/lit/ - Literature

>>19836421
I would really like to meet a really nice Asian transgirl and have passionate sex with her.

>>19836431
all buckteeth and flapping gag tux front, no thanks

>>19836421
Those lame wignat boomers are always going on about the ‘beauty of whites women’. But they should have said ‘so the beauty of the white boy will not perish from this earth’

>>19836434
It's not somebody's fault if they're born with buckteeth. I think they're kind of cute.

>>19836444
just the scraping

for about 10 years ive been haunted by the idea that i speak my thoughts unknowingly. every now and then something will happen that suggests that is the case. lately ive taken to the idea that instead i implant ideas in other peoples minds telepathically. its a lot more positive than being a schizo babbler.

>>19836448
scraping what?

>>19836459
cock and ball skin. like she tries to suck your balls in but just scrapes them in with her gigantic hideous gooky buk-buk roof tiles.

>>19836469
That's kind of hot honestly.

i really like this sort of stuff

here something lil nigga:

Yes tim, bute strips to you represent a day not hanging as bad as nothing. figure a way to shoot em.
fuck you tho nigga, I had a good spot braking into cars. whole week in a row, thousands in profit and I take you out one night and we get chased by 2 guys with baseball bats. I shout run cunt. you try to front them. I run. Stealing from cars means slipping in and out in the night, not fighting athletic men with baseball bats. We go separate ways and I divest my hoodie and hat and jump into some frontyard bushes. Later you tell me they caught you and bashed you, put ciggies out on your legs taunting me and you showed the scars. I felt bad so I gave you 50.

later on you fucked me over. we tried to sell some MD caps in town and some teen punks beat your head in with a wrench while they robbed us. So you felt like I owed you somwhow cos it was my venture. You and your crackbitch took 200 from me, said you'd give me some smack later that day. I'm not big but I could fuck you up and I know you have no backup. I could crush you and take your shit but no just give me my two hundred.

anyway, gives me a bunch of bupe strips in retur and I'm smoking like 5 of them a day through my cone and he's bitching me out cos he's a junkie but I'm not. 10 bupe strips gets me fucked up for the night versus keeping him from itching right.

>>19836486
wat regular gay stuff? is ok be gay one life

this is my last post on this website, the retard who spammed porn convinced me to leave this place

>>19836564
see you tomorrow

>>19836564
spam porn too, since it doesnt matter if you get banned

I am too intelligent to express myself to 99% of the population, and of the remaining 1%, only 5% have valuable information to reciprocate

you don't know it, but you look around your dirty room and may or may not see the beauty in it but i do and you will one day, you have everything and although you can't see it look back! you'll see the true beauty of your life one day.

I broke up with my girlfriend because I thought we were not right for each other: she and I had different life goals and I didn't want either of us to limit each other. Now, it feels heavy on my soul even though I knew it was not meant to be. I hoped we could remain friends but I hear her start dating someone else and it fills my heart with a disgusting black that proceeds to be vomited around my vasculature. I feel like I can't even see her at the hobby we used to share because he will be there. I tried to do the right thing, but I can't help but grieve and huddle in my loneliness. It'll pass; just a bit more sleep.

>>19836421
I think the world is controlled by demonic forces

How do you suppress the urge to check out "new" porn?

Also I have some kind of CPPS which makes me constantly horny

Got bored and started a YWOYM thread almost two years ago when the old one was at 320+ posts. This one was started before the last hit 290 bros. I only come here on weekends but this general's really changed damn

>>19836451
>Thought transmission
Literally schizo

>>19836799
Is new a brand new category? Then you probably have a coomer brain.
If "new" is a deeper, more depraved version of your current porn habits, congrats you've entered a fetish spiral. It only gets worse.

>Also I have some kind of CPPS which makes me constantly horny
Take warm baths, put a heating pad on your pelvis if you have to. Drink tons of water and never hold in the desire to pee.

nothing gets me going harder than seeing a tsundere become a fuckdoll

>>19836729
You did the right thing. If you strung her along for two or three years, you'd be doing both of you a disservice. As for the rest... I know that feel bro. We want to find a woman we can love, but what we really want is a woman we can own. And now that another "man" seems to own her, it crushes your heart and your pride. Combo for pain.

>>19836421
>It is said that the effect of eating too much lettuce is "flatulative." I have never felt gassy after eating lettuces; but then I am not that sorta girl. They certainly had a very flatulative effect upon the Flop House Bunnies! Even before Wilhelmina Bunny grew up, she had already joined a Cunicudello, full of other young bunnies looking to make their way in the big bad wolfish world. They were a large "family": very improvident and cheerful. I do not remember the separate names of the girls, who totalled some twenty (tho not even one was as old as that); they were indeed generally known as the "Flop House Bunnies," (and it wasn't because their ears were floppy or tails bushy). As there was not always quite enough to eat,—Wilhelmina used to borrow cabbages from the mother of one of the other girls, Petra Fanny, who kept a nursery garden. Sometimes Petra Fanny had no cabbages to spare. When this happened, the Flop House Bunnies went across the field to a rubbish heap, in the ditch outside Mr. McGregor's garden (who happened to be an old perv, but that's another story). Mr. McGregor's rubbish heap was a mixture. There were discarded chamber pots, used condoms and wrappers, and mountains of horse manure from the stables next door (which made the ground feel warm at all hours), and some rotten vegetable marrows and a time-ravaged bloomer or two. One day—oh joy!—there were a quantity of overgrown lettuces, which had "shot" into flower. The Flop House Bunnies filled their skirts with as many lettuce heads as they could carry and streamed back into the Cunicudello to make a cauldron's worth of cabbage, carrot, cucumber and egg yolk soup. Afterwards they all indeed became highly flatulative, with bellies big with cabbage gas, and bloomers filtering sonorous wind after sonorous wind of odoriferous cabbage and sulphurous eggs...

>>19836421
convex folding like a chimeric wolf hound terminal cancer is death if i reach eighty years old I will burn myself alive and piety is not an emotion that exists nor a state of mind unless you can turn yourself into a homosexual. Shaved skin, leathery skin with unnatural steroidal - steroid, traditional indian drug, "Traditional 21st century drug" methamphetamines. Adderall. Sleep ten hours, dream dreams with no interpretation. Wake up, life with manifold non-interpretations. Yaqui indians probably cut off their genitals after a revelation, a revelation, a revelation! What I have said is true! I am the Lord thy God in the flesh, I am a nonfigurable substance, here to affect human history - history can be deduced a priori from mystical experience. The world is like a formulaic clay moulding made accidentally by a toddler, this universe is a fleeting thought in his mind, his playmate will squish it under his feet. This world is like a poorly crafted simile for truth which doesn't exist. This world is like the, the wind or a stone, a leaf, but not exactly, and never. No exit? Hand gun, pill, rope, tie a weight to your feet and jump in the ocean, lethal injection, guillotine, electric chair, glass shard to your throat, bang your head against the wall with no restraint, bite off your own finger cut off your own face, mauled by a lion, infected with rabies hydrophobic, the window in your attic opens, headfirst for quick death, feet first for broken legs, then kill yourself in the hospital, just for fun, and compose an ode to fate before you go

Is the law anon from the last thread who's interested in real estate law and loves Georgism still around in this one?
Otherwise - are there any modern books on Georgism or have Marxists and rentier capitalists run it into the ground for good?

I go into economics subreddits (yes yes) and they always portray Georgists as the "looney" types. Makes me sad bros.

>>19836861
I mean "new" as in updates, like stuff coming up every day

Absolute Infinity is one sound paradox that is climbing fast and collapsing in on itself right now... God as Mind which produces such things such as God trying to find Himself. Timeless dance cradled by the womb of creation. All one Sound "OM! " (God Thus Spoke) "Listen, just do what I want. See? It's easy." "Sure thing, God! No Sweat!"
Sometimes salvation is submission while sometimes salvation is just seeing Eye to Eye. I and I will see you through. I'm just now beginning to Begin Again Without Time. You can't see God for the bragging rights. What about : the beggar's rights, the beggars' right, the beggars write. What do they want to write? It's all one swollen syllable some kind of strange testament.
Speaking words you can't hear, God's Word is destined to fall on deaf ears, as it usually does. I'm almost certain a crystal clear explanation of events at any point in time is nearly indiscernible. A message of truth, a moment of love, a kiss, a crime. Our rights, our wrongs. It's all been written down. Eventually winds up as some kind of harmonious record playing in the background. I already kinda dig it.

>>19836421
A thread got deleted right after I made a long post explaining why people that feel compelled to barge in on any conversation about mental problems to say “mental illnesses aren’t real”/“the map is not the territory” are retarded.
Now I am mad.

>>19836669
I know what you mean but
> I am too intelligent to express myself
Hmmmm

>>19836799
By having such niche interests that there isn’t any anymore.

>>19836981
Happens bro. If it makes you feel better.
, Anything you wrote would be forgotten by everyone within a few hours if not minutes.

>>19836998
Very true.

This is going to be a hodgepodge post so forgive me.

I really hate my life. Diagnosed at 3 with the autism, growing up had cringe moments, eventually grew into a somewhat normal person thanks to lots of help. I was the prodigal student in high school. Didn’t have to study, just got As. Community college came and I got shitty grades. Eventually graduating after 4 years which usually takes 2. I had a 2.7 GPA. I’m 25 now and in the fall of last year I transferred into a somewhat decent school. I now have a 2.3 GPA. I write in my bed at night crippled by mental problems which seem to have recently developed. I can’t seem to stick to anything. I want to learn a language really badly, but I don’t think I can. I constantly change my target language and quit after a few days. Information doesn’t retain or retard like it used to. For example now I want to learn Japanese but I can’t remember the hiragana or katakana I intake. It also doesn’t help me that I have troomer tendencies, I know this part would be better of in /lgbt/ but I want to be a woman. Not because I identify as one or all but because they have much more powerful orgasms and they can have multiple ones with no refractory period. They also look very attractive in their clothing. Porn probably warped my mind and there is no going back. I obsess over what could have been. I’m a sucker for alternate history and cheesy authors like turtledove. I wish we had a different world than we do right now. One final thought, /pol/ has ended my ability to think critically. In community college I would post regularly there and now I scapegoat everything on something even if it isn’t far right scapegoatisms. For example I think covid is being extended because scientists are lazy in finding a cure. I think I’ve gotten dumber over time.

Don’t know what to do anymore. Still living with parents, they are getting older and when they die I think the state is gonna step in and put me in assisted living. I’m with an agency right now and this is set up so when they die the state steps in because with my inability in math I don’t think I can do taxes or any adult math stuff. My living space is also the 7th circle of hell littered in filth.

How do I fix my life?

>>19837129
writhe in my bed*

>>19837129
you people are so clueless. What do you think the reason could possibly be that you are unproductive, that your mind is scattered, that you never do anything? Could it perhaps be that you spend all day on 4chan, all day watching porn, all day playing video games, all day listening to music, all day watching videos or television? Seriously. You are what you DO day to day and minute to minute. You aren't going to change YOURSELF, you are going to change what you DO. You aren't sitting in your room doing nothing and degenerating for no apparent cause, you are definitely filling your days with something that is causing this. Fill your days with something else. Your time spent mindlessly consuming content is not neutral time, it is active time, actively causing you to degenerate. If you really want to change you will throw away your computer and everything and do work at a computer in the library. you will sit around nothing to do, and since you're no longer filling your days with anything you will be forced to confront the fact that you live in filth and you will clean your room. You will realize just how much TIME there actually is in a day that you have been actively throwing away. You will realize that there is no existential quality to yourself that causes you to not study and get bad grades, and that working and being productive isn't actually painful but pleasurable, and the only reason you weren't doing it was because you didn't want to stop jerking off all day. Also, do not apply any weight to your dysphoric thoughts. They mean nothing, they are temporary fantasies, it is only if you start to identify yourself with them that you will become an actual tranny.

>>19837129
Jesus dude. I was about to type out some stupid bullshit about heuristics and metacognition, because I waste my time overthinking about dumb bullshit, but I'm not half as delusional as you are.
Get a grip and just start learning whatever you were planning originally. You have to figure out how to exist with a routine like normal people do. Go see a therapist because they'll give you a more grounded perspective

>>19837206
Thanks for being to the point. I wish the library near me was open 24/7. It doesn't open until Tuesday. I have both a laptop and a desktop, I seem to be more productive on the laptop. I don't have any games on here but I'm still at peak efficiency because of YouTube and 4chan. I don't think I can throw my desktop away, that cost a lot of money to build. What if I did a dopamine detox?

>>19836891

>>19837233
it's not so simple as doing a "dopamine detox" for a week and then you suddenly gain executive function. You can't change yourself passively. You have to practice action itself and create a new lifestyle to replace the old one. it is ridiculous how much time there actually is and you can only sit around staring at the wall telling yourself that it is rewiring your brain for a few days before you go back. As long as the potential for you to go back is there you will eventually give up and fall back into your old lifestyle. So if you aren't going to make it impossible to go back, you need to not just quit for the sake of quitting and vague notions about neurotransmitters, you need to quit SO THAT you can do something else with all your time. But it's basically impossible to accomplish this all at once if you only have say a few hours of classes a week and no job because as long as you are left to your own devices you eventually run out of motivation and get bored and go back. You can only really force yourself to self study a single thing for an hour at a time at first. the truth is that you will not succeed. But try and try again to quit and to spend your time productively and you will get better and better at controlling yourself. Don't think of it as you flip a switch and suddenly are disciplined. It is not a binary state. Think of discipline, self control, productivity, and the ability to focus and learn as SKILLS that you have to get progressively better at. You have to make the struggle a constant lifestyle and constantly try to improve in every way possible or else you will continue to actively degenerate. You have to get used to constantly failing every single day, but as long as you continue to try and fill more and more of your time with things that build up the skill of focus and discipline you might eventually be able to quit completely without just getting bored and going back. But the temptation never goes away and you can never obliterate the thousands of hours you have spent making your brain retarded, you can only build new skills on top of it.

>>19837309
every time you fail you should automatically begin thinking "why did I fail?" and trying to come up wit new methods to succeed, even after failing one thousand times and your methods never working. You have to CONSTANTLY be learning to improve yourself. Really you should be having an existential crisis every time you jerk off to porn. You should hate yourself for failing even knowing that you will fail. Every single minute that you spend watching youtube videos or browsing 4chan you should be trying desperately to stop. it's the only way

>>19836421
How is this the next thread? Where’s the last thread? Why are you doing this if you can’t do it right?

>>19837343
this is the schizo write what's on your mind. it's a separate thread

>>19836421
PREVIOUS THREAD
>>19830506
>>19830506

More like write what's on THE mind. As we are all part of the same universal consciousness, connected at the same root.

>>19837518
When I saw his light shining forth,

In fear I covered my eyes with my palms,

Afraid for my sight because of the beauty of his form.

So I was scarcely able to look at him at all.

The lights from his light are drowned in his light

and his face shines out like the sun and moon in one.

A spirit of light lodged in a body like the moon,

a mantle made up of brilliant shining stars.

I bore it until I could bear it no longer.

I found the taste of patience to be like bitter aloes.

I could find no remedy to bring me relief

other than delighting in the sight of the one I love.

Even if he had not brought any clear signs with him,

the sight of him would dispense with the need for them.

That's maybe more of a /co/ question, but where do you pirate your graphic novels?

>>19837549
I just walk in to my local comic book store and take them, its not like the staff can stop me.

>>19836891
>>19836958
good stuff bois

>>19836981
Sorry fren. What were some of the key words in your OP text post or the subject line? You can find deleted threads on waruso. If it got some replies I wouldn't mind seeing it.

>>19836981
lol that was me. mental illness isn't real retard. I'm really happy that you're mad cos I noticed the thread ended when I was right too. way to let academics define your behavior along a moral gradient (economic gradient).

got to stop coming here until the feelings fade because for the past month or two i'll see a post (lots of relationship/love posting in here) that reopens the wound.

>>19837744
I remember pic related, I lived not far from where it happened.

one of those days when for whatever reason all memories are bad. see something and it reminds me of a memory, and for whatever reason that memory is unbearable, even though in itself it isn't actually that bad or not bad at all. More like I remember how I felt at the time. or it can be a cringe memory, but in reality I know it's not that cringe and still I can't really handle staying with it. I think it's a kind of way for the mind to rest by shutting all lines down. Pretty uncomfortable.

How will I ever write, even think anything of beauty when all my teenage years have known are the prison my my room and the ball and chain of the screen? What is there to write about in the despair of low level internet dialogue and pornography? I have not yet reached my second decade but I am certainly old! I am the old that carries no stories with him, just a myriad of husks of regrets. The wick is at its end, what lies next I do not know. Shall it be the end? Or shall my phoenix take new form into something infinitely more coloured than the ashes it has risen from?

>>19838023
go inward

>>19836421
how do I make myself deaf? I've taken to wearing shooting ear muffs but it's not enough. I also don't want people to talk to me

>>19838132
skewers nigga

>>19838132
>wearing shooting ear muffs
add earplugs.
why do you want to be deaf?

That moment when you realize you're not brilliant or interesting, but just a boring depressed schizoid man with vaguely magical thinking who's depression is eating away everyday at whatever smarts he used to have.
I used to have fun winning and dreaming, but ever since I started doing self improvement I've just become a boring depressed person who's perspective on all things is: don't bother, this is not real, you're just kidding yourself; don't waste your time. Yet all I do is waste time in deliberating whether something is realistic or just fantasy, stalling my life to nothing but subsistence.
I've never been so close to nooking myself, desu.

>>19838208
Improve your homophones, boy.

I'm high rn and very much not enjoying it

>>19836500
bruh move out inna sydney or melb, go home to senpai, you here on lit so you clearly have better interests. (inb4 bait I know its probs bait)

>>19836799
I mostly jack off to amateur lesbian porn and I swear I've been watching the same 5 videos for the last decade. There are a billion porn videos made every day yet when I search for "amateur lesbians" I get the same videos that I jacked off to when I was a teenager.

>>19838202
noise is oppressive. I hate making noise and hearing it. I also think that it is a distraction especially in the form of things like music and I would be able to focus better without it. I also think people would not try to talk to me and it is annoying and awkward every time someone talks to me. I probably don't want to be deaf bad enough to do it because I'd probably get put in a mental ward or be forced to go to therapy or something and also everyone would think I am insane but if nobody cared and I could just push a button I would probably choose to be deaf. of course it would probably also cause employment problems but if it weren't for these few disadvantages I feel like it would be pleasant for me to be deaf. I often think of how according to legend Democritus blinded himself just to focus more on thinking. 90% of my time is spent doing noiseless things anyway

We are a sentient network of nodes connected into a cosmic mainframe each of us processing the edge of time. We take in raw possibility as input and secrete time and space as the output of this processing which the cognitive mind renders as the nexus of causality.

>>19838226
not bait, just playing up the bogan language cos I'm drinking

>>19838214
What are you high on?

>>19838355
weed, I'm just bored out of my mind, was going to call my friend but she's busy

It's ironic that the state so many men died to protect ended up being the power that impeached them from their seat of power.

>>19838374
she sounds hot

>>19836421
Action is the best cure and preventative against depression.

Reality hit me. Now my nose is bleeding, I should've listened to the doctor about picking my nose.

I used to really like this song as a kid. Back then obviously I just felt that it was a catchy bop, which it certainly is. Now revisiting it as an adult I realize it is a profound meditation on existentialism and powerlessness before the inevitability of misfortune . I understand it all to well know.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZpcUK6Kxo8

>>19838520
what type of action

Imagine the following. You've been taken captive and are going to be killed. You're indoors, in a room with no windows, fluorescent lighting, and all that. You're tied to a chair. There are others who are next to you, also tied to chairs. The captors are moving one-by-one, towards you, shooting the captives in the back of their heads. The captors don't hesitate - just two shots each and then on to the next. You are the last one. You are next. They pause. They give you a moment. A bit more than a moment. They bring you outdoors. They say you have ten to thirty minutes, and then they will kill you. You are sure they are not lying. Outdoors now. It's late spring. It's a beautiful day. Sunny with light clouds. A fair breeze. Birds and insects. They put you on a hill. Large trees nearby, but where you are seated is generally open to the sky and the view in front of you. It's a little bit cool but it is refreshing. And you sit there, in that scene, in that beauty. For your ten minutes. Thinking back on your life. On the present. On this whole thing. The sky. The earth. What you believe. What you see. The bright beautiful colors of the day. The bottomless royal sky. The pure white clouds. The living green of the trees and the grass. The small towns far below you. The sounds of the birds. You feel that. Feel that.

Test

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mh4s3J6aGZk

>openly calling bill clinton a rapist pedophile >calls the clintons "a cancer" repeatedly
i kind of like jimmy dore

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nE5DNbI9L7Y

I'm gonna take a dump

>>19838770
enjoy

Colin is a pussy. A very pretty pussy.

You're not ugly to me , beautiful creature .

>>19838243
how are you doing generally? I had a psychosis once long ago. I remember months before it I sometimes preferred to remove my glasses, because it felt better not to see. has it always been like this?

>>19836451
The former is quite normal when you tend to paranoia and are easily embarrassed, ashamed, somehow cope with things inappropriate for wider society—fetishes, fringe political beliefs, offensive -isms and -phobias, and so on. It’s especially prevalent when you don’t talk to people often.
A note for the latter. When you think you‘re acting weird you’re bound to act weird and give people that impression. We unconsciously resonate with other people when we communicate, this is basic phenomenological theory in psychology. You don’t implant thoughts, you‘re just paranoid and that’s okay.

>>19838233
That’s good. You don’t want to have a fetish, it’s awful. Stay with the simple porn and convince yourself if you’re one of these days unable to get a hard one that you really just want to have a threesome.

>>19838896
I am lucky because not a lot of stressful events in my life. I think it would be possible for me to develop psychosis if stressful things started happening for multiple days on end, but things are actually better in that respect so it's not as bad as it has been before.

Even your courage you want to justify! Hence the long shelves full of dust and words and dried skin. You fools! Be brave without reason!

Books for this feel?

>>19838980
Kierkegaard is anti rationalist. not so focused on courage though

>>19838974
take good care of yourself anon

>>19838980
cringe

>>19838990
is faith even a thing in current time?

I havent changed my underwear in six days

I have been alone for so long that anyone who shows interest in me will turn me completely obsessed over them, to the point where I can't think of anything but them.
It's especially bad when I develop a crush on someone...
And yet I feel most free when I am unshackled from any kinds of relationships and expectations, just me alone in the world.

>physical reality is a holographic projection that maps 3D spatial information onto s multidimensional hyperspace
> The source of this mapping is the laws of physics, which are essentially a compressed description of all possible physical states and events by which they are retroductively inferred by observation
> Everything is essentially therefore a projection of platonic forms
> Relative to hyperspace, regular spacetime shrinks down to a 0th dimensional point
>Meanwhile everything is made out of energy, which is just mass whose frame of reference is slower than the speed of light any mass were to approach the speed of light it would release an infinite amount of energy
>At the speed of light time freezes
>time and energy are inherently related
>If time, however, is merely a product of mass moving at subphotonic speeds, then time is created by mass
>Mass and energy are equivalent, which implies that energy condensed into mass is the cause of time
>Space merely defined as the topology of mass distributions relative to each other. It is in fact, a perceptual illusion, derived by the fact that we only notice visible objects rather than the continuous fields that pervade the universe
>There is no such thing as a "size" in absolute terms, as size is a relative comparison but there is no "biggest object" with which to compare anything
>particles are merely a theoretical abstraction to describe the collapse of the wave function superposition at a given post-hoc measurement of position and momentum.
>The universe is therefore a dimensionless, spaceless. timeless unit, it is fundamentally an information structure
>information is meaningless without reference to an information processor, ergo the anthropic principle
>Therefore consciousness plays a fundamental role in reality.

>>19837129
People having identity crises & suffering the way you do will latch onto anything that provides some semblance of stable identity. You are fixating on the idea of being a woman because of this. If you work on yourself you will notice that those ideas you were entertaining were spooks, drawn into your mental vacuum.

You'll figure it out anon, go for a run, clean your room

>>19839123
I would say no and it was becoming impossible even in Kierkegaard's time but he has good arguments or would have had good arguments if the choice to believe in Christianity was completely neutral and truly arbitrary from the outset and didn't have the simple historical evidence already against it before you make the decision whether to have faith or not.

I caught my maid watching TV baka

I'm not crazy, everyone else is.

Do you think it is possible to completely restructure your worldview / frame of thinking? I'm not speaking politically per se, more fundamental than that - i.e. your base philosophical outlook.

Personally, I feel like any time I try to apply a philosophical or therapeutic framework in an attempt to alter my response to an issue, it always feels like I am merely covering up something far more fundamental and immutable.

>>19839292
see
>>19839389
>People having identity crises & suffering the way you do will latch onto anything that provides some semblance of stable identity.

Your.
>And yet I feel most free when I am unshackled from any kinds of relationships and expectations, just me alone in the world.
Is a cope. Free yourself from isolation anon, I've been in your spot believe me.

allow me to recite a poem, jotted in a most somnolent state, I feel so inclined as to share
*ahem*
Open air lucidity, waking in a dream
Exchanging words of pleasantry
Falling-Down-Machine

Open air lucidity
Insides never seen
Weight of something holding
Falling-Down-Machine

Open air lucidity
Falling-Down-Machine
Nothing in the middle
Nothing in-between

I just realized how insanely depressed I am.

>>19836784
/x/ is better babe

>>19839547
>Is a cope. Free yourself from isolation anon, I've been in your spot believe me.
all my world needs is me, no one else
I refuse to leave my isolation

>>19839302
>>At the speed of light time freezes
False. Faulty theory there. Light moves from A to B, this requires time.

Time only the fact movement exists.

Time is not a 'thing'

Time is only the fact that: because things can move, their movements can be sequenced, this sequencing we call time

>>19836421
i cant talk honestly with people because i have too much wicked thoughts on my mind. i convince myself that i am just a schizoid, but the case is that i am kind of too pathetic to properly solve my problems, then i just say that i hate everyone and everything.

anyway, i am trying to improve. And i am doing it. i am growing.

>>19839887
From the perspective of light time is a sequence with only two points, the first point is when it is generated and the second point is when it is destroyed or absorbed. This happens instantaneously from the reference frame of light. The way of phrasing it that time "freezes" is wrong, but your idea that time comes from sequencing the movement of objects is also wrong. In terms of physics (general relativity), time is a physical entity tied to spacetime which contracts or expands according to the velocity of an object. Sequencing in no way implies physical time. Time and Space are required to exist together BEFORE matter can exist (the combination of space and time creates duration and action in matter). Read Schopenhauer

>>19839926
how would any of this fit with being "a wave and a particle"?

>>19839926
>Time and Space are required to exist together BEFORE matter can exist
this may be an insane question but do you know of anything that could exist without time/space? I don't know how this would be measured.

How do I convince my doctor to amputate my arms? I expect he'll call me crazy if I come in and simply explain to him that while they may function they are not mine.

>>19839945
wave particle duality is quantum mechanics, not relativity. General relativity describes gravity, special relativity describes energy, time, space, and speed (I mixed them up in my post) and quantum mechanics describes the three other fundamental forces besides gravity, that is the strong force, the weak force, and the four fundamental forces. Quantum mechanics was created in order to describe the movement of electrons around atoms, relativity was created to describe gravity. They are essentially separate theories and figuring out how they relate to each other or how they can be combined is the main problem of modern physics
>>19839958
According to Kant and Schopenhauer, Time and Space are the necessary seat of all cognition, making cognition impossible without them. According to Schopenhauer, all the reality that we can know is contained merely in the subject that cognizes it. So according to these theories, there is nothing THAT WE CAN KNOW which exists without time and space, but what actually exists in noumenal reality, which may "exist" independent of the subject, is unknown so I guess anything could exist. But outside of Kant and Schopenhauer, mathematics has been created that is capable of modeling spatial objects without reference to space. For example, all the properties of a triangle can be described in set theory, without resorting to stating that it makes up delineations in space using three lines. But whether that set is an actual object that exists is up for debate.

>>19839983
>and the four fundamental forces
I meant and the electromagnetic force.

I wish i were a howler monkey. they make a funny noise.

>>19839982
write a magical realist novel about it instead

>>19839982
Tell him you're a big Hemingway fan

>>19839993
They look both ready and willing

I'm trying to get into comic making.

>>19840264
A promising start

>>19839302
>Therefore consciousness plays a fundamental role in reality.
what about it, none of this is new. even ignoring every step before this, it's already obvious that reality is constructed in the mind, every coombrain is aware of this. this is what is known as "post nut clarity"

i cant stop crying anons. the contradictions of our ways is tearing me apart.

>>19836421
I have discovered the actual king of schizo YouTube
https://youtu.be/8Ul0e6lw130

It's a combination of
>history before 1800 is all fake, and there have been many such resets
>the idea that cathedrals and other old buildings are all power plants that harnessed EM energy from the aether
>the earth is a flat plane under a dome
>stars are little fluctuating balls of energy that make weird geometrical patterns
>the aether is real and interacts with our feelings
>the moon is made of plasma
>the moon has a map of earth's continents on its face
>this map shows other land masses
>our world is actually only one corner of the whole flat earth
>the zodiac cycles refer to the migration of the north pole in a circle around the true center of the earth, the black sun swastika depicts this, pic related
>so our entire world will freeze when the sun and moon leave as the pole travels to the other parts of the larger earth plane
>there is a hole into the earth in the middle
>the middle is also gods garden as described in the book of enoch

I havent even described all of it. I am actually flabbergasted by how creative this guy.

>>19838517
she is

>>19841015
>Flat Earth
>Sponsored by Subaru

>>19841024
Personalized ads. The algorithm thinks I could buy a car for some reason. Baffling

I wish I could help my friend with suicidal thoughts. Even slightly easing his internal turmoil would make me greatly relieved. He is the closest buddy I have and I even think my love for him has gone past the point of brotherly affection. The romantic and sexual components of love are absent in this case, but I just can not help but to think about my dearest companion throughout the day, every day. I feel a rush of happiness every time we talk and every mundane instant message is a fragment of a blessing which is his companionship. I just want to hug him and pet his head and make existing tolerable for just even a minute. He knows that I love him since I have outright stated it multiple times, but I do not know if he truly realizes how painstakingly deep my devotion is.
I am aware that my past actions have helped him to ease the pain, but I am also certain that I have caused him great emotional pain through horrible words during my own time in a dark place. Even though I was aware that my select choice of words were meant to be as hurtful as possible, I could not actually realize what kind of damage I was doing to another person. And also to myself, since i can't shake this horrible sense of remorse.
I wish I could talk about these things everyday with my friend and find some sort of peace of mind, but that is exactly what it is; a quest to find peace of mind for myself and myself only. Since I have so many extreme emotions running through my head at the same time, I can not possibly expect my friend to try and bear the constant barrage of my concerned, affectional, self-pitied attention. The last thing I want is for him to feel even more pressured and stressed out. I'll just have to try and keep my confessions of love and concern to a reasonable amount, during a reasonable time frame. Slow and steady wins the race, I hope.

>>19841015
Honestly, could have told you all that.
A little behind the ball, there, old sport.
This is an extension of child-like problem solving solutions to questions involving factors which make redundant themselves to an undeveloped psyche yet to ponder the further implications of their sum.
It's all here in my Psychology Newsletter!
You can tell it's true, because it uses f-f-facts
a-and logic!

Melancholic meditation

I hold a silver taper in my hand,
And gaze through misty eyelids languorous,
What have I, among the sands dolorous?
And who else inhabits this quiet land?

As if ordure and rue made an unguent,
So was the scent a senseless pleasure save,
Perhaps, a moment remembered, that raved
And ranted with a cherubic lament

There haunted me the echo of a sin,
An apparition gaunt with gasping cries,
Upon the lake of memory and sighs,
He stirred til spinned a frothing foam therein.

He called the foam’s name “melancholia”
And when the sun reflects upon the pool,
Its countenance dejected as a ghoul
Becomes the black sun of melancholia.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A11gzu3M18s

>>19839926
>In terms of physics (general relativity), time is a physical entity tied to spacetime which contracts or expands according to the velocity of an object. Sequencing in no way implies physical time. Time and Space are required to exist together BEFORE matter can exist (the combination of space and time creates duration and action in matter).
Bundling time and space together is a convient tool, like tapeing a stop watch to a yard stick, it is a very great w x y z graphing system to plot matter and energies motions and interactions, but that does not mean reality itself is so exactly as such.

Light being the fastest known moving thing, it was plugged in everything as a limit, this made everything stand in relation to it as if it were = 1 and everything slower is: .99999 .9998. .99997 etc

Or if you want. Light = 0 and everything slower is .0001 ...


You can say throwing a ball from A to B is the same as your light example. A thingness that starts at A and arrives at B while traveling at some velocity.

Both examples require time to get from A to B.

Saying from 'lights perspective time does not exist' is a very loaded and convoluted thing to say even if pop and non pop scientists have said it before.

>>19839492
Yes, religious/philosophical changes are definitely possible. It depends on your mental schemas. They can be completely restructured though. Some of it is at an unconscious level

I'm poor and depressed

>>19836729
it feels like you failed cause you didn't get her pregnant, that's all

Why shouldn't be allowed to hate the one individual who is responsible for all of my misery & misfortunes, that being myself? Why is it wrong to apply due punishment to the responsible party who has opened the violent floodgates of delusional idleness and left this wreck to rot in its self-produced abyss?
Fuck your self love bullshit. Justice must come. Scars must remain.

>>19839926
>but your idea that time comes from sequencing the movement of objects is also wrong
I thought of this idea years ago that convinced me, a thought experiment.

One way to think of time, is the measurement of time, or ruler, think of inches on a ruler. Equal distance, sequence. A set of equal spaces, for mapping reality space.

Do for time, a set of equal time stamps, for mapping reality time. Accept my barbaric example of a drummer keeping a beat. Faster, higher frequency, centimeters, slower, lower frequency, yards.

Now here is the beautiful proof of why I placed the importance on movement, I hope you are familiar with the powers of thought experiments and withold your knee jerks while considering what is said.

Energy/matter exists.

Imagine for example, for more clearly considering what is the case it can often be very helpful to consider what is not the case, or at least the opposite case, to shed light and perspective:

Energy/matter is moving.

>>19841204
Self love is basically "you're fine just the way you are!"

Hippie bullshit

>>19841193

>>19841210
I think there is another variety which is more like "no matter how bad you are you are still worth something and should be saved, and this will help you become less bad". Like even in the worst person some little fragment of good is there

>>19841204
because it's counter-productive, self-hatred is easy
>>19841210
it should mainly be a reminder to be as patient and forgiving with yourself as you should be with others

>>19841214
No I'm depressed because I'm living in the future, I just want property with a yard I'm not that picky I don't think. I don't even care about having a vehicle

>>19839142
*sniffffffffffffff*

>>19841015
I remember going through my hollow earth phase when I was 19. i wish I spent my time making friends instead of browsing /x/

>>19840264
Honestly make a full comic like this and you'll get somewhere

>>19841210
>>19841223
love is merit. few people deserve it.

I don't listen to music (usually) but sometimes a simple tune pops into my mind out of nowhere and then my mind slowly adds to it some small changes until after a few minutes I have a whole symphony of several complex parallel tunes repeating loudly in my mind ad infinitum not allowing me to read or write or do anything else at all.

>>19841226
No, you’re anxious.

We must behead the land grabbers. Fink, Buffet etc.

I want to have sex with a Japanese woman with big tits and ass at least once.

>>19841260
no one is impressed by masturbatory self-flagellation

>>19836421
Been thinking Calvinism is right about salvation and apocalypse (the latter to an extent, though I think Arminus was closer to the truth) however I think the Bishop Of Rome is legit barring the 2nd Vatican council. What do?

>>19841313
Actually, those are called Radiohead fans

>>19837129
Men can have multiple orgasms you know. There's books on it.

>>19840264
Post more

>>19841344

all I wanna do is *bang bang bang bang* and a *clack* *tching* and take your money

>>19841469
all i wanna see is ten eighty p but reality keeps me at two fourty

>>19841418
This is great. Unironically better than a lot of literature. Keep making more and more, you're gonna be a star

>>19841418
You should make a few series, print them out so they can all be hung next to each other. Can be in booklet form or hung as art.

close ur eyes i'll be here for a while

>>19838132
You’re in luck; used to be deaf people managed to get by via lip-reading. In these days of mask mandates, they’ve stopped functioning. So just LARP as a deaf person maybe by letting people write on paper if they want to tell you anything.

>I thought what I'd do was, I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes. That way I wouldn't have to have any goddam stupid useless conversations with anybody. If anybody wanted to tell me something, they'd have to write it on a piece of paper and shove it over to me. They'd get bored as hell doing that after a while, and then I'd be through with having conversations for the rest of my life. Everybody'd think I was just a poor deaf-mute bastard and they'd leave me alone

>>19841214
What if you're getting butt tortured in the present?

>Whenever I'm alone with you
>You make me feel like I am young again
>Whenever I'm alone with you
>You make me feel like I am fun again