/lit/ - Literature

>>>/pol/390984153

F Gardner might actually be buying 4chan and I can’t fuckin believe it

>>20833611
Cunny

>>20833611
The intersection between mathematics and linguistics

Reminder to never despair.

Every day is a blessing.

So there was this girl i met on ig, i liked her very much, she actually talked to me in a not so brain dead fashion, we talked a lot, then she suggested we talk on sc, it went on for a good year and a half. She sent me voice messages and snaps, i think shes rly beautiful, very sensitive like me, younger than me. She even told me shes virgin( i am too)
Anyways she also struck me as kinda conformist with her views and all, plus im insecure about my recent balding and weight gain so i kinda postponed asking her to meet up and the age gap kinda bummed me. But other than that i thought shes rly nice and would wanna meet up with her. Out of blue she snaps me photos with her new bf, guy looks like complete tool.
The only thing that bugs me is what if i asked her out on time?
I really dont want a girl with whom i have to be fast or some other guy will take her. I want someone whos just right for me. Now i remember i did suggest something along those lines but she was like when corona ends lol. I heard that one before.
Yeah she prolly isnt the one for me but imma post this anyway

I'm tired with the current state of my life and with myself, hence I have the options of either killing myself or changing it.
The thing about change is that it is all uncertain. I don't know what I want to do and, most of all, what would work if anything would work at all. After most things that depend on luck failed, you start to wonder if anything will.

To put it all in simple terms, I'm a fuck up, I want to do something else but I don't know what to do and it all seems hopeless

>>20833660
Sounds like she dodged a bullet.

>>20833661
Try doing stuff you like every day and cut off social media

>>20833669
Why?

>>20833675
You sound immature and not ready for a serious relationship. You'd just be wasting her time with your feminine attitude.

>>20833675
You don't know how to write properly.

>>20833682
Maybe i am, ive never had a gf
But why do i sound immature? And how do i stop being so?
Also, i def think shes more immature than me cause i had to tell her drinking and smoking weed isnt good for her
At least im past that

>>20833612
I heard. Crazy.

>>20833691
Maybe you develop slower or your dad didn't know how to make a man out of you. I'm sure you'll grow up eventually, I just don't think you would've offered her much at this point in your life. I don't think there's a formula for growing up: just life experience and growing older.

>>20833661
Act like you're a dead man walking. You can't stop feeling, but what's it matter anyways when you're dead? If you need some writing on the wall of your skull to actually enact this attitude then try doing a ritual where you pretend to kill yourself or grab a gun after downing a bottle or two of cheap moonshine and try pulling the trigger next to your head.
It will change you. Nothing matters so much. Just drift through life doing what you like and chances are you'll find a path somewhere. That's the thing with fuckups, though, they always stick to their good old tricks: they never do; that's the one thing they know how to do.

>>20833700
Both of it is true actually
I talk like a retard when it comes to women but in other circumstances i know how to express my thoughts well
The state of the world depresses me. Guys like Andrew Tate get 99% of attention. Women are whores. I especially dislike those who act like prudes but then go with the well off manipulator, only to manipulate him even more. When i look at the relationships of peers around me i see relationships based on lies. Based on womens apparent beauty, and guy's social status and money, both of which he obtained by lying. By lying and manipulating other people to get what he wants. At work and in any other social setting.
Everytime i hear a guy say to his gf: "if i do this or that will that make you satisfied?", or when a girl makes snide comments about her man not being her bitch i die inside a little
If im immature just because i want a woman who will be faithful to me and I to her, whilst learning about eachother everyday, laughing and caring about eachother, then so be it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma7lyfYzIw8

>>20833747
Look man i know that song.
Did true love find Daniel? I dont think so
I mean, yes it did in form of God who is true love after all but i'd like to experience romantic love while here on earth cause i am a romantic person and id like to have an offspring

I remember listening to this song on a bus to some girls city just to get ghosted by her

>>20833612
Clown world. I saw /biz/ talking about it. Thought it was a joke at first.

>>20833735
NTA, but...
You're immature because you're predisposing a relationship with a series of completely fictional needs that betray your lack of real world experience (not only with women but with living in general), your poor referents when it comes to behavior, and your childish language and calculated lack of effort in online communication that anyone with a painful past in their college years can easily identify.
You're calling women whores without turning those judgemental spectacles back to a mirror. You sound like someone whose emotional development was stunted and you still don't find it anywhere in you to begin growing. Probably because, in spite of everything, you've been accustomed in such a way (thanks in irony to the love of others) to never find the need to.

>>20833611
I wish I could have religious belief.

>>20833768
I think you're onto something here but youre way too harsh and too assuming. Im ESL and i did spit blood in college actually. Its true that my parents did not give me neccessary tools and opportunities to grow up, yet they cook for me and clean for me. I tried many things in life, i never ever fit in, anywhere. Ever
I've experienced such loneliness only few poetic souls in this world can fathom

8-13-22
August Thirteenth - Closing Time
A good night’s sleep was ruined by a quartet of interruptions, the kind only a man whose sleeping place is as disheveled as the rest of him experiences. After pushing through about five scheduled and unscheduled alarms I managed to stumble blearily through my daily routine before making it into work.
A worrying development in my daily life is how quickly the time goes at my job. It can’t be explained by an increased workload, this job is a pleasant joke, it’s likely a more insidious explanation; this new adventure has already become so comfortable as to be routine, and routine is a miserable time thief. Already seeing stagnation returning, I spent my hours at work applying for other work, ostensibly under the guise of professional development, but more than a small part due to my current lack of funds for Gas or the gym, my two loves if your money is meant to be used on what you love the most. Work, in a fact of life that I still can’t seem to accept, became interesting when I forced it to; by engaging with it. I went to the pool, essentially begging a work acquaintance to give me something to do, and she saddled me with the enjoyable task of convincing a group of black teenagers to vacate the premises. They complied with no pushback, something that’s happened pretty often for me, and each time I’m at least a little surprised but then I remember that I’m a giant darkskin black guy so no shit everyone’s afraid of me and I’m the only member of staff that doesn’t get sworn at all the time. This is a pretty serious divergence from my childhood so I figure that any instances of people treating me like an adult will continue to surprise me.

>>20833812
These boys were cited for harassment; apparently they targeted one of our asian lifeguards for verbal abuse. Sadly, I would meet that same group of boys on a routine tour of the park, and they were slightly less friendly; making subtle threats and levying colorful if juvenile insults. Of course, given the aforementioned physical status of myself I can laugh at these sort of things instead of being made to feel in some way threatened.
American kids are so fucking fat now. All of these boys had bitch tits in myriad sizes. When I was a kid, having visible titties immediately made you a target for mockery and as a result you ended up near the bottom of the social ladder and could only work your way up by possessing a natural charisma. But you’d be the odd one out now if you weren’t sporting enough gyno for a training bra.

>>20833791
If you don't have it, it's 99% because you're arrogant and don't try to humble yourself. You may think you're not arrogant, but you're wrong.

Hey OP, you forgot to add
Previous thread: >>20829202

>talk about basic philosophy
>everyone immediately thinks i am schizophrenic
every time. i hate normies.

>>20833735
>If im immature just because i want a woman who will be faithful to me and I to her, whilst learning about eachother everyday, laughing and caring about eachother, then so be it.
That's not why you're immature.
>>20833810
>I've experienced such loneliness only few poetic souls in this world can fathom
This is why.

Honestly, I don't think there's much you can do. Just work on yourself: read, stay healthy, study, work, etc. Ideally you'd find faith but you're likely too immature for that too.

I don't see the point in making to-do lists

>>20833872
Do you have anything meaningful to do with your time?

Everytime i go outside i see very attractive and healthy looking girls at my age either at church, parks or just walking pass the streets. I envy it; i feel impeding dread by their display of light smooth skin and healthy looking hair.
I break a little inside everytime. I'm living amidst poverty working 6hrs everyday, having no sleep at night even then i have to squeeze in academic work to get out of this shithole. I'm slowly loosing my youth anons, i'm growing everyday and growing unnatractive. My face wrinkled, deep creases around my countenance
My skin turning patchy and brown having bad discoloration on my knees and elbows, My hair witch like; frizzy because of the sun sitting on my stall for many hours everyday, bad posture that has been a carved and engrained for years. I'm treated really badly by the men i come across and I feel their disgust towards me.
Women are meant for beauty, even if im not overweight i still look so hideous what am i here for? I feel as though i'm the blackness of the sky, having other attractive females as the star emphasizing them making them look prettier and more noticeable. I should just end it all already. My life is heading nowhere and i've really planned of everything already i just need a little push

>>20833886
not particularly, a job would be nice but I can't get any experience without a job

What the heck grass is softer than Kentucky bluegrass?

>>20833919
Well, when you have a job, a family to raise, etc., you might discover the utility of a to-do-list.

>>20833643
You're like a little baby to me. Try the intersection between mathematics and reality

Star trek > star wars

>>20833865
I stand by what ive said. I have seen how exactly far we are from eachother, even those who claim and believe are best friends, or man and wife. I have exactly seen how broken the bridge is between people. I know just how selfish people are, i know just how much they hate when their illusions about worldview are broken by reality. I know how much they lie to themselves.
I have done all the steps, i did everything right. The fact that you suggest to me to find a hobby shows how clueless you are
Work- ill work. I work but IT work culture is a lie. Study. Maybe i didnt study enough, huh you say? Even though i spent my whole existence studying, starting from middle school when no one studied. I studied music, philosophy, theology, stuff that is unrelated to IT. What can a book teach me?

>>20833979
>>>/tv/ is that way

>>20833660
>went on for a good year and a half
>postponed asking her to meet up
>I really dont want a girl with whom i have to be fast
You chickened out and are now trying to make it her fault. A year and a half just too meet someone in person is not moving fast, it is glacial. Her waiting that long probably means she was really into you and her sending you that picture was her saying that you blew it. If you play these games and try and make it about her moving too fast or not being absolutely perfect your life is going to be very empty and alone. It was your fault, not hers, realize this and remember it, if you do not learn this lesson you will be alone for life. Face up to it, call yourself pathetic, go ask a girl out, and thank and apologize to that other girl for getting you off your ass once you have done those things.

Also, shave your head and start exercising so you can not use those as limp excuses for not taking a chance.

Why wasn't Rushdie prosecuted for shit art and terrible books? IMO that's a worse crime than murder

>>20834110
>shit art and terrible books
Not actually illegal

>>20834088
Like i said, i remembered that i did ask her to meet up, but she said when covid ends which shows she doesnt care
I called myself pathetic enough in my life and will not do it more.
I was on fit in 2010, were you on fit in 2010? I was lifting and what did that change? Im not sure. I dont think making myself more attractive to a mate just so that im not lonely is a logic that will work for me. Its shallow

>>20834088
Now i thought about it a bit more and realized we talked for 10 months in total, and 2 months in i ended up in mental hospital so i wasnt really ablebodied for a long while

F. Gardner is based and I’m tired of pretending he’s not.

>>20834088
Oh and she stopped responding when i told her im christian
This is for the guy who told me im too immature for faith even tho i went to numerous cathecesis, christian camps, read the gospels, cs lewis, and currently reading philokalia and praying every day

>>20834222
>christian camps
ew what are you some protestant? no wonder she didn't respond

>>20834198
>ended up in mental hospital
Talk about burying the lede.
No wonder she didn't pick you over all the other choices she had.
Plus, you're a whiner.

>>20834238
>insane
>whiney
>wonders why he can't get a gf
the absolute state of internet kids

>>20834184
>were you on fit in 2010?
Yes, never not been fit, always had an active lifestyle. I did not say to make yourself fit to attract a mate, I said to make yourself fit so you can not use that as an excuse. You are trying to make this about everyone but yourself.
>>20834198
Doesn't matter. All that matters is you and what you did wrong, it has nothing to do with her or anyone else. Realizing how you failed is how you grow and improve, if you make it about how others do not meet expectations or the like you just dig a hole for yourself. You really want to end up a 4chan incel seething about women?
>>20834222
You waited all that time to tell her you were christian? She stopped responding because she moved on, that was the point of the picture. Face up to it, learn the lesson, improve yourself, move on.

>>20834238
This is what im talking about
I ended up in a mental hospital precisely because of the attitude of the world that you explained in the next sentence.
Whos worth your while? How can i exploit this relationship? What can i gain out of this guy? Why should i care?

>>20834256
Oh? Why did you want to date her, anon?
Purely altruistic reasons?
Also...if regular, everyday life is enough to send you to a mental hospital...then you're not fit to breed.

>>20834287
Relationship in my opinion should have a strong element of altruism, yes. Much stronger element than egoistic element.
What i explained there you labeled as everyday life. If thats every day life then i do not accept it. I will never settle for that. I am not an animal, i do not accept to be macchiavelian slave to earthly base needs. I believe in something higher, more profound. Maybe i will only experience it after death. Theres a reason monks that are closest to God dont have offspring, although I'm not entirely sure what it is.
I do not even intend to breed cause im not an animal.

>>20834304
So go be a monk. What's stopping you?

>>20834167
>Not actually illegal
thats the problem

>>20834335
seriously, if this dude is so holy why was he creepin on girls instagrams in the first place

>>20834349
Somehow I doubt "bad" art is a law enforcement priority, much less definable.
You could always get together with the Rev. Donald Wildmon, or the Parents Music Resource Center.
Their causes are REALLY popular.

>>20834335
Like i said, id like to experience romantic love and eventually have a kid. I think i have it in me. Id like to have my part in a creation and raising of a kid and see him become a good man. Also, i dont know if this is theologically sound but id like to have my kid in heaven with me and perhaps his kids and so on, cause somehow i dont think id feel complete without that, even tho in heaven theoretically i should feel complete irregardless of that but somehow i feel like i couldnt

I'm gonna stop eating sweets

>that feel just as the acetaminophen and ibuprofen kick in and the migraine dissolves into fuzzy relief
TAKE THAT YOU FUCKING FAGGOT

>>20834372
You want all your descendents in Heaven, too?
So now you're presenting God with conditions?
What gives you THAT right?
Maybe you can ask God how the Flood was supposed to destroy the fish or waterfowl, and who had to shovel all that poop.

>>20834425
I am not conditioning God. Yes, ofcourse id like my hypothetical kids to go to heaven, what else should i want, for them to go to hell? I know everyone has free will, ofcourse but id still want them with all my heart to go to heaven, whats up with you dude? Chill
Whats up with this all night roast of me? I know there is some anon lurking who probably gets my points better than you guys
Mostly you guys are misunderstanding me, i appreciate the fit guy, he had the best advice by far

>>20834462
I try to use the Socratic method in discussions, to lead the other person to figure out the answers for themself.
But since you're so resistant to that, I guess I have to come out and say it...
Your problem is that you're really confused and stupid, to the point where you've entered a downward spiral.
It's referred to as the Dunning–Kruger effect.
This is why you can't solve your problem by yourself.
I will now stop trying to help you.

I think history can be divided into two sets of eras:
1. The Eras of Stability
2. The Eras of Flux

The former is desirable, the latter is not. Ideally nothing changes, and people live in the exact manner of their ancestors, a chain of stability which goes on forever.

But that is not our lives, unfortunately. We live in an an era of flux. Races and cultures and civilizations which existed for thousands of years are being erased, fused, disturbed. It is a perversion of a dying world order, a desecration of what is right. But thankfully, things will settle, at least for a time. Climate change and resource exhaustion ensure the engines of change will run out of fuel.

In short, we are primordial soup, as were the peoples who were the ancestors of the various races which emerged as humanity left the savannah. Our waves will echo for the next thousand years or more. The old races, old cultures and old civilizations are dying. New races, new cultures, and new civilizations will emerge.

>>20834491
Good to know, thanks. You sound like youre not confused, and not stupid, and you sound like youre not in a downward spiral
You also sound like you dont suffer from dunning krueger
You also sound like you can solve your problems
You also sound like youre not resistant to the socratic method

>>20834372
>Like i said, id like to experience romantic love and eventually have a kid.
You also just said that you would not breed because you are not an animal.

For silks and fur of yeomen
twilled woolen is
as is horsehair the holyman's!
Take heed of hearth's helmet:
sea swells, hewn shingles
this is the freeman's keep
like a king's longboat
blessed wealth of commons

>>20834525
I just wouldnt call that breeding

My ancestor :)

>>20833837
I doubt that.

https://youtu.be/WpzPSlX_9lE

>>20833611
"No."

>>20833611
You have to at least link them. It’s the bare minimum you have to do to make these things

PREVIOUS THREAD
>>20829202
>>20829202
>>20829202

What does it mean when a guy refers to a girl as a “unicorn”?

>>20834724
A privately held startup with a valuation of over 1 billion dollars

>>20834724
A mythical creature. Like the perfect girl?

>>20834532
You are either a troll or are trying to manipulate people into telling you what you want to hear. Either way, grow up.

>>20834508
You sound like you have a tenuous grip on the English language.
And yet you claim to be well read.
What a phony.

>>20834561
You wish.
Life on Earth descended from fecal bacteria left here during an alien toilet break.
That explains why everyone is so shitty.

>>20834724
It means she dyed her hair an unnatural color.

>>20834724
She is literally pie in the sky, and ideal that should not be possible too meet but somehow is met.

>>20834724
It means she’s a virgin/non-slutty girl, which is very rare

>>20834724

Why should I bother writing a story when nobody will ever read it?

>>20834950
where the fuck is her chin
is this an eggman filter

>>20834950
>weak chin
>bulbous nose
>stringy butch haircut
>bull-like septum piercing
>frumpy attire
>juvenile hello kitty mug

I’d say she’s more of a narwhal

So in my country the top news is a screenshot of messages from some uber eats delivery guy texting the girl "how was your food? Hope it was good crying emoji" then in 2 days texting her "thanks for getting me fired. Now i have no income"

Into the fire would I yet throw your soul
If doing so would let me turn back time
A sacrifice whose justice would be whole
In pruning our lives' hid'ous twisted vines

If Satan would in flesh just so appear
Before me, or Beëlzebub, or else
the others of the Styg'an pits of fear,
to grant me full the powers of all hells

A single wish would be it that I make
A price appropriate, and one I'll pay
Your soul to be devoured as the stake
To let me change the outcome of that day:

Your torture, for this one infernal bet:
To make it so that we had never met.

>>20834957
If it is a good story, an audience of 1 is all it needs.

>>20835435
not him but I think you are being incredibly disrespectful and stupid, he said "nobody" his audience is zero. Don't move the goalposts to say that the writer can be their own audience, that is not the case for a myriad of reasons, the most obvious is the writer has already 'read' the work. You've totally ignored his question, he said what if nobody reads it, you're now ignoring his question and saying someone will read it. That's not what he said.
Be more relevant.

>>20834561
In retrospect, this was a mistake.

>>20835445
I think he meant that if its only 1 person to read it is enough for it to catch on

>>20835445
I'm just giving my opinion. I have written stories which are chilling in my Google Drive. No one else has read them, no one else will. I still think creating them was worthwhile

>>20835460
That if its a good story*

>>20835460
Then it's still putting the cart before the horse.
And even if it's not, I know from experience I would recommend people read things all the time, no one did. So that's evidently untrue.

>>20835463
You're changing the goal posts, you said "an audience of 1 is all it needs." now you're saying it's okay not to have anyone read it. Which is it?

>>20835471
I'm not. The audience of 1 is the writer.

>>20835467
If u sent the story to several friends im sure 1 of them would read it. Maybe the percentage is lower with publishers. If u posted it here a dozen people would read it

>>20835479
No the writer is never the audience. Monty Python even made a joke when they called "murder an extroverted suicide". The writer is not the audience. And you're not clever nor are you sharing some kind of insight by changing the definition of a word that implies at least two different agents to shoehorn into your insulting bromide.

>>20835484
not in my experience, it's always a crap shoot if someone reasons something I've written. But I was more interesting this form the perspective of: imagine that some anon or a friend of mine writers something, I read it, like it - so now I'm the "audience of 1" - and I recommend it to a third person, I will be certain they won't read it because no one ever takes my recommendations to heart.
I have had better luck getting people to read my original material, but even then it's like pulling teeth.

>>20835507
*I was more imagining
Don't know why my fingers typed "interesting"

>>20835495
Stop seething. If you read a story you wrote at an earlier date, you are quite literally the audience.

>>20835507
Have some faith anon

>>20835511
Just face it, an audience is usually two or more people. It's hackneyed to try and refer to a writer as their own audience. What you said was insultingly irrelevant.
What a shitty example, that presumes that the enjoyment i get out of it, provided I forgot what I wrote and what it is about somehow is greater than the effort of writing it.
You could have just written "if you enjoy writing it, then it is worth it" but you had to go on this shitty unimaginative, insulting roundabout where you have to imagine hypothetical situations where the writer is literally schizoid enough to justify your lazy choice of words.
>>20835513
Why? What good would it do me? Or anyone else for that matter?

>>20835563
>What you said was insultingly irrelevant.
No, you're just freaking out over nothing. If "muh 2 people" is your criteria then post it online and someone else will eventually find it. Although given your crappy attitude an audience of 1 might just be the biggest you ought to have.

>>20833611
Frodo!?

period sex

>>20835563
I really have no strength to argue with you. Faith is good because it gives pure clean sheet on your end of things, of communication or whatever else, which is as much as you can do for good rapport since you cant control other people. You have faith that the other person has faith to have a good rapport. If other person doesnt have faith then you still did good cause its the right thing to do. Maybe he will realize one day, gee that guy really had faith and i betrayed him, maybe i should do better. If the other person does have faith then its great because now real loving and trusted communication can start

>>20835578
You're not a man 'til you got blood on your sword lmao.

>>20833611
where do I find high quality paintings like these? I would love to use some as my wallpaper

>>20835619
Google Images

>>20835619
There are printed wallpapers of famous paintings on amazon, also of that one in particular

I am desperately, madly infatuated with a girl. She's a shooting star, in the Elliott Smith sense, the worst sense. She's fickle and volatile, self-destructive and hypocritical. But she tempers all my faults, and I laugh with her in a way I've never laughed with someone before. I know it's too late now, and keeping her in my head, dreaming of a time when she's as attached to me as I am to her, isn't going to do anything other than hurt me further. But I'm self-destructive too.

>>20833611
I always noticed every time the right or left shills for certain ideas, be it shit like "the west destroys the east" "Marx was right" or "determinism is absolute truth" I knee-jerk in the other direction.

Also I got money after waiting what seemed like an eternity for my roommate and I to get stuff for the apartment, like food, drinks, cigs. A couple of good Samaritans stopped by help out (we're disabled working poor, roommate has PTSD and bipolar and I have autism and bipolar)

Tomorrow my family celebrates my brother's 30th birthday (younger, im 40) even though his birthday was on the 10th. Probably swim a bit in my parents pool and eat a nice meal and some cake.

is there merit in a more violent suicide than say a helium bag? helium bag seems kinda gay and cowardly no?
>inb4 clever shit like all suicide is cowardly

>>20833768
>yeah bro, being dishonest liar is just a mature way in relationships xD

>>20835638
Get yourself a reason or a rope.

>>20835638
Please dont talk about or do such horrible things

>>20835685
Whats wrong with suicide? Its not like hes planning your murder.

broke up with my gf recently because i found out she's unironically a neonazi in the making and supports eugenics
>inb4 but that's based

>>20835701
You're an idiot.

Paintings (be they painted, written, or thought) offer idyllic cut-outs. Misery is banned beyond the edges of the frame. A young woman on a field of flowers, her airy dress blue like the sky - where is the famished tailor, where the lung-sick coachman, where the African cotton picker? Beauty, with her stiletto heels, stands on the shoulders of the maimed. Art is the art of hiding. Vile, vile, vile!

>>20835713
There are paintings of things you mention, also she has depth in her gaze, a melancholic, longing one so she does have an element of realism

>>20835701
>She supports eugenics
Big yikes my dude.

Checking this thread and imagining it to be a comfy place of my friends. Not knowing anyone of you, sure. But the feeling it nonetheless real: a distant community. Think that's pretty cool. Where even a speck of that 'alright energy' appears is always a chance to multiply and intensify, to bring about something living. Poetry threads were good. And Nietzsche threads especially. I have noticed that it amounts to regularity, to a visible rhythm; which is an ability to follow a form and not to dissolve in the common noise. Once a pattern is through, some enchanted space appears. That is heroic even if may look embarrassing. Hm, idk shitposting is pretty cool I think.

I spent the last two weeks on a non-4chud board. I'm sad to report that people are even dumber elsewhere.

>>20835730
Bah, the little melancholy of the beneficiary. Even a sheep's eye has depth. Even misery is idyllized.

>>20835572
> Although given your crappy attitude an audience of 1 might just be the biggest you ought to have.
Guess what? you're my audience since you're reading what I'm writing - not only that, you're replying.

>>20835582
>I really have no strength to argue with you
Sounds like you lack faith

one. one talent please. something to stop my downfall. its like being tortured artist but without any artistic traits.

>>20835839
Do you like fidgeting? buy a lockpick and a lock and or starting kit!

How do you manage to reconcile your hedonistic needs and your sense of morality? I dream of girls sitting in the moonlight, but in the branches above squats a ghostly skeleton and grins at me knowingly. I feel like we humans are family - but then how can I enjoy when every moment is wrested from a dying friend?

>Someone gives unsolicited advice, or suggests a book with no context or explanation
>ask a simple "why?"
>they sperg or schiz out... put all their energy into ad homeniens, not into giving context
If you can't give reasoning behind your book suggestions or unsolicited advice, it is safe to assume you're mentally ill and not in a position to make meaningful suggestions or advice.

>>20836057
reddit sensibilities. stay some longer and oyu'll learn to filter these. in short: silly ideas about 'mental illness' and 'meaningful suggestions' are merely burdens and prejudices. it is not unlike a meditative practice -- the shitposting that is. 'schizzing out' is where the development is headed, so get to it and feel the groove.

How do I get some writing out there as 'commercial experience' for job applications?

>>20836019
Once you start following the way of development you learn to use your own spiritual tincture that is made of various contrary impulses. What seems opposed is being 'cooked' properly until it is reconciled. A lovely maid in the moonlight and her more fleshy, visceral side can be approached in holiness. Desire can be made sublime and angelic. Thus transformation, sublimification and never repression (as it births abominations). As for the friend, I am assured, one need not to fall unto the toxic compassion: redeem the other by redeeming yourself first. Far too many contribute to collective economies of guilt. Live honestly first and the light shall help others. Straight and clean.

>>20834372
Lol you think you're going to heaven yourself?

>>20833919
Just lie. They never check

>>20836290
Depends on field and country.

>>20836120
> silly ideas about 'mental illness' and 'meaningful suggestions' are merely burdens and prejudices.
Cope. You wouldn't say that if you had something meaningful or specific and actionably useful to say

>>20836403
How can you know what I would or wouldn't say? Alright, I will rephrase my point: it's part of a local filtration system. This board is used for other ends, so complaining about the '''mentally ill''' not living to you expectations is silly.
>Cope

>>20836403
Only newfags read lower case posts

>>20834957
you write for the act of writing, not for producing a result

>>20836501
Uhm, no? End result is what matters the most.

>>20836505
Ok bugman

>>20836505
I disagree, for me writing is finding the correct phrasing of a not yet formulated thought. it is an act of creation, not for the sake of the result, but for discovering something new. I've of course had to produce a lot of written material during the time of my education, but that is not the same, and also far less enjoyable. I will probably never write a book, or anything I'd want anyone else to read, so if you hope to be an author someday you should not listen to me. everything I write I write for me, including this post :^)

>>20836719
Post some of your stuff that you've written

>>20835701
You might’ve tired to turn her.

Love the conclusion to the trolly problem there

>>20836719
Why this le funy face at the end of your post? Correct me if I'm wrong, It seems as if you're almost apologising for 'I write for me'.

PROs:
I have allowed myself to finally get memed into reading A Confederacy of Dunces and it's a HOOT.

CONs:
I just also finished having allowed myself to be memed into reading Kafka on the Shore. Dear God. I vaguely remember thinking Murakami was okay. I'd read The Elephant Vanishes, a collection of short stories, when I was a teen. I now retroactively dislike myself on account of this scandalous æsthetic misstep.

>>20836734
I just found "I write for me" ironic in this context, I'm after all responding to someone

>>20836747
Alright, cool.

>>20836738
I remember my first week on /lit/ too

What does it mean to be respected? Other people being interested in you?

>>20836796
No, it means people think highly of you

Almost at the finish
An idol you never knew
Altar of imagined outcomes
Another human sacrifice

>>20836807
I think thats called being praised, not respected.

>>20836820
I think you're dumb

If you knew you'll die in 24 hours, would you go get drunk and have sex or pray to God and confess your sins?

why is the delete post timer so fucking long now? seriously annoying.

>>20836822
That might be true but still doesnt answer the question.

>>20836846
Ok sorry for calling you dumb but I already told you my answer. I don't think your answer is correct because I'm interested in people whom I don't respect because they have some fascinating or curious characteristics, but I don't really care about them, I don't think highly of them, I don't really respect them. Also thinking highly of someone doesn't equate to praising them because you can think highly of someone without saying anything to them.

>>20836738
I've been here ~14 years. I can't remember my first week on 4chan, or on /lit/.

Fuck. >>20836883 meant for >>20836773 . I may get older but I don't get any less rtarded.

>>20836729
I dont write in english (scandi). nowadays I only write a diary, which only sometimes gets interesting. I do wish I could find a proper format for my thought (it's so embarrasing to only be able to write about myself), since I do love to write once I get in the flow.
your interest in my writing is really making me ill at ease, and I'm not a consistent person, so this I write for you

it's strange to feel so vulnerable even though I'm anonymous

>>20836900
That's ok anon I think you have some talent for thoughtful writing. I think essays fit you. You may like people like William Hazlitt, Montaigne, Italo Calvino, etc. depending on your interests.

Numerological signs are signs from God that you're seeing patterns that aren't there.

I don't have true opinions, I am incapable of thinking for myself and having a personality, I copy other people.

>>20836986
The most original person ever was some feral retard that made up his own language and died from eating poop.

>>20837115
I didn't die. I became more powerful than you could possibly imagine. Sneedilo sneedilo, chuckaloo limpah!

>>20837128
>sneedlord, I..

>>20836924
I love Calvino (and have been meaning to read Montaigne), so I have to check out Hazlitt

>>20836833
The latter

>https://www.reuters.com/world/africa/lest-35-killed-egyptian-church-fire-security-sources-say-2022-08-14/

Poetry is simply the most beautiful, impressive, and widely effective way of saying things, hence its importance

I've always felt that the incompleteness theorems said something deep about the nature of the universe . And I suspect it might be this :

What is the one thing that resists quantification? If we can find something in the universe that is unquantifiable, that thing is the limiting case of Tegmark's "mathematical universe" theory .

Incidentally it seems that thought and consciousness is the one thing that can't be quantified . Feeling , perceptions , sensations. An idea may be quantitative but the idea itself cannot be quantified.

Computational neuroscience tries its damnedest to reduce the mind to algorithms but there just seems to be the point at which this fails.

Perhaps this points to a deep congruence between consciousness and reality . The thing that does math is itself mathless; that which presents the outward form of the objectification in representation is itself unrepresented as the thing-in -itself.

The subject / object distinction is itself a kind of incompleteness or the side effect of reality's skew towards itself . It's a kind of fracturing that results from the representer being unable to represent itself among the objects of the world . If it did so it could not exist without erasing its subjectivity which is the focal counterpoint to the world of appearance

As it Happens Godel thought something like this . He thought there was something trans-computational or transcendental about the human mind because we can recognize incomputable truths .

>>20837334
Music and math give poetry a run for its money. But they are all beautiful for the same reasons.

I wonder what I'd do if my mom rejected me. I've taken some time away from her to process some old things. In truth I don't really want to see her. But I've always assumed she'll be there waiting when I finally do return (I haven't really intended to drag this out indefinitely but I don't really want to return and it's been a little over a year). It struck me today she might not be, she could give me similar treatment. I wonder how I'd feel then. Probably won't happen but it put a different light on it all. If she isn't there when I want to go back. Something became more real.

>>20836833
also the latter I think.

I check escort sites and masturbate with their pictures. I think about going to one, but I look like a little soft fragile boy. I'm 28 but I still look very young and I think if I start having sex with prostitutes I'm going to age faster (?) kinda like the picture of dorian gray but without the picture, as if pleasure brought with itself decomposition. Not only pleasure but some idea of 'badly earned' or 'undeserved' pleasure.

>>20833611
Man, my dreams are fucked up. They just keep getting more deranged. I had to learn how to scream myself awake. In my dreams I've started asking people if I'm dreaming, and get told that I'm not. Thank fuck you can't get traumatized from your dreams, or I'd be a goddamn vegetable.

>>20837382
Same anon
About a year ago I had so much anger toward her. At one point it felt like someone had squeezed like 80 eels into my skull, and I could almost see them in there squirming over eachother pressing against the inside. At the same time or roughly the same time I had a vivid fantasy of slowly decapitating my mother and I just laid in bed seeing that in my head, boiling with anger. And what broke my anger, what ended it abruptly, was jerking off to porn. Then it just went away. So I'm thinking we have some things to work through.

>>20833611
>Reading Book of Samuel
>Get to parts about Jonathan and David
Is there a more implicit homolust in all of frickin literature?
>Jonathan went to meet David inna woods alone.
>Jonathan then removed his armour, cloak and bow and gave it to David.
Im para-phrasing, but it was quite scintillating .

>>20834957
Because you'll gain experience and practice, and your next story might be good enough to draw attention.

>>20837382
Usually what happens is you realize your parents are flawed people and life just happened to them very very fast. The critical moment is when you realize, holy shit, my mom/dad right now is literally just my current level of knowing what I'm doing + several years. There's nothing magical about being 40, 50, or 60. They had you when they were 20-30, like you are now, just a retard still trying to figure things out, and then they never really did figure things out. They never passed a magical threshold where they become An Adult. Not to sound too much like the reddit "adulting is hard" shit but there is a kernel of truth to this.

At that point the best thing to do is to sort of become something like a parent to them, and if you're lucky and they're at least a reasonably decent person, a friend as well. It's a very weird shift that not everybody manages to go through, the shift to not seeing your parents as the omnipotent bestowers or withholders of your self-worth or identity or whatever, but it happens roughly 25-35, and somehow emerges from the realization that they're simply no better off than you are or are likely to become any time soon.

And the few people who really reach a high level of psychological integration as a human being inevitably end up pitying those who didn't or can't. There simply are not very many people who are truly "responsible," responsible for their actions or their lives, in any satisfying way. Things don't work like they do in the movies, where two autonomous well-integrated adults figure shit out together and can hold each other accountable when one or the other fails to figure something out or denies something that should be accepted etc. Most people are seriously fucking bumbling and dysfunctional.

The sooner this is realized, the better, because the more likely you'll be able to take pity on your mom (or whoever) and just enjoy life for all its flaws, do your best to be a decent son even if it's not "fair" or doesn't "make sense" that your mom is half a basket case and you aren't. In the movies, YOUR self-knowledge and introspection would result in HER introspecting and blah blah blah, but this isn't the movies. Most of the time when you come back to people, they're the same people they always were, or even worse. That's why pity and being able to love people even when it's "messy" and uncinematic are important. Otherwise you end up not talking to your brother for 10 years because of a dumbass fight and then he passes away and only THEN do you realize one more flawed Thanksgiving dinner with him would have been worth ten thousand years of being right.

>>20833611
i am really tired
but i have many things that need to be done

i hate the new splatoon idols

i want to draw and always continue to draw but even though i wont do it professionally i hope i never stop

>>20837382
The moment you realize your parents are just other people among people with no special status you will feel a lot freer. Start viewing them that way and less as someone who has authority over your psychological and emotional development and you will be all the better for it.

Love them if they love you, care for them if they care for you. But they are not entitled to your love or care.

My mom used to do this gaslighty thing where she'd say "i brought you into this world" as if I owed her for it and she had leverage over my existence. Parents can be fucking nuts with their children.

>>20835713
Counterexample

>>20837339
Well, sure.
Eastern mystics have been saying this for centuries.
Quantum physics studies the intersection between physics and consciousness, and is discovering the same thing, but from a Western viewpoint.
The players exist outside of the game. We are not our avatar.

I've wanted to write novels and stageplays for almost a decade now, but I've gotten so frustrated with these that at nearly 30 I've started thinking I should turn to something like film or even video games. What's really pushed me is finding several biographies of people who did exactly this, albeit at a younger age.

>>20837431
Bad smells can give you nightmares.
Conversely, pleasant smells can ward off nightmares.
https://www.nbcnews.com/health/body-odd/bad-smells-can-give-you-nightmares-flna1C9926317

I'm so fucking horny, I can't do anything but fantasize about my weird fetishes all day. I hate it.

>>20837560
Unironically find God, that's the only thing that saved me from degeneracy.

I am stuck between Calvinism, Catholicism, Orthodoxy, and a skeptical rejection of theology entirely.

>>20837684
Just don't become Orthodox if you're going to be an apostate, we don't want any more tradcaths using the orthodox faith to win Twitter arguments in America. Calvinism was declared a heresy by the way, so don't come to orthodoxy with that pagan baggage. Either grow up or stay away.

>>20833911
im really sorry you feel this way.As a man i also feel disgusting when i think of my physical appearance , my obesity , my falling hair.It was kind of relieving to see someone describe that hopeless feeling of seeing a beautiful woman , it makes me dysphoric.Im sorry i dont know what to reply , im 25 thinking of suicide everyday and hoping i do it early because if i wait till im over 30 then what value would that have? It would be someone making a logical decision given their circumstances and not someone immortalizing youth.Typing all this makes me embarassed of who i am.I guess me giving such important to my never attained beauty is my greatest form of self-hatred.

Sometimes my humility makes me feel proud and better than those who are arrogant.

>>20837710
I don't think it would make sense to suggest you need 100% correct theology before you convert.

But I'm looking for truth, not a simple declaration of what is heresy and what is not, if that wasn't clear. This reply is not helpful.

>>20833611
I thought that was frodo at first

>>20837729
You're not looking for truth, you're looking for attention.

>>20837729
>I'm looking for truth
If you believe in the Trinity and the miracles of Christ became a Christian, otherwise look elsewhere.

I used to think time bombs were bombs that caused a distortion in time around the explosion, not that it was a bomb with a timed detonator.

>>20837746
But belief needs to be sensible, does it not? Why would you accept a belief that does not make sense?

>>20837745
you replied to me idiot

I am becoming more and more envious and resentful towards rich people and it's hindering my ability to enjoy art made by rich people and I don't even like working class art.

Fuck, this is utterly pathetic.

>>20837859
be careful or marxists will exploit this resentment and you'll end up lobotomizing yourself with bad economics.

>>20837859
Read this.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ressentiment_(Scheler)

I'd estimate about 75% of my public behaviors stem from vanity.

>>20837710
>Calvinism was declared a heresy
By who? Jerry Falwell? Who cares?

Non disclosure agreement

Lain going into public domain
But no one cares
So type moon merges to bandai
Bandai thought to itself "eh the Vn ones again... they thought i actually love myse- oooo vampires"

...and thats how valkyrie profile went to public domain.

The end

what do you guys think about eating pussy?

>>20837875
Not from stanley rubic

“Whoever says:
لا اله الا الله وحده لا شريك له، له الملك وله الحمد، وهو على كل شيء قدير
la ilaha ila Allah wahdahu la sharika lah, lahu al-mulk wa lahu al-hamd, wa huwa `ala kulli shay’in qadir
There is no god but Allah, alone, without partner. His is the sovereignty, and His the praise, and He has power over everything
100 times a day will have a reward equivalent to the reward for freeing 10 slaves. Also, 100 deeds will be recorded for him & 100 bad deeds of his will be wiped off, & it will be a safeguard for him from Satan that day until evening, & no one will be better in deeds than such a person except he who does more than that.” [Bukhari, Muslim, Tirmidhi, Nasa’i and Ibn Majah]

This is good advice.

>>20837710
I guess that sucks for me my family is Calvinist by birthright. Ill just stick to the schizo Gnostic shit because it makes sense.

>>20837923
It hurts the feline based movie industry alot especially disney and kimba
...unles theyre in public domain

>>20837927
do you think that would give me more real life (You)s?

>>20837915
By the Orthodox Church. Probably by Catholics too.

>>20837867
I don't know.

>>20837871
I know it's self destructive but life of working class is utter humiliation and survival without any comfort. I don't understand why the fuck working class people here in 3rd world don't commit suicides on large scale. Life here is an utter humiliation, fucking blobs of dogshite dragging themselves from day to day for pennies with million insecurities and a dark future.

It's disgusting and suffocating.

>>20837931
Allah sounds kind of insecure if he needs this sort of reassurance from mortals.

>>20837934
I prefer public domain but theres lain there thinking she s fujiko mine or some long running robot boy manga that almost got made by kubrick

>>20837937
No


But more frisbees thou

"Thou art" hah, archaic languages

>>20837948
Simple...because if they did, they wouldn't be around anymore.
Mass suicide is a bad way to perpetuate one's culture.
Life is lived by the survivors.

>>20837957
>But more frisbees thou
I feel this will make it harder for me to look cool.

>>20837940
Really? They took time off from buggering little boys, and covering it up, to denounce someone else's beliefs?
Pardon me while I sneed.

this trip has existed for like 10 minutes and is already more annoying than the others.

>>20837978
how can you ever strive to b a writer without having a trip? wtf. C'mon get on with the times. Trip is vibrant. It shows you have a personality. You have rich life behind posted letters. It communicates SOVL. It shows you are a rare breed. An aristocrat of spirit. Proud enough to be retarded online and posting wth a trip like a true debased chud and being honest about it. Every major author had a trip: Evola-sneed, Joyce, Shakespear.

It’s been two hours since my dealer was meant to be here, already sent a text an hour ago , do I call them?

>>20838046
protip: if you don't use a tripcode, it's not actually a trip. that said, trips suck and were meant to be used for like one thread, not your whole life which is why they aren't that hard to crack.

>>20838059
Sure...if you want him to suddenly jack up the price.

>>20838059
>Here he comes, he's all dressed in black
>PR shoes and a big straw hat
>He's never early, he's always late
>First thing you learn is that you always gotta wait
>I'm waiting for my man

>>20838059
buy more so you have to experience this less

I've never felt more racist than finding a new doctor. This is probably the only part of my life where 4chan has imparted a tangible prejudice in me, making me want only an asian, male doctor in a white neighborhood.

>>20838111
I can only ever find asian doctors in my area. Is there a reason you want one (presumably) not even of your own race?

>>20838111
same. i avoid blacks, indians, chinese, and jews. whites japanese and koreans are the best.

>>20838111
>>20838125
>>20838129
>going to the doctor

How should you figure out what to do with your life? I'm 29 and fortunately I have some sense, but it's vague and conflicted. Some days I think I need to do X, and then other days I think it's Y, but I can't do X and Y so how am I supposed to know? I feel like I'm suspended in indecisive limbo, about everything, my beliefs, actions, everything.

>>20837623
I refuse to involve Jesus in my weird fantasies.

>>20838140
explore more options. read books, watch youtube documentaries on interesting things, talk to interesting people.

>>20838140
Move out of your parents' house and support yourself for once.
Then you'll be too tired to have this problem.
And you will experience an epiphany about life.

>>20838209
That's not really helped me.

>>20838221
I've lived on my own and by myself for over a decade.

wow man panda bear really hit the wall

>>20838241
comfy mix tho no hip indie bullshit like you might have expected

>>20838164
Christianity isn't the only religion in existence, you know.

>>20838228
Then you're not working hard enough.
By your age, I was exhausted.

>>20838125
asians are held to a higher standard in medical school acceptance criteria

>>20837859
Even philosophy was written by a rich, high-class people. An average man worked himself into death.

just learned my ex of 6 years now parties a lot and get puked on during parties and have stories to tell about boys

didn't expect that shit to hit me that hard but it did. I'm disgusted and my heart aches. I didn't dig any more than that but I got the gist of it. the woman I loved is dead.

fuck this

>>20838426
Look on the bright side...you dodged a bullet!

>>20838315
Indeed...racial discrimination in action!
Just as long as they went through American medical school.

>>20838416
Working-class philosophy is developed over beers down at the neighborhood pub.
Someone just needs to write it down.

>>20838296
yeah but I don't know what Yahweh or Mohammed look like, and the polytheists are all sluts anyway.

>>20838463
I didn't dodge anything. The bullet ripped my heart off and took the last dregs of real love and adoration I will ever feel for a woman. I've never felt more complete and at peace than when she was in my arms. I know it's cliché but my brain has been programmed to love her for 6 years and nothing and no one will ever make me feel the same. I loved myself enough to have a healthy relationship before and the sourness and self hate I developed during her absence will never revert to anything useful. Meeting new women won't help me get back my self love and principles. She literally mindfucked me and made me the ghost of what I previously was.

...

>>20838488
...you thought anon's advice was to fantasize about fucking Jesus?!

>>20838519
Well, aren't you a delicate snowflake.
My advice is to man up.

>>20838488
Maybe this?

>>20837934
It's not like you're bound to your parents' faith.

>>20838426
i miss when 4chan had a lot of mopey posting like this. now it's mostly insane people and idiotic ideologues which aren't worth engaging with.

If I have a son, I'm going to name him Egbert.

>>20836833
Can I choose both?

>>20838519
>>20838600
Go back

>>20838129
I just go for whites for everything because they invented all this stuff

>>20837923
I believe I would like it. I really should now since I've done it once, but it is 12 years ago now and everything was new as it was my first time so I dont recall anything particular regarding that. Tbh, physical act in itself might not be that appealing, but I do love to please, and given a sure way to do it I would probably embrace it.

suffering is on my mind, and how im limiting my life by avoiding it

>>20838549
says the man who never loved and was never loved back

>>20838744
Bitter, childish, and angsty. Grow up.

>>20837923
I dont find it appealing.

>>20837923
It's sinful so I have an aversion to it.

>>20838606
Why?
Do you want him to get bullied mercilessly in grade school?
He'll be a serial killer by middle school.

>>20838805
Any sex outside of marriage is sinful by Christian canon.
But oral sex isn't sinful inside of marriage.
What are you even going on about here?

Thinking about how the grass is always greener on the other side. I was a high achiever in high school and university, but the job I have now doesn't really reflect that. It's a government job that pays OK, but it's not very impressive or intellectually challenging. A part of me is sad I haven't 'lived up to my potential' as others might see it with the flashy, prestigious job they would have expected. At the same time, I know that if I had one of those jobs - as many of my old school friends do - I would be constantly overworked, hating my life, and most likely yearning for the type of easy and laid back job I have right now. In fact, I have really struck the jackpot in terms of amount of money vs. amount of work and yet I feel unsatisfied because a part of me is still concerned with status and appearance. I suppose that I can't shake off the values of my bourgeois upbringing.

Don't get me wrong. I hate the part of me that is obsessed with status, but I am just being honest that it exists. I obviously don't hate it enough to shake it off. But comparison is the thief of joy and I need to learn to be satisfied with where I'm at right now. Although I suppose I'm scared that satisfaction leads to complacency and kills ambition. Oh well, it's all stupid and my problems are the problems of every faceless bourgeois drone that has ever lived. You can't escape your fate I suppose.

>>20837923
MMMmmmmm

Don't follow your dreams.

Do you think contemporary popular media like video games and movies are like poison to writers or is its influence necessary to make good writing today? I grapple with this personally.

>>20838921
Realize your ambitions through a side hustle.

>>20838969
did pac-man and pong influence writers of the past?

I wanted to write a new novel this year, but I'm not satisfied with any of these ideas.

>>20838979
Probably not, but it wouldn't follow from that games never will in the future. The games we have today are very different from pong. They are more like movies which indeed have influenced writers for better or for worse.

>>20839000
you should just come up with good ideas instead of wasting your time trying to figure out what's preventing you from coming up with them.

>>20833611
>Write what's on your mind
Battlefield 2 download
Where to Battlefield 2 download
Google Battlefield 2 free
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How to Free Battlefield 2 google
Trustable free game sites

>>20839078
isnt that shit like 5$ now?

>>20839078
Cheapskate anon...you can buy it for $10
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0006SL93I

>>20839102
>>20839106
sure anon but i'm a third worlder, your 10 dollars are worth in the five hundreds for me

I wish I had a life

Every happy beautiful person I see is a reminder of the failure that I am since I was born and it makes me want to pull that trigger

Everyone says this board is going to shit. No one posts things that aren't shit.

>>20839220
You're beautiful and both worthy and capable of everything you desire.

Are long winded autistic """character""" (really author) rants supposed to be the peak of political/social/philosophical commentary?

I used to read them in books and think they were really profound, where as now being an amateur author and writing them they just make me cringe. Are mine just bad? Or did the original authors of those rants cringe at their own work and just post it anyway?

>>20839078
>>20839174
Repack-games

>>20839174
If that were true, how can you afford the computer to play it on?

>>20839210
t. aborted baby

im blackpilled af fr fr

Technically... robots exist so we need not invent more. Like ZN said "some things are just are just cattles... thats their purpose" like robots... only work according to purpose...and design. I mean


Yea this is lame

Why are you even mad about what you had in mind anyway. Haha

It s like you are not in control


And so they gave up writing about olympians, and drank waters from the vikings...which is not salty nor dirt

Yeah i m so fucking sma-
*shuts down as intended*

Must not drink kobe anymore and get rushed


To be fair... maybe it s just the thrill...
Of trying to evolve.


Like flash.

Sittjnf down.
Not running about.

Half the marvel, twice the emmy

Woooooo

....GD said.

I’m so angry that I’m still not clear on what to do at my age.

Hat and pants lovecraft
HP lovecraft

Yea

>>20837963
Hygene is king. Soaps.

>>20839265
you remind me of this crap for some reason
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pophN0sF2UU

I'm glad I have the self-awareness to not think I'm a genius, or at least to know that having a bit of expertise in a few fields doesn't transfer that expertise over to everything. I spent a week with a midwit who unironically proclaimed they were a genius. I wasn't rude enough to directly challenge their knowledge on certain fields but it was frustrating how they would constantly interrupt people to give their "enlightened" take, some of which included blatantly wrong historical facts. Sometimes I get frustrated that people think I'm actually retarded, but that is more preferable than coming off as a midwit.

I Have No Master, and I Must Learn

>>20839340
"The ancient Oracle said that I was the wisest of all the Greeks. It is because I alone, of all the Greeks, know that I know nothing."

I’ve been slowly realising over the past two years that these days everything is wiretapped and it has been driving me insane.

Your computer? It has a second computer hiding in the processor that sees everything and sends it to intel/amd.

Your internet? Your router registers everything, so does your ISP. Let’s also not forget your browser.

Cars? Always tracking, always listening.

Phones have been wiretapped since forever.

The entire internet is one gigantic wiretap.

Even the fucking fridge is listening.

How did we fuck up this bad? Am I just paranoid?

>20839412
>reddit spacing
>just now realized glowies are everywhere
Go back.

>>20839418
how embarrassing

>>20833633
Cute, but also, funny

>>20839412
Yeah...it's called the Global Surveillance Disclosures.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Global_surveillance_disclosures
The most far-reaching thing we can do about it is refuse to have children.
Refuse to bring another hostage into this world.

why are there so many woman threads today. did you all not go to church this morning.

>>20839510
Of course I did. I liked the reading today. Jesus' words are striking.
>I have come to set the earth on fire,
>and how I wish it were already blazing!

>>20839474

Wasn’t planning to anyway, too expensive to have kids.

>>20839510
Why, so I can learn that incest is OK? >>20839497

>>20839510
going to church doesn't mean being gay dude

>>20839588
The Bible doesn't say incest is okay; it forbids it.
https://mechon-mamre.org/p/pt/pt0318.htm#7

am i supposed to lie on a resume about my previous employment history and just have my friend pick up the phone?

These threads go to fucking fast now.

>>20833611
Are we in it for a wipeout of culture? Society is all about acting so niggardly nowadays and most people on here (including myself I guess) are considered hacks by wider society. Being well-read isn't a compliment anymore and classics are disappearing from the public eye, even as an object.

People will forget about all philosophy and high literature unless it's something pragmatic like stoicism, but even that fragmentary. The world isn't run by spiritually uplifted individuals, it's run by sadistic adrenaline junkies.

No more will there be fervent idealists such as Teddy Roosevelt or Nikola Tesla who were fueled by extensive education aimed at building their character, no more will such people lead.

It's all becoming a hack both in higher and lower layers of society. While higher class people lust for power and indulgency, the less fortunate want an appeal to their emotions and needs. Everyone wants to be fed and jacked off, to put it bluntly, requiring nothing but pampering.

Media and consumer culture is what especially pisses me off, where if I said something I'd be labeled a racist.
In any case it's only going to get dumber and God help anyone who survives

>>20839618
It's a shame how anti-intellectual society has become, but don't let yourself believe you are really that much more intelligent than everyone else.

>>20833660
Anon, this is the wrong place for something like this. Touch grace.

>>20839608
Dude...read what the Bible actually says... >>20839497
Also, Abraham and his wife Sarah were half-siblings:
Genesis 20.12: And yet indeed she is my sister; she is the daughter of my father, but not the daughter of my mother; and she became my wife.
And later he impregnated her.
Genesis 21.2: For Sarah conceived, and bare Abraham a son in his old age, at the set time of which God had spoken to him.
Leviticus 18.7 (i.e. what you're quoting) contradicts Genesis.

>>20839618
Just step back and let the degenerates do themselves in.
What's important now is prepping for the collapse.
After it's over...the meek shall inherit the earth.

>>20839625
I'm not trying to. It's not really about intelligence either, rather, the prime mover in people's cogs. Nobody looks forward to being spirited or noble. It's all a matter of impulse for people.

I know quite a few people with middling intelligence who display virtue and are moved by noble goals. Two of them, at least, didn't finish highschool. I'm not trying to use middling as an insult, how can it be even? It's leveled ground.

I'm thinking more about educating people how to be high-minded, not how to be witty. You have so many people who are intelligent but have morals below par lizards. One of them is even a cultured individual but he's incredibly insensitive to art and strives to becoming a federal agent where he'll harass people, from the looks of it.

Hegel and Plato are some dead old white dudes. Dostoyevsky is just someone Jordan Peterson read. History is a boring subject, as well as reading Twain or Goethe. Wagner is an extinct being of which only a fossil remains. All of these names made something to people and now they're dissappearing.

True, I might myself be indulged in some contemporary, defiled media but I strive to improvement, for all these well-regarded people must have had something important to say.

>>20839625
>>20839749
Also forgot to attach this

I know it's time to make a new thread, but let's not do that, maybe /wwoym/ should perish, or at least rest for a while.

>>20839728
I read it, but I don't see the contradiction. Also I didn't quote anything.

>>20836833
>have sex
impossible for me since I'm a 3/10 male so I'd have no choice but to do the latter.

>>20839766
Well, then, my reply was directed at whoever posted this URL>
>https://mechon-mamre.org/p/pt/pt0318.htm#7

>>20836833
I live my life in spite of myself. I would probably confess my weakness to God, pleasure has never been a prime mover for me.

>>20839753
No, this is a containment thread.
It exists to prevent /lit/ from getting shit up.

>>20833611
I don't want to bust anyone's balls but why do I have different problems than other people? Everyone is worrying about some kind of social perception or standing, possibly some kind of sexual frustration behind it. A friend of mine is bothered that he's not an ace with the ladies despite being filthy rich and another is saddened with being left all the time, blaming herself. I've seen people in ecstasy only because they're in a higher position than others and people all around follow drama.

Meanwhile I'm fascinated by the similarities of Nagarjuna and Hegel or something like Islamicate Aristotelian studies, while my friend frets about his coworkers. I am completwly unmoved by this. The world is a cavern of wonder. Why would I be thinking about what other people are saying when I can think about how warp travel would be feasible. Some even scold me for studying aerospace & defense, thinking I'm a maniac for learning how to kill people.

Am I a solipsistic asshole? Probably. I'm overweight and I'm single, going on the occassional date or jacking off just to curb my enthusiasm. I can't say I'm inconsiderate, but if you mention something about sex or other people's perception I'm thinking of you as a lower person. Chances are I'm on the bottom of the ladder but that doesn't bother me. I've been cited as completely aromantic and I only look at things like marriage pragmatically, with no hint of what makes it magic for most people. What's magic to me is the F-22, baby

Therefore, I can't understand the bitching of
>>20833660
>>20833661

>>20839837
You are just autistic. There's nothing inherently wrong with that, but autists can be insufferable at times. Then again, everyone is.

>>20839873
What's unnerving to me is that I have no diagnosis of any kind. I'm generally sociable and can act according to societal convention, adopting many of it in the first place. But I just can't put myself in the shoes of someone who'd be plagued with appearances, especially not so much. If I were to act 'normal' in that regard I'd off myself

>>20839907
Schizoid

I'm tired

>>20839910
Might be. Is it weird that I look up disorders such as schizophrenia and schizotypal in order to self diagnose? I'm not sure I'm any because I don't have enough symptoms but at the same time I know people who self-diagnose are obnoxious. I just feel I'd be at ease if someone gave me something that ends in -epam or -ine

But at the same time, I was tested. Survived PTSD but other than that am ok

>>20839948
also, here's your new thread, anons
>>20839955
>>20839955
>>20839955

>>20839958
>he wants to be on meds
unironically mentally ill, but not in the way you think

>>20839910
>>20839958
>>20839974
I am not anon so i am insulted