/lit/ - Literature

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>>19218545

>>19225514
Gaelic cat isn't possible to be from latin
their were pre-roman people called "Catt" and to this day the Gaelic word for Sutherland is "Cat"

>>19225604
languages can have homonyms with different origins. english has a bunch of them

>>19225514
There's a really gorgeous girl who I work with. She's very friendly. If she weren't my co-worker I would ask her out. She probably already has a boyfriend anyway.

>>19225612
>can have homonyms with different origins
the map said it came from latin thats all i was saying.

i should get a driver's license

Do you love your kot, /lit/?

I'am in love with the girl in this picture.

>>19225697
what do you like about her anon

>>19225696
yes, I do

>>19225696
I love your mother's kot

>>19225514
Non dire gatto se non ce l'hai nel sacco.

Anons I think my crush feels pity for me (and not in any good way either)
She and her best friend are customers at the store I work at.
When she got engaged, her best friend who was a maid-of-honor of sorts came by the store to tell us the news, was happy about the dress she wore etc. Couldn't stop talking about it with my female coworker.
My crush (who's probably aware of my feelings because women can always fucking tell) has never even mentioned she's been engaged. Showed up at the store a day later and never uttered a word about the engagement. At least not in front of me.
She always tries to start a convo/small talk with my female coworker when I'm near, but I'm too autistic to get involved in the conversation.

>>19225773
She probably has over 100 bodies, forget that roastie

>>19225696
My cat isn't always the best behaved. He doesn't do any cool tricks, he's always crying for something, and he wakes me up in the middle of the night to be let outside. But he's still the most reliable person in my life. He has always been there to cheer me up.

>>19225719
Her soft lips,cute nose and also those big eyes that show bits of benevolent mischievousness but also pride, giving off she isn't going to be submissive and might even end up leading the relationship.

>>19225514
I'm unable to escape materialism and philosophical pessimism. I'm in the process of losing a close family member.

I'm not going to make it.

Men with femdom fetishes are just lazy.

>>19225790
I'm pretty sure that's Shirai Kuroko from Railgun

>>19225803
I know, but the way the artist drew her she feels like her own person.

The path to success may as well be a self serving loop. When I mean I don't mean you're the top of the world, just that you're doing good or great enough that you don't fall flat on your face literally and figuratively. Once you know or learn how to do good in something, everything sort of clicks and in turn helps in the next thing. And despite set backs, you'll know how to go about it again.
If you're never taught or learnt it, setting out feels nigh impossible.

I feel so alone. All I want is to able to connect with one person on this planet. It is my dying wish.

i wanna do a physics degree for the hell of it

>>19225514
That Sami word is neat.

i'm kinda bummed that franzen's publisher didn't hire a marketing/publicity firm that would include spamming us with threads about crossroads. it's getting a load of coverage in tradition media, but i guess they didn't bother to pay for any social shills. too bad, cuz i kind of want to talk about it. oh well.

https://youtu.be/_wYtNemyfsA

>>19225604
Cat has multiple meanings and spellings in Irish, including cats, but also including pine martens and calamities. Cath means battle, and lots of Irish names are derived from that too.
Latin and Romance languages introduced a lot of words into Irish, as did Germanic languages. For example the Irish word for church can be séipéal (from the French, chapelle) or eaglais (from the Greek, ekklesiastes). Sometimes names would arrive from two different languages and get two different spellings for example: Seán from Jean, and Eoin from Johan, all of which would be John in English.

>>19225893
I sometimes wish I did, but I went the CS route. Ah well, there’s always OCW and /sci/-charts

>>19225819
She has eyes only for her onee-sama

>>19225697
That’s not a girl. It is only a picture.

>>19226449
Better than a girl.

>>19226453
this girl hot

>>19226427
i'd like to do research into astronomy, especially on the theoretical mathematical side of things. not sure if i need academia for that

>>19226453
This is why the girls were trying to get you guys to quit porn.

>>19226481
Also. Online/social/antisocial media is a type of porn

I just poo'd but i feel like I still have poo inside me

>>19226460
based

>>19226412
My irish family says moggy is gaelic for cat

>>19226481
Yeah but I hate women

So I began posting on 4chan in 2019 (newfag, sue me). But I feel like I was on 4chan when I was much younger. When I was a child I had a computer, and 99% percent of my time on it was spent in Microsoft Paint. But when I see the old theme of 4chan (the reddish background, Times New Roman font, etc) and some of the nostalgia memes… I *remember* this stuff. I’ve been thinking about it and I when I was a kid, I liked this one manga, Cardcaptor Sakura. I was definitely looking it up online at the time. I feel like I must have ended up on /a/ sometime during those days. When I returned to 4chan two years ago, it felt very natural, like there’s some repressed/forgotten memory of lurking here which felt at home.

>>19226481
Porn is separate. Competes with it though

>>19225696
I had two cots. I liked one more than the other. The one I liked more disappeared one day.

>>19225696
My kot is back home with my family. I moved far away some years ago. I didn't realize until recently how old she is. She probably doesn't have long left; her health is wavering and her personality is changing, as you sometimes see in elderly people. I ask about her when I talk to my parents.

>>19226499
Your Irish family are trolling you.

>>19225514
Men are the wombs of thought and women are the wombs of men.

>>19226555
I just looked it up. Appears to be british slang for cat. Thats how all my family over there refers to cats as anyway

I am totally atomized. A perfect product of modernity. My dad decided to move us from his small european town to a major metropolitan area in america. I grew up totally separated from all of my relatives. Never knew my cousins, uncles, aunts, or grandparents. But from there my immediate family disintegrated. My dad got divorced, and my brothers became drug addicts and were split off from us. My dad remarried an asian woman and we moved into an ethnic asian neighborhood. I could never really connect with the general american culture for being European and I was always an outsider in the asian and mexican neighborhoods in my area. My dad was always too busy with work to ever put me into sports or hobbies or other programs. I was often the last kid left at the after school program because he would forget to pick me up. Because my dad grew up in a small European village he just assumed kids could go play in the neighborhood unattended and integrate into the community. Not like that in ethnic zones of major cities.
I've basically been totally isolated since childhood. No extended family, no immediate family, no ethnic or cultural community, no religious community because we're secular. I've just been totally deprived of any social institution. I got into ethnic identatairianism (white nationalism) some years ago but realized it's all a fucking cope and dropped it. I was doomed from the start

>>19226614
yeah, you're probably just attributing the psychological effects of bad parenthood onto dumb ethnic/race stuff

>>19226560
How humble

>>19226614
Don't all the yuropoor countries have laws of return? Go back and get your free college and stop complaining

I think it would be pathetic to go back to school at my age but there is literally nothing else to do.

>>19226658
I want some life experience, I want to go out and see things, feel things, observe, but I’ve been rotting away since I am 18 and there’s nowhere else to go, nothing to do.

>>19226623
That racial element is just one aspect among many. But it is a real thing. I've been around various asian, armenian, and mexican communities and I will always be an outsider to them. Its most agitating when even at home whenever people come over they all start speaking a gook language and I just have sit there totally left out. I dropped Identitarianism because it isnt comprehensive enough, espeically for my own personal circumstance. It was like piecing together an identity like Dr Frankenstein building his monster. >>19226643
I went back to check it out recently. No fucking way I'm living there. I've been away since I was very young and don't fit into the culture. And theres a lot of negative things about the country. I'm better off in America

>>19226672
>they all start speaking a gook language and I just have sit there totally left out.
Have you tried learning that language?

>>19226693
You try learning vietnamese

>>19225893
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OaYVdgdjUk0

>>19226712
Ni how, Yaung yi? porree ree qui gong dong pon kraut.

>>19226768
More like
>bong bow gyuuuuuuhhh goo goo ang ang ang nyahhhhhh gung buhhhhh
In rapid fire.

>>19226658
Have you considered getting a job? heard employeers are really stretched for employees. If you are going for the job market, now (or preferably 3 months ago) is the time.

>>19225696
As a Dutchmen I like my wives kut a lot.

>>19226781
Churri churriiiiii! Noa Noa, good, mi ha ang nyannnya NYANNAA NOOO, BUngdapee!

>>19225696
dogs are better.

>>19225514
eternal life is the free gift of God with no strings attached. if you'd like to receive it, and have the 100% assurance of going to heaven, watch this gospel video. you can't work your way to heaven by repenting of your sins or giving your life to jesus. salvation is by faith only. you don't have to perish in hell for your sins /lit/, it's easy to be forgiven.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sEawcSFuCTw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sEawcSFuCTw

>>19225697
Bitch looks like she has the Downs.

>>19226614
>I got into ethnic identatairianism (white nationalism) some years ago but realized it's all a fucking cope and dropped it. I was doomed from the start
Just continue with in Anon, it saved ne

>>19226788
I like your wife’s Köttur

>>19226795
mutt

>>19226851
*tickles u*

hehe myau myau

this right?
>The lifting of the veil of Maya and the subsequent banishment of the banality of existence is necessarily a transient phenomenon, for as soon as the veil is lifted it endeavors immediately and forcefully to reassert itself, just as the blood rushes to clot an opening in the skin. The will endeavors to gain in both lower and higher intellects an ideality through which relations between individual objects and the whole itself may be understood. This is how the vanity of the will asserts itself in consciousness, by insisting on systematizations which are on the one hand necessary for a continuation of life itself, but on the other hand act as the primary antagonists of sublime experience. Only on rare and fleeting occasions do we observe those sublime experiences which defy classification, but as quickly as they come they are integrated into our subjective vision of the system of reality and rendered commonplace. The easiest example to point to is that of music: a new song permits of a full appreciation of its sublimity, but upon subsequent listening it becomes commonplace and diluted. The more subsequent experiences we encounter, the more comprehensive our systems become, so that even fresh experiences contain so many traces of what has already been encountered and compartmentalized that they themselves impart less and less of the sublime as time marches on. This is why the dreamlike age of childhood is so giddy, and why the lot of aged men is so banal and toilsome.

>>19225514
I was born for greatness. I will be like Napoleon.

>>19226783
I have a job. I graduated years ago. Hate it. Hated the degree. Hate the job.

Tomorrow will be my first date after 29 years on this earth. I don't even think about it. Whatever happens, happens. Yet, do you think I should mention this tomorrow? Better not I guess?

>>19226974
Don’t mention it. Have fun anon, dating can be pleasurable

Should I move to New York or go overseas to Europe for a while?

>>19226994
I won't mention fine, but she'll notice for sure.
What's funny that my whole life I thought this would never happen and now where it's close I feel nothing. I thought I would feel pleasant anticipation, tension, but all there is is a little bit of fear.

>>19227013
Yeah everything just goes numb after a while. I havent felt excitment about anything since I was about 15

Damn it I'm just so fucking angry and bitter and resentful and full of regret and all I can do is blog post here about it. I feel so trapped and impotent

Hong Kong seems to have been a really cool place in the 90s. rest in peace, Hong Kong.

>>19226995
What are your prospects in New York?

>>19227092
I work for the government so I’d probably just end up doing something similar.

it does not exist anymore, will not exist again. it is over. I ruined it.

>>19226804
>eternal life is the free gift of God with no strings attached
>you can't work your way to heaven by repenting of your sins or giving your life to jesus. salvation is by faith only

Sounds like there are strings attached though

My girl has shown some interest in pegging me. It's odd because, on one hand, I would like to be dominated, but at the same time I'm ashamed of her seeing me in that state.
One time, she vigorously fingered my ass. And I'm still a little bit ashamed of that.
It's even stranger territory because I'm usually the one dominating and degrading her during sex.
I think I won't let her do it for now. But I don't know how I'll feel in the future.

>>19227257
Why would you let yourself be humiliated like that?

>>19226412
>irish
cool i never mentioned it

>>19227257
Most chicks are super turned off by that. You're lucky to have a woman who doesnt immediately drop you over it

>>19227270
I can't give you a logical reason.
I'm fascinated with erotic humiliation and I enjoy inflicting it on others as well as receiving it.
It's a very primal thing, akin to a desire for food almost.

>>19227286
Yeah, she's a great girl and very open minded.

I was hit by that thing they call love.

The bad thing about depression is you stop caring. The good thing about depression is you don't care.

>>19227279
Irish and Scottish Gael are both descended from the same language, same as Manx. Manx just spells it that way because it's written so English speakers can learn it.

If I was successful at achieving my goals, I'd have killed myself a long time ago

I'm scared of my gf

i dug myself into a hole and now i can't get out and am depressed. what a life

i think i let something into my mind and now it’s trying to kill me

I’m so tired all the time

>>19227607
How deep is the hole

>>19227605
y

>>19227605
don't be, she's a paper tiger

im starting to think that the weed might be smoking me...

I finally finally finally got up the courage to delete and block your phone number. You no longer have power over me. In that moment a 50,000lb weight had been lifted and I can breathe again.
I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul

>>19227679
>being such a fag that it takes monumental effort to block someone
>being even more of a fag that you blog about it on /lit/

>>19227688
I’ll take that. Fuck off. Thank you.

>>19227059
Many you need to get good at being angry rather than just whine like a bitch. Allow me to enlighten.

You need to go on a warpath. Your heart must harden into stone and your soul freeze into ice You must feel a generalized and ambient wrath towards everyone and everything and swell with contempt for the entire universe. What you must feel is a profound, almost divine wrath, which pervades and overwhelms all space and time and breathes itself and envenoms the very fabric of existence.

Hate is not the right word, nor is fury, or rage. Hate carries a certain petty spite, one gets the impression that the hater’s will is subordinate to the hated. Hatred is too small and petty. Fury and rage, in contrast, lack conviction and clarity. They’re wild and primal, uncontrolled. No, wrath is what you must feel. It must build itself into you with a deep force and power, tell you your own worth, teaches you who you are. It must be revelatory. It must rescue you from insanity rather than drives you into it, as does simple madness.

Such wrath is nothing short than the adamant desire to make your truth known, to overcome this false world of lies with the truth you possess and which like a great torch drives out and dispels the shadows of ignorance.

guess what
just cried

>>19227665
She's hot

>>19226693
>>19226712
tiếng việt dễ hơn bạn nghĩ

>>19225514
I find it severely difficult to remember a very large chunk of the thoughts that obsess me during my waking moments. It's a really disheartening and sad feeling to see them all slip by me like that, all those ideas and potential avenues of exploration just wasted. Is there any remedy at all for this sort of forgetfulness? I'm mostly on the move during the day so i don't have the time to note them down, and whenever i do try to write they're already gone, finding myself struggling to recall whatever it is that was on my mind just ten minutes ago. Maybe it's a serious case of ADD. I need help. I can't afford to remain this forgetful for longer. Very embarrassing.

>>19227860
voice recorder

>>19227424
>from the same language,
They were split over 2000 years ago

>>19227864
i tried this, but the more complicated method of reconnecting with those thoughts, an in it takes longer to find a precise passage in audio than in visual form, + the strange vanity and subsequent disgust associated with listening to my own voice are major turnoffs.

Is fascism like literally getting cucked?

>>19227952
I am sort of blackpilled (although /pol/ would consider it a whitepill) on fascism. The way I see it, It is inevitable. Every ideology becomes fascism, given enough time. Fascism is ideology in decay, and capitalist and communist alike are doomed to become fascists in the end.

>>19227873
All three come from Middle Irish around 900-1200 AD. That's why northern dialects of Irish and Manx still share vocabulary with Scottish Gael they don't share with southern dialects.

>>19227952
>your life only has value if you die in battle protecting some populist leader who promised he could change everything but really just perpetuates the status quo

most cucked thing i can think of

>>19227952
Depends on the time period. Sometimes Roman fascism was severely cucked by war widows.

>>19227860
Try associate your thoughts with things you are already familiar with and keep repeating that until you write it down. Creating an absurd image associated with your thought can also help you with memorization, because images are easier to remember than abstract concepts.

>>19227679
based and freedom-pilled
wagmi

>>19227926
i see, for me it just kind of flows out of myself in real time and through enough experience ive been able to recognize when the moment is coming. the sort of onset of a thought

a legitimate question: how do other people walk into literally any room or building and not completely freak the fuck out/become incredibly anxious at the fact that every object or entity therein exists and is present to them and their mind to consider? for instance, say I walk into a coffee shop or something (it can be whatever). there's like a million fucking things that take up space there, which means I can calculate their volume. if I'm not able to reasonably approximate that in my head, I get scared as fuck that I'm non intelligent. And of course, that's only one thing to ponder on with all the given objects near you, one thing out of a probably infinite set that's contained in only one minor space (the current environment you occupy). What if I can't construct the geometry of the room in my head with algebraic equations? you can also attempt to trace back the origin of every single object in the room, trying to figure out where they come from and why they are currently here. that could take a while too, and finding out you're incapable of even that feels awful. or why everything is here. and eventually you can turn to the construction of things and how they are fashioned, and find out you cannot explain the style or what it was derivative of or what it's attempting to imitate or the function it's suppose to have or where the materials were gathered then you think you don't even know material science so you can;t explain anything, or to go back another level of generality: why it was arranged in this manner for this purpose, then figure you can't even create something similar even though you can be certain that its aesthetic value is nil. When I see something fashioned out of wood am I supposed to try to imagine the entire life of the specific tree it came from? and dear god there might even be other living People in wherever it is that you are; how do you even begin to account for the existence of other human beings? and existence of some thing is just the start; you can turn yourself to thinking about the intricate social games and signaling People play with each other (talking, movement of the Body), and their hidden motives, and so many other things are derivative of that. Is this just what it's like to be dumb? how am I supposed to feel okay doing anything when I'm so uncomfortable about this, this lack of ability to account for the existence of things and their properties? there's a million other things too (its most likely infinite like I said), but I don;'t feel like listing them. But it's also confusing because if I hear any other person speak they don't even seem to care about any of this, they're usually just saying empty things

>>19228015
But sometimes i think getting cucked is the natural state of things. Even in a republic you’re getting cucked.

>>19228007
>Middle Irish
Scottish Gaelic has nothing to do with Ireland.
Such an ignorant claim.
Both arrived from Gaulish refugees of the 200s BC.

Just preheat the oven you PSYCHO.

women make my dick go mad

>>19228151
why do you like obese women?

>>19228091
You learn to ignore your mind's insistence on fixation or you go insane. I instead just obsess over subjects that I read about/study, when I was younger I would obsess over competitive video games until I'd get to a point of mastery/high rating and quit.

>>19228188
Whenever I find myself telling myself it's okay to not think about those types of things, there's my daemon telling me that that is a trap to stop me from investigating the potential Truth, and that I'm an idiot and have low iq for not attempting to find out. and even when I do do something that I think I want to do, i still find those thoughts coming back and it makes me uncomfortable

>>19228188
>>19228227
Also I have a very hard time ordering activities, there's so much I believe I want to do and experience, but they can';t all be done simultaneously and in parallel, but I have difficulty dividing them and that makes things very anxious too because I just end up worrying instead, also my thinking is too discrete I think

I wish there was a place where you could party like a human being. Slightly more lively than modern bar. Where you sit on chairs at tables while some literally who plays whatever instrument in the corner and you can get drunk without going broke. Maybe a small dancefloor. Not for me because I would rather chew my own leg off before I ever danced but others may.
Everything here is either expensive and full of assheads and horrible music or cheap-ish and sad and full of alcoholics or arabs.

>>19228182
why was this deleted?

All my life I've dealt with horrible headaches. I used to swallow Ibuprofen like it was candy. Decided that was unhealthy for me so about two years ago I decided to try and resolve my headaches naturally by drinking a shit tonne of water (enough water that you simply don't want to drink any more, and then keep drinking) and just toughing them out. It's tough but I think it's better for me and my headaches are less frequent.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FglxuS-ilY0
i never realized how much character you could condense in a simple sequence of joyful dancing. this entire channel makes me appreciate the joy in the little details that tend to slip through in the pits of self absorption. might save my life.

>>19228310
Those places exist, They are dying yes. But they existed once. I don't know where you might find them though.

>>19228156
low T faggot detected

>>19228403
>no-no my wife has large hips
>well yes she has no visible arse but it definitely isnt fat!

>>19228156
>obese
??

>>19227732
Ah thank you anon for the explanation. I see this is the process I am undergoing.

going through old things. there's a lil wayne song called "trouble" with a part that goes

"And just the other day my nigga Chris killed hisself
I pray to God that I never feel the way he felt
Where do we go when there's no help?
He figured heaven so he went left
yall know that ain't right
Plus he was high as a plane on that same night
shit I probably been on that same flight
shit I probably had that same fight
I just kept swinging
twelfth round coming, bell's ringing"

that has been very important to me in a number of ways. Years later a guy I knew.. we weren't close, really, but I knew him pretty well, killed himself. I wasn't moved at all when I got the news. I just thought, literally, "he went left", but I had forgotten about this line. I understand now where that thought came from. That's all, he went left.

Don't kill yourself though. Your moma will be real sad and besides if wayne and me are alive you can live too.

>>19228418
Big hips is great
Phatass+big hips even greater
Sorry to break it to ya anon, but you're not a high T architect

The last five girls I've slept with have all begged me to choke them. Is this the pornification of culture?

>>19228525
Nah I think they just like the feeling of the guy being completely in charge

>>19227732
Eloquently put, anon.

>>19228538
THIS

The girl I'm hooking up with is your average femminist. But in a bed talk, she said deep down she wants a husband who dominates the relationship (not mistreat, but take the lead)

>>19225514
I'm a genius. My name will go down in literary and musical history.

How come I fantasize about having multiple wives when I can't even get a single gf? I've slept with girls but I have never been in a longterm relationship.

>>19225514
I can’t fucking take it anymore

I wonder if MC Ride got the vaccine

expired amphetamines

>>19227952
Huh, this image pretty much accurately sums up what I believe.

>>19228649
Of course he did. He'd need it to do concerts. Or he bought a vaxx passport on the darkweb.

>>19228538
Women do love a strong man but I think there is something going wrong with even hetero sexual relationships

>>19228737
>He'd need it to do concerts.
True, fair enough. Though when was the last time Death Grips toured?

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>>19228624
Me too.

>>19226481
>the girls
Who?

>>19227732
Nah. Dont believe in that. I tried the warpath thing and its just soul crushing.

>>19228127
It's a linguistic fact. Scottish Gaelic has a lot to do with Ireland, as they intermarried and often dynasties held lands in both or traded between the two. Records in middle Irish cast the history back further than you do, with old Irish sources having common myths between the two indicating a shared cultural history where both were aware of the other's geography and considered it linked.

>>19227732
I'm far too sentimental to manage this, I'm the archetypal tragedy dweeb. let's hope I at least manage to die in a worthy manner.

>>19228525
THEYRE WHORES

not hard to understand retard

Hence a certain tension between religion and society marks the higher stages of every civilization. Religion begins by offering magical aid to harassed and bewildered men; it culminates by giving to a people that unity of morals and belief which seems so favorable to statesmanship and art; it ends by fighting suicidally in the lost cause of the past. For as knowledge grows or alters continually, it clashes with mythology and theology, which change with geological leisureliness. Priestly control of arts and letters is then felt as a galling shackle or hateful barrier, and intellectual history takes on the character of a "conflict between science and religion." Institutions which were at first in the hands of the clergy, like law and punishment, education and morals, marriage and divorce, tend to escape from ecclesiastical control, and become secular, perhaps profane. The intellectual classes abandon the ancient theology and—after some hesitation—the moral code allied with it; literature and philosophy become anticlerical. The movement of liberation rises to an exuberant worship of reason, and falls to a paralyzing disillusionment with every dogma and every idea. Conduct, deprived of its religious supports, deteriorates into epicurean chaos; and life itself, shorn of consoling faith, becomes a burden alike to conscious poverty and to weary wealth. In the end a society and its religion tend to fall together, like body and soul, in a harmonious death. Meanwhile, among the oppressed another myth arises, gives new form to human hope, new courage to human effort, and after centuries of chaos builds another civilization.

>>19229002
I don't sleep with whores, I only sleep with women I'm in love with

I just spent one fully day without sleep writing my assignments which I had 3 months for and I still couldn't even meet the deadline. I thought writing shit early is a meme. Well it's fucking not. Do your shit as early as possible fellas. I dont feel too good. fuck

>>19229041
kek I don't get how many useless people end up at university. How hard is it to think a little bit further ahead? God knows you're paying so much for your education, I don't get why people seem constitutionally averse to actually doing the work.

>>19228525
One or two in a row might be a fluke or a social trend. But if it's five, you ought to start wondering what about you is attracting you to women like that.

>>19225783
w-what about us, anon?

I hate everything I read. I used to live to consume art but now art doesn’t do it for me. I think I’m really going to kill myself. I can’t live like this for too long.

>>19229047
the thing is it wasn't just plain laziness but more like a lack of structure and idea for what I wanted to write about. For a long time I just had no topic in my mind at all so I just started reading books here and there to pick something up. Ultimately it worked but it took me way too fucking long.

>>19227821
I am physically unable to make the noises required to speak the language. I am also tone deaf making the whole tone thing really fucking hard

>>19229073
Try a visual medium.

Macool, Macool, orra whyi deed ye diie?

>>19229040
lol

>>19228686
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YgHNtzxO0y8

Is someone willing to help me figure out if someone saw me jerk off through a window that was half closed?

>>19225514
As I was walking out of a room today at my university's campus center some guy quietly said ching chong, not thinking I would hear it, or maybe thinking I was too much or a bitch to do anything about it. I went back in went up to his face and called him out on it, at which point he began apologizing profusely. I said i dont take that shit from nobody. I wish I had told him to go fuck himself on top of that, but I'm still proud for having stood up for myself. I may not look it but I won't be taken for a fucking bitch kek

>>19229274
i would say that it is necessary for people to know that i am the xi jinping of weed smoking. good vid tho. Tyrone is a real businessman
>>19229282
sure

>>19229285
Ching chong

>>19229285
so fucking based

>>19229285
Gook

>>19229293
1/2
Look, I had the window half open because I guess I was supposed to be looking out for something, type of window was pic related. Now I'm wondering because a person passed by 4 times and it made sense because I guess that's their routine and they passed by fast or normal, so from that alone you wouldn't get the idea, I was already obscuring it by lifting a leg and pausing but still. There was a curtain that covered most of the window, expanding from the center to the sides so the trouble areas are two narrow, less than a third of the surface each.

I think I'm developing a tummy fetish. All my dreams last night were about the stomachs of fit girls. Even when they were fully nude I could only focus on their stomach.

>>19229323
You're averting your gaze away from their breasts and their sex organs. You're focussing your sexual energy on something non sexual. Must be repressed homosexuality

>>19229320
>>19229293
Picture that they might have been open like at that level so from the inside I get a decent look at the outside, I opened another window to a similar degree (got lazy and didn't measure it) and wen to check the visibility, it wasn't that observable, you really needed to make the effort to see but I might have fucked up the inclination.
This person is shorter than me and that makes me wonder if the openings in the window would show them a different picture, they passed by quite quickly, repeating myself here, so it would have to be the them seeing me obscuring my dick in my hand with my leg and so in peripheral vision (4 times mind you) so what do you think? Should I do more testing later? I can't fucking ask but I did the string thing for tracing eyesight, you're looking at a line inclined below zero (25-30 degrees) moving to the right, tracking my position respective to the biggest openings in the window

>>19229285
why would that upset you... are you asian?

>>19229323
Flat tummies and slightly rounded tummies are based and cute. Fit tummies are cringe and manly and you're probably gay.

>>19229372
While its entirely possible that this person saw you jerking off(especially because of their potential short stature lining up perfectly with the incline). I don't think they did.
Why did they walk by 4 times though?
But more importantly, if you were aware they were walking by(on 4 occasions) why didn't you stop?

>>19229362
>>19229396
No, I'm not gay whatsoever. So I think men are often more attractive than women, but that doesn't make me gay. I just appreciate the beauty of good physique.

i feel like the only good place to work in higher ed might be a middle tier like top 50 to 20 school. not so low there are chuds everywhere, but not so high that powerful people try to meddle in your internal affairs. all i know is the low tier is kind of like a nightmare.

>>19229413
I wasn't aware the first two, I was like, look I wasn't jerking off at that precise moment, I hid. The next two I was wary, I was fucking lazy.
>>19229413
>While its entirely possible that this person saw you jerking off(especially because of their potential short stature lining up perfectly with the incline). I don't think they did.
You don't think they did? Why? Wouldn't it be relative to their height though? If it works like the pic related >>19229320 then (I went to count it, the areas could be number 5, 6, 7 and 8 from the bottom to up, out of 17.
>>19229413
>Why did they walk by 4 times though?
Don't know, they unlocked their door two times I think, first one, goes in, key sound, does something, out, then comes back and does something, out.

>>19229435
>>19229413
They went by quickly, but normal, what do you think now? What other information could I give you? What other testing can I do? Interact with them and notice their reactions? What should I look for? I thought of going outside my window and peeking back inside BUT I thought, fuck what if they come back and NOW i really look like something else.

>>19229237
Paintings and movies don’t do it for me too anymore. I feel literally dead.

>>19229418
>often
Hmmmmm

>>19229452
every so often i'll have a flash of that where i think about how art has no value it's just made up crap by some dude. best thing in those moments is geek out on some tech shit, then it will pass and you can get back into it.

>>19229320
>>19229413
>>19229372
>>19229293
>>19229435
Can't account for height, might take an actual pic later and draw over it but this is how it would look like, if you had X ray vision and were looking directly at the window
Blue lines = actual size of real life window
Brown = curtains

>>19225514
I always hit my maid and smack her ass, but she is always cold to me. My dad does the same and she is all soft and giggily with him. What am I suppose to do with Veronica for her to giggle on my chest?

>>19229487

>>19229453
Less women have as nice abs. However, I'm not sexually attracted to those male bodies with nice abs, but they look cool.

>>19229498
have sex with her, be a high status male

>>19229293
well that has to be hands down the most reddit thing ever posted on this website

>>19229435
>>19229487
yea man i really think you're just tripping yourself out.
you said it yourself, for them to have seen you it would have to be
>while walking by (quickly)
>through 1/3rd of a window
>through a crazy incline in the blinds
>though their peripheral
also its hard to look into a window when you are outside due to the lighting(unless your room was lit up and where they were walking was shady)
I don't think they saw you jerking off, even if they walked by 4 times.
>>19229519
grow up

>>19229514
Gay

>>19229533
It was 3 o clock, around that time. Room wasn't dark but it was naturally lit (thanks to the window)
I don't think they saw me but I have to test it nonetheless, I will leave something there and check myself tomorrow while repeating the motion, my height and their height, biggest obstacle is the fact that I forgot the inclination of the window, while testing it after that so I might be scaring myself by opening it more, note down the visibility I have on it.
Thanks for the help, hope you're right.

you kind of smell.....
like a baka~~~

>>19229517
She keeps calling my older brothers and my dad "Sí Señor" and me "Chico malo".

She will call me Señor by the end of october I bet you that round ass of her.

>>19229418
>So I think men are often more attractive than women
>I just appreciate the beauty of good physique.
never a non-gay man say this in entire history. just informing you. im serious. being gay is not something bad. just accept it.

I feel happy to be alive today, a bit strange for someone who feels so depressed most of the time.
I have a job interview tomorrow and it feels like im prepping for war. I'm hyped

>>19229676
good luck bro. kill em!

Butterfly's manly nostrils

aww shit new the juan maclean just dropped, plz be good, plz be good, i need some new indie brooklyn shit to make living in the city feel ok

>>19229452
Maybe comics? There's some high culture ones out there you could try.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZ6k4dmeoeo

getting high and eating large quantities of pie

i hate coomers so much

>>19229065
There are some nice anons here but I don't think most of the people welcome my kind.

I'm Jewish

>>19229285
Once back in uni I was looking for where the Ubers came to pick up people and I asked a dude if he was also waiting for an Uber. He gave me a look of disgust and said "I'm never getting on an Uber with your kind of people" before walking away. I was confused and thought he must be a student in the rival college. Later that night I realized it was probably because I wear a turban.

>>19229285
Good on you anon.

I dunno if this is cringe or whatnot but whenever I read about political stuff I always self-insert:
>Dude, I could totally be President of the USA or France or Brazil
>Dude, I could totally be the General Secretary of the CCP
>Dude, I could totally be the leader of the vanguard party in a socialist state
>Dude, I could totally be a king
>Dude, I could totally be fascist dictator
I think I don't actually care about politics, I just like fantasizing about being the king of the hill

>>19229761
Imagine your whole personality being
>DOOOD WEED LMAO

>>19230017
I'd like to insert myself into you, if you know what I mean.

>>19230017
im the jair bolsonaro of weed smoking
>>19230022
i do other stuff too

>>19229963
are u on board with destroying the white race

>>19230025
I don't know what you mean, mind explaining? :)

Why are people like this

>>19230049
A part of me feels like this is a /pol/-type false-flagging, because I can't see someone seriously suggesting spamming interracial porn and the like as a political act. The first statement just is weird, like a "damn wouldn't it be crazy if we did all of this? This is clearly a false-flag!" Then again leftists are an unhinged lot so who knows.

>>19230049
>a leftist promoting windows and google chrome instead of linux.
political people always end retarded just of so many twists to justify whatever ideology.

>>19230101
Use-values aren't the overthrowing of the value-form mate. The point is to socialise Apple under workers control, not to sell more linux installations via Samsung.

>>19230105
>not to sell more linux installations
what are you talking about?.

>>19230112
I assume he means Android phones

>>19230105
>trust the plan bro, once we turn Apple into a goliath we'll surely be able to put it under the workers' control
Stuff like this is why I consider people like Bezos and Zuckerberg and the Waltons to be America's vanguard party.

>>19225697
Kuroko is a teleporting anime lesbian!

>>19225604
Gaelic and Latin both have proto-info-European roots. There are cognates of each other.

>>19226490
Lol this is my gf

>>19225514
>browsing 4chan at work
>/int/ is full of horny shit
>/lit/ is full of pseuds
>depressing music in the background at the office
>reminder that everyone around me is a normie
clown world

>>19230033
are you a nigger/spic by any chance?

>>19230154
Thats not what the map says

>>19228982
It is impossible Scottish Gaelic came fron Ireland which you'd know if you knew anything about it.

>>19229285
>hooi I said raaait to him dat he was a filthy dog and xi wirr save us

it's illegal for me to go farther than 5km from my house for any reason

>>19230367
I hope you got the jab, anon

>>19230374
if I get the jab will mummy let me outside for playtime again

>>19230374
I will never take it, better to die with honour rather than giving my soul to the devil !

>>19226614
That's pretty much what I went through, except there wasn't a divorce, and we moved to a spic neighborhood in the Bronx. We had a large family back in our homeland, lived with my grandparents and my uncles, aunts, and cousins would come over on weekends (and often throughout the week as well). I used to play for hours every day, had a huge group of friends and was a happy kid. I was uprooted form all of that in an instant because
>HURR MURICA BEST COUNTRY YOU CAN MAKE MONNIE
Eventually we moved away from the Bronx and travelled around but that whole country is a soulless hellscape populated with degenerates. I am utterly baffled at how people take their old world lives for granted and can so easily sacrifice God, rootedness, family, community, and culture on the altar of money

after I was psychotic I didn't receive any care at all, and my family didn't understand at all. .They thought I needed rehabilitation, asap. My grandpa used to teach driving and I knew roughly how to drive but could use practice, so we went out in his car. Now I don't understand how it can be that a person can be as miserable and as suicidla as I was then, but either way I didn't tell anyone I felt tha tway. There were clear gaps between my sensory life and reality, it didn't connect right anymore. I'd sort of black out here and there, and I'd get stuck on something and just stare it, sometimes for a really long time, without understanding anything or knowing anything of what happened around me. But we went driving, me in the drivers seat. And I remember at some point there was a truck in oncoming traffic, proper big one. And I did kind of black out, and I had to actively fight the instinct to steer into it, the movement was in my arms but I had to fight it. I fought it because grandpa was in the car. My grandma was halfway gone into alzheimers and I thought "she needs him, I can't kill him too, she needs him". And that's the reason he's alive today.

How wonderful it must be
To be a working bee
It must be
It is to be a working bee
It is to be
To be a working bee it is
Must be wonderful to be
A working bee must be
Wonderful it is
To bee

>>19230492
you're the firs people I tell this to. this was 8 years ago

I've consumed enough media to realize that there's insane potential in every art form just waiting to be tapped, but 90% of works don't even come close to doing this, and there's a handful of works in each art form that illuminate how much better things could be if we put in the effort. I think both Flaubert and Nabokov realized this, and it's why they had such unique styles and paid exquisite attention to detail like no one else, they realized it was worth it.

It's honestly hard to convey the full extent of this realization. Let me try it this way: You know that certain stuff in art makes you feel good. In a song, lyrics can be pretty impactful, right? Everyone knows this, people quote songs by The Smiths all the damn time. Yet nearly 40 years after The Smiths, still almost no one's trying to write good lyrics. Two other artists who write good lyrics are Edwyn Collins and Arab Strap, by the way - check them out. Anyway, imagine if you want to make your music as good as possible. By trying to write good lyrics, you're immediately ahead of most people since they don't even try. And about songwriting - well, that's harder, but you can start by NEVER including anything on a finished product when you know it's not filler - when it's just "good enough".

Okay, great, already you're ahead of the competition. Now what? Here is where you can move from good to great. There are a billion ways to do this, creativity is the name of the game, but for the love of god do something. One underutilized technique in rock music is having each song flow into the next. Two of my favorite albums do this (And The Glass Handed Kites by Mew and The Walking by Jane Siberry), and it seriously deserves to be a more popular technique. But beyond that, you can have a THEME to your music like literature does. You can make it revolve around a subject, and through the freedom of creative expression you can do whatever with the theme you want, including delivering a very concrete message about the topic, or just shrouding your true beliefs in ambiguity. And not to mention storytelling. How many musicians even attempt some kind of story in their songs? It's a depressingly small number. This is one reason Slint are excellent.

Honestly, bands like Neutral Milk Hotel and Slint are fantastic, but they're not on some unreachable plane of talent and skill other people cannot reach. It's mostly just that they paid attention to things 99% of bands don't and actually aspired to create something with a genuine theme and artistic direction. The crazy thing I've realized is that even these 1 in 1000 works of art I love usually excel in one or two areas, and then have all these other ways they could be done better. This is pretty much the state of affairs for every art form. Probably the most untapped potential currently lies in animation and video games, just because the possibilities are insane, but it takes a budget and time to get anything done. Just understanding this changes everything

>>19229047
Did the same as him and got 92/100 average. What you have to so is be so good that the late penalties don't matter kek

>>19226510
same here
except i was away at the time and mother lost him

>>19225796
matrix brothers weren't lazy
they took so much pain and became probably what they didn't want to become

>>19226672
>I went back to check it out recently. No fucking way I'm living there. I've been away since I was very young and don't fit into the culture. And theres a lot of negative things about the country.
hahaha is there a word for this dilemma
i experienced the same thing living in a different state of the same country

>>19225514
There are construction workers hammering and drilling in my building from eight o'clock in the morning, it's now two and they still haven't stopped! Good thing I went for a beer with a friend for a couple of hours. Still I'm incredibly irritated

>>19229041
>Do your shit as early as possible
That was what my grandpa (who was a builder) used to say and it's correct, finish the job early and then chill drinking ouzo and eating

>>19230547
I agree with the premise (even if I think you have bad taste based on the things you mentioned). I also agree that animation - and cinema as a whole - and video gaming are the forms of media with the most unexplored potential. especially video games, I think they have absolutely immense potential, not least because they can also integrate and synthesize all other forms of media into a coherent experience - not that that's what their potential hinges on. I don't think anything even approaching a truly "great" game has ever been made.

i guess that cunt getting eaten

>>19225697
>>19225790
>>19225819
So you're literally in love with this specific picture or?

wow the guy who murdered tessa majors only got 9 years. that's messed up, but on the other hand had she not been brutally stabbed to death in a random attack in 2019, she would have almost certainly supported blm and hated the cops, so i'm not particularly sad about it.

Finding a job that isn’t unbearable seems impossible.

>>19230084
>I can't see someone seriously suggesting spamming interracial porn and the like as a political act.
They are trannies. Trannies with rotten brains. Rotten by porn and demons.

>>19225622
Just ask her out anon.

Don’t know if I want to stay in this career. There’s pros and cons. I think maybe at the end of the day, it doesn’t matter so much.

When will I stop being so tired all the time?

>>19231164
Take the stroll pill

Oy vey !

>>19231164
idk, if I wake up in the morning I am aleays tired, even if I sleep for 10 hours but during the night I am always fresh

>>19231047
The artist's drawing of her, yes.

I want to see how it feels to create something
maybe I'll pick up writing just for my mental health idk

Can we make a '/lit/: Selected Fictions' book? Make a print-on-demand version through Lulu (obviously the creator gets no money, kind of like what they did with the /lit/ annotated Moby-Dick)? There are some real gems in almost all the meme books (Legacy, Hypersphere, Coronameron, Moby-Dick, lots of stuff) and I'm sure there are even more posts and shitposts that are genuinely funny enough to be put into a collection of sorts, kind of like /lit/'s greatest hits or something. Obviously I'd put together a team, it wouldn't just be me going through and picking stuff that only I like, but I know some formatting and can make a really pretty PDF (or just get in touch with the dude that did the formatting for Moby-Dick, that was ok too).
What do you guys think?

I can feel my soul trying to leave my body every second I am at my job. I think it has figured out that it can fracture and slip pieces of itself out to recombine later in some location undisclosed to me. because every day I am a little less human. It wouldnt be so bad if the fracturing didnt include a pain in my stomach and a sense of yearning for something that does not take on definite shape and is thus ungraspable, should I muster up the courage to attempt to hold on that is. I fear that all there is for me is resignation with the only comfort being that, once I am a husk, I will feel nothing. no fear, no pain, no rage, no joy, no love. I just hope the shards dont leave visible scars.

sometimes, when I look at the sky, I wish I could just fly around and look at everything in the world without having to worry about anything

>>19230084
Its not even leftists per se. Just a bunch of weirdos on an image board

>>19225514
I'm hellenizing myself really fast

>>19230492
>he's alive today because I didnt kill him
Interesting conclusion. But I hope your condition improved anon

K O T

>>19230819
The work needs to be done. Dont be a fag

>>19231484
world war 3 is starting soon anon, you'll get drafted or die in nuclear hellfire; point is, you don't have to hold out much longer

>>19231518
>leftypol.org
>Its not even leftists per se
:|
I never bought the "imageboard people are just being crazy" argument. This anonymous environment enables people to be their true selves. All these white supremacist types posting Nazi stuff? That's what whites actually believe. All these CCP shills gloating about China and promising war? That's what the CCP's supporters actually are like. All the Islamists celebrating the Islamification of Europe? That's what Muslims actually think. Without the veneer of a public reputation or consequences, people's true beliefs come out.

>>19231546
Sounds good. Wake me up when it gets here.

>>19230337
It came from Middle Irish, which is the name for form of Goidelic spoken in Ireland, Scotland and the Isle of Mann at the time. Goidelic did not come from Ireland or Scotland, but Irish and Scottish Gaelic both come from the Goidelic language of Middle Irish.

>>19231554
leftypol literally originated on 8ch*n, and most of the posts are from thinly veiled reactionaries. no actual leftist gives a shit about it

Is it weird to put your arm around your mother, pull her in, and let her sleep on your shoulder if she’s having a difficult time? I just realized I did that while I was sitting next to her and that might have looked a little strange to others in the room…

>>19231566
No, it’s not weird. And even if it was, supporting one’s mother is more important than avoiding seeming weird.

>>19225696
Yes, he’s a sweet orange boy. He annoys me sometimes when he’s noisy or brings mice into the house and loses them behind furniture, but he’s very good natured and never bites or scratches people. His fur is very soft and he lets people rub his tummy.
and he wants some gusic

>>19230084
They are TRANNIES, not leftists

what's a good pdf reader that isn't adobe acrobat

>>19231554
I've met a leftypol fanatic IRL. They thought their middle class upbringing was oppressive because they had a serious case of only child syndrome, literally bowed to a cop, and shouted at a black security officer in Walmart, all within 45 minutes. It was some Chris Chan kind of shit. It was worth the cringe for seeing the cop bow though. To this day I don't know if they were trying to be ironic or they just bow to cops as a manifestation of simp nature. Maybe they learnt social interactions from anime, IDK, but me and the cop just stood there like
>a wild autist from the 17th century has appeared

>>19231612
google chrome.

>>19231528
How ?

Do magical numbers really exist? I used to be /x/ and I can't shake it off, when I see a certain number I feel odd, I believe it means something. I use it as a litmust test too.
To those well read, am I just crazy?

>>19231717
No, magical numbers are not real, and any benefit you might derive from them comes from the placebo effect.

>>19231741
And confirmation bias, my insanity is such as deciding to do something but checking the clock first, if the bad number is there I don't do it. How can I fix this?

Raquel Welch is too much for the weak stomachs of lit

>>19231785
She has very feminine nostrils

https://youtu.be/dy77ioKI4lQ

>>19231845
https://youtu.be/R-a7SZYCKDI

>>19230825
>even if I think you have bad taste based on the things you mentioned
:|

>>19231874
funny. i use to have a Volca FM myself.

>>19231717
I think they’re real. Numbers, like the metaphysical principles, of mathematics that lie behind them are indisputably true and numbers as we know them can be said to be symbols. Symbols have effect.

I don’t want to work in an office anymore, but I also want time to write…

she will not be coming back.

I'm going to have to change a character's name in the story that I'm writing because I came up with her name before her personality developed and it's basically just my ex and she has a really shitty death in the story lol.

I couldn't care less about the person irl, but I think the character's a bit on the nose. Especially when they have a hole punched through their skull. The character in the book is torn up over losing her and they're finding it hard to move on, though.

>>19231123

I recommend administrative job in universities/higher education. I landed a job as a research administrator and it's pretty chill

>>19231925
still have mine. it's fun but i want the sample more now

>>19231982
yea the sample always seemed like the most versatile.
the FM is cool but i wish i had gotten the Bass or Keys maybe idk
https://youtu.be/PKQGM5iQXSo

>>19231994
i have my eyes on they keys too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmkJ7nmd3kk

>>19231612
Sumatra PDF

>>19231976
But anon, I already work for a University…

I hate it.

The USA and China are so retarded it hurts. They do realize whoever wins their Cold War is going to have to deal with biggest crisis in human history, right?
>Global warming
>Resource exhaustion
>Soil degradation
>Ecological decay
These things require that USA+EU+India+China work in tandem to be solve them. If these great powers keep beating each other down, no one will be powerful enough to save the whole thing. It’s like a bunch of sailors fighting over who gets to be captain while the ship sinks.

>>19232250
nah what really matters is more factories in the USA, something that affects literally no one outside of maybe the rust belt

>>19232250
this where your almonds should start working and realize that what you just listed either has a ton of bullshit attached to it publically or there are ways to deal with it that are only known to those in power. it's really simple, just another smoke and mirrors game.

>>19232250
The first person to put the gun down and extend a hand in friendship will be shot. This is universally true - a delicate crystal bloom formed miraculously in the morass of existence.

>>19232266
>there are ways to deal with it that are only known to those in power
the problem is that the people in power are fucking completely dissociated retards

>>19232278
absolutely not. do not make this mistake and naively think that they're idiotic people chasing idiotic things. all of that is superficial. there is far too much at stake here to be given to so-called retards. they are always several steps ahead of you.

>>19232278
How do dissociated retards attain power?

>>19232299
i know they have plans, they're just retarded plans
they do seem to have most people in thrall, so they'll probably inevitably realize them anyways

>>19232278
>>19232299
i hope you don't actually believe that presidents rule those aforementioned nations

>>19232307
im >>19232278 and >>19232305
im talking about the cabals of old people who are really in charge

>>19231976
Yeah if you're a soulless bureaucrat

>>19232250
You climate fags are such tools
>>19232260
Yeah manufacturing andexporting your own goods is such a terrible idea. Millions of jobs lost just affects those hicks somewhere else.
Who cares if our entire supply chain is dependent on China

>>19232424
>your own
heh

>>19232015
https://voca.ro/16Xlz410SeVn
mixing to cassette is hard.
also it was a shit cassette

>>19232250
Anon, you can take electricity use and travel back to the standards of the 1800s ruling classes for the same population and make it entirely sustainable. It is not the elite who need to worry about climate change; it's the rest of the population who are going to get priced out of things they think they need to survive like heating and lighting and internet and food that hasn't been denatured. All of them know they can
>Famine? What famine?
Millions each. It improves the soil and makes more resources available for those who remain.

what goes on here?

>>19232674
Schizophrenia, autism, self pity, attention whoring, and tripfags

>>19232299
What the fuck do you know

lol

>>19225604
insular gaels converted relatively early and both irish and scottish gaelic adopted a substantial number of latin loan words (gaelic numbers and days of the week are from the latin, for example)