/lit/ - Literature

I'm about to destroy my porcelain throne, my white seat, my Thomas Crapper, my indoor outhouse, my most intimate friend who I sit with everyday. He who has seen me at my lowest and at my highest. My belly aches as I begin my second cup of coffee. I can't crap out now. I must get through this second cup before mein morning kampf begins. No better way to start the day

Can't believe the jannies delete the other thread but kept this faggy shitty one instead.

OP are you a jannie? Explains why this one survives and the other doesn't. A bunch of good literature related threads just got deleted too. Absolute bullshit. Hard enough to have an actual discussion of literature on the board without jannies deleting EXPLICITLY lit related threads.

>>20118362
The OP of this probably reported it. Seems like a huge enough faggot to do it.

Flesh is a prison, why would you willingly trap souls inside them?

>>20118383
Then kill your self already if it bothers you.

I’m back from uni for the week, I’ve forgotten how suffocating my family can be it feels like I’ve lost all autonomy again it takes me to a dark place, i left a project I’ve been working on unattended and might return to the sum of my efforts turned to waist all in all not feeling well

>>20118297
That place looks cozy, but I still wouldn't patronize the place. There would still be too many people disrupting my peace.

>>20118362
Me either.
It was just an advertisement though.
Try to make this thread less faggy, okay?

pretty sure one of the mods just wants his thread to be the thread, so he nukes everyone else and makes his own.
>inb4 b&

>>20118406
>You can tell because it didn’t link back.
No shit, you dumbfuck, that's how it was in the past. God, I hate you newfags so much.

>>20118297
>>20118412
Can you be more of an absolute faggot?

>>20118412
Now that place looks quaint enough for a two person book club.

>>20118420

THREAD WARS HAVE RETURNED

>>20118297
>college friend obssesed with having sex
>gets many female friends and shit
>already referring to trannies with female pronouns and talking all the time about deconstructing manliness
It's over. Fucking coomer

>>20118469
Nah, just one fag, the OP of this thread, making second threads if he doesn't get his way.

>>20118472
College makes people insane

>>20118297
>>20118412
>whoa is that a comfy pub? Thats so heckin rustic and wholesome big chungus

>>20118490
Some guy who hated the Fredburger thread posted it. It is nice

>>20118531
I was in comfy pubs when I went to ireland. It actually was nice. Tho desu I much prefer outdoor bars at the beach on a sunny day. A warm climate is nice to live kn

>>20118297
Holy FUCK. Everything that can go wrong is going wrong for me right now. I feel like I'm in a fucking cartoon. This is absolutely ridiculous.

>>20118297
Fuck, I want a house like that so bad

Do I read 100 years of Solitude next or a tale of two cities or a the basis of morality by Arthur Schopenhauer?

>>20118613
Can you decide for yourself or are you that much of an indecisive bitch?

the masculine urge to scratch your dick with a sandpaper

>>20118616
This is more fun

Saw a couple on a bench while walking in the park. fucker slowly put his hand on her cheek and she even came closer and kissed him. i felt sick, even enraged. every time i see a couple blatantly flirting i end up in despair and asking myself why?
Why am i not like that with someone? what is stopping me from being in love and being loved back?
I'm a pretty normal guy. i got friends. i'm doing good in college. i'm normal looking, even changed my hairstyle recently to whats popular - and, i have been even asked by girls before. There is nothing physically nor objectively that is stopping me from my goal.
There is only one answer: my personality. i must change it. no more sarcasm. no more getting angry easily but that is still. not. enough...

>>20118297
This is worst period ever in time
to be European.

>>20118613
don't read 100 years it's dumb

>>20118613
a tale of two cities

>>20118808
It’s always good to have an Epicurean outlook as a base, but take on some Nietzschean gusto and life in these troubled times can be pretty grand

>have crush on innocent seeming girl
>turns out she has a dirty side and she get into it for some other people
why is the weird mix of lust, betrayal and unobtainability kind of a bad but nice feeling? is this what cuckolding is?

>>20118797
Get your shit together and when you’re ready, ask a girl out

>>20118852
thank you Joe Cool but i already knew all that

>>20118842
No. It means low self esteem for everyone involved

>>20118613
Can never go wrong with Schope.

my brain has been balkanized

>>20118297
If regular, non-obese, non-deformed women in the 18-25 range (who are strangers to me or distant acquaintances) occasionally hit on me and ask me out, unprompted, is this a good sign that I’m at least a 6/10 looks wise? I’m not rich or funny or outgoing really. I wouldn’t say the women were super attractive but they were not ugly, or fat, and not possessing any deformities or obvious mental health issues. Ever since I broke up with my ex a little under two years ago my self-esteem is in a pit. She cheated on me and it was pretty shitty. I try not to think about it too much cuz that’s gay and cringe, but it’s hard not to every once in a while. Relationships and sex take a backseat in my life right now because I have such a low opinion of myself and I prefer to focus my energy on positive elements of living rather than dwell on my insecurities too much (like hobbies, my family, and my career), but they’re still there under the surface unfortunately.

I realize women are cringe and I shouldn’t care about what they think of me but it’s just my biology to care a little.

Im post-virgin.

Mother told me not to have a child because it ruins people's lives. She didn't abort because it wasn't as easy back then and because it's a sin (in that order).

>>20119033
What do you mean?

>>20118797
why do you need a woman?
and do you know why you are angry?

>>20119046
did this actually happen?

I just got out of prison and have to deal with the psychological baggage of having been raped multiple times by another man. I cry and scream every day thinking about how powerless I was, how he stole my masculinity and made me his property. I cannot go on like this

>>20118797
It wasnt meant to happen. You have a different path.

>>20119101
>made me his property
That seems like a fanfic, you degenerate faggot.

>>20119093
Unfortunately.

>>20119101
This is literally my worst fear. I don't know why I pathologically fear being raped so much as opposed to other forms of torture. I faced this head on in an LSD trip where I was sure my friends were going to rape me on the spot. I'm sorry it happened to you, anon.

>>20118913
i mean she just gets sexy for somebody else not a public hoe

Is there something I can do to make it easier for myself to love and forgive others?

I’m too tough to please.

Anon who found a lowsub booktube milf... please. It’s been months and I’m still thinking about her. please.

My father said I'm not getting replies because I'm a loser. Prove him wrong, boys.

>>20119142
She’s still being used and cuck holding is seen in a degrading light

>>20119186
The loser is your father for using 4chan.

>>20119201
He used to but not anymore.

>>20119110
>Unfortunately.
I don't know what to say except I'm very sorry to hear that, for both of you.

>>20119101
why were you in the prison?

>>20119087
i need a woman because i constantly dream of having a woman to cuddle. i also want children.
>inb4 just adopt one
no, im not a cuck to raise someone elses mistake.

im angry because i never had a girlfriend and im already near the end of college.

>>20118397
Man i wish I could have found freedom at unviersity

I just got into a fight with an 18 year year old Chad because I’ve been hooking up with his gf. I’m in my 30’s

>>20119226
it seems to me your dreams are doing you a lot of harm and not much good

>>20119237
he fought you then? how'd it go?
you're an asshole btw but you probably know, I couldn't give a shit about any "his girl came to me"-story

I feel like my life was stolen from me

>>20119237
You already posted about this before. What happened to giving him alcohol and all that

>>20119251
So find who stole it and get it back.

>>20119259
I can't. My life was already spent and cant be retrieved.

>>20119246
Dude that's how women work. I am sorry you had to find out the hard way. Or haven't.

>>20119219
rape

https://youtu.be/lT40nTFax7U

>>20119292
dude you're beating up kids half your age.

>>20119314
you are what you eat afterall

>>20119241
what else does a man dream?

>>20119101
Thats hot. Did he call you his little bitch?

>>20119331
Not the same guy. And if he's old enough to sneed then he's old enough to bleed. He's half my age little bitch should get his ass halfway round the block before I kick him there.

>>20119472
>old enough to sneed then he's old enough to bleed.
What

>>20119257
Didn’t go too well. The fight was pretty even. He was bigger but I had experience and old man strength. I kicked him in the stomach when he was on the ground and knocked the wind out of him

>>20119480
Do you need more time to think about it?

>>20119497
So is this your revenge of the nerds power fantasy? Playing adolescent as an adult to bully "chad"?

>>20119515
Not really. It was a pretty even fight

>we’re all sinners I’m just proud of it

>>20119130
physical violence doesn't feel that bad it's really straight forward compared to psychological one kinda hilarious too just rape back

>>20119515
I don't know how to tell you guys and maybe gals this but all of you are some really lame people for how well read you are. Like mega gay. Like the most gay possible. Like lit isn't just gay but like THE GAY as opposed to LGBT which is mostly gay and then there is mlp which isn't gay at all its just a bunch of retards memeing cute horses to simply just pervert something innocent.
>>20119515
But this just takes the cake. Robots seem to have more spine. Dude you could be 18 and I could be 70 and I am still going to kick your ass if you can't be an adult and fuck off after your girlfriend NTR'd you. You're the adolescent you twat. Your girl is 18 and she fucks a dog are you going to beat up the dog? Are you just that special?

Let me guess you are one of those "pen is mightier" types right? Do you think you own every girl in your age group or something?

"I mounted the stirrups of that heavy, black and rust bedecked truck as I entered its cab. My destination fixed. My intent certain. The raised suspension would carry me above the sea of degenerates as I made my return to the moments we shared. Beautiful in repugnance, alarming in briefness, my efforts to steel myself against their bedraggled, unkempt appearances--their hideous musks--required alacrity. The gaping, autistic silence of the drive through the serpentine paths of the industrial wasteland on the west side of the city brought me back. I returned to that house of disdain. The home of degeneracy beckoned.

>>20119497
based
fuck zoomers

>>20119561
I arrived. An audible grimace announced my entrance. The palpitations of my heart appeared visible before my eyes. As I breathed deep of the yellowed, acidic papers strewn about the cerulean bins, the realization of my imprisonment, my boundedness to the degenerates captivated my thoughts. Captured once again by my greed, I reeled. In a reverse symbiosis we existed in opposition, dancing across our determined paths, our esteems for one another falling in a frightening, rapid simultanity.
I reached into a bin. Prodding, picking, poking. The listless shuffle of the ragtag band of book pickers shuffled rhythmically. Their muted glares warned my disdain. Like some perverse manifestation or reincarnation of the rag picking children on the periphery of 18th-century Nimes, they foisted their grubby hands into piles of books, which appeared much like steaming heaps of offal soaked rags, they scooped unrecognizable heaps of pulp into their shopping carts. At least than a dollar per pound, the used books could be sold for profit with little effort. These grifters hustled! They bustled briskly in their singular object of recovering enough book bouillon to avoid working a traditional occupation. Although piece work had been abandoned as an inefficient and extortionary practice, they seemed happy to resuscitate it under the guise of the "gig economy". As independent contractors they represented the entrepreneurial spirit in it's lowest form. They had degenerated in step with the retarded economic growth from the last two years.

>>20119560
>bro if you dont beat up teenagers you're lame
You keep making this about the girl when it jas nothing to do with the girl. You're fighting high schoolers. You are the fag

>>20119584
Their time amongst the books corrupted them. Ink stained fingers, dry and cracked skin, heavy, round faces framed by the crippling sadness of their chosen profession--all these features put them in a caste apart. They pay a multinational company to sort through donated trash in the hope of generating income to support what little life they live. In lamarckian terms we can say that they slid a little further down the common human tree. Everyday they strayed a bit further from God. Not abandoned, not forgotten, they choose this exile. They daily hasten their departure from God's love. Every encounter I feel mine own slipping, even if only in fleeting moments, just a little bit. It's unclear if these bits of humanity will regenerate. Can you graft it from someone?

>>20119600
I push these thoughts aside. A find? My quarry? What happy days are these? Have I really found it? An Everyman library edition of Dante that could be bought online for a few dollars more? Yes! The relief enters through me, settles across my chaffing skin, and lends me energy to feed my library. The damage to my being, these chips in my soul are no more permanent than the plaque on my teeth. I'll brush it all way. That's right. My ablutions will aid in my recovery. I tell myself I'm not lost. I'm not one of them. I'm not yet a degenerate.

I continue. With only one hand now, the sorting becomes more delicate, more determined, more deliberate. I choose a large Modern Library Giant, gingerly examining the cover for foxing. The Buckram denotes a real find. I add it to the other hand, already burdened by discovery. I knew my time amongst them was limited, less I take on their mannerisms, their mores, their mentality. Im doing this for a higher object. It's for a greater goal. These books will be preserved in the great ledger affixed to my shelf. Written with indelible ink across that great book in the sky. The faint deckle edges of the pages bristled against my skin like lint caught in a beard. I hastened mypusillanimous excursion. Was the cost of this task worth my finds?

Bookresellers feeding online storefronts. These degenerates continued their aggressive sorting, scooping, and shoveling of the desiccated piles of paper. One glanced in my direction and might have given me it's own estimation of a smile. The chipped teeth, yellowed by neglect and substance abuse, promised a handy for a fiver, maybe?. Hard to know in this lost crowd. That one had drifted. Not as a species but an individual specimen. Years of this work yellowed the skin and added decades to what may have been a handsome (or was it beautiful?) face. Now all that remained was the muted gender of a hustling degenrate. A peripheral, a marginalized, an outsider. Redemption from their lives and lifestyles would not come.

>>20118297
I think it should be illegal to have backup in a fight, like I said in the other thread

Thoughts?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFgVjzG-mMI

>>20118297
I was walking with a friend on campus and on the way to the SUB and there were some cute girls with chalk asking people to write on the ground what you were thankful for. My friend wasn't interested so we said no thanks and went on. After we went our separate ways I went back by on my way back to my office, and saw the cutie who talked to us again- cute blush, long brown hair, and a short denim skirt. I chickened out of talking to her and went back to my office in regret. So I got there and the other grad student on my project was there eating lunch. I told him what happened and that I was thinking about going back. He told me to go for it, so I went back. Alas, she was no longer there. I saw another guy there and took his chalk, and wrote down that I was grateful that my ionization chamber was working. Out of all odds, he knew what an ionization chamber was. We chatted about physics for a bit and parted ways. On my way back, a man was wandering around and asked me for the location of the building that happened to be where I was headed. I told him he could follow me there. He asked if I was a student, I said yeah, PhD, (hopefully) finishing later this year. Guy turned out to be a field rep for one of the US Senators in my state, going to a meeting to learn about some other research project going on two rooms over from mine. He gave me his card, saying to contact him if I have any concerns to share with the senator. I don't know if I'll ever contact him.

It didn't end how I wanted to, but it was a fun adventure nonetheless.

>>20119130
My greatest fear is succumbing to violence. I've had times where I've wanted to hit someone. It's almost like an out of body experience. Like I picture myself hitting them, and the rage within tells me to do it. But I know it's not the right way. Especially when it's with girls. I've never gone through with it. Once I did it out of my own will, and the other time someone intervened before I could make a decision. I'd like to say I wouldn't have hit her, as much as I despised that woman. It's a rare occurrence when it happens, but boy do I hate it.

many things I have liked since I was a teen are popular with trannies
way too many

>>20119809
Like what, anon?

>>20118383
>>20118388
Yeah the suicide part is the weakest aspect of platonism. Constantly talking about how the soul must cleanse itself of the body but when you ask why not just kill yourself then plato gives some dumb “you just can’t” christcuck argument tier.

>>20118472
sex obsessed coomers are inherently feminine

>>20119809
It’s because 90% of trans people also have autism

>>20119237
What a fucking retard you are

>>20119813
NTA but I was pretty into speedrunning and now that scene is mostly trans. A third of the guys I played SC2 with 10 years ago also turned out trans. None of the guys who switched to DotA2 with me ended up trans.

>>20119821
It's almost like they all gave up on getting a gf and decided to become one instead. But they're all "transbians," i.e. roleplaying homosexuals. It's literally that "A Game of Pretend" comic turned into reality.

>>20119830
> It's almost like they all gave up on getting a gf and decided to become one instead.
It’s really because autistic people are retarded and easily manipulated. They are the most susceptible group to brainwashing. They basically gravitate towards these online communities usually based around mental illness and they get assimilated into this culture where the more mental illnesses you have the more interesting and “valid” you are. So they second they think “i should have been born a woman” they tell all their mentally ill friends and they start to want to be transgender (not to want to be a woman, they want to be transgender just like the check off mental illnesses to feel special) and then through the political indoctrination it changes to “I AM a woman.” But it’s really the social retardation that causes them to end up in these places in the first place. Normal people socialise in real life but these people only have the internet or if they do socialise in real life it’s only with other mentally ill people they met at school

>>20119770
You are the superfluous man

>>20119830
Transbians are a product of too much lesbian porn

As I have spent all of my past few moons pondering, I have come to this conclusion: I dread of the future. This feeling is of a slow cinder; Broken glass of ash still poured into by the finite wealth of enjoyment. Where must I search for a new cup? Why must all things be of this nature? This sinking hole in my gut shakes my core. As all my friends leave me, I see nothing but the shell of who I wanted to be. In this self-improvement journey, It was all for an entirely new cup-- A chalice of gold I may bring to the fountain anew. Alas, all I have found is tape.

I submit my manuscript to a trad publisher who stated on their site that it would be around six weeks before they got back to me. It's pushing eight weeks now. What does this mean?

>>20119861
What makes you say that?

Lmao fuck just reread it and audibly went "ha, cum chalice"

Gotta love the internet

>>20119880
Make a more interesting hook & email header? Idk man I feel like the first 10 words need to REALLY draw people in or it won't ever work out, applies for all aspects of life

Wrapping your head around something is impossible without dying.

>>20119891
That makes sense. Thanks anon.

>>20119821
Not really. Autism is logic centered, black and white thinking, a very male centered outlook, either they're self diagnosed or statisticians are lying.

Back in 2014 me and this kid in his mid 20s started reverence for Pol Pot and was wondering, eight years later people are starting to realize he was right? Uniroonic answers only

>>20119590
I almost put a 13 year old wiggers head through concrete because he kept making small penis jokes at me. Who gives a fuck? Kids should not mouth off to their elders.

>20120069
>me and this kid in his mid 20s
this is the sum of my response.

>>20119814
Because people who kill themselves are untermenschen, Mark Fisher included

>>20120081
fear the fire whose fuel is men and stone

Is Death of a salesman a good read if you're not an american?

What the fuck did I get myself into?
It is laughable that I thought I could go to college. Ten years slamming booze down my throat every night, making sure to kill every last brain cell I could.
Oh well. No point in giving up now.

Nonsense is to adult books as adult books are to toddler books.

Women are a waste of time. I never thought someone could change their position so quickly in less than a week.
Fuck you Charlotte I hate you. I curse you. I hope you feel guilt, pain and shame in every relationship in the future if that man isn't going to be your husband.

>>20118297
I'm not saying this is correct, but "Morality does not exist beyond might equals right" actually makes sense the more you think about it. When the most serious challenge you can offer to it is, "Alright but why do humans feel a sense of justice?", I start to feel like maybe there's some sense to this and a reason why even in Plato's day this argument was all over the place.

>>20120502
>"Morality does not exist beyond might equals right" actually makes sense the more you think about it
>>20120275
>Nonsense is to adult books as adult books are to toddler books.

>>20118297
Now when i feel fear I move it from my chest/upper stomach down into the pit of my stomach and it disappears. I swallow the fears.

>>20120127
I was required in high school for me. Don't remember what the plot was about. That's ancient history

>mfw the introduction to the book I'm reading says the book is "misguided" and "philosophically and ideologically dubious"

At what point did science fiction stop being optimistic? It seems like early sci-fi had high hopes for humanity colonizing the stars and solving problems that have plagued us for millennia. Now every science fiction story that comes out is dystopian or post-apocalyptic.

>>20118297
stupidity may legitimately be the cause of all suffering

I unironically believe that war is peace, that freedom is slavery, and that ignorance is strength.

>>20120069
> either they're self diagnosed or statisticians are lying.
It’s self diagnosed 4chan retards who came up with the “autism is logical” meme

>>20118297
>>20118412
electric light shines a very weird light on interiors like this. they look sinister

>>20118797
Jesus dude just see a therapist. You’ve clearly got some issues to unpack before you’re ready for a relationship

>inb4 therapy bad

New is old and old is new.

Got in an argument with my junkie sister. Now, supposedly, her junkie boyfriend and his boys are on their way over to kill me. What do I read to pass the time? Bible feels cliche

>>20118297
what it must've been like as a parisian watching the notre dame go up

>>20121422
What a fag. Load your gun, loser.

>>20118297
I'd like to write but have low confidence! Art makes you naked, you bare your soul! I'm afraid of being seen!

>>20121162
Probably a based book desu

>>20121193
Based and plato pilled

>>20121460
They suspected it was done on purpose to keep them from protesting their shit government.
They were pretty outraged at the money pouring in the replace it. Most French have their priorities straight.

Nearly six p.m., the Notre Dame de Paris,
Still green and grey, now livened with red fire.
That was a grand display of all the Arts;
God's, Man's, the Devil's. The crowd admired,
Stiff-necked, steely their hearts.

Marked by a pillar of skyward smoke,
It sang louder than a cathedral choir.
The storm within and the peace without.
Everyone secretly backs a fire.
I never thought to doubt.

>>20121683
there must have been some real people about

I'm 26 years old and still desperately crave approval and pat on the back from my father. I have always looked up to him, he's been my sole role model. I wanted to be my father, but we are very different people. He's one of the smartest people that I know and comparing myself to him makes me feel like an absolute failure. He's never said it explicitly, but there's a sense that he's disappointed in me and what I've done with my life. He's an Ivy-tier graduate with a successful career and I'm a college drop out making sub 50k. I want to spend more time with him as he gets older but I get so anxious talking with him. There's always this base desperation running in the back of my mind, "are you proud of me dad? are you happy with your son? Did I do good? I'm an adult but revert back into a shy teenager around him still and that kills me.

I've gotten myself into a long-distance relationship and I think I've bitten off far more than I can chew. Did not realize how painful it is going to be only seeing this girl once a month.

I have a strong feeling one of my philosophy TAs from last quarter browses here.

I just want to be content.

Why can't inflation be fixed? How can people conceive of 'economic collapse' without its solution? How can the modern world provide such bountiful gifts and yet face a determined course that can't be avoided, only delayed?

>>20118297
I'm going on a 4th date with a girl on Sunday. Or rather, she's coming to my place and we're gonna watch TV,
There's a decent chance we do more and I'm excited and nervous for it. She'll be the first person I've been with since my ex cheated on me and she's a very nice person.
Wishing all you anons the best

>>20121945
Good luck anon. I was in a long distance relationship that just ended. A point will come when she needs more than you can give her, and your only option is to be there with her. Don't let that happen. Keep fighting.

>>20121945
>>20122231
Unrelated, but I can attest to LDR being shit. Without some kind of plan for when you can be back to normal-distance, it will be near-impossible to sustain.

I know that this might be the stupidest question you've ever heard but how to relax enough around sleep around brothers cat? I know that shes not aggressive but rather curious and cowardly one. However I feel so fucking tense at night that I have to know where she is otherwise I cannot sleep at night. What can I do to get rid of this stupid anxiety?

>>20122254
Cuddle the cat to realize that it's a nice creature
Or lock it out of your room

in one of those ruts boys. not interested in a damn thing. the accoutrements of my old hobbies lay around covered in dust. i have no reason to do anything

>>20122280
>hobbies
It’s your own fault.

>>20122262
>lock it out of your room
Thats possible as the last resort but I dont really want to cause her even more stress as Im going to take care of her while my brother is away. Im just afraid that she might do something to me while Im sleeping.

>>20122292
explain

>>20122323
Boredom is self inflicted.
Where’s your purpose? Your passion?
Funko pops and faberge eggs aren’t anything… whatever your hobbies are, whatever you once thought of them, you just demoted them by calling them hobbies.

>>20122311
The worst thing a cat will do is bite your toes through the blanket and if you don't want that to happen your only option is locking it out of the room. Its not gonna shit on your face or anything though if that's what you're worried about.

How to feel good when you get a compliment? I think I have trained myself to repress even positive feelings. The only time I feel good is when I'm drunk but otherwise I just feel numb even when objectively good things happen. I had a normal childhood why am I like this.

>>20122336
I don't have either that's the problem. Hobbies are just things I used to think I was passionate about

>>20122371
Did your parents complemented you on baseless things?

>>20122160
describe content.

>>20122525
Not that I remember but I don't remember much. I've been a high achiever my whole life but I don't recall any pressure from my parents. I have a lot of accomplishments to my name but I can't say that any of them really made me feel happy past maybe the age of 11.

I guess it was bound to happen eventually, but as of season 21 Midsomer Murders has officially went to shit and now looks like some run-of-the-mill police series with rushed story, almost no dramatic effect and mystery, and possibly poor acting, but it's hard to really see that when everything is just so soulless.

I think I got over thinking about her...
Now I need another reason to live...
Should I become an anti-tech revolutionist?

I’ve realised that I’m mentally unhinged. My way of thinking baffles others and when I let myself go all but the very few are put off.
hopefully I can sufficiently mask it as being quirky.

A complete history of sexual jealousy parts 17 - 24

Do you value a person more by his character or achievements?

>>20122726
I value people based on rng

Is it still possible in this age to sell everything you own and serve God? What would that even look like?

>>20122726
by his rating mang

>>20122802
sell everything and join monastery

>>20122802
You can still join the priesthood anon what are you on about

Why do modern editors have no shame? Don't fucking remove shit you worthless dipshits.

What do you do when you deeply deeply bored? Not by anything individual thing, but your entire life and everyone around you?

>>20122914
Make some sort of radical change. Variety is the spice of life anon.

I haven't masturbated in maybe around a week and had the first wet dream of my entire life last night. It's probably the longest I've gone since age 12. I hate having grown up with pornography. I remember when I was still under 10 years old and life was actually interesting and real. Even when I was just working all day, it was like I was excited to pick up the next rock and feel it in my hands or to hand the next screw to whoever I was working with to get closer to completing the job. And of course as a kid you always get relegated to the small jobs so you are always wanting to use the bigger shovel or to go on the roof with everyone else or to drive the tractor. I'm not stupid and obviously masturbation probably has minimal physical effects. But I want to walk around like a real human who has real desires that he doesn't just get rid of by touching himself every night. I'm tired of hating myself and if I can't get rid of the religious guilt bred into me I'll get rid of masturbation. I just want to live a REAL life.

>>20121422
Druggies need to die. Your sister (like almost all other women) have no honor. White knights deserve to die. Also make sure you rape the corpses when your done

>>20121346
I disagree. I heard about it way before 4chan, like in the 90s

>>20120316
You should rape her

>>20122994
absolutely based and on the path to enlightenment. I don't know you fren but I'm rooting for you

>>20122994
I don't think masturbation is something you can rationally confront. Its something so easy for such an instant reward. If you can tell yourself to stop, and you do, that's great. But if you can't, you need to figure out some other way to quit.

I don't believe despair is a good motivator to change a behavior. If you could respect the fact that you find things arousing and also that you don't want to masturbate, that would lead to more helpful outcomes. But I'm in the same boat as you, so maybe not.

I'm starting to think I'll be unable to have a meaningful relationship with a woman and I'm not quite sure what to do about since I want a family and children.
The reason for this isn't your typical 4chan reasons of not being confident enough or whatever. I can get a gf it's just that I'm not interested in normie women because they're retarded so I try find intelligent or interesting women right. Not being able to discuss certain topics with them because they're not smart enough or whatever isn't an issue and not even something I need from a woman but the problem is that I find myself resenting them for their other flaws.
For example with my last gf I couldn't have an open conversation(which is important to me) around certain topics because she was in someway connected to the topic and couldn't talk about it without getting upset or crazy.
Imagine trying to talk to an ex drug addict about drug addiction, the culture around drugs etc without making them feel bad about themselves.
I suppose the issue really is that everyone has some form of baggage from their life and I don't.

>>20118297
whats a good place to start with Nestorian christianity

>>20123098
you sound like the most unique human being who has ever lived

>>20123294
What's your problem?

Love is the same emotion as Hate. It is noted that children who proclaim in exasperation to hate their parents and friends are ignored. I propose that this transfers over into adulthood. If someone has a dispute with their partner and they say "I hate you!" before storming out, it is likely that the conflict was not a big deal. If anything at all, expressing hate is just as effective as expressing love, due to the closure it provides to a tense moment.

The reason this is the case is because love and hate are antonyms. We know this, but what do we specifically mean by antonyms? To clarify, just like how synonyms are -in relation- to similar things, so too are antonyms -in relation- to similar things. Therefore, in the case of saying one person is 'inside' a room while another is 'outside' a room, we can surmise that they are both placed in relation to the room. Substitute the room itself for a door, or a barrier, and the tone shifts to reflect that they are both closer than they would be.

It is because of the common notion that hate is a 'strong' emotion that it is so chiefly paired with hate. What, then, would be a more suitable analog for the miserable feelings so many harbor? These are contempt and neglect, which are employed when a person is near and when they are away, respectively. My original point is reinforced by looking at the antonyms of the aforementioned terms. These, you may guess, are respect and attachment. Respect lends well to cordiality, amicability, and good cheer, while contempt leads to awkwardness, anxiety, and bad faith. The same can be said for neglect, only that it is positionally different; there is a way to induce awkward behavior, anxiety and lack of trust in someone by not speaking to them, just as well as if you were speaking poorly to them. More often than not, this is achieved by a combination of the two, but generalizations do no good here.

What does it mean, then, to say we hate someone? How does disappointment factor in, since it is colloquially the 'correct' version of hate? Why do grudges always seem to create adversaries rather than direct enemies? If love is commonly seen as virtuous, then does that make hate an unvirtue, or rather, something which is a necessary evil in a functional society? In that case, could one argue that speaking one's mind about perceived bad traits in a person, even if it comes across as childish, is the true way to become better people? I'm not so sure, but it is unique that children deal with hate in a rather terse and almost surreal way, compared to adults.

big dicks will rule the world

>>20123325
I was being sincere

Who are your favorite songwriters, /lit/?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDtsgVgAx6k
>>20122914
Not sure.
Usually devolves into nihilism. I'm not exactly sure how to view my life meaningfully

I just want to withdraw from the world. I’m already an introverted loner and a quiet person. I have no friends anymore and I haven’t dated in years. I only have conversations with family and co-workers and even that makes me cringe at myself very often. Hell, I just had an argument with my mother about dating. I should be even less talkative then I am now.

>>20122914
I think it really depends on what kind of person you are and what your inclinations are. You’re on a literature board so the obvious answers would be to use literature, which has its drawbacks but can be a solution.

>>20123699
>I just had an argument with my mother about dating
What did you say? blackpill?

>>20122726
Character because achievements in a mad world indicate little of importance to me

>>20123705
Every now and then she spouts off the typical feminist declarations and I struggle to keep my mouth shut.

>>20123718
She has been probably the single most toxic person in my life. Even now in my late twenties she’s never even pressured me to date, doesn’t want grandkids, and has even stated that it’s pedophilic to date younger women and said I shouldn’t have grandkids.

Who tells their son they don’t want grandkids?

I have no skills, im not good at anything, have no vision of what i even want. Im 30 now and wasted the last 15 years living like this.

>>20123759
that makes two of us

>>20123790
Feels bad

I smoke too many cigarettes

>>20123759
I can sympathize with the vision but the other stuff still escapes me. I’ve never really felt like I absolutely needed to be good at any one thing or have a particular skill, especially if we’re talking within the context of a career.

>>20123798
it really does. I drink to cope and I hope it kills me before I face the consequences of my poor choices.

>>20123849
Even dumber than the mistakes of fifteen years.
Giving yourself some health issues in the next fifteen.
Get yourself cleaned up.
>>20123806
You too.

I'm so tired.

>>20123888
I cant deal with anxiety without drinking.

>find an interesting sounding job
>it pays barely above minimum
coding here I come

there isn't a single good thread up on /lit/ atm. why do I keep coming here

I struggle to reconcile the fact that video games at the age of 10 were the best thing in the world and now almost none of them are even worth a glance

>>20124070
Most office jobs are basically coding jobs now anyway, even if they don’t explicitly say so.

eating meat for the first time in a while. I'm gonna get proper comatose in 8 minutes or so. delicious.

>>20124205
read a book muthafucka

>>20124331
yeah but the pay is shit. unless you fancy being a rentcuck who lives from paycheck to paycheck.

I never go on Twitter, but I was curious about a specific person. It's kind of sad seeing a person posting in the same style as people with big audiences, like when they're making formal posts addressing "everyone" but have 0 likes or retweets.

>>20124645
I don't understand why people without a following use twitter for this reason

>being happy
i shiggy diggy

I've realized I've never relied on anyone. this has meant I have learned some things and develoepd in my own direction. It has also meant i have had no one to back me up, and I have had no one to back up. This has meant that I have had to learn other means of conflict resolution, since I have no tribe. Sometimes this has failed. I have likely attracted much positive attention as I have not been seen as a sell-out, I have not had any shitty group-agenda to sell (this doesn't just mean missionary work, this means I have had no fixed culture and have been somewhat able to adapt), I have been genuinely curious and a genuine curiosity. It has belonged to my conflict-resolution mechanism to have a good sense of humour. So I have been liked. Generally I have not liked people. I think I have only ever genuinely liked, at a deep level at least, one other person. I have not seen her in some time.

I think we are men some ways and some ways we are not. Few are complete. I am not complete. Probably having a tribe means you cover for one another. But it's not really a choice- I'm 30, it just is how it is, so far at least. We'll see, God willing.

How do programmers have an easy time getting hired if every job needs different programming skills?

>>20124924
I started relying on people when I was about 26 and I think I regret that.

>>20124552
What I mean is that all office jobs want coding skills now. For example, financial analysts aren’t programmers but most of them will have to know how to code something to do their jobs.

>>20124935
Have you programmed before? Once you learn the basics it's very easy to pick up new things, and the hard parts like algorithms or working at a low-level are for specialists, who are like a niche in the programming world (but make a lot of money). But for normal people it's more stuff like, "I am experienced in Java but this job requires Python", which is trivial to learn since most popular languages are very similar.

I've had, like, four pints of whiskey at this point? I'm recording the audio for my videos as I go, but I think I've maybe got one left in me before I finish for the night. I'm reading on the Kindle which makes things 1,000x easier since I don't have to pay and wait for everything to be delivered, but I'd rather be out drinking and surrounded by thots who want nothing but a sweet piece of dick so that they can add another notch to their bedposts.

I've largely been alone for months now and I just keep thinking over and over again "all I want is to be alone"

I feel so completely detached from the thought processes of others. A co-worker brings up Ukraine and asks me when I think it'll end. Tell him I don't know but mention that I saw some predictions in the news just to be polite and keep the conversation going. Then he says:

>Yeah I hope they keep the sanctions on Putin even if he does retreat

In my head I'm like why? Not why do you want them to keep sanctions but why do you have an opinion on it in the first place? You don't really care if we keep sanctions do you? This guy isn't some military or politics buff he's just a random idiot co-worker. If the prevailing opinion shifted to repealing sanctions or whatever your opinion would shift accordingly too. Yet he says he wants the sanctions to remain with a conviction like he knows what he's talking about. But really I think he just feels like saying something like that makes him feel like he's an adult with adult opinions. I'm not claiming I know what the right thing to do is, in fact that's why entire point - I don't know and I don't pretend that I know anymore than I do. I don't know it set me off for some reason.

Why are corporations hiring SJWs into their HR departments and allowed HR departments to make their employees attend equity training?

>>20118297
I'm in love again. This time I'm optimistic.

>>20125594
I relate to this so much. I've also given up on trying to explain things to normies because they don't care enough to learn and sometimes those that do just want a more nuanced opinion to make them sound smart in their next interaction.

ma vie est un blague

>>20125608
Tell me about her.

Nowadays the aristocrat/emperor/king/etc worship of the past is seen as backwards, but nowadays celebrities and even politicians seem to serve the same purpose. You get people obsessed with anyone who's famous in the same way people used to follow royalty & nobles. Royals were venerated because they were thought to be chosen by whatever god/s their culture worshipped, but the world we live in is usually more secular and reasons like that aren't as popular. Why do people still want people to worship?

I got my dad a copy of Ulysses for his birthday! I’m excited to read the same book as him! We’re gonna have so much to talk about! We’ll be able to connect with things other than sports! He’s getting old and we will enjoy each other with the time we have together!

>>20125667
Human condition. We want what we are not

Don’t listen to this guy >>20125663 he’s trying to take her away from you!

>>20125683
I had my dad read the first sentence of Ulysses and he started laughing in confusion. "Well, I just hope you enjoy it, bud."
I love having a blue collar dad who's never read a book in his life except Heavy Metal comics.

were on a road to nowhere

>>20125628
>>20125594
Unaware narcissistic neuroticism. Very pathetic get a change in attitude!

>>20125764
Were we?

Bros... don't go to a blind community and think you'll be king. It doesn't work.

>>20125782
Elaborate

>>20125815
ignore that poster, normies will act like normies because it's in their nature. Simply ignoring their nonsense and finding like-minded people is the best way forward not dumbing yourself down to be friends with people who can't think for themselves like this poster would have you do

>be me
>reading catholic lit for 2 years
>finally meet a catholic girl
>she goes to a gay friendly anti-racism church
what do

>>20125831
isolate her from harmful ideas and people like that and subtlety educate her through influence

>>20125831
She is more Catholic than your LARPing ass will ever be

>>20125831
you should stop being catholic. i grew up catholic and it was a waste of time

>>20125847
post nose

I can't even make friends on the internet god damn I am retarded

>>20125831
Catholicism is one of the most widely practiced religions in the world there's other Catholic girls

I have a hard time distinguishing good writing from poor writing and I have no idea what the person means when they say "that's reddit."

>>20125663
She's incredible. She is loving, kind, beautiful, funny, very intelligent, and so fun to hang out with. She makes me very happy. We've been seeing each other for about a month and I honestly see LTR potential in her. I've had such bad experience with women until now but with her I see a future. I don't know what I've done to deserve such a woman but she is very into me.

>>20125831
brother you gotta get to the SSPX if there's one near you. Beautiful masses, preaching on 4 last things at least once a month, great parish life. Birds of a feather anon.

>>20125607
Because they make money or at least don’t lose money

The worst part of relapsing on amphetamines is the diarrhea

>>20124984
No. Do programmers ever have to do things like presentations or have a lot of meetings?

>>20126004
>SSPX
oh shit theres one 2 miles away from me

>>20122231
We can't be together permanently for at least 8 months, doing everything in my power to close the distance as soon as i can. Thank you for the kind words.

>>20124924
I've always relied on others and was relied on in turn; you just need to find your tribe anon, you have valuable experience young people need to survive out here in the real world.

I wish there was an organization that would get people into trouble for sharing your secrets, a secret police!

>>20125831
I grew up Catholic, went to Catholic school, was an altar boy, all that. I often feel that being a Catholic is almost pointless now, at least in America. The church has reformed itself into oblivion and it’s not even clear what it’s actually offering anymore, just some sort of moral advisory I guess but that more advisory is just this vaguely ecumenical “be a heckin’ good person” progressive thing that doesn’t resonate theologically with anything. So if it’s just moral advisory on behalf of the government, what is the point?

told my coworker that i used to have a crush on those feelings died a long time ago and she should stop trying to tease me. she never looked more crushed. i am a monster for enjoying it as much as i did...

>>20126009
what a coincidence
im currently on the toilet due to amphetamine shits

>>20122822
>You can still join the c*tholic sex cult
No thanks, I think I'll actually serve God Almighty instead of "holy father" Francis.

my gf is depressed and I can't stop checking out cute girls on the street

>>20126055
she's never been more obtainable

>>20125988
Thank you for sharing, anon. I wanted to read some positivity today.

>>20126094
God, relationships seem awful sometimes.

loners welcome but not coomers
gg/TNpRps46PY

Hello, Japanese person. There is no "Japanese" any more than there's an "American". Those are buzzwords. Stop thinking you're special from others.

>>20126084
Oh I get it anon. My advice for you then is to kill yourself.

>>20126134
I made an account, joined and got banned immediately.

Living in the city is literally hell on earth. I experience depression and boredom everyday. But the other day for a walk in the woods (what is considered the woods in a city at least) and I was literally the happiest I'd been in months. I need to get out of this urban hellscape.

>>20126124
when you're in a long-term relationship and move in together you have to adjust, you'll see each other at your lowest and the highs can become more mundane and routine, you can't fake it all the time and compartmentalising becomes harder... but love is real and eternal and will overcome

>>20123507
It changes with the seasons, but unironically John Mayer right now. Am a guitarist, it's infuriatingly astounding how complex and incredibly difficult some of his seemingly innocuous songs are to play. Dude is a fucking monster on the guitar, probably one of the best of all time but you wouldn't know it from listening to his music. The technique he uses on tracks like heart of life, stop this train, who says, and especially NEON is fucking ridiculous. It isn't immediately noticeable to anyone not accustomed to the guitar, but i assure you it's very disgusting. This video breaks it down well

https://youtu.be/E0_1oWQJ-a0

Where can I find more info about how academic writing avoids styled names in writing? Tokyopop always styles their name as TOKYOPOP, but in academic writing they never use the styled name outside talking about the styled name (see Wikipedia article).

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tokyopop
https://www.tokyopop.com/company

I have so many things I want to change about myself and do in the immediate future that I may as well have nothing I want to change about myself or do at all.

The truth is already true and you already know it. It's impossible not to act out the truth. Falsehood can only come from semantics, so stop speaking.

>>20126207
>>20126207
easy to be a beast!!.
now-a-days i just mime ab dirtbol.
squeakyclean radio.
like an international ancienytcodeeye threathy

>got two As in courses instead of A+s
>heavily disappointed
>realize I'm a bugman

I can solve all problems in ontology: every thing is unique.

>>20126134
>loners welcome but not coomers
>gg/TNpRps46PY
i joined and some terf banned me kys

how do i get into the mindset of the average redditor? how many funko pops do i have to collect?

just finished a semi abstract expressionist landscape painting. any suggestions what to paint next? pref something modernist, landscape or figurative is fine.

>>20126589
can I see it

>>20126607

Made eye contact with a pretty girl and she smiled and I smiled back. But then I felt awkward so I just looked at my phone. I'm such a beta goddamn.

>>20126629
I've got to learn from this and not beat myself up. Sometimes I wish confidence would come up me as easily as it comes to others but unfortunately it doesn't. I've got to accept that and work on improving rather than laying into myself which will only make things worse.

>>20122556
>describe content
not wanting to kill myself daily.
i would be able to actually enjoy some things.

>>20126623
I like it.

>>20126675
thanks bröther

>>20126623
nice

I wish I were good at Dota
I don't even have time for it nowadays

Does anybody else feel incredibly scatterbrained? Maybe I need to do a dopamine fast...

When I was a virgin I thought of sex as something that a man took from a woman, I figured that penetration was obviously, as semantically, an incursion by the man into the woman and therefore a loss for her to the benefit of him. Like a military victory would be, a transmission of territory. But after many years of sexual experience with the same man, I've come to the conclusion that sex is more like an extraction of sperm and energy from the man. Only once was my virginity taken -- in every other instance of sexual intercourse, I instead took something from him. He's always sapped and tired after sex. I always want more. I never get enough. I often have suicidal ideation. This is what it's like being a Jewish woman. Mostly fine.

>>20126711
No.

>>20126589
Try something like Mondrian's "lozenge" paintings with a square canvas tilted 45 degrees.

>>20126781
Fixed it for you anon

>>20126797
NOOOOOO THAT'S NOT THE ARTISTS INTENTION!!1 YOU RUINED IT!!

>>20126781
>20126781
squares
>>20126797
no squares

all humans want is to see the rules be followed

>>20126781
mondian already did that tho

"Check out the titties on that chick," my friend said.

Like every law and rule abiding citizen, I looked. The woman wore a long black strapless dress. The top of her breasts were visible. There was nothing left to say. They were very wonderful breasts. But I was not aroused. They were round, incredibly perky, and far too large. I lost interest quickly. My foot swept the floor. The flat cold surface was an indicator of what I desired. Call it destiny, or call it fate. It doesn't matter. I looked back at the woman, and at her side, was another. Her stick like figure and depressed chest cavity captivated my interest. Her long blue dress displayed nothing. A solid cylindrical shape draped over her body. My gaze could not look away. She was everything I dreamed of in a woman. Long black hair, dark green eyes, a bright white smile, and most importantly; a chest that was flatter than the desk I was sitting behind. She was a true beauty.

>>20118797
>There is only one answer: my personality.
Physical attractiveness is much more important in relationships than people care to admit. You could just be an ugly nigga.

>>20119101
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>>20126891
do men desire flat breasts because they know they can inflate them through impregnation?

>Learned helplessness is a behavior in which an organism is forced to endure aversive, painful or otherwise unpleasant stimuli, and becomes unable or unwilling to avoid subsequent encounters with those stimuli, even if they are escapable.

i need to investigated learned helplessness and it's relation to wageslavery. i must escape.

>>20126921
>they are escapable
that’s my favorite conspiracy theory

Along both sides of the asphalt track two concrete pathways run parallel. As it was past sunset, the northern sidewalk was illuminated by yellowed streetlights, painting a golden veneer on the normally light-gray pedestrian path. The southern side was not granted such luxury.

In the aurora of the boreal sidewalk, children would play and couples would kiss. It's southern counterpart, a frigid shade of midnight blue, hosted only the jaded and rejected.

The northern sidewalk had an angel, or at least the closest a mortal could be to an angel - flowing blonde hair, a yellow sundress, clear pale skin, the fairness of femininity. The southside of the street hosted me - who remained in the dark out of contempt for his own appearance.

And I watched, as such a heavenly flower was picked. Not by me, but by another man, and I was given yet another biting reminder that I walk on the southern sidewalk.

i never thought i'd come to this point but i've developed parasocial relationships with several vtubers and egirls. just donating to them and hearing them call me sweet gives me a massive endorphin rush.

>>20126875
YOU HAVE TO READ THE WORD "LIKE" IN THE SENTENCE.

>>20126134
>loners welcome but not coomers
>gg/TNpRps46PY
bot?

>>20126946
Seriously pathetic. Stop

>>20126959
it's a discord link

>>20125815
Hand waving other people’s thoughts and feelings away because they aren’t you whilst at the same time craving validation.
See the reply you got which is seeped in insecurity yet somehow believes itself superior to ‘normies’ when you can bet they don’t truly know what normies feel and think, assuming following social convention as the personality of normies instead of knowing how basic communication works.

what is lupus and is is a fake womens disease?

>>20127190
Junior lycanthropy.

But no, really. Look it up.

Telekinesis edition is up
>>20127235
>>20127235

>>20123759
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>20126891
Damn it, anon. Please don't say such things.

>>20126959
join friends

>>20126959
>coomers
>>gg/TNpRps46PY
discord is full of coomers good luck