/lit/ - Literature

>>19423684
32
The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch
After getting a few more affairs in order I'll finally be ready to kill myself

>18
>Dostoevsky short stories
>If there is no change by Christmas I'm severing an artery

>>19423684
18
Shriver & Atkins' Inorganic Chemistry
Want exams to end so I have time to read something worthwhile

>>19423684
18
Pure Immanence
I'm so sorry, Mother. I am so sorry, Father. It saddens me that you will never know what I gambled to become; that you will never glimpse what I glimpsed; that you will think of me as having failed on a vastly simpler mission than that on which I truly embarked, one almost too powerful to put into words, and now to the rend of my heart forever lost.

>>19423754
>>19423758
Very fucked up that when I started coming to this website you were 1

29

The waste land, over and over again for I am in love with it

Awfully. But I am recovering my sanity after I deleted all social media and stopped reading the news. I no longer care about the affairs of the modern world and this saved me from death

>20
>Selections from the Pali Canon and If On A Winter's Night A Traveler
>Recently converted to Buddhism. I don't even feel the urge to browse 4chan all that much anymore, just doing it out of boredom. My life seems to go a lot better. Much less hatred going on

>27
>Buddenbrooks by Thomas Mann
>Pretty fucking lonely in this new city. It will take a while to start making friends. Would be nice to have a gf, though. Really need to get laid… Also, it blows my mind that Mann wrote this book at 25. What the fuck am I doing with my life? Is there still time to become a writer?

>age
21
>current book
Jane Eyre
>how you’re holding up
A little calmer than the last thread, but still not great. I still feel alone, and I still feel like doing something stupid for attention; the (You)'s just aren't cutting it anymore. And I'm still not gay/trans either.

Oblig
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvSZQ4oMHGM&ab_channel=LanaDelRey-Topic

>>19423758
You are only 18, stop reading philosophy and stop taking things too seriously. It becomes easier once you embrace mediocrity.

>>19423684
20
The Glass Bead Game (also Sayings of the Desert Fathers and Simulacra and Simulation)
Currently feel like I have zero future and am just desperately hoping I can get in on the podcast grift

21, currently slowly reading Crime & Punishment.
I am fine. For some reason I have become almost completely disconnected from my own life and unable to experience emotions normally. I am watching my own life go by like a movie at a theater, feeling almost nothing when I succeed or when I experience something unpleasant. It's like the inside of my mind has been frozen in clear ice, preventing the warmth of the outside world from entering.
I don't know what to do about this situation and I can't force myself to feel anxious or worried enough about it to bring myself to do anything. Oh well.

>>19423684
19
Posthomerica by Quintus of Smyrna
About to be institutionalized

>>19423792
When you are 21 you are already ossified. It's over. You've lost most of your life force and that fact prevents you from even realising it.

>>19423758
>I'm so sorry, Mother. I am so sorry, Father. It saddens me that you will never know what I gambled to become; that you will never glimpse what I glimpsed; that you will think of me as having failed on a vastly simpler mission than that on which I truly embarked, one almost too powerful to put into words, and now to the rend of my heart forever lost.

This is very sad to hear but there is a silver lining, you are very young and you have much to fail.
Strive for failure, my young one! Take all the risks in the world to be who you want to be. One day you might not fail and become something more than you expected.

Do all you can, but don't be like me. 29 years old. Unemployed. No degree. No wife. No children.
Just me and the books and people like you to talk with.
Don't end like us, I beg you.

28
Upanishads
Pretty good. I have been worse. The Upanishads are nice, encourages me to meditate. I find even just 15 minutes of meditation a day has a significant benefit. Im not sure if I will be able to free myself from the wheel of karma this go around, maybe next time.

>33
>Leaves Of Grass by Whitman, and The Wild Ass’s Skin by Balzac
>burned out, tired and sick all the time but my love life has never been better

>>19423775
>Also, it blows my mind that Mann wrote this book at 25. What the fuck am I doing with my life? Is there still time to become a writer?

it is never to late
you may become a late bloomer
but bloom nevertheless, never give up of blooming, never give up of bringing forth the spring of your life.

>>19423690
Seek God and go to confession and do it seriously like your life depends on it. You have nothing to lose. I love you, anon. Those words don't mean much here by me but I wanted to say them to you specifically.

>>19423775
Alexander had already conquered the world by 25.

>>19423684
>20
>Catch 22
I'm starting to think this "high literature" shit isn't for me and that my love for reading was just a teenage fad. I've always defined myself first and foremost on my intelligence but it seems that was a mistake. I don't know who I am anymore.

>>19423863
Do what you enjoy, anon.

>>19423684
26
Lord of the Rings the Fellowship of the Ring
I feel like I have the entire world on my shoulders

>>19423860
Thank you. Sincerely.

>>19423863
nah bro Catch 22 just sucks. START WITH THE FUCKING GREEKS

>>19423851
>The Wild Ass’s Skin by Balzac

How are you liking it so far? How does it compare to Balzac's other works?

>>19423684
25
trying to read Rite and Symbols of Initiation by Mircea Eliade but kinda bored with it
I have no job and no idea what to make of my life (or rather I know but I don't think I can do it). I've spent the last 2 years or so lying in bed. My life was shit to begin with but since i've got my MSc I have lost the energy to do anything. I've always imagined that at 25 I would be happy, fulfilled and confident, instead I have watched my dreams fading away little by little and grew more tired by the day to the point where I can't even get out of bed anymore. I think I need someone or something to take care of, since it seems that I am unable to live for myself.

>19
>4/5 through Crime and Punishment and just started a collection of Epictetus’ sayings
>Optimistic for the future (inshallah I stop procrastinating). Oscillating between God and hedonism. I think I’ll probably live a life like Dostoevsky’s; delighting in my vices yet still having faith of some sort.

As a side note I wanted to read Richard Farina’s book but I can’t find any reasonably priced copies of it, would ‘On the road’ be a good alternative? I’m in the mood for reading about adventures. I would greatly appreciate some book recs, I was planning on reading all of Dosto’s works consecutively but I think that would be pretty depressing desu.

20
The Sound of Waves by Mishima
I have no one to rely on. I have no friends in this big city and I have remained that way for over 3 whole years. I'm thinking in going to the psychiatrist, but I don't want any meds to be fair. I just hope this semester ends soon.

22
Lolita
Trying to find a glimmer of hope to hold on to whilst waiting return to classes to the faculty

>>19423690
>After getting a few more affairs in order I'll finally be ready to kill myself

don't leave so early, there will be cake.

now, seriously. have you taken all the shots in life? how can you departure, my friend?
Even if you feel loneliness, try to find new meanings. When was the last time you sat to watch a water stream flow as the swallows flew low hunting for the tyniest insects above the water? When was the last time you gazed at the trumping magnificence of a mountain?
I don't know you, anon. But if I am to guess you must be yet another big city dweller whose universe is flooded by billboard signs and other commercial images of this pathetic modern world.
Since you wanna die anyway, what is there to lose if not leave wherever you live and seek a new life, no matter how hard it might be?

Say farewell to what is killing you. Go on your journey to find the fountain of life.
And do as >>19423860 said. Seek God.
For those who has no faith, seeking God seems like yet another unfruitful quest for meaning. But trust me, there is more than that into it, a lot more than that.

I would like to share with you a poem by Rumi. (and I apologize for the wall of text in advance.)
It’s a habit of yours to walk slowly.
You hold a grudge for years.
With such heaviness, how can you be modest?
With such attachments, do you expect to arrive anywhere?

Be wide as the air to learn a secret.
Right now you’re equal portions clay
and water, thick mud.

Abraham learned how the sun and moon and the stars all set.
He said, No longer will I try to assign partners for God.

You are so weak. Give up to grace.
The ocean takes care of each wave
till it gets to shore.

You need more help than you know.
You’re trying to live your life in open scaffolding.

Say Bismillah, In the name God,
As the priest does with knife when he offers an animal.

Bismillah your old self
to find your real name.

>>19423874
I read Meditations, about a quarter of the Odyssey before it became too boring and I set it down to try the Iliad, which was just as boring so I said fuck the greeks and moved on. All Quiet on the Western Front, Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep, and Fathers and Sons are the only "quality" (by /lit/ standards) books I've managed to enjoy and finish. It seems like a pre-requisite for a work to be considered high literature is to be impossible dry and boring.

>>19423684
>25
>Servius' Commentary on the Aeneid
>I consider killing myself every day

>>19423833
Nice, thanks for the vote of confidence lol. And I know where I stand, I'm an autistic manic depressive, I've made multiple trips to a psychiatric ward in the past year and been forced on a bunch of different medications just to sedate and stop me from hurting and killing myself. I know I'm stupid and I know I'm incredibly immature, but I still have the self awareness to know I will never do anything great, and I don't delude myself into thinking I ever had the potential. You think too highly of yourself and you expect too much, you will only ever be disappointed. As I said, embrace mediocrity.

>>19423684
20
Confessions of an English Opium-Eater
I have committed mortal sin but I'm happy

>>19423900
I just started it tonight, but so far so good. I’m a sucker for French Revolution era literature in general, but I’m not too well versed in Balzac. I read Pere Goriot last year and enjoyed it. Balzac made me feel as if I was a lodger alongside Rastignac and company. I hope to check out his short stories and Lost Illusions around Christmas if all goes well

>>19423833
Get your head out your ass kid, you have't lived yet.

>>19423775
What city?

32
A Canticle for Leibowitz
Im doing great! Making bank. Getting bigger house and more kids.

>>19423938
I got filtered by the Aeneid.

>>19423932
You might not make it bro. Maybe you are still to young.

>>19423958
I'm a big fan of Balzac--I've read Pere Goriot, Eugenie Grandet, and Cousin Bette--but I personally prefer Zola. Check out the latter in the future, fren.

>>19423684
>27
>Kitchen Confidential
>At a crossroads in life as I have been the past 5 years, think I'm gonna do something about it

>>19423912
Someone recommended pic rel to me as well, is it good? The only plays I’ve read are Othello, MacBeth, and A Streetcar Named Desire (which I enjoyed a lot).

>>19423981
Forgot pic ^

>>19423964
Miami. This city is extremely un/lit/. But I moved here to flee the globohomo and covid-1984 measures in DC. I don't regret my decision at all. Every day I grow to enjoy Miami more and more. But right now it is literally impossible to find apartments to rent, since everyone is moving here. Consequently, I'm stuck in this temporary housing situation for the foreseeable future.

> 20
> Hopscotch
> In 2022 i'm going to try and completely throw myself in the dating game and see what I can make of it. Always wanted relationships but I was always to embarressed to really admit it or try. I gotta see if i can change it before it's to late. Otherwise I'm not doing awful even though i'm stressin about the future. Been lifting wieghts for 2 years and I've only enjoyed it more and more as I've learned how to actually make something of it instead of just fucking around. Always excited to read and watch movies too

>>19423801
I don't wanna say to not become a podcaster but I'd imagine 99% of the people who try will get nothing out of it whatsoever. Also how are you liking Glass Bead Game, always wanted to read that one
>>19423774
Good shit

>>19423974
Germinal is one of my favorite books. The only other Zola I’ve read besides that was The Masterpiece, which was good, but nowhere near Germinal, which isn’t surprising. I have the impression that everything Zola put out is gritty, realistic, and at least “okay”. It’s hard to choose where to go next with him. I’ve been debating between Earth, Nana, and The Debacle

>>19423997
>not starting with Zola's The Fortune of The Rougons

Yeah, that's going to be a YIKES from me.

>>19423970
It's not very hard desu. Just read it slowly and reread it. I can't really recommend any sources that will help make it easier. If you mean that you find the Latin challenging then I recommend using the Dickenson college website to get a good footing (or just start with something easier like Ovid or Catullus). I'm only reading the Servius because I have to write about how Sedulius was influenced by Vergil. I'll read what survives of Donatus' commentary afterward for the same reason.

>>19423990
I lived in Pompano for a year so I can relate a bit. I found Miami to be a fake, plastic city with fake plastic people though

>>19424011
>I found Miami to be a fake, plastic city with fake plastic people though

True, and, for the most part, they're pretty fucking retarded. But at least they're not pozzed libtards who want to force clot shots on me against my will.

>>19424010
I messed up because I tried to listen to it. Lack of footnotes/ outside classroom setting made it impossible to get all of the references/jokes/etc. Just felt like I was missing too much stuff to make it worth continuing.

>>19423684
.20
Hebdomeros
peachy keen(o)

>>19423769
Nigga you're on social media

>>19423684
25
Death on the Installment Plan
I’m losing my hair. I’m praying it’s from stress or vitamin deficiency and not MPB. I’ve lost a bit of confidence, not going out as much. Pretty sure this waitress was into me until she noticed my thinning crown, feels bad

>>19424033
Just get the Frederick Ahl translation from Oxford World Classics. It's cheap and pretty good overall. Do not get a verse translation almost all of them suck and they will make it harder for you to read what you are already struggling with. Also it helps to have a Roman pantheon chart with marriages/genealogies on it so you can keep track of that while you read.

>>19424047
Thank you anon

>>19423863
>high literature
>jewish dark comedy
pick one anon

>>19423991
glass bead guy. Most invested I’ve been in a novel in a long time. Definitely would recommend. And podcaster isn’t plan #1, it’s just that it seems like there’s no decent jobs left for somebody whose only talents are reading/writing/teaching and shit.

>>19423684
>24
>Renata Adler's Speedboat
>Trying to find success with increased responsibilities at my job. It's going well - i'm able to operate heavy equipment now - but jesus christ i've been fucking up at work. Nothing i do is done on time because i'm so careful on the machinery, and when it is, the main boss i have (who is an asshole) is being generally understanding but is seething below the surface. It's tough, man. But i'm getting out of town the week before new years and am going to see family, so that will be sweet. And my plans to go back to school and do a lot of writing are coming together nicely. Soon i'll be in school for literature and then at teacher's college.

>>19424050
No worries. Hope you get to enjoy one of the greatest works of literature ever written.

25
Readings in Ancient Greek Philosophy: From Thales to Aristotle, 5th Edition
Great. After searching for so long, I've finally got a good, small group of friends that I genuinely love. Still a hikkineet, though. I've got no idea what I'm going to do with my life.

>>19424057
i'm considering buying a glass bead dildo, should I go for it?

>>19424060
Also, today is my second year sober. I've been killing it lately. Getting my shit together's been tough, but it's coming together for sure. I couldn't work or write because i was so stoned and depressed and i'm productive and happy. And i got some free cash. It's nice.

>>19424044
You know very well what I've meant
I mean the "post my life and sell myself as a product" kind of social media

here I am anonymous and so are you. And this is comforting.

26
All Quiet on the Western Front
Atomised made me realize how burned out I am. If I live the next fifteen years like the past five I'll end up like Bruno/Michel at 40

>>19423684
>21
>The Story of Art; House of Leaves; The French Revolution (1889); and Civilization
>I regret taking the vaccine but I haven't had any true side effects manifest yet, just a enduring headache and various corporal pains.

>>19424098
>corporal pains
damn..

>>19424085
Comfort a gun in your mouth or licc my thicc spicc dicc, you faggot

>>19424102
>i'm a newfag, but i want to fit in on the 4chan, how am i supposed to act? oh, i know!

>21
>Re zero vol 10 (yeah a light novel. Idc. I love it)
>unlike 4chan I currently don't want to kms. Life's been pretty good uni starting from Wednesday. Been programming a lot for my minor project. Nothing complicated. Just a recipe finder app. I'd say half of it is completed.

>>19424114
To be honest i reread your comment and that was out of line.
t. >>19424102
I hope everything winds up okay with you. I got problems too.
<3

39
Hadewijch: The Complete Works
I live my life in service to God what else does a man need?

- 30
- Despair, Years of Lyndon Johnson v3, 3 other books of satellite knowledge on the other two, a French collection of Charlie Brown comics, two specific chapters of a math book.
- Not getting paid next year for secret reasons but doing fine otherwise. Just because the world lost its mind doesn't mean I had to.

>>19423684
35
pilgrim in the ruins
i'm okay. getting a bit burnt out and a but depressed. i love my family but i hate my job.

>>19424060
I meant that when it isn't done on time, my boss is seething deep down.
It's tough but i've wound up to be everything i wanted myself to be before i got sober

>>19423684
25
2001: A Space Odyssey
Doing OK. Been married for a couple weeks or so
It's nice but it's hit me that now there's more than just me to worry about. If I lose my job it's not me in trouble, it's my wife too. Bit of a change. Kinda weird realizing life is starting too but I like it

18
book of the new sun
homeless, but not friendless

>25
>Fucking nothing
>Almost having a nervous breakdown earlier because of work horseshit but have now hit the zen 'i don't give a shit' plateau

>>19423684
18
Aeneid, Verrine Oration 2.4, Les particules élémentaires
I feel extremely intellectually driven, my classes are interesting and I feel like I want to do work outside of them (except French, which is a snoozefest), my friends are great and push me forward. Consciously trying to work on my morality and way of life, to build it before I really have to enter adulthood and the real world.

>30
>Justine by de Sade (just finished before browsing)
>Manic and in a place of stability with a wife, job, and social circle. Two weeks ago I had nonstop suicidal ideation but that's over for now so nothing to complain about.

26
Proust's In the Shadow of Young Girls in Flower
I'm fine, binged on sugar and internet and didnt sleep, now i am hyperactive like i am on speed, but am sure that this time i will make it, and get finally rid of my last addictions and finally get in a way of fulifying my potential as much as i can. Mad on my parents for ruining my childhood and wasted so much time by making me autodestructive and addictive, but i think i am doing a good job of finally pulling myself together.
Proust is great, it is super comfrotable read, his long sentences force you to concentrate untill you have no attention left for surroundings and are fully enwrapped into his prose, even tho "nothing really happens". Would recommend, and i think sonething will happen eventually

>23
>From Dawn to Decadence
>No friends and failing at dating, consigned to a life of solitude

>>19423684
26
Satantango
Alright, I suppose. Could be better, could be worse. But isn't that always the case

>>19423684
43
I’m not currently writing a book. I am reading Foucault and Patrick White for shit and to masturbate.
This dude wants me to get him some golden apples and is going to hold it up for me for a bit. Jokes on him. I’m going to fuck off after I get the apples and make him hold the sphere eternally.

25
Tartar Steppe
Fine, but I wonder what the fort looks like. Where's this northern territory? This book is dreamy

>>19423912
This is how I imagined the girl from Solaris looks

>>19423684
27
Meditations by Marcus Aurelius
Do you care?

>>19425062
>Do you care?
No, but it's what the thread demands of us. Fall in line, soldier

>>19423692
what are your favorites? ive only read white nights

>23
>Crying in Lot 49
-Never read any Pynchon, so I'll see how it goes.
>I'm fine, I could always be better.
- I've been lifting a lot of weights, so that's good. Going on a weekend trip later this weekend.

>21
>Suspuria de profundis
>birthday is on December 15, plan to read my last Dazai book and off myself at around 11 pm on December 14

>>19425209
what method? my friend

>>19425209
sorry to hear, anon.
I hope some good things happen to you from here till then.

>>19425209
I urge you to reconsider

>>19423690
How will you kill yourself? That information could be very helpful for me soon.

>>19423684
23
La Peste (rereading it)
Pretty good, honestly. College is giving me a bit of a hard time, but I'm doing alright.

21
Lord of Darkness by Robert Silverberg
I'm a touch-deprived virgin

24
Christopher and His Kind
Prepared to leave behind everything I’ve ever known if it makes me happy again. Leaving my hometown, so-called friends, and never coming back. I’ve even ghosted a few of my friends already. I have no energy for them anymore. I’m ready to be myself and go explore. But my world here is so limited.

>>19423684
>19
>War and Peace
>not bad. Bit fucked off today already because I've already fucked up by oversleeping and so I've missed the gym today, and there's an audit happening at work today so everyones got to be on their best behaviour and whatnot. Going up to Bristol for the weekend, my mate who goes uni there turned 20 this week, so me and some other gobshites are going up to sit in his kitchen and do ket all night.

>>19425075
Could be better, Lloyd, could be a whole lot better

>>19424158
hell yeah wolfe bro
which book are you on
tell me what you think

>>19423684
>20
>Mishima, Aesthetic Terrorist
I'm a the lowest point of my life.

>>19425299
Good man. You'll do fine

>>19423684
27
The Holy Bible, about to finish 2 Corinthians
Wondering whether jobs in my field will open up before my crypto holdings amount to something

21
The Woman in White
Except for the academic bs, doing great I would say

>>19423758
Very beautifuly put anon, I’m also 18 and felt that very much.

>>19423684
>18
>Plato 5 diologues
>I feel like a waste of life and a disappointment, tragedies have happened in my life which warrants that I become a stronger man but I constantly fail to meet my own expectations. Reading meditations has helped me immensely and I think I’ll be able to ride the waves for This school year, just focusing on my grades primarily. I hope to start a fight club sometime, and also learn Japanese, without accomplishing these 2 I will forever remain dissapointed at myself

>38
>Lord of the Flies
>I'm healthy and happy.

>>19425269
get up to some high-rise building, set up some high strength fishing line or something around your neck and a rope around your legs or feet, glue your hands behind your head
and jump

>>19424045
Sorry to burst your bubble but she wants you to tip here

23
Greg Egan - Permutation City
Losing touch with reality, feeling really fucking empty.

>>19423861
And cried like a little bitch when he saw the sea. Imagine that, imagine being so much of a giant faggot that the sea makes you cry.

>18
>The glass bead game
>it’s going fine

>>19423801
How do you like The glass bead game?

>>19424155
Checked and wholesome anon. I hope you and your wife have a long, happy marriage.

>>19423863
24 here. I felt this too. Your reading is a skill though, apply it to what your passions are. Start inhaling textbooks on subjects you’re interested in. That’s what I did and now I’m nearly finished a masters since.

>>19425885
Thanks anon. Hope things go well for you too

>29
>Foucault's Pendulum
>pic related

The Count of Monte Cristo
37
Girlfriend is pregnant. I'm happy about that but I'm panicking about where we're going to live with enough space. Work is demeaning and I need to make sure they pay my expenses fully. I'm very bored and I can't focus.

>>19425635
I don't think you understand how hanging yourself works, anon.

>>19423907
lemme guess
pisces?

>>19423684
>21
>The Bedroom Secrets of the Master Chefs
>Good

18
Crime And Punishment
College Applications are a bitch and I still hate women

>>19423684
32

The Colossus Of Maroussi by Henry Miller

Very good. Life is taking a toll but my relationships and sex life are great at the moment

>>19426120
>Henry Miller
Is his prose really as good as they say it is?

>>19426227
Yes. The Colossus of Maroussi is probably the second best book I’ve read this year. The prose in Tropic Of Cancer is great too, but much more uneven. In ToC, there is one of the funniest scenes I’ve ever read where a poor man tries to get Miller to fuck his sugar mom bc she is near 40 and her arms are flabby. He reminded me of the ovaltine man from Seinfeld. There are definitely erotic and sexual passages but it is overblown as a coomer novel IMO

>>19423991
>In 2022
Why wait til 2022? Why not start today?

>>19423684
19
rereading suttree
going for military basic training in 10 days. had an intense acid trip with a friend last saturday while camping, don't think we're gonna be friends now but i don't mind.

>35
>The Way of a Man with a Maid (1908)
>Fat, Virginal, Horny

>>19426356
>>Fat, Virginal, Horny
All things you can change bro, put the books down for a bit and go for a jog

>>19426249
>it is overblown as a coomer novel IMO
Yeah that was one of my concerns lol, plus all the paperback covers all have depictions of naked women on them. I saw that George Orwell recommended it to anyone that could get their hands on it, which made me want to read it more.

>>19423932
I think youre just retarded man

>>19423914
Which country and city? The way you type reminds me of eastern euro. Im looking for friends maybe youre interested

>>19426252
Multiple reasons, one is that i'm nearing the end of my college semester, and the workload is getting heavier for pretty much everyone, so i imagine that i'd get alot less out of it starting now then starting later (as well as not having as much time to start in general). I also think it'd be helpful to have some good pictures taken of myself, and i'm fairly close to loosing enough weight and having enough muscle that I could rationalize having my picture take shirtless.

I won't say that cowardence isn't a contributing element, but I wanna get to a point where i'm satisfied presenting myelf, and by setting a clear deadline I make it so that even if I don't reach that point (I won't) i'm both closer than I was, and i'm also forced to go through with it.

27
Red Badge of Courage
All I want in life is to sleep. Every other hobby and goal is to distract me while I'm conscious. Because of this realization I have decided to kill myself, as I believe it will be an indefinite sleep. Before I do, I am saving enough money to cover my funeral costs, so I don't financially burden my parents.

>>19427352
Don't kill yourself.

>>19427352
Damn why does everybody on here wanna kill themselves? Things have been tough for me lately (100% due to things that I chose to do), but I’ve never thought of ending it all. The only situation I could see it being necessary is if I’m in immense pain due to some terminal illness. Please get help anon. We only get one shot at this thing, let’s make the most of it. I pray that we all find fulfilment and peace.

>>19427359
But I wanna.
>>19427379
Seems alot of suicides are out of despair. I see it as achieving bliss.

>>19423792
Fag

>>19427352
Crane is so good and underrated. He would have been a giant if he didn’t dies so young

>>19426463
There is definitely smutty parts but even Miller makes those beautiful. A lot of them are funny as well. They aren’t jerk off material. Anyone who likes Hopscotch, or Journey To The End Of The Night would like Tropic of Cancer.

>>19423684
>23
>stoner, just finished Norwegian wood
>terrible, bought a pack of cigarettes which is a bad sign since the only time i smoke is when I'm having a nervous breakdown, last time I smoked I was institutionalised for a few days
>>19427379
I like to think of death as eternal sleep.
as the other anon said, the only time I know peace is when I sleep, so all in all the prospect doesn't seem so bad.

>>19427414
>>19427387
The Stoics saw suicide as a way out if things got too painful. With this in mind, could a suicidal person just try his utmost best to find something to live for? There’s always a last resort right? But I guess some people on here have just reached the end of what they can tolerate.

>21
>Cratylus
>I've been better, I had a Thanksgiving party last night with a group of friends but I couldn't get over the feeling that I shouldn't be there for a few hours so I kept to myself for the most part. Eventually I got over myself and had a good time thankfully, now watching Eraserhead is a Thanksgiving tradition for us
>>19427352
fren, killing yourself was an option that I thought viable for my younger years but as I grew into myself, I realized that that was just coward's talk. Every person has the ability to rise above that void due to one cause alone: self-acceptance through sheer willpower. For me I got angry as I rose, realizing the wasteland of my mind and that motivated me further to leave that want for oblivion. Life is beautiful anon, you just have to live it for yourself.
>>19426336
how was the acid trip?
>>19426055
nice dubs and congratulations anon! I know it's stressful now, but I'm sure you'll find a way
>>19424155
nice dubs and congratulations as well! how's the book? have you seen the movie? if so, how do they compare?

>23
>the Count of Monte Cristo
>find life incredibly soulless and just going through the motions. took the blackpill a long time. moved back in with family after covid and trying to look for somewhere to move out but motivation at an all time low. also london is expensive af

>>19423684
>27
>Book of the New Sun
>Having a great day :D

>26
>the Count of Monte Cristo
>find life incredibly soulless and just going through the motions. took the blackpill a long time. moved back in with family after covid and trying to look for somewhere to move out but motivation at an all time low. also london is expensive af

>>19425312
Not him, but I just finished it. I loved Sword of the Lictor the most. Seemed more actiony. That whole castle fight and the floating island arc was just great. What about you?

>>19427429
>With this in mind, could a suicidal person just try his utmost best to find something to live for?
The only long term goal worth pursing is to raise a family. I'm poor, unambitious and not very bright. IF I have a family they will very likely be condemned to the same life I have.

The only other things to live for are novel experiences and material goods, which are fleeting pleasures.

25
Runaway Horses. It's pretty good so far. Prefer Spring Snow but I'm not even half way through.
Life is bad. There's always a struggle every two steps. Nothing is going how it should right. I'll tell you a secret. I hate life.

>>19423684
>26
>mein kampf
>mood varies based on how work is treating me

>>19423684
27
Private Memoirs and Confessions of a Justified Sinner
Not so good. I mean, I've been worse, at least I'm not suicidal and I'm not hurting myself anymore. On the other hand, I still haven't managed to escape nihilism and my drinking is as bad as it's ever been.

>>19427429
>could a suicidal person just try his utmost best to find something to live for?
I get sparks of inspiration or enjoyment that sometimes make me feel like life is worth struggling against.
my biggest concern with regards to actual suicide is if i survive.
I think if you reach past middle age and still decide to end your life then thats a fine decision since if you fail you'll spend less life living that way then you did before.
I can't recommend people in their 20's 30's or even 40's try it though.
botch it at 22, and your looking at 50-60 years living as a cripple or vegetable, not nice.

>28
>Been Down So Long It Looks Like Up to Me
Still having trouble getting over a breakup that happened a year ago. Manic shifts of mood.

30
rereading the temptation to exist and gonna finish grimscribe
feeling a little better but it wont last

22
Count of Monte Cristo

I'm doing okay. Back in March my mom died. We had a turbulent relationship and we were in a rough patch when she passed. Part of me is glad that I no longer have to waste my energy worrying about our next conversation. The other part of me is of course devastated. I want to believe we would've fixed our relationship if we had more time but she was also emotionally abusive at times and, I suspect, a narcissist. Idk. Fucks me up.

>>19423690
Fuck you! I've just started Palmer Eldritch yesterday.

>>19423684
54 (gen x, not boomer)
Nietzsche and the vicious circle (Klossowski)
I don't.

>>19423684
>age
19
>current book
The Count of Monte Cristo
>how you’re holding up
Good but tired of school

>>19427660
To be honest, forest anon looks kind of unhealthy although I commend his courage.

>>19423684
30
Foucault's Pendulum
Work takes most of my energy for the day, I don't have motivation to make music and I think I want to leave my gf and move away?

>>19423684
25
Drawn and Quartered by Cioran
The only things that I think about are death and vanity. I am too much of pussy to kill myself or do something "risky". So I am just waiting for death to get me but still I am scared of it. I have read few Wikipedia war articles in which millions of people got slaughtered like farm animals, life is cheap and we're so fragile and vain that we should blow our brains out before uttering the word "I". All I want to do is sleep without these wretched vivid dreams, a real dreamless sleep.

>>19427686
Still a legend

>23
>The Thirty Years War: Europe’s Tragedy
>Doing okay. Nothing much to say, it's an inbetween time.

>>19427473
the alzabo scene in the mountain cabin in Lictor is pure kinography. The whole middle third of that novel would make Vance kneel and offer his soul. The ending parts of Citadel comes close as well. Such godtier fantasy....

>>19423684
38, The other side of the Mountain.
https://www.tribalanalysiscenter.com/TAUDOC/Other%20Side%20of%20Mountain.pdf

Doing just fine thank you very much.

>>19423684
45
see pic
feeling better

>35
>Based on a True Story
>Pretty good, no major complaints.

>>19423684
21

just finished hunger by hamsun

Depressed, doing too much drugs. NEETing in my parents basement. Read a bit atleast

>>19427406
>>19426249
actually one of funniest scenes in ToC is scene where that man falls down the elevator shaft and dies.
33
And Quiet Flows the Don
I am reading with tears in my eyes. I am working overtime, my wife and my boss treat me like a shit that can be duped anytime. I am deprived of sleep, i am fat and i have no life. When i gaze down the elevator shaft it gazes back into me. other than that im ok i guess...

>>19428005
Is that Peter Wilson's book? How is it? I'm planning to read it soon.

>>19428221
>When i gaze down the elevator shaft
Do russians really?

>>19428221
I forgot about the elevator shaft scene. A lot of great gems. Some passages were duds. The “ …stallions, bulls, rams, drakes…” passage in the first chapter is one of my favorites. I want to eventually quote it, but the right moment never comes.

How is And Quiet Flows The Don? That’s been on my TBR list for a long time, but I always end up just passing it over in favor of something else. I’m woefully under read in Soviet literature

>24
>pic
>mostly good, work's been shitting all over me the past couple weeks but I'll be okay, need to stop basing so much of my life on that shit anyway

>>19428260
its really good but
i read Quiet Don for personal reasons- to understand past events of my family and slav history in general and this book has been a revelation regarding that.
Plus original text is rich in language however dont know about translations.

>>19423692
What needs to change?

>>19427429
There is nothing to live for. Such claims are simply vanity.

>>19423684
30
Canterbury Tales
I'm posting here. That sums it up.

>>19423684
>20
>Serotonin
>pic rel

>>19428227
Yes, that's the one. I'm only ~300 pages in, but so far it's great. It's a slow read but I like how detailed and nuanced it is. He doesn't just go on and on about how brutal the war was.

>>19423684
37
Laches (at work, don't @ me)
I haven't said a word to my entire family in over 4 years. Everyday is like the previous one. The happiest moment of my day is when I go to sleep, and my cat snuggle against me. At least I have that.

34
Pale Horse Rider, a book about the life of Bill Cooper and the influence of Behold a Pale Horse. Also been reading Dracula.
I’ve more or less decided I’m just getting by and waiting for my parents to pass on. Once that happens, I don’t have to worry about hurting them and will either kill myself or just drop everything around me and live on the streets. Sever everything and be done with it.

37
Watts' "Rifters" trilogy
I'm ordering one of those expensive blowjob machines. I'm not a total incel, I've had blowjobs, and I don't expect this to make up for the real thing; I expect it to be a revolutionary new sensation in the possibility space of things that can happen to my dick.

If it fails to illicit even a slight good time, I plan to dedicate my years to building a machine that does. I see this as humanity's central goal.

>>19428083
what's the book about?

>>19428588
*elicit

>>19428471
What ethnicity are you and where are you living now? I don’t know if you’ve read The Steppe by Chekhov? I always try to shill it whenever possible and I feel it might be right up your alley. Do you like Gogol too? He has some folksy “Russian” literature

>27
>An African in Greenland
Probably the best travelogue I've read, even better than De Tocqueville. At the borderline of my startup failing or becoming a super successful and never having to work again. Weird time for me. Been drinking too much.

>>19423684
>25
>VALIS
>just hooked up with the girl my best friend has been hitting on for months, we both actually really get along but my buddy is devastated; don't know what to do but the love/drama I'm feeling is definitely inspirational to my creativity.

>>19428215
same

>>19428694
Your buddy is a prick if he seriously cares - don't let him get in the way of what you're doing. By 25 oneitis is pathetic, not meaningful or cute. Theres plenty of other women out there for him.

>>19423684
24
pic related
I feel great

>>19423684
>23
>Tacitus' Agricola and Germania
>WHY THE FUCK DO ALL THESE ANCIENT GRECO-ROMAN FUCKS WRITE LIKE THIS

>>19428753
good morning sirs

>>19428518
so based

78
The Lost World. Arthur Conan Doyle

Doing great. Not many years left. Enjoy life and sex to the fullest.

>>19423684
19
Montaigne, Les Essais
I've begun to realize that everything is okay. All of my suffering was self induced and I just needed to calm down.

>>19423912
>21
>The Stand by Stephen King
>Not too bad, life is boring as fuck for the most part, I feel restricted because I'm living with other people. I would be happier if I lived by myself and I can't really do that rn.

> 19
> American Psycho
> just finished The Shards from Bret too, its a good book. The ending is both intense and touching.

Any way, about life:
> Never been better. I'm the Head of Quality of an nvestment advisor company. Money its not a problem, and i still live with my parents. After reading the works of Alfred Adler and Kapra my relationship with myself and my parents got way better. My ldr girlfriend finally came, and we're wayyy closer than before. The only thing i worry about its The work/life balance stuff. Finance its not a easy world.

>18
>trainspotting
>bad. all I do is skip school. my acne is horrible; it left some scarring on the left side of my face. tell me it’ll get better bros.

>>19429217
I’m 19 and I skip school a lot lol. We’re gonna make it anon. Small steps. Gonna have to force myself to do work in the short run until it becomes routine for me.

>>19429217
It will get better if (and only if) you make it better

>>19429281
Preach

25
Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse
Honestly my life is falling apart. Just recently had a baby boy (long story) but I was in business with my father and he had to go to the hospital earlier this year and he's never been the same since the surgury. He's tried to kick me out of the business and leave me penniless with my wife and our new baby. I don't know what to do. Sold all my crypto and I'm so confused. Feel like I'm out of options and time. I just feel fucked anons and I've never talked about it to anyone. I'm scared to death

>>19423684
24
The Complete Tales and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe
Doing well

>>19423684
>26
>Heir to the Prophets (Chiddick) and Revolt (Evola)
>Can’t seem to catch a break, physically or mentally. Working my ass off again and finding myself too exhausted to give my attention to reading, which I love. Wondering if I’m confusing my stubbornness for independence and whether I am someone (inherent to my nature) who is capable of producing something truly great, something which could outlive me. Other than that, finding myself more attracted to the notion that I (and others like me) am a symptom of a much greater illness caused by the macrocosmic need for material gain, as opposed to spiritual gain.

>>19423684
24
Evola - Meditations on peaks
Alco

>>19423684
24
The Complete Tales and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe
Doing well

>25
>Outer Dark
>I have done little but work, drink, and read since I left my ex five months ago. I think it was the right decision but I'm still in a bit of a tailspin and I need to get back on my feet somehow.

>>19423684
23
pic rel
I asked a qt I met in a philosophies of love class who laughs at my jokes a lot out to lunch on Thursday and when I asked her "how was your morning" she said "not too good, I had a huge fight with my boyfriend"

>>19423684
>19
>funeral rites by jean genet
>so so, better than most of the blokes here

>>19429715
She said yes to lunch? If so I'd say you're in.

>25
>Haven't read in like a year but I think it was Mrs Dalloway
>Close to roping since I lost $150K in crypto the other day.

>>19429874
thanks, thats a nice thought but im beginning to believe that i was more interested in having a gf than the potential gf herself yfeelme

>33
>came here to choose a book to read, just finished confessions of a mask
>the years are going by too fast

>>19423684
19
The Hobbit
Not the greatest. Switching moods every 2 hours, going from pure rage to neutral to semi happy, then to being blackpilled as fuck.

>>19423684
>20
>Dracula by Bram Stoker
>Feeling great. Been getting healthy again after 2 years of doing nothing and having my social life killed. I'm slowly picking up the pieces, hanging out and reconnecting with old friends and finding my place in the world. Working out and going for walks in the woods has done me wonders too, couldn't be happier at the moment.

>>19430260
2D? Pig disgusting.
0D text only.

why the fuck do you people even need to make threads like these to feel better about yourselves
if you want something, don't even think about it and just do it
if you think you'll doubt yourself too much and fail

>All these fucking zoomers

>age
18
>Current Book
Clarissa by Richardson
>Holding Up
Not too well. I have been anxious and unable to sleep the past few weeks. I don't even do anything all day. I just lay in bed and sleep. I want to destroy my computer.

>>19430507
Shouldn't you be glad that the Zoomers are reading?

>>19430507
The average /lit/ poster is 23 years old, from data gathered in these threads.

test

>>19423758
nice
>>19423792
>>19423841
you guys didn't get his point. He only failed in his parents eyes, because they can't comprehend how great he is.

>>19423684

>26
>Locke - The mind is "tabula rasa" (basically an introductory work with historical context put together
>Could be better, could be worse. WFH since 1 and a half years.

>>19425209
we share the same birthday and same author of interest, anon. the stars are aligned.
if youre gonna do it, at least do it with someone.

>20
>2666
>Not well. This is the third time in a row where I've gotten clean off a specific drug (different each iteration), and each withdrawal hardens my cynicism. So many people have came and went during these times, and the expectation of belonging, true connection, et cetera, has finally faded away. I try not to go outside.

>age
19
>current book
L'homme Foudroyé. From his holyness, Blaise Cendras.
>how you’re holding up
Have to return a big work for monday so I'm a bit stressed out. But still better than usual depression.

32
Eden Eden Eden
No longer care what way my country goes. Thought that would be demotivating but it's actually liberating.

>>19431063
>No longer care what way my country goes. Thought that would be demotivating but it's actually liberating.
Haha. I live in SWITZERLAND. I only have to care where I go. Even if my country goes shit it will be better than most.

>21
>The call of the wild, white fang and other stories from Jack London
>okayish, went to some dinnerhopping 2 days ago and my partner was the most attractive girl i have ever seen and also had an incredible personality, wasnt too spergy and we especially defo both had a great time during the first few hours cooking on our own but shes been ghosting a message of mine ive sent yesterday and now looking back, reflecting after this i probably did creep her out at some point later :/ ive been naive to even think for a moment that i even remotely had a chance

>23
>Ancient Evenings
>I'm achieving things I've worked hard towards but I feel nothing. I just shrug.

18

God, I don't know. All I've been doing is making lists of what to read, but never actually reading. The True Life by Alain Badiou was the last thing I looked at, first 30 pages or so, for no apparent reason.

Generally, that life of mine's been going downhill since 2015. Nowadays I'm only comfortable at nighttime. I don't want to return to reality. Work sucks, and I can't connect with the majority unless they're honest and compassionate, and these two traits are becoming rarer and rarer in people so I'm forced to be a weird shut-in. But maybe I'm unlucky, is all. I wish I never ended up here.

>>19430542
>Clarissa by Richardson
You're reading a meme book btw

>>19430542
How are you reading a 1500 page book anon? It took me like a month to finish crime and punishment lol

16
Gravity's rainbow
Ok I guess

>>19423684
>19
>War and Peace, The Lyrical Ballads, and Protagoras
>I don't know what to do with my life. My major doesn't interest me

>>19431158
I feel you anon. I too have been making reading lists but not actually reading.

>>19423684
>19
>The Labyrinth of Solitude
>I feel lost. I keep forcing myself to go through with my day, only to fail to accomplish everything I had planned to do. It's a cycle and I'm tired of it.

>>19423684
21
The Vivisector by Patrick White
Lonely. I only feel happy once every few weeks when I hit a squat PR.

>>19431279
I like it a lot so far
>>19431412
I don't know, i just take it lletter by letter. I have a lot of free time so it helps.

>>19423684
37
Lolita, The Bible, and Outer Dark.
Realizing, finally, that I'll be a virgin until death, so preparing myself for whatever short future I might have left alone. Working out, isolating, fasting, smoking weed, writing, and drawing so I can persevere until I inevitably succumb to severe mental illness. Otherwise I'm alright.

25 or 26
seven pillars of wisdom
with great effort

>>19423684
>21
>all quiet on the western front
>i'm at my peak mental clarity-wise but physically i'm barely surviving

>>19423684
age 33
in search of the miraculous by pd ouspensky
coming out of a slump, so i feel good by comparison

>21
>The Iliad
>Balding

>>19430608
I bet the average is probably a bit lower because of all the underage anons lying or avoiding the thread

>>19430608
>>19432615
please add me (103y/o) to your calculations

>>19431158
wow this sounds a lot like me. hang in there, anon

26
Blood Meridian by McCarthy
I'm in love with a friend who is 5 years older than me and she's a bit insane since her mom died. I've loved her for years, been in relationships with different women, etc but as it is I'll never be with her because I ain't rich enough.
I need to cut all ties with her and drown my sorrows in pussy.

>>19423792
kys

24
House of Leaves
Aimless. People act as if I can just go to the purpose store and find myself one. They complain if I do things right but without passion and they complain if I don’t put effort towards what I’m not passionate about.
I’m tired. I’ve been tired my whole life, barring infancy.

23
Heartsnatcher - Boris Vian
I feel okay, but somewhat stagnant with where I am in life. I am working in the same city I went to school (Madison), and my career is developing pretty well. However, many friends have left and things are starting to feel repetitive here. I keep telling myself that this will be my last year in Madison, but I fear I will be too scared/complacent to take the leap away. Still want to figure out what I would like to do if I leave my job in August. Also feeling inadequate with my struggles with women. I am too proud to put in the effort and admit want to people, but not charming/attractive enough to not need to. Not sure if anything was coherent in this, but to sum it all up things are fine, but not great, and I don’t want to keep strolling through the doldrums.

>19
>The Odyssey
>not really sure, not too bad but stuff usually collapses around me

>>19427439
we both dropped 2 tabs at 11:50AM and all was well until it started getting a little dark and I was talking about suicide and dropping some red pills that were far too much for my buddy to handle like an hour and half prior i found some liberty caps growing in a field randomly and ate a handful then as we were trying to find our way back to the campsite my friend had a panic attack and started crying for his mum on the phone like a little bitch. he just kept on repeating 'i wanna go home i wanna go home' as tears streamed down his face. i was chill the whole time apart from for 1 minute the fact that he was panicking made me panic but then i realised how stupid that was so i remained level headed. funny thing is we were about 1 mile away from the campsite the whole time he was having a panic attack. I haven't spoken to him since but someone else who has told me that he said he was scared I was gonna kill myself or him so he had to get out of there, evidently just a paranoid delusion seeing as we're both still alive haha. anyway there were some random guys at the campsite in vans, a really friendly bunch one of them cooked my steak, sausages and egg cos I ran out of stove fuel, we offered my friend food but he was so adamant on going home cos he didnt feel safe lol. so eventually the car pulled up to the campsite and whats funny is his fucking mum that he cried for so much wasnt even there it was his step dad lol. he got into the car and fucked off, leaving me still tripping with ALL the camping equipment to tidy up and sort out in the morning on my own, yes it was his first time camping and I generously gave him all my gear to use, set us up in a massive teepee and brought food and ciders for us but no he didn't consider this at all and decided to ditch me the moment he got a little bit scared from some LSD - very ungrateful if you ask me. the camping pitch was £40 for the weekend, he still hasnt said anything about paying me his half. From what I can gather in the wake of this he no longer wants to be my friend, although we've been mates since we were both 10 i'm not that bothered in all honestly, over the past year ive been increasingly disillusioned by my friends, they're just fucking lay abouts all they wanna do is sit playing on their pc's its sad, they have no will power to do anything like read or create things themselves just idiots desu. anyway im venting so i'll stop, story time over.

pic unrelated

>>19423684
>19
>2666 by Bolaño
>I am stuck in a relationship with a guy thirteen years my senior who calls me only "slut," "whore," or "my little fuckgirl" and beats me fortnightly. I've learnt to accept it, even if it never passes. Our trailer is trashed. His mother is has been demented for around a year now and he's still struggling to come to terms with it. My family won't stop telling me to leave him as if I haven't tried several times. Originally it was the dick that was too good for me to leave behind but at this point his iron fist is the only thing that won't let me go. If I leave him, I'll have to live with my parents again, and I can't face that shame; all their other daughters ended up fine. I'm their one failure.

>>19423684 I AM 5 YEARSOLD!!
i am reading chicka chicka boomboom rite now. i am holding up this book!

>>19433210
You have to go. Swallow your pride and go back to your parents house. Make plans about getting out of it, be patient and realize them. The part of your mind related to self-preservation is fucked. A little trick to go around it is to imagine another person, someone you care about - wether a real person or not - and how would you feel if you saw them in your present situation. Then think about how could they improve things for themselves.
Also, cut contact with the guy. Sooner or later you will try to contact him again, so make it impossible to do so.
Things can get better.

t. Hate myself. Put myself into dangerous situations a ton of times. Had abusive older ex-girlfriend.

>>19433210
>fortnightly

>24
>Don Quixote
>Very weird truth be told — on paper I am successful enough my family is proud of me, I caught a well paying job right out of college and am currently living with my family to take advantage of a high income with little to no expenses. With all of that being said, I still have no idea where I am even going to begin finding a GF, I don't like my job even though it pays well, and I can't get over a sinking feeling that this is all ephemeral and I will get hit soon by a major curveball. I actually enjoy life, but my environment is only showing signs that things will keep growing worse in society and I have to keep steeling myself for that — I have already had several friend groups implode due to the declining political discourse.

>18
>Good News from New England
>I'm hanging in there I guess. Just lonely as always. One day at a time.

I am no genius or otherwise interesting or notable person. I will be forgotten less than a month after I will pass, no news paper will ever carry my name except in the announcement of my death. I am not rich, inventive, creatively, academically or athletically gifted. I am not from a prominent family. I have no real friends and my personality is probably boring to most. I am genuinely loved by fewer than 4 living people out of 7 billion shitters but I will no longer ever make the mistake of hating myself. I've had it witch criticizing and belitting myself from not being some superior god living among men, some 6.6 feet 145 IQ gigachad working in high finance scoring all the stacies, fuck that, I am me, 27 year old midwit anon and I've made it my decision to like myself, to accept my flaws and to face my own shortcomings with an uncaring grin because fuck you life you little piece of shit. You think you're bigger than me? Well guess fucking what, I could end you right now, but I decide not to just to spite you, you little piece of shit. I am here to stay. I will pollute and contaminate your altar with the blasphemy of my imperfection until my blood dries out and the legs that carry my ugly body gives out underneath me

>18
>Plato, great books of the western world
Realizing just how much my life has been wasted, and only serves to solidify my massive inferiority complex

>>19433210
>the dick that was too good for me to leave
how big?

>>19423684
'18'
Lost victories
have no purpose

>>19434435
Why all the damn youngfags? It's the middle of autumn

>>19423829
>About to be institutionalized
what for?

>>19431494
are you mexican too lad? How you liking Paz? After having more of him I feel that's his worst book for a Mexican to start with I'm currently reading his Cuadrivio, it's fantastic.

>>19434706
>After having more of him
After having [read] more of him

>>19423684
22
Mind, Heart, and Soul
The lines defining fantasy from reality seem to be growing thinner by the day, I wonder if I'll actually find someone in these upcoming years or simply continue alone. Either way I'm too curious to see what's at the end of the road

>>19432891
Based psychedelic enjoyer

I don't understand how some people can re center themselves when on substances. I don't know if its a lack of self awareness of the fact you are on a mind altering substance. Yes you are intoxicated. No that guy walking behind us is not trying to murder you.

bros i took an online iq test and i scored a 114
am i retarded

>>19434878
>iq
>relevant

>>19423684
25
house on the borderland
im good

>41
>Lord Jim
>The pains and aches of age are annoying but I make more and more money, am married, live on a tropical island and have a big dick. Can't say I'm doing bad.

Captcha:YRPAW

>>19434878
Online iq Test results are not significant. Take a real one or shut up about iq.

>>19434917
but...but... it said "official"

>>19434933
At a real iq test (you) have to sit down under supervision, there's time pressure, tests of memory over time, and it takes an hour

>>19423684
20
God Without Being, The Hidden Words, The Anathemata
Days pass by in a haze, too much work, yet too little time spent on campus causes it all to blend together. I enjoy going for walks, and seeing the earth slowly settling and enclosing itself for winter brings me much joy. Praise be to God and Lake Michigan and beautiful electrical infrastructure.

>>19434478
It's a Saturday night. Also the weather is shit. Already snowing here in most of the Midwest.

>>19427557
Really stretching the definition of gen x

26

There spy who came in from the cold by Le Carre. Pretty good.

Doing well, but feeling anxiety sometimes. Been working for a week for first time in my life, a year after graduating. Adapting to working life feels strange. Fortunately I am too by to Japan next year for my graduate studies so that gives me peace of mind.

Thinking about getting into the dating /hook up game since I didnt while in university.

>24
>Shock Doctrine
After many stumbles and wasted opportunities, all of which were my fault alone, the future finally looks bright. Attending Harvard's Kennedy School of Government next fall. I don't belong there, but this is my last chance. I think I'm gmi bros.

>>19423684
20 (21 in 11 days)
normal people (yes i picked it up because of /lit/)
holding up well enough, my city only just got out it's 6th lockdown and im slowly readjusting to wagecuck life. Normal People has actually made me understand my relationship with my ex girlfriend, being able to see what is very similar to my situtation play out within a book is jsut the wish fulfillment i was looking for. Once I finish the book I'll probs see if I can't get back together with her

>>19423684
>27
>On The Happy Life - Seneca
>Currently in a dead end concerning life. Working shitty job, barely paying off my small apartment, nearly finished with university but feel unable to lift my hands for the last push. Also suffering from intense insomnia and neurotic tendencies. I basically feel nothing anymore besides constant exhaustion.

>>19433210
amazing how different the lives are of people same age as me. how the fuck do u even get into that situation assuming ur not a larper
kek kinda funny how theres a 19yo chick out in some trailer park somewhere in the states reading a book about femicides south of the border while shes literally got fucking klaus haas habitually raping her.

really tho ur only 19 so its retarded to write ur self off as a failure just yet. im sure when u think it about you'll realise how easy it actually is: just get up and go simple. pack ur bag and just run out of there 1 night and go home and fucking do something good with ur life before u end up as 30 year old used goods crying on facebook about how all the good men are gone

>28
>zarathustra
>good

>>19435783
Lift weights and do cardio. Insomnia isn't real.

>20
>Meditations
My life is quite awful this year. I experience practically zero emotion and it's really taken a toll on me this year. I'm so tired of feeling this way and it's affecting me for the worst. I'm poor when I could easily make money, I don't pursue my creative endeavors, and I overall have no joy in life because of this depressive state I'm always in. I know I know, I'm young and things can change, but after a lifetime of feeling not much of anything, I've grown quite hopeless. I am trying to change though which is why I'm getting into philosophy to get a new perspective. I mean, if they wrote all this thousands of years ago and it's still around to this day and read worldwide, it must be worth giving it a shot, right? Surely they spoke of something valuable, and that's what I'm looking for.

>>19435993
Why would you want to feel anything? I don't get it. Just improove every day.

18 - (19 in a few weeks !)

Meditations by Marcus Aurelius and Letters from a Stoic by Seneca

Doing well enough. About to go to a beach house for a few days with my friends. Worried for my health, given the random pain and itching in my chest. My bloods and urine say I'm good though so it's a little worrying

>>19435993
Hey, it sucks to hear you haven't been doing well but I'm glad to hear you too are reading mediations. What do you think of it so far?

>>19436005
I read meditations and it was gay and stupid like everything roman.

22
germinal
coolio

>>19435996
Because it's terrible to walk around feeling like a robot every day. I want to be a real boy geppetto

>>19436005
I literally just started reading it tonight, only put in an hour or so. I don't really have much of an opinion yet of course but I will say I'm excited to read it just from what I've heard about it and it is enjoyable so far

18

Moral Discourses by Epictetus

Seeing people look successful around me and trying to keep things in perspective.

>>19435993
>>19436001
I just finished reading the Meditations, I was surprised at how much I enjoyed it. They look like a philosophical treatise at first but they end up feeling like the inner monologue of Marcus coping with the reality of pain and death within the framework of his worldview. Awesome but sad experience to empathize with this person who died 1,800 or so years before we were born.

>>19435993
I would recommend Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor E. Frankl. It gave me a new perspective on things, but as always it's really up to you to apply it in your life for it to do anything

>>19428588
I hope you achieve your goals

>>19423684
26
poems of ossian
depressed, frustrated, tired.

>>19436056
>Man's Search for Meaning
I'll add it to the list, thanks anon!

I definitely agree btw, you could have all the perspective in the world and it wouldn't mean much of anything if you didn't apply it.

>>19434884
brainlet

>>19436001
>Worried for my health, given the random pain and itching in my chest
Muscular contractions around the arteries caused by long term stress cause this, or at least the random pain. It's not fatal but you need to find a way to relieve it because it is very unhealthy over a long time. Drugs (usually SSRIs) are the easiest but most unideal option.

>>19423684
26
Abolition of Man
Pretty bad

>>19435761
>normal people (yes i picked it up because of /lit/)
I was the one who made the thread last week so I hope is was me who convinced you! I hope you enjoy it anyway either way, I also thought the relationship felt very real between Connell and Marianne.

>Once I finish the book I'll probs see if I can't get back together with her
Good luck lol, I don't know what your relationship was like but think about it properly because I think you can remember relationships to well, especially when you're lonely. The book made me miss my ex and she's and evil whore who I should hate, but I do still miss her a lot and I have to check myself sometimes and remind myself how horrible she is.

>>19423684
23
Ten days that shook the world
Pretty bad

>>19436042
Emotions are for women

>>19429005
blessed boomer anon. question for an oldie, do you feel like you have run out of stuff to read? Are there still relatively well known books you haven't read?

God you guys are all a bunch of sad fucks.

>>19423684
>age
24
>current book
12 rules for life
>how you’re holding up
I’ve been very fortunate lately. My days are often filled with bliss and contentment. But I remain steadfast knowing it could all end in a moment. Life is truly precious. We are privleged to breathe, to taste the air. It is the last gasp of all who are dying.

>>19423684
>age
I'm turning 31 next week
>current book
just finished Between Two Fires
>how you’re holding up
not too good chief, but I've been worse

>>19423684
>26
>on the road
eh, some days are better than others. Feel like im just drifting though.

>>19434873
it really is awareness of being on a substance that calms you down. yes, shit can be terrifying when you see figures in shadows, but realizing that you're on a substance helps center yourself and calm down. for example, last night I was on mushrooms and I felt like I was losing myself, almost fading away into the background. realizing that I am just myself on shrooms and taking part in the conversation my friends were having helped me re-center myself. affirmation of self and realizing you're on a substance are the biggest things that pull you out of a bad trip.

>>19435984
Bro I had days where I spent whole night awake, worked a 10 hour shift, went for a 4km run after the shift and still could not fall asleep. Insomnia is very real when your brain is a mess, its horrifying even.

>>19423863
No, you should just read something you enjoy. If it sucks, put it down. I had to do that with a book recently, don't punish yourself. I really enjoy memoirs, so I've been sticking to those lately.

>>19423684
>19
Curious George rides a bike

>26
>kilcullen - the dragons and the snakes
things are really weird around here right now, feels like we're either slowly slinding into a literal health regime or there'll be a major happening sooner. it's like watching a mass psychosis occuring around me, like a nightmare there's no waking up from

>>19423692
>If there is no change by Christmas I'm severing an artery

No you're not, and you're not going to see change with that attitude. The attitude i'm referring to is the where your Plan A is to wait for your situation to change itself and Plan B is to quit and commit suicide.


Sorry to sound like an asshole, but i am just trying to make a point. You can change your situation by simply changing your outlook on life.

I am seriously ill and experience agonizing pain on a regular basis. It caused me depression, but I was too much of a pussy to take my life. I finally cured my depression, and got over my health issue. I couldnt figure out my problem until I was in the right state of mind (not depressed anymore).

My advice
1. Stop thinking you will commit suicide, you won't. And you don't want to make a habbit of thinking this way. Trust me.
2. It seems dumb, but to have a positive outlook on life means recognizing any and all good/nice things you experience. It could be as simple as a smile from someone. Just don't ignore it.
3. Stop dwelling on your problems or looking at them with a pessimistic mindset. While you may be right about them, that they are as bad as you think, and that they are as hopeless as you think. You will not solve them by worrying amd thinking negative thoughts, you only make yourself depressed.

Chances are, if you cure your depression, you will then have the strength to solve your problems. But if you try and solve your problems while depressed, you are putting the cart before the horse.

Good luck faggot

>>19423684
>20. Less than a month to 21.

>"Siddartha" by Hesse. Also "The Fifth Sun" by Camilla Towsend (history book, not /lit/).

>I'm talking to a girl. I like her a lot, and she seems to like me. But I don't think we are in the right time to date right now, as much as I wish to. She's way too workaholic and never have time for me. I wonder whether she's actually willing to give up some of her stuff to be with me more often. Me, in other hand, I have all the time in the world, and this is fucking me up. I'm almost finishing Law School, and I don't know if I want to do anything with it. The only reason I still haven't give up on it it's that the class routine keeps my sanity. I don't work, but money isn't a problem for now, because I kept a lot of it from a high paying job I had until some months ago and unfortunately I had to quit. So I'm trying to find something to grip in my empty routine. I thought having a girlfriend would help me in that but I don't think my relationship with that girl will go anywhere, at least for now. I just wanted to pursue a career in filmmaking, my true passion, but I live in a shit country where unless you are a lawyer or a doctor you can't make any money.