/lit/ - Literature

>>19750534
Allow me to inspire you.

2021-11-25
12:17 PM. This morning I was impressed by how nearly orange my piss was. I just used the toilet again and it was a healthier looking yellow (the standard, pale, nearly-green type), but it's mostly been coffee that I've had so far today for liquids. I spent last night mostly uselessly.

>>19750555
2021-09-03
11:14 AM. I have to meet my TA group on campus for 1 PM. Showered. Didn't enjoy showering, partially because of my accumulated filth, but mostly because of the bathroom's.

2021-09-19
There's this sort of dick-ish kid in the group I TA that runs Arch(?) on a Thinkpad, so I'm gonna ask him if he browses /g/. Tall kid, and I think he specifically stood up when I came to his table in order to make a point about being taller than me.

2021-09-27
10:36 AM. I was combing my hair over the sink, and partway through a little beetle fell down among the strands of hair in the bowl. Not sure if he was from my hair or the comb.

11:35 PM. Today has been one of those days where I get all worked up. I'll get so caught up in it that I'll need to hide from the windows, grimace, and shake. It came on me in the lab even. I had to try calming myself down while staying seated at my desk. There seem to be exciting things that I get carried away with.

2021-09-30
3:15 PM. I bought ~6.8 kg of pork loin chops on that one trip I made, coming to ~283 g per chop, and just now I returned home with enough medium ground beef to fill three of my standard containers, ~2.49 kg, at 829 g per container. Three servings from that comes to the same mass as one of the chops (or really, about 276 g), but that doesn't account for fat or bone content. Fuck it, I'll drop it there. Food Basics has chicken leg quarters on for $1.99/lb, so I might make a trip there come Tuesday and hope they're still in stock by the time I can use my student discount. I bought some more food containers today, but not in my usual size, so hopefully I can figure out a functional arrangement with those.

2021-10-04
10:27 AM. Woke up around six with terrible indigestion. Forced me out of bed to go after the Pepto Bismol in my bathroom, which seemed to work in time after more contortions on my mattress. I had strange dreams with odd settings. There was a pachycephalosaurus that wasn't reptilian but humanoid: a great, retarded human with a boney dome and feet for hands, stupidly storming around a room, trashing the place while I angrily tried to stop him.

2021-10-07
9:39 PM. In the bathroom outside of my lab (office), on the floor in front of the toilet, is one circular red drop, something that looks thick and sticky with the deeper drip in the middle surrounded by a lighter ring. It's an all-gender bathroom, and I wondered about whether I'd find something in the tampon receptacle. I meant to look, but I forgot.

2021-11-15
6:21 PM. Luckily my students couldn't see it on account of my mask, but I was an awful, oozing faucet today. I'd leave the room and undo one loop from an ear, exposing the heavy, swaying droplet hung in a threat from the tip of my nose. They'd get scooped and blown into a tissue every ten maybe fifteen minutes. Then I'd rinse my fingers of the goo and go back to normal -- a normal punctuated by wet sniffling and one red, crying eye. I guess this is allergies.

>>19750534
I tried writing a diary but I quit a couple months in because reading the entries made me realize how boring of a person I am and how pathetic my life is

>>19750534
All your secret fantasies about sucking dick, then you sell them under a womans pen name. All erotic fiction for women is written by gay or secretly gay men.

>>19750534
Reflect on your day. Retread the feelings and thoughts you had, your response to things. Take a more active role in your own day: be attentive to the things happening around you and your place among them; make note of the beautiful things you see (or the grotesque). Compare your days. Are they really as mundane and repetitive as you think? What differentiates them? As it is you have no point of reference but fleeting memories, which themselves exist to conform to your image of your life. Practice your style of writing, since your diary is private and you can look back on your progress over time. Consider what you'd like to do differently the next day, the next week, etc. If your days are all the same, how does that make you feel? Are you frustrated or sad? Can it really be so simply described as "boredom", or is there more to it? Reflect, you tard. What do you want to remember? What do you want to keep? Aren't there beautiful things in your life that you want to keep safe and pristine? Write them down, or else seek them out first.

>>19750555
>>19750615
I am impressed by your autism, anon. Do you find that it helps you to sort things out by writing them down like this?

>>19750626
I've tried this and I just got irrationally angry at how cyclical my thoughts are.

>>19750643
I try to keep jerking off to a minimum and I'm also straight as an arrow.

>>19750697
I do reflect but all my thoughts lose novelty until they're trivial to me, which should be normal but it's annoying. I did write down some moments that were special to me but for multiple reasons they're either bitter now or I'm afraid I will remember not the memory I have but the way I described them when I consciously wrote them down and the feeling will be lost. This applies to the beautiful things I see too, I fear I will trivialize them and that a later version of me will hate myself. Eh, I'll just burn it I guess, but good advice, thank you.

>>19750534
11:50 - chivas

>>19750534
>I copied a few poems I liked
Cool. That way you avoid the blackmail.

>>19750534
Just write
>the date
>what you did that day
>how you felt
Can be a few sentences or can be a lot more. Re-read the last 3 months every 3 months become more self-aware. The more you write the more your entries will be like a gift you give yourself in the future. Depending on what you do and capture, it will be extremely valuable to you. Its totally worth it but hard to explain. You just have to try it yourself. Good luck.

>>19751840
Writing in a diary it's a girly think!

>>19750534
>Whats your diary about?

Me and my thoughts

>>19750615
>>19750998
I make a point to journal daily, so I more or less look for things to write. I do it for fun and to capture the feelings I had that day. I'm also the last post you replied to, so consider my advice in tandem with the excerpts (I was judicious in my choice of passages; I record more emotional stuff than that). And do you seriously think you're going to ruin the beauty of, say, a butterfly, if you record it in your journal? If you're so bored with all your days being dull and grey then you're clearly not remembering anything beautiful anyway. What's there to ruin if you have nothing?