/lit/ - Literature

tfw no big titty goth gf

Powerfully gay OP image. Tired of all the whiny simps around here lately. Grow some balls you fags.

>>20582998
not exactly me "writing what's on my mind" but anybody here have any tips on improving their vocabulary in day to day conversation + writing? I feel like I read a fair amount but words kind of bounce off me if I'm not familiar with them. I'm in my late 20s so I do feel like my brain is "slowing down" when it comes to learning new shit as easily as if I had started reading in HS. Not that it's a valid excuse or anything, but just wondering.

first

>>20583004
Anything overtly sexual on /lit/ seems to get "cleaned" by the jannies.
I remember when a sexy female bunny image got "cleaned" from the Easter edition of /wg/ .

Feeling like i wasted the entire day and i'm starting to regret it

>>20583007
Anon, please. I'm in my early 50s and I still run rings around everyone I know.
You need to find an excuse other than age.

>>20583013
Your scare quoting of "cleaned" is ominous, are you saying the jannies gassed these poor women?

>>20583020
That's moreso why I mean when I say it's not really a "valid" excuse. But I've always been under the impression that language comes a lot easier when your brain is still developing, which is why so many people stay retarded as they get older. Doesn't mean it's impossible or anything, just not something that comes as naturally. Really only feel that way about language. not sure why.

Also get off 4chan dad

I was just thinking about how in high school everyone thought I was really smart and the teachers, other students, my parents, and so on, all thought I was really gifted and I would go really far in life. And how now over a decade later I have accomplished literally absolutely nothing at all and my life is a waste and any talent or gifts that I had were for nothing and I will always be a useless NEET with zero motivation to ever do anything.

>>20583020
What's getting pussy like at 50? I was thinking of getting a fishing hat and a wedding ring and acting like I'm loaded and clueless to get Latinas to sit on my face

>>20583028
Based.

>>20583028
Why

>>20583038
Thanks.
>>20583047
Well it might sound like a weird reason, but my dad was playing a song on the stereo and in the song they mention the name of the state we used to live in when I was in high school, and that brought the memories back.

>>20582998
I went to my writers workshop and submitted one of my short stories. Most of the femoids got filtered by the title. The dudes and lesbo and faux commie art hoe that actually read the shit had good things to say about it and gave me some actual insightful criticism.

Tfw no anorexic emo gf

I don't know what my purpose is, why I came to be

>>20583027
Make me, squirt.
>>20583029
I could care less about pussy.
Thank goodness those urges faded away.
Now I can take it or leave it.
>>20583028
See >>20577539

i'm not my real self unless i've had 4 beers

*speaks Japanese*

>>20583106
Same. I wanna kms

I haven't felt like my real self in many years.

I'm finally getting a hooker this year.

>>20582998
I hate being horny! I HATE IT! It's annoying and stupid and bullshit! I'm sick of thinking of my stupid fucking fetish and jerking off does less than nothing, it's just boring and annoying and stupid and fuck and GODDAMMIT

>>20583162
How old are you

>>20583170
29

>>20583143
whenever i feel that way i just have 4 beers

>>20583162
How do you get whores? What is the escort scene like these days? Is it still viable to just hit up strippers at the club?

>>20583073
what was the title?

>>20583172
Khv?

>>20583180
"Rape Rape I love Rape, I will rape YOU"

>>20583174
So you’re fat?

>>20583057
I meant why don't you have any motivation bro. Isn't there something in you that you want to manifest in the outside world? Some dream?

>>20583187

>>20583182
Nope, just v

>>20583180
It was "The Phenomenology of Fucking Sluts". No lie.

>>20583180
>>20583187
That wasn't me. If I wished to submit something rape related I would just plagiarize idontknowjeffrey. Not like the women would bat an eye at it since they regularly submit thinly veiled rape stories.

This female

>>20583189
I don't know desu
I feel like I'm missing something.
In high school I had a certain energy, or like a spark, or a drive, or whatever. But in the years that followed I sort of lost that. I am not sure if this makes sense to anyone else but it feels like the flame of a candle went out. I feel empty. My vigor is gone. I'm tired all the time. I don't really find joy or passion in anything anymore. Even music doesn't sound as good as it used to.
I'm really in a pickle here anons

>>20583279
It's depression man, you've got to figure out what happened to snuff you out like that.

I will never be happy. Part of me has conceded totally, pursuing things that distract me in ways that feel productive, the other half still wants to try a bit harder at being human and social.
the other other half wants to date highschoolers.

>>20582998

>>20582998
I'm jacked and tan and juicy. Swimming in Mallorca with my gf (the horniest thing you can do btw). Eating well and fucking about when i'm not sweltering in the sun. Enjoying my youth to the maximum, knowing it might one day be a struggle to get out of bed. Not worrying too much because I gotta enjoy this break before I go back to uni and work.

>>20583296
by highschoolers I mean middle schoolers. one time when I was a tutor as a senior in highschool, we had to tutor middleschoolers on their english and two of the middleschoolers there were the most beautiful alluring girls i had ever seen in my whole life. young girls also smell a certain way, hard to describe, but its nice. they don't smell like hags do.

>>20583323
It's never to late to start trying, Anon. Even for a pedo.

>>20582998
Chained fish

ship my package right the fuck now I'm getting pissed

I am a greasy piece of shit and I enjoy it

I hung out with myself today

>>20583339
Did you enjoy it?

>>20583332
how am I supposed to get a 13ish year old girlfriend and raise her to be my wife. Its not fair. trannies and women and hedonistic pedos ruined everything.

>>20583342
No..

10 pounds away from being healthy according to the bmi, and I think I'm gonna make it since I've been losing it pretty steadily and especially lately. It'll be the first time I won't be fat since high school, turn 21 in a month. I'm a little drained but whenever I remember this I get really happy, It's something i've always wanted but only now have had the willpower to enforce upon myself

>>20583349
Make it fun next time. Hang out with a different you while still beeing yourself. Good luck and Godspeed a n o n

>>20583073
Make the art hoe your gf

Attempt at writing rap

Rhyme viper

snake slither by with a rhyme that’s stiffer,
make a figure with a line we differ,
say a whisper so fine you shiver,
strange sinister sublime I snicker,
change quicker than the time I hit your sister
and left her a spinster, lord of the Webs and cinder,
born so fresh call me winter, hoards with the chests?
i’m victor, i mean whore with the Breast, i hit her,
only in a war can I rest only when I roar I’m the best;
spitter with a wit way quicker than a glimpse in a mirror,
don’t need to pimp to eat dinner or simp to feel the innards,
i wield the wind like wizards, I reel them in like pictures,
it’s a wheel I’m winding to feel my rhyming,
like shining fire and flying tigers I fife what I desire,
a pied piper who writes nicer and strikes like a rhyme viper.

>>20583360
Congrats anon and remember that staying healthy is a lifelong mission. Also, there's a possibility that you will look in the mirror and still not be happy with your looks. When this happens, know you're overthinking shit and that it might be your brain getting you in unhealthy mindsets. Anyway keep up the good work and be proud of where you've gotten.

>>20583344
Unironically become an internet groomer
it worked for my bf

>>20583362
If the self existed..

I want to draw comics as a hobby, but I can't draw. I tried writing or even screenwriting instead, but I think those are copes. (Don't get me wrong, I love reading literature but it's not the artform I want to work with). I think I would be better off just learning to draw and make comics.

>>20583390
Do it anon
desu you don't need to be that great at art to make okay comics (though it depends on what you want to do)

>>20582998
It's like this but now I'm sad when it happens.

>>20583397
damn that's hot

>>20583178
Dunno yet lol, but it's legal here in Yurop

>>20583374
its not just about the cunny for the sake of cunny, that is degenerate pedophile thinking. its the act of being able to manipulate and actually literally groom someone (ideally a beautiful little girl and not an ugly mouth breathing internet addicted child who happens to have a pussy) into being purely infatuated with me, and have total faith in their new "father" male figure. On the internet, kids arent as dumb as they used to be, and are all educated and likely far away, this is not very good as I would like to touch them, and that simply is not possible. Parents of the kind of middleschooler or early highschooler would also likely not be very receptive, as they are brainwashed by tranny and feminist ideals, seeing me as a threat who wants to rape their little girl and not as the very normal, with a high paying job architect who wants to raise a wife, ephebophile. I also don't know any virtual parks online that have normal well-adjusted nymphets. on discord its a bunch of 13 year old trannie landmines, half of which, are all part of a hivemind.
theres just no winning. I think I will instead kill myself when I get lonely enough in a few years time.

>>20583418
no it's really not that hard, you're just focusing too hard on the potential problems
I guess it's immoral to say this
Kids aren't that dumb but teens feel like they're mature and are still flattered by older male attention. You just need to be attractive to them and not be stupid about it.

>>20583401
It was hotter when it was being nice desu. I am now both afraid it might stop and that it it might continue.

>>20583027
>Really only feel that way about language. not sure why.
Pop culture

>>20583188
>he can't drink 4 beers regularly without getting fat
Shit metabolism bro

>>20583310
>Swimming in Mallorca with my gf (the horniest thing you can do btw)
Not even close. Laughable that you think that. There are millions of hornier things, even if you exclude anything explicitly sexual. Glad you're having a good time, but please be realistic

>>20583337
Same, man

>>20583371
I would need to hear it over a beat to really assess it, but it's a little bit "lyrical miracle" if you get what I mean

>>20583374
That falls under "hedonistic pedo"

>>20583430
>That falls under "hedonistic pedo"
Not if you do it with the long term intention of raising a wife

>>20583425
that makes sense actually, thank you. any tips?

>>20583418
Fascinating that you call out
>degenerate pedophile thinking
and then spend the rest of the post outlining the most textbook pedo groomer shit imaginable

>>20583438
there are amoral and moral people who pursue younger girls. those with sincere interest, and deviants.

>>20583434
Ok, not hedonistic. Just pathetic

>>20583442
Wanting to manipulate a girl into seeing you as a father figure is deviant. "Raising a wife." Listen to yourself, man. It's sick in a profound, spiritual way. As if you can't hold your own with a fully developed person so you have to break someone as they're developing.

Thank you for recommending me Dawson’s Creek, anon from that thread on /tv/. Every time I think about leaving this place, all the cool stuff I only know because of 4chan comes to mind. Practically every good movie I’ve seen in the last six years or so was recommended to me here. Of course, this makes me feel more and more alone: no one around here wants to discuss these things or even knows about them.
It’s lonely, but for better or worse I’m used to it. There’s something changing in me. A lifetime passively consuming absolutely everything interesting I could get my hands into - no matter the medium, themes or popular consensus - made my head into a compendium of ideas. Passivity is supplanted by a strong impulse to creat that becomes greater with each passing day. Just last month I wrote two short stories for a contest, made a storyboard, wrote down a ton of ideas for multiple projects, did my first digital illustration and a one page comic. Not everything is good and there’s plenty of space for improvement, but I feel my skills increasing little by little, along with my desire to creat. The process of creation in itself is its own reward, leaving me elated during and after it. The more things I do, the better I understand what David Carson meant by saying he doesn’t get creative blocks: https://youtube.com/watch?v=EUtKxA1Obxc

>>20583455
all the women that I've gone on dates with ever since highschool have been totally vapid whores who don't smell good, some pretty, some beautiful yes, but they're all just brainwashed whores, not even kind brainwashed whores. Maybe if they're nice they wait until the second date to ask how much money I make and they always, always, never let themselves hold me. Clearly this is an aged woman problem. I need to go younger, which is fine morally. All women are children, its just that they age in reverse, they go from good natured kids (most of the time) to by the time they enter college, they hit their terrible twos and continue regressing, growing more and more stupid and vapid as their holes get filled and their heads empty. I do not believe at all that any woman over the age of 17 has ANY empathy, ANY sympathy, ANY amount of ability to even pretend to be human and care about other people. to be a woman is to perform and obsess over their holes and what the holes can do for them. but a young teenager? someone who has no life experience to brainwash them yet? someone who feels they need someone but can't find it? they're still human, and can be raised into proper people, good wives and mothers and feel that they've not wasted their time. They will eventually grow old yes, but into kind and mature people, unlike the dykes and the hags and the unmarried whores who smell like rotting meat, who will all scream RAPIST RAPIST PEDO at people like me because they were envious they never were able to live a fulfilling life as a wife and mother. its not a matter of breaking someone, I would not want to break someone, its just pure, old, nature, and one that worked since before man could write.

>>20583430
t. never swam in mallorca with a dimepiece. Ok man you do you.

>>20583436
Discord is probably the best place now. There's tranny teens but there's plenty of real girls online, basically all kids are all over internet communities now. Find some community where kids. Best if it's related to an interest you already have that you can easily share with the girl.

Don't act like some kind of oblivious pervert that attracts fbi plants or w/e, don't beg for sex or nudes or make creepy comments, especially not early on. Just be like a cool older male friendly figure. Share cool stuff with them, talk to them and give them advice for their problems, do fun innocent stuff together like playing video games. Tease her playfully and gradually make it more sexually charged if she responds well. Talk to them privately as much as possible to build a relationship that's secret and separate from others.

She should be the one admit feelings or pursue you first. Not a good idea to risk her freaking out if she wasn't into you or thinks that it's objectively creepy if you're interested, and you'll look better if you were holding back because you thought it was wrong, but she was just too special for you to not develop feelings despite the age gap. Also don't push it and move on if the girl isn't biting or reciprocating attraction no matter how much effort you put it.

Filter for the kind of girl who will be aware that your relationship is socially unacceptable but thinks they can do whatever they want/your relationship is special/love has no number and will be cool about keeping it secret.

Don't ever make her uncomfortable. Like ever. Especially not about sex. Give her as much control as possible in the relationship while still being a guiding force. You don't want to risk her feeling like she's being abused in some way and then seeking help to escape you. If she ever feels uncomfortable then apologize and backtrack and make sure it doesn't happen again

Disclaimer I've never done this or am advocating it really, I'm just describing what happened to me when I was young on the internet and what I saw with friends who dated older guys and weren't traumatized or didn't ever make a big deal about it. This is probably the best way to avoid grooming horror stories if you really want to groom your way into a loving long term relationship.

>>20583490
>Find some community where kids and adults of all ages interact normally as a mixed group, so you won't be a weirdo for talking to little girls*
Fixed

>>20583490
cool I will do this in literature. thank you very much for your insight.

listening to beer by reel big fish

>>20583475
Listen man, if you really can't find a woman over 17 who is kind and empathetic, you need to look inward and think about why you are attracting such people. You're bitching about brainwashing but that's what you want to do. You say you don't want to break anyone, but are talking about finding "someone who feels they need someone but can't find it," in other words someone who is vulnerable.

listen man,

LiStEn MaN

>>20583515
>>20583519
Pedo groomer scum

We Will not be delayed.
We will not be masquerade
To the tale of a handmade.
We will not let Roe v. Wade slowly fade.
Because when we show up today,
We’re already standing up
With the tomorrow we made.

>>20583525
honestly dude this is so not the vibe please just try being a normal human being

>>20583374
are you implying that you are an underage girl?
4channel is for 18 years old people, i might have to report that.

>>20583534
No, I was just groomed when I was one.

>>20583475
>all the women that I've gone on dates with ever since highschool have been totally vapid whores who don't smell good
Then why did you ever go on a date with any of them? Plenty of nice and intelligent girls out there in the real world. Are you retarded?

>>20583525
NOW LISTEN HERE MAN

>>20583545
He is misguided but I understand where he is coming from. It's hard to meet good people with common dating methods.

>>20583546
welcome to ban world buddy

>>20583560
m8 this is literally a 'Write what's on your mind thread'

What the fuck did I do that's bannable

>>20583565
ban anyone giving me advice

>>20583527
Why do americans always go into histrionics during every politically charged event that goes against their wishes? They’re the ones always saying democracy this and democracy that, but the moment a single thing goes against their wishes, their first impulse is wanting to tear the whole system down.
No matter their values or political inclination, the entire country is united by its desire to forcefully impose personal opinions into everyone else.
Also, please, stop complaining on social media. I only use it to see cool art, not to hear people going into a completely meltdown each month over the latest thing and promoting donations to abortion funds.

>>20583527
The Democrats had 50 years to legalize abortion at the federal level.
They failed to do so.
The consequences are all on them.

>>20583571
It’s Amanda Gorman our generation’s Walt Whitman

>>20583577
who that little nigress?

>>20582998
God loves me so much he chose to die for me and bring me into existence despite knowing all of my faults and every sin I will commit. I love God and want his salvation.

Has anyone noticed this site is getting dumber?

I noticed this on /his/. A year to a few months ago, the leftists on /his/ were writing long posts, actually debating, citing their theory, etc. Now they just post an American mutt meme and an angry greentext and call it a day. I feel like I'm watching people turn from normal people into the left-wing version of /pol/tards.

>>20583577
I'd rather read a poem by Amanda Bynes!

I'm roasting some pecans.
I will then add a sizable quantity of maple syrup and continue cooking them until the syrup starts to harden, after which I will add some salt.

>>20583571
I don't get it either, it feels performative desu

>>20583577
>tale of the handmade
>handmade

>>20583578
Propaganda Golem that represents the Satanic Mills of Academia

>>20583590
The collective intelligence of the internet is on a never ending spiral to the bottom. It's worse than it's ever been and in the future it will only continue to get worse.

>>20583586
Maybe God just needed a good laugh.

test

ai's going to replace writers soon and I don't know how I feel about that

>>20583598
>the black renaissance
lmao niggers are like 800 years late

>>20583594
Enjoie friend, gonna get a cookie too since ya inspired me

>>20583629
People still play chess.

Did Nietzches philosophy act as a compensation for his physical condition?

>>20583637
It refers to a brief moment they were left alone to prosper on their own.

>>20583647
elaborate on the cookie.

>>20583598
I assume Michelle Obama became a left-wing icon because of who she's sleeping with right? To me she sounds the opposite of progressive values, she gave up a successful career to play the traditional First Lady role for her substantially less successful (at the time) husband. It's very trad if anything, she gave up her dreams and career for her husband to fulfill his traditional male role as patriarch of the family. She has accomplished nothing in her own name since then. Hilary Clinton accomplished more:
>After Eleanor Roosevelt, Clinton was regarded as the most openly empowered presidential wife in American history
Clinton almost immediately became senator of New York, what has Michelle done in 6 years? As I understand she's basically just a TV producer now, something that literally any celebrity with access to high networth bakers can do.
I've always just found it weird how she's so highly regarded by progressives, yet she is your typical capitalist trad-wife.

Being the kind of person who "doesn't look drunk" even when you are is probably more conducive to alcoholism than being an obvious drunk.

>>20583674
this

>>20583695
she's not even physically attractive

>>20583757
>she's not a threat
Ahh so that's why progressives (i.e. women) like her so much

I'm a good man in a storm.

My roommate, who not just 4 months ago had sex with the girl I was dating at the time, is now getting married to the girl he cheated on with that girl. It baffles me. Not just because of what he's doing but also because of who I thought he was. He presents himself as this shy, quiet, sensitive person who reads Kafka and Basho, but it's all a show. He's a complete fraud. The only thing real about him is his cowardice.
I'm tired of befriending cowards. They are always the worst schemers. Backstabbers. Afraid to speak their mind and afraid to assert their power, they instead launch their plans while you're not looking. That girl had to be drunk just to fuck him, the bald timid fuck.
I will never forget the look on his face the next morning when he said, "Hey" to me as if I hadn't walked in on him. No remorse. No guilt. He only puts on the shame act to avoid confrontation. Hell, I'd take the blustering asshole over the humilation of being cucked by a dude who drinks onions milk and watches adventure time. HOLY FUCK it makes me so mad and embarrassed. and to have to listen to his new fiance laugh like a fucking drunken cow into the middle of the night... Cioran was right. Vengeance is a need. I have not satisfied that need. I yelled at him a lot, but I restrained myself considering we share a friend group. Now I am restless and aching for vengeance. I have so many things I want to say to him. I want to tell his fiance so bad, but I have no idea if she would believe me. I should have been just as much of a fraud with her as he was with me. But fuck it, she's a fat pig who seems tortuous to be around. I figure his life will be miserable without my help.

>>20583893
fuck him up anon and and take his bitch

Anyone who fights about religion online is a fucktard. But then again maybe you could say that about all arguments online, and even this post, whoops.
Fedoratippers don't understand the concept of faith, they try and make rational arguments to pat themselves on the back for their lack of faith.
Chirstcucks are just as bad, failing to realize that fedoras don't experience FOMO over faith but actually doubledown on it, Christcucks will quote out of context bible passages as if the Fedora is somehow going to magically understand and "get it".
These two types of retards both lack the self-awareness or general awareness to understand that the other is not going to be swayed by the same arguments that sway them. What's hilarious is when you see a "Christian" start hurling abuse when they fail to see their piss-poor arguments taking hold, and the same for a Euphoria Fedoria, these supposed pinnacles of rationality also getting irrationally angry.
I mean the sheer egotism on both sides is astonishing. The hypocrisy too: if you're a Christian shouldn't you be trying to save a soul from a place of compassion? And if you're a hyperrational Atheist why are you continuing to dig deep into a losing battle? Neither, it's a pissing contest about their very temporal egos.
And frankly if any of what I'm saying upsets you: then look in the mirror and reconsider your true motivations? (I also shouldn't have to, but will for reasons which are obvious, add the disclaimer: "not all Christians and Atheists...")

>>20583893
Keep in mind that the guy will never admit to anything. Cowardice always strays away from directness.
Also,revenge wont help, but you do you. I’m tired of dealing with cowards too.

>>20583942
People are just tired. I am absolutely exhausted of seeing imbecilic takes that can be reduced to “x bad, y good” and meeting fuckers who genuinely believe their belief, tastes or political affiliation affirms something about their character. For fucks sake, some of them are so imbecilic that any critique to the way they hold themselves, like you talking about how Christians should be trying to save a soul from a place of compassion - and not hatred - is answered with people accusing you of belonging to “the other side”. Some of the most decent people I know are atheists, some of the most amoral, selfish and egotistical are too. The same for the christians.
I’m tired of this tyranny of opinion, where a person elevates their beliefs as the absolute truth and enforces them by whichever means possible while demonizing and dehumanizing those that don’t agree with it.
No one cares for freedom anymore.

>>20583995
There ought not be any transit restrictions. If it’s so hunky dory there ought not be any transit restrictions.

States lie. The worst liars are the mass murdering liars. They stab you and tell you they aren’t doing anything. To preach to us about lying states trying to get what they want. Russia wanted the Minsk accords followed. These peace talks were just a ruse to give the Biden/NATO plan more time. Russia wanted the war to come to an speedy ending with peace negotiations, but BoJo flew in and told the nazis to shoot their leader if he did so
Don’t lecture us about lies.

>>20584000
I think that "you're on the other side" accusing is actually forcing people to self-censor and parrot things more and more. It's becoming this self-fulfilling prophecy where each side is full of false-believers too scared to say what they really think and keeping everyone else in line.

I think I'm done with Terry Pratchett, sure his books are funny but they're starting to feel very formulaic. Are there any must reads in the series that kind of break the mold?

>>20582998
Loneliness is not simply being alone. It is the feeling of being disconnected from the world around you, of being unable to connect with others. It is a feeling of isolation, of being cut off from the rest of humanity. It is a feeling of emptiness, of being lost and alone in a crowd. It is a feeling of being unloved and unwanted. Loneliness is a feeling of being trapped in your own head, of being unable to escape your own thoughts. It is a feeling of being isolated from the rest of the world, of being disconnected from the rest of humanity.
Loneliness is not a feeling that can be cured with a pill or a magic potion. It is a feeling that must be confronted, and it is a feeling that must be overcome. Loneliness is a feeling that can be overcome with time, with effort, and with the help of others.

>>20584095
>help of others.
What if I feel lonely among friends?

>>20584095
You are (not) alone.
I mean, seriously. Look at most anons. Even in the throes of unspeakable loneliness and God knows what else, we can come in here and find people that get it. Even in our loneliness, we are not alone. Do you know what you made me remember? That years ago I used to come in here during Christmas and give well wishes to all anons. I didn’t do it as a meaningless gesture, but out of a sense of kinship and a genuine desire that the lives of people I’ve never and will never meet could be better.
It bothers me to see others - even people I know irl and that used to frequent this place - reduce 4chan to le ebil website. This place brings together those that have nowhere else to go, for better or worse.

>>20584095
>and with the help of others.
this is always the tricky part, not the recognition, the admission, the challenging of habits and behaviors that may alienate others, nor the challenging and subtle shifting of perspective of self and others... the getting help from others is always the hard part for me
>>20584115
>we can come in here and find people that get it.
Rarely. I am constantly misunderstood in these very threads. But then again I'm misunderstood constantly in my life.
And when I say "misunderstood" I mean it in the most literal sense - that what I am attempting to communicate doesn't bare any resemblance to the message the person on the other end thinks I'm conveying. Like if I say "up there" pointing to the chimney, they think I mean the sky. That kind of misunderstood.
I'm certain there is a community, both online and real world for me. I'm not egotistical enough to think I am some one-of-a-kind individual. And perhaps what is alienating me is the poor way I convey my messages? But also there's a sense that the underlying message itself is alien too.

I turned 28 recently and I've accepted that I'll never get married or have children (the latter is harder to deal with). I'm not depressed, nor am I envious of my friends - frankly their gfs are so shitty that whenever I meet them it makes me glad to be alone. There's a niggling sense that I 'need to do something' with my solitude but I'm not sure what it is - do you anons know what I mean?

>>20584173
>There's a niggling sense that I 'need to do something' with my solitude but I'm not sure what it is - do you anons know what I mean?
Is it a lack of human connection or a lack of purpose? Which while often tied, aren't always the same thing.

>>20584173
Do you feel called to the clergy, or the religious life?

Anons with full-time jobs, where do you find the time and energy to write consistently? There are times where I sit and write for hours on end, feeling truly exhilarated and like I’m gonna make it after all. Like those are the only times that I actually serve a purpose. But those are followed by days where my day job sucks all life from me and I just sit behind my laptop scrolling away until I eventually forget the life-giving force that writing has for me.

Are we living in the end of Modernity?

The Ancient world ended. The Medieval world ended. Is the Modern world ending? Is it ending as we speak?

How would we be able to tell?

>>20584186
>lack of purpose
Yes. I've tried several things (writing, art, etc) but that feeling remains, as if there's something 'more' but I haven't found it yet

>>20584192
There was a few years in my youth when I considered monasticism. In the end I figured that as an only child it wasn't a choice I could make

>>20584197
In what ways did they fall short, writing and art?

>>20584173
>I've accepted that I'll never get married or have children
Just lower your standards.

>>20584173
My wife died some odd years ago, a woman that I had dated up through highschool, an irreparably tragic thing, and each day since, ive counted, i feel that there is no hope, and within the first hundred or so days after her death, I had come to the same conclusion. It is something to build your existence around someone only for them to suddenly and abruptly disappear. I've thought about trying, but I know it won't be the same and at worst it will simply and finally kill me. I have given up on any attempts at romance or the thought of having children; one of my biggest regrets was waiting until we were both finished with college to have kids, that time never came, and I think about that fact daily. In your position there really is no point in pursuing even something like a business type marriage, where its beneficial, there is no point, love exists for the young and likely you are better off pursuing something that can at least have the potential of some form of a return for purpose. For me that's painting. currently a highschool art teacher, and I feel fulfillment in that, my students are my adoptive children and I am happy, romantically desolate, but happy.

>>20584222
Now that I think about it it's when I draw that the feeling is strongest, as if I need to be seeing the world and drawing things in some other way. I feel stupid trying to put it into words because it's a longing for something that probably doesn't exist

woke up an hour earlier than I needed to to go help my GF's dad clean out his attic. I was supposed to be ready at 7, so I set 4 alarms at 6:20, 6:30. 6:40, 6:50 because I sometimes have a tendency to sleep through alarms. This ended up being for naught because I just woke up at 5:20 anyways. My body knows what it knows I guess.

Her dad and I are good friends even outside the context of my gf and I's relationship. we talk firearms all the time, he's been a mentor to me as I learned reloading, he's taking me shooting on my birthday, he gives me free little useful trinkets and such for reloading. Lord knows what the dude has in his attic.

>>20584282
The feeling of lacking purpose? I have to admit I don't know what you mean, don't feel self-conscious, it sounds pretty valid to me.

>>20584173
you can have children with a surrogate, anon

I finally embraced my bisexuality bros...

>>20584284
I'm really happy for you, bro

>>20584221
If that's something you've seriously considered before, but rejected as an only child who wants to continue the family line, and now there's an acceptance that you won't have children, then think about it again

>>20584290
did you have gay sex?

>>20584290
>identifies as soijak
>is a fag
Imagine that.

>>20584299
yes
>>20584301
I thought it was a fitting image

>>20584311
>yes
describe it, and the two of you

>>20584311
So what kind of men are you into: bears, twinks, otters?

It's taken me a long time to not get enraged and needlessly angry when I see "you are loved" or "you're worth it" type posts on social media. I realize now that the people who are posting it are actually trying to deal their own insecurities. They aren't saying I and everyone else is worth it, they're trying to remind themselves.
I still think the people who make those images and post them to content pages are scumbags. But I can be more circumspect when I see that it's not the meaningless gesture I once thought it was. The people who repost it aren't making a broad gesture which they aren't going to back up, they aren't making a gesture at all. The audience is themselves.

>>20584320
I'm lightskinned with a twunk body. He's a bit chuggy tall guy with a big beard and mustache. We did it in a car, that's all I'll say.
>>20584323
I like them all I guess, but I if i'm going to bottom i would prefer a big guy to do it

>>20584285
>The feeling of lacking purpose
Yes, I meant when I fail with art to find that unknown thing

>>20584258
That's a beautiful post. Thank you anon

>>20584295
In our culture it's the obligation of the eldest son to care for his parents till the end

>>20584361
>Yes, I meant when I fail with art to find that unknown thing
Ah okay. That makes sense. Well generally with these activities it's to stop seeing it as a process of bringing into being some other end result, and to see it as the end in itself.
Like painting, or playing music, or reciting poetry because the act itself is fulfilling. My question would be, why is the moment of all the things you tried not enough? You seem to be searching for this something - this bringing into being of something which you've already alluded to as being potentially impossible.
But what is it about the immediate experience that's unsatisfactory?
I'm not sure if that makes sense, so feel free to ask for clarification.

>>20584258
Is it better to love and lose or never fall in love?

>>20584446
I haven't figured it out yet. I can't decide which way I'd rather have. I know that if I had the chance, I'd do it all over again even with the same end result, but I know what I am missing, and that even after time its still a constant pang day in day out, red flags in your body screaming saying something is wrong, you know whats wrong, fix it, bring them back, where did they go? and so on. I could be lonely, sure, but to have loved and lost is a particular type of loneliness that I haven't figured out how to put into words. I think the type of loss also effects how we process it. If she were alive somewhere there'd be a perfect set of words that could bring her back, but when she's split in a ceramic jar between her parents house and mine, there's nothing to be done. In this moment, it's better to have lost than to have never had.

>>20584258
>>20584453

Does cocaine cure autism?

Self Knowledge isn't enough.
You can know your authentic and true self. You can be very honest about it, you can be hyperaware of all your flaws, but also even, you can be aware of your strengths and virtues too, and have an idea of your potentials for strengths and virtues.
So that should be it right?
Nope.
Money. Power. The leverage and resources to actually get things done in accordance with the skills you realistically have and command. If you don't have these, you can have all the self-awareness and knowledge in the world. But if you don't have the means to work within that circle of competence, if there's no net consequence for your actions - be it good or bad - then self-knowledge is useless.
Being authentic to yourself, yeah, great. But it can also leave you in a position of total stasis.
I'm not saying being inauthentic or false is better. That's not on my mind today. What is on my mind is the way that people insist that getting to know your "true self" is somehow a magical portal to happiness.
It isn't.

>>20584611
No

I need to learn to stop arguing on this site

>>20584631
we all do. And not just on this site - online in general. Or at least learn the difference between a genuine discussion where even if you're not going to persuade the other person of anything, they are genuinely committed to conveying a point of view backed up with information and will take the time to clarify or reexplain things you may not understand; as opposed to someone who is arguing for the sake of arguing.

Has anybody ever watched Neon Genesis Evangelion? Is it good? I've often heard about it and just saw it's on Netflix. I'm actually looking for a series to watch with my daughters and wondered if they might like it. We've already watched other stuff like both Avatar series, Arcane, the Mandalorian and One-Punch Man and they all loved them. All I know of Evangelion is that there are big robots.

no bitches

>>20584258
You guys got married when you were in college?
People do that?
How old are Americans when they're in college, like 19-21 years old?

>>20583028
My 8th grade science teacher legit told me she was sad I wasn't going to high school with her daughter. Now I post on 4chan.

evens and i get a new mouse

>>20584749
No new mouse for you.

how do I create synth music as a complete noob?

>>20584776
We're all excited for you to find out king

>>20584776
Be sure to post your first song here.
Also, probably Youtube video tutorials like for literally everything else in life.

>>20583028
Very relatable. I got above average grades in high school without putting much work into anything. I never had any real goals in life but people told me I should go to university so I did. Did fine for a couple of years but then all the social anxiety, loneliness, depression and never learning to put any work into my studies caught up and I dropped out of everything. Been a NEET ever since. At least I live in a country with free higher education so I'm not also up to my neck in debt.

>>20584788
>>20584796
I mean software wise

>>20584824
if you use macos just get logic pro x

>>20584776
Create a beat, there's plenty of 808 emualtors online which you can use.
Download it, and then play over it using a synth.
Again, there's plenty of in-browser synth emualtors which let you play about an octave's worth of keys with the keyboard and the rest with the mouse.
Play the beat over and over and fuck around until you come up with a good hook, and a few changes.
Provided there isn't too much lag you should be able to play the beat on a loop and record the synth sound either using the website itself, or by using something like OBS to capture the sound. (I'd prefer to donwload it direct).
Repeat with as many overdubs as you need
Then you can drag it into your mixing program of choice. Mixing is an art in itself, but basically you should be able to 'bounce' it all down into a single file.

You will never be Japanese.
You have no ancestry, you have no citizenship, you have no skills that would make Japan ever want you. You are a shut-in self-hating white man twisted by delusions of mythical Japanese superiority and exposure to Japanese media into a disgusting mockery of nature’s perfection. All 'validation' you get from other people in this position couldn't be worse in making you believe that spending years of your life learning a globally useless language to a first-grader's level was a worthwhile use of your time, but one can't expect that an individual as pathetic as you will ever know the value of the youth you threw away in doing that.
Actual Japanese are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of linguistic evolution have allowed natives to identify frauds from mannerisms and vocabulary alone. Even if your written text of self-hatred and attention begging akin to a stray dog's somehow passes as normal (it won't), any Japanese person will immediately cut all ties when they hear the voice and accent of someone who is not only a basic Japanese speaker at best, but worth no more than garbage in skills, accomplishments, and likeability.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile and laugh to yourself believing that watching a content creator that you understand 20% of at best is somehow superior than watching your own kind, as you project your disgusting traits onto your entire kind. However, deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight, and you know that. You know that all you do now is have an entirely new linguistic medium in which to be ignored, and not even the exotic trait of being foreign makes up for just how uninteresting of a person you are.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your birth name, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a Western man is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably Caucasian.
This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back. Hate yourself and apologize for being white to some Japanese entity that exists only in your mind while actual Japanese people put in effort to learn English for the valid reason of it being the global language.

>>20584839
I can read manga without waiting for translations and that's enough for me. I doubt I'll ever communicate with anyone else in Japanese.

How do you cope with finding out how the word works? I think I have a very solid grasp on how humanity functions now, at least my worldview can explain stuff like modern culture and the big gay with minimal estoricism, conspiracy theory or other unlikely elements.
Yet I am not exactly sure what to do with this knowledge, it doesn't really give need to modify my behaviour so it is mostly useless.

Does anyone have the problem whilst reading that your thoughts drift to other things? It is starting to really annoy me... anyone got any worthwhile tips or can relate?

Last week I was sitting at a restaurant when a family of six sat at a table a couple of feet away from mine.
There was a girl of like 14 or 15 with them, still wearing her school uniform, she sat on a chair that offered a clear line of sight between us.
She was very pretty in that way teenage girls are, I started staring at her.
We briefly made eye contact before I broke away.
I noticed that she also stared back at me when she thought I was looking, and we established eye contact a few more times before her family finished and they left.
I really think she was receptive and she might have been attracted since I didn’t detect disgust in her stare.
Tragically I’m 24 and society would not have understood our love, I had to content myself with staring and fantasizing about a potential relationship from afar.
I consider this to be one of my life’s Most significant experiences.

>>20584675
Yeah it's good to watch with a young teenager, the movie is really good too but watch if after you complete the series or you won't understand it

>>20584675
It’s one of the best anime ever.
Your daughters will absolutely love it since it features strong female characters like Rei and Asuka that they can identify with :^)

>>20584675
it is like five levels darker and more complex than all of the other shows lister and may be a bit too much for them, depending on maturity. There is all sorts of murder, psychological trauma and weird sexuality in it. It is the most famous anime in Japan for a reason tho, very fun.

What are some funny fictional magician names? The best one is from Futurama. I want to come up with something that just as succinctly gives you an idea of what his act would be. I don't think there are many other entertainment professions where you can do the "act is in the name" joke, are there?

Abortions are the most efficient method against human suffering.

after roe v. wade getting overturned the vatican can't just take 'w' and move on, it has to put a press release saying catholics should care about gun control because guns take lives. these are the same people that didn't condemn the invasion of ukraine? ok man.

after this chick i was going to marry unceremoniously ghosted me, i was sad/resentful for like two weeks, but now i feel so free. i can just work my easy but low pay job with no pressure to try to climb the ladder, and more importantly i can work on projects in my free time without any pressure to monetize it. also, i can buy a small studio condo instead of having to get a mortgage on some big ass house. if she starts texting me again because what ever guy her parents hooked her up with turns out to be abusive or just a slug, too bad, it's staying unread.

>>20584936
>The Disappearing Burglarini - "may I have someone's watch from the audience...?"
>The Great Infidellio
>Pyro-Falttula
>Swordo the Swollower
who later became
>Colostomo the Punctured

>>20584916
>strong female characters like Rei and Asuka that they can identify with
Both of them did not like the Korra series because they didn't like Korra and they didn't like the nu-Star Wars movie either because of the characters, so they'll be fine.

>>20584965
How long was this relationship?

>>20584904
>>20584925
Thanks, maybe I'll start with Cowboy Bepop (already have it downloaded) and watch one or two episodes of Evangelion by myself to see what it's like.

>>20584987
Evangelion was made in 1995, long before strong female character meant being a rude, unfeminine misandrist bitch.

What is the point?

Every day is a blessing.

>>20585044
Hi Alex

>>20582998
Many of penguin's versions of classics like Henry James and Conrad are almost always labeled as 'Revised Edition'.
What does it mean exactly? I'm mostly afraid of text pozzing to avoid backlash, like changing a word like 'Negro' to 'Black man', or 'simplifying the text for modern readers'.
Is this what's happening or is it something else?

Can you be happy as a withering virgin?

>>20583757
Not trying to go all /pol/ here, but...Michelle Obama is a man.

>>20585116
No.
Should have gotten married in your youth instead of spending it drunkenly partying and riding the cock carousel

>>20584414
When I read Coomaraswamy some years ago this part struck out:
>...it is sufficiently evident that from a Christian point of view, the work of art is always a means, and never an end in itself. Being a means, it is ordered to a given end, without which it has no raison d'etre, and can only be treated as bric-a-brac. The current approach may be compared to that of a traveller who, when he finds a signpost, proceeds to admire its elegance, to ask who made it, and finally cuts it down and decides to use it as a mantelpiece ornament.

It's not that the process of making art isn't pleasurable but it still tends to leave me with the feeling that I've fallen short (of getting to that unknown thing). To draw for those reasons that I used to set before myself feels cheap, but to draw for no purpose at all, except for the end in itself, feels hollow. You mentioned playing music and reciting poetry; those practices don't engender the same longing because, for those like me who aren't composers or poets, they're disconnected from the act of creation

>>20582998
A while ago I lost my 3ds and 40+ games. I'm still pretty bitter about it.

>>20585196
Im a guy.

>>20585175
That’s two different people, turd burglar

>>20583004
Feel your pain

>>20584115
You are a good man, anon

>>20583005
Based, cannot imagine these guys being anything other than teens

>>20585216
aww man i wish i had a 3ds and 40+ games. have u considered that sometimes when you "lose" stuff someone actually stole it in a non-obvious way? i know i "lost" a couple nes cartridges as a kid and now looking back on it, i was naive.

How can you even do anything without thinking you have wasted your life so far? I'm 30 years old and have nothing, not even a university degree.

>>20584115
4chan is the true embodiment of "diversity, equity, and inclusion", ironic that it gets such a bad rap. there are literally no barriers to participation accept the captcha, anyone can post anything or reply to anyone, and no one has any idea who you are unless you tell them.

>>20584839
>Thousands of years of linguistic evolution have allowed natives to identify frauds from mannerisms and vocabulary alone.
kekekekekeke

>>20585207
>but to draw for no purpose at all, except for the end in itself, feels hollow.
Why?
>they're disconnected from the act of creation
Don't you think that performance could be a form of creation? isn't it true that two musicians can play the same score and each make it sound uniquely personal and recognizably different from the other? All the complex subtleties the bends, the muting, the harmonics?
And why does it need to be 'creation' at all? Creation of what?

>>20585247
No, I don't think that's it. Either it's somewhere I will find it again, or I left it somewhere where I won't, like the train. I don't exactly roam wide. But it's been a year or two, maybe even three, at this point. So either I'll find it somewhere I hid it (which is possible, if slim) or I'm just fucked. It's not so much that I can't play the games, it's that I kept them all as memories. I still have all my GB and GBA cartridges. Knowing that I won't be able to look through all my games 20 years from now hurts way worse...

Nine Inch Nails is the greatest band of all times

>>20582998

I have always been a bit of a dreamer. As a child, I would often daydream about what my life would be like when I grew up. I would imagine myself doing all sorts of things, from being a famous musician to traveling the world. However, as I have gotten older, I have realized that life is not always as fulfilling as I had hoped it would be.

Don't get me wrong, there are definitely moments when I feel incredibly lucky and fortunate. But there are also times when I feel like I'm just going through the motions, not really living the life I want to live. I often find myself wondering what I'm doing wrong, why I can't seem to find fulfillment in life.

I think part of the problem is that we are always chasing after things that we think will make us happy. We think that if we just had that new car or that bigger house, we would finally be content. But the truth is, those things will never really make us happy. It's only when we learn to appreciate the simple things in life that we can truly find fulfillment.

So, if you're like me and you're searching for fulfillment in life, I encourage you to take a step back and appreciate

>>20585336
ELO is better though

>>20585284
i found two rolls of toilet paper i stashed in a box with some books during the pandemic lmao i don't even remember doing that, who knows maybe it predates the pandemic, but why would i do that then. but to your problem, you can always download an emulator and play them like that, also doesn't the switch have some nintendo store where you can buy old games for like $5? i kinda wanna cop a switch just to play old games. i totally missed the gamecube, can you play gamecube on the switch?

>>20585336
atari teenage riot is better
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_ARuy_Xfjw

>>20585358
I don't care about playing the games. It's having them that's important to me. And if it was just 10 games, that'd be fine, but at 40, even if I only payed 10 bucks a game, that's still 400 bucks.

I've had people take one glance at me and assumed I'm a virgin with no experience. I'm not but it's odd I give this impression.

>>20585364
Trent Reznor toured with them and likes them too

>>20585366
You’re here so it’s really not odd

>>20582998
If you're looking for a girlfriend, the best place to start is by meeting new people and making friends. Get involved in activities and clubs that interest you, and attend social events where you're likely to meet girls with similar interests. Once you've made some new friends, take the opportunity to ask one of them out on a date. If things go well, you can ask her to be your girlfriend. Be yourself, be confident, and be respectful, and you're sure to find a great girlfriend.

There is no one perfect way to ask a girl out on a date. However, there are some things you can do to increase your chances of success. First, try to get to know her a bit before you ask her out. This will give you a better sense of whether or not she would be interested in going out with you. Secondly, be confident and make it clear that you would like to go out with her. Finally, be respectful and take no for an answer if she says she is not interested.

>>20585466
>how do I get a gf
>make friends
>HOW THE FUCK DO I MAKE FRIENDS

>>20585548
don't make friends, embrace loneliness

>>20585564
Doesnt seem like I have a choice desu

Schizoid chad here, I go out of my way to avoid people as much as possible and have no idea what "loneliness" is supposed to feel like

diarrhea
shouldn't've had just a beer and a tin of crab meat for dinner

>>20585564
https://youtu.be/4fWyzwo1xg0

I have to leave, I have to break the cycle
I have to live, I have to break the cycle
Escape the maze, break the chains, make my fate
The wrong paths, the mistakes, the burderns I took foolishly
Leave all of it behind, venture to new lands, fresh starts

>>20585579
Based as fuck
I'm not full schizoid but I don't really feel loneliness in the sense most people describe it either

>>20585585
>tin of crab meat for dinner
Sounds disgusting

why is it that anyone who likes rock/metal past the age of 30 is categorically a loser?
>aging metalhead alky
>weird guy at work who wears led zeppelin shirts, possible junkie
>former hair metal guy, "oh man the eighties though!"
>ac/dc dad

>>20585632
it's a comfy snack that's low in calories and high in protein

stop running away from your problems

>>20585824
I cant.

>>20585824
Not running is my problem

>>20585336
>>20585364
Industrial, darksynth, w/e the dif
https://youtu.be/DbepZk4PSiI

>>20585658
It's youth/children's music and always has been historically

>>20585824
I have an inverse problem. I need to run away and face the problems of the world. My current life is staid and comfortable. But I realize that’s going to blow up in all our faces fairly soon, and I need to help get a community or two up to the task of supporting itself.
I don’t have a messiah complex. I need one.

Had a violent sexual dream about a friend last night

>>20582998
I love Plato as in I feel happy when I think about him and I feel bliss when I read him and satisfied that he nevertheless still exists when I’m not and you normies could never understand

True love is getting fucked by _ in (unowned) vagina; (in the mirror?).

>>20585881
Tell us more

hey blondie
I want to peck you on the lips
I think you are very cute
I think you have a great personality
those lips of yours
I want to kiss them
you are the very best cutie pie friend I could ever dream to have
it's a shame I know too much about you
else I would have done it
I would have invited you to play with me
on my Nintendo switch
I would have given you bread and cheese
I would have watched some series with you
and at the end of the day
I would have pecked you on the cheek like I did today
and I would have pecked you on the lips after that
it's truly a shame for one to be so beautiful
now you're preparing for a date
and I'm writing on a message board
I will cum
and then forget
but the sight of your lips under the sun
will always be an enticing thought to entertain
I had goosebumps today when you touched my arms
and pecked me on the cheek too
yet another beautiful trial that God sent to test me
thank you

test

The summer fag meme is actually true. I thought it was just a meme since everyone has a smartphone in their pocket nowadays, but it really is true. I've seen way too many blatant new fags around here these past couple of days.

>>20586026
Nice dubs, faggot.

>>20585937
It was pretty straightforward, I was beating the shit out of her while I fucked her. She's very small. Some memorable images were lifting off her feet while choking her and also at some point she was laying on the ground and I stepped on her face

>Anon buys a book
>Instead of reading he makes a thread about it
I don't understand the purpose of that.

>>20586040
Did you fart in her comatose nostrils?

How do you cöpe with the state of the World ? i mean everything going to shit, less freedom and privacy, more control, inflation, you can't buy a house in today market, only if you want to pay in 3-4 decades, but if things are continuing on this path, you won't be alive in 3-4 decades, you can't start a family and have kids, because too expensive, more crime, poverty, richer are getting richer, while poor are getting poorer etc

>>20586077
God no, I just like to give out a good beating, not whatever weird shit that is

>>20586099
>I just like to give out a good beating
That’s weird shit. Don’t think you’re in some higher class or somehow normal for your fetish.

>>20586089
I choose to be ignorant.

>>20586112
Yeah maybe I'm just inured to it. Fart fetish stuff does absolutely nothing for me though.

>>20586089
Is there a word filter for cope now?

>>20586153
Well me either. It’s some sub shit, while yours is dom shit.
Extract yourself from these things running your life is my advice.
(My fetishes are mild. Body hair, exhibitionism. Last time I walked myself into an extreme one, I felt awful about it and consciously let it go. Feels like no-fap almost)

In every muscle and every vein and every sinew of this house there is a deep gash. A great gash sweltering with blood. And it’s hard to even give expression to it clearly because the very art of writing suggests itself to exaggeration and hyperbole. One cannot pin down a fact about the world in writing without making the composition itself the focus of one’s attention — which words to use, what phrases, what timing. Like a sculptor knocking away at marble to reveal the figure underneath, the writer “knocks away”, as it were, at all the imperfections of his psyche, and with the meagre tools offered to him by the alphabet, attempts to pin down something real, unique, and eternal. And yet this very “pinning down”, this very act, makes the writer enslaved to what is Everlasting rather than temporary, to the General rather than the particular. The sculptor cannot sculpt his own girl; he must give way to the Female Form as considered in the most general and most abstract sense. And in so doing he loses all the particularities of his own girl. This is natural for the artist, to lose what is dear to him in service of dearer Beauty.

>>20582998
I can't afford to live. I hate the antichrist.

Are there any books you would recommend with the following themes or sentiments?

>dealing with self-consciousness and insecurity
>forgiving yourself for your own mistakes
>being haunted by your past and regrets
>humility
>self-acceptance

What's the best starting point in the Forgotten Realms, that involves a classic party (Fighter/Wizard/Rogue/Cleric etc) going on an adventure? I want to jump into the story, but want more traditional d&d character dynamics.

>>20586260
I forgot

>>20583013
> a sexy female bunny image
LINK

>>20584704
we got court married at 18 because it'd qualify us for a lot of state related aid that our parents couldn't provide for college, it instantly put us in the poverty bracket in the first few years when we lived with my parents. Not a lot of people do it, it just financially made sense and we had a pretty solid plan. yea 18-22 is college years

>>20586254
Steppenwolf

Our civilization is in a steep decline socially, and we need to reverse that before we lose everything.
The history of the human race is one of empires rising, then falling catastrophically, with periods in between that we euphemistically refer to as "dark ages", where the vast majority of human knowledge is lost.
The last big collapse was of the Roman Empire, in 476; we didn't re-attain that level of civilization until the mid-19th century.
Can you imagine what we could have accomplished, if we weren't collectively so stupidly self-destructive? It boggles the mind.
We could have gone to the moon by the year 600. Imagine where we'd be now.

>>20586089
stop watching the news, count your blessings, do everything in your power to improve your and your family's social and economic standing, and worry about absolutely nothing else
yes we're in a shitty place; all you can do is your best

>>20586026
>The summer fag meme is actually true. I thought it was just a meme
How new are you my friend?
Sounds like it's your first summer around here and that you then might actually be part of the problem yourself.

>>20586338
I read a quick summary on this and it sounds like a good read
Cheers anon, thank you

>>20586352
>Can you imagine what we could have accomplished, if we weren't collectively so stupidly self-destructive?
can you imagine what we could've accomplished if we had 3 arms, or eyes on the backs of our heads?
it's just the way we are, since the days of swinging in trees with fur on our bodies. chaos and dissent are always inevitable. it's a miracle we've made it this far.

>>20586371
i'd say royal assassin if you have nothing against fantasy
detractors describe it as torture porn (as in self torture) but it's just very good characterization of inner turmoil imo

>>20586381
So you think that we, as a species, are simply prone to commit mass suicide?

>>20586192
It doesn't run my life, and personally don't feel it's that extreme. I don't feel bad about it. It mostly manifests in very mild ways, and all consensual. I posted about the dream because I found it extraordinary. I've known her for over a decade, we're both married and she has a kid. I spent the day at the beach with a big group, and of all the women there, (some more attractive, some who I know better) for some reason she's the one that my unconscious mind wants the most.

>>20586352
>We could have gone to the moon by the year 600
No way in hell

did you guys get vaccinated?

>>20586436
No. And the pandemic is OVER.
Stop fetishizing getting dick-shaped needles stuck in you.

>>20586089
I'm not really sure how I do it. I just do. I think part of me has given up on the idea that I can somehow play a pivotal role in turning the world around for the better in some significant way. I was one of the kids who grew up showered with praise because he was noticeably above-average intelligence (when really I was just good at test-taking), and it's hard to cope with an abrasive reality when you've grown up expecting to be somebody important who will fix things and make society better somehow. Part of the difficulty in coping with the ugliness of the world is somehow thinking you're responsible either for how it is, or that you're expected to fix it.

Truthfully, most of us will never have the money, status, or means to make the world we wish for a reality. I think it's best to just accept our lot and make the best of what we can. However, this doesn't mean we should become complacent, either. Try to embody the ideals you wish to see. Call out gross injustice when you see it. Do what you think is right, and treat others well and pay people the respect they've earned regardless of your prejudices. If you find peace and contentment, other people may notice and follow suit, and maybe this is where real, tangible change will begin to take place. But what do I know, I'm just a guy with internet access, I won't pretend that "Complex Thing actually has Simple Answer" is anything more than my own preferred method of staying sane in my day-to-day life

>>20586441
Only a needle-dick would say needles are dick-shaped

I'm not like you people at all. I don't relate to any of you.

>>20586436
I got the two main ones and a booster. I'm overdue for my 2nd booster but circumstances keep me from getting it.

>>20586408
Well, YOU wouldn't have been able to do it, midwit.

>>20586386
Nothing against fantasy at all; one of my favorite genres. Thanks anon

>>20586352
>we didn't re-attain that level of civilization until the mid-19th century.
the romans never even attained the level of civilization of 5th century B.C. Athens

>>20586398
It is extreme, not you. You’re just dreaming it after all. Didn’t mean to imply much.
Donno why your brain went with her. Maybe random and meant nothing

>>20586436
Spoiler alert: Nobody did.

>>20586352
“Civilization” is unnatural barbarity and on a humanity scale a recent abomination. Yeah, they collapse and bring back a more natural state, but the infected “civilians” make life miserable for some of them as they try to rebuild their delusional control states.
What’s most worrying about these days is the decline of resource and and environment. This gets pressed too hard and the bacteria of life on earth collapses in a mass die-out and possible extinction.
But go on, might-makes-rightist, establish another “civilization” and commit this global suicide.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aLNwOxPsjg
Had no idea the Cyndi version was a cover.
I like this version

>>20586394
objectively yes
we're simply not biologically advanced enough to be an entirely rational species
we may get there one day, or some other species will if not us, but we as humans are still very much prone to acting on basic emotional impulses and dangerous acts of selfishness
evolution hasn't worked out the kinks of consciousness yet

>>20586546
An entirely rational species would not bother with literature or any other art

>>20586436
Wouldn’t it be funny if the vaccinated get some genetic alteration that benefits them.

>>20586455
You don’t need to. It was only for the first wave, which is gone, and has proven to be quite risky for a lot of people. I know a guy who got a forth and he still got omicron. Let it go. Catching it and getting natural immunity it better. Only really old people And weaklings died (the numbers were faked. They missed me and a lot of others in the census on purpose)

>>20582998
I spend my days lamenting my shortcomings and failures and imagining ways to kill myself.
The worst part is that i know how to solve it and how much better my life would be if i strived to better myself (i've done it in the past and it felt great) but i remain actionless, toiling in my own suffering, knowingly going deeper and deeper into a situation that will eventually become irreversible. And i hate myself for it.

It's so frustrating when you want a camgirl to pretend to be your friend but her English isn't that good

I’m a yeeny yeener, I yeen!

>>20586582
Dont hate yourself too much.

>>20586089
My current cope is that with housing, food,and gas prices so high that people will be unable to live. Once people can no longer afford to live and face homelessness and starvation major violence will erupt. Should be coming soon

>>20586633
fun!

>>20586352
>The last big collapse was of the Roman Empire, in 476; we didn't re-attain that level of civilization until the mid-19th century.
This is a myth

>>20586553
I personally agree, one could even argue that selfinshness and brutality have been evolutionarily advantageous up until now, and if we lost it then we'd lose a lot of what makes our society interesting and even fun to live in
I'd rather take the chaos of our own society over that of an ant colony, but that's just me, it's the way I'm wired you could say

>>20586556
>Let it go. Catching it and getting natural immunity is better.
It doesn't last forever. I had it before I got any of my shots. Personally, I don't want to risk it. I've had poor eyesight since birth, and I lost most of my hearing when my car got slammed by a drunk driver on the interstate. I lost my sense of smell and taste for about 3 months when I had covid, and the sensation of 4 out of 5 of my main senses being severely reduced or straight up inoperable was absolutely horrifying.

I will take any advantage I can get.

>>20586254
My diary desu

>>20586712
:'(

I’m a fundamentally unlikable person and it comes down to me being a coward. I lie to maintain control, I reject intimacy to maintain control, etc. I’m already in my mid 20s, not sure if I can reverse the neuroses I have

>>20586730
That makes two of us.

>>20584611
No. Benzos might, though. Bit dangerous though, try lavender capsules instead

I've been sober for almost three and a half years now. Sometimes it feels like the blink of an eye, and other times it feels like an eternity. Everything that I have achieved of note in my life has been during this time, and it would never have possible had I not gotten my shit together and quit when I did. Alcohol has been the single most destructive factor in my life and it has cost me friends, family, money, opportunity, health, and a few times, nearly my life as well. I look back at what I was then, as a drinker. Then I look at where I am now and it's easy for me to think to myself "I'm never going back." But I still miss it, more and more frequently. Why?

The first step, the physical craving and withdrawal, was actually the easiest part of getting sober. I was very sick for a short while, even had a couple seizures, but got over it eventually once I learned to eat right, sleep right, and exercise frequently. I still get the odd craving or drinking-dream once in a while, but that's about it.

The mental part was a little tougher to adapt to. I used it to cope with a lot of inner turmoil, and having to deal with those issues without alcohol was challenging to say the least. I had also used it as a crutch for boredom; so when I got sober, I had to figure out what the hell to do with myself. But I still did it, and still do today.

By far the hardest aspect of this to conquer is the social aspect. All my old friends are drinkers, some of them heavy. The ones that aren't still do other drugs. I had to relearn how to be myself again when I got sober, so now I feel out of place being with my old friends even though they love to have me around regardless of what I do. For this I am appreciative. What's particularly difficult is integrating myself into new social circles without the help of alcohol. I was always shy and reserved, even as a drinker, but now the difficulty is tenfold. So easy it is for other people to go out for drinks just to kill some time, bond a little as friends or coworkers, or to celebrate, then come back the next day like it's the easiest thing in the world. I try to make new friends and acquantances, but before long they figure out that I don't drink, although I don't always tell them the real reason. Regardless, in their eyes I'm eventually the "sober guy" or the "guy who doesn't drink," and despite how much I have accomplished in these few short years clean, I will always be less interesting, less easy to bond with, and less fun than somebody who drinks.

If there is one single reason I ever pick up a bottle again, it will be because of the abject loneliness and alienation I have self-imposed inadvertedly. I was always comfortable in alone-ness, but loneliness is a whole other animal to tackle.

>>20586815
tl;dr

>>20586828
tl;dr I dun fuckd up bud and dont know how to fix it

Giving up on writing is bittersweet. On the one hand, it's the only area of life where I had any talent. On the other, the pressure, stress, and ego-crushing insults were too much to handle. Sometimes giving up brings me to tears consideing all the time and energy I spent writing my shitty novel. All your life, you're told to never give up no matter what, and that's exactly what I did. Still, it's better than putting myself out there and getting humiliated yet again. I'd rather never try than be humiliated again, and again, and again until I'm dead.

BUMP LIMIT

>>20586844
i'm so unassertive i won't even make a new thread on 4chan. someone else do it.

Why does Big Color want to convince us these are the only colors that exist?

>>20586862
what are those "web safe" colors or something? apple laptops have an extended gamut with ten bits per color. "apple is a rip-off durr", yeah, well, not if you like accurate color.

new
>>20586877
new

>>20586878
Android phones have 30-bit color.

>>20583028
>>20583547
>>20583600
>>20584820

Like these guys plucked thoughts straight from my head, I forgot how many kindred spirits of mine exist here.

Obligated to post an original thought though, so I'll get to it, what the old timer said to the first NEET caught my mind and I am desperately trying to escape the fate of an eternally infantile NEET.
Or at least I'm consciously of the possibility and not really lifting a finger out of laziness... I'd try coping by saying college could be my ticket out of NEETdom, but realistically normies live their entire lives on autopilot without lifting a finger in the name of their ambitions, so my existential concern about turning out the same will not subside even faced with higher education. I wish to seize control of my life, I must reject the creature comforts that hold me back, but I cannot bring myself to leave them behind... Even going to the gym stopped invigorating me after my newbie gains stopped coming, and as a perfectionist I made like a sore loser and quit when I didn't get the instant reward I wanted out of it.
Naturally when it comes to the topic of instant gratification, addiction comes to mind, this world is full of vices that erode one's patience and even mental acuity to handle day to day tasks and simple questions, Porn, Drugs, Social media, to name a few.
I know of a lot of the hazards that stand before me yet I find myself still petrified and unable to move forward.
is there a path of least resistance to get myself out of this hard place? Or some method of habit building I can drag myself out of this state of despair?
wat do???

>>20585466
>and attend social events where you're likely to meet girls with similar interests.
You say that, but then you fail to tell me where is the Buster Keaton appreciation society for under 35's in my town?

>>20587591
you’re in it.

>>20587662
That anon lied to me... where's my qt Busterkeaton gf!?

>>20585466
You say that about social events, but about 95% of young people just go to the gym, get drunk/high and go to clubs and concerts. A couple of times a year they also go to a beach or do some hiking trail and larp being connected to nature.
>>20587668
Your keaton gf is just another lonely guy that depends on the internet to talk about the things he like.

>>20587685
>Your keaton gf is just another lonely guy that depends on the internet to talk about the things he like.
That's what I mean, fuck that other anon's shitty advice