lose their colour and pale in comparison, like they need the light only someone like her can radiate in order to retain their value.

Either way, thank you for sharing. There's not much more I can add I think without sounding like a broken record for my part.

>>21522939
a sucker with no self esteem

>>21522862
My problem isn't staying hard, its just that I can't fucking cum. Now I don't even bother looking for sex, honestly sex is only fun for the first 5 minutes anyhow, then its just work until you cum. But if you can't even cum whats the fucking point?

Which author best represents having good sex for an hour and slowly realising you're never going to cum?

>>21522625
i feel bad for you anon, but at the same time pointing out her contradictions ("you said you weren't ready for a relationship but now you're seeing somebody") is a top-tier beta move. it's so obvious that's something people just say as a way of rejecting somebody and that it's usually not literally true.

Wealthy NEETs are present day aristocrats. Nobility used to scoff at vulgar bankers and politicians

>>21524251
>>21524289
this happened to me for the first time a couple of weeks ago. my gf and i rarely have sex, so i generally don't think about being "ready." hence, i loaded up on alcohol, CBD, and kratom. cue to sex soon after. i could stay hard, but couldn't cum. unfortunately, i tried to for a while anyway. i think she humored me, but i could tell she wasn't enjoying it. eventually i was tired and said "sorry, i can't" and rolled over and went to sleep. not sure how she felt about it, i think she might've taken it personally. i honestly don't really care that much. we had sex a couple of weeks later and i lasted like two minutes. what gives anons?

>>21522730
>She dragged me up from my chair at one point but I was back down before too long. It felt almost as if it was specially made for me.
>Aren't you dancing?" Her face as she said it was terribly sad. Michel declined, his gesture immeasurably slow, like some prehistoric animal recently roused. ... He had a sudden premonition that all his life would be like this moment. Emotion would pass him by, sometimes very close. Others would experience happiness and despair, but such things would be unknown to him, they would not touch him. Several times that evening Annabelle had looked over at him while she danced. Though he had wanted to, he simply could not move; he felt as though his body were slipping into icy water. Still, everything seemed strangely calm. He felt separated from the world by a vacuum molded to his body like a shell, a protective armor.

>>21524247
what song is that from? i'm pretty there was a song on 90s rock radio that had that line right. you just gave me a flashback to pre-9/11 nyc working in the basement of some fashion company and listening to howard stern and kroq shit on my walkman all day while i packed shit in storage. now that i think about it i was really lucky to get reception down there.

>>21519351
Seems there's a lot of interest in christianity lately on /lit/. Behold, I give you: a nihilistic interpretation

God already died on the cross and Ecclesiastes confirms everything is meaningless. Therefore, this was the divine gift to humanity all said and done. And with this, we can rest assured. Even if we're truly alone and suffering unmentionable horrors

>>21524420
How about a pessimistic reading? Original sin is God's not Adam's

>>21524435
You might like Answer to Job by Jung

>>21524435
I would agree. The bible is carefully constructed in terms of cause and effect, but I believe it's almost hidden or entirely symbolic. If revelation actually true, at best it's a metaphor to protect humanity from an evil dictator or torturous enslavement. There would not be an actual second coming, just a person we would hopefully side with to protect us from the antichrist

>>21524450
>inversion of the biblical assertion that God sent his son Christ to die for the sins of humanity. Jung maintains that upon realizing his mistreatment of Job, God sends his son to humankind to be sacrificed in repentance for God's sins.

>>21524410
The Offspring - "Self Esteem"
https://youtu.be/Abrn8aVQ76Q
sums up many a young man's 'love life'
it's not /lit/ but neither is Bob Dylan so we're effectively in nonsense territory

>>21522667
There’s no such thing as a blank slate because no one has an infinite amount of time. What’s done is done.

>>21519351
My dad is the last thing in the world I don't want to lose. Imagine tytos lannister, thats exactly my dad is. He's hardworking and provides to the family without fail. Today I went to the farm and I saw him sleeping and realise how old he is. My heart just breaks.
I want to repay my dad before its too late. Just appreciate you parents anon, they the only one that truly cares about you in this shitty life.

I lift things up and put them down.
I lift things up and put them down.
I lift things up and put them down.
I lift things up and put them down.
I lift things up and put them down.

>>21524498
True. But one day in the future when you're successful you'll look back at the bad experiences of the past and view them as necessary

>>21519351
I have this existential terror, this feeling that haunts me, that there's no reason for anything, life is intrinsically absurd and valueless, morals are a spook to keep the populace on track and serving, we're all mediocre men threading this realm to never achieve anything worth of note and to top that everything about love everyone taught us is false, every measure of affection is conditional to at least the same proportion of abuse because there's no such a thing as unconditional love, and the thing that there is to do is to find a master to be exploited by and enrich and pray for them not to be absolute assholes because I'd never move my ass out of the front of the PC if I haven't to work to feed myself, nor know anyone that is any different and it makes me just toss myself off a bridge to put this farce to an end

Then, I take a huge dump and it all goes away. It's weird. Today, after re-educating myself, I only eat a measure of fatty meat and sugary, caffeinated drinks enough to replenish my metabolic rate, pretty much 20% of what I used to eat. The longest I fast the more I can enjoy everything else but eating, like music, reading, playing my guitar, even talking to other people. The slimmer I get the better I feel. Wich made me wonder very seriously if everyone being dumb, sad and sick all the time have everything to do with the bullshit we've been taught to eat.

>>21524542
How big of a dump are we talking here?

>>21524557
Colon-cleansing level. I have good results with laxatives.

>>21524557
Like, three feet of shit

>>21524559
>>21524564
I love it when my shits provide me an euphoria that is simply better than sex

>>21524542
Read Kafka and Camus, as most teenagers do, along with having an existential crisis and eating disorder

>>21524542
I think you're right about both

Invest in some paraffin lamps

>>21524771
I went with butane stove.

>>21523213
Money is not his motivation, he is no salesman. Spreading his beliefs in meditation and existence of the soul are messages he wants to preach but also being acutely aware of dreams. Spreading love over money is not wrong

I know Germans say their numbers by reversing digits, ie. they say five-twenty, instead of twenty-five, but reading some books I noticed English used to do it too when mentioning someone's age. I wonder how they lost the habit?

>>21520553
>Is this senescence or enlightenment or something?
Or something

>>21524435
There is no difference when it comes to that choice. There was complete unity and out of it adversity sprang so it was a decision made by the whole, everyone involved wanted adversity. We all invited the devil in and continue to in every moment.
This world is good but it's also built on sin. Sin is not evil in itself, it's part of the process that creates a good world.

>>21524461
Really it's redemption of sin not repentance for it. Christ shows us how to travel through death and sin. Our petty issues with adversity are our own, products of biology, they're not properties of reality.

i'm getting the urge to buy more books which i probably won't read for months or years until i read all the other books i bought last time.

>>21525179
counter this urge by giving away books,

I think I just want to remain a public servant.

>>21524579
I know I am. I also stop to worry about existential terror when I'm eating properly. It all goes away. It's so close to drug consumption descriptions it makes me laugh

>>21525265
Then again, I’m fairly tired of being broke. I’m in my late 20s and I can’t even afford to buy a new car.

>>21525493
I honestly regret how I spent my 20s a lot.

>>21519492
If you live in the same city then buy an expensive camera, take a photography course and post pics to Instagram. Build a small following and then ask her if she would like to model for you since you could do with some practise. You are now acquainted with her in person and move from there. If it doesn't work out then at least you have a new skill and can meet girls through it since it's a popular hobby among girls.

>>21521820
When I was a young lad, I kissed another boy. We were both 4-5 years old so we had no idea what we were doing. I remember that it was pretty gross but it was also instinctual like the other anon said. I haven't kissed anyone since then but if kids can do it so can you. Practise it on your hand, there's a technique for it

>>21519351
I love learning about other people. Their career path, specifically. You wouldn't believe me if I told you I spent thousands of hours, if not more reading LinkedIn profiles in college but I did. I still do, albeit to a slightly lesser extent now that I have real work. It all started when I was in college and discovered that I could use LinkedIn to stalk my seniors' paths.

With one simple click, I would learn everything I needed to know. From my major, which master's was the best to get a real job in the industry? Which masters should I avoid, because people have to complete their curriculum with expensive non-uni courses? In which city? It was all there. Even if uni teachers tried to lie about how students were 'inserted' in the professional world, I would only see the plain, bare truth.

There is a common misconception about using LinkedIn that people don't understand; bullshiters are easily singled out. Sure, you can lie about one or two things, but you can't really lie about where you've done professional work with your degree. It made my research and my pursuit of truth easier. Some things just don't line up when multiple people have a 3 years hole in their CV after graduating with the same degree.

Anyways, I have about a thousand HTML files containing the LinkedIn profiles of people who are 1 to 5 years my seniors right now. I use it to plan my career course; where did people get the most promotions? Who were they friends with at the time (see who liked their posts)? etc. The seniority helps because they're making mistakes I won't make in the future. If someone is changing workplaces after a few months or a single year, I know that there is something iffy about the management or the salary. It's hard work, but I'm certain it will pay off someday. I'm not doing it for the career. I'm doing it for the thrill of "planning the best course of action". I think I became like this because I come from a poor background. I don't have the wits nor the talent to achieve great things, but I'm hella fucking smart when it comes to observing others and taking shortcuts. Whenever I reach a milestone I've been looking at from afar and look back behind me to see the amounts of unforeseen hurdles I plowed through, I feel a surge of adrenaline like no other. It's the only time I feel like I'm in complete control of my life.

test.

>>21522935
Park, movies, arcade, mall, café? This is probably the worth place to ask this question.

>>21524542
>The longest I fast the more I can enjoy everything else but eating, like music, reading, playing my guitar, even talking to other people.
Weird I've had the same experience.
I don't know if it's just fasting triggering a kind of mania, or why exactly, but fasting always clears my mind.
Whenever I fast I immediately think and write better, and feel a kind of purpose I dont normally.

>>21523375
Jerez Louise brother give them a chance, you know nothing about their relationship. I've always wanted to ask though, how is it like being married and why did yours end so miserably?

>>21519351
any books you guys recommend?

>>21526091
The best ones.

>>21525975
I'd say it's because you're not digesting. The worse medical recomendation of humanity's history is to eat every 3 hours. You're constantly digesting shit, and considering our food is vegetal fiber carbs that demand a lot of work to be digested, it's very easy to connect the dots of why we are exausted and sad all the time.

Proper nourishment demands very little planning. Find what your base metabolic rate is (probably around 2k calories), fast more, eat more meat, eat more eggs, have more low-processing dairy products like yoghurt, eat some lettuce salad and citric fruit juices to help digestion, calibrate it to have enough variety and less volume than before, and eat twice a day tops. You'll end up eating way less than you're used to, your digestion will stop to be in constant overload and maybe the sadness and tiredness will go away. It might not, but mine did, so since it's so simple it's really worth a shot.

I had today half a porterhouse with lime and honey juice, I'm sipping some cocoa and coffe I made with milk and I'll probably only eat again today to finish the porterhouse. I drink coffee and put a teaspoon of sugar on each mug, I have 2 or 3 each day.

There it is, I'm feeling excellent. Then I eat a bread with my eggs. Then I eat 3. Then, I'm eating the whole loaf. In a week, I'm eating potatoes, carrots, pasta, chocolate, ice cream, everything comes back to dreadful normal, and I only have my mind back after some extensive, repeated 3-feet shitting. When it all goes away again, and I feel just normal, not dreadful.

I would suggest you readings, but everything that works for me I learned by trying and it might not work for you. The most common tactic is to do some elimination diet, like eat only chicken for 3 days and go on adding one thing every 3 days to see how you'll react.

For about a week now, my shoulders has been hurting on and off. Pinched nerve? I don't know what it is, it comes and goes but the pain can be excruciating. When it stops, my arm is pretty much numb, it can't do anything.

Is it the vaccine?

I am on strict no sugar/low carb diet, and today is one of those days when I am angry (not getting carbs/sugar does that), some very minor stuff happened (several things) and it's making me angry and I can't get them out of my mind. Because of this I can't concentrate and that makes me even angrier and frustrated. I have been refreshing several boards and threads and replies are all garbage, and it's pissing me off. Why can't you retards post something that is not lame, irrelevant and just outright retarded?

I might just go to bed because I see no point in being fucking awake.

>>21526194
>guise im pmsing pls give me a safe space >:(
What a fucking retard

This is my birthday weekend. It was ruined on two counts
>work scheduled me for sunday even though I explicitly said I cant work sundays
>someone in my circle decided to kill himself today and his gf decided to hold the memorial tonight
This is lame. I cant celebrate and I have to deal with everyones grief and I have to drive some people to and from the memoria and then I have to get up early tomorrow to work. This has become tedious and unpleasant qnd I cant even go home to party alone

>>21525654
This is brilliant. Have you ever been caught or suspected of stalking at all? If so, how did it go?

>>21524512
I appreciate my dad but he also has schizophrenia, so sometimes it's really hard talking to him. I genuinely think it's better for both of us if we keep some distance.

Spent 4 years working at a university and don’t even have the graduate degree to show for it.

>>21524512
A lot of parents don’t actually want what’s best for their kids.

Look what I found on Wikipedia.

>>21519351
>Write What's On Your Mind
Last time I got banned for one month for sharing my feels. Anyway, just saw a pic of ruins in the news from Ukraine, she's in a blanket, soldiers carry her body away after bombing, school apparently. I thought even though she's bluish already, I'd still do it, then after first dump would take some parts off, just like you take apart a doll, legs, arms, I remember it from childhood, when you take off the removable parts(arms and legs) only this strange looking figure with head stays, triangular at the bottom, with that gap for putting your thing in, so since childhood I have this burning desire to put my thing in that triangle. After trying that and dumping the second load, I would really really love to explore the insides, to see where did white go, then go up and touch the pink pipes and all sorts of bubbles, then switch for the twin peaks, see them in section, just go deeper, underneath the external cover, it's beautiful, but in to truly experience the beauty you have to go deep, until everything is in small details

>>21526256
>pmsing
You damn retard, assuming your a male and not some feminised chud, what kind of fucked up mind do you have to have to come up with such reply?

dad drank most of the beer and now I'm filled with rage

Anons use the term "goyslop" but I know a lot of Jews and they all eat the same shit. Food just becomes shittier and shittier in general, no matter your race.

>>21524512
Parents are the only people in this life that are supposed to love you unconditionally. Unfortunately not all of us get so lucky. When my parents die I don't know if I'll even show up to the service.

>>21519351
My dad went to visit my grandma who's in a nursing home a few hours away. He said that she seemed delirious and couldn't recognise him. She is in her early 90s so I've been expecting her death for quite a while but now that the time has come, I haven't been taking it very well.

>>21526553
After my grandma died, my mother couldn't handle it, went a bit crazy and divorced my dad. Those 2 events in quick succession changed me from a guy who was always a bit melancholic, to full on depression, I couldn't handle it at all. I hope it won't be the same for you.

>>21526459
I know that feel. He thinks i drink too much so he preemptively drinks everything to force me to be sober

>>21526567
Thanks, anon. I don't think my grandma's death will cause such effect on my dad since he has been expecting her death as well. I still feel bad for him though, to see his mother for one last time in such state. Also my parents nearly divorced a couple years ago but they managed to fix their marriage somehow. It was the worst year of my life and it left some internal scars but I made it thanks to medication.
I hope that you have recovered somewhat from your depression. If not, you should take action to treat it. Medication, meditation, religion, stoicism, whatever helps take some of that weight off your back.

sometimes i hate music. its honestly an addiction. i don't always need noise in my ears

>>21526316
>A lot of parents don’t actually want what’s best for their kids.
A lot of them only had kids so they didn't have to do their own chores or live their own lives.

>>21524247
No doubt about that.

>>21526870
Ngl, someone to do chores for me would be great

>>21524359
Yeah I know. It was one of those drunken things and I was feeling like shit. She also almost kissed another guy despite being in a relationship on that same night (he was flamboyantly gay if that makes any difference).

>>21524239
I know. I really understand what you mean.

>>21519351
What's On Your Mind
Now what

this image says so much

is this what thousands of years of civilization and struggle is supposed to culminate in?

>>21527001
literal pedophilia on the left

I bet everything on the jaguars

Anon that posted the Data and Lore fan-fic, the writing wasn't bad quality. I just hated the content because it's forbidden coomer.

>>21527001
What the fuck is wrong with G*rms

>>21527198
A jew made the poster and a jew owns the organization that commissioned the poster.
After the rest of white christendom slaughtered over 20 million germans, their entire government was handed over to jewish oligarchs. Germany is an israeli colony.

>>21527001
>is this what thousands of years of civilization and struggle
Cringe image
and even cringier take on your part

>>21527220
wasn't supposed to be a based take. im really just wondering if it will all end in such a banal state.

>>21526129
Not doing all this shit lol
Imma eat and drink what I like

Ruminating about how I wasted the kast 6 years of my life

>>21527228
It won't, fortunately. This is just the "utopian dream" transitory state.
After culture has been successfully broken down and homogenized the proles will be reduced to insects working for billionaire neo-feudal jews. There will probably be purebred strains of asians, africans, whites, etc kept for entertainment purposes while the rest of the world becomes a homogenized brown mass of worker drones.

I asked the cute Panera Bread worker out on a date. She complained to the manager, and now I am banned from Panera Bread.

>>21527251
Panera Bread sucks anyway

>>21527251
lmao

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>>21527238
Hey man, everything is the law. Do what you want. I did because it suited me. I'm telling you it's worth the shot before diving in on drugs and antidepressants. I hadn't stopped drinking

>>21522259
>Hot damn is he sincere and inspirational. He is the best artist living, he has so much passion and love for what he does and doesn't restrain his imaginative impulse. Made a few wrong decisions with dune and loads of critics hate his stuff but that doesnt worry him. True inspo
Damn, that's the takeaway you get from Lynch's musings?
I've been a fan of him for years, but all due to his work, none due to his cryptic interviews or postmodern non-conclusive spiritual output. He just always seems to be shilling some meditation-cult