/lit/ - Literature

Every day is a blessing.

Is Severance worth watching? It just seems too familiar to me

I want a job I don't have to worry about and then I can go sit in a dark room and be alone and do nothing but breath forever by myself.

the united states is starting to feel more and more like afghanistan these days

The park across from my apartment building is full of mentally ill crackheads living in tents, and one of them has been screaming profanities for the past hour. It’s so hot that if I close my windows I won’t be able to sleep, so I’m forced to listen to his deranged ranting. Should I call the cops?

>>20593838
Come live in asia. There are no crackheads here.

Every time I make peace with being a stupid person, I am given a tiny glimmer of hope.
Despite being objectively successful, I can't help but suffer from crippling anxiety about my ability. How do people just walk around being so sure of themselves?

This is my novel I've been working on tell me what you guys think


Frinchietta Drenktz cartwheeled into the hall and collapsed into a heap at the feet of her boss. She was 5 minutes late for work. She got up crawling and poured her coffee on the floor. "Frinchi!!!" Her boss hollered.

She sat in the coffee and started slapping the marble floor "fuck it all fuck it all!" She cried out hysterically.

Her coworkers began to peer their heads from their offices and cubicles.

Frinchietta took all her clothing off and began running around the office screaming.

Then she woke up. Her alarm clock blaring in her ear, it was all a bad dream, but wait no it wasn't, she wakes up, naked on the carpeting of an office floor, she had passed out and fainted.

Frinchi took an Uber into town and started looking on linkdn for new employment opportunities. She wondered why this kept happening to her.

She tapped the Uber driver in the back of the head.

"Excuse me sir, pardon me, but do you mind if I fart in your car?"

She got home to her apartment eventually, and entered her foyer. "Alexa put on TMZ, thanks"

She knocked on her roomate Gus' door. "Gus, what's for dinner tonight?"

No answer. She was either going to eat tuna fish, yogurt, mixed nuts, or treat herself to a meal out on the town, but first she needed to find a date.

She changed her 'about me' on tinder from 'just a gal who likes suckin beer and chuggin dick and I'm all out of bubble gum' to 'buy me at least 3 tacos tonight and I'll let you lick my gooch"

She hopped in the shower and when she got out scrolled through her candidates for dates. When her eye stumbled upon a, one, Ryan Dillhoffer, a chance encounter, vis the digital fates, which would change both their lives dramatically, for good(?).

She put on her hot pink latex miniskirt, her favorite yellow ugh boots, her ex boyfriend Samuels flannel (we'll get into him later don't you worry, or maybe he even makes a return dramatic apperence who knows) over a lacy lingerie bra, and capped it off with a feathered fedora.

When she finally heard the honks outside from Ryan, she turned off her Xbox, and skipped downstairs to meet her prince charming.

He was driving a bright red honda gas electric hybrid, blasting 90s r and b hits.
Frinchi opened the door and seductively slid in.

"Hewoo fankk yooo floor taking me ta dinner dawdddyyyu"

She said in a slow stuttering voice before cracking up saying just kidding. "do you mind if I put on music I like recently? There's this dj I really loik that mixes indian sitar music and dubstep like techno, here listen"

Ryan was a good guy blasted the tunes and drove on into town. "So you tryin to have kids sometime soon?" He leaned over and asked her at the red light

"Ummm.. Excuse me.."
"ahhh.. Sorry sorry was tryna be a funny pic up line my bad.. was gonna be like cause I can cum really quick and give you kids right now if you want ahah!"

"Hahaha that's hilarious Ryan what the fuck

>>20593876
Penis size maybe

>>20593919
worthless trash

>>20593876
> How do people just walk around being so sure of themselves?
Knowing their agency and restricting their choices to what is within that, surprisingly wide, circle of influence.

I wish I could take myself seriously. I need to if I’m going to ever be happy.

>>20593929
how so?

>>20593938
clussy

A good croissant stands on its own. You don't need jam.

I think there's a moral imperative to abort fetuses if it's known in advance they'll be above a certain threshhold of mental retardation and disability. I'm talking real monstrosities that will never be able to have an existence outside of staring braindead into space or scream while their parents or care staff keep them from dying for as long as possible.

Sometimes I think a lot of my bad moods are the result of me holding onto my turds too long. Often I'll squeeze out a crap and I'll feel mentally a lot better.

I picked up 2666 after seeing someone start a thread about it. What am I in for? So far it's about academics on a wild goose chase for a German author.

>>20593938
Don't take yourself seriously. Take care of yourself, but don't take yourself seriously. This sounds more like you need to feel like people take you seriously than anything. Correct me if I'm wrong.

I don't know what to write a story about. I don't find any particular topics engaging or intriguing at the moment. I'd rather just focus on improving my technique but I don't know how to go about doing that either.

Why didnt God grant me a good life like others have? Was I not worth of having the most basic human experiences?

>>20594086
You wouldn't be happy with their lives. The only thing that will bring you true satisfaction is to fight for fulfillment, for meaning, and to help others. You're smart enough to be unsatisfied; that alone is proof that you know I'm right.

>>20594070
>This sounds more like you need to feel like people take you seriously than anything
No, if i was the only person left in the world, i would still suffer for not taking myself seriously. I need to find something serious to hold on to. It can’t all just be a joke.

Big dicks will rule the world

>>20594105
The fight is pointless. I cannot go back in time and redo the mistakes. It will forever haunt me even if I'd somehow manage to turn my life around.

>>20594086
God grants nothing. This world is as it is, and ultimately what matters are your actions alone. Besides, does it really matter if an infinitesimally small portion of an infinitely long life of pure bliss is le miserable?

>>20593919
I don't like it. There's nothing redeemable in the debauchery to make me think the entire novel wouldn't be an utter waste of time.

We are out of everything

>>20593795
fpbp

>>20594112
Don't live for yourself, then. Contribute to others' well-being. Most importantly, a failure of a day is not a wasted day if you tried to take a step forward. Nor are 5,000 failed days wasted. Keep your head up, brother.

Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all times

>>20594086
You sound entitled so maybe not

These threads are nothing more than metaphorical insane asylums.

I really hope the epic schizo larper trend ends soon.

>>20594177
entitled to the most basic bottom of the barrel experiences?

Tell me what's in a kiss
If your heart's not in it

We could have wedded bliss
If we'd only begin it

I'm feelin' low down
You know what I'm talkin' about

You let the blues move in
Now I'm movin' out
This old house ain't a home
With no love inside it

We set out pretty strong
Now we just can't fight it

I'm leaving today
I don't wanna' argue or shout

You let the blues move in
Now I'm movin' out

What's the use in buyin' a car
If you won't buy gasoline

We used to be two under par
Now we can't get on the green

I don't know where it went
But it sure went a' flying

Love's like dough that's been spent
Now there's no use a-cryin'

Tell me where can i go
East or west or north or due south
You let the blues move in
Now I'm movin' out

I'm taking this

While searching through cookbooks I found out Snoop Dogg published one in 2018. Can't imagine there is something breath taking in it, I just find the idea of a rapper in same line of work as those faggy chefs to be highly amusing.

>>20594126
If you managed to turn your life around, you would have become strong enough to forgive yourself, even if no one else does. Some truths can only be believed going forward and accepted in retrospect. You will exist regardless; whether you will make that time count in fighting for true peace is entirely up to you, brother.

>>20594200
which experiences are you talking about? do you have something to eat? do you have a roof over your head and do you have drinkable water?
if you answered yes to all of those questions you should consider yourself lucky

>>20594236
MAN CANNOT LIVE ON BREAD ALONE!

>>20594232
Do Peach

>>20594243
entitled piece of shit, you probably also believe that women owe you sex right?

>>20594231
Maybe the reason on why I cant move on because I dont think its entirely my fault. I was never at right time in the right place.

>>20594263
Tell me, then. Is the inability to move on due to you, in part, feeling wronged? I can't fully make heads or tails of the situation as vague as it is.

>>20594274
Honestly its both at the same time but leaning at feeling wronged in the a "divine" sense. I constantly ask myself on why it had to be me but I know that no one will answer it and afterwards I just crawl up into corner out of sadness.

>>20594187
>increasingly depressed and lonely autheist calls others larpers for the 47th time

>>20594297
Can you recommend me an epic schizo book plz, something esoteric.

With Islam you can read the Koran and see that they're wrong
With Christianity you can read the Bible and see that they're right
With Judaism you can read the Talmud and see that they're wrong

What about Hinduism/Buddhism/Shintoism/Sikhism? Do they not know how to write?

>>20594173
>Don't live for yourself, then. Contribute to others' well-being
So be a cuck?

>>20594263
I ask why I've gone through some circumstances myself, as unfair as they are, because of the mistakes of my parents, grandparents, etc. I tell myself I'd get over it if I could only find a way out or someone to share life with. But, when I think about all the people who feel the same, I realize that maybe if I stop asking why and start striving towards getting through my struggles that I can answer all those questions by being someone who overcomes and teaches others to overcome. Life seems to make more sense asking for strength to get through than to ask why should I have to fight. The only times I've ever felt fulfilled and satisfied in my life was from helping others and giving them hard-earned advice, and from making breakthroughs in bettering myself ie losing weight and getting in shape. Stay strong brother. The one thing nobody ever seems to say is how long the fight lasts. If we knew, we would all be able to overcome. But, if someone told you that eight years from now your life would turn around, it would be much easier to wrap your head around applying eight years of effort than a nebulous maybe.

>>20594355
I meant to tag >>20594292

>>20594342
There's a difference between serving others and being taken advantage of. One, being wise enough to recognize bad intentions. Two, being imposing enough to dissuade those attempts.

>>20594355
>Life seems to make more sense asking for strength to get through than to ask why should I have to fight.
Oh yes, thats another big theme of my life. I could probably go through all the suffering if I'd have a satisfying why. It has to be a personal thing as a sharing my life with others is not possible.

>>20593768
for some reason, my first gut reaction when seeing that image is that it's painful

>>20594366
>serve other clowns
and this will make me take myself seriously?

>>20594376
I can be given a why but even then I still wouldn't enjoy life. I'd just be a slave to purpose, miserable but telling myself that I have a good reason for suffering. Speaking for myself, I can make up a reason for my suffering, but what is even more important to me is being able to enjoy my life in the midst of my suffering, and to know that all my efforts at trying to alleviate my own suffering and the sufferings of others are worthwhile, no matter how minute or unknown to the masses they may be. If I found out all my hard work paid off tomorrow I wouldn't even bother asking why. If I found out some of it paid off, I'd be glad but wondering if I could've avoided some misery. If only a little of it paid off, I'd be asking myself if it was worth it in the end. In all of those scenarios though, my happiness is dependent on factors beyond my control. Focus on enjoying everyday life and the art of the fight can be mastered day by day.

>>20594387
If that's how you look at other people, the problem's bigger than just taking yourself seriously.

Somehow I remember my nationality despite never thinking about it for years, but I forget what I had for dinner just 15 days ago.

>>20594405
>enjoying present moment
I guess thats why Im so resentful and unhappy. Im being sandwiched by the past mistakes and fear of future and if I'd just let go of them - my previous worldview would be wrong as there would be no pressure points.

>>20594416
>the confused mind of a leftoid

>>20594443
You’re an idiot

I think I'm ready for a fight; I'm just not sure what for

>>20593838
Get ear plugs retard

>>20594051
All eugenic arguments must meed be anti natalist

I am wasted as shit. But no one cares. You're all that can care becauae I have no one irl

>>20594584
Why dont you have someone irl?

>>20594584
I care about you dog. Let me rap for y'all.
i got the jutsu like i’m shinobi
been training since i was shorty small,
i use the force, obe kenobi
fuck a bitch til her legs go bendy,
i photoshopped a muh fucka's face off, adobe,
yuh i got more clout than allende, comprende?
i pop a cap in yo ass, then drink a sodie pop,
now i'm watching the palest wiggas drop,
put a gun rest on my pistol: extendo,
my prose game like truman capote
playing with pussy like nintendo
i got big dog status like wile e coyote,
so you better respect anon, brodie.

Should i get a master in fine arts after getting bachelor or find a studio for a year and then do a master?
Dont bother mentioning its a waste of money or a memestudy because im beyond that point.

>>20594697
Honestly, do what you think is right. Do you wanna do an MFA and write a book, or would it be for another piece of art? I wanted to do a PhD in creative writing but I ended up doing Lit Crit for the reason I studied it more than Creative Writing units in undergrad (but I got way better marks for creative writing anyway). It was abysmally bad doing a PhD in a field I wasn't that in love with so I left, and now work casually. Don't do what I did, make sure you really want to get into that MFA. I'm not sure if you prefer the creative, practical side, or the more theoretical.
If you're mentioning a studio, I assume you might be doing visual art. I have no idea about which institutions are good for that, but I knew where I really wanted to go if my dreams came true: University of Syracuse. Just shop around until you find somewhere you think is a good fit. Who knows? Maybe you are the next to get recognised for a prize or given a fellowship. Don't let your dreams be memes.

>>20594708
Its for painting.

>>20594584
why'd you let that happen to yourself fampai?

>>20594718
What do they say on /ic/? I know they kinda rag on art school but someone might know a good place for you. Painting for a year wouldn't hurt if you have money to support it. But an MFA is a good idea if you can get funded. I just know they have heaps of requirements like portfolios, referees, written statements, etc.

>>20593919
Is this your whole novel?
It's not very long.
It's not very good either.

>>20594758
It's a shitpost, obviously.

>>20594232
mario if he real

>>20594256
I put the same sentence except with Peach instead of Mario and it gave me just normal pictures of Peach in her pink dress but her dress was kind of skin colored.

I always have this overwhelming and nearly constant feeling that I don't deserve anything good that happens to me and that I'm actually worthless and that other people will sooner than later rightfully find out and everything will finally be taken away from me, as I deserve and as should be. Is that a normal feeling to have?

All I want is a girl who has zero sexual limits and is eager to enter into a mutually destructive relationship where we both get addicted to drugs and sex and end up dying from a drug overdose naked in each others arms with my cock buried in her hairy pussy.

>>20594785
That sounds like a bitch that I used to know...

>>20593989
cheeky bit of butter is the way my boy

>>20594833
A bih ah buhher.
Guess where I am from.

>>20594833
I'll have to agree with that.
However buttery and soft my croissant is, I always add some butter anyway.

How do you guys divide your time between your career, personal life, reading and writing/other creative pursuits?

How do you find time for everything without being a GirlbossTM?

>>20593838
i'm convinced the only way to get a good night's sleep in the city is to live in a condo at least 10 stories up. i think using the elevator might trigger my autism really hard though.

>>20594909
i got a really lame job where i can read all day and i have no life and i just put off my creative pursuits until tomorrow.

oh shit blade runner 2049 is on sale on itunes for $5

poetry belongs to the men who eat at gas stations for only they have saved time enough to admire the beauty of the world unadorned.

>>20594942
one of the gas stations in my neighborhood has a halal cart parked in it so u can cop a chicken over rice or lamb gyro before heading into the city

>>20594432
Conquer your fear. Conceive the absolute worst case scenario and face it head-on. Once you can face that reality without sinking, anything less than it seems more tolerable in comparison

>>20594976
>Conceive the absolute worst case scenario and face it head-on
this leads to catastrophizing which is not great a great habit

Running away from your problems and fears will solve nothing and will improve nothing.
You are just losing yourself and your time to escapism while attempting to flee reality instead doing what you are afraid of doing. Suffer in quiet desperation in entertainment or imagining being in places you'll never be or doing things you'll never do only worsens it, you can escape reality, but not the consequences of escaping it.
Stop it and face your fears.

>>20594953
pure pottery.

Some day, she will be mine (not yet)

I have become quite good at making people fall in love with me, but I am so tired of it. Why does no one ever put that kind of effort into getting me to like them?

>>20595029
Because people can tell you are fake

>>20595021
who? I wish guys made posts like this about me

>>20594976
What if my fear is living as opposite to existing?

>>20595032
I'm pretty authentic, it's more about giving people the right kind of attention than pretending to be someone you're not

>>20595033
one day you will be mine

After reading and listening multiple times to 'The Fall of Gondolin' book, I've had the desire to properly write a complete version of the story; based of Tolkien Final (and incomplete) Version.
I do fear I may not be good enough at mimicking Tolkien's way of writting.
Pic is my very early progress/proof of concept.

>>20595125
The thread entitled /wg/ might be a better place for this as some of the posters are dedicated to feedback

>>20595071
t-thank you anon

>>20595134
Oh! Didn't even notice /wg/ existed.
I admit that /lit/ is not my primary board, and seldom do I come here to ask a particular question or look for a couple of opinions.
Thank you.

I need radical changes in my life and myself.

also, thanks to the guy who told me about pues aeterna, really interesting

>>20595151
just do what needs to be done

>>20593876
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunning%E2%80%93Kruger_effect

>>20595052
Sounds like a fear of failure, or a fear of making a mess of things. There's nothing more here to discuss beyond the fact that you should be content with being a transient that affects nothing and no one, or take a small step forward in the face of your fears and dare to live everyday, win or lose.

>>20594416
Will you remember your sex now?

>>20594174
Then why don't they stand on their own?
Why do you constantly have to spam about them?
You're making them look bad.

>>20593876
They subconsciously live their lives and callibrate their choices so that they never face a challenge that is more that they can handle and because they can't really see beyond those limitations they lose sight of dumb they are and think those petty successes are all there is.

>>20593768
I know you're in here, femanon.
Please, just one date is all I ask.

>>20594306
Zen And The Art Of Motorcycle Maintenance?
Steppenwolf?
Naked Lunch?

>>20594953
The halal cart is serving human flesh.

>>20594306
Demian by Hesse.

>>20593876
Because they dont walk around thinking of themselves as subjectively unsuccessful.

>>20595268
The autistic one or the lesbian?

>>20595249
I'm so latched onto idea of perfectionism and that one HAS to have an idea before action that I end up nothing.

>>20593768
What's a philosopher that said history is nothing but claims to truth?

>>20595502
Die Philosophen haben die Welt nur verschieden interpretiert; es kommt darauf an, sie zu verändern.

>>20595510
Not the answer I wanted

>>20594243
The actual context is
>Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.

>>20595517
Well, why are you coming to 4chin for an answer. This ain't reddit, ya get it, I just said it, I'mma get a frog called Kek and wed it.

>>20595520
Because I've asked elsewhere and got nothing as well. And why not?

>>20595510

>>20595269
>>20595431
It's so over.

>>20594988
Hence the trouble with procrastination. It's a precious sort of problem that goes away if you ignore it. Little ignorable problems have a tendency to grow into bigger problems that become unavoidable . Often on their way to becoming big problems little problems seed even tinier problems along the way that start growing themselves and the whole cycle spirals out of control. The logic of procrastination is to spare yourself a short-term minor pain at the expense of long-term major trouble.

All of life, life itself, is a struggle against entropy. We all lose the battle in the end, but there are certain stages in life where one can get the temporary upper hand. Always push your advantages. You're doing good if you're at zero and maintaining rather than operating at a deficit. For now forget about success. A surplus, of health, will to live, energy, is not a gift but a reward, and your first temptation will be to burn through it like some extra spending cash on a vacation. Don't. That's how the young become old. They burn through their youth partying, drinking, smoking, staying up late, until finally all that surplus is shot through . For the rest of life you're lucky if you can keep it at zero by paying off the deficit of entropic decay, let alone move into the green. You have to keep things nice from the get-go because whatever is bad will most likely get worse of its own accord. Trickles become floods. Undoing damage is as costly and time-consuming as the damage itself.

I want to embrace a peaceable Taoist philosophy in which everything flows like water and nothing is met with resistance. Nothing has to be forced. The entire universe is a cooperative act. Stop conflicting with your environment and be natural and harmony will be achieved. This lovely thought does not reflect the reality of my experience. The moment you stop fighting, the moment you give in and relax, the floodgates of decay open. Things fall apart unless you put effort into pulling it together. The cosmic tendency is for things to get harder if you do not take action.

The natural tendency is to take action. Always be doing. You will come to discover how much healthier you feel. The apparatus of modern psychiatry is for the most part a method for stabilizing the mental deterioration inflicted by socially encouraged sedentary lifestyle. Both inertia and movement are self-perpetuating. Death is stillness, life is motion. Choose. Get up and run away if you have to. Burn everything and start over. Anything is better than the slow rot of inaction.

i'm finally coming out against gender

>>20595577
huh?

>>20595581
That’s like being against DNA helix

>>20595586
Gender=/=sex
I AM BECOME GENDERSLIME, DESTROYER OF CHUDS.

>>20594155
>I don't like it. There's nothing redeemable in the debauchery to make me think the entire novel wouldn't be an utter waste of time.

Oi oi tis a shame, it is full of plot twists and misdirects, it is actually a spy thriller mystery with a hint of magical realism ala inspired by rpg fantasy games with sorcery and such, also is a whodunit, with a small trial scene section, also is a lot to do with our current era and fractioned factions of sub cultures and stuff, it really is the novel of our age written by the voice of our generation if I do so humbly say, it will be the book most cherished in 100 and 200 years by the true intellectual and aesthetic elite of that day. I am sorry you are not adequate enough to "get it" but maybe with the slightest bit of effort you can hope to improve your taste, yes?

>>20595586
yeah but is it though?

My job is too mentally taxing.

>>20595603
>>20595590
Hm. So it’s more like being against cosplay, is what you’re saying

>>20594758
>Is this your whole novel?
>It's not very long
>>20595600
No read this to know more about it, the whole novel is around 1500 pages, some sections are more illustration heavy then others, some sections have 30 or 50 pages poems here and there, there are music prompts and cues, stage directions or reader directions on places to go and things to do while reading, there are qr codes and podcasts involved, also some choose your own adventure elements.

My agent is quite confident we will be selling the movie rights by the end of next month

>>20595621
this doesn't make any sense

>>20595582
Huh what? Don't be dumb. It's summer isn't it.

sometimes poop comes out of my ass

>>20595616
its like psychocosplay

>>20595642
are you me?

>>20593768
I think I'm living with a narcissicist. He has ADHD which he uses as an excuse for absolutely every negative thing he does. He rarely outright apologizes, he has always has to rationalize/explain himself. Whenever you do or say almost anything around him he needs an autistically explicit reason why you did or said that thing, otherwise he will put you down or belittle you "why didn't you do it like this". Even with shit like videogames "why aren't you playing this." He never cleans up after himself, smokes a shit ton of weed, and gets angry easily. I live with one other guy and I think he is too suckered in by his bullshit. For now I am patiently waiting for the lease to be up.

>>20595641
>summer
so what

>>20593919
Cntd.

Ryan Dillhoffer had just graduated college last year (*note: go more into his back story, important life events*) and was settling into a job managing the accounts at his dad's landscaping company.

He swerved his car into the restaurant parking lot, the restaurant sparkled in the night and crowds of people were merily walking the sidewalks of this cozy American village. Ryan parked and came to open Frinchi's door.

Frinchi rolled out of the car and started sprinting around the parking lot, laughing. Ryan wasn't sure what he got himself into. He knew he wanted a girlfriend, but who was this girl. He walked toward the restaurant and opened the door for her.

The restaurant was nice, and people were happy in there. They sat down and perused the menus.

"So....what is there to talk about?" Ryan said, while chewing some ice.

"Beats me" Frinchi replied "I am completely at a loss in the world, I geuss I just watch tv a lot, is there anything else to do or talk about, it is like our waking life is dreams and our dreams are night mares so we are never truly awake and living....senpai?"

"senpai... So you want to talk about family?"

"God no..."

"So God... You want to talk about God"?

"Not really" Frinchi said as she slurped her Shirley temple and curled her fingers round her hair. "God is a weird thing for Women, you know like Man is Woman's God... Man is Man's God too... But because they don't fuck the giving spirit is not enough, so Man needs God, women needs Man, Man needs Women, and well some women do actually like and understand God... But this is not what I want to talk about, as I said I want to talk about tv, the makers of tv are the dreamers of our dreams, I only want to be intoxicated, I don't want to think or feel anything for real"

"Ok" Ryan said, "Well have you decided what you want to order? I am thinking the fully loaded bacon cheese fries as an app to split, and the salmon salad"

"Yeah... Yeah.... Well let me let you in on a little secret" she motions him nearer to her "I'm actually a top secret spy, but you have to promise not to tell like seriously swear you promise"

Ryan just laughs and leans in to her ear "you're never gonna believe this either.... But I'm also a top secret spy.... Ha! What are the odds"

Frinchietta looked around nervously startled....."shhhh not so loud not so loud, you'll blow our cover"

Just then the waiter approached

>>20595759
Cntd.

"Hello ma-a-am, what can I get you?"

"Hmm your Bacon fries are great and the salmon salad is really good but I was hoping to try something else" she said looking at him for the first time as she swallowed nervously.

"May I suggest an egg white omelet?" he asked looking into her eyes.

"Okay I'll have the egg white omelet, the salmon salad and..." she paused trying to think "the fries... Ryan... Ryan... Ryan... I don't know what I'm gonna have just ask, make my day and make mine great"

"Darling", says the waiter, "the Salmon Salad is very good... you'll love it...the fries are not to be missed either... the bacon cheese fries are excellent, but your secret agent is here and we have a little work to do before you can join us"

Then his phone rang he looked at it.

"Oh hello, oh no, another call...a more important call...hello, hello, yes sir...oh no... I am so sorry..."

He tried to regain his composure but he couldn't, and suddenly a real loud crack followed by a roaring cratering noise caught him off guard.

Ryan took a quick glance at the still weeping Frinchietta, the gaping hole that used to be her nose spilling bright pink blood around her lips, and her eyeballs floating in the grey vomit covered depths of her cratering hole....he suddenly couldn't stop the vomit that spewed out into his mouth...the vomit that made him vomit. He vomited endlessly until his phone rang...then he remembered her, she did tell him...now he was worried that he was doing the wrong thing...as if she could have given a damn...she had moved on...she was a friggin garden gnome...he looked around her frantically...that old geezer on the bench is still sitting there.....they're probably still laughing...

He decided to climb down her ribcage, but it was so slippery he fell on top of her, sliding on her pancake mix blood.

She moved her head slightly to watch Ryan trying to climb down her ribcage...he wasn't getting up...he decided to climb back up and she felt her ribcage tighten....she grabbed a piece of bacon and tried to rip it off of her like a lemurian trying to shred his own chewy piece of bread....she had to try and get him to climb up her body so she could get him off of her ribcage....she waited for the right moment...she grabbed one of her melons, winking.

>>20595577
You are probably a virgo or a Capricorn. Either sun, moon, asc. or asc. lord house.

If all the men cooperated we could set up the world to our advantage. Having a wife for every man, and then having a harem of African/SEA women for every man on top of that. All we would have to do is cooperate.

>>20595778
Cntd.

Ryan saw her eyes glaring at him. He tried to get up with his other hand, trying to balance his upright from her boiling oven.....as he managed to grab one of her melons he became fascinated by her body, and he looked up at her...he saw her as a light bulb went off in his head...he was trying to come up with the perfect plan to get out of there....and he could feel her getting into it...her tongue flicked out and wiggled at him...she seemed to be loving the thought of his exploring her...now Ryan was excited...he had the perfect plan....he was anxious to get out of there with his prize...she grabbed the chunk of meat and had her lips wrapped around it, she was wiggling it like she was playing with her chicken nugget...she sucked it, then she wiggled cooly, calmly.

Ryan looked at her perfect glowing yellow breasts, squeezing the meat into her fleshy mounds...but suddenly her body suddenly pushed against him, he felt like a sponge getting sucked in between two stacked bread racks. She squeezed him tight, then she was slowly unrolling him out from her body like a pipe cleaner...the odd thing was the flesh around her mouth was burning...it seemed like the inside of her lips was heating up. He then realized why her face was so puffy...because it was the perfect "gum bubble"...and with every piece of bacon she got off of her face she chewed it, but the grease that came off of her was rewiring her body...he could feel his whole body becoming electrified...he could feel his nerve endings were getting a surge...

Shaking his head clear, he remembered how this slid out of control:

"Where do you want to go to eat?"

"Alright." She replied in a lusty voice.

She popped her squat meatbag melon sized melons on her mouth in between looking through her instagram and looking at herself like a hungry dog in the grocery store. She took a bite of the meat which tasted like meat.

"Damn, tastes good."

She looked in the mirror after finishing up.

"Mm.. Delicious.."

Ryan stared at her just as she gazed at herself. His cock started to get hard.

"Oh.. What's with you?"

Frinchi didn't look at him, just took a bite of the meat and enjoyed the taste.

"Uhhh.. Nothing.. I'm just wondering why you got meat on your mouth? I mean.. Do you really wanna bite that?"

Frinchi let out a deep laugh as she smeared meat on her face and laughed.

Does it matter how many partners my gf had before me?

>>20595681
Hey I was abused by someone who fits that description. They're just a manbaby who plays vidya and doesn't work, smoking a tonne of weed as well. Just try to remain civil and remember that only you are the rational agent in that scenario, so try to be stoic and don't let him manipulate you.

>>20595815
Not if you don't want it to, but you need to gauge what she thinks too. Tallying body counts can be intimidating or cause jealousy in any couple; if you're young you, usually think it needs to be higher than your spouse. But don't worry, you really need to find if you're right for another.

>>20595692
Newfag... all the dumb teens who are home from school invade 4chan during the summer. Like a bunch of shitty geese

>>20595836
anon it's not 2012 the demographics are different here

>>20595820
thanks man. It's nice to have encouragement and advice from an anon.

fuck shit up and start a riot

>>20595831
When I asked her how important sex was in a relationship she said "sex is good, but better with a person you like". She's 26 and slept with 10 guys overall (I should suppose it's more).
>you really need to find if you're right for another
Her answer sounded too liberal for me, as if she thinks sex is a past time activity while I see it as the most intimate manifestation of love.

with every waking moment my mental sanity is circling the drain

>>20595861
>She's 26 and slept with 10 guys overall
Well, do you know what type of guys they were? That might point you towards certain things like whether she was looking for loveless sex or trying to get a partner. I knew a few girls that would serve themselves on a platter in hopes of getting a man. Sometimes, it's better to play it safe and find someone else who fits you better. If they want no strings attached type of sex, then they might end up being less disciplined and cause issues in other parts of the relationship. Most of the girls I was with as a young man were like that but they ended up being very flaky and it wasn't a good foundation for a proper relationship.
>Her answer sounded too liberal for me, as if she thinks sex is a past time activity while I see it as the most intimate manifestation of love.
Tell her that. If she doesn't like it, then you mightn't be compatible. If she is ideological about sex in a feel-good libtard way, then she obviously isn't the right woman for you, anon.

>>20595865
>Imagines himself circling down a whirlpool forever.
Heheh. Oh stop.

>>20595667
Extreme Cosplay!!!

>>20595811
Cntd.

"Wtf .. what was that..... did we just go through like another dimension or something.... Do you think the enemy may be on to us? Was one of us bugged?" Frinchietta stammered

Ryan peels out and heads west "I don't know, but I'm not waiting around to find out"

"So I geuss this is it now, this is our destiny, just me and you, partners in justice, heading out on the highway to defeat the evil spirits that plague this lan-"

Just then it was a 14 wheeler came barreling through the intersection, crushing Ryan's car and killing them both instantly. The back of the truck opened up and about 7 or so men and women ran out sprinting to the car dealership across the street.

Among them was Judith Conifer and Bhrett Rambaucher, Dennis Garglioni, Vanessa Haffenstanz, Pietorelli Svensieni , Garreg Viessien, and Monica Phates, a team of highly trained operatives under contract from the UN on a secret task.

They flashed their badge to the man behind the desk at the BMW dealship, yelled "Keys! Now!" And shredded out the parking lot in 7 new BMWs, making a b line to Los Angelos

>>20595577
How to know what I want to do?

>>20595861
Youth gets sexually active in highschool usually. Go to parties, especially with tinder and stuff now. Go on dates.

Men have evolved over milenia to be possessive and territorial, I'm sure evolutionary reasons with wanting and raising kids, trusting your partner won't abdandon you and the kids or that they are even yours.

So it does hurt to imagine the woman you love having sex with other men. You want that special rare experience all for yourself. You want her to think you are special and not a dime a dozen. Love is better than sex, because it lasts longer, but it can also be fragile and hallucinatory, how can we trust ourselves, how can we trust each other, how can we avoid changes. I could be happily married to my wife for 20 years, wake up one day and say, my god I hate the angle of this womans nose, and that birth mark and her cackling laugh, I can stand it I hate her i hate her i hate her.

So take what you can get, have love, have sex, have fun, you just need to find your match, you know what spirit works for you

Foetus is the best band of all times

>>20595861
>she's 26

last night I had a dream that I made a really long 4chan post about embodying the tao and how the truth of the universe will manifest itself through or something. it's weird how people say to check if you're dreaming by trying to read something because you can't read in dreams. I even remembered that while I was writing the post because in my dreams I am always conscious in the background that I am dreaming. Sometimes when I am in the state between sleeping and waking I just get extremely eloquent words flowing through my head that I can never replicate while awake

>>20595917
I'm 28, anon. But my lack of sexual experience makes me uncomfortable.

>>20595621
I will buy your novel, thrice.

I think I lost interest in literature and everything else
shit just doesn't interest me anymore

>>20595941
stop jerking off and/or looking at porn. just stop. everything else in your life will fall into place

>>20595968
Why?

>>20595968
this only applies if he's at rock bottom and utterly confused about his life. If he knows exactly what steps he needs to take to fix his life already then stopping jerking off isn't gonna solve anything and he's not gonna be able to quit until he does what he knows needs to be done

The occult and magic has got to be one of the biggest copes of all time. Many people who go into such things seek some form of success, and you have to wonder at point does the amount of time and energy wasted studying the occult and trying rituals begin to outweigh the simple and direct effort of working towards that success? I think people look to magic to get these things because they have subconsciously convinced themselves that it is not possible for them to get what they want or they are just too lazy, dishonest, or passive to just get it. Take sex for example, someone would have to be really far gone to think that summoning a succubus is a better way to get pooch than just buying a hooker or raping a girl or even just trying to get a girlfriend or hookup. I think its unfortunate that their minds have reached a point where they see such a relationship as something fantastical, and thus turn towards the occult to fulfill those desires.

Any power one could seemingly get from the occult they could likely get in a more potent and concrete form by just focusing on the material world. Instead of doing some hocus pocus ritual to doom some guy to death, it would just be so much effective to just kill them on your own. Or hire some guy to do it. Or just be so rich you're untouchable. Money is more powerful than any occult magic I know. Money can also get you sex without risking your soul going to some succubus who will torture it for eternity. People skills will give you more loyal minions than any homunculus or enslaved demon. Any effort put into the occult is wasted compared to effort of the real-world grindset.

I think the only reason to go into the occult is for genuine spiritual reasons. But how many people go down that path for such a pure purpose? Many may say they got into the occult for that, or just out of curiosity. Is that true, or are they just coping and seeking for some supernatural power to avoid facing the hard realities of life?

>>20595993
>magic denier
stopped reading right there

>>20595861
Good morning, anon.

Unfortunately I lost my link to it, but there was a study where they asked women about their sexual partners, then hooked them up to lie detectors and asked the same question. When the women believed they had to tell the truth, their body count, on average, tripled.
Sorry to break the news to you, but if this study applied to every girl, your partner slept with 30 guys. Of course she could be telling the truth or have possible slept with less guys than what she had told you, but 30 guys isn't that high of a number in the modern world, with some guys getting married to turbo-sluts with 100+ body counts.

With love from Kazakhstan.

>>20596005
Read my post, tard. I never denied magic, rather my I was denying its potency to material sources of power like money, weaponry, and social skills. If magic is truly more powerful than any of those, I beg of you to enlighten me, and preferably by not casting a curse on me. I'm already haunted from my own time dabbling in the occult. And the negative effects I have gotten from it do not seem to be worth the minor positive effects I have gained.

>>20595968
I already don't, I have no idea why you resort to that advice out of the blue

>>20595815
If it’s thirty+ she’s probably not for you. Four, five by 21 seems like an active hottie just trying to find the right guy but is too hot for her own good, and you shouldn’t hold it against her.
>>20595861
Wo, very active hottie.
Sex is not love, she is or was of the opinion that it was a recreational pass time. Love is something else entirely. But she agrees now that sex with love is best.

I think there’s something wrong with my hormones.

>>20596056
no ano-
ANON NO-
ANON DON'T START TAKING THE ESTROGEN

>>20595893
Cntd.

"This new drug is so powerful that they needed 7 new cars to transport it.... yeah. Just got back from LA, dude.... and guess what.... there's no laws against vehicular hijacking in California." Frinchietta laughed, breathing heavily.

The rain continued to pour, bringing down the already dry landscape in Southern California into the land of the hopeless, soulless, far from any notion of justice.

"I don't know if my chicken have legs anymore bro, where are we taking this gallon of margemoolinate? Ow.. fuck two holy vies dropped me on top of Kenlie. Great," Zeke wiped the pepper off of his eyes and licked it off his cracked hands like a happy thing.

Kenlie Facebumped and grabbed him, cradling him a little bit like a precious pet -- a frightened pet, drowning themselves in buckets and running holler for help.

"Oh God, what's that?" Kenlie pointed to the chicken laying on the ground, it was dead.

"Oh, man.... they just killed our chicken," Zeke was quiet and defeated, sitting on the edge of the boat.

"Dude, you gotta keep your cool, bro. I'm sorry for the chicken," Kenlie hugged him, trying to be empathetic.

"But you know what.... fuck it. We gotta keep going. Just me and you now bro." Zeke smiled at Hellers.

"Shit, man. I can't believe the chicken just... died. Man. Shit, that's fucked up.... oh man.... shit, from now on..... we gonna keep the chicken, and we gonna keep the chicken alive. Look..... look at this chicken dude." Hellers shook the chicken.

"Dude, there ain't much time here, wasn't that crazy? After I asked for my chicken, this guy just screamed and we all ran for our lives." Zeke choked and gestured for him to quit following him around like an idiot.

"The authorities are following us.... um. No, man. The hoods are right there following us in van.. " Hellers continued to notice the units being caught by the bodies as they got back up from being thrown off and landing their bodies down in another endless bath of liquid... messy.

"Dogs." He gestured to dogz and ran back.

Why was I born?

>>20596081
Because two people fucked and didn't use protection.

>>20596084
ah shit same thing happened to me too

>>20596081
Your parents had sex.
And one or both of them loved the idea, planned or not, they knew you’d cry and shit yourself for a few years, go through awkward phases growing up, but probably thought it would be a general pleasure to have a you around.
Can’t really tell much not having known them.

opinions?

>>20596092
neither of my parents knew what raising a child actually means and they are both profound existential losers

last night she bit my neck

>>20596081
time will tip back the other way soon enough don't worry about it

man being made from clay is the secret, we start at the "end"

>>20596084
>>20596092
look at these cause and effect idiots lol

>>20596095
>>/tv/

>>20596092
in short, my mom was depressed af and thought having a child would fix that and my father went along and was happy he had a boy because he had three daughters from another marriage and no son

>>20596109
Cronenberg is totally /lit/ man, he even wrote a novel

>>20596118
children are the soul's connective tissue into the future

>>20596139
>movies are totally lit
>a shitty director wrote a shitty book
bro what in the fuck

>>20596140
Immortalize yourself thru art not kids

Is it even possible for non-Asians to make good manga? It should’ve happened by now, right? The only examples are joke comics and porn.

>>20596146
you are a shitty shit that should have been aborted

>>20596160
Like you did with the dumb frogs. Yea.

>>20596160
art has zero chance of immortality
far too fragile

>>20596175
face it, garbage horror flicks don't rate and a book by a shitty director is not lit and you come off as cringe and dumb talking about it

>>/tv/

>>20596016
>"here's some demoralizing information for you anon"
>rubs hands together
>"but whoops I forgot where I found that information"
>scratches thorax
>"it was just the best study though, anon, you shoulda seen it! one of a kind haha"
>breathes deep and hookedly
>"teehee anyway, have a good one!"
>scurries away

>>20596189
Lots of art stands the test of time.
It doesn’t love you back, though it may satisfy. That’s it’s difference.

>>20596189
Have you even seen it you enormous retard?

>>20596096
NTA, but same and I fucking hate it. Now I have no idea how to live my life and be my own person beyond attempting to pursue the few passions I have, but even that's daunting because I want to be a scientist but I fucking hate school and I want to write a book but I can't figure out how to organize my ideas or work up the will to translate them into text in a word document. Escapism is so much easier and feels like it's practically a necessity to ward off the unrelenting existential agony of my own inability to escape the prison I've been locked in since my birth.

>>20595861
>>20596016
>>20596204
I got the numbers wrong (it's double, not triple) but here's the study: https://www.jstor.org/stable/2090775
Courtesy of incels.wiki. May God bless those ugly bastards, for they have been cursed in all other aspects of life. Faggots who deny blackpill are running society into the ground. It only benefits women and harms all men when other men lie on women's behalf.

>>20596206
you're operating on a timescale that's so small it's embarrassing even addressing you

>>20596227
Tell us how KINO and LIT it was

Just finished 48 laws of power and decided to check out the reviews because I thought it was a pretty good book. Why the fuck do people cope so hard at something that just tries to lay down power dynamics in a clear and straightforward manner?

>>20596337
why do you care what they think?

>>20596347
Because it matters. I need to know whether or not I should keep the fact that I read and liked the book a secret just in case some sperg freaks out.

>>20596356
>>20596337
Obviously keep it a secret around normies, is that not in the book? When you are around your nefarious scumbag douchebag psychopath sociopath evil wicked demonic criminal friends then you can speak freely of the things you learned from the book

>>20596356
how stupid are you?
absolutely pretend to have never read it lol

Eating cake makes me racist.

why cant I give up on masturbating........

>>20596493
It’s probably normal but porn isn’t. Just try to focus on memories and imagined fantasies, rather than audiovisual media.

I can't quit using discord. I feel the need to tell others everything that I do and how I feel, writing in these threads isn't the same cause we have anonymous identities

>>20596498
good that you have a discord to talk to people on

>>20596480
Why tho?

>>20596073
"The men in suits....with the ear pieces...
youve seen them right.....youve seen the chickens... the dogs.... you noticed something funny about them?"

Ryan gestured to Frinchi.

Frinchi answered, while passing the binoculars back to Ryan

"Thats Zeke and Kenlie...this is our prime objective...supposedly they work undercover for an online ad agency which is really a secret front for mind washing the American people, we have been sent on assignment to gather Intel about these inner workings, what makes them tick, their motives, and our goal is to agitate their business practices, and form a competing organization that sets the record straight, and let's the American culture remain free and prosperous."

"Yes..but do you see those chickens ? Are they just throwing around chickens, are they hugging them...Frinchi I scared....what the hell is going on"

Frinchi smiled, "well we've got some time to kill, we are in California, let's just take a little break and enjoy a night out on the town, you wanna go to a club or bar lounge?"

"Ehh I don't really know...I'm just so tired ...this sucks what are we even doing here"

"Ryan, we swore an oath, to defend the American citizens from tyranny and oppression whatever form they supply themselves, pull it together will you"

"Ok ok ok, I will, but I hate this shit, Zeke and Kenlie with their cool styles and apartment in fancy California and the ad agency and the secret motives and thr currupting of our polis' youth.... I'm just a simple country boy, you gotta understand it's a lot to take in"

"Well is there.... Anything I could do to help?" Frinchi said, eyes flirtingly fluttering

Ryan thought for a second, and wanted to with all his heart say "y-you can suck my d-dick?" But decided against it, "yeah, let's get dressed up, have a night out on the town and do some spying on these chumps"

>>20596498
>I feel the need to tell others everything that I do and how I feel
Have you tried diving and searching for the roots of this feeling? I've got some friends like you. They share too much about their lives on social media and complain afterwards.

>going around rural Hong Kong on Google Streetview
>there's pedestrians wearing masks
>they all are
>the footage is from April 2022
It's so over.

>>20596505
no, it'd be better to have nobody at all than ideological chatbots.

>>20596531
>I've got some friends like you. They share too much about their lives on social media and complain afterwards.
I knew this one guy called Chris who published a modest web comic on the internet that he'd drawn by hand and colored in with crayons.

>>20596531
>Have you tried diving and searching for the roots of this feeling?
It is a sort of addiction. I have no irl friends but overall interact with people more than the average person

>>20596536
Weren't they wearing masks in hong Kong since 2010ish or earlier? From pollution and sickness?

>>20596536
Asians really like to wear masks for some reason. It was a thing even before the pandemic, but that made it explode in popularity. I'm guessing it probably has something to do with gooks wanting to hide their ugly faces or their lack of individualism or their inherently deceitful nature, hoping to hide their face so they can scam people easier.

I decided to convert to Islam because I like cats

>>20596543
Everything everyone does ultimately is escaping the lonely simplicity of solely being stuck in ones mind with ones thoughts.

Also you are encouraging yourself, you are trying to solidify your days, you are sharing a diary, you want love and affection and care, you want interest in you, what is really happening in your days that's so intersting now I'm curious

I have been listening to nothing but the VTMB soundtrack ever since I beat the game for the first time ten hours ago. Rik Schaffer's music fits both the game and my feelings perfectly.

>>20596560
>what is really happening in your days that's so intersting now I'm curious
I get drunk alone on the street, somke alone, go to the mall alone, eat fast food alone

>>20596548
To compare you can look on streetview at any busy street in Hong Kong pre-COVID and the pedestrians aren't wearing masks, let alone in a rural area with no other people or cars around.

>>20596569
Sounds like you have a pretty busy schedule, anon. I don't think you have time for friends.

>>20596529
Contd.

Frinchi thought for a second, and wanted to with all her heart say "y-you can suck my m-milkers?" But decided against it, "yeah, let's get dressed up, have a night out on the town and do some spying on these chumps"

"Well is there.... Anything I could do to help?" Ryan asked, eyes fluttering.

"Ok ok ok, we will, ok but we hate this shit ok, Kenlie and Zeke with their cool styles and apartment in fancy California and the ad agency and the secret motives and their corrupting of our peoples' youth... We’re simple country boyz, we gotta understand it's a lot to take in."

"Frinchi, I swore an oath. An oath to defend the American citizens from tyranny and oppression. In whatever form they supply themselves, ...pull it together will we?"

"Ehh we don't know... we’re so tired… this sucks what are they even doing here?"

Ryan smiled, "Well you've got some time to kill. You are in California. Take a little break and enjoy a night out on the town, you wanna go to a bar or club lounge?"

Bringin’ binoculars up to her noggin, Frinchi: "That’s, look, there’s Kenlie and Zeke… this is our prime objective… they work undercover for an online ad agency which is a secret front for pavlovwashing the American people, and we have been sent on assignment to gather intel about those inner workings, clickticking machinery, their motives, and our goal is to agitate their business practices, and form a competing organization that sets the record straight, and that lets the American culture remain prosperous and free."

>>20596582
true, I have more important things to do than wasting my time with friends

I jerk off to instagram photos of zoomer women from my school

I think I'm starting to disassociate again.

Is it easier to mend one's faults, or for one to make peace with those faults?

>>20596604
me too and I am holding the phone under my penis so it feels like they can see it and cum on their faces

>>20596606
wat mean

>>20596617
Do you ever think about what hackers and glowniggers may see through your phone's cameras while you use it? I think it's pretty based that you're showing them your peanid and comming on them.

>>20596604
Let them know.
>Hey, we used to go to the same class. I have a literal cup of semen just from your content! Can I get a discount?

Ryan noticed that Frinchi was busying herself in her backpack, searching for something she felt was 'very important'. But Ryans patience had worn thin and he was tired of playing along.

He looked around to make sure nobody was watching them from any windows and he pulled a shocker from his coat pocket and jabbed it into the back of her neck.

Frinchi convulsed, defecated through her leggings, and lost consciousness.

"Now it's all mine..." hissed Ryan, licking his lips, and he pulled down Frinchis soiled leggings, ripped away her skirt and beheld his prize.

Taped to a makeshift pocket on Frinchis right buttock was a rare pokemans card.

Ryan yanked the card free. Giggled to himself. And then he ran.

>>20594409
Yea I’m in a hole.

>>20596632
how probable is that if I am on a fed list?

>>20596623
I am starting to go through a disassociative episode. Nothing feels real. Like I'm living a dream. Everything I hear is like it's coming from the other room. Everything I see is like it's coming from a TV that I'm watching instead of going straight to my head. My consciousness feels detached from my mind and body. I have control of myself, but I'm "in" myself. It's like I'm playing a video game of my life instead of actually living my life.

>>20596480
I don't eat cake and I'm a racist.

games are much better than books

I like to masturbated with my dick dry

gay nigga sex RAPE AIDS big booba pee pee poo poo zoomer coomber based cringe apepilled nigger RAPE fantasy football yeah man

>>20596589
>>20596637
Contd.

Running now, Frinchi crosseyed, shaking the tweetie birds off, "Ryan, come on! We don't have all day. Where is the Pokemane Card!?!!"

"I'm not telling you, Frinchi! You can go to h-h-hell...", he laughed to himself, heh.

"B-B-B-B-But-" she stuttered as his words sent waves of pain down her spine. "W-W-W-What did you do that t-t-t-t-to her for?!"

The pokiman card of power, which could turn him into a god, was now in his grasp. And, most importantly, he was done playing. He was going home.

"Ryan, I need to go out. You'll be in charge while I'm gone, right?"

Ryan didn't answer. Frinchi was getting more pale by the second.

"D-Do you s-see?!" he screamed, as he tore down a street. "Do I s-see?!"

>>20596667
Isn't this just closer to reality?

>>20596705
>pic
>”This is how I became a Gondola instead.

I think I prefer drinking alone

>>20596805
Im currently drinking alone

>>20596864
You're not alone. You're with /wwoym/

>>20593876
Their parents loved them.

>>20596867
You're too good for me. I dont belong here.

>>20596874
You belong. Otherwise you wouldn't be here.

>>20593768

I genuinely view myself as superior to that of my peers. I don't want this to be interpreted through the lens of an edgy teenager that discovered philosophy, but I genuinely feel a sort of contemptment towards the average person. They have absolutely no self awareness of their inner behavioral tendencies and how detrimental they are towards not just their inner well being, but also their material well being and the mental well being of both them and the people they interact with.

>>20596888
Am I here forever mr. trips?

I'm only just starting to understand how fucked up I am

>>20596931
Everyone in your life has been telling you for years in many ways, directly, indirectly, through gestures and by simply ignoring you or even more clearly by not noticing you at all

>>20596929
Only until God decides it's time for you to move on.

Every classmate and friend I once had have a job already. Me, I don't really want to. Actually, knowing they have a job makes me even more demotivated to also have one. I don't know what will be of my life.

>>20596898
>I don't want this to be interpreted through the lens of an edgy teenager that discovered philosophy
>but here is my view that sounds exactly like an edgy teenager that just discovered philosophy.

>>20596941
Whats the point of this suffering? I might never know.

>>20596951
You bring the suffering. If you didn’t like it, you’d stop.

You make your own “point”

I would like to make friends, but I don't know where to look.

>>20596970
If God would want it stop, he could stop my suffering.

>>20596979
Yes he could, but then he'd go against your will.

I had a friend who had really bad multiple personality disorder. I know people like to say it's a meme and that MPD doesn't really exist like shown in the movies, but there's no other way to explain what this guy had. He was constantly shifting between different identities, each with a different name, and they were aware of each other to the point that, no matter which one was in control, he always referred to himself as "we." These personalities were all over the place in terms of what they acted like, some were extremely casual and informal, while some acted like some stereotype of a stiff British aristocrat. Over time, it started getting worse and worse, with him shifting between the personalities more frequently. It got to the point where he sometimes got confused what personality he even was at the moment. I don't know how that works, but it was happening, and he was getting more and more scared and disorientated. At one point, I hadn't heard from him for a few days, and I started getting worried. I tried to call and message him, but he wasn't responding. Eventually I decided to drive over to his apartment and check in on him. When I got there, the door was open, and I could hear the sound of cheesy pop music drifting through the opening. When I stepped inside and turned on the lights I saw the place was a complete mess, trash and clothes were strewn everywhere. I followed the sound of the music, which led me into his bedroom. He was curled up in a fetal position on his bed, shaking and crying, some sort of garbage synthpop revival music blaring from his computer speakers. He looked up at me, tears and snot running down his face, and in a shaky voice he asked me "Are we Hugh, man? Or are we Dan, sir?"

>>20596986
beautiful

>>20596982
but isnt my will just a big nothing against his?

>>20596979
“He” can’t stop the pain you put yourself through simply because he’s not real. Go to your christ board for this idiocy, you flagellating twit

>>20596936
Thats retarded.

>>20597017

>>20596941
thas not what the bagabadaviba says

Why is this website such a black hole? I make the mistake of opening it, and then spend all day on it. Minutes turn into hours, and looking at a few posts turns into browsing several boards. There is an almost supernatural level of entrapment in this place. I don't feel like I want to be here. This website is just terrible for the mind body and soul. But trying to leave it permanently is seemingly impossible, and pulling oneself away after a few hours of browsing takes great effort. I hate how much of my life has been defined by this hellish website. It's like a trial, or a punishment as if, we're not allowed to leave this website until we repent and make amends for something, or maybe we will never be allowed to leave, and we are cursed to browse this website until it can no longer be browsed. We're here forever.

>>20597077
it's a substitute for real human connection

>>20595861
It's likely that you're going to find this difference in philosophy bleeds over to all areas of your lives. As nice as something may feel, a relationship and love demand far more than a nice feeling or mere enjoyment.

Is every single person really just chasing unfulfilled needs from their childhood?

>>20597143
thats what psychology says

>>20597143
>>20597149
I guess pussy is an unfulfilled childhood need

So I’m mad my sister might have lost something of mine that I only wanted back because I wanted to sell it. But it went from her not knowing where it was (ie. it was buried under junk) to possibly being sold or lost already. Why not just say “I don’t know where this shit is” to begin with? I’m only mad because I see it as a lost cost, but I just don’t understand how people just forget information or think they can change the details and get away with it. How do you not even know you sold something that wasn’t yours?

>>20597258
Introduce me to your sister

I have no intention of ever writing any remotely serious. I write for fun and profit. Seeing how erotica seems to do both for me at the moment, I'm considering if I should turn a short story into a series of stories or even a full-blown novel. The former seems like it would make more money.

>relations with gf (woman)
>all is well we get along
>one day discover that our fundamental underlying worldview/ideology is opposite
>get into a fight

>want to keep gf (thought of as future wife, not just sex dating)
>don't want to give up ideology
What. Should I do.

>>20597412
Guys serious. Help me.

>>20596160
why not both?

>>20597412
>>20597435
Dump her

>>20596189
I met a traveller from an antique land,
Who said—“Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert. . . . Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed;
And on the pedestal, these words appear:
My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings;
Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal Wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away.”

>>20597412
More detail on worldviews and the points of contention therein, please.

>>20597465
That's not relevant
They are just incongruent

>>20597412
I have typical 4chan views and I've dated almost nothing but Jewish and leftist girls, and we just laughed about how mismatched we are at the surface. As long as you're not hateful I don't see the problem. Even a little bit of hate is okay if it's kept in check.

The people I have the hardest time understanding are materialists and basic bitch liberals, but even then it's just fun and productive tension if you two get along as people. The only people I truly can't get along with are the ones who actively enforce ideological conformity, especially normies who absolutely need you to have your views synched with the MSNBC cloud nightly.

>>20596736
Ryan began to run down the street full speed, flashing his badge and shoulder checking pedestrians out of the way, hallal carts and hotdog stands flipped asunder.

Finally he stopped for some cotton candy, then began running again. He his finger to his ear and began screaming "Do you copy! Do you read me! This is an order!".

Just at this very moment Henry Stewerdberry, was rounding the corner heading Ryans way. Henry saw Ryan and remembered his good pal from their fratnerity in college.

"This is not a drill I repeat, do you copy"

"H-hey, Ryan? what is up mother fucker? What the fuck are you doing brutherr it's been a while"

"Hey Henry, hows it going chief"

"Eh, you know, got rich off crypto, starting a startup, invested in real estate, what have you been up to?"

"Eh, nothing really, just fucking around, was doing some landscaping, but ah, alright, you have to promise not to tell anyone ok? Ok, I'm actually a top secret spy hired by the UN to prevent anti American freedom from being pushed in the public sphere, there are some pretty big players involved with pretty big networks, I've gotta gather Intel and write a report"

"Holy shit... No fucking way....you....you won't tell anyone this, but.... I was actually tapped too.... I'm in another unit but was briefed on this assignment, cool cool"

They began to walk down the street together, a bit suspicious that they were being followed.

"So what is your schedule like? "

"Well they have be scrolling through online forums for like 6 hours a day, then I have to go tail these 2 kids, Keke and Henlie I think"


"Right right, you know you should come by to my office later, we can coordinate and plan"

>>20597143
>Is every single person really just chasing unfulfilled needs from their childhood?
Do Adults not have unfulfilled needs? Are adults not just older children?

>>20597483
>typical 4chan views
Such as? I can’t even send the chick I went on dates a picture of an SS dagger without her blocking me. She already knew I had a research project on a fascist poet anyway, so I don’t know why she was so shocked. I also went on a day with a Jewess but she burned a hole in my pocket. Oy!!! Never spoke to her again.

>>20597479
Just give a hint rough loose of what they, it may or may not be relevant but intersting for us to know just how fiercely opposite it is

>>20597479
And how am I supposed to help you when you don't even want to specify what you mean by
>underlying worldview/ideology
Is the disagreement religious? Political? Does one of you eat your kitkats by biting a chunk out of the center of the crackers as opposed to eating the crackers individually like a sane individual? All of the above? Having even the smallest bit of context for the incongruence of your beliefs would be immensely useful in providing council.

>>20597518
Sending women pictures of daggars is weird enough

>>20597077
i was trying to find this really old meme from /b/ that had i think the grail knight from indian jones and it goes "let me take a look at what's on 4chan real quick" and then the next frame is him looking like a skeleton. i think there was maybe another one frame one with a skeleton on a bench like "when you decide to check 4chan for ten minutes" or something like that but i couldn't find it

>>20597543
Isn't that what many do in one form or another: binging tv shows, video games, Facebook and Twitter and the news,

We are trained and adapated from the world, from school, to wake up early and consume information all day, when you are prepared or used to an activity it becomes the natural thing to do.

>>20597483
>we just laughed about how mismatched we are at the surface
That's alright when you're in the dating kissing dining fucking phase
But I'm not a teenager, I think about the future. I want a woman to tie my whole life to and shit. That's important
>>20597526
>>20597531
I'm an altruist, she's an egotist
we find each other's position stupid and harmful

>>20597573
>I'm an altruist, she's an egotist
Oh well just make enough money to lavish your queen with whatever luxories she requires before you donate any to charity

>>20597587
If only life were that simple

>>20597590
Women are naturally egoist (though for the same reason, altruistic) because they need to make the best nest to raise their kids in, they have a lot of physical mental emotional spiritual labor they need to perform so they need to make sure their partner can fully provide for them and then some and then some:

Men are egoist typically because they went the good woman candidates, so they try to possess as much resources as possible, to try to provide to the wanting female.

In what forms does your altruism take itself? Or is it rather superficial? Is it political tax situation? Regularly donating time and money? Giving the homeless man on the sidewalk a dollar? Howd the Convo argument come about?

>>20593838
white noise generator - get one

>>20593768
is this a good buy?

>>20597636
Already have a girlfriend

>>20597604
>Women are naturally egotist because they need to make the best nest
Oh boy here we go
Homie, don't hit me with that evolutionary logic. We aren't talking about herding pigs. She's not an animal. She's a human with a very complicated brain

I get that it's intellectually chic to invoke the animal argument or whatever, but seriously: she is an egotist because of her life experiences (in fact, she cited many examples from her own life that led her to these conclusions when defending her position)
As I am who I am, because of my experiences.

Nothing about this has anything to do with nature. Humans may be classified as animals by inept biologists, but it's evident to anyone with common sense that sapience dominates the animal side, any primal instinct can be subverted, controlled, acknowledged. In the sea of complex human thought, the natural instincts are a teaspoon.
If natural instincts were as strong proportionally in us as they are in animals, child-free women and abortion-loving hoes would be a rare anomaly instead of a rising trend.
Because a whore can simply silence the tiny noise in her head that tells her to "make a nest and make babies"

Appeal to nature is inherently reductionist. You can't solve every complicated human relations problem by going "we wuz monkeys and shit nigga, alpha male leader of the pack boyyyy".

>Men are egoist typically
Maybe? Maybe they are. Maybe it possibly has even something to do with evolution. I don't care though. I'm talking about two very specific people who are shaped first and foremost by their surroundings, upbringing, other life events.
>In what forms does your altruism take itself
I'm glad you finally asked. Because, if abstracted to numerical form, I bet animal nature of man contributes to like 2% of why I consider myself altruistic.
To put it very simply: I put care onto others first and foremost, rarely on myself. I don't consider myself as a person who demands or requires care, I don't even think of myself as an individual. I don't exist.
Thankfully, close friends and family operate with the same mindset and give me care. It's a mutual balanced relationship
SHE has witnessed in the past the harm that can happen from giving too much to others and leaving nothing for oneself, and thus she is determined on "living for yourself" and being a "healthy egotist". A valid position based on life experience, which is why I'm debating her instead of just dismissing it.

I just spent 2 hours talking and flirting with my cute 20 yo coworker. She’s so naive and giddy bros. At first I felt self conscious and ugly but we have some good chemistry. I’m not a stupid incel who’s saying I’m suddenly in love with her, but it was just nice. I took advantage too. I knew when to cut it off, because she was smiling a lot and staring at me, and then I asked her for her number and gave her a hug.

>>20597573
This seems like the sort of thing you two could work around fairly easily. Even if you can't reconcile your views, one would think such disagreement could be constructive and potentially result in both of you having a more balanced perspective on the matter. I certainly don't see why two people can't have a romantic relationship in spite of this. To me, it seems the best thing you can do is talk to her more about it and be very clear with your desires and intentions and hope that she doesn't see your ideological differences as a deal-breaker.

my head aches

Too anxious to answer private numbers. Too anxious to listen to the voice mails. Now anxious because I don't know what it's about.
>>20597573
I want this too. I don't even do the random dating phase unless I know they're long term compatible. Every relationship I've had I have gone in with the intention of marriage etc.

>companies WILL pay for your abortion
>companies WON'T pay for maternity leave
really makes you think

>>20593768
I don't know why I still come here. I still read books, but /lit/ is dead, I think I just come to 4chan for two reasons: to post in this thread and to help people at /sci/'s questions that don't deserve their own thread's thread.

>>20597683
>To put it very simply: I put care onto others first and foremost, rarely on myself. I don't consider myself as a person who demands or requires care, I don't even think of myself as an individual. I don't exist.

How old are you? Also you can understand how a woman might not want to be with a guy that "doesn't exist"? Or things like this?

How altruistic are you,? What was she saying for you to stop doing, what does she want you to change about yourself?


>SHE has witnessed in the past the harm that can happen from giving too much to others and leaving nothing for oneself, and thus she is determined on "living for yourself" and being a "healthy egotist". A valid position based on life experience, which is why I'm debating her instead of just dismissing it.

That's fine, doesn't seem so altruistic of you to debate her instead of believe she has discovered she believes whats best for her. Just kidding, but seriously, taking care of oneselff is hard enough for most people in the world, let the lady focus on herself and attend to her life and world.

Give some examples of your recent altruism
>>20597683
>Because a whore can simply silence the tiny noise in her head that tells her to "make a nest and make babies"
Or it is just that she herself is the baby she is egoically seeking to infinitely spoil.

>>20597769
yeah just come here to spam off random thoughts not worth bothering a real person with a text over

>>20597762
Think about what? That companies compete for their existence and they take a chance on employees who will help them compete, and having an employee continue to show up to work instead of paying the employee not to show up to work is competitively advantageous?

>>20593876
I feel the same, I spent my adolescence thinking I was somehow gifted and unusually smart but I'm actualy a midwit, slightly smarter than normies but dumb, slow and inarticulate when compared to actual intellectuals. Even going on /lit/ makes me self conscious when I encounter an effortposter, I feel incapable of actual insight, as if I can only parrot half-thoughts and pretend they are mine.

>>20597771
>How old are you
25
I am however still unfortunately quite infantile
>a woman might not want to be with a guy that "doesn't exist"
that's because she exists. She needs to cease existing too, then we will be on the same vibe.
BECAUSE I don't exist for myself. It's like playing a video game in 1st person: you see other characters, you don't see yourself. Most games (unless there's a mirror present) don't even have a player model: the character you're playing as doesn't exist, it's just a pair of floating arms/gun.
Silly analogy I know. But the point is: for her, I do exist. She loves me. She exists for me and I love her.
By caring for each other, we remove the need to "Care for oneself".
My family cares for me, so I don't have to care for myself - that is overkill.
Remove the individual from the equation, instead create a network of love-giving altruists who create one another from unexistence.
Does this make sense?

>What was she saying for you to stop doing
She is worried that by being always ready to give rather than receive, I will be left with nothing and cause harm.
She may or may not be worried that my family members may abuse my readiness to give, by taking and taking and never giving: this does happen with family members in general sometimes
My family is not like this.

>she believes whats best for her
But... tying our life together in the holy sacrament of marriage means we become one. You can't care for yourself.
>taking care of oneselff is hard enough for most people in the world
No, it's actually ridiculously easy. Most people have no problem indulging in gluttony, greed, lust and other carnal pleasures, precisely because that part is the animal-gifted side. It comes naturally.
On the contrary, it takes incredible willpower to resent those things and focus on giving instead of taking. Resenting your flesh side and focusing on the spirit. Creating rather than consuming. That part is unique only to humans, only to those with a soul.

Caring for oneself is harmful. It is self-destruction. If we are to be tied together in a relationship, I may not allow her to destroy herself, that is out of the question.

>she herself is the baby she is egoically seeking to infinitely spoil
true. Seeking to care and pleasure oneself is immature. Like a child who snuck into an ice cream truck or something: knows no moderation or restraint.

>>20597801
coming to nyc really makes you realize you ain't shit.

>>20597816
She should dump you

>>20597719
>I certainly don't see why two people can't have a romantic relationship in spite of this
Like I said.. A romantic relation - sure. A married life? It is worrisome. There will be conflicts over this down the line.

If I were an epitome of masculinity that I wish I was, and we lived in slightly more olden days, I would just tell her to do as I say and she would obey. A simple solution. But things don't work like that and I'm not a person capable of the responsibility that comes with such authority.

It could only work like that if she agreed already wholeheartedly that I know best, and trusted me. This isn't happening due to clashing worldviews.

>>20597831
But she loves me

This day was meant to be spent with the person I love more than anything in the world and instead I'm completely alone

eventually we're going to reach a point when we'll all be walking around with low grade covid for the rest of our lives. this is the world these gain of function assholes made.

>>20597877
What the hell is that "co-veed"? I ain't never heard a word on it since the Ukraine invasion! It's like everybody forgot!

>>20597877
Was becoming NEETs for a month or two really so hard for the world?

>>20597893
>just shut down all production in the world for two months
uhh yeah that is really so hard

Whenever it’s convenient, a new lobby has opened up. No rush.

>>20597952
>>20597952
>>20597952

>>20595859
Grow up

>>20595914
Now THERE we agree. No more of that NIN crap.
"Nail" is one of the finest albums of all time, in any genre.
J.G. Thirlwell also did the music for the Venture Bros, and Archer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1EFSqXD38U

>>20595993
People turn to the occult after they try to do it the right way, fail miserably, and watch flaky idiots succeed beyond their wildest dreams.
Is it really hard to understand that, eventually, good people accept the inherently evil universe they live in, and just give up?

>>20596056
How do you make a hormone?
Don't pay her.
kek kek kek kek kek

>>20596945
So have you staked out the street corner on which you'll panhandle?