/lit/ - Literature

Don't post the /lit/ vtuber here, /lit/ will ruin her like all the others.

>friday afternoon
y'all going out chasing pussy tonight, right?

>>20539709
yep

>>20539709
if you drunkenly trying to have sex with my uninterested girlfriend, yes

>>20539709
never chased. never will.

>>20539684
>Queen Ophelia III
I like her books reviews, I also like that she also reads contemporary books and gives her honest opinion about them. Really makes me interested in the whole Vtuber thing.

https://youtu.be/-zbIniawSkw
https://youtu.be/sMmlGin5PuE
https://youtu.be/q81d2mp9FnY
https://youtu.be/xG0qrAMhsLE
https://youtu.be/6R4MjGVD9do

>>20539739
why is she uninterested?
>>20539709
Spending it sleeping reading and then watching an episode of Rome. I am lonely. I hate weekends.

Feels like /lit/ has gotten exponentially shittier over the course of the past month

>>20539748
Nice, does she do them as a hobby?

Holy shit I am hungover. Think its time to accept that I have a drinking problem

I am obsessed with women's asses. I think about them throughout the day, I look at them when I have free time. I never coom, I just let the pressure build up and then channel that energy toward more fruitful ends.

My beloved,

I ask a lot of you, I know. But I am only helping you. I will strip you do your culture, your language, your people and your history. There is indeed a lot you will lose.

But I will make you rich.

>>20539912
Big butts will rule the world

>>20539921
big and plump fucking asses I'm going insane

>>20539864
It’s since the shutdown of qa

>>20539864
From the anecdotes I've collected /lit/ began to go downhill in 2019, which coincidentally is when I started posting here.

>>20539864
Been like that for 3 months now.

>>20539709
wheredoyouthinkweare.jpg

l'm considering cheating on my gf

>>20540034
Nigger

>>20540034
Do it. Women have no problem cheating.

How did twitter become the new tumblr

>>20539709
I've only ever hit on girls through dating apps so by Friday the bag is secured and I don't have to waste a weekend

>>20540048
So he should act like a woman to own the women? Retard.

>>20540034
This >>20540048
She won't hesitate to cuck you if someone better than you shows interest in her, even for casual fuck. I wish I had cheated on my whore gf, had at least a dozen opportunities.

>4 images
>all thots
doomed thread

>>20540118

Big dicks will rule the world

>>20540118
Go back to /r9k/

>>20540240
this is the kinda girl l want to cheat with

>>20539709
Always. I stay dicking down zoomer hoes even though I'm old enough to be their father.

>>20539864
Your faggot ass always cries about the state of lit yet you do nothing to contribute. Dumb ass yenta queer.

>>20540034
That's fucked up bro. I beat the dogshjt out of my gf constantly but I have never even once considered cheating on her.

>>20540258
Think you've got me confused with someone else, bud. "Contributing" is a drop in the bucket of off-topic bait threads

>>20539684
I'm ruining my own life

>>20539709
is that an almost goth big titty gf?

>>20540376
Well...stop it please.

>>20539709
How about you stop talking like a black monkey nigger before I graffiti the pavement with your filthy grin?

>>20539748
>her
no actual proof

>>20539864
Nah its just you. You're imagining things

I've been pulling hairs out of my moles and unibrow and they still won't stop growing. I wish I could rip them out by the roots with my bare hands
>>20539709
You'd have to put a gun to my head to try and talk to a girl

>>20539864
>>20539927
With /qa/ gone, there's nobody to defend 4chan against the hordes of trannies doing what they do best -- ruin online communities. The rest is history.
This shouldn't stop you from making good posts, however. Snap snap.

fuck off puritan anon

>>20539864
Janny is deliberately leaving eceleb threads up and the usual tranny shitposters are ramping up their efforts exponentially

Why do I hate comics and cartoons but love manga and anime?

>>20540494
the japanese groomed you to consoom their products for life

>>20540494
Brainwashed by weebs.

>>20540494
critically low testosterone count

>>20540491
Just a couple months ago I remember thinking /lit/ had pretty decent moderation compared to other boards, but it's very clear now that the jannies have decided to stop doing their job

>>20539684
I love Ophelia so much.

>>20539684
Why are 4channers obsessed with being better than everyone else? It's not even limited to this board, I see it on every board.
I understand the want to be distinctive, but it's so almost psychopathic here.

>>20539864
Summerfags and/or teenagers infesting /lit/ now that schools out.

>>20540745
>Summerfags and/or teenagers infesting /lit/ now that schools out.
So, are we just going to ignore the rest of the year, or last year?

>>20539709
I never, ever do.

>>20540034
Don't,

Every day is a blessing.

how would you describe australia to somebody who'd never heard of it?

Going to watch Top Gun at the theater tonight. Will let you all know what i think.

oh fuck

Well its a friday afternoon. Debating on whether I should drink alone at a bar or drink alone in my house

I love my life but I'm so scared i'll be alone forever
seems like girls only ever wanna kiss me when im drunk, but i wanna be healthy and not turn to an alcoholic so i gotta quit drinkin,
but its like im a different person when im drunk, like totally confident, gregarious, talk to everyone... whereas when im not drunk im timid, stammering anxious.

is therapy actually worthwhile or is it just a meme? ive been thinking i gott talk to my unis therapist/counsellors lately... it cant hurt, right?

>>20540858
a far away land with strange wildlife and stranger people

>>20540858
Take redneck English criminals and put them on a massive desert continent that's barely suited to human life, let boil for 200 years

>Be me, conservative
>Join 2 leftie friends and start a communist party
>Three days pass
>One friend decides he’s an anarchist now
>Second friend is a Trotskyist, they get into an argument
>Friend A leaves the party
>Friend B stops logging onto the Party’s Discord server
>I leave
So comes to an end 4USA: The Party for the 4th International in the United States. RIP

(Also I wonder if this experience means I’m technically leftist now)

>>20540858
Straya cunt never give up

>>20540941
I started a trotskyist group in college just so I could fuck drunk bitches.

I'm not drinking alone if I'm hanging out here with you guys, right

Guys I'm not really alone right??

I have no idea where to meet new women in my town

all these lonely dudes and I'm here alone kek

God is a soul-voring monster girl.
I want to have my soul devoured by God when I die.
To become one with her, to dissolve into nothing but her in her eternal stomach, saved from eternity.
The gurgling of her guts shall be my heaven.
I'm just a little lamb to be eaten by the eternal devourer, tossed down the gullet of nonexistence. All that is left is just a fleeting memory of my taste she has. Did she enjoy tasting me? Did she appreciate my own enjoyment of such tasting?
Gobble me up sky-mommy.

>>20540494
both are shit

Are there any great books written in the last like 20-30 years? I do like Michel Houllebecq’s novels but I’d say none of them are all that great.

I can't stand talking to women. I want to fuck them but I can't bring myself to keep the conversation going so I end up ghosting them. How do I persevere bros they're just so boring

>>20541003
Infinite jest

>>20540973
Bro just wash your balls put on some decent clothes and go outside. You don't even have to do shit to get womeme.

>>20541049
you still have to do the initial approach which is pretty tough to do

>>20540998
Are you the Australian girl

I keep fantasizing about getting hired at FAANG. Imagine all of your monetary problems being solved indefinitely thanks to one job offer. I could buy my mother a car

>>20541003
Elementary Particles is legitimately great IMHO

>>20541069
Yes

>>20541141
Say something cute

>>20540952
That's what I tell myself almost every night.

>>20541063
Are you special? All it takes is a let me holler at you hoe if she responds negatively then just move on.

>>20541147
https://voca.ro/1jk7kDF7KctF
I tried

So I’m really supposed to accept that I’m just a random assortment of atoms with no real reason to live and then turn around and spend most of my it jockeying spread sheets?

>>20539709
I used to get something like 30 likes on Tinder in where I lived and I got something like over a hundred likes in a few days while I'm in Thailand. It's unreal.

>>20541197
That wasn't particularly cute but I love your accent and might touch myself inappropriately while listening to you speaking later tonight.

>>20541197
Very nice, thank you.

The most important question in politics is whether a social democrat system is only possible with ethnic homogeneity or not. The fact that as Sweden has become more diverse it has also slipped more into neoliberalism is telling.

>>20541400
that was always the plan

>>20541415
I agree. Which begs the question of how we can create good societies once the advantage of ethnic homogeneity has been taken away.

i just looked at linkedin for the first time in a while. there are so many people that are basically illiterate in grad school. higher ed is a total farce. i hate credentialism.

>>20541221
No you're supposed to not be a pussy and use every who comes into contact with you for your own gain.

>That which that is above..

>>20541262
well I guess that's fine
>>20541272
no problem, I'm sorry I didn't know what to say

>>20541197
Is this sasha?

Im walking around outside naked.

there's a thread on hn about supposed "slavery" in american prisons. not one person has pointed out that working in prison is entirely optional and if you want to sit around watching broadcast tv all day you are more than welcome. i hate it when libs and leftists lie.

>>20541471
Are you asking if that's my name because if so no

>>20541482
Thats not true. Some prisons demand labor. If you refuse they add time to your sentence

>>20541477
You're going to be on the sex offender registry anon. Just go back to the crib and sleep it off.

>>20541493
This

>>20541491
100 percent false. it's the other way around. if you sign up to work they take some time off your sentence if you don't get into trouble.

>>20541493
Its my yard
>>20541499
No, I know a dude who went to prison and had to do agriculture work. He refused one day so they added time to his sentence.

>>20541510
that is a lie. have a nice day.

>>20541519
Bitch made

>>20541523
your friend probably caught new charges on the inside for something stupid and made up that dumb story for gullible people like you. the prison isn't a judge, they can't change your sentence.

>>20541510
Nigga lied to you. I was in juvenile prison and they couldn't even make us go to school.

CANT SLEEP TOO HOT

>>20541590
25 Celsius at 1am here in Paris, it's a fucking struggle, they saying 38 tomorrow during the day

>>20541609
Love those random yurpoor heatwaves. Just chilling with hoes in their undies.

I want to scream. Instead I listen to The Killers and drink wine.
>>20539709
No, too busy thinking about my crumbling relationship, trying not to resent my parents despite how much they fucked up raising me and failing to do the pointless 20 pages uni busywork that’s due on monday.
>>20539800
>Rome
Great taste, anon.
>>20540376
Better you ruining it than someone else.
>>20540873
Bars are too expensive.
>>20540880
At least try it.

>>20539920
whatever you say, toots!

I thought I understood men and that we were very similar but I was wrong, I'm confused now

Anyone else a complete loser with no friends or hobbies? I spent years writing fiction but I had to give up because getting completely shit on became too much for my ego. Now I just sit around every weekend playing video games and reading books. If not for my job I'd be completely worthless.

>>20540034
Dont

>>20541482
you're retarded bro

>>20541531
>you're actions while you're inside prison can't effect your sentence

okay

>>20540048
Not true, it troubles them more than men, a man can look at a woman for a quick fuck but a woman is invested emotionally so it'll stick with them and make them feel bad

>>20541728
Show me on the doll where the Chad touched you

I have the body of a 29-year-old.

>>20541003
Submission was the best political prediction of 21st century Europe ever written, but beyond that Houellebecq is just a coomer

>>20541813
I started Submission but right when it really gets into politics it just starts to become cringeworthy
Maybe I dropped it too early

If I had money I would devolve into a consoomer so easily. Thank God I'm poor.

>>20541746
>>20541749
maybe you should learn how the american legal system actually works before virtue signaling about a non-existent problem.

>>20541813
No shit just look at his wife.

i'm so pumped for this recession. let's goooo!

Politics? *yawns really loud* *sighs* *rolls eyes into the back of my head* *runs outside the house* *touches the grass on my front lawn* *comes back inside* *sits at the desk where my main computer is* *boots up Skyrim on the DS* *starts playing for several hours*

is that ff7 remake good? it's on sale on steam. the game was fun in like 1998, but idk if it would still be good.

>>20541825
A prison cannot increase someone sentence but you can prosecuted for what you do in prison.

If you are serving 1 year for petty tax fraud and then fucking murder someone in prison, you will suddenly be in a different prison for life.

>>20541881
>If you are serving 1 year for petty tax fraud and then fucking murder someone in prison
wonder if this happens much

>>20541881
wow yes prison isn't a law free zone. crimes are still crimes. but if you don't feel like going to work in the barber shop one day, that is not a crime.

>>20541728
'splain

>>20541741
half of the global youth bro

Gay sex is not cute and valid.
Fags don’t look like girls with dicks from the doujins, those are made to tempt straights that’s how they spread.

>>20541741
that's called being an adult dude. welcome to real life.

>all the prison talk itt
I’m going to sound weird but my knowledge of prison comes from Scared Straight TV shows, porn, and Jojo.

I'll sue anyone who insults me again on this website.

>>20541741
You're a guy man, that's life. Pray to God you can find a woman because that's all the comfort you'll ever get. Suffer until you die and she'll be the only place of respite(other than God) you'll get it.

>>20541918
You're a butthead

>>20541916
Kek, mine comes YouTube documentaries about death row inmates

>>20541911
Being an adult means having no friends??

take action, do something

>>20541969
Yes. Most of my coworkers have no lives. They just go home and play videogames with their kids. Brutal shit.

>>20541824
I grew up poor with financially illiterate parents, and the effect it has on my today is that I forgot I have money, like all the time. I hear my colleagues say stuff like how they can't wait till they get paid because they're broke, and I'm like--wtf, you have a job, how are you broke? I never spend my money on anything

>>20541987
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AiCNByDRCzg
anyone remember this jam from back in the day?

>>20542018
same. i autistically minmaxed my food spending and eat the same thing almost every day. i wear the same clothes every day. i have one pair of office pants at any given time and five of the same shirts. any money i have left i just invest.

Someone tell me the last interesting thought they had and I will respond with 500 words exactly.

>>20541901
I can't put it into words yet, it requires thought, I still think we're similar but there is something men have that I lack and this goes other way around

>>20542073
Contacts made of cheese

>>20542092
that's not interesting

Women's sexiness has plummeted for me since the early 2010s because it's become too intentional, and when it becomes intentional it inevitably revolves around anticipating what men want and then trying to maximize it, which also disastrously leads to listening to what men say about women's sexiness.

Women have all homogenized into the same woman, doing the same stupid shit. They have internalized "I have to be sexy (to men) always," which is a shell of shiny glossy plastic covering a shell of "What I assume men find sexy," which is fucking retarded. I'm not just talking about how they dress and make themselves up either, I'm talking about how they act, even the noises they think they're supposed to make during sex. I feel like I'm hooking up with another dude's porn fantasy. A retarded, autistic dude at that. I am living in the real life equivalent of some coomer's version of Oblivion that he modded to make all the girls anime whores with bulbous and unnatural looking hips. Everything tastes American and plastic, everything has a glossy neoprene sheen on it, I can't even see the real woman underneath all this shit anymore.

Women should stop listening to men and should be sequestered from men most of their lives so they go back to being actual women. I don't want to try to fuck algorithmically generated Oblivion catgirl prostitute character models anymore. I feel like I'm reaching down into a pool of melted neon lipsticks and desperately clawing for the real woman underneath and trying to draw her back up to the surface and escape the pool together. I remember being a teenager and women were so attractive just by being themselves. I hated them in a way but that was part of the charm.

Honestly women have a very similar energy to trannies now. I never understood how you could enjoy fucking a tranny even if it was scientifically engineered to be a hot woman. It would still "really" be a man. I'd rather have an okay looking woman than a computer generated hot woman suit piloted by something that isn't a woman. But now biological women have turned themselves into trans-women too. They're all transitioning to retarded male sexual projections of what they're suppose to be, they're trying to manifest some kind of coomer alternate porn reality and willingly consenting to it. A tranny is a fantasy shell of a woman with a man piloting it, a modern biological woman is just the empty shell.

>>20542095
Cheese wrapped around your eyeball is not intersesting? Well, I don't know what other thoughts I've had more interstiing than that.

>>20542107
dude maybe just don't pick up chicks at douchebag bars?

>>20542107
Women have internalized the male gaze but they've done it in the most shallow way possible. It's all very depressing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48L7zME8eoE

wow it's friday night imagine doing something fun

>mom is getting old
>start helping her around the house and with shopping
>ill be doing some small thing and she'll scream at me for doing in the wrong manner
>this happens constantly
>she is also very cranky
>if i am struggling with dragging a heavy box of furniture into the house, she say things like "what kind of man can't do something like that?"
I'm trying to be a good son, but I honestly find it so fucking infuriating having to put up with her bullshit. Am I just supposed to take it? Is this what it means to be a man?

>>20542182
she's probably making the nasty comments about being a man because you never gave her grandkids and never will.

>>20542073
I work in a coffee shop and our 30-something Manager's girlfriend came in today. Like our manager she is at least 30 pounds overweight and having seen her for the first time in anything that wasn't a sweatshirt I could see the silhouette of her Dorito-Chip figure underneath her incredibly flowy sundress. I did not know that she had a son and I assume that now the school year is out she'll be bringing him by more and more. Like his mother the kid is doughy, unlike his mother the kid is incredibly quiet. I could see his overbearing mother suffocate him while I was made to take his order. She held him too close, while he was deliberating she'd sometimes cut him off and decided a part of his order for him. "No you can't buy that you won't eat it, I know you".

In the moment and until now about 12 hours later I can't stop thinking about how this kid's mother is going to fucking wreck him for life. In her loneliness she's turned him into son and husband. Doting on him in the way you would for your life partner, not your child. I think of the most important things for a Mother to do is make it clear to the child that they have to leave the nest and that process should have already started in childhood. This kid was 10 and he could barely speak for himself when picking out what fucking sprinkles he wanted on his whipped cream. I feel like it must be so fucking simple to be good enough as a parent, to just not fuck your kids for life but it's all I see, everywhere.

>>20542182
You ditch the fucking crone bro, she birthed you but that doesn't mean you owe her a life debt that entails mistreatment of you. You try to work it out with her as an adult and if you can't you have to do what is good for you.

And yes if you could not tell from my post my parents fucking sucked and my mother is a cunt, though I do not hate her.

>>20542198
>You ditch the fucking crone bro, she birthed you but that doesn't mean you owe her a life debt that entails mistreatment of you
On one hand, I want to do this, but on the other hand, I'd feel terrible if I did. She wasn't a good parent while I was growing up because of her own parents and how they raised her, and I don't want to punish her so to speak for not knowing any better.

>>20542182
A lot of people have shitty parents who don't respect normal boundaries of respect. A few seem capable of genuinely resolving whatever personal issues cause them to do it. But for the rest, you just need to find a modus vivendi with her where you can put her shitty behavior in a box in a way that is reflexive and automatic, with a minimum of indignity.

For a lot of people that's what remaining close to their parents after 25 means. It sucks but there are smarter ways to do it and dumber ways. If you know she's incapable of getting any better, and she's always going to take liberties you would never allow from a friend or a partner, it's at least smarter to routinize your "k mom" process of putting her shit behavior in a box without getting all emotional about it. If you're stuck with her, and she isn't going to change, at least refrain from taking it personally. You're effectively the parent now, stuck with a bratty misbehaving teenager forever. That's a lot of people with their parents, sucks but what can you do.

>>20542207
I'm >>20542208 and I agree with this for most cases. Obviously in a fair world and if this person were your friend or partner you would ditch them for being abusive and shitty. But sometimes with a fucked up retarded relative all you can really do is stabilize the imperfect relationship as best as possible, set boundaries smartly where you need to (if she causes scenes every time you're out in public, no more public outings), and do your best to live with her.

Pity is an important social lubricant especially in families. Every family has their retarded curmudgeon that basically should have been out on their ass years ago for their behavior but because it's family they let the person stay. And in a lot of cases this leads to improvement and remorse from the shitty relative. That's why family is important.

I know people with borderline psychotic moms, alcoholic moms with borderline and bipolar who are functionally psychotic, and they "make it work" to a very minimal degree out of basically pity for the retarded woman. But finding the equilibrium took a lot of wading through abuse which maybe not everyone can do.

>>20542073
Why is it that some people can be blinded to opportunities or even blinded by opportunities, not even in a "fear of success" way, I mean more where they can't see the forest for the trees or the trees for the forest. How many glorious scented paths could we be walking down but our intense focus or ignorance means we're oblivious to what's accessible?

>>20542198
>In her loneliness she's turned him into son and husband
I used to follow a guy on youtube who talked a lot about narcissism. He would read personal stories submitted to him and analzye them. The "son-husband" is an extremely common theme.

>>20542226
maybe i'm blinded to opportunities. what can i do for fun by myself in manhattan on a friday night? i can't think of anything.

>>20542208
>>20542216
Appreciate the advice.

>>20541991
>their kids
Thats not no life though. They have a family.

>>20542271
that depends on what you consider "fun". I mean is there a karaoke night, where you put your name on the list and belt out a song badly? Any restaurants open late, places where you can try culinary delights? Do you have a smartphone: why not try set yourself a treasurehunt - take some photos of various objects. If it's got a option to change the shutter speed, why not try and get some artsy slow-trail pics
If you don't want to leave the house, what about drawing, reading, stop go-animation using household objects and trying to turn them into anthropomorphic things?
I don't know what you like and I've never been to manhattan

I remembered a conversation I had with my ex about how we both saw the future. She said she lived in the present, and that she found the way I always projected myself in the future disconcerting. I come from a poor family and I have an obsession with planning and creating fallbacks but I didn't really imagine that anyone would notice, since it's usually just plans and a lot of research on my PC to make contingencies.

And she did. She said that it was weird that I always made difficult choices (like, say, leave her because she's not the one I would want as a wife even though I love her) near-instantly, that normal people lived in all instances of time but that they always came back to the present. It hurt me to know what she really thought, that I was abnormal and not really human to her eyes, but I suppose she's got a point.

I'm not here. I don't really belong anywhere. I'm not in the past, nor the present, nor the future. I'm merely inhabiting the interface between present and future - - constantly looking for cracks and ways to exploit events to ensure a happy future to a family that doesn't even exist yet. I know I'm probably unironically autistic but even that was fine until years of isolation fucked my brain up. I can't be here, I can't truly enjoy a single moment because my brain will feed me thoughts on the ending of said moment. I can't lay in bed with a girl knowing we won't be married in 15 years. I'm a fucking retard.

>>20542358
Everything is always a threat. I'm always trying to defend myself and my "future" from whatever may come.

Your gf sounds stupid though, if she can't deal with you being the way you are because of the shape life gave you it's her fault. My wife understands the way I am and why because I explained it to her in great detail when I realized that I was serious about her, when I let her in. She can separate my behaviors from how I feel, she understands the coping mechanisms I've developed and why I have them.

>>20542226
Okay, I'll reply to this one.

>>20540243
What was it? Warosu didn’t catch it.

today i read just two pages out of joseph and his brothers and it was nourishing. i should read more. first i'm going to go wander around listening to music.

>>20540391
You just know.

>>20542402
generic pawg in a thong

>>20542403
>first i'm going to go wander around listening to music.

I do my best pacing to music

>>20542408
Repost and link from appropriate board, please

>>20542421
i didn't post it, i've just been here all day wasting time, god fml

>>20539684
Rent guy here again.
1. reminder that landlords suck!
2. reminder that if you don't become middle class, or as middle class as possible, you will get fucked. It won't be your fault, but you must control your fate and not be held hostage by people marginally more powerful than you.

>>20542536
You pay rent where you're from? That sucks.

>>20542536
>but you must control your fate
And how do I do that?

If you don't have influence or agency over your own life, how do you change that?

>>20542588
To have agency over your own life you need the money to do what it is you feel as if you need to do. To get money you need a job. You need to figure out what you want to do and how to get there, then you need to plan roughly how to accomplish that. Then you need to work on building a structure of things that you do each and every day towards that goal. Eventually discipline will become easier to exert and you will wield your influence over your life and bring your inner world into the physical.

>>20542613
>To get money you need a job
I see, and it appears I don't have the influence or agency to do that right now.
>then you need to plan roughly how to accomplish that.
And what happens when that fails, but you have no immediate or clear sources of feedback as to "why" - i.e. you don't get prompt reasons why you've been rejected for a job, you don't even get an interview. You don't know anyone you can ask in the relevant industry to comment on your CV etc. etc.

My dad walked in on me watching a horror movie about a cam girl. He asked if it was porn. He was pretty into it. It was very awkward.

>>20542226
(1/2)
It is actually a good sign that we worry about opportunities not taken, but I know it doesn't exactly allay those fears to simply point out that they're positive in some way, because nevertheless we're still very troubled with why we can't see to do what we want to do. So, while I insist it's not a bad idea to give credit to ourselves for having the tendency to take notice of our shortcomings, I sympathize with the depressive thoughts about why we're not attending to the proper things.
I am not so pessimistic though, unless of course in the cases where it's so pathological that one's life is in a state of atrophy and neglect. This may sound weird, but why should I be troubled about what I don't notice? I don't think I can be. It's just a hypothetical complaint. Actually, I think there is something sad and maybe something symptomatic, and more fundamentally a tendency of depressed people to focus on their shortcomings. People underestimate their current load, as well. I think if people are worrying too much about what's not being done, that maybe that's the point of view of someone who is currently at their limit. So, what's to worry about? I think maintenance is far better strategy than projecting potential losses. And they're not really losses, they're hypothetical losses.

>>20542226
>>20542643
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I can understand finding oneself chronically worrying about this sort of thing, in which case I admit I can't sympathize. It's not my personality.
Of course, I'm speaking as someone who probably has developed a point of view which, if followed accordingly, would probably result in someone having a life like mine, which I would not recommend unless you were me. As a rule, I find people to be incredibly ungrateful, and I hold complaining about oneself to be self-indulgent and the most annoying trait. So while I may be seen as an underachiever (I dispute this) to my peers, it's undoubtable at the same time that many of my friends have noted that I often show a kind of gratitude which is naïve, but which is endearing. Often when people will confide a complaint to me, I tend to say something "unhelpful" like, what I mentioned above, how complaining is good, because it is at least a sign that highly we think of ourselves. It's perhaps not helpful.
I disagree with the kind of framing of the observation that puts in the form of a question about people in general, because I don't think about people in general. I would prefer to ask myself what I have neglected, and I try to be specific, and not interrogate myself. If I find myself lamenting my history of inaction in general, then I know I am falling into a pathetic spiral of self-flagellation. Then again, maybe what we want is not to help ourselves but to complain about it. Maybe it is actually vital that we maintain a deep complaint against ourselves in order to function.

>>20542563
m-Money.

All of my life I've been deeply unsettled by the possibility of someone constantly following me, studying my routine with the sole intent of killing me. It started when I was 9 and it never went away. I always assumed that if someone, anyone, really wanted to, they could easily find out everything about me and then kidnap and torture me. They didn't need to be a pro, they just needed to want to do it.

2 months ago I was fired from my job, with my new free time, I decided to put my fears to the test.

I boarded a random bus early in the morning, when everyone is going to work or school, and I saw a cute girl, very cute girl. Never seen her before. I followed her. She got into an office building and I found a nearby comfy spot from where to see who enters and who leaves. I investigated more about her workplace on the internet the following weeks, even called in once, but I found nothing useful. I spent several hours there many days, struggling to not get distracted by the internet and struggling against the feeling of absurdity.
Most of the times she walked out of the office by herself, other times a dude gave her a lift. I thought it was her boyfriend but I later learned it's just an office coworker who has the hots for her.
I found her home just by following her on the bus some other day. She didn't even notice I was wearing the same clothes as when I first saw her. Still lives with her family: mom, dad and a younger brother.
I followed the brother for a couple of days. Found out what school he goes to and who are his friends. I couldn't follow her dad because he takes a carpool and I have no car to follow him, no idea where he works either, but I know he arrives really late. Mom stays all day in most of the times, sometimes she goes out with other women.

I studied their closest neighbours too. Once I even stayed an entire night roaming around. Not a single cop car or thug. Nothing. Just me walking around in the dead of night. I had a beer while leaning on her door. I greeted her mother on the street once.

There are so many times in which each member of the family is totally on their own.

I thought about pretending to be a member of a church to start talking with the mom when she's alone, but I just don't have the charm.
I thought about just doing something mischievous, like shitting on their doorstep, obscene graffiti, leaving some severed rat heads, but I don't have the balls.
I thought about just

>>20542643
>>20542649
Thanks for choosing it anon.
Not the direction I was expecting this to take, which is interesting in itself. You seem to be more interested in the notion that you shouldn't regret the path not taken. Whereas I was inquiring why isn't "a path" obvious in the first place: why isn't it seen? And the only explanations I can come up with are metaphorical: that people are either too focused, or they are 'dazzled'.
>I disagree with the kind of framing of the observation that puts in the form of a question about people in general, because I don't think about people in general.
And yet you responded, would you have responded to it if I made it all about me?

Why are collars so sexy? Does everyone think they're sexy or am I just a weirdo?

>>20542687
"A path" is not seen because there isn't even hypothetically a superior flow of action that would result in the best possible life. There are far too many variables, non-guaranteed investments, and anyway people have contradictory goals, so that, again, not even hypothetically could there be a proper path.

Is it not so simple to remember that when we are laying on the couch we wish we were being productive, but when we are working we wish we were resting? I think the human awareness simply projects possibilities to us constantly as potential strategies, and again, I don't take it too seriously. I disagree with you that this means there is something wrong with us. There is nothing unreasonable about not living an optimal life, if that is what you are suggesting. It's not even hypothetically possible.

>>20542730
On women? Yeah, they're sexy. Or maybe "cute". I don't know. I think there's a implicit understanding that a girl who wears a collar is a "secret nympho".
Unless you mean 'dog collars'. That's a "control" thing, right? A Very very gay culture control thing.

>>20542747
>"A path" is not seen because there isn't even hypothetically a superior flow of action that would result in the best possible life.
I don't understand. It's the middle of the night, I'm thirsty, I'm groping around in the dark for my glass of water on the bedstand - in the darkness I do not see the 'opportunity' to quench my thirst so I cannot grab it.
How is this not a 'superior flow of action' to remaining thirsty.
What if I try to grope around for the light switch, and continue missing?
How would not finding the light switch, which I know is somewhere in this room, and the glass of water, which again, is very real, not a non-hypothetical but a very real superior flow of action that would result in a better life (i.e. not being thirsty)?

>>20542756
No, I mean on women. Though i dont think thats mutually exclusive to a control thing.

>>20542788
I'm confused, are you talking about collars like pic related or dog collars?

>>20542811
Like this. My ex used to wear one. Fuck I miss that.

I wonder what Richard "Lowtax" Kyankas face looked like after he shot himself due to alimony and rape allegations

>>20542835
I wish Lowtax had gone out in a blaze of glory denouncing the trannies and freaks he had enabled and essentially created

What is it about that generation that makes them accept the cucking as it drags them all the way down to hell? You see it again and again with "internet/gamer culture" media people from the early '00s, they're still on twitter crying about Blonald Blumpf's insurrection as a 47 year old man and apologizing to trannies for mansplaining to them. How do NONE of them break the programming? Aren't men supposed to have midlife crises and divorce their wife and get a leased convertible? Why does the millennial generation have no equivalent where it breaks free of the tranny hugbox yoke and starts freaking out?

>>20542849
He seemed to be more concerned about his personal life, like his money running out and his herniated disc which kept him in a state of constant pain. But I agree with you, most internet celeb goons are completely spineless.

>>20542822
d-did you have a big titty goth ex-gf?

>>20542879
She wasn't goth but she did have a huge clit, like a pinky finger or baby carrot sized clit

>>20542879
No, she was anorexic and was a poser punk girl. She really wanted to be a popular girl who wears pink and ribbons but had no self esteem so she pretended to be punk. Her titties were small on account of the whole not eating thing.

>>20542879
I have one, but she lacks the big titty part. Can't win all, I guess. I should be happy I got a gf, at least.

>>20542879
She’s not even goth

Does anyone really wanna hear what I have on my mind? Usually people just ignore my posts.
>>20542674
Get help, anon. Don’t you realize your actions are escalating?
>>20542822
These are called chokers. Yeah, they are very sexy.

Just now I was in the middle of masturbating and it hits me: I can't get off to Japanese porn anymore. Now, I've been meditating on this topic for months, so forgive me if I convey this poorly because there's a lot of stuff to it.

Have you ever noticed how the acting in Japanese porn is so high quality, while the acting in Western porn is a joke? Basically, this is a direct product of their "face" (面) culture. To maintain the social order, shame is of paramount importance in society, so just like Confucianism in China, Japan is governed by a very strict set of social norms that dictate every aspect of public life. Losing face (dignity) is extremely bad, so they evolved a culture of lying about your true feelings and presenting a false self to the outside world nearly all the time. In modern times, we call this Tatemae (建前).

"So what?" you probably think. "We lie too".
The difference is that Japanese don't just lie about specific things -- they fake their entire demeanor based on the scenario. It's basically acting. So after decades of this, they get extremely good at it, which is why their porn acting is so seamless. And knowing that none of it is genuine sucks.

Basically, imagine that Japanese society is like this massive network of "roles" and you'll start to understand. A role is basically an acting gig. Everyone who has a role is expected to perform it a specific way, and that includes lying about your emotions constantly. So a porn role? You're always enjoying it. Salaryman? Always glad to drink with colleagues. Stranger? Always friendly. No one is ever really being honest with you. So is it any wonder they have such a high rate of cheating on partners? Lying is a cultural institution.

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>>20542957
imagine spending years studying japanese shit only to become this bitter and disillusioned. at least former leftists wanted to improve the world, this guy just wanted to watch cartoons without subtitles.

>>20542957
I didn't always know about "face culture" or the idea of honne 本音 versus tatemae 建前. In truth I think I discovered it from a 4chan post. It was a story from a German guy who lived in Japan a few years, and once he learned about this system of faces, his feelings toward the country permanently changed and he could never enjoy it the same way. Over time, he actually became very disgusted by it, and decided that being honest with one another is the only way to live.

As time goes on, I keep thinking about that, and I have to agree with him. A society based on dishonesty is wrong. Yeah we all lie a bit here and there, but it's really another level over there. The whole "face" culture appears to me like this parasitic, unnatural growth on human civilization that doesn't need to exist, and clearly given European success that's actually true, it's pointless. But Asia will be stuck with this awful system for perpetuity, because that's just how it is over there. Oh well

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>>20542943
>Does anyone really wanna hear what I have on my mind? Usually people just ignore my posts.
That's the risk you run man. It's a lot like dating apps, there's a surplus of men/things-on-mind, not enough women/people-to-comment-without-trolling to balance it out.

>>20542943
Tell me something interesting anon

>>20542973
Honestly I've never been into anime or manga, you won't believe me but learning about Asian society was the main motivator (along with music and literature). And I can't say it was a mistake, because I learned what I set out to learn - it was a depressing answer, but it's the actual answer so I'm satisfied.

It actually makes me appreciate the West a lot more. We have a good thing going here

>>20542923
AAAAAAAAAA IM GONNA COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM

>>20542943
Wait whats the difference between a choker and a collar?

man you guys only ever talk about communism and whores these days, don't you?

>>20541003
The Unconsoled

these threads were definitely better when they lasted for 10 days at a time back in 2017, you could have interesting conversations...

>>20543032
You're evidently not reading my posts...

>>20543052
which one?

>>20543022
NTA, they can be called both. But more generally a 'collar' also means that thing on your shirt that buttons at the front of the neck, a 'choker' is what's in >>20542822 this pic

>>20542777
Because as I said there are an infinite number of variables, your goals are probably vague and difficult and, mostly, because you have competing goals. Also let's not leave out that life achievements are dauntingly difficult, and so there is certainly a short-term payoff to slacking off.

In short, I think our chronic inaction is a result of our overly complicated world. I also believe that people overhype their "perfect life" as an escapist fantasy and beat themselves up over it.

>>20543071
Why is it that, people who are acting towards specific goals will still opt for tools or processes which are inferior to other ones that are available to them? What is in a sensory or cognitive context happening? Like, using the path metaphor, they are still walking towards some destination - why don't they recognize the shortcut? What's happening cognitively?

any good sci-fi or fantasy books where the focus is more on having a fun adventure and less on big plots? i don't mind there being an actual plot, i just want it to be secondary to the characters journey from unique location to unique location.

>>20543098
Barsoom books maybe, anything sword and sorcery really. Anything by Robert E. Howard.

I need a dommy mommy.

>>20543092
>Why is it that, people who are acting towards specific goals will still opt for tools or processes which are inferior to other ones that are available to them?

What's happening is that we're not single-minded machines. We have competing LONG-TERM GOALS, for sure, but we also have competing INTERESTS which manifest to different parts of our psyche day-to-day. So even if, as you say, someone has their long-term plan laid out, deviations are inevitable as much as we are human.

Why don't you work 18 hours a day every day for 7 days a week? Physically and psychological it's not sustainable for a normal person. Even if it were possible for you to work that much, doubt would certainly set in. This is part of the unguaranteed-ness that I mentioned earlier. The way this uncertainty muddles our plans is obvious. How do you know which company to work for that will fit perfectly with your long term goals? My point is that you can't know. So even your perfect plans are not so perfect, and there's not even a hypothetical path to hypothetical perfection. It's too much chaos.

>up at 1AM again
At this point it would actually be healthier to be an alcoholic, at least I'd have gone to bed

>>20543129
>but we also have competing INTERESTS which manifest to different parts of our psyche day-to-day. So even if, as you say, someone has their long-term plan laid out, deviations are inevitable as much as we are human.
Why do we become blinded to accessible but superior compromises between those competing interests?

If you’ve ever given an opinion on a writer you’ve never read, you are a scumbag. You know who you are

>>20543132
Thats not true anon. I usuall stay up drinking til 3am. Last night I made it to 4am

I want to be a movies/TV/film person. Not some person who "vegs out" to film, but someone who watches film, analyses it, writes reviews/articles, makes video essays, etc. I once wrote an IMDb review, I was happy to have done it. But I deleted my account later. I wish I hadn't. Maybe I should start again.

>>20543137
Suck my dick I only talk shit on jewish writers

>>20542987
Yeah, just sucks being uninteresting.
>>20543001
I’m submitting two stories for a couple of contests. The first one is about someone trapped in a perpetual motion machine and the second one is about a guy being tricked by a demon who mutilated itself so it could look like an angel.
>>20543022
I always thought a choker is tight while a collar might be loose, but that’s just my headcannon.

>>20543136
Because the differences between those interests are manifold, and often the more serious differences are irreconcilable, and because we are not omniscient anyway. If you knew there were a superior compromise, then the interests would not exactly be competitive.

I knew a woman who pursued a corporate career and ended up making a lot of money, which was certainly laid out to her. She got the promotions promised to her and in exchange they filled her bank account. Then only to realize she regretted not attending to her fiancé (to whom she didn't commit during a five year engagement), and after her promotion to vice-president, she quickly became filled with malaise, and tried to reorient her goals toward rekindling her relationship with her fiancé, which backfired. She tried to fix her love life with money, and they promptly separated. She ended up selling her house, neglecting her job, and hooking up with an unemployed young man ten years younger than her, and she's now an alcoholic. So what was her optimal plan? It's a ridiculous question given the information that unfolded over time, isn't it? What is her optimal plan now? There isn't one.

>>20543172
>Because the differences between those interests are manifold, and often the more serious differences are irreconcilable, and because we are not omniscient anyway. If you knew there were a superior compromise, then the interests would not exactly be competitive.
Not so, this also afflicts people working on simple procedures, "why didn't I use the bigger pot for this dish? That would be so much easier"
>I knew a woman who pursued a corporate career and ended up making a lot of money, which was certainly laid out to her.
Why wasn't she aware of other careers? Not why didn't she "take them" - but was she aware of other options and alternative courses of action? (not whether she decided against them but was she cognizant of their existence in the first place)

>>20543172
My point about the woman is that she was incredibly disciplined and visionary, and she did exactly what she was supposed to do, only to forget that her vision ironically blinded her to her other interests, which she sidelined, and for which she paid dearly. This is what I mean by competing interests.

>>20543172
This sounds very tragic. Why all living beings have to suffer so much? I remember an excerpt posted here once where the author compared the world to an altar which no amount of blood is able to sate. It really does feel like that whenever you start to really think about the overabundance of pain and suffering all around us.

>>20543178
You're not getting the point that life is more complicated than planning a dinner? And I don't even understand the motivation for your question about her potential awareness for "other careers". That's irrelevant. The point of the story is that the problem of competing interests manifested itself after the course of her accomplishing her goals.

>>20543203
>And I don't even understand the motivation for your question about her potential awareness for "other careers". That's irrelevant
Because when I asked "why are people blinded or dazzled by opportunities, can't see the forest for the trees" that's exactly what I was asking about: the cognitive awareness of opportunities and courses of action.
My motivation for asking it doesn't matter, all you need to know is that I'm interested in understanding why people can't "see the path" in the first place. Not whether they decide "this one looks shorter" but whether they are aware of it being there in the first place or don't recognize it as being a "path".

>>20543170
>guy being tricked by a demon who mutilated itself so it could look like an angel
Ah just like my ex gf (male)

>had a dream where I was talking with a girl who was clearly interested in me
it was nice

>>20543154
you should watch more films and get better taste

>>20543225
I also had this kind of dream last night. It was indeed nice.

>>20543232
>>20543225
Every so often I'll have a sex dream, always featuring the same woman: an Indian woman with hair in a ponytail dyed blonde. This has been going on for years now, since I was 13. I think it's the reason I find women wearing their hair in a ponytail to be attractive.

>>20543201
I would not say there's an overabundance of suffering in modest people. I would certainly not call that woman modest. She was high on her own success, and let it carry her away for fifteen fucking years, until nobody liked her anymore, and she told herself she didn't care because she was rich. She PRIDED herself on being more successful than the people she grew up with (you know, her friends), and her trophy was being alienated from all of us because she was insufferably vain and boring. She actually lived in a six-bedroom house by herself for two years and tried to play it off like it was "freedom".

>>20543254
Sounds like you belong in a Murakami novel

>>20543254
She might be your anima.

>>20539684
I came out of the closet to my siblings when I was in my early twenties and we were all socially left. Now that we've all moved on to reactionary conservatism, I've gone back in the closet and we never bring it up.
But all I really want is a cute guy to cuddle with :(

>>20542107
>But now biological women have turned themselves into trans-women too.
It's bizarre how astute this is.
Femininity is basically a vestigial larp at this point. It's nothing but a collection of inherited signifiers that refer to nothing.
Anyone know Baudrillard well enough to give an analysis?

>>20543289
Does that mean being reactionary is cool now

>>20542107
Sounds like the root problem is porn desu. Not the mythical male fantasy

>>20542756
>secret nympho
Are you kidding? Wearing a collar is blatantly advertising that she's a complete whore who wants Chad to degrade her.

Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all time

>>20543304
>Does that mean being reactionary is cool now
Dunno. I've never been cool. Seems like almost everyone else I know is extremely liberal. But I live on the West Coast so that's a given.

>>20540869
I saw it. Liked it.

>>20543318

Not at all. I re-listened to the Downward Spiral a few months back and overall it doesn't hold up. The insidious melody of Closer is cute, and March of the Pigs is energetic, but half the tracks are really tedious as opposed to being sincere expressions. Hurt is a sincere expression and musically interesting (my opinion here is not inflected by the Cash cover), but the random dross of "The Becoming" and a neighboring track (I forget what it's called) override this slight quality. When you listen to it objectively it just some sadboy fucking around and getting a few nice ideas, but nothing super special.

And don't get me started on The Fragile. Starfuckers is a terribly tedious track.

>>20543367
Both TDS and Fragile are 9/10 works of art. Get a new set of ears.

I got fucking covid which means my IQ is about to get fucking rape. I feel like fucking killing myself. I genuinely just want to fucking kill myself now. What's the point of living being a retard fucking midwit? Fuck this shit. It's fucking over.

>>20539684
The issue that I am wrestling with at the moment is my problem with porn and masturbation. The trouble is that whenever I stumble in this area, I gain a resolve to never undertake the habit again, and then eventually the desire reaches a seemingly unbreakable point, and I’m back to square one. It’s incredibly frustrating. At the moment, my motivation is high and I never want to watch porn ever again. But I wake up tomorrow morning, I’ve just been 8 or 9 hours or longer sleeping, a long with a few dreams. The battle of my mind begins the moment I wake up, perhaps even during my sleep. Every moment during the day I am being attacked, even at times without being aware. Like vultures, targeting me. If I consciously turn my attention to God, I can refocus, and gain some ground back. But one slip up, and I’ve been wounded. The resolve to stop begins again, and the cycle repeats. I’m like a zombie who can’t break away from the cycle. At least that’s how I currently feel. How do I escape? Pray to God? Read His Word? Sure. I’ll do that. Go to bed, read a book, sleep and dream, wake up, pray to God, eat breakfast, look at the news current events, drink coffee, play chess, play more chess, play piano, go for a run, go to shops buy some alcohol, cook dinner, shower, browse pol, play piano, eat dinner, watch Seinfeld, pray to God, read the Bible, don’t watch porn, don’t masturbate. Looks like a good day to me. Do that every day of your life, with adaptions based on time and place. I’m also currently vaping pot. Is it having any harmful effects? I don’t think so. I’m not smoking it all day, just in the evenings to unwind, and relax. Is it making me dumb? I don’t think so. I’ve been doing well in my master’s studies and I had been vaping during my studies occasionally. It ain’t making me any dumber than not vaping it. I’m just making the choice to not abuse it. That’s what God wants is for us to have respect of everything that He made including all plants. I choose to serve and worship God, even though I am broken. In fact, I am going to serve and worship Him because I am broken. Utterly ruined. That’s why I don’t care what anyone thinks about my genuine efforts, because I am a broken person, worthy of eternal death. I am not worthy of life. Life is truly beautiful and exquisite. I am like a spoilt brat at the dinner table who doesn’t know how to behave himself. Therefore, my behaviour is worthy of being thrown out, to not be able to partake in life. But God loved me so much that He decided to buy my ‘admittance ticket’ to life. He paid the price I deserved. I will never comprehend or truly appreciate the scale of God’s love for me, not even on an intellectual level. It is too much for me to know. The very least I can do is write for God. Write my honest thoughts on a daily basis. Understand myself and my relationship with God better. This is a daily journey with God. Every day I will pray to You Lord.

>>20539684
bit tired
have a slight cough
my sleep schedule is messed up
i have a lovely beefsteak tomato but i'm unsure what to do with it (served with omelette maybe?)
no money
can't get hard for women anymore

>>20543533
Find a relationship and have sex.

>>20543597
Finding a relationship is hard.

>>20539684
wonder how many times i've done this

Fell asleep reading, woke up and it's dark outside already. Didn't bring in the laundry. Guess I'll stay in bed and read.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

>>20539684
i have $2 in my bank acct and 0 worries on my mind

>>20543526
coovid is a meme

>>20543526
the coof has no proven longterm repercussions

>>20543533
>porn
>chess
>God
>pray
>pot
>/pol/
Kek, you've just written the perfect description of a guy I used to hang out in my late teens. He looked like a chud too (without the glasses), was still a virgin at 24 (don't know if he still is) and very obviously a repressed homosexual.

>>20543790
Yeah, this protagonist is very nerdy. Btw this is an excerpt from a story I'm writing. And the character is not a homosexual.

>we still don't have a theology board
Why? Half of /lit/ is just theology by now.

>>20543690
Sound comfy.
>>20543872
>tfw no theology board where I can larp as a deranged baptist priest whenever I’m bored.
Fuck, I can almost see myself posting shit like “Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve” to derail some ridiculous discussion.
Oh well, at least I’ll always be able to bait weebs.

The skeptics and fact-checkers have made modern science look cringy

>>20543906
Modern society is pretty cringy in general desu

>>20543906
To this day I can never understand why people ask for sources when you expose ideas that aren’t even scientific to begin with. Nigga, there’s no source, I thought about it myself.

4chan is one of the lesser evil as far as social media goes

IQfags need to be shot

>>20543969
You can get clout and pussy on actual social media tho

>>20543993
yeah. no one will ever slide into your dms on 4chan. of course, that could be a good thing depending on your level of autism.

the use of 4chan is comparatively good says the 4chan user

I just want to be happy.

>>20543172
What do we have to live for if not other people? It always upsets me when I see others not get this.

>>20544215
No one tries to monetize your attention here

>>20544378
dude, uh...do you think the hosting costs of this bandwidth heavy site are covered by the three guys who actually bought 4chan gold accounts or whatever?

>>20544384
It's a govt funded honeypot THOUGH

intankavel o bostil

>>20543790
>very obviously a repressed homosexual
What were the signs?

>>20539684
Liars and sociopaths burn in hell

>>20543597
>I'm worried I'll never accomplish all the things in my lifetime
>bro, just find the fountain of youth
You see, we need to start calling advice which is 'right' but meaningless and unhelpful like yours what it is: shit advice.

>>20544520
What fountain of youth has to do with having sex and getting a relationship?

>>20544465
No, I’m sorry to have to inform you, but they rule the world, and the faithful protect the most from anything even resembling hell.

https://youtu.be/chod_eCaGWI

>>20544752
I like how you always tell on yourselves

>got to 30yo before I could have a gf
>stuck into a 100% male coworkers job
>live in a rural area full of old people with the average being 50+yo
>no social life outside of work
It's over isn't it

/lit/ would be cooler if they LARPed as characters from the Iliad instead of whatever meme intellectual is flavor of the month.

>>20544777
i'd tell you some inspirational bullshit like move to nyc and live in airbnbs until you can get established or something, but i've lived in the metro area for like two decades and nothing particularly interesting has happened. if it's over there it will be over here too, sorry bro.

>>20544777
the digits say it's not over yet

>>20543367
i like piggy. the drums at the end with the creepy melody is cool

>>20544760
What’s that supposed to mean?

>>20544807
I was called vain.
Didn’t phase me though.

>>20544933
Notice what I didn't say and compare it to what you did say.

i have covid

>>20544953
Liars and sociopaths don’t burn in hell, won’t burn in hell.

>>20544961
It’s no big deal anymore. At the start it wasn’t a big deal unless you were 80+ years old or extremely weak or overweight.

I love the sound of my own voice.

>>20544983
The association with money was yours

>>20544777
I was my exes first gf and he was 33. He was so socially stunted he would eat lunch alone everyday at work and couldn't do anything like go out. He got better then cheated on me and dumped me. So there's definitely hope anon just try to be a good person in the end.

Large cocks shall own the earth

After an entire week of binge drinking it is now time to detox.

>>20545027
rough

>>20545027
Damn. I hope you're doing better, anon.

I have a friend who’s a giga virgin despite being bissexual and having people hit on him from time to time.
It’s clearly some mental block, but I have no sympathy whatsoever for him. He always talked shit about me and any friend of ours for our experiences with the opposite sex.
Badmouthed girlfriends and mocked and demeaned us when we failed to get the girl or went through embarrassing experiences.
Also, the only time he hit on a woman, she was a thot from work who was already dating. The fucker even had the courage to say he was friends with her bf while shamelessly trying to fuck his girl and make her dump him.

>>20545126
Also called himself an “emotional bull” when I pointed out that said thot was just making excuses and using him as an emotional tampon.

>>20545097
Just want the other anon to know there is hope.
>>20545108
Honestly not doing so well currently. The abuse was really bad so I'm trying to get better through several avenues. I'm trying to be hopeful I will find someone once I'm better.
>>20545150
This person sounds repulsive

damn look at this club livestream from brazil

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48L7zME8eoE

it is fascinating to learn about serial killers and murderers and their psychology, watching a great documentary about it right now

>>20545212
violence is boring

>>20545204
never mind it ended

I strongly dislike The Doors

>>20545156
I can help you heal anonnette. Be my gf.

>>20545156
This is why I feel uneasy about dating. You never know when that other person can up and decide to leave you. However, I try to live in the moment and be loving enough. I wish you well on your path to recovery. Some people are awful, but you can rise above them. Or something like that.

>>20545295
I don't want a long distance relationship so unless you're within my country it would be very hard. If you were actually from here I would at least see how it went. Meeting people through similar hobbies is usually a good start.
>>20545309
It's been the worst experience of my life and I've never felt this much pain. I've been through some terrible times in the past but this takes the cake. I've tried to remain kind and patient the entire time and ultimately it lead to me being hurt even more. It's very confusing because I was genuinely trying to do the right thing. Reading about other people's experiences and some psychology books has been helpful to some extent but logic can't really remove the emotional aspect (at least for me).

>>20545321
Are you the Australian again?

>>20539684
going through Giambattista Vico and Ludwig Klages atm trying to figure out what I can get out of these two thinkers. wish there was a "now reading" thread. was warned for posting something that was clearly about literature and was told it was not. fuck jannies.

>>20545325
yeah I just woke up a bit ago, what's up?

>>20545350
You have a cute voice. But you're like a mirage in the desert that continues to trick me
>Ah, finally, an oasis!
>of fuck, she's the Australian again.
Anyway what are you doing up so early. Isnt it like 3 am over there?

>>20545373
I sleep about 20 hours a day give or take. Most likely because of meds but not sure so I'm going to enquire about that. It's not really diurnal or nocturnal it's all over the place. How are you today anon?

>>20545417
Physically, I feel like shit. I went to visit my brother for a week which always a nightmare. He's schizophrenic and lives in the middle of a ghetto. So I spent the whole week drinking excessively while trying to defuse my brother who is a ticking time bomb.
I'm back home now. I am going to dry out and not touch alcohol for a while. Gonna go on a casual hike and meet some clean church friends later. I live something of double life where I go between absolute debauchery and then clean happy christian living every other week.
Might read some Kirkegaard. I have a huge backlog of books and I'm not sure where to starrt.
Also mentally preparing myself to restart college after a 2 year hiatus. Summer classes begin next week. Hopefully I'll find a gf there.

>>20545443
That sounds insanely stressful, does your brother appreciate being visited? I'd recommend having some gatorade-like drink to help your liver and just rehydrate in general. I love hiking, very jelly of that bit. Are you going somewhere forested? Everyone has to be different around some people depending on the situation and how you're sometimes forced to cope. What classes are you taking? I'd be extremely nervous so I hope you fare better than me in the lead up. Definitely try to get some positive reading done.

New >>20545564

>>20545005
Still not making sense
I reveal that I know the wealthy to be total sociopaths. So what?
w/e