/lit/ - Literature

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Anorexic emo gf

>>20586886
no

Every day is a blessing.

if you position yourself just right you can cross your legs with your dick and balls resting on top of the lower leg and next to the upper one, giving you a comfy way to sit

>>20586949
ya the guys who say crossing your legs is feminine are just too fat to do that trick and so are instead stuck manspreading. true patricians cross their legs and let their nuts hang to the side.

It is all lost
You failed
Give it up
Kill yourself

I'm going back to college tomorrow. Its been 2 years. I'm really nervous.

>>20587000
i almost signed up for an mba but then i remember how much school sucks i was like nah fuck it

>>20587000
I went back after seven years of drifting about and it was actually one of the best things I ever did for myself
You'll do great and it will be refreshing

Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all times

>>20587016
Were you a full time student when going back? Or were you working full time while taking classes?

>>20587040
you'll feel better with time anon. trust me.

I want to share a secret... I don't actually read

>>20587049
Both full-time. I wouldn't recommend doing that unless you really have to, though. I didn't sleep much, but as a 25yo on his own I didn't have much of a choice with a place to pay for as well as tuition.

>>20587077
we know

>>20587077
It's okay anon, we knew

>>20587016
I'm a little worried about being that mid 20s guy in a class full of 18 year olds.

>>20587114
>>20587016
College is a scam

>>20587114
Well I went to a technical college and not a university, so your mileage may vary, but the age group was actually fairly diverse. One of my classes had two 18yo's, one 21yo, one 24yo, one 25yo (me), one 27yo, one 28yo, one 32 yo, and one 47yo. The instructor was 42.

If you're going to a university I imagine you'll probably have a higher concentration of high school grads, but as long as you conduct yourself respectfully and come intending to learn and further your education honestly there should be no issue. In fact, many of them will probably look up to you since you'll probably have the "older brother" archetype on your side

>>20587149
Cope, I have a job related to my field of study that I enjoy and no tuition debt because I worked my fucking ass off, saved up, and didn't take a loan

>>20587149
the same people who tell you college is a "scam" will then tell you there's some conspiracy why certain groups end up in all the professional jobs rather than the fact those groups have the highest degree completion rates.

>>20587149
Yeah nah bro I fell for the trade meme already. Im going back to college and I'm getting a comfy job

>>20587173
It's not always that simple anon

>>20587149
College is a test of whether you can put up with 4 years of arbitrary, humiliating, bureaucratic bullshit and still come out with a result.
That demonstrates your ability to maintain a job.

>>20587214
fuck that shit

>>20587168
>no tuition debt
Hello GenX
Working your way through college isn't a viable option anymore.
I wish it was.

>>20587226
The alternative is worse...especially once the economy collapses.
Hyperinflation is right around the corner.

>>20587214
interesting that you consider learning to be arbitrary, humiliating, bureaucratic

>>20587228
I was born in '95, some people would consider me a zoomer.

An observance of ressurection would not be a sufficient proof of God's existence, no matter if it had been recorded once, seven times, or seventy-seven times. It would also not prove the validity of any other religion's concept of deity-like forces. The same goes for every miracle ever described.
Seems like my own faith is all I have left.

>>20587240
Its the process and institution that does that

>>20587228
I was born in '94, I'm definitely not genX

imagine being into yeens and femdom and subtlety incorporating that into all your work haha

>>20587240
I'm not talking about the "learning" part of college.
I'm talking about all the bullshit around it.
I can learn on my own without college (and I do...constantly).
But without that stupid piece of paper labeled "diploma", you won't get hired.

i want out

>>20587355
reminder that when you engage with /lit/ this is the caliber of people around here, the ol' "a degree ain't nuthin' but a piece a paper" types. serious cringe.

>>20587415
Yeah...is it my impression, or are there a larger-than-normal percentage of NEETs here?
i expect autists...but I wasn't expecting so many NEETs.
Do these people just live at home with an astonishingly permissive mommy and daddy?

I have to leave, I have to break the cycle
I have to live, I have to break the cycle
Escape the maze, break the chains, make my fate
The wrong paths, the mistakes, the burderns I took foolishly
Leave all of it behind, venture to new lands, fresh starts

>>20587286
So observations can not prove or disprove a theory. Hm...

Are Japanese cartoons and Christianity compatible?

>>20587580
dunno

>>20586877
I hung out with myself today

I wish I knew what I have to do. I wish I knew how to fix my life.
It is all wrong.

Nah, I ain't going to a 14-year-olds party. No way.

>>20585466
>and attend social events where you're likely to meet girls with similar interests.
You say that, but then you fail to tell me where is the Buster Keaton appreciation society for under 35's in my town?
I really hate it when people give "draw the owl" or underpants gnome advice. If I could meet people with similar interests to me, I probably wouldn't be single. In fact, I wouldn't be posting with you guys either.

Why does everyone at Trader Joe's look like that?
>aging vegan spinster with thick rimmed glasses and billowy earth-toned dress and birkenstocks
>30 yo fat dyke with green sidecut and gauge earrings
>lanky white guys with meme tattoos with asian girlfriends with choppy haircuts and tattoos
>trendy arthoe 25 yo with pallid vegan skin
>aging white guy gen xer with meme beard
>"healthy conscious family" where everyone is skinny and the kid is metrosexual and the mother clearly wears the pants
>healthy looking newage 50 yo who smiles at everyone and moves around oh so gently

Is this a California thing? Why do they look like that?

Run away, run away
Run away and save your life
Run away, run away
Run away if you want to survive

>>20587580
anime is not compatible with islam
islam is not compatible with christianity
therefore anime is compatible with christianity

How did I get into this hole and how do I get OUT?

>>20587715
tan tan tantan
tan tan tantan
tan tan tantan
tan tan tantan

>write a novel
>send grandmother some samples
>of course she loves it because she's my grandmother, wants to read the full thing
>pay to have an editor look at it so it's the best it can be
>editor completely tears it apart and basically tells me I need to write a whole new project because what I have is stupid/ignorant
>ability to write and self confidence is destroyed, just sit at the Google doc and want to cry
>too ashamed to give her the full version but also can't live with guilt of not keeping my promise before she dies
I wish my 9th grade English teacher told me I sucked at writing, it would've saved me so much misery

>>20587777

I jerked off to gay porn, hentai, futa but nothing feels as good as jerking off to pics or videos of women that you met irl, seems healthier too

>>20587858
I'm gonna beat ur thick scull so hard with my bibble u see little angels

How do I induce schizophrenia
I want to make life more interesting

>>20587883
smoke weed might induce it, but only if you have a genetic predisposition

>>20587655
idk bro at my trader joes they're all chinese

>>20587774
What was wrong with it exactly? Did you write the entire thing in present tense?

>>20587655
The ones I've been too were always filled with cowboys.

>>20587883
It doesn't make life more interesting. The next time you have an unpleasant and scary hypnagogic waking dream, and then finally wake up fully and go "oh lol it was just a dream," imagine if instead of waking up fully, you just went from one unpleasant demi-dream to another, in an endless sequence. That's what being schizo is like. It's not coherent, it's just a string of bad dreams, and not bad in an interesting way either. Mostly annoying and confusing and unsettled, jumbles of things and themes that don't really go together.

>>20587964
I knew someone would say this kek. I've experienced psychosis before when I was young, I don't know what it's like to be an actual schizo but I don't have zero idea either. I just want to fully lose my sanity

just downloaded DOOM (the original)
what am i in for boys

>>20587982
Play on Ultraviolence, it's the hardest difficulty before respawning enemies (Nightmare has respawning) which is annoying to most people

Plutonium and TNT are big quality dropoffs from the original episodes but still playable. Try out Brutal Doom when you get bored.

cs:go is so addictive i'm definitely deleting it after one more session

You should thank your personal chef every time he makes a meal for you.

there is, literally, not a single thread on /lit/ right now that is about the content of a book, not counting a few quotes

dead board, officially the last bit of 4chan to sink into the new internet mire

Nearly har a heart attack. Checked my student email to make sure everything was set for tomorrow's first day of class. Apparently I was dropped 3 days ago. Had a huge panic wondering why. I already gave those bastards my money.
Apparently the class itself was cancelled. Probably didnt get enough students signing up. Had to completely rework my academic plan and desperately find an open class last minute. Needed one that would fit into my already set work schedule.
On top of that my laptop is sack of shit. It shut down midway through this process and I had to wait for it to reboot. It was slow as fuck afterwards.
I hate computers, I had college websites, I hate Canvas and Blackboard, I fucking hate school. All this crap is so byzantine and needlessly complicated.

>>20588064
In the future always assume provisionally that it's not as bad as you think, as long as you can get to a human being and have them address the issue. There's always some registrar lady in the endless hierarchy of registrar ladies who can push a button somewhere. Fixing shit for people who fell through the cracks is most of their job.

When something goes wrong at 5:01PM on a Friday before a week holiday, that's when you're fucked.

>>20588074
Yeah well it was 7pm on a sunday. Glad I could figure it out online

>>20588064
summer classes are always kinda iffy. you think your end was bad, now just imagine how it is for the adjunct who was depending on that money to make rent on their apartment waaay out in brooklyn on the edge of queens but still technically in brooklyn because they are a brooklyn based writer.

>>20586894
ah yes, my antithesis gf

>>20587077
You'll fit right in.

>>20587214
I'm always confused about the US school system.
What's the difference between college and university?

I don't want to sleep because I don't want to wake up.

I lay back, my cock cocking out cockily.

>>20588162
College is a metronym for University. Colleges traditionally are organizations within a University, for example Harvard College is confusingly offers undergraduates as part of the larger Harvard University. "Trinity College of Arts and Sciences" does the same for Duke University.

>>20588229
*metonym not metronym

DeLillo said that constant news coverage was replacing literature as the dramatic narrative of our lives.

As far as I'm concerned, men who are obsessed with politics are no better than women who still read harry potter and YA. They got stuck. Politics is not interesting. It's not meaningful. I don't like any of the people.

I'm saying this because I went to a family celebration in a church today and the roastie who was hosting the event had to bring up Roe v Wade, and then she arbitrarily compared someone to Trump. It was in a church, and we were celebrating a momentous occasion. She didn't see that. We're inside a story, and people don't seem to notice.

>>20588229
college was historically a school that grants bachelors while universities do research and confers phds. now a lot of colleges offer masters degree to cash in on demand for vocational degrees like mbas, data science, and higher ed administration shit.

>>20588237
>college was historically a school that grants bachelors while universities do research and confers phds
But aren't colleges PART of Universities like the two examples I cited?

>>20588242
ya universities have colleges in them, like you bachelors will say:
>Some State University
>College of Liberal Arts
>Bachelor of English

but some colleges are just colleges with no university like idk oberlin or something.

>>20588252
oh i forgot it will say what kind of degree like bachelor of art, bachelor of science, etc.

I can't tell if I should listen to the voice in my head telling me that I can make it if I try, I just have to put myself out there and meet people, girls won't mind if you have some issues as long as you're confident, billions of people manage to find intimacy and love so statistically you're bound to find someone eventually, et cetera, or the voice telling me that a guy with below-average height and looks is barely even seen as a man by most women, you've had lifelong intimacy issues so what makes you think they'll get fixed any time soon, you're going to end up alone because you're too afraid to connect with people and you might as well not even bother, you have absolutely nothing to offer anybody, a garbage personality based on being miserable and self-absorbed, no interesting hobbies or interests besides loner loser stuff like watching anime alone with the lights off, and a wageslave McJob that barely puts gas in the tank so what on Earth do you think any reasonable person will see in you, and so on.

>>20588321
>a guy with below-average height and looks
yeah because short people dont get married
stop being autistic. stop this stupid self defeating cycle of blaming details, i mean, i mean, go out there and, and!
>watching anime
nvm

>>20588321
i had a roommate who was average height, no education, some part time job, smoked weed, watched anime, and played video games literally all day. he was always fucking different girls every week. he wasn't even that confident, i guess he was just cute idk. he was puerto rican and spoke spanish though so i think he would find girls who were new to the country and curious about americans but didn't speak much english. he also had these diamond stud earings, maybe try some of those, idk.

>>20588321
Both voices are wrong, but the one that is so defeatist is more wrong.
You have to put in the work, and any improvement is worth it: you'd rather be less miserable than just as miserable as you are now right? If you're in horrible pain, you'd prefer to be in less pain right? So why would you listen to the defeatist voice?
Now, putting yourself out there won't magically work and confidence is something that has to come from becoming more familiar and thus comfortable in social situations until it becomes "second nature", and that's a marathon not a sprint, but unlike a University Course you're almost certain to get something out of it in the end because let's face it: real life is dealing with other people.
> a garbage personality based on being miserable and self-absorbed, no interesting hobbies or interests besides loner loser stuff like watching anime alone with the lights off,
And yet there are constantly women bad mouthing their absuive alcoholic ex's who were unemployed losers. Evidently even with your low self-esteem, you're still holding yourself to a higher standard.
My unsolicited advice: stop putting off trying to fix your various personality and social problems. Single out at least one bad habit you want to lose, identify the 'cycle' or 'triggers' for it. Then set about first reducing how often you fall into that habit ("if I encounter trigger X, then I do Y instead"), and once you make progress in it remove it completely.

Two thoughts (pls read)

1. Whenever I hear people talk about "digital nomading" and "remote work backpacking" or something I often wonder how people can just up and abandon their families, never to see them for multiple years at a time. Do people just not have parents? Do they hate them, or come from broken homes? I'm not saying live in the basement your whole life but if you "digital nomad" or do some trendy van life coding job or something, realistically you MAY see your family, once a year? if that? Part of me feels the whole "I'm going to travel the world and have a Thai teen girlfriend!" is just a extreme version of a hedonic cope for having a total lack of community or family or meaning at home which can also manifest as van life stuff, "backpacking through Europe", etc. Maybe I just have ressenitment but it feels extremely hollow.

2. Why do these digital nomads and "travel gurus" never actually talk about meaningful work, or contributing to their community? It's ALWAYS "imma get pussy bro, fuckkk hookers brah hell ya", "lool, im tryna make 500k a year n retire dude haha". How much money do you have to make to ignore that the work you do is quite literally soulless at best and often actively harmful (in the case of working for companies like Google, Facebook, social media firms etc.)? There's no discussion of meaningful work, or helping others, or forming connection. The worst part is I see no pushback to this mindset anywhere. I'm not saying I'm a holy roller but how is a meaningless existence in a foreign country with no family, no connection and no community any way to live, even IF you're making "350k a year brah".

>>20587655
>Is this a California thing?
It's sort of a California thing in some regions. If you had an independent locally sourced organic etc supermarket all of those characters would be there with the techbros, while the nearby Trader Joe's would be filled with fat normies splitting their shopping between there and Target.

>>20588457
>often wonder how people can just up and abandon their families, never to see them for multiple years at a time. Do people just not have parents?
What do you think people did for hundreds of years after their apprenticeship to become Journeymen? If anything I would say not seeing your parents for a few years is probably healthier. i know for a fact that staying too close to my father has put me in a perpetual adolescence, primarily because I can't get his "voice" out of my head.
>Why do these digital nomads and "travel gurus" never actually talk about meaningful work, or contributing to their community? It's ALWAYS "imma get pussy bro, fuckkk hookers brah hell ya", "lool, im tryna make 500k a year n retire dude haha"
I don't think that's most of them, a substantial proportion are women.
But obviously because: sex sells. They are content producers who appeal to an audience and sell that audience a theatrical vision of living overseas and crushing pus in foreign lands. Whether it's true or not (and indeed, how much of mommy and daddy's credit card is paying for their travels) is irrelevant to answering your question which is simply a matter of market positioning.

>>20588474
the trader joe near me is in a yuppie area so it's all finance bros who go shopping in basketball shorts and t-shirts from their alma mater. god the food in trader joes sucks, it's practically all processed food and sweets but since it's trader joes ppl can buy it without feeling guilty.

>>20588476
>What do you think people did for hundreds of years after their apprenticeship to become Journeymen?
Living within 10 miles of your home village (as most people did through human history), with an extended family, marriage at a young age, and usually 6-15 kids (additionally with strong social structures like a church, a pub, a guild, etc.) is not the same as picking up and flying 7000 miles to bumfuck Cambodia doing an online data analytics job for Rubik's Cubes sales to Zimbabweans while working in a one room 3rd world apartment surrounded by a completely foreign culture and language while unmarried, possibly never to see any of your family ever again, period.

>father has put me in a perpetual adolescence
No offense to you, but I think a common thread with all these backpackers and digital nomad CS guys is they were either
>1. raised by a single mom with no father in the picture
>2. raised by an absent or completely checked out, clueless, distant, or abusive father
No one with a good relationship with their family or meaning in their lives wants to fly 7000 miles around the world to live in a jungle village in the 3rd world to do meaningless online copywriting.

>Whether it's true or not (and indeed, how much of mommy and daddy's credit card is paying for their travels) is irrelevant to answering your question which is simply a matter of market positioning.
perhaps this is a much larger part of it too than I think it is

>>20588457
You are an adult, your mom and dad can survive if you’re not constantly around for awhile. Unless your parents are seriously ill or smothering as fuck there’s no reason for it to be an issue. Creating a life outside of your family bubble is good for you.

i'm not going on 4chan anymore starting tomorrow, no no, for real this time. i'm taking a break until the fall. i need to actually read and do other shit.

>>20588505
When my greatuncle left his home country and moved to the opposite side of the world it wasn't because he hated his parents or siblings, he brought my grandfather with him and they latter brought the others over: it was because he wanted to provide a better life for his family.
Sounds like you're creating a strawman. Yes, the kind of shallow people who become youtubers to sell this digital nomad thing don't come from good homes which is why they are perfectly capable of packaging this narcissistic lifestyle.
You're conflating that with all people who don't want to live within 10 miles of their parents.
Not everybody who has a yearning to go beyond their home town and see the world is necessarily doing it to get away from their parents. You ever heard of Opus Dei, or missionary work? Some people may be encouraged by parents who filled them with a wonder, curiosity, and confidence to explore and push limits in the world. Not all of them necessarily become 'digital nomads' marketing this bullshit.

>>20588515
It's not that they can't survive, it's that I actually like spending time around them and want to see them. If I have kids, I want them to be around to see their grand-kids, to play with them. We regularly have family parties and dinners and such. Can no one on 4chan relate to this or want to spend time around their families? I feel like I'm crazy for having a family that I don't want to not see for 5 years in a Cambodian jungle.

>>20588531
You make a good point but the VAST majority of people traveling are not in a religious order or doing service work and you know that. About 99.5% of the travel talk you see here and online more generally is the "FUCK I need to get pussy, I need to retire at 35 brah by working at Google and grinding code dude ahahah, I need to FUCK dude, who gives a shit about family or meaningful work or community broo", and to pretend otherwise is disingenuous

>>20588534
I mean it’s not forever, or even like visiting is that hard. I can’t say I’m personally attached to my family though. They’re not bad people and they raised me fine but I wouldn’t spend time around them if we weren’t related. Being close with your family seems like random chance in the modern world.

>>20588505
Tbh it’s not as different as you think it is. 10 miles was farther than you think it was back then. You might live with your spouses extended family but you could easily never see your siblings or those who raised you again if you permanently moved to another village. And in the modern day you can fly anywhere in the world on a plane in less than 24 hours no matter how far,

>>20588552
>You make a good point but the VAST majority of people traveling are not in a religious order or doing service work and you know that.
I have to plead ignorance, you could be right, but then again I don't actively look up these kind of websites like you. I also am confused, are you specifically refering to Digital Nomads and their wannabees, to people who go on short term travels, or people who migrate. I know that most people whom I've spoken to (and this is in real life, not online - to be clear) about short term travel or migration usually speak about the culture.
I can't account for the discrepancy other than maybe you're actively seeking out digital nomad blogs. Are you?

>>20588553
how are you not close with a mother and father and siblings who raised you daily for 18 years minimum? what about aunts and uncles, and your church, and your friends? how are you ok with going years at a time not seeing any of these people, possibly longer than that?
> 10 miles was farther than you think it was back then
you can travel 10 miles on a horse and cart in 8 hours, for free. you can do it as much as you want.
a 7000 mile plane ticket is 5000 dollars and likely 72 hours given multiple layovers, visa entry and exit requirements, time zone changes, not to mention time requested for vacation, work coordination, etc.

not to mention one place has your church, guild, kids, wife, extended family, pub friends, and the other is a concrete box in a village where you don't even speak the language, doing meaningless remote work. it's infuriating to see this lifestyle pushed here so often when it's fundamentally narcissistic and empty, infertile.

>>20588564
go on r*ddit or /trv/ or /int/ or /fit/ and see how many people are talking about traveling to go volunteer vs. going to do remote work on engineering for facebook to insert more ads in farmville popups and try to hire prostitutes in sourtheast asia or eastern europe.

>>20588590
Why are you going to those specific sites and boards in the first place? It's like you're trying to make yourself mad.

>>20588581
It's nice that you have a close family but I don't really get how you can't conceptualize other people just not gelling that well with their families or are that attached to their immediate people and surroundings.

I'm not really talking specifically about the digital nomad thing anymore which does sound soulless if you don't use it as an opportunity to genuinely explore a new place or do something meaningful with your life there, but a lot of your complaints are just about that it being unthinkable to leave your family and hometown community, regardless of why they do it. People like you are needed to create stable communities, but people who are willing to leave the home and go far are needed too.

>>20588597
>It's like you're trying to make yourself mad.
where else am I supposed to go to talk with people who actually have their priorities straight?

>>20588525
See you tomorrow!

>>20588602
not there evidently, kek. Honestly I can't help you with the "finding people with similar values" internet community stuff, that's one I'm trying to figure out myself.

>>20588498
Yeah, this was the first time I went to trader joes. It's just quirky branded frozen food and canned "ethnic influenced" processed shit. you can get nicer and healthier shit from the chinese market or the mexican market down the street. it is JUST the branding? jesus christ.

>>20588627
>WOW people do X? I only do Y
Posters here are so incredibly droll.

>>20588628
keep reading my posts

What's the best JRE episode?
>hard more no alex jones

Recently I went on a few dates with this guy I’ve been talking to lately. Last week he took me to see a movie, and there were all of these violent scenes that made me startle and flinch. The whole time he kept looking over at me to see if I was scared, and then he reached over to hold my hand. For whatever reason this made me feel even more anxious, but I just let him do it, because I didn’t want to be rude. Then he wanted to walk me home afterwards, and the whole way I was getting more and more panicked, because I knew that he was going to try and kiss me and I realized that I couldn’t go through with it. Just as I suspected, when we got to my building he asked if he could kiss me goodnight, and I didn’t know what to say. I probably looked terrified, and I just made some awkward excuse while backing away.

He texted me later that night and said that he was sorry if he’d done anything that made me uncomfortable. I felt really bad, so I reassured him that he hadn’t done anything wrong and tried to let him down easy (pic related). Thankfully, he was pretty understanding about it: he said he still wants to spend time with me and hopes we can be friends. I haven’t replied yet, because I don’t know what I should do— he’s a nice person and we have some common interests, but it’s pretty obvious that he thinks I’ll change my mind if he waits around for long enough, which won’t happen. Anyway, I can’t stop agonizing over someone else that I can’t have and will probably never see again.

At this point I worry that I’m too much of an antisocial autist to ever be in a relationship. I can’t disclose my authentic thoughts to anyone anymore, even if they’re kind, because I constantly fear being rejected. In social situations I can play along and successfully fake it for a while, but it’s so emotionally draining that I usually end up feeling even more alone in the end. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

>>20588658
Are you an actual girl or just a gay

>>20588658
reported and saged for womanposting

>>20588658
you're right

>>20588658
>but it’s pretty obvious that he thinks I’ll change my mind if he waits around for long enough, which won’t happen.

be completely honest with him

>>20588658
If it makes you feel any better, the fact you are actually going on dates proves you're not such an antisocial autist as you fear to be. And I say this out of personal experience, I recognize myself in some things you mention, but as far as dating goes, that is absolutely not my thing.
Perhaps try working on this fear of rejection one step at the time, express an opinion sometimes and see what happens. A true friend might disagree with you, but will keep being a friend.

did you guys get vaccinated?

I dont know which is the real me - sad and depressed or happy and satisfied. I do feel pain in my heart due to being denied the most basic human experience.

>>20588658
gayest thing i've read in a while

>>20586877
I'm debating on if I should just finish off my education with my Classics BA or if it's worthwhile going the full mile and running for a full PhD.
On one hand, I love the subject and the field is rich in stuff to do, however on the other hand how it's taught is painful and the opportunities for graduates seem unfortunately poor.

>>20587883
David Anton Wilson

Fucking can't get a job at all, been waiting for thousands of years now. No degree either. Think I'll just kill myself

>>20588925
Same but with shit degree. Its been 4 years since the last job.

my mental health is collapsing
I don't know what to do

The average American woman will have unprotected casual sex, become pregnant, and then proceed to murder her unborn child for the sake of convenience with zero remorse. In fact, she will act as though aborting her own baby is an act of bravery that should be celebrated. Yet if the same woman hears that a vicious dog has bitten someone and is going to be euthanized, she will cry and go on social media to defend the “poor little pupper” and chastise the authorities for choosing to humanely end its useless life. These whores legitimately care more about the well-being of filthy feral “rescue” dogs than about the lives of the innocent children growing in their wombs. How can they lack any type of loving maternal instinct? How can they fight for the right to crush, dismember, and destroy their own defenceless offspring? Abortion is murder, and “pro-choice” women disgust me.

>>20588968
Abortion is a satanic ritual

People who repeat sentences here (big dicks/ goth gf) are boring and trying to force some meme.
It won’t work, you’re just telling everyone you’re gay.

>>20586877
Sometimes I'll go in the 4chan archives to try to look for the memorable threads I've lurked/participated in. Some of them go back 8 years.

What creeps me out is that whenever I find a thread, I'll find shit that I never remembered being there and the details in certain posts I was 100% sure was there wouldn't be there. Some of the wording would be different too.

What creeps me out isn't the fact that there's shit I don't remember. I understand that maybe I didn't read it or maybe I don't remember reading it.

It's the stuff that is missing that creeps me out, where did it come from then if it was never posted? Why was I so certain that I remember reading it?

>>20588994
And I shouldn't have used the word "whenever". It doesn't happen often, there were only a few instances of it happening.

>>20588969
You’re thinking of rape

>>20588968
I don't know about the American woman, but average woman will know about contraception, or keep the baby despite all the stigma and hate from people that on some other day will take part in pro-life demonstrations. And if she does happen to need an abortion, she will not take it as something to be proud of, preferring to keep it private. The average man will also quite happily have unprotected sex, because "it feels better", and then pretend he doesn't know anything when confronted with pregnancy. And slip her some money to get rid of it.
Those that brag about abortion as something to be proud of are not average women, they are just loud and infantile narcissists, the female equivalent to incel.
Repeat abortionists are mostly prostitutes and women of very poor social status. In their world a life is not worth much, and a child endangers their survival (if you think that's unique to human, there are animals like hamsters and rabbits, where the young have to be separated from the mother less she kills them under stress). Even with abortion being illegal, they would still find a way to go through with it, like they have done through history. They however skew statistics, turn it into something appalling, so that even women that do it once, or do it out of perfectly reasonable medical reasons, are faced with harassment.

I have people who believe in me, finance my work and encourage me to write but I am too afraid/lazy to do it. I have a million ideas and constantly think about how to improve my stories but when I need to sit down and actually write, I am blocked and procrastinate.

Is Platonism cultural? By that I mean in the sense that western culture favours materialism and the idea of unchanging forms, whereas many east Asian viewpoints favour the notion of process and continual, eternal change. So, I wonder whether my view of mathematics is influenced by my culture. An example is the notion of paraconsistent logic in Buddhism. To many westerners, the idea of a paraconsistent logic might be absurd, but this may not be the case to people with a culturally Buddhist background.

>>20589019
>I have people who believe in me, finance my work and encourage me to write
I hate you.
Only joking, while I'm certainly envious I honestly would prefer someone to be able to take advantage of their gift than not: why do you procrastinate? Fear of not living up to their expectations? Your own?
Is it actually procrastination or is it more that your ideas aren't fully formed enough to be able to write?
What strategies do you try to employ as a workaround? Do any work?

I have no job, no savings, no relationship, no personality and I still dont know what to do with my life. No inspiration, hobbies or passion either. Why bother living?

>>20589100
Fear of not living up to my own expectations and guilt from having the chance and not fully using it. What usually gets me going is watching or analysing works of great people ( could be an essay about Rothko or anything that is great in my opinion) and that gets me going: "I can do that too and I want to do something".
I have everything layed out and it simply needs to be put on paper. Worse even, I've written it all and I simply need to make the revisions I have agreed on with my production company...

>>20589167
>Fear of not living up to my own expectations and guilt from having the chance and not fully using it
It's an interesting paradox that you will truly be wasting it if you procrastinate to the point of either putting out a needlessly blemished product, or not putting out anything at all. Are you a screenwriter? (since you mention 'production company') as cliche as it sounds you need to realize that no film is ever finished, it is abandoned, kicking and screaming into the world. As Orson Welles said, authors may have the privilege of making corrections or alterations if there's another edition, but not film (unless you're Abel Gance or George Lucas).
Yes I'm saying "don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good"

I unironically agree with the Grand Inquisitor.

Why do we conflate intelligence with being right? There are several things that the simplest people can get right, and some genuinely high IQ people also have had some of the grossest, most batshit insane, mistakes I've ever seen.

>>20589133
Books

>>20589172
>Yes I'm saying "don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good"
This helps a lot.
Yes I am working on a script and will also be directing. Already received most of the funds and am adding the last touches. I am aware that it will never truly be finished and until the last cut is made in post production the story can change.
I am convinced that I can do better than 99% of the industry on my country but it's probably not true and I'm but a mediocre person and have no idea what people see on me.
Will try again tonight when I come home from work.

>>20589197
But in the words on a legendary Director I've just worked with: good is the enemy of great

Ive destroyed my own ability to create and have fun.

>>20587572
You know I meant "proof" in a scientific way

>>20589181
Reading or writing?

>>20589197
>I am aware that it will never truly be finished and until the last cut is made in post production the story can change.
No it won't ever be finished. Ever.
That's the nature of film because whereas the writer can with one new line commit the change, the filmmaker and editor can only negotiate based on the finite (albeit myriad) options afforded by the footage they have. And yes, if you have a good composer he can help you atone for so many sins, but there's a limit.
Indeed this is why it's imperative you make all the changes and improvements you can now in the screenwriting phase. Because getting that one line better now will save you a world of pain.
"let's fix it in post" are the five most expensive words in the English language.
You have to get over this procrastination because, well, in simple terms: it makes your job easier for the next... god knows how many months or years you'll be working on this project.
In engineering they call it "Front End Loading".

>>20589247
>fix it in post
Made my skin crawl

>>20588968
ideological brainwashing

Interesting linguistic quirk. Just saw a sentence on /adv/ that read
>she's 100% not satisfied with...
And naturally I began to over think it. Like how the meaning changes if you rearrange it as
>she's not 100% satisfied with
Since he's using a percentage, and I guess the original anon is saying there's no uncertainty that she's not satisfied, while the second is saying to what degree she is unsatisfied - quantifying it.
No one would ever say it, but what if you wrote
>she's 100% not 100% satisfied with...
It's certain that she's not completely satisfied... which more naturally you might rephrase as
>clearly she feels the situation isn't entirely satisfactory
what if we specified what percentage south of 100 it was?
>she's 100% only 75% satisfied
or maybe rephrase it
>there is no margin of error, she's only 75% satisfied
or more naturally
>you can be sure of this, she feels a hell of a lot is missing, but not so much that she's going to bail

>>20586877
I retreated to a Christian camp in the highlands and have been plagued quarce since.

am I the only one who thinks that jerking off when your penis stinks after not washing ot for days makes you more horny?

>>20589362
Quantifying this? Fuck. Now my mind turns to the increasing Quantization of everything. People reduced to numbers. The hegemony of the Actuarial class. You might think this is a symptom of the 'digital' age and the computerization of things. However it has been slowly seeping in since the days of Ancient Sumer. Pretty much when symbols and writing was invented. It's a happy expatiation that these symbols which used to record bushels and ingots, debts, credit and usury have been repurposed for literature. But it was the beginning of the end. We are becoming numerical, digitized, quantized. We speak about "productivity" in our personal life. We rate our looks on a ordinal scale out of 10 against how many feet and inches tall we are.
The writing revolution and its consequences have been a disaster for the human race.

>>20589403
Algorithm as a force of nature

If you are alive, you are a mentor. Someone, somewhere, is watching you. Some younger person or someone that you are influencing is seeing how you live and how you react. Someone is learning from you. Someone will follow your example. Mentoring is far more than the words that are spoken by the mentor. His or her entire life is on display.

>>20589362
I'm full schizo mode today.
Is the reason why Aristotle's Categories and Substances so closely follow the structure of language because of a poverty of imagination, or was it a strategically excellent move since obviously the way language and syntax allows us to describe the relationships between substances and objects naturally leverages our non-verbal pattern recognition?
It does seem amazing that we can imbue simple Germanic statements like
>He hates his cat
with so much meaning, for we know: this man owns and is responsible for a cat which behaves in a way that he has grown to detest. This entire weird relationship can be established.

>>20589516
That'd be nice but fuck you for giving me the thin glimmer of hope that for a second anyone was paying attention to my existence.
I realize this is a WWOYM so you're really talking about yourself and your circumstance.
But that still hurts.

Masturbation causes pimples and makes your body hair grow. You can't change my mind.

>>20589003

Less than 1% of abortions performed in the US are to end a pregnancy resulting from rape or incest. Over 50% of abortions are performed on women who did not use birth control, and another 45% are performed on women who only used it occasionally or used it inconsistently. Some tiny percentage of abortions are for medical reasons related to the health of the fetus or the mother. The average abortion is a needless act of violence that could have been prevented if women actually took their reproductive health seriously and used contraception consistently. Even if they have issues and struggle to remember to take the pill, they can use the shot or the implant, or get an IUD that has a 99.9% efficacy rate and is good for 5-10 years. If women valued life than they would do everything in their power to prevent unwanted pregnancy and the abortion rate would drop drastically. The majority of abortions occur for reasons of convenience and are indefensible.

An old, Christian family friend basedfaced while praising an author's "way he uses the semicolon." She also used the n-word, hard-r and out of nowhere.

>>20589516
lol no. My life is a disaster. What kind of mentoring is that?

>>20589541
>thing you start doing at puberty is the cause of the other symptoms of puberty

>>20589569
He's going to make some bullshit backdoor argument about "negative mentoring" - how either you're a bad influence giving a bad example, or that somewhere someone is watching your choices and may choose not to do them. That you're a sort of passive mentor.

Now this was based https://youtu.be/kBqwtHnc9ho

>>20588973
>big titty goth gf
>gay
i'm not sure what zoomers think "gay" means.

>>20589627
I think he's implying they're actually homosexuals pretending to be straight guys lusting after that meme big tiddy goth gf

>>20588994
4chan archives are a mistake and should be purged.

>>20589541
wrong as all fuck retard

>>20587652
I sympathize Anon. The last girl that was a bookworm (girl power fantasy stuff, but whatever) that I could have meaningful conversations with was someone I met at work, but she had serious issues--like medicated and going to therapy--not to mention was a liar, hypocritical, impulsive, and did not respect boundaries. Finding somebody with similar hobbies is not as easy as it sounds. Hell, finding a girl with hobbies is a challenge in and of itself. I've given up looking, and at this point I'm just trying to get as much fulfillment out of my creative pursuits as much as I do from my physical training.

>>20586877
Jane Eyre was a better book than Anna Karenina.
Anyone who says otherwise should take their mouth off of academics', and pedants' schlongs.

>>20589703
>and at this point I'm just trying to get as much fulfillment out of my creative pursuits as much as I do from my physical training.
which seems like a healthy compromise. My problem is I'm more of an extrovert than an introvert, so like I find myself easily making friends, but they're very superficial connections ya know? That's not to say I don't try to focus no my creative pursuits.

>>20588994
For me, I'll remember an old thread and connect posts that I didn't think much of at the time but later realise their significance. No archives required.

I keep hunting for some sci-fi/fantasy audiobook to take on trips/commutes but all the authors keep being female. I can't stand writers that are conformists, their takes on social interactions sicken the fuck out of me, especially when they try to mimic dissent. It's like a fucking parody.
>wah wah wah not all
ye ye, just 99% of them. Wow, anon, you really changed my paradigm for looking up audiobooks

>>20589555
It doesn't matter why women want the abortion. It's a matter of having the right and freedom to decide what happens to your body.
No one is forced to give up blood even when it could save another life. It's the same with organs. We're not allowed to use someone's organs even if they're dead
if they hadn't given permission for it. So why is it ok to force women to give up their wombs?

Despite all my experiences with friends, family, dating, hobbies, and traveling, and despite the fact that I'm not a vidya nerd, the happiest time in my life was when I was playing Pokemon in 2003 with my shitty Gameboy that didn't even have a backlight. I've never come close to being as happy and I don't understand why.

>>20589746
No responsibilities or worries

Are people against abortion also against contraception? They have to be.

>>20589009
Having slept on it, I know you’re right, and that most women don’t think and act this way. I was overreacting and being hyperbolic, because I’m just increasingly frustrated and enraged by the absolutely insane and sociopathic pro-abortion takes that I’ve seen my peers sharing on social media in the wake of the Roe v Wade decision, and wanted to vent anonymously. None of my friends know my true feelings about abortion, because they hate anyone who’s even remotely pro-life and I don’t want to be socially ostracized. Although I’m morally opposed to abortion, I don’t even believe that abortion should be illegal before viability: I’m a proponent of “legal, safe, and rare.” I also have never shamed anyone for having an unplanned child, and have only been supportive when relatives and friends have been in that situation. I haven’t harassed anyone who’s had an abortion either: I keep my opinions to myself. I do think that there are some situations in which there is no good outcome, so from a practical standpoint abortion is sometimes a tragic and unfortunate necessity, although the idea of it disgusts me.

Of course, as you say, men bear a huge amount of responsibility in this as well, and our culture’s laissez-faire attitude towards promiscuity and irresponsible sexual behaviour plays a major role. But what really irks me is that pro-choice advocates will scream “my body, my choice!” and “no forced birth!” ad nauseum, yet refuse to accept the basic fact that no one is being forced to give birth: by choosing to have sex, you accept the possibility of pregnancy. If you didn’t want to be pregnant, you could’ve abstained, or used a reliable method of birth control consistently. If you have an IUD or use a hormonal and barrier method at the same time, your chances of becoming pregnant are virtually non-existent. Less than 1% of abortions are performed on rape victims, who are the only subset of women who could actually make the claim of being forced to give birth. They always use the exceptions to defend their stance, such as cases of rape, incest, or medical complications, when it’s well documented that over 95% of abortions are performed on women who either used no birth control at all or used it inconsistently. The vast majority of abortions occur for reasons of convenience and are completely preventable. I can’t stand to see women celebrating promiscuity while playing the victim, infantilizing themselves, and refusing to accept any responsibility for the consequences of their actions.

>>20589742

Read this, it applies to you:
>>20589789

>>20589784
no they don't. Fetus ain't your body, simple as. plus post covid gene therapy bullshit your bodily autonomy is a joke so nobody is going to care about that argument coming from the same people who screeched for vaxx regime. Personally I'm okay with early abortion and I don't consider an embryo a human but I also don't see why you get to fuck with an animal-stage homo sapiens that will become a person if un-intervened when at the same time you don't have the right to end your own life (or even drive without seat belts lmao) or that of some random animal inconveniencing you. Plus now the post-birth abortion shit is really getting on peoples' nerves. Goodwill is gone.
>"You vill birf ze basterd an you vill be happeh."
>-t. bishop Schwab Klaus

Beyond all that at the end of the day Christians have "their truth" and there's more of them than you. So just deal with it. The religious breed faster, they're on the right side of history.

>>20589784
Why? This doesn’t make sense. I’m against abortion and pro-contraception.

Sex gifs

>>20589832
>Beyond all that at the end of the day Christians have "their truth" and there's more of them than you. So just deal with it.
I'm a leaf so it doesn't apply to me, I was just curious.

>>20589857
It applies to everyone, you're on the wrong side of history, pal. Them's the faxx.

I'm a legit schizo and everyone knows. I'm accused of acting brand new because I refuse to build rapport with people. Rapport is just dogma. We all exist in the moment.

At work, it's normal for someone to talk about you but indirectly in front of you and this is called office politics. They expect a reaction out of you.

Autistic people like me are known for being robotic but also highly emotional. It takes a lot to control myself and some people (especially younger women in corporate settings) are "softer" around this. Like they'll sympathize with me and be a little slower.

But this consideration is not found my own work place. People there are equally psychopathic but without any empathy. They'll try to goad me on and it's like a game.

I think one of my female superiors is into me but acts like a high school girl. Being indirect, passive aggressive. They're very interesting. Like characters out of a book.

Looking back, this is one of the most important reason for reading. You see people in so many different lights. It's like reading let's you paint like van Gogh or Cezanne. These beautiful, heavy strokes, capturing movements, intentions, deformities, and perfections.

Although actually being a normie sounds terrible. How tf can so many people choose to be normies?

>my poems always end up with nature fucking someone

>>20589886
fucking like having sexual intercourse or fucking like killing/winning/tricking?

>>20589893
Like having sex which I should probably go do

>>20589897
that's hot.
post an excerpt.

>>20589903

annihilate everything that exists

>>20589923
this is badly written and cringe-inducing

I've just learned that they are making some sort of Netflix adaptation of One Hundred Years of Solitude and I find the idea horrible and depressing.

>>20589949
Specifically? Let me have it

Im weak, delusional, tired and full of regrets.

I used to think the Middle Ages were a high point of Western Christendom but the more I learn the more I question whether the West was ever even really Christian at all.

>>20589979
>whether the West was ever even really Christian at all
elaborate

>>20589989
I’ve started questioning whether Western theology was wrong from the beginning. There are theological disputes brought up long before the Great Schism that pretty clearly suggest Catholic theology is collapsing into monism, dualism, or polytheism. That’s probably the biggest issue because it’s at the very beginning so if that’s wrong then everything is wrong. Then you have all this stuff with the Church turning a blind eye to clearly non-Christian practices like the Templars lending at interest, certain dubious relationships between the Church and Franks, Papal usurpation of the Holy Roman Emperor. There just seems to be alot at the highest levels which is clearly not Christian so if you start asking like “when did the collapse of Christianity start” you just keep going back further and further.

intankable shitzil

>>20589975
Same

How am I supposed to trust the opinions of people in this nightmarish PC era where people are programmed to say what they think you want to hear instead of the truth, unless you're criticizing the system itself in some way (then they become aggressive)? You will always tell me that my work is great. You will tell another person whose work is garbage that his work is great too, with exactly the same enthusiasm. How am I supposed to trust people? What other metric can one trust? Upvotes? Money? Why are people so scared? I am a nobody, I won't cancel you if you are honest

>>20590242
I don’t think you can. You have to trust yourself. I’ve committed to honesty with myself and others for this reason. People deserve honesty, so if I can’t get it from them and they can’t get it from each other at least we can all get it from me. I’m working on living in a way that’s more honest.

>>20590242
find schizoid people. they're pretty honest.

Found our my ex was not just online dating but fully cheating on me. Pretty on my mind, yeah.

>>20588968
Never got the hard on westoids have for dogs until I realized they are substitutes for their aborted babies. Don't get wrong love me dogs but they sleep outside or in kennels and the moment a dog, especially a guard dog that is supposed to watch children, bites someone it's eating a bullet.

>>20590257
atleast she's your ex now

I wish I was either financially or mentally stable enough to have a girlfriend. Getting attention from women is just painful now.

>>20590270
Guy, and I still love him despite knowing it so really I just feel unbelievably broken

>>20590294
so you still harbor feelings after knowing this? I dont understand women.

>>20590299
love doesn't just disappear overnight you psycho, conditional love is not love

>>20589837
Catholics. They get crazy about wasted sperm. It’s not fetuses and babies they’re worried about, it’s spoog

>>20590299
I was a housewife. Cooking for him, caring for him and loving him was the thing that made me the happiest in the world.
>>20590303
I wish I could make it go away. Seems like he did, after all.

I'm stuck in a hole. I know I can get out. I just don't know how. Or maybe, for some reason, I don't want to get out. But it hurts to be in this hole.

>>20590329
What's the hole like inside anon?

>>20590332
It's dark, cold, and cramped, but it's familiar. At one point, I knew a world outside the hole, but it has all been forgotten. There's a reason I'm in this hole, though.

>>20590253
Overly so

surgery is the new sex

>>20590315
Did it seem like he loved you?

>>20590337

Crimes of the Future is the best film of this year
David Cronenberg is a genius artist

Being a vampire would be terrible. You don't get to feel the pleasant warmth of sunlight, nor can you enjoy mortal pleasures like food and drink and sex. You always have to hide from the sunlight and from others who may not be accepting of who you are. And there's no way to live without harming others - you're forced into a position of parasitism, which for (relatively) honest men like myself would be just as unbearable as missing out on most simple pleasures. I guess vampirism only appeals to people who seek power even at the expense of themselves and others. The most appealing thing about vampirism is the immortality, but an eternity of the vampire lifestyle would likely drive someone to insanity if they tried to hold onto any sense of what it means to be human. I always felt that vampirism was a metaphor, or an archetype to represent certain types of people - the people who isolate themselves and hide from others while they leech off of others in a pursuit of power. There has to be something wrong with them if they're okay with that lifestyle. The vampire archetype is a very real thing, and they pose a very real danger to the humans around them.

>>20590421
Would you let a vampire regularly consume your blood in exchange for something as part of a symbiotic relationship?

I wish I still got horny and fell in love like I used to

>>20590463
No. In part because I don't feel like a vampire could offer me anything I truly want in exchange for my blood, but also because I don't think I could ever trust a creature that is inherently deceitful and manipulative in nature. It probably won't be long before the vampire refuses to uphold it's end of the bargain and just coerces me into giving it blood.

>>20590389
Yes. I could make a whole page of the good times and the love and safety I felt. Until he changed around December, he became abusive. I stayed because I know he was going through a lot of stress and I don't give up on people I love. I thought I was doing the right thing.

>>20590041
it's called pseudomorphosis

>>20590500
You're not alone in doing the right things for the wrong person. Who ended it? If you want to share, else I pray you find the strength in yourself that you found in him.

>>20590265
Yeah, they elevate dogs to a status that’s actually insane. I like dogs to some extent as long as they’re well behaved, but ultimately they’re animals that were bred to serve humans. Personally I feel that any dog that has a history of aggressive behaviour should be euthanized immediately, and that dog breeds that are known to be dangerous should have mandatory spay/neuter laws instituted to phase them out of existence. Anyone who eats meat has no moral argument to defend the lives of such dogs anyway: they’re dangerous to humans, serve no real purpose, and are a drain on societal resources.

I don’t understand how the same women that refer to themselves as “dog moms” and devote all their time and attention to nurturing their loud, destructive, annoying pets can actually abort their own children: the very beings that they are biologically designed to instinctually love and protect. Getting married and having kids is one of the most meaningful and important things that a woman can do— mothers are literally raising the next generation, so the future of the whole world is in their hands. But these narcissistic “dog moms” would rather whore themselves out and kill their own babies in utero in order to devote their lives to a pointless job in HR and a dumb animal that eats its own feces.

>>20590494
Logically wouldn't it make more sense for a vampire to enter symbiosis with a willing donor rather than risk the consequences of irregular feeding with unwilling donors?

>>20589516
Scary thought desu

the xi jinping of embracing the soft lips of your new lover as she slowly caresses your arms and hair

>>20589979
>the West was ever even really Christian at all
European pre-Christian traditions and thought have had more effect on Christianity than Christianity has had on pre-Christian European thoughts traditions. I'm not denying that Christianity has had no effect on things such as western philosophy, but it's remarkable just how secular philosophy has always been in the western world, and even Plato was considering atheism. Not to mention the amount of local pagan traditions that have bled into Christianity - many Christian holiday dates such as Easter and Christmas were originally used for Pagan holidays. I think Europeans had put their own spin on Christianity that was taken from desert people which is why the Semitic roots of the old testament seem to clash so much with the western interpretation of Christianity, and there's a discrepancy between the European influence compared to what was written.

I think one of the most telling examples of this is the "Iesus, son of Iove" theory. The Hebrew name for Jesus would be Yeshua, and he would be the son of Yahweh, which sounds like "Jove/Iove" (pronounced "Jo-weh" for plebs who don't know Latin), which is another name for Jupiter. So somewhere along the line the Christian God became a fusion of the Semitic Yahweh and the European Jupiter. Both Jupiter and Yahweh were gods of the "sky father" archetype, so it makes sense that they could've been seen as the same. So Christianity, at least as Europeans followed it, was essentially a fusion religion between Hellenic Paganism and the "original" Christianity as followed by Hebrews before mass adoption by the Romans. Since the Roman emperor held religious authority over Roman Paganism, they needed a way to transfer that power over to Christianity once it was adopted in the empire, hence the creation of Catholic and Orthodox churches, were the Pope/Patriarch and Emperors often had joint religious authority, and hence why the Pope thought he could bestow the title of "Roman Emperor" to the Charlemagne and the Holy Roman Emperor in the early-medieval era.

It is also worth noting just how much knowledge of our Pagan gods have survived past the adoption of Christianity instead of being completely repressed. People were still making references to Jupiter in written works at the height of the Church's power, and it was never seen as heretical, despite Yahweh supposedly being a "jealous god" as described in the old testament. The west's pagan roots never really went away.

>>20590503
But then what do we have left? You can’t argue that the real spirituality is expressed through Western Christianity because much of that is what’s collapsing into monism, dualism, or all other sorts of fallacies that don’t make any sense given what we already say is true. We’re just left with nonsensical absurd nihilism.

>>20590595
Peak midwit. No wonder they teach didnt want plebs to read the Bible when you get stoner couch takes like this

>>20590603
A murky mysticism accompanied by pursuits of career and art

Absurdists mistakenly believe that rational men are at the mercy of an irrational universe, without considering that perhaps men are irrational whilst the universe is rational.

>>20590524
He did, because I didn't message him back for 48 minutes, didn't use the right laundry detergent and sometimes had "wrinkly" clothes on. Apparently me serving him breakfast in bed, baking him cakes, making him work lunches with notes, cleaning and gardening, massaging him and looking after him when he was sick isn't good enough. The saddest thing is, I truly believe I wasn't good enough. I must have been undeserving of that safety and love. I wasn't worth it even when I tried my best.

>>20590618
Careers are pointless, often torturous. Art is great conceptually but art for what. A lot of romantics seemed to believed it can exist in a vacuum but I don’t think so. You can’t make up your own mysticism. That is called delusion or insanity.

>>20590595
Most of this isn’t even true, dude. These are like the half-educated takes you hear from pagans all the time and they’ve been refuted so many ways. It’s exhausting to keep addressing them. Of course the folk natural religion was expressed somehow but this idea that it’s all just pagan is so dead wrong.

>>20590633
Checked and based. I see our options then are that our irrationality is due to original sin or will. If we accept Christianity, then we must throw our hands up like the figure does out the window at the end of The Trial, except not in question but in unconditional faith. Kafka read Kirkegaard 5 years before he died. Unfortunately, if we admit that we are totally depraved (which concept of Calvin's I view as similar to Schopenhauer's will), then God damns people before they are born, and we may very well be part of those elected to hell. Our options regarding will are simple: denial or affirmation. Washing our hands of our humanity or losing ourselves in it. I'm not sure what the correct option is, but I do know that I am full of shit up to my crown.
>>20590646
It's strange that I find myself empathetic to strangers, but largely absent as a positive force in the lives of my family. Maybe the problem is that I exist as a stranger not just to people, but to man as a whole. So maybe this empathetic post on an anonymous forum is bullshit, but I pray you find someone who is as full of love as you, or that you may come to love yourself.

the collapse of the roman empire and its consequences has been a disaster for the human race

>>20588658
dont lead people on... you despicable coward

People's sins are made manifest in their bodies. You can tell a lot about a person by looking at them. In this age of decadence, the sins of lust, gluttony, pride, greed, wrath, sloth, and envy can been seen in many people. They can be seen on me. A healthy body shows no sin. Even then, the most health-obsessed people show nothing but pride, envy, and lust through their bodies.

>>20589742
they give up their wombs when they choose to get fucked you numbskull

>>20590868
exactly…. they could have chosen to close their legs

>>20590707
Art does not have a human telos, it is a force of nature that uses us. A mysticism as in with an unknown God.
>>20590852
I've developed an omphalolith, unidentifiable bug bites, blood in my semen, and a pistule on my eyelid since visiting a Christian retreat
>the most health-obsessed people
I wonder if they consciously think about death

>>20590786
>If one remembers the beautiful nature, which surrounded the ancient Greeks; if one reflects how intimately this people under its happy sky could live with free nature, how much closer its mode of conception, its manner of feeling, its morals lay to simple nature, and what a faithful impression of the same its poetic works are, so must the remark appear strange, that one meets among the same so few traces of the sentimental interest, which we moderns can take in natural scenes and in natural characters. The Greek is indeed in the highest degree exact, faithful, detailed in description of the same, but yet no more and with no more excellent interest of the heart, than he is also in description of a suit, a shield, armor, house furniture, or any mechanical product. He seems in his love for the object to make no distinction between that which is through itself, and that which is through art and through the human will. Nature seems more to interest his understanding and his curiosity than his moral feeling; he does not adhere to the same with intimacy, with sentimentality, with sweet melancholy as we moderns. Indeed, whilst he personifies and deifies it in its individual phenomena and represents its effects as actions of free being, he annuls the calm necessity in it, through which it is precisely so attractive to us. His impatient imagination leads him beyond it to the drama of human life. Only the living and free, only characters, actions, fates, and morals satisfy him, and if we can wish in certain moral dispositions, to give up the advantage of our freedom of the will, which exposes us to so much conflict with ourselves, so much disquiet and confusion, for the involuntary, but calm necessity of that which is devoid of reason, so, directly the opposite, is the imagination of the Greeks occupied with commencing human nature already in the inanimate world and there, where a blind necessity rules, giving influence to the will.

I'm tired

I'm scared.

I'm going outside

>>20590888
Yeah that’s called religious. If you have no religious sense you can’t really make art. This is like romantic delusion that you can just pluck art out the non-existent materialist aether.

I'm alone

>>20590952
Do you consider Dali's or Picasso's works as art?

everything is wrong

I'm stuck

>>20591021
nice Interpol song

I'm a straight man listening to Girls Just wanna Have Fun on repeat for 2 days now.
I like a lot of gay music desu

>>20590852
I am probably guilty of a few of these. While all of them are a sin against myself (sloth for example) I do tend to keep my mind and my body healthy and I am kind and caring towards others.
What now?

I can trace my lineage back to the founding of Jamestown in 1607. I speak an American dialect of English, I was born into an American protestant denomination. I've lived in America all my life, not once have I stepped off of the contiguous 48 states. I have an unmistakably white American name. I eat almost exclusively American food. I could not imagine myself being comfortable in any other country.
Yet I do not feel American. I'm ashamed to call myself American. Neither do I identify with any American regional nationality that may describe me, such as "Texan" or "Southerner". I'm supposed to be an American, but this country doesn't want me. I don't think I want it anymore, either. The America today is not the America I was born into. I should have a connection to this country, I should want to keep it alive, but now I honestly wouldn't mind if it just vanished. I may suffer a bit in any breakup of this country, but I don't think my life would seriously change that much. At the same time, my ancestors put their blood, sweat, and tears into this land. I owe it to them to keep this country and their legacy alive. Without America, my pedigree has no meaning. But perhaps, if they were alive, they would feel the same as me.

I feel trapped

>>20590952
In that case "religious" would be a very broad and vague word my friend.
Then religious could mean as long as you believe in anything (monotheistic religions as well as paganism or even pastafarianism)you can make art.

I'm rotting
it is all rotten already

>>20591082
Become a trap and start an onlyfans.

did the new shipment of guns with no bullets come in yet? is the chef in today? my brain is balkanized and im hungry for a hero sandwich

Sorry, don't know a better place to ask. Which ones are correct or good English?

Coasting on his past success
Coasting off past success
Coasting off on his past success
Coasting along due to his past success

It rides on the coattails of the first book
It ran off the coattails of the first book

Why am I the one who has to initiate the conversation all the time? Is it my or friends fault?

>>20591126
For the first group, I would go with any of the first three, and don't see anything wrong with the fourth one, but for the second group,
>It rides on the coattails of the first book
sounds considerably better, at least for what I think you're trying to express.

>>20591100
explain

>>20591134
Thank you

There is no food

sitting at the hospital bored. phone is about to die so I can't read the stuff I wanted online

>>20591195
Why at the hospital?

>>20591206
suicide

>>20591140
guess I'm just depressed

>>20591223
My regards anon

arguments are fruitless
when the only thing on both parties' minds is winning

did you guys get the vaccine?

Well I remembered why I hated college so much. Class is fucking retarded, professor tries to be le quirky and funny, and we had to do these gay ice breaker games. The project with the largest impact on our grade consists of making a magazine cover of ourselves and accompanying blogposts about our life. I just want to die bros.

>>20591331
Nope. Never needed it for work so I never bothered. I mostly go to places where I'm a regular and I never even get bothered over masks.

>>20591331
no

>>20591223
Whose suicide?

can retards be gay?

Philosophy is perfume in the gearbox

>>20591064
drain gang

I think most people know me would be shocked to find out how much manga I read, or that I’m into the stuff at all.

>>20591093
But you don’t sincerely believe. That’s the whole problem. Romantics think art exists in a vacuum. It doesn’t. When you point this out they think you can just pick and choose whatever pre-requisite you want. You can’t. Art as such will never get you out of this dilemma. And because of the dilemma you will not have art.

>>20590536
based

>>20591444
almost mine.

People don’t want to accept it but the elites are right and humanity will have to be culled at some point, I don’t make the rules.

>>20591811
I’m sorry to hear that anon. Your life has value, and I’m glad you’re still here. I hope that you have supportive people around who can help you.

>>20591478
nobody dares to answer the question. how convenient

>>20591064
for me it's Avril Lavigne's "Complicated"

the chan.. is.. a rhizome...

Dont know if i should do master right after bachelor or take a year off.

>>20591889
Yes. You’re obviously a prime example of a gay retard, so why even bother asking?

>>20591929
i predicted this outcome. but i have a contingency plan: i proclaim that i am asking the question in complete earnest

>>20591897
Used to listen to this on repeat
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bg59q4puhmg

>>20590603
But said nihilism is directly tied to the Faustian essence, a sort of shadow lingering since its origins

>>20586877
l'm trying to harden my heart.

In the end of the day, I'm a coward
That is my worst vice, I'm a coward, I hesitate to take action because I am certain I will fail and that scares me. I didn't act many times in my life because of this fear of failure, of shame, of being wrong or weak.

12 more workdays!

>>20592044
Are you familiar with Jung's archetype of the puer aeternus?

FUCK

>>20592066
Language please.

Paolini wrote Eragon when he was like 17 or whatever and yet literally 0 zoomers have written anything of note.

>>20592102
Embarrassing that you consider Eragon to be of any significance whatsoever.

>>20592062
A female secondary source on Jung lectures about how some men are pilots so that they may never be grounded, but just alight here and there, never really touching the earth. And likewise mountaineers get as high up as possible away from the ground.

I bought a 4chan pass and now it suddenly stopped FUCKING working out of nowhere. I'm logged in but I still can't post without a captcha. what the FUCK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>20592135
Have you tried turning it off and on again?

>>20592118
You’ve managed to hear of it and know enough about it to make your little comment despite never going outside of possessing any friends.

I've seen a tick today, for the first time in my life.
This is, without the shadow of a doubt, the worst consequence of anthropogenic climate change.

>>20592135
>I bought a 4chan pass
retard toll status : paid

>>20590315
>I wish I could make it go away. Seems like he did, after all.

It's really terrible the way that women love, it's terrifying as well. I don't know if I can stand to be the object of a woman's love. It's like an act of worship, they love you with their entire heart. You can treat a woman like shit, beat her, say terrible things to her and she'll still love you.

To me it seems like love requires a kind of devotional aspect to it that most people delude themselves into thinking they possess or are committing to. It seems like most unions are vulgar ones, a result of lust or people attempting to fill voids in them with another person. I don't know if anyone can love because I never have been despite my best efforts to try and love.

>>20592152
Yes. Multiple times. I cleared my cookies and logged out and back in and nothing fixed it.

Gg

Life is an insignificant tragedy which ends in an inevitable death. During the whole time we are alive in this world we are slaves to our desires, as soon as we satisfy one, another appears in its place, and so we are perpetually in a state of dissatisfaction, and our very existence is a source of suffering to us.

>>20592333
>insignificant tragedy
Oxymoron baka

>>20592135
The pass is basically just a donation, what you need is a 4chan gold pass to actually remove captchas.

>>20592244
It's hard to express and I haven't slept in 24 hours. I've never been like this with anyone else. My longest relationship was 7 years and I didn't feel nearly the same love for that person as I do for my "current" situation. We really had a wonderful time together, I was his first girlfriend (he was 33 when we met) and we explored all our hobbies together. Things we had never found in another person. He was clingier than me for most of our relationship, he was very insecure about his looks and his personality, achievements etc. I was always comforting him and holding him, reassuring him. I had a traumatic past and he was a wonderfully safe, kind man. It's hard to believe it's the same person. It feels more like I'm grieving his death than a break up.
>>20590758
Thank you anon. I'm going to be going back to the hospital to stay as an in patient to receive treatment and a mental health plan. I think that anyone who feels a twinge of empathy is no stranger at all. Communities are very detached and cold nowadays.
>>20591877
Sadly no one in person. In fact all of you have provided more support for me. I'm hoping I'll find more support in the in-patient therapy. I was somewhat redeemed when each health professional I saw agreed unanimously that I was doing everything possible to fix things on my own (healthy habits, therapy, exercise, medication). Yet they didn't say I was failing just that I had exhausted my methods.

>>20592361
Have you tried kirkegaard yet? You said you'd give him a try. He had a phrase in that book which stuck with me.
>Make a virtue of necessity
It might very well be the case that all our experiences are predetermined and fated. But we can make a virtue of it so long as we choose to accept it. It's almost a flipside of Nietzsche's amor fati if I recall correctly.
I recall you were saying you were seeking copes and restating them over and over as if mantra. Just remember that God does not deal in "copes." He has no desire to offer you a cope. What he seeks to grant is comfort. Hence why the Holy Spirit is called the comforter. Keept faith. It is hard to see the big picture in only the particular moment. One day it will make sense and we have to trust.

>>20590633
This seems almost self evident

>>20592412
Slow going the process but I'm slowly making headway. I read chunks of things at a time

>>20592062
No, but I'll look into it

>>20592135
ayo fellow 4chan pass-buyer here. You have to login at the 4channel.org domain as well as the 4chan.org domain.

I can’t jive with anything

>>20592595
Thanks anon. I got way too frustrated over something so simple.

>>20592670
no sweat famalam

were lay members of a church called lay members because they're still allowed to get laid at that point?

you can lay my member

>>20592790
that's hot

Brigade trolling is the lowest form of bureaucratic drudgery.

>>20588925
>>20588928
How do you survive without a job?
Are you a NEET, living off your overly permissive parents?

>>20589213
>proof
You mean "evidence".
"Proof" is a mathematical concept.

>>20592939
Midwit

>>20589742
"Bodily autonomy" ceased to be a reason when they forced us to get vaccinated upon threat of losing our livelihood.
inb4: never took COVID vaccine

Well the class I signed up for was cancelled due to low attendance. I CAN take another class but desu I really dont want to. Very very tempted to take the summer off to do fuck all.

>>20589877
>r*ddit spacing
but
>how tf can so many people choose to be normies?
Fear.

>>20591478
Does this answer your question?

>>20592135
lol pwned

>>20592203
Anthropogenic?
Then why are the other planets experiencing the same "global warming"?

What do I do?
I wish I knew.

Running away from your problems and fears will solve nothing and will improve nothing.
Be it posting here or somewhere else, playing games, watching youtube videos to learn stuff or just getting stuck in quiet desperation imagining being in places you'll never be or doing things you'll never do, you are just losing yourself and your time to escapism instead doing what you are afraid of doing.
Stop it.

>>20589877
This is exactly how I am at work. Am I autistic? Not sure I get your point about rapport being dogma though.

Hmmm today I think I will cause problems for myself on purpose

>>20593339

> draw for an hour
> back pain so severe I can barely stand up straight

> suck dick for an hour
> homolust so severe I can barely think straight

i have to change
i MUST change
I cannot keep living like this
I can do it
we will all make it

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