/lit/ - Literature

nothing i guess : P

I wish I'd be a tortured artist.
Sadly, Im just tortured.

My room at my folks' house has no window, and it's taught me that living in a room with no natural light sucks really bad unless you have a great lighting setup of your own, but even then a little bit of natural light is a massive bonus in ways most people don't realize

>>19694497
I do know that it's well established that natural light affects total bed-time of patients in hospitals. How long it takes to recooperate. And I've heard though I'm not as sure that you can even see a difference depending on proximity to the window.

>>19694505
Wouldn't be surprised honestly, lighting has a massive psychological effect on us. There's probably tangible health benefits to being biologically in-sync with the rise and fall of the sun.

Fuck me lads I think I need to lay off the Dickens' and that for a while, man's unironically bought himself a fucking pipe. I need to get smacked in the mouth or summat

>>19694548
>Way hay Up she rises! Way hay Up she rises,Erlay in ther morrrnin! Shave Hius bellay with the rasty razarrr erlay in ther morning!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGyPuey-1Jw

the thing is, I guess, that if she has a heart she couldn't bare to see me for shame. I keep thinking of what I've done and how it would be hard for met her dignity. But if she has a heart, and I'm willing to bet a lot that she does, it will likely be worse for her. The shame should be more or less... unliveable as is. Why do I want to torment us? well, I'm not doing anything, it's up to fate.

>>19694628
>ow it would be hard for met her dignity
to meet her*

When did judges-penitent die?

Can you cure a severe neurosis by yourself?

fucking hell, I just can't handle the cringe anymore, I need to blog about it.
some guy I know at work is dunning-krugered hard and keep being pedantic about everything, acting like he's well-read and is the epitome of intelligence but has only read fucking Freud, we're scientists and he keeps saying shit about things he doesn't understand
of course I have to be in good terms with the guy because my work depends on it but it's getting harder and harder to hold a pleasant discussion with someone without him barging in and spilling mindless facts and overall mean comments in the face of people he barely knows
yesterday a female coworker was talking about how her ex slept with his own ex the day after they broke up and how devastated she was, he literally walked in and told her "yeah, the good thing about fucking an ex is that you know what makes them tick"
I'm tired of his shit, it's only a matter of time before someone turns on me because I keep being associated with this retard

sharing with my frens

how is one ever supposed to trust in a relationship

What poetry book should I get? Read Keats selected works and Tennyson selected works

>>19694802
I like it. am I projecting or is it about non-self esoteric stuff?

>>19694454
I bet if students set fire to Berkeley that would get student debt cancelled real quick. Too bad they're such cowards that don't mind getting their future scammed by decrepit old fucks like Biden

>>19694907
you just trust and hope for the best

>>19694454
In 10 mins ill be a year older, another year lost, another year with no cause to celebrate.
I cheer for all who felt what I feel now.

>>19695073
happy birthday

>>19694959
it's from a collection called "Persian Tales".
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/9725915-persian-tales
i think this is it but my pdf has a different cover. most of the stories are either like this or really fucked up. like a daughter will say to her father, "daddy, why dont we cut off brother's head?" and he'll just go and do so. all presented in this kind of style.

>>19694966
the debt was already paused with zero intrerest and just extended until may 2022. they might keep adding 6 month extensions indefinitely because people are already at the point of considering killing the politicians as it is. we have their nuts in a vise.

i'm just not paying that shit is all hahahahahahahahaha!

Rough sex with an orc girl

>>19695073
happy birthday anon, i wish you a blessed and brighter year. if you feel lonely and want to pass the time, let me know and we can set up a turntable.fm/queup room to play music and just shoot the shit until the sun comes up. maybe some other anons too can join, it certainly beats moping around on your own.

>>19694454
That pic made me think.
>communism doesn't work
> The USSR was a nearly unstoppable juggernaut of a superpower with the second highest GDP that conquered half the globe and which required the full combined efforts the other superpower and all the European powers to stop or else it easily would have taken over the entire planet.

Is this the power of propaganda?

>>19695151
persians man... very admirable people

>>19695073
gratz dumbo

Why do we hurt each other?

I'm not wearing women's underwear.

>>19695248
hedgehogs

>>19695248
can't communicate, don't form sound relationships, don't trust

I have been gripped by a crippling nostalgia for my adolescence all of a sudden, triggered by a particularly emotional dream last night. The nostalgia is so intense it is almost maddening, I almost want to cry.

>>19695073
No in 10 mins, you'll be 10 mins older. What are you smoking?

During the last few months, I keep thínking about the same shit. Maybe I'm just having a midlife crisis or something, but I don't have anyone to talk to about this.

I've sacrificed my 20s pursuing degrees and a career that has lead me to at most mediocre success, instead of fostering real relationships and attaining meaningful life experiences. My friends are getting married, starting families, and (seemingly) feeling content in their chosen professions. All I got for my efforts was the realization of how profoundly vain I am and that hard work does not lead to success.

I'm about to enter my 30s with a sucking emptiness in my chest which, in retrospect, was probably there all along. I feel like I've been distracting myself from my own mind by setting and chasing lofty goals, for years on end.

Where do I go from here? Do I try to convince myself I have been on the right path and continue putting in the hours, weeks and years into my career? Do I need to delve into introspection and find out if there is something I'm supposed to be doing, but I just don't know it yet?

wa dhalika huwwa al fauzu al azeemu

>>19695459
sadaka allahu laadhim

>>19694497
Was it designed to be a bedroom? If it was they need to hang the architect.

>>19694454
Why is art so painful?

>>19695760
paper cuts

>>19695760
I cry while writing

>>19695760
You are not supposed to put it in there.

>>19695447
step 1 : find God
step 2 : realize careers don't mean shit, money unironically doesn't buy happiness, being a good employee won't buy you lovings wife and kids
step 3 : find wife and kid
step 4 : live a comfortable life with a comfortable job, pray for your family when you die so that they will remain under the watchful eye of the benevolent God
step 5 : ??? you've had a good life

>>19695863
>step 1 : find God
honestly i really like the Christian awakening on 4chan.

dont talk to me

ok

>>19696041
sadly it's all trad larping

dont feel like reading, playing vidya, or even shitposting. i'm bored as hell. I don't feel depressed or anything I just have nothing I want to do. I wake up, work, then just do nothing. what do people do with their time?

>assume i have over 150 tabs as usual
>scroll over
>less than 50
i feel accomplished. my other browser has another 50 tabs open though.

>>19696355
Socialize. Somehow just hanging out is a fully absorbing activity . On the occasions that I socialize I find myself utterly absorbed in this brain-link nexus of those in my proximity and it feels like my whole world at the moment. It gets you out of your own head somewhat.

>>19696364
Based fellow tabitis haver. You're like a little baby to me though. Get on my level.
>Have 3 different browsers open
>multiple windows for each each browser
>50-65 tabbies open for each window
>the tabs have tabs open

>>19694795
pls post a pic of this man

>>19696581
>>19696364
Embrace decay

>>19694454
The other day I learned this
>44% of women between the age of 18-24 in Denmark have fucked 5 or more men, 27% of danish women between the age of 25-29 have fucked more than 10 men
>42% of women between the age of 18-24 in Norway have fucked 5 or more men, 28% of Norwegian women between the age of 25-29 have fucked more than 10 men
>47% of women between the age of 18-24 in Sweden have fucked 5 or more men, 37% of Swedish women between the age of 25-29 have fucked more than 10 men
Nordic bros, how do you cope?

I feel like the impact of the contraceptive pill and the condom on global society is really underestimated

>>19696590
Not a Nord, but honestly: why does it matter? As long as she's STD-free, I really don't care about her body count.

>>19696364
I have over 500 tabs open. I'm basically retarded.

>>19696581
a friend borrowed my laptop once and saw a browser that had about 30 tabs open and he was freaked out and asked my why the fuck i needed that many tabs.

i'm no longer part of the human species

>>19696597
Have you ever been in love? Is painful to know that the women you love had 10 different dicks inside her, that she enjoyed and desired them, and that are ten different men that know how your women looks naked and have the satisfaction of making her open the legs to them

>>19696590
All scandinavians are shameless whores, including the men.

>>19696566
I agree that socializing would help, i've also noticed that just being around a few friends alleviates boredom and, as you said, lets you escape the trap of your own mind. my predicament is that my friends are all very busy with work, relationships, and other shit. I can usually only get one actual IRL social event going a month. guess i'll keep shitposting for now.

>>19696616
How do you know? Are you Scandinavian? I don’t see the point of having a relationship under those conditions

>>19696614
I dunno anon. She's loved people before I knew her, she'll love someone else after we breakup or heaven forbid, I die (or quite possibly while we're together). For me love isn't about having someone, it's about enjoying our time together.

i'm back at home for the holidays for the first time since going to university and at one point i cried, because i'd already forgotten it, i'd forgotten the springs in my mattress that cut me at night, the way the shower leaks downstairs leading to a big sink in the top right of the dining room we never use, and the fucking cold, jesus christ.
my dog's getting slower and she doesn't jump anymore, she used to be so peppy and i feel like i helped kill her spirit over these past 10 years.

My mum might've had a stroke and went in for a MRI today, results aren't back in but she's slurring her words, she's working too much, she's worked since she was 13 and i've worked for a combined total of a few months, i remember crying when she said she wanted to move to a smaller house, because i was scared to lose all this, this place where i fell into the pond at age 4, the place my brother faked a proposal on april 1st, where i completely torpedoed and then rebuilt my life, for a long time i thought i'd die in my small room with the computer i built years ago, with my grandad's tv as a monitor.

I remember when my grandad gave me that TV, he had gotten a new one and was going to throw it out, but i used it as a monitor for the longest time, and after he died it somehow felt important that i keep it, my cousins took stuff from his house after he died, they accused my dad of stealing from him, i remember he wanted me to have a watch of his.

I used to visit every few weeks, and i sat in the garage beating the fuck out of this big plank of wood he had, he had all sorts of stuff back there, cleavers, hand drills, i remember once finding a gun and a jar of nails, and firing the (unloaded) gun at the jar of nails in there, he ended up shredding his tires.

my gran was one of the kindest souls i've ever had the pleasure to meet, but every time i think back there's an unpleasent memory that sticks around, she had parkinsons and kept asking me to check the door for her, and everytime i checked, and there was nobody, i started to tear up, she asked me to check the door again, and i did it, and i kept doing it, until my dad got me to stop, i just wanted her to feel better, she was so kind, went to mass every sunday, and they had a little collection box for a charity that helped people in Africa, always held the reigns in that house, that lovely house.

when my grandad died i remembered going through that house, and i regret doing it greatly, everything was gone, the couches, the "naughty chair" i had to sit on as a kid, but i remember something that hurt me, i once picked up a small clock for my grandad as a gift, and it was still up there on the mantelpiece, i don't know why i bought it, it looked grim, like it was made out of lead.

I think i know another reason i used my grandad's tv as a monitor even though it sucked as a monitor, it made me feel like an acolyte at the altar of this fantastic machine that, if you're just clever enough, can do anything.

sorry

Sci-fi often fantasizes about a time traveling machine that lets you go forward and backward but I would much rather have a time pauser in which I can suspend myself indefinitely inside an enclosed bubble. Whatever happens inside this encapsulated time bubble happens according to intuitive clock time. Nevertheless your own biological processes are also paused so if you spent 100 years in the time bubble you would not age or die or starve as your actual physical manifestation is still synced to the moment you pressed the pause button. Meanwhile the rest of the world is frozen. There are many philosophical implications of the idea.

For example, one of the things that makes life hard is what Heidegger called "thrownness." We are thrown into time and are facing a constant onslaught of changes without ever having an oasis of stillness in which time truly stops and the future is suspended. But if you were able to pause time and observe the world in its present state from a fixed vantage point, you could take all the time you need to evaluate the current state description of the world, gather your thoughts, etc. If you devoted yourself and kept yourself from going insane, you could use this time cloister to effectively acquire and master godlike capabilities and knowlege. And if it ever became too much, you could unpause it and go back to your regular day to day.

>>19696614
>Have you ever been in love?
yes and l didnt ask or care how many men she'd had sex with, because l was in love (and not a virgin).

I love my wife.

>>19696650
One of the great mysteries of life to me that I stumble over at least once every few days is how "full" every life is, and by full I mean stuff like this. I'm a crazy idiot so the clock on the mantel, I wouldn't know what to do with it, or do about it. Or the TV. That's what I mean when I say stumble, I don't even know what words to use. Do I revere this object forever? Am I letting all the complexity and uniqueness of my grandpa disappear forever if I throw out that insignificant item that sat in some blind corner of his house for years? Do I have to revere everything?

I just wish I knew all this is going somewhere, nothing is lost. Some part of me just thinks it's incredibly unfair that every nice little Catholic grandma becomes a bundle of memories in a few people's minds, and those memories fade, and then nothing is left. And some grandmas don't even get that. It feels like there's something I should be doing to make sure every grandma and grandpa gets their due, and even every leaky shower and shitty mattress spring gets its due, but I'm up against a cold uncaring universe that gives me no way to actually do anything in particular.

Somehow I can't accept this even when I realize how futile it is, and so I feel a weird sense of personal responsibility for not venerating some grandma of some guy I've never met. Like I don't trust other people or the world in general to do it, which means I'm the one who's supposed to be doing it, but I suck at it too, so it's not even any good that I have this awareness.

>>19696597
>why does it matter?
ngmi

>>19696609
Normies such as your friend are too weak to see. They scurry from "too much information" like cockroaches before the light. I have ascended. I am one of many eyes. I see all.

>>19696609
>all my friends are LMAO XDDD TERMINALLY ONLINE I LOVE MEMES :D faggots
>spend 20 hours a day on their laptops
>ask them if they know what alt+tab, ctrl+w and ctrl+t, ctrl+c and ctrl+v do
>less than 10% of them do

zoomers are always worse than i thought. i heard recently they can't read cursive now?

just got utterly btfo'd by one anon somewhere else in this damned site and now i feel completely stupid. what do?

>>19696619
>very busy with work, relationships, and other shit.
>busy
Although I sometimes use it myself I have a problem with using "I'm busy" as an excuse. Busyness implies a framework of priorities. If someone isn't busy with you it means you're not that important to them and don't fit within their daily, weekly, monthly bandwidth. On the face of it, that is acceptable, assuming you've done nothing to earn a place in their priority list. Your needs are not that pressing to them; of course their needs are what is most pressing to them. But it also strikes me as an affront when you have made repeated overtures and attempts to treat your friends and they are still not able to carve out a little time to well, be your friend. That is no friend to me.

>>19696759
everyone under 25 at my job spends the entirety of their lives playing online games and chattering inanity on discord, getting their thoughts from reddit, and listening to flavor of the week emo rap on spotify, and watching anime at work.

>>19696692
You know earlier today i was reading something that this reminded me of:

https://granta.com/dear-tyrant/

I remember reading about this man's life story and then feeling a great sense of pity for him, this idiot, absolute buffoon and murderer, and i still felt sorry for him, i think it's only natural for anyone to make connections with strangers, and to try and preserve the memories of people we've never met, it's human.

I keep wanting to talk about politics, so i think i will for a little bit, i think we've built a golden cage for ourselves, where the virtuous by definition are poor, and awful people rise to the top, i hope one day that awful system will die like the one's before it.

I feel like i have a great bond with liberals who lived after the bourbon restoration but before 1848, that is to say i was born past the end of a real counterpoint to this system, and i desperately want to hope that it's end is soon to come

I feel weird typing this out because these threads always feel very different to the other ones on 4chan, very "message in a bottle", the writing thread on /tg/ has this kind of feeling.

I remember once having a good day and saying to a friend, "i am happy that for this ever too brief moment, i am matter that can think.", which was very gay but i still like it.

Pic is Bokassa's former throne used for his coronation.

https://youtu.be/q_aqaxtAMbs?t=287

HAHAHAHAHA
Power knows Power.
What an utterly demonic first date these two had.

>>19696786
what's your job

>>19695863
hear this anon, the most liberating thing you can do is getting closer to God, what is bigger than God? How can anybody become more saint and stronger than God? Source of all reason and of all creation? He ask us to find him, believe in Him and to repent of our sins, and then he will transform you like he transformed me. Do not let your hearts be troubled by the world, in your case you just found, like anybody, that it can only bring stagnation and confusion to your heart.

"A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh."

It's hard and requires to start walking around uncertain terrains but trust God more than men who influenced the world this way.

The circumstances under which I lost one of my best (and certainly my oldest) friends is something I might bring up if I ever try therapy. It was such a calamitous intersection of complicated areas. One, it happened publicly. Two, in happened on a podcast (not the goodbye, but the final straw, which preceded me ghosting him for now two years), which he invited me on on terms which he them violated in order to, very presumably, pillory me as a right-winger. By the way I prepared about five for our interview, but it quickly devolved into inane tv-news-tier bickering because I couldn't get a word in, ie, "Hey, you're a smart guy, come on the show...then... So what you're saying is!" Three, it concerned a turning point in politics I held to be deeply needing of consideration, and the rioting which I saw with my own eyes (my office was attacked, three of my coworkers assaulted, and one's car was vandalized and burglarized). Four, it gave me pseudo-PTSD about the volatility and mutilation of internet culture, and the impossibility of dialogue therein, even among old friends). Five, how much it may still effect my feeling on how little I truly understand about the intersection of politics and psychology. And six, how I realized our friendship was the last bridge between he and the rest of my oldest friends.

I have tried to untangle exactly what happened in our two hour interview, but it's like I can't properly frame it, or even replay it in my head.

In a way, I had the last laugh, not that I wanted it, because basically at the end of the show I called him out live on violating the etiquette terms of our conversation, and that his character had went totally 180 once the cameras were on.

>>19694454
hosanna in the highest
i wish i were not born

>>19695248
Sadism is what takes the place of life affirming vitalism when it vanishes due to there not being an environment appropriate for it.

>>19697002
Mid level government bureaucrat, which admitting humbles me so much I have to count my blessings. Most people are work with are over 35. Most of them have children and grumble too much about their spouses. They're cool, there's good camaraderie (believe it or not), but most of them are way past having social lives. The 30 year olds are cool, even if most of them don't do anything but drink. 10 years in this sector and I have to say late twenties is usually the best because (the educated ones anyway) are at their sharpest and if they have money they have decent hobbies, and can carry a conversation. Under 25 is a no-go because they're basically children, god love them.

>>19694454
God is gonna come back and FUCK US UP
just you wait, it's gonna be NUTS, just you wait brother
make sure you're ready for the day

>>19697050
The most cowardly thing a person can say.
Time enough to not be born after you’re dead.

>>19697107
>Time enough to not be born after you’re dead.
You're not born right now because that already happened, so you're already not born. No need to wait till death.

>>19697096
Indeed

>>19697196
whoops

>>19697205
the lord wills it

>>19697205
you have to crop it a little, then it'll post right-side up

To my savior, thank you

Thank you for creating me in the image of his holy monkey-meat

I persist only in the knowledge of His everlasting monkey-meat

For it was He gave his only begotten monkey-meat son to suffer, as monkey-meat does,
so that my monkey-meat may enjoy life everlasting

I baptize my own monkey-meat child in the waters of His grace and the security of monkey-meat providence

>>19697298
i know you're one of them

Cried (well, almost) for the first time in 13 years. Wasn't really able to 'let it all out' as much as I had wanted but I squeezed a few tears out.

I fucking hate /v/. I dont know why i even go there anymore. Every thread is bait thread

>>19695863
>step 1 : find God
where

>>19697072
are you vaccinated?

Lately I've been getting so bored that I feel like I'm actually losing it.

Nothing is appealing, things will be interesting again in the future, but it's not here yet.

I feel almost like the true me is suppressed or unrealized somehow.

Also my rotator cuff is inflamed so I'm pissed that I can't exercise as much.

>>19697346
Easy, read great American philosopher Fred Durst.

>>19697367
Fuck it's just that easy

>>19694454
>Stalin
I would just like to say that seeing Warhammer 40K mini prices has done more to make me sympathize with communism than leftypol ever did.

Penises are literally designed to go into vaginas. Why does the vagina self-lubricate when a woman is horny? In preparation to receive the penis, which gets hard for the same purpose. And what occurs when intercourse reaches its natural conclusion? Life. Here we can easily see that the telos of the penis is to penetrate the vagina, not another man's bumhole. Anyone who can't realise that is not worth listening to.

>>19697415
I know what your saying is true but I'm not attractive to women. Men are the only ones who will even look at me sexually, so I have no choice. I want a family so badly but that can never happen because I've been cursed by god

>>19697336
It's a long way, you will fail at the beginning but you must keep trying. That is the cost you have to pay because of living in a wold that forgot about God or even worse is in a state of revolution against God will itself.

>>19697424
> I've been cursed by god
Maybe, but there is another possibility too, maybe he is saving you from the manipulative whore modern women, they are dangerous and can make your life even more miserable. God knows a bad woman can make you a lot of harm

>>19697415
Does this mean homosexuality is a form of life denial?

>>19697451
So I lose either way? Either I stay an unhappy faggot or end up with a manipulative where. Sounds like the best is to not play at all

>>19697466
I don't know, I'm clueless myself, 35 years old and never touched a woman. But if you want a girlfriend you better get to work hard on that, and get used to it, otherwise if you don't want then enjoy your freedom from this madness. Happiness is possible both ways!

I have this really nice short story idea. The problem was that it was meant to be erotica but I came to like the story for its own sake.

>>19694454
I wish I was a better writer. I can make my point clearly, and argue well, when I speak aloud. But as soon as I sit down to start typing out ANYTHING... I fall apart. Why?

>>19694454
I think the hardcore /pol/ posters are possessed by demons. Was just in a thread on a blue board and someone had started spamming gore webms of black people in retaliation to a bbc poster. And another thread with a fake clickbait article in OP and someone was posting photos of mutilated and infected genitalia. Why do they even have such material saved on their computer? Why wait for opportunities to post it?
Demons.

>>19697455
For me, that's what makes it so hot. I'm picturing a scene with a man, who is supposed to be the subject of the moment, is giving some good dick to a girly-looking trap male, which a girl somewhere in the back is either dead, unconscious, or in some other way incapacitated. I think it's attractive because it rides that line of extreme. Death and destruction, through the negation of life, which is homo-sex. It's cynical. It's putting the loaded gun in your hand and the barrel to life and saying PULL THE TRIGGER! Love it.

>>19697588
One time me and a friend were blowing each other in his truck. I remember pulling me head up and asking "What's so wrong about this again?"

We honestly couldn't come up with anything beyond "some people hate it."

lol

>>19697637
My post might have sounded like I have some extreme political stance against homo-sex, but I really don't. That whole point about the negation of life and everything, that's all poetry. Some hold views that are THAT extreme, but I don't. I definitely projected some kind of taboo-seeking in that post. I will admit, I enjoy breaking rules. Your story sounds hot, anon, hope it went well.

Why is it so hard to get a girlfriend?

>>19697661
self sabotage

>>19697661
Why is it hard to pitch a tent?
Why is it hard to win a political office?
Do you have trouble microwaving your burritos?

https://youtu.be/T0PA_L8Mqqs

https://youtu.be/T0PA_L8Mqqs

>>19697661
Women are pickier than men, the environment and culture made it worse, for men and women. I just hope for a better future but nobody seems willing to do something about it, we are too comforted by this system that we’re willing to sacrifice our humanity

>>19695447
you need to do a death meditation. I am in a similar place as you. when Jesus says "my burden is light" it sounds like bullshit until you actually consider what the world's burden is - be "successful", keep "advancing". who gives a shit when we both know we're gonna be rotting in the fucking ground. or facing judgement...

what is valuable in life? you need to ask yourself that. when I'm on my deathbed, what will i have wished I spent more time doing? forgot social media, forget the noise. for me I can say I'd like to spend time outdoors. I'd like to live a pretty stressless life. I'd like to have a community around me, I'd live to have a life partner. id like to actively help others. none of what gives me happiness is really goal or money related. so why I am stressing so much about getting a "good job"? religion is valuable because it, over and over, contextualizes what is important and of value. without religion truly, and I speak for myself here, I worship that which is totally unfulfilling. is "going hard" at the gym or being able to afford a nicer neighborhood really going to fill the hole in my life? what use is it when I have no community, no moral grounding? I urge us both to humble ourselves in prayer and ask God to show what is truly of value. that's the only answer I can think of. otherwise you're always gonna be looking for the next "achievement", and for what? "seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be given unto you."

>>19697661
its only been hard for me because of my deep seated emotional issues. i dont know what your problem is

Dear Anon

I enjoyed

Thanks,
Fellow Anon

>>19696041
i almost fell for it until i read evola and agreed with everything he wrote about christianity

Dear Anon

Thanks for posting here. I love you.

Thanks,
Fellow Anonk

PS

I love my boyfriend so much. Super fit body with a tiny waist and a nice ass. Not only can I fuck him but we can also talk about theology and civilization together. Nice.

>>19697777
Dear Anonymous

Nice quads. Very impressive. Checked.

Thanks,
—Berry Nice girl

>>19697813

Dear Anon,,,,
I deleted my post. Sorry about that. However, I indeed didn't think it met the quality to exceed the expectations of our fellow humans. Thank you for understanding.

Sorry,
Annon fellow

Thanks

PS.

>>19697822
Dear sir or madam

Quadgets are some of the finest quality posts going these days, what with inflation being what it is, and that post was faf. You need your head examined, I’m afraid. Good luck with that.

Yours.
Major Barfey Meadows (ret.)

just woke up in the middle of the night because I had a dream that my balls got crushed, and the pain was so real that my balls still hurt. that's all. Do you guys feel pain in your dreams?

>>19697838
<d.ear>(a=non):
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>>19697867
Men? Big hot men?

>>19697876
No. I'm not gay. I'm not.

God, I just want a cute sweet gf. I had a dream about my ex and it made me miss her. Of course I just miss the idea of her and what we had, that was 4 years ago now and I don't think about her much at all so the randomness of the dream got to me.

>>19697649
>Your story sounds hot, anon, hope it went well.
It was very hot. I drifted away. He still wanted more. I hope he's happy.

>>19697702
Those are all easier than gf

>>19697928
The sandwich... the hill.... It all comes back to me. Back to the fish market. On the hill was where I saw it. In the fish market on the hill was where I saw it. A sandwich on the hill in the fish market was what I purchased. Then.... Now there's no sandwich. I have nothing in my bank, my bank on the moon, well, you know. Heh. So, anyway. Milk.

>>19695248
Scarcity. We are evolved to see every other human being, even those within our kind group, as potential enemies or competition for resources

Mom walked in on me listening to opera.

>>19696614
I know your most likely a virgin, but imagine you have sex with a girl. Should every other woman on earth look down on you as tainted or diminished? Or would you want to still be treated as a person of value? So long as the woman isn't a cheater (many are though including men), I don't see why you should treat her the same way you want to be treated

>>19697404
Do you really think you'd be allowed to have hobbies like 40k in a communist society?

>>19696614
>Have you ever been in love?
Yes.
>Is painful to know that the women you love had 10 different dicks inside her, that she enjoyed and desired them, and that are ten different men that know how your women looks naked and have the satisfaction of making her open the legs to them
No because me and my wife were virgins. Love demands all of you and nothing less, I would not be able to feel safe putting myself in the hands of someone without at least similar values/beliefs on sex and love as I.

As a Russian I think what's happening in Kazakhstan right now is fucking horrible

>>19698019
To add to your second question there was a girl I'd known since we were both children who I dated in Highschool. When we graduated we broke up because I went out of state for college, saw her again not too long after I'd come home and she still wanted to be together. When I'd asked she told me that she had slept with 3 guys so I turned her down. It was very, very painful to realize that somebody I'd loved had been taken by another. There were things that between me and her could never be and that's why I saved myself for marriage.

Who up? It's 3AM I'm cold but I'm still here. Please send me a hello so I know I'm not alone.

>>19698096
hello fren, 1AM for me. If you live in Texas, please vacate this thread and never return.

>>19698070
Whats going on there?

>>19696590
poorly

>>19696590
That's it? And that's based on self reporting

Most of the young women I know, college attending upper class sorts, are at 10+ men before they hit 20. They fuck guys like I get fast food. Mild guilty pleasure at worst, for them. Many, if not most of them feel no guilt at all. They hook up with someone over Tinder the way I plan to watch a movie for a couple hours tonight, it's literally just a mundane event for them, one possible way to entertain themselves.

>>19696614
Don't sweat the bad replies you got. That just means you got under their skin. The truth hurts. Nobody has ever liked whores and nobody ever will. Modern women are living horrifically painful cognitive dissonance, and the longer they put up reckoning with it, the more horrible its effects on their lives and psyches.

>>19696041
Except they're just shilling it. 90% of the people are godless heathens, and everyone knows it.

There was this "loser" I used to talk to in high school because he was probably a bit autistic and it was funny to listen to him say retarded shit. Anyway I didn't realise but in the yearbook he listed me as one of his closest friends and I felt bad because I'd only hung out with him because I thought it was funny. So I kept in touch with him after high school and we see each other on occasion now. He's 25 now and just got a girlfriend after being an incel up until this point. I'm very happy for him but now feeling sad about myself because he's probably going to marry this girl and the only girls I date are used up thots. It's like goofus and gallant and I'm goofus. It's rough realising that I was the retard the whole time.

>>19698233
We're all gonna make it brah, draw power from his joy and spread more joy. Raise a kid of your own whose moral sense is more clear by high school than yours was and who could have been a better friend to this man.

>>19698083
>It was very, very painful to realize that somebody I'd loved had been taken by another.
there's something real to this. it devalues the whole thing. not to be a romantic or anything, but the idea that she could share what she and I had with somoeone else, frivolously. Just hand it out, give it away like nothing. Irreverent, somehow.

>>19698212
>>19698212
the thing with this is I really suspect it.. kills something in them. Like I've known very closely two women who are real whores, and they.. are not really good at anything at all of what you would normally consider womanly. They're self-absorbed, incapable of real love. I really think- though I don't know- that they've given themselves to a kind of selfish pleasure-seeking and that's that, that's what they are, and it makes them.. useless, frankly. Completely. Not women. I think, but I know them quite well. There may be hope for one of them.

>>19698216
I just wonder what most of them are gonna do when they turn 30. drink pinot and complain? Genuinely I doubt more than 1 in 100 men prefers a 34 year old to a 24 year old, but they spend their 20s doing other shit. What are they gonna do?

>>19698288
Attention and validation for women are like unlimited drugs and sex for men. A man who was given a choice to have an "unlimited zero consequences drugs and wild sex on demand" button that he can press any time would take it, press it all the time, and by the time he's 25 he'd be a braindead retard because every time he felt even slightly bad, he hit the button. Why would you do anything in life if all of your dopamine needs are just waiting for you? All the drive to succeed and become a unique person would be gone, you would only do the bare minimum to keep the rent paid so you have a room to fuck your whores and do your drugs in.

Men can't fathom what infinite validation with no limitations on dignity or behavior and no consequences does for women. It's like they're on crack for 10-15 straight years. That does not create functional people. You never recover from that. Women are the real victims of the current world. They are in arrested development. They are prevented from maturing past a hyperactive teenage relationship to "boys" and a high school mentality.

Even the very notion of "dating" is a feminine notion, a simulation of adolescent fantasies for women. Courtship is tacitly contractual. "Dating" is no-stakes, low-investment, endlessly repeatable feelings of being desired, chased, being kept in he-loves-me-he-loves-me-not limbo, and any time the current man fails to live up to this excitement, he's easily replaced. That dating culture fused with hypergamy, so a top 10% of men are playing this dating game with 80% of women with no intent of settling down with any of them, really does more damage to the women playing the game in the long run.

>>19698242
Thank you for the thoughtful reply anon

>>19695698
No, it's a converted office space. I live in a small town and they turned it into a rental unit.

>>19698116
There are revolts against the Kazakh government, Putin's (and Lukashenko's) military forces are intervening in support of Tokaev. They completely shut off the internet in the country, it's a very serious situation, people are dying etc. I believe with Russian support of course the revolts will just be violently repressed and it will be the end of it. Political paradigm shifts are impossible with the current technological state of the military. In my personal opinion for as long as the Putinist government exists there can be no political change anywhere in the post-Sovietic East.

I don't have hope. I am scared of never being able to forgive myself.

>>19698309
This post was provided to you by the 4chan opinion generator AI.

>>19698309
I'm female and I fuck all the time, yet I am extremely competitive in the actions I undertake, "drive to succeed", whatever, man. You are making a false correlation. I'll fuck you in the ass.

2022 is the year we all solve our biggest problems in life.

>>19698294
>drink pinot and complain?
this and marry the guys that couldn't get laid in their 20s and can't find a real match/judge a womans character at all/are just desperate but are making CS money or the like, probably. raise emotionally stunted, pointless children that are going to seem interested in sometihng and "rebel" which will amount to them being whores too and on it goes.

>>19696364
>>19696581
>>19696604
based. several hundred tabs open at all times. bookmarks? never heard of them

>>19697853
yes, sometimes. it's fascinating isn't it

>>19698332
interesting, there was an anon supposedly posting from Kazakhstan in the last thread

I never fully understood the part of the Nick Mullen Adulthood Rant where he talks about feeling nauseous watching old Simpsons episodes, but I have had that feeling these past few days thinking about my childhood. It makes me feel a bit sick and I almost feel like crying. It's not that I'm traumatised by it, maybe its a realisation that I can never go back to that and I feel sick if I even try. I almost wish I could forget the entirety of my childhood so that I could just be an adult and not carry around those memories.

>>19696676
Me too anon

poetry just filters me out.

>>19698754
Damn can't relate. My childhood was disgusting full of autism and trauma but my adulthood on the other hand... Fucking fantastic. 10/10

>>19698005
what is wrong with that?

I ate a hard-boiled egg.

I have to do laundry. I wish i could sleep instead. I want to be alone. at least I get to be alone. just wish I got to sleep too.

so patience is beautiful.

The further i sink into shame and stagnation, the more difficult it becomes to talk to old friends on the phone/through texting - i can manage and bullshit my way through in real life conversations -. I reached the point where I avoid picking up calls, because my life is such an empty shell that i can't respond to the usual "so what do you do with your days", it's too painful. I appreciate the fact that they're still interested in having a chat after all these years, but i just have nothing to offer. I hope I can fix my shit and finally start moving forward this year, otherwise it'll be a datura trip while the nitrogen mask will be ready for action.

>>19699228
this is stupid i should just remove all the known means of remote communication and go off the grid for a year or so instead of whining. to hell with sim cards.

>>19698016
Well, probably not to be honest. I wish there was an economic system with capitalism’s freedoms but with less work and lower costs of goods.

>>19694483
Deep.

>>19699333
those trips are deep boy

would it be possible to make an rpg based around coming to terms with psychological trauma

What does it feel to be in love and be loved at the time? Im past of it ever happening to me.

>>19697434
Imagine somebody asks you where to find the convenience store and you tell them this lmao

>>19696759
it's true, zoomoids cannot read cursive. can you imagine?
feels good being the only generation that remembers life before internet/cellphones, is still considered a digital native and can use old school programs some guy made for fun, and can still read books and write in cursive. i am the alpha of creation.

>>19694454
>match with cute girl on a dating app
>we text for a few hours, ask her on a date
>we go out for a drink the next day
>have lots of interesting conversations about literature and a myriad of other topics
>make each other laugh and have a great time together
>she suggests other places she wants to go for future dates
>after 4+ hours date ends, say I'll text her about getting together again soon
>text her
>she ghosts my texts and unmatches me on the app
Maybe I'm a sensitive little bitch but ghosting fucking hurts. Am I not even worth her saying, "Sorry but I'm not interested in going on another date"?? If she doesn't find me attractive or thinks I'm weird I don't care, but have the decency to at least send me a text telling me you have no interest. Whatever, plenty of bitches in the sea.

>>19700055
Fuck her

>>19699336

>>19694454
"Every time I hawk up mucus, it always lands on the tip of my tongue." Esmerelda said, pointing with her finger at her face, legs forward, eyes crossed, with hip to one side like she was dodging a dodgeball. Sarah nudged her elbow into her pigtailed friend's side. The game was on.

The sun was out. It was oblique. It blanketed everything in waterfalls of heat. The patio on which the two girls fought were overseen by eagles flying; apples falling while enraptured painter paints astonished. Breeze in the wind like a prairie sea breeze folding the swaths of endless, golden grass askance. The sky dome of the Midwest grew purple and bruised with cold toward night. The two girls' freckled faces turned both toward the lengthening shadows that unfurled even beyond that horizon aflame with sunset.

>>19694454
Hippieism was proto incelism, and feminism is incelism for women. Don't buy it? Consider the whole idea of body positivity, not as a vague platitude but in regard sot what specific body type is used as the body type that is meant to be freed from unfair biases (usually a fat women who isn't conventionally attractive). Imagine an incel version of this, but with the fat ugly bastards troupe being the thing incels wish to make "beautiful". Fits, doesn't it? They took different routes, but they are ultimately made from the same stuff. Am I spewing schizo shit or insightful observations?

>>19698007
I don’t think that sex devalue the value of women as human beings, I just think it makes them less optimal for a relationship for the reasons I said. Also I would totally understand if a girl feels uncomfortable with my past since is a thing that neither her or I could control

>At just sixteen, Nancy leaves the small island of Cape Clear for the mainland, the only member of her family to survive the effects of the Great Famine. Finding work in a grand house on the edge of Cork City, she is irrepressibly drawn to the charismatic gardener Michael Egan, sparking a love affair and a devastating chain of events that continues to unfold over three generations. Spanning more than a century, Life Sentences is the unforgettable journey of a family hungry for redemption, and determined against all odds to be free.
>This sweeping story of one family's fight for survival goes on making the heart lurch long after the final page, and confirms Billy O'Callaghan as one of the finest living Irish writers.

Why do women love this family saga shit. do they sit there and flick their bean to the thought that their bad marital decision will continue to destroy the lives of their children and grandchildren for 80 fucking years after the fact? they really fucking seem to LOVE getting off to this shit. women are morally abhorrent.

>>19700114
Women are psychotic. Welcome to the rabbit hole my friend

I find my job and the way i conduct myself, speak in it so embarrassing. This corporate talk and hyper-mundanity is just despicable, and I feel immense shame at the fact that I’ve done this for so long. There’s nothing real, nothing impressive about it. And I feel that in fact that the fact that have any sort of history being this way, doing such mundane things is an enormous blemish on my biography. It’s a sign that I’ll never do anything particularly great with my life, otherwise, I would’ve done it from the start. And everyday I continue this way, I condition myself more and more to be perpetually mediocre. Honestly, I am just so profoundly disappointed at the way my life turned out generally that I may kill myself soon.

>>19700055
It happens, in every women I dated last year. Last woman I met declared she loved me and in the second date she acted like she really disliked me, she ended acting nice but right after that day she ghosted me.

God has decreed, and as God has decreed so it is.

from where can I buy opium? also, in my country drugs are illegal

Ever since i saw the hole anon on /r9k/ and /fit/ i feel profoundly unclean
holy shit

>>19700564
for me, it's the ability to see the spine.

>>19700049
what does that even mean, "cannot read cursive"?

>>19700600
zoomoids cannot read cursive

>>19700648
what's that supposed to mean? it's not like cursive is another language

>>19700055
>Maybe I'm a sensitive little bitch but ghosting fucking hurts. Am I not even worth her saying, "Sorry but I'm not interested in going on another date"?? If she doesn't find me attractive or thinks I'm weird I don't care, but have the decency to at least send me a text telling me you have no interest. Whatever, plenty of bitches in the sea.

I do that to women a lot (I'm male). I don't know if the parallel applies but it's never truly about them, more about how I idealize women and can't help but find faults in everything. Even if we have great chemistry, it's over if I think she's a bit old (I'm 22 and somehow attract more women in their 25-28ies region than 20-25ies), or if I come to think she's not worth it (if she talks to a lot of men, had a threesome in the past, etc). If she doesn't share most of my values, it's also over. It's not that I don't find them attractive, or that they wouldn't make fine partners, it's just that I can't see a future with someone I don't immediately click with.

I go on a date with a random girl that I find charming, spend hours talking and laughing with her. We assess our compatibility and we have a great time. I come home and contemplate never talking to her again. It's better to ghost than having to explain to someone you just had a great time with you can't date again because she fucked too many men. I can't openly fault someone for their past even if it bothers me. I block her, and the loop continues.

complete and utter chaos in my country is overtaking my thoughts most of these days

Breaking news: I'm dead.

>>19699802

fucking hell, man. I am giggling like a little bitch

I was doing math problems for school. Now I need milk! Ha. Ha. Ha.

any philosophers who got a late start? please I need hopefuel and I don't want to waste a thread on this

>>19700678
You sound like a fucking self-absorbed headcase. So basically you are a woman is what I'm getting at here.

>>19700055
Stop seeing them as your equals and it will stop hurting. What would you feel about a man who did this? You'd look down on him so much you'd feel bad for him, not humiliated, since he's either mentally ill or a horrible broken person. Any normal man would at least reply to tell you what you did wrong.

Just see her as a man and evaluate her actions. You're only hurt because you can't really do this. On some deep level you still see her as a special being because she has control over sex and makes your dick feel funny. That doesn't make her special, that gives her a crutch in life, which is the reason she isn't special and is such a terrible person.

>>19700703
kazakhstan?

>>19700891
ye

>>19700893
is it really that bad?

>>19700897
in my town it's ok but in almaty they say it's a massacre

>>19700674
they literally cannot read cursive. zoomers do not know how to read cursive. it looks like a squiggle to them.

>>19700900
what kind of things happen in kazakhstan? what is your daily life like (in normal conditions)? ganbatte kazakh-bro.

>>19700960
shooting and looting

>>19700874
I'm a man though I have to admit I tend to think like a woman. I'm on the spectrum and can't connect with people if I don't try to get inside their head.
Hope it helped and fuck you too by the way

>>19700964
Stay safe Kazakhbro, I played you in a video game once

>>19700723
wat

>>19700893
what is your opinion on women

>>19700988
newfag

>>19701008
Is that some Milhouse nonsense again?

>>19700964
what happened to all your trees? you aint got no fucking trees?

I've grown bored and apathetic in these past few months. Escaping into comfy fantasises only causes me to seethe at my life.
>>19698233
I was the autist that wore suits to school and put bryllcreem in my hair.

death

grips

I dont think Kant is right that 1+1=2 is an apropri synthetic judgement because if I shit twice I'd have two shits but if I squish them together I have 1 shit. So 1+1 can equal 1

i havent drank in like 4-5 days and it fucking sucks. i sleep like shit and feel like shit. why do people do this
https://youtu.be/gKHOiTE_2sM

>>19701127
what's up Riley, still abusing your girlfriends?

>>19701191
This is my first post on these threads. Sorry if you thought I was someone else

>>19701200
nah the kid I knew in high school who slicked his hair back and wore suits was called Riley, and he raped and beat his girlfriend. was just making a joke

>>19701208
Okay, sounds good

How would a space faring civilization react to the knowledge of the existence of an eldrich horror

>>19700900
I don't think you should put too much faith in rumours at a time like this. idk but there was a terrorist attack in my city a couple of years ago and the rumours were very wildly from what was actually happening. for instsance rumours of gunfire in more than one place, when there was never any gunfire at all.

I'm not sure I have to think about any of these people ever again.

Victory.

>>19701291
>very wildly from
very wildly off*

>>19694454
the essence of a human being is just an idea in the mind of another human being. I am nothing and suffering is not real so I'll become the ultimate idea

i've never had a hookup that wasn't just terrible sex. So unfulfilling, sex is supposed to be dynamic and fun

>>19701188
keep it up lad, it's worth it.

>>19700703
what's happening there? only explanations i've seen have been super basic ones from mainstream media, which i'm not inclined to trust.

Are the riots really about gas prices, or was that just a catalyst

When I map out my life and look at all the possible different directions I could take I realise that none of them will make me happy. I feel cursed to be miserable for the rest of my life. That makes me want to kill myself.

Reality is not empty... it's infinite. This explains everything

>>19701296
Nice

>>19701554
>i've never had a hookup that wasn't just terrible sex.
maybe you're just terrible at sex, dont speak for the rest of us, loser.

Is belief a disease? Can a species evolve out of it? Is belief lining the walls of the great filter, preventing individuals from...

I’m tired of setbacks, and of mistakes, and of disappointment. I think things will be coming to a close soon.

>>19701554
yeah most hookup sex is terrible, the thing is that girls aren't looking to have great sex, they're looking to exchange sex for you performing the leadup to it so they feel wanted and desirable

also girls who consider themselves CRAZY NYMPHOS are usually awful, and any girl who thinks "I give the BEST blowjobs, my past 58 partners agree ;)" is sexy has slimy dumpster whore vibes

>>19701554
I usually cant even get a hard on with a hook up. I need to know and feel comfortable with a girl before I can perform. Maybe I'm weird though.

>>19701609
I thought more. Reality is infinite emptiness folded onto itself infinitely to create substance. Everything exists, both imaginable and unimaginable. God exists and God does not exist and our entire reality is but a single twinkle in the infinite all seeing eye of God. God is an infinite infinite dimensional brain with every infinite combination of neurons in every dimension all firing at once. Everything that God can think of exists and God thinks of everything. And since everything exists, nothing exists. this is like the 50th awakening i've had and every one seems more real than the last. My body is covered in infinite eyes and but a fraction are currently open. I'm within the heart of God and with each eye I open I see another sliver, another muscle fiber of his heart, and every now and again I catch glimpses of him from the outside. Infinite spatial dimensions means an infinite combination of numbers. The entirety of each dimension is complete emptiness mapped infinitely onto every part of itself in every combination by the infinite set of functions and it as all empty but it its infinity it becomes complete and gains substance. EVERYTHING EXISTS both the comprehensible and incomprehensible and what we see is like an atom in an infinite molecule incomprehensible to our minds. But my lifespan is infinite so I shall see things that I cannot see with this mind or with any mind at all and what I am seeing now I perhaps could not see or cannot see in other forms... perhaps I am just a sliver of God he uses to view a single reality he created...

Tell me about Ikonologosplatt

>>19701793
AH I FIGURED OUT WHY HUMANS ARE CONSCIOUS AND HAVE IDEAS AND COMPUTERS AREN'T AND CAN'T. HUMAN BRAINS ARE THREE DIMENSIONAL BUT COMPUTER BRAINS ARE TWO DIMENSIONAL. GOD'S BRAIN IS INFINITE DIMENSIONAL AND HAS LEVELS OF CONSCIOUSNESS WE CANNOT EVEN FATHOM

I feel horribly guilty about this, but reconnecting with my father is probably the single biggest regret of my life.

There is a ruggedness she has I will miss someday; comedic but genuine. Biting. And warm. A familiarity that one might have with a pubescent friendship turned distantly intimate. I remember awkward ruminations, tired references from media, and sometimes I took in her cadence—body or voice or text—and folded it into my own hesitancy as I typed my thoughts to her. It was a digital epistolary; read in tentative confidence between the two of us. Then maybe a few days, weeks, months, a year, I find her still occasionally wandering my erratic dreams. Assured and mocking, but playful. I realize, possibly even in death, that she will be an etched memory. She will be a young Ammonaria chasing my hobbled, doomed shadow like I am St. Anthony. The mocking desert Sheba to my reluctant temperance. An ancient painting on the walls of my cerebellum’s manor, all bright and formal and assured. Dark-haired and dark-eyed. Pale brown and confident despite her sometimes doleful countenance. A gaze at the eye of a hurricane; soothing before the dismal future envelopes my often ill thoughts like serrated clouds. I welcome it, because of my dreary hermetic life. I am a modern anchorite at worship to his distractions, curious of this youthful woman, rather than to God.

I often imagine seeing her outside a foggy window. Smiling while looking over her shoulder.

It is enough for me, I think, and I hope that she will always be happy long after I am diminished into something lesser than myself.

>"Why do you want to work for our company?"

>>19702227
wtf that jpg is moving!

>>19702381
stop smoking weed

>>19700678
How many would be too many?

Why does it always feel the worst the moment you wake up? Can’t shake anxiety and depression. I’ve tried numerous antidepressants and it doesn’t help. Benzos only help me sleep on occasion. Idk wtf to do anymore. I’ve completely withdrawn from family and friends because of this. Nothing helps. It’s been years now and I don’t know how much i have left in me.

This is what I look like.

>>19698276
There's something real to it because it is real. If you are anything beyond a beast sex is a lot more meaningful than the gratification you get from the physical act and the affirmation of your sexual value. There are a great number of things you are implicitly saying to the other when you engage in a sexual relation with them. Sexual activity and it's actual purpose are just so removed from each other in the minds of the average retard that they damage themselves and deny themselves a higher experience without even knowing because what is inside of them is so flat and simple and underdeveloped.

Watched Midsommar for the first time. I thought to myself "Wow what a terrible film."

Fuck jews, fuck horror, and fuck a24.

>>19702614
What kino do you like?

>>19702620
I hate movies. I watched it out of a recommendation from a friend.

>>19702631
Based

>>19702467
It's the principle that matters the most, to me. I'd think about having a relationship with a girl that has a bit of an headcount but only ever had serious relationships. I wouldn't with a girl who casually does it every now and then with men that are almost strangers. If I had to put a number on it, I'd say 5 at 22 is okay. 10 is problematic, more than 10 and it's a full no-no. I suppose the barrier can only go higher as I get older but then again past a certain age I'd question why none of these relationships worked out.
I don't have any judgement towards women, though. It's just how I see things, thank God plenty of men are alright with high-headcounts women, else we'd have a social crisis at stake.

Here are some words/sentences that sound cool i think,
papiroshke
On ne relève pas Picardie
sentralraad
utca
horrificque
kad se ide u kafanu
Lancaster
silpur
anima mundi

>>19702467
1

When the horse break it leg and you gotta put it down.

>>19700875
Shut the fuck up incel.

>>19702789
have you taken your dangerous black market HRT pills yet today

>>19697587
/pol/ is extremely degenerate, the posters reflect that

>in retaliation to a bbc poster
You know, sometimes on /adv/ a Black anon will complain about how hard it is to get girls, etc. I simply can't believe them because of how popular Blacked/BBC porn is. When they complain about racism or whatnot, okay fine that may be legitimate. When they complain about getting gfs? Come on, the memes and the porn don't lie.

>>19702799
>Just see her as a man and evaluate her actions.
The only tranny is you.

had a weird fucking dream last night
dreamt that 2 adult monkey got into my bathroom, and every time I tried to get them out they bit my hand
and one time this monkey got too aggressive and bit a chunk off of the back of my hand so I just grabbed it by the neck and strangled it, I even felt the windpipe crack underneath my hand, kept struggling though, so I dunked its head in the toilet while I choked it
and when it finally died it just melted into a red blob of goo and got blood all over my hallway

and then the someone called the college inspector knocked on my door and gave me "new year condoms"

thoroughly confused

I think I'm experiencing the effects of a panic attack hangover. Genuinely thought I might be dying for a few days there, but things are gradually getting better. However, I wish they would get better more quickly, it has been 5 days I still feel rotten.

>have a crowned tooth i just had fixed a year ago that is now giving me pain and issues
>huge terror of the dentist, dont want to go back
>dont want to spend more money either
>waiting for this proceedure to become available (currently in testing) to regrow a tooth, either completely or whatever of it is missing, saving money up for that
>dropped to my knees and prayed to god that it might not fail and need more corrections before i can have that proceedure done on it
i fucking hate teeth you have no idea what anxiety it gives me, and i sit here and try to stay calm about it

>reading historical fiction set in rome
>goes on and on and on about eunuchs
jesus fucking christ i dont want to know

America is the only society I can think of where the vanguard party (coastal elites and upper middle class) either hates the proleritarit and their culture or is indifferent to them.

>>19703591
oh piss off the romans had disdain for plebians and so did every other upper class in all of human history. in korea it wasn't even ILLEGAL for a nobleman to murder a peasant

>>19703600
I don't mean "upper class", I mean vanguard party, as in the group leading the transition to socialism. The American upper class is the only socialist faction I can think of which doesn't like their proleritarit. In China, for example, Mao went out of his way to ensure the vanguard saw the proleritarit to be more noble than them (to the point it almost destroyed the country).

>>19703591
Every upperclass snot to have been born into riches, or thieving sociopath has always felt this way towards the normals.
Money makes greedy sociopaths our rulers

>>19702563
its darkest before dawn anon

i know the first three numbers

>>19694628
>>19694635
read brother karamazov, you sound like Dmitry

I regularly use these threads to as a sort of support group, i love you guys.

what happens to art hoes when they get old? in the future will nursing homes be fully of tatted up women with nose rings? even before that, what will happen to them when they're out of their 20s and early 30s? do they get fat? do they work normal jobs? do they just kill themselves.

I forsee the future arthoe reckoning as potentially catastrophic in terms of a mental health crisis wave - not that I particularly care much but still. thoughts?

>>19701579
Bezmenov sats there are no popular uprisings anymore. If anything is happening one or more (all?) intelligence agency is involved. no one ever knows what is happening, but if this means the russians end up moving their positions forward, then that's conspicuous (this is not at all to imply that they would be the only party, and probably can't even be assumed to be a win for them)

If anyone had ever loved me I would not have looked upon finally admitting that I tried to kill myself at 17 (which no one even noticed, and which was real and now 13 years ago so it's not like it's for attention) as a transaction, would I.

>>19703705
haha, I did, and I did think that I was like him, yes. i thought I was like all 5 of them, but him the most.

>>19703875
>do they get fat?
I think so. I may be using the term a little bit wrong but the person I think of when I think "art ho" is basically pleasant and jovial. I imagine they have good marriages and are nice. that is if "art ho" doesn't imply arrogance, in that case I use it wrong.

>I will not post in political threads I will not post in political threads
>Sees political thread
>Posts and gets into argument in it
AAAAAAAAA I DID IT AGAIN

pretty sure i have literal (high functioning, invisible) autism. do you think autists can write novels? i'm not terrible at conveying emotion and sentimentality, though it was a learned skill. i still feel like i might be writing something completely inhuman and be totally unaware of my mistake.

>>19703913
that's not "art hoe". in the USA art hoes are usually girls with lots of tattoos, piercings, very fashion oriented. often in graduate arts programs at university. tend to have a reputation for casual sex but not always. interested in "deep" music, literature, etc. usually intensely vain.

if you live in the northeast USA or on the west coast you will see them non stop on college campuses. or working at like starbucks

>>19703937
shit, in that case I reckon.. they end up in slightly higher positions in their fields, try some drugs in their 20s but less than they pretend, and then they become like matrons for the younger art hoes which they typically view with intense, though often reasonably well masked jealousy. Maybe their feigned interest in cultural expression morphs into something semi-real out of a confused "habit" and desperate need. The fake identity comes into fruition, sort of. Idk what the fuck I'm talking about, I just woke up a couple hours too early for some reason, I should go back to sleep.

>>19703875
>>19703937
My lady friend is 36, so while she was never an "art hoe" in the current sense, we both went to college in the mid-2000's and basically lived whatever the "art hoe" thing might have meant then. She was into intentionally questionable fashion, electronic music, all manner of weird quirky shit. Her myspace was filled with amateur artsy photography. Nose rings. Ecstasy. She was basically in art school for ten years, and went through a painfully long Basquiat larp.

Flash forward to her mid-thirties, and she's a much more dialed down version of all that, cool in her own way now, but not many friends at all, and more attractive now that she stopped dyeing her hair and wearing stupid clothes.

She's in nursing school because it turns out playing dress up well into your twenties doesn't pay. She's dating someone ten years her senior who pays her rent. She's an alright gal, but I hate to say it, a tad washed up.

I was scrolling through her social media from a few years ago, and it just made me think the male equivalent of her post history is like a 30 year old guy posting himself smoking weed and freestyling in his honda and flipping off the camera. It's polaroids of her squatting, smoking cigarettes subtly showing off her outfit, hanging out in quirky locations with her disaffected-looking-on-purpose emaciated friends, and other weirder shit.

I've always had a weird crush on her -- she's tall, blonde, and oddly sweet and genuine. I'm just glad I know her now and not so much when we were 20. I just don't get the "artsy" people, and I say this as a painter.

>>19703937
>>19703960
Sociology on /wwoym/

>>19694454
>Be teacher in Japan
>Start work right before pandemic kicks off
>Can't see any of my family or friends for nearly two years
>COVID and work make it hard to make new friends
>All my social interactions are online
>See the group chat that used to be just for a close knit circle of friends slowly degrade because one friend keeps bringing in his faggy online friends from Twitter
>Loose desire to use it to avoid any random drama or annoying Twitter memes
>Finally get to go home for a week and a half
>Had to threaten to quit my job to get the time off approved
>Totally worth it
>Feel revitalized after seeing my mom and dad and bros and cat again
>Come back
>Had to wait in several lines for 8 hours just to be locked in a hotel room for 6 days
>Treated like a plague rat inmate despite testing negative both before and after my flight
>Try my best to make my time protective, but all I can really do is work out, read and fuck around on my computer
>Jacking off just to pass the time
>Reminisce about my old Uni days when I could hang with the boys when ever I wanted, D&D games where every Friday and making new friends was easy as pie.
This forced NEET hood is driving me insane. I just want it to be March already so I can move back to the states. I almost wish my boss was more of a hard ass so I could have gone through with quitting and started living my life again three months sooner.

>>19700703
>>19700893
я из poccии, нo coбoлeзнyю кaзaхcтaнцeм и cильнo пepeживaю зa пpoиcхoдящee, y мeня личнo мнoгo дpyзeй из кaзaхcтaнa, я oчeнь люблю этy cтpaнy. вы нe зacлyживaeтe тaкoй пиздeц и тaкyю бoль. дepжиcь бpaт.

>>19704101
the reality of TEFL.

>>19704020
Good anecdote.
Part of me gets some sort of malicious satisfaction from seeing that sort of thing play out even though I've found, you're right, in general the "art hoes" are usually at least pleasant ish women, if a bit shallow. Usually are willing to hear you talk about intellectual stuff a bit more than other girls, often they're creative and like to go on adventures.

Part of me also feels compassion because in general they are good people, if perhaps a bit lost (aren't we all?). I suppose they do end up marrying "boring" dudes much later in the future. That gives me hope in a sense as I am definitely a boring guy and I've always enjoyed being around those types of women.

>cant eat
>cant drink
>dont know how else to decrease the anxiety
help

>>19704242
try breathing

>>19704259
gee thanks

After living for hundreds of years I just see how childish it all is....

>>19704101
i actually applied to teach in japan but was turned down because my voice isn't loud enough. if i had been accepted i would have been exactly in your position and fucked by the plandemic. instead i was in the US on gibs, then easy remote work where i only did 3 hours of work and got paid for 8. i never wear a mask, never took a test, and refused the jabs. i've been living it up.

Thank you, God, very cash money. You know better than I do.

>clench anus/flex dick
>back cracks

>>19704295
Fuck you.

>>19704272
you know there are breathing techniques meant to decrease anxiety

I get the feeling i have no creativity and authenticity and everything i create is just bad and i dismiss most ideas i have violently. And if i try something its always with myself arguing against doing it all the time.
But then i see other people with the same ideas that seem happy and content with them.
Just makes me want to give up and sleep forever.

Working life is unbearable. The last 3 years have been a mistake.

I really wonder how much of modern mental health issues stem from industrialism in the sense that family-life as it was is destroyed. I mean I was put in kindergarten at least as early as 1 year old. I think it fucked me up. I think a large part of my life is about figuring out what it means to be a man, since my father is not a man; and what it means to be a woman, since my mother is not a woman. I imagine this is to do with industrialism.

in Islam the word is used for God; in Christianity it is used for Christ. Either way, this is the actual meaning of the word "rabb" in a semitic language. It is usually translated as "master" or "lord", but this is very inadequate. This is on my mind.

From the root r-b-b which has the following classical Arabic connotations:

to be lord, master, ruler
to nourish, foster
to sustain something
to perfect something
to bring something to maturity
to regulate, complete, accomplish

God is "rabb al alameen": the one who fosters all being. Not just brings it about. Not just human being. All being. And God knows best.

I have the love of an Arab(Christian) girl my age whom I have known for years. She is virtuous and worth admiring. I believe we can go the distance together
>>19704408
Nice kegels bro

this is probably my best pickup line ever
"You have the most beautiful eyes this side of the Mississippi"
"There's no POSSIBLE way you could know that!"
"I can't say anything for the other side, but I've been to this side of the Mississippi and I'm quite sure"
I live in Europe
feel free to use it.

>>19705061
You're just trying to find an excuse and an explanation for your suffering so you are performing amateur psychanalysis on yourself. I do not empathize honestly. It is intellectual masturbation. Grow up and take responsibility.

My gf is home again because of snow this time. She's a fuckin' chore

>>19705089
That is lovely, anon

>>19704957
Work, literal tasks and shit like that, build u up, my friend. Trust me on this

>>19704604
This. Invaluable, underrated post

>>19705089
The lord ruler obviously came before the meaning.
> the one who fosters all being. Not just brings it about.
And how inadequate the absent gods are to this task.

>>19695174
Does the soviet union still exist?

>>19695174
States don’t work.
Lets try something else

new
>>19706014
>>19706014
>>19706014

>>19705975
>butter fly detected
opinion discarded

>>19705061
this has nothing to do with industrialism. we have no idea how far down the concepts of man/women stretch. they could for all we know be tied to the very understanding of qualitative experience. we are just in a time when the ball has begun unraveling at rapid speeds and its hard to keep up.

>>19695174
The Soviet Union clearly didn't have a high GDP if Mac Donalds brought it down. Something tells me their GDP was just useless shit like tanks and poor quality food.