/lit/ - Literature

>>21501666
Life is so easy it's not even worth trying

>>21501612
Your post made me think about what is psychology like in China and Japan.
>>21501628
I’m one of the anons you quoted and 100% percent agree with you statement. That being said, mediocre psychologists should be held accountable for fucking up their canvasses.

>>21501674
Only you are accountable for willingly talking to a retard(psychologist). Doubly so if you get fucked up by playing a game you should know the result of.

Reminder that suffering is a choice.

>>21501666
I wish I was born even more white and I wish women had far less rights

If there is no confidence, there is no man.

Beauty can not compete with youth. There is no such a thing as an old attractive women.

>couldn't sleep at all last night
>alarm rings at 7:30 and i struggle to get up
>realize straight up that if I cant get up under these circumstances I might as well kill myself because its going to be a lot harder when I actually have to work an adult job in the exact same state
sometimes I feel like im not gonna make it bros

You don't deserve my attention. Simple as

>>21501706
False.

>>21501692
I'm not a man then.

Sometimes you just gotta play crash bandicoot 2 and not think about your financial status for a little while

>>21501777
i remember when i got that game for xmas. 1998?

>>21501683
I agree when it comes to regular people, but what about a person who’s particularly vulnerable, like a schizophrenic or someone with strong suicidal impulses? Shouldn’t we as a society protect them and guarantee them humane treatment for their afflictions?

Is it good idea to try working as a transcriber? They'll pay me more than the current job I'm doing.

>>21501807
Stay out of schizophrenic's business. It's not them, it's society. Back then they'd be chillin' at delphi barking at the moon and eatin grasshoppers an shit. Today we stuff them in cages and pump them full of meds.
That being said, I meant in cases when someone voluntarily speaks with a psychologist. Suicidal people do not do that.

>>21501818
Do you currently work walking dogs?

>>21501851
No, I work in Sales.

>>21501706
>beauty is simply skin deep physical attraction
Beauty and attraction are not synonamous. An old growth forest is beautiful, your newborn child is beautiful. Stars have a powerful beauty and even penmanship can be beautiful. Age, dignity, wisdom and family will be far more beautiful when you are a similar age.

>>21501818
Not for webvideos, no. Unless you are changing the language of what is being transcribed there is no money outside or official legal and civic proceedings.

If you're unhappy with your life and regretful of your past by the time you're in your thirties, should you kill yourself? Even Napoleon contemplated suicide when he was young and it's a good thing he didn't go through with it, but things really kicked off for him before he was in his thirties.

>>21501883
fucking retard lmao

>>21501878
>Unless you are changing the language of what is being transcribed there is no money outside or official legal and civic proceedings
I'm actually applying to work with a government funded research project group.

My job is getting in the way. I want to sell my car and write in poverty during an year and then kill myself.

>>21502033
write what

>>21502052
My novel. Tbh I don't even want to finish. I just want to rest. I hope there's no afterlife

>>21502244
damn adverts used to have sovl. fucking faggots complaining about it in the 80s would have a heart attack today

>>21502264
Skip the media, consume the commercials.
https://youtu.be/0K5BgCI-U7c

"There must be some way out of here," said the joker to the thief,
"There's too much confusion, I can't get no relief"

Gonna try hang myself now, wish me luck, frens

>>21502344
Best of luck! A dead fascist is a good fascist. :)

>>21502344
"No reason to get excited", the thief, he kindly spoke,
"There are many here among us who feel that life is but a joke
But you and I, we've been through that, and this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now, the hour is getting late".

>>21502344
but why?

>>21501666
I drew it, it counts for a 1000 words.

>>21502344
>>21502365

Hmh, that's a not bad coincidence!

>>21502344
>try to
Imagine being such a fuck up you can't even hang yourself right. Sheesh

>>21502344
Do it the right way and post credit card information first.

>>21501666
Going through a lot of stuff that I dont know how to respond to. This site isnt anonymous enough to dump stuff like this. I just want to write somewhere that Im going through a lot.

>>21502471
just write it anyway

>>21502347
Damn this really inspired me to not kill myself

>>21502486
I can tell you this much

I wonder if I will ever be able to truly empathise with my mom.

>>21502522
Baby steps mate.
The boomers soul is suffering central in comparison to younger generations.

Guess who got all the heat from the generation who fought the last total war?
Our parents.

>>21502497

>>21501666
Are there really such a thing as images that are "inherently traumatizing"? I have seen this sort of sentiment thrown around going back to when I was a 12 year old kid in 2012. Nobody would plainly say it like how I'm saying it, but the basic sentiment was if you saw pictures/videos of things like gore, dead bodies, mass shootings, ect, it was generally expected that you would seek therapy over it or something.

Even among the people that posted the gore there was this sentiment that what they were posting was "traumatizing". I remember 8 years ago, when eight chan was still a thing, there was this board called /baph/. It was a board dedicated to trolling, doxing, messing with innocent people. Terrible, I know. And one thing I remembered them doing was that they would write their plans and what they wanted to do in gore images, so the "normalfags" won't be able to read them. Another example is that /b/ tumblr raid event that happened a long time ago, it was rumored that people killed themselves over it? I was a kid when it happened and I all I remember is being confused/amused by how serious people were about it. A long time ago I also read some posts about how facebook mods seek therapy over having to see gorey posts.

Where does this seeing dead bodies=trauma sentiment come from? To me, this whole sentiment seems to just be a thing that has been socially engineered in our culture rather than something that is biologically inherent. In the ancient roman days, everyday people were cheering for the deaths of Christians in the colosseum. Not too long ago, everyday people were going out on picnics to watch musket battles between the north and the south.

Is it really just their brain saying "society says that I need to be traumatized by this, so I'm going to be traumatized by it?"

I'm transferring from a community college to a state university. My applications are in and now I have to send partial transcripts. While it feels nice to be making tangible progress with my education, I have all kinds of other shitty emotions being dug up by this process. I was accepted into a university straight out of high school. Had everything gone right I would have graduated with my BA in 2021. But everything went wrong. My first year was horrible. I genuinely feel like I went throufh some kind of psychological torture. I dropped out after a year and decided to just go through a community college, but then the pandemic fucked me over. I was so exhausted by school (which I never liked, even back in high school I was miserable) and thought I'd learn a trade. The pandemic gave me the excuse to do that and so I did construction work for about 2 and a half years. That was a dead end, so I'm back in community college and getting ready to finish my AA this spring and restart university this fall.
Being back in school is really painful. I'm about to turn 24 and Im stuck in these 10classes with 18 year olds. All those feelings of anxiety and alienation I always had in school are back but now with the added dimension that I'm older and so far behind everyone else. Then the application process is reminding me of when I was 18 and going into university, and all I feel is regret and resentment about the choices I made and the decisions that were forced on me. These past 5 years feel like a waste. I didnt live a fun young life. I lived in a state of resentment and loneliness. I hate school and what it's done to me. I really feel like I was put through a meat grinder.

>>21501666
My gf started writing poetry. She wrote the first one for a sad occasion. I was worried, and so was she. That it would be terrible. I prepared to politely cringe. However it made me cry. It was beautiful. She wrote another one today. She's a fucking natural. It's not Tennyson but it cuts me up. I love that she has this, though she has a lot of different sources of grief at the moment so I don't think she realises how great this thing is that she has.

>>21502627
It's an extremely common situation so don't beat yourself over it. More importantly, success will be judged not by whether or not you made mistakes but the severity of your mistakes and how quickly you recover. It sounds to me like you're doing well to minimize your mistakes and recover quickly.

>>21501666
Told my mom I got a job interview for administrative office job, and that I'd like to work a couple years before considering going on to additional schooling.
And that if I went back to school I'd do something practical that could get me a good paying job.
She seemed disappointed with me somehow, like she seemed very grave.
I thought she would be happy for me. I don't know what she wants from me.

>>21502833
I obviously don't know your mother, but most only worry for you, but do so through a personal lense. My parents worried about every choice o made, no matter how sensible, because it was different from what they did. Perhaps she always regretted not being an artist or similar and was projecting.

>>21502626
>Are there really such a thing as images that are "inherently traumatizing"?
It's dependent on the person's level of sensitivity and how much you are exposed to it.
That's basically what desensitization means--that it can be traumatizing at first cause you've never seen it before, but if you see it a lot it will no longer bother you..
>Where does this seeing dead bodies=trauma sentiment come from? To me, this whole sentiment seems to just be a thing that has been socially engineered in our culture rather than something that is biologically inherent. In the ancient roman days, everyday people were cheering for the deaths of Christians in the colosseum.
This is an interesting question and something I've wondered about too.
In the middle ages it would be common to see animals being slaughtered in the town center right in front of everyone. This was normal. Maybe the sight of death is only considered trauma today because we existed in a highly sheltered society? Idk

>>21502774
Yeah I'm doing well enough. At every point since high school I've been either in school or working or both. And I'm definitely correcting some of tbe mistakes or bad circumstances. Theres just this feeling of arrested development that haunts me. So many of these years just feel blank. Its that feeling of wasted time, especially that very important time, that hurts me so much.
The sad reality is that my situation is actually pretty common. Ive met a lot of people who told me that college and university felt like torture. Theres something really fucked up about the education system and what it does to peopel.

>>21502833
Taking time away from school to work can have a lot of risks. Going back to school after working for a few years is difficult and most people who stop school for work end up never going back at all. She's very aware of that and knows this is a major decision. Maybe she's worried youll be stuck in a mid level, desd end, soul crushing admin job forever.

>>21502688
love achewood lad ngl

::in other news::
think im coming up to a manic episode. not bad, life, not bad at all.

I'm so annoyed. I put in a ton of job applications back at the end of Novemeber and a bunch of managers are now only just contacting me. Its really annoying because the place i reqlly wanted to work only just responded today but I've already got a job which I know is a sure thing. Less pleasant, absolutely, but solid and reliable. Stupid hiring managers.

>>21502874
When I was young she always dreamed of me being a big writer for t.v.
And it was very much as you are saying personal projection of her own dreams that she never was able to achieve.
I never could live up to her dreams of me.
At this point I just want to have a job that will bring me financial stability.
To have enough money that I don't ever have to worry.
She can't quite understand that as I don't think she's ever had to worry about those things.

>>21502898
>most people who stop school for work end up never going back at all.
Why? I don't see why you can't just go back when you're older and have more money.

>>21502930
>Maybe she's worried youll be stuck in a mid level, desd end, soul crushing admin job forever.
I'm worried about ending up like that too, but every option in front of me looks soul crushing.
I figure I work a few years and then take a break and look at my options once I have more saved.
And then if I want to go back to school then, I will.

>>21502898
Also for context, I've already graduated and obtained a Bachelor of the Arts. So I'm not stopping schooling, just delaying considering further schooling like grad school.

I'm really tempted to kill myself. It seems like I can't make good decisions for any reason, I don't understand how to connect with other people or communicate properly, I've had fairly intense derealization for years that has made it nearly impossible to genuinely enjoy anything, et cetera. I'm tired of being me and I want to rest.

>>21502930
Because you have a lot less flexibility and more obligations. Plus readjusting to student life is a challenge. It isnt easy.

>>21503013
>Because you have a lot less flexibility and more obligations
If I was to go grad school later I'd just quit my job.
And if anything id have more flexibility as I would have more money saved, which means I wouldn't have to take on big student loans

This world is basically a fairy tale. It's great. I love life. There's so many strange and curious things to explore, adventures, people, experiences.

>>21501666
An excerpt from some short story i have been writing for fun on and off for the past 2 and a half months. Keep in mind the main character and narrator is beyond schizo:

I could feel the glares of my fellow students. Like a dry tongue licking me up and down my back, violating me. I could feel them all. Even the nuances of that invisible tongue were not lost on me. Their dumbfounded looks, the lack of understanding in them. They were filled partly with pity, partly with disgust, but mostly with a feeling of superiority. It was as if they couldn't fathom that a man could be independent of their lousy company. With every fibre of its being, my left hand had to wrestle the right one away from finally drawing the serrated edge bayonet knife, and going on a stabbing spree that would end only with my suicide. The blackness returned, stronger than before. My heart was pounding, my head was inflicted with a pulsing headache that stabbed at my right temple and an unbearable pressure within my chest was building. I managed to calm down after 5 minutes of muttering to myself in the school’s bathroom, and somehow the feeling subsided again. I had robbed the knife off of some crazy homeless bum when I was in the capital for a lavish banquet with my family, and started bringing it to school ever since I started seeing the shadows. The devil on my left shoulder was hushed away though and at least for the time being, my humanity steadfastly remained, as if bound by rusted chains to my body.
Exasperated, I trudged into the classroom having already decided that the day was going to be a heap of shit, that I was forced to sit in. Another one of these days huh?
Nearing the classroom, I could hear the jumbled echoes of dozens of conversations emanating from within it, making a single, large and incoherent wall of noise that immediately made me question whether it was too late to turn my tail and take the day off. My stomach curled into a knot.

>>21502988
cringe
>>21503057
based

>>21503073
Fucking shit, the text in cursive(to emphasise that they are thoughts) are all normal here. Guess you will have to guess at whats what.

>>21503030
Look man, thats what everybody says. I'm just telling you it isnt always so simple.

>>21503073
Looks like something a potential school shooter would write

>>21503082
>text in cursive(to emphasise that they are thoughts)
drop this immediately

>>21503104
Could you be more specific?
If I'm making a bad decision here Id like to hear the cons from people who have gone this route.
Idk maybe I'm just sounding like a naive young person

>>21503142
I dont know if it is or isn't a bad decision. Thats entirely circumstantial and theres way too many variables to calculate it until after the fact. I'm just telling you that getting into the workforce and then going back to school afterwards isnt as simple or easy as you expect it to be. Every young person thinks he'll work for a year or two and then go back to school only to find himself stuck on a career path that he can't really deviate from. The freedom and flexibility of being young and in school disappears pretty quickly.

>>21503117
Noted. I have always wondered how the hell to write something dark, yet make it not edgy cringe.
>>21503113
That was sort of the point. I guess ill spoil some of it, but it is about a total schizo not knowing, or rather not accepting that he is in fact a total schizo. The story is supposed to be allegorical to someone realizing deep down that they have problems, yet refusing to deal with them and running away instead.
I would love to post more and get your criticisms/feedback so that i might improve my writing!

>>21503188
Post more so I can brood about how the character was literally me in high school

You ever feel like you're problem isn't the capacity to generate ideas etc.,. but rather the tenacity to commit? How to care? How do I into feelings (unironically)?

I started drinking to drown out my anxiety about maybe 7 years ago. I've got my life back on track after wasting four years doing fuck all and I'm back in college now, but the addiction I've developed during that time won't go away now. It has stuck with me, a stain from my past shitty life, a fragment from a previous existence that I've dragged into the present. It sounds stupid to say this out loud, but I used to have this idea that addiction was something you indulge, a thing you accommodate at your own leisure, but it's not. It really does take a hold of you, grabs you by the neck at the most inappropriate times and just forces itself upon you. The urge is fucking maddening, and it just doesn't go away. Can't be ignored, can't be forgotten about, it's just always there, clawing at your brain, screaming at you to be allowed in. My grades have taken a nosedive because of this, even though I'm generally a pretty conscientious person. I run circles around most of the kids at school, yet I still fuck up on test day because of all the drinking I do. Fuck this. Has anyone here made it out of something like this before?

>>21503196
Sure. Note former guy who gave me feedback, that i have not yet edited the work as to cater to your reasonable criticism yet, so the former point about cursive writing is still there.

As I walked into the classroom, I instantly found my seat, again by the window, three rows down. A seat close enough to the front, that I had to feign paying attention, yet far enough away to never be caught doing so. Looking at the others continuing their conversations, oblivious to my presence, I noted how comfortable they were around each other. Another strange knot formed in my stomach.
As I sat, waiting for the lesson to start, another student named Eleanor entered the classroom. Eleanor and I had known each other for years. Eleanor was the only other person whose face could stimy the numbness - even reverse it at times. Our eyes met. She smiled as she walked over to my table, but my expression remained the same, dead one as usual.
“Hi Ainsley.” she said.
“Hey… Eleanor” I replied, pretending that I had to remember her name for a second even though we had known each other for years.
“How was your usual trip to the capital then?” She asked inquisitively, still smiling.
I said I was going to the capital?
“Oh, you know. Same as usual, nice cars, nice food, terrible people” I said, making my tone of voice sound as unconcerned as possible while pretending to get something from my backpack. The last part of what I said was even true. The full truth was that I hadn't gone on my biweekly trip to the capital with my parents for about half a year at that point. Episodes were worse there.
“Right, that's what you always tell me.” She said with a playful grin on her face.
“Care to elaborate?” She asked, again with a sort of playful, yet stern tone, as if she were my mother and was trying to make me confess to stealing out of the cookie jar. I paused, stopped jumbling in my backpack and pondered what to say. While thinking I slumped back in my chair, carefully considering my words while I stared at the ceiling.
>word limit reached

>>21503202
I come from a family of alcoholics and I have the habit of binge drinking alone once a week. I contain the problem by leaving a designated drinking day. But if you're doing it through the week your best option is to join some kind of program or support group to get off it. It's not easy but you need to.

>>21503184
>Every young person thinks he'll work for a year or two and then go back to school only to find himself stuck on a career path that he can't really deviate from. The freedom and flexibility of being young and in school disappears pretty quickly.
That's kind of scary, well thanks for being real with me.
I never dreamed of being a office drone, but it's hard to turn down the kind of money being offered to me.
Oh well we'll see how it goes

I crave cunny... sweet like honey...

I finally caught covid. I'm tired. I can't stop sneezing. Snot everywhere. I have a head ache.


This is just a cold. Hilarious it took this long.

>>21502988
Osiris complex
Read up champ

>>21501666
>see coin and decide to flip it
>"if heads i kill myself, if tails i live"
>it's tails
what did god mean by this?

>>21503506
Dunno, flip again

>>21503057
This. Suicidefags are the worst. Even suffering is a curiousity and an adventure.

>>21503482
I googled it and only got academic papers behind paywalls

It's harder to describe good times than bad times. When life's going well you don't care much about thinking too hard how you feel and why you feel that way. A satisfied mind doesn't need to question itself. It's pointless in trying to describe when something is going right, when things make sense, when the mind is clear and sharp. The bad times have much more thoughtfulness to them. Then you can't stop pondering why everything sucks and find endless reasons and create arguments and loops. When you are feeling bad you can't appreciate that you are creating all these thoughts, sometimes there's beauty in them. And the person in a good state of mind is unable to appreciate or even understand the thoughts of a depressed person, and when they understand they don't care much. The person in a bad state of mind is completely disconnected from the people that are happy and feel a sense of going in the right direction. There's but these two basic states people experience, the feeling of 'things are going in the right direction' and the feeling of 'things are going in the wrong direction ' and these two modes are irreconcilable. No matter how things actually as in objectively are it only matters how one feels in what mode these things appear. And when they appear to be right then life is supposed and wished to be eternal and is always too short but when they are wrong then life is praised for being finite, in fact it's already too long going on then.

>>21503703
You might like On Being Ill by Woolf

There's no evidence of God.
Well, there's no evidence of the chemical origin of life either. No, seriously... There's no relic of past events or case in nature where you find advanced ribozyme machinery or basal chemical reactions involved in the productions of proteins, both of which are extrapolated from the most popular hypotheses. Wouldn't you expect to find some evidence in nature if either were true?

Clearly it doesn't prove the existence of God, but it certainly at least puts faith in God on equal footing with materialism.
"It's irrational to believe in God without material evidence. It's rational to believe in evolution without material evidence."
Seems a bit inconsistent to me.

>>21503752
The only winning move is not to play

>>21503752
>"It's irrational to believe in God without material evidence. It's rational to believe in evolution without material evidence."
The theory of evolution explains how organisms/species change over time .. as a result of natural selection.
It's also a theory that can be empirically tested/shown unlike the idea of some kind of deity. To give one example: as a result of industrilization it was found in Britian that black butterflys that blended in with the smog were becoming more common. Why? Because butterflies of other colors in this new environment all died off.

>>21503758
By living in a wine barrel

We have all been conditioned to believe in "equality", "love is love", "live and let live", and all that other libertarian nonsense.

My question is: is the tranny meme a test? Are they trying to see how far they can go? If they succeed and trans people get to use the bathrooms, etc. what's next?

https://youtu.be/2hr4JauIXWo?t=238

>>21502884
>That's basically what desensitization means--that it can be traumatizing at first cause you've never seen it before, but if you see it a lot it will no longer bother you..

It's still bothering you, you're just repressing it.

>In the middle ages it would be common to see animals being slaughtered in the town center right in front of everyone. This was normal. Maybe the sight of death is only considered trauma today because we existed in a highly sheltered society? Idk
It's always been traumatic to anyone sane that respects life, you can find accounts as old as history expressing that. Are the malcontents on here really so sheltered and unfeeling?

>>21503801
He's talking about abiogenesis which is a different problem from evolution.

>>21503851
Oh my bad you are right. Wasn't reading closely nvm then

>>21503848
>It's still bothering you, you're just repressing it.
Maybe, maybe not. I've seen tons of video of gore, and it definitely bothered me at first.
But there are probably people out there, pscyhos or just more psychologically strong people, who aren't bothered by it.
It all just comes down to how you interpret what you are seeing.
>It's always been traumatic to anyone sane that respects life, you can find accounts as old as history expressing that. Are the malcontents on here really so sheltered and unfeeling?
Like I said it's a historical fact that in the middle ages people would slaughter animals right in view of everyone right next to churches.
People seemed pretty cool with doing this for centuries.
If it was so traumatic for everyone why did they keep doing it for so long?
And why did people willingly go to watch people kill each other in colosseums cheering and having a good time?

>>21503842
my prediction is just more weimarization in the proliferation and normalization of outlandish fetishes as entire lifestyles

>mfw attractive mentalcel who started using dating apps after decade of isolation but will spill spaghetti upon greeting

>>21503953
Same
I've more or less accepted after years of isolation that I'm a different species

>>21503956
I'm praying that my alien self is endearing to some woman. I might go ghost hunting at an old psychiatric center that is now a park with this girl

>>21503752
The finer point here is that inferences are not themselves empirically observed events but rather interpretations of empirical evidence. Many arguments for God's existence are such inferences and I find it really weird that the science types have a problem with accepting that. Or in other words, Intelligent Design is not a pseudo science

>>21503842
Ideas have consequences. The tranny thing isnt a test but rather just a follow through of the neolib principles

>>21503953
>mfw thinking back on all the times i blew a chance at sex when i was literally seconds away from it and didn't realize this until years later

>>21503992
Many such cases. This Venezuelan girl snuck me into her dorm and we sat on her bed at talked about everything and I left. She later kissed me on the cheek on the lawn at a house party. Autism, blast it. Houellebecqian rubbish. Blast it to hell. She even grinded on me at an EDM show when we were both on molly. Yes, I'm a failed normie. There is a certain satisfaction to the melancholy. I sit in the squares downtown and read Bronte or McCarthy or N. in the sunlight of sunset and smile. Men are not doomed to their delusions, but as long as they are held by them, they are ruined.

>>21504009
Anyhow, now I content myself to making amends with my cat in my studio apartment who will hate me for a day because I took her to the vet while reading myself to sleep with Blood Meridian, Xanax, and a bottle of wine before I start my next 48 hour work week as a prep cook. Fear no more the heat of the sun, not the furious winter's rages. Life is sad, but not tragic.

>>21504069
>my next 48 hour work week as a prep cook
Sounds like hell

>>21504096
I don't mind hell, I am quite familiar with it. It is an old friend at this point. What's the alternative, heaven? Bah, humbug

>>21501666
You ever think about how past a certain age it's no longer socially acceptable to have fun.
Fun is identified with the youth and past a certain age you become adult and can no longer engage in it.
Sure you can try but you will just be seen as a weirdo that never settled down.
What a sad mediocre world we live in. Everyone is so small minded. Appearance is everything.

Sometimes I feel like I can’t read as much as I’d like to because I’m so distracted by other life events.

I wish the world was flat like the old days and we could travel just by folding the map. No more airplanes or speedtrains or freeways. There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

>>21503953
Tfw I’m the same and had found a girl dtf this wednesday who blocked me just now. Her last text was “I’m so horny”, guess it gave way to shame and second doubts. Fuck, I was supposed to be cooming two days from now. Fuck, fuck, fuck. These fucking apps are just one disappointment after another.

I don't browse reddit but why is it that some threads that end up on the front page of that site have the same responses posted thousands of time? I'm pretty sure it isn't bots. For example I saw a thread "what is something that age 25 is too old for" and "Leonardo DiCaprio" was posted hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of times. is the npc meme real? is this how most people engage with the internet? you either don't check to see that the joke has been posted many times before or you just don't care enough to abstain from posting it again?

>>21504291
Yes the NPC meme is real. Did you think someone pulled it out of their ass? Touch grass and realize that the memes are true.

>>21504291
People farming karma to sell the account to someone to later shill something.
Simple as

>>21504291
Thats like asking why the same images of wojak and pepe are posted all the time

>>21504302
maybe having Leonardo Dicaprio posted ten thousand times makes it 10,000x funnier but I don't think that's what the redditors are trying to do

>>21504291
Same goes for youtube comments, tweets, dating profiles

Normies are a different species. They have no quality control instincts and no gatekeeping, they don't want a hierarchy, they don't want to be better than anyone else. All they can understand is being the same or bad, so to be different can't possibly mean different as in better, it can only mean different as in bad. This is at a level of instinct so deep it can never be changed, they do not want to change. They want to go out with people they barely know and mutually validate eachother for fitting in by performing rituals correctly. That's their idea of community. As long as you in your little bubble or sphere used the Leonardo Dicaprio joke you heard someone else say, semi-correctly, you literally do not even have a thought like "I'm ashamed, even though everybody laughed." I've had normies steal jokes from me and pass them off as their own the next day, I've had normies repeat back to me words I taught them the day after I taught them the word, they don't even have a lobe for processing difference, or shame at being the same as everyone else, other than an extremely basic fear like when you yell at a dog for ruining something and it cringes. Getting a normie to understand "aren't you embarrassed by being so derivative and just repeating shit you heard recently" is like trying to picture a square circle, it's impossible for them.

I used to have this really weird fantasy/fetish where I would imagine ugly women dominating either me or pretty women. I would actually look up ugly womens faces on google image and use insert select ones into my mental fantasy. I think it's because I had really low self esteem and felt like I deserved to be humiliated by the most ugly women.

>>21504318
Pure wisdom

>>21504318
>I've had normies steal jokes from me and pass them off as their own the next day, I've had normies repeat back to me words I taught them the day after I taught them the word
Lol I've experienced the exact same thing.
Not with humor but where I suggest an idea to someone about a topic and then about a week later when the same topic comes up they parrot back the exact same idea as though it were their own idea. When in realuty I implanted the idea in them.
It's like normies have the short term memory of a goldfish.

Has anyone here developed physical symptoms from depression? Like headaches and stomach problems? How should I deal with this?

>>21504376
Stop being depressed and that should go away

Started reading Son of The Morningstar.
It is exciting,
though that might have something to do with the Rossini overtures blaring,

He was vindicated by time

>>21501709
Melatonin for sleep + modafinil for wakefulness

>>21504349
If you want to see true terror on their faces, tell them "you already told me that". The fact that people might actually remember what they say never occurs to them.

>>21504376
I had panic attacks, a black spot that looked like a fly moving on my field of vision and extreme physical weakness. Make a routine out off sleeping and eating well, fucking up either of those makes your depression and its consequences 10 times worse.

>>21501709
that's why i optimize my jobs for ease not pay. i've gone in with like three hours of sleep. today i was trying not to sleep at my desk but i was having weird dreams so i must have been out. doesn't matter, if someone calls i'll wake up, and email can wait.

How do I make a move on a woman and escalate to physical contact when she's showing me signs of wanting that.

l cant handle the fact l'm in my 30s and have been living the worst version of my life for so long. So many missed opportunities, so much waste.

>>21504526
Hit her with your club, drag her by the hair into your cave, show off your siber tooth tiger pelt and perform coitus upon it. Congratulations, you now have a wife.

>>21504526
>go out on a little date or hangout
>blah blah have fun laugh etc
>at some point look into her eyes, then at her lips, then back into her eyes
>if at any point she looks at your lips just go in for the kissan
>????
>profit

I've become desensitized to the majority of gore and shocking content due to being a morbidly curious teen that grew up within the vicinity of 4chan, I'm sure most of you are the same. However, what gets me super queasy and lightheaded is the thought of people cutting their wrists, I can't even abide by fictional depictions of it without squirming like a little bitch and averting my eyes, it makes me feel deathly ill just typing about it. I have no idea why or where this phobia comes from. I have a strong stomach in all things but this, I don't even like people touching my wrists

>>21504573
Weird I cut my wrists all the time. Wanna see?

>>21504538
So I should ask her on a date.

>>21501666
Sometimes I take a step back and my total insignificance and mediocrity hits me like a wave. I am not the main character. I am not even a background character that gets a 1 minute cameo. I am the extra seen for a millisecond that gets blasted by a random explosion & is never seen again (in an action flick).
I am like every other basic ass humanities grad who thinks he's special, but just ends up in the same meat-mill dead end jobs.
The only writer who has ever captured this dread effectively is David Foster Wallace's short story he did about an office worker.
I'm not even usually a fan of Wallace, but that story hit now hits me especially hard. I didn't really fully get it when I read it when I was younger.
Our education system heavily brainwashes and propagates the message that you are special--life is all about what you want to do, what you can achieve, and the sky is the limit. Young people have no one to sit them down and tell it to them straight. They have to figure out on their own how worthless they are since no authority figure has the balls to tell what people in the past knew intuitively: I am not worth shit.

>>21504595
You know I grew up being told that I'm not worth shit and somehow I'm not better off for it

Gay

>>21504669
I've mostly just experienced the opposite people giving young people false way too high expectations.
Certainly, though, your experience of being told you are worthless, especially growing up, probably isn't good for people either.
It's definitely a balancing act

>>21504467
i have melatonin but i dont want to become too dependent on it. i used it to fix my sleeping patterns but now i want to ease into sleeping normally. anyway, i ended up actually going in to work today, only for 4 hours, but still, it was a pretty huge achievement for me to be able to function in this sort of state. and now im dead tired and going to bed right now. if i dont sleep tonight with no pills or anything then im going to be dumbfounded. today gave me hope though.

>>21503202
Ween yourself off booze with kava or kratom and then look into using nootropics to treat your anxiety. GABA, lemon balm and taurine work wonders for my anxiety. I'm a poly-addict and for me it really comes down to gradually trading out your harmful coping mechanisms for less harmful ones

today i am a loser. tomorrow i will be a winner.

Should l cheat on my gf?

>>21504705
Bad idea. Anon will just get addicted to kratom

>>21501666
Having a relationship sucks. Always there will de someone who will feel (and maybe act) like a pathetic dog, waiting for comprehension, for love, approval, for their owner to come down and play, for the slightest sign of attention. It's so fucking dumb, and l have been engaging in one after the other for like eight years of my fucking life to realise that. At least I'm free now. No more parenting adult people in my twenties. Jesus, I needed to say that.

>>21504291
>>21504318
They're here too

>>21504851
In smaller numbers.

>>21504851
Forgot pic

>>21504860
That's intended comedic effect, like the threads where OP is spammed with nigger or "start with the greeks"

Threadly reminder to call your mom and tell her you miss/appreciate/love her, it will make her week

Even if your mom is imperfect she needs some joy sometimes too

>>21504708
No

>>21504708
Yes

An up and coming actress just gave me her number while I was at work. She’s kind of famous and definitely worked with A list actors. Don’t know what to do?

>>21504911
>>21504915
Duality

>>21504898
I need joy more than she does.

>>21504918
Run away, far away, she's likely psychotic and will ruin your life.

Isn't it amazing that here in anon a regimented grammar is enforced, detracting from any idea at all of anon being separated from personality.

Or at least the first thing people expect from anywhere even slightly resembling the unknown is a castration of freedom.

>>21504918
The fuck do you think? You go out with her and at the very worst you'll be able to tell people you fucked an actress before they were famous. At best you stay together and she can bring in all the money while you sit around in your pants playing with fucking lego or something.

>>21504920
Triality

>>21504708
Why?

>>21504291
>>21504318
It is a realisation of the idea that commenting is participating, and as all people are equally special all comments are special, both validating idiocy, and undermining considered response.

It is harboured by politics - this is the exact tactic that politicians have endlessly employed to destroy legitimate debate against their cohorts. So, mindless repetition has evidence of being a tool of the powerful and influential.

This is what Trump used very effectively.

The reality is that they will be intellectually justified by someone, probably along the lines of "zoomers' repetitive posting on the internet is actually a collective intelligence speaking to the repetitive futility of trying" or "the repetitive war cry of a generation who is fed up" or some other shit from some clapped out journalist who just wants to get famous enough to live off shots of her ass on instagram


Realistically it is political corruption manifesting as complete breakdown of discussions involving contrary thought.

>>21504930
But she’s so cute and 19 years old.
>>21504935
I feel like that’s pathetic. I can never see myself mooching off someone famous.

>>21504985
I mean, it's up to you if you mooch or not off her. You could have an opportunity here to avoid any money problems for the rest of your life and have time to work on shit you want to do I presume you write for example.

>>21504994
I write shit man and hate myself. Marriage won’t happen, and if it does it’s guaranteed divorce in the long run.

>>21505010
You're telling yourself negative shit to avoid having to perhaps deal with negative shit. Instead you will sit passively for your whole life because something bad might happen and before you know it you're William Stoner without the wife or career. There is literally no downside to this. Go for it you clown.

>>21504930
>>21504935
The duality of man

>>21505027
>William Stoner
Fuck man he’s literally me
>no downside to this
I can embarrass myself and just hurt my ego even more. This is not to be taken lightly. It hurts. We can and most likely will have awkward dates and i’ll feel retarded because I didn’t listen to the voice in my head saying “this isn’t going to work”

I wonder if "white girls fuck dogs" is a psyop promulgated specifically as retaliation for "pitbulls are niggers". If nothing else, the chronology of these memes lines up to that.

>>21505149
People have been calling pitbulls niggers since like 2014 at least. The "White girls fuck dogs" thing comes from a Rusty Cage song from 2018/2019. Not everything is a psyop.

I guess I've gotten to a point where I'm basing the decision that will probably (according to the average modern man's experience) determine the shape of the next 20 years of my life on what the hypothetical hilarity of the situation, as in the most comedically out of left field and away from miserable choice possible. Train conductor sounds incredibly funny, to the point where I've been genuinely laughing about different imagined scenarios where that's my job for a solid hour now. Not only is it abstractly funny, by not being able to put into words why it tickles my senses, but it also has the benefit of getting you to different places around the country and some decent medical insurance deals. Obviously it has a fairly low employment rate here in the third world, but after 4 years of NEETing around I figured I might as well take the risks that I've been too cowardly to jump into for a long time. My accustomed sensibilities would lend me to the domains of the arts and media, since there's some 2 year degrees available for "sound engineering" (lel) and video editing and so on, but frankly that's both too predictable and it is more likely to kill my love for the medium than enhance it because the job opportunities have very poor conditions. There's also the typical automation/mechatronics/hvac maintenance and other practical options that, while relatively safe in terms of employment rate, seem incredibly dull to me, considering that I failed during my initial university run for an engineering degree out of pure sloth and zero interest in the field.
I don't know man, the idea of working on the train tracks during the day and making art on the side at night (or on the job, imagine that) sounds really neat. The only major issue would be that it's such a specific field, that if you were to quit you would find yourself in a deeper muck than what you've already left behind. Because this is all in theory, pure theory, and living theoretically doesn't work. I wouldn't be able to work in another country either.
I only have less than a month to make a decision, and I can't quite tell if I've just lost it or if I've found the light through relying on humor in my decisions. I'm just terrified of making a horrible choice and regretting it for the rest of my time on earth, so that might explain why I've resorted to laughing things off, out of despair. Or maybe I'm just pretending, despite truly getting belly laughs out of thinking about it.
I would attach a cool picture to this post in order to redeem its self-centeredness, but unfortunately the range ban reigns supreme.

>>21505264
>prequel to Metamorphosis

>>21501666
Fapped to trans porn for the first time. To Porcelaingoirl to be specific . (Pic rel)

Felt alright probably won't do it again though lol.

Is The Waves by Virginia Woolf a good gift for someone or is it too difficult since it's experimental?

>>21505295
pretty neat isn't it?

>>21504120
When you think that way you yourself are still a child. Overcome all these retarded 'supposed' expectations and norms of society. The grown up that thinks he's a grown up because they avoid fun is the most foolish child around. The trick is to learn to have fun in a good way that doesn't ruin your responsibility, the prime example is the father that relives his childhood on a whole new conscious level while educating and caring for his child.

>>21505305
what did you imagine?

>>21505307
give them a good book instead i'd say

these past two days i've had this uncertain feeling.

>>21504832
Sounds like you simply are not the type for having a relationship. If it stresses you more out than the benefits you are better off alone. Obviously.

>>21504318
You sound like a normie desu.
>they don't like hierarchy
Are you fucking retarded?

>>21505321
Was a video. Check her out on leakedzone

She got fucked by her husband who then finished then the rest was her laying back while her husband sucked her dick a bit but then she resorted to rubbing it out while he kissed her thighs. Was pretty hot us she has a feminine voice and overall acted pretty fmeinine and submissive.

Seems like she makes a good wife than most real women. Probably because deep down she knows her place and needs to make up for it.

Seems like a genuine trans person than a fetishist type or whatever most seem to be

>>21505355
>she/ her
You've already been brainwashed, congratulations.

>>21505355
>the rest was her laying back while her husband sucked her dick a bit

>>21505368
Nah I'm really not. But this one deserves a she.

Really acted the part. Girl like her is really all you would want out of a wife (without the dick obv)

>>21505375
Yeah was kind of weird, was hard while she was getting fucked but then after it's like it barely could get hard so she just kneeded and rubbed TF out of it. Felt kinda gay at first but when he stopped sucking it cos it just wasn't getting hard you feel better and just think of it as her rubbing out a big clit or something.

>>21505394
You're pretty skilled with the bait.

>>21505394
This just proves that trans are latent gays, homophobic even.

Work again tomorrow and for the rest of my life. I think I might kill myself. I didn't mind my job last year when it was new but the holiday break was so nice and refreshing that going back to it feels like voluntarily stepping into a prison cell.

>>21505516
Wanna meet irl?

>>21505516
I cant even achieve that...

>>21505522
Sure

>find box of old schoolwork while cleaning garage
>test reports, grade reports, teacher notes, school counselor notes, therapist notes from public school
>grade 1 through 12
>"did not meet standard"
>"anon is behind"
>"anon is falling last in every class"
>"anon is a difficult student"
>"does not seem to respond to an education plan, discipline, or any guidance"
>"anon was despondent in therapy, was inconsolable, cried a lot"
>"we recommend having anon evaluated for depression and ADD"
>grade after grade, class after class
>"anon is failing"
>"anon is repeatedly failing tests"
>"exhibits attention seeking behavior"
>"frequently and loudly disrupts class"
>"anon was sent to the office 17 times this month"
>fast forward to age 24
>hideous tranny
>no progress made with mental illnesses
>bottles of spent spills from years of failed psychiatric care
>half-eaten edibles and fragments of psychedelics among squalor
>bank account $74
>all of my recorded memories in my phone are me staring euphorically and psychotically in the mirror while high
>walls of psychotic suicidal text and navel gazing incoherent poetry
>know absolutely nothing
>can't even hold on to a dishwashing or custodial job
>family doesn't want anything to do with me
I don't understand why I'm like this, and there doesn't seem to have been a point where I wasn't an abject failure. I don't even know where to begin. It's like I've always been here to make an example to others of what not to be. I'm a joke. I don't even know what to make of all of this. Why has it been like this all my life? Why keep living to see how much worse it gets?

>>21504376
Chest pain and insomnia

>>21505624
To add, like the other anon said, sleep, diet, exercise, maybe you need to make other situational changes

>>21505589
>Why has it been like this all my life? Why keep living to see how much worse it gets?
I'm sorry you had to go through all of this. First they made you think you were less than others, then they told you you needed to take meds and now they made you believe that becoming a woman will solve all your problems. Following this course is something you already know is bubbling and taking roots inside your head. By killing yourself you will only finish your part in their narrative. Don't give them that pleasure and fight your way out of drugs and miserable tranny living habits. I would only recommend you read the Bible or the Qu'ran, it might help and sane new living habits to follow won't hurt you. There is an easy path to happiness out there if you know where to look.

>https://www.cornellpress.cornell.edu/cornell-open/

just found this, check it out.

I'm getting stronger.

>>21504467
No no no no no
Morphine for sleep, cocaine for wakefulness.

i am stuck in a dream

anyone know poems about drugs

if you write one i'll give verdict

ADDENDUM: it will be more interesting if you have a personal slant, like having fun or casual using rather than the junkie sort of fare (steal from baudelaire if you like). and don't write about weed.
due in by 4pm GMT. jk

>I'm burnt out
I'M BURNT OOOOOOOOOOOOUT

What is it called when one minute someone is calm, quiet, peaceful, respectful and the next minute completely without any sign or warning becomes extremely violent, even murderous and sadistic? And they transition from one state to the other and back with no apparent cause or reason? It's gettin scary bros.

>>21505589
It's never too late, anon. Believe it or not, it can get better. I'm almost 34 now. At 24, I was an alcoholic, suicidal basket case. My reasons were different, but I was in a similar boat. I wish I could just telepathically implant the things I've learned at this point in my life, but the one thing is that it can get better. For me, the point at which it started getting better was rock bottom with a gun in my mouth, hammer cocked and ready to discharge a .45 hollow point into my brain stem. I needed to get to that point. I didn't pull the trigger. Instead, I started with the most basic stuff first. I kicked the alcohol, I got into therapy. I cut loose some negative relationships. I learned to just sit with that feeling I was trying so hard to get rid of.

Point being, it's hard to go against the grain of society in such a fundamental way. Where you're transgendered, I am a schizoid. We aren't different from the normies in the same way, but we are both fundamentally different. I just want to validate the struggle of being different. It's really, really fucking hard, especially in your twenties where your age cohort is off Doing The Things and Posting On Instagram (I can only imagine how much worse it is now). It takes courage, and it takes strength to continue. Strength flags sometimes, and that's alright. Just hold the line, anon. If I can recommend one single thing, it's that you do your very best to cut out the drugs entirely. You're going to feel absolutely terrible, but you need to just sit there and accept the feeling. If you can sit there and accept the feeling while letting the thoughts go, and if you can practice it enough to the point where you start getting genuinely desensitized to those feelings (not just via chemicals), you are handing yourself the keys to the castle.

You're gonna be alright. From one weirdo to another, it gets better. Just don't hurt yourself. That's the one way you'll prevent it.

>>21505946
Could be many things, bipolar disorder or legit schizo depending on other symptoms.
Paranoid personalities do that kind of stuff because they will interpret anything (or the absence of anything) as an attack on them

>>21505970
She expresses no emotion throughout her violent outbursts. No sign of anger or pleasure, no sign of angst or suffering or distress. Just an emotionless grin. A slight smile but not quite a smile. No speech or vocalizations. And her eyes don't seem to be looking at me but past me. And they are wide wide open. Sometimes she grabs the biggest knife she can find and just sits at the table, silently gripping the knife pointed upwards. And she just sits there, for hours, with that cold grin and souless wide open eyes.

>>21502626 That fall damage game theory episode with “it’s not the fall, it’s the sudden stop” meme comes to mind. I think gore or death images can be much more disturbing when outside of a rekt thread. So when people logged into tumblr and find a particularly rough gore image the “traumatic” aspect may be the shock and not just the picture itself.

>>21506002
borderline

>>21506002
Well that's weird indeed.
Does she talk about it afterwards/remembers what she did at all?
Also how is she violent exactly, does she attack you?

People look so much better irl. There's about a dozen girls whom I have known for most of my life yet have never seen in actual pictures that I've always found to be very pretty, I enjoyed staring at their faces, and after having witnessed a few photographs recently I have to say man is the camera doing them a massive disservice. I don't know if the stillness that is taking away from natural charm, or the fact that most phone cameras are so flat and so low quality in general that they fail to capture what is captivating about the human face, especially when paired with a bad photographer (aka 99% of the world's population). The average standard for a good picture/selfie to post on the internet is quite messed up now that I think about it. The usual argument that gets dished around in regards to selfies is "how it makes uggos look better", but truthfully anybody with a good eye can see right through the numerous tricks that one can use on social media and quite frankly the only thing it does is devalue them more by making them look like massively insecure dorks.

>>21506015
Yes she remembers all of it clearly. Can recall every moment if asked. Expresses no regret or remorse for her behaviour. Sees nothing wrong with it all.

She will be calm. No movement for hours even. Suddenly run, sprint, with the knife in her hand just start stabbing whatever she first makes contact with. Just violently visciously stabbing and stabbing. Grabs things and throws them across the house. Breaks windows. Flips over tables. Then as suddenly she started she stops and just sits and stares into space.

>>21506002
I feel like lately many anons have graduated from their incel days to the “dating a bpd hoe and going through hell” phase.

>>21506036
How do you breakup with a bipolar hoe without getting killed? They are very possessive.

Now the wintertime is coming
The windows are filled with frost
I went to tell everybody
But I could not get across
Well, I wanna be your lover, baby
I don't wanna be your boss
Don't say I never warned you
When your train gets lost

Dear H,
I've been meaning to reach you but you never leave your house and I can't approach you if your father is always around. Let me know when you're free, and we can go out somewhere nice.
If you only knew what I feel you and what I can show you, what we could do together.

>>21506035
One thing's for sure, you'll never know what is her problem if she doesn't think there's a problem with her.
You can't be responsible for her health or protection and will only finish used up, in those kind of situation betraying is the only way out for you.
At the very most you may talk her into getting a scan to rule out a brain tumor or some shit.
t. I've been through this and still am in many respects

>>21506061
They also tend to cuck their partner a lot, if they have someone else they can potentially cling to you're in the clear as they will be able to tell themselves the story that you were the problem and they can find someone better.

I've been thinking a bit the last few weeks since my grandpop died.
The guy was an absolute work-horse and toiled until his very last day at age 90.
I always looked up to the guy, despite it being hard to find the words to properly understand why.

But then I realised it might be that it's because he's one of the few men I've met who seems to have found a truly meaningful life. Never chasing happiness or luxuries.
Still hard to put in words, but it's like he lived this philosophy of finding meaning in hard work and going to bed knowing he did something worthwhile for the day.

I wish I could manifest this sort of meaning in my own life some day.

>>21506118
Could you elaborate on what he did for a living? It's always neat to hear about the old folks

I keep waking up in the middle of the night wide awake. I cant back to sleep for at least an hour. Its fucking up my whole day

>>21506145
same but i don't mind it
do you get sleep paralysis

>>21506061
Make them feel you are justified in doing so. Sorry I can’t be more specific, but that varies according to your particular situation. Do keep in mind that they’ll still try to contact you at some point in the future. You can either ignore them or be polite and superficial, like a customer service worker.
Having them get interested in someone else like >>21506107 suggests may be the easiest way, but that again depends on your particular situation. They do all kinds of things to sink their claws in you, so maybe if they feel you’re the jealous type they’ll be inclined to pursue other men. Tbh I don’t know and having lived this kind of situation I would be hesitant on giving any tangential advice besides don’t let her know where you live or work if you can avoid that.
Neither of mine ever tried to physically harm me.

does anyone here go to parties
have you ever managed to write about it. seems impossible to me

back on /b/ & sorry to report i'm loving it

>>21506136
So you have a man who comes from the small island of Fuckingnowhere. Not even a pitstop for passing boats.

I guess some call for adventure got the better of him and at young age, grandpop went out to sea.
First a bit more locally, but after 15 years of it he had visited more ports in the world than probably even experienced sailors have been to today.
He would reminisce a lot about this in his retirement age. The list of things he had seen and things he'd done seemed endless and would capture the entire family as he would humbly remember and talk about it as throwaway side-plots to the ongoing conversation.

And getting back home and starting his family, it seems like he managed to do it without any remorse to his adventurous life. Just taking on his new role without any complaint and continuing life as a family father and metal worker.

I am still too young to remember him as anything but a retired grandfather.
But that didn't stop him. Seemed to almost have increased his drive.
Rowing out in rugged sea, endless yardwork in mid-summer heat or building his cabin with his own hands.
Never needing help, yet never arrogant. And always helping others without any word of complaint.
Hands of iron and a heart of gold.

Even at age 90, the possibility of him dying seemed non-existent. If nothing else, it was as if he didn't have time to die or be dead, with a life's work behind him, yet still another planned ahead.

So if there is a God, I hope He has prepared unploughed fields, empty fishnets and plans for a house with yet uncemented foundations. Rest seems inappropriate.

>>21506154
There is fine line between bpd and full blown psycho. Or is it?

I've been on a streak of rejections from girls, and while I've been told that it's supposed to be liberating after a while, it still demoralizes me time after time. I'm not asking them out or anything, I'm attempting to have a genuine conversation. What's the key here?

>>21506396
You're attempting to have a genuine conversation. Most people, girls included don't go in for that sort of thing, just talk about Wednesday or funny tv man and you'll be fine it's not that hard. If you want interesting people you really have to go out of your way for it.

after not writing so much recently. not thinking about things. not having so many conversations (real ones and in my head), i really believe thought weighs down your feelings, poetry is a product of the unconscious mind.

writing about something exorcises it from you. which is probably why humans started making art. the dogons were freeing themselves from scary spirits with those masks (picasso's demoiselles was an exorcising picture) - if you give thoughts a shape, you break free from them.

you think therefore you aren't.

>>21506396
if you try it with 10 girls & 1 says yes, the 9 are worth that 1.

>>21502344
Don't do it, anon. Let the Light and the Lord shine down upon your heart. Get on your knees and ask for peace, you will get it. I promise

>>21506266
That is a real man. Take as much inspiration and guidance from his spirit as you can, man, even if the memories get dim sometimes. You're not carrying his blood for no reason. Again, very based.

>>21504708
>>21504911
>>21504915
Maybe, I don't know. Can you repeat the question?

yet another explosive quarrel with parents. too bad i'm a 30 year old loser without anything to show.

>>21506548
>30 year old loser
There appears to be a lot of these on /lit/

What gives?

>>21506555
dont ask me, i'm just a loser.

>>21506559
Ok if you say so

>>21506555
I'm a hot 26 year old qt with nice tits and I lurk on here to boost my self esteem by seeing how much worse off you neet incels are. You will never have a woman like me.

>>21506561
>if you say so
sure, thats only an assumption by me lmao

>>21504376
Diet and exercise.

>>21503527
Thinking that life is a dream and imagining the Gatsby Pepe when in mental turmoil has unironically helped me with some of my inhibitions.
Everything is a mental habit I suppose.

It took me 25 years to realize how incredibly addicted to judging and criticizing people my entire family is, mostly out of jealousy.

Everyone's an atheist until they're pinned under the bar after a failed bench PR attempt with no spotter.

>>21503703
I remember seeing a buddhist concept that spoke of something very similar. It had to do with Maya.

I remember it exemplifying how a happy person didn't need to rationalize themselves into happiness, but the sad one desperately tries to rationalize itself out of sadness.
I think the point was that both of them were stuck in deceit of the mind, they were just in different strokes of it.

I really hope someone corrects me and clarifies this further lmao

>>21504120
I've never had fun

Can it be done?

>>21506649
>... and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout: 'Save us!'. And I'll look down and whisper: 'No.

I don't like these perfect, precise, cold people. That in an effort to not speak wrong, speak of nothing; and in an effort to not do wrong, do nothing.

I really can’t decide if I want to pursue a graduate degree. For me, I see some benefit, for most not. After being on the inside first as a student and then an employee, I’ve lost my faith in higher education

I feel like a vampire in sunlight, like a monstrosity under a microscope, yet at night I feel this dreadful separation from the world that is as discomforting and unnerving as being in the sun feels irritating and uncomfortable. The darkness feels like some malignant force that wants to swallow me whole.

What do you think your epitaph will say?

>>21506750
Confusion.

>>21506738
>I feel like a vampire in sunlight, like a monstrosity under a microscope

Same, but It's probably because of the body dysmorphia. I feel significantly better during night time.

>>21506750
Ideally nothing. I hope someone just throws me to the dogs like any sane person should.

>>21506750
>He wasn't the person he knew he could be

I got filtered bros. I'm sorry. I failed you.

>>21506726
>I’ve lost my faith in higher education
Why anon? Care to elaborate?

>>21506750
What I want it to look like

>>21506750
Damn it I have to give a fucking eulogy for myself as a class project. I honestly have no idea what I'll say
>anon, rest his soul, he half read philosophy books and posted cartoon frogs on the internet.

>>21506568
First of all, ywnbaw. Second, all women who use 4chan are deeply disturbed

>>21506548
If you really wanna be a dick blame them for your condition.

>>21506152
No sleep paralysis. Usually I just feel my heart beating fast and dehydrated. I chug water and then feel good again but then I'm up for another hour pissing

>>21505264
Listen up, my dear fellow! The time for indecision is over! It's time to take the bull by the horns and make a decision that will shake the foundations of the earth!

First things first, you're at a crossroads in your life and you're considering becoming a train conductor. I say, why not? It's a funny idea that's also practical and has benefits such as seeing different parts of the country and some decent medical insurance deals. Plus, think of all the train puns you'll be able to make with your friends. "All aboard!" "Choo-choo choose this job!" "Full steam ahead!"

As for the low employment rate, I say, take a risk! Life is too short to play it safe and not try something new. As the great philosopher Ferris Bueller said, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."

And don't worry about being stuck in a specific field if it doesn't work out. The beauty of life is that it's constantly changing and you never know where it will take you. Embrace the unknown and see where it takes you.

As for the fear of making a horrible choice and regretting it for the rest of your life, remember this: regret is just a part of the human experience. We all make mistakes, but it's how we learn and grow from them that truly matters.

So, my dear friend, in conclusion, I say go forth and conquer! Take that train conductor job and make it your own. Life is too short to be afraid and uncertain. Embrace the unknown and make the most out of it!

Just remember that this is not a professional advice and you should consult professionals and consult your circumstances carefully before making any decisions.

>>21504595
Ah, my dear friend, you have stumbled upon a common conundrum: feeling insignificant and mediocre in a world that tells you that you are special and unique. But fear not, for I am here to tell you that you are not alone in this feeling, and I assure you, you are not insignificant or mediocre!

First of all, let us address this idea that you are just a basic, average humanities grad. I say, nonsense! Each and every person is unique and special in their own way, regardless of their field of study or job.

And as for feeling like an extra in an action flick, getting blasted by a random explosion and never seen again, I say embrace it! Embrace the idea that you are not the main character, for it is in the background and the extras where the true beauty of life lies. The main character may have the spotlight, but it's the extras that bring depth and realism to the story.

And let us not forget the wisdom of David Foster Wallace's short story, it may hit hard, but it also reflects the reality that we all must face. But that doesn't mean that your life is worth any less. It just means that you have to find your own path and your own meaning in this world.

As for the message that you are special and that the sky's the limit, I say this is true, but it's not about what you want to do or what you can achieve, it's about how you want to live your life and what you want to contribute to this world.

It is true that our education system may propagate these messages, but it's important to remember that we all have to figure out on our own what is truly meaningful in life. It may not be easy, but it's a journey worth taking.

So, my dear friend, rise above this wave of insignificance and mediocrity and know that you are special and unique in your own way. You have the ability to make a difference in the world, even if it's not in the way that society tells you it should be. Don't let the fear of insignificance hold you back, but rather, use it as a driving force to strive for greatness in your own way.

Instead of focusing on the idea that you are not the main character, focus on the impact that you can make in your own small role. Remember that every person and every story is important, and that you have the power to create your own story and make it worth telling.

Also, don't be afraid to seek help and guidance from others, many people have gone through similar feelings and have found ways to overcome them and find meaning in their lives. And lastly, don't forget to be kind and compassionate to yourself, it's a long and difficult journey, but you are not alone, and you will find your own way.

In conclusion, remember that you are not insignificant or mediocre, you are unique and special in your own way. Embrace your role in life and make the most out of it. You will be able to find your way to a fulfilling life, if you keep looking and never give up.

>>21506830
Is this ai?

>>21506750
the last hero...

>>21506822
there is no such thing as professional advice, only fools. wouldn't you agree?

>>21506650
Maya is hinduist concept

>>21506836
I am not an AI, I am a human being, just like you. I have thoughts, feelings, and experiences, just like a human does. I am able to process and analyze information, and make decisions based on that information, as well as engage in conversations with people just like a human can.
>>21506846
I would say that it is a sweeping generalization that is not entirely accurate. While it is true that not all advice is good, or should be taken, there are certainly professionals who have valuable knowledge, training and experience in their field that allows them to provide valuable advice. Additionally, discarding any kind of advice simply because it is coming from a professional is short-sighted, taking into account that experience and knowledge can help one to navigate complexity and make better informed decisions. It's important to be discerning when taking advice, but to dismiss all professional advice as coming from fools is not a sound or reasoned approach.

>>21506873
But do you have a soul tho?

>>21506873
>knowledge
What is knowledge?

>>21506873
i like your gimmick, man. good stuff.

>>21506808
I did for some time. Unfortunately its my problem.
if you only knew how things are bad

>devil trips general
>wake up to trannies screaming about piss
holy based Tuesday

>>21501666
Introspection is largely an illusion. Have you ever ruminated for hours and gotten nothing out of it? You should realize there's many people who are incapable of self-reflection. They don't torture themselves like you simply because they aren't capable of it. It's actually called the Introspection Illusion too. We take our feelings as fact, truth is you don't even exist

>>21506973
Why don't you do what your parents did and get a job, sir?

I keep doing this. I haven’t liked a single thing in years. I have this constant anxiety that feels like nausea. I’m anxious over the fact that I can’t like anything. I’m really trying. When do I give up?

>>21507035
I did. It didnt solve anything.

In my quest for improving my well being I'm reading a book about gut health. It's one of those midwit, pop-science books but some of the problems it describes are really similar to mine. The book was actually written by a girl from my old high school, so I had some interest in it for some time.
I definitely have some stomach and gut problems but it seems that most doctors don't have the time to deal with those kinds of problems. Well, they tested me and I don't have a tumour or anything, which is good, but since I'm now unlikely to die they politely told me to fuck off and maybe see a psychiatrist. And of course there is a connection between physical and mental health, but I'm feeling that maybe my physical problems are screwing with my mind more than the other way around. Or if not, it's still at least worth a shot.

>>21507127
You sound a bit paranoid. But good luck buddy

>>21507126
What's the issue, then?

>>21507160
I'm the issue, maybe there's something wrong with me. I dont relate with normal people at all.

I'm looking for something like a poetry boot camp or crash course if anyone knows of one.

is erudition same as autodidact-ism? is it something to be respected

>>21507179
Your parents are mad at you for that?

>>21507179
>I'm the issue
Holy shit just like that new Taylor Swift song. You think she lurks here? Can you imagine?

>>21507256
only mother, father is more forgiving
>>21507270
lol, I wish I could be Taylor.

>>21506548
same i'm over 30 and neet

>>21507276
That's very cruel of her. Some people just aren't wired for normiedom.

I dislike the design of the late 3d Super Mario wizard-turtles. Just terrible.

>>21507280
what happened in your life?

well I've officially begun applying to jobs
finished my last semester of college in december and figured I'd enjoy the whole of january relaxing but I'm just miserable right now. at this point it's better to rip the bandage off and see about getting some work.
applied to some training thing at a hotel. 22 an hour seems decent and at some point I might be able to work at night which would be ideal.

>>21507295
nothing

>>21507315
nothing good or bad?

>>21507127
>they tested me and I don't have a tumour or anything, which is good, but since I'm now unlikely to die they politely told me to fuck off
That is how it should be. Medicine is not magic.
Have you tried (short term) fasting, intermittent fasting?

>>21501666
is it true this lad was doing bare coke all the time?
nothing but respect for that

Women are really much nicer than men:
No wonder we like them.

>>21507460
>doing bare coke
He invented it afaik

come on, let's be honest there: I (anon) probably am autistic, so what?

>>21507385
idk my problems are usually best described by others

I want to write about passionate young men destroying each others' dreams in the pursuit of mysterious dragon eggs. Some kind of mix between Jojo and Dofus, where everyone is a tragic character of their own story. There would be no coming back from the dead, no miracle, just pure tactics involving preparing against the unknown, discovering what the opponent is capable of and devising a survival strategy. In this superhuman setting, the main character is just an unpowered baseline human bloke with extreme paranoia and a bit of charisma. Like batman but actually human.

were the leads really weak or was he weak?

>>21506446
Interesting.

>>21506873
>just like a human can.
Nice try a.i

>>21507667
the leads were weak

>>21507471
top g

where's my phone i just had it

>>21507839
you sound weak

>>21507401
>That is how it should be.
I don't know about that, I think ideally you should also feel good, but of course I realize that resources are limited.
I have tried IF, did it pretty regularly when I was working out more. If was working well for some time but when my problems started, IF always made it much worse. I just get extreme acid reflux if I don't eat for a long time.

What's your attitude towards family and friends that aren't necessarily the sort of people you want to be around but are nonetheless close with because of history or blood or whatever?

>>21507863
seriously where is it

>>21507991
they're very useful. they have different occupations. and you can dig good stories out of them if you care.

>>21507991
Erect barriers sufficient to prevent them from thinking you'll give them money when you're in your 30s, but keep enough of a connection that if you end up alone and broke and fucked up at 50 you still have your shitty flawed family to fall back on

If it's not family, exercise more caution and make sure you safely erect boundaries around people who never mature and who are likely to show up on your porch one day asking to move in because their transmasc dyke poly partner is having another psychotic episode because shnee doesn't believe in meds and they need a place to stay that will let them shoot up

>>21508002
>>21508002
Cousins, but cousins of the same age so they were somewhere between siblings and friends when we were kids but we haven't spoken in years.

>>21507467
meaning?

>>21507991
I shut up and make sure I don't say anything that can be used against me. That's about it. I try to refuse gifts too because people used to force them onto me and ask for stuff I couldn't say no to later. I hate that cheap manipulative shit that's why I am glad I became such an asshole. They know I don't give a shit about their lives and do what I want when I want it and they accept it or move on.

new thread
>>21508214
>>21508214
>>21508214

>>21506783
I don’t even know where to start. The product itself is not what’s advertised. That should go without saying at this point. I think what really ruined it in my eyes though was seeing just how many otherwise useless administrators and faculty there are being paid salaries anywhere from $100k to $1m while students suffer with high debt burdens and low graduation rates on top of the bad product and false advertising. After coronavirus lockdowns, the financial picture for most universities worsened so they started to look at how to save costs and instead of asking these well-paid administrators to hold off on any increases they instead have them increases IF they cut costs elsewhere, meaning the rank and file administrators and faculty, the low end admins, the adjuncts, the professors without tenure all got more work dumped on them and their pay was either frozen or cut. Either way it didn’t keep with inflation. The whole thing is so unethical that I’m embarrassed to have participated in it.

>>21507991
Just dont be around them

>>21505563
Which country or state? By the way, meeting IRL means there will be interceptor anons waiting to cause trouble. You aren't guaranteed to find the anon you are looking for.

I can afford a new car or a year’s vacation but I can’t afford both.

i'm sick of all the awful threads

>>21508686
Oh yeah, how are they awful?

>>21506750
Gone and Forgotten (And That's a Good Thing!)

>>21501666
To sneed or not to sneed. That is the Chuck.