/lit/ - Literature

I'd like to bless anyone who post below. God bless you.

>>20481673
Nobody has any idea
Everyone offers a hand
a push is all I need
a fall that makes me stand

>>20481673
I wrote this unrequited love poem a while ago and I'm thinking about submitting it for a portfolio I have to do for a creative writing course at uni, so any constructive criticism is most certainly welcome. I'm primarily concerned about using cliché language, and finding a better way to convey those emotions. Here's the poem:

In a river
That shifts with the colours of thought
I am under the wave I could never tame
The question of
What if?

What if,
For the shy boy closed within oceanic walls
What if,
For the newborn girl upon rehab grass

Now the question sits beside me
An old friend struggling to reconnect
Instead whispering against intimacy or openness
Or loving with a sense of normalcy

Your eyes lay foundations of peace
Which marry to walls equally safe
Your voice breathes with sanctity
Flowing through me to a place
I return again and again

Your gentle touch
I panic to return

Held down by my aging inner child
Who fears a self without stoicism

The wisps of those midnight hours draped down upon us
Offered a moment unguarded
Free to wonder and ask the question
Of 'what if?'

While sketches of my eyes
Wander to yours
I ponder upon my isle of silence
With thoughts that dance to a tune of
"Oh, won't you break my heart?"

We are accidents waiting to happen
We are synapses intertwining, mirroring the stars
We are the dust that settles upon the gauntlet of vulnerability
Once again wrapped upon the finger of
What if?

And on the journey between what is and what will be
I feel content to simply exist together
And let you take the long way around
Before we reach the answer

i hope all your worries leave you

>>20481673
Vermicelli Spumante Crestor

>>20481681
They'll just google it and find it on warosu and expel you.

>>20481681
>Held down by my aging inner child
>Who fears a self without stoicism
>We are synapses intertwining, mirroring
I don't like this words in poetry
>inner
>stoicism
>synapses
They're too prosaic. The poem is fine but I find it boring.

i feel it, it won't be long before the day i finally get a big titty goth gf

>>20481751
fuck.... looks like i'm deleting it now to see if that helps. otherwise it looks like i'm starting over.

>>20481763
thanks for the feedback.

I've always read a lot but I never had the passion for writing. After reading Murakami's Sputnik Sweetheart my mind changed a bit, maybe it could be an interesting hobby. Right now I'm just mostly worried about my writing ending up being too pretentious, but maybe that's better than nothing.

>>20481814
Just for the love of god don't use Murakami as an influence

>>20481814
everyone starts somewhere

>>20481814
>maybe that's better than nothing.
Not really. Something is not always better than nothing. Sometimes nothing is better. Goes for Murakami too.

The Cynefin framework is on my mind. And with the objective of doing the Feymann method where you explain something you just learned to someone to better retain it I will bore you anons with it.
Cynefin is a very fluid "sense-making" approach developed by a disenfranchised former IBM consultant that suggests that systems and situations can flow between four different types, simple systems, complicated systems, complex systems, chaotic systems.
A simple system is something like a board game or guided tour, or a cookbook recipe: there's lots of constraints on the system which means as long as you follow the rules, everything will be orderly and predictable. Donald Rumsfeld would say it has "known knowns"
A complicated system might be like chess, or a complicated piece of machinery, or following a recipe when you don't have all the ingredients or tools, there's still a lot of constraints and if you're an expert (like an experienced chef) things will still proceed orderly but you need to improvise. Known Unknowns.
A complex system is confusingly not like a complicated system: things don't proceed orderly at all, there's very few constrictions, all we can do is sort of map out which agents have influence on each other, but only with hindsight will you be able to identity any clear reasons or rules behind it. No one is an expert, instead you need to get a panel of different interdisciplinary experts to all offer insights before you take action. Because of Unknown Unknowns.
A chaotic system has no constraints, there's absolutely no sense of why anything happens. You have to take immediate action to impose some kind of constraint to 'stop the bleeding' and hopefully move this to a complex system.
There's a fifth domain "confusion" which basically means you don't know which of the four you're in - you might need to sub-segment into different overlapping types, most people have a preferred domain, I'm probably complicated or simple: I like very procedural rules. Cynefin says, too bad, if you're in chaos, your in Complex then there are no rules only 'coherence' or 'vectors' of where things might evolve. Also simple systems can very easily turn into Chaos if the bounding constrictions break for any reason. This is why it's fluid: the system may fundamentally change on you. If you accept this, not only can you survive, but you might find new opportunities to exploit. The idea is that most of the time people too quick to categorize events, that's fine in Simple systems, but too often they follow the 'rules' when they are no longer causally relevant - then wonder what goes wrong.

>>20481922
Why is it on my mind? Because I'm a very "goal" minded person who is paralyzed unless I have memorized sequential steps for how to do something, very "easy peasy one two threesy" numerical sequences. This means that I'm not motivated to try something new unless there's an 'objective' or a 'intention'. (ironically I've scored extremely high on 'openness to experience') and become utterly lost unless I have the scaffolding of predictable rule based instructions. This weird business consultancy model is just another reminder that I have to accept that the world is much more stochastic than I'm comfortable with - the creator of this framework specifically states that some people who are very goal oriented get messed up by the complex domain. I have to accept that my "success" in the terms I choose to define it will be determined by how well I improvise rather than following a formula. It also means that if I hoped that someone "smarter than me" could give me a flow-chart or map I could follow: I was a fool.

GOODEVENINGANDWELCOMETOTUCKERCARLSON

>>20481674
God Bless you Apu

Is she the only /lit/ poster who made it?

>>20481994
This looks scary. Horny men are scary because they can do terrible things do whores and not feel any humane emotions. It's very animalic. But I guess women like it anyway.

>>20482002
Men are scary because they can do terrible things and not feel any humane emotions. Our animalism is not limited to sexuality, in fact it is unlimited and the only thing we can directly know of our selves. How about that for scary?

>>20481839
But should anyone start with Murakami?

"They're going to check my blood," he said. "They're going to find out I'm not one of the rich ones. I'm a long shot."

>>20482002
Remember: if they had to choose between marriage to boring beta and casual fling with aggressive alpha who beats the shit out of women, 95% would choose the latter.

>>20482021
depends on woman

>>20482015
if that's where they're at, sure. they'll grow

Just a little more work

Soon this will all pay off

>>20482023
They're all like that, extremely samey gender. Women are controlled by emotion and sexuality, not reason.

>>20482028
keep it up

>>20482029
No one is rational

>>20482042
Men have such Apollonian capacity, unfortunately they're ruined by gynocentric consumerism.

>>20482049
Perhapsingly
I've been wondering whether present lifestyles like those shown in Euphoria are expressing the Dionysiac

Why do modern people not realize that men and women are different? Not just different, but fundamentally opposite one another. They should be classified as different species biologically, even. Not like animals.

Picture unrelated.

After my dad died I jacked off to his porno mags and kept him in the back of my mind as I busted. Love you dad.

>>20482060
Don't say this kind of stuff anon, it's bad for your soul and others' too.

>>20482017
Why did they change this

>>20482057
That would mean that men are fundamentaly better at some things. Not equality.

>>20482064
Sorry

>>20482068
Women are fundamentally better at some other things.
Equality shouldn't imply homology: but rather, balance

>>20482068
Their brains and bodies are different, their endocrine and hormonal systems are different

Fundamentally we are completely different from one another. That's not to say either is inferior/superior, it just comes off as poor understanding of biology when nobody acknowledges it

>>20482075
>Women are fundamentally better at some other things.
Yeah like.... erm...

>>20482067
Common Core: for the new dumb generation
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MYk3tsUH1x8

>>20482081
Taking care of children. Reading emotions. Decorating and furnishing homes. Fashion. Their eyes literally see more shades of colors than us.
Just off the top of my head.

>>20482053
To explain, there is a shimmering sense of the horror of life that seeps from the bonds people make in Euphoria. A losing of the self in other people. Drugs, sex, violence, etc

>>20482077
We dont celebrate differences or even acknowledge that one should complete the other.

>>20482077
Our souls are different as well.

Reddit is good for porn, I regret deleting the app but if I reinstall it I'll be a coomer

>>20482086
>Reading emotions. Decorating and furnishing homes. Fashion.
The best ones in all these fields are men (psychology, interior design, fashion)

>>20482096
No they aren't

>>20482104
Major cope from a brainlet lmao it's a huge complaint in these industries that they're dominated by men. Cooking too of course

>>20482096
They're all suppressed trannies

>>20482113
>suppressed trannies
Exactly, men are even better at being women than women, and women acknowledge it too considering their support for tranny movement

>>20482115
I kneel

how the fuck do people keep conversations going? I have some interests and I do read relatively more than most people but I still feel I have nothing to say (I can keep small talks for 5-10 minutes). and though I have all right appearance, but because of this problem I can't approach anyone and I'll stay an incel for life.

>>20482068
I can't even tell when you guys are joking or just being genuine retards.

>>20482118
Does anyone have the image of Sam Hyde kneeling with his hand covering his eyes?

>>20482094
I don't even find it that good for porn.
Like there is a lot of OC on the "gone wild" pages, but nothing ever stands out. It's just girl posting close up of their tits without showing their faces 90% of the time. If they do show their faces, it's just an ad for their Onlyfans.

>>20482159
The Commodification of Everything
Publishing soon

>>20482149
you need to relax your internal filter for what's worth saying. i've noticed that normies say literally everything that passes through their vapid little heads

>>20482149
My aunt can talk for hours with no pause, but what I've noticed is that she repeats herself often and uses a lot of words for something that could be said in maybe sentence or two. So it's not really so much about content, but the ability to stretch what you got.

>>20482155

I'm not built for hustle and grind culture. I can't keep up, it makes me legitimately nauseous. I'm not dumb and I'm not shy or anything, I just can't stand it.

Dans la nuit de l'Holocène, éclairés par la lumière d'étoiles qui n'existent plus.

>>20482179
>I'm not built for [...] I can't keep up, it makes me legitimately nauseous. I'm not shy or anything, I just can't stand it.

>>20482149
they ask questions, the really talkative ones (women or neurotic men) use questions as a pretense to continue their monologue, effectively getting you to consent to their next paragraph
>...which is why I was stuck at home all Monday night. Did you do anything Monday Night? What? No? Oh I had such big plans....

I'm reading the Penguin Book of French Poetry and I'm pretty disappointed by the translations. I know there are always sacrifices in translation, especially with poetry, but they've managed to sap all the beauty from the original poems. You might as be reading a wikipedia entry, that's about how dry these translations are. I found some random amateur's translation of Rimbaud's Evening Prayer on some 20 year old Geocities blog and it was 100x better. At least the Penguin book has the original French to compare it to.

>>20481673
Stupid frogposter.

>>20482245
absolutely seething

We theorize that the big bang was a state of matter in which everything was infinitely concentrated. Imagine you were some hypothetical intelligence that exists an unimaginably large distance from everything in the universe, such that from your perspective, the universe can only be perceived as an infinitesimally small point of light. Say the distance is arbitrarily large such that any device that works by known physical law is impossible — a satellite dish would have to be so large that communication between the further two points is impossible because the universe is expanding faster than light between them. Isn't everything we know, all the matter we can observe and detect, indistinguishable from infinite density? Is the big bang an illusion granted to those under the influence of time, ergo gravity?

>>20482232
Post the « Oraison du soir » translation from your book. Also why didn't they just take "orison" instead of "prayer" to start with?

>>20482249
You have a nice mind anon. Independent of our perception, everything we differentiate indeed may be a monism, but certainly something not bound by our categories. Have you read the Upanishads or Kant? Your message read like their cosmic application

>>20482249
are u trying to tell me that tiddies aren't actually real you cheeky cunt

This is irrefutable

>>20482249
>Imagine you were some hypothetical intelligence that exists an unimaginably large distance from everything in the universe
Space didn't exist before the universe. You're literally writig nonsense.

>>20481674
FPBP
>>20481765
Go get 'em tiger, except unironically
>>20482094
I'm confused, do you regret deleting it for reasons other than porn?
>>20482060
>I love you dad... and all those money shots
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BarxJgF3EoY

>>20482313
>Indian
I stopped reading at the display name

>>20482313
Is this what philosophy is now? People posting concepts on Twitter and Substack?

>>20482323
Of course it is nonsense. It would be impossible to sensibly describe what is independent of our perception

>>20482353
>It would be impossible to sensibly describe what is independent of our perception
No, it's about it being illogical.

>>20482357
Would you explain? I'm more of a Continental type

>>20482362
Explain what? Space doesn't exist before the universe, so you can't be at a distance from the universe because space doesn't exist. You could read Berkeley if you don't understand https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/De_Motu_(Berkeley%27s_essay)

>>20482370
Thanks, will do

I wish I had the played more sports in high school, some that didn’t unquestionably end by college at the latest. Maybe I would’ve found a lifelong hobby.

>>20482357
>No, it's about it being illogical.
Illogical to consider what can't be considered? This idea would invalidate entire branches of quantum mechanics, which have explicitly arisen around the idea that we have to build frameworks from which we can maneuver around the incomprehensible — in this case, the inherent unknowability of pinpointing the movements of quanta based on initial conditions. If you are, in fact, referring broadly to Berkeley's essay in its entirety, the implication (and hopefully not the lowest hanging fruit — that would be disappointing) is that we should not concern ourselves with the nature of things before things because God moved it all. This is a pretty unsatisfying response, no matter how rigorously argued the original essay.

I want desperately to sake some sense into the people I used to speak with, I pray for their well-being and that they come to agree with me. I wonder if it will come to be so.

Your future wife is getting dicked down right now

RIP to the souls we just lost in the most recent banwave. See you in three days comrades.

>>20482432
I don't know why you keep posting these useless replies. That's not what Berkeley argued in his essay. The complaint is literally about talking of "distance" when you don't have "space". If there's no space, there's no distance. You can't be at a distance from space. Distance only exists within space.

>>20482313
>teaching children things is bad
Wow is this where we're at now?

>>20482446
Sweet, I'm getting married at some point in the future! Thanks anon.

>>20482340
Yes. And they aren't even good or well thought out

>>20482453
>I don't know why you keep posting these useless replies
You don't exactly give much to discuss, do you? You've left pretty much everything except a hand-wave in the direction of Berkeley (read it bro, you'll see what I mean) to support the bare statement that "it's illogical" (trust me bro, it's illogical because Berkeley) and you kind of leave everyone else to fill in the gaps in what you've said... which is pretty much infinite. And since you've ironically missed the original point I was trying to make, I don't see how this discussion is recoverable since you've already brought value judgments like "useless replies" into the mix.

>"you have a really cool style."

ABEBOOKS PLEASE GIVE ME MY FUCKING BOOK OR ANY SORT OF INFO ON ITS WHERABOUTS. YOU SPINELESS BASTARDS, YOU'RE FUCKING KILLING ME

>>20482621
Our day will come soon

>>20482630

>>20482621
Mein Fuhrer.... Abe books is never providing that tracking number.... The order is never going to be completed.

should probably quit the weed, eh?

>>20482700
>"how dare you ignore my orders."

>>20482621
Bro abebooks takes weeks to deliver their books. I got mine even after more than a month. Just order and forget

>>20482621
Got this today from Abe Bros :-) Maybe they decided to deliver to based readers first.

>>20481686
where will it go? hopefully not to you!

>>20482021
>>20482029
No. This is just your fetish. Extremely samey.
>>20482049
No. They’re ruined by their violent tendencies.

west end girls

ngl lads this Saturn retrograde is wrecking me

You can really tell when Americans and Canadians start waking up. One of these days I'm going to write a program that averages out words per post correlated with time. I am absolutely sure, anecdotally, that it would drop from somewhere north of 100 words per post down to like 15 plus .5 images of a frog after the United States of Shitpostica starts waking up.

Maybe I don’t need a job that I want but simply one that makes me not want to kill myself.

Alot of it is your coworkers. If you like your coworkers, it’s much more bearable.

>>20482919
Yeah yuropoors need a lot of words to express their simpleton views because of their poor command of the American language.

>>20481673
I don't honestly believe any real discussion happens on /lit/. You have a bunch of anons shouting at the wind. Other anons pissing in it. It's usually best to keep your mouth shut.

>>20481673
I need literature discussing academia/universities and their faults. American or European doesnt matter I just need to finally get it out of my head that university isnt a worthwhile endeavor because I know it isnt but part of me still clings to it as a method of discovering truth and intellectual maturity which is the only reason I would go there.

>>20482456
Define what a "woman" is.
We are literally gaslighting children

>>20482919
lol yeah becuz no one in eurape posts after midnite there

Managed to develop a crush on someone I’ve only met a couple of times. I knew that would be the result if I kept stalking her twitter profile, but even so still did it. We aren’t part of the same circles and, barring some happenstance, will probably never meet again.
The whole thing wouldn’t be so bad if I could at least see her irl, since my crush would either evaporate after getting to know her or I would be able to make a move and get the whole matter done with.

>>20482908
Saturn return is wrecking me

>>20481673
I'm writing at least 200 words a day until my book is done, come hell or high water

>>20483061
Stupid christian posters

From now on I'm acting as if I'm having sex regularly and are travelling a lot. I'm acting as if I have this contrast in my life, as if it is influencing the things I'm doing, the things I'm saying, the way I behave, my attitude towards life

>>20482115
Fag

dumped too much onions sauce in the stir fry

>>20483097
why the fuck can you not say zoy sauce, wjhat a dumb site

what happened to butterfly, did he finally off himself? It was funny interracting with him

>>20483130
dont be rude

>>20481674
thank you, have a blessed day anon

>>20483075
Actually works.

>>20483150
‿

>>20481673
i don't sell crack i smoke it

>>20483130
the original butterfly has not been on this board in years, the one you are referring to is an imposter.

>Kappa can use their farts to fly
Well you learn something new every day.

>>20482977
A woman is an adult human female, as well as all the implied social consequences of that dichotomy

>>20481673
Early this morning, in the woods behind my house, I heard the cries of an orphaned kitten. I fed and watered him, and he slept within my arms until I let him out at nine.
At noon I heard his cries again. I buried him in the woods behind my house.

>>20481673
I've been concerned lately that the supply of Febreeze Vanilla seems virtually absent from the shelves of shops in my part of the world since Covid and that the supply has not recovered.

I resent the other types of aerosol sprays both because Glade has always hurt my lungs and because the flavors are nauseatingly floral. I tend to burn incense most of the time anyway and so rarely have need to use either Febreeze or Glade, but I will admit that I miss spraying myself in Febreeze to get away with wearing the same shirt or shorts for a few days in a row.

>>20483172
They are trying to pinch extra air miles out of your ass

>>20483155
>posts his double chin

big dicks will rule the world

>>20483277
*dickheads (metaphorical)

>>20483161
In what way?

Honestly thinking I might off myself soon.

>>20483295
Short bio, likes dislikes, political leaning and other opinions?

>>20483295
good luck to you. When you're reincarnated be sure to join the Imperial Academy and insist that you enter in tourmaline sector; they will deny it exists, but be persistent.

I wish I had learned an instrument when I was younger.

It turns out that The Apple of Discord is a spheroidal mirror. The true artistic message is something like "beauty is everywhere," however the vain gods could only see their own reflection.

Being an edgy intellectual guy gets you fun art girls in your 20s but when you're in your 30s it gets you depraved and deranged unreliable women no one wanted.

I accudentally turned in a document with part of some /pol/ debate that was left on my word document for a summer class, and it won’t let me delete it. Luckily it doesn’t have any ‘nigger’ or ‘kike’ on it, but the retard I greentexted does use triple parentheses. The program we use doesn’t let me delete anything. I put in another submission and redded out the first one. I’m pissed. I hope they don’t scrutinize it or highlight the text under it. It could have been worse, but I’d prefer them not to see it. Ugh

If we didn't have the instinct to not kill ourselves, we'd see mass suicides these days

>>20483354
>does use triple parentheses.
It's over

>>20483364
I’m praying they’ll think it is private information I redded out and they’ll just ignore it. I’m going to rage if the university comes down on my ass.

>>20483354
lmao serves you right for being a phoneposting chud

>>20483397
I’m not even a chud, I was taking an anti-racist position, so worst comes to worst, I did nothing wrong

>>20483402
Serves you right even more

>>20483402
o im sorry then, that sucks for you

a gun with no bullets is still a gun

>>20482453
You are missing the point entirely and repeating yourself

>>20483402

>>20483302
>Short bio,
25, male, taking big Ls, repeatedly failing to quit drinking, got dumped for smacking my now ex gf during a manic episode and now she's using this against me even though she knows I'm losing it
>likes dislikes,
Uhhhhhhh
>political leaning and other opinions?
Apolitical, I guess vaguely right leaning socially

>>20483425
penis

>>20483354
>>20483402
There are other people in the class, professors won’t even bother to spend more than a minimal amount of time grading your responses, and will probably not even look at the first submission because they’ll think a second submission will me you fucked up in the first one anyway. As long as you didn’t turn in some unhinged ‘kill niggers’ rant, you are fine. And it sounds like you didn’t. Chill

>>20483439
You'll be fine anon. You get some action, you're young, you're not obsessed with politics yet you're not a lefty NPC, it's all good for you, it'll get better mate.

i need prophets and disciples

>There are biological women browsing ITT right now
Why are you here?

>>20483463
>it'll get better mate.
I don't see it, honestly. I can't even keep a job. Everything I try lately fails, it's like a constant downwards spiral. And I'm gaining weight due to medication so soon I'll lose the only thing I have still going for me and that's decent looks.

1d4chan is currently having a big edit war on it's Approved Literature page.

I miss being manic.

I miss the coldness of it mostly. I don't want to go back to having feelings and emotions. I also don't want to purposefully stifle myself but I don't want to fall for the same traps. It's getting easier and easier, thankfully.
I want to be able to become the man I desire to be but he's quite the man sometimes.

I'll take any book reccs if anons have any for this feel

>>20483525
It's over whether they should include a "Jane Austen Principle" section to the page.

Its absolutely hilarious how often Hunter S. Thompson talks about wanting to, and sometimes actually macing people. Makes me want to pick up a can.

>>20483496
If a female isn't studying for a job, at her job, with her mate, or with her child, she is a failure and will come here like all the other failure. Transexuals are automatic failures, and that's why /lgbt/ has the highest IP count and pph on this site.

>>20483504
can you take this somewhere else, I'm waiting for somebody to help me out with my Febreeze crisis and you're blocking the line.

one week i have it next week it's gone

>>20483537
Nobody cares + you're not funny, shut up

tfw you watch an adventure movie and the main characters are in love

>>20483533
>at her job,
i spent far more time on places like this when i was working in a office, no idea what you think people are actually doing with their 'highly productive' time, anon, but i sense unemployment envy in the way you've pedestalled low-brained daywork.

do you want me to lend you a hundred bucks?

>>20483542
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rdF7o08KXw

tell me about it my nigga
>>20483346
very cool anon, thank you friend

/wwoym/ is the therapy cabinet of 4chan. or the confession box. a timeless mechanism to help us cope

I’m a NEET just coasting by on selling my plasma, social benefits, food banks, and unemployment. I’ve kinda developed the mentality that when this no longer works for me I’ll just kill myself. I’m like a real life underground man. Does anyone else feel like this

>>20483543
well if you must know i was trying to politely end the exchange:

I find it highly immoral that you're trying to tell a suffering man to carry on suffering, giving him false hope etc. based on some ill-thought notion that to live in dishonor and misery is somehow 'fine'.

>>20483552
The underground man was a civil servant.

>>20483376
anon gets canceled

Has anyone here ever found a purpose in life or is that something you have to leave here first to find? I’m already pretty old so I think time is running out, if it hasn’t run out already.

>>20483557
But you're responding to the suffering man, not to the other anon (me). I thought you were funny if you must know

>>20482245
Female hands wrote this post

>>20483559
You’re right, yeah. Idk. I’ve kinda just internalized this idea of my life is like a beat up shitbox of a car and when it finally gives out I’ll just kill myself

>>20483557
>>20483439
Anon, you're still probably manic. If you're BP2 you could even be in a depressive state.

Whatever happened in that relationship, I promise you won't give a fuck within a year and a half, maybe even shorter. Maybe way shorter.

You need to do this.

>sign up for therapy
>quit trusting yourself when manic and getting an ego of knowing exactly how life is gonna play out when you're 25
>transcendtal meditation
>lifting/diet/sleep

Bipolar disorder is primarily a circadian rhythm one so make sure you're doing your best to sleep.

TLDR: Don't assume so much when you're anxious/depressed and have other things going on. Handle one issue at a time. As bleak as it is, it will get wildly better. Therapy isn't the enemy. Love you big guy, stay with us please.

>>20483567
Yeah in Christ

>>20483547
Hes talking about biological females

>>20483580
This is a very real chance this scenario will play out exactly as you imagine.

I will sell my unvaxxed sperm and become rich. Imagine cooming while they pay you, sounds nice.

>>20483580
I think when everything breaks down and you just let go that’s when you can achieve the most freedom you’ll ever have. It can feel liberating actually.

>>20483552
i don't have a food bank to sell, sadly.

>>20483588
I’m not really scared of that possibility, I’ve kind of accepted it, I’m not the type of person that could survive as a wagie, I’m probably unironically destined to kill myself

>>20481810
even if you delete it from here, it'll stay on the archive. You are gonna need to start over, sorry man

>>20483596
Plot twist: you are actually shooting blanks

>>20481751
I’m a really mediocre writer and unfortunately I posted some of my best stuff here, which basically means i can’t post it anywhere else. Fuck me.

>>20483570
oh well, I'm on your side suffering man!

see, this is my point:
>>20483582
>you're still probably manic. If you're BP2 you could even be in a depressive state.

People assume that suicide is about depression or that the person needs to be extremely unhappy - as if in great crisis like my Febreeze problem (which is serious) - but this doesn't automatically follow.

If your quality of life as fallen past the point of toleration and enjoyment; why would you 'want' to go on suffering? More to the point here: why would anyone of a sober disposition think it was 'moral' to encourage anyone to live another 40 yrs or so 'in' a wretched state? It' misguided, deeply misguided.

And I have been in rotten situations too and I remember for myself that the 'false hope' was one of the worst things that people would try to do, like, "i'm sorry but things will get better," when i'd rather have them say, "here is 5,000$$$ and i've pulled some strings and got a new job, things will get better,"

you know what i mean?

>>20483587
in their offices on their facebooks, reddits and cat websites, you mean? yeah, women don't do that at all... that's all they ever do.

>>20483632
Time to go all in on that /lit/ publication magazine

>>20483646
Why are you here?

>>20483586
Sounds wonderful but faith isn’t exactly a vocation.

>>20483582
I tried everything, anon. Psychiatrists, therapists, psychologists, gymceling, workaholism, alcoholism... Aside from Bipolar 1 I have a dozen other questionable and semi-questionable diagnoses from cPTSD to personality disorders. I've been on a fuckton of different medications. I honestly think I'm defective and beyond fixing. I've struggled with psychotic mania since childhood and I've never been anything but a burden and source of pain to people around me. And I can't even say I feel genuinely guilty about it because I can't even care about people nor form genuine attachments. I just feel like I'm lacking so many fundamental human qualities including a self-esteem that isn't dependent on others, ability to be intimate and passionate, to have genuine interests and sense of identity...

Just microdosed some shrooms

>>20483657
Is that a question or a reprimand?

>>20483683
me

>>20483688
Its a genuine question.

>>20483657
"like athletes with leaden-weights"
M.F. Quintilian, Institutes of Oratory.

As a latino male, I was born to be with a jewish female

I need a jewish gf

>>20483683
this is almost too interesting for this board topic.

>>20483675
You know, in all seriousness, tons of people feel this way and daily life is like a marionet where they practice performing certain motions to propel one limb in front of the other and exist on the verge of compete psychotic breakdown.

I think the worst thing is that we're inclined somehow, because of the lack of admittance of the widespread nature of this, to think that it's just us who feel bad, when or if we feel bad.

Truth is we are a highly advanced hunter-builder species with brains built to take in absolutely everything going on around us at all times and calculate and project causes and effects of things far into the future, whereas our society is arranged as if we have the mental capacity of goldfish.

consider the neolithic human and the massive variety of skills he or she would have developed through their lives; not only discovering and mastering one small tiny aspect of a thing as like anybody in a dayjob, but mastering hundreds of things.

The problem, is that we're like Lions or Wolves, evolved for completely diametrically opposed manners of thinking and living to what most religions or cattle-based notions of humanity declares humans to be - needing to repress and control a Lion to the point that it can stand idle in a field and munch grass like a farmyard cow is obviously going to cause the Lion, so long as he is forced to stand there, to be completely insane as he does so.

I don't understand MrBeast. I watched the first two minutes of his newest video, 37 million views after 2 days, and it's just boring
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hwybp38GnZw

>>20483748
>the lack of admittance of the widespread nature of this,
i.e.
as of 2016 stats, w/re: america,

2/3 were alcoholics
'most' under 50's were in 40k or more of debt (which they were just sing-songed into going along with)
2/3 under 20's were taking some form of anti-psychotics, reporting long-term untreated mental health disorders
99% or more of all relationships, bf/gf married/unmarred ended in bitter failures
'most' adults today cannot speak or read in english to meet or exceed the level of a small child in 1910, (comparing literacy and sentencing structue, comprehension from then and today),
and so on.

for some proofs.

Loveless is one of the best albums of all time

>>20483780
What's the source for that

>>20483325
>insist that you enter in tourmaline sector
Huh?

>>20483750
the viewcount comes from little kids. there's no reason why you'd find it interesting if you're over 10

>>20483798
>gay vacuum cleaner music

>start using /wwoym/
>cease to browse any other thread or board
Weird how that happened

>>20483814
it's the best shoegaze album regardless

>>20483806
lol that was gathered from around 2016 when i still thought 'citin statz' had any impact on anything, you can probably google each subject and find it out if you're interested one way or the other,

the literacy one is my own observation when putting the words of people; politicians etc., through the testing standards of earlier literacy curriculum from 1910 and noticing how the words of the people today, their comprehension of what's being said, their ability to read and take-in the written and write or speak (and think) with precision, etc., is grossly absent by contrast. It's one of the funnier aspects of things I think, as:

e.g. if you were never taught how to structured your sentences, and by extension to read and speak in structured logical manners to understand what is being said and convey your own thoughts clearly that they can be understood, then your minds ability to 'think in logical steps' is likewise unlearned or is anyway at a big disadvantage.

I think this one explains the failed relationships stat, myself, and probably all of the other stats too; knoig the consequence of getting into debt requres consequential thinking, not being mentally disturbed by things requires also a structured manner of discernment of truths from fictions in your thinking, and avoiding depression by being crippled 'by' those things likewise would allow a person to avoid the pitfalls of booze addiction or whatever else is used for escapism from the stark reality.

Well bros I'm working on a construction site. Its break time. Everyone is Mexican ad no one speaks English. They all seem offput by a white guy being on site. Dont know what to do with myself

>>20483822
that's like being the best djiboutian hockey team

>>20483843
Why work construction?

>>20483780
>2/3 under 20's (drugs)
just reminded myself that figure included small children btw

>>20483851
Fell for the trade meme.

>>20483843
Rough.
What trade do you do? I switched to a trade 2 years ago and will be giving my review of it in one of these threads when i quit (prob next month)

>>20483843
hahaha you should put on an Officer Garcia voice to try and blend in

harassment architecture is making me wish I had to courage to kill myself - or to do anything, really. Fuck this gay life.

>>20483878
The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man.

i remember when i took the tradie pill. not worth it. white collar lifestyle is way better. i still respect it though

any glowie here? please give me a job

>>20483890
check your 4chan inbox

>>20483878
>harassment architecture is making me wish I had to courage to kill myself
nice to see fascist propaganda having its intended effect

>>20483878
is it worth reading?

>>20483890
Put a tinfoil cap on and amplify the 5G glowrays. Use it to communicate with the ķ'jůrþæžim and negotiate an end to their eldritch beams.
You'll get a job.

>>20483906
It is my diary desu, but with hardcore implications and written like a 4chan shitpost

>>20483911
you're cringe

>>20483850
you probably don't like music and it's fine

>>20483890
I applied to my country's secret service but was rejected (I have a literature degree)

>>20483920
Me too.

>>20483921
i do. what i don't do is mistake the trust fund kid circlejerk "shoegazing" for music

Just started reading Hitlers wars

Just started reading Hitler's War by David Irving

It might sound stupid (because it's just logical) but reading what you actually enjoy reading will help you to read sooo much more. I'm on a project where I try to read a range of books from a list (like all books nominated in for some prize in a certain year) and this is so much harder. Now I have picked to read a specific book (not from the list) and I read as much as I would read in a whole week maybe.

People scoff at the money doesn't bring you happiness cliche, but it's really true. Think of it this way: if there's something wrong with the chemicals in your brain, then being rich will probably not make that much of a difference. Rich people kill themselves all the time, after all.

>>20483939
Your mind had been rotten by 4chan

>>20483958
rich people who kill themselves are retarded. whatever's been fucked up, just start over, go anywhere you want, do whatever you want to do, be whoever you want to be

>>20483958
Complete and utter bullshit, you can buy and get pretty much anything you want if you have the money, the only people who say money doesn't make you happy are poor cucks

>>20483974
i accept your concession

Im so lost

>>20483996
I'm not. Come with me.

>>20483958
>chemicals in your brain
first of all, cringe.
Secondly being rich relieves a whole lot of stress in your life, you just don't have to deal with shit poor people do. You can quit your job if you don't like it, you'll be fine. Imagine what an impact that has on your workday. The poor guy is on his best because if he isn't he can get let go and potentially end up homeless. A rich guy has money saved up, will get fired and could if he wanted take a vacation the next day.

Just one example, money makes your life much easier.

>>20484000
You're just using me.

>>20483944
>tfw you find out he saw it as a crusade of the teutonic knights
>tfw his autism was so strong he bent the infamously inflexible prussian aristocracy to his will and taught them how to have fun drang nach osten style
based painter winning hearts and minds

It's time to start leaning into the paranoia. Let it guide me. Just check the phone every 2 minutes instead of thinking about not. Maybe they are keeping a record of when I leave my apartment and where I go, keep it in mind.

Here is an excerpt from "Colloquies on the Simples and Drugs of India" (1563) by Garcia de Orta that talks about bhang (ancient form of edible cannabis)
>"The profit from its use is for the man to be beside himself, and to be raised above all cares and anxieties, and it makes some break into a foolish laugh. I hear that many women take it when they want to dally and flirt with men. It is also said, but it may not be true, that the great captains, in ancient times, used to drink it with wine or with opium, that they might rest from their work, be without care, and be able to sleep ; for the long vigils of such became a torment to them. The great Sultan Bahadur said to Martin Affonso de Souza, to whom he wished every good thing and to whom he told his secrets, that when, at night, he wanted to go to Portugal, Brazil, Turkey, Arabia, or Persia, he only had to take a little bhang."

Humans have been consuming weed since before recorded history. So why aren't you?

I just want an /x/ pilled nymphomaniac gf who wants to tie me up, jerk me off and make me cum on her enormous tits so she can use my semen for ritual sex magic.

c'mon sheeple, wake up, its no even funny anymore

>>20484066
What do you mean by that?

>>20484043
I saw a black guy near your house, careful anon!

>>20484076
why it gotta be like this when it don't gotta be like this?

>>20484091
Do you get a hard-on being cryptic?

>>20484096
no, i don't

I had a serious, kinda angry expression while at the barber shop today. Some of my hair got into his eyes and he went to the sink to get it out so I laughed and apologized for the mess, immediately after that he told me it's okay then got into this speech about how each profession is difficult and how he gets frequent injuries from hair sticking into his skin which was interesting and all but I couldn't hear the rest because of the sound of the hair clipper and I gave this awkward smile throughout the whole conversation because I had no idea what he was saying.

I am glad that I was able to handle talking to strangers without being an autist but I'm too hung up on this part now.

im the foam at the crest of the wave.
im the wind that moves all the little blades of grass.

in my heart truly resides an explosive
energy

but like a drop in the ocean, in all my mightiness, im truly useless.

>>20484110
I'm sorry

>>20484143
that isn't necessary

>>20481673
Everytime I'm upset or stressed, my go-to act is to devour a fried chicken sandwich and fries. Idky but it gives me so much comfort everytime something goes wrong in my life

>>20484198
You'll be fat in a few years

>>20484205
What wait I'm fat right now
105 kg, 1.83m

>>20484220
lol

>>20484198
you're worse than a heroin addict

I want to draw manga but my Japanese isn’t good enough. I fear it will never be good enough.

I don’t need a cigarette now, so I don’t need another ever again. The fact that there are times I don’t need a cigarette means it’s possible to quit.

>>20484122
Patronizing every profession can be difficult too.

how does the economy of bikini bottom work?

>>20484233
How so, you fucking retard?

Either way i wish i had heroin so i could od and not give chic fucking fila my dollars

WTF HAPPENED IN MY LIVE TO WANT FRIED CHICKEN SANDWICHES EVERYTIME MY LIFE GOES WRONG

Two of my cat's kittens pissed away due to a viral infection and i am inconsolable and i am also 5 chicken sandwiches in

Childhood: Don Quixote is a silly madman
Adulthood: Don Quixote is a hero, the only sane man in a world of madmen

Golden Age will be brought about
I am that modern DQ

I can’t stay with my parents any longer. Where should I move?

>>20484245
it's all about those Krabby Patties.

>>20482067
Because most people are mathematically illiterate and mis-use notation. Like who the fuck writes 20 / 5 ( 2 * 2 )? It should either be written: 20 / ( 5 ( 2 * 2) ) or (20 / 5) *(2*2).

>>20484430
How does this help?
Order of operations exists. It doesn't matter if you think it's written weird, there is an order that you must follow, and the result is always 1. NEVER 16

Anon, I need urgent help. Do you have a method to help you relax? Imagine you are sitting at your computer an absolutltly red-lining

>>20484448
whats going on fren?

>>20484442
But it is written incorrectly. There's no point in arguing about 'order of operations' if the notation isn't used properly in the first place. There wouldn't be a need for 'order of operations' if the proper notation is in place, and its rules known to the reader.
Bedmas, pemdas, common core is all a waste of time when people can just throw in more brackets and start writing proper over-under fractions instead of forwardslashes. But then I remember how little math most education majors are required to take in university.

fate fell short this time
your smile fades in the summer

>>20484220
I'm the same height and 92kg and I'm already starting to look disgusting. Get your shit together, dude.

Why cant i be creative

>>20484504
because you're posting trite wojaks stolen from fb/insta on 4chan instead of doing creative shit

>>20484469
It's ok, I decided to depressurize with alcohol, hopefully my homeostasis will return tomorrow

current mood
https://youtu.be/peRZYVxlQo0

I am perpetually plagued by intensely insecure, spiteful, and petty people and it's destroying me. I make a deliberate effort to treat everyone I encounter with respect and kindness, but it has the opposite effect and I'm driving myself insane trying to understand what it is about me that makes others feel compelled to treat me so poorly. My anxiety and depression is such that I can't even focus on mundane tasks, my work, or my hobbies without my attention being pulled away by some inane rumination concerning the false people that are affectively robbing me of my livelihood. How do you do it, /lit/? How do you live in an environment that seems so intent on breaking you? Even as I write this, I am steeped in fear of reprisal over some perceived slight.

I'm so tired.

>>20484581
Stop being nice.

>>20484504
You can be.

>>20484581
Just stop caring. It's harder to do than to say but it's the only way. You're wasting your minutes and hours worrying about what petty normies are thinking.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GM2ODjMYxkU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JzJbDKYZTYU

absolute kino

>>20484504
it's the aristocracy of the spirit, you have to be born into it. most people aren't, and they're stuck trying to fix it with self-helf books about how to write a novel etc, which never work. just accept that you were born a spiritual peasant and then you can perform mindless but useful work and feel content.

May, should, what kind of words are these? When in doubt if I forget you can just say, it's not a noun, adjective, adverb, preposition, so it's just a verb. But they're not really actions like a classic example of a verb, they're kinda just acknowledgement of a possibility to do an action.

Hate and feelings of superiority over certain people as a thing that stops one from suicidal ideation?

>>20484637
That isn't a question.

I made the Italians angry.

i love smug anime girls

>>20482014
>>20482002
HOW ABOUT THIS:

When all creatures bear their teeth it's a sign of overt uncaring predation towards the target.

you'll never look at smiling people the same again.

>>20484637
If thoughts of self-harm are external rage at the world around ones self that have been repressed and falsely redirected back into the self, then.. perhaps so.

Although primarily you'd be making the error of perceiving peoples terrible actions, as you perceive them anyway to others or yourself, as being particularly conscious in their thought, instead of it just being their own stupidity.

what's that line, "weakness desires revenge, strength doesn't" something like that.

and "terrible guilt (i.e. the desire to harm others before they can harm you) comes from terrible fear (that ones own actions merit being assaulted in the first place)" - or the other way around, or both, whatever.

>>20484702
and perhaps people aren't triggered by being laughed at as kids, but at being surrounded by all the elements of a predatory scenario as their brain tells them, from eons of evolution, that they are about to be gored on the smiling teeth.

>>20484663
OHHH!!!!! >:O

>>20484637
How can feelings of superiority and suicidal ideation coexist? They contradict one another. Instead, it's just hate that someone like that could feel. Feeling superior is not humble and it's not good, though for some it may be true. However, hate is never true. There is no reason behind hate. Hate has no value; anger, maybe, but not hate.

>>20483582
>You need to do this.
>>sign up for therapy
actually, i'm the febreeze guy not the suicidal guy, but every time I've gone in for therapy, as a child and then as a young adult, the therapist was totally useless.

It was confirmed to me over and over that I was perfectly sane and then we would work on getting the person I was aruging with into the therapy session, and they would refuse to show up, and that would be the end of it.

It's laughable that you really think the institutions i society labeled 'go here for help and you will be sorted' actually function as it says on the side of the can.

>transcendtal meditation
>lifting/diet/sleep

fucking garbage.

Pump iron and learn every fighting style all you want, it'll just make you angrier and more short-tempered.

Sit on the floor all you like, your problems in the external world won't have gone away.

>>20481994
now this is some far better advise.

I'm watching a guy stream the original Deus Ex. Very comfy, it used to be one of my favorite games ever and his commentary is very chill. So JC is talking to a peoples champion-terrorist leader, and the guy says "Ever wonder why car companies pay 2% tax while the guys on the assembly line pay 40?" and it strikes me: the guys on the line get what they get at the end of the day, their net salary is what it is. the fact that their income tax is 40% - is this not de facto money the car company pays? The assembly workers would never see it either way, and we seem to have some kind of agreement that wages should cover living and smartphones and netflix more or less, but it is a part of their "salary". That money is also paid, ultimately, in a way, de-facto, by the car company. It's just an archaic mode of thought to call it the working mans money at any point. Fucken I don't know.

>>20484773
>superiority and suicidal ideation coexist?
guilt 'at/about' ones own talents and superiority is a big trend in european society. i can see the connection between one and the other and recognize it in the self-censorship of competent people quite often who fear being shamed for being halfway capable at XYZ in a room full of fucking idiots.

>Feeling superior is not humble and it's not good,
exactly the point; that's a baseless assertion, rather: an excess of pride is obviously a flaw, humility is wise because t doesn't upset people, but some people will think youre showing off if you're just mildly capable at what you do, and that's their vice: invidia; envy, jealously.

>>20484817
>guilt 'at/about' ones own talents and superiority is a big trend in european society. i can see the connection between one and the other and recognize it in the self-censorship of competent people quite often who fear being shamed for being halfway capable at XYZ in a room full of fucking idiots.
ed.
see messiah complex, as well as the heaps of undeserved self-guilt that exists in our society.

boy, elevating the only guy in judea who figured out basic ethics to be the son of god was really a dumb mistake, weren't it

the thing that no one gets is that the world needs more Alex Jones and Alex Jones-type content.

My ball gag came in the mail today

>>20484842
If it's not a cock-shaped one with a tube inside for squirting liquid down your throat then send it back.

>>20484685
They are one of the finer forms of the sublime

>>20484826
where do i start with watching the alex jones content?

>>20484945
The justine blieber video

NEW
>>20484979
>>20484979
>>20484979

>>20483617
Yeah, I already started over because I couldn't delete it anyway

>>20484504
Prussian schooling might’ve beat it put of you

>>20483988
Huh. I guess someone should've told that to Avicii before he stabbed his carotids.