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incel janny

Another butters coom thread

>>20433171
Why do these threads keep getting spammed all day? Just stay in one thread ffs.

Why are jannies being such cunts

>>20433181
frustrated virgins mass report them when the op image isn't /pol/ related

>>20433171
Lol janny deleted the one with the instathot in a nun costume

So..

This is it

>>20433177
It’s a blimp! Get your mind out of the gutter

>>20433191
OwO

In celebration of Huey "Kingfisher" Long re-entering mainstream political discourse today, I have selected some reading material on a website trannies don't like.
https://counter-currents.com/2011/11/huey-p-long-bayou-fascism/

>>20433171
ok looking for the poet to review my essay

https://pastebin.com/kwviT0w9

Dragons

there's a recession?

>>20433194
nice

>>20433194
I really like Rivera

>>20433195
it sucks

let's try again...
I read Quintilian's Institutio Oratoria years ago but apparently was blinded into thinking that Aristotle's (or was it like Protagoras who first did it?) division of rhetoric into Forensic, Epideictic, and Deliberative speeches had no modern day relevance because it was tied into the conventions of the time. Boy oh boy, was I wrong.
It's super fucking useful!
I'm often overwhelmed by the desire to write my thoughts on things but never sure how to format it. It's stupidly simple now, I simply need to determine if I'm dealing with a question about what happened (Forensic), mogging or simping for someone (Epideictic), or about whether or not something is a good decision/action to take (Deliberative). Past, Present, Future - I always understood that. But the "types of questions" thing is a game-changer for me.

>>20433206
did you even read it?

>>20433198
Yeah. Covid lockdowns coincided with another crash, which the Fed threw money at, but the media didn’t report on. The lockdowns shuttered smaller businesses and caused a supply line debacle. Now huge sanctions against Russia are deepening that all around the world. Now that the petrodollar has been torpedoed, inflation is here to stay (till massive deflation. Not good). We’re not looking good for the foreseeable future

>With no debate, the Louisiana House voted 62-20 Monday to eliminate Huey Long’s birthday from Louisiana’s list of legal holidays, along with Robert E. Lee Day and Confederate Memorial Day.

longsisters.......

>>20433203
Same, he's great. His anthology of speeches and essays is worth reading. Spaniards have good music too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CryZCP6BpO4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zn2fpOUHuU

Please rate my poem


Thy honest for thee. But upon my frown and sorrow 'tis but 'til tomorrow, that we see. Ne'er has one been so longing, aching, yearning, for the feeling of fleeting love. Again upon again; thine mind is ascribed with a thought of the sublime. Yet, until my fancy doth pertain then she will still remain.

>>20433171
Someone, please send me a picture of pepe in a suit with a glass of drink on a beige or pink background.

Captcha: PNPNP

>>20433194
A fascist mischaracterizing the “left” and his own ideology? Wo!
This is as credible a quote as CNN and Joe Biden himself

>>20433227
No

>>20433227

busting out the smoker this weekend to smoke a pork shoulder. I love summer.

>>20433218
why do elites do this shit? do they have some sort of anti-social personality disorder?

>>20433224
I've read some of his and Ramos' speeches, pretty inspiring stuff

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>>20433188
>>>/s4s/

>>20433236
What are you even replying to

>>20433218
>Spengler said that democracy is the political weapon of "money", and the media are the means through which money operates a democratic political system. The penetration of money's power throughout a society is described as another marker of the shift from Culture to Civilization.

>Democracy and plutocracy are equivalent in Spengler's argument, and he said the "tragic comedy of the world-improvers and freedom-teachers" is that they are simply assisting money to be more effective. He believed that the principles of equality, natural rights, universal suffrage, and freedom of the press are all disguises for class war of the bourgeois against the aristocracy. Freedom, to Spengler, is a negative concept, only entailing the repudiation of any tradition. He said that freedom of the press requires money, and entails ownership, meaning that it serves money. Similarly, since suffrage involves electoral campaigns, which involve donations, elections serve money as well. Spengler said that the ideologies espoused by candidates, whether Socialism or Liberalism, are set in motion by, and ultimately serve, only money.

>Spengler said that in his era money has already won, in the form of democracy. However, he said that in destroying the old elements of the Culture, it prepares the way for the rise of a new and overpowering figure, who he calls the Caesar. Before such a leader, money collapses, and in the Imperial Age the politics of money fades away.

>On the subject of the press, Spengler said that instead of conversations between men, the press and the "electrical news-service keep the waking-consciousness of whole people and continents under a deafening drum-fire of theses, catchwords, standpoints, scenes, feelings, day by day and year by year." He said that money uses the media to turn itself into force—the more spent, the more intense its influence. In addition, a functioning press requires universal education, and he said schooling leads to a demand for the shepherding of the masses, which then becomes an object of party politics. To Spengler, people who believe in the ideal of education prepare the way for the power of the press, and eventually for the rise of the Caesar.
It's happening in real time

>>20433223
they're really trying to shoot themselves in the foot here

>>20433260
I understand

>it's a /pol/ circlejerk thread
later, losers

>>20433212
How can you think it's even good? Are you a teenager?

>>20433259
The system rewards the sociopathic the most. Also complex French stuff about technique which I half get but can’t explain. “Over socialized” is Ted’s term for it.

The US plan is to hold onto their unipolarity by taking Russia out. Biden let this slip when talking with troops in Poland recently. They want a Yeltsin puppet again, but some are working on biological weapons they can make genetically specific. Russian troops may have set that research back a few decades.
States are bad news. Capitalism is bad news.

>>20433226
I reviewed it last thread. My criticism was it was a tad unrhyming and had a touch of middle English which isn't to my liking. Other than that its ok.

Review my essay: >>20433195

>>20433282
Kys bunkertranny

>>20433275
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-g1RrwtldmA

>>20433264
>What are you even replying to
The picture.

>Spengler said that democracy is the political weapon of "money“
Hahah. Now how about direct democracy without money mucking it up.

>>20433276
No I'm 40, almost. How do I even know you're not a teenager either?

They sang the song that elevated humanity. Hundreds of thousands of inspired voices emerged from the global crisis and spoke powerful testimony about the value of life and the wonder of the universe. Their communications would touch the souls of billions and inspire incredible personal and social transformations. They would give birth to a generation of creatives that would outshine even them.
It most definitely was not called "normal," but the opposite: a strangification of experience; a socially infectious enchantment with life and all of existence. It was a psycho-social singularity, a singularity of human relationships including the transpersonal. What led it is the call of wonder, what drove it was the desire of curiosity at its greatest heights of aspiration.
Have you ever had a teacher who truly loved and lived to teach? Who had an overwhelming passion for teaching that made them an outstanding instructor? The kind of teacher who successfully infects students with the desire to learn and explore?
I have! I know they exist! I know how they have touched me! I have felt the same spark of inspiration in so many including writers, philosophers, artists, scientists, and their greatest passions speak of this blissful love of learning. If such passions could touch the hearts of the masses, it would be the single most transformative event in human history.
This is my greatest dream, and one day it will become a reality.

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Pushing at the boundaries of your understanding and experience - the will to discover- is the ultimate life-affirming action. For every ounce of despair you feel at the present condition of the world, push a pound harder against the tyranny of your expectations! Praise the everlasting question mark, the infinite unknown that keeps us always in motion, forever becoming and never complete!

>@WrathOfGnon

>>20433282
I dont get Ted's disdain for hobbies. Some hobbies can be useful

>>20433288
Mariupol is now Donetsk’s. Surrender now and we promise to treat you well, fascist crackhead.

>No I'm 40, almost.

This board is furthering my narcissism. Getting criticized constantly is making me solipsistic. I really do want a legion of yes men the more I come here.

>>20433260
Nigger.

>>20433305
i thought this song was pretty good
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izquEYtqXZo

>>20433333

Theres some faggot on /lit/ obssessed with frogposters, hes always commenting on every single threas with a frog and hes usually the first one. Lmao what a looser

Why are so many of us now in our late 20s just discovering what we wish had started in our late teens?

@20433392
pwnd

>>20433198
American economy shrank by 1.5% last quarter

>>20433171
Bertrand Russell's "On Being Modern Minded" was eerily accurate when it comes to parochialism with respect to time. So was Stevens in his celestially ironic connectedness to ours. He'd have loved music like this as much as I do when going 80 on an interstate paved like a racetrack in a comfy old land speedboat past huge farmsteads, with a find in bohemian art glass in the trunk, along with assorted bulbs, tubers, rhizomes, and pies, the minty matte of faraway water tower bulbs glacially suggesting arrival and departure, alien landings on a rather surprisingly friendly Earth. I think of Paul Fussell's description of the "appalling whoosh" of Indy cars, while enjoying everything it implies, and can talk to anyone who likes to talk.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cDCGx_1St-Q

>>20433425
great post

>>20433411
sir i will have you know i'm a sexually pure man of over 30 years of age

>>20433171
love exists, God exists. If God exists, love exists. Do you believe in love? That feeling you get when you gaze into the eyes of your soulmate, that nurturing feeling of a mother as she tends her newborn child. Surely the world has not hardened your heart that you no longer believe in love? But since we are on this shitty website, I believe we have all lost hope at some point, or come close to doing so. I wish to share my story with you.

I don't remember after which suicide attempt it occurred, my life was a total blur for a few years and blackouts occurred quite frequently, combined with genuine health issues. But some things happened which made me realize God and Jesus were the absolute truth. Personal experiences and revelations came to me and I was converted as Paul was. I'm not here to go into details about the things I saw and encountered, which continued to occur after I got clean of drugs and the like. You wouldn't believe me if I told you so I won't try to convince you of those events. I switched my reading from political theories and decadent novels to a more Christian themed reading, which has since expanded to Tanakh, Torah, Quran. I feel a deep connection with fellow followers of the God of Abraham. I began by reading a KJV bible and expanded from there on. A book which lent to me the Spirit in many ways, when my faith was fresh, was "Confessions of Saint Augustine" which I would recommend to anyone even if you're not actually religious. And from thereon my life began to slowly but surely, change direction. It felt not like a new direction, but like I were returning home. Something which I'd always been searching for, but always seemed to slip between my fingers as sand.

>>20433444
yawn

>>20433445
Shut the fuck up negativity tranny. Kill yourself.

>>20433447
not very christian of you anon-chan!

>>20433327
i always take the criticism here in a well meaning way since the anons are staightforward about it and won't hesitate to elaborate if you ask it's honest
now the one in real life i cannot stand because it's done in a covert passive aggressive way and it's usually devoid of logic just a warning of non conformity

>>20433444
I was a sinner, a drug user, a heavy drinker. My head was consumed by thoughts of politics and the corruption of politicians in the current climate; the corruption of politics as a whole. I tried to suicide a few times, but I'm not here to tell you of my sob story as it doesn't matter. My old life has ended, I was crucified with Christ. I developed a personal relationship with Jesus Christ who lifted me out of the depths of years of suicidal depression and despair. But we haven't got to that point yet. So, friends, let me continue my story. I was at the peak of my drug use, consuming copious amounts without regard to if I overdosed or not, my life was that bleak. As I afore mentioned, I was an ardent atheist for most of my life, which opinion was further solidified by my political views. You don't need me to mention which views, simply to say "Religion is the opium of the masses" will suffice. I am not here to tell you that all conspiracy theories are fake. In fact, alot have much truth in them and much of what is accepted as fact today was mere conspiracy a few decades to centuries ago. So my head was full of such thoughts and I'd just be getting high, never regarding "religion" as such. I was "spiritual" in a few ways and had read a bit of religious scriptures from various religions, but never really felt a connection with it in my soul.

>>20433455
I was reading the KJV (though that wasn't the first time I'd read the bible) and having many personal revelations. Things started to change in my life. I kicked the drug and alcohol habit and persevered with a troubled past and unsteady mental health issues. It was hard. I will not lie. It was extremely difficult to remove the numerous drugs of all kinds I was self-medicating with to null those deepest darkest feelings that trouble our souls. Fell off the wagon a few times before getting back on, but I persisted in holding close to the teachings of the Gospel. The Penitent Thief from the cross next to Christ really began to resonate with me around this time. The certainty in Christ's words to him "today you will be with me in paradise" really hit hard. It made me feel worth something for the first time. If that thief could be redeemed, I could too.

>>20433444
>>20433455
>>20433456

is technical writing supposed to easy? whats the holy grail of technical writing

>>20433456
I was now a recovering fiend and reading the bible and Puritan literature every day along with speeches of Cromwell and other like figures. I read Martin Luther around this time too, and felt an affinity with Protestantism rather than Catholicism. I travelled around to try out different types of churches and basilicas for worship. I saw the splendor of art when it was used to glorify God, which I had never seen before and viewed it more as a slave mentality and a waste of time. However, now, I understood it. I began to write again, a hobby I had given up for years due to apathy and the issues mentioned prior. I had been more into the aesthetic view of art and "Art for art's sake", rather than for the sake of God. But now, it clicked in my head and I finally "got it".
I began to attend church and make prayer a part of my daily routine, and began to learn biblical Hebrew which is still a work in progress and keeps me occupied these days. After rehab, after meds, after counselling, therapy, the thing which really changed my life was the power of the Holy Ghost. That is what picked me up out of the gutter more than anything. No power can compare to that of the Holy Ghost. I felt something changing inside of me, and I still believe I am in process of changing. Ever learning, we should always strive to keep our minds open and ever keep growing.

A couple of years had gone by, I was reading different versions of the bible by now including the Complete Jewish Bible version which retains many of the key words and names in Hebrew. But I shall continue my conversion story now. I started to appreciate life again. The thing for me was, I always viewed religion for so long about suffering in this world for a better life (which at the time I highly doubted existed) after death. But only when I had experienced it for myself did I feel the reward of accepting God's love into my life. He walks with me everywhere and I am never alone. He has seen and been through with me, on my hardships and my troubles. I just didn't pay attention to him before. But his Spirit has entered into my heart. He was knocking at the door, and I answered. Jesus of Nazareth, Yeshua Himself, truly is the Messiah. Perhaps we do not see eye to eye on that issue, but we are still united in being children of Abraham, or if not, we are united in belief in God. Or if not that, then we must unite under the banner of love. That feeling which burns within.

We all fall short of the glory of God, but he has raised me up. He threw me my lifeline which was attained through the death of his Son, a masterplan of salvation attained 2000 years ago. I was a mere broken shell and Jesus came into my life, what was now around five years ago. I have grown as a person. No matter how hard life gets, always choose love. In doing so you are also choosing God. Forget political divisions, forget the memes and focus on unity. We are the brotherhood of Abraham's seed, and love must be our language.

Well bros, another friday night drinking alone. I'm watching Nightcrawler though. I love that autist.

>>20433464
Perhaps, when Christ taught us to become as little children; he meant not only that we are to learn or relearn things according to God's divine Will, but also that we must not cease to be in awe of the things which surround us. His Creation surrounds us all and in it are signs of His presence -- They tell us that with Him, anything is possible. Anything. We can never stop learning from the environment which surrounds us -- which is solely His Creation. Wisdom is everywhere -- His Wisdom, which is infinite. And if we heed his call, we may partake in His Wisdom and he may impart some of it to us. Through the Spirit, we can become pure as children again. For through the Spirit do we stand in awe at all His Creation, as a child receiving a new toy. And as children, we ought be inclined to open our minds to the Lord and all the ways in which He may come to us. Revelation isn't something of the past, it is a gift bestowed upon us in the here and now also, if only we choose to receive it of Him; who sits on his throne in the Most High Heavens -- Through He who sits at His right hand -- Which is Christ Jesus, the King of Kings.

>>20433459
im a tech writer and it's pretty cozy. I write for a company that manufactures industrial packaging equipment. I've had some busier periods but on average I do about 10 or less hours of actual work a week, the rest is spent watching movies/youtube videos or reading on my kindle. the pay isn't amazing but it's enough to pay the bills and put away money in savings each month. IMO the holy grail of tech writing is in the medical equipment industry since it pays the best. if you're an english major who doesn't want to go into teaching then I'd recommend it.

"""Christians""' ruined this board

I have many sins but I've never been judged for them, only for sins I haven't committed. And it's impossible to respect anything mortal on that basis.

>>20433484
stupid hustle post i meant what could be the most difficult thing in technical writing

Schizos ruined this board

Where does the anti-frogposting sentiment stem from? Theres one obssessed retard that is always the first to comment on every frog thread, imagine being such a pathetic looser

>>20433497
Retards who don't read ruined this board

i tried switching to the /fit/ version of wwoym, "the bar" thread, and it's just normie dudes talking about their girl problems. they aren't even autistic, they just broke up or felt jealous or something. i work out a decent amount because i use to compete in combat sports, so i thought /fit/ might be a good change of pace, but it turns out guys who lift weights just to get big are some of the shallowest buffoons known to man. why does /lit/ have to be the only good place on the whole fucking internet. fuck.

>>20433453
Its just that writings are getting 99% negative reviews even though its pretty original stuff

>>20433448
Being nice to evil is not what Jesus taught

>>20433513
>evil

>>20433511
I don't go on there because I'm fat and most of /fit/ is just twink chicken hawks that I have nothing but contempt for

>>20433513
What's evil?

>>20433503
>crying abut this twice in the same thread
imagine being such a pathetic looser

>>20433511
going to gym seems like a scam for regular fitness
>paying money to exercise in a closed room

>>20433520
Quiet, gaytheist

Read my essay on what's evil>>20433195

>>20433526
Imagine being a man who thinks he's a woman and crying about /pol/.

tfw a truly anti-Demiurge organization doesn't exist
>tfw if it did it would just be a glownigger psyop
I want to be an aeonic futurist, brosanyr8

>>20433522
not wanting to read walls of alcoholics anonymous stories, apparently

>>20433536
None of this is anti-demiurge, retards still don't get that there is a Dark Universe alongside the Yahwean, it's literally written in the texts, they are BOTH made by the Demiurge, they're combating the false light of Yahweh on behalf of the Dark God (called Elohim in gnostic texts, see Corrado Malanga for research paralleling many of the things the gnostics mentioned) and think they have gnosis when they don't even have rudimentary self-awareness, this is what happens when hylic retards get their hands on spiritual knowledge, they don't even have any connection to Spirit and are overcompensating like a guy with smol peepee syndrome, the trash will take itself out eventually just like the Tower of Babel did

>>20433195
Shut up and take your estrogen retard

Someone give me sex

>>20433536
The acknowledgement of the spectacle is the demiurge.

>>20433535
couldn't be me!

I think I'm gonna do the castity route.

>>20433544
No thanks, I like being a guy. Though I think you like being a female, so bend over, nigger

>>20433507
>waaaa waaa /lit/ is full of retards who dont read
>*starts calling people midwits for not reading their obscure books marxist feminist books

>>20433544
>>20433553
go away and take your negative vibes with you

>>20433542
I knew two people who went to AA.

One was a child abuser who continued to drink for the entire period of time he was at AA

Another wrongly accused me of being on drugs when I developed schizophrenia and got me kicked out of my own house into homelessness

God and Christian forgiveness only make sense as honeypots for the damned imho. If your heart weighs heavily on you to the point you need forgiveness Anubis will rightly judge you.

>>20433555
I read top shelf books only anon, nice trips though

To highlight and clarify some of the key points in Jung’s sense of religion, and the sources he found that confirmed and amplified his own experiences of the Divine.

Jung was still a schoolboy when he formed some key conclusions about God and religion. These (which will be explained below) include:

God is an overpowering figure
that Christianity is one-sided in regarding God as only good
that dogma, creeds and other religious habits serve as blocks to experiencing God
that inner experience of God is important in standing up to authority and authorizing one’s own life
As he matured and experienced more of life, and read more widely, especially in esoteric literature, other ideas (nascent in the schoolboy) became more developed:

the importance of individuation: becoming who and what one is
that evil and the devil are real
that there are no moral absolutes
that there is value in all religious traditions
God is evident in many ways: visions, dreams, Nature, synchronicities etc.
that God is a process, an on-going relationship we have
Some ideas Jung was able to articulate and write about in depth later in his life:

that doubt and skepticism have value by revealing the weakness of faith or belief
that we need to abandon ourselves utterly to God
that God will grant us “glimpses into His own being”
that God needs man
that the old forms of religion no longer hold truth for most people
These 15 ideas provide the essence of Jung’s sense of religion, and he found plenty of confirmation for them in a variety of sources beyond his own personal experience.

God is an overpowering figure.

I was responsible for the Hindenburg disaster and the guilt has been eating away at me for the past 85 years.
I never should have opened that flame. But what did I know? In a way I was forced to do it.

>>20433555
are you implying that "obscure marxist feminist books" popular here? what planet are you on?

>>20433171
Jimmy lured the girls over to his house, wherein they were quickly hypnotized by the succubite that had taken over the body of his mother. The spirit was of the classic vampiric type and had been pupating in the body of Jimmy's mother for some time. Finally her hollow fangs had grown out to sufficient length and after a hundred years of sepulchral slumber followed by several months of metamorphic possession of Jimmy's mother it was ready to dine. The two girls were directed to the basement of the nondescript ranch-style home. There they were sat and chained to a leather love chair, when the succubus suddenly and violently bit into the first girl's neck with a resounding crunch. After the passage of half an hour of such monstrous degustation the unclean spirit repeated the same act, with equal vehemence and violence, upon the second. A quarter of each girl's respective blood was consumed this way. The girls were left quite pale and empty eyed at the end. At the so-called witching hour the vampiric succubus again visited her two prisoners, who sat deathly still as if under a voodoo spell. Quickly she reached up under the first girl's skirt and brought her panties down to her ankles, then she spread the girl's legs and stuck her face between them till it was concealed by her skirt like a veil. Again a resounding "crunch" was heard as the succubus mercilessly sunk her fangs into the girl's plump labia majora. She suckled on this fat and succulent repast for about an hour. The proceeding night she did the same for an even longer period of time on the second. By the third night both girls had been sucked dry from head to foot, with bites on various tender parts and orifices. The exsanguinate zombies, now cold as marble, were put into a coffin each and left in the basement. They would remain perfectly preserved in their undead state until such time as the ritual of vampiric initiation was deemed propitious. Such ritual, ironically, would entail a quite gruesome and baroque execution that represented both their death to life and rebirth as undead succubi in their own right.

>>20433575
Bad posture.
Weak lower third, little frontal growth.
Nice bod and hair though.
Would open that box.

>>20433585
vampire girls are so fucking hot
In fantasy at least
I don't find jewesses attractive irl

Bros I'm so lonely please be my friend

>>20433591
will you be nice

>>20433559
I wasn't even trying to be negative the other guy started it. Should have kept his mouth shut

>>20433592
I have a mean sense of humor but its meant well

I'm starting to think that Archeology is a Victorian hoax. I know that dinosaurs and a "billions and billions" year old world history isn't real. So it would logically make sense that the tombs, treasures and artifacts from Ancient Egypt and Ancient Greece were manufactured. Do you really think that suddenly in the 1800's people bothered to disturb tombs? Graverobbers would have had thousands of years to take and pillage what they wanted. Why would British archeologists be the first, especially in due timing of the industrial revolution and professional artisans?

>>20433526
lmfao. How many tabs do you have open? Do you spend your entire day browsing random boards just to call people dumb or stupid for shitposting on a mayan pottery forum ? Does that give you a dopamine rush? You must live a sad life
Wouldnt be surprised if youre the janny deleting my posts

>>20433606
People did disturb graves for thousands of years my friend. Most ancient ruins have been looted consistently throughout history. The ones dug up in the 1800s were buried or hidden

The people simulating me are sociopaths and it would be permissible to do most things to them.

>>20433562
>Anubis
What is this, Egyptian paganism?

>>20433609
He's not the janny, he likes to report posts and cheerlead the janny when they delete them though. Usually in his simp threads, he posts a lot of the instagram "poetess" threads. He's only here to be hateful and get into arguments about online women he's simping for, very strange tranny.

>>20433623
There is only one true AA

>>20433486
>>20433497
Same thing. True

>>20433609

Do you think it possible to intentionally change your personality once you're already an adult?

Do anons on this board really give their opinions or input on books they haven’t read? If you do, you should at least admit you’ve never read it. If you can’t do that, you’re a scumbag and a big problem for this board

>>20433674
i dont think you can ever change your personality. you can become wiser with age but your personality is pretty static. this is at least what ive observed in myself and in others that ive known for a long time.

----------- Montage Cinematheque ------

I

Benign charisma feels like
Falling into the heavenly blue beyond
Cloud architecture the most articulate green rings:

Toad whirr, fireflies decorous as lawn in a light too soft, too serene
In the violence of its exclusion to accept
Dogs to our feline regime--

The immanence of atmosphere sybaritic as it is pure
Of troublesome consequence, gated
From bears by miles

To a horizon faraway as the stars,
Near as the scent of peonies feel by contrast,
The victory that horror comedy is when on a screen so small.

>>20433676
>Do people ACTUALLY just lie to other strangers on the internet!1!1

>>20433674
Yeah. Like certain parts are more difficult, but you can totally lose the sullen teen outlook, to pick one personality trait

I realized how fucking cut throat a girl's social life is in highschool (and college to some degree) when I met up with this chick. I'd say she is conventionally attractive but she was never really a part of any clique during school days. These girls, especially those who crave drama, have this cliques which makes them have this 'you are with us or against us' mentality. This toxicity feeds between them and anyone who for any part isn't a part of their group ends up being their target for any kind of slander and gossip. This girl I met unfortunately was a big target just because, and it baffles me how this clique of "popular" girls kept pestering her till she started college. With my own experience with highschool, I'd say groups with the social hierarchal attitude are usually the ones who think they're the popular/pretty group or the ones in student council. Maybe it was part due to my ignorance or aloofness I never really paid much attention to it but it did exist looking back. (Although for some reason a lot my juniors looked up to me, I don't know why) But being a girl must've meant you'd had to walk a tight rope of social balances to keep your image from being tarnished.
Funnily enough, in college that shit more or less disappears. Unless it's some college for a specific skill/course, people mind their own business and live their lives.

>>20433674
Yes, as long as you can deal with the discomfort of change. Everyone has a few innate trait, but humans are very adaptable if they push themselves

>>20433674
Yes. Thats what charaterizes adulthood (and thus agency)

It's really just never gonna stop hurting.

Fucker could have prevented this easily. All his friends did. And he was just so fucking sure that he was fine, actually, he was handling it, he was gonna get better, just a temporary setback. Guy's fucking discord profile is still "I'll be out of the hospital in a few days."

Every other time it was a good ending, you know? Like, sometimes dramatic bullshit where somebody gets hit by a car, but fuck, at least there was drama. This was farce.

And this is it. Random shit is going to remind me of him for the rest of my fucking life, and the feeling will never be good. It's always going to be a groan. It's always going to be "My god, Niko, you just needed to do one fucking thing." That's it.

>>20433686
I thank God every day that I am no longer in high school

>>20433683
I see no reason to lie here. Especially when everyone is anonymous

>>20433681
I hope that's not true

>>20433624
Its interesting because he always calls other people dumb or insults others threads/posts but hes probably the easiest poster to identify.

anytime i see someone be successful in something i couldn't be i just don't want to talk to them or associate with them not because i'm jelly of them but because i can feel the dread of somebody telling me that i'm not as good as them which makes me think that the person better than me thinks less of me
my life is just one long dodge or seethe in some ways

Alright bros I'm onto the second movie and 9th beer of the night

>>20433699
i dont mean to say that you cant change yourself or make improvements, I just think personality runs deep and is too fundamental to change.

>>20433703
What movie are you watching anon?

>>20433674
Yes absolutely, also stop visualizing your personality as an accumulated structure that you can either leave up or tear down and re-make, picture it instead like organically grown parts of you that might have initially grown out of something ugly (like a coping mechanism response to some kind of trauma or insecurity) and might currently be aimed at something incorrect (like continued projection of your insecurity, which you have become "good" at, so it's even harder to stop), but in and of themselves the organic parts of you are not good or bad.

A person who internalized a lot of abuse can turn the hypersensitivity or hypervigilance they built up as a coping mechanism into a vehicle for something beautiful, by re-planting the same plant in a better soul and aiming it toward the light instead of toward maladaptive things. Sometimes the knot is harder to untangle than other times, and some people need a lot of work. But nothing about you is ever just accidental or broken, as long as you're working toward good things and trying to be a good person.

>>20433710
Just watched Nightcrawler. Havent decided what to watch next. Thinking some throwaway horror flick

>>20433703
Drink lots of water and eat food to balance it out, stop drinking so heavy anon the hangover is going to suck

>found u anon

>>20433591
Literally me anon, literally me
Its a sad and lonely world

>>20433722
I'm a professional anon. I drink because I hate myself so the hangover is all part of the game.

>>20433275
You look like this

>>20433736
I used to live like that and I have watched too many people die like that, withering away well past the point that it's ironic. Try to stop, I did and I never looked back, fuck alcohol it's a disease.

>>20433742
>defending /pol/ - Politically Incorrect
yikes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>20433743
I try to keep it contained to friday and saturday nights. I function well otherwise. Its just that I get to friday and I hype myself up and tell myself that I'll do something fun and exciting. And then I end up alone and bored. I need something to do so I pick up beer and throw on a movie. I get this feeling that going to bed early is a waste of the night so I stay up and drink as much as I can. And then the next day is all suffering until it's late enough for me to feel good enough to drink again.

>>20433275
Lit might truly be dead. The shooting was the coup d’etat. It’s sad scrolling through this board

>>20433757
>60 year old lesbian concern trolling zoomers

i'm stupid and there's nothing i can do about it

>>20433758
easy../pol/ worship is not mandatory (yet)

I have realized that reading a lot really isn't going to make me that much wiser or present solutions to my problems, even if all i read is muh classics.

>>20433760
Holy shit, not everyone who isnt some kind of anarcho commie is a /pol/tard. Most of the human species is right wing, mothshit

>>20433757
How so, how is the shooting killed lit?

>>20433775
this is a place to get away from "most of the human species", you mongoloid

>>20433688
>>20433688
t's hard for me to figure out what pushing yourself really looks like as an adult. You know, when you're young and you want to do something or get better at something the first step is just showing up. As an adult, there's not really anything to show up to.

>>20433786
Sure but that doesnt make it a commie hugbox

>>20433792
do you feel there's a heavy commie presence on this board?

>>20433800
Would be relevant to my post if there were or weren't?

Watched Lake Mungo under the recommendation of an anon in last thread. Got some chills, I liked the mourn arch of the family. Overall kinda boring though

>>20433800
>a heavy commie
Yeah, it's you

>>20433806
i mean you brought it up. is plain old civility a "commie" trait to you?

>>20433786
>this is a place to get away from "most of the human species", you mongoloid

>>20433815
No, it isnt. Being a whiney faggot who complains about /pol/ every other post is.

>>20433815
>i mean you brought it up. is plain old civility a "commie" trait to you?

Best way to avoid being too conceited?

>>20433812
You got time for another movie?

>>20433822
gotcha. stupid of me to use /pol/ as shorthand for a wider issue

>>20433779
Influx of people to 4chan because it’s anonymous. The containment board overflowed. I’m pretty center-right, but many here are just venting hot air with no substance, and radical views, which sucks when you want to read about and discuss books(I know lit was never great, but it was wayyy better). Watch all the meme pics and one liners I’ll get from this post.

>>20433674
People can change facets of their personality but their nature stays the same. There will always be some intrinsic behavior that you cannot change.

I beg the question, why even focus on changing ones personality in the first place? It's who you are and it changes organically. With an artificial personality you are no longer "you" as defined by your nature and past but rather some psychological automaton trying to go against your own experiences. Accept yourself rather than rejecting and changing who you naturally are.

>>20433787
I think you need to figure out what you want to “show up to”, and then show up. Don’t ask what that is because that is different for everyone and for you to figure out

>>20433852
Life alters our personality whether we like it or not. To change your personality just means to take some agency in the process.

>>20433826
If you have to ask, you're fine. I cannot emphasize this enough.

>>20433742
I heard somewhere that LBGTBBQ was more prevalent with minorities somewhere but I lost the article

Third-dimensional swine are revolting.

It always surprises me how much Nietzsche has lifted from Emerson

>>20433875
I hate the cops too

I've been reading C&P recently and realized that Leopold and Loeb had practically the exact same reasons for their crime. Was interesting to me.

>>20433828
got any idea?

>>20433171
Maybe I'm reading too much into this or maybe this pretty much gets to the gist of killer's dysfunction, as told by the killer's own father:

"The gunman’s father, also called Salvador Ramos, said, in a separate interview with the Daily Beast: “I just want the people to know I’m sorry, man, [for] what my son did.

“I never expected my son to do something like that,” he said, adding: “He should’ve just killed me, you know, instead of doing something like that to someone.”

Apart from the utter gratuitousness of the facility with which weapons of mass carnage can be obtained by even 18 year olds in the US, is there not something Hamletian about many of these young spree killers? To put it bluntly, like Hamlet who spends the entire play dealing with the desire to kill the despised father figure that is his uncle (usurper of the real father, of the father Hamlet deserved), the king, and only achieves after the death of many others throughout the play, isn't it possible, even likely, that these massacres (in Newtown and Uvalde notably against the most helpless innocents) are essentially displaced attacks against the killer's own father/father figure? A sort of hate-love of the father, i.e. a chimeric mental state of quasi-hatred of the latter that they cannot materialize/convert into the latter's assassination because of a countervailing force of fear-love for the same? Sensing that they will be driven mad if they do and likewise if they do not, the conflict eventually overflows the future killer's psychic dykes as it were, and, like a river, finds and follows an easier course: an attack on children, other families' children, and by extent other (perhaps subconsciously envied) fathers.

>>20433906
Interesting theory but I think spree killers are trying to lash out more at society in general rather than any specific individual. Notice how in spree killers who left manifestos and digital history they tend to focus more on a broad groups like "women" or "minorities" or institutions like their workplace or school. Even if they did have some deeply repressed psychological loathing towards an individual it doesn't explain the attacks on such targets, rather they would attack people in relation to those individuals. A good example of this are serial killers, Edmund Kemper in particular had a poor relationship with his mother so he targeted individual women, compared to an incel who (rightly) feel like all women are at fault so their violence is more indiscriminate.

i'm losing my desire to learn. losing the lust for knowledge.. where is my curiosity? why is it going away

>>20433906
I might be able to attest to this. I experienced school-shooter inclinations in middle school, I did not know of the existence of a school shooting at the time, but I did delve into and enjoy fantasies of harming and murdering my classmates. I remember telling a therapist back then that I related to holden caulfield, lol. I had a poor relationship with my father, who despite not being consumed by work was still emotionally neglectful and verbally abusive. As I did not have friends and struggled socially, school became a sort of prison where I spent the day dissociating until I could go home and play videogames to escape. Had I not that stress reliever, had guns been freely available around the house, I don't know what I may had done had my stress overwhelmed me. I do feel like a massive amount of my resentment was due to the my father. And while I am still disgusted with him, as I've grown older I've managed to stand up for myself and end the abuse, and now he has become docile, friendly and tries to be a "good father" all of a sudden. My yearning for a father still exists, so I will play along and indulge the desire. However the grudge still exists, and I would welcome his death.

>>20433936
for me, its
>things that Im interested in - non profitable
>things that I need to be interested in - profitable

>>20433906
>>20433931
A lot of school shootings tend to end in suicides, I think one of the causes of shootings may be an explosive manifestation of destrudo towards both oneself and others. People who have negative feelings towards themselves may be inclined towards suicide, while people with negative feelings towards others may be inclined towards violence. When someone has a lot of hatred towards both themselves and others it will come first as violence then as suicide.

>>20433972
This is most definitely it. The intense suffering combined with constant close proximity to others who do not acknowledge the suffering breeds intense resentment. Suicide comes either way, there's no way to commit a school shooting without destroying yourself.

>>20433852
I don’t like my personality.

i plan to write a novel about a mass murderer. he'll start off as a good person and then become a murderer over the course of the novel. i need to learn a lot more about what motivates these people though; it will be uncomfortable to put myself in their shoes.

>>20433998
Who does?

>>20434000
my twisted world already did it better than whatever you'll come up with

>>20433855
No, I already know what it is. I can’t articulate this question very well.

>>20434006
haven't even gotten around to read that yet. guess i need to at some point. i'm going to do it regardless of whether it turns out good because i think it'll be fun

>>20433444
>>20433455

Here is for you on your spiritual journey. May the Most Merciful guide you amen


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNlJsykyaVk

>>20433171
Marx talked about how people living under Capitalism are manipulated in ways so that the typical relations are twisted to be beneficial towards Capital.
Family bonds, religious bonds, these things are all twisted under Capital. Marx's solution was Communism, a whole different system and way of life.
That failed. So what now? Now, I think it's best to conform to something I call the philosophy of understanding. By understanding something, much of the potential harm contained within it dissipates. This doesn't apply to all concepts, but enough to be a worthwhile idea.
The way this applies to Capitalism is that by simply becoming aware of the ways Capital manipulates these traditional bonds, by understanding the way it achieves this manipulation, we can practically sidestep these issues while still living and functioning in a Capitalist society.

Shivering and vomiting with a flu on gf's birthday (obtained from her). She's crying because I didn't take her out today, doesn't like me anymore

>>20433171
>minds
you absolute retard

>>20434000
Take it from someone who almost went off the deep end. Wanted to do a shooting, but never had the balls to buy a gun. My plan was to make little explosive charges to blow the locks off the doors of the classrooms once the school went into lockdown so that no one could hide from me. Just killing two classrooms of people (30x2) would've given me a high score of 60.
I made these two posts, in fact: >>20433931 >>20433972 . Didn't want to admit I understood where these people are coming from because I was one of those people myself.

I felt alienated both at home and at school, my parents were neglectful at best and abusive at worst. I was bullied and excluded at school, and vividly remember being singled out for humiliation several times. It felt like everyone was hostile to me, all the time. In computer science - a class I thought I would fit in, the first week of class, some guy just started taking the piss out of me unprovoked. Every project I worked on, he was there to tell me that I had no idea what I was doing. Looking back he was obviously a jealous cunt - he had to copy his code from his friends while I did everything myself.
Band was another place where someone at the bottom of the social hierarchy should've fit in but even in band I was singled out. I just wanted to play music - that's all I was there for. But everyone else was hypercompetitive and kept pushing me down, saying I was a bad player because I didn't master some technical piece.
I was a loser in the eyes of the losers. That's not even counting the shit talking I got from normies and my declining grades. Around this time I found out about 4chan (/r9k/ specifically), Elliot Rodgers, Columbine, and incel forums and could relate to these people. Ironically I think these groups saved me even if they gave me inspiration for what I could've done. Just knowing there were other people out there like me, and that there was one place I wasn't alienated from was comforting. There was a sense of solidarity, I guess. Rather than take out my resentment on other people (then myself) I could share my experiences with anons and fellow incels as a support group.
If you want to make your mass murderer, just alienate him from everything and give him no choice but to take out that hatred on other people. It's what almost happened to me.

>>20434044
wow, thanks for the long reply. i saved it (along with your other two posts) to my bank of research materials to reference when i begin compiling the skeleton. you've given me some invaluable data—a first-hand account is not an easy thing to come by when it comes to topics like this. i hope you're doing better now, anon. loneliness is, in my opinion, the single most destructive thing a human brain can undergo. godspeed

>>20433895
The Neon Demon

>>20433845
>everyone but me is the problem
Time to do some introspection butterfly

>>20433171
I wish i never met you because
The moment i first heard you speak
It lit a fire inside me
Enough to send upward trails of smoke
Which unclasped the hatchdoor of my mind
Inured to lonesome days and silent nights

Why let me breathe
When i must go back underwater
Why give me a sight of sun
When below the earth i shall return
My actress
Who but once read off lines
I could not have hoped to write in a thousand lifetimes

I don't blame you
I'm a fucked up man who never grew up
And wants you as his upbeat life-affirming companion who might
Soothe the yearning for amputated ends
Remove from mind those vanished causes
And help me discover that there is a future outside of what I've known

That there might still be a life external to striving for acclaim and thoughts of waste
One of warmth, laughter, love and home
Of children and growing old and trips to the forest and lake

But i remain stuck in my timeline
And you in yours
Walking two threaded paths of an untied knot
So as much as hope conspires to forget
The truth i know is simpler
Our paths shall not cross once more

>>20433758
>>20434072
You’re swatting at someone else, bub. I got better things to do (ha. But still monitoring this thread for whatever reason)

>>20434087
Oh well sorry to drag your name into then

>>20433171
I broke up with a girl in 2020 before COVID because she was distracting my studies and I wanted to focus on my career. But truly, I liked her very much (and she liked me even more) and I didn't enjoy the light headed feeling I had.

I told her never to reach out to me again and I blocked her. She graduated recently and I feel a strong impulse to just wish her a congratulations and nothing else.

Should I do it? I don't want anything to come of it and I don't want to share her any life updates but I find myself thinking more and more about her recently

I don't have anyone to talk about this in real life because I'm intensely private about any romantic relations. Please advise.

Who the fuck is butterfly? Is it some transexual?

>>20434143
You're a real fucking retard anon. You fucked up. Simple as.

>>20434143
You burned that bridge and now you wanna shout at her from across the chasm? Forget it.

>>20433171
I seem to regress 11 years in the span of a month.
I hope this is just temporary, but we all must be reminded sometimes, of our limitations.

>>20434158
My career has been actually going downhill since I made that decision, but I don't regret it. I do find weird that I still think about her and sometimes I wonder if she placed a curse on me. Some female I barely knew guessed I was thinking about an ex once when there was no one else around. I don't think I was that obvious, but still surprised.

I'm not interested in love. There are many other pursuits I rather engage in that I find much more important.

>>20434157
No. Not trans anything

>>20434159
She told me she wanted to keep in touch. I burnt it because I was going to be leaving university by the end of the year and there was no point in continuing the relationship.

I don't know why this keeps bugging me after 2 years. I did the whole "no contact" thing so this wouldn't happen.

>>20434166
>She told me she wanted to keep in touch
Yeah, she told you that two years ago. Ship's sailed.

>>20434162
>I don't regret it. I do find weird that I still think about her and sometimes
Contradictions in this statement
>Some female I barely knew guessed I was thinking about an ex
Dont read too much into it. Could be awild guess or just a womans intuition. Its nothing supernatural in either case.
>I'm not interested in love. There are many other pursuits I rather engage in
Seems like another contradiction. Clearly you dont know how you feel. I'd say the fact that you're asking at all indicates a strong desire for her.
You may as well contact her again. There isnt really anything you have to lose by doing so. Just dont expect a happily ever after. If you do contact her, be prepared for heartbreak.

>>20434168
I'm not interested in getting back together. We live in completely different cities now. Is it really that bad to wish them a happy birthday and congrats for graduation?

>>20434173
Yeah, because it's completely for your own benefit. What if she's happily in a relationship? What if it was a struggle for her in dealing with why you broke up with her? If you give the slightest shit about her, don't dredge up her past for the sake of a shitty platitude. I say "her past" because that's what you are: in her past. Move on.

>>20434173
>I'm not interested in getting back together
Then why contact her at all? Yet another contradiction. Anon it is evident to me that you dont understand your own feelings. Do some deep introspection.

>>20434176
Ok, you're correct. But how do I move on? I feel like I'm psychologically regressing now and don't know how to escape. Sure, maybe it will pass with time again but I would like to get over this sooner than later.

>>20434191
Meet another woman

>>20434186
Maybe it's just plain loneliness from me anon. I cut off a lot of friends to focus on what I thought was the most important thing to me. I reached out and met a couple recently and frankly I'm still not interested in continuing those old friendships. I've outgrown them.

In pursuit of "glory," I turned myself into some ridiculous hermit who only tolerates some obscure books now.

>>20434191
You sit with the feeling. Allow the feeling of wanting to reach out to her. Don't try to force it away or pretend it isn't there, but also don't let it drive your actions or erode your self-control. You're not "regressing," as there is ultimately no place you "should" otherwise be. You are only precisely where you are. There's nowhere else you can be, since nobody gets to choose their emotions. This too shall pass.

>>20434198
Anon cant you see the contradictions in your post? You like hermitage but want friends, you're uninterested in your ex but want to reconnect. Obviously you've pursued a goal that hasnt satisifed. You still want a thing which brings no fulfillment. Those friends you left behind are what you seem to be at least subconsciously yearning for.
Now you've only given me a barebones breakdown and I'm only a layman. I cannot diagnose you. So I think you need to think very deeply about this. What are these things you feel you lack and you feel you want and how do they contrast with your present lifestyle. Remember: you wants dont always manifest directly. Perhaps an obsessive thought is a want. Really think about it anon, and act wisely.

>>20434197
This would only make problem worse. I did dates with girls before, but nothing anything too long lasting. With this girl, I dated the longest and I'm still having problems. I couldn't think straight with her, especially the 24 hours we last met. It wasn't helpful or productive towards my studies.

>>20434207
I know it's all contradictory! I don't know how to resolve it or if it's even something to try to resolve. Maybe I'm not even cut out for what I want to do!

I've always wanted to make a discovery, an archaeological or medical one specifically. It's not about my name being remembered - it would be better if it's not.

However, as strange as it sounds, I've always felt a connection to the people in history who had a manic curiosity and felt compelled to unravel nature's secrets for its own sake but also for the future few people who are truly interested in this type of pursuit.

Many people are not curious in their day-to-day lives and it's often dissapointing to find no one cares, but thinking about someone with a similar temperament in the future being inspired by to continue their search for nature's secrets because of someone's past success compels me as some positive impact I can leave.

This is a bit rambling and its late, but it's a compulsion I've always had since I was a child and what always pushed me to take my studies seriously.

>>20433536
>google priory of sion
>the wikipedia article tips their hand too far and says that it was a "failed" group
>know via pure contrarianism that it must therefore be the exact opposite
have faith

How does Gardner manage to be so self-serious and humorless while writing absolute trash? It's actually really impressive that he can claim the Divine Comedy and classics in general as an influence. Read the first page of literally anything he's written and it's painfully obvious that he's never read anything at all.

>>20434238
Thats all very interesting. You have a professional desire as well as a personal. You want to be a great pioneer in science. But it seems like your desire for renown in scientific discovery has made a direct head with your desire for interpersonal relationships. Do they have to be mutually exclusive? Do you really have to be a hermit to read esoteric books? Do you really know what you truly want?
I think there's room for human interaction within your desired profession anon. Don't be autistic. Do both.
This will sound a little cringe but watch that Adam Sandler movie "Click"
I think it will speak to you

>>20433176
>>20433185
>>20433181
>>20433186
>>20433187
Based jannies BTFOing coomers

I just wanna see if this works

>>20434143
You fucked up.

>>20434249
>Read the first page of literally anything he's written
I'm never going to do that.

>>20433444
Sappy nonsense

All my missed opportunities are weighing on me

peepee poopoo

>>20434342
For me, its regret over making the wrong choices. Thanks God.

>>20433171
Little bird, under shelter

I'm never gonna make it.

>>20434351
I'm currently daydreaming (nightdreaming?) abour all the things i could have done differently.
My best cope is that I can only know the best decisions to have made in hindsight. I had to make mistakes to know what mistakes are. I guess it alleviates some pain, but ultimately if I were a little less retarded everything could have been ideal.
I hate these thoughts. I hate regret.

I don't know how to begin. I'm haunted by what happened a decade ago. It sill hangs over me. I just dont know how to move on

>>20434394
I have the same coping mechanism like "it was meant to happen in that way" or "its the bigger plan". However I still live with painful regret to the point that I dont really care about current moment as even if I'd manage to fix my current problems, Im not going back to the past to fix the wrong choices and live out the missed experiences.

>>20434388
You're going to make it

I need a job

>>20434408
Stop giving me false hopes, it hurts.

Well here I am. Wasted again. Up til 3am. Just drinking. Is there anything more?

>>20434481
what are you drinking?

>>20433686
Male and female education must be separate

>>20434000
>i need to learn a lot more about what motivates these people though; it will be uncomfortable to put myself in their shoes
You can't.
You should write what you know

>>20434157
Worse - a woman.

>>20434143
You fucking idiot what the fuck
You like a girl and she likes you and you dump her.... for university? Are you a sociopath or just retarded? What the fuck am I reading this made me so angry
If this were me I would be so grateful... fuck you nigga im going into incel rage

>>20434173
>I'm not interested in getting back together. We live in completely different cities now
So don't contact her
>wish them a happy birthday
Wish HER a happy birthday you illiterate american retard

>>20434598
>you illiterate american retard
You don't understand, he hasn't seen her in years, he dared not assume her gender anymore. Maybe the cold and heartless way he dumped her and cut all contact with her for literally nothing ruined her and she started taking testosterone.

wow a football player at virginia tech beat a gay dude to death for pretending to be a chick on tinder and got acquitted! look at these people celebrating.

>>20434756
Go back to twitter, queer

>>20434765
a proud man of color avoids the school to prison pipeline and all you have to say is a whimsical quip?

>>20434776
Like I give a fuck about either party.

>>20434756
TL;DR: enraged homophobic man-baby footballer acquitted of murdering drag queen after sexual encounter because the footballer was terrified that his manhood would be called into question by “his boys” if they’d ever had reason to believe he’d enjoyed his experience with the drag queen.

>>20434800
Faggots need to be put back in the closet.

>>20434810
Oh, grow up.

What should I read next Atomised or Crash by Ballard?

>>20434837
No, it's clear that letting them have any kind of societal acceptance was a terrible mistake.

Is it a good idea to go after the friend of my crush who friendzoned me? I don't know why but ever since I've been friendzoned by my crush. I've been hit by extreme feelings towards a particular friend of hers who I have never even interacted with.

>>20434920
read Atomized and watch Crash

>>20433171
That blimp looks like a fat ass
I wonder how great is its mass.
Surely it could suffocate me
if I would let it sit on top of me.
I would take a deep whiff of it
and sigh in bliss as I shit.
Truly, I would rush it like a zerg,
and collapse like the Hindenburg.

I'm obsessed with this one girl on Instagram from my town, only really saw her in her real life once but now I want to track her down and follow where she hangs out and maybe try to talk to her then

>>20434988
This will end in a murder and a sensational news story

>>20435005
Nah, I don't think she'll resort to murder straight away. She'll just beat him up.

im constantly heavily tempted to shoot myself in the head. my life is 'good' (good job, gf, good prospects etc) but i want to blow my head clean off. its not even really depressing its just kinda like i am not really here

>>20435248
when would you say you're at your happiest?

>>20435248
same but without job, prospects, gf and depressed.

>>20434671
>Maybe the cold and heartless way he dumped her and cut all contact with her for literally nothing ruined her and she started taking testosterone.
I didn't just ghost her anon. I told her before hand we needed to break up and we had one final date where we cleared the air and talked one last time.


Do people really keep in contact with their exes that often?

>>20434143
I wouldn't do it, but you're your own man and should make your own decisions. I suspect that we're quite similar in that we put ourselves over others and devalue the ones who care for us. In my own case I have little problem leaving people, but to be this way I think you need to put your temporary and self-serving desire for human contact, which will inevitably wane as your interests or autonomy take priority, to the side to avoid hurting others.

Also, you should read Joyce's A Painful Case.

>>20433536
Sangham Saranam Gachami
(You) can succ me

>>20433931
Thats an ugly ass pussy
That is not a good looking pussy
You are digusting

>>20435345
Ask not what the sangha can do for you but what you can do for the sangha

JFK got Qancer

Take a pencil or other sharp object and point the tip close to your forehead without touching. You should feel a phantom tingling on your forehead. If you don't, try doing it while looking in a mirror, or have someone else hold it - you want to induce the anticipation of a sensation.

Now close your eyes and focus on the sensation and you'll find that the more focused you are on the sensation, the stronger it becomes. What you're doing is creating a feedback loop between anticipation and perception to create phantom perceptions. Congrats, a wizard is you.

Once you're familiar with this sensation you can conjure it without a prop, and begin to experiment with it. This phantom tingling can be felt in other places of the body, such as the crown of the head the fingers, and the toes. With greater practice one can engulf one's entire body in this phantom tingling.

The same basic mechanism can be used to induce visual hallucinations, sensations of hot and cold, even emotions. "Astral travel" is basically entering a lucid dream-like state directly from consciousness, and is a totally immersive experience.

The point of all of this is to show how powerfully your perception is bent by anticipation - not just by your will, but by others as well. The risk of self-delusion is ever-present. "The spectacle" is essentially a mass perception-bending apparatus that deludes the participant into perceiving images as reality. Think of how people can fall in love (or hate) with people on the TV screen - people they've never even met, and know about only through stories and images. Think about how angry some people get at posts on the internet. Churches use perception bending to "induce the holy spirit." On this plus side, perception-bending can be used to place one's self in the role of another to empathize with them, and is essential for communication.

Im so angry towards because I keep expecting too much from others when those things are the most basic ones.

>>20435352
Fuck off normalfag

Being a bad Buddhist is better than being a good Christian. Being a Christian Buddhist is like being a retard in the Bat Cave.

I've lived most of my life through a screen.

>>20435289
>Also, you should read Joyce's A Painful Case.
Funny, you mention that. I reread Dubliners in the final month I was with her.

I've decided against reach out to her after a rest. Same decision as before after night's sleep. I just hope the urge doesn't come back again.


>>20434592
Only complete losers get in relationships for the sake of relationships and those are usually quite miserable.

It wasn't going to be possible to maintain it when I was leaving in a couple months anyways and the obvious COVID lockdowns about to happen just made it clear it was time to pull the plug. Grow up.

>Do they have to be mutually exclusive? Do you really have to be a hermit to read esoteric books?
More than you probably think. If I want to get through the volume of work that I need to do, then I need that time. Besides, most of those relationships seem to hinder my ability to accomplish work than maybe enhance it as some emergent property from engaging in a "psychologically health" lifestyle.

>>20435399
Last part is for >>20434288. Thanks for talking with me last night anon.

"Hands free fapping"
What a phrase
I cummed this morning a bucket load from pure throbbing thought alone. I felt my soul and matter leave me like a depleted mine.
Forgive me father for I have a thing for black womyn.

>>20435278
Probably when I am intellectually engaged in things, or arguments/discussions that are ernest. I find that happens less and less since leaving uni. Im applying to some jobs now that i think will be more engaging. Part of how i feel i think comes from a feeling im wasting my life that seems at odds with my real position. Im scared that no matter what i do/achieve ill always feel this way

>>20435456
Try amateur astronomy. The night sky is a glorious tapestry that has inspired humanity since the beginning of history. There's a world of intellectual discovery to be had, if you're looking for it. The appreciation of natural beauty refreshes the soul like nothing else.

>>20435477
astronomybot pls

Theosophists and Freemasons (and a lot of occult schools) believed that there would come a time where the old yellow and red races would die out- and that the future race of humans would be a hybrid, especially in the west, a black and white mixture.
Steiner, I think, would agree with this, and he called the west a mechanical/materialistic race. He also predicted a rise in the east of mixtures of yellow and slavic people, and in the future a combining of east and west into possibly some bronze perfection of humanity.
It feels like the previous two are being carved out right now and could have very much to do with the contrived "war" in Ukraine - which seems to be a carving up of territory for these new races to take place. A true distinction between east and west that will probably carry on for the next 200 years - which, I think, will coincide with coming of the Aquarian age.
So, this leaves the problem of Africa, particularly the black race. With populations dwindling with modernity, Africa is exploding in numbers and would in the future upset the aforementioned balance that is to come. Of course, the West with its pandering and virtue signaling is impotent to deal with the African problem, I predict the East, particularly the Chinese, to take these matters into hand (covertly with the blessing of the West) and we will have one last war of all wars which will be a massive blood letting of the impulsive Negroes.
With that accomplished, the world will know peace.

>>20435494
put the pipe down

>>20435494
Makes me feel ashamed to be Scots. Our background is full of that shit

>>20435222
Women are weaker than men and no one is bulletproof

>>20434598
>illiterate american retard
Buttmad ESLs at it again

big dicks will rule the world

>>20434238
Don’t assume that these people with manic curiosity did not have satisfying social lives, or that they even prioritized their work over their partner.

>>20434249
Because his work is peak esoteric /lit/. It sounds like you’re going into his work with the wrong idea. Pic related.

>>20434427
I need money

Well bros I slept til noon and have a raging hangover. I should have listened to the anon last night

>>20435285
>I told her never to reach out to me again and I blocked her
sounds like you acted like she was a terrible person, she probably felt that way a little bit

>>20435360
yo can i use to phantom tingling on my penis to give myself phantom handjobs?

i coulda had class, i coulda been a contender. i coulda been somebody...

Reading through my posts last night, I was pretty damn coherent for being black out wasted

>>20436166
i feel the same way and i didn't even drink. i have a migraine and feel slight nausea. i didn't do anything yesterday.

The primordial relationship is between yourself and the world. The nature of this categorical Other I've never felt as a "God" or anything like it, but much more a romantic partner: something like a co-creator, and certainly not a divine, unchanging monarch.

Hey blog, I'm gonna go get energy drinks and pizza

Just finished Descartes' Discourse on Method and Meditations what philosopher do I move on to now?

>>20436301
geronimo stilton

>>20435477
What Bortle level do you consider acceptable for taking the telescope out?

My girlfriend and I drove out to a Bortle 1 and it was a religious experience even with my mediocre telescope.
https://shop.astronomerswithoutborders.org/products/awb-onesky-reflector-telescope

A kike, a nigger and a faggot walk into a bar. What’s the name of the book?

>>20435360
This is correct. But it goes beyond that into the truly spooky. As some scientists believe in certain unusual, usually highly fraught, situations, direct eye to eye contact can transmit actual images from one mind to another with a significant imagistic level of thought as well.

>>20436326
>In the great formative period of theistic philosophy, which ended with the rise of Mahometanism, after a continuance coeval with civilization, three strains of thought emerge which, amid many variations in detail, respectively fashion God in the image of an imperial ruler [nigger], God in the image of a personification of moral energy [Kike], God in the image of an ultimate philosophical principle [faggot]. Hume's Dialogues criticize unanswerably these modes of explaining the system of the world.

>The three schools of thought can be associated respectively with the divine Caesars, the Hebrew prophets, and Aristotle. But Aristotle was antedated by Indian, and Buddhistic, thought; the Hebrew prophets can be paralleled in traces of earlier thought; Mahometanism and the divine Caesars represent the most natural, obvious, idolatrous theistic symbolism, at all epochs and places.

>The history of theistic philosophy exhibits various stages of combination of these three diverse ways of entertaining the problem. There is, however, in the Galilean origin of Christianity yet another suggestion which does not fit very well with any of the three main strands of thought. It does not emphasize the ruling Caesar, of the ruthless moralist, or the unmoved movers. It dwells upon the tender elements in the world, which slowly and quietly operate by love; and it finds its purpose in the present immediacy of a kingdom not of this world. Love neither rules, nor is it unmoved; also it is a little oblivious as to morals. It does not look to the future; for it finds it own reward in the immediate present.

-Whitehead, Process and Reality

>>20436326
brothers karamazov

Wish for me to die in my sleep tonight, please.

Just a perfect day. You made me forget myself.
I thought I was someone else, someone good.

I'm going to speedrun my coom backlog.

>>20436408
i pray that you do not.

>>20435360
Andy Clark's Surfing Uncertainty had some other cool examples of how expectations change perception. Like how it's very hard to tell what's in these pictures at first but once you see it you can't unsee it. Or the sine-wave speech examples here: https://www.mrc-cbu.cam.ac.uk/people/matt.davis/sine-wave-speech/

Bros Im at the pizza place and some old woman is taking 15 minutes to order

>>20436447
Have patience and channel kind and gentle energy toward her, the universe is a hostile place and she doesn't know she's being annoying so she's probably just naive, or maybe she's lonely and this is the one nice human encounter she's going to have today and she's unconsciously prolonging it

Okay bros just made my order. Anchovie pizza. Hoping to God it cures my hangover.

>>20436301
Malebranche or Vico

>>20436457
I've heard people swear on sauerkraut as cure for hangover, that vitamin C probably does help a little.

>>20436455
It doesnt bother me. She's ordering a massive feast for her kids birthday. It makes me happy to see desu. Hope those kids have fun.

>>20436442
Do thoughts actually change reality?

>>20436480
Your thoughts ARE your reality.

>>20436480
I'm beginning to suspect that everything is phenomenal and there is no noumenal, which would seem to indicate that perception and reality are tied to one another.
Is that a form of subjective idealism?

Also, whoever makes the next thread please use pic related

NEUE >>20436493

Every interaction I have with another person is so stiff. It's like I'm a robot. Perhaps I'm on the spectrum, but from my understanding people on the spectrum are just oblivious to social cues. I know social cues, I can pick up on what people mean, I know how their feeling, but I just can't care. It frustrates me how I'm expected to engage in small talk. I honestly can't give a fuck about other people. I'm self centered as hell, and I don't show emotion. I know it gives people the creeps, I know people think I'm an asshole, but I hate dancing around the fire - everything would be so much easier if we forgo these facetious rituals of social interaction and just stuck to business.

>>20434581
why can't i?

>>20434249
Call of the Crocodile (the only book I’ve read of his) is supposed to be a modern retelling of The Divine Comedy. Long story but the kid in it gets trapped in purgatory or whatever then the story plays out like Dante. It’s been about a year since I read CotC but the kid constantly talks about Dante and how he’s reading the book before it happens to him.

>>20437486
I was going to point that out. The DMT part was honestly pretty neat. I read that and Call of the Arcade after hearing how Arcade was supposedly “better.”
Well, F Gardner is sort of like a one trick pony. I enjoyed the book I guess. But he does the same shit in that except with drawing parallels to Faust. So, Gardner does seem to be oddly influenced by The Classics. As weird as that is.

>>20434143
God damn. Is this what capitalism does to people? Forget personal bonds, forget love, just study so you can get a good job and uphold Capital. And you take it so seriously, you think you're an intellectual for it, but no, you're not smart, you've been ensnared by Capital.

>>20437486
Sounds based

>>20436416
You just keep me hanging on

>>20436495
Who are they?