/lit/ - Literature

my parents argued again, day sucks

>>20853773
Today was a good day because I realized that at least I'm not black! Godspeed, everyone.

I have to decide what to do with my life and whenever I weigh an option. the question I ask myself is
>Will it bring me closer to God?
The answer is typically no.

>>20853805
God isn't worldly bro.

I want to be rich only to buy clothes.

Why do anons ask for advice and consolation only to scornfully disregard all advice and consolation?

>>20853824
Femanon?

I don't really want to do anything but listen to music and play video games. I just do other things because the world requires me to do so.

looking forward to listening to raising lazarus by beth macy. dopesick was depressing but in a "well my life may suck but at least avoided becoming a junky!" kind of way.

>>20853773
I'm going to poop of F Gardner's pillow while he's at karate practice.

Im world-building a fantasy setting based on the US. It's split into 4 states and I cant decide on their names. The one based on the northeast is named Columbia, the one based on the west coast is named New Columbia, but the other two I dont know. I have one based on the South provisionally called Dixie, but I feel it needs some kind of religious name. And I have no idea what to call the 4th one based on the flyover states.

>>20854327
>The one based on the northeast is named Columbia
People's Democratic Republic of Portlandia
>the one based on the west coast is named New Columbia
California
>I have one based on the South provisionally called Dixie
KKKland
>And I have no idea what to call the 4th one based on the flyover states.
Who cares?
Get with the zeitgeist

>>20854420
I don't want to engage with a retarded zeitgeist.

I'm thinking maybe New Zion for the South-based one, to suit its theocratic nature. The flyover state I still dunno; my mind keeps going to meme names like Freedomland and Heartlandia.

Trapped between boredom and hopelessness

>>20854533
>New Zion
Absolutely retarded, fits right in with the rest.

>>20853780
>are ya winning dad

i just ate nuts with insects in it reeeeeeee

>>20854533
Nah nigga New Zion is for rhe utah based mormon theocracy

Yes sir. Yeah. No, I can't come into work today I'm zogged out of my mind right now. Sure, ye- What's that? Yeah I can't get out of bed I'm SO zogged out right now.

Guys Im so fucking bored please help

Bros give me advice for dating apps. I just need a cute girl to keep me company

No one can really be trusted and it's better to rely only on oneself.
Be self sufficient before you engage with others as to never have to own anything to anyone besides yourself.

>>20854681
literally dick picks and telling her you will give her strong cock

Yesterday
I nutted so hard to rape porn. Aftermath, I felt so guilty and wrong and paranoid about someone knowing my porn history.

>>20854681
Just b urself and keep your chin up.

planning a sui feels like i'm acting with purpose after a long time kinda feels like going home

It's not fair. It really just isnt.

>>20853852
me 2, but my goal is to have that sort of drive for something creative. or something that makes me money. my problem is im already 30.

>>20854727
Nigga dont end yourself unless you can do a proper sui tuck on a bmx bike.

>>20854793
bmx is for nogs

>>20854801
BMX is the white mans sport.

>>20854821
confused mutt

>>20854801
>doesn't know the type of person who rides bmx
let me guess you're from the developing world

>>20854837
Eat shit you worthless nigger. Unironically

>>20854586
lol

I feel like fighting my depression is a constant job. I have to be always actively doing something to keep it at bay. Any moments idleness and it hits me like a brick. Then theres times where even when I'm doing great I'll see something that reminds me of a bad memory and it's like it crawls under my skin and all I can do is wait for it to crawl back out.
The worst part is that even my best moments are real or genuine happiness. They're just moments where I'm not uncomfortable. I feel like I havent really been happy for years now and I doubt I can ever be happy again. I'm not sure why I keep fighting it. I really don't know what I'm going on for other than just to keep going on.

>>20854844
nogs ride bmx

xi you made this edition right?

Please help me out guys

>>20854924

Report me for being underage

>>20854846
kek sorry bro i'm sure you feel deeply about the <25% white side of your genetic heritage

tfw no chinese gf with glasses

Sometimes "GF" is worse than "tfw no GF," you always have to worry about losing what you've got. The anon with nothing to lose is free, at least.

>>20853773
A published author told me I'm very talented and he likes my writing, but I don't like it.

>>20855000
How old are you anon? Dont have to get specific a rough estimate will do.

>>20855015
26 currently, will be 27 in about a month. Got a wonderful woman, but somehow it doesn't make life any easier, just replaces old problems with a whole new set.

let us, for one moment, imagine that i retrieved my copy of hamlet, opened the cover, and began to read the word that are printed on the pages. imagine it thoroughly and fully, if you will. now tell me this: HOW will i understand those words? how do i fucking do it??

>>20855000
I know that feel
Its even worse with ldr

>>20855025
I wish the best for my fellow anons but i cant understand you willingly staying in a simp relationship. Have some pride in yourself homie.

>>20855036
bruh dont fucking cuck yourself

Can one glean meaningful information from Simulacra and Simulation and The Society of the Spectacle without any background in philosophy?

>>20854937
https://youtu.be/9WiiPrOtAFI

how do you get to the point where you can talk to a group of people without being on the outside if the group existed before you came into it

the only group of people i could actually be myself in was one that i was there since the beginning so that no one could doubt i was a true member of it, but now that group is gone

goonight lit

>>20855112
show interest in each of the group members as individuals rather than as a cohesive unit to be accepted by

>>20855096
Yes its even better when you have no knowledge of dumb commie nonsense since they dont even try to justify commie bullshit other than vague platitudes.
>muh communes and worker unions
lol

>>20855136
huh wow

>>20855136
my gang actually cut a 'friend' out because he couldn't come to terms with this. it had been like 10 years.

By the time you’re 30, are you who you’re always going to be?

>>20855157
if you have to ask on 4chan, probably yes

beetlejuice
beetlejuice
BEETLEJUICE

>>20855157
i don't think so, not me anyway. ive been (d)evolving. maybe via braindamage

>>20853835
No I just want to look pretty.

I don't know what I'm doing in life anymore, nothing makes sense

>>20855160
Why would anyone have to ask?

damm i forgot how much fun stem autistic problem solving is
legos haha

>>20855157
according to a quote by Jung life is an experiment until your 40s then you start living

so do you at any point in life get to tell about all the ways in which you hate yourself and reveal all your self loathing and self esteem issues to anyone or do you just go along without telling anyone about your main issues for all your life. I have no one to talk to so I started writing but what I write feels so pathetic and vile, probably wouldn't want anyone to read this stuff, still think it would feel nice to talk about everything to a non judgmental ear, I don't think that exists though.

>>20855343
if you have a lame degree, shitty job, and never get laid, everyone can already knows you're self-loathing. you don't have to tell them.

Look towards the brightest day ahead
Don't worry about the future that awaits

>>20855199
Based. Me too. Somehow I have started writing chord progressions on guitar like João Gilberto and I'm not even into bossa nova. I just like actual jazz and disco but am a retard.
>>20855305
Jung was a full blown schizo.

>>20855343
writing it out or speaking to nobody but yourself about what you feel is better than not at all. a therapist or counselor helps because that is what they are trained to do but not everyone can afford it. having a confidante isnt feasible for everyone unfortunately so getting a catharsis through art or journalling is an okay alternative. anything so it doesnt fester inside yourself

>>20855343
It exists but you have to be an alcoholic/addict and join the AA/NA/whateverA cult. Everyone in those talks about their simultaneous superiority/inferiority complex, wasted life, regrets, self hatred, and then finally just acceptance of this shithole existence.

I have a problem to get out of the world of ideas and get to action, I easily get overwhelmed with anxiety. I blame this on my little to no interation with the outside world and other people during my childhood and adolescence.

Anyway, evens and I apply for that job now, odds and I'll think further

>>20855343
Talking doesn’t help. I have close friends/family who I talk to. Nothing helps.

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I went for a bush walk today and got horribly lost. It was way too dense to tell one direction from another, and had to twist and turn through bushes and fallen trees a dozen times just to cover 10 metres distance. Eventually I heard the sounds of cars nearby and was able to mentally map my position based on the 10 second google maps overview I had done before entering. Heading back in the direction (there was only one entry point) I was still lost having to weave through everything.
It was fun though.

ate a pringles can earlier today and it was pretty good. It was one of the newer flavours

Would you go to law school if it were free and a good school even if you had no intent to become a private lawyer?

>>20856947
no im not into cock and ball torture thanks

https://youtu.be/xmxKUwB8VFQ
>tfw i'll never have a environmentally conscious friendly aussie as my friend

>>20855207
I bet you already do.

>>20857009
Sydney anon here. The waterways and rivers are truly fucking filthy. Even Sydney harbor is filth. I caught a ferry the other day and was looking out the window, right next to the Opera House and there was just a thick layer of rubbish all over the water. Most of it was disposable masks too lel.

>>20857134
Come hang out with me in Husskison. The water is crystal clear.

>>20853773
------ Solaria ----
XL
(Butterfly Bush)

Thinking through the contrast betwen lovable fuckbuddies
And the despot-whore pair

Numb to the charm of jumping spiders and bird sononities
One can tell West from East.

Furthermore, we can dish about everything and everyone available to sense
Acute and fine as Dickinson's blanks imply by antithesis.

I suppose I could catalogue its visitors that
While not a Monarch among them, form a suite beyond analogy.

>>20857139
I'd like to live on the south coast, used to spend a lot of time in Moruya as a kid.

>>20857166
I just moved down here and I have zero frens atm. It's a beautiful area but it'd be cool to have someone to talk to at some stage.

>>20853773
I spent over 4 hours organizing my bookmarks.
They're still a complete fucking mess, just slightly better. I only managed to polish a turd.

Does anybody else have THOUSANDS of bookmarks? Do you bother trying to organize them, or just get used to the mess?

>>20854694
Read Your Brain on Porn + the easy peasy method and give up porn but stroke your dick once in a while.

>>20857228
>Does anybody else have THOUSANDS of bookmarks? Do you bother trying to organize them, or just get used to the mess?
I have a few hundred. I occasionally go through and organize them, either deleting dead links, re-categorizing them, or I dump certain categories into documents.

>>20856995
But had you been interested in law…

How do my fellow straight white males persist in this society that wants them replaced? I'm not at my breaking point yet, but I can see it from here.

>>20857298
Lately, I’ve felt like I’m just running out the clock. I don’t think there’s really much to left to in our do besides make as much money as possible, but money for its own sake or the sake of luxury is worthless and does not motivate me. So I have a pretty low end bureaucrat job that makes a modest but steady wage for very little work. It tortures me knowing I’m capable of more, but what to do? When I was in college, I interned at an investment bank every summer. I despised it, but sometimes I think about going back for no reason other than the fact that at least those people were busy and ambitious and so didn’t have the patience to consider their misery.

>there was a female presence in my dreams again

>>20857298
NEETing and ignoring the world outside
I'm exposed to normoids and women only when someone posts twitter/tiktok bait here

I dislike long books because of my zoomerism, I need short books that I can finish in 3-4 hours

>>20853824
klarna

One part of me wants to work hard for money and influence. The other part wants to swear it all off to live in poetic immersion. I don’t know which part to listen to.

>>20857573
Do you need sex or not

>be very comfortable with living with my parents (mom specifically)
>decide that maybe it's high time I move the fuck out and fend for myself
>dad calls me to his room today and says "imma give you money to move and learn to fend for yourself"
I don't know why, but I'm annoyed at the fact that my dad had the same idea as me.

I am the Wolf.

>>20857594
>imma give you money to earn money

>>20857665
gay omega wolf lmao

>>20857665
You're Sebastian and you have to give the princess a new name before the wolf turns everything into nothing.

>>20857379
i was a monk in my dreams
a weird awkward one
is this a sign

>>20853773
test

>>20857698
What is this a reference to?

>>20857673
It's called an investment anon.

>>20857808
he already sent him to school and probably college

>>20857577
Nobody needs sex.

>>20857804
https://youtu.be/xaILTs-_1z4
The ancient clover scrolls tell of memes lamenting the death of God.
We tell ourselves stories, they create worlds and all those worlds are connected through things like six layers of bacon. They're all part of the same realm and you are crucial to it. You, the individual are the backbone.
Your dad is wrong. Don't keep your feet on the ground. Winged boots, storks, stairways, feathered snakes, frogs, anything but trains.

>>20857121
I wish I could believe that.

>>20857548
I'd love having the money to wear stupid fucking pieces like this one just once or twice.

why do people get mad at the word gaslighting it means the same thing as being memed into

"Ohhh, I'm more libertarian", "I'm a reactionary", "I'm a social conservative", "I'm a socialist", "I'm actually an anarcho-syndicalist Marxist radical feminist"... Ok, well the bad news is that it literally doesn't matter because you're politically powerless and you're going to get neoliberalism. That's all that's on the menu, you're not allowed to have anything else. Globalised free markets, global institutions which you cannot elect (or unelect) and a society governed by corporations, billionaires and their NGOs with puppet politicians who work in "public-private partnerships" a la WEF.

>>20857298
It's a conspiracy theory bro

>>20853773
Sometimes, if I don't feel like investing time in an IP that I've seen around, I'll just read a novel-length fanfic and call it a day. Sometimes I'll end up reading more. I have assimilated 5 or 6 IPs this way.

>>20857594
wow you didn't use your usual infantile anime pic, maybe you are finally growing up. how old are you now? 30?

I really want to write something here, but I am so tired that I can barely keep my own thoughts together. Also its too fucking hot.

>>20857573
same
>>20857577
I at least want it

just had an hour long vengeance fantasy in my head about a bullying incident that happened more than a decade ago
i'm a big time loser aren't i

>>20858662
let it go. that shit is not healthy

>>20858662
I still think about my ex who abused and cucked me a decade ago. The resentment only grows as I get older and realize how pathetic I was to let her cause such damage to me.
I think it's lack of new experiences and memories which makes us scour the past for every grievance and cringe.

This teacher types "y'all" and she complains about her students. It's like they cannot see that they're the problem and why kids turn against them, so they always blame anyone else.

>>20858464
You can influence everything including the people "on top". You could easily influence me right now if you had enough vitality/soul or whatever you call it. The materially richest are even more desperate for it. Convincing people is not about logic or ideological systems but relating to the intuitions, the vitality that has lead to them not killing themselves so far.

>>20857981
hard disagree

>>20857298
I'm finding it sooo easy. is it just me

>>20858662
>>20858686
I brood a lot about bad memories too. I feel so helpless about bad memories and the past because I can neither change it nor escape it. I feel more haunted as every year goes on

>>20858966
That's why confession exists

I'm working a job Im bad at and I feel bad about it.

>>20858973
Well I'm not sure what Id be confessing because i mostly brood about what happened to me rather than what I did

Is there anything better than Twin Peaks?

>>20858984
For being haunted by bad memories and brooding over meaningless things
>Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

>>20858973
Confession doesn’t help. I’ve confessed all my sins and I don’t feel any better. It just feels like a massive cope.

>>20859006
Maybe you didn't do it right

>>20858973
Kek, the whore who ruined my fragile youthful psyche was a devout catholic, and is a super conservative tradwife now. I’m sure Jesus has forgiven all those dicks she was taken behind my back while using me for booze, weed and endless stream of gifts.

>>20854533
Southern anon here, good luck finding anyone around here who knows what that means. Just pick any name with “American” and “Christian” and I guarantee you it will sound more realistic than the rest of yours combined.

>>20859031
>endless stream of gifts.
Ouch

>>20859039
Yeah, embarrassing. At least I got plenty of pussy, albeit a loose roast. Praise the Lord for such blessing.

>>20857298
I'm planning on making enough money to get out of society at some point in the next 10-20 years, hopefully before shit hits the fan. Hope to learn some useful skills and something about farming in that timeframe. I don't trust where society is going, and I'm seeing a lot of propaganda lately about how we need to accept "climate refugees" when things go south. Basically they're getting more brazen about wanting us gone from our lands and replaced with retarded pakis and niggers. I want to be at least somewhat prepared to either survive or die fighting against them. There won't be any use for money etc when we're outnumbered 10 to one in our own countries and society fails

>>20859049
How is Christ's fault that you were cheated on? You were giving her booze and weed so it doesn't sound like you were doing much good either.

>>20859039
>as I lay in my deathbed my biggest regret in life is definitely that I was too charitable, I should have hoarded more stuff

>>20859066
Charity is when you give to the poor not to whores lol

>>20859062
Christ is a meme.

>>20859073
I see, so you regret contributing to their sin. That's reasonable. Maybe you should find these whores and help them get their lives together to right your wrongs and be a net positive.

Where are my creative ideas? Why they dont choose me as a vessel to come forth into this realm?

>>20859098
He said that girl already fixed her life as she's a "tradwife" It's only the edgy atheist who is still depressed over something that happened years ago but calls Jesus a meme

>>20859098
Fuck off with larp, you aren’t getting any gifts.

>>20859108
So you’d marry such a whore? Very christian thing to do, although I’m sure her tradhubby doesn’t know even 5% of her past.

>>20859104
You don't help enough random whores.
>>20859109
Can I give you things? It means I'm better than you, that I win.

I hate how everything is transactional, everything.. Guess I should have listened to my past self and larp as a monk

>>20859120
>So you’d marry such a whore? Very christian thing to do
If she repents, yes, the Christian thing to do is to forgive her

>>20859129
>everything is transactional
What do you mean?

>>20859126
I have rich parents and never had to work a day in my life, why do you think the christ-whore latched on to me?

>>20859135
Kek, as expected.

>>20859138
People can give you other things than money. I suspect you need a beating and many would gladly provide. People are more charitable than you think.

>>20859137
What will you give me if I answer?

>>20859154
The church slut needed a beating - as suggested in your meme book no doubt - but instead she scammed inexperienced cuck (me), then tricked another inexperienced fool into trad marriage. Many such cases btw, I grew up in catholic community and the teenage daughters were universally degenerate until parents started demanding a wedding.

>>20859135
You can forgive her and not want to marry her though. I wouldn't have a moral issue with a reformed whore, but I'm not fucking committing to her

>>20859192
The issue in this particular case is that the husband knew nothing, at least not until the marriage. I met him several times, he’s tall and handsome dude from upper middle class family, no way he’d commit to a whore if he knew. Probably does now though, kek.

>>20859159
Hey I didn't write that
>>20859137
Anyway Anon, what I mean is that some experiences imply transcendence, be it art or love, whatever it is, you're reacting to it as if it's not the result of you needing the physical potential to get the experience. It's like with people taking psychedelics claiming to see the truth while in reality a person born blind wouldn't see a damn thing while taking them. It seems otherworldly, but in reality it's just in your head

>>20859224
Oh fuck. That's a shit one. How much of a whore are we talking? Hopefully he ditches her ass

I love to fuck and relationship whores. They're wild, we do drugs, and then fall apart in a shouting match.

Neorxnawang

>>20859240
At least one dude before me (claimed she was a virgin before our first sex of course) and at least 6 dudes while we dated for a while, maybe twice many. God knows how many before she got her hands on the gullible husband. She also had the nerve to try to get back together with me as they were already engaged. They certainly aren’t getting divorced though, it’s a super conservative trad marriage as I said.

i haven't been a christian for a while, but last night I as having my usual nightmares mixed with sleep paralysis and I suddenly just felt power to overcome it all coming from Jesus Christ

>>20853773
I always used to think "a page a day" was for slow-writing nerds.
Now I'm *lucky* if I manage a page a day.
But oh shit, one look at the internet and four hours just FLY by.

>>20859289
Did you kiss?

>>20859295
>But oh shit, one look at the internet and four hours just FLY by.
iktf

>>20859233
>it's not the result of you needing the physical potential to get the experience
What potential are you talking about? Just learning until it becomes clear to you without taking shortcuts?

>>20859178
It's always funny how retards think that being raised by retards in a life surrounded by retards says anything except reiterate that you're a retarded product of retards. You're not better or smarter than any of those dumb whores, you're one of them.

I feel like I'm destined to fail

>>20859325
Enjoy your reformed tradwhore. Jesus approves.

>>20859339
I would never touch an American. They actually leave physical residue like slugs. Your insane clown problems have nothing to do with me or anyone civilized.

>>20859354
I'm European lmao.

She postponed our date just to go to Kansas City to help her uncle even though we had planned this over a week in advance; I am doubting this relationship.

Dad just beat the shit out of Mom again. Based!

>>20859370
lmfao

I met a woman on the internet again. This is my first Scorpio. I'm down bad bros... she is so crazy and hot and freaky and sees right inside my soul. But she's already so high maintenance, she's paranoid and accusatory. So intense! It is gripping and dramatic but at heart I just want peace. Maybe women just aren't for me, kek.

>>20859461
Is this how zoomers socialize?

>>20859355
Polish doesn't count as civilized.

>>20859461
it's probably not even a tranny

i read some of that mccurdy chick's op-eds that she wrote for the wsj back in the day, and it's actually pretty good. it's not inconceivable that that book is not bad, surprisingly.

Jam, cheese, and mustard sandwich. Try it.

I can't stop obsessing about my read speed. I just read a page in 100 seconds. I counted the words, 302 (probably like 25 of them were "I").
181 WPM. Is that fine?

>>20859562
Grilled cheese dipped in apple sauce.

Well bros we were supposed to be finished with this project today but I fucked up a bunch and now the project cant be finished until we get new parts and clean up ny fucking mess. Very annoying especially since this is my last project with this company. This particular project has held me down in both employment and education for most of this year and I cant make progress with my life until its over.

>>20859010
How does one do it “right”?

I'm just not amused by bigotry anymore. Racists really are quite stupid. Homophobes too. Why did I ever want their approval? I'll make whatever I want.

What was the last time you felt true joy in life? How long ago was it?

>>20859785
Very sporadic and short moments. Racing a random person and laughing on the road because we both knew my car was comically slow but didn't care.

>>20859785
A year ago, when the most decorated genre fiction authoress in my country gave A+ review of my sole published short story. It's the first result when you google my name, have my photo there too. Unfortunately I haven't written anything since, just did drugs and booze. Pulling myself together now, reading a lot and preparing for next story.

>>20859774
Nigger faggot

>>20859785
9 and a half years ago

>>20859774
based non-chud

>>20859795
oh i had a nice one of those racing citibikes in manhattan against some yuppie dude, we just got off the train and grabbed bikes, he was prob going to work, i was going to meet a chick, we started flying down one of those streets in tribeca that's still paved with cobble stones, got vibrated to shit, then my hat blew off and i had to go back so he won. fun little memory.

>>20859785
A few weeks ago, when I was listening to music after having a nice little revelation about my life.

uh oh washington post has a story critical of zelensky. maybe the cia has decided they need a better figure head in ukraine. they probably wanted him to negotiate a peace before the midterm elections, but he's decided ukraine will fight to the bitter end. i wonder if he's gonna get diemed.

>>20859913
Who? Leader of what? Dont you know ukraine is so three current things ago?

pascal's wager is irrefutable

>>20859785
How true does the joy have to be to count?
https://youtu.be/mi106DZJhuQ

White people succeed despite living in a society where every institution is controlled by jews who hate them. Pretty impressive tbqh.

>>20859951
Hedging your bets is hardly a measure of faith

>>20859987
doesn't matter why you originally gained faith if you had absolute faith after the fact

i think i'm gonna go back to using amazon only for books. they sent me the wrong flavor of protein powder and my box of tuna packets was ripped and had obviously been opened by somebody. the stuff is all sealed, but it's just annoying. for 25% more i could have just bought basically the same shit at target and got it the same day.

>>20855343
Therapy might be somewhat of a meme but it really helped me with these issues.I’d recommend it. You just have to finde a good one. I also would talk about it with a friend and it was also good for me. But not as much as therapy.
And read Crime and punishment. Forgiving yourself and being reborn is possible.
I bid you good luck, anon. I hope you do better in the future.

Bros, I'm so bros right now bros, I bros bros. Bros.

Some fucking autist just spent the last hour showing me youtube videos about "epic nerf guns"

>>20860174
How I sound on valium probably

Been dealing with depression on and off for the last few months. The only thing I can do so far is to keep my head in the books and distract myself consistent work too keep the pain down I'm so fucked man

I'm not strong enough to be a good person.

Growing up in the US south really exposed me to all the hullabaloo of Christianity and all that, which of course started me down the path of a teenage atheist who thought rebellion meant repeating bullshit and watching Zeitgeist, though the latter was a bit later since that came out in my late teens. I also waffles between believing in God and not, which even led to me "being saved" at my friend's house (I had been staying them for a few months as my family's house was being completely redone). I was very immersed in the culture of Southern Christianity, as I'm sure some others would know.

Recently, a mentor of mine died. This was during the time I wasn't being an atheist ass and dedicated myself to faith again. We didn't talk much for about a decade or so, and with me being an asocial homebody that suited me fine. But now I'm just thinking damn. He was a very positive influence on me, and not just for religion or anything.

But yeah, there is still a part of me that wants a god to exist. A draw to a supernatural entity that gives purpose or at the very least, some answers. Maybe I'm being a delusional fool. Most likely. I'm sure a Christian, either real or fake, may reply to this with some weird, Christian platitudes. Or not. But I seek more beyond this veil of reality. Beyond the physical. There has to be something, right?

>remember things bible said
>want to believe in jesus
>read bible
>realize it's absurd
>stop reading bible
>remember things bible said....
repeat forever

I miss this little nigga like you wouldn't believe.

>>20860333
I am from the south and I was totally indoctrinated into christianity, not like normal church-going christianity but practically a cult, and now even though all reason tells me it doesn't make sense, I still want to be believe, but it is all just psychological, when you had songs playing about how jesus loved you while you were still in the womb, how the fuck am I supposed to not feel that I should believe in jesus. but if I were born in afghanistan it would be the same thing with islam and I would feel about jesus how I feel now about muhammad

Last two digits of my post is how many pushups I have to do right now.

>>20860396
I understand you, anon. The culture of our upbringing is important.

>>20860386
Manlets have no excuse.

>>20854681
If you are looking for girls on dating apps you will only get the biggest sluts with absurd standards and psychotic behavior. Hope you are prepared for that.

>>20860400
lol

do 20 anyways

I made every post in this thread.

i just made the best sandwich I’ve ever had

>>20860445
can i have a nibble

I made the mistake of trying to talk existentialism on /his/. I sort of forgot they were mainly a theology board now, if not the occasional "Trotsky did nothing wrong!" or "Which Romanov princess would you rescue and wife?" thread.

>>>/his/13820673

Chime in if you have anything to add.

>>20853773
8-18-22
August Eighteenth - The Fight Diary, Pt. 1
Let's start this by genuinely thanking God for a long night of rest. Fitful, interrupted, and ultimately leaving me beleaguered regardless, I am thankful that I did not wake up today knowing that I laid for the prior eight hours in a psuedo hypnotic state of sleepless statis. Sirs

I didn't have work today but my checked came yesterday and I've immediately reduced it by fifteen percent, as is my right. My days without work are inexcusably pointless, but I do find time to dedicate myself to my other hobby of writing, which I don't respect near enough. I've hardly done any writing or reading this season, and as a result my skills in that area have atrophied. I wonder if Gold's gym is named after a person. Is he Jewish? This would be troubling information. I don't want an answer.
So my whole thing with fighting started last week, but I've sparred for the first time since then today. For the sake of exercising my memory muscle, let's recount in a play by play manner those two rounds
I, as custom, immediately started spamming That Thing I Most Recently Learned On Youtube, in this instance a switch jab. I was able to, by extending the range on this punch, reach his body with my jab, but otherwise didn't find much success with this tactic as it puts you in a spot conducive to blitzing but I dont have the cardio or infighting defense to really commit, so I most landed a body jab and shuffled out. He snuck a few jabs above my cross guard defense. I get lazy on occassion and leave my lead hand low without actually using it reactively; this failure of defense effectively halves your gaurd and leaves you very open to straight left hands. Totally on me. Otherwise, he tends to hit me when I'm on the inside, this being within the length of his lead arm, but this initial weakness of my attack has forced me to develop a "wiggly" inside game, where I'm able to exit by performing a hard leaning cross or jab step to the outside

>>20860564
In the second round I committed to an active traditional guard, incorporating some rather predictable side to side head movement while darting in with straight punches. When my opponent gets used to the straight punch, I tend to feint a jab and then throw a lead hook, which works — sort of. My hook is a little slow so I'm able to bypass his blocking abilities but I haven't actually landed that hook, even accounting for the pace that we're sparring at making actual contact to the head prohibitive.
Of course, this more active approach completely fucking gassed me out. I'm in woeful shape, and I can't believe I let myself get to this point in a couple of years. I missed this sport, and in my absence I've gained some skills but neglected my conditioning. So for the remainder of the round I tried to distract him from my greedy inhalations by tossing out that jab from low-hand cross guard, which should be tricky as it styarts from below the sight line and either heads straight to the body or rises up to the head, but he's quite experienced and tends to catch my jab every time. Which is why I feint the jab and go to the hook but I'm too slow at it for the moment.
Then I ate chicken, broccoli, and cornbread. The end

>>20860564
>>20860570
Tldr

Germans really shouldn't hate themselves as much as they do. It's both hilarious and depressing how the Germans hate themselves, act on that self-hatred, and then the consequences of such act only spur more self-hatred - vicious cycle. Maybe it would be best for the German people if a united Germany never existed.

Quiero morir escribiendo, no vivir encerrado en este mundo del trabajo absurdo

>>20860719
either speak american or go back to mexico you fucking spic

>>20860719
sexo burrito

I am the monster in the dark.

>>20860277
sick

>>20859951
can we apply pascal's wager to a chain email

This world just seems needlessly cruel. One would expect there to be equal portions of pleasure and pain in life, but that doesn't seem right at all - life is clearly much more intolerable than it is enjoyable. We can live through horrors that exist outside the scope of our comprehension, yet we never experience joys that exist outside the scope of our comprehension.
I'm convinced that happy and successful people aren't real, they are just put on this Earth to make our suffering all the worse as we can see people with lives better than ours, and their pleasure seems to be in reach for us, but by fate we spurned by birth to be excluded from such and suffer.

>>20860804
>One would expect there to be equal portions of pleasure and pain in life,
Why would anyone expect that

>>20860808
because pleasure and pain are a duality. Men and women are a duality, and there's roughly and equal portion of those two. Day and night are a duality, and they exist for an equal amount of time. Hot and cold are a duality, and roughly equal portions of the Earth are hot and cold. It just seems natural one would infer that about the nature pain and pleasure as such equal dualities are found elsewhere in nature. Yin and Yang.
Although you seem like the sort that has never seriously thought about anything.

>>20860821
a needlessly cruel reply

>>20853773
What is on my mind is how it seems that the mere maintenance of happiness is becoming a chore.

Has all humans felt like this? Why is it that my boomer parents are more then okay with just watching netflix all day long.

The way that people interpret reality cannot be the same, but must have to do with genetics and environment.

Makes you then start to wonder what was in the mind of various people in various places and times.

Purhaps with next gen VR technologies and a future where liberalism expands to the idea of the diversity of opinion we will transcend again above the gaming realm and have "empathetic" experiences where you start to pretend to be an individual in a real place and given proper context.

Purhaps everyone will start to understand everyone in every time period and place after a good ol binge.
Be it the slave, explorer, farmer, emperor, serf, indian, canadian/Indian, a monkey, african, hut dweller, etc.

After you experience all experiences in a proper futuristic VR forcefeed fuck you you're going to learn everything and absolve the self.
You will be bored again.

If everything can be experienced by simply plugging into the matrix what is there to gain happiness?

How can something that everyone does or do ever give you any sort of satisfaction.
You have no unique ideas. Everything you can do someone will do better.
You are an idiot...but smarter then the average because the above average idiot at least knows they're an idiot.
Btw if you dont think you're an idiot you are.
You lost the game.

I don't know if my body dysphoria has returned or if I have been delusional about how I've good I look for the past few months. I swear I had at least some jawline. Now I am once again certainly an incel.

>>20855343
>I am a sick man.... I am a spiteful man. I am an unattractive man. I believe my liver is diseased.

>>20855343
stop hating yourself and go outside and find a retard being a retard and ask them if they're ok

met some cool people just doin that.
I mean they're all homeless but i mean who am i to judge...
homes are overrated anyways.

>>20860982
how much ketamine do you need for that

muh happiness
i need it so much
in my penis
so i cry about elon musk
and his space penis

>>20859461
It's official bros... she blocked me. I just now came for the first time in 6 days. I allowed her to keep me in a state of tease and denial for the purposes of sexual power play. What an orgasm. Jesus fucking christ. My only regret is not getting through one more day to get off on the phone with her. I've accepted that only insane and evil women like it, but femdom really is the fucking tops. What a woman.

For a brief moment I was outside of my manic obsessive thought loops. It felt productive and how one is suppose to think. I hope I get to experience that again someday.

>>20861284
yesterday morning i was on too much coke to get hard so a girl finished me in her mouth and then bought me some blueberries. there's no end to the ways in which nice things are nicer than nasty ones

>>20853773
I'm planning to call the bowling alley down the street from me to do this:
>"Hi, do you have 16-pound balls?"
>"Yes we do."
"THEN HOW DO YOU WALK?"
>*click*

The darkness engulfs me like an old friend. I am safe here. Protected from the bright, cruel world. I can breathe. I am free. The moon casts a pale light over everything, and I can see the beauty in the darkness. The shadows stretch like fingers, reaching out to touch my heart. I close my eyes and let myself be lost in the quiet embrace of the night.

>>20860386
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUrQ2GlVwys

>>20853773
so, the IRS is now a paramilitary group. why is this allowed?

>>20861835
it's a sneaky way to bring us closer to a federal police force something d.c. has wanted. can't let rural chud sheriffs and bipoc innercity mayors choose the appropriate level of law enforcement action for their community.

>>20855207
So a homo or troon. YWNBAW, sir.

i almost forgot the fbi protected whitey bulger while he ran organized crime in boston.

Got sexo on my mind

I don't know why I keep masturbating to live action pornography when my orgasms are much better when I masturbate to my imagination or softcore pictures of anime girls. Real pornography is actually revolting, I justly feel shame and disgust when I'm done looking at it. Not only are my imagination and pictures of anime girls a perfected ideal, such things also respect aesthetics and beauty from a non-sexual standpoint. In a sense I am not only indulging myself in my lowly carnal desires but also in a higher appreciation of beauty and creation. Meanwhile live action pornography barely has any thought put into camerawork, which most of the time seems to focus on the actual point of insertion rather than the actual object of arousal, which is the female form. Obviously I'm aware that pornography is programming people to be cucks, but this seems to hold true even in POV porn where the camera man just zooms in on his cock rather than on the woman. There's also a blatant disregard for proper lighting and audio quality and all the male porn stars seem to be fat ugly jews or niggers. There are no handsome or cute male porn stars so it's impossible to have any form of both aesthetic and sexual appreciation for the male porn stars. Granted, they are not supposed to be the object of attention in a porno, but given at how often the camera work puts man-ass and dick in frame you would begin to think otherwise. Real porn is just incredibly low-brow and plebian with no thought towards the greater aesthetics that could be, while ecchi, being made by people with actual artistic experience, is capable of transcending the initial intention of decadent fulfillment into an appreciation of an artwork, even if such art lacks merit compared to proper fine art. Not surprising that real porn would be so devoid of beauty, considering (((who))) makes it. Although I need to stop looking at porn and cooming altogether.

>>20861681
kek

>>20862010
Why was this post deleted? hmm...

I think my hatred towards women stems from me hating mom.

By the law of attraction, I'll get dubs right now because I'm imagining it
check'em fags

>>20862404
sucks to suck lmao

>>20853825
i think people mistake "wanting to learn" with "wanting to ask questions". it might seem smart and inquisitive to ask around and look dumb but if this person doesn't *do* anything then its all signaling. related: i had a reading list on my website that i militantly followed to prove to people that i'm not full of shit when i ask (the rule is anything recommended by somebody I trust goes to the front immediately). it isn't advice per-se but it follows the dichotomy i've mentioned above and it works for me mostly (i still keep the list but it isn't public because i miss my schizo-poster online gf and i'm debating whether to add the schizo-poster things to the list since its publicly tied to my identity. i'm leaning towards yes but unsure and it isn't a big priority right now).

>>20862429
i'm this guy again if that helps any of y'all

>>20854785
>>20853852
unironically i came back to /lit/ today for the first time in probably five years (left in 2017 roughly) and back to 4chan in the past month (mostly /fit/). y'all are pretty good motivators on this front

>>20854681
be a schizo-poster irl and you'll slay so hard

>>20854682
nah mutual dependence is how trust is formed at all. you might be right in broad terms but the majority of successful people throughout history have never been truly "self-sufficient" as an absolute

>>20857228
i throw everything in onenote with onenote web clipper for firefox. i also throw a lot of shit i want to read later into a to-do list

i downed a 16oz can of cider and the buzz only lasted like 1 or 2 hours. overrated

>>20862536
Lose weight you fat cunt.

>>20862558
im underweight. i'll give you time to recalibrate your endless well of wisdom

>>20853773
I think some people are just destined to die young. For their lives to be a tragedy.

Just got back from the store - bought a good cup of black coffee and a tin of tobacco. Supremely comfy, about to sit down and read some Proust while the late summer rain drizzles. Gonna see some old friends I haven't seen for a while tomorrow.
Who else here /simple pleasures/?

>>20862591
that sounds awesome. just finished my exercise routine for the day, sipping coffee and shitposting on my couch via the TV. recently graduated but i'll pop over to a quiz bowl practice later today since i'm still living in the area. i'll be in the area until i can nab a job, otherwise i'll just be around

https://soundcloud.com/fivioforeign/paris-to-tokyo

>>20862384
I could've made this post.

>>20862588

Can i get some recommendations?

>>20860821
>roughly equal portions of the Earth are hot and cold
Wrong
>Day and night are a duality, and they exist for an equal amount of time
Wrong
What a fucking midwit statement. I could easily turn it around and say that since pain and pleasure are not equal then one has no reason to expect other dualities to exist in such equality.

/x/ exists, why do esoteric/occultfags keep shitting up the board?

Why can't I let myself enter relationships? Many I've started up to the point where the girls waiting for it to become official and then I end it. One thing is that I see it can't be a super long term thing as there are some obstacles between us. I know we should give it a go but something about a desultory love that seems unattractive to me. Another is this Christian guilt that I can't shake off.

Going to work again(day ruined!)

>>20853773
I think some peoples life's are just destined to be a tragedy and end early

>>20862648
I will rape your ass, fag.
>>20862661
boo fucking hoo. you should kill yourself

Does /wwoym/ have tulpas?

>>20862752
What Would Old Yahweh Do?

>>20862761
What Would Old Yahweh Mean(by this)?

>>20862761
He would smite the majority of people that have tulpas because they are unabashed degenerates. If not by his own hand, he would command me to do so.

>>20862770
The Old Gods demand Blood.

>>20862752
I summon and bind demons. I don't make them up. We can't bind the big guys but we can talk to them. It's very risky since you have to be open to temptation but not weak enough to submit.

>>20858686
>>20858966
>dive into escapism to forget that shit
>now stuck in the black hole of escapism

Not living up to my own expectations.

>>20862649
because glow in the darks and witchy karens keep shitting up /x/

>>20862913
Escaping escapism has been a struggle, but living in reality, as shitty as it is, is preferable to daydreaming my life away

>>20862948
if you're ruminating excessively of the past you're already daydreaming may as well dream of something nice so you're motivated to continue with life

>>20862643
why do you hate your mom?

>>20862948
and what the fuck is reality anyway fucking pseud

just remembered im the xi jinping of weed smoking

Americans be like "Hi I'm from Indiana, Pennsylvania"

>>20863026
any relation to shinzo abe of cock sucking?

>>20862965
I'm escaping my ruminations as much as I am fantasies. They go hand in hand really. I recall a bad memory and then fantasize about a situation where everything went right

Father came home with the good bread again. It was only a matter of time... Some people drown their pain away with liquor and drugs. Me? I drown my bread with olive oil and balsamic...and it causes my pain. What can I say? I'm an addict. Half a loaf? Full loaf? A loaf and a half? Makes no difference to me, Ill eat whatever's there. My family wakes me up some mornings. "Where'd all the bread go?! Did you eat the whole loaf?!!" It all seems so ridiculous, but then again, aren't all addictions? I can't help myself. That golden oil slowly soaking into the slice as that sweet sweet vinegar seeps into it. Its just so beautiful. I become entranced. I disassociate. Sleepless nights rolling around in bed caused by the pains in my stomach. Sometimes I wonder if this affliction will kill me one day. Maybe its not such a bad way to go out...Only God knows at this point. For now I must get back to the bread. I can hear it calling my name....That beautiful loaf and those gleaming bottles of Gallo and Colavita.

My body is ready.

>>20853773
Damn, my tastes are 100% optimized.

what are the philosophical implications of sissygasming?

>>20863033
"Hello I'm from Kansas City, Missouri"

what the fuck is philosophy

>n-no i'm not a dyke it's just a vestigial grooming habit where we jewish girls like take off our underwear and go down on each other's private parts
the fuck

>>20863123
Well it's definitely a result of grooming

>>20863129
>let me critique the cleanliness of the folds of your dick by checking on the build up of smegma bro

"OLIVE BRANCH" MY ASS YOU FUCKING FAGGOTS

>>20862920
when high expectations aren't met it's your expecting sides fault not your underachieving

>>20862920
It'd be bad if you were ygm

>>20862038
i want to cum i need to cum
if you're down meet me in the unisex bathroom

>>20863149
You disgusting faggots have no self awareness.

>>20862770
You believe whatever is convenient for you at the time, kind of like I.

Isn't there a new gold rush somewhere? If Spengler was right, why is it China in Africa and not America? Why is there no country for us analogous to what Africa was for Cecil Rhodes? It's all just nerd wars in Silicon Valley.

>>20861284
that's not femdom

>>20863452
because africa is in america

I just want to go home. It's been made completely unrecognisable and the only home left exists in my mind as memories that taunt me. I'm tired of having no home. The dregs of energy left at the bottom of my tank are sludge, too thick and corrupted to contribute any further. I am tired bros.

in my mind i have this image where statue of liberty is impaled george floyd's bbc and some white trash mutt in the back is going "aww yeah give it to her baby"
does it exist somewhere someone must have drawn something like that

>>20863573
how is it not

>>20863033
>>20863106
HELLO IM FROM PEE PEE, OHIO

hell ya friday night time to screw around on 4channel.org

>>20863155
Olive branch? I said "I love ranch"

red hot chili peppers are coming out with another album? didn't they just have one this spring? wth?

>>20864110
I also love ranch
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MADvxFXWvwE

>>20864124
addicted to the shindig

TU ESTA DURA SIN IR AL YIM

>>20863110
the science of repression

Link to the other thread
>>20853566
>>20853566
>>20853566