/lit/ - Literature

First!

>>20379345
Second

Whenever I read, I get horny. Existing in that secluded state where it's only my thoughts and the pages, my thoughts morph into a directionless lust

I honestly wanted to write down a good goodbye letter to a friend of mine that I'm fond of. But he decided to ignore me after a big fight. We said our apologies and things were better for a while until one day he stopped replying..

They keep saying there is a worker shortage but every job I apply to gets hundreds of applicants. I am doomed.

With property begins the mission of women. The government of the household, this completely ideal thing that is meant to be ridiculed, is the empire of women, the monument of the family. Abolish the household, that cornerstone of the home, center of attraction for the spouses, and there will be no family. See in the big cities the working classes who, thanks to the instability of the home, the inaction of the household and the lack of property, gradually fall into concubinage and debauchery. Beings who own nothing, who are not tied to anything, who live from day to day and who can guarantee nothing, do not have to get married: it is better to remain single than to commit without resources. The working class is therefore condemned to infamy; idea that was expressed in the Middle Ages by the right of the lord, and among the Romans the prohibition of marriage made to the proletarians.

>>20379334
I'm going to bed in 1 hour.

If you demand that the consent of the people always preside over pleasure, the community is purely optional, and we fall into preferences, venality, and hoarding. Polygamy for some, bigamy for others, and treason for all: this is the current regime, canonized by Fourier under another name. The socialist sects that admit the optional community of the sexes are the same ones that, copying civilization, maintain the right of talent and capital; ultimately, the right of force. Inequality in the distribution of goods and love: that is what those hypocritical reformers want for whom justice, reason and science are nothing, provided they command others and take pleasure from it. After all, they are nothing but shameful supporters of property: they start by preaching communism, and then they confiscate the community for the benefit of their bellies.

I think I’m finally going to get back into dating after being out of it a few years. I’ve worked on myself and powered up and think I’m ready. I’m a good looking guy and have a reputation in my neighborhood and there are quite a few girls I know I can get. Problem is they’re a lot younger and I would be casting out multiple lines so I’m dreading the drama a little bit

>>20379410
Girls love older guys

books that support the divine right of kings??

Hyperinflation, high unemployment, the labour shortage, the high gass prices, the housing market, &c., &c., &c.
Damn it! We all saw it coming but the entire time they just denied denied denied and pretended like we were all stupid for seeing it. Even though these are the same people who seem incapable of learning from history and the same people who unironically think inflation will just go away if we all just ignored it or who—because of their priveleged backgrounds—believe inflation is "not that big of a deal", we all just had to sit there and accept their narrative. Don't let these faggots blame the war in Ukraine for every I'll we now have. Yeah, it's not helping but they (it almost feels like intentionally) drove us over the cliff. And we're still sending billions to Ukraine. How long are people going to keep on tolerating these shitty economic policies? I really hope zoomers are paying attention to all this shit instead of just worrying about, at most, student debt.

>>20379465
Evola

>>20379470
N.g.l desu famlam my life is going nowhere. I'm directionless, uneducated, inexperienced, and unmotivated. The whole system crashing down mignt actually be good for me

>>20379465
The Leviathan by Hobbes.

4chan is where one goes to escape the simulation, but is antithesis to it and thus a part of it. Wat do?

>>20379334
what was the point of being still ? like what did you achieve aside from being a dumbass

first day as a corporate wagie was alright.
its time for me to resume my weed studies now
https://youtu.be/5pS2jA5Z3sc

I think Forest Anon might be dead

>>20379368
Jesus christ you fucking degenerate. . . I thought I was the only one.

I rescued a baby kitten that was crying at my door a year ago. In that time, I've been a good mother to him. Trannies really are hopeless, I have acheived effortless femininity without intending upon it, and I still have my dick.

>>20379590
You were a father to to it you proto tranny faggot

>>20379334
feeling very down the last couple of days. here are some of my fantasies

1. calling in sick, packing a bag, and just walking anywhere for a week. i'd enjoy the sights and spring weather, get to basically play outside again, and maybe i'd meet people doing the same. i live near a big trail. it'd be calm and quiet

2. finding a way to sleep in trees, maybe with some sort of "vertical hammock." running away to a city. never longing to accomplish anything with my life anymore, merely existing as a thinking animal. i hunt/gather for food much of the day, and the rest is spent fixing things, helping people, and entertaining kids.

3. touching and making out with other men. since this is anonymous, why not mention it.

4. getting lost in meditation. my sanity slowly slipping away as the truth starts to crowd into my vision. i see and know things others can't and operate on more planes of existence. every moment there is more cosmic detail to pay attention to. i am never bored, always watching.

I have no skills except for writing a particular style of nearly unreadable horny gibberish on /a/ and /jp/. I've been accused of being a bot many times.

Kind of wishing I was dead

I am so FUCKING sick of hearing about politics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just shut the fuck up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>20379613
My logic precludes the creation of trannies. If I am a tranny without transitioning, if I am a faggot without entering sexual relations with men, then what are you really mad about?

>>20379659
Your logic is fake and gay

>>20379659
I think faggots who deny their faggotry are more noble and more holy than straight people often are.

I have one more week of finals and then I'm done with my penultimate year of college. If this summer sucks I'll probably just kill myself.

>>20379500
A dude who looks like this has already achieved nirvana. It's meaningless whether he's alive or dead at this point

>>20379645
i know that feel, living in america there is a never ending culture war and obsession with identity politics on both sides. It exhausts me and makes me wish humanity would go extinct so i can no longer hear both sides whining about who gets what and how much

>>20379645
Aren’t you a part of the polis?
You’re so separated from it that you’re feeling frustrated by the loss of power over it. I mean that’s why it’s so shit in the first place and why you hate to hear about it, right?

>>20379682
Wait till your fiftieth.

>>20379667
You are an atheist. You are the rearguard for LGBT. They invent so many spectacular lies, but when one takes license and profanes them, you are the first to speak out. You are a woman. You feel guilt for having no offspring. You understand progressivism is to blame, but you naively cling to it, believing it will change course. You are a woman, because you cannot conceive of something unless it has been presented in formal terms. You deny immaculate conception. I'll make this easy for you. You must seek me out so that I may give you many children. Else, you embrace falsehood and hypocrisy.

>>20379689
It's so fucking annoying.
Also why do political commentators on the news or whatever all talk in that nasally voice with that distinctly whiny and borderline hysterical tone?

>>20379702
We don't really have a polis because we dont have friendship. There is no common end or common union. We're an amalgamation of individuals pursuing our own economic interests. Nothing more than swarms of biomass

>office management has told cleaning lady MULTIPLE times she cant regularly hold up the elevator (leaving her cart in front of the sensor while shes in the basement)
>she keeps doing it anyway
>crowds of 5+ ppl routinely give up waiting for the elevator and take the stairs
>someone slipped in the hall while she was cleaning because she didnt put up a sign and she didnt bat an eye
>management has told her MULTIPLE times to clean the hall BEFORE the building opens
>shes doesnt seem to take into account that no one can understand spanish, proceeds to talk at length.
>shes lived in the country for 40 years and can only say a few words
>microwaves fish
why

>>20379736
>microwaves fish
Definitely her worst offense

>>20379465
Bossuet

>>20379480
Yeah, I can sympathize. This whole thing might just be an opportunity in disguise for some people. A lot of help is needed around this country. Hell, it might just feel good to know that everybody's life sucks just like your's now. It definitely sucks to say but that's just how it feels sometimes. If everybody is at or near your level, no matter how low it is, it sort of makes you feel like less of a loser (perhaps because, for one, it's a lot harder for others to treat you like one now). Still, I'd sure like to know just how to turn it into an opportunity for me.
From a societal perspective I think we just need a real disaster to finally humble us so that we can just get back to basics. I know it sounds terrible but I just want people to wake up from this awful dream and finally realize that it's all just fake and gay. Our current elites may never admit that though and may be that will be enough to stop the majority of people from accepting it too. I'm just not sure anymore.

How do you reacquaint your self with effort after a long, sedentary period of coasting? By that I mean reaching the point where 'doing' something won't immediately put your brain in panic mode, alerting you to get out of here asap or else it'll shut down and block your entire being. This acute sensitivity to such an essential and simple aspect of life is extremely pathetic, cementing my status as worthless trash undeserving of life. What to do please?

>>20379748
i always thought that was a meme. its not. it STINKS.

Actual readers here should make a concerted effort to “spam” the catalog with a lot of famous writer general threads

>>20379334
I just found out these were a thing yesterday and here they are again

>>20379768
One time my brother came home wasted drunk and microwaved fish. My dad kicked him out for it. He was briefly homeless.

>>20379334
>>20379334
I mumified buddhist. Am enlightened too. Ate breakfast this morning. felt breath. felt sitting. what was it that felt a breath and felt sitting and saw this mummy?

>>20379770
>famous writer general threads
Cringe. The rule should be book threads and only book threads.

>>20379767
>How do you reacquaint your self with effort after a long, sedentary period of coasting?

The majority of people are coasting. Coasting is civilization. Everyone who puts in effort was compelled to do so. If you try and compell yourself to do something, its only going to cause harm. For you, for society, for civilization, whatever. Don't you think your body knows better? Don't you think you should at least approach your body on common terms? You've had no desire for anything else, but now you want to dictate to your body? What type of shit is that? Hey asshole: why didn't it happen earlier? You knew the answer once, but you forgot why. You might just kill yourself, you know that? Don't you know that would just prove your body right? If you're going to have a shitty attitude about things then go off and distract yourself. Oh but reading literature isn't a distraction, it gives you a profound feeling! Its important!

Hopeless fucking retard.

>>20379791
I figured writers was more general and could gather more replies and be more successful and maybe swing this board back more towards actual literature. I make book threads a lot and if it isn’t a perennial lit top 10 or a meme, it gets only a few replies and swamped by other threads. A single book thread would probably turn into an author thread anyway. Imagine making a thread on something like Sanctuary. A single reply about one of his heavy hitters would turn it into a Faulkner thread anyway. Not sure what you have against generals in the first place anyway?

>>20379770
Everytime I finish a book I make a thread about it. I only ever get a handful of replies

Fresh from my diary

Mood: Solemn

Yesterday I had a very intense conversation with *****. I found out he did in fact give ***** **** money and spend money on her. That was the coffin nail for me. It was what I always knew but was always afraid of. After that exchange I downed a whole small bottle of rose to gain the courage to message to ****. When he responded he said that he's now in a committed relationship. This was horrible and devastating to me. All these months i've tortured myself over not getting to be with him, then I finally message him and it's too late. I wish ***** just let me go around valentines day. I just find out all this stuff and he keeps coercing me into staying with him. Does he not know how monumentally hecan shift the course of my life by forcing me to stay with him ? Does he even care ? My life should be my own to create and now i've suffered the consequences for not fighting hard enough to do that. The question is, what do I do now ? Do I settle into this hostage situation i've gotten myself into ? Do I muster the resolve to completely cut ties so that a space is free for a guy like **** to fulfill ? I don't know

I have an associates in a useless degree and have no idea what to do with my life as I go for a bachelor's in the fall. I had so much potential in high school. It's so depressing what my life is compared to my friends.

>>20379861
Femanon, dump that loser and form a codependent relationship with me

>>20379871
Do you have a deep brooding ennui that hides heart that has been made softer from knowing suffering ? Do you like holding hands and kissing ?

>>20379837
As I said here >>20379828
authors would get more replies. I know it isn’t as specific and desirable but look at the state of the board. Gotta walk before you run. If the numerous general threads are successful, then maybe we would get an influx of readers and can make more specific threads with success. I think that’s the important thing, attracting readers, or getting them back.

>>20379877
Yes that summarizes me really well.

>>20379898
What's your name

>>20379902
Well before we go into it I should ask where you live.

>>20379729
We need to remake our “economic interests” in our own image. Become friends again.

>>20379916
That kind of defeats the purpose of censoring the names in my journal entry, but fuck it, i'm feeling risky. I'm in Nevada

>>20379921
Hmmm I'm in California. Do you live in Vegas? Thats near enough for me to make weekend trips

>open blinds
>only see concrete everywhere
>no trees in sight
>dirty and broken windows
>paint falling of the houses' walls
>old acrylic billboards with blurry logos of companies that no longer exist, decolored by time
>everything is tinted orange and yellow by the smog-defused light of a merciless sun
>intense dry heat 12 hours every day
>by night the heat lingers because there soo much has been trapped in the concrete during the day
>neighbors start getting home from their jobs
>the sounds of shouting, hood music, barks and stuff crashing starts filling the air
>falling asleep to the rhythm of the cacophony that surrounds me, only some rgb lights revealing the contour of my body laying on a bed
>g-god, are you there? I...d-don't know if I want to wake up tomorrow...

Why do people come here if they don’t read?

>>20379931
This is my blog

>>20379922
I can't compromise the anonymity of my journal entry much further. If you wanna talk about that we can do it privately.

>>20379934
How can I reach you?

>>20379936
It's more romantic if you figure that out

>>20379334
I dont want to say this as axiomatic, but it seems to me that men tend to be merit driven, they want to earn something, not just have it, and women tend to be appreciation driven, they want to be appreciated for something. Men being more subject focused, women being more object focused.

I think there is a generalized difference that may be more of a spectrum rather than black or white, but that's what a driving motive I feel is abstractly apparent.

The closer I get to finishing my project the more I postpone working on it. I could probably finish it by June if I wanted. I’m afraid of completing things after working on them for a long time for nothing. And I’m further inhibited from starting new things because of this.

>live alone like travis bickle
>sister wants to fly in and stay with me for a week for a wedding
>wants to bring some family afterward
>sounds cool, havent seen my family in two years despite living in the same city
>panic
>spend an entire day shopping for new clothes, getting a haircut
>start lifting weights so i dont look like shit
>buy new bedding
>put food in the fridge
>buy some liquor
>pot some new plants
>clean my entire apt
>spend two hours scrubbing my window sills and wiping dust off everything
>fix my wonky fan
>buy new towels
>my sister literally stays for one night
>family goes to my cousins house instead
>spend the weekend blasting music in my new and improved apt, drinking expensive tequila, and admiring my work

life is funny

>>20379997
Use this disappointing experience as the start of a better you. Simple as

>>20379965
My biggest redpill in this regard was watching my best friend's girlfriend (whom he adored -- and he is well put together himself and had a decade of self-esteem issues) get tipsy, proceeding to ignore him because he was "looking" at another girl, and then try to hold my hand in private, and ask me why I never pay attention to her. My best friend didn't even EXIST to her at that moment. She felt ignored, and momentarily fell in love with me because I showed the slightest decency when I asked her to lay down because she had too much to drink. She ended up texting me about how she thinks my friend isn't attracted to her (he is), and if I ever think about her. He LOVES her. He considers her the result of PLENTY of work he put into himself to even deserve her.

Women NEED someone to think about them every moment. The fact that I'm a slob and make 1/4 of what my friend makes didn't even matter. That car he's so proud of didn't even matter. Didn't even matter how big of a deal it was for her to meet his family. Not to mention faithfulness and the trust they built. I could have had her, and it makes me sick to think how often that shit must happen.

>>20379371
kek ya i lost a friend a similar way, ive tried reqching out multiple times through the years but no response

>>20379368
Actually same wtf

>>20380025
I think thats apocraphal but speaks to a wider trend. I usually want to think of things as predicates and objects. And this calls to a certain "disconnect" or "catagorization" between the sexes. ANd there is probably stuff that annoys women about guys. The whole "why dont you pull oever and ask for directions" meme and shit.

And sometimes guys slut about too. But I think in a different way to women.

Bowsette is the only girl I ever really love.

>>20379390
Skilled workers

fucking can't get a job and it's bringing me down. feel like the worst fuckup in the entire world

>>20380090
Why not?

>be skinny white guy at a very mexican west coast college
>slaying mexipussy
>skinny white guy in my thirties
>...
I should impregnated those putas when i had the chance

>>20380099
I have no idea, maybe it's my nationality, maybe my education, maybe the fact that I refused to vaccinate in the past, or something else entirely or all of it put together. It doesn't help that there's high as fuck corruption in this country and very few jobs that pay somewhat decently.

>>20379497
Browse 4chan via Reddit's r/greentext.

>>20380155
>I refused to vaccinate in the past
big cringe but nice dubs

>>20380166
Shut up fashy

>>20380155
Could it be that you're an 18 years old teenager with no work experience at all?

>>20380155
Where do you live? I'm in the middle of LA and they don't require proof of vaccination

>>20380185
no, I'm 31 years old with a somewhat ok work experience at this point
>>20380187
kazakhstan

>>20380189
Thats rough. We live in vastly different worlds, or so I assume. The only Kazakhstani representation I've seen is Borat.

I'm at a moment in which my life is "just beginning" because I already have somewhat of a frame to work with. I'm finishing a high end career in the best college of my country, but nevertheless feel worthless, unworthy of love or attention, boring and somewhat doomed to an unremarkable life. I'm broke, live with my parents, no gf, and started lifting. Life is so simple (I don't have to pay bills and have food and a roof over my head) but yet everyday feels like a huge struggle and I don't remember the last time I genuinely felt happy and wholesome. Everything feels like a chore and I can't seem to find passion in anything. Drugs aren't that much fun anymore. I just want to feel the spark I used to have that made me face everyday challenges with a smile on. Nowadays everything boils down to discipline and delayed gratification that almost always disappoints. I'm scrapping to build some meaning. What do anons? How do I find passion again?

Do you think this is a good place to ask for advice?

Still debating my relationship with this yank I've known for six months. We live on different continents; to live together we'd probably have to marry. I'm serious about her. I love her, to be honest. But is it too much?

>>20380282
You're the 25 years old guy who wants to marry a 21 years old girl after knowing her for 6 months, right? The answer seems pretty obvious to me.
That being said, no, /lit/ is absolutely not a good place to ask for relationship advice, which is also very obvious.

>>20380282
the best advice I can give you is to not follow anyone's advice. I've made fuckton of mistakes in life by simply listening to whatever people tell me is the best, simply following your gut and instinct is the best way.

>>20380282
why are americans so obsessed with marriage? do they watch too much tv or something?

>>20380301
It is probably for a citizen card

>>20379555
:(

>>20380291
I am, yeah. I guess the interesting underlying question is: when is it too soon in a relationship to think about marriage? Seems like a chaotic time for answering these kinds of questions

I have a job since February.
It's been very hard going back as a wagie since I've been self-employed for the past 8 years, but shit happens and shit happened.
The job is meaningless, stupid, repetitive, offers no challenge in any possible way, is extremely boring and doesn't pay that well.
On the bright side, I work alone on the night shift and there are many nights where I literally won't see another human being at all, which is absolutely fantastic for my actual autism. The job is also so trivial that I can easily do all the tasks that are required of me and I am left with over 3 hours of free time, which I use to study for two university certificates that I just started this summer.
Right now, I'm sitting alone in the dark mezzanine dining room where I lit the kitschy chandelier hung over the spiral staircase, browsing this anonymous traditional Mongolian basket weaving internet forum and taking notes on a couple of readings.
Also I just found like a 5 gallon bucket of mpale ice cream in the kitchen and will eat some later in the night.

>>20380333
Well I guess you need to ask yourself what is worse.
Moving to another country, marrying too quickly and being stuck in a divorce or just waiting for a bit? What happens if you wait? Did she imply that she will break up or something? Why doesn't she move to your country? Who would want to move to the USA anyway?

>>20380367
Moving to my country would need her to do something similar. My country is pretty horrible too, I wanted to move abroad before I met her. As for waiting, I think she's happy to but is just planning for the long term.

My girlfriend has a new male friend (through a female friend) that she's a big fan of. She enthuses about him to me regularly and texts him (openly) often. Is this something to worry about or am I being a 4chan-institutionalized schizo

>>20380298
based and self-pilled

>>20380397
Depends if he's more attractive and interesting than you.

>>20380400
Not in my opinion but de gustibus non est disputandum

>>20379334
I'm sad at how much worse this board is. I used to come here in 2017 and 2018 and the quality of discourse was so much higher. Now it seems like newfags from /pol/.
I don't think it's my imagination, but I'm not certain.

>>20380412
The important opinion here is your girlfriend's.

Well, it's about that time. Back to feeling so nostalgic, over one short fling in February. It's such an odd feeling bros, it makes me so sad, but in a stupid optimistic way. I really miss her, even though she had an odd way of living, it was so charming. I've been listening to Colors all day, since she liked Code Geass. If only I weren't in such a bad spot during the time, and autistic. I was definitely so pushy about how I felt about her, it was a passion I only felt with playing, and composing jazz. I've been really wanting to text her lately, as the last thing she said to me was "hey", and I let my emotions get the better of me. She never replied after my response, so I sassily texted her. I just felt so hurt, especially because she said she wanted to be friends rather than lovers, but didn't want to be a friend :(. I feel we were both in a bad spot at this time, I don't know, it's such a powerful feeling. I wish she could read these words. I wish I got to read Hitchhiker's Guide to her, like she said she wanted. God, this is so absurd.. At least I got to nut in her right!? :(

>>20380397
At least you're cooler than him, right?

I recently logged in on the website of a paid newspaper that I used to be registered to. My account appears to be bugged because I can browse all the articles I want, just as if I was paying. This is great, absolutely amazing, best thing that has happened to me in the past three years, I could die right now and be fulfilled, currently pondering whether I should commit sudoku to end it all on this highest point.

There was no captcha required for this post, this tops it all, this is a sign, farewell lads.

>>20379497
Nigga what? This is the basis of a simulation. Most shit you read, is posted by some fag's program.

>>20379470
God damnit anon, can we just forget about this, when we're on a computer, isn't that the point?

>>20380437
Wait, let me get the account, and website

>>20380445
You wouldn't enjoy it, it's both in french and from Canada, and too late, my helium exit bag is already doing its work of freeing me from this mortal coil and

>>20380456
See ya Anon

>>20380456
good night sweet prince

>>20380471
>post time
>1337
Very nice.

raise your right hand if what you type in this thread has been crafted purely from your own agency and self autonomy alone and raise your left hand if you've been parasitically hijacked by wireless neurological conditioning by outside consciousness that have planted ideas and words inside your mind and your ego has narcissistically internalized it as your own created ideas and thoughts

I'm getting tired of trying to discern this myself.

>>20380482
Uhhhhh, maybe both? The influence of the unconscious, and society is far too great, for me to govern myself at this time. Try asking me again in, hmmmm, 16 years?

>>20380488
Stay right there... Now...

Is Israel a legitimate state?

>>20380482
*raises left paw*
I just want the upvotes uwu.

>>20379465
Spiritual Authority and Temporal Power

>>20380496
REEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>20380397
Anon, you're 100% going to get cucked, maybe it's already happening.
>new male friend
>she's a big fan of
>enthuses about him
>texts him often
The first part alone would be a cause for concern, the rest is transparent buildup to fucking. Don't blame yourself, women do this all the time (got cucked myself, cucked others) but do something about it before you get hurt and humiliated.

so this is it

If you reply to this post you're gay

All women are whores, always have been, always will be.

>>20379630
sounds lovely. i understand the yearning for all of these. i hope you find solace and feel better soon.

>>20379630
i feel you anon

>>20379682
whats the point? you finish college, and then waste your free life? have you worked for nothing, man? you have a lot ahead of you to try and it's never too late to change your course if you feel like you're going nowhere.

>>20379707
why wait?

>>20379327
>>20379377
Everyone is evil, but in that way everyone is the same. That's what humanity is. So you aren't any worse (or better) than others. Maybe that helps.

>>20379390
>>20380090
it really is super hard to find workers, some lady at my work ghosted a super easy 50k a year office job, that job required a masters so it was "skilled" on paper, even tho in reality it required no skill at all, just put people's named in a spreadsheet a couple times a week. i think part of the "worker shortage" is due to absurd levels of credentialism in the economy.

Is sexual sublimation a real thing?

>>20380959
Never heard of it, so my guess would be no.

Why the sunglasses?

>>20379645
100%. I just don't care. I just don't ever want to hear about politics ever again.
PLZ
LEE ME ALUN
I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT
ALUN

>>20379736
She's utterly based beyond belief and there's literally nothing your entire building can do about it. It's supreme.

If you waste your time on fiction you are a fucking retard

>>20380232
I went sober for a long time and then did shrooms and it made me feel like a kid again like how it used to be so much fun to just think and do or make anything. I don't just mean during the trip. I mean afterwards for a long time. I've had similar experiences after having meditated for a long time. As in all day just breathing and sitting. Then it's like something clicks. Just need a way to force yourself to perceive things as they are without immediately running all experience through the filter of your last few months or years of routine life. You can do it. There's all sorts of tricks for it. You'll find something.

>>20380298
This is the only good advice it's possible to give, in general. Outside of really specific, nitty gritty shit like financial advice or how to install a kitchen or change a car transmission, I mean.

>>20381241
fuck you

I smoke weed
I don't fuck with greed
I only fuck with green
So I feel seen
When I see on the screen
Oscar and Kermit doing routines
I'm laughing so hard I might fuck up my spleen
Remember being a teen?
Getting high off the weed and drinking that lean?
Where that life been?

>>20381276
This hits different

>>20379758
I've been wishing for a cataclysmic event for years to reset society and all I got was a shitty pandemic which forced everyone more online and brainwashed the masses further. I hate it here.

>>20381241
>your

>>20379936
Go to her anon

>>20379861
Did he dick you down good? Why so caught up?

>>20379334
I JUST WANT TO READ A BOOK ABOUT THE MOVILE CAVE SYSTEMS! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK!?

>>20380482
Does it matter? Whenever I start to think about all this metaphysical shit, my brain goes, "nah bruv" and changes the subject. It might be interesting, but obsessing over questions that have no influence over your life is just stressful. Do we have free will? What if I had different parents? Am I me dreaming of being a butterfly, or is a butterfly dreaming that it's me?

It doesn't matter what the answer is. I exist as I am.

drunk woman tried to set me up with her jailbait niece

What blogs or independent sites do you guys read?

I'd like to branch out from 4chan a bit, not because it's le heckin' bad, but perhaps it's not as stimulating or growth-orientated as it once was (for me, at least.)

80% of my body is made out of movies

When it comes to the “Great Replacement” rhetoric, liberals created a massive opportunity for the far right which didn’t exist before. It’s one thing to note a demographic trend. It’s another to gleefully celebrate the imminent white minority in the NYT or on Twitter or Slate. These retards radicalized hundreds of thousands with their rhetoric. It’s a good thing the people radicalized are white, because otherwise it would have been game over for us all.

>>20381241
this.

soo true

Where can I get some books on suiciding properly? And I dont need fucking sociologial studies.

>>20381453
Tell us more

>>20381790
How fucking hard can it be? Why does /lit/ need a book for literally everything? Is it pathological?

The jannies are being utterly draconian today. I love it. Thank you jannies.

>>20379645
More for me I guess

>>20379736
Just kill her

>>20380397
Just put her in a cage in your basement you don't need that shit

>>20380397
Your options are:
1. Accept that it's over, dump her, and move on. At worst you'll be cheated on (if it hasn't happened already), at least you'll be humiliated by her hanging all over another man continually and you'll grow to distrust and resent her. If you did the same thing with another woman you'd be a piece of shit, so what do you think she is for doing this with another man?
2. Give her an ultimatum to stop talking to him or you will leave her. Given that she's already engaging in this kind of behavior I think it shows she is not a good choice. There's also a possibility she'll respond negatively and dump you over this. I recommend option number 1 but it's up to you. Whatever you do, don't accept it as something normal or okay.

>>20380397
There's a woman at my job who is married. She's all over one of our male coworkers though. She insists he is only her "best friend" and they don't have a relationship, which everyone knows is a total lie. I don't know if her husband knows about this or not, but if I were him I would have left her.

>>20381903
They're also coincidentally absent from work on the same days for some reason. Forgot that part.

>>20381790
why do you want to do that

>>20381453
God is testing you with illegal pussy.

>>20380397
Fuck him first before she can.

>>20380397
It's over. She got his number or gave hers to him. They have no reason to be texting each other. women don't go out of their way to talk to men as mere acquaintances. She could be trying to get your guard down by making it seem less suspicious that she's talking to someone else. It's happened to me before when I was less experienced. She may look for excuses to hang out with him either alone or in mixed company. Her friends will cover for her so don't be fooled. You either need to stay vigilant with this hoe or dump her entirely. You could tell her to stop texting the guy but then she may continue to do so in secret. It's a hard lesson but a woman committed to you will actively avoid other men where it might be interpreted as intimacy.

>>20381965
Reasons.

>>20382069
Man why didn't you snap her in half

>>20381453
that's hot

>>20381539
>le heckin' bad
reddit seems like a good fit for you

>>20381817
Yes, and the only cure is death.
A properly and thoroughly researched, studied, planned and optimized death.

materialists on suicide watch

I've been thinking about going to school for an English degree to regain some structure in my life and spend time around people who share my interests. I was asked what I'd like to do with the degree and I didn't have an answer, my only thoughts have been focused on the time spent attaining it. I wouldn't mind spending the money just for the experience, but I'm also 30 years old and I don't know if that would lead to a more isolated experience than one would have at a typical college age.

On the other hand, I could start participating in events outside of my house, but there's no incentive to drive me forward like there would be with the structure and investment of college. I always find a way to avoid gatherings, making commitments, even seeing friends, and that could end up biting me if I decide to go back to school, too.

>>20382213
Quacka Magazine

>>20382213
maybe that in the emergent structure from the theoretical deep recesses of the universe i can finally get a big titty goth gf

>>20382213
I wonder how far we can reduce material reality before it just stops existing

>>20380232
>Nowadays everything boils down to discipline and delayed gratification that almost always disappoints. I'm scrapping to build some meaning. What do anons? How do I find passion again?
Kohut ; Tragic Man

Dabrowski ; Positive Desintegration

Byung Chul Han , Dissapearence of Ritual ( and everything else )

Julius Evola ; Hermetic Tradition + Grail

Well bros I finally decieed what Im going to do with my life. I am going to be a high school teacher. I was talking to a teacher who told me the summer vacations are great, the benefits are awesome and I was convinced. I hate working

>>20382307
God is the final answer.

>>20380232
You are filtering all your thoughts through " feelsbadman " sentiments.

Read "Autopoiesis" - Maturana & Varella

Because you are Feeling Badly/Depressed you cannot even act upon the values you say your Persona has ; so everything you do feels like ash and not like developing yourself ; you cannot see a future that your present actions contantly are the Genesis of.

Check out "Symbolic Misery"

>>20382317
thats great anon.

>>20382317
Why high school and not like elementary school? Teenagers are getting more and more retarded and difficult to deal with.

I seem to be unable to enjoy anything anymore.

>>20382345
I couldn't handle playing babysitter. Teenagers are retarded, but the job is far more handsoff.

>>20382317
If your only motivation is the long summer holiday and not working, maybe you shouldn't be an high school teacher. It sounds like you would be a bad teacher that don't give a fuck, that's not what the young minds need. Why not leave such a profession to people who actually care and find like anything else? Also it seems you underestimate the amount of works teachers actually do.

Does reading make up for lack of life experience?

>>20382482
No. But it might make you realize what you've missed out on.

>>20381242
What about DXM? I remember long afterglow after doing it, gave me hope that life can be interesting

>>20382507
I've been feeling that a lot lately. I don't do anything about it because I always feel detached from the moment, I can't even go grocery shopping and feel comfortable.

Many years ago, when I first started drinking, it compounded the feeling that I wasn't there in the moment, I felt so distant. I tried telling a couple friends and they thought I was crazy.

>>20382507
Not that anon but watching particular anime made me long for thing that I never had.

Isn't it funny how fast imagination and creativity fades away in adulthood?

Had a random memory earlier from childhood. It just blows my mind how much more imaginative kids are, I used to be able to imagine and visualize anything. Now I can hardly keep my focus while writing anything and most music sounds the same to me

>>20382379
I really dont give a fuck anymore. I tried very hard to care about that kind of thing but I've been fucked over so many times that I just cannot care. Watching the implosion of America brings me great joy.

Being treated like shit my entire life has affected me greatly.

>>20382516
Not them but DXM took away a lot of my inhibitions and opened up some creative freedom that I felt I had lost. I loved to paint and draw while on it, my hands moved with intent I struggled to find before, and that feeling persisted in the days following. It also brought back the appreciation for music I had in my youth, where I could completely lose myself in music, especially while tripping, you can completely lose your body and self in the music. Lying with my eyes closed I felt I was in a space composed entirely of the music.

I took it too far, and lost that magic, and it became a problem, but while it lasted it was incredible. The first few trips are wonderful memories, and while I kept taking it after I should have quit, it held up as an artistic tool for a long time.

>>20382558
Same but never experiencing love.

>>20382684
Not even platonic love from parents or friends, or do you mean eros?

>>20382780
Eros one, like if one isnt obliged.

>>20382803
I had sexual intimacy but she cucked me. Does that count as eros?

>>20382821
It does. You're miles ahead of me.

>>20382826
Desu anon I'd rather still be a virgin. She fucked with my head pretty hard. The grass is always greener elsewhere. We always want other than what we have. It's better to just acknowledge that the next thing over wont really satisfy and to learn how to appreciate what we are as we are.

kek Jordan Peterson had a meltdown because there was a fat woman on the cover of Sports Illustrated.

>>20382834
It was two Twitter posts. The first called it ugly and the second called Vaush stupid for defending it. Thats not a mmeltdown.

>>20382834
>Kek e-celebrity did the thing!
Unfuck yourself

Cartoons then games then online cartoons then reallife then sex then nazism then jordan peterson then esoteric tendencies then blackpilled then nihilism then groomed into a cult then blackpilled idealism then shadow overload and severe tranny thoughts then no tranny thoughts then postmodernism / extreme nihilism then no thoughts head empty

>>20382841
He got so much heat he announced he was quitting Twitter over it. That feels like a meltdown to me.

>>20382854
Oh I didn't see that part.

>>20382841
>ugly
is he a faggot or something?

>>20382523
I think I know what you mean. It's sort of like, this doesn't really feel like real life? It's like I'm elsewhere, not exactly a different physical place some other kind of elsewhere.

>>20382890
Imagine the smell

>>20382890
>IS THAT A... A FAT WOMAN????
>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I'M GOING INSANE

>>20382890
It's worse than that: he's a leaf.

>>20382890
No idea who she is but I instinctively want to put babies inside of her.

>>20382890
>all that cushion for the banging
>godly hips
HHHNNNGGGGHH

>>20382890
>she's pefect

>>20382931
based architect

>>20382931
I mean, if she were bigger she'd probably look just as good, if not better. But then I'm a fatfag. I like my girls large.

Ranking for Rockets flavours :
white > green > pink > blue > orange > yellow

Lately the empty space in my bed has been really getting to me. It's not something I've been particularly conscious of before and the change in my mood seems quite random and unprovoked by any particular incident. I've always been fine alone, but lately I've waking up in an empty bed and just feeling sad. It's an instinctual kind of sadness, not different to how I imagine a woman's biological clock must speak to her. How nice it would be to wake up to a body next to mine! Man was not meant to be alone.

>>20379334
I've been super busy juggling family drama and a hunt for a new job and apartment for about the past month. This week I've finally secured some leads and have the house to myself for a few days. I thought I'd finally be able to relax, but I've found myself overcome by a terrible brain fog now that I don't have any tasks that need doing. All I seem to have energy for outside my barest routine of lifting and writing is napping, jerking off, and watching lore vids on Sonic the Hedgehog. I feel preemptively exhausted knowing that I'm going to go back to being super busy at the end of this week with a second round of interviews while I live out of my friend's guest bedroom. The job I have lined up is a good one, but I know it's gonna take a lot of hustle to bring in the money I need to afford an apartment.

Things could definitely be worse and I know they're only going to get better from here on out, but hot damn do I feel de-energized.

wow i just realized i could have gone with "mummified meditating monks" and the thread edition would have been so much better. im so sorry bros, just fill this one up and lets get to the next thread. i cant bare to look at this anymore...

Where do I go to meet women

it actually drives me mental to know that the way my hair is parted when i look in the mirror is not actually how it looks to other people and it kills me to see photos of myself where the part is different than how I view it

>>20383312
Bookshops or church

>>20379682
Lol this is what I am afraid of too.

>>20380025
>commits himself to drunk moody whore

woah

whats the most you guys have spent on a book? 20$ for me

>>20383458
Probably no more than $30 not including textbooks

>>20382890
You guys are fucking gross dude. She's disgustingly fat. I hate Americans so much.

>>20383458
$25 for this Schismatrix hardcover.

>>20382890
You guys are fucking gross dude. She's disgustingly fat. I hate Americans so much.

>>20382834
sports illustrated used to be pictures of elite athletes doing athletic stuff. is that chick any kind of athlete? what sport does she compete in?

>>20382890
wait, she's related to steve aoki? and her dad founded the chain of benihana's restaurants? i knew a pop hack like aoki had to be pay to win.

>>20383503
Competitive eating

>>20383458
$35

>>20382890
i like me big but this is too much. she needs to loose at least like 30lbs

Life hurts

In an effort to control myself I listed off reasons as to why I shouldn't like her, why it cannot work, why I'm foolish for even entertaining these feelings. She told me not long after, unprompted, that she had done the same. I never get involved with a woman without doing a fair evaluation and she's failed mine. I just can't help myself at all and I'm going to get my heart broken but for right now it just feels so fucking great.

>>20383458
Just recently, about 115 canadian loonies on a specialized book about geomorphology. Couldn't find the latest edition used so I bought it new.

>>20380397
There is a reason you feel uneasy about this. Your instincts are telling you somthing and you should trust them. My gf only has one male friend and he is very homosexual so I'm not bothered by it, but if she was really close with a straight male I would not be okay with it.

>>20383602
quelle province mon cheri?

>>20383630
The french speaking one.

do abstract dreams or abstract looping thoughts mean anything?

Just finished the initial writeup of my master's thesis, lads. Hard part's all done, now I just need to edit. I'm actually going to get my MA.

>>20383899
Grats!

just watched gangs of new york. it was alright. actually i probably could have lived without seeing it. it was pretty mediocre
anyways, i have to smoke weed now
https://youtu.be/KhAle1z27Ho

>>20384058
ya gangs of new york is just solidly "ok" it's mostly enjoyable if u live in or spent a lot of time in like tribeca and lower east side or whatever, it's a really local interest movie

I actually started pursuing women the last couple months as a 24 year old khv and although I have been successful the whole experience has left me more anxious and weak than before
It's amazing how your personal sovereignty disappears once a women inserts herself into your life like some mind virus. Now I turned into a bitch whose mood fluctuates based upon the time to respond to texts or subtle hints and comments. I feel worse

>>20379659
Circular logic

You might as well claim you're a time traveler or the new savior

>>20384103
ya it's always such a grind at least if u have autism. i used to go through the suffering, but now that i'm older i stopped caring, but not really cuz the one time this chick from my work who has a literature degree and is always reading and looks pretty and also comes off trad contrived some way for us to go to a party together, i just got overwhelmed with anxiety and bounced, that was the worst.

>>20384103
You are experiencing emotions and things you should have experienced in your later teens, put since you put it off you'll have to deal with then now before you develop the thick skin that comes with experience
It gets easier over time and if you have multiple women in your life you won't get hung up on one

>>20384058
Just when I thought I couldn't dislike you more

>>20383493
Go cry about it, ESL scum

Should I just kill myself now or is it worth sticking it out for another 40 years?

>>20384424
what made you consider suicide anyways?

>>20384470
Ive been deeply unhappy for the past ten years and I have no reason to think life should get any better

>>20384424
You quite literally only have one life, might as well ride it out till your body gives up. If you're so desperate that you're considering suicide then you really have nothing to lose. Allow that realisation to liberate you, rather than oppress you.

>>20382315
>>20382332
Thanks anons, will look into those recommendations

voters have little control over the direct experiences of the intitution or experience of politicians, something can turn one from pro-gun to pro-gun control, from pro-life to pro-choice from pro-taxation to anti-taxation. the public wields very little influence on the personhood of politicians and what statues they set for rulership. One bad experience could turn someone you voted for to backpedal on their plans that you, yourself, voted them into place for that sole reason, so the best policy would be a direct democracy where a politician simply takes orders from the populace and does their bidding rather than representatives who set rules for the ruled.

I just took a shower and am laying in my jams, currently feeling very comfy :) Will probably smoke a few bowls soon. Unfortunately I'm banned from /mu/ rn so I'm stuck with you fags for now <3

>>20379410
You can do it anon

>>20384103
what's a khv?

>>20379410
>Oh no I can get with younger women
You worked for it. Enjoy it. Treat her right.

>>20384674
Kissless handholdless virgin.

>>20379590
You're male, you parented. You're a father not a mother. You may have acted in a maternal role but it was in the form of a father.

>>20384615
I'm a part time /mu/tant. Yeah the jannies are assholes there. Btw favorite bands/artists? I'm mostly a metal guy but I enjoy punk, jazz, prog, classical, folk, alt/indie rock, classic rock, and SOME country

>>20379736
Hire a legal citizen

>>20384678
>handholdless
Different anon but I'm glad someone else can corroborate this. It was always handholdless, right? It seems like people assume the h is for hugless, but I distinctly remember handholdless.

>>20384678
ah i knew about the kissless virgin stuff but handholdleess is new. seems a little excessive though. what about hugless, spoonless?

>>20384477
what you need is a big titty goth gf.
also, nice dubs dubs.

It'd be interesting to see what goes on at the subconscious level of someone like the shooter, so deranged that he's willing to sacrifice his life/or most of his future for the act of massacring and thereby "sanctifying" a group he purportedly detests above most anything else. The devastation visited upon a group of predominantly African American shoppers ultimately presents this already denigrated community in a more positive and humanizing light. A less deranged individual nevertheless still corrupted by the infirmity of racism wouldn't sacrifice himself and all of his probably remaining long life to an act that elevates the "detestable" subject to the highest and most sympathetic of human conditions, the clearly blameless innocent unaware victim shot in the metaphorical or literal back, because they still implicitly trusted their fellow man.

In any case, I think it's also quite telling what these generally youthful male (all too often white) rampage killers never do, which is attack the rich elites, whom they also purportedly hate and excoriate in their manifestos. They would argue, no doubt, that there are very important 4d chess reasons for what they do do, namely starting a spiral of interracial violence that ultimately leads to an all out race war throughout the territory of the US (and even the world) that a fascistically reinvigorated united white race cannot help but win, even though it might require the use of "preemptive" strategic nuclear weapons.

But, whatever the intricate rationales of neo-Hitlerian race war strategizing, the effect is the same: the haute bourgeoisie is treated with the most sacred respect, and the attack on the direct interests of these latter is the ultimate, most unspoken of taboos. It is as though, in the deep recesses of the psychologies of these youthful white male populist spree killers, they had a inner police officer telling them: I see you at all times, I know every iota of thought your mind produces, and don't you even dare contemplate starting a trend whereby the psychological force field surrounding the direct material interests of the white haute bourgeoisie (the elites) are identified, questioned, breached and transgressed against with the same devastating effects visited upon them as were suffered by the quotidianly congregated Shanequas and Takeshas of the world (in other words, those already perceived as the most insignificant, disposable, ridiculed members of American society).

Obviously I don't believe the haute bourgeoisie should be Che Guevara-ed, but these events really do make one wonder what kinda of little capo/sergeant is policing the subconscious thoughts of such as the attacker, and who those cops and stazis of the subconscious are figuratively really working for: Che Guevara or the CIA?

It'd be interesting to see what goes on at the subconscious level of someone like the Buffalo shooter, so deranged that he's willing to sacrifice his life/or most of his future for the act of massacring and thereby "sanctifying" a group he purportedly detests above most anything else. The devastation visited upon a group of predominantly African American shoppers ultimately presents this already denigrated community in a more positive and humanizing light. A less deranged individual nevertheless still corrupted by the infirmity of racism wouldn't sacrifice himself and all of his probably remaining long life to an act that elevates the "detestable" subject to the highest and most sympathetic of human conditions, the clearly blameless innocent unaware victim shot in the metaphorical or literal back, because they still implicitly trusted their fellow man.

In any case, I think it's also quite telling what these generally youthful male (all too often white) rampage killers never do, which is attack the rich elites, whom they also purportedly hate and excoriate in their manifestos. They would argue, no doubt, that there are very important 4d chess reasons for what they do do, namely starting a spiral of interracial violence that ultimately leads to an all out race war throughout the territory of the US (and even the world) that a fascistically reinvigorated united white race cannot help but win, even though it might require the use of "preemptive" strategic nuclear weapons.

But, whatever the intricate rationales of neo-Hitlerian race war strategizing, the effect is the same: the haute bourgeoisie is treated with the most sacred respect, and the attack on the direct interests of these latter is the ultimate, most unspoken of taboos. It is as though, in the deep recesses of the psychologies of these youthful white male populist spree killers, they had a inner police officer telling them: I see you at all times, I know every iota of thought your mind produces, and don't you even dare contemplate starting a trend whereby the psychological force field surrounding the direct material interests of the white haute bourgeoisie (the elites) are identified, questioned, breached and transgressed against with the same devastating effects visited upon them as were suffered by the quotidianly congregated Shanequas and Takeshas of the world (in other words, those already perceived as the most insignificant, disposable, ridiculed members of American society).

Obviously I don't believe the haute bourgeoisie should be Che Guevara-ed, but these events really do make one wonder what kinda of little capo/sergeant is policing the subconscious thoughts of such as the attacker, and who those cops and stazis of the subconscious are figuratively really working for: Che Guevara or the CIA?

I just found a pokémon card in the front pocket of my shirt and I have no idea where it could possibly come from.

>>20379334
i was once dating a woman and got sick of her, but was too gutless to dump her. so i became an increasingly worse boyfriend in the hopes she'd dump me first. by the end of it i was treating her like complete garbage but she still wouldn't leave me or even complain. the guilt got so bad i ended up dumping her after all because i couldn't stand treating her like that anymore. so all i actually accomplished was abusing a woman for several months and then leaving her abruptly

Despite everything I am not slick.

Women are such abhorrent pieces of shit. Imagine a guy who behaves exactly like a female, would you ever socialize with such a person?

>>20382482
There is no 'lack of life experience'

>>20384846
I think most guys suck too. Both men and women are terrible in general, and I don't socialize with pretty much anyone. You probably suck too, don't you?

>>20384850
Yeah I’m a terrible person, but that seems to attract w*men even more. Honestly can’t remember how many of them I’ve turned down since going volcel.

Female anus too close to the vagina

Hi,

I've been with a few women in my life and one thing I've noticed is that the female anus is incredibly close to the vagina, in fact they're barely an inch apart.

I'm not sure about other guys - but doesn't this disturb you? It feels like a design flaw in women actually -- like they're supposed to be so feminine and beautiful yet this ghastly little oversight is ruining everything.

Somehow it feels to me that women should be more aware of this flaw and it should affect their confidence. Whenever I see a so-called beautiful woman walking down the street so care-free thinking she's all that I just remember her anus is only 1 inch away from her pussy and laugh her into oblivion.

Women: Please accept that they're too close together, let it negatively affect your confidence and so make yourselves more readily available sexually as a result. After all, we're having to sleep with a creature whose ANUS is only 1 inch away from the vagina --- you should not make this difficult. It's unappetizing enough as it is. We're doing you a favour.

Men: Do not let women forget this flaw, and do not forgive them for it. Remind them of it constantly less they get inflated egos and think they're all that

They're just too close together, sorry, but its true.

I’m a small wrist-ed, effeminate, androgynous man. I’ve given up on trying to find a girlfriend. Should I just dress as a femboy and create an onlyfans?

being judgy =/= being capable of judgement

>>20384879
>small wrist-ed, effeminate, androgynous man.
whats your body like?

>>20384681
I'm /mu/ first /lit/ second. My first love was books however. I mostly stick to the metal general but enjoy almost all genres, and my favourite things to do just in general are shitpost and share recs of all sorts. Those are 99% of where I stay on 4chan. Sometimes I browse /int/ and /ck/. Incidentally, the mods on /ck/ are the worst I've come across, period. You can't joke around at all. Bastards. Anyways it's 2am here where I am and I'm thinking of smoking a few more bowls. Cheers bud.

>>20384976
What genre of metal do you listen to?

I think I'm finally over my yellow fever

>>20385110
Like watching too much Japanese porn?

>>20385123
I live in an Asian neighbourhood and for a long time I would lust over every Asian girl I saw. I spent some time away from that neighbourhood and now that I'm back it's different. I can still appreciate a beautiful Asian woman, but it's no longer the kind of irrational, directionless lust that I once felt.

why are there so many pseudy math threads right now? if u want to talk about freshmen level college math, i think there are other boards for that ok

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-dgTFSCGle0

>>20385127
Towards what is your lust directed now?

>>20385243
>start with le greeks
did not watch

>>20385252
All of gods creatures, big and small

>>20385302
even asian women?

>>20385303
even Asian women

I usually do not actively feel loneliness and I can go on without human contact for very extensive periods just doing something in my little apartment, studying for uni, going on a walk or run and occassionally leaving for work.
But even though I do not believe in loneliness, it seems to believe in me. I recently had a shift with a female coworker I have not seen for a long time and I really spent around 5 hours babbling with her about everything under the sun. Stayed in the office way past midnight and even missed the last train, had to get back by hopping from one bus to another. I dont know what the fuck moved me to spill my soul out of the blue and I am kinda regretting it. She even hinted at me spending the night at her place, but I was so consumed with asking myself why I am acting like someone who just came back from one month of solitary confinement to pick up on it.
I cant shake the feeling that I compromised a relatively cushy position in my job by getting way too familiar with someone just because I overestimated my capacity to be alone. I usually am neurotically focused on not saying too much, but recently it seems like I cant control the urge to overshare.
It annoys me to no end. Opening up to someone on topics feels like I am spilling out my insanity where I should not and making pointless small talk is just tiresome and feels like a huge waste of time. Everything is so tiring.

>>20385353
Man you fucked up something fierce. You told that bitch your life story and she still wanted to fuck lmao. I feel her pain. Random strangers constantly come up to me and spill their guts out to me apropos of nothing. Few days ago some dude came up to me and started talking to me like he was at a confessional. I'm like fuck off dude I'm just trying to pound beer and read my book I'm not your fucking therapist.

>>20385421
Yeh, thats one of the biggest mysteries to me, why the hell she stayed through the whole trip. At some point we started talking about literature and I openly mocked her for still reading stuff like Stephen King and then continued to wank over Dostoyevski, Crime and Punishment in particular.
Thanks for the reality check, next time I start gushing out my inner world like that, I am just gonna punch myself in the face.

you fuckers should all be happy that you live with everything you were given from birth and all your opportunities, I'm from fucking kazakhstan and have ten thousand times less opportunities that you all have

I just started my very first day as a house husband. Feels weird but good. I'm excited to figure out my pace with house duties while fitting in my own interests.

>>20385468
What are your thoughts on the film Borat?

>>20385468
Nigga you talking dumb shit. You should be grateful you even have internet access. Go be a horsefucker living in a comfy yurt out on the steppe.

>>20385468
How do you feel about women?

Frogposters are killing this board with their stupidity

>>20385497
>t.

>>20385497
>Frogposters are killing this board with their stupidity
Memes are exclusive to NPCs.

I’m convince that there are no life faggots on this board.

>>20385660
>muh life
>muh womeme whores
>muh shekel wageslavery
Miss me with your normie shit

>>20385660
Women are the equivalent of effeminate gay men. They behave the same way, they care about stupid things, they're retarded, and they have sex by getting fucked by men. Basically, when you have sex with a woman you are having sex with a gay man. So that makes having sex with women gay. Maybe you should think about that before you have gay sex with a woman again, faggot.

>>20385660
No life faggots? On 4channel.org? That can't be true

>>20379334
Would having sex with a female horse make for a better rider steed team? Would human dick tame female horse by the tiny fucking? Would the female horse be so sentimental and in love with the rider that she would be ride or die absolute obedience in the reigns?
Do women who fuck horses then have ornery horny horses who NEVER obey and always want to fuck?

I have shown you the true nature of sex.

>>20385480
fumb as fuck film, but the first one is pretty fun
>>20385481
I am grateful for many things, but it's still a pretty tough place to be born in regardless
>>20385482
some are good, some are shit, it depends

>>20385468
What are you talking about nigga? Instead of sadposting you should be making tengri proud by stealing your neighbors daughter and impreganting her.

>>20384993
Curious to know too. Lately for me its been a lot of melodic death metal and grindcore

Have you ever poo'd so hard you felt like you were no longer stuck in a rut?
I was trying to write an article but I felt stuck. Like my brain was fogged. I took a shit and suddenly, I sense clarity in my thought process.

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>>20385863
I am russian