/lit/ - Literature

>>21057753
I think beauty and ethics are objective but calculating what's objectively more beautiful or ethical is too difficult because of all the variables, so beauty and ethics is practically subjective.

>>21057753
I'm so ashamed about being attracted to fat chicks :/

Without porn/fapping they seem to be the only types to get me aroused otherwise my dick seems dead

>>21057753
I like the idra of opening my belly up and taking it all out. Piss inside the empty shell. Make it dirty. I want to be filthy. That turns me on
Always filthy. No matger what all things groe dirtier and dirtier. Entropy, dissolution, derivation without end-point.
Bugs laying eggs inside it, and they eat away the shell, to grow out of eating. . Revolting, but so is life . we sre all insects. Stom p stomp You're a little ant. Haha. Big ants with even larger egos get to run the whole nest. Crush and be crushed in turn
Imagine if we could have plastic skin, pure 100% laminated, no defects, and you could take the interior out like scooping out ice cream, and fill it up with nothing. Cause theres nothing inside nothing. Imagine swapping skins out like an avatar and there would be no genitals, no shameful parts, completely asexual and innocent. You want to be spotless just take your skin off and there's another underneath. Like all we are are undergarments , Soiled ones, Fresh ones, same difference. The nice off the shelf Froot of the Loom kind or grandpas titey witeys. It doesnt matfer .... Soiled soiled soiled .
Then again Imagine not the undies but the face. taking the face of "me" and fucking it through the eye hole. Since it's just skin you could do that. im not doing it but i would be doing it.

>>21057753
I would love to fuck a trashy fat whore. Not fat like a whale, but fat like pic rel.

I want to get out of this useless relationship but I've practically built my life around this woman. We've been together forever but she got off her SSRI and her personality flipped 180 and is just a miserable basic bitch who's personality and interests boils down to a woman who only wants to complain about her job. I can do better but how soul wrenching will this break up be? I used to love her.

>>21057753
I've been generating book covers for my short stories using AI and I can't stop. I literally have 18 different covers for a single story that's less than 20 pages long.

>>21057799
Have you tried talking about it with her?
Also sometimes, you gotta be honest to yourself instead of clinging to idealized version of yourself and others

>>21057799
she stopped taking her meds and then cucked you?

>>21057753
This is what I’ve read this year.

>>21057753
I know this may sound very /r9gay/ cringe but I can't shake the feeling that missing out on certain human experiences, especially sexual ones has scarred me forever. I spent away my entire 20s sexless. And now that I've aged and my wants waned, I have to grapple with the realisation that those experiences are gone forever. And its eating me away. I read about or watch young teenagers and early 20-somethings in relationships and my mind switches back to what I was doing in that time. I can't believe how much time has passed by since I was that age.

Can I be considering a man or even a human? I've certainly not lead a life befitting of one. 100s of years ago my life would've been considered one of such a big ascetic sacrifice that I would've been annointed a monk in some cultures, and downright worshipped in others.

Anyway, books , prefferably fiction, that deal with this feel

>>21057899
Can some anon help a brother put and make this a thread. Uploading files from my IP range is banned

>>21057768
Based. Me too brother. I have been a chubby chaser all my life

I just want everybody out there to find what they're looking for
We all belong somewhere
We can all make it

>>21057902
no

I am a Chobanipunk. Chobani has shown us the way out from the Cyberpunk dystopia, they have offered up a new bold vision of the future. I only wish Mark Fisher were alive to see it.

>>21057989
based

>>21057768
SHUT THE FUCK UP

>>21057768
had a few chubby girls in my life but I prefer petite girls. big tits are nice though.

>>21057899
>>21057902
No, and fuck off.

>>21057753
I found out my 30 year old younger brother got back into reading after since he's been out of high school. He finished three books in the Dune series already. Dude reads a lot faster than I do.

My younger brother (17) just got recommended The Stranger by his girlfriend. He has finished maybe two books in his entire life, including those that he needed to read for school. I seriously want him to finish the book, but I won't mention this to him.

Ever since he got cheated on by his first gf, he went down a road of mysogyny and became an absolute meathead.

He has also shown interest in learning some Debussy pieces and getting back to learning the piano, which we both did, but he gave up on it. I seriously hope this book will help him.

It's very hard for such a young person to understand that most relationships at his age are meaningless (in the sense that nothing long-term will most likely come of them), and maybe Camus will help him realize that he doesn't need to treat everyone with disrespect and distrust.

>>21057753
I live through one simulacra of life to the next. It's like hearing a song, but the lyrics melt into each other and there's record scratches. You're aware that music is playing, but your perception fails to penetrate beyond that.
This mindless kind of living has left me not memories, but impressions of memories. Songs with muddled lyrics. Photos, but the centers are blurred, and all you can make out are the vague outlines of what once was.

>>21057753
I think I'm addicted to fapping to pics of girls I know. With social media so prevent its getting so good to get hi res pics off girls social media pages. Been doing it since MySpace days but really wished we had the same quality pics back then.

Even manage to find video of them. Like clips they had to make for their work, or stuff they made for social media and things like that while I keep it in a loop so I can hear their voices again or view them in motion while I jack it. Feels good man.

Do it to friends, coworkers, girls I went school with and heck I do it with clients or associates I meet now. If they're email has their name or I somehow learn their full name and they're cute. I'm searching them on social media that night. It's pretty insane how easy it is to find good fap material of girls you know. It's borderline addictive. You feel like a detective or something finding these pics/vids. Then mix it up with a porn clip on one half of a screen then fill in the rest of the screens with face/body pics. I even have a screen I can put in portrait mode so I can have a full blown face of a friend or coworker staring into my face as I coom lmao

Helps too being a footfag, so if I'm lucky enough to find bikini pics during summer periods, you can find feet pics so it's like getting a taste of them full nude. It's crazy, even fapping to just porn is boring. I decide which friend or person I want to fap to and just have to have multiple pics of their face staring at me fapping to a porn clip. Try it some time hahaha

>>21058060
I couldn't get my bro to read that stuff. Between him and i, im the bigger misogynist. He's tied down a bit. I only seem to attract whores

>>21058103

No shit he's gonna be a mysogynist when he's just chasing whores. I think he needs to learn to be alone for a while. The girlfriend that suggested The Stranger to him has a boyfriend. She's cheating on her boyfriend with my brother. How can he even allow himself to be in such a relationship?

He will learn to respect people once he stops chasing whores. He just needs to become more selective about his partners. I'm extremely picky when it comes to girls and wouldn't have an issue rejecting a 10/10 if she was a dumb, worthless bitch like most girls are unfortunately.

Misogyny is a good way to go about women, but he has more of an incel mindset, despite him having a girlfriend. Incels are retarded and don't realise that they will meet good women once they stop viewing relationships and sex as a final goal, or a means to achieving personal satisfaction.

I swear to God some people should be forbidden from entering relationships before they patch up their mental lackings and complexes.

It's good that you realise that you attract whores. It's so hard to meet someone these days that doesn't carry her single-girl mindset into a relationship and realises that relationships take effort and going to be perfect all the time by some miracle of ultimate love.

It feels so wrong to take a break for a couple of days until college starts so I can figure out how much time I have for reading. I NEED to read something RIGHT NOW. I don't remember the last time a day went without me reading a book.

I have no motivation in my life. I dont even know what would be me dream job. No thoughts. Am I just too dumb to live?

I don't know why, but a local news portal made an article on a highly controversial british sitcom from 1999 that got banned after one episode, because the premise was a parody on Hitler with Jewish neighbors in style of 1950 american sitcoms.
I mean, one of Britain's most successful comedy shows was 'Allo 'Allo, which parodies WW2, but with people much lower in chain of command and in a way that it doesn't change the fact it was terrible time to be around, so I wonder just how drunk were they when they thought this would squeeze through?

thred ded

I'm convinced that the best way to read philosophy is by first having read
>Plato
>Aristotle
>Aquinas
These are clearly the big 3. Then if you want to read philosophy written after the 18th century, you have to read Kant. But it's crucial to spend the appropriate time with the above 3 first.

I was going to quit my job this winter, but now I'm thinking I should stick it out for another year to take advantage of the tuition assistance and take a few post-grad courses.

>Female content creator
>About me
>allmylinks
>onlyfans
>titties

>>21057768
>tfw you may be seen in public with them
The lord giveth and taketh

>>21058167
No. Not everyone had a professional vocation to begin with and never in history has that not been the case. This particular moment in history is worse than others in that not only has all of the passion been sucked out of vocations, many of them made impossible to pursue, but increasingly the vocations which could at least provide a sense of dignity and economic security, don't because of ballooning debt and stagnant wages. So it's hard to really pick something and go after it. All I can say is that, in the end, you will just have to pick something, accept the upsides and the downsides, and commit, and the sooner you do that, the better.

I just realized that Western social climbing has been built into the culture since the first medieval university was established. This is the origin of the so-called Professional Managerial Class.

I took a job at my university as soon as I graduated so I've been studying or working here for nearly a decade. I regret doing this so much. I am so desperate to go somewhere, do something. Honestly, I sometimes feel like it's already too late. It's not, obviously, but it feels like a grievous error to have been this stationary while I was young.

>>21057753

>>21058856

>>21058859
Goodbye /lit/.Thanks for everything.

>>21058793
How can one commit to something without any passion?

>>21057781
you have to have muscles, whores want to be manhandled

What 2 books should I buy next?

Hesiod
Epictetus
Keat’s Letters
Lord Byron Norton Critical Edition
Many Marriages
Niels Lyhne
Moliere plays
Calderon plays
Three Soldiers
Powys’ Autobiography

>>21058995
If you're passionate about a job you won't be after a while. It will burn you out. Don't make an interest a job, leave it as a hobby and get a job that you're good at and pays a lot. Go be a electrician or something.

>>21057989
The world cannot power itself on yogurt

>>21058060
your brother needs to deal with his soul pain, his entire persona is a result of his coping and the sooner you make him realize that the better. guy has to process his pain, if he cant do it on his own he should seek therapy

>>21059017
I have no idea what Im good at but thanks.

>>21058995
Passion isn't a prerequisite to action. You do things every day that you're not passionate about.

A general everyone should lurk in
>>>/fit/fph

so glad i refrained from drunk posting last night

I hate those cosplay porn chicks with the garishly big asses. They have a hold over men that I could never have. I could never have a big floppy ass like that without also having big floppy gut and a double chinned abomination of a face

>>21059271
Most white women sadly have that same standard-issue compact model ass. Maybe do some squats.

>>21057753
Went on a hike today on a familiar trail. This time I walked a little bit further, down to the other side of the plateau. Usually there's no point doing that, you don't climb the same height twice, but I wanted to see the cliffs the mountain climbers use.
On the way there is a triangle shaped rock sticking out like a tooth from the greenery. It's nearly impossible to see it from the top of the plateau or the small caves in the cliff side but from it you can still the village and the plain below. A little hidden observation post.
Today I found some charred wood there, the remains of a fire. I imagine someone spent the night there. Almost no one walks that trail during the day let alone at night.
He made his camp and just sat there watching the sun set over the plain. As me he must have seen the birds dancing in the last rays of light, working for their daily bread. Then the village lit up in dim electric lights for the coming twilight and people went through the streets unaware that the cliffs have eyes tonight. I imagine he sat there until after midnight, contemplating the car lights moving in orderly straight lines through the low grounds below. Maybe he slept, maybe not, but the fire kept burning through the night. It must have.
In the morning he must've stayed at least until 10AM, to see the sun rise over the plateau. For the rock is positioned in such a way that the curve of the plateau hides the great ball from both sides.
And that must have been enough. Really enough. Why go back down there after that? One can stay in the forests forever, like the monks who once made their monasteries in these cliffs. Most likely he had some responsibilities. A family, a job. Yet, I hope that when he kicked out his fire and set back for town he was only thinking of ever greater heights and even more solitary fires.

>>21057753
I've been having a good time lately learning how to cook via youtube and browsing a bit on /ck/. It's really nice. But this just popped up in my recommended (https://www.youtube.com/shorts/GeXCcc6IdTk)), and I am completely flabbergasted. This is so utterly absurd and kind of hilarious, like a Monthy Python or MDE sketch, just this random woman pouring unsolicited cope all over me in voice-over while making the most basic bitch spaghetti of all time. I've seen it three times now and am still thinking this is the kind of stuff DFW would write an essay about, detailing all the banal sadness and pain of human existence.

I'm gonn pour myself another glass of amarone and have some crackers with brie, what the fuck.

>>21057753
I quit my job today as an English teacher.

One of my classes made their music teacher have a nervous breakdown. I had them today. One kid physically assaulted another, so I sent him out, on his way he told me to shut the fuck up. When senior staff arrived (I only have the 'power' to set a 30 minute detention), he dismissed what I was saying and told me to calm down. The kid was removed from the lesson, but with no follow up punishment. Handed in my notice. I don't get enough to get treated like that, not by students, especially not by staff.

>>21057753
Doesn't Occam's Razor render Descartés' skepticism, or most skeptics, irrelevant?

Had a terrible dream last night.
I wanted to have my cat dead for some reason (irl it died 4 years ago), i think it was because i was leaving for a few years but i didnt want to kill it myself.
I somehow managed to expose its skull and brains and i was hoping it would die by itself but it didnt. Then i was eating human flesh and thought by myself 'hmm its not that bad'. But i vaguely remembered it could be dangerous to eat it. Meanwhile my cat was still alive and i felt terrible. I calculated it lived 23 years so comforted myself with the thought that at least it had a long life. My brother then suffocated it with a plastic bag.

>>21059595
christ

So its only 11:20 am. My class is over. I have all the rest of today and tomorrow free. What the FUCK am I supposed to do with all this time? I got no one to meet and its too hot to really do anything outside. Im gonna try to read but I cant use that to fill the whole day. Surely theres something to do or somehwere to go. That feeling of having nothing to do has been haunting me

so fucking hungover. chugged half a litre of tomato juice and it didn't make me feel much better

>>21059562
Teachers have almost as much of a raw deal as cops today.

>>21059595
I had a dream where I was in charge of throwing people into this hole in the ground, like an oubliette. The shaft had these like one-way spring-tensioned metal flaps, so it wasn't a free fall but as they struggled they could only go down and not climb up. So I'm grabbing these people and throwing them one at a time into this hole. With a short pause cause I gotta wait until they're about halfway down before the next one goes. The men are generally cussing me out or trying to negotiate and the women are pleading hysterically and begging not to be shoved down there and I feel terrible and I want to help them but I can't cause it's like my job.

>>21059619
Eat something with some fat in it and take a vitamin B tablet.

Actually if you do that after drinking and before bed and chug down some water it will drastically mitigate your hangover in the first place. Passing out on an empty stomach is a sure fire way to feel like dogshit in the morning.

>>21059562
What does it even mean to be a teacher in a major city public school anymore? You're basically a zookeeper who isn't allowed to lock the animals' cages

>>21058995
Elon Musk once said people should read a lot of books if they can becaue if they're not sure what they should do, then accessing someone else's thoughts and experiences can help them gain some orientation. It's the first thing I've heard from Elon Musk that I think is really smart.

As for myself, I've become increasingly convinced that people should aspire to heroism, and the most heroic thing someone can do in this age is to make art, write poetry, and pray. So I would suggest that you do whatever gets you making art, writing poetry, and praying.

>>21059595
I had a cool zombie dream the other night .

I was standing on the battlements of some fort made out of scrap in a post-apocalyptic wasteland. In this scenario the species of zombie was those "fast mover" swarming, rager types, the worst kind as seen in World War Z or 28 Days later, rather than the shambling, disorganized easily dispatchable rotting types . They rushed along the perimeter of the fort almost like a fluid, a single school of screaming, roaring, bloodthirsty undead once-human piranhas .

I looked down on the horde in adrenaline-infused awe. I was accompanied by a fit, grizzled middle aged man with a graying beard and cowboy hat and duster coat. He looked a lot like Jeff Bridges in the western film True Grit.

He had more of a leadership role and I was his subordinate. Our goal was to do something about the attacking zombies. Jeff Bridges had a wild plan that I was fearful of and arguing against as crazy. He wanted to open the gates and let the zombies . The reason why, I soon found out, is that letting them through the gate led them to a kill zone filled with boobytraps, landmines, and intersecting machine gunfire. Jeff Bridges reasoned that the zombies would overwhelm us if we did not mount this gambit, so our only hope of survival was this audacious stratagem . At worst, at least we'd take more of the fuckers with us.

My protests went unheeded and eventually the zombies started pouring through the opened gate in a thrashing, hateful throng. Regrettably that's when I woke up and the dream was annihilated. Probably because it spooked me enough to wake me up.

I feel like something like socialism + nationalism would be good. Caring for your nation and its people.

The girls I dream about have to be real somewhere, right? Like there's got to be some place in the universe in which they really live. My connection to them can't just be fake.

Today my priest said I should marry by gf. I think he's right but somehow it never dawned on me before.

>>21059213
why? love drunkposting

I should kill mysef for being a manlet. What even is my purpose, just to work so i can get taxed? I gain no benefits as no proper women would ever be interested in me and passing on these acursed genes, in any decent society ,should be a punishable offence

>>21059641
>>21059619
xi listen to this anon, it's one of the few things i've learned being a semi regular drinker

>>21059694
Let me just write a fictional ending to this real blue baller of a story.

At first Jeff's plan seemed to pay off. Rather than encircling us on all sides, a deadly circumstance in any situation according to the laws of war, the swarm instincts of the zombies compelled them to rush in one direction through the bottleneck created by opening the gate.

The defenders stood ready, waiting for the signal to open fire. The timing had to be just right or else the corpses of the fallen zombies would block the entranceway and effectively nullify the plan by sealing off the chokepoint. Soon the zombies entered the courtyard, where they fell prey to spike pits, trip wire bombs, claymores, and other cunning countermeasures. Many were ensnared by barbed wire, with the next wave behind them clamoring over the mutilated remains of the still-screeching zombies caught entangled in the wires. Finally Jeff Bridges gave the signal and the defenders unloaded. Tracer rounds cut through the zombies like lasers, lancing down row after row. The abominations were undeterred . Soon our first line of defense was overtaken. Men were wailing in agony as they were torn apart in the most horrific ways imaginable. The firing continued relentlessly. It was of no avail. The next line of defense wavered was overcome. The third and last line of defense, seeing their comrades brutalized, broke formation and were routed, only to be devoured unceremoniously. All that remained was those of us fortunate enough to be stationed in the battlements and towers, firing away in horror as the inhuman tide ripped through our defenses like acid dissolving cotton.

The beasts began to clamor up the stairs to the battlements. Undeterred, Jeff Bridges through himself into the fray with a shotgun. He kicked one of the zombies in the head and it tumbled backward , knocking a whole bunch of them back down the stairs like bowling pins only to be overtaken by more zombies . Each one that was about to reach the top of the stairs was met with a blast from Jeff's shotgun. This doomed last stand was not to last, however, and finally the horrors began to mob up around him and bite him.

"See you in hell, motherfuckers!" Jeff said, before pulling out the pins of two grenades in each hand and blowing himself and the surrounding zombies into smithereens.

I was running out of ammunition. Knowing full well my inevitable fate, I turned my handgun on myself and pulled the trigger. Everything went sweetly black.

>>21059805
>pulling out the pins of two grenades in each hand
*with his teeth

I just told a guy who talked about some French philosopher that it was all sophistry and just dismissed him outright, he kind of lost all enthusiasm after that.
It was only later that I realized how rude I was to him, I really want to give him a hug and tell him how smart he is...

Im so angry and also on the verge of crying.

>>21059828
Ypu would be correct. In the original meaning of the term, all sociology is just sophistry according to plato whom modern sophists have stolen the term from

why is it so easy to keep doing drugs/alcohol even long after the point you realise you hate what you've become and dont even enjoy it

>>21059619
Theres a certain point of alcohol consumption where nothing can really alleviate a hangover but time.

>>21059562
What race are your students

For me it's not a matter of whether God exists or not but rather whether I have in Him or not. It's weird. I never doubt His existence, but I do doubt my faith.

For me it's not a matter of whether God exists or not but rather whether I have faith in Him or not. It's weird. I never doubt His existence, but I do doubt my faith.

women don't have power fantasies. as shown by films, books and television, the ultimate female fantasy is to be drawn into a relationship with a sexy yet at the same time dangerous man just look at fifty shades of grey; an unassuming woman gets drawn into a painful yet erotic (the same mix of sexy and dangerous that you see in all womens romances) relationship with an attractive billionaire. the woman doesn't progress, she doesn't advance or improve yourself, she doesn't have to do anything to get the man, she is simply swept off her feet
any look at female oriented literature will tell you this. a woman is SWPET OFF HER FEET. the princess lying around in the castle gets rescued by the dashing (yet dangerous, able to inflict fear and pain) knight.

>>21059881
Habit, comfort

>>21059054
Yes but isnt passion a requirement for doing a great job instead of mediocre one? like theres an inner drive.

I just found out my little brother is a furry. He watches this guy named TidedPod.

>>21059705
Everyone thinks this, but thanks to those whacky 20th-century Germans, everyone thinks nationalism automatically results in a race war. It's really hard to understate the damage the Nazis did to contemporary right-wing politics.

>>21059952
>women are the passive partner
Bravo, Einstein

I think I actually regret what I've done more than I would've regretted not doing anything. I should have just been a NEET.

>>21059980
you have to euthanize him. in uh. roblox or. whatever.

Do you guys want to be friends?

>>21059979
I don't think so. Of course, it helps, but you don't need to be passionate about work to do it or do it well. I know all of this sounds very stern and cold, but the point I'm driving at is life is basically a process of striving. If you don't know what to do, well, maybe you don't have to...yet.

>>21060013
make friends in real life. Befriending channers is both second-ratr and like playing Russian roulette.

>>21060013
Im a terrible friend.

Hans Niemann is literally Dmitri Karamazov.

>>21060013
Cold approaching anyone irl is no bueno for me

>>21059595
My dream consisted of me debating Mark Fisher on the campus of university of Wisconsin (don't ask) he kept being extremely terse with me and wouldn't let me leave and we were outside and it was cold. We were both wearing black petticoats and black slacks.

>>21060047
Yes, it does sound stern and cold but you're giving a reality check. Perhaps Im looking for that massive talent to bloom without putting any effort when life is all about determination and iron will. Its likely that Im just envy of those people who've found their "thing" early on in their life and put effort into perfecting it when I've been drifting without any direction in my life.

>>21057765
no retard, beauty and ethics are determined by culture and your upbringing; I find basquiat boring and flat but others find him fresh and beautiful, this is because I was raised to hate blacks!

>>21057890
: |

read a book

>>21058120
You seem to have been confused. My brother is tied down atm. I am not. He's not really anti woman at all. I am

>>21059570
I'd have to go back over the concepts but I'm not entirely sure you're correct

>>21059952
The Handmaid's Tale?
The Convenience Store Woman?
Plenty of Murakami has complex women (though sometimes yeah, they're just flat, 1D princesses)

If you take a second to pull your ass offa your head to blink and look around you'll find pleeeenty of examples that prove you dead wrong.

Don't be a retard, don't be a parrot, don't be a power-hungry meathead.

Well I joined fetlife. Not really sure what I was expecting desu. But uhh it isnt really populated by people I think I can grt along with. Theyre all old and/or fat and the fast majority are male.

>>21060131
The more i read through it the more reddit it appears. You got mods posting stickies telling straight cis males to shut up and listen. May have veen a mistake to join

Going through the reddit profiles of self-proclaimed right-wing/fascist/reactionary individuals makes me ashamed to be conaidered a part of that sphere. There was this one guy. I'll just post him lol:
https://www.reddit.com/user/of_ice_and_rock/
The guy comes of as like the rightist version of a leftist theorycel, the traits are all there.
Guy goes from writing walls of texts on political forums to lurking relationship forums and bringing up his IQ and fucking portifolio as if it makes him better than the people he deliberately seeks to argue against. What a small-souled individual lol

>>21060223
Imagine having no life that you do this shit.

I'm looking through my camera roll and I'm shocked. I was doing so much. Meeting people, going places, having fun. Its like I'd totally forgotten how fun I used to be. The fucking pandemic hit me so fucking hard. Two years of near total isolation and heavy drinking messed me up so much. I developed a ton of social anxiety, went through depression, lost all my confidence. I'm so angry at how fucked over my life was because ass hole government wanted tofuck everyone over for a stupid fucking flu. Fuck old people demanding we all give up our lives so they can live a year longer . I dont even feel like the same person anymore.

>>21060323
If you are talking about me then know I came upon this guy by chance lol.

>>21060117
>pleeeenty

I think I’m abusing my girlfriend. I keep self harming and she’s told me that it’s abusive to tell her about it or to do it around her but I can’t fucking stop. I am so filled with rage all the time and I’m stuck in a shit job but it happens to pay a lot so I have to stay in it and keep providing for us. I’ve watched all my dreams die - I wanted to build my own cabin but she wants to live in the city, I wanted us to get properly married but she doesn’t want to. I am so fucking wrapped around her finger because the truth is that I love her and she’s the only one who has ever understood me fully. But I still feel stuck and there’s no way out. So you know what, I cut or I punch a wall or I smash my head into a table sometimes. Do I not have the right to my own body? It’s not like I’m hitting her, or even threatening to hit myself if she doesn’t do X or doesn’t do Y, it’s not a manipulation thing. I just need some way to blow off the rage or I swear I will spontaneously combust. Idk, maybe I’m just making excuses…this world sucks and love is a prison, that’s all I know.

>>21057753
It is hard to make amends

Was back home this week. My dad saw "Ride the Tiger" on a table in my room. Not an Evola fan and bought it on a whim but he later came to my room and asked "How's the new book you're reading, is it about Asia?
Lmao

>>21057753
---- Solaria ----
217
(Frost as a perennial)

I suppose Shackleton was more butch
Than Doris Duke drinking among her orchids.

For about three years,

Indoors and out I've maintained a certain petunia
That yields big purple bells that look impossibly velvet

Even while it seems on the brink of death,
The variety responsive only to science commensurate

With the inbreeding involved, most eerie in daylight broad
Especially when juxtaposed or mixed with marigolds volcanic in tone.

Its highlights always look dark icy green, phosphorescent,
More Lustrous than Kentucky Bluegrass in May,

Invisible without close inspection, too faint to see without the kind
Of adaptation quiet life sustains on any terms:

Except under duress or for an entertaining sting such as when polar vortex comes
I stay indoors while snowy strata reign, because I can.

I promise nothing severe except evasion,
Prefer soft beds, lush music,

Men with a sublimely silly sense of humor, women least like witches
Except when sent up so far up on screens

That God himself enjoys the immunity of distance.

Americans be like "Hello I'm from Indiana, Pennsylvania"

>>21060785
I generally dislike poetry because I'm a bit of a pleb, but I kinda liked yours. It has a mix of pretentiousness and plain launguage that's kinda fun like the line with the polar vortex and staying inside because I can. Petunias are fucked, can't be helped.

>>21060543
leave her, leave your job
what you're experiencing isnt love
you are too damaged to take care of yourself and she is with you what does that say about her?
realistically you are both retarded

>>21060830
lol I used to live in North, South Carolina. People would get confused when I told them that.

>>21060830
I'm from El Taco Terriblé, California

for some reason redditors in my cunt have become like westoid r/politics tier redditors to the point of considering juden peterstein le bad ebil fascist KEK
man, internet really was a mistake. or the lack of actual fascists

>>21060902
I find it disgusting when Euros import US culture war bullshit. Shit doesn't even apply to you. I wonder how you guys are gonna handle land acknowledgements in your corporate meetings.

>>21060830
Britons be like "Oi I'm from Buttholeshire, England"

>>21060830
>>21060857
>>21060895
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcohol_and_Drug_Abuse_Lake

>>21060920
I'm in SE europe, it's mostly online that this happens, and in the capital
land acknowledgments would be toward some turks and gypsies that we kicked out during the balkan wars. and if someone dared to say this many politicians (and then people) would shit on them so for now they avoid it. But make no mistake they absolutely do take the most anti-patriotic position imaginable in their heads.

anyway all of these people are failures. if you check out a few of their social media accounts that they write about, or photos if they are journalists, it's all bottom of the barrel ugly women or fat nerds. they are essentially incels and femcels, will have 1 kid AT MOST in their lives (many are already 30-35 and childless)

it's surreal, witnessing literal genetic deadends and their takes on society until they eventually disappear
has it even happened before?

>>21060959
wait I did some digging and many are talking about "energy crisis" or "climate change" too
is it just fucking bots using google translate and astroturfing? fucking lmao

I'd rather be degraded than praised.

>>21061025
I'm the opposite. Having a Legion of yes men would make me rock hard

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=COjmPC7pqlM

For no reason I can tell, I'm so fucking horny, my pussy is foaming. I don't know what to do. Is this what it feels like to be a simp? Hellish. I might kill myself.

>>21060920
The culture war's roots were technically in Sweden. Remember Sweden Yes?

>>21057823
I know right? It's awesome. I've been using canva to design covers for my favorite fanfics, and books with shitty covers for years, but AI opens up so many new possibilities.

>>21061025
Do you mean sexually, or just in general? And why?

I'd rather kill people legally than listen to their bullshit and not be able to kill them because it's illegal.

>>21061048
>For no reason I can t-ACK!

>>21061049
Frankfurt School commies in Germany and weird Maoist lawyers in the US invented all the modern brain poison floating around.

Euros mostly borrowed it justify bringing in immigrants to depress wages. Jokes on them the subhuman don't work or contribute anything to society. I'm saying this as a commie it's our fault and now capital is using it to shit on us even more.

>>21061054
I feel a tingling sensation when I'm degraded, but I'm not sexually aroused. For some reason I get a similar feeling when I hear people saying BS. When I'm praised I feel nauseated and want to remove myself.

>>21061074
time to go full NS
embrace xi

>>21061096
What do you like to be degraded about? Your appearance, your capabilities, your work, or just your general personality?

>Could not connect to the database: User 'libgen-catalog' has exceeded the 'max_user_connections' resource (current value: 40)

>>21060841
Glad someone takes it that way. I modulate between high and low diction because it somehow resolves or reconciles imagination with experience. Something about if feels right, especially considering the panoply of music easily available in our times. The last time I was chained to an office chair, before retiring to serene NEETdom, I told a co-worker I traded a lot of music tips with, that John Adams's Lollapolaooza was too good for me to enjoy, in my present circumstances He thought that was rather funny, but I wasn't so sure. Still haven't come round to it,,much I enjoyed his Chairman Dances at the time, and still do.

>>21060785
garbage, like virtually all poetry after 200CE

>>21061107
All of the above. As long as it's words, not physical.

I am terrified of responsibility and ambition. My dream has always been to have a moderately easy job that provided enough money to keep me going. Maybe it's a cope but even as a kid I never wanted a nice car, a huge house, and I don't like travelling. I'm never going to have a romantic relationship because I'm a huge loser so I won't need money to start a family. I just want to live life on cruise control. My job, low level as it is, still drives me insane and has exacerbated my horrendous anxiety problem. I feel like anything beyond this level will cause me to snap like a twig.

>>21061153
Go live in a hispanic community you manchild

>>21061074
I sense the 60s were to blame

My brain is fucked. Internet, drugs, anxiety, depression. I wish I could find a way to reset.

>>21061134
It thinks it's the master
And loves getting stringed along
Please ruin me faster
Tiny garbage ghosts in a flesh automaton

>>21061074
This is objectively wrong and stupid. Ummigration benefits all aspects of the economy. The worst effect is a 2% decrease in average wages for the lower class. We can use redistributionist policies to easily compensate for this negligible drawback, but reactionaries like you would rather do whatever it takes to keep the brown people out.

>>21061187
post-WW2 west in general
Sometimes I want to migrate to turkey or china, so I can escape from all this retardation. Most people there don't give a fuck

>>21061196
you will
never be
a woman
rope yourself

>Ummigration benefits all aspects of the economy.
Capitalists benefit from the economy, how do you think the 1% came to be? housing prices wages competition etc

>but reactionaries like you would rather do whatever it takes to keep the brown people out.
i'm not white and don't want any other nonwhites or whites here. cope and rope

>>21061215
second part goes to this tranny >>21061206

>>21061170
Not that anon but I lived in the Barrio and it's nothing if not alienating. Like, it was a safe quiet area, bit run down but people were nice. You just get endless circus music BBQs and loud music on Sunday mornings but I felt really out of place. I never felt unwelcome but I felt like a tourist in my own neighborhood.

>>21061192
You need a major shift. Join the army. Join the peace corps. Apply for and apprenticeship with the ironworker's union. Or the International Seafarers You have to commit to something that forces you out of your rut. Once you're out it is ezpz to change habits and retarded cycles you've fallen into.

I can't let go my Mom's marianismo

>>21061238
not same anon but does the Peace Corps (for personal reasons the military will not and has not accepted me into their ranks) allow spergs or people over the age of 30 to do work for them?

>>21061206
Nope! These immigrants create artificial demand for goods but they are essentially parasites. Read about it. Less than 20% of these adult "refugees" work. They just collect a paycheck, their landlord gets a check. It's all government spending. They could have just distributed money at random and it would take out the middle man of yet another useless eater refugee. I'm a Marxist and these people are lumpen. If they gotta be there they should live in a camp with minimal provisions.

>>21061243
misread that as "manifesto"

>>21061145
So would you say that you’re sensitive to pats on the back/ass-kissing?

>>21061258
Yes. I hate all that stuff. My back even does that shivering thing that animals do when you touch them.

>>21061252
I agree even though I'm not far left however most of the Western left will "cancel" you for thinking this way, jsyk.

>>21061249
They do! You can also join Americorps if you have a 4 year degree, which is the same thing but stateside. The main disqualifer is infact if you're prior military. Foriegn countries would see it as a mass of spooks and assassins with ex-military types and not like, people trying to dig wells or build schools.

I'd recommend it I know people who did both, you don't get paid shit of course but if you want to meet and bond with people it's a great avenue.

>>21061238
date a latina and get assimilated

>>21061252
>demand for goods
worth noting it's the megacorporations profiting from this
>lumpen
they aren't lumpen, read renaud camus

>>21061271
You know leftists. We'd purge one another until only one flavor remains. I bet my flavor would win. Imagine a government that actually sculpts a society that benefits the people who contribute to society, workers. If we could only scrape off the parasites.

How do i stop the evil spirits?

>>21061315
take out the national power grid and they disappear

>>21061279
Most women I dated were Latina. There was obviously lots of them around, but I'm too retarded to learn Spanish. I mostly dated like 3rd generation Chicanas that barely speak Spanish. I've been to a million of those circus music BBQs and spend them drunkenly chatting with her uncles and brothers. I like Latino people, but my own family is dead/ scattered, there's never a BBQ with my family. I never quite fit into that culture, you know?

Also I'm the same anon and they are definately lumpen. Worse than lumped. They're like me in the barrio knowing 200 words of Spanish except only there due to some welfare program.

I've been to Europe and it's worse than Barrios and little enclaves of Latin people. You truly have no-go zones and whole neighborhoods based off nothing but government handouts being spent. Extremely insular, hostile even. Euros fucked it up which is funny, I enjoy a bit of schadenfreude when it comes to Euros self-sabotaging their society.

I don't respect anyone who doesn't work out for the sake of becoming as physically dangerous as possible. I genuinely consider anyone who doesn't do this a subhuman.

>>21061270
What got you thinking about this?

>>21061331
I saw someone doing ASMR affirmations. I tried listening out of curiosity, but I didn't enjoy it.

>>21061324
just learn spanish then lmoa

>only there due to some welfare program
this is what actually sets them apart from the lumpenproles
>Generally unemployable people who make no positive contribution to an economy. Sometimes described as the bottom layer of a capitalist society. May include criminal and mentally unstable people. Some activists consider them "most radical" because they are "most exploited," but they are un-organizable and more likely to act as paid agents than to have any progressive role in class struggle.
the immigrants and rapefugees have no intention of contributing, because they consciously don't want to do it. They just leech money and pay for the most POZgressive candidate. Their ultimate goal is to just bring their culture there so they can feel more at home
To put it differently: They're a weapon, and they know it

IMO it's good because the countries with the meekest people will just die out and go extinct. Only the less retarded will survive

>>21061345
I prefer the medical stuff because as a kid the same shit happened to me and there was no word for such sensations back then. I stumbled upon the community by accident by typing in "girlfriend simulator" into youtube several years ago and dove down the rabbit hole. don't like the degenerate stuff, desu but medical ones are nice at least.

>>21057753
how quickly do you think you can gaze into the depth of someone's soul? I find it odd that it took me so long to realize that one of my close friends from high school did barely any reflective thinking. He was always sort of passive and impressionable but it didn't really come back to me until I heard years later from his ex-gf that she had broken up with him after he started spewing blackpills (which sounded almost exactly like what I was spewing at the time) to her and she started to resent him. These were pretty mundane blackpills about how women like tall, handsome, rich men. What I came to realize was that he was unable to take in the ideas as merely plausible and not absolute and that he couldn't see how revealing this would effect his relationship with his gf. Other than this 'encapsulation' the depth of his soul became obvious when I realized that our interactions followed the same pattern. We'd start off in a fairly equal exchange and by the end I was ranting for 80% of the time about this or that.

>>21061329
If I get back to the gym this is my goal because I'm an autistic manlet with narcissism and issues with women (at least I admit it) and it would make me physical unstoppable.

>>21061299
I do, even though I lean right. I've been on /leftypol/ before and seen how they act and even posted, mostly to other peoples' dismay.

>>21061153
To stand up straight with your shoulders back is to accept the terrible responsibility of life with eyes wide open. It means adopting the burden of self-conscious vulnerability, and accepting the end of the unconscious paradise of childhood, where finitude and mortality are only dimly comprehended. It means deciding to voluntarily transform the chaos of potential into the realities of habitable order. It means willingly undertaking the sacrifices necessary to generate a productive and meaningful reality.

>>21061278
I'm not college educated so Americorps is out of the question.

>>21061376
Idk man all the Americorps people I knew were VISTAS which were bachelor degree types.

Dude join a trade union. That's what I did I live in a big shitlib city and it was the best decision I ever made. All the trades are hurting for hands picking up like 18 y/o 90 IQ whitetrash. It's easy now.

>>21061393
thats runs into another problem. disabled people cannot unionize. there was an article in the Cleveland newspaper how companies pratically exploit disabled people for pennies on the dime and any attempts at unionization would probably turn out violent as many of us are unhinged.

>>21060902
How about you just stay over on reddit

>>21057753
---- Solaria ----
218
(speedboat)

Diamond feel
Of curling wakes
Peeled off placid lakes

Dissolving into rain
You never see from nimbus
Graves of mood, thrilling to see.

Flying fish from balconies, porpoises before,
Skylines nestled in sprawling grid beside the black of oceanic shore.

>>21061399
I don't like reddit though it's full of subhumans who should be executed

>>21061025
You're a little bitch. i should slap you for how pathetic you are

>>21061401
look at this doo
writes more shit again

must fill his empty void
the one that consumes him

the bridge he though
leads to zarathustra

but he was mistaken
oh heavens

kill yourself at once
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>>21061206
I would actually prefer to stay white than import a ton of darkies to boost gdp by half a percent for a single quarter

>>21061397
Unionize! Call up the Teamsters dude. If their entire business model is exploiting cheap disabled folx labor you have enormous bargaining power by unionizing. Teamsters will organize anything.

Local 1 of the Fucked up Fellas Union do it bro. Download the thing from the Department of Labor and get your fucked up coworkers to sign.

>>21060902
Its a common liberal misconception of him. He's really not that extreme and is more of a psychologist than philosopher. Your average redditor collects funko pops and goes on blacked dot com and anything remotely entertaining objective morality is considered "le evil" to them.

Also wanted to ask why antivaxx ads are not common. Spotify is getting ridiculous with the amount of these masker/vaxxer ads that I need to look for a really good ad blocker to get rid of them but no such luck.

>>21061417
Ill look into it

>>21061359
>typing in "girlfriend simulator" into youtube several years ago
This is why I keep coming back here

I've always liked card games (hearthstone, magic and some local ones). Always keep coming back to them after periods of years without playing, they suck me in, I forget myself and play the game. But I'm always thrown off by the community, grown ass men that love anime and videogames, can't take them serious and can't help but feel that I'm the same type of child. But if it's not for games like these I would have literally 0 friends.

>>21061423
>why antivaxx ads are not common
banned
von der leyen's husband works at pfizer, you think it would pass?
there's zero advertisement for russia's vax let alone the chinese (Non MRNA) one

>>21060959
I am struggling to not vomit. The genocidal fucking Ottomans? If any empire deserved to be extinct it's them what about all the people they genocided? It was the Byzantium.

>>21061445
>ottomans
don't exist since at least the 19th century
>what about all the people they genocided
can't do anything about it for my people in the balkans, and don't care about the rest
i could just go because it's cheap now. if my cunt keeps getting infected with westoid brainrot i might just fuck off

>>21061433
So much for the free market of ideas I guess

>>21061428
For the record I had a girlfriend at that point she just had no conception of loyalty to me so I would have mood swings constantly.

>>21061430
Bro, don't feel bad about MtG. I have friends who are physicians and research scientists and I go to their house parties and do wizard battles with them.

Peer pressure makes anything cool.

It's honestly amazing that Ukraine hasn't surrendered. They'd rather prolong the mayhem and throw thousands of men to death than just give putin his banana. It's not like it even matters whose side of the border they're on. They can either keep killing and dying or turn the other cheek.

>>21061481
video gaming is fine as long as you have other interests and they don't define you as a person.

>>21061495
such is war, both sides think their cause is just

>>21059570
No. And Descartes isn't a skeptic

>>21057753
Why has lit been so shit in 2022?

>>21059925
I get you. For me it isn't a question of a historical resurrection, but whether I can let Jesus die for my sin. I'm in a weird Patti Smith thing, I guess.

What should I do?

Got a job offer with a nice enough company. Decent wage and it'll hopefully give me the opportunity to dump more of my money into options trading. Still, I want to interview for a separate job. I just saw that they looked at my application at around 7:30pm, but no offer for an interview yet. Please pray that I get an interview.

>>21061538
You should make a list of things you want to do by the end of the year.

>>21061538
Fun lists.

#no4chanNovember

>>21061547
>make a list of things you want to do
What if I don’t want to do anything?
>Fun lists
Like?

"Look me in the eyes while you fuck me" she said. And immediately after doing so she crumbled into a trillion pieces and I evaporated into nothing. I was nowhere... Then I woke up. In my crummy bed in my crummy room in my crummy apartment in this crummy city known as Detroit. Its been 4 years since it all came crashing down and every day is still the same. I'm living in a loop of pure suffering.

I miss you so much Emma...

>>21061560
If money hampers you too much, you can’t go on too far a trip, but there’s no doubt somewhere closer. Sign up for tours with people. Bus rides you either read or talk to fellow tourists.
Take some class in something.
Take up a musical instrument.
This is a highly personal thing you have to do for yourself, so don’t let me make it for you.

>>21061547
>make a list of things you want to do by the end of the year.
Item one: make a friend
item two: get a gf

>>21061569
Ooooooo I am the ghost of Emmmmmaaaa oooooooo. Move on anon, be happy, oooooooooooo

>>21061560
Fuck what this guy >>21061569 is saying even though he's right. I'll take this highly personal task from you and make it about me. Before the year is over you need to play ultimate frisbee 3 times, go outside to paint 3 times and ask 3 girls for their phone number.

>>21061583
>This is a highly personal thing
If it’s so personal, why do all these things sound so boring?

>>21061614
>frisbee
>paint
>girls
Kek. Anything else? I’m not an incel.

>>21061620
Because I’m generalizing stuff to you. I don’t know you at all. You come up with better. You hold the key to you
Stop being boring. Do something with yourself.

>>21061624
I don't know. What things do you like?

so if i say women are children im right wing but if i say women love to age regress i'm left wing ? wait a second...

>>21061625
>Stop being boring
How?
>What things do you like?
Nothing. That’s what i’m looking for, things to do.

>>21061644
Are you a woman or man?

>>21061644
>>Stop being boring
>How?
Ngmi

>>21061652
>Ngmi
I’m already aware of that. I’m trying to just stay afloat.

>>21059858
Don't cry. Turn your anger into a weapon to crush your enemies and forge strength.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LECXm0kZujA

Some people in these threads have sex and others don't. I wonder what the ratio is.

>>21061664
I have never had sex and am planning on waiting for my marriage bed. That said, I have only dated good Christian girls so I don't know what would happen of a thot were to propose something to me.

>>21061529
It was all me, desu

>>21061644
Read about exciting people. Fiction or real life

>>21061651
Are you kidding? It’s clearly a male

>>21061685
I remember trying to date a JW girl back in the early 2000s and she was so weird. Kind of attractive though. I think I wrote about her in my journal if I can remember. I still have the thing.

>>21061700
all good thoughts i hope

>>21061699
>Read
I think i’ve read enough for 3 lifetimes. What are you currently into right now?

>>21057753
I viscerally hate the argument in favor of internet censorship that says "well it's a private platform, they can decide who gets to use it." Well what about the fact that ALL ONLINE DISCOURSE IS DICTATED BY AN UNANSWERABLE MONOPOLISTIC OLIGARCHY

>>21059619
This is me everyday xi, how do I stop it?

>>21061410
poor brown creature
can't into white art
spits on his teacher
muh dick doo and fart

people i know are worried about me, they think i’m developing schizophrenia

>>21057753
I'm on the first plateau of DXM reading Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep, whilst listening to Autechre... Red pill me... on... redpill on.... no... no more redpills... this place is just a simulacrum of the Pnyx or Polis...

>>21061749
Permaculture.
I posted this in a general some time back. Nobody says anything.
https://youtu.be/sRPP4Ilpxso

>>21061790
Thatsbecause you keep telling them that you hate the anti christ

time to escape...descend into the void
https://youtu.be/AA0keBEeyvs

>>21061813
Don't do it Xi. Reality is hard but at least its real.

Any methods for getting over fielding of regret or embarrassment?

>>21061818
What do you regret or feel embarrassed about? It’s hard to suggest anything without knowing the general cause.

>>21061817
It was already over before I made the post.

I want to read a book where the main character has those crazy anime eyes (in spirit)

I'm feeling sad, regretful, resentful, and inadequate.

>>21061799
That’s definitely something different.

>>21061845
I’m sorry anon, likewise.

>>21061711
Honestly it was kind of mixed

I feel incredibly sad.

I'm such a fucking shit tier programmer

Are we all just hopeless losers? How did we all get this way?

>>21061912
I blame my single mother and the japanese

>>21061845
Feeling happy, content, appreciative and powerful.
>>21061880
So content with whatever happens right now bros.
>>21061899
I'm such a programming genius.

>>21061921
Thats a bad combo.

>>21057989
Too bad I killed him

>>21061912
I blame my high iq and one traumatic event from my past.

>>21062002
Huh thats funny. I have a mid level iq and several traumatic experiences

>>21062037
I've led a blessed life and consider myself to be of below average intelligence.

>>21062058

it seems absurd to me that a rentor is expected to pay in excess of the mortgage on a property, while gaining no stake in its ownership

>>21062073
What rentor pays in excess of the mortgage?

>>21062073
I have an undying hatred of landlords and lenders

I don't like niggers. Eat my ass, jannies

> off topic
that's the point of this thread
> racism outside of /b/
might as well ban the whole website, and everything it ever stood for
> hurr it doesn't stand for racism
it stands for saying anything you want, eespecially things people like you don't want to hear

again, fuck niggers, fuck janitors, fuck you. ban me, you faggots

>>21062096
many do, according to research I've been doing about investing in real estate
maybe I'm naive, or soft-hearted, but it seems like exploitation

>>21062104
do you think renting and lending is inherently predatory?

>>21062073
Why? Its not his property.

>>21062119
In a way yes

>>21062119
Multiple rentors will pay more than the mortgage on the house for sure. But that extra money goes into fixing up the place too. One rentor alone will not cover the mortgage for sure.

I believe in God. I also believe atheism ought to be heavily enforced in any material setting: government, education, family law, etc. Religion has caused too much suffering, it is a chain binding us to misery. We need God but we do not need religion.

>>21062188
You're an atheist

>>21062195
I believe in God. I pray daily. That said, sometimes I do think I'm an atheist at heart. That's a funny thing, an atheist who believes in God.

>>21062201
I remember a quote saying that if atheists could write something unsigned, they'd sing God's praises.
I think it's a way to deal with how senseless the world can be. If you know there's no intelligence, no guiding hand putting together what happens in life, what then? Believing in God is a comfortable, foolish, but comfortable way to cope. I do it too

>>21062239
>If you know there's no intelligence, no guiding hand putting together what happens in life
How could you possibly know this?

>>21057753
---- Solaria ----
220
(banter as background hum)

He gave me that look over the rim of his glasses:
Now you're being deliberately ridiculous.

How can hoverflies do that in silence mosquitos don't?
Not the kind of thing I'd bring up in his presence

Bawdy as it goes within the bounds of care.

The silver maple I planted as a seed is almost tall enough to climb.
So what if everything will happen, it won't today.

>>21062201
For most people, Theism isn’t a believe, but a believe in a believe

>>21062279
what?

I wish big boss was real and I could go live on motherbase doing missions and shit. I'm doing homework at 22 and I got 4 more years of it. Wish I was black and in a gang with my niggas and I go to prison and read.

>>21062188
Nothing like putting society on a pathway towards ruin

>>21057753
I
am
mediocre

I’m gonna drink and take a klonopin to help me sleep. Not sure if I’m going to drink too much otherwise i’ll wake up to take a piss. Hate that.

That the more I see; that the more I shewn.

>>21062260
I feel that we're going to have a big argument, so I'll just cut it short. Yes, fine, even with all the chaos and cruelty in the world, it's possible that God is still directing all of it. It's possible that our religions have described God wrongly, and the real God is a fickle, capricious, and hateful being capable of both immense amounts of compassion and cruelty.
But at the same time, we have no way of knowing whether this is the case. So far, with the past two World Wars, the resulting Cold War and the pretend-detente we are in right now, we have only seen that people make things happen, not God. It was people that decided to throw millions of other people into furnaces, starve millions more, and put the world under the barrel of nuclear annihilation. It's also people that paved the way for immense technological progress, the Green Revolution, and the internet.
It's possible that God truly exists, but he's not helping his case.
We've already made a new Tower of Babel, and he's sitting up there, doing nothing. Perhaps there's nothing there at all.

Have you really lost your virginity if you used protection and didn't cum inside her? I'm leaning towards no.

>>21062308
Where does consciousness come from? The universe itself is magic. Classical conceptions of God might be wrong, but that doesn't mean we're anywhere close to understanding reality or how/why it exists.

>>21062300
At least you're not shit

>>21062495
Definitely not the electrical pulses that go through our brains.
Granted, we don't know exactly how these processes become thoughts, but we already have a good idea of what areas of the brain need to activate in order to experience certain feelings, which lead to thoughts and ultimately actions.
I want to hope that there is still some kind of ether that still dictates the universe but really, it's not looking good

The older immortal things are the more immortal they become, but in the end of age they end; that is except by the new immortal things.

>>21057753
>Finally tell newish gf I love her
>For the past month has been wanting me to say "I love you, [her name]" at point of orgasm while looking at her face/eyes

When I asked her why she is so obsessed with this she said its because she wants to make sure all the other girls I've been with are out of my system. It's insanely hot and intimate but was I stupid for entertaining this after she told me why?

She also has been getting us to do "intimacy" exercises whenever we see each other where we will just sit there. Usually her just straddling me and just looking at each other's eyes in silence for 5 to 10 mins, before going out to do whatever we had planned. There have been a couple of times where hours passed without even realising it

>>21057768
I used to be a Hefty guy.
Spent my teenage years believing i would never get a thin, you know conventionally hot girlfriend. Started spending more time with Larger ladies because at least they would be fat and miserable like me, they'd be the only one that loved me.

Splinter Cell Chaos Theory came out. This game (and that soundtrack by amon tobin) is what got me motivated to start working out, And it wasn't even anything big about it. It was using the mouse wheel to increase the speed that you moved.
So there i would be only running at night, running in completely black with the soundtrack Blaring loudly in headphones. And when i would get tired i would think to myself "Okay, mouse wheel down, go slow and quiet"

After a while i started wanting to climb things. Okay to climb things i gotta get stronger. Started lifting weights, and that's what started that rabbit hole. Anyway i got fit. I had no Game but i was fit, and managed to stumble my way into a number of relationships with attractive ladies by accident.

But i've conditioned myself, Fat women are my kryptonite. Face has got to be cute, and they need large breasts. But i'm in.

I've found myself a fitness instructor girlfriend, It's great, i love her and enjoy all the time we spend together, She's fit, attractive, nice ass, but I'm more into the chubby nerd i play DnD with, But i know her lifestyle choices would just fucking grate against mine. But my sex life is a bit of a struggle and i have to be picturing or imagining the things i'd do to these large women.
Current girlfriend is a bit fat phobic though, and a bit judgemental. I say "It's never too late for them to start" and supportive body positive stuff. I think being mean is a bit of an unattractive trait, but it's mostly to mask that i would fuck them, each and every single fat girl she makes fun of if any of them made a pass or put me in a situation where it could happen.

>picked a book about history of erotica despite being a wizard
ironic

>>21057753
Were you born /lit/ or did you fall into it later in life? I wanted to be a writer as a child but choked that dream to death for the sake of a vaguely upper middle class life that hasn't happened 16 years later. Trying to read more and browse /lit/ but I feel like a fraud that should know my place and go back to mindlessly refreshing /v/ and Youtube. Can any anons reciprocate?

Just had Jehova knock on my door. Being the autist I am I didn't immediately realize it was about Jesus until one of them pulled out a bible verse and showed me. After that I couldn't end the conversation because it felt I would be rude. It did give me a different perspective on them as people though. First I thought their mannerism were just them being them but after that bible verse it kind of changed into them looking slightly unhinged and basically repeating "Isn't it wonderful that we could be happily living on earth forever?" and was genuinely scared the last time they said it. Luckily the conversation didn't last too long because I told them I already own a bible myself so I guess I needed less convincing. I took their flyer and immediately threw it away. I'm scared of these people and of their mental. How does one become so mentally degenerate? And how do I make sure I avoid it?

>>21062737
i have only come to /lit/ in the last year or so,
It's another step on the journey that has been 4chan for me, starting off as an edgelord in /b/ back in 2004-2005?
I've found 4channel a blessing in i pretty much gravitate through these boards now.

I only started having aspirations for writing in recent years, i work a steady IT job and although the work is challenging at time i have not found it rewarding. It does pay the bills if you can consider that reward enough then understandable.
But during my days of watching progress bars creep across screens, analyzing log files for errors and scripting solutions for repetitive tasks, i have listened to a lot of Audiobooks.
And a lot of truly terrible military fiction, and then i found myself thinking "I could write a better story than this"
And so it has started. With me trying to avoid horrible shitty things that i have read or heard in the novels i have listened to.
I lack time to really work on things though.
which is my biggest issue.

Having a tough time with the gf. l cant get over how unsexy her body is and she's hopelessly in love with me

If the left is anti-cultural then the right is without culture entirely.

>>21062737
It's been a gradually growing thing. I would say I became interested in literature in high school, but I wasn't deeply interested until I was an adult and out of college already. I read more now than I ever have.

>>21062737
This is extremely common btw, especially since literature fell out of style with the so-called upper and upper middle classes in the last century.

>>21062761
Same with my gf but the other way around

i split up with this girl i was with for like five years and had known for probably five before that. it's like she has been in my life since a couple years after i finished college. i also feel like i'm breaking up with /lit/. i've posted on this site around the same amount of time. i just find the politically motivated hot takes by people who don't read so tiresome. plus, all the religious wacko stuff is really annoying. can't have a thread without some virtue signally catholic guy telling you how he doesn't jerk off or something. i don't care dude. i want to post here and have fun, but i'm just not feeling it anymore. it's weird how my interest in participating here petering out feels so much like a relationship winding down.

>>21063015
Maybe 2023 will bring the resurgence of old /lit/. Anons need to start by not replying to /pol/ bait and culture war stuff.

>>21063015
Probably for the best. I quit R*ddit and some other time wasters and it was actually beneficial. This is less deleterious. I have the occasional need to scream into the void and this platform works great but there's no incentive to hear any replies.

I'm in a dying LTR too and can sympathize. She changed too much and I'm still the same person and we're barely compatible anymore. Only maintaining it out of pure inertia.

>>21062753
At least you didn't try and date one. They're annoyingly stubborn and often sheltered. Look at how Michael Jackson turned out

>>21063041
Lol that's not gonna happen

>>21063041
Nah it’s too funny triggering the chuds

>>21063123
Yeah you’re probably right. Just sucks to see all of the good anons leave over the last few years. At this rate I’ll be gone soon too. I feel it in my bones

>>21063152
I leave for a few months at a time, come back for a week or two, get bored and leave again

>>21063143
It can be funny but it’s like catnip to them. They just itch to call someone a tranny. A lot of anons just can’t control themselves and derail threads or give bad threads you’s and bumps

>>21063143
if i wanted to read braindead lib shit i'd just read the nyt directly rather than your paraphrase of last weeks op-eds

>>21063202
Too bad you can’t stop me

Has anything interesting happened on /lit/ all year? I haven't been around as much.

>>21059786
it goes cocaineposting > drunkposting > soberposting > weedposting

>>21058998
you have muscles just by virtue of being a man anon even a teenage boy can manhandle a woman
if you want to look muscly that's different

>>21063212
Witches of Vril whisper to me
Tower of Babel falls
Uberchud rises from tranny sea
The black sun calls

>>21061547
>bragging about getting job
hope you fail

>>21062513
is there another frame where she gets smacked

>muslims believe in war and conquest
>their countries just become live action war roleplay ground
idk if it's good or bad for them

>>21063534
islam has met its apocalypse already. its over.

current thread 21057754

Well bros it's barely 9:30 am. I have the whole day off. What the fuck should I do all day

>>21063883
Day drink and shitpost on 4chins. The most praetorian of activites.

>>21063883
film some creepshots and post them here lets see what you're working with over there as far as sex having is concerned

>>21063903
Thats the way its looking

The new thread I guess
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>>21063849
>>21063849

>>21063883
Anything but read

>>21057924
I'm looking for a scarab god half the price

Sometimes I want to give up.

>>21064918
Why?