/lit/ - Literature

I need to stop drinking so much coffee

>>19711416
Switch to green tea like me

>>19711401
Are our tripfags the worst of any board?

>>19711401
The proclaimed "death of history (and its mass ideologies)" was a big misconception of our present time. The act of calling our society post-ideological is unreasonable

>>19711431
Doesn’t matter, because certain anonymous are 10x worse.

Oh no! Japanese attack! @@@@@@ by Japanese soldiers and cute schoolgirls. Machine gun fire hitting your grandpa's truck. You're crouched in the gunner seat. Do you: A) ask grandpa if you should use the machine gun, B) use the machine gun, C) continue cowering in the gunner seat?

There is no truth in history. Only usefulness.

>>19711478
Truth is found in facts. You might find this useful.

>>19711431
/lgbt/ has the worst tripfags kek

>tfw from kazakhstan
>tfw my town is the most safe and peaceful so far

>>19711564
Hey Kazakh anon, does it seem like the US might have stoked this too. RT is telling me people suspect this was too well coordinated and the government is treating them like foreign terrorists.

>>19711578
I think anything is possible really, at first I thought it was the natural reaction of people of not getting paid probably and youth not having any opportunities but now I start to wonder that it's not as easy as it might seem seeing as how the media began to cover it almost everywhere and how things spread so violently so fast

>>19711545
how would you know

>>19711598
I was shocked at how little the media covered it at first, and instead preferred to cover around the watch some serbian tennis player. Enough deaths and it's no longer some crazy thing for the media to cover

That's a normal reaction to an energy price spike in a country where it's abundant and cheap. Venezuelans have chimped out about this several times.
The Department of State surely knows that Kazakhstan is completely out of bounds for them, so this situation is probably just some normal riots who got out of control because the security apparatus of Kazakhstan grew lazy and overreacted when the time arrived.
That their big man called it foreign destabilization is just a matter of course.
On why this is not a Dpt. of State operation: Kazakhstan is quite closed, organized opposition is almost completely null; there's simply no way the U.S. could have subverted their population on a massive way like that. They're not that competent - or else Cuba would not be here still.
Economically, Kazakhstan is an appendix of Russia and, on a smaller and newer level, China. Kazakhstan could not survive without Russian and Chinese business and any trade flow to the west must pass through Russian controlled or aligned territory. There's nothing to win with this for the U.S. except to annoy Russa to a dubious extent - that is, because it has just became an opportunity for Russia and allies to flex their muscles with impunity.
No strategic value to mess with this wasp nest - and that's why no one messed with it before.

>>19711513
Everyone finds their own facts useful.

>>19711615
>some serbian tennis player
You mean Djokovic, who is the #1 tennis player but not vaxxed. Of course, he is the primary target of the media.

>>19711700
>nooo not the heckin sportsball man

>>19711706
This is not about sportsball, numbnuts.
He is a high profile personality who does not toe the official party line.

>>19711431
frater and rei are alright. I wish we had more good trips it makes for an entertaining atmosphere but only if they read at least 1,000 books and have a 130+ IQ and they're not communists

>>19711719
He could be fucking maria theresa and the queen of england rolled into one for all I care
All these "personalities" are fake at the core and don't deserve anyone's attention

>>19711724
mother theresa whatever

>>19711724
You are a teenager. It is really not hard to comprehend why conventional media cares about this topic. Stop being proud of your ignorance.

>>19711735
I am aware of who he is *precisely* because he's pushed down my throat. I can't hide. I can't block my ears and eyes. But ultimately he's wholly irelevant to my life, wellbeing, and that of wider society. His whole existence is predicated on manufactured attention. It's not that media cares about him because he's so good at tennis or so famous in the first place. It's that media makes him what he is. That's the problem. Can you tell me who the top tennis player was in 2000? Or 1990? Or 1960? No? It's completely irrelevant to the entire functioning of society? Yeah.

>>19711756
>It's that media makes him what he is. That's the problem.
Yes, that is the point. That is why they are interested in covering him moreso than the Kazakh conflict. You might not have this problem if you switched the way you consume news sources by the way.

>But ultimately he's wholly irelevant to my life, wellbeing, and that of wider society.
Great insight. The same could be said about conflicts in remote countries that have little impact on your own nation. Celebrities like him often are proxies for moral debates and divides in greater society, less so about the actual person.

>2000? Or 1990? Or 1960? No?
Probably Federer or Becker, actually. Can you name the armed conflicts and revolutions that happened in the world at those dates?

Is there a point in writing about a subject when you don't have an academic background in it? I've read a lot about language and semiotics and am thinking about eventually publishing it somewhere, even if on a website, just to get it out, and this shit is my passion, but my background is fucking accounting so I always have this nagging fear that I will not have anything meaningful to say or to add.

>>19711857
Yes, nothing stops you from writing about something even if you don't have a paper saying that you are an expert on that field.
Just be honest that you are self-learned

>>19711688
He who picks and chooses his facts has not found the truth.
Facts in full lead to wisdom. Facts denied lead to faiths.

>>19712044
>Fact: the USSR had a war with Germany and annexed/puppeted Eastern Europe
>Version A: The red army liberated Europe from the fascist yoke
>Version B: The red army invaded and subjugated peaceful nations unprovoked
Find the "truth", you midwit dipshit

I started to realize that my lack of ambition was incredible damaging in my growing years and today I feel is too late, and what is left is watch sail by.

>>19712077
>The red army invaded and subjugated peaceful nations unprovoked
they did that with half of poland and finland

>>19712077
Midwit? You low watt bulb. That was a dismal set of two highly dubious perspectives. Read more.

>>19712185
They sided with the nazis!

I feel like I've been cheated out of romance in life.

>>19712215
Seek it. Spread it.

>>19712185
>Poland 1939
>Finland 1939
What part of “fascist yoke”?

>>19712077
c. The Stavka took advantage of victory over the Germans to expand the Soviet Union's territorial scope

that wasn't hard. what do I win?

I genuinely believe in the afterlife, that what we do here is a brief pre-lude to eternal life. Eternal in the sense that it will last as long as anything that is other than God lasts. I know some mystic has said that one is still being born, this earthly life is birth of spirit. It's ongoing. I basically believe this. Sometimes it's clearer and sometimes not so clear. Today it is clear. This life, what there is to gain and lose, is nothing. or rather, it's the terms for our becoming, so it's something, but there's nothing truly to win or lose, not even your life. Today I see this, and it is liberating. I look forward to dying because I look forward to meeting God. I am terrified of course, but I have great hope in His mercy.

Perhaps there are things to win or lose. Love, for instance. But life is short. Very short, by comparison. Maybe you'll even meet in heaven.

Just as I was beginning to lapse back into Catholicism, I actually saw things that made me consider leaving again. Ironically, that very thing was traditionalism. I can't reconcile two things in my mind:

One, that the accusations trads make at the present day church are basically correct. There was a very abrupt change in the mid-20th century in doctrine, both in content and presentation. There is no legitimate reason for the tridentine mass to be as curtailed as it's currently being. You can't look at, say, someone like Pius X and Francis and say they are upholding the same thing, whereas there was a very clear continuity between Pius X and his predecessors.

Two, that if these accusations are correct, then Catholicism can't be true. Because it means the magisterium itself has no weight, the faithful will one way or the other be left to his own devices, without guidance, to make up what is "proper" Catholicism and what isn't, and without hierarchical discipline, one is left at the mercy of one's own conscience. And after all, just because a given position came before doesn't mean it's true. Perhaps they got it wrong back then too.

I feel like someone has scandalized me, and I'm not sure if it was the trads or the modernists or both.

I have chili in my eye, but not too much.
I like Zack Galafinakis, but not too much, and I'm not sure why, exactly.
I'm watching Birdman.
I'm planning to read in a while, I just want to lay back a little.
Fuck I just got more chili in my eye, it's middling now.

Any former hikkis here? I'm trying to recover from years of isolation and it's very harrowing. Realization of what I've become has plunged me in to unbearable undulating depression.

>>19711724
Western brain is truly rotten, you can't even separate situation from situation, not generalize and can't see a spade for what it is.

Fucking foreign tennis player has to make a fuss that tens of millions of western pussies who take it in the ass like good cucks they are don't and sip up that onions. Precisely that is the issue.

Either way, I will enjoy reading your rationalizations why society should take bio metric chips in the arm and different gene therapies that will come in a decade or two, while being safe in my backward shithole that will not impose these stuff because they are not retarded.

>>19712310
Have you considered the Orthodox Church instead?

I really like these threads. There is no better place to read these unfiltered slice-of-life ruminations.

>>19712326
Why even remind him of that? Answer is right in front of his nose and he knows it. He can't simply give up his western pretentiousness and fundamentals that led his religion to where it is.

He'd have to change as a person, from grounds up if he were to chose Orthodoxy. Do you see that happening? Chances are like Heroine addict going clean.

The urge to find a nice girl and raise a couple cute daughters keeps getting stronger every year, but I'm still the same awkward loner as ever. Maybe one day.

>>19712358
slightly know that feel, sans the daughter raising part; almost 31 y.o. here

>>19712358
while reading this post, I am suddenly overcome by a powerful urge to light a pipe and have a smoke

>>19712413
You're hardwired to have this urge, whether you want it or not. Eventually even the pipe smokers will feel it.

>>19711564
Is it true that it all started because you guys have to show your vaxx pass to use your bank account?

>>19712057
Idk. I'm trying to stop, myself

why did she react. she is almost certainly either still madly in love with me, or she is.. despises or even fears me. But I think it's most likely she is still in love with me. I am still in love with her. I don't think I can approach her. I can't really explain why, I don't want to. I want to die with my head resting on her chest. I did not expect her to react at all. Neither of us really wanted it to end, it was just a series of shit circumstances and immaturity. She was still in love with me many years later, but many years yet have gone by. I didn't think she'd even notice. I wasn't in love with her then. Or I was, maybe, maybe you can be both, I don't know, but most of all I was angry. Then that passed last fall, I finally realized I had misunderstood and that I could.. that I did forgive her. And after that it's been a fucking storm. Virtually no waking moment without her on my mind. In total there have been two days since mid september where I didn't cry. I have cried today, more than once I think, over her. Not much, but more than barely. I thought she forgot me a long time ago. But she reacted.

>>19712310
Have you considered it’s all nonsense?

>>19712317
Yep. You just need to take the prossess slow and steady, anon. It took time to dig the hole so deeply, you should not anticipate filling it back in any quicker.

>>19711431
imagine saying "our" in relation to an imageboard
might as well just become a nationalist or something at that point in your life t b h

this happened a few years ago:
>been going out with a girl called Laurène for a few months now
>things are great, she's cute and smart
>I notice something after a while though
>we only ever go on a dates at night or when the sky is cloudy
>if it's a beautiful day she just tells me to come to her place and we chill there
>it wasn't too bothering at the beginning because we first met in octobre
>but now it's spring and that shit is annoying
>try to confront her about it but she denies it
>one sunny day she tells me to come over
>entering her building I see the building caretaker
>maybeheknows.jpg
>go to him and say hi
>he asks how he can help me
>"I want to know, have you ever seen Laurène"
>"I want to know,"
>"have you ever seen Laurène"
>"Coming down on a sunny day"

how do you create stories in your head?

How could she ignore this heartfelt message I sent? Women are so cruel. Even if she doesn't like me, she could've sent me a rejection instead of simply ignoring me.

>try to "fix" my sleep (aka not go to bed at 3am)
>go to bed at 12
>end up neurotically looping on feverish thoughts for 3 hours in bed
>wake up at 8am and can't go back to sleep because of anxiety and anger that I woke up
>spend all day with watery eyes, yawning and sleep deprived
>fucking pep up at 10:00pm
>try to go to bed early again
>it's even worse and I am neurotically feverish again
Like when you are half awake half asleep and you are dreaming and looping on thoughts as if they were real. I'm giving up. I would rather be well rested and wake at 12:40 than this shit. As soon as i try to fix my sleep schedule I wake up from the adrenaline that I get when trying to fix it.

>>19711431
I like /lit/'s relationship to its tripfags, there's really only butters as a full fledged tripfag. All the others are forgettable nobodies who get no replies. Not even hateful replies, and not even the most over the top tryhard "LOOK AT ME" tripfags.

This makes it more funny to me when you see the latest flash in the pan tripfag trying desperately to get noticed, with an embarrassingly dated Quentin knockoff persona, and nobody gives a shit.

>>19713123
You're supposed to beat her up and rape her. Only send messages like that to other men.

>>19711401
Ketamine is awesome and I am now excited for the next week to get a lot of reading done.

>>19711478
Big redpill, government legitimacy is built upon historical myths & narratives, not truth. This is why establishment cronies hate conspiracy theories and radicals, they strike at the core of their worldview and power.

the reason you will never achieve your dreams is because you won't do it. simply write down the actions of your ideal self and do all of them. you won't, you will sit there staring at what you wrote

>>19713123
This is hopfully bait but in case it's not:
>Forgive me if this is bold, but as I am slightly drunk right now I have some uncharacteristic courage to say this
Bad. The tone of the whole text is wrong; you're trying to sound intelligent and well spoken but the tone/register is out of place in a "romantic confessions" text. You come off as a twat. Mentioning you're drunk is cringe. It shows her that you're a coward who can't even talk to a woman without the use of drugs to numb your inhibitions. If you really have to have a few glasses of whiskey before you text bitches for the love of God don't tell them that's what you're doing.
>Your plain style and modest dress... Being signs of a meek and gentle character
You masquerade a very superficial compliment as being a genuine compliment of her character. You like that she dresses modest becuase your ideal woman is a feminine tradwife. That's fine if that's your preference, but saying that you think she's gentle because of how she dresses makes it sound like you only like her because you think she fits some feminine archetype you have in your head. You're not appreciating her as a person, with all her idiosyncrasies and flaws, you're appreciating a fake, idealized version of her that exists in your mind.
>would have confessed it sooner if cowardice had not prevented me
Self aware cowardice is still cowardice. It's a massive beta characteristic and a huge turn off. Why even mention it?
>Well, here you are.
Sounds weird, out of place, and subtly confrontational. "Here you are, you have to deal with me." That's not a good message.
>I don't know if people still do this
Do what? Try to get laid? Shit's happened since the dawn of time, and won't stop anytime soon. Your faux nostalgia for simpler times when gender relations were more "traditional" is naive. Bad text overall. Brevity is the soul of wit, so if you really had to confess your attractive to her here's what you should have wrote:

"You're cute and I like hanging out with you. Want to grab a drink sometime?"

Simple, to the point, no wiggle words and no apologies. Tell her she's cute so she knows you have romantic intentions, then attempt to set up a real life hangout. That's all you need. It's not perfect but it's an improvement.

I do not understand.

nah man. she's probably just guilty and sad that she fucked everything up. we both did but I bet she takes it on. I bet she believes me. I bet I was right too. But that's a long time ago now. Holy shit. Pity, most likely. Wouldn't surprise me if she's callous in her everyday. Maybe she had recovered, but if she had then why was she following everything I did? Still? Sad. Picture me and then you start watching. Watching forever. Could be. But she has a life, probably. A job, at least. Something resembling a career. I am just a loon. I'm a real loon. I think lunacy can be both protection and processing. It can just be putting Something between you and what you can't handle, and it can be trying to give it a language. Maybe it can be both at the same time. Some hacky psychoterapy schtick; "why a garden?" type questions. If I'm gonna spend the rest of my life like this, then I think God is going to give me a very easy time on the Day. She's probably just sad. I was probably right, and we lost it both of us, and now I'm.. it's over............... Unless lunacy is healing.

>>19713108
kek pretty nice anon, I like it
>sun is cold and the rain is hard

>>19713303
>Wouldn't surprise me if she's callous in her everyday
or rather, she probably was. now she's probably shell-shocked.

>>19713303
in a diary of mine from 2012 it says our fates are intertwined. we'd been separated a year or so. Doubt God lets it end here, but who knows. I won't try anything. Trying won't help. I just need to heal.

>>19713228
Thanks anon, but I don't really care about putting on fake bravado and adhering to all the silly social rules that characterise modern dating. From your analysis I get that I'm a shallow twat beta male nostalgic radtrad who's trying to sound smart, and maybe you're right. But these are my authentic feelings, so what's the point in hiding them? She would eventually have found out who I was even if I initially put on this fake chad persona.
I just don't understand how she could be so cruel as to not even give me a formal rejection. Are women really this cruel?

>>19713111
Quite nicely, thank you.

>>19713145
No you aren’t. That’s just the drugs tweaking you.

Ooh gosh I would let Elena Rybakina sit on my face all day and night and right after her games especially. I would eat her ass and her feet. OooOOOOooooh look at her legs. Dominate me mommy.

https://youtu.be/WDKl3ayDdqo

>>19713316
>She would eventually have found out who I was even if I initially put on this fake chad persona.
Nigger all this dumb blustering you're doing in that text is basically just that - you're trying to spin what should be a simple "you're cute, wanna go get coffee sometime" into some kind of dramatic confession or something and then blaming her when she's not interested in the image you're projecting of yourself.

>>19713123
bro

>>19713331
I want to lick her long looooong legs ooooh gosh. I am gonna g-goonna hhmmmmmmght...

If you know what I mean?

>>19713311
>Doubt God lets it end here, but who knows. I won't try anything. Trying won't help. I just need to heal.
I am also doing this and carrying that doubt. Godspeed anon, hang in there. I hope it works out

>>19713330
Wrong, I feel refreshed and ready to learn. I can feel my neurons growing.

>>19713331
>>19713353
Look at her. She is perfect. I WANT TO SEX SEX SEX HER. AAAAAAH

>>19713338
For me it's dramatic. And I'm not blaming her for rejecting me, I'm simply pondering the cruelty of women to be able to ignore somebody's confession of love because you're so sexy and superior that you won't even deign to respond with a "Thanks but I'm not interested."

>>19713331
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>>19713363
How do I can end with her and kiss kiss KISS.

>>19713123
anon it's not 19th century anymore. not that I would blame you, but that is how things are.

>>19713372
stop cooming in my blog

>>19713367
>For me it's dramatic
Well, obviously, since you came crying to 4chan crying about the whole thing and obsessing over it when a normal guy would have have seen that she wasn't interested and moved on.

>>19713353
>If you know what I mean?
I dont, elaborate

>>19713367
I can promise you this girl didn't respond because she is terrified. Her mind short circuted upon coming in contact with this pure autism.

taking out the trash

am i autistic because i do autistic things, or are autistic things autistic because autists do them?

>>19713331
>>19713353
>>19713363
>>19713372
>>19713381
Is there a sexy compilation of her so I can see her more and coom again and again and again.

>>19713387
Read The Sorrows of Young Werther. "Normal guys" kill themselves over love all the time. I understand that you're a playa though, well done.

>>19713388
You see her in pic related anon? I want her to get over me and press on me her sweaty area. On my face would be very pleasureable for both of us. And I would also like to see her legs from Very VERY close anon. Enough to sniff SNIFF SNIFF her good.

>>19713424
Yes

>>19713123
sounds too formal, like her grandfather texted her that. like you're some pedo who normally keeps to himself, but because you're drunk you're texting a minor. unless both of you are actually grandparents, this is how zoomers would have phrased it:

>bby i think ur qt, wanna hang out sometime?

>>19713436
>my entire life should revolve around women and if I fail to get one I have absolutely no value and should kill myself
You're pathetic.

>>19713436
Love is comprised of far more than you know.

>>19713316
I'm not telling you to put on a persona. It's fine to tell her your real feelings, but the way you went about it was really autistic. A verbose, drunken text sent at God only knows what hour does not charm women. I don't think you're a beta male twat; I don't know you at all. I'm just saying thats how you come off in that text. You don't have to play by the rules of modern dating etiquette if you don't want to, but understanding how to communicate emtions and desires properly is an important part of developing social intelligence.
>Why didn't she tell me she's not interested instead of ghosting me?
Becuase she doesn't respect you. Given your self depreciation in that text it seems you don't have much respect for yourself, either. Bitches ghost people all the time, by the way. I've been ghosted by women that I've slept with and even dated. Who cares? All it does is show that she's a cunt. Why would you want to romantically pursue a woman who would treat you like that?

>>19712310
Vatican II called for a revision to the mass. The changes it proposed were sensible and circumspect, which is why traditionalist leaders like Lefevre signed it. The way it was implemented, though, was the issue.
>>19712326
>>19712354
If you think the Orthdox Churches have no problems with modernism, liberalism, and ecumenism then you are most likely LARPers who aren't involved in the world of Orthodoxy. There are plenty of Orthodox bishops like Elphidophorus (or however you spell it) that promote religious indifferentism, LGBT, liberalism, and all that cringe shit. That's why the Orthdox traditionalists -- the "True Orthodox" -- aren't in communion with the regular Orthodox Churches. In fact, the Orthdox Church is more lax on moral issues like marriage and contraception than the Catholic Church is.

I co-slept with my mom until I was 11, and I am so grateful for that.

>>19713123
nigga...

She has no boyfriend and she is very tall : 1,86cm. I would make tall aryan baby with her. You can bet on it anons.

>>19713489
>here are plenty of Orthodox bishops like Elphidophorus (or however you spell it) that promote religious indifferentism, LGBT, liberalism, and all that cringe shit. That's why the Orthdox traditionalists -- the "True Orthodox" -- aren't in communion with the regular Orthodox Churches. In fact, the Orthdox Church is more lax on moral issues like marriage and contraception than the Catholic Church is.
Oh yes, I forget how cucked Ecumenical retard Bartholomew is and his Eastern Pope CIA proped aspirations.

Thank God we are extremely separate in administration.

>>19713123
I love the unfiltered autism you see on here

>>19713509
I think I am being pathetic by wasting entire days in escapism and procrastination, then I see cuck like you who worship idols, not any idols but fucking women.

I really want to be with her. How do I cure this anons? I know it won't happened. I am resigned. She is too good for me. I do not deserve her even to sniff her smelly AND sweaty panties. How do I cope, or cure my coomertitude, or my simping, or my horniness, or my love for her Elena Rybakina? Is a book able to dislodge me from my lust for her fine legs?

>>19713540
Your brain is a mush, you barely alocate as a human being. Even if you could communicate with her, you'd be undesirable because you are simp cuck and she'll go with a Chad shed have to submit to.

Pathetic.

>>19713540
Do not pass Go, do not collect 200$, go straight to horny jail.

>>19713531
>>19713545
Anon you are not nice. But I understand. It won't happen again I promise mommy-cute-tomboy-long-leg-Elena-Rybakina I will silently admire you from now on.

>>19713527
If you're referring to the schism, you should know that they split not over issues of liberalism and ecumenism, but rather over politics and jurisdiction. Besides, Russia is still in communion with churches who are in communion with Constantinople.

>>19713545
Jack off then go look yourself in the mirror during the post nut clarity, then fix your life

I had a date today. I think I blew it.

>>19713570
At least you're doing better than >>19713123.

>>19713570
It happens anon, it probably wasn't meant to be. I went on a date recently and the two of us were just on completely different wave lengths. We would have a normal conversation but it was as though the two of us were hearing two different conversations.

>>19713570
Count it as a victory anyway.
Don’t think of it as a rejection. Forget it and keep looking.

>>19713570
Expand.

I believe I should have NOT watch the sport channel today. I found her on the highlights. I regret EVERYTHING. Elena noooooooo comeback; now with pure intentions, with innocent memories. Elena, my light, cast your shadow away from me. I should have NOT left my books and venture on the telly. The DEVILISH instrument caught me again around the hook of a demoniaque lust.

>>19713604
In disarray I forgot the pièce à conviction !

>>19713316
Women love to be called plain and meek

oh my god just jack off already, or call up a whore and make her wear a similar wig and tennis outfit. christ almighty

>>19713570
that means you are supposed to go on more dates and do exactly what blew it for you more and be weirder. the average idiot does the opposite

>>19713316
>but I don't really care about putting on fake bravado and adhering to all the silly social rules that characterise modern dating.
the fake bravado and silly rules are exactly what you were partaking in by wasting her time with a paragraph when all you needed to say is what that anon suggested. it's literally the same thing but more honest with yourself and her

>>19713573
oof
>>19713585
>We would have a normal conversation but it was as though the two of us were hearing two different conversations.
I think I might know what you mean but go on.
>>19713586
Thanks anon
>>19713587
Just bee'd myself; there weren't many lulls in the conversation and I made her laugh a lot and I don't think I said anything stupid but I think she got bored of me pretty fast. I fumbled a rushed goodbye where she just said "it was nice to meet you." No physical contact the whole time. Idk. She was stupid cute and very interesting imo. I'll still try a simple follow up text in a couple days. I've never been on a first date with a girl I'd never met before desu so maybe I'm thinking of it all wrong.

>>19713540
her knees look like the heads of trapped babies

>>19713618
I would want her with not only a wig and a tennis outfit but also the pride of going in the finales and also the sweat and the smelly scent of a whole arduous match slightly covered by her womanly sport perfume she surely sprayed her figure. I would want the whore to mask her parody the best she could, her repulsing travesty of Elena so I won't trouble her more.
Elenaaaaaaaaaa forgive me...

>>19713316
just because they are your authentic feelings, doesn't mean you should express them exactly. consider if you were greatly angered by someone, do you then say everything you are feeling? only a fool would truly say exactly how they are feeling without a tactical filter

>>19713661
pay the whore for a game of tennis first so she's sweaty. say it's your fetish. and frankly, it wouldn't be inaccurate to say so

>>19713657

Everybody else seems to get punished for their bad deeds and rewarded for their good ones. Things just happen to me, no amount of effort makes good things happen, no amount of failure leads to true punishment.

>>19713704
You're just realizing this now?

>>19711401
i decide i'd force myself to start a writing project without in spite of not having a clear direction and i won't revise until i've hit 25,000 words
but i'm 5000 words in and all i've written about is cum. it's just chapter after chapter of semen

>>19713668
The wig will do her hair. Her blonde tail trailing the air. The tennis costume will do the costume of the act. The scent of smell and sweat will be provided on the match. She will surely spray her bodywork with perfume she would smell. I will ask her to. It will do I believe. The tennis match will do the play. It will do anon. IT WILL DO!

Marvelous anon you met so much of the properties! Excellent! Elenaaaa I am here for the match.
But at last...But wait anon; what about the pride of making the finales? She is the whore? She made no finale? If she is let to beat me would the pride be spoiled and tainted and not true for she only beat me after I let her win and won she only played a simple match to me. It was no finale. Anon I am afraid it won't do in the end.

How cruel is this life...

>>19713704
literally me

Rough sex with orc women

>suck at guitar
>can't keep myself motivated or focused enough to seriously practice
>can't play well enough to play any one piece in time or without mistakes
>don't want to practice loudly enough for my roommate to hear my terrible playing
>end up in self-perpetuating cycle of sucking, not practicing, and getting angry with myself for not being able to play
I hate my self-defeating mindset. It's the same story with all the skills and hobbies I've tried to acquire.

did you know abarham lincoln wrote a poem as a suicide note

>One of the more interesting poems attributed to Lincoln is "The Suicide's Soliloquy." It was found in the August 25, 1838 issue of the Sangamo Journal of Springfield, Illinois by Richard Lawrence Miller in 1997. After studying the text and concluding that the poem was composed by Lincoln, he announced his discovery in a 2004 newsletter of the Abraham Lincoln Association. Lincoln scholars are still split on the authenticity of the poem. The poem is in the form of a suicide note, written by a man about to kill himself on the banks of the Sangamo River. Lincoln's well known depression gives some scholars cause to believe that he would write such a poem, even if he personally had no intentions to commit suicide. Miller states that the poem fits the meter, syntax, diction, and tone of Lincoln's other works.


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>>19713704
the final redpill

>>19713751
based

>>19713751
Here, where the lonely hooting owl
Sends forth his midnight moans,
Fierce wolves shall o’er my carcase growl,
Or buzzards pick my bones.
No fellow-man shall learn my fate,
Or where my ashes lie;
Unless by beasts drawn round their bait,
Or by the ravens’ cry.
Yes! I’ve resolved the deed to do,
And this the place to do it:
This heart I’ll rush a dagger through,
Though I in hell should rue it!
Hell! What is hell to one like me
Who pleasures never know;
By friends consigned to misery,
By hope deserted too?
To ease me of this power to think,
That through my bosom raves,
I’ll headlong leap from hell’s high brink,
And wallow in its waves.
Though devils yell, and burning chains
May waken long regret;
Their frightful screams, and piercing pains,
Will help me to forget.
Yes! I’m prepared, through endless night,
To take that fiery berth!
Think not with tales of hell to fright
Me, who am damn’d on earth!
Sweet steel! come forth from our your sheath,
And glist’ning, speak your powers;
Rip up the organs of my breath,
And draw my blood in showers!
I strike! It quivers in that heart
Which drives me to this end;
I draw and kiss the bloody dart,
My last—my only friend!

>>19713704
how old are you?

don't tell me you believe in "karma" hahahah

>>19713656
Yeah man do a follow up and work from there, doesn’t sound like a complete train wreck. If you meet again maybe even be honest about your occasional awkward mannerisms, if she’s worth it she’d be understanding and accepting. If no follow up comes, dont sweat it, it’s happened to me and not even worth stressing over from my experience, even if they’re cute.

>>19713838
I don't mean just morally wrong things, although there's something troubling about not being punished in those cases because it feels like God is laughing (you are small nothing you can do is big enough to deserve true wrath). I'm just talking about basic things that should be noticed and punished, not by God and karma but by people. It feels like everything that ignore just goes away, so I've just learned to ignore everything. It's seeing rules applied to everybody else and I just happen to get missed in the mess of things. I know it's not novel.

>>19711401
women aren't real

>>19713135
>Quentin knockoff persona
You jive ass turkeys found me out??

>>19713303
>using.....unironically
Stop posting. Forever

cool >>/lit/thread/19713770

>>19711401
i haven't been hurt enough
i haven't sacrificed enough
i haven't humbled myself enough
wesley said something about the saaurance of faith precluding fear, but weren't we supposed to fear?
i'm more afraid of being too comfortable

>>19714041
>>/lit/thread/19713770

>>19714008
Organized religion stifles free-thought and interpretation, of a rather confused mash of a collection.
THERE IS MOST USUALLY PERSONAL FAITH, as many will either rebel (overtly or externally) or misinterpret. This is why the churches rectums are ever open wide for their errant flock to enter (with questions)

There’s no such thing as demons either. These are people, and when they read the Bible and notice things their priests have overlooked or get wrong on purpose, they quite humanly disagree.

I’m quite openly a “fallen” elder to you christcucks, yes.

>>19714056
>There’s no such thing as demons either
what a comforting lie to tell yourself

>>19714065
Where are the demons?
He literally said anyone in the flock who disagrees with the priest was demonic.
I guess he defends them from the molestation and rape charges

>>19714078
i'm not gonna read whatever you're responding to so i don't know the context
but any amount of intuition can tell you that demons are very real and actively trying to harm us
just look around you man

but by eliminating my emotions, i cease to feel pain or sadness... at the cost of experiencing pleasure or happiness. there is only a sense of dull... satisfaction, or a kind of satiation, of neither ever growing hungry yet not enjoying food. i don't know if i handle being on these anti-depressants forever, i feel just: numb

>>19714101
Okay, I looked. Didn’t see any.
Mind explaining?

And I am responding to ࿇ C Œ M G E N V S ࿇ !Ry9RIEstm6 a known pedophile with fascistic tendencies. “Demonic” after a fashion, but not in reality.

What should one do when they feel like contributing to society is pointless? I feel like the world needs to change but that I am utterly powerless to do anything about it. I feel like I have skills that I can contribute but that ultimately doing so would be pointless. Is then the smart thing to do to just live for one's own self and friends and family?

Has this women, who I love so dearly, ruined me?

>>19714124
your dilemma is a false dichotomy. have you not considered a means that by contributing towards your own selfish interest alongside friends and family, you aid society in the long run -- for is society not just a collection of individual and family interests?

it is possible to change the world starting by changing yours and your friends and family's

>>19714122
>Okay, I looked. Didn’t see any.
anon they're not little red men with horns. try using some discernment. identify the patterns
>Mind explaining?
there are "people" who lack real moral agency and are just objects designed to lead you into sin. they look, sound, and act like us, but they're not the same
>And I am responding to ࿇ C Œ M G E N V S ࿇ !Ry9RIEstm6 a known pedophile with fascistic tendencies.
i don't trip on this board and i prefer older women

>>19714126
she has not ruined you. I doubt she even thinks of you as much as you think of her. No, it is your idea of this woman that has ruined you, an entity that exists only because you will it to, a kind of malicious unwanted tulpa

Anybody here ever actually "attain Nirvana"? How exactly does achieving this get you a free pass out of being reborn?

Is the ultimate goal of Buddhism to simply cease to ever exist?

ahhh im drinking again. whatever, it was a solid 6 day sobriety run but i feel better now.
https://youtu.be/cb8E20-ZYW4

>>19714161
what are you drinking? I'm sipping a rum and coke. told myself I wouldn't get fucked up two nights in a row but oh well.

Why can't I just kill myself
My life is empty
I'm completely detached from the world
I can't even fall asleep I get so depressed
All I want is to die so why is it so hard

Sometimes I want think about suicide. Not because I'm sad really but because I think I've gotten all I wanted from life, and nothing much is left to be seen

>>19714157
Anon the one advice I could give you is that if you don't stop worrying about "attaining" Nirvana-or any other spiritual achievement-you will never attain it. Just try to live a virtuous life and increase your wisdom. If it's meant to happen, this is the only way that it would happen.

>>19714325
how do you know for sure you've gotten it all? what if there is more than you are currently perceiving, something even greater than you've ever currently experienced

Sometimes when I read a post on this board and it reminds me of the woman I used to love, I begin to wonder whether she could have somehow found this place and it could be she who posted it. She was into serious literature so it's not entirely inconceivable. I know it sounds silly but one time I was almost convinced I had exchanged replies with her, only to read those posts very carefully again to realize it couldn't have been her.

>>19714173
ah ive had a few beers, calrbergs

>>19712413
I am smoking a pipe right now. The blend I am smoking is called Peacehaven, which is hard to find. I got a sample from a friend and am smoking it for the first time now. It's quite good.
There is tons of advice I could give you for pipe smoking, but I will leave it at this. Get a corn cob pipe for your first pipe. MuttnchopPiper has excellent videos for beginners. Matches860 (RIP) has very nice videos too--very kino, as my generation says, I guess. If you want to join a forum, I am on a good one called speak-easy. You need to be approved, but it's super quick and simple (email, username, password, and wait a few hours for an admin to see it). If you have interest, I can send you some samples.
Nasal snuff, school, and an injury have taken my attention away from pipes, but now, I'm back. Unfortunately, it's a bit cold out.

I once brought a can of tuna to the beach to laugh at the fish. Sitting in the sand with a bottle of rum in one hand, looking at the can I realized it wasn't one of those pull-tab cans. I had to beat it over a big rock, wading in the high tide and sort of shake the tuna out through a jagged little hole I made and eat it off my bare sandy hands. I think the fish had the last laugh that day. Nature always wins out in the end.

Why am I so risk averse?

>>19714340
I'm not practicing it. Just curious.

>>19714452
because you have had previous bad experiences with risk. but know this, what comes with risk is reward, so by being risk-averse you are by definition also reward-averse. this is why you remain depressed.

>>19713362
I just got high at a clinic on Wednesday. After not doing an infusion for 2 years, I got back in the saddle again over Thanksgiving. I felt really good for a month but fell of two days before my infusion. I'm not feeling much better yet, but I'm reassured by my last month. Do you shoot or sniff? Shooting is sooo much better, in my opinion.

>>19712438
no and no

>>19714399
ok ok i had maore than a few beer s i pribalt shoudl have stopped sooner

>>19712285
Why did they attack the Baltics, Finland, Poland, Romania BEFORE Barbarossa?

>>19714743
but international men's day isn't until nov 19

Its my birthday bros. I've got the warmth of friends and family but I want to share with you all here. 22! That number will just keep getting higher.

>>19714850
happy birthday anon

>>19714850
Joyeux anniversaire anon !

>>19713331
>>19713353
>>19713363
>>19713372
>>19713426
>>19713439
>>19713509
>>19713540
>>19713561
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>>19713611
>>19714173

THE EPITOME OF SUBHUMANITY.

>>19714855
>>19714861
thanks bros. ive had a good year of reading and I hope you did too. let us all have another good year of reading, and many more after. cheers.

such a night.
>>19714850
happy birthday buddy

>>19714850
u virgin?

>>19711564
How’s life in Kazakhstan like, anon? How about the literary world? Are you happy over there?

I run a mildly successful instagram account where I post digital drawings (like 12k followers). Nothing that impressive just kitschy illustrations. Even managed to make some decent cash form selling prints last year. At one point I was churning out drawings like once a week or once every two weeks and getting a lot of engagement, but I hit a mental roadblock back in like May 2021 and haven't been able to draw shit. It's like all the creative juices inside me evaporated. Been trying to focus on other areas of my life to not burn myself out any further, but still nothing. Any other artists been in a similar situation? wat do?

>>19714911
do you recall what was your inspiration before your ran out of steam? it sounded like you started forcing it as you got more successful, and now you're tapped out. i'd probably just accept that you can't force inspiration and you either find something else that inspires you since if you just wait, it will never come back. this is how i have addressed writers block

this place is a simulation chamber for impotent nerds to live out their power fantasies

>>19714946
what do you mean

i just want to be with her bros...

>>19714962
what am i looking at

>>19714957
idk i spend most of my time in gelded social spaces with other normies and women, so i guess i'm used to everyone being normal and very "level" and "going with the flow" if you know what i mean, so when i see people acting in a way that implies they set themselves apart from the crowd, i feel frightened and threatened, and to reestablish my comfort and reassert the acceptability of the herd, i first label their behavior evil and bad (arrogant), then farcical (undeservedly arrogant, delusional losers getting too big for their britches)

because this is often a partial truth, autistic and offbeat people are often goofy especially to the "well adjusted," my bias is easily confirmed and the threat is neutralized with ridicule. i'm still unconsciously unhappy being a member of the herd myself, but at least i don't have to feel uncomfortable around people who remind me of this fact by their acting outside of or indifferent to the herd

i think it's related to small poppy syndrome and that crab bucket thing but i try not to think much, i just visit social spaces i don't like and shame people who are more comfortable than me there. i'm trans btw idk if that matters

>>19715023
tall poppy*

i gotta go dilate now

Why do I have to feel so hollow. What exactly is love.

>>19715023
>idk i spend most of my time in gelded social spaces with other normies and women
well there's your problem

>>19715051
You're afraid of being loved

>>19715023
lmao

>>19715067
Yeah. Must be. I find myself pulling away and looking down on my romantic feelings. It's ridiculous.

>>19715062
He >>19715023 is not the original poster, just a retard imitating him. By the way >>19715023 , shut the fuck up and kill yourself. You think your post is so witty and sacrastic hahaha you just sound deluded and pretentious. Get the fuck out of my thread.

>>19715023
>i feel frightened and threatened
tell me, does your bussy quiver

>>19715023
MY 4CHAN IS SUCH A SPECIAL PLACE AND I AM DEFINITELY NOT LIKE "MEMBERS OF THE HERD" LIKE UUUUUUUUHHHHHHH NORMIES AND WOMEN MOM I LOVE NOBODY BUT I LOVE MY 4CHAN NIGGAS FOR BEING MISUNDERSTOOD OUTSIDERS JUST LIKE ME. I AM A MISUNDERSTOOD GENIUS

>>19715117
>>19715135
Tranny freaking out. Direct hit.

AAAAAAAAH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!!!!
I’ve stopped relaxing too soon now my laconic attitude clashed with a rock solid deadline and in its crash I lost the ability to read and write, I cannot find my guiding thread and time is running out. Pull myself together I must and go through an unwanted grind I have to. I will never understand procrastinating!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

>>19715120
How does it feel being autistic and not getting the sarcasm of his post

>>19715139
Everyone that disagrees with me is a tranny

I want to go on an adventure

>>19715146
WHAT

>>19714157
>Is the ultimate goal of Buddhism to simply cease to ever exist?
I think it's to realize that "You" don't exist and never have, existence is something you have taken on somehow. (by desire, I guess, idk, often Buddha is way more subtle than larpers will let on). "Your" being, inasmuch as it can be said to be, has no terms and therefore neither begins nor ends nor even relates. Religions sort of vary in what they think is an adequate use of the word "I", but afaik they basically work with the same questions of eternity, being, non-temporality, bliss, suffering, one-ness.
t. interested in a lot of religions, and I figure all real religions converge on this point, believe it or not; but not actually a buddhist

>>19715694
basically they all come down to "being" = multiplicity; and "non-being" = one-ness. Or vice versa, some call one being and the other the other and so on, but this seems to be the dividing line, and it pertains to one-ness/multiplicity, and one-ness/multiplicity pertains to what can and can't be known and how. multiplicity = relative; one-ness = absolute. "You" are absolute, is what they are saying; or they say "You" are neither. I actually read in a sutta that the Buddha didn't think you should be attached to either an idea of "self" or "non-self" (which is a very "absolute" thing to say, inasmuch as anything can be).

Gl;hf senpai

Two fragments from a story I am writing.
The stars looked beautiful as they usually did, they danced and sang and shone bright into the night. They remind me that there is something that simply is fun, but something is wrong, a new star appeared in the sky, it looked sick. I stare at it, it stares back to me, it sings of terror and the tide, something black as the void and cruel as the iron it was made of.
I couldn’t understand, what or who was it talking about? It sees this and sends feelings, the feeling of being gutted, the light tug as your skin gets opened and the pouring of your organs onto the floor by a monster who did it for a crime all were guilty of. Also the feeling of being awoken from your slumber by pain, this star started to think thoughts and would teach the same to others around it. It still gazed at me, because it was curious, who was I?
I am well, me, a whetman who is gentler than many of my peers. That lad O*** seems a promising knife to sharpen. I tell that star this but he relays that I am too kind, there is no desperation, no struggle, no acceleration of progress. Perhaps the other Whetmen were right. Terror at your own weakness is the greatest gift you could give. O*** I am sorry, there are bigger things you are too dull for.

“Oh how long I have lived, I have had a lot of wild adventures. From the time when we saved the world from that man who lost his only friend and how it was covered up. I also think about how far this empire of mine has come, controlling millions of worlds and quadrillions of people. When you get to my age you reflect on what exactly you have done with your life. I did this all for a friend, someone stronger than me, but he was less powerful than me too. In the end all I did was remain, his faceless name disappeared one day and I don’t know whether I want to know what happened. This is his empire managed for a thousand years by the man who gave him then cracked his hope. It’s crazy what you do for a friend like you A*****.”

I cant just fucking fight against myself and the world at the same time. I fucking cant.

>>19715769
i know that feel bro. I came so close to fixing my life once, to the point where i was reflecting on it and saying with confidence that my new life had begun, after years I felt I had finally began mastering my internal struggles in a way I never had, but after a time i found that the pressure of dealing with my internal struggles while also dealing with external factors was too much and I caved

>>19711578
Not that anon, but it was likely Russia being Russia. Their response was suspiciously quick, wouldn't be surprised if Putin's continuing his USSR reformation.

>>19715787
Damn, that really sucks. I never reached that point. Im almost 30 but Im afraid to realize to full extent how I fucked up my life beyond belief. Im struggling with my own neurosis AND at the same time the world and everyone else just moves forward. I wish I'd have the ability to describe the situation in a clear and poetic way.

>>19715769
it's an impossible time, God will be fair anon. try to be nice to yourself.

>>19713123
Bait. I'm not convinced this was sent to a women

>>19715795
Why do you trust Blinkin?
I can get to Canadian suspiciously quick too. This is what the military does

>>19716191
I'm still pissing myself over how he thinks calling a woman plain and meek is a compliment.

Ban wojaks and frogs.

>>19716527
stay mad

>>19716527
This.

>>19716538
It’s older than Boxxy. Get out.
(And Boxxy came up just before Obama.)

I ate about 1kg of chocolate over 5 days. I believe I gained weight. It was just like they said. Tbh, in the first couple of days I didn't think I was gaining weight. I go for a lot of walks. I thought maybe it changed my metabolism. That and the fact that it's cold, you burn a lot of calories in the cold, actually. That much is or can be a fact depending on how you dress, I guess. But either way: the earth still spins the right way, the sun doesn't rise in the west; I believe I gained weight. It was delicious though.

What's your guys favorite meal lately?

Mine is pasta with pesto and red grapes, with chicken or salmon mixed in.

If any of you for some reason have never had pesto please do

>>19716913
you could roast pine nuts and add, I bet that would be nice
>red grapes
this is new to me, sounds great
Fuck I haven't had salmon in a while

>>19713849
Thanks Boomhauer, sounds like a plan.

I work now so I won't have to work later.
What will I do when I don't have to work any more?
Can work be meaningful in in of itself? Is it still work if it feels meaningful?
Does not having to work mean freedom from meaning? Is it really freedom, or enslavement to meaninglessness?
My ears ring, and go back to typing.

>>19716872
>worrying this much about gaining some small amount of weight

>>19715725
Clumsy

What a terrible day I'm having. Health is now getting worse and can't even take a shit properly. God I just want to sleep but can't and I will be here seething for hours.

Well I've put my fucking back out again.
When you can't bend over fate finds a way to throw everything on the floor.

>>19711401
is male simping the engine of human history.

>>19718177
That's just woman cope

>>19718177
Yes

It's been a few centuries and atheists haven't produced anything of value. This is embarrassing for us autheistbros...

>I acquired expensive habits and affected manners. I got a third-class degree and a first-class illusion: that I was a poet. But nothing could have been less poetic that my seeing-through-all boredom with life in general and with making a living in particular. I was too green to know that all cynicism masks a failure to cope-- an impotence, in short; and that to despise all effort is the greatest effort of all. But I did absorb a small dose of one permanently useful thing, Oxford's greatest gift to civilized life: Socratic honesty. It showed me, very intermittently, that it is not enough to revolt against one's past. One day I was outrageously bitter among some friends about the Army; back in my own rooms later it suddenly struck me that just because I said with impunity things that would have apoplexed my dead father, I was still no less under his influence. The truth was I was not a cynic by nature, only by revolt. I had got away from what I hated, but I hadn't found where I loved, and so I pretended that there was nowhere to love. Handsomely equipped to fail, I went out into the world.

I saw a bait thread and didn't reply, just scrolled past it. I'm proud of myself

>>19718177
Civilization was built for woman's comfort

>>19718713
>We could make an epic catalog of male achievements, from paved roads, indoor plumbing, and washing machine to eyeglasses, antibiotics and disposable diapers. We enjoy safe, fresh milk and meat, and vegetables and tropical fruits heaped in snowbound cities. When I cross the George Washington Bridge or any of America’s great bridges, I think: men have done this. Construction is a sublime male poetry. When I see a giant crane passing on a flatbed truck, I pause in awe and reverence as would for a church processions.
camille paglia

my wisdom tooth just broke again. the whole top half is almost completely gone now , and the way its broken now has left it feeling extremely fragile, like its going to completely shatter if i chew the wrong way

I started a short winter class, and was literally the only male in the room at the start except the professor. We had to introduce ourselves and include our pronouns. When it was my turn, the professor points at me and says, "Why don't you go next, sir?" Sir. I had an epiphany, that nobody really believes all this shit, and there's no point in arguing with these people, because I'm assuming their mind works like mine. Is it that obvious? They seem so invested in all this sexual deviance.
I fantasize all the time about how all the kids and academics would behave if they were given the choice of recanting or a cruel death. How many would be martyred for whatever beliefs they have? Are people really this easily molded?

>>19718739
oh yea, i got a picture of it and its not looking good, im getting real "im gonna die of sepsis" vibes now. too bad leaf healthcare doesn't cover dental work

>>19718786
This is the healthcare system they want in the US.

>>19718707
Should've reported it

>>19718786

>>19718823
the US doesn't have dental coverage either, or any sort of coverage, as far as i know?

>>19718926
Where did you get that idea? Even burger joints give their employees dental insurance. And you can stay on your parents' insurance until you're 26.
Or you can pay out of pocket. $600-700 per wisdom tooth, I read.

There's something really unnerving about Sam Harris. He comes off as a liar. Almost without exception, every time he is asked a question or pushed to explain something, he gets nervous, "Well, uh, no, that's not what I mean... Let me suggest a different question." He reminds me exactly of hack meditation or yoga seminar hosts, all talk, but that hate to be asked questions. Hell, throw any hack professor in there. In fact, Harris reminds me a lot of an old psych professor I had, always pushing some sort of fringe school, and yet he was only pleased with himself when nobody else was talking.

You can't trust somebody who, in conversation, never humbles himself for a moment of reflection and consideration that he might not be 100% as convincing as he thinks he is. Instead of keeping the audience in mind when he had slipped up, or misspoken, he'll defend with, "Well, no, that's not what I meant." There was a certain interview where he said this about 10 times.

On top of that, it's common for him to turn away certain questions by saying, "Let's not get into that now", or "I don't have any intuitions about that for the moment." He's a consummate amateur.

I have never heard him say a single smart thing.

I listened to him "discuss" free will for three hours, and if it were a class I was taking, I don't know if there was one thing worth writing down. There was just no substance. It was just anecdotes and minor examples of why free will doesn't apply to some situations. "You can't decide your next thought" for example, which is fine as far as it goes. But that's his big proof? He never defines what free will means. In these cases, he often defers to "what I think most people mean by--" which is a cop out, because then he turns and uses that same phrase to dismiss what others think, giving us no hint as to what he really believes.

The worst part is his neurotic Jewish undertones. He just looks like he wants to squirm. He likes nothing more than to "debunk", and yet he is as slippery as it gets.

>>19718786
heres a better picture. let this be a lesson to any of you procrastinating on dealing with your wisdom teeth

>>19718739
>>19718786
getting a tooth removed is one of the easier things they can do, an oral surgeon usually does it, those guys are pros and will have it out of your head in about 2 seconds.

if you tell the dentist your situation they may give you a discount on an inspection just to get you to the referral or something. most dentists are good about payment plans

wisdom tooth removal is so easy i would strongly recommend you just go in and get it done, mine was a totally rotten mess from years of neglect and they just gave me local anaesthetic before i even realized they had, and while i was thinking "are they doing the other anaesthetic?" the guy said "alright tooth's out" and it was over. i never had any pain even in the coming days, didn't need meds although they gave me painkillers.

it's fascinating how many people who don't believe in an afterlife are obsessed with their legacy. it's like some part of their soul is trying to hint at something, like it's right there but they're distorting it somehow

I lay back in bed
hear sweet songs by the dead
about love tearing us to shreds

>>19719193
You're right. I had this weird obsession about my "literary legacy" that went away as soon as I embraced religion.

>>19719193
The same thing goes for people who worry about things like entropy and the possibilty of an asteroid hitting the earth. It's all a way of avoiding thinking about their mortality by projecting the fear onto something else.

I just went on the most amazing date with a beautiful girl I met off bumble. I managed to refuse sex despite us both being horny for eachother. I don't know if I can do it again on Wednesday, but I'm happy that I was able to be sincere about my intentions prior to sex. She seems really great, so I don't want this to turn into something all about sex, even if it's heavily involved.
I'm gonna try really hard with this one bros. She seems like marriage material.

>>19719378
>girl is horny
>didnt fuck her
>already thinking about marriage
ngmi, she thinks youre gay

>>19719378
>she offers sex so easily to someone she just met
>marriage material
Anon I...

>>19719378
you left her hot and horny. she probably had some other guy off tinder come fuck her that night because you refused.

>>19719400
We made out in her car for an hour and half with her grabbing and dry humping my granite, but you might be right

>>19719417
Seriously theres no reason not to fuck her that doesnt begin with "i was scared that..." and well, what can i say, you didn't fuck her, and now she knows you

>>19712152
this is the description of basically every 4chan(nel) poster

>be reading a book
>decide to take a quick break
>"let's go see if my posts on /lit/ got any replies"
>load up /lit/
>the whole afternoon passes by without going back to reading
I hate that this keeps happening to me

>>19719378
>go to university in foreign country, become popular with the girls, fuck like mad and earn a bad reputation
>tradwife material in one class, know she likes me but dont date her because shes not easy and id rather keep a 5-girl rotation, but keep in contact
>finish school, novelty of being a manslut wears off
>she still wants to date
I-I think I made it through the gauntlet, guys

Begin the morning by saying to thyself, I shall meet with the busy-body,
the ungrateful, arrogant, deceitful, envious, unsocial. All these
things happen to them by reason of their ignorance of what is good
and evil. But I who have seen the nature of the good that it is beautiful,
and of the bad that it is ugly, and the nature of him who does wrong,
that it is akin to me, not only of the same blood or seed, but that
it participates in the same intelligence and the same portion of the
divinity, I can neither be injured by any of them, for no one can
fix on me what is ugly, nor can I be angry with my kinsman, nor hate
him, For we are made for co-operation, like feet, like hands, like
eyelids, like the rows of the upper and lower teeth. To act against
one another then is contrary to nature; and it is acting against one
another to be vexed and to turn away.

>>19719416
>>19719400
>>19719429
Absolute thirsty people who would jump whenever a woman asks them to.
If you want it to become something serious then don't fuck her right away. I'd be cautious about any app-girl wanting to fuck on the first date. Good for a quick shag but dating material? No thanks

>>19711401
Dear sweet merciful Jesus please help

I am such a hypochondriac. There's always something about my body I'm worried about and soon as one false alarm is over another, different one arises.

>>19719993
I have it too but it’s because I’m a mentally ill schizoposter doomer.

>>19711434
its really just as presumptuous as those enlightenment fags. people never really change

There's a literal voice in my head. It's separate from the stream of my thoughts. All it does is suggest that I take random small actions, like getting up and using the bathroom at a specific time, or berate me for 10-30 minutes, particularly if I mess up at work or in a social setting. I'm not sure what to do about it.

>>19720069
do what i do and never seek treatment for it or admit to anyone that it's happening
just let it grow worse and worse and withdraw from your friends and family because it occupies your thoughts to the point you have nothing else to talk about

>>19711401
Greetings bros. I am a philosopher here on 4chan and would like to share some of my ideas. Please criticize harshly but with due propriety and respect since we are all brothers here and brothers love each although perhaps not but just be nice so we can just get along and get on with the business of philosophy.

Ok, so how many of you have read Kant's Dreams of a Spirit Seer? Raise your hands? Ok, zero of you. Ok. That's ok. That's ok. I'll provide a brief overview.

Allright, so Emaneul Swedinberg- remember that name. He's a spirit seer from Sweedin circa 1700's or so. So he writes this book Arcana Coelestia or Celestial Secrets where he provides his own revealed exegesis of the first two(?) books of the Pentatuch, or first five books of the old testament. He provides a unique exegesis based on revelations resulting from his personal experience of the Spirit World and his derived knowledge of symbolism from this experience. He sees spirits and explains that they are of a wholly different substance to the material world. We are at this moment in contact with the spirit world though we don't know it because the spiritual part of us is inaccessible to most of us while attached to material bodies.

He provides an analogy of the relation between the spirit world and the material world by using the relation of the human face and its expressions as symbols for the invisible but still very real internal or emotional and mental world of human beings. We see facial expressions, and we understand that they mean something beyond the expression itself. Frown means sad, smile means happy, blank stare confused, etc. In the same way the objects and events of our internal and external senses (imagination, emotions, thoughts, physical senstations, etc.) are humanly knowable manifestations of humanly unknowable (while we lack spiritual intuition) realities underlying those manifestations.

>>19720092
hell yeah brother

>>19720106
ffectively, the Spirit World of Sweedinberg is the Intelligible World of Kant- the world on the other side of our world. The Kantian thinginitself is eliminated because on the other side of the sensible world is another sensible world which is only intelligible on this side of the barrier. This other world is in and for consciousness and thus not in itself but always in relation to consciousness and subject to consciousness' form of mind, in this case the spiritual mind as opposed to the material mind.

The thinginitself eliminated, there is only a reciprocal relationship between two worlds, the Physical and Spiritual, and both exists in and for consciousness as two modes of that selfsame consciousness.

Basically, it's all consciousness, whatever consciousness is, becoming conscious of itself. In this act of becoming conscious of itself, it takes on the form of it's power of representing itself to itself and thus does not reveal itself to itself as it is but only as it appears to itself according to its mode of knowing.

I was writing more but apparently there's a word limit, so here I will continue.

[continued] This mode of knowing is determined by the material conditions of the physical body when conciousness manifests as physical and then is determined by the spiritual conditions of the astral body when consciousness manifests as astral or spiritual.

Basically, it's consciousness behaves like a pendulum swinging back and forth between the two worlds, which are really just consciousness itself flipping inside out and then flipping outside in and seeing itself, so to speak, from each side unable to see the other side until it transitions.

>>19711857
credentials should reflect mastery but mastery doesn't require credentials.

>>19720117
So, there's consciousness, whatever it is, it's two modes of knowing (dualism) resulting in a self-alienation and an inability to know itself in its completeness, while limited to one or the other mode of knowing, which is called ignorance, and then there is the recognition that the self-alienation is an illusion, albeit a necessary one, caused by it's own need to know, thus the necessity of splitting itself into knower and known, building a screen, maya, if you will, on which to see which blocks its view of it's own self viewed from that selfsame screen, maya, if you will.

By means of self-denial, however, with respect to whatever plane consciousness finds itself in, material or spiritual, uniting itself to what it opposed to it (the screen, maya, the Other, or hwat have you) consciousness can recognize the limitation imposed on itself by its previous mode of knowing and recognize the existence of itself as a whole, recognize itself both as physical and spiritual, although not yet by means of sensible intuition, yet nonetheless by a non-sensible intuition.

Sensible intuition of the other world would take place once the conditions of the particular mode of the present world are removed, whether that be the physical body or the astral body.

And that's it. The universe is a pendulum.

>>19720114
that's freaky cause i say "hell yeah brother" constantly
i think my brain can't properly randomize my interactions with people so it creates situations like this where i'm essentially talking to myself
or maybe you're a real, separate individual who happens to also say things like "hell yeah brother"
we'll never know for sure

>>19720069
Very interesting. Can you talk to it? Why do you think it tells you to do things at specific times? What happens if you do or not do them?

>>19720021
Its strange because I generally consider myself a relatively chill guy, but then I occasionally suffer from these panic attacks that seemingly come from nowhere and they're the result of all this pent up stress and tension - to which my hypochondria only contributes. I guess you get used to your own mind patterns and they become normal.

>>19720106
>I am a philosopher
>posts coomer pics
This is why I'm not reading your posts anon.

>>19720170
You have failed to see the subconscious symboolism in the pic. The two breasts represent the spiritual and physical realm attached to the femaie human which represents consciousness. Their large round shape is representative of the spherical nature of the universe and as mammaries are the source of nourishment to the infant mammal they represent the inherent life force within both worlds.

>>19719993
anxiety is anxiety, hypochondria is just one of its many forms

Have the voices in the head of the schizophrenic been divided into types? I would be interested to read any good books on the subject. It seems worthy of investigation that many seem to hear the voice of Christ or God, and then then the schizophrenic will assume the identity of Christ or God. I don't yet see any reason to assume, as some of my atheist friends have assumed, that this is not interesting at all, and merely a cultural artifact, totally contingent on the fact that the schizophrenic "happened" to be raised Christian. Also, this itself is a misdirection, because many of these voices often occur in the head of those who were not raised Christian, or who are otherwise Jewish, Muslim, etc. In fact, I have known five schizophrenics, out of many, who were respectively Jewish atheist, Muslim, and Buddhist, all of whom heard a voice in their head they called Christ. Privately, I assume Christ so readily appears as a voice, because he in may in fact be a "Voice", a sort of Platonic super-personality which in the course of 2000 years we have triangulated quite well. I have the feeling, anyway. I am much more confident that the "Satanic" voice is such. As many Christians privately know, we are not sure that God exists, but we know Satan exists. I have taken the view, perhaps out of some convenience, that these mythological figures are indeed identifiable aspects of personality, meaning they are indeed real. Think of it like this. If one were to endeavor to become as evil as possible, he would find himself empowered and drawn by a certain constellations of traits: sadistic, greedy, spiteful, lustful, etc -- and the manifestation of all these traits stabilizes into a certain personality, ie, he becomes a certain kind of person. This work has been done by the Western imagination over the course of thousands of years, hence the persistence of Satan.

>>19720184
>breast implants
These symbolize that you have poor taste in women

>>19720157
>Can you talk to it?
Yeah but I try not to. Usually it talks to me first and when it says anything longer than a suggestion it's a tirade about how I'm worthless and ought to an hero that goes on for a while. I've posted segments of some of the stuff it's said to me on /lit/ before but never a full conversation since it uses very personal experiences I've had as examples to make its point.
A lot of the time it makes suggestions in the form of "we should do _____ " instead of directly telling me to.
>Why do you think it tells you to do things at specific times?
No idea, sometimes it's eerily good at predicting things though. A couple times I've ignored the suggestions and suffered minor to mild negative consequences for it, and usually they were due to things outside my control. Most recently, it told me to park my car in a different spot before a vacation, and while I was gone it got hit by a vehicle whose brakes had failed.
Occasionally it tells me to do something that goes against my personal morals, like telling me to worship demons. I try not to engage with it when this happens and usually say a few prayers or cross myself til it stops.
>What happens if you do or not do them?
If I do follow the suggestion, nothing really. If not I feel a vague sense of unease for a bit even if nothing really comes of it.

For what it's worth, I've had some form of depersonalization/derealization for 6-7 years and in the back of my head I'm pretty sure the voice isn't really separate from me at all.

>>19720344
On the contrary, it is actually you whose taste in women is poor as betrayed by your inability to appreciate the highest stage of human art so far, namely, the perfection of woman in accordance with the highest ideals of the fertile female form manifested in the form of perfectly round large and perky breasts. Your failure to recognize this suggests that in all likelihood you are a fag.

>>19712906
Bad response, anon proven right. Think about your actions.

>>19712567
Well I guess your left with only 2 options, options that you have to fully commit to or be left devastated

>>19720355
Anon if I were you I'd make a point of completely disregarding anything that it says. I don't usually think like this, but this is almost certainly a demon that for some reason latched onto you. Pray to God and disregard it anytime it said anything.

>>19718984
that's most of these social media "thought leader" guys.

>>19719993
at the root health anxiety comes from fear of death, at least it has for me. health anxiety also responds very well to cbt

>>19720626
i don't see how cock and ball torture is going to help

>>19720454
I am religious too, but probably hearing of voices is more mundane since so many people experience it (and often live healthy lives, by learning to manage it), and it's always similar to this. It seems to be some misfire in your unconscious mind appearing as a vocalization of "other possibilities" or "other perspectives" instead of just feeling them as your own alternative options from within one self. Like how a reflection seems like a different distinct person, outside of you, but it's really just a side of you in a mirror.

If that mirror is constantly in the corner of your vision, you're gonna get a lot of "wtf, is that another person?" feelings but you would learn to ignore those eventually.

I hope anyone suffering from this stays safe and grounded and doesn't play it up to make life more interesting. Schizophrenia and related illnesses are often manageable if you don't get isolated or repeatedly amplify them by messing around.

I ordered the Del Rey edition of the first Conan book. It's arriving today and I'm looking forward to reading it.

>>19711401
>sign up for audible trial
>don't listen to any audiobooks
>get into audiobooks 6 months after trial ends

Pretty pale girls

>>19720816
The best.

>>19720816
imagine the smell

>>19720877
Like sweet sweaty heavenly pale white girl qt pits. (Inhales joyfully)

>have job interview
>it goes well
>she tells me there is a final interview and it'll be via zoom
>she tells me to stay available and that I'll receive an email with the link in it
>I misunderstood and just left the place thinking the interview will be from home, but apparently it was going to take place right after that interview
Why is life so hard for use socially inept people? I'm too embarrassed to even go back and apologize and they haven't called me again

>>19720887
Just call and ask. You have nothing to lose from doing so.

>>19720887
The anon above is right. This could happen to anyone, not just to the "socially inept"

so you have an interview, then at the end of it you're told there will be another interview, on zoom, when you're already there, and you should stay available, when you're already there, and they are emailing you the link, when you're already there, and you are supposed to stay there and wait for the link so that you can have the zoom interview right there, when you're already there? am i reading this right?

im not scared of technology

>>19720920
>>19720923
I agree with this, also one thing I've learned about normies is that they make a lot of mistakes and just don't care. I had to see it with my own eyes enough times for my autistic self to absorb it, but they often recover from things I would have assumed are not recoverable just by trying again or persisting.

Of course this can be bad advice too if you're incredibly autistic because a lot of incredibly autistic people don't understand when to stop persisting. But sounds like you have nothing to lose by just saying you misunderstood.

Maybe you can fudge it by telling a white lie or partial truth. Say you thought you heard them say they'd send the link whenever, and you only now realized you made an error. Apologize but don't bend over backwards to apologize, laugh it off but don't seem disrespectful, just show it was an honest mistake and you see it as one yourself, so you're a normal level of contrite about causing any inconvenience. If they still fuck you over, well then they're dicks anyway.

Life is full of little mistakes, forgive yourself for making one the way you would forgive a friend if he did it.

>>19711401
Feeling repressed. It's like there's been this building sense of internal confusion for years. I blame it on my lack of socialization in adolescense. I never developed ties to anyone and never have in college. I remember in high school trigonometry I was so unresponsive that my teacher at the end of the year begged me to say anything about myself before leaving.... My life has lacked content and as the years have passed I have become emotionally deadened. Not necessarily in a despairing way, but more like everything is just neutral to me. Everything passes. I find now that shameful memories elicit as little response as happy ones. What's strange though is that even as I've become toughened in some ways to the pain of life, in other ways I feel as insecure and nervous as a child especially around other people.

>>19720069
>It's separate from the stream of my thoughts
How can you tell it's separate from your own thoughts? All the things you describe--berating you for messing up--don't sound different from regular thoughts.

>>19720920
>>19720923
>>19720969
Thanks lads I'll try contacting them since I have nothing to lose like you said, if they reject me it might improve my mood to be fair

I don't think I want to try to connect to another human being.

>>19711401
I need to be violated and broken in like a horse. I want to go deeper--ripped open and entered forcibly. To see the face torn to pieces, exploded. I just need a big tiddy woman to smash me into the dust with her big honkers

>>19721032
Would you like to not connect with me?

>>19721032
Yes you do. Stop acting like a cactus.

Next thread
>>19721048

>>19721039
And pick you back up and dust you off.

>>19720306
I ain't reading all this but I'll mention that I've heard that the affect of the voices vary with culture, where I think westerners had mostly voices that gave them a hard time and africans having mostly friendly voices. This is an unabashedly generalizing comment, but there was something along these lines.

>>19720954
Yes, basically, next interview is with the "higher ups", and I guess they're too good to meet you in person

>>19720971
do you want to hear a theory? it could be upsetting but I recognize myself in you, I think

>>19721104
ah fuck anon >>19720971
I ain't gonna hang around. Ask God for help. Just think for a moment what you want and ask.

>>19721104
Please idc if it's upsetting. I could use any advice.

>>19721062
those are some big kahunas

>>19721062
i don't understand how these people -- if such things on her chest are even of authentic flesh -- can live drawing so much attention everywhere they go while constantly draining their back of any strength. If one were not a vapid whore, it would truly be a nightmarish experience incomprehensible to most men as they remain fixated such bulbous beacons

My family hate me.

???

>>19715725
sorry to be so brutal anon, but that's quite simply very bad. there really isn't anything more constructive to say. take it as a reality check but don't get discouraged, if you want to write keep writing, but your prose right now is terrible. don't believe your aunt if she tells you otherwise.

>>19720106
interesting posts but the other anon is right, you have garbage taste in women. that thing is 50% plastic and not remotely attractive to anyone who's ever come into contact with an actually pretty and naturally sexy female, sorry to say.

>>19721207
Milena isn't vapid