/lit/ - Literature

tfw no gf

Come back Sovi, i need you so bad.

I set a picture of an anime girl smiling in a funny way as my desktop wallpaper just for lulz but seeing somebody smile at me every half an hour or so when I switch a window is actually helping me feel less lonely so I think I'll keep it.

>>18681376
I don't want to enter the world
I don't want to be a worldling
Where is the desert of today?
I don't want pleasure nor wealth only love and wisdom

lol I cant afford clubbing lol I cant even start something here lol I cant even buy shit from alicrap and sell it here lol im like an alien trapped in a cursed land lol no ones there for me lol

lol I cant even afford a whore lol I only have 300 bucks in my pocket lol I burned 100 dollars to binge buy cakes yesterday lol

Zoomers in the obesity thread don't know what Sears is.

I'm thinking about if heaven and hell are eternal in the sense that they are perpetual or the sense that they are a-temporal. There is a place in the Quran that I take to imply that they are a-temporal, at least heaven. There's a point in the seerah that implies that they are not of the essence of God (ie that heaven and moksha are not necessarily the same thing), but the Quran often speaks of several possible heavens and I'm not sure the seerah goes into the distinction. It is odd to think that a temporal action could earn an a-temporal consequence. But then there is a question if love is temporal, indeed if it is created at all or if it belongs to Gods being.

Always thinking about love. I am not a loving person. I don't think I'm an enjoyable person to be around at all. Maybe that isn't not being loving. I don't know how to be good company, and trying hurts. Everything that can be said just seems fake, seems better to say nothing. I think you either earn heaven because the love you share is a-temporal and serves as a bridge, or the only choice you truly have is the choice to regulate your attention, where what you can regulate it toward is temporal but the attention is not, and where this attention-regulating roughly equates to "worship". Cus the question is how you could earn it, to earn it there has to be a choice. I think a large part of monotheism is that it allows you to rest your attention in One rather than lose it in multiplicity. The idea is that by doing this you give your life back to God, and He can do with it as He wills, and thus you earn heaven.

Or it's something else entirely.

>>18681494
$100 USD on cake? That’s expensive cake.

>>18681519
I'm a zoomer and Sears Outlet was the place my parents would go for kitchen appliances and the like. Sears proper wasn't a place we really visited, except when the one in our town shut down and my dad wanted to see if there were Craftsman tools on sale.

>>18681564
authentic turkish baklava lol no ones even going to hire me as a codemonkey here lol a beggar foreigner cant choose lol my only choice is upwork but i cant compete against prakeets for $100/month lol

>>18681570
Ah good you know some of the national heritage

im so tired lol i dont have energy to send bullshit email and resume again lol what do they even want lol i can build apps i can build websites ive finished half of leetcode what more do you want lol why cant anyone just give me a fucking chance lol

I went from extreme avan-teen to listening anime openings on repeat. I think I have never actually enjoyed music.

>>18681376
I hate women because i see them as weak and I feel nothing but contempt for weakness

>>18681608
go back to india

>>18681671
i lern hadoop for she
helo sirs
may i halp usir ,
rajesh speking

Jesus fucking christ I hate having to wrap pallets so fucking much. Constantly feel like my fingers are about to catch on fire

strongly suspect I'm in a depressive episode. a lot of people want to talk to me all of a sudden and it just seems like a waste

>>18681392
iktfb. I know it all too well

>U CANT JUST COMPLAIN ABOUT UR JOBHUNT ON A LITERATURE BOARD BECAUSE... BECAUSE YOU JUST CANT OK????

Fuck job hunting. Fuck these lying bastards that tell you you're hired and then ghost you.

I unironically enjoy being a coomer. It legit makes me happy knowing that millions of beautiful women are at my virtual fingertips, just some buttontaps away. Thanks to modern technology, I alone have seen more naked women than all my forefathers put together. How could this not make me ecstatic?

What is it that's troubling you? Money problems? Not fitting in the society around you? Deep existential crisis? Or were you just born as miserable fucks and will keep being so until you die?

is this thread really /lit/ related?

>>18681930
yes

I AM FUCKING
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGH
I AM A FUCKING GOD AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I AM THE FUCKING INCARNATION OF SHIVA CHAINED IN A DISGUSTING HUMAN FLESH
I AM A FUCKING GOD
THIS WORLD IS MY FUCKING PLAYGROUND LOSERS

>>18681958
そうなんだ

KEEP TELLING YOURSELF THAT ONE DAY IT'LL FIT, ONE DAY IT'LL COME BACK TO THE USUAL, ONE DAY I'LL BE HAPPY AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
YOURE FUCKING LOSERS
KEEP THINKING THAT YOURE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE WHEN YOUR MENTAL CAPACITY IS SMALLER THAN A WORM YOU CANT EVEN SAVE YOURSELF AND HAVE TO READ SHIT FROM OTHERS ASSES TO KEEP YOURSELF SANE KEKEKEKEKEKEKKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE

>>18682025
on what drugs are you on right now?

>>18682025
>>18682025
I can fap to this pic

>>18682066
Bloodlust.

>>18682025
Meds. Now

>>18681376
I am so desperate that as I act in desperation it's taking me time to catch up with the full awareness of how desperate I am.
Everything around me collapsed. There is not a single thing that survived. I have NO idea what I'm doing.
I only hope I won't fuck up yet again in this time of horrible vulnerability.

>>18681859
>It legit makes me happy knowing that millions of beautiful women are at my virtual fingertips
lol they're not

>BLOODLUST FROM WHAT???
BLOODLUST FROM THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!
>BLOODLUST FROM WHAT???
BLOODLUST FROM THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!
>BLOODLUST FROM WHAT???
BLOODLUST FROM THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYTHING'S FUCKED
EVERYTHING'S FUCKED
EVERYTHING'S FUCKED
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Are you honesltly that dumbfounded that I wouldn't want anything to do with Jenna or Kevin or what have you? Look at the kind of women who worship me. I wouldn't want to even be seen with people like that. Dude, I thought they were losers from day one. I've had enough of people like that.

There should be a light novel general.

>>18682117
I'm in similar state, anon. We're gonna make it together.

>>18682176
I wouldn't have told you or your uncles this were you not here but yes, I would not want to be seen with you.

> start a book
> realize another book is pertinent to what I’m writing
> want to abandon the book I already started to read the other one
> infinite cycle of starting and not finishing books

Is this a good book? It seems to have reprehensible premise.

Is this a good book? It seems to have reprehensible premise.

>>18682176
Yeah but I also really, really want to leave this place behind.
I'm thinking I should make a Discord account or something.

>>18682269
yes its good. if you feel disgusted in the 1st half thats good, it means you're not a pedo.

I came to the epiphany that I knew I would have after bingeing what I was bingeing. There are lessons here. Lessons about modes of being and power. How power is wielded and by who dictates how one expresses one's being in society.

now that my mind has been filled with narcissistic brainwashing, i have lost all self worth and am on the brink of death should i go through with it
if i do should i leave some word behind
does the fact that i'm typing mean that i'm not serious

>>18682370
Start some therapy, anon.

>>18682329
Foucault? I've always wanted to learn more about him but he's such a fucking meme I can't take him seriously at all

nazrin-chama...

>>18682379
from whom though
is there even a point if i'll just keep getting surrounded by people that like doing those little murders (as sam hyde says) it's basically second nature to them so you can't even bring it up
is it weak to be sensitive to this shit no one else seems to be complaining

>>18682436
Have sex nigger

>>18682370
don't know what to say but make sure it is what you want.
In the end you miss your miseries as all you have is the dull ever present drone of existential dread.
this is the point where you realize that emotional pain actually affirmed life and was something you could enjoy but of course you only learn to enjoy the pain after it is too late itself.

Don't make the wrong choice.
Try one last time.

>>18682436
I don't know, if you feel that insecure about it. You can always read a intro do psychology textbook and then read books about therapy, try it out on yourself and see how it goes. It is definitely harder than just starting it with someone who already knows how to do those things and you are going to miss the perspective of another person.

I definitely recommend that you start writing about things that are bothering you. It is a really good way to forget shit, there are two books by James Pennebaker called opening it up by writing it down and expressive writing words that heal. Both of those are decent starting points, you can create threads in here if you feel like it. I'm somewhat always checking /lit/, and while I'm not really a pro, I could be of some help.

>>18682474
>In the end you miss your miseries as all you have is the dull ever present drone of existential dread.
what does that mean
doesn't feel life affirming at all more like hell on earth useless pain

Insatiable bloodlust
I want to kill someone
God I fucking hate cunts

How would you deal with the intergenerational pain in our society?
What would happen once you've killed all cunts on this world?
Would there be cuntlings that arose from genetic mutations again?

>>18682025
Uh hello, based department?

>>18682521
After about two years of not consuming any media I'm forcing myself again to watch films, read, listen to music. I wanted some time alone with my thoughts but I didn't do anything with them. I was unable to do anything. After two years I just feel more ignorant than before.

>>18682561
I didn't mean to quote you bloodlustbro.

>>18682496
idk i have cbt books but wouldn't i need some space from the negativity first
how will reading therapy work if i'm constantly being bombarded with anti therapy in person
idk if writing about shit will help me forget shit but i guess it's an excellent way to compile that ultimate suicide note lol that way my daemonic family will not be able to pass off my death as a complete joke at least

A friend of my grandparents died recently, but not before shitting pieces of his lower intestine into a toilet bowl, after a botched chemotherapy attempt for treating prostate cancer. Lots of blood, apparently. Another friend of my grandfather also died; he swallowed his tongue and then chocked, if his wife is to be believed.
This is what we're heading for. I'm not scared of death, but I'm really fucking scared of dying, bros. Another reason to end it early with a rope and a chair.

>>18682567
np
Is it in everyone's nature to be cunts? Or is it just reserved for a special few?
Police, military, any kind of organization, they are all cunt enablers
God I fucking hate cunts

>>18682276
I personally think Crime and Punishment and The Brothers Karamazov are overrated books and certainly not his best (Notes from the Unferground is his best) but they are good books. I’m not sure what you mean by saying the premise seems reprehensible but I suppose the purpose is to engage with something reprehensible.

I take issue with historical fiction as a genre. Should I?

>>18682752
yes. it's all garbage.

Luckily not all cunts have position of authority, but some of them are lurking around me...
They're all the same cunts
They're all cunts

>>18682761
I agree, but can you please shut up? thanks in advance
you're one of them btw

>>18682761
but what do you mean by cunt?

>>18682758
Why do you think it’s garbage? How do you feel about fantasy since it’s usually Middle Ages inspired?

Butterfly is my bitch :3

I finally read Blood Meridian. I loved it. I haven’t enjoyed a book like that in a long time. What are some other books with action like that?

>>18682391
"Memed to death" is part of the cycle of ideas.

>>18682766
I wish for a just world without cunts where everyone can live in peace and no one's being mean or cruel towards each other
You think that makes me a cunt too?

>>18682776
>Why do you think it’s garbage?
It's mass-produced trash targeted mostly at boomers, and it gives people the illusion of learning something while, in fact, just consoooming product.
>How do you feel about fantasy
also complete garbage

>>18682793
>You think that makes me a cunt too?
Literally everyone's a cunt by virtue of being born, including you and myself. I want to die

glowies are getting very weird

>>18682794
So you’ve never encountered a work of historical fiction or fantasy that you thought was good?

>>18682806
But I've never hurted anyone and I doubt I ever will. I've fantasized about hurting them to let off steam but I've never actually done anything. I'm repulsed by their existence but I do not wish to inflict pain onto them. The only thing that I've hurt is myself.

what do we do when bots are able to believably solve all captchas? do we just accept that they can shitpost as freely as any of the rest of us?

>>18682866
dilate tranny

desu I pretend to be a struggling writer to impress girls and it's worked so far

>>18682499
>what does that mean
>doesn't feel life affirming at all more like hell on earth useless pain
You are at the start of your suffering anon.
You come to enjoy the pain and the tears and after they are gone you long for nothing more.
Happiness? cheap and timid! what you crave after becoming numb is weeping and nothing more.

Buckle up kid because it is going to get much worse.

>>18682971
very based post. some day soon, i'll find the strength to finally do it.

>>18681376
I wrote this after crying in the car on the way home.
>Sitting at the counter in a gasoline station, I type away the various things I thought to express. While distraught in my mental state, the rain that had loomed over
Afterwards, I gave a homeless man 5 bucks and went home after calming myself down. Dont know if I should do these more often.

>>18682979
I think that the choice to die is very personal and no one should influence another so please do not take the following comment as some encouragement.

I wish I could sail off the edge of the earth when I still had some wind in my sails.
I hope to wake up and have life hit me in the face and straight away ending myself as well.

Seriously though anon if you are who I replied to.. just try because most can change their life and only few are better dead.
Read schopenhauer and game the system.

>>18682853
>anon gives a hot take, "all x is garbage"
>(You) takes the bait
y tho

>>18682965
and when the dating isnt going so well, say you have a drinking problem. leave em with a sense of mystery. inspire hope. separate entirely

>>18682965
>desu I pretend to be a struggling writer to impress girls and it's worked so far
this is kinda pathetic.

>>18682998
>Seriously though anon if you are who I replied to.
nah, I'm another anon. you clearly haven't realised the full extend of how absolutely horrible everything is...yet.

>>18682945
>somehow I'm a fucking tr*nny for wanting to live in a perfect world
AAAAAAARRGGHHHH I DON'T GET IT

>>18683038
What makes you say that anon?
Not going to do a whole pity olympics etc but I am curious.
>>18683050
you are fine anime girl poster.
fuck that neon for insinuating that anime posters are troons.

I SWEAR TO GOD THIS TIME IM GOING TO DO IT, THIS TIME IM REALLY GOING TO KILL THEM ALL

>>18683064
>What makes you say that anon?
wait and see. it'll be different for you than it is for me.

>>18683068
Will you be in the news tomorrow?

>>18683068
GO KILL YOURSELF
THE ACT OF KILLING WITHOUT PAIN IS THE GREATEST MERCY EVER BEDTOWED ON THIS PLANET, IF I EVER WANTED TO CREATE MY PERFECT WORLD I'D HAVE TO PREPARE FOR SOME BLOODSHED BUT THERE WOULD BE NO PAIN
LIFE AND DEATH ARE THE SAME AND NO ONE COULD TELL THE DIFFERENCE

>>18681376
I think I'm somewhat of a womanizer despite my apparent shortcomings and it's not even making me happy.

>>18683068
please don't make your death blows another death blow for this website.
have you not heard of alcohol? forget your ego lol.

>>18682971
stfu sarcastic cunt

Every now and then I feel like the only reason I’m unhappy is because I don’t have things I things I don’t want but I’ve convinced myself I’m supposed to want them. But then I realize that’s just a cope for being a failure and go back to being unhappy for not having the things I’m supposed to want and that makes me feel better, which is to say miserable, but at least I’m not deluding myself.

THE CLEANSING FIRE OF BRAHMASTRA ONTO SEVERAL TARGETS WILL RID THIS WORLD OF IMPURITIES AND CREATE A UTOPIA FOR EVERYONE

>>18681376
The industrial revolution and its consequences have been a disaster to the human race.
...
I don't really like any socialized job.

>>18683104
>stfu sarcastic cunt
you just entered the tunnel friend

IMA MO TAKAKU TOBERU ANOGORO NO YOU NI

>>18683126
tunnel of your nonsense maybe

>>18682541
Majority of the problem in the west is that we've had three generations of parents who are incapable of normal empathy. Empathy is how we organized human society, what made us able to predict another's actions, what makes hunting parties successful, and religion seem possible. Without it there's just loneliness, narcissism, and most importantly, no way to cohere either a self or a society. Most humans in the west are failures as animals, and in other species that usually makes the individual animals incapable of breeding and passing it on to the next generation. The birth rate isn't low because we care about the potential unborn: it's because we can't care.

it is absolutely beyond me how someone could enjoy being alive

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FD1fPIgGJ5Y
>>18683144
The first step is to let the cartoons go

>>18683144
Some people do though.
Normies seem to and they cling to optimism.

>>18683138
>normal empathy
What is “normal empathy”? What is the presumably “abnormal” empathy people have now?

After all was said and done, I guess there are more bad things to speak of about the world than there are good.

>>18681376
My crazy coworker who I work with one day a week is drunk texting me. She looks like a pig and has been in mental hospitals. I don’t even reply to her. I wonder if this is how women feel re sexual harassment

>>18683144
>>18683172
Don't know if they do. I suspect they're more concerned with the outward projection of living enjoyable lives than actually enjoying their lives.

>>18683173
Normal empathy is being able to place yourself in another entities place and understand their feelings, reasoning, and likely future actions. It's a two part thing: one part is being able to discern emotions, and then second part is discerning the reasoning behind those emotions.
If you Google "empathy crisis" you'll see studies on this have been running since the 70s and the ability of college age students to perform those mental tasks has been in decline for generations.
Empathy by itself will not make you a good animal, but it is necessary for some kinds of predators to hunt, and for reproduction and protection against reproductive threats in most mammals.
I should stress empathy does not necessarily mean "lovely hippy vibes". Wolfhounds are empathetic and so can predict their owner's actions and can harry prey towards their owner's trap independently, making them capable of working in a team. Meerkats can work out when other meerkat mothers within their group are distracted, and use that opportunity to kill the other offspring which are a threat to their own offspring's survival. Sociopaths have abnormally high empathy, so they can manipulate people more easily, and more easily spot previously injured humans who are easier prey.
Abnormally low empathy is linked with schizophrenia (especially low empathy for the emotion of disgust) and autism in humans, but "abnormally low" in this case is judged against the current norm, which is an increasingly lower bar.

>>18683397
entity's*

>>18683138
>>18683397
good posts

>>18683144
I love myself and am eternally grateful for the life I have. Why can't you enjoy life?

How exactly could Nietzsche's sister have tampered with (most of) his works when we have the original publications?

>>18683031
desu I dabble a bit in my free time, have an art/writing project, and then this girl I was seeing started saying I was gonna be a writer when I wasn't really a writer to begin with and I just ran with it

"If man makes himself a worm he must not complain when he is trodden on."

So you want to say, it's my FAULT. Well, at least I can live with that, instead of the constant anger.

I have been teaching little kids for some time now, and I am surprised by how much they like me. There's this little girl who just runs up to me every day and gives me a big hug everyday, it's the cutest thing ever. And they do not do that for all the teachers, just with me. It's odd seeing others display such affection towards me. I imagine the people I deal with would feel repulsed if they knew how bitter I was, how much I disliked everything about them, yet everyone I meet seems to see in me something I do not see myself. I have girls flirt with me all the time, even though I don't find myself attractive. Even among the kids I teach, it's the girls who are most attracted to me.
What does all of this mean? I don't know, and who really cares. Thanks for reading my blogpost anyway.

>>18683540
The only thing she tampered with was The Will to Power, which was compiled from his notes. I haven't heard about anything else being messed with.

Having a fetish, a bona fide pathological fetish, not the memetic definition so loosely thrown about in "girls with glasses make my peepee tingle a little bit more" is a "fetish", is hell.

>>18682690
I agree anon, getting old terrifies me. I cannot imagine life after 30.

I had a friend who wrote like horseshit. Zero style, vocabulary, aesthetics and precision of thought, imitating Bukowski and Hemingway without realizing that what they did at least requires effort.

I laughed my ass off when he sent me an instagram profile of a girl who uses the platform to write down her thoughts. The girl attended a linguistic gymnasium, she did study medicine for what feels like forever, but God damn, she had everything he was missing in his writing department, and he was salty.

He started blabbering something about how I shouldn't fall for those girls and started making up theories about them. I regret that I didn't shittalk him back then, but it helped me realize that he treated me similary, so we parted ways, but I still make sure to tell this to everyone who knows him and to laugh my ass off while doing it, trust me, he deserves it.

>>18683747
>30
>old
Jesus christ

>>18683734
What's your fetish?

>>18683816
>t. old

>>18683706
See a shrink, honestly man. I felt the same way and I got help.

Look at the ground
Look at the sky
Me and yo bitch make a lil nigga pie

She lookin round
I'm lookin fly
Me and yo bitch make a lil nigga pie

Fuck like a hound
Lil nigga cry
Me and yo bitch make a lil nigga pie

Semen abound
Shoot in her eye
Me and yo bitch make a lil nigga pie

woke up feeling like absolute shit
I only had a single can of beer, and it was only 3%
well, at least I know I'm not an alcoholic

>>18683706
They don't have fathers. You are probably a nice anon.

>>18683706
>>18683918
This was my first thought. People really underestimate how much kids love to have a friendly MALE presence around.
t. also teach little kids

>>18683369
this is true socially but from talking with normie family (who I accidentally made "depressed" and cry a lot) they seem to deny anything negative and when asked why they think what they happen to think.
They defiantly end up blurting out that they do not need to know why they think what they think or if it makes sense because it is what they think.

>>18683144
Not to sound like an absolute retarded narc
but I sometimes wonder if we're just too smart to exist
seems like there's this suicide zone of intelligent but not genius people where you just come to face with reality as a whole but is not smart enough to come up with a solution so you just get depressed

I suddenly had a flash back of when I was 1st grade elementary at a Christian school
There was this girl in my class who I was friends with, and one day she pulled me away during recess and said she wanted to show me something
She got out a dictionary and just flipped to the page with the word sex on it and just started giggling while showing me it, I guess I was a bit slow because at that time I didn't even know what that word meant and didn't know what's so funny about that word.

Right now I yearn for the touch and attention of another human being. This is the condition of living...

>>18684088
get an escort

>>18684132
>gets pretty girl to spend the night with him for $1000
>good night of sex and cuddling
>she leaves
>hollow again
Expensive band-aid.

>>18684146
then swear off sex
literally just do something

>>18684149
>literally just do something

>>18684088
TFW schizoid.
I am so lucky I do not have this need lmao.
I do not even have a single friend or anyone I actually talk to aside from anonymous sometimes.

>>18684158
What is your life like? I mean day to day.

read lolcow
want to kill myself now

>>18683747
>t. 43 year old here
Still loving life, still have so many goals and hobbies, enjoying writing, my kids, playing Mordhau at night after smoking a joint before writing. Still so much more adventure ahead in life.

Start putting the boots to life and you'll feel invigorated, you have to do stuff. Write, build, fix, create, organize. Move somewhere new! Start a new career / job. If you have money, buy a camper van and go live innawoods for a few months.

You have so much living to do.

>>18684161
>What is your life like? I mean day to day.
lay in my bed 24/7 except when I go to the toilet and eat if I do.
>wake up
>brush my teeth as I have a NEED to
>watch anime or try read a manga or read
>browse some boards online that are not 4chan
>sleep when I want to sleep
I spend a lot of time listening to music and just thinking about nonsense.

I don't enjoy life and I do wish I could be like the anon I replied to who can connect with other humans but I simply cannot.
I hate life I am empty and beyond misery.
read 2 books today though

>>18684164
what this?

>>18684181
>what this?
newfag who does not know anything.
fark off- also whats google

>>18684174
That doesn't sound so good, anon... I assume you're a NEET? How long has it been like this?
>read 2 books today though
Well now it's cool. You're a wizard.

>>18684174
How much time do you spend outdoors?

Do you build or create anything?

You're not beyond saving.

>>18684174
Here's what I do when I felt worthless
I just do volunteer work, I rarely care about the stuff I volunteer to, I do it really just to occupy my time,
But seeing people laugh around me helps me pretend that I'm something more.

>>18684187
I know what a lolcow is.

>>18684146
why pay for time you're being unconscious, just pay $100-200 and fuck her then cuddle/spoon w.e

>>18684188
It is not good and my psych seems to think I am actually beyond hope but I do not trust them.
10 years.
I am not productive and it is rare I am able to read because I cannot concentrate and feel too awful to do anything mostly.
Hoping to read a book a day from now on though while I can read.
>>18684194
>How much time do you spend outdoors?
go to a psych which is a new thing so I go out weekly but I used to never go out.
actually never go out of speak to another human and I think it;s better that way.
I write sometimes.
>>18684199
do what works for you anon.
Here is the thing though.. You have desires right? so chase them because you are lucky to have them and can feel satisfied.
work out whatever stops you going for your goals and go for them but don't fool yourself into thinking anything will make you happy.

>>18684218
oh I have desires, a desire to cease existing, but I'm over suicide
so I'm just spending my time on earth trying to bring as much happiness to people in the hopes of it eventually coming back to me.

>>18684164
Why would you do that anon? It's literally femcel central, their hypocrisy and lack of introspection is astounding

>>18684229
Try to dissolve your ego if you can.
The thing about advice that requires monumental perspective change is that we can never just learn it by reading it and need to experience the forms behind the words themselves to make true sense of it all.
If you can make it work for you then it is good enough but this seems like a means towards what end?
dig deeper within yourself.

>>18684253
I don't even know what that means
got any books that'll help me do that?

>>18681376
Posted in the last thread about my methhead schoolmate who was, thankfully, arrested for trying to break into someone's house.
Apparently he's already out since he only was charged with misdemeanor harassment. No fucking idea how any law official could see him and think that he's safe to leave in public, but I guess that would also explain why there's so many meth addicts.
It's a matter of time before he hurts either himself or someone else. Hopefully the former.

>>18684269
they'll almost always aim for people they know first, I'd lock the doors if he was your friend at some point.

>>18684276
Trust me, I went through a song-and-dance with that shit already. After hanging out with his (non meth addict) ex girlfriend he posted shit saying I'm a "dead man walking", at which point I had to call the police dispatch to which they only said that they'd recommend a no-contact order.
I moved out of my parents but had to give them a heads up that they may need to call the cops on a tweaker if he comes over, since he probably assumes I still live there.
A shame since he was relatively normal in 6th grade when we met, but now I just want him to either get locked up or smoke himself to death to make everyone else safer.

>>18684259
>got any books that'll help me do that?
exactly not this.
Words are the thoughts of others which paint an approximation.
We need experiences and reflection instead to truly grow and although reading can help it is truly thinking in its essence both actively and subconsciously which we need the most.
Don't settle for the simulacrum born from figures granted the title of wise but try to find those indescribable nothings which cast the shadow of words- yourself.

reflect and relax and challenge yourself and live.
living does not require traveling the globe or romances either as I am a hermit.

The husband of this girl I’ve been seeing came to my apartment and tried to act tough. I ended up punching him and he went away crying. Now I feel kinda bad

>tfw I see a jasonpost

>>18684329
It's ok chadbro, that cuckold surely had an erection right there.

>>18684218
What gets you excited?
What are you afraid of?

>>18684349
nothing gets me really excited but in a way it is when a book I ordered arrives.
I am afraid of death to be clear as I think too much for my own good. Not that my thoughts have value but that I try to make sense of the beyond and get caught in traps of my own making.
if I was smarter I would just embrace death as it is inevitable I guess

>>18684329
did you know?
please tell me you didn't know

>>18684349
that is the thing though.
there is nothing that I really desire as a human would.
cannot express this with words but pretty much everything aside from a few things have value as they are linked directly or indirectly to social success.
if you didn ot care about being social you do not have as much to live for and desire.

>>18684164
I practice comforting women in LC and CC vent threads to better understand women psyche
I think I'm getting better at it

>>18684357
Have you ever done something like:
1. Rented a cabin by a lake
2. Had access to a jet ski by above lake
3. Had access to many books and a comfy chair
Try this:
>wake up
>cook yourself a breakfast, whatever your heart desires that you brought with you
>after eating, go out on the glass-smooth lake. Either use a canoe, or motorboat, or preferably, a jet ski. Rip around the lake, explore! Jump your own wake, enjoy the raw aspect of the powerful machine.
>after riding, go back to the cabin. Make lunch, perhaps BBQ and have some alcohol with your BBQ lunch. Feel the sun warm on your skin. Now, after lunch, either go inside for a siesta so you can wake up after dinner and read/write, or have a coffee and then read/writer until you are bored.

I did this exact lifestyle for a couple of weeks near Kamloops years ago, and it was the most calming thing. I can't remember how much the entire trip cost me, but I think it was only like $1500 after rental, gas, food.

If you're feeling detached and depressed, you got to get some sun man. Spend time outdoors, look at the wildlife, smell the flowers, listen to the wind through the trees and the birdsong.

God bless you, the power for change does lie within you!

>>18684388
man, that sounds so relaxing

>>18684365
Wouldn't it be totally fun to go ripping around a lake on a jetski on a nice, hot and sunny day?
>tosses anon a white claw

>>18684390
We get so wound-up in modern life that many of our illnesses and issues with hatred stem from the fact that a great size of the population cannot relax or "turn off" without heavy drug use.

I read this short story in high school but I don't remember the title, it was about this guy who lives in a small village that travels to this immense ancient ruined city, which may or may not have been a regular human city, he goes into one the buildings and there's a huge dead guy on a chair that's been perfectly preserved who he takes for a god.

Assuming it wasn't just a fever dream does anyone know what what the story is? It couldn't have been more than 10-20 pages.

>>18684399
Cool pic anon, sorry I don't know that story.

>>18684388
this sounds good really.
I have experienced the outside before and did not enjoy it aside from observing
>gondola.png
This seems nice though it really does.
Without the jetski this would be perfect but only if I was truly isolated!
>>18684392
not for me anon.
>>18684399
unironically ask reddit to help.
i think they may help you? make sure to say that the book has some sentimental value like your grandfathers husband who was black gave it to you before he died and it got lost in a hosuefire or something. Say you are trans as well and an atheist and they will sleuth it.

>>18684411
Do the cabin thing, I believe your feelings would burn off eventually and you'd feel ready and drawn back to society. It has been nice speaking with you on here and I hope you have a nice evening.

I want to try and bang the cute intern but I don't want to get metoo'ed.

>>18684421
I want to kill you :)

>>18684421
FUCKING CUNT DIE YOU PIECE OF GARBAGE

>>18684421
bang a cute escort instead

>>18684329
nice fantasy

>>18684421
be upfront about it, it's the only way to protect yourself

>>18684375
d..does that work?

>>18684473
>d..does that work?
can you leave CC alone please.
You can just read you do not need to be a creepy scrote and post.

>>18684473
I don't know, I've never had a girlfriend, but from what they're telling me it seems to work, I've just been sharing my experience on dealing with extreme negative emotions from contemplating suicide

>>18684492
I'm also simultaneously using it as a exercise to better control my emotions
sometimes reading the stuff the say on there still brings tears to my eyes

>>18684492
Where are you from? How old? What's your situation currently? Life can get better anon, hang in there.

>>18684502
>still brings tears to my eyes
oh...
I hope you're alright, are the stuff they say really that bad or are you just emotionally unstable?

Yeah I know this is really cringe to do, but it's going to be on my mind and on my chest until I do this so here we go.

So I heard it's someone's birthday. It's funny, I know your birthday but not your real name, and it's only because I got stubborn after hearing you were a Cancerian. You're a Cancer Leo cusp and that has only a few days of wiggle room. I was buried in books during the whole twitch stream rise to popularity and I missed the whole streaming craze, but I liked watching YouTube videos while I wrote. I heard about your Hololive group and it was on YouTube so I figured why not. I'll give them a try. You bunch were my first streamers I ever watched.
The whole superchat thing and all these membership things went straight over my head, and the culture that came with it really tossed me for a loop, but I liked the streamers. Especially you Kiara.
All I ever did was offer kind words and cheer you bunch on, but words are also where I excel, so since obviously I can't use your actual character for my books, I have decided to make a homage to you. Books last much longer than songs or performers. People know Shakespeare. How many other performers do you know from that era? Exactly.
Kiara, I have made you an immortal phoenix. So long as literature exists, so shall you. Of course reading the story it's just me going into the history of an actual Japanese phoenix and it all fits perfectly but yeah. It's a homage to you and all your hard work.
I mean really. A lot of people say they're going to do something. They talk about their dreams. You went to Japan with a hop, skip and a dream and that takes guts. I remember getting interested in you after your first Minecraft collab and did a little digging and it looked like you were on the ropes, frustrated and on the verge of quitting, but you didn't. I remember reaching out at 3AM my time telling you to come to my timezone and I'll watch and cheer you on every night. You did, so I kept my promise.

>>18684502
look into DBT for bpd as it can help everyone.
>>18684506
>Life can get better anon, hang in there.
life only gets worse with the slight highs only tainting you forevermore to be even more miserable.

>>18684509
No, they are just too damn funny haha women suck

It has been three months since I last watched a live stream of yours, but you seem so much happier now and much more confident. It's not your fault. I'm always working or writing and only have four hours a night to really sit down and your streams commonly reach five hours long. Also timezones. I just physically can't. Still, my dorky death heart burns because SOMEONE said after Hololive maybe there might be a chance for the real you and me but that kind of feels bad because I cheered you on for so long because I wanted you to succeed and be happy. I mean I'd be happy if you emailed me though. We could be pen pals through email since I don't use social media. Your fanbase is kind of...intimidating?
I know there's not a snowballs chance you're ever going to see either of these posts, but she is right, nothing lasts forever. That got me thinking. You like story heavy games, so why not transition over to stories? Instead of a character, why don't you take the stage with me?
I could upskill your English but I can imagine a world where I let you translate my books into German and I could learn your language on that trip through literature. Then after four years and some Japanese translation boom. You have your permanent passport to Japan and if romance blossoms and we ended up hitting it off bam. Spousal Visa to America. The majority of the world would be open to us both. You could speak to the German speaking people and your knowledge of setting up conventions translates very well to signing sessions and someone that likes to dress up would probably handle an Author's Guild ballroom dance pretty well. I'm strong in a lot of places you are weak and you're a powerhouse in areas I lack, but as I always said I'd end up back in the shadows and vanish. Just another name in the crowd. Still. I wish there was a way to approach you as a suitor and not a fan, but life is funny like that.
I'm proud of you Kiara and I always will be. Happy Birthday.

>>18684510
this is really sweet anon.
as long as you see her as 2D it is fine :)
as long as you are attracted to her as an anime girl like a waifu it is cool.

>>18684526
Thank you. I was talking to another anon about adding her to one of my books because I spent a few months of my life in that audience, just as a kind of remembrance.
I expect nothing, I'm just a dorky author doing what I always have.

>>18684509
just emotionally unstable, I guess
I know it's their private place to vent and free themselves, so I try to not to take things I see there too seriously, but I can't help but retroactively apply context to all my past interactions

I got castrated a couple days ago and the stitches look weird and swollen in a way that scares me. Texted the doctor a picture and he said it was ok but it doesn’t feel right.

>>18684643
the same doctor?
probably shouldn't do that

>>18684649
You think a urologist is put off by dick pictures?

>>18684665
nah, I mean get a second opinion

Almost everyday, no matter what time I sleep, I wake up at 4am. Thinking its too early to get up, I go back to sleep but it fucks my schedule up and I get up late. What's the solution then? Just stay up once I wake up?

I am so fucking confused about what to do.

>>18684741
do you work and shit? just stay up.

>>18684362
I knew but I wasn’t the one who took vows. It was a mutual relationship

>>18684741
Chances are it’s in your head. The best thing you can do for sleep is just stop caring. Just accept that your body will sleep when you need it to, and do whatever. Probably, you’ll find that toy start sleeping through the night easily. It’s when you think about it, like you’re doing right now, that you lock yourself into certain patterns.

>>18681376
Life truly becomes worth living when you embrace the chaos and forge your own path through the madness. There is no right way about it, only the righteousness of future forged by your own spirit. Rejoice in the storm, for if you can withstand the tempest, your soul shall be unfettered.

>>18683706
Working with kids is awesome, I’m a sports coach for young - middle school age kids and it’s a fucking blast, I love every second of it and wish it could be my full time job. They’re all so full of life and watching them have fun is just such a breath of fresh air.

I write and I also make art. I’m getting to a point where I’m realizing that I won’t be able to really do both well and will have to instead focus on one but I don’t know which one I really want to go with and I don’t know how I should figure out what to choose. It’s driving me crazy.

>>18684923
we never really live lomng enough do we.
imagine if we lived 5000 years... imagine someone who worked on a single skill for all their lifetime etc..

Been spending time with my sister and her foster kids. I've come to realize I don't even care for a relationship with a girl anymore, I just want kids.

>>18684929
It wouldn’t solve the issue really. Youth is relative. If I lived to be 100 or 500, chances are I’d find only half my life to be really vital. It’s more of an issue that there’s only so many hours in a day, I can only spend so much time awake each day, I can only spend so much time awake each day not keeping myself alive or working, and so on. It would be great if sleep was optional…

>>18681376
It's my birthday today and the only friend I have is to busy to go out today with me so I've been sitting in a parking lot for a few hours drinking a milkshake, smoking and looking at 4chan .... feels bad man

>>18684950
it's just another day anon
but if it'll make you feel better, Happy Birthday
personally I haven't celebrated any holiday or my birthday for a decade now.

I contemplate the things I could have written if I continued into the night, writing long into sleep deprivation. Like the painter Salvador Dali, who would draw sketches half-asleep with a pen in hand so that when the pen falls it would wake him, I wonder what could have been if I continued to remain fixed in front of this infernal computer, typing away past midnight, only waking up from the sound of my head smashing upon the keybdedadade2

>>18684956
Thanks fren, I appreciate that and I'm sorry to hear that you haven't celebrated any holiday for so long... Can I ask why?

I love the theology of the Orthodox Church and the Holy Spirit speaks to me through the writings of the hesychasts, but the fetish for authoritarian traditionalism is really getting me down. Can I be a libertarian and still be Orthodox, holding to the Lord's commandments while allowing freedom for those who don't? I would like to believe that I would do great things for Christ's sake, but I know deep down I cant without the Holy Spirit. Is it worth it to be an exile in my own Church my whole life? I wish it wasnt so hard to figure.

>>18684971
oh no, nothing sad
I just suddenly realized one day that it's literally the same as any other day, so now I just celebrate whenever I feel like it instead of delegating it to a single day and getting sad when I miss that day, fits with my schedule much much better too

>>18684956
same here about 13 years now (boy im getting old)
>>18684971
not him but I don't mine since I was ateen as I hate attention and also hate getting older. I just drink or pretend it is just another day. My family all know not to mention it. same with every holiday it is all shit a slow miserable decay

>>18684884
This.

Godspeed anon!

I want to make a Russian literature chart but I am not well versed in Russian literature and I don't know where to begin

>>18685102
start by learning russian

>>18684993
That's pretty based anon glad you found a way tto maximize it.

>>18685010
I understand the attention bit for sure. Try not to be so blackpilled though fren

>>18684375
why?
reading LC is what turned me into a misogynist, no sympathy from me

>>18684643
>I got castrated a couple days ago
...
why

>>18685236
gf or wife probably didn't want to take pills anymore and decided that his body was more expendable than her's

>>18681392
>>18681721
Bug man moment. Anyone can get a girlfriend via tinder and bumble these days. Created things, including creatures do not satisfy. If you have not mastered yourself, seeing ways to correct even minor defects, to conquer sexual impulses, to master the interior motions of the mind and live each moment in tranquility, neither will the female you imagine.

This is what happens. You copulate frequently. This is not a good thing and there is no self control as to when or how. This makes you at the level of an animal. Most are addicted to masturrbation so they are already at this low level anyways. Instead of a hand you got a flesh bag. One that browses her phone and ensnared in superficial distractions. Useless going ons and spectacles. Petty anger over small grievances and fickle emotion. You only feel love because it reinforces itself into you. Hair in sick. Nails. Periods. Like Aurelius (pbuh) said, sex is the friction of pieces of gut and the expulsion of mucus.

What you should do
>get rid of all lustful habits and inclinations
>control your mind
>overcome all distractions
Once you have control of yourself, you are free and external events don't bother you. Only such a one is capable of making mate choices that serve more than a cope for loneliness which is born mutually and misery loved company.

Moral of the story, control yourself or be controlled.

>>18685241
That's cucked enough in itself, but why wouldn't he just get a vasectomy
Cutting your balls of is really in vogue right now, isn't it

>>18685256
could also be fetish shit
or maybe just ESL

>>18685141
>Try not to be so blackpilled though fren
give up enough and you find freedom

>>18685256
People do that to stop the natural production of testosterone.

>>18685104
kek
>>18683138
The birth rate is low because modern developed countries value female beauty and independence more than childbearing. This is not a lament but a fact.

>>18682915
At that point we place our feet in the grass and set our eyes upon each others' faces, occasionally opening our mouths to produce intelligible and, I daresay, meaningful sound.

>>18685248
>Anyone can get a girlfriend via tinder and bumble these days
I actually made a tinder and organised a few dates (Im not ugly or socially awkward), but then I realised I dont want to date people off a frivolous hookup app and cancelled.
I am mostly in tune with mind and body, and I dont think that calling innate human loneliness is "bugman".

You seem to be projecting a bit friend.

>>18685604
>calling
*realising

>>18684375
I just looked it up. I was expecting to have my eyes opened to the female struggle, but their "venting" turned out to be almost comfy compared to the doomer posting we see in this very thread. I wish my life was half as easy.

>>18685586
>modern developed countries value female beauty and independence
kek which ones?

I've been told twice now that I smell nice at work, and one of those times it was by a lady, so what do you think of that boys, how do you like them apples you smelly bastards

>>18686015
I've been wearing fragrances since I graduated high school
it's nothing, I've been complimented for decades

I don't really think I have any interest in people who don't want to talk about what I'm interested in, and even then I'm only interested to hear what they have to say in case I learn anything, not interested in them.

>>18682025
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

talking to people has to be some kind of game I'm not getting

I've been looking at careers in really high places so I can just cast a huge net and hopefully land something cool before graduation.
And I discovered that to get an internship at the CIA, you either need to win a scholarship, or be from a university with a high percentage of minorities. So that's out of the question.

But I still think NASA might be possible. For one, they accepted a recent bachelor's grad here after graduation, and also their internships are open to all students which is a lot nicer. I'm sure there's tons of competition for them but it can't hurt to apply. I don't know how many of you are STEMfags here but I'm a 3rd year and pretty behind in what I should have done by now, all I really have experience with is programming Java. It sounds far fetched then to think I could land such a prestigious job, but I think if I work hard in the next two years there's a chance.

>>18684943
>It would be great if sleep was optional…
This.
I've thought about it and I think that might be the superpower I'd choose, to make sleeping entirely optional

Is anyone here Polish? What's a Poilsh gf like? I have a feeling that I'm made for Poland

Please help me.

>>18686414
Yes, no fuckin idea, and how come?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMHhXzpwupU

Should authors like Nisio Isin be taken seriously? I know there’s more than a handful of his readers on this board and frankly, I think he’s got a fanbase which is a little delusional. That said, I try to be objective. I really do think he’s a talented writer. His books are genre fiction most definitely but where do they stand on this YA-Genre Fiction-Lit Fiction spectrum? Where do they stand on the low brow-middle brow-high brow spectrum? They’re not canonical classics tier and certainly not high brow. Let’s toss out those two. What’s left? Is this dime store Novel trash or is this actually good, well written genre fiction better than most YA?

I’m thinking about giving up on writing and focusing on another hobby.

>>18686648
I like reading Nisio, his conversations are fun, light, rhythmical at least the monogatari series are like that
but I didn't read them in english so I can't really comment on how they are.

Is there a chart specifically for all books referenced in Ulysses?

>>18686781
nvm found it

>>18686269
Don't become a glownigger.

I completely stopped masturbating a few months ago, and while it was difficult at first, it got manageable after a few weeks. But recently, I've started working out, and since then I'm having strong sexual urges every day that I was not having before. I suspect exercise boosts testosterone levels, which in turn leads to higher sexual drive. This is unfortunate because I don't want to quit exercising but I'm also tired and frustrated of dealing with these urges.

>>18682379
gay

>>18685248
Unfathomably based.

I’m 28 years old and when I was 26 I started hearing voices. It started in the winter of that year and gradually grew over time. When I was 27, they went away suddenly. I never told any one about it. Now over the last couple of months, I think they’ve started coming back but it’s hard to tell. It’s not intense like it was before but I don’t remember if that’s how it was when they first started. I’m scared to be honest. Sometimes I feel like I don’t hear anything at all, like it’s absurd to even suggest. Other times, I know I’m hearing things and I feel like I’m going crazy. I don’t know what to do. Should I wait to see if they go away again? Should I talk to someone? My mom said that my dad was bipolar when they were divorcing. I don’t know if that was just here being spiteful or if he really was bipolar. Could that be related? This is happening at a time where I’m really not happy with my life and my writing is just all over the place as are my thoughts. I need to do something.

>>18686882
Time to use that newfound sex drive and put into finding a girlfriend, don't you think?

Kinda sucks because we're still in a pandemic and I don't think it's going to get any better soon. Expecting lockdowns again this fall.

>>18687217
Maybe, anon. You should probably check yourself with a pro. A lot of stuff can be treated IF you start early. Don't wait until to turn into a fucking mess to look for help.

>finally finish a novel
>letting it sit so I can "forget" it before going back to edit it
>my mind still turns it over in my brain
>mfw I've come to realize the relationship the book centers around should be in the background and it should focus more on the internal and external struggles of the main character instead
I'm going to have to rewrite at least 50% of this thing. I'm okay with that, but realizing I have that much work is a slight dick tap

>>18685104
Is this really necessary? I see the "don't use translations" meme here all the time, but if you followed that advice you'd spend all your time learning languages.

I wish I liked dancing

>>18687409
What’s early? I’m 28 years old. Anyway, I’m sure to everyone else I appear totally lucid and with it because I am really. I just hear like noises, voices, something.

>>18687217
I’m not going to take drugs either.

I love you

>>18681376
>starting a year in a uni a couple hours away from where i live in a month
>fucking impossible to find a place to stay
>have to go there just to visit a shitty appartment 40 other fuckers are all asking for
>don't have a single guarantor because no family
>the process to get my bank to be my guarantor is incredibly kafkaesque and bureaucratically horrible.
>thinking i might just have to either live in a shitty motel and waste my savings on that or just quit my entire year if i don't find anything in the next 2 weeks.

I want to love someone so much so that they'd be the happiest person on this planet
I want someone else to feel like the king or queen of the world if I could make them feel so

If you keep doing this I'll really kill myself

Not that anyone would care

I'll kill you
I'll kill you
I'll kill you

I will love you
Sandalwood, wind chimes, woodpeckers
I will fly you to Venus and back
Maple, wooden cabin, stardust
The only thing that I need
Is for you to stay
Bougainvillea, dahlia, marigold

>>18688119
Sometimes the school has people working for them which helps students with housing. You should search for them online and contact them if they do.

This world just isn't for me
Sigh

There's no need for the real me to indulge in worldly affairs
I'm alone in this world and will always be

>>18688483
I want to give you a hug anoncito

www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Whgn_iE5uc

>>18688524
cope af desu

>>18684643
Die, troon.

>>18681376
I really wish a lot lately that I could just choose to not exist. I don't want to be alive, but inflicting suffering on others is too horrible of an act to commit.

>>18689129
You are valuable anon.

>>18688119
Location? You could sublet from somebody, I was able to find a cheap room in a house with a couple weeks of looking on craigslist

>>18689150
to whom?

>>18681376
I wish platonism general was still around so bad bros...

I still don't know how I wasted so much years discussing shit on /a/. I don't remember one single discussion.

>>18689277
To me!

Can I send you a paperback to read? I'd love to hear your feedback!

Livin in the actual end times.

>>18681376
start with the greeks

>>18689435
Don't trust this fellow, anon. Next thing you know, anon will claim your bussy.

>>18689331
Build it, and they will come.

make the new one already

>>18686448
sure

>>18681376
make the new one faggor

>>18689435
original here, i would like to hear the name of the book.

>>18683816
Snuff

I just want a steady job so I can piss away life but it's not even looking good for that.

wait, so you're telling me the bucks won the nba championship?

>>18681376
I'm legitimately happy right now in my life and have been for more than a year. I wake up excited every day to do my work. I eat well and feel good. There is no sickness, no loneliness, nothing annoying or troubling me. The world seems beautiful and amazing and I'm thankful and in awe of it.
In stark contrast I see so much sadness online, especially 4chan which I frequent, and I don't know how to feel about it. Am I part of the 1% of people lucky enough to feel good about life? Should I hold myself in reverence, as if I have come across some rare and precious thing? Shall I protect it like gold, this thing that is so rare among mankind? I feel embarrassed to talk about how I feel with others because everyone seems to be struggling and I don't want them to feel like I'm being smug or rubbing it in.
When I see the negative spells people cast on themselves I want to give advice. I want to show them about happiness but the words are never quite right and it sounds too much like self-help.
If anyone is interested in my process it came from self journaling. For years whenever I felt bad I would journal in the form of a dialogue where I would complain and pose questions, and then write responses from the perspective of a character I invented. This character is the most loving, helpful, thing I can imagine. No matter how I was feeling I forced myself to write the responses. The main rule is that when writing for this character I have to write the first clear words that enter my mind. It has to come from instinct and from the heart. I started doing this after being inspired by the book "Conversations with God".
I believe this process worked. I wanted to share it today. Hopefully someone finds it helpful.

>>18682025
hello pseud

>>18681656
>went from extreme avant garde (i.e. not music) to easy to consume anime openings (real music with a melody)
nah your taste is just improving
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YD4Qt8zIPbc&feature=youtu.be

>it's either psychosis or a genuine initiatory experience
i'll go with the more fun one

>>18691286
intersting thanks

>Haha Jeff Bezos loves his mom too!
>He is just like me haha! :)
>Haha, Obama was raised by a single mother too!
>He is just like me haha! :)
You bastards aren't even trying anymore goodness gracious

>>18691408
That's why Elon's fanboys always give me a chuckle. When you accept that it's happening you start seeing the funny side.

>>18691408
My stemlord friends get errection from all this
I don't get it

>>18682025
/lit/ can't recover from this

>>18691439
it was never covered to begin with

one time i was really constipated but also had diarrhea and i thought it was gonna come out of my mouth if it didnt come out of my butt so i had to put tp on my finger and finger my asshole until it got unclogged and then a bunch of black diarrhea shot out and i felt way better.

how do you become passionate about something?
I've only ever experienced the temporary fascination that comes with novelty

>>18691622
be competitive and hungry

I'm not entirely sure if /lit/ has spoilers, but I've just recently seen this film and I feel a compulsion to write my thoughts about it. No, I wouldn't dare post it on /tv/, those fools don't even watch movies and they would just call me a shill. I don't have friends other than you guys anyway, and I doubt my posts even get read.

Anyway, here will be my attempt to spoil:

Surprisingly the plot makes sense and could be interpreted either way. When the group blew up the alien space ship in Russia and slew one of the female brood mothers, perhaps they only defeated one of many. There was a scene wherein we clearly saw a group of aliens escape the ship, so off-screen another mother female escaped, and thus, continued the time loop 30 years later.

Oh, and it didn't help that the main character also never told his past daughter about his experience with the future version of his daughter, that way she won't repeat the same mistakes. There is then the possibility that the main character still dies in 7 years from a car accident after a divorce, and the daughter would grow up to be the future daughter with a dead and divorced father, completing the loop.

Also, that one mixed race head training lady with the braids seems to be a mix of the daughter and a black soldier that was near her. Perhaps she is their offspring, meaning she met her grandfather (who is the main character) as well her great-grandfather during the alien space ship expedition.

Overall I would say this was a surprisingly enjoyable film, at least to me. A more "normie" take would be that they did change their timeline using the toxin, but the absolutist timeline interpretation is also valid.

Side note: While I watched this film, I was eating McDonald chicken nuggets as well and there was a large bone fragment in the nugget. First time that has ever occurred to me, wonder how often that really happens.

>>18691668
how do you be competitive and hungry?

>>18691671
well well well, it's your unlucky day. seeing as i am currently banned from /tv/ and residing in this hellhole, i am obligated to call you a shill. shill

>>18691671
should I watch it?

>>18691673
be passionate about something

>>18691673
cut out every instant gratification modern crap
no more masturbation, no more fast food, no more snacks
no more videogames, no more social media

be present for every task, be aware for every move, put effort into everything you do

actually be alive

>>18684329
Fucking kill yourself (but only if he had kids)

>>18691696
>actually be alive
fuck

>>18691696
>actually be alive
so many people these days are just going with the flow, being swept along with the flow of society, and then 10 years down the line when they beach they're just lost because now they actually have to think for themselves now

is someone gonna make a new thread?

>>18691718
>t. early adopted schizo

>>18691734
are you alive yet?
or are you still waiting to be born

>>18691741

>>18691742
new thread by the way

>>18691736
Hibernating while my writing ferments!

>>18691696
these are good rules to follow in general but ime they don’t create passion. >>18691673
fill your brain with concepts and inspiration, spend time gathering information on your topic and competitors and see where the holes are… see what you can do better. then you can put pressure on yourself by making a name for yourself and having something to prove.

>>18691682
Thank you, it's much obligated. Sneed.

>>18691688
Personally I enjoyed it, but I decided to watch it on a whim without any expectations at all. As far as I was concerned, I was watching a film that was about time travel and aliens as advertised everywhere, and well, it's mostly that, I suppose. People say Edge of Tomorrow with Tom Cruise is also good, but from what I recall about that film, I didn't quite enjoy it. The actress in EoT is quite attractive though, I'll give them that.

>>18691757
Anon, I love your energy.

>>18684247
yeah, we're nothing like that

>>18692233
that's right "we" aren't, despite whatever you may think, there's a great diversity in the kinds of people that browse here, and I'm pretty sure there's way more females here then people think

>>18692405
>and I'm pretty sure there's way more females here then people think
i rarely come here and that is pretty evident

>>18692447
yeah, probably why there's so many people incapable of presenting a coherent argument and why there's so much butthurt name-calling

>>18692512
meh i dont mind, they seem to be the only ones that enjoy my shitty stories

>>18692566
well consider writing better stories then broski

>>18692118