/lit/ - Literature

>>18953649
28
I think I've decided that I'm not going to kill myself. Mostly thanks to Schopenhauer.
I'm reading the Upanishads right now.

>age
23
>how you’re holding up
Just fine
>current book
334 by Disch

22
Weird. Feels like I am on the cusp of making friends at uni but I just can't seem to 'seal the deal' with anyone
The Elementary Particles

>>18953649
49
I've never been better
2 Samuel

>>18953649
>33
>broke, depressed, lonely, creatively stifled, but at least i'm not currently suicidal
>the beautiful and the damned by f scott fitzgerald

>>18953649
>2gigabits of antisemitic memes
Now that's rookie numbers there chap.

>>18953685
I just read that the other week. I liked Submission better.
Are you in any kind of club or group activity that puts you in the same room with people on a consistent basis that isnt a class?

>20
>fucking terrible
>Deleuze, "Foucault"

>>18953649
>age
29
>how you’re holding up
Not bad. Waiting for work to pick up again. Wishing I could find a good woman to be my wife, but a lack of a social life makes it pretty difficult to meet women.
>current book
The Impeachment of Man by Savitri Devi
The Secret History by Donna Tartt

>>18953674
Glad to hear it anon. What was it about Schopenhauer that helped you?

>>18953649
>age
20
>how you're holding up?
Nearly killed myself before the summer. I'm getting better, but I still find it hard when I'm alone sometimes.
>current book
the divine comedy

>>18953649
>36
>just got a massive raise, buying the recruiter (female) who got me the job a flower arrangement to be delievered to her job
>will probably bone her stupid zoomer ass this weekend
>Everything that Rises Must Converge

>24
>living at home; nothing to do; life going nowhere
>the Servile State

>>18953649
22
Can't complain
A Peace to End All Peace

>>18953705
I applied for one, and emailed someone for another, but I haven't heard back yet
There is no club I think that will naturally engage me, but if I use them as an opportunity to get myself out there socially and also to have something to stick on my resume I think it'll be a good thing and work out in the long run.

28
Life is ok, but I feel its meaninglessness is reaching out to me again. I'm a bit tired of looking at ceilings at night, wondering if I should take a new and different step in my life, change its direction. I should move to a foreign country in a few years because part of my growing insanity is due to this damned place I currently live in.
The Elementary Particles, as >>18953685

>>18953710
Mostly his essays, specifically 'on the suffering of the world' and 'on suicide'. Basically, he convinced me that any suicide besides starving yourself to death is an act of the Will, and really is a futile and pitiable thing.
I still have a lot to read and learn from him, but it seems like everything that I have read has been very illuminating, it all rings true. I am making an effort to embrace suffering and keep a better perspective on the transience of life. We will see how long it lasts, it is not the first time.

>>18953711
Keep on fighting anon. It's kinda cheesy to say, but at your young age, there are so many things you can do to change your life.

>>18953649
20
Not bad but I fantasise about blowing my head off on the day-lee
2666

>>18953649
>29
>Once my cat dies that may be it
>Memoirs of Ian Smith

>>18953649
24
barely holding on to sanity
man and his symbols

>>18953744
Have you read Nietzsche at all? I haven't read Schopenhauer but I did read a lot of Nietzsche when I was younger. I found that his ideas helped me to endure suffering as well. I also don't think I've yet read a thinker who faces up to the tragic dimensions of human existence and yet still manages to be so uncompromisingly life affirming like he does.

>>18953734
>to stick on my resume
don't do it for that shit man

>>18953748
Thanks anon. I took a new job that gave me the opportunity to work out of province during the summer vacations which gave me the strength to try and make things better. Now I'm at uni, which I thought would never happen, and I'm glad to say that I am not in the same dark period as I used to be. It's hard sometimes as I said, but I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.

>>18953649
>28
>much better than last year, much worse than four years ago
>rereading the brothers karamazov for the first time since I was 16

>>18953649
26
Pretty well
Nostromo

>>18953780
No, I haven't really read anything besides his aphorisms. I'm planning to in the future though. I'm still trying to build a better foundation before I get into the weeds. I read a little of thus spoke Zarathustra but decided to leave it for now, I still need to finish Plato...

>25
>Doing alright, worrying about the fact I need to change jobs in a year and I'm no sure what to do/what I want to do
>Montaigne's Essays and Burnham's The Machiavellians

>>18953649
21
Dealing with existential dread
Mein Kampf

>>18953649
>27
>I could die tomorrow without regrets.
>Trying to get into Islamic Mysticism

>>18953649
>age
23
>How you're holding up
Never been better desu
>current book
The Bible ( St. Mark)

Sad to see so many of my lit frens in such poor spirits. Stay strong bros

>>18953798
That's great man. What are you studying? I can't help but feel a little melancholy myself this time of year thinking of all the kids going off to university and remembering my own time in undergrad. I didn't go to the best school in the world, but studying philosophy in my twenties was one of the best experiences of my life.
I take it you're a fellow leaf?

26
no
record of lodoss war the grey witch

19
Feeling a freeing meaninglessness, the pains that have been troubling me are quiet for now.
Hamlet.

24
Okay. Just graduated and am looking for a job
Metro 2034

>>18953649
19
decent, days are filled with boredom, I haven't felt a strong emotion in a while
Conspiracy against the human race

19
Not bad, but I don't really know
Don Quixote

>>18953855
Yeah, I'm a french leaf. I'm taking classics and I begin my courses this week. I hope to find some purpose during my time here because, to be honest, I'm just here to keep the train going and not think about what will happen next. I'm glad to hear that uni was a good moment for you. What do you do now?

43
Preparing to die in November.
Reading Why Liberalism Failed by Deneen, which is not based on an urgent interest so much as it being the only book having arrived recently (paper takes way too long to ship) from orders over a month passed.

>>18953649
20
ambivalent and not good (not because of the book, I love those poems)
cantos

>>18953951
>Preparing to die in November.
W-why, anon?

>>18953649
27
My wife prepared my lunchbox but she didn't give me a spoon, nothing things will get ugly.
The complete fiction of Borges.

>>18953964
That's when the lease on my apartment is up. I'm trying to be courteous.

> 26

> day to day but improving slowly I think trying to learn to not let desire cause stuffing. Not really a Buddhist but maybe soon.

> History of Civilization Volume X, How to Take Smart Notes, In the Buddha’s words.

>>18953649
>age
26
>how you’re holding up
absolutely terrible, got a brain fog after covid and it's unbearable; lost my job and have to take a dean's leave for a year to finish my masters thesis - so much time lost
>current book
struggling (due to the fog) with diogenes laeritos...

>22
>Obliterated my will to live , just passing my college time waiting for a chance to get out of this shithole country
>The denial of deah , Ernst becker

>>18953972
that's not why, don't be coy old man.

>>18953649
29
Terrible
Juliette

>>18953893
Oddly enough I actually teach English to French Canadians. Work with the Canadian military as a civilian ESL teacher. No job security or benefits, but it I have a lot of autonomy and I like hearing myself talk so lecturing Quebecois service members about grammar suits me well. Pay's decent enough too.
Classics is something I would have loved to have studied as well. Recently got some Latin learning books to teach myself so maybe one day I'll be able to quote Ovid in the original. You got any favourite Classic authors?

>>18953649
>38
>Went back to school and reinvented myself a couple of years ago just in time for covid. Now I'm a stressed out icu nurse. Probably actually an alcoholic now. Living with my girlfriend, first time in my life a relationship got that far.
>Reading Don Quixote and I've never been so jealous of a fictional character.

>>18953993
Oh, you wanted a justification for suicide. Long story short, I have one of those treatable terminal illnesses. I'm 3 years out from almost dying of natural causes and making a deal with the devil instead. What I've found is that I survived to see my professional possibilities evaporate, my family disintegrate (got divorced over having a bad attitude), and myself end up in physical circumstances that aren't sustainable with a total lack of support system to try and turn it around. I'm basically doing unskilled physical labor despite poor health between 60 and 70 hours a week only to watch all my pay go to rent seekers and older, now defunct commitments, or to rising food and fuel costs and, of course, full deductibles and copays to doctors after my group health plan kicks in. I was laid off at the beginning of covid hysteria only to get hired by a company that sold itself to some Bain Capital type of org who is closing the place down. I'm just tired and already was doomed.

>>18953649
>age
22
>how you’re holding up
As regards what? Generally, fine.
>current book
Orthodox Faith and Life in Christ by Saint Justin Popovich

>>18954036
Fuck man, I'm sorry.
The world is hell, no one has any real obligation to stay here, none of us asked to be born in the first place.
May as well go out with a spectacular bang and a laugh on your lips.

>>18954057
Meh. Too disinterested in the outcome to fling my eager meatsack at one of the so-called baddies.

>>18953649
>21
>Im a ball of stress
>might continue the philokalia not even religius just as a cope

>>18954036
>get divorced when you're terminal

Jesus Christ

23
Can't really complain since a few weeks ago I was in what seemed like a dead end
Frankenstein

>>18954065
By all means, marry. If you get a good one you'll become happy. If not, you'll become the old burnout in a datamining thread.

>>18954065
The frequency of either divorce or an affair when a spouse is terminally ill is astounding. Normies cannot handle “bad vibes” no matter what.

>>18953649
To all the anon's having a tough time, keep on fighting.
We're all gonna make it.

19. Currently in my third year of my undergraduate program. English literature major. I sort of feel like shit and that I might be wasting my time and talents on a worthless degree surrounded by people who don't actually give a damn. Thinking about getting my master's.

Uncle Tom's Children, by Richard Wright.

>22
>going through as many radical life changes as possible so I can stop using vague possibility of future life improvement as a justification not to be an hero
>cannery row by steinbeck

>>18954070
>Frankenstein
How are you liking it? I read it once in high school and thought it was really overhyped. Shelley's writing strikes me as bloodless and uninteresting most of the time, ad she stole like half her best lines in that novel from Milton. Granted, the bits focused on the monster are actually quite interesting, but it's in between so much tedious bullshit that I found it rather hard to enjoy. Percy is the superior Shelley imo.

>>18953649
>age
18
>how you're holding up
fine, I've been feeling a bit down recently, but I've just started college so it's to be expected. I'm investing myself in things that interest me and reading a lot.
>current book
the pythagorean sourcebook and library

>>18954099
>going through as many radical life changes as possible so I can stop using vague possibility of future life improvement as a justification not to be an hero
What kind of changes, anon?

>>18954036
do a flip

>>18953891
Which translation of Don Quixote are you reading? Assuming its a translation.

>>18954121
How original.

>>18953649
>27
>Going to quit my job and end my lease so I can move from DC to Miami in one month. Been in DC my whole life. Finally realized I need to experience something else in life. Change is good but scary.
>Germinal by Emlie Zola

>>18953685
Right there with you. I don't even care about finding a girlfriend anymore like I did in highschool, I just want meaningful human connection. I've felt nothing but loneliness and inadequacy since returning to campus, despite my efforts to socialize. I'm in 2 clubs and a member of the local lit mag, and yet no one seems interested in doing shit. Feels bad.

>>18954036
>got divorced over having a bad attitude
That's hideous. What the fuck.

>>18954088
Actually made me feel a bit better. Not even religious. Thank you, anon.

>>18953685
>>18954151
Play sports, retards.

>>18954130
Really, there was a lot of philosophical intent behind it. I didn't use it thoughtlessly. I obsess over suicide but am at a point where I believe it should be confronted irreverently.

>>18954170
I'm six foot and weigh just under 120 llbs. And even if I had the physique for it, I don't take any interest in athletics nor the kinds of people that do. I appreciate the input, though.

>>18954128
I'm reading it in spanish, an edition by Biblioteca Edaf, I couldn't find the RAE one.

>>18954183
That’s not physically possible. I was skinny as fuck in college and weighed 165. Same height.

>>18954202
Don't know what to tell you anon, except maybe that a strong breeze could bowl me over.

>>18954183
>I don't take any interest in athletics nor the kinds of people that do.
that is very narrow-minded anon, I hope you come to your senses someday.

>>18954212
if true please do yourself a favor and post some pics in /thinspo/ on /fa/, they will adore you.
>t. also a skelly.

>>18953649
18
Depressed and constantly having panic attacks
Paradise lost

>>18953649
>21
>I have been a NEET for over two years, and I can't bear it any longer.
>Actual Air by David Berman

>>18954268
Currently in a class about Milton. What's to expect? Any good?

>>18954272
>I have been a NEET for over two years
why?

30
wife miscarried so august was pretty shit
hamlet

>>18953649
21.
I'm currently struggling with the choice between deliberately strangling my ability to become attached to, enjoy, or take pleasure in things and continuing to let myself partake in caring about things and getting hurt by doing so. I've reached a state of mind in which I'm capable of manipulating aspects of my personality and deeper thoughts at will at the cost of losing part of my connection to reality and I intend to use it.
Currently slowly reading Man and his Symbols.

>>18953649
>32
>Great. Sex life is as good as it’s ever been and I’m financially secure
>Tropic Of Cancer by Henry Miller

>>18954305
how did that make you feel

>>18954305
Bless you, don’t give up. It will take time but don’t lose faith.

>>18954057
>>18954065
>>18954154
all women are whores

>27
>Doing well. Happy to be alive.
>Orthodox Study Bible and various books on film techniques.

>>18954305
Good, everyone over 30 should be sterilized anyway.
Can’t make a good omelet with rotten eggs.

>>18954012
My top three definitely is Homer, Virgil and Sappho. What a coincidence that you teach English to the military because "my new job" was a qualification course with the Navy reserve.

>>18954036

What do you mean treatable? 3 years with treatment?

>>18953855
what do you do now, im starting phil at undergrad in a few weeks.

>>18954228
Perhaps you're right, honestly. I've recently come to realize that I've spent much of brief life prematurely passing value judgements on people based on superficial things like appearance. I don't think I'll take up sports, but maybe I'll try lifting and see if that garners me any gymbros.
>>18954255
I really don't think anyone should actively try to reach my BMI, it's simply not healthy. But it's nice to know I'm not alone in skellyhood.

>>18954063
Oh, I certainly didn't mean taking others with you. Just that if you're determined to dip, offing yourself in some novel and elaborate manner that would make the great authors proud and live forever in the archives of /lit/ might be the way to do it.

I myself have no desire to live, so I often imaginable elaborate Mishima-esque self-inflicted death scenarios which would double as works of art. The more intricate and painful the better, I would never want to go out like a coward when I could go out in style. Imagining these scenarios as baroque as possible keeps me from carrying them out desu. Also, reading Nietzsche has helped.

>>18954296
I was going to move to start college two years ago but a member of my immediate family suddenly died/ This ruined my family's financial situation, and our mental health faired even worse. I'm a minor cripple so I've been living off a check with my mother and feel useless. I think I've developed some degree of agoraphobia, because I can't stand to be seen by anyone I used to call a friend after I withdrew my applications.
Apologies for the blogpost.

>age
25
>how you’re holding up
I have a little anxiety, especially now that I'm looking to move out on my own, but other than that I'm pretty good.
>current book
I have a few going at once, but mainly The Moviegoer.
>>18953966
>but she didn't give me a spoon, now things will get ugly
Kek
>>18954088
Well said anon.

>>18953649
19
my life is objectively okay but I'm figuratively autistic without being particularly attractive or clever to make up for it
d'israeli (maurois)

>>18954359
Don't apologize. Are you taking any kind of steps to break free? If not, why?

>>18953649
>24
>meh
>facundo

>>18954354
>Going out like a coward
Wouldn't going out like a coward be the bravest death? You will get no reward, whatsoever. Just bland, meaningless, death. Pretty metal.

>>18953649
>>age
24
>>how you’re holding up
Great, I’m really excited to see what the future holds, things are going well
>>current book
Bhagavad Gita

>Age
24
>how's it going?
Could be worse, could be better. I've not been reading or writing lately as I've been busy with work and with my micromanaging boss. Haven't had a lot of time for Hobby's including reading lately.
>What I'm reading
Was reading book 6 in the Malazan Series, besides that I was reading the collected short stories of Bierce

>>18954342
ESL teacher.
>>18954329
Who know, maybe down the line I'll see you in one of my classes.

>>18954378
I've done nothing but read, write, and stare at the ceiling. I feel so much shame about not going to college that I just pussyfoot around and feel bad for pussyfooting. I need to stop thinking I've somehow ruined any chance I had of a life because of one failure. I'm just too prideful.

>>18953649
> 20
> It's getting better. I'd go as far as to say I'm optimistic
> The Green Hills of Africa

>>18953814
>25
>Doing alright, worrying about the fact I need to change jobs in a year and I'm no sure what to do/what I want to do
>Montaigne's Essays and Burnham's The Machiavellians

Yotpseudba?

>>18953649
>age
22
>how you're holding up
Alternating between alright and making myself saddened by the thought of my ex-gf, who I dated for 3 years and broke up with due to being unable to adapt to long distance. I'm aware that my attachment is more emotional than rational, since it's been nearly a year since we broke up and I myself have been with other girls since then, yet the thought of her with another still stirs jealousy in me. I need to work on that and let her go.
My sister had her second baby the other day. I enjoy being an uncle and am happy for her.
>current book
The Idiot. Enjoyable but not as much as Dosto's other works so far (which is what you get when reading in opposite release order, I guess).

>>18954305
My mom had 3 miscarriages between me and my older siblings. I often wondered what the people I know would be like had one of them succeeded.
Hope it works out if you do try again.
>>18954142
>Change is good but scary
Wish I could adopt that mindset. The prospect of long-term change, such as moving, always scares the shit out of me.

>>18953649
>>age
23
>>how you’re holding up
Got my first office job. Moved halfway across the country. The job itself and area I actually really like, but I'm so fucking lonely because I'm shy and none of my friends or family are here. Anyone living near Denver that wants to be friends?
>>current book
I'm actually on the last chapter of the Iliad but I haven't read it in a couple of weeks since I've been busy working and getting settled here. Not decided what I'll read yet.

>>18954472
*what I'll read next

>age
25
>how you're holding up
Just beginning to come out of a dark hole. I have been depressed out of my mind for the past year, along with awful stomach pain. I lost 25 lbs and most of the muscle I'd gained lifting weights over the last few years. Then one month ago I found out I have had a chronic bacterial infection in my gut that can cause anxiety, depression, brain fog, and a bunch of other awful symptoms. I feel so vindicated to know that some hellspawn in my body was the source of my pain, and all of my self-deprecation and agony has been circumstantial. In the past few days I've found the hope that I've been looking for so desperately. This nightmare is finally coming to an end.
>What I'm reading
Don Juan - Lord Byron

>>18954445
You need to get it the fuck together man. Make a plan and execute.

18
I'm doing pretty good, although I've definitely been better. My state is in a really strict lockdown which keeps getting extended, and I'm not doing uni this semester so I have nothing to do at home. Still, I've improved alot since last year so I can't complain.
I have Norwegian Wood and Durant's The Story of Philosophy being delivered today so I'll probably start one of them

>>18954079
Women won’t tolerate any weakness, they’ll immediately branchswing when things look tough.

>28
>pretty shit, the phd project I've been working on for over a year turned out to be shit after I found an issue in my code, feel like advisor is losing hope in me
>Art as Therapy by Alain de Botton

>>18953649
>>age
27

>>how you’re holding up
Fine, if a little dull.

>>current book
Dune and Coriolanus (been reading a Shakespeare play a week in chronological order for around 2 months)

>>18953649
>19
>I feel self-hatred for small mistakes, and fear that I'm going to reincarnate through everyone in existence for all eternity. I want to be the next big thing in literature but I struggle to find the motivation. I want to want something but I can't find purpose.
>Odyssey

>>18954458
>Yotpseudba
No, but Montaigne was mentioned a while back by some anon as a comfy read in a thread.
It's been excellent so far.

>>18954151
I feel like I'm the same as you, except maybe a bit closer to success since I've been chatting with the people who live near me in my dorm and we might go out to eat or to the gym together, but so far it's just a loose association, you mainly just want people to hang around for fun kinda thing. I thought I made one genuinely good friend recently but he just ghosted me out of nowhere and it sucked

It's hard to make good friends. My litmus test is probably, if you can enjoy being in their company alone for at least 30 minutes then you're good friends. If you're not that close with anyone, you're still kinda alone.

>>18953649
>age
23 soon to be 24
>how you’re holding up
I'm good, better than I've been in a while. Just graduated college and I'm applying for new jobs, hoping to get a new one before another holiday season in retail. I'm trying to be more life arming and active, especially now I have more free time. If I get a new job and a gf then I'll be set.
>current book
I'm Continuing my reading of the Greeks, I'm reading The First Philosophers: The Pre-Socratics and the Sophist.

>>18954183
Run cross country. You got the body for it and its full of nerds

>24
>Life is absolute shit punctuated with a few moments of relief, I'm not suicidal, just kind of fed up
>The illiad

>>18953649
>>age
27
>>how you’re holding up
Equally content and distressed somehow.
Have ez job that makes 100k+, wife, kids, but I really, desperately want to write /write professionally. I wentto school so I could suppport kids I eventually wanted, now that I have it all, I spend every waling hour not being dad/husband/on 4chan writing. Finished my first 14pg short story and I am equally excited and mortified.
>>current book
Second foundation

>>18954926
how tf do you accomplish all of this by 27? I'm just now contemplating marriage and still working a fairly shit job

>>18954937
Dont give up anon.

I met my lady early teens on (YOU)space, and was section 8 poor. I worked shitty grocery jobs, before I started public college and hit a crossroad whether or not I wanted to be a hedonist and just max out on 20/h or push myself doing something I didnt love so I could afford kids. Grinded work and school for 5 years for a tech degree (could barley code bc uni is a joke and I wasnt interested) but worked my dick off outside of work with projects that I found interesting that could help make money. A few projects later and job jumping, now I am here.

I traded my young years for the long game because growing up poor with parents who dont care is hell.

>>18954500
Good for you. Soon it will all be a bad memory

>>18954978
I'll keep on truckin one way or another
I'd say you've made a decent tradeoff, seems like you've got it made
I hope the writing turns out well for you

>>18953649
>age
18
>how you’re holding up
everything is going forwards
>current book
thus spoke Zarathustra

>>18954572
u cringe boi, reflect on the shit you just wrote and you cringe too NIGGA

>>18954452
stay positive anon!

>>18953780
Reading Nietzsche without Kant is a brainlet move

>>18954421
try to find some time, friend.
There's always time to read a little.

>>18954362
is being "autistic" your only personality trait!

>>18953649
>30
>After years of financial instability, things seem to get better
>Mann, buddenbrooks

>>18954036
>terminal illness

Sorry to hear that, my wife (formerly girlfriend) has one too and it only brought us closer together, I know how shitty it is to deal with health issues at a young age, the hours and days i spent in hospitals, the incompetencies of some of the staff... I hope your situation gets better

>age
21
>how are you holding up
Currently taking a shit, just drank coffee so I'm gradually filling up with false optimism as caffeine saturates my blood. Pursuing a STEM career, but I'm also interested in /lit/ things. Feels like I'm spreading myself too thin, but right now I'm not in a mood to whine.
>current book
Deep Learning (to supplement my studies), The Master and Margarita (audiobook version, listen to it while doing filler things), Sun and Steel (read it in noisy environments where audiobooks wouldn't work), Mystery of the Grail (read it in the evening, to get my mind off programming assignments), Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep (read it in bed, right before going to sleep)

>age
24
>how are you holding up
I truly hate myself, every day is a new bombardment of negative thoughts and painful memories that I can't seem to brush aside any more
>current book
And Quiet Flows the Don

>>18953649
>age
31
>how you're holding up
I feel like we're stuck in the middle of the most boring apocalypse imaginable and I can't imagine there being any future for me in this world.
>current book
Finnegans Wake

26
Critique of pure reason and Phenomenology of spirt
I'm h*cking awful I haven't learned anything studying philosophy I just feel more stupid the more I read.

29
what the fuck am I doing with my life
not reading anything

>>18953649
27
They gave me a raise at work so I'm using that and the never ending pandemic as an excuse to keep living in my parents basement and continue to isolate myself from social interaction
Gravity's Rainbow

>>18953649
24
Going through an ezcema flare up on my face, so not too good
Leave society

>>18953649
>age
20
>how you’re holding up
I have been in love for 2 years with a bitch whom I have not even spoken. Virgin. I think I'm going to hire a prostitute next week
>current book
Stoner

>>18953649
26
Still never had a gf so you tell me
Dopamine receptors too fried to read anything at the moment

>>18953649
three times ten
gonna kill self in a year or two
variety of religious experiences

>20
>I recently quit porn, so life's been pretty good; but it's been pretty lonely as well. Trying to go outside more.
>The Penguin History of the World and Allen Carr's books. Thinking about reading Industrial Society and its Future after finishing some of the latter's books.

>>how you're holding up
Alt right incel dogwhistle. Fuck freedom, nuke USA.

>>18956067
if you were actually suicidal you'd be already dead, pussy

>>18956190
wow, you quit porn AND are trying to go outside more?
want a medal?

>>18955077
>And Quiet Flows the Don

Going to read this soon. How do you like it, anon?

>>18953649
24
I am much better now that I’m not broke and have a nest egg. But! I am trapped in a montonous rhythm and am desperate for freedom, not to mention I haven’t found my vocation... All my friends are online now... And yes I’m a v*rgin. That’s how it is right now.

Reading Death on Credit.

>>18953649
26
Getting by but unhappy
Victoria: A Life

27
mellow
C&P

>28
>wishing i still did ballet like i was 2 years ago. i miss being chaste around out of my league women.
>John Michael Greer. Collapse Now and Avoid the Rush

>>18956401
Where did you find a place to do ballet as an adult?

> 23
> Slowly accumulating wealth, knowledge, and connections. Generally good, but isolated due to self discipline.
> "Andrew Carnegie"

>>18956410
i started at 21. i did hip hop dance as a kid for a year or so but no real training. i was brought on as an extra in a yearly recital of the nutcracker. you just stood there in a suit for a party scene. either way they propositioned me to try a few classes and after a bit they offered a scholarship in exchange for becoming the lead male danseur at the studio. 6 years later and im at the top of my game, ive been to NYC dance studios, (i hate NYC), and i had to move, so no more dance. back to being extremely online.

>>18953649
21
alright I guess
Psychopath. American.

>>18953649
>24
>accepted suicide as a legitimate option
>Urusla Pia Jauch - Friedrichs Tafelrunde & Kants Tischgesellschaft

>>18953649
21
Got rejected again due to lack of physical attraction. I'm absolutely tired of this, it's all the same every time. They all tell me how great my personality is but reject me over physical appearance and "sparks". I have started to envy everyone around me and their normality, I just want to be absorbed in the mass and be subjugated to common ideals. I have being socially exlduded from a young age and that turned me socially retarded. I have made great leaps towards normality, but everyone can see through my imitation and call me "weird but loveable". I feel it's to late now and all my efforts are going to waste.
I'm reading the brothers karamazov

>31
>doin' just fine thanks
>The Mediaeval Mind, Henry Osborn Taylor
>Macroeconomics, Mitchell (Textbook brushing up on MMT)
>The Book of the Thousand Nights and a Night, Richard Burton (Have been reading this one hour before bed for the last 3 months, on volume 3 atm)

22
I'm quite happy chugging along, job centre might bite but at least no work. History of philosophy is in a dearth and philosophy of history is shallow and philosophy in history needs substantiation. So I'm quite happy chaps.
Franco, Stalin volume 1

>age
20
>How you're holding up
Doing just fine, second semester of uni, I should be done next year if everything goes well
>Current book
The Bible, Matthew.

>>18953649
20

I think I may not commit suicide

Dorian Gray

>>18953649
>age
21
>how you're holding up
Heartbroken, stressed, unambitious
>current book
Sorrows of young Werther/
For whom the bell tolls/
Diplomacy by Kissinger

>>18953649
>24
>Ready to give up. Lost the girl of my dreams because I'm not decisive / manly enough. Wish I'd spent my years doing things instead of reading things. Everything I wanted to achieve was pointless or unachievable
>Don Quixote, again

>>18956190
>I recently quit porn, so life's been pretty good; but it's been pretty lonely as well. Trying to go outside more.
Every epic begins with a single step. I know its hard anon but don't give in. Remember will power is both equally a muscle and a well.
>a person only has so much will power they can expens so do not constantly get yourself in situations where you have to make a will based choice
>it is a muscle in that while removing yourself from temptation is incredibly useful, do not remove it entirely, for if you do and temptation later comes you will be wholly without trainging for that battle
Never stop the struggle

>>18955161
Whats up?

>>18956461
The Kings road is a lonely road, just hold out and don't let it make you bitter or have a major ego

>>18956599
Brother, I know this sounds trite but if you can lift weights.
It is a great way to channel pain and aggression along side writing, it builds muscle which passivly burns fat.
Women will love you but that will matter less because you will love yourself because you will know what you are capable of.
Godspeed anon

>>18956890
do you want to be more decisive and manly?
And what were your dreams?

>>18953649
>i'm going to kill myself desu

>>18956966
I do lift and maintain a good physique . But no matter how much I lift I can't escape being short, bald and ugly.But I guess it's only a matter of chance since I have seen uglier people with romantic partners before. I guess all that I can do now is just gamble for happiness by trying to find someone who doesn't find me physically repulsing and weird. I just don't know how much longer I can bear this uncertainty.

>age
22
>how you’re holding up
bad, want to kill myself every day
>current book
suttree

>>18953649
>25
>the worst i've ever been, i wake up to bad news basically every day now, never known a streak of bad luck like this... my nightmares have quite literally all come true at once
>beyond good and evil/foucalt reader/the cynic philosophers from diogenes to julian

>>18956972
I want to be a strong, manly man. I am a boring man who has read countless books. I'm a singer-songwriter and my dream was to travel the world with my band, but my band broke up. I've lost all the pride I had in my musical abilities, and I think that loss of pride killed my relationship too

>>18953649
>Age
27
>Holding up
Abandoned the rat race and drive a truck now
>Current book
Stadier paa Livets Vei

>>18953710
>Struggle to find women
Go to the library

>22
>excellent. Got into med school and beginning to overcome my existential angst.
>2nd part of in search of lost time and Indochina: an ambiguous colonisation.

34
Doing better than ever
Brudis K., Love by Buscaglia, 101 Essays that will change the way you think, Beyond Order JBP

>24
>Life's been pretty good after I started with poetry. Instead of forcing myself to write a 300 page long novel I write some verses here and there and feel happy. Simple and beautiful. I've read the Teogony and I believe to be ready for the Odyssey - and then Ulysses!
>The Odyssey

>>18953703
It's the only one from him that I haven't read. How is it?

>>18957147
>Stadier paa Livets Vei
are you danish?

>Age
22
>Holding Up
uhhhh not that well desu, lost touch with my uni friends during summer and quite melancholy at the fact that I can't seem to express interest/approach women. I'm so anxious of rejection I don't even want to try despite getting some mires. Otherwise I'm better academically/skillwise than I've ever been, just wish I had people to share it with :(
>Reading
Literally last 20 pages of Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

>>18957218
Yes

>27
>Happy to be alive
>Dune

>age
23
>how are you currently holding up?
Currently on week three of a very bad drinking binge since being sober all year. Haven’t gone to the gym, haven’t been reading, just sleeping and going to work. Coming home and getting loaded. I really need help.
>what are you reading?
When I’m not out of it I’m reading Warlock

>>18957250
How is it being a truck driver in a rich european country? I thought they wouldn't hire people from those places as the job would easily be outsourced to eastern europe (poland etc). You're not long distance, I assume?

>31
>finally gonna make something of myself
>the rat textbook for learning python

>>18957015
>I just don't know how much longer I can bear this uncertainty
You just have to own what you are, and be proud you have changed what you can. Charisma can take you a LONG way with womem.
Acceptance that your short, bald, and that you don't find yourself attractive will be the one of the hardest things you will ever do, but if you can come out of it with a positive attitude, ppl will be attracted to you.
You got this homie, short ppl get married all the time.

>>18953649
>20
>ego collapse
>Oresteia by Aeschylus

>>18957139
You have to find inner strength to build yourself up. Shit is easy as fuck to say but gruiling to do.

The only piece of real advice any one can tell you is to find out what you want, you have, and realize that everything else in this world is window dressing to make getting fucked easier to sollow, but if you reject it and embrace the struggle of life (painful, boring lifting day after day, and the embarrassing openness of working on art for public consumption) you will achieve what you want but you will be someone else.

I hope thats not too banal, but I earnestly believe it. Ppl make those dumb ironic "sigma grindset" jokes, but the concept of a grindset has practical value.

For you I wish success and achievement, if not happiness.

>>18957155
I've given this advice 100 times but I always get looked at like a tard.

>>18953649
>23
>Growth of the Soil
>Every 5 minutes I wish I was dead. The book is helping me keep my mind of things. Very cozy.

>>18957531
>Ppl make those dumb ironic "sigma grindset" jokes
You shut your fuckin mouth

26.9
Coming out of what I think was what they call a mixed episode and am now pursuing professional help for my insanidad. After the turmoil subsided I was just tired and low-level depressed for a while. I think I'm feeling more normal now and am able to put thoughts together that feel coherent which is nice. It's been a blessing, wake up call. In the 'highs' I felt closer to God than I have in years.
Epitaph of a Small Winner

22
unmotivated and starting to hate everything but searching for a "line of flight"
baudrillard

>27
>things could be worse. I earned my professional credentials in my field this year. I neglected nearly all other aspects of my life in getting there. I can't help but feel it's been a waste. So much of my time is devoted to this job. No gf of course. I thought this was the best shot to have a family and not die alone. Yet now I find myself trapped in the corporate world seemingly forever barred from acquiring the only thing that makes this sort of life bearable (a family).
>Eyeless in Gaza

>>18957443
Its like being a highly-paid nomad. I can net more than most degree holders thanks to deductions, progressive taxes and a bit of personal sacrifice i.e. working when others don't want to, doing things other would think as hell (sleeping in a car for three days in a row which I find kind of comfy). Slavdeflation has eroded long distance, so its mostly domestic and sometimes in the national regions around Sweden and Norway

>>18957531
Cheers mate. I was in a good place with that "grindset" actually just before but the rejection has brought all the old anxieties back. Might be a therapy job unfortunately, thought I'd moved past it all

19
pretty based desu
Confessions of a Mask

my word, a bunch of boomers in here, can you guys start a family and migrate to facebook already...

i made a massive emotional investment in this person...how am I just supposed to throw it away and move on? The fear of this recurring will arrest future loves....

>>18957155
>Go to the library
some skinny loser comes up to me in the library I will literally throw up on him

>24
>Hating grad school
>Human accomplishment - Charles Murray

>24
>fine i guess
>Satanic Verses
>>18957700
Is there a version of this image without the anime girl in it

>>18953649
29
Broke, depressed, longing, creatively dried, currently suicidal
Tibetan Book of the Dead

>>18954183
Hey Adam why did you shoot all those little kids?

>>18954170
That wouldn't make a difference cunt.>>18954315
>I've reached a state of mind in which I'm capable of manipulating aspects of my personality and deeper thoughts at will at the cost of losing part of my connection to reality and I intend to use it.
What?

>>18957857
Lanza was a really good writer, I mean he had the upper middle class family to support him so SAD that he didnt just go that way.

>>18957792
i will piss and shit on you

>23
>pretend to WFH all day, smoke weed every night, see people and work out on weekends
>Henry James - The American Scene
>>18954572
As someone who used to write like this, don't. Not even in diary entries. You're just setting yourself up for nightmare cringe down the road

>>18957895
I will sodomize and facefuck you

>>18953649
32

Not particularly well. Feel depressed all the time to the point where I get nausea. I've been trying to cut back my drinking, but it's one of the few things that makes me happy. I'm thinking of leaving my girlfriend of seven years. She's miserable most of the time and I am tired of dealing with it. I've stuck with her for as long as I have partly because I haven't made enough money to strike it out on my own, but now I've been offered a new job that would allow me to do so. I feel guilty about wanting to leave her, though I can't help but wonder whether part of my depression is due to putting up with her near constant nagging and misery. There's also another woman who loves me whom I could go be with (I haven't been physically intimate with her for years, but we used to be when we were younger), but she also has her own emotional baggage and so I wonder if I'd just be trading one bad situation for another.

The Maltese Falcon.

>>18953649
26
Getting better, I was feeling down a month ago but now I'm more hopeful
About to start Crime and Punishment

>>18957877
Yeah, I love his writing. Even when his style gets maximally autistic you can tell how bright he was. He should be appreciated like Ted K.

>>18958015
>I was feeling down a month ago but now I'm more hopeful
>About to start Crime and Punishment

20
I'm OK right now, but I wished I was less lonelier
The Aleph

>>18953649
>age
23
>how you’re holding up
Struggle, Grind, Shine. The new job is a soulcrusher and I'll have to quit, but that just means I get to focus on my studies more. The fencing classes help me beat the big sad.
>current book
The Bible (atheist btw)

>>18958045
>The Bible (atheist btw)
starting from genesis?

>>18953649
>age
21
>how you’re holding up
Rough man. Accountancy makes me miserable and I think I've developed an ulcer in my lip from the stress.
>current book
Antkind by Charlie Kaufman

>>18958146
Yes. I'm at Exodus right now.

22
10mg of Prozac is actually helping
Confederacy of Dunces

>>18953649
>age
26
>how you're holding up
I'm in college and have some work experience. I find people annoying and cruel. I have a constant wish for attention. I'm not what you would call the best person in the world. I'm doing alright though.
>Current Book
Not reading at the moment to focus on college.

>>18958199
I'm taking a high dosage of medication too.

>>18953649
28
every day vacillates faster and more extremely from utter despair to unbridled hope
just finished the visit by dürrenmatt. can’t decide what to start next. maybe the city of dreaming books in the original?

>>18953649
>age
23
>how you’re holding up
Alright, hate my current job but hoping to start a new one soon
>current book
Roadside Picnic by the Strugatsky Bros, really enjoying it

>>18954334
Cut, burn, douse will take a lot of people a bit further on.

>>18954354
I read Heisman's suicide note over a period of several weeks. Art/Philosophy/Aesthetics/Memetic warfare seem like vanity to me. I just want out. I have no enthusiasm or desire to keep pushing boulders in order to cling to a crumbling milieu.

>29
>depressed, earning minimum wage, virgin, never had a girlfriend, living with my mother, detached from life because it's too painful to confront reality
>dropped a book a few months ago and haven't read anything since

>>18953649
>>age
22
>>how you’re holding up
Well.
>>current book
The Ossian Originals.

>>18957569
Interesting book, how is it?

>>18957649
Any insights into truck driving? I'm thinking of doing this in the UK as I'm happy to sleep in a truck, although the roads here are probably 100x more stressful than in the nordic region.

>>18954036
Sorry to hear that brother. Not much else I can say.

>>18953649
>Age
21
>How are you holding up
I'm scared about the future but somehow I feel like everything is going to turn out just fine
>Current book
Crime and Punishment by Dostoievski

count 119.00
mean 24.79
std 4.89
min 18.00
25% 21.50
50% 24.00
75% 27.00
max 49.00
median 24.00

>>18953674
What's your life like?

>Age
24
>How are you holding up
Just started grad school and working full time so pretty stressed but staying /fit/. Hate myself because I'm in love with my best friend's girlfriend.
>Current book
The Bible, first time through.

>>18953851
any books you'd recommend? just got my library card.

>>18953649
20
trying to undo the demoralization
A decent enogh book

>>18953810
>wnts to kill himself
>calls it illumination

you rotten edgehog

>>18954036
What did you enjoy reading the most?

>>18954460
>Enjoyable but not as much as Dosto's other works so far
just wait till the ending

46
I’m doing alright. My third kid is due any day now. My wife miscarried before that (not the first time) but got pregnant again. The baby is healthy as far as we can tell. I have all sorts of other family drama across three generations I could talk about but that’s life. Anon, there’s hope for you if you want it.
I was pretty suicidal in my 20s. I reasoned that I would be dead forever once I did it so I made a deal with myself to wait until 35. My life is very different now in ways I never would have dreamed. Anon, there’s hope for you if you want it.
I’m reading The Orthodox Church as homework, maybe I will be allowed to take communion in a year or two.
I’m memorizing Psalm 51. I say Psalm 23, 51 (paraphrased until I have it cold) and Psalm 91 as part of my Rosary “preamble” instead of three Hail Mary’s.
I’m trying to work through all of the NT as my real “for me” reading, I finished John recently but need to get back on it and binge on Acts.
I practiced Buddhism pretty seriously for 10 years and have been an armchair occultist for even longer so I have not always been a foaming at the mouth Jesus freak, fwiw. I wish everyone in this thread all the best, especially those who aren’t feeling their best.

>age
21
>how you’re holding up
I can't really discipline myself for uni. My entire work is dependent on random mood swings which have been rather negative lately, even though I'm actually interested in the conent of the assignments. Cutting off distractions is harder than I thought. I'm thinking that Mark Fisher guy has a point about this whole cyberspace affair.
As in general state of things, I feel kind of hopeless and verloren, though who doesn't?
>>18953649
Light in August by Faulkner.
I'm also reading a variety of different stuff on conspiracy theories and the philosophical/psychological aspects behind it (mostly freud and postmodern frenchies) - if you got any recs in that alley feel free to let me know.

>>18955074
how do you have the mental capacities to read that much while being a stemfag? I mean I enjoy reading too but at some point it gets a little tiring and I listen to some music to doze off. Can't imagine reading this much while also having to code.

>>18953649
18
Have a weird problem with lolli porn, and scared if I'm gonna find a job and enter at UNI this year at least.
EasyPeasy (don't know if it counts like a book)

>>18959394
fucked up the formatting somehow, sorry.

>>18953649
>21
Doing well in life but consistently annoyed at problems with focus, sleep, and my stomach. Also a fucking annoying toothache has me on pills. But I start my senior year victory lap in a few weeks and I've got a sweetheart of a girlfriend who I'm trying to take good care of. Just got back from riotous weekend out in the sticks with some friends, only really fun thing I've done all summer. Feel like a wild man. Hope I can read more and use my time better. Also pick up my instrument again. Feels like I've wasted oceans of time since covid hit.
>Have dozens of books I've not even started to read yet and about a half dozen in varying degrees of completion.
Mostly: CRISPR People, Man and his becoming according to the vedanta, Dubliners, What is Life? (Schroedinger), The Decline of the West, Science and Sanity (Korzybski), Dune II, Tai-Pan

>>18958004
You've got to break free man that's no way to live

>>18953649
>age
24
>how you’re holding up
Due to a bit of sloppiness, followed by an unbelievable amount of unluck, I almost derailed my life really bad. But, last friday, I finally could solve the problem. Now, I'm pretty sure I'm good, but after 2 and a half months of constant and extreme stress, it's hard to go back to normal. All I wanted was to just go on vacation somewhere and do nothing for a whole week, but I can't. Too much stuff I lefted undone because I was uncertain of my future. Besides, I developed a kind of stress-induced ADHD that hasn't gone away, yet.
>current book[s]
Mister President - Asturias
Petersburg - Bely
The Protestant Ethics and the Spirit of Capitalism - Weber

22
Actually might get a girlfriend. Feeling fine.
Being and Time.

>>18958440

My word, can the boomers leave this site already?

>>18959581
This is a boomer site now
The young whippersnappers are partaking in the Chat in the Snap

>>18953693
I love David because he’s one of those heels whose gimmick is to be uberface. The more God loves him the more haters seethe.

>>18959178
Reference books, encyclopedias, manuals, field guides: the big picture. Philosophy too.

>>18953649
>28
I'm trying to find a way to stop liking/fawning over women so that I can focus on myself, without having distractions/heartbreak or whatever. Any books for this?
>Hidden Valley Road

>>18953649
>Turning 35 in a few days.
>Almost two months since I divorced my wife. Not feeling great but it could be worse.
>Alien Hearts by Guy De Maupassant

34

Well enough, just went to Confession today. Obsessing and stressing over this big story I'm writing. The first book is done and I'm working on the second book. I want to put the first book out into the world in a way that people can read it, but I've been querying literary agents for months now and none of them have even asked to see the first 50 pages. I'm strongly thinking about just serializing the story and posting it sections at a time on my Substack page. Serialization worked for Tolstoy and Dickens, after all. I've got a modest social media presence and some of my mutuals are themselves people with thousands of followers, so if the book is good I think I could get a serious audience. And I've been told it's good by the people who have already read it. But I'm intensely afraid. My worst fear is that I put it out into the world and no one reads it.

The Gospel of Luke

>age
20
>how you’re holding up
not great. decided to finally take the sertraline (zoloft) my doctor prescribed me months ago. don’t know what I’m in for.
>current book
Discipline and Punish
The Iliad

20
I'm not
Sun and Steel

>>18953649
>Age:
21
>How are you holding up:
Quite well, actually.
>Current book:
Storm of Steel by Ernst Jünger.

>>18953649
26
feelin good, man!
Conan the Cimmerian (gonna read Shadow of the Torturer next)

>>18957209
nice anon. I also found that writing poetry (or even short pieces that have creative meaning) is alot more fulfilling than writing something super long.

feels more honest to the things that you are feeling day to day

> 23
> could be better, but not bad. work is on a downturn lately and I can't see that much of a way to move forward. but I am moving out of my parent's home soon (living w/ them for work from home since covid) so I hope that things will be better.
> narcissus and goldmund by Hesse

>>18959863
Stay strong anon. try to reach out to others and make new connections to re fill up your life

>>18957418
stop drinking anon. take care of yourself.

>>18953649
>23
>good i think, hard to tell just started gradschool in a new city and things haven't ramped up yet
>Godel, Escher, Bach, seems kinda boring i'd rather just read art than meta art

>>18957535
Has it worked for you?
I'm in a large town/small city. The library is just a place for homeless people to hangout at all day long.

>>18953703
>but at least i'm not currently suicidal

>25
>I can't wake up, wake me up inside!
>Crime and punishment

>>18953649

25
Im good
Histoire de la philosophie d'Émile brehier

>27
>"When one door closes another one opens."
>Carrie (just finished The Shining. Going to 19th century literature after this).

>>18953649
38
Pretty good just got back from a two week vacation
Eumenides by Aeschylus

>32
>still feel like I’m peaking
>rereading Lolita

>>18953649
>30
>procrastinating in visiting the obgyn since we've been trying to conceive for over a year... I'm afraid of what they'll tell me.
>american gods

>>18960514
It's really rough, women are consistently having less children than they'd like to because they're getting married later in life.

>>18953649
21
Very depressive. Moved alone to a big city for college (which is still unopened) so 0 people I know atm. My dad suddenly died in the beginning of the year, which made me desolated, also me as the older kid have a lot on my back and my mom, brother and sister to confort. I hope things get a bit better as soon as I go to the real college (not the online bullshit)
Reading Lanark

>>18953649
>23
>I'm going insane
>The Archetypes and the Collective Unconscious

>>18960609
Here's to things getting better anon

>>18960623
Proost!

>>18960415
Really depends on where you are at.
I find it easy to talk to people, as I barrel past any embarrassment I feel and try to act positive and friendly.
So yeah it works in terms of meeting ppl but honestly ive been in a long term relationship for a while and zero of the anxiety that comes from trying to meet ppl to date so your milage may vary.

>29
>Trying being a lawyer
>Elric of Melnibone, Del Rey's edition

>>18954036
Anon, come to Brazil, we have Free UNIVERSAL (it's bound by Constitution to be for EVERY-FUCKING-BODY) Healthcare. Dollar is 6x1 here, food is cheap as fuck. You're not old; c'mon, mate, what you've got to lose?

>>18953649
20
college incel losing it
cosmopolis by don delillo

>>18953649
>>age
29

>>how you’re holding up
Not well. Fat depressed lazy autistic (diagnosed) NEET and KHHV living somewhere I don't want to and feeling completely penned in by familial obligations. At least I'm not addicted to anything and currently have no money problems.

>>current book
As far as fiction goes I'm re-reading Nineteen Eighty-Four right now and planning on finishing Erehwon next but I've been reading lots of books on architecture, design, engineering and DIY and the last work of fiction I finished was The Way of All Flesh.

23
Same as ever.
History and Utopia (Cioran)

42

Better than usual, but still confused about basic life issues.

The guy Elementary Particles / Atomised

>>18960609
sorry about your dad

>>18953649
21
Surviving
The World Set Free

>>18953734
> to stick on my resume
Bruh

>>18953649
18
Not so hot, pal. From dusk till dawn, I was edging to JAV for majority of the time. I lack focus and I will cultivate that from now on.
Reading Confessions - Saint Augustine.

23
Absolutely fucking doomed
Burning Daylight

>>18953649
>21
>unironically très bien
>notes from the underground

23
felt shitty about a month ago when my gf cheated on me but I’m over it, started dating this goth girl and thinking about going back to uni
reading tomb for 500000 soldiers by P. Guyotat

>29
>ok i guess, the psyops and state of my fellow human get to me sometimes but i believe i will carve out a nice life for myself regardless
>Light in August

>>18954538
Is that a CS PhD? What kind of issue are you facing?
I recently debugged an extremely rarely occurring SIGSEGV that only happened in multithreaded scenarios, which was a living hell.

>>18956210
This is you.

>>18956997
Who are you quoting?
>>18957700
Are you gay, and if not, are you enjoying the book?
>>18957764
Fuck mate iktf. Trust me that it gets better with time.
>>18959394
>Can't imagine reading this much while also having to code.
Not him, but why? I study applied math and work as a programmer and I don't think it works against reading. If anything, I want to read most of the time, it's one of my favourite activities.
>>18959534
>Actually might get a girlfriend.
First one? Good luck to you in any case!
>>18961100
Almost hard to believe. The age and porn thing make sense together, but 18 is so low to read Augustine, and it also didn't go together much with the edging.

>>18953649
>45 (Gaskun)
> ok. Still trying to get space opera epic published. Spoke with a few publishers. Currently writing a story about a thirteen year old blind girl in the care of a disposable redneck living in a single wide trailer in Nicholasville KY. Her journey and experiences while being befriended by a goth girl named Virginia is an “oh brother where art thou” style retelling of Dante’s Inferno instead of the odyssey.
> a friend of mine wrote a small series of short stories of Appalachian short stories bordering on the weird and lovecraftian.

>>18953649
>20
>depressed/fine
>blood meridian/hardboiled wonderland and the end of the world/do androids dream of electric sheep

>>18960943
holy kek youre old asf

>>18954036
see you in purgatory nigga
best of luck

>>18960380
I’m tryin anon. I was doing really well and I don’t know what happened.

>>18961988
>Not him, but why?
Hmm I guess that's just the way I've conditioned myself. Anytime I do anything stressful I just go to bed right after and listen to music. I enjoy reading but it kinda feels like a chore at the same time whereas music just makes me feel very relaxed.

>>18953649
> Age
Just turned 23
> How ya doin
Life is beautiful homie. First job out of college, have great political relations with all managers/supervisors so i can basically fuck off and log hours anyway, have a beautiful gf and a cool fuckin cat who both like hiking and camping with me. Accidentally stumbled upon the law of attraction on my own in my teens and been gaming the system ever since. Just started grad school too, and work is paying for it. Fuck life is great
> Watcha reading?
Thus Spoke Zarathustra

>22
>Energized by lifting, consistent schedule and a desire to succeed
>Tort Law and Alternatives: Cases and Materials

22
Pretty good. Graduated, low debt. In shape. Fairly optimistic for the future. No gf. No full time work yet but could be much worse.
Hagakure - The Secret Wisdom of the Samurai

>>18963268
Could you explain what the law of attraction means in your own words/experience?

>age
27
>how you’re holding up
Finally found a full time job, it was last moment. Feeling unusually good except the part where i need to work 40 hr a week. Dream of being an artist is slowly but surely fading away. Talking to this girl for a while now, might just be my only shot at happiness. I rly want a gf soon and kids in the next 10 years. Wish me luck bros
>current book
Cant rly get into anything but last book i finished is Tolstoys Confession

>>18953649
>age
40
>how you're holding up
Pretty good. Work takes up a lot of time, but around a third of it is doing something that I would be doing anyway, reading and writing about books. Irks (aching back, less sex than the old days) are outweighed easily by the pleasure of watching my 2-year-old son grow up happy, funny, and secure. Sorry to see so many of my /lit/ bros thinking more of death than of life.
>current book
Beckett, Murphy. Which would seem better suited to said /lit/ bros, were it not so funny.

>>18953649
just turned 21 less than a week ago
Recovering from benzo withdrawal. Just started and antidepressants and quit almost immediately because they messed with my head too much. Insomniac, sleep 5-6 hours a night. Could've been better but I'm feeling hopeful about the future.

Im currently reading the gene by siddharta mukherjee

24
Really directionless right now, quit my part time job about a month back, thinking that was what I needed to push me in some kind of direction or helping me in finding out what I want to do. Of course I've only been on my ass this whole time, so gotta start looking for a new job soon. Pretty much the only thing giving me any joy is my gf.
Just finished Blood Meridian. God damn I love a western.

>>18963582
Bottom line is you can make anything you want happen by using the right words in the right way. I'm not afraid to tell people i love them or that i sincerely care about their lives/desires, and I'm not ashamed to wear my personality front and center no matter what situation I'm in. By being outwardly expressive of my own desires, ambitions, and emotions, the negative thoughts disintegrate and that's a beacon to peoples' subconscious. It gets anyone to open up and trust you, which is such a good feeling.

We're all just flesh nodes for the same cosmic consciousness anyway, and by truly knowing that, and living your life knowing everyone and everything you see is just yourself expressed with different matter particles and energy organization, it all falls into place.

Be good, and good will come to you! Be brave to be yourself, and work hard when you need to. It all comes back <3

>age
21
>how you're holding up
pretty good, honestly
>current book
Moby Dick. it's hard for me but i love it. every now and then at the end of a page or paragraph or chapter i have to look up from the book and just marvel at how fucking epic it was.

20
i've been feeling kind of anxious and depressed recently not gonna lie
i'm currently reading The Secret History by Donna Tartt

>>18963964
Thanks man, that makes sense.

>38
>great! First kid on the way
>reading Flotsam by Remarque aloud with my wife

>age
Getting up there.
>how you’re holding up
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>current book
Dropped The Trial two days ago because didn't know that Kafka was Jewish. Well, now I do. It's a shame, too, the book seemed really good.

>>18953649
21

more suicidal than usual

one, no one, & one hundred thousand

>>18963216
>Anytime I do anything stressful
I mean, programming isn't stressful if you don't make it so. And solving algorithmic problems is even fun imo.

>19
>Life is uneventful, I only go out once a week to get drunk. Waiting for university to start, wasting way too much time on vidya which makes me skip the gym a lot. I also got a haircut last week for the first time in almost two years.
>Gargoyles By Bernhard (Haven't read anything from him before), also reading all of Gogol's works, I've read everything but his dramas

>>18953649
>age
24
>how you’re holding up
I want to die. I can't get a job but don't want want even though I need one. I live in a toxic environment in my parent's house, and my Dad's health and mental state is slowly deteriorating
>current book
the aeneid

>32
>hate my job, lonely but at least got my family close
>just finished Dune

>age
21
>how you’re holding up
Zero motivation, shit job, bored with everything, regret after dropping out of uni but i still have some hope.
>current book
His Master's Voice by Stanisław Lem

>>18953649
>30
>Genuinely considering suicide, but mostly just for temporary relationship bullshit, I got past existential suicidalness a couple years ago for the most part
>Picked up Dorian grey and suttree, think I'm gonna do dorian.

>>18953649
21
pretty well, I learn more everyday, love my friends and family, and I don't expect any particular path in my life so I'm excited for what comes these next few years
currently reading propaganda by ellul

>>18963591
good luck anon, congrats on the job

>21
>Only go outside for gym and classes, no friends but thoughts of suicide and body dysmorphia every day. But also some fine sentiments and a great optimism and ardor. Gloom, beauty, and despair. As with the rest, lonely, creative, possibly talentless for now. But there are still many years left to my life, and miles to go before I sleep
>The Antichrist

Most here are depressed zoomers, it seems