/lit/ - Literature

THREAD THEME: https://youtu.be/mvaflCibP2U

What makes women, especially those who earn fame on the internet, susceptible to mental illness? It's something that I've been wondering about for a while and want an answer to.

FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT, LIFE IS FIGHT

>>19267381
first

>>19267381
i think women have a greater transcendental capacity than men, but it's extremely rare for one of them to tap into 10% of it in her lifetime. the existence of simone weil will always perplexe me.
i met someone like that a little while ago. asian woman, really eloquent and sincerely enthusiastic, was nerding out over vuillard and kierkegaard intensely, then proceeded to make some of the most lucid statements about responsibility, education, detachment, and visual literacy that i've ever heard in my entire life. i was amazed the whole way through. and what's more interesting is that almost every other person in our age range is a buzzword robot infected with memes and other copy and paste method of communication, but there wasn't a single trace of that in our long conversation. it was all very clear. i wish i had gotten her name before she left, but we were both under this romantic, in a purely literary sense, impulse to not divulge any personal information except writing our own intiials down in each others notebooks. i think she will make a great mother.
women can be so pure sometimes. a shame that most of them tend to be pitiful.

>>19267381
Benis :DD

>>19267381
I want to make impenetrable art. Not on purpose, but to explore a humanity in its mere adolescence.

Hypocrisy pisses me off
>Another religious community attacks us over religion
People in my community: Oh no, how evil!
>One of us becomes a fanatic and kills someone from another religion over a religious dispute
People: Haha, based!

how did ''not taking yourself seriously'' become such a common code to respect and live by? it's really insulting to life itself, and i'm very shocked to see it so widely accepted despite the fact that delving into the history of any successful character invalidates it. do people wish for you to just relish in mediocrity? i guess treating something that might potentially make you deeply question your choices as a joke is a nice way to pat yourself on the back

just went into the other room to rub one out because I was spooning with a girl who will only ever see me as a friend

I’ve never been this sick.

don't try to learn a language through grammar worst mistake of my life

>>19267695
Why? I’m planning on doing this

it really is amazing just how insecure women are. my gf is easily a 8-9/10, really smart quality woman and she still gets insecure over the smallest bs

>>19267741
...

>>19267723
it will give you such a shallow and barely fluent understanding of the language. you have to learn it more naturally

>>19267655
Wow that’s a special kind of hell I’m glad I’m not you

>>19267741
Bro she wants to feel your love and strength, don't be an idiot. Just tell her she's prettier than the rest and the most special and stuff like that.

>>19267583
Yeah I also dont get it

>>19267583
It's more about going into situations and not being scared or fearful. At least that's how I've always viewed it. You don't take yourself too seriously so you take more risks? Maybe im completely off idk

>>19267855
that would be getting your head out your ass, which is a different and better advice.

>>19267777
eh immah get rid of her soon enough

the OP image is faggy so I will not be posting. see you guys in the next thread.

>>19267655
Lmfao what?? How do you spoon and not have sex? It sounds like you just have no game

>what are you going to be for Halloween this year, anon?

>>19267919
We met, fucked a few times, then she friendzoned me and I've realized I'm not satisfied with that. She's in my room sleeping now and I'm on the balcony reading.

>>19267942
Lmao what. she's probably still dtf if you're spooning

>>19267942
>modern life
repulsive. what are you reading?

>find recent interest in books
>search a place to talk about it
Reddit ?
>Boring and censoring stuff
Discord ?
>Full of degenerates
Local library ?
>Full of antipathics individuals
/lit/ ?
>Finally, a good place

Test

https://twitter.com/mybabelproject/status/1450118828784979977

>>19267942
Just be friends with benefits, she'll be in love once you sleep with her after a couple months anyways. Don't even bother mentioning labels at any time just have fun with her and let her worry about that shit. Meanwhile date other women on the side.

>>19267956
Nah she's basically started treating me as her gay best friend, and I realize that's very humiliating which is why I'll be breaking off all contact soon. A while ago she wanted to fuck but she was too drunk for my conscience to let me go through with it.
>>19267962
Gide.
>>19267969
She explicitly said a precondition for being this intimate/relaxed with one another is that I don't sexualize it. I thought I could do this male/female friendship thing for the first few weeks but I've realized it's not sustainable.
>Meanwhile date other women on the side
I met a girl 2 weeks ago who seems interested in me, and my friend went on a tinder date last week. Hearing her talk about other guys makes me feel like a cuck though so even though I can enjoy her company I don't want to be stuck in this dynamic.

smoked too much weed and feel sick

>>19267996
ride it out

>>19267992
That is fucking retarded she is stupid. Friends can fuck, fucking means little. She seems weird.

I don’t fancy myself a writer since I’m trying to be more of a visual artist, but I’ll need some writing skills since I have interest in comic making. I wrote this just now after not writing anything for maybe a year, I just felt like it needs to be shared.
— —— —————- ——————

Upon taking the blindfold off her, the first reaction she gave was a wide eyed stare of terror and confusion as she saw my face. I was already halfway hard in my pants thanks to the fact that the slut was wearing a skimpy crop top with a plunging neckline that showed the two plump mounds on her chest to great effect.

She was a cheap whore I’d snatched up recently. I knew of her from my high school, as she took the same bus as me and her attractive body was an object of adoration for me. She’d caught me eyeing her breasts once and covered them up subsequently. She wouldn’t be able to do that now.

A Hispanic girl, with skin light enough that she had to be mostly European, with big fat cow tits, brown wavy hair, and a filled out derrière that she flaunted in tight blue jeans. Oh, and a navel piercing, you CAN’T FORGET THE NAVEL PIERCING. I had her hands and feet bound to her chair in our dark enclosure, with care taken to position her body in such a way that her chest was jutting out and forcing her heaving boobs into focus. Though I’d already coated the ground with my jizz when I first snagged her as I sniffed her boobs and licked and bit her nipples, her helplessness was again turning my cock into a diamond. I hadn’t slept well last night out of anticipation, and that tends to make me extra horny for some reason, not to mention I’d been building up arousal whilst denying myself release for the past week.

Probably my two main reasons for doing it are that I both don’t want to go through the hassle of courtship just to acquire a cheap whore like this, and also because this dumb cunt has a niggerish disposition. She hung out with niggers, probably sucked nigger dick, and this trend, this trend of niggerification is extremely annoying to me as I have to listen to nigger rap to appear outwardly normal in social interactions. I mean come on, if they want thugs so bad, I’m a literal serial rapist/killer. Yet, I have to play by the gay and dumb rules to get a meager fraction of pussy that gives starfish sex after countless time spent pretending the whore’s thoughts and feelings matter as well as entertaining her with contrived banter that is almost entirely one sided. Yes I like to hear myself talk, but come on, this is unacceptable.

Vaginas are basically a fucking black hole.

>>19268008
I think I'm categorically desexualized in her mind. She doesn't mind changing in front of me or peeing with the poor open. Yes she's exceedingly weird.

what hit the pentagon on 9/11?/

>>19268037
A missile. The angle of entry of the projectile plus the number of obstacles in the way which would have made it impossible for a 747 to fly that low proves this.

>>19268075
was it saudi arabia shootinga missile as u.s?

>>19267942
lmao you had sex with a broken whore and you've fallen for her. Let this be a lesson to you, the purpose of sex is to bond us to each other, don't fuck whores. All you're doing is putting yourself on the path to being as damaged as she is.

>>19268037
Missing flight mh370 after it went through a time portal

L-I-I-I-I-I-IVING IN A
DEN OF THIEVES
RUMMAGING FOR ANSWERS IN THE PAAAAYYGAAAASSS

>>19268093
are time portals real?

>>19268105
theoretically

>>19268109
>theoretically
is there a bigger field of grifters then "Theoretical physicist"?

>>19268124
there's only so much to observe here on earth and understanding the minutiae of things we already know is not so interesting for most

>>19268089
You're not the first to suggest I don't stick around. Good thing I've made up my mind.

>>19268129
what is the purpose of their work, simply to satisfy their own curiosities?
it has literally no value to anyone except themselves. They could use their vast intelligence to solve real problems which they deem to be beneath them. Instead they spend time solving theoretical problems AKA problems that don't exist

I'm only supposed to smoke weed tomorrow night but I'm hanging out with my friend later and i really don't know what I'm gonna do....

>>19267741
yeah it's good, you can use this fact to your advantage in many different ways

>>19268137
Well that's a real simplification of very many complex things but the reality is that it's to sate themselves, yes. Most of "the world's problems" you imagine as needing solutions are already solvable/solved and said solutions have only not been acted on because large enough groups with the power to act chose not to.

>>19267741
They want constant reassurance and they want you to be a person of value so that the reassurance from you makes them feel as though they have value

I can't stop listening to Trevor Moore's 'God Says' song

WHAT THE FUCK WHY DID NOBODY LINK THE NEW THREAD IN THE OLD THREAD

>>19268124
cope harder, empiricist

>>19267567
Based muslim

>>19267923
Alone and drunk

>>19268037
My dick

>>19267923
we don't celebrate Halloween where I'm from

>>19268083
The House of Saud, along with America and Great Britain, is one of the three pillars of the Anglo-Saxon World Order. It would have not have struck at itself.

>>19268239
allies can always strike each other, especially when the power balance is precarious
anyone have any information about what actually happened in the Las Vegas shooting?

How do I read beyond surface level? I read The Iliad over the summer and couldn't say much about it beyond what happened. Then I read an analysis and feel like most of it went over my head.

Then sometimes I think maybe I do read deeper than I think but since I don't talk to anyone about what I read or write much about it I don't see it.

Sometimes people will ask about what I've read or am reading and I feel like I'm put on the spot, being quizzed, and I come up with nothing to say.

>>19268239
Famously Anglo-Saxon, Saudi Arabia.

>>19268262
it's an anglo invention, so close enough

>>19268183
For me, it's mouthwash

maybe escapism can work

>>19268261
Try to make a habit of writing out your thoughts on what you read. The process of turning vague impressions into coherent written thoughts is very valuable.

Every rejection just give me further motivation to exceed myself.
I want them to think "I could've had him but now it's too late"

sometimes i perceive myself as having brilliant moments of thought. a feeling that is reinforced by other people's praise. but then once i put them on paper, i am horrified at how thin and fuckin superfluous they really are, and i'm at such a low point of cowardice in my life that i've been avoiding writing them down just to not deflate myself completely. i understand that it's supposed to be a humbling experience, but i come out of it more discouraged than anything. it's suicide fuel.
do any other anons have similar experiences?

>>19268444
that realization is meant to push you towards growing the idea, not scare you away

>>19268404
BASED. It's truly their loss since you're a handsome lad with a plan, and positive attitude.

>>19267911
> bros... what hit the pentagon on 9/11?
A missile. The plane intended for the Pentagon/DC fought back and it crashed in a field. Pentagon officials deep in the know about the operation rolled out a missile from one of the military bases and shot a portion out. That wasn’t damage from any fully fueled passenger jet.
I remember seeing it play out live. Sure the towers seemed the biggest story, but one aerial shot for a few seconds and no other footage of damage. Barely any talk of it. They just kept saying there wasn’t too many in there, and no extra footage. None that I remember anyway. It was just ignored. Only recently did this one surveillance camera footage surface

I just took a daggone 11 hour nap man, I’m gonna be up all night daggone it.

25 pages in and idgi

>>19267381
The Tiger built its own cage
yes
YES
the tiger is winning

I'm becoming addicted to blogging here. I am inclinated to complain about my life. But I'm so tired of complaints. I just want to move on and live again

>>19268503
Nvm I got it

>>19267381
I am in love with a woman with small breasts, culpable and perky but lacking in volume. Every night she begs me to fertilize her, and one of these days surely I will. O blessed milker’s, large and round, bringer of suffocation and pleasurable drowning this is my swan song. For tho I may wait forever, the milk truck shall never arrive for I.

>>19268458
you probably supported the invasions of Iraq and Afghanistan

>>19268645
As a kid was vaguely in favor of the first attack on Iraq. Like yo, they invaded Kuwait. But I growing up I went from conservative to nonparticipant apolitical. Didn’t vote in 2000. Didn’t even realize that the attacks were orchestrated by DC at the time. But during that whole administration I turned anti-GOP. No I didn’t support their war, nor Obama’s

>>19268667
weren’t you born in the 70s? hardly a kid (and even that not being an excuse)

i survived opioid addiction and im still in denial about how bad it was. a couple months i was posting here about alcoholism, it really doesn't compare if anyone else reading this is struggling

i am my own hell.

>>19268679
You have to delete that before you get doxxed.

>>19268667
punch you

>>19268685
How would i get doxed now om scared

>>19268667
Fuck off. Nobody here likes you or cares what you think.

>>19268695
they know your a white guy that drinks coors light. triangulating ur ip as we speak

>>19268701
you spooked me.i deleted it

This is 100% a true story, with no regard for prose.

I remember being basically homeless, sleeping on the carpet floor of my friend’s tiny studio apartment cuckpod.

Applied to jobs constantly, and the only one that hired me was a cokehead and self proclaimed alcoholic house painter. I busted my ass (all I had to my name was a thin windbreaker in 20 degree snowing weather, taking 4 buses across two counties at 4am to get to the jobsite, fueled on 1 hard boiled egg a day that I rationed out in a napkin) he had a coke freak out and tore up all the tape we did on an entire home. He fired me and I miraculously got a call back from an old interview where they hired me to do maintenance work for an apartment company. They even helped me get a one-bedroom apartment with an employee discount and let me pay the deposit over 3 months. A total blessing.

I eventually was working 7 days a week, fixing 77 buildings, all while on a once-monthly paycheck. All I had to my name was an old hole covered blanket my great-grandmother had knitted, one pair of sneakers, jeans covered in holes because they were my only pair for casual and workwear, and my duffle bag to use as a pillow. That and a $20 flip phone from Target.

Eventually I worked my way up to become the main painter for the real estate company. Once a month, I would be able to buy things because of the once-a-month paycheck. Slowly but surely I bought a couch one month, a bed the next month, a coffee table the next month, kitchen supplies the month after, etc. I began to be able to buy actual groceries. I was in heaven.

Soon enough, I was noticed as having a keen eye for detail and strict attention to painting correctly, and they hired me to become a leasing agent for the company as a second job. I was now working from 6am until 8pm everyday, working two jobs AT THE SAME TIME.

I would be rolling paint on walls while speaking to prospective renters in my earbuds, putting on a professional voice and pretending to be in an office.

1/3

Pic related was my apartment a year after working hard to create my own home. I have no family, so it was all on my own. I was 23. It was the firs time in my life I had a home of my own; a place to return to and feel anchored.

I would keep professional clothes in my tool bag in a plastic grocery bag, and rub paint solvent (no shower available) all over myself to quickly get off the paint covering my body. I would burst into a full-sprint and run 3 miles to the building where I had my showing ON MY LUNCH BREAK to sell apartments to people, and fulfill my second job within the same company.

Eventually I became the company’s best leaser, and won every weekly sales contest, netting in extra commissions.

Eventually they brought me in and asked if I wanted to become a full-time Property Manager of multiple buildings, ontop of my other two full-time jobs.

Thereafter, my job was to wake up, answer leasing emails, carry two 50-pound paint buckets up 6 flights of stairs to paint enormous luxury apartments where one guy had been rotting dead for a month and whose guts had spilled out everywhere, painting the floors with black rotting organs, and stinking the place up. Mind you, I worked SOLO. While painting I had to be constantly calling back tenants with their concerns for my property manager job, as well as scheduling apartment leasing showings for my leasing agent job, all while running full speed to each showing and taking breaks from each job to do another. I somehow managed to do 3 jobs all at once, 7 days a week.

The day came when my estranged mother’s lung cancer had advanced further than I had even been aware, and was asked to meet my estranged family in Hawaii, where they had moved to without me (I’m the bastard accident child, I was a great kid but I wasn’t planned for my family so they sold me to a man at 15). I watched my mother choke on her spit and beg for morphine through grunts, not words. She died the day after I arrived. I never heard her say she loves me, not once in my life.

2/3

Upon returning to my job 2 days later, after using my vacation days for the first time ever in two years of working for them, I was let go.

Their reasoning? I had stalled work on jobs by requesting time off at an awkward time, despite them having 12 other property managers, 6 other leasing agents, and 30 maintenance workers.

I was also told to leave my apartment, as I was living their as a favor to me by them, and my lease was part of my employment compensation.

I had no choice but to move back to my friend’s couch and was left with nothing, and nowhere to live.

Still to this day, nobody will ever return my 600 job applications, and I have to listen to boomers tell me “PICK YOUR SELF UP BY YOUR BOOTSTRAPS!”.

Death to all boomers. Somebody kill me.

3/3

>>19268688
https://youtu.be/6FKgLmT5s2A

>>19268736
God why are you everywhere derailing threads. Please kill yourself

I'm about to plunge certain parts of myself back into comatose

>>19268732
this is what you get for thinking contract work will afford you stability

>>19268748
Wasn’t much room for choice for him you fucking dipshit. Missing the point of the story completely

>>19268748
It wasn’t a contract. I was an hourly employee like any other job. Not sure how I could have avoided this?

>>19268761
what? then don’t overwork yourself. probably unionize

>>19268770
What country do you live in? Have your parents ever lended you over $100? Not every job is unionized, and the American dollar is worth jack shit. This is the only way to make money; to work your ass off.

>>19268783
cringe. you stuck your neck out with your cringe work ethic. they were prolly laughing their asses off when they fired you

>>19268790
I guess I probably should have just sat on my ass and never tried. Great advice. Next time I’ll ask to join a union that has a barrier-to-entry higher than most universities.

>>19268804
Are unions really that hard to join? And the unfortunate truth about america is that a good work ethic gets you punished. This country is rotten to the core and i really canmot wait until it finally implodes

>>19268804
>Next time I’ll ask to join a union that has a barrier-to-entry higher than most universities.
you were already sitting on your ass and never trying
>>19268810
it won’t

>>19268814
> you were already sitting on your ass and never trying

I suspected you were trolling, and now I know. Everything in my story shows that I was doing everything but that.

modern ameriKKKans think a union is just something that’s already there as a cushion. it would never occur to them that they can be built from scratch from spontaneous struggle. this is a mass mental illness unfortunately

>>19267992
As someone who's only ever smashed in relationships this just seems insane and I hardly believe that it's true

modern ameriKKKans think a union is just something that’s already there as a cushion. it would never occur to them that they can be built from scratch from spontaneous struggle. this is a mass mental illness tied into settler parasitism unfortunately

>>19268833
Ya I’ll convince the liberal women who occupy and dominate every job to unionize with me. They certainly love helping each other out and not stabbing their peers in the back when it benefits them.

>>19268833
>work for $23/hour
>bring home $15/hour after taxes, SSI, benefits
>pay for rent because you cannot save for a home
>buy groceries that cost way too fucking much
>pay for gas, car insurance
>left with $100/month to “save”
>$1200 saved after a year of doing nothing outside of work ever
>rent costs more in one month than what you saved
>oh but I also started a union with my nonexistent free time and empty bank account

>>19268833
Have you ever formed a union?

>>19268848
it’s not just you, you need to understand that

This thread goes very hard
Love from Italy
I hate the demiurge so much it's unreal

>>19268833
You realize neocons made at-will hiring a thing (there’s pros and cons to this, admittedly) so places can legally fire you for forming a union

>>19268861
I do understand that. I understand that we collectively do not have the means to do it, and most people in jobs would outright refuse to unionize if asked. I’ve tried to get people together to bring attention to things we all hated at a job I had, and everyone said they didn’t want to ruffle any feathers because YOU WILL BE FIRED.

>>19268868
>>19268870
MOTHERFUCKER IF INDUSTRIAL WORKERS IN THE 19TH CENTURY IN PROBABLY EVEN WORSE CONDITIONS THAN YOU COULD UNIONIZE YOU CAN TOO

>IATSE strike going on
>One of the most powerful unions in the world
>70,000 members prepared to strike and walk off set against the AMPTP which represents the richest entertainment conglomerates on the planet
>people literally dying of stress and work related accidents because streaming companies are forcing them to be on set 16 hours a day for 6 months at a time.
>IATSE leadership folds like a bitch and creates a shit basic contract that gets workers nothing they were fighting for, and instead tries to shift the narrative to how many niggers they’re bringing into the union instead

Unions only work if the leadership is systematically purged every couple years so that slimy fucks like Matt Loeb aren’t able to be bought by production companies. Like all other systems, unions are broken. My industry is in flames.

>>19268883
>and instead tries to shift the narrative to how many niggers they’re bringing into the union instead
ladies and gentlemen… read settlers

>>19268881
Except they had a racially and culturally homogenous society and weren’t brainwashed beyond repair. Completely different contexts and circumstances.

>>19268881
>>19268833
What country are you from?

>>19268881
> EVEN WORSE CONDITIONS
That feeds into it. Conditions are better, so there's less motivation to participate in class struggle.

>>19268893
canada

>>19268881
Nobody here is arguing that a union is bad or pointless, just that they aren’t successful anymore and people refuse to cooperate with their coworkers or community. It’s a cultural problem.

>>19268898
>A Canadian trying to label another country with the settler label
Glass houses and all that.

>>19268902
yes, it’s klanada too, and conditions are pretty much the same as in the US

Can the sense of wonder and marvel that one feels at things until the age of approximately 20 ever be regained or is it just gonna be a drab and dreary life until the day I kick the bucket? Olderfags lend me your wisdom.

>>19268904
I’m always amazed at how much you commies love to deride people for treated horribly at jobs and blame the worker but not the fucking government or HR Managers that do more harm than the actual owners of small companies who at most times don’t even know what their employees are up to.

The Frankfurt school did a number on actual Marxism.

>>19268910
>covering for small business owners
>accusing me of being anti-worker

>>19268904
You do realize that antagonizing people will not result in them joining your movement, right? If you want people to join a leftist movement you must appeal to them, including whites who make up a plurality of the population. Attempting to apply Mao Zedong Thought or third-worldism to the USA/Canada will not work because the material conditions are so different.

>inb4 shutup whitey
I'm not white.

>>19268905
My problem has always been that I feel so strongly about everything that I am easily consumed by the positive emotion tiny everyday occurrences give me. Though to me your problem sounds more like some kind of weird problem with novelty than anything else. Eventually you settle into a rhythm as other people become dependent on you(wife, kids) and even supposedly same-y and boring parts of your routine have meaning because the structure is built around meaningful things. If you feel drab and dreary you're living a drab and dreary life built around drab and dreary things. Action has to be driven by emotion, emotion here meaning emotional reaction to the action you're undertaking. You need to find actions you're emotionally receptive to and then find the logical conclusion of that emotion meaning what you should be doing to be satisfied and content in your life(for hobbies and as a profession).

>>19268921
im not a maoist or third worldist. i just want white workers to stop their delusions

>>19268919
I will cover for small business owners because I need a place to work and can’t start my own business, nor do I want to. Fucking retard. In your Marxist planned economy, the people in charge of each manufacturing facility will facilitate the same exact roles and will need to be the best at that job, meaning the same personality types will end up at the same place doing the same shit.

Every Marxist I’ve ever met have never done jackshit with their lives

>>19268934
>i just want white workers to stop their delusions
Which you consider to be?

>>19268934
And which delusions are those?

>>19268905
Yes, you just need to reset your dopamine fried brain.

>>19268940
>>19268941
the fake sense of meritocracy, for one

>>19268932
Good post, thanks and yeah, you're right about my life being built around drab and dreary things and I know all too well that I need to build a positive emotional connection between my daily actions and my inner feelings, my problem here is that what's inside of me is nothing but hatred. I hate modern life, I hate modern people and I have the strong impression that If I let these feelings out I'd alienate everybody, if not become outright crazy or even a monster. Maybe I just need to build a cabin in the woods, fuck off and never come back.

>>19268905
Yes you can. Eat only whole ingredients, and no pasta/bread (organic or not, it will make you feel a lot better). Workout HARD even just 30 minutes a week, you’re doing more than almost everyone. Stop using screens as much as you can allow yourself, and regularly sit and think in and around nature away from people.

This, and when you get stressed or sad, simply pretend not to be. Brute force your way out of anhedonia. And remember, happiness should never be sought, it’s a gift. Learn to seek contentment, as it is entirely possible to achieve and much more fulfilling. Take your suffering in stride and invite a little more, but don’t ever allow yourself to be walked on.

Always tell the truth, even if it ruins your life.

>>19268951
Can you explain further? Do you mean that we should avoid valuing people by how hard/good they work?

>>19268951
And socialism will solve that how exactly? Nepotism is alive and well in China.

>>19268965
sure. more like getting rid of the mental rat-race that that is

>>19268951
Marxists seem to completely forget human nature and treat humans and working conditions as if they can be coded like a computer. Historical materialism never accounts for virtue or sin. And no, I’m not a christfag

>>19268980
So how do you determine who would be best for certain jobs? Who would be considered worthy of administrative jobs if we don’t judge people by their past experience? Remember Chernobyl? Remember the guy who fucked it all completely because communists hired a man to do something he wasn’t qualified for?

>>19268957
>my problem here is that what's inside of me is nothing but hatred. I hate modern life, I hate modern people and I have the strong impression that If I let these feelings out I'd alienate everybody, if not become outright crazy or even a monster. Maybe I just need to build a cabin in the woods, fuck off and never come back.

I felt the same way for a long time. For me it was about creating a refuge, that refuge being my family. People are base, the world is base, the only way you can enact change is by living the way you'd like everyone else to live. As a man you have the luxury of being able to create your own little world, your woman will follow you and your children will follow you as long as you are capable.

>>19268961
>Always tell the truth, even if it ruins your life.

this is great advice, everyone lies habitually, becoming aware of that and changing it requires you to change your life so that you are not in a situation where lying is a necessity. it is an entire way to live a life in one sentence

>>19268995
>changing it requires you to change your life so that you are not in a situation where lying is a necessity

That’s exactly what I meant by that, you summed it up perfectly.

>>19268993
>So how do you determine who would be best for certain jobs? Who would be considered worthy of administrative jobs if we don’t judge people by their past experience?
we never needed to do this
who are you talking about wrt chernobyl
iirc it happened for a bunch of reasons or whatever

>>19268984
Marxists in the West exist in a state of pure cope. They are winning, but they cannot accept HOW they winning. The consolidation of capital in vast megacompanies, the erosion of national divisions by these organizations and capital, the centrally planned nature of corporations, etc....

I have this hypothesis. The Western elite have bought into the Marxist view of history, and to implement it, they are creating vast megacorporations like Amazon, Walmart, Facebook, etc. Over time these corporations will merge into a single centrally planned system in control of all capital and the means of production. People like Musk and Bezos and Zuckerberg are our vanguard party.

>>19268984
Well, you’re going to have to come up with better terms than virtue or sin.

>fake sense of meritocracy
Like that afforded by having more points in the bank? Having that new car or nicer neighborhood? Yeah, I hate that. Capitalist corruption sucks the life out of us all.

>>19269018
And the dyke has arrived

>>19269018
>Well, you’re going to have to come up with better terms than virtue or sin.
They are self evident. Not all of us are demoralized.

>Like that afforded by having more points in the bank? Having that new car or nicer neighborhood
Meritocracy is about recognizing those who work the hardest, deserve the most. And I’m not a capitalist, but you are a tranny.

>>19269007
>we never needed to do this
Yes, Marxists did have to do this. Just because an economy is planned doesn’t mean the grunts just show up to a magically functioning factory. People still need to be the managers and overseers. Literally read a fucking book, because you don’t even know about your own ideology that has taken place and IS taking place in other countries many many times.

>who are you talking about
Anatoly Stepanovich Dyatlov (Russian: Aнaтoлий Cтeпaнoвич Дятлoв, Ukrainian: Aнaтoлiй Cтeпaнoвич Дятлoв; 3 March 1931 – 13 December 1995) was deputy chief engineer of the Chernobyl Nuclear Power Plant. He supervised the safety test which resulted in the 1986 Chernobyl disaster, for which he served time in prison as he was blamed for not following the safety protocols.

Read up on your own ideology before vouching for it

>>19268905
Yes. Go to the wilderness.

>>19269040
the soviet union was just a failed cybernetic experiment, im not very interested in that

>>19269053
>real communism hasn’t been tried yet!
You’re really going to hit me with that trope? I’m hoping for better than that from you man, don’t stoop to that.

>>19269054
but i do think that
i dont want to work people to the bone for vague promises of some collective “development” or “prosperity”, literally the opposite of that

>>19269057
You apparently don’t want to read source material either because you’re envisioning some sort of utopia where everyone shows up to do little/easy work, but expect first-world living conditons. Fucking retard.

>>19269064
ok

if i could say one thing it’s that the pussy be on my mind fr

>>19267424
I used to have pet rabbits. Female rabbits literally go insane if they go too long without being pregnant. I think something similar is at work.

>>19267424
Confirmation bias

>>19267381
My mother is severely traumatized by the life-threatening malpractice she accidentally put me through when I was younger and continuously acts aggressively and screams at me before begging me to talk to her a day later so we can be okay again. I’ve told her a thousand times that I forgive her for what happened but she needs to get help with her pain or we won’t have a functioning relationship. I love her so much but I can’t fix her and she so destructive to my life. I don’t want to cut my mother out of my life. I don’t want her to be alone.

>>19267424
Mentally sane women live real lives and have no desire to be internet famous.

>>19269135
What life-threatening malpractice, if you don't mind me askin?

>>19267424
You are asking the wrong question. Everyone under globohomo is mentally ill. Women just get more attention

>>19269040
A proper society can reward those who work adequately. So what I believe “fake sense of meritocracy” is getting at is that white working class believe there is a functional meritocracy now.
There sure isn’t.

And progressives/soc-dems have muddied the waters with a state mandated fairness policy. Also not a functional meritocracy. Yeah. Way to go state socialists

Society is both created and destroyed by the eternal struggle for domination by its individuals. In a way Society is both the super ego as well as the ego that filters the super ego (humans) and the id (nature).

Should I tell my gf about my love for moe anime or not?

My entire childhood I was extremely violent. Since I was four years old, because my father beat up my mother and I thought it was normal, and I changed 8 elementary/grade schools. When my mother ran away with me when I was 7, I grew up in a shitty basement and got even more violent, venting my frustrations on others, returning verbal insults with physical harm. (although never bullying, just using every excuse to fight)
Eventually I got cucked out of my anger and fighting spirit because psychologists and the schools kept shitting on me for fighting and being violent, even when it is self defense.Today it is very difficult for me to react violently even when appropriate, I just feel ambivalent to everything and have to force myself mechanically to fight when I need to, like piloting a drone. There is no feeling in it or want for it. Reading was extremely difficult and it took me an hour to just read and memorize 2 pages. I got held back. Dad was/is an esoteric schizo who is too lazy to even read the shitty schizo books to their conclusion, so he just spouts dumb shit without any depth like a larper.

Things got better because I fell in love with a girl at the end of gradeschool. She was the only person outside of family to show me kindness. She calmed my temper and massaged me when my back was fucked. Went to a trade school to become a baker. Managed to get good grades in the 1st year of high school, then started skipping school because I kept beating up bullies and they kept setting up ambushes for me and trying to shank me (got 2 knife scars) so I stopped going to school apart from labor praxis. apart from awful school, genuinely happy for first time because my gf is so nice. love her a lot.

>>19269323
Your gf should break up with you

>>19269331
We hit 18 years old, she starts going to school/studies for 12 hours a day 5 days a week to prepare for college, and snaps. her hands start trembling uncontrollably. then her neck and head start shaking, a few months later. her parents think she is faking it, trying to get out of college and get mad at her for it. she breaks down and has one of these attacks in front of her father and he slaps her, so she runs to me to console her. So I offer that she moves in like an idiot, so that she doesn't have to bare them. Then she becomes violently suicidal and it starts every time her attacks start, becomes completely fucking irrational and screams for 3 hours at a time, trying to punch and bite herself while shaking. I can do nothing but look after her because I love her so much, but her personality completely warps with her disease. she is no longer the sweet girl she was, she constantly screams and cries and is happy one moment then flies into a suicidal fit the next moment like a child, over the dumbest irrational shit. We cycle trough many shrinks that give the generic fucking depression meds and tell her to go on walks and treat it like it is a fucking depression, and gaslight me into thinking it is normal and I am overreacting to her condition (all of the shrinks were fucking women)
she becomes unable to work or follow school. her life falls apart. her teachers are kind and let her finish her last year of highschool with As to not fuck up her grades, since she was straight A until then. I flunk high school because I stop going to praxis to look after her. I dont want to exist. Nobody in the family except my mother cares or wants to help, they are just telling me to dump her, despite how much I love her.

2/3

>>19267567
I hate hypocrites, too.
>Opposing team scores during game
People in our fanbase: Oh no, that sucks!
>One of our players scores a goal
Fans: Haha, yeah!

>>19269352
It sounds like she snapped from the pressure. The same thing happened to my sister. It's not fair what society imposes on women today... i genuinely believe they have a lower threshold for stress. I wish you luck, don't give up on her. She might need a break from school.

>>19269352
2017. I finish my shitty education, start working as a baker. find out I cant work as a baker, start coughing up blood-clotted dough bloobs from inhaling flour after a month of fulltime work. irregularity of school praxis made me unaware of this, so my education was for naught. Doesnt matter, couldnt cope with a job and my wifes condition anyway.
something in me snaps, I get disgusted with my fat stupid self and force myself to read and start lifting weights. I am running away from my wife trough reading and exercise. stop consooming videogames the whole day. I manage to actually get the focus and speed to read. 10 pages an hour. then 20. then 60. 100 with novels.
I autistically devote myself to reading and training.

around 2019 I get into video editing retrowave vids and find out I have a knack for video editing as a whole and love doing it. I really get into it as it is another way to cope. I start editing videos for my friends in film school because I do better than the students at their schools.
My family encourages me to enroll for the film university, so I start preparing and studying vigorously, while balancing a shitty min wagie job and looking after my wife. A great family friend who works as a video editor at the news station helps me prepare and mentors me, and I basically owe everything to him. The entrance exam has three stages (questionnaire, your entry video, then putting a montage together and defending it in front of a comission that picks it apart.)

The university is known to be strict and lets in only 6 people per year, and is known to be corrupt, as many people enter only on a connection. due to the small number of people accepted+the corruption, it is always basically a gamble when you enroll, what if six people there are going to join on a connection (children of the staff, or children of friends of staff)? you are blind to it. It is known that it usually takes 2-3 tries to enroll.

I manage to get to the 3rd stage on my first try, then crash and burn. the ordeal taking care of my wife has put me trough has left me socially inept and broken, and I just stutter and shit myself as the comission picks apart the montage I made. I can't refute any argument as I am too frightened to do so. So I fail the entrance exam, and look like a complete moron. I break down because everything looks horrifying, what looked like my only way out collapses at the tip of my fingertips, while my wifes condition only worsens and worsens and she starts complaining of feeling something crawling inside her head, and her attacks escalate.

3/4

>>19269419
You said out of 3, FUCK YOU

>>19269436
Kek

I know exactly what's going to happen. Anyone who wants to post something short and snappy is going to get their post swallowed up by this dude and his fucking inconsistent walls of text. Not today, you're going to see his post and my long post, and he can't do anything to stop it.

An argument for not quoteposting in the what are you thinking thread:

Do not quote post

People only read their own posts and replies to their own posts

People are selfish and self-obsessed

Therefore no-one should reply to individual posts and make only general posts

This forces selfish posters to actually read the thread if they want to see their replies

A

A

A

>>19269419
the illness goes on until in the summer of 2020 we find a shrink that gives her some seizure meds. her conditions go away for the most part within 2 weeks. We had to suffer for 5 years for no good reason, but at least I kept her from the mental asylum. She would've stayed there forever with incompetent doctors. doesnt matter, still nearly 5 years wasted for both me and her, but at least its over.
I try enrolling the college again but fail in the first stage. In the process of preparation, I get into a fight (not a physical one) with the video editor mentoring me and our relations sour. I act very disrespectful, and he no longer believes in my capacity to be a video editor, despite telling me I was gifted before. shame on me for being so trusting.

so right now I have no idea what the fuck to do. my wife will be a longtime companion, we went trough hell together and it has only strengthened our bond. but we are both scarred, and I am considering suicide because my prospects for life and work are so awful. I am 23 years old, turning 24, with a terrible education for a job I cant do, no college or a way to pay for it, I can only get min wage jobs that pay 350$ a month, fulltime. (east euro)
only thing I have to my cred is a fantasy RPG book I wrote with some old friends, a PC capable of rendering 4k and video editing skills, but no idea how to find employment without a degree.

I heard of a steel mill offering teaching the trade, but I fear for my lungs and know the laborers will chew me apart and treat me like shit. "24 years old and dont know how to do anything, what the fuck have you been doing with your life?"
I will get shit on relentlessly. I am so afraid of people.

At least I can lift 200kg off the ground.

I'm thinking of making a booktube channel for young men, but it seems kind of untenable. At best you make kino like quentin, whose videos have almost no literary content at all, and at worst you're forced into turtleneck twink mode like waldun to reach a larger audience (girls) through algorithm abuse. I just want to get zoomers to read the iliad. Is it even worth it? Those that would get anything out of great literature find it by themselves anyway.

>>19269458
Have you tried looking into freelance work online? Since you own what I assume is a beefy pc, what about learning something related to it, like 3D and selling assets?

>>19269457
sorry friend, I really had to vent. I really don't know what the fuck to do. but I am over with my wallposts. I know it was a shitty thing to do.

>>19269466
according to what I saw, 3D is very competitive and finding work is difficult. I have worked online as a video editor last year, albeit for chump change because I was very dumb about it. I was basically too anxious to learn how to use credit cards and online payment methods etc, so offered a job from some people that found my work online and asked me to video edit for them, but the pay was garbage for a fuckton of work. Right now I am making vids for a portfolio and am gonna try working as a freelancer online, but I doubt it will net me enough money for anything but paying the bills. doubt I will be able to save up for college because the money will likely be irregular. If I want to actually work as a video editor in a stable way in the future, I need to be able to earn enough to stockpile funds for college. Getting a trade seems like the best option, but I somehow need to get over my pants-shitting anxiety and fear of people.

>>19269464
I think a demographic exists because of bronze age/fitlit larpers. you just need to associate it with lifting.
Daily reminder that Platon means 'broad shoulders'

In fact, I wish quentin was less schizo/less of a shitposter. it'd be nice if there was something similar but more aligned to /lit/. you definitely have a demographic for what you wanna do, but you somehow gotta figure in the rest of the zeitgeist too. aesthetics, lifting, societycore, incel shit like that.

Ill watch your stuff anon.

>>19269464
Just make a channel where you talk about books you like in an engaging way. Anything else will feel forced and will trap you with an audience you don't really like.

Met my uncle after 4 years. He still has that dude bro aesthetics of the 90s. It amuses me how he actually settled down to have a family.

>>19267470
She's fucking Chad right now and how already forgotten about the weirdo who insisted in the "romantic" ritual of writing ones initials in each other's notebooks.

>>19269382
This lol

>>19267923
Unfortunately due to rolling night shift patterns, I will be finishing Saturday morning, which means I either stay up till half 8 and sleep or sleep straight away and stay awake all night. I think the former will be better cos at least I will be too tired to care about another Halloween I won't be invited to partake in, whilst friends, family and colleagues all enjoy themselves.
>tl;dr what will I be doing
>Pic relatded

What do we tell the polack who thinks his life is over at 24 and is a victim of Slavic Fatalism?

I have been thinking it over for a while and nothing particularly inspiring comes to my head.

>leave your wife who has made of you an emotional hostage
>live with your parents and save up to either:
>emigrate to somewhere with better social security
>Get a programming degree/ESL teaching cert
>DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT spend 7 years playing video games and on 4chan instead

>if you cannot fulfil these conditions then make your constrained less miserable by degrees

It's all very banal, generalized advice because the problems themselves are quite banal and general I suppose, once you strip off the particulars

>>19269566
my wife is fine now, doesn't bother me or anything and is independent. going to a shrink to reintegrate into sociedad after all this shit and then plans to go to college. Damage has already been done, so it is irrelevant. I am more fucked because of my shit school and the fact I can't work in my trade. It started eating me apart after she recovered because I could self reflect, I just sort of didn't think about it because I was making sure she didn't get locked away.

>live with your parents and save up to either:
>emigrate to somewhere with better social security

This is the plan, but it also seems fruitless if I can only make fucking 350$ a month. I also need to figure out how to overcome my crippling fear of people without a shrink. legitimately terrified of all the boomer and millennial laborers that will shit on me for knowing nothing @ 24. already happened to me once at 21.

the need to be loved by at least someone is very strong.

>>19269566
Don't come to England. We are full.

>>19269595
>boomers still in the work force or on the door step of retirement
>Gen X (most millennial and zoomers parents) let off the hook or mistakenly labeled as boomers

Well, it's not fruitless if you actually save money, it will just take a long time.

There isn't a magic solution for this, there are thousands of people who come out of an arts or creative degree jobless and spend however long, whether it's years or months, living at home trying to get a job that pays more than social welfare and gives you some mobility.

Unless you have your shit together and are one of those people who is on management track after they graduate, has stocks and is filling their pension the day they start work at 23 (NPCs, Indians and Chinese) then you either hustle your ass off with freelance and creative work (before realising you will never not eke out anything remotely stable from this and snag a desk job with some luck), work any number of shit jobs before you get lucky and snag a desk job or make a lateral move and teach English for half a decade before you snag a desk job.

I guess what I am trying to tell you is that we have all been there and that Butterfly has been here for the last ten years and has not exhibited even the slightest amount of intellectual or spiritual development. Read any of the posts and you will see, they read exactly the same as they did 10 years ago.

>>19269716
I wont
afraid of western euro, Ill get killed by a fucking muzz in the street like a dog.

My dick actually hurts 24 hours which makes me keep fapping. Going to see a urologist next week and he told me to come back in 2 weeks last week because I got vaxxed the same day. It's affecting my sleep and mental health.

>>19269737
>break your dick through constant fapping
>fap to cover the pain

Coomers are modern heroin addicts

>>19269729
I am relatively new to /lit/, but recognize the (((butterfly))) from other chans.
Nick Land brought me here.

idk man, seems like you need a degree for fucking anything. even pushing paper. Id be fine working 350$ if there is a ladder, but I dont see it without a degree. video editing isny even all that artistic, we are surrounded by moving pictures in the mass media age. I am certain I could get a degree if I didnt look like a deliquent on paper.

Wish I didnt care

>>19267923
I like seeing my screenshot spread on 4chan. Anyway I don't know, a part or something. The last year I would have liked to pass it with a goth girl I was crushing on, that in the end, after a few months, ghosted me. Funny how in this yeartime goth girls became even more mainstream

>>19267381
My colleagues from work ordered food and I don't have money to pay for it. They inisist that I should eat with them but I don't want them to pay for me. What should I do?

>>19267381
I have given up on finding a friend who is like me. I will have to continue to compulsively self-improve and produce great niche art in the hopes of getting someone to see themselves completely in me - in the hope that this person is able to prove that assumption to me as well.

>>19269835
Say you are fasting. Or be honest and say you don't have any money and feel guilty to eat the food.

I’m shocked at how little I’ve accomplished in life. No one expects the least bit of effort from me because they see me as a massive loser who’s barely even capable of holding a conversation (I have a speech impediment). Every thing I do, all the hobbies that I spend thousands of hours on, are also seen as frivolous. I believe that in itself is a big achievement, I have become the useless tree of Zhuangzi

>>19269934
What kind of art?

>>19268667
You went through a conservative phase right? I wonder what you were like then

>>19268732
Damn that’s awful anon. I see copic markers, are you a drawfag?

Why is the world ending a bad thing?

>>19267583
I think it has to do with the abundance of information on hand at all times. It feels silly that a person would take themselves seriously in light of a reality where there’s always a metaphorical Chinese baby on YouTube blowing them the fuck out of the water at any pursuit they could try.

>>19269475
Make a Fivver and Upwork account. On those websites you can easily charge $40USD/hour if you are a decent video editor. Godspeed.

>>19268905
I lost that feeling at 14 from severe trauma

I don’t regret my /lit/weeb phase but I do regret my /lit/weeb phase.

>>19268961
Load of shit. I do physical work for a job. I'm off my phone that whole time and I read every day. Still feel like shit

>>19269007
You marx fags are so delusional

>>19269018
>Like that afforded by having more points in the bank? Having that new car or nicer neighborhood? Yeah, I hate that. Capitalist corruption sucks the life out of us all.
I also hate modernity. we should return to a culture of virtue and sin

>>19269545
Jealous faggot wrote these words.

>>19269826
I have ruined so many threads with your screenshot anon

>>19269382
If religion is the same thing as a team to root for, then we should all just become atheists. No point in being religious if all it is a way to stoke tribalism.

>inb4 “fedora!”
You’re the one telling me that religion is equivalent to a tribe/team. If there is no deeper meaning and that’s all it is, just get rid of it then. And if there is a deeper meaning to religion, then perhaps your analogy is wrong.

>>19267583
You don't need to take yourself seriously in order to pursue major undertakings. You can realize that your character is flawed, your goals and efforts are possibly futile, that they may seem somewhat ridiculous to others and even to yourself, and that you might change your mind on many of them, but still persist about them.

"Not taking yourself seriously" means never becoming blind to your own limitations, fallibility, contradictions, humanity and mortality. It doesn't prevent you from having serious convictions, undertakings and impressions - it merely reminds that however far your reason goes, whatever greatness you achieve, however strong your character becomes - in some ways you are always a dunce, and it's okay. Rejoice when you triumph, but remember to laugh at yourself and the faults that succeeded in spite of, so you won't grow proud. Don't be despaired should you fail - laugh in the face of your own inadequacy, adapt and try again.

I hate women but I want a gf

>>19270508
Well you either learn to love or learn to hate

>>19270568
I developed a crush on a girl who displays interest back. I've trying to train myself to not hate women because I dont want to subconsciously hate heher

>>19268727
>Redbar merch

I really wish I could return to adolescence when I had virtually no responsibilities and could just play JRPGs all day.

i got a piece of the biggest pumpkin ever measured in russia. what should i cook
t. horseanon

People will often times appeal to personal/bodily autonomy in moral arguments e.g. 'you can't rape that woman because it's a violation of her bodily autonomy' but if I have a strong desire to have sex with her and she denies me isn't she violating MY personal autonomy?

>>19270700
shut up mate. big pumpkin

I know it's a silly question, but how do you emotionally deal with a situation where you are arguing with someone, and you make a strong point, and then rather than them admitting that what you're saying makes sense, they basically strawman a single line in your text, then refuse to elaborate and leave the conversation as though they've won? It's incredibly infuriating and it doesn't make sense given the spirit of an anonymous image board.
What is the point of engaging in arguments online on an anonymous image board if you aren't going to be honest about the argument? I don't understand the purpose of arguing disingenuously when everyone is anonymous.

>>19267381
super-supra, outside, into, corruption, temporary, nonfocus, influence, maligned, neverthere and alwayshere, the rightnow in the only future, super, outside, electrical, stimulus, thought is shaped, without itself, shaking, shaking, nervous, manic, from outside, into, where is the inside, from the inside, where is the thoughts, within themselves, forever, forever tainted, from the outside, in, by temporality, eternal, deny it, the outside, coming in, don't let it go back out, focus, nonfocus, shaped, without, shaped, not within, nonfocus, no, focus, no, not whims, from the outside, coming in, where is, from the inside, going out, from the outside, coming in going out, where, is from the inside to the inside going out, don't let it come back out, put out, from out, the out, comes in, and goes out, the same, never change

>>19270800
god, damn, it, where, is the -; the, the : - what? the inside. going, out. where. where is the thing, the thing, that, is not from - the outside - from the - inside - and not from - the temporary - from the, lasting; here, and now, forever.

>>19270809
continuing, in temporality, forever, except - in the breaks - which are, the eternal, shining through, shining through

>>19270750
This is why 4chan sucks, but it's still better Reddit because censorship doesn't occur as often.
You deal with it by not caring about humanity as much anymore.

>>19270750
Just stop arguing.

Reading about the exchanges when Mao unironically offered to emigrate millions of Chinese women to the US
>Let them go to your place. They will create disasters. That way you can lessen our burdens. Do you want our Chinese women? We can give you 10 million. By doing so we can let them flood your country with disaster and impair your interests. We have too many women, and they have a way of doing things. They give birth to too many children. - Chairman Mao

Imagine a world leader getting in hot water now for calling women a burden or 'creating disaster' today lol.

>>19270889
mao was just trolling everyone at that point in his life

Is there any point in learning any languages except African ones like Swahili or French?

>Learn Chinese bro!
Their population is plunging. So is the rest of the non-African world’s.

>>19270901
Spanish is the 2nd most spoken language in the world even if it's mostly developing countries. But the answer to your question is entirely dependent on what you're learning a language for- is it for business? Then what field? If you're in the nuclear field it might behoove you to learn French. If you're in business that works with China then you probably should learn Mandarin.

Tried making Amatraciana. It was alright for a first try.

>>19270901
the african populations will stop growing once the bulk of their development is over too dummy
just learn languages for the hell of it

>>19270901
there is no point in learning any language unless there are specific people you need to actively communicate with through speech. Besides that, language learning is an antiquary leftover from a time when you couldn't just get a translation of anything you wanted to read.

>>19270946
>unless there are specific people you need to actively communicate with through speech
my point in saying this by the way, is that I highly doubt there is anyone in your life or profession that you need to speak to who speaks swahili, or french, or even spanish, for that matter.

>>19269135
if she can't work through her trauma on her own she needs to see a practitioner.

>>19267470
why it seems like the perspective is fucked in that painting? the little table looks odd

>>19267381

I'm drunk and I want to help people.
If you have a question, ask, and maybe I can help?

>>19270889
Isnt that basically what they're doing now? Theres a fuck ton of chinese immigration to the united states

>>19270924
I'm in the Mexican food bussiness

>>19267424
People who seek an excess of one thing, have a deficit of the opposite. Pretty sure women who need constant validation have crippling self-esteem issues.

>>19270953
That just reflects your own personal situation. Knowing spanish would be extremely useful to me and basically everyone in my profession

>>19270889
>>19270899
he probably said that because all the gains from the land reform in the 50s were just eaten up by population growth. eventually they set up the one child policy, but before that he was probably pissed that instead of having a higher standard of living the peasants just had more kids and got even more poor.

>>19267381
I want to suck cock. Should I jerk off?

>>19270205
Thanks anon, I hope I make it.

>>19270750
How little do you know about human psychology if you think anonimity brings out the best in people and not the worst

this guy gave up the opportunity to become a powerful eurocrat so he could filter down lacan for manchildren with letterboxd accounts

>>19270750
most of the argumentative posters on here are from like lithuania and have a script given to them by mysterious employers

>>19271050
yes. suck on your fingers while you do it

>>19271065
i don't understand how anyone finds that guy interesting. he always comes off like a total pseud who just name drops a bunch of radical people and then argues for some centrist liberal shit. he's like the white cornel west.

>>19271071
>mysterious employers
who are actually just the owners of 4channel trying to create more user engagement by making everyone argue.

>>19271091
Read a book for once in your life, Youtube retard

Pls someone respond to me. I'm losing grip on my cohesiveness. I don't want to disappear.

>>19271077
ok, I will try it

>>19271101
hey, whats up?

>>19271091
he's still alive and he hasnt completly sold out to the wokes. The bar is really that low but apparently Zizek was the only one left from the left to get over it

>>19271101
You post this while anonymous?

>>19271113
>he's still alive and he hasnt completly sold out to the wokes.
so you're saying he appeals to you because he's a conservative? got it.

>>19271100
zizek only wrote one important book which was 30 years ago now, sublime object of ideology, which you didn't read, so right back at you

>>19271105
Thank you anon. Can I do anything for you? Questions? Answers?

>>19271114
Well, yes. I just need to know that people react to my actions. This happens every time I drink, and it is very upsetting when I'm alone. I mean, I feel good, right, but I also feel detached from reality. And that's a very uncomfortable feeling. Logically, I know I'm real, but emotionally, it feels like I'm imaginary. Anyway, is there anything I can do for you? Questions? Answers?

>>19271143
Why do you drink anon?

>>19271026
but if you have to ask whether there is a point to learning a language, you probably don't have a job or acquaintances that need a language.

>>19270585
Write down all the bullshit you hate about women on pieces of paper.
Go out and light a candle, read them again and burn them. Saying to yourself something like “I will not generalize an entire sex and blame all for one, I will not judge slights and inadequacies. I will be understanding and forgiving”.

>>19271143
Stop drinking while alone.

>>19271176
mMmmmm. I want to feel like I used to feel when I drank. I usually only drink when I'm with friends, but on occasion, I'll drink alone. I always imagine this time it'll feel like it used to- y'know, free and without worry, but it never works like that anymore. I used to be in a really bad way, and I drank A LOT, but luckily, I have what I like to call an "anti-addictive" personality, which is probably the only reason I'm not dead right now, but I can't always be with my friends, and then I get nervous? I drank when I was younger because I had terrible social anxiety, so I would take a shot before I had to talk to strangers or anything. And I used to hate myself because I'm a NEET, so I drank to try and forget how much I hate myself, but now I've got good meds, so I'm much better, but I remember how it used to feel, and it used to feel good...

I hope everyone's having a great Friday so far. Whos ready to get fucked up tonight?
https://youtu.be/e8QPkD-15GQ

>>19271222
I only do it on occasion, once or twice a month...

>>19271223
Do you hate yourself just for being a NEET?

>>19271252
It's complicated? But being a NEET is sort of shorthand for everything I don't like about myself. I feel like I'm wasting my life, like I have no purpose, like I have nothing to offer, like there's nothing I can be proud of. Now that I'm on the right meds cocktail, I feel A LOT better about myself, but it's always sort of there in the corner of my eye. Everyone tells me this isn't true, everyone tells me they love me and they're proud of me, etc, etc, but knowing and feeling are two very different things. It doesn't help that I'm turning 31 this year...

>>19271214
Sounds pagan

>>19271266
>I feel like I'm wasting my life, like I have no purpose, like I have nothing to offer, like there's nothing I can be proud of.
You and me anon, you and me. I'm also almost 30. I been a NEET for 3 years but had to take a degrading job. Let's drink for misery.

>>19271282
Don’t forget to burn a sardine on a poker and ask the goddesses for forgiveness. Not forgetting to ask Aphrodite to bless this aspiring relationship of yours.

>>19271214
Sounds like one of those retarded things women do

>>19271328
cheers.
but we have to believe we're worth more than whatever we can provide for others. We have to believe that we have value that is completely divorced from anything else.

>>19271361
yeah, maybe, but isn't ruminating on how much you hate something to the point of derangement something women do?

>>19271361
Making meaning in your life and actions through personal ritual?
Oh yeah, do the manly thing and read that antinatalist’s book again. That’ll make the relationship work. Sound footing for a healthy family

how do I stock thinking with my dick and get a meaningful connection. sex is poggers and all but a chaotic life isnt good for a healthy relationship

>>19271369
I want to believe, i really do but to be honest, it would be so damn easy to write yourself off completely.

fuck you. you guys dont know me.
you guys dont know me at all....

>>19271380
OH FUGG

>>19271401
That’s why all remain anonymous.
They’re chicken shit scared to share who they are

wondering when the market's gonna crash. I'm holding out but I expected it to have happened already. I don't understand these things mind you, it just seems about due, and with the Evergrande thing and everything.

>>19271424
Its all gonna crash soon. Everything.

>>19271395
Yeah, that's the worst part. It's so easy to believe it. On an anonymous image board, there's nothing I can really do, except offer platitudes. But we exist in a reality that has been built around merits that are unnatural, in a completely objective way. It sounds insane (and I feel like an idiot saying it) but it's true.

We exist to survive in small social groups, providing for ourselves and the rest of our small social group. Fuck. Anon, we're worth more than that bullshit. Some rich fuck, he can eat my ass.
As long as I'm satisfied, I refuse to hate myself, you know what I mean?

FUCK.

>>19271424
>>19271438
I feel like a crash is due but a crash will never come. They’ll print it away. As for Evergrande, China isn’t having a crash. Xin won’t allow it.

>>19271424
YouTube pushed a DW video on that on me too.
China will have a slowdown. The rest of the world will suffer another crash (last one was at the start of Covid actually). But then we’ll see UBI and other shit cause more inflation. It’ll tumble, but it’ll just take a while.
We’ll see how El Salvador takes it.

>>19271381
Do you also make vision boards

Hey remember when China tested two hypersonic space nukes with technology that the west doesn't understand yet?
Oh yeaah....that was this week.

Its over.

>>19269737
You'll get through this, Anon. Don't worry.

>>19271551
Or perhaps it’s not going to begin. A war with china, that is.

>>19271551
PRC has the mandate of heaven

>>19271562
Did you get this gif from this board? I've never seen anyone else but myself post this gif and im almost certain you got it from me.
Please confirm.

>>19271588
No, I think I got it from /v/ years ago.

>>19271588
these gifs are well known i think
http://www.effectgames.com/effect/article-Old_School_Color_Cycling_with_HTML5.html

>>19271567
>>19271577
Its inevitable. We need to start accepting our overlords.

>>19271551
Socialism with nationalist characteristics is unbeatable, or at least seems that way. It is what is it is.

>>19271592
>>19271601
wow im a total loser

>>19271603
China is just an authoritarian slave state. Socialism with nationalist characteristics would be German National Socialism or Italian Fascism, which harnessed the power of the people through their natural enthusiasm and love of country rather than just enslaving them. Slaves only do the bare minimum.

New janny is deleting posts willy nilly.

>>19271613
Nah bro, you're still in the cool gang.

>>19271614
No, fool.
And schizo. Take a look >>/lit/thread/S19267381#p19271614

I recently read a paper by an Indian Maoist group and I must say, these guys are pretty insane. They unironically think China isn’t communist anymore. I thought Maoists all worshipped China but apparently not.

>>19271637
imagine being this clueless

>>19271551
FUCKING FINALLY
GIVE ME THE NUKE, BABY

>>19271656
I am trying to be less clueless, hence reading leftist theory. I am not a socialist/communist but if I want to understand the threats facing the USA, both external (China) and internal (BLM, etc) an understanding of communism is essential.

>>19271551
>You will have to live through cold war 2.0 during your lifetime
Sigh

>>19268862
good post

>>19271679
Every single communist group accuses the other of not being real communism

>>19271679
The USA is a thread to the people, well, of every continent, but the residents of the North America aren’t an exception to this threat.
I come from that sort of rightwing tradition that distrusts the government immensely.

Who ever makes the new thread, post the fucking link in this thread

>>19271692
>you're going to live through it

>>19271696
Of not being the right way towards communism. Please. No one thinks we’ve ever achieved communism.

>>19271708
I am one though motherfucker, so to speak.

>>19271711
Communism is that magical dragon we'll spend the next few centuries killing hundreds of millions to chase but never catch.

>>19271704
Done.

New thread
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>>19271721
The millennia of killings are to secure slaves for the statists. The continued killing is that beast trying to keep up that tradition

>>19271730
We’ve always resisted.
No use in telling me “might makes right” and “war is nature”. Resistance is natural, change is constant.

>>19271551
thank god geopolitics is interesting again, american hegemony got really boring

i'm horny and bored with jacking off

what the fuck am i supposed to do now

>>19272426
Go get laid.