/lit/ - Literature

what a failure. delete this

>>19299325
A failure to understand that the other guy would do it extra early

>>19299320
I can't stop thinking about France. last night I had a dream about french and french people

>>19299954
god damn it why are there three fucking write what's on your mind thread. this is what I get for thinking about france

>>19299954
nightmare

having to wait a long time until you next see someone is a pretty painful experience. but at the same time looking forward to it is definitely helping me trudge along.

>>19299320
Pic related, but I feel some sort of resentment towards Asians that pull-off the pessimistic look in old age.

>>19299320
I'm fucking bored, man.

>>19299343
Please explain to me why you keep shitting on anime and manga while posting it.

Just post multiple threads at a time if you're so despite to have the OP, jesus

Butters literally posts yurishit all the time. She's just mentally ill now. Very weird lately. The lack of children is kicking in.

>>19300560
Cuz it’s fun

I've completed my screenplay and it's without a doubt my magnum opus. I've written over 300,000 words of prose across several unpublished novels and this is distillation, I feel, of all that labor in a taut and marketable work. My mom, a journalist and editor loved it, my dad, a media executive and former screenwriter himself has basically had no comments other than pointing out influences he recognized. I'm pretty pissed at the lack of feedback and feel like he thinks it is shit. Nevertheless it will probably still get sold and made because, you know, we're Hollywood Jews.

>>19300560
its part of the anon troll culture

no lit in the world has had as profoundly emotional an effect on me as this track
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w15oWDh02K4

Circular reasoning is usually regarded as invalid and a bad argument, but when you dig down to the very bottom of any worldview, circular reasoning is inevitable. Whether you are the most hardline materialist atheist or you believe in any kind of religion, at some point, you cannot escape circular reasoning in your assumptions for how you view the world.

>>19301198
What's it about?

I do my best to get by but these depressive feelings always creep up on me. I'll have a good week and then suddenly I'll feel like a ton of bricks are placed on my shoulders and a deep pit formed in my heart and my mind filled with negativity. Hoplessness is a feeling always on the back of my mind that I try hard to ignore but it always gets its grasp on me. I feel so trapped. I can't escape it.

>>19300573
She can baby me if she likes.

>>19301383
yuro?

>>19301467
uk

I love Eurodance bros.
And I am an American.
I don't care if you think it's silly. I just love it. I love 90s and early 2000s Eurodance.

>>19301480
big up

>>19301480
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTjJ2_P5P4U
It was a simpler, more joyful time man.
90s Europe was Europe at its best (forget about the balkans)...

>>19301528
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzcvRDWgRIE

It seems like Denmark, Netherlands, Germany, and Belgium made the best Eurodance. Is that accurate??

>>19301562
no, italo

>>19301562
Yes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3rzgrP7VA_Q&t=10s

>>19301575
I like Italo-disco
https://youtu.be/kw3mlykbAfk

>>19301575
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dSy2DcATYUo
Can this be considered a collaboration?

Can't stop thinking about it. It's been sitting in the back of my mind all semester. I try to make friends and connections at college, they can think I'm cool and I can act charming all I like, none of them know how scripted my speech is.
Can't stop thinking about her. That one girl who got past it. She knows I'm insecure. She knows how inexperienced with girls I am. The last time I saw her was the most awkward interaction in my past five years of life. We have our own unique language. The way we speak to each other couldn't be found anywhere else on earth. I pride myself on being able to understand people's feelings even when they speak few words, but she always puzzles me. What's going on in that little, endearing mind?
College girls are a lot easier to read. Their goals are nearly identical. They talk the same, giggle by the book, body language candid and natural.
When's the last time I could live so thoughtlessly, not self-conscious, moment to moment? My jokes and jabs are planned minutes in advance, my confidence calculated, all to sell a person that isn't real.
Ever since I met her one summer...

>>19301585
>>19301575

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sy2MqQ_uNIY
Ahead of its time

the vibes here are absolutely absolutely gorgeous

>>19301594
The 80s had a lot of catchy songs, but I generally don't like the sound of 80s synths and 80s production for the most part. I don't really know how to describe it but you know those 80s textures and timbres. I very much prefer the clean, fresh, modern sounds of 90s synths.

>>19301392
unless it comes to knowing cosmic brownies taste ass

>>19301604
But there are exceptions of course, and a lot 80s acid house, EBM, and so on was already sort of moving towards the more clean and fresh and futuristic sounds of 90s electronic music.

>>19301604
>>19301613

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bj8xF2bnxp0
Like this stuff or what?

>>19301528
>(forget about the balkans)...
That might be part of the problem
https://youtu.be/tHZqxecCukg

>>19301625
Yeah. Or like this. This is an example of the more clean and fresh 90s sound that I like.
https://youtu.be/8FT-1bCoS6c

>>19301585
Love me some Italo, I have a full playlist of that shit. 90s revival is real, I see it everywhere

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5eHmeoEf2eM

>>19299320
I'm this close to biking over to the local Walgreens, buying a mouse, and playing League of Legends again. Please convince me otherwise.

>>19301706
Did you forget that LoL is absolute ass?

you guys just had to fucking revive this failure of a thread. you just fucking had to. im so disappointed in you all.
DO NOT ACKNOWLEDGE HER

>>19301645
Orbital is special... I feel only Basic Channel comes close to that
Have you listened to Sasha's/Digweed Renaissance/ Northern Exposure mix?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNYqrQWlwlI
Encapsulates that 90s trance sound for me.

>>19301733
weirdo

>>19301642
What problem?

>>19301711
I don't think it's ass except that the player base is pretty shit, but I feel like there's a lot of thinking involved in the game. But then when I consider how much time and effort I'd need to put into the game to climb ranks, when there are things I want to actually do with my life, the game becomes less appealing.

>>19301735
>Basic Channel
supremely based
https://youtu.be/raaf7gnjxLY

Religion and spirituality are, and always have been, copes for people too retarded to take action and succeed at the material world.

>>19301759
absolute bonkers
I am more a Q1.1 guy myself.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsYDqkXxbbE

Today was my birthday and I feel fine. Turned 28. Feel hopeful and optimistic, and had a great day.

I need your help /lit/, in a strange situation and have no real friends to talk about it with
qrd:
>23 khv
>just graduated college, moved to a new city, haven't spoken with family in a year, work shit job / have no car, just trying to survive while making a career as a writer
>try dating apps for the billionth time, not expecting anything
>match with an 18 year old qt asian chick from nearby prestigious university on bumble
>after two days she texts me "hi anon i think i have a crush on you"
>and that's it
Bear with me because I'm an autist with no experience with women, but is this likely a prank of some sort? No girl would just outright say "I have a crush on you" without ever meeting said person, right? And I'm not exactly attractive / a huge catch either. Idk, something about this feels fishy but maybe more enlightened anons could give advice

To make it /lit/ related, i also recently ordered Derrida's Speech and Phenomena. Already read Of Grammatology and Writing and Difference, and excited to see how he gets his start with Husserl (of his works I've only read Logical Investigations, which was a great intro to phenomenology). Also reading Bolano's By Night in Chile, which if it ends strongly might be my favorite of his (next to Savage Detectives ofc)

>>19301889

>>19300490
how long, anon?

>>19301890
yea thats pretty strange. there was no prior conversation or anything?

>>19302067
none. even if her comment is genuine, would that be a red flag? I'm pretty attention / woman starved so I'm ready to pursue whoever, but I'm still a bit cautious

>>19301392
You should read William James. The Will to Believe sounds right up your alley.

>>19302166
i really dont know. i do think its strange that someone would just say that to you without getting to know you at all.
fuck it though. go through with it. whats the worst that can happen

>>19301909
only a few weeks now, although i've been waiting months already

It's crazy to think that roughly half of the world's population lives with a couple of baloons of fat dangling from their chest. Wild, surreal even.

>>19301889
Based Scorpio.

>>19302746
no way

>>19301889
OH FUCK I FORGOT MY DADS BIRTHDAY

>>19301575
>>19301585
>>19301646
I love italo but at the same time I feel like I've barely listened to most of the classics, if that makes any sense. Only gave a proper listen to Valerie Dore sometime this year.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ku3N12_PXK4
(Valerie Dore is more /lit/ related than most because of her King Arthur songs but I wasn't sure which one to post)
I'm slow to try new music, even from genres and acts I like. Theres no good reason for this. Sometimes I just forget, but mainly I'm scared of hearing anything bad. I fear bad sounds will infect my mind and make me hate everything relating to X or whatever. (I forgot where I was going with this.)
I've been listening to Super Eurobeat proper, something I should have done years ago. I wanted to listen in order but keep skipping around.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PckxbQQ_P8c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V9M6PARAMRk
A story:
The old (aparently deleted) bootleg upload of this song was made in honor of one of the founders of Bad Dragon, who had died in 2010. He was one of the inventors of the dragon dildo. He was Australian. The picture on the YouTube video was of his fat dragon fursona flying through the air.

Incel and blackpilled terminology has completely proliferated the normiesphere by this point. I went down a rabbit hole of contemporary dating gurus on youtube, the type that would be PUA 5-7 years ago, and they are all using blackpilled terminology. Most of their videos are compilations of tiktoks of girls cheating on guys with their opinions interjected between them.

The thing is they are not Incels, they are high T low IQ normies more concerned with not getting burned by women than being perma-virgins. But what I don't understand is why they still fuck with women at all if they are truly as bad as they are made out to be. They will spend 15 minutes discussing how dangerous women are but then still seek them out. It is like they have absorbed all the terminology and rhetoric but haven't actually come to terms with what they are supposedly saying.

Its just a weird fucking state of affairs where advice for men is either doomsaying or whitewashing. The two loudest voices regarding women online are that they are either angels or demons.

>>19304022
>The two loudest voices regarding women online are that they are either angels or demons.
To be fair they are definitely one of those things.

>>19304022
How to ascend beyond the blackpill? Seems like once your learn it - the world become white or black.

>>19304042
>How to ascend beyond the blackpill?
Become the cause of suffering and not the victim.

>>19304022
The primal drive to fuck is strong

>>19304042
Desu I remember when the clownpill wawas a thing people were talking about. The absurdity of everything just became really funny to me

>>19304072
I have a primal drive to fuck men.

>>19304092
What about a drive to be fucked by men

>>19299320
Incredible how my life is quite decent, for many aspects, except for the "relational" one. God, that one is a black hole of total despair and everyone is doing better than me. I mean, people I know sometimes feel that they've trouble finding a women. But if for them this feeeling last for months, weeks, days, to me is for years, my entire life. I really don't know what to do to have a fraction of their success with women
>>19304022
The redpilled culture has always disgusted me for many aspects, and now the fact that it "spilled over" the normie world is really offputting.

>>19304022
It's weird to have mainboarded /r9k/ back in its heyday in the years straddling 2010 and see the entire fucking internet become /r9k/ified

We were the most despised and self-deprecating board, the whole premise of the board was a safe space for the most fucked up retards on 4chan, and that's saying something. And somehow virtually every meme and tacit idea from that time caught on like wildfire with the rest of 4chan, then reddit demi-normies, then just normies. Even "normalfags" for fuck's sake.

Haven't been over there in years. Once it became a tranny propaganda zone I could smell the evil on it.

I'm worthless nobody wants me. Never in my life have I felt like like anybody wanted me around. All hope is lost. Existence is meaningless. I should just end it a-
Never mind, she responded. All is right in the world.

>>19304454
Lmao. I feel you, bro.

>>19304428
I have a half-baked theory on why it proliferated so much.

1. Sub-cultures are sort of like mushrooms, they need a dark undisturbed place out the light to grow. The internet has greatly reduced the amount of places like that in the world. At one point it was enough for some kids from a shitty town in a fly over state to tune their guitars differently. Now, when the slightest bit of novelty is harvested as soon as it rears its head, so it took something extremely unpalatable to most people to create a space where something could gestate to maturation before being co-opted.

2.Blame aside, everyone knows there has been a significant shift in how courtship is done in the last 10 years. This provide a language to articulate what so many people had felt. Which is why, despite the scorn heaped upon it, normies have haven't been able to drop it and have done their best to sanitize what they can for popular consumption.

>Classical
Natural law, Enlightenment rationalism, English empiricism and Scottish Enlightenment social science
applied to political economy
>Historical school of law
Herderian, Karl von Savigny, laws as the expression of a Volk's essence, not quite like Marx says polemically (everything positive is rational), actually anti-Hegelian organicist, but thus still need to posit the "organism" or "essence" of the Volk as a hypostasis
>Older historical school of economics
Roscher and Knies, anti-classical economics, no timeless laws, economics is not a science but one of the humanities, economics can model and describe developments just like history can but it is not a predictive "nomothetic" science like the physical sciences
>Early sociology
Is the study of human society more like the sciences or more like humanities? German neokantianism, French kantianism
>Younger historical school of economics
Schmoller, even more critical of models, even more neokantian, early verstehende soziologie
>Weber
Critique of Roscher and Knies, neokantian, influenced by everyone
>Veblen
Younger historical school plus pragmatism, friends with Dilthey, evolutionary economics
>Schumpeter
Another hybrid like Veblen
>Later legal positivism
Philosophically mixed, dominant because of concrete utility in cleaning up and refining messy law codes, splinters over constitutional issues where normal "cleaning" isn't possible because what is and isn't normal is what is in question

Micro: Marginal utility, use-value, subjectivism, quasi-nomothetic study of aggregate individuals ("methodological individualism")
Macro: Historicism, macro-subjectivism, Herder, anti-nomothetic

>>19304475
Interesting theory and way of putting it. Have you heard of the Mannerbund phenomenon?

>>19304536
Like the warbands?

I’ve come to realize I’ve been wrong about literally every political prediction I’ve ever made
>Thought Trump would beat Biden
>Thought Trump would lose to Hillary
>Thought Sanders was going to be the Democratic nominee, twice
>Thought Romney would beat Obama
>Thought the UK would stay in the EU
>Thought Le Pen would win in France’s last election
>Thought China was going to invade Taiwan two weeks ago
>Thought the Lebanese would have overthrown their government by now
>Thought Israel would have recognized Palestine and vice versa by now
>Thought USA and Russia were going to go to war over Crimea
Currently my predictions are that:
1. China and the USA will go to nuclear war by 2050
2. The Democrats will literally never lose control of the Senate, House, or Presidency ever again.
We will see if my success rate goes up.

>>19304169
Nah.

>>19304566
That's what the term originally applies to but there was a whole sociological interest in it around 1900, basically the idea that small pressurized groups of men with high levels of solidarity are major engines of culture creation, revolution, idea change in history, etc. Something magical about the group that makes itself into a supra-individual individual outside and beyond the "mass." Somehow they take something or some things the mass can't see and refine it collaboratively into a whole new, emergently complex thing.

come to the new thread
>>19304518
>>19304518
>>19304518

>>19304584
Haven't heard of it but I am curious. Who were the proponents of it, did they leave any writings?

>>19304610
Why? This one is not remotely close to bump limit

>>19304626
do as you wish.
there are currently 3 of these threads on this board right now.
also this one was made by butters

>>19304641
>also this one was made by butters
Enough said, I am leaving this thread at once

>>19304428
Its because the world has gone to shit and now everybody is miserable

>>19304610
No, and stop spamming the catalog already.

Hail to the Cult

>>19304042
I never thought about the blackpill as something related to dating specifically, more like having lost all hope in life and the world.
I was consistently seeking long term relationships because I hated the idea of casual sex and I always turned down stuff that I knew wouldn't lead to some kind of commitment on both parts. Understanding that, I got burned in several ways through these relationship and on the last few dates I had with random girls I realized that it wasn't worth it anymore. I think my idea of sex and romance and the idea of sex and romance that today's people have is not remotely similar. So I just quit dating and decided that it's better for me to stay celibate.
I don't really like the crazy state of women right now and it really bums me that if you're a straight white male you're supposed to be ashamed of it, but aside of that I don't believe that women are the devil or they owe me sex. I think they're just broken people like most people today. So I don't want sex, I don't want to have a relationship, I don't believe having a proper family is feasible in this era. I just closed that chapter. Sometimes I get horny or I miss having a romantic moment with my girlfriend but I miss it like I miss playing with my band or other things that belong to the past.

>>19304081
Based and clownpilled

I literally hate all of you

>>19304022
>The thing is they are not Incels, they are high T low IQ normies more concerned with not getting burned by women than being perma-virgins. But what I don't understand is why they still fuck with women at all if they are truly as bad as they are made out to be. They will spend 15 minutes discussing how dangerous women are but then still seek them out. It is like they have absorbed all the terminology and rhetoric but haven't actually come to terms with what they are supposedly saying.

This is literally the most common form of machoism in the world. This is peak "normie". It's not that hard to understand. They have no respect for the average woman, but still think with their dick.

Current thread

Next thread (that forgot to link to the old thread >>19304518

Why can't I find you already. I'm so fucking bone tired of doing this on my own.

Hasidic proverb
>Give people a fact or idea and you enlighten their minds; tell them a story and you touch their souls.

come to the new thread
>>19307840
>>19307840
>>19307840

>>19307834
lol well where to begin, youve ranted about your life story a hundred times, you're extremely bitter about everyone in your life who didn't play along and stroke your ego for being a degenerate retard and everyone in your life who ever told you "no", and you quite frequently butt into random threads and start throwing around the most asinine childish takes and rhetoric imaginable that embarrasses even other people who might not disagree with you, and most importantly, you OBSESSIVELY have something to prove to make up for all of this, to convince yourself you are right no matter what, that everyone who ever told you "no" in your life was wrong, you even go as far as putting on your tripcode and trying to discuss or shit on literature that you yourself admit you have never read and dont even know the basic premise of, just so you can seem not only more well read than you actually are, but also cool and "above it" all at the some time.

when you put on the tripcode/ namefag/avatarfag in your quest to garner validation, this is what people see

>>19306155
I hate them too

I wonder why it is that for some people a sense of self comes quite naturally. Is it because they've gone through more difficulties and obstacles in life, while I was either sheltered from these, or only ever sought to imitate the values of the ones I looked up to? I feel like my sense of self is mostly just artistic ambition propped up by vanity, but frustratingly this evaporates during hard times, particularly in early mornings, when my dreams are identified in my mind as delusions that I have neither the persistence nor talent to fulfill.
Sometimes I think it would be better to abandon making things altogether and just live in the way that we are programmed to liveㅡsocial life, significant other, stable income, family—but I also feel like this would be the biggest surrender on my part. I know I am capable of making something worthwhile if I apply myself. I just don't know if I can get my mind to march under a single banner, in service of this goal.

which one is the fucking thread you indecisive faggots

>>19308168
>>19307840

Ulysses, Infinite Jest and Don Quixote are all such great fucking books, what is even the debate?
Why can't people put aside their dumbass tastes and prejudices and say "maybe it's good, but I didn't get it" or "maybe it's good, but not really my thing"? Why do people have such an inferiority complex about everything that they feel so threatened by things they don't understand?

>>19308198
I get filtered by ulysses everytime I start reading it.

>>19308161
he's talking about you too fella

>>19304571
>China and the USA will go to nuclear war by 2050
not happening
>The Democrats will literally never lose control of the Senate, House, or Presidency ever again.
The democrats will lose the first presidential election where the republican candidate isn’t Trump

>>19308166
what you’re posted is 100% literally me, bro. very well put. m-maybe we could be friend

>>19308166
Interesting idea

>>19308636
They plan to lose the midterms as always, and it doesn’t matter what they do, if Trump runs again he’ll win.

Oh wow. The oldest thread gets anchored.
Fuck you mods

>>19301480
I did not need these flashbacks
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQICGZd9-SA

What was Woody Allen's favorite region ?

Minir Asia.

I sat down to continue editing my novel today but got an emergency phone call and had to step out to deal with that for a few hours.
During the time I was out, I realized something pretty big.
The only thing I actually care about is writing and exploring fictional words. If I'm not doing those things, I feel empty like there's some part of me that's missing.
I think it's because I don't really matter to anyone IRL, and only ever really matter at all when I'm doing those things.
It's kind of solidified for me the idea that if I'm not a writer then I really am not anything.

>>19309938
care about anything*

i shouldn't have done it but i was bored and went to kiwi to look at the thread of "most horrifying trannies". i have a weird sensation between bugs crawling on me and wanting to take a bath and read the bible. is there a word for this? "disgust" doesn't seem to capture the horror. nsfl?

i wish i never saw it. i have to go out later and i'm not sure what to do now. also killed my will to write. why does looking at ugly, disgusting, mentally ill people do this to you? i think i just ruined my entire day

>>19310692
Any news on Chris Chan

>>19310705
dunno, only got 25 pages into 161 pages. i dont really want to know at this point.

>>19310745
I took a look for myself. No news since his letter to Null. Some sperg sent him a letter asking if he fucked a particular plush doll. Chris wrote back saying that he did not. He still insists that he is Jesus

Computer, can I get a printout of Krasznahorkai smiling?

>>19311452

>>19311541
>kill yer self
https://youtu.be/YKRl65sF1Wg

How do you deal with guilt/regret?

>>19302746
It’s crazy to think that roughly half of the world's population lives with a couple of hypersensitive sacs dangling in a pouch between their legs. Wild, surreal even.

>>19311558
This is unreadable. The text is even wrapped.

>>19301392
This isn't obviously true. Foundationalists would deny this.
Coherentists would accept something like this, though it's a little bit more sophisticated in that case than vulgar circularity.

Dostoevsky

I'm a coward. I find it so much easier to put up walls between myself and those who love me than to let them in, in the case that they don't like what they find. Maybe it's because I know that there's nothing there. Maybe I'm just trying to protect them from the black hole in my chest.

>>19312840
Write a story about it with the main protagonist being one such as yourself.

>>19312471
Cutting

>>19312471
And also drinking

https://i.4cdn.org/wsg/1635518696124.webm

>>19312683
So listen to the lyrics more closely

Were past generations happier than we are today?

>>19312939
Yes

>Fuck up on lit
>Get banned from lit for 3 days
>Fuck up on tv
>Banned from all 4chan boards for 3 days
I would wish evil on /tv/ mods, but knowing they are overweight 50 year old virgins living at home makes me happy.

Why?

>>19312939
>>19313023
They could escape the oppressive grasp of state-capitalist more easily.

>>19313029

If a penis comes in the dark does it make a sound?

I just have no idea what to do with my life, I just want to be passionate about something and pursue and learn about whatever it is. I'm tired of knowing a little about several things, but whatever I do I can't seem to find any joy. And I had a nicotine relapse so my body feels like shit.

What to do when your gf is smarter and more talkative than you but they like you but you feel that it's exhausting to meet her on a mental level because you don't want to her to know how stupid you are so you
pretend to talk smart stuff?

>>19313834
Kek, having a smarter gf must be a very rare occurance

I’m gonna be alive until I die. FUCK. End me.

I've been trying to connect a series of threads in my mind and it's not working particularly well. I don't know if I'm retarded, or if this shit doesn't go together and I'm just starting a schizophrenic slide into eventual oblivion, but I'm starting to get really worried.

Basically, I'm trying to formulate a way to explain how the rise of the internet, the decreasing civility in politics, the erosion in privacy, the insanity of the economy, the failure of the American education system, the degrading social fabric of our societal interactions, etc etc etc, are all connected, and at the base of it all is a insistence on standardized tests and algorithms, but I can't explain exactly how.

I'm losing my mind and losing sleep over this. I can see the connections, I can damn near taste them, but I can't get anyone around me to understand it.

There's so much shit going wrong worldwide right now, I'm focusing on the American side of it, and it all seems to have through-lines, but I'm unable to paint these incredibly nuanced issues together.

I think I'm losing my mind.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1BneeJTDcU

>>19313834
Stop pretending. Pretending to be who you are not is exhausted whatever the particular circumstances. Lies are always high maintenance.

>>19313836
I know right? I mean I have a masters degree but she is just... I don't know, she really can explain stuff well and learned so much stuff in her life, she reads books actually fast and she reads instructive stuff and non fiction and then applies this to her life, she knows at least 3 languages and she even knows the rule for my mother tongue better than me. I don't know, I'm glad that she is clever but I just want her to be a little bit more lazy. She's also neurotic as hell that's kind of her weak point. She's also much older than me

How would we find out about the next Joyce or Hemingway? Would they be talked about in literary journals? There's no way we'd hear about them on TV or the internet, right?

Could we be missing out on some absolutely fantastic lit because no one cares enough to recognise it?

>Ruhebereich
>this fucking nigger can't stop talking on the phone

I'm not a racist but never in my life I wanted to kill a nigger this bad

>>19299320
>Write What’s On Your Mind not Related to Suicide
I wanna kill myself

I'm unsure how to reconcile my chaotic freak side with my external self.
I write smut porn, enjoy it and am good at it but at the same time want to improve myself generally and am conflicted over whether I should wean myself off porn, debauchery and 4chan altogether.
Time and time again I've ghosted my online smut reading friends but when I come back now for my fix they get angry and refuse to help me or read my stuff.
I like to achieve things, be presentable and articulate, improve my body in the gym, travel the world and engage with art and beauty but I just cannot stop thinking about sex.
I hope I'm making sense.

>>19313836
no i think it's par for the course isn't it?

>>19313834
proper weirdo

if 3 or 4 certain people tomorrow died the (/my) contemporary world would pretty much be totally empty of any good art

>>19314301
Who?

Calm your beating heart

>>19314258
The way I see it, there's no contradiction between loving art, improoving in the gym and thinking about sex all the time. You're somebody who enjoys life in all of its aspects.

In two months time I'll be all free.

>>19314391
Yeah true, I just wish I could drop the all-or-nothing approach and know a good time to indulge in my freak side so to speak.
When it gets too distracting (and it can) I think I'm better off without it at all, sometimes even going as far as deleting some good work -- only to miss it all and regret doing so later.
I wish I could remind myself more often that I don't need to be perfect.

>>19313864
The answer is Jews

>>19299320
Lit is the best board on 4chan, good job everyone.

>>19314817
Thats a low bar

>>19314839
We are a lowly people, just take a second to appreciate our special little shithole

>>19312949
there was a period of time i was getting month long bans every few months with a bunch of 3 days in between. now i havent been banned in almost a year.

mods are insane

>>19314960
Moderators on every platform are always the biggest faggots. Not really sure why

I feel so trapped by my own decisions and I don't know what to do now. I thought I was somewhat prepared and knew what I was getting into, but things came out wildy different. And even though I seem to have come out on top (for now), the life I'm living now is in some ways just not what I expected or wanted.

And it's far too costly, not just monetarily, but emotionally for me to go back. I would be breaking promises. And yet I am miserable inside. I don't know how I'm going to do 5-10 years living like this, the thought scares rather than excites me.

Seriously, when did my life get so complicated? There is so many moving parts now, other people involved, when years earlier I was some chump living in a basement worried about making ends meet, but I was free to do whatever I want, whenever I want. Now I have money but can't relax, can't sleep, can't find time to enjoy it.

I want to die but I don't want to abandon my responsibilities. I know this is what adulthood and life is about, but holy shit, how do people cope living like this for decades? Video games and books aren't cutting it anymore, they just seem like more work to do and chores to complete. Is alcohol truly the final coping mechanism?

I used to think well-off people comitting suicide was a ridiculous notion because they have money to manage problems, can pay for therapy, medication, etc. but now it makes sense. The weight of their lives must be upon them, and adding more moving parts doesn't reduce the friction. Everything is just so artificial, so delicate, man was not to live like this in nature.

I am this close to fucking snapping and just letting everything crash, at least I won't be there to witness it. May God have mercy on this one-way ticket to hell.

>>19299320
Smooth twink ass.

>>19315512
<3

I had a dream that there was some sort of televised intervention event where everyone had to sit at benches outside and if anyone couldn't resist baneposting IRL they unleashed joel osteen on them to pressure them to stop baneposting like they were some kind of drug addict, it was so strange i laughed myself into waking up

>>19315516
You're never too far away "<3" replier. How are you today?

>>19315549
I'm not the regular "<3" replier but your post deserved a "<3". I'm doing well, thanks :)

How about you?

Little Lamb who made thee
Dost thou know who made thee
Gave thee life & bid thee feed.
By the stream & o'er the mead;
Gave thee clothing of delight,
Softest clothing wooly bright;
Gave thee such a tender voice,
Making all the vales rejoice!
Little Lamb who made thee
Dost thou know who made thee

Little Lamb I'll tell thee,
Little Lamb I'll tell thee!
He is called by thy name,
For he calls himself a Lamb:
He is meek & he is mild,
He became a little child:
I a child & thou a lamb,
We are called by his name.
Little Lamb God bless thee.
Little Lamb God bless thee.

>>19315598
Another patrician twink admirer? Based.
I'm doing well myself, but could do with a twink to cuddle, y'know?

I've got too many books on the docket and can't decide which to start. Weigh in, anons

-Nicmachean Ethics
-The Marriage of Cadmus and Harmony
-The Unconsoled
-Tristram Shandy

Dont know what book to read, somebody recommend a book which is essential and good

>>19315990
Thomas the Obscure

>>19316019
Not deliverable to my address :(

>>19316060
The Colossus of Maroussi

>>19315990
Ishmael by Daniel Quinn

>>19316077
Sounds good

>>19304022
>They will spend 15 minutes discussing how dangerous women are but then still seek them out. It is like they have absorbed all the terminology and rhetoric but haven't actually come to terms with what they are supposedly saying.
that’s because it’s fucking gibberish that would turn you into a dysfunctional idiot if you actually tried to apply it

>>19305088
I feel the same. Nice articulation.

Has this sentiment been refuted? I'm trying to deal with a son that has no interest in doing anything besides sitting in his room and reading. He claims that, besides his ideological position in pic rel, the "banality and foolishness" of his life and person is "beyond question", that he is "beside himself", that his ideal society is that of the ancient Greek city state and that anything less than this is not worth any serious engagement, and so on. But the surprising thing is that, by his own admission, these sentiments are "complete self-indulgent nonsense" and that he's really just putting on airs. Then he goes on and says that he is "without any base to stand on", that "words fail me, I cannot say it", that he is "too pure" for my "vulgar, pragmatic judgements" of his obvious neuroses, and that if my psychological analysis of him is correct it would only serve to "further debase" him as being nothing more than the embodiment of a base, stupid, oppressive psychology that is nothing more than a "vulgar machine of flesh and blood" and so on. He is genuinely mentally ill, I don't know what to do.

>>19316322
Your son has autism. Beat him, make him read BAP, force him to lift weights, and take him camping and shooting.

stop reading goethe
stop reading fichte
stop being sentimental
simple as.

In a few months I plan to quit my corporate engineering office job. I went to college for a degree to get the job, I have since paid off all my student debt to do so. I no longer wish to work there, not that it has done me wrong. It's a step in the direction of living my life kneeling at the highest good I can imagine and devoting myself to it. I will be using the extra time to volunteer in my community, as well as get even more involved in a field that I absolutely love and I believe is among that highest good. Money is no concern, I plan to be making >$20k/year down from my current $75k/year. I am 24, I don't have much in savings, but spending anymore time in this job that prevents me from devoting myself to that highest good is suffering. I plan to struggle, I plan to have to sell my belongings to get by. Living that way is a consequence of doing what I see as the most important thing I can, as such I will suffer it because I must.

>>19316565
who needs to stop doing that?

>>19316664
Somebody's doing the reading. The thing is, they are being read. Well, then, who's doing the reading?

>>19316648
what is this highest good?

>>19316785
The highest good I can perceive is helping people in my community, as well as spreading love and passion as much as possible. Specifically I'll be volunteering down at my local food shelf, and I absolutely love volleyball, so I'll be making most of my money from spreading that love of the sport and working with kids in a range of ages. Its proven that kids in sports are healthier, happier, and go on to live better lives and that is something I want to promote.

>>19316802
very good of you, I wish you all the best

no one came to the lit meetup LMAOOOOO

>>19313836
It's becoming very common because the education gap is widening.

>>19316814
Thank you for the support anon.

>>19316822
where?

I get annoyed by my aunt putting loud music. First I feel rage at her, then I redirect that rage towards myself. I go upstairs for a quiet place to read or meditate, as my dad is downstairs watching television at high volume. Then my aunt comes and turns on her music. She says it puts her at ease, I don't know where else would she enjoy herself. I wish I didn't feel rage and could just live with that. Everything is so noisy lately. I must move out.

I just want to say that I love my girlfriend. I hope one day I'll become worth of her. I need to work hard for her.

I don't know how to tell my aunt that it's not that I don't wanna eat crabs, deer or duck meat. It's her cooking that I have a problem with because I've literally gotten sick from it before.

I am starting to understand the mid-life crisis.
You are born (in theory) with the complete tree of possibilities in front of you. Every day you live and every decision you make lops off branches and narrows the possibilities of the way the rest of your life will go.
After a few decades of this many men find themselves stuck with only domesticated paths ahead of them. The mid-life crisis is a rebellion against this realization—a rebellion which, true to form, manifests in domesticated acts like buying a sports car.

why is everyone on the internet such a boring fucking person?

>>19317954
>everyone on the internet is such a boring fucking person
and the real world is different?

>>19317967
idk, my idea of the “real world” doesn’t extend beyond the exurbs. i wish i grew up/lived in a big city, and not in the yuppie gentrified neighbourhoods that assholes like on here would love to live in

>>19317344
You have autism

>>19316822
How would you know

>>19317977
You should definitely move to a city anon, if only to get the idealized view of them out of your head. Urban people are not more real than others and in many cases are in fact more NPC due to being so thoroughly domesticated.

unironically I don't understand the point in being religiously jewish. if you believe sincerely in the first testament then why would it be so hard to believe in the second?

>>19317977
The only other part of the city is the shithole.
t. Lived in the shithole

>>19318023
>>19318047
i don’t think the environment itself matters too much, just the larger sample of individuals and all that

>>19318087
The environment itself absolutely matters. In a city you necessarily have less control over your surroundings. Activities that involve effecting control over your surroundings are almost exclusively "right-wing": farming, raising livestock, using heavy machinery, woodworking, shooting, etc. When you live in a city these activities simply aren't available to you, so you turn to more domesticated activities such as cooking, socializing, hiking (by going to rural areas), gaming, media consumption, recreational drug use, etc. This absolutely reflects in the population.

I am only ever at peace with myself when I am high.
This is unfortunate.
https://voca.ro/12HitgVzMY64

>>19318141
weed is making you stupid

>>19318130
i dont really understand what you mean. i definitely wish i could like control what kind of housing i have and whatnot, although i don’t think anyone except for the hautebourgeois have that privilege rn

I absolutely fucked up my voice and tomorrow I'm going to the therapist my family is paying a fortune for and it's not clear how much I'll be able to talk about myself.

>>19318194
Making and consuming are fundamentally different activities and require a different mindset and environment. Given the lessened control over your surroundings in a city, you are less free to make than you would be in a more rural area, hence many urbanites bias towards consumption for leisure.
If you don't understand what I mean by >you are less free to make, then think about this example: you want to make dining room chairs as a hobby. It's not an equipment-intensive activity, just normal woodworking which means you need a few power tools, the license to use them when you please, and a space that can get covered with sawdust without being too much of a pain to clean up. How does one do this in an urban environment? At the very least you need a spacious garage and neighbors who won't call the authorities.

>>19318245
idk go to a makerspace or something? this is just an economic consideration anyways. i’m talking about meeting and existing with people

>>19318265
>doing something by yourself
versus
>fitting yourself into an existing system
are quite different. You sound like an NPC or a teenager anon, in any case I stand by my initial prescription that you should move to a city and form your own conclusions

>>19318141
its called a drug dependency, retard

>>19299320
i wish nothing but violence and misery on all of you

>>19318666
why?

Getting hyped for NaNoWriMo :)

>>19318666
satan trips

>>19318666
Satan would wish that

new thread
>>19318752

>>19318839
It isn’t the new thread, asshole. This is still just 223
And you link to the old thread

desu something like 8/10 farts I do at home I cup my hand over my asshole and then put it to my face and inhale

>>19318940
under my underpants should be added

>>19316322
Just stop paying the internet bill and lock the fridge. Three weeks from now he'll either start on the contemporary equivalent of The Rime of the Ancient Mariner or become a normie. Make him pay for the internet to come back too.

>>19318895
you didnt seem to have a problem when we had like 3 threads up all bellow 200 posts the other day, in fact you seemed to embrace the whole thing. Its so strange how you think you can pretend this is a matter of principle or technicality when your tripcode means we already know the patterns of your behavior and can spot your true motivations. you've made your self so terribly transparent, yet you either lack the self awareness, or possess too much pride, to account for this discrepancy and alter your behavior accordingly

>>19315512
<3

>>19301593
Stop pretending you are not impressing anyone.

there's nothing more pathetic than hearing guys talking about their crush.

My cousin got married today but I couldn't visit her because of Covid and being overseas, same with most of her family

These guys are scaring me help

A girl(actual girl ,19) from one of my courses told me that she liked my sweater but I dress like a homeless person in 4-year-old sweats I wore when I was still installing carpet. She sort of squeaked it out and ran away, I don't think she liked my sweater.

>>19304571
>1. China and the USA will go to nuclear war by 2050

USA is already "at war" with China by fucking up surrounding nations and arming/training/funding(one or all) terrorists to murder Chinese and blow up Chinese-built infrastructure in said nations(African nations part of Belt&Road are also targets). Or you get a Myanmar situation where it actually just devolves into a Civil War(an outcome they're trying to cause in Thailand right now). If there's any real hot war it's probably going to be a limited engagement focused on blowing Chinese infrastructure up because conflicts between the US and China are purely about the US' inability to compete economically without using force. Your predictions all sound like the predictions of someone that doesn't pay much attention to what's going on in the world, or at least less than I do(which is not so much). I wouldn't beat yourself up about it.

>>19313834
if she loves you then you humor her but also be honest. you'll find a balance somewhere in the middle.

>>19304571
>Democrats will literally never lose control of the Senate, House, or Presidency ever again
If this were going to happen the party platforms would just shift again until the balance is restored. Red vs Blue must be upheld

>>19318998
We had two that came after this one, now we a third. Have some consistency.
There was no embracing. I’m powerless to stop it and the Jannies didn’t care this time.

>>19320018
>inability to compete economically without using force
let me know when american tech companies aren't banned from entering the chinese market.

>>19320062
what kind of cope is this?

>>19299320
Rose : I want to protect others and mankind. Just like my mother. The world is beautiful and humanity is worth fighting for. As long as we have the capacity to be kind to one another

Yang : The world is on track to impending self destruction. I want to shield those I love from the degeneracy of the world. No matter what it takes. No matter if I die.

Charlotte Rochefort : I want to solve the murder of my parents. And to bring the culprits to justice. The faunisians will pay for what they've done

Lili : Haven't decided on her motivation

Amelia : I want to fight for my people. I believe that humans and faunisians can coexist and live together as equals. I do not want to reach this via morally grey means. I believe there is a diplomatic way of reaching said goal

>>19320078
>all american social media banned in china
>all other american companies must partner with a chinese owned company
>the americans just can't compete in a free market!

lmao do ccp shills honestly believe this shit

>>19320078
The Way the USA copes. By force.

The war with them is already on. Has been for a while. It’s a very cold war.

>>19320095
why do you think we let the taliban "capture" about 85 billion dollars worth of gear? because they're on the chinese border and we negotiated that as part of the pullout

>>19320090
dont know where i said anything about a free market

>>19320102
Is China going to pick up the Afghanistan torch?

>>19320103
>inability to compete economically by using force
state power is force

>>19320112
the us exerts state force on the markets for their benefit as well, china doing the same so they can develop into something other than a vassal state is why they've succeeded

>>19320116
the united states uses soft power, why do you think there is this insane hysteria about climate change right now? because that's a way for the united states to take the moral high ground against china and to slow chinese economic growth. don't forget "climate science" was being directed by the cia for the first few decades after the cold war.

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/01/05/science/linda-zall-cia.html

>>19320138
soft power also includes a lot murder, war and terrorism apparently

I've never been attracted to men like I have with women. Always got a relationship going with girls since primary school (crushes, ect) and I get this kind of primal lust after women which has also nevet happened with men. Despite this I think I'm anxious about the possibility that I will be attracted to men. I suspect it's just mild social anxiety, some kind of suppression (I have no experience inner or outer to suppress) or a love for my best friends and other men in a brotherly way which I'm afraid of. Keep getting worried about a dick in my mouth as well when I'm reading. Just never found a man hot or desirable like women nor had a relationship develop either. Keep getting worried about feeling gay for another man though.

>>19299320
I'm tired of not being good at anything. I jut keep failing and failing. I'm just sad.

>>19320195
This post is hilarious

just found out about that facebook metaverse thingy
once again very happy that my schizo tendencies saved me from ever using social media

>>19317939
>a rebellion which, true to form, manifests in domesticated acts like buying a sports car.
Yes, the boomer was truly a lost cause

>>19318245
I know a bunch of older Mexican guys who live in the city and do woodworking and similar activities in their free time. Not everyone who lives in the city is a neurotic middle-class anglo.

>>19320394
It's not impossible it just requires space which is harder to come by in the city. Your environment doesn't decide what you can do with your free time but it does heavily influence the process by imposing constraints. Most people take the easy route for most things which is why urbanites have indoor non-disruptive hobbies like socialization, gaming, and watching television.

>went out to for a quick drink by myself after work
>ended up drinking too much, got sad by all the people having fun around me, left the counter, went crying on the bathroom and then sat by myself on an empty table
>a bunch of the girls working at the bar came to talk to me, asked if I needed a hug and payed me some ice cream
>made it back home after this embarrassment and went to sleep
>woke up, did nothing during the day and on the evening decided to have a drink at the bar in the hotel I'm staying just to relax
>ended up downing an entire bottle of gin plus a few beers
>dude from the bar had to carry me to my room
>ended up vomiting on my bed, had to ask the poor room maid for help (I'm getting a box of chocolate or something to thank her)
To top it all off, after I woke up from this I went to a coffee shop, the girl from there complemented my glasses and I felt comfortable to tell this whole story to her lmao. Don't know if I should go back there and apologize for being a weirdo or if I should never get near the place ever again.
What the fuck am I doing with my life

>>19320138
>global warming is a CIA psyop bro
I wish you were right. I spend a rather unhealthy amount of time feeling melancholic over the impending collapse of civilization and possible human extinction because of climate change.

Has mindfulness actually helped anyone? i mean the non-meme kind

>>19320789
I had a similar period in life when i did that in my early 20s, which resulted in a mental breakdown.
It doesnt get any better btw

>>19320820
heightened sense of awareness(cultivated through a deeper understanding of the self and its components) is only beneficial if you're moving towards a self you want to be aware of. if you continue to be a loser its gonna fuck you up

Trick or treaters showing up at my door aaaaahhh

>>19319925
She clearly wants to fuck you, anon. All you've got to do now is tell her your favorite novel is Ulysses and it'll be a done deal.

>>19299320
Does being dissatisfied with the modern world automatically make you a 'loser'

>>19301593
Get out of your own head, you're really not that smart.
t. boomer
>>19308636
>The democrats will lose the first presidential election where the republican candidate isn’t Trump
Democrats will lose the first election that doesn't allow mail-in ballots.

>>19320997
yes
winners don't question the game being played

>>19299320
I wish I was Miyazaki. An old Japanese man who was true to himself, never wasted a day on the internet, and is loved by millions.

I shouldn't have taken this sketchy gas station kratom

I'm surprised no company has used Gigachad in ads yet.

last night i was eating chicharrons drunk and i could barely breathe. i was gasping for air and my chest was hurting and then i layed in bed and woke up at 5am

wanted to go in the garden but its raining :(

>>19301787
I mean, you're correct, but i think that's honestly why it mattered so much. Belief in god can pick up even the biggest, most hopeless loser with nothing to live for and give them purpose.

>>19321099
what is somebody who wants to change the game? not me

>>19304571
Democrats will lose again, Republicans are soon to be in the historical dustbin. America might start electing actual socialists if Democrats keep acting like Republicans.

>>19321180
I think I've seen a few. Brave might've been one of them (those Brave ads were weird as hell) and probably a crypto scamcoin-of-the-month.

>>19321256
The deep state are still very much in control. Dems are set to lose again of course, but how long can this charade power-sharing go on? I mean I guess the blue fascism can get worse and we see CIA directors assume command under some bogus emergency whatever. I donno

>>19320908
Yeah her interest is pretty clear, I just don't know what to do with a 19 year old. Casual sex is not in me and beyond that she doesn't seem the type(but I am also aware of the fact that if you are sufficiently attractive enough to a woman for one reason or another, you can overpower most of them). Relationships are so much work but I really want one, I'd have to be lover and educator, always bigger. I was with an older woman once and it's very, very nice to be able to surrender yourself as a male but in my experience most untaken older women are very much men and very often crazy(except for the widows I suppose). I probably shouldn't let this opportunity pass me by.

>>19318895
>Old thread
>made today
You are such a hypocrite.

>>19321408
in a similar situation anon. the girl is 19 as well but the differences are that I pursued her initially and she has started to reciprocate. a couple of nights ago she brought her boyfriend around and at the end of the night I began to feel a numb shame. mainly it is because her actions point to being the type to drop the guy (eventually) and if I were to replace him I would stand at the same dilemma you do. my obsessive artistic work has prevented me from having any lasting relationships in the past and I'm not sure I trust myself in this instance. if I continue down this trajectory I will just cause pain across the board. despite this, it is an amazing feeling to find someone worth loving and so rare it may justify the pain.

>>19321509
This thread is four days old and not done.
Do you know what hypocrite means?

Great. Now a third thread. Anime ass-hats really pushing it

>>19321549
you didn't seem to have a problem when we had like 3 threads up

>>19321551
Already addressed this >>19320059

Why not wait? (How about page 10 for once?)

>>19321546
It's about making yourself into someone she won't drop. She's not married yet and most relationships won't last more than a few months, it's expected. Feelings of infatuation will fade and what will have to remain is love and maintaining and growing love is not an easy feat. You have to sacrifice parts of yourself for the sake of your union, it has to come above all else. It demands it, less than that and you're right, you are setting yourself and this other person up for pain and failure.

>>19321549
>>19321563
Butters when you made this thread you made it early just like the other guy who made his. Did you wait till page 10 before you made this one? No you didn't. You are a hypocrite. You want the attention just as much as they do.

And stop trying to act like you aren't a janny.

>>19321563
like most of your responses, that doesn't actually address anything. you had no problem with it when we had 3 threads going before, and you DID embrace it as part of the effort of getting rid of the weeb poster.

>>19321549
you weren't calling them ass-hats when people like yourself were making 3 threads at a time. in fact YOU LITERALLY STARTED THIS back when you tried like 3 seperate times to make your own thread and got angry and came into the main thread to complain about it because it didnt have the right image according to your tastes

once again, you completely lack the self awareness to realize the role you play and absolutely ruining this broard. amazing how adepts you are at avoiding taking responsibility

Ive been depressed for 10 years now. It runs in the family and it doesnt seem to go away. I feel like while most people mature or become stronger as they age, i went the opposite way; i used to have motivation, and dreams, and i used to be optimistic about the future, but that is no longer the case. I just dont feel like i could ever get a gf/wife, a career or have kids. I used to dream about having these things, but now they just fill me with dread.
My original psychologist said that my anhedonia is too deep to be treated by talking therapy so he suggests i see a psychiatrist for medical aid, but none of those drugs work, and ive tried a bunch.

>>19321549
>>19321563
Why do you act like were all strangers who weren't here for the last 5 WWOYM threads? We witnessed how you were acting in all of them and now we're witnessing you deny it.
>Why not wait?
You say this as if you wait.
Stop being a fucking hypocrite and stop being an opportunist.

What is the core of human thought? Such deep and malochent question, what a million billion people will not understand the true depth of man ingenuity. What a great honor it is to live and experience the excugerating feelings.
I always have these deep thoughts and they come out my head so easily, it took me few seconds to write that. I'm really good at creative writing.

>>19321690
I'm sure you'll get out of it, Anon.
Stay strong, even when it doesn't seem to matter.

The only worthwhile part about this entire board is the sticky.

>>19321690
>has the strength to seek help
b-based desu

>>19321845
Yeah i guess i could feel proud of that. But i dont. I also go to the gym 5 times a week with unfaltering discipline, but i fucking hate it, and i dont feel proud that i do it anyway, despite what my psychologist says.

I find myself in the void realm of intuitive childhood confusion again. I left my mask at the door and allowed whatever my child wished to commence, for his super-indulgence to replace my mind. And now it rings hollow. I have no fetish, I have no consistent need, I simply attempt to understand obsessive thought through continuous repetition of self-immolating behaviors. I find myself again turning toward the same realization, that externals need not rule one's life, that one is not bound by the past or that one must repeat. I have wasted another week on defectiveness coping behaviors... I am an amputee at thirteen, a craven shell at thirty. I have accepted time and time again that I must remain unwavering in my judgment, yet another cycle has come and gone, and I am left in the same state from which it began.
The object of obsession is nothing more than negative emotion which demands some prioritized action on my part; it is nothing more than some task undone which has been formed through external experience, then converted symbolically and dopaminergically into illusory emotional reasoning. Christ, I want to stop.

>>19321923
why do you do it ?

>>19322000
Cause if i dont, i become a fat slob. I cant really explain my motivation, but this is the lesser evil.

I think I have some form of narcissism. How can I cure myself?

Wow some of y'all are really sad. Take it easy on yourself seriously. Nothing really matters anyways.

"It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness. That is life."

Yesterday I think I finally cauterized the pain. I didn't rage against myself or the world, I walked home and simply let the feelings of impotence and misfortune pass through me.

>>19322118
isn't that a line from star trek?

>>19322147
yes.

>>19299320
cuando hablamos de lo que sentios en la comun trascendencia de la vida configural nos detenemos a menudo a pensar en la miniedades del dia a dia, pero al detenerse sobre nuestro cabales y sacar el cerebro de nuestro propio ego, podemos ver nuestra propia insignificancia y a la vez la gran trascendencia de lo que somos, una dicotomia del placer de vivir, a la que las civilizaciones de la historia llamaron y apuntaron bajo distintos nombres, pero todas coincidieron bajo el mismo concepto de propia liberacion.

someone make the new thread. i dont care if its 7 posts early. just dont let butters or one of these other lunatics make it

>>19322061
there's more to life than just tits and booze

>>19322380
I did not imply that.

>>19322350
Here you go a new thread
>>19322441

>>19322443
It has nice art

>>19322343
Speak English.

>>19322380
The fuck am I looking at the pic?

>>19322451
Socrates delivering a plea to the Athenian assembly

>>19323236
>>19323236
>>19323236

>>19321728
>what is
>Such X (oh nonono)
>what a (yikes)
>not understand (nononononoo)
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>deep thoughts
It's over dude

rip