/lit/ - Literature

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=HsLfrpEAfB8&t=3180s

I just saw this. Incredible.

I forgot to link the previous thread
>>20833611

Being a 33 year old neet can be hard sometimes.
You try to be mindful that well, you missed your chance to be a big shot. There's peace of mind but yet there's this nagging voice that tells you well maybe you could still be a big shot. But overall it's not too bad. Not sure if I'm wiser or just coping.

After spending some time away from this board I have come to see how insufferable it is, especially /wwoym/ threads in particular.
Starting with the obvious, very little people here actually read. There's plenty of discussions regarding books but there's hardly any in-depth discussions about the contents of such books. Posters here will often state that women and normies are shallow and superficial and will never be able to truly understand literature but it seems all the posters here also have a shallow understanding of such literature, as if they just read it all off of SparkNotes and Wikipedia, and the posters themselves are just spreading such shallow understanding out of their own superficiality, masked in post-irony.

It seems to be a common sentiment that this board is in decline, but there seems to be absolutely no "effortposts", and the few effortposts that I have seen recently seem to garner outright hostile replies, as if other anons are trying to dissuade effortposting. No one makes any attempt to properly structure or refute an argument anymore, it's just all come down to the typical meme responses that are found on every other board at this point. While the anons who attack effortposters are likely not those who are upset at the declining quality of the board, I would not be surprised many of those anons are in fact the ones who are bitter about how distasteful the board has become, given the astounding lack of self-awareness that can be found here.

There is also an unbearable amount of negativity on this board, and in /wwoym/ threads in particular. These threads are nothing more than an extension of /r9k/. There are nearly identical posts in each thread about how someone feels lost or depressed or whatever. Some normie broke up with his fifteenth girlfriend and feels so fucking boo-hoo sad. Some faggot didn't get his drugs or whatever. Anons with daddy issues and mommy issues. I have some fucking advice but none of you will want to hear it: you are making yourself sad. You don't have direct control over your thoughts and feelings, but you have control over your behavior. Your behavior affects your thoughts and feelings. If you keep letting yourself get sad, you will stay sad. No one gets sad when they are busy. When you are busy you will fix the problems that make you sad. I don't want to open up /lit/ and see the billionth post from some whiny 16-25 year old who is convinced his life is over because of some trivial bullshit. Grow the fuck up. Stop ruminating, stop willingly partaking in destructive behaviors. Get some basic self-awareness and stop using these threads as your personal diary for some gay faggot shit. It's not just in these threads, it's all over the entire board. Every fucking day. Some new sad frog thread gets posted. "Recs to help me get over my torn anus?" I only get stupider the more I am on this board. We all get more stupider.

It's time for me to leave this board. See you tomorrow. Hopefully not.

I have no energy and I'm always tired, I feel like I'm already dead

My dad said he wants to have a chat with me. He almost never talks to me but he's weird and just as autistic as me. I was really drunk and flipping out in my room when he came to check on me and its been hours and he still hasn't knocked on my door to have the chat with me. A couple nights ago I was totally drunk, I had a whole bottle of vodka and my mom came into my room and she had to watch me just bawling my head off for twenty minutes. I think she told my dad. I just want to die, but I also want to read books. I guess its better to have noble aspirations than to be satisfied with being a dumb piece of shit.

>>20839986
4chan is in decline, it is nothing but a shadow of its original form and that also applies to the internet to a great extent
It is sad and I only come here because I don't know where else to go

I want to read something and also fuck.

>>20839989
me too and it started after i got the vax. maybe that just corelated with getting out of shape due to lockdowns and work from home, but either way, i'm always tired with no energy. my body feels heavy like gravity is 1.25x. everything takes more effort.

I don't know what I want to do with my life and I feel like it is too late for everything
dumb zoomer post number 25053405034, but whatever

>>20839955
8-14-22
August Fourteenth - Thee Olde Towne
I don’t remember falling asleep last night, I can’t recall a dream. That familiar ache that comes with emerging from unconsciousness is suspiciously absent. I feel well rested, but I shouldn’t be, as if I did fall asleep, it was only for a handful of hours. I’m always worried about having a seizure, so the uncertainty about getting any sleep last night is ironically worsening my anxiety and making that entire thing more likely.
My intention today was to see the old town, I like to wallow in my origin of urban decay and lament the lost home of so many childhood memories that I can’t even remember having. The way is easy, even on foot; cut through the neighborhood by the County’s Worst Middle School, take a shortcut through the Christ United Methodist Church parking lot and if you’ve got the tightrope skills you can ride the little mound of straw colored grass by he road all the way to Redacted Mall.
At least, you could. Now they’ve got sidewalks with a little crossing by the intersection. It’s nice that they’ve got amenities like that these days, not so friendly a gesture now that the university’s set to walling off large swaths of the city. That old church is behind a ten foot unscalable wall of puce tinted scrap. Everytime I step outside I see more of the city locked away behind walls and fences, cheap aluminum posts twisted up to resemble that old aristocratic wrought iron, topped with anti impoverished spikes for a little flair.
Let’s say I got turned around then, sent back from where I came. I thought I’d at least get some snaps of Urban Decay, the internet loves that shit, reminds them that death and irrelevance waits for even the most modern of conventions. Also, when stripped of neon signage and emptied of their thousands of regular patrons, town malls reveal themselves as architectural tumors. They’re a neat shoot is what I’m saying.Not that I can photograph for anything, that’s the domain of my family members with talent. I just LARP.
Instead of Urban Decay, enjoy a very live picture of Urban Debauchery. A busy apartment complex where they used to and probably still run a prostitution thing. Idk. Yesterday Dominick Cruz got sent to hell by a head kick, that head dipping-while-darting-sideways finally got him in the end. It’s always what you most expect

>>20840002
Yeah man, I've only been here since 2017, but the decline is palpable and going somewhere else would involve going outside. I went to Walmart, and that was definitely outside, but it didn't help. Oh well.

>>20839955
I wanted to kill niggers but then I realized that most niggers are based, it's the american niggers who are fake bitches
I then wanted to kill trannies but they do it themselves
Now I want to kill americans in general

>go to giant outlet mall to buy work shirts
>hordes of mexicans and indians and gay europeans
>everyone shuffles around like zombies munching on snacks and standing in the way and breathing my air
>mexicans have to be told constantly they cant sit on displays and flower pots and cant have their kids lay on the floor with their tablets
>some guy has to be told three times he cant stand in the doorway when everyone is just trying to leave the store
>he doesnt speak english and clearly cant take a hint
>find a place to sit and eat
>indian family right behind me is on facetime as loud as possible while everyone is coughing for some reason
>only notice about 5-10 white people and they all look just as uncomfortable
>finally get to the store i needed to go to
>someone literally farts on me
>leave
i need to leave this city

I don’t know if it is the pressure of change in general that works me over or maybe it is the things themself but between feeling pathetic all the time and thinking I am as charismatic as Napoleon Bonaparte it feels impossible to trust what it is that I tell myself is true. My Father is diagnosed Bipolar so logic would say I am as well but that’s too easy and that’s a cop out theory. Someone as smart as I think I may be would be able to navigate the mental maze if put myself in. There in that last statement I accused myself as the one at fault for things objectively and easily seen as not in my control, nor even close to it. It’s stacked up until the point where any minor affront in my direction sends me all the way down to the bottom. I have made it this far without naming that which occupies the entirety of my mind these days for a lot of cowardly reasons, namely that I am afraid they will not be seen as legitimate enough to constitute a mental breakdown, and also that the mention of them will bring them to life because as they are now they are simply fears of what may be to come. I have access to therapy but instead of the obvious correct choice in utilizing that privilege I feel that the pressure of making the mission at work more difficult on my coworkers keeps me from speaking up about that fact that I am contemplating suicide in a serious manner for the first time since I was 6 when I spent 6 months faking sick and crying all day and night until it suddenly went away and the following year I think could only be described as mania although it’s ridiculous to suggest a young’n could for one go through that manifestation of the two headed demon which haunts my Father or two that I could be a trusted narrator to myself in defining what it was like. Without a shadow of a doubt if my Mother’s cancer takes her this time I will make an attention-seeking attempt on my life which will ironically set me up to get out of the job that I hate so much and grant me near 100% disability from the Veterans Assembly. My saintly fiancé is the only thing keeping the attempt an attempt and not a complete action, maybe my kid brother as well but even thoufh I know for a fact it isn’t true I still have the voice in my head telling me everyone of them would be better off were I gone and now that I am writing this and remembering back to what I’ve written I am laughing at myself for doing a great job of describing teenage angst although I am 26 this year. There isn’t much else on my mind anymore but I have a lot to be blessed for and I wish I still had thay charisma from when I was younger when I thought that I regularly observed God answering my prayers directly, like when I prayed for a summer job and the conversation with God was interrupted by a call in response to my resumé or when I was 14 and I told God to show me a sign and that sedan was hit in front of me because it cut me off a half mile earlier. I’m sorry I’m a baby.

I live in quiet desperation

>>20840054

l cant sleep

Every day is a blessing.

>>20839970
If you put 1/1000th of the effort you put into shill-posting, into improving your writing ability, you might have written something worth reading by now.
Is your constant shill-spamming your admission that you've peaked?
Also, how is it you keep forgetting that you get your ass handed to you constantly? See >>20815410 for a reminder.

>>20839980
>Being a 33 year old neet can be hard sometimes
Yeah, so much more difficult than being a child soldier in Sierra Leone.
Go read "A Long Way Gone" and then be thankful for what you have.

>>20840018
Let's say I've ended my day without an event or episode, and other than a feeling like a featherlight insect has burrowed between the c1 and c2 of my spine, I've been in fine health. I watched most of an awful movie with my mom. The romances they feed millenials are really funny reflections of the generation and how miserable their dreams are. Two absolute wretches, scarred by trauma and trained to cope in the least healthy and most psychosis inducing ways engage in an imaginary romance that they eventually hypnotize themselves into enjoying. One goes to jail. Both are diseased. This is the best you have to hope for but thank god for tricyclics. We ate a lukewarm meal of fried chicken and biscuits in front of the television. We watched something and enjoyed none of it.

I think my inability to sleep comes from intentionally sleeping on my right side in an effort to correct the crookedness I developed from lying on my left. This experiment has a low likelihood of correcting my facial asymmetry and a medium high likelihood of killing me via insomnia related mental strife. Either outcome is pretty funny.

>>20839986
I'm a newcomer to /lit/ as I'm only somewhat of a reader in the past few years. Being a 4chan sperg, I came here trying to see if there's anything of value. To my surprise, even in this state, it's one of the most valuable and constructive boards on here. There's a lot of fruitful discussion and it has the signature 4chan flair. It might just be me having a thing for Oswald Spengler or the /pol/-like homofascism of >seppuku man
but matter of fact is I love it here. I don't get it how come r9k and b retar(frien)ds are trying to go all Hiroshima on us with their emotions but it's awful. We get it, you're miserable. That's about, well, every other writer.

>>20839986
>very little people here actually read
Yoda? Is that you?
>unbearable amount of negativity
This is a containment thread; otherwise, this crap would be all over /lit/ .
Also, it's /wwoym/, not /adv/. If they actually wanted advice, they'd go there.

>>20840002
>I don't know where else to go
Have you considered this place?
But skip WalMart, apparently... >>20840024

>>20839980
Please tell me what you do during a week and then tell me again how hard it is.

>>20839970
Flat-earthers are flatheads

>>20839955
i sent my manuscript out to 10 publishers! and ive got practically the entirety of my 2nd book planned out :).

>>20839986
I agree. This entire thread is just people bitching about their lives. I feel massively superior to all of you and I'm glad to leave this board

>eat at american chain restaurant
>everything is salty
>the bread is salty
>the salad is salty
is this a boomer thing?

Man is haunted by thought. The best of us are fated to attempt with all their might to go beyond representation and fail miserably, its result being either greatness or madness and ironically an expansion of that which they tried to surpass.

Lately I've been thinking about a lot about the end of the world, and how lame it will be, how people become more and more disembodied as they immerse into a digital dystopic hellhole where 15 seconds videos and unruly desires dictates people behavior and how these are used purposefully by people whose only purpose is maximize shareholders profit.

In a certain sense Player Number One is genius by how idiotic it is. It depicts a world exactly like ours except it says "haha wouldn't be nice if we didn't have these cumbersome bodies? we could have any appearance we want without need of food, piss, shit. it encapsulates very well a generation of people whose identity is becoming less and less predicated on their physical characteristics and more and on vague vaporous terms

>>20840155
It’s an unhealthy marketing ploy to get you to order more sugary drinks. I hate it.

>>20839980
Like have you always been a NEET or just recently and if the former how did you mentally survive through your 20s.

>>20840164
Those pseuds will die off, unlamented.
The survivors will recreate a civilization worth living in.

>>20840179
I went to college until I was 24 dropped out, went to work for a year doing data entry, went to sone rehab because my parents wanted to get rid of me, worked at a McDonald's for a month, robbed a bank with a note, spent 2 years and a half in prison. Got out, went to Thailand, got into a phony unpaid internship for webdev for a year. Then I worked as a teacher for three months and the rest is pretty much neet. Story of my life.

>>20840155
imagine being culinarily filtered by a fast food restaurant
do you usually eat black bread and pea soup or something

>>20840164
Do you mean that YA novel? I remember my coworkers in their 20s and 30s being "hyped" when the trailer came out for the movie.

The perplexing thing is that as our entertainment becomes more vapidly escapist and outright childish, at the same time we take it more seriously. People will chat about how these fantasies now might come true, and they want it. People my age don't want children. They aren't getting married. They can't buy houses. They're stuck in dead end jobs. They don't believe in anything. Life, now, is a rush to consume. Everything is memes. TikTok used to be a joke and now in a matter of a few years it's a part of people's lived. Politics is a circus. People casually say that life is meaningless, that is, if they talk at all. Sometimes I see flashes of earnest humanity in people, but it's fleeting because they have no means of maintaining that spirit. The culture doesn't support it. Of course I know "smart" people as well, and they don't seem any better off because everything is such a fucking slog no matter who you are. Sometimes I wonder why I'm not depressed. I think it's because I grew up poor that I have been immunized against consumerism. That's honestly the reason I started reading. I didn't have a lot to do. It's different for people growing up now, because everyone on the planet has a smart phone.

>>20840116
I found nothing but disappointment and regret outside, I'm not meant to live with other human beings, I'm a genetic failure.

>>20839970
Based

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hzPylqS01qU

>>20840232
I'm the guy who ended up moving to Thailand. So here's what I think. America is no good if you're not making money, that's the whole point of America. But if you're not making money you can't move to the third world like I did. So yeah its kind of fucked. Guess try that whole compound interest for 10 years or something idk

>>20840002
the internet sucks now. the only good thing about this board is sometimes you might find a good rec, but i can already find more recs than i can read from other places, so it's not worth the shitness really. fall semester is about to start, good enough time as any to leave this place. obviously i'll be back at some point, but hopefully later than sooner.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1v170oM67U

What is with the sudden anti-porn shilling? Did some feminazi or chud make their way to this board?

>>20840294
>guy cheats on his wife with a hooker
>blames it on porn
dude please

>>20840342
porn is supported by women because women can make millions out of it without doing anything
women shill against prostitution, not porn

>>20840342
Schizophrenics. They don’t realize they’re on a porn board.

>>20840164
you're gay. I love the dystopic future because so many people will die and I live in a country where dying is virtually impossible

>>20839970

>>20840305
Now if you're young here's my advice. Don't go to college, don't beat yourself up for not having a better job, etc...
Just make money for 10 years at whatever shit job or anything you can find, put it into a money blob and get the fuck out. You will be able to live with $1500 a month worth of interest or what have you if you pick the right place.

>>20840376
You're living in the distant past.
Who is paying 5% interest anymore?
It's more like 0.01%.

>>20840396
5% per year is conservative for stocks

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=HsLfrpEAfB8&t=3148s

Thanks to whoever originally posted this. This is amazing.

>>20840399
You're still living in the distant past.
The stock market has been disconnected from fundamentals since 2008.
The prime mover of stock prices now is Federal Reserve policy.

>>20840422
Well people say we're heading towards a recession so that might put things on hold. But at the same time you'll be able to buy cheapies. I'm personally bullish on Hyundai since they own Boston Dynamics. Only company that makes robots hello. That's about it though. Everything else I can think of is uncertain. I mean Tesla also say they'll make robots but Tesla is kind of weird.

Whenever I remember that he holds me in contempt, I feel a pit open up in my stomach. I’m so tired of being sad. I can’t go on like this.

Sometimes when I'm driving home from work and I get onto my street, I throw my car into neutral as this song plays (https://youtu.be/VGNwXq6vPoI)) and just coast it into my driveway. Sometimes this is the highlight of my day.

>>20840548
Have you tried not being a whiny cunt?

>>20839980
My neet days are coming to an end. I'll be a wagie wizard.

I see the future. I'm going to click the "Post" button.

>>20840342
People are beginning to wake up.

So when people say pre-modern/pre-capitalist systems were functional/great/superior/whatever, are they forgetting the historical periods which featured wars on such a scale that the casualty rate is best measured as a % of the adult male population? I hate the antichrist don't get me wrong but why do some people here love to pretend that going back (to what, exactly? And how?) would be rosy?

https://youtu.be/FT26Xz9BYew

>>20840912
Gooooood morning sir.

>>20839980
>tfw 28 and absolutely done with neet life after 10 years and ready to go out in the world and make an actual life for myself
>health is fucked and is keeping me from making good progress at unfucking myself, decade if not decades of extremely unhealthy and sedentary lifestyle has caught up with me and it feels like my heart is going to give out any day now, used to be only when i drank alcohol and smoked weed but now im just straight fucked all the time and my heart is palpitating badly unprovoked for a few days now

im going to die, probably soon i think. kinda weird to think about it, but as soon as this shit started happening even now that im eating better, not drunk, and haven't smoked weed in ages, its kind of dawning on me that this is escalating and is not jut something that happens when i push myself once and a while. perhaps I should see a doctor. i wish chose a different path in life.

>Through his studies in philosophy, he believed that existence is based on internal human perception, which does not necessarily correspond to external reality. He described himself as "an acosmic panentheist," believing in the universe only as an extension of God. After reading the works of Plato and pondering the possibilities of metaphysical realms, he came to the conclusion that, in a certain sense, the world is not entirely real and there is no way to confirm whether it is truly there. This question from his early studies persisted as a theme in many of his novels.

>>20839955
i love beer

>>20840942
>but why do some people here love to pretend that going back would be rosy?
Because they can't conceive us going somewhere we never have been before, or even worse, that there is no where to go besides wherever capitalism is taking us. maybe where just on a ride we can't get off, and ohhh boy is it a fucked up ride.

You there, who is writing another "woe is me" post. Kill yourself.

>>20841029
Ah, so it's like a collective nostalgia. I don't know why I hadn't thought like that before. It seems odd to me to have one's nostalgic pining directed towards something as intangible as an historical economic system or what have you. I know nostalgia is never literal, so to speak, but I wonder if it naturally takes a more abstract character for certain kinds of people. I'm thinking that since regulars here are more likely to be some kind of outcast (not that I'm projecting...) that our nostalgic impulse is more likely to attach itself to abstract or impersonal things rather than concrete people and places in our lives as these are fewer and further between.

I'm thinking that perhaps the longing for the past, which is a permanent feature of human culture in some place or another, is more likely to be expressed by the introverts among (s)us.

Finally, I need to stop killing time and get to work.

>>20839955
Why do cars have to be so expensive right now? Life is so sad and boring without a car

I wonder which people I've interacted with over the years were parasitically controlled and which ones were glowies...

Actually, I wonder if any were glowies at all

>>20839955
The intersection between mathematics and linguistics

>>20841138
WHAT ARE YAH SELLINNNN?

>>20840058
So many of us do

Know what i miss? Leetspeak. What could be better than being a 13 year old n00b blackhat on the early 2000s internet?

Sitting in my parents empty house I wonder what to spend this new day on. I bought my ticket to go home tomorrow so this is my last day at home. Though why I still call it home I dont know, moved out for the second time 4 years ago now. Perhaps Ill end up here in the end, but that thought fills me with a sense of stagnation, I really should make my own life, be open to whatever impulses are sent my way. But I've become so closed, stuck in this deadend lane of comfort.

I really want a partner, but I'm never feeling the connection I'm looking for.

I want to be a Great Man. Any books to help me realise this aim?

>>20839980
I can relate, im a 32 year old NEET (even though i am looking for work).
I wish i had it in me to write a book.
>>20839989
This. Except im also angry and so would come back to haunt the living.

Im too empty headed and burned out for creative pursuits.

My 40th birthday is imminent. I have a choice between going all out to try and finally fit in with society, get sensible and settle down. And being miserable. Or saying fuck it and continuing to live like a neurotic adolescent entertaining wildly idealistic notions of one day 'making it'. And being miserable. If nothing else, I'm finally beginning to accept what I am - a strange loser. And it doesn't really bother me anymore.

>>20839986
>very little people here actually read.
Thanks for being the best part of >>>r/pseud/.

>"If she ran away, what then? She had no taste for filth or hunger, nor the cold wind by night, nor the certainty of rape."
>Madouc was uncertain as to the exact meaning of the word. "What is 'rape'?"
A whole 46 pages for Vance to mention rape. Surprisingly far into the novel for him, honestly.

I am a big fan of videogamedunkey and I am not ashamed to say it.

>>20840548
it's probably pretty nuanced on his side too.

I don't mean to intrude but I'm curious how you'd think about a statement like the following:
>Jesus was a master of the jewish tradition. The apparent difference in his doctrine from pharisaic (I think? this is me, the post writer not being 100% sure of what word is best) legalism does not mark a step away from judaism, but rather its completion. He is the aim and ideal of judaism, but a religious acolyte can not expect to immediately imitate a master, it takes work, and that work is to be found in, was found by him, in judaism.
God knows best but it's something I've been thinking of. It makes sense to me if you look at him as a master of what is a broader tradition, a tradition earthier in some ways than the lofty ideals he represents.

>>20841167
>tfw base20 sounds like "heh"' in my language
One of many reasons nobody should trust our books

Do you know what's weird? The rest of the Tony Hawks Pro Skater soundtrack is pretty awful.

>>20840354
It depends, some realizes that porn reduces women to means of sexual gratification for men and hate it, some may even realizes that it's just a lose-lose situation for both men and women, where only pornographers win. Then there are those who just cares about personal gain, and doesn't care about all the men's life that they are destroying

>>20840579
Comfy

>>20841580
>And being miserable. If nothing else, I'm finally beginning to accept what I am - a strange loser. And it doesn't really bother me anymore.
This isn't so bad - until you interact with others and all your illusions are destroyed.

>>20840307
>but i can already find more recs than i can read from other places
what other places?

>Northrop Frye: What happens to the hero of Kafka's Trial is not the result of what he has done, but the end of what he is, which is an "all too human" being.

Frye, like so many others before and after him, fails to recognize the material conditions that make K's arrest possible: the court, the security service, and the staff of clerks. These repressive apparatuses did not arise out of the blue, but are the result of political actions and inactions. K knew that he had done nothing wrong, but this very ignorance – in the face of social hierarchies, economic competition, and inequity – becomes a criminal act. K is bludgeoned by the machines he himself has maintained. Fuck K, fuck Frye, fuck id.

>>20839986
>very little people here actually read
kek

>>20840018
this is the second time I've had a fight I haven't watched yet spoiled for me in one of these threads. fucking cunt, dude. I was too busy to watch it before and now in this thread of all places you take all the air out of it

>>20840813
Their post was, despite being sad, actually well written. Why even come to these threads where its designated depression central.

Here there be feed
Rivers of seed
Little people that actually read
In the land of Lord Sneed

>>20841536
I think there used to be ways to be great men short of being part of the super rich. I don't think that's an option anymore. Imagine if Elon musk blurted out one of pols talking points. Well there'd be a national debate about it. Not that I'm that I'm a polack but there's a significant difference between what some random people say and what the super rich say.

Speaking of people not reading. Understanding psychological issues and trying to say anything results in this, uneducated mongs coming out in throngs to give useless flippant advice. Nightmares directly caused by PTSD aren't normal nightmares. Retards can't comprehend this.

I might be a covert narcissist.

Despair not little people for I am here
With all the answers, you have nothing to fear
Depression, heartbreak and various cancers
Gone with one jab of gear

>>20841863
I think I might be one too. Do you have faith in yourself?

What do I have to do to be a hero? I want a white and blue character portrait, not a black and red one. I want to be a paladin, but what is the good?

>>20841877
No, not really. I wish I could be classic narcissist. Atleast I'd have delusional self-confidence.

>>20841927
I was of the understanding that narcissists are actually incredibly insecure and use narcissistic behaviour to manipulate others into giving them confidence.

>write long-winded, off-topic post of hashpipe musings
>say "slave morality" once or twice
>post picture of Nietzsche
>>>>>>""""what do you mean that's not literature? I posted a picture of Nietzsche!""""

Wen wiked pipol and my enemies won kom attack and kill mi,
dem dey stagga fall.
Even doh strong sojas gada round mi, my heart nor go fear.
Even if dem attack mi, I don go shek at-all.

>>20841951
Yes, that one of the methods. You need a lot delusion to scale out the extremely low self-worth.

>>20840155
>move out of the states to eu at 15
>10 years later visit for the first time again
>fondly remember sweet tea
>order it at a pizza place
>take a sip
>immediately spit it out
It was like fucking syrup. It actually tasted like you'd buy it at a store to mix with water. It was so sweet, I couldn't even force myself to finish it. American food is so fucked up, and if you live there you don't even notice.

>>20840942
>we don't have big wars anymore because of capitalism
are you insane?

>>20842094
corn lobbysm

>>20842099
I never said or implied that.

Does Frater still post?

Bros I'm kind of tired of thinking about politics desu
I don't have to think about politics, politicians and academics do and well they kind of suck cause they don't seem to be able to solve problems like healthcare even. But it's nobody else's problem.

>>20840942
Yeah, they do either forget it or romanticize it. Some people just referring to modern capitalism, but honestly, the best way to survive is to get out from under this barbaric mode we call “civilization”. That is what brings us all the wars, slavery, disease, poverty and environmental degradation.
Like the other response mentioned, we don’t have to go back to a carbon copy of pre-civilization, we can’t really. It won’t be the same at all.

>>20842256
They’ve solved healthcare. They’re denying it to the poor in order to drain them of money and let them die off, because lol too many people now. The politicians sponsors direct them to legislate these things. The UKs NHS is being torpedoed despite what the people want. They’ll be just like the US is now shortly.
It is everyone’s problem, leaving these goons in control of us. The solution sounds abhorrent to you by design. Seize power collectively and fire these sociopaths, take the money away from the thieving Pharaoh class. Shared decentralized power won’t put an extra burden on you, it will alleviate it.
But, getting there from here is the chore I’m afraid no one has the courage for.

>>20842486
Well now that happens to be something I've looked up.
So in the us to start a p2p lending business you have to go throw some intermediary it seems. It's kind of convoluted. The only place where P2P lending has really taken off is China. But that might be because the national bank is off limits as far as borowing. Now P2P lending is no magic bullet because the interest rate a lender will lend you will be higher than a bank. As for credit unions well I'd assume they have less capital so they'd be less willing to lend.

I have a primal caveman fear of certain bugs and I hate it. It makes me feel like a child. I involuntarily scream and tense up like crazy just seeing certain kinds of bugs like large crickets or spiders or anything big enough that flies or buzzes. I get regular nightmares involving bugs and often jolt out of sleep and think there’s something right in front of my face and run out the room but there’s nothing there. Part of me wants to channel it into writing but I can’t even start thinking about them without stressing myself out.

>>20840895
what are you going to work with?

>>20840104
>>20841586
>>20841806
I don't get it. Is there something wrong with that sentence he wrote? Is it supposed to be few or something?

The Catholic Church has serious strictures against fornication and contraception and whatnot, and yet the Catholic world, on the whole, seemingly tends to feature a lot more general lewdness in its public cultural life than the Calvinist world. Or maybe I'm just thinking of the French and Brazilians.

>>20842582
If the french aren't atheists who is?

>>20842582
The more you try to erase something the more that it appears.

>>20842575
I'm an ESL peasant, but even I know neither our local dwarfs nor our giants read.

>>20840579
best post in the thread so far

>>20840183
Collosal, all reality encompassing cope

>>20839955
any good recent scifi with POC people and LGBTQIA+ themes?

>>20841827
Nothing by a woman can be characterized as well-written.

>>20842956
You’re an idiot and bring nothing to the conversation. Shut up.

>>20839955
>i don't need to outline i have a special snowflake ~intuition~
>heh learning the three-act structure? are you out of your mind/an ancient greek?
>n-no one reads for the plot anyway.
>my meandering and conflictless "story" isn't getting published cuz i'm a white male, th-thats all. buncha philistines
why are amateurs like this bros?

>>20842618
Not true. See drugs in Japan/South korea.

>>20839955
Starting my first semester of Uni next week. I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of shitting myself.

>>20839955
4chan is a glowie-run containment site used for demoralization psyops. Bots and hylics make up the majority of posts now. The past was no golden age; the majority were incorrigible degenerates. The good was always a needle in a haystack, but here you could find it. Now you find it less and less. The only reason we don't abandon it for good is the off chance that we come across substantive effortposting and engagement from which we can learn before the jannies take down the thread. Aside from that this place is a net negative.

>>20843020
The worst is female "poets". Every single time a thot tells me she writes poetry its my diary desu tier free verse garbage.

banned from /tv/ again

>>20839955
I literally just won a 35k scholarship to study creative writing in the uk
I think I have an actual chance of making it fellas
Look out for me. Writer with initials of brn that will win many writing awards and a Nobel laureate nomination at some point in my life. My greatest value? I’m going to ensure my family and culture live forever and get the recognition it deserves
Ketto sahordre? Njalude kalacharam jeevikkum. Ella kaalakathe njangale jeevikkum.

>>20843096
Eating chia and flax seeds and start lifting. Wish someone had told me that in freshman year.

>>20839955
I had a dream last night that a final Pynchon book was announced - not a big, maximalist tome like M&D, but something in the 300 page rage, like Bleeding Edge. Can't remember what the plot of it was, but it got a lot of people very annoyed (they were arguing about it on some kind of TV panel show,) and sold a ton of copies, more than he ever did before.

>>20843131
100%
Women are just self indulgent assholes

>>20842588
>>20843223
>The first time I fucked it was with a black prostitute, hot and cheap
I thought
>"So that's it? This is what girls aren't willing to give me for free? ...I fucking hate them even more, now"
>This perception might be caused by the fact that I'm not good at fucking, of course

Get good.
This is why so many would like more experienced partners.
It should seriously be made into a summer course. Old pornstars and sex therapists coaching teens how to fuck each other properly.
Less base lessons to lead up to it of course. Conversationalist courses, dating/courtship etiquette, then second year, head/cunnilingus technique.

I thought I might get some clues from hanging out here but I still don't get it. How did every single one of you become so retarded and dickless?

>>20840193
Sounds pretty exciting desu

>>20840025
Id like to see you try. Anyways I miss the general metaphysics thread and need answer to this:

what does this sound like?

"there is an ideal version of everything that exists outside our consciousness that we can only perceive the phenomena of, according to our immediate senses, which can be a source of deception. To find absolute truth we must use our instinct which preceeds our senses a priori and is God given, and is the intermediary between our consciousness and bodies, the latter of which is an extension of our minds/consciousness."

>>20840094
> DID YA KNO THA SUMWER IN AFRIKA

>>20840057
sexoooo

>>20843337
Slowly we were invaded by off board trolls and the culture changed. 2016 maga influx to the qa shutdown saw successive waves of chuds stick in here. The old user base probably giving up and leaving just seems to add insult to injury.
Of course 4chan in general hasn’t recovered from the stormfront shutdown and subsequent migration of some to re**it. Some are scapegoating zoomers, but it’s actually just the way anonymous internet boards go when more people flood in.
Fewer and more serious posters make a place great. Trolls hate you and want you to see their penis collection

>>20843337
Stop paying attention yo the commies and the fags.

>>20841536
Jack London has this novel called The Sea Wolf, I remember reading it in my late teens. Since then, whenever I feel like killing myself, I am reminded by some random thought in the back of my head of the captain character and I feel like I could continue my struggling for a little longer, and now, when I've read your question, I was reminded of that character and that novel once again, so I thought I might mention that captain as a sort of, as I think, definition of a Great Man.

Life is suspended clay. Proteins are the most amazing thing.

My maxim embossed in the signet ring: Better a wise knucklehead than a silly wisenheimer.

>>20843300
I feel like you would be one of the producers of those netflix shows where kids have dickshaped noses and all humor revolves around sex. Disgusting.

I came off a weekend drinking binge feeling refreshed, like doing so set the stage for this new week to be a comeback of sorts. I consider that better than a blank slate of "today I'll get back on the grind of working and improving, just like I did yesterday." There is a little lingering worry about dependence but I've kept it solidly in control so far and am proud of it. I've had a particularly potent insight that I'd like to make my writing more extreme, so I'll try it out today. Be well, all of you

>>20843606
It sads me how bad the book ended. I found the captain the best character in the book and how boring those chapter at the island with mc and that woman were. I wish I knew more books where the ehole plot is protagonist and antagonist together the whole time, an interesting antagonist and a protagonist that is not shit.

>>20843276
Thanks anon

i can feel the weed draining my soul again. im going to have to quit again soon. how could it betray me like this? this isnt fair.

>>20843674
Why? No. I would just like people to have happy healthy sex lives, at a reasonable age. No pedo.

>>20843736
You want to put fucking into the curriculum, bro. That's messed up. Rationality can lead to barbarism, as they say.

>>20843715
learn to moderate nigga
Keep it for the weekends or something

>>20843715
are you or are you not a spectacle? I remember you saying you made this trip to chronicle your decline, but that was a long time ago.

>>20843783
You prefer to keep your messed up awkward clique away from the hot and sexually active people. This leads to far more barbarism as we’ve seen. You’re just scared and morally impaired.

>>20839955
Just went for a walk on my new city. Feels so good to see unfamiliar faces, to walk on new streets, that nobody recognizes me on the streets, to disappear into the crowd.

>>20843832
The original intention was to document my decline or rise from what I believed to be the lowest point in my life. I ended up sinking even lower and then rising. But now? Now I don't know what this is anymore. Sometimes its ironic, sometimes its sincere. The truth is I've managed to blur those lines to myself. I have no fucking clue what this is anymore. I'm just tired.

I saw God with my soul, I don't need any further proof

Ok, so I'm in a situation because I'm a retard and I've decided to dedicate my life to the fictitious universe in my head while also becoming a polymath and aesthete. This might be the last thing I ever do while fully cognizant of myself. Right now I'm currently embroiled in the following:
>Have a part-time job, seeking full-time/multi-part-time employment
>Writing 5 books, planning 2 more
>Writing 3 serializations, planning 2 more
>Writing 2 blogs
>Running 2 YouTube channels, planning 3 more
>Reading a list of 315 books I own or have money set aside for, at least 50-75 pages per day
>List of books include Greek history/philosophy and law, though admittedly most are classical literature or fantasy
>Teaching myself coding, operating DAWs, and how to speak Japanese
>Planning out when to watch the entire film catalog of 3 directors over the rest of the calendar year
>Watching 6 Western television series (soon to be 5 when Better Call Saul airs tonight, soon to be 8 by end of calendar week)
>Watching a Western cartoon (soon to be 2 on Friday)
>Watching 2 anime but have a list of ~40 I'd like to get through by end of year
>Trying to finish 2 single-player video games
>Got addicted to gacha/live service games a while ago but have thankfully cut it down to 4, monkey brain wants me to go back to 17, fighting it off with junk food (not my call, it just works)
>Starting to read a serialization later tonight
This does not encompass the vast array of things I am planning to do, including a current list of 5,894 ideas I have for various books, serializations, blogs, YouTube channels, scripts, games, albums/EPs, innate notebook scribblings, etc. that I plan to create. Nor does it encompass the thousands upon thousands of books, games, television shows, films, and live service experiences I would like to use as inspiration for the ever-expanding chasm of my mind.
As you can probably tell, I have no one to talk to about any of this, as I have holed myself away in order to accomplish the impossible. I had come here a year ago when things were less insane, but now I can't keep up with myself. Any advice for how to stop this would be appreciated, but unfortunately, when the Hand finally takes me, I will not be able to comply. So I'm posting this in the hopes you find it amusing. I'll come back next summer with an update as I continue to wreck my body and mind.
Cheers.

>>20843907
Well, if I remember correctly you had a whole thing going about ordering some book and posting a fat frog every day and then it turned out it was you. As far as spectacle goes that was alright.

>>20843474
wish this would get answered.

>>20843932
Thanks, I thought the AbeBooks saga was pretty funny too. I'm actually responsible for quite a bit of the shenanigans that have happened within these threads. Anyways that book is still on my nightstand. There's a layer of dust covering it.
A layer of dust covers every book in my room.

I feel tired

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pecHKtUXPy8
song of my life

It feels sometimes like the entire world is getting more tired each year, like, the system is starting to lose balance. Wars, tiktok, AI this, AI that, fucking tiresome, something is happening somewhere far away and it affect me personally, and I can't do anything about it. Mediocre people scream the loudest and I'm getting tired of hearing their stupid opinions, but instead others praise them. Feels like everyone is becoming lonelier and it seems even beautiful women are coming to know what loneliness feels like.
It is all so tiresome.

I FUCKING HATE THE AMERICAN HEALTHCARE SYSTEM I HATE THESE CROOK DOCTORS AND I REALLY FUCKING HATE THESE USURIOUS BLOODSUCKING DEATH WORSHIPPING INSURANCE COMPANIES AND I CERTAINLY HATE THE GRUBBY LITTLE CONNIVING POLITICIANS WHO ALLOW THIS SYSTEM TO HAPPEN

It's a testament to how deeply pathological American society that it can engender latrophobia (fear or hatred of doctors or hospitals).

Is this general slow today?

>>20844145
Your post sounds very american

>>20844145
The feeling is mutual.
Revolution when?

>>20843924
So you are addicted to consooooming like every normie out there. Do you want a medal?

>>20839955
just solved philosophy, now I can finally move on from this bullshit and become a scientist

i hate how my brain doesn't let me do anything unless I understand why

>>20843979
as it turns out only little people actually read

>>20844351
kek

>>20839955
To be honest, a zit on my balls till I popped it. Feels so good rn

I leave ranked games when I perform poorly and this is upsetting to others. I cannot feel compelled to play a video game when I no longer want to.

> ...sic
On the forehand, I have nothing to offer. My life has been in disarray since I hit puberty, and I’m wondering if I’ll get even worse before the end. That said, would it be selfish to attempt to find happiness in someone purely for hedonistic/emotionally validating reasons? Jesus fucking wept I’m so far into isolation-induced madness that I can hardly tell what is appropriate any more. The state of cynical attachment is becoming far too much, and I wonder if I’ll begin to crack. For fuck sake; I’ve written almost six-hundred words solely on the subject of whether or not to approach another human being. That’s disturbed if I’ve ever been partial to something approaching rationality.

An old part of a piece posted without comment.

>>20844411
It will get worse. Soon enough you will no longer understand what you write. Then you will no longer understand why you write, so you'll stop. You'll get an education, a job, a wife, kids, a home. This confusion will follow you until death, and probably after too. Welcome to hell.

>>20839955
In a word: words.

>>20843211
How did you win it?

>>20844439
lol I'm in my mid-twenties, anon. Education I have, relationships I've had as well; none of borne fruit.

I'm on the ride of estrangement and tolerated outcast until I pass on I think.

2022:
>Lost over 92% of my networth this year ($750K)
>My fifth screenplay started fine and then i completely ruined it in the third act
>In 2021 i thought my other stories are good and now i think i need a serious rewriting and i can't find the energy to go through all of them
>Still KHV neet at 25 and i don't see it ever changing with my current lifestyle+philosophy+self worth
>Got first few white hairs
>Still can't find a reason to become a member of society despite feeling in my bones that's a mistake
>Same creating, fitness, shitposting, trading and house tasks routine, Everyday is the same, Which's consistent and quite comfy yet feel like i need to peak or be on that hill at least


Maybe next year

For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?

>>20844351
im not that tall

>>20844470
>Lost over 92% of my networth this year ($750K)
wow

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mc3QsZHu5SI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tp_AXw_Yn6I
These two videos capture the inner workings of my mind, the neurosis, the sreaming, the insanity, the abusrd.
Not that I like this, this madness and violence repeating itself in my head from hour to hour is intrusive, I wish I could stop it. Nevertheless, it is my head.

>>20844553
>this mad violence repeating
Fixed

I haven’t enjoyed a single thing in 10 years.

>>20844617
try more things
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_hobbies

>>20844617
>>20844673
its never too late to start
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hobby_tunneling

>>20844680
wtf
the actual hobby looks too tiresome, but the result must be very cool, specially if you have enough time and money to build and decorate

>tfw only have a 6.5 inch cock
its over

I think I have ADHD

>>20845068
Just take some zen exercises and learn to concentrate.
Don’t take any big pharma drugs

>>20844158
These threads usually move too fast for /lit/. It's probably best if it slows down.

>>20839955
Fanfiction is awesome and I'm sick of pretending it's not. It's the characters you already know and love, engaging in weird niche shit. I have needs, and sometimes those needs are talking raptors and the guys from hot fuzz raising harry potter.

>>20839955
I feel so disconnected from the people around me. Every single time I meet a new person I don't know what to talk about. Atleast online I end up meeting people with similar interests, but with people in real life I'm completely out of touch. I either come out as a pedantic piece of shit or like an autistic who doesn't talk. I don't understand their habits. I don't understand their humour. I don't even seem to share the same motivations as the people around me.

>can't rewrite my book fast enough due to psychological strain
>not a thing an editor can help with
>would rather commit suicide than give up
>breaks, therapy and meds have done nothing

What even can I do at this point?

>>20840999
I actually know multiple people that managed to drink themselves to death at an early age...like before 35.
Totally possible.

>>20845242
drugs?

>>20843099
>4chan is a glowie-run containment site used for demoralization psyops
Oh, good. I must be driving them bat-shit insane, then.

>>20844145
Take better care of yourself & you won't need them as much.

>>20845121
what do you think alcohol is for, ya dingus

im certain that most of our lineage of antisocial dorks would have died off ages ago if it werent for the distilled spirits enabling and ambience of sociability

why do you think most of our parents met at dance clubs and the like?

maybe im thinking about sex to much, but have you ever bothered to ask when the last time the average man got laid without the ambience of alcohol?

>>20845068
It's not that you have ADHD, it's just that...LOOK! A BUNNY RABBIT!

i've been playing dwarf fortress for 19 hours

>>20845324

>>20845338
hell yeah

while we run around with our heads cut off wondering why 4chan has gotten so bad, is it not clear that its because we no longer have anything to prove? the medium exhausts itself.

>>20844145
There is a reason "hippocrates" and "hypocrisy" are similes

>>20843965
Still no answer. This board is useless for actual discussion. No wonder I just troll y'all niggas. For real, no cap

>>20844145
Unless you need surgery or have cancer doctors are fucking useless. All they fucking do is fuck nurses and look shit up on the internet. My ex went to one of the most highly respected dermatologists in our city, she had to wait three months for the appointment, and the fuck just gave her a vitamin shot then looked up her symptoms on Google and prescribed her steroids and antibiotics. lmao cheeky fucking cunt.

>>20839955
reading Gravitys Rainbow and there are many times I just want to quit. I mean is Pynchon going anywhere with this degenerate trash? its like a bad car accident, I can't look away even though I want it to end.

I wish you cared about me. I wish things could be different. I wish that I hadn’t screwed it up. But there’s nothing else that I can do now.

>>20843474
You want an answer? Fine.
It sounds like a bunch of pretentious claptrap some homeless guy says to me before asking for money for alcohol.

>>20844145
>be me
>have a rare neuro condition, routinely experienced doctors obviously googling it in the other room and then faking expertise, prescribing drugs and pushing me out the door
>um oh ya duh we vaguely covered that in a neurology course i took in 1985, i know everything about it desu!
>every doctor i have known is a soulless lying cunt
>doctors have routinely misread scans only to tell me about it months later IF i bring it up
>never met a doctor who didnt give me a limpwristed handshake and then proceeded to interrupt every single thing i tried to say
the last part always gets me. i think its calculated. like "nah nah nah if you dont finish that sentence then legally im ignorant of that information and it would preclude me from selling you drugs which i get kickbacks from!"

>>20845421
No. Pynchon, Burroughs, Houellebecq, No Longer Human, etc. are for pretentious French beatniks and wannabes.

>>20845439
that's what I am getting out of it actually. ok, I might shelve it then and read Hemingway instead.

>>20845433
Who hurt you, sweaty?

>>20845455
how do you know he's sweating?

>>20845457
Because I'm thrusting my penis into his anus in rapid succession while twisting his nipples

The aliens in Starship Troopers were a metaphor for giant ants.

>>20845463
ah ok. how huge is your cock?

>>20845468
2 inches

>>20845428
Whatd you do

>>20845493
I don’t know how to explain any of it

this is crazy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6Iyg9fznvM

KILL ALL AM*RICANS

>>20845448
For reals. Or Steinbeck, Robert Louis Stevenson, Daniel Defoe, H.G. Wells, H.P. Lovecraft...you know, something not crappy. Enjoy, anon!

>>20845455
Hey, you practically begged for an answer.
You seem to think there's a happy universe above us or something.
I got bad news for you, anon...H.P. Lovecraft was writing documentaries.
The Buddhists refer to that realm as the "lower astral plane".

>>20845500
Give it your best shot. We'll waste you...like we wasted everyone else that tried to do that.
The bones of those who defile us bleach in the sun of a thousand lands.
If it weren't for Democrats and their precious little feelings, we'd be The Empire.

>>20845508
white birthrates are 25% of total birthrates and falling
cope
it's over

My neighbors heard me watching a vtuber and I already felt very uncomfortable talking to them because they suspect I'm a neet, and now it's worse!!

>>20845524
they also think you're gay too

>>20845526
If she has a cute penis it's ok!

thinking about smoking weed, listening to cumbia and eating ice cream, either in that order or all at the same time.

>>20839955
i've decided to kill

>>20845465
Which ones. The first aliens that appear in the book are an obvious metaphor for niggers.

>>20845503
Good thing I'm not a Buddhist!

>>20845524
Unless it was Miko or Gura you are a fucking pedophile and i hope you burn in hell.

>>20845557
Who?

Anyone have their eye squeak when they rub it? Mine squeaks like crazy, very loud, people can hear it across the room lmao

>>20839955
no break marks means it's suicide, baby

>>20839955
drank a muh fuggin miller hi life tallboy in the damn vacant lot behind ace hardware
such bullshit drinkin in public is illegal to begin with, literal fascism i shit u not

To the femanons lurkers, which of the following is most appealing to you at face value:
>a reader/writer/artist
>avid traveller/hiker/backpacker
>high earning urbanite
>trad cath homesteader

>>20845646
a reader/writer/artist, unless he’s the vagrant type, in which case I’d rather pick the tradcath homesteader

do you see me as I see you?

>>20845655
Are you trad cath yourself? If not, what is appealing to you about the homesteader?

>>20839955
nobody has ever guessed my name
it's a normal enough name
it's irish
short ass name, of no consequence, easy
if you guess it i'll die instantly
do you know it?

>>20845714
Ryan

>>20845714
Fuck off Sean.

what did u guys think of the better call saul finale?

>>20845803
Who?

My mind was cut up
Replaced by confidence
'We won. Now shut up.'
I was never one for flatulence
I am not like you, I refuse
And when you talk I'll be you
Mashing my bpd sleeve down to your dreams
My genius collected, finally recollected
The sick strain of honesty I have rejected

I am no chomo, that's one thing you should know
What sets me apart I'll spell something later!
My persona is called lying, on my head, mark of the whore.

I am not evil, did what I had to
When you're online you can be who you want to
And that's why I hate you, you are who you wanted
My greatest foe, a child

Friendship and love - I form an image of the person and try to make him similar to the image, that is: to make him similar to the ideal I have of him.

the most underappreciated knowledge that can be passed down to generations is how to clean

>>20845873
Camaraderie and caring - inverting and subverting everything the other guy says- that is- growing together

Don't worry, I need no convincing
To forget what you know, to give in to feminine conniving
My birthright destroyed, my passions reminding
And they remind me so well
Whatever you say is evil
Because you didn't do what I said
I don't wanna be your dad you little faggot
But I did what I had to, what I wanted
Because when you're online you can be who you wanna
And that's why I hate you, you are who you wanted
And that's why I must punish, but who do I whip when there's no one to blame?

The nicest man I ever met
Was more malicious than malcontent
And he taught me how to hold my tongue
And wait to strike 'til their backs were turned
And you slither away like the snake that you are
And if all I ever did was look up to you
And if all I ever did was let you down
There's nothing stopping me now
Was it everything you hoped for?
Was it all of that and more?
Too much, too good to be true.

But his divinity fell
Correctly beneath the receding pride of his 20's
Was, 'Capital M-E.'
I couldn't subscribe
But you can't say I didn't try
You say what you want, maybe I didn't get my way
But I got away

We flit like flakes of ash
Around her burning gash

There is no tomorrow.

I count this a victory
My sacrifice to Moloch
My birthright in flames
My lies secretly exposed
What's one more body amongst the foundations?

To refuse the humane...
Is to become inhuman!
But the body must become the animal!
The means must justify the end!
Am I more terrified of the sun I am to raise?
Or the sin I already have

>>20845922
It was great until line 6-7 and then Rick Astley, out of nowhere

>>20845976
It was all great if you have a soul

>>20845976
It's also just a song by taking back Sunday copy pasted. I remember I went on a trip to LA with my friend and when he left the car I literally just drove around the city manic for a few minutes just screaming this at the top of my lungs. Good times.

>>20840000
Good luck to you anon. Nice quads.

my brain has glassed itself as a result of mutually assured destruction doctrine

When the truth is found to be lies
A dickless demon sighs
Woe is me and my dick he cries
And all the joy within you dies

I want to have sex with a woman like this. However, there are two problems:
1. I hate women
2. I don’t have money
Any suggestions?

>>20847265
Either get a job or work on letting go of your hate. Hate is fucking poisonous. It kills your soul. I'm not even saying it's moral or immoral to hate women, it's just not a fulfilling way to go through life.

>>20847265
Take the frenpill. Fuckin take it. Or else.

>>20847265
Stop hating

>>20847330
Superior edit just dropped, OP. >>20847376
Do send it to him, will you?

>>20847427
>The fact that the left now overwhelmingly support the freaking CIA and FBI will never not be hilarious to me
If this “left” does only what the rightwing does, it can’t be properly identified as left anymore. Best to just go with the “liberals”. Even if the rightwingers are also staunch liberal capitalists. We’re allowed only two parties and they’re both rightwing. Fools are fools

Become gigantic.

For those of you that read Stranger in a Strange land, what kept you with it? I finished about 4/5ths of the book before calling it quits. the story just doesn't lead anywhere, it's just them bumming around the guys mansion, getting chased by feds, everything seems so disconnected.
Did I get filtered?

Why was I born? For what purpose?
What is the fucking point of all of this?

>>20847531
Eat, coom, sleep
>b-but there has t-
cope

>>20844145
Take your meds holy shit

I thought this was a literature board? Does anyone here read?

>>20839986
This is my experience as well.

For some, the most utterly infuriating thing is to meet another person whose beliefs and lifestyles are antithetical to their own and for that person to be contented.

>>20840002
we need to go back to advice animals and ragecomics.

>>20847583
You're an idiot. That's what infuriates people that meet you. You will always find ways to frame all criticism as just the other person being insecure.

I have realized I'm a bit of an Arab racial supremacist. The only problem is that I'm not Arab myself.

>>20847618
Lol. I can tell you have met the exact type of person I am talking about by your stressed out response.
There are people who just like you accuse me of being, I can't deny that. Throwing it back on the other person can be a very irritating tactic.

However, the truth remains, that there are plenty of people who exist in a kind of senseless contentment that can be frustrating to various kinds of moralists, as their existence is often perceived as a kind of living contradiction. There is a kind optimistic sense of justice in the notion that if people do not conform to our deeply held belief in the good, the beautiful, and the true, then they must necessarily be languishing and suffering. If they are not languishing then either what we believe isn't the good, beautiful, true, or some kind of cosmic justice is absent, a karmic imbalance.

The idea of a dumb, numb, content person is horrifying I think especially for westerners with our Christian sense of moral universalism. I think maybe it is less of an issue for easterners, that are happy to lump people into casts and ascribe different spiritual expectations to them. The popularity of calling people Hylics that is seeing a resurgence on this board is likely a fun way for people to try and grapple with this in a western context.

Cassavetes films are....

I’ve figured I would write poetry and maybe novels for a long time now and that’s why I ended up taking a sort of lowly paid but leisurely civil servant job, but lately, I’ve been thinking that I should pursue business instead. For the brief year that I worked in business, I was highly successful with really very little effort but writing leaves me somehow exhausted and frustrated.

the world and its people make me angry

This is the age of victimhood. Everyone wants to blame someone else for their issues, doesn’t matter their demographic

it is all pointless and hopeless

I want to make a youtube video. It'll be gay and shit but I'll do it anyway. My language has gotten worse so I'm writing down a curriculum for myself to build it up again. Since I'm also presenting myself infront of a camera I need to get fitter.

>>20847678
>I can tell
You can't tell shit. You're an idiot.
The dumb content person is an ancient trope. Ignorance is bliss.
According to my map some retard is about to walk off a cliff, I tell him and his response is "relax my dude we all have different maps, don't be a moralist".
That guy is a content retard and I'm right to be annoyed. When I go rescue him from the bottom of a cliff he'll still be ranting about how his map is just as valid because it's all "subjective".

>>20847764
I do already but I'm not an ESL

>>20847697
Pretentious from what I've heard. Fugazi wrote a song about him for some reason

>>20845997
Oh that band. Forgot they existed. I remember back in the early oughts everyone seemed to like them and I thought they were pussy shit. Too busy into Disrupt, Agathocles, and Brutal Truth. Did not like nu-emo one bit

>>20847773
I'm not going to disagree that they are pretentious but that's ironic because id say Ian MacKaye is pretentious

>>20847773
>>20847773
>I do already but I'm not an ESL
The hardest part is starting sentences that don't start with "I".

>>20847765
I can certainly tell your reading comprehension sucks that you think, invective excluded, that anything either of has yet written is in anyway meaningfully in conflict.

And that is how I can tell for sure that you have met the kind of person I am talking about, because you got so furious and sacrificed comprehension in your rush to pop off at me as proxy for this person, or persons, you have met.

>>20847834
More braindead than I predicted.
The existence of content retards like you is indeed horrifying. There are good reasons why you should horrify anyone that comes into contact with you.

>>20847834
Just to make it super obvious.

I make the claim that are dumb and content about it. You then agree with me when you write
>The dumb content person is an ancient trope. Ignorance is bliss.

I also make the claim that people find them incredibly irritating. Which you agree with when you write.
>That guy is a content retard and I'm right to be annoyed

So it seems were are very much in agreement on the basics. Nothing to worry about. However, despite this you are very angry, and make up a kind of fanfiction about the kind of person I am because.....?? I assume based on your post because you think I am arguing that it is wrong to find them irritating, or that everything is subjective(?).
You then post a funny meme about empaths rushing to conclusions about other people based on very little information. I am not going to stoop to your level and call you and idiot for that, but I do think it would be healthy for you to ponder the irony.

>>20847764
what will it be about?

>>20847867
Okay. That one was too obvious, you gave the game away. But I can't deny you had me there for a while haha.

Good show.

>>20847899
You don't get anything. You live in delusions stacked on delusions like my first reply to you hinted at.

>>20847889
horror books and philosophy because I'm a ligottifag. not dumbed down but no lecture either.
I know that is exactly the opposite of what people want to watch but I want to give it a try.

>>20839986
>Starting with the obvious, very little people here actually read. There's plenty of discussions regarding books but there's hardly any in-depth discussions about the contents of such books. Posters here will often state that women and normies are shallow and superficial and will never be able to truly understand literature but it seems all the posters here also have a shallow understanding of such literature, as if they just read it all off of SparkNotes and Wikipedia, and the posters themselves are just spreading such shallow understanding out of their own superficiality, masked in post-irony.
First off, you can tell that people here don't read because 99% of replies are silly one liners, pointing out their reduced attention span and inability to formulate actual thought (hint: reading requires a long attention span). Said people rely on easy summaries made by midwits with just a little more attention span than them. Also "very little people here..."??? kek.
>It seems to be a common sentiment that this board is in decline, but there seems to be absolutely no "effortposts", and the few effortposts that I have seen recently seem to garner outright hostile replies, as if other anons are trying to dissuade effortposting.
Spot on. This board has become an echo chamber that dissuades people from actually contributing. Egos are weak nowadays, quite sadly. Also you have to bear in mind that you are not engaging with people in your age bracket; the Internet as a whole is a juvenile endeavour these days.
Regarding your last paragraph, there was this pic on which an anon argued that people MUST go outside an gather experiences before coming here and posting. You have to build your persona outside before coming here and sharing experiences and thoughts emanating from said experiences, inferences. If you're a basement dweller or a teenager (you must be 18 or older to post here) your opinion shouldn't matter at all because you are clueless. Look at all these sad people, all these drug addicts, all these depressed individuals... They won't help you strive towards higher goals. They won't enlighten you. They will drag you down with them. Wen feelin sad or frigten, rember happy day!
And despite all that, this is still one of the best sites to discuss ideas as a whole.

>>20839955
Chirimoyo is on my mind

>>20847932
Is this or the post you're replying to supposed to be examples to strive toward? Are these the "effortposts" we should be making?

What would you do if industriousness interests you but no particular industry does?

>>20847999
An effortpost on /lit/ unusually gives an in-depth analysis of some part of whatever book is being discussed

>>20848019
Both of those masturbatory blogs say nothing, they're just pollution. If they were one liners or included some bad humor, if they were more like the shit they complain about they would at least be something.

>>20848067
I never said it was an effortpost. It was just someone complaining about the state of the board, which I understand.

>>20848140
But why not add something. A shit poem about how /lit/ doesn't read, perhaps even a decent post us lesser posters can aspire to. Instead you both wasted my time with nothing and now I'm contributing to this empty masturbation about how shit everyone else is according to my standards while adding to the shit.

I officially have warrants for my arrest in my state. What a fucking disaster. Genuinely never thought this shit would catch up to me.

Recently, I’ve started thinking that virtually every aspect of our lives are the result of fate. Free will certainly exists, but it exists in such a narrow sense that it may as well not exist. Fate determines everything and the possibilities of your life are not ultimately even up to you. Moreover, the possibilities for your future life are most often clearly indicated earlier in life. In some sense, you will always be on the trajectory you are on right now.

Given this and the fact that I am also profoundly unsatisfied and I really don’t know how to cope with all this.

>>20848221
Nigga, not everything needs to be a thesis level effortpost. He is just saying that good effortposts are derided and disappearing. Don’t act like we are wasting your time when you are on this board and we see the same shit threads everyday

>>20848242
>Nigga, not everything needs to be a thesis level effortpost.
If you make a long post it should have more content than a one-liner. The retards behind those posts are worse than anything they complain about. All your complaints are just advertisements of your retardation.
Good effortposts aren't derided, they're celebrated and the threads kept alive. What these retards seem to be talking about is their cancerous retardation not being appreciated.

>>20848283
Most of the posts that are appreciated nowadays deal with trannies, liberalism, women, niggers, etc. Basically material that would be better suited elsewhere, not on a literature board. This board has lost focus and all relation to what it once was.

is z-lib a fed honeypot? it's pretty weird how they aren't pressured by authorities like piratebay is despite how open they are about being a pirating website. some books are even taken down for copyright???? so they collaborate with publishers.
i'm assuming it's a plot to catch the people downloading shit like the kaczinsky books or siege.

I love my lesbian wife!

>>20848311
Then leave. Your posts are all about how you're a retard that doesn't understand or appreciate anything. Does that belong on any board? /r9k/?

fresh thread
>>20848486