/lit/ - Literature

I take a morning walk on the sandy shore
Quoth the raven "Thieving faggot, never more"
And flies away on ebon wings
No longer dancing by my strings
And so I shall stop rhyming.

As I walk, I think
That life is like a walk of its own
And a walk on the beach, at that

As short as you like it to be
But you can't make it longer than is possible

It can be pleasant
It can be foul
It can be dark
It can be warm
It can be wet

Just as the waves creep in to wash my footprints away
So too will the flow of time sweep on after me
Wiping behind any trace I may leave, and anything to remember me by forgotten.

almost half considering raping this girl I hate and idgaf about her suffering

I just watched a documentary on Miles Davis. I think it would be interesting to know the lives of other important figures of the time and how they influenced one another. To give a broader scope of that time period.

Given enough time, I think it would be interesting to go over the significant events in everyone's lives. It would be like a mosaic of humanity. A testament to individuality and freedom of choice. There would be the general or usual behavior in specific circumstances, and there would be randomness, chaos, & spontaneity.
So that people in a similar circumstance would make different choices, and that might shape their personality and further distinguish them. Each person begins to kind of compliment one another and they all start to fit together as an exegesis of the potentiality of the human soul fully flourished.

Any web novel readers can explain to me why people write web novels? I don’t see why someone would publish their serial online for free if they could do it in a traditional publishing format instead. If it’s good, it’s going to get readers either way.

I’m eating a schizophrenic’s dream. Hand-broken romaine and 12 Kalamata olives drizzled in creamy Caesar and topped by a whole hard boiled egg with a gooey filling in the center of the plate. Washed down by leftover Dr. Pepper from a Burger King drive-thru this afternoon.

sex
with anime

>>18609600
Mingus. He's completely insane and a beautiful genius. There's a documentary of when he was getting evicted which is mostly about hanging out playing music with your daughter and arsenal waiting for the cops to come.

>>18609640
>I’m eating a schizophrenic’s dream
I had a dream about eating deer blood and my own burnt skin.

I've decided to give up on my therapist and find a new one. I don't expect it to improve anything in my life since every single attempt has met with failure, but suicide won't be an option until my parents are gone, so I have to keep trying until then

shes on my mind...

Lately I've been thinking about apocalypticism, the Second Coming, and the end of time a lot.

Life becomes boring after college. There isn't anything new to be excited about.

>>18610080
Yeah same. Just next 40 years wage slaving

I just don’t have the time to do all the things I’m trying to do and I don’t know which of them I should stop trying to do.

I want to masturbate, because every time I try to write it turns into self-insert garbage where I fuck a werewolf girl into domestication

i've come to realize that i dont have the temperament for even remotely stressful work.

>>18610080
But I'm already bored in college

I have work to do. Lots of work to do. I promised myself I'd go back into work as soon as I finished off my unfinished grocery list. But as soon as I sat down at the home computer to do a quick check on emails, I automatically came here. And that quick check has turned into an unhealthy amount of time spent here. It is now 12:45 am. I am getting maybe four hours of sleep at most...again. Tomorrow, or rather, today, is going to require some serious hauling of ass.

>>18610080
GET ME THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU**C******L OUT OF COLLAGE BECAUSE I NEED TO START GETTING OUT HERE AND LIVING MY LIFE I CANNOT STAND LIVING IN COLLEGE ANY MORE I DONT WANNT TO DO THE HOMEWORK LET ME GET A JOB SO I CAN GET PAID (PAID REAL MONEY_) REAL MONEY THEN I CAN WORK ON MY WRITING PROJECTS FULL TIME (PART TIME) FULL TIME WHILE I COLLECT PAYCHECKS FROM A LARGE BANK COMPANY FOR DOING EFFECTIVELY NOTHING ALL DAY THEN I WILL BE OKAY THEN I WAIL

>>18609536
I keep going back and forth on whether or not I should move across the country next summer to move in with my ex gf.
We broke up only due to the distance and were together for 3 years, most of which wasn't long distance. We have been trying to talk again lately. She says the only way we'll be together is if, after I finish school, I move to her for about a year before we move back here together.

Every time I think about moving out though I get an unreasonable amount of anxiety over it and worry that, if I'm gone for that long, my family that's here (and I'm very close with) will grow and my 1 year old niece will forget me. I also worry that I'll just be unhappy in Florida
Maybe that's more reason to do it since I'd be "leaving the nest" (currently living 5min from my parents home and my mom is my landlord), but at the same time I can't imagine myself being happy without my friends and family nearby

I could genuinely see myself marrying her if this is worked through, but whether or not that happens is all up to me and the pressure of that is unbearable to me. So much so that I'm on an anonymous ice skating forum to talk about it

On page 110 now. Progress is a process and all that jazz. I'm on 5 hours of sleep so I think I'll sleep a smidge earlier tonight. Hope everyone else is doing good!

My favorite sports team just lost in the finals and it feels like a parallel to my own life this year, made a lot of progress but didn't quite succeed in my objectives.

Also what the fuck is this captcha, it's fuckin dogshit goddamn

There is not enough good Severus Snape/Lily Evans smut out there and it isn't fair.

My nuts hurt again and whenever I piss or masturbate a clear sticky discharge comes out of my dick and often ruins an orgasm.

They say it isn't possible but I think I actually, legitimately contracted gonorrhea from a toilet seat at work. This has gone on for months now, but the testicular pain was absent for a few months..

I'm probably already sterile or some shit.

>>18610666
>Worshipping a sports team

I will never understand this shit. Like, some of you people actually act like you're part of said team and actually get emotional if they win or lose.

You are legitimately mentally ill. Seek help.

Called in sick today. I'm going to read, write, and masturbate. What's up with you friends?

>>18610736
Who said anything about me worshipping the team ? I'm mildly dissapointed at best. Rooting for a sport team is fun that's all. Won't go deeper because I want to go to sleep

>You are legitimately mentally ill. Seek help.
Yes, I am. I already got the help needed don't worry about me anon

>>18610723
So basically... https://youtu.be/ZmbxinvLONE

Okay, so I know that things are lost in translation and that if you were serious about a text, you'd learn the original language it was written in, but.... Honestly, I feel like language learning is becoming an excuse I use to avoid actually reading.
>Hmm, this looks interesting
>It was originally written in German? Should I learn German?
>Dabble in German for a bit, move on when new book strikes interest
I feel like I would be better off just using translations at this point. If I learned all the languages of works I'm interested in, I'd have to learn:
>French
>German
>Greek (Attic and Koine)
>Hebrew
>Arabic
>Italian
>Swedish
>Finnish
>Danish
>Farsi
>Mandarin
>Japanese
>Russian
At some point it has to be better to cut the losses and just use translations

>>18610833
cringe dubs of cope

Are Christians generally so homophobic because Christianity teaches them to be homophobic, or would they be homophobic without Christianity, and they just use their religion as justification for hating gays?

I've been thinking recently about this. I'm of the opinion that homosexuality was ever considered a sin because thousands of years ago, people didn't know shit about hygiene and didn't practice safe sex.

So, what happens when a couple of sweaty, hairy middle eastern guys fuck in the middle of the sweltering hot desert, they get shit on their dicks, and they don't know how to bathe correctly? They get diseases like leprosy or other serious infections from lack of hygiene. What Biblical disease was the old-testament God known for using as a punishment? Leprosy.

So, some proto-jews saw guys fucking, subsequently get sick with leprosy, and conclude that it was God's doing and that it should be forbidden forever. Same shit as it being a sin to consume pork or shellfish.

>>18610826
It doesn't hurt when I piss though..

>>18609580
i'd like to see you fucking try faggot

>>18610877
"Homophobia" is universal.
"Homophobia" is also a misnomer because it pathologizes, and medicalizes, a universal human value, which is repulsion regarding male-male sex.
"Hygiene" doesn't matter. Homosexuals spread more STDs than anybody. Also 16x more likely to prey on children.
Again, this isn't something of the past. Gay sex spreads diseases.
Christians didn't invent homophobia, stupid.
Guess what, I can eat pork and shellfish and not get sick thanks to modernity. GUESS WHAT, still not getting fucking in the ass because AIDS.

>>18610969
But what about lesbians though?

>>18610986
Not him, but if I had to guess, lesbians were disapproved of because they wouldn't have kids and removed women from the group available for men.

>>18610986
Mostly harmless. Generally speaking, of course, lesbians don't tear each other's assholes up and exchange blood and shoot diseases into each other's orifices. I'm sure they'd love to. Also women are far less likely to rape.

As a Christian, I'm apathetic toward lesbians, generally, and usually I just avoid them because they're insufferable. I have one lesbian friend, but she's on thin ice.

>>18610969
I'm gay. My boyfriend and I are both clean and in a monogamous relationship. In a few months it'll be our 9th anniversary.
We have regular sex, a couple times a month usually. We also practice safe sex. To this day we're both very healthy. Modernity solved the pork and shellfish issue the same way it fixed the gay sex issue.

>>18611040
The gay issue still isn't solved. So don't even bother lying. STDs among gays is on the rise. But I can't talk sex into gays. I mean, look where you're starting from, getting fucked in the ass. What kind of reality is that? Lying, from that, is no problem.

Having said that, good job on being monogamous. I don't believe you, but good job.

>>18611050
talk sense*
Freudian slip?

>>18610969
Not all gays do anal sex

>>18611067
Fine. That's disingenuous, and shifting goalposts, but whatever. The burden isn't on me to find out who's a bugger and who isn't. Cast my judgment on the lot because I'm not going to go round inspecting blown out assholes.

Why do you need my approval anyway? Why do you need Christians to accept you? Is it because you can't accept yourself? You don't hear Christians pleading the acceptance of faggots. That's because Christians know the judgment of faggots is beyond worthless. Yet you come to us knowing we are your judge, and represent your judge. Live in hell, it's not my business.

>>18610969
Seethe bitch lmao

>>18611085
Are you fucking done retard? You're so angry about this issue that you're shitting up the whole thread with this dumbass argumentation, no one gives a fuck. You're the only one who cares. I can just feel the obsessive infuriation in your posts, I smell seethe. Have you ever tried to relax? Dumb bitch.

>>18611152
Be gayer. Live in hell.

>>18611172
Woah you le ebin spooked me with your imaginary afterlife video game realm for bad people, dumb retard

>>18609536
I wish I could just write, but I'm obsessed with planning, especially since I've created this ridiculously long series of plot lines. I need to better shorten my views so I can focus on one arc at a time.

Anyway this weekend I'm looking forward to getting fucked in the ass by my CHRISTIAN fag boyfriend who gives me the best anal orgasms of my life

>>18610642
It's a hard question, laddy. Do you like where you're living? Do you like where you might move to? Remember, you wouldn't just be there on the days you're happily in love with her; you'd be there on the days where you two are pissed at each other, too. Are you giving up work opportunities by moving there? Think about it all. Love is worth chasing sometimes but she has far less to lose than you do.

>>18610877
>Are Christians generally so homophobic because Christianity teaches them to be homophobic, or would they be homophobic without Christianity, and they just use their religion as justification for hating gays
I don't know. I'm twenty four years old and spent my entire life believing that being gay is evil and also that the gays were lying when they said that they could not help being attracted to the same sex. Went to a Christian private school that in hindsight was not the best place. I've become aware that people will use their faith as justification for some of the craziest shit, like arguing that covid masks are killing people that wear them or that you are evil for not voting Red every time. I still believe in the faith and gospel, but try to separate people believing in the Word because they are genuine and people just abusing it to make other people agree with crap that they want to push. Then you get to shit like homosexuality. The Bible talks about it, but only in the Old Testament for some reason, when Rome had its fair share of it. Does part of me always feel uncomfortable with same sex relationships because it's God's law or is that part of me uncomfortable because I was told to believe that my whole life? And is potentially being unkind worth wanting to avoid potentially permitting "evil"?

Jesus, the old Epicurean, only learned on the cross that the sufferings of the body outweigh the joys of the spirit. At least he was able to enjoy his God-manhood until the nails. If anything defines man, it is radical self-interest. Under every hand gesture hides the caricature of a greedy Jew.

>>18611306
>a Christian trying to have a conscience and exercise critical thinking
You don't see that often
Good on you
I don't think anyone can give you an answer there, bud
Somebody who doesn't believe in your Bible will say that it's obviously retarded and that you should just listen to your heart
Somebody who does believe in it but doesn't believe it hates gays will use some verse in it to convince you they're alright
Somebody who does believe in it and believes that they're messed up will take a different verse in it to try to make you hate them
The bottom line is that people will tell you what they want you to believe. Do the research yourself and see what your heart and mind reveal to you. You believe in your God. Doesn't the Bible say that God speaks to your heart and gives you the right answers? Trust your gut.

I want to fucking die, but at the same time I'm terrified of nothingness.

>>18611353
If it makes you feel better, you can't feel nothingness.
On the other side, there's a lot of things to do in life.

What sports do you play, other than "jack off to naked drawn Japanese people"? I also get straight A's, and have a banging hot girlfriend (She just blew me; Shit was SO cash). You are all faggots who should just kill yourselves. Thanks for listening.

>>18611365
>What sports do you play, other than "jack off to naked drawn Japanese people"?
I don't do that, actually. I play basketball.
>I also get straight A's, and have a banging hot girlfriend (She just blew me; Shit was SO cash).
I get As and Bs. I'm also a virgin.
>You are all faggots who should just kill yourselves.
I'm straight and being dead sounds boring.
>Thanks for listening.
PS I fucked your mom

>>18611363
>On the other side, there's a lot of things to do in life
This, I love wagecucking every day.

>>18611640
Not him but
I don't wagecuck and have a lot of interesting things that I do all the time
Heh nothing personnel kid

>>18611671
how do you sustain yourself then?

>>18611675
I have a "job" where I'm just paid to be present and do nothing all day but I can't earnestly call that wagecucking because I am at said "job" right now talking to you and reading books and learning about history of ballet and sipping on a can of coke as I write my 2000 page autistic epic poem
t. Receptionist

Do you have pleasant dreams? I just woke from a nap with an unpleasant dream and it occurs to me that the last pleasant dream I remember having was about fifteen years ago. They're not usually bad enough to be called nightmares but I wish they didn't happen.

>>18611808
based receptionist

I often feel like publishing my philosophical writings but I always balk at that because I feel they will inevitably be shown to be superficial trite, yet I feel like publishing them is one of the few things I absolutely MUST do in life and also that I do have something interesting to say about the subjects.

I have a pathological fear of being yelled at. Just the thought of it already freezes me when think of talking back or doing something else that might make me get yelled at.

Nostalgic
https://youtu.be/NvMRG_F_CGI

Today too, I must roll
https://youtu.be/NIqm73xsias

i wish i could read more and understand more advance literature

>>18610080
Will I be a slave all my life?

We need some schizos in here: >>18612108

I have masters degree in scatology, so you can trust me your asshole, I said to stranger girl sitting next to me in a bus. You got it, she replyed.

Where do you go to socialise / talk about literature? I'm from a rural mountain town in the middle of nowhere, I need to drive around two hours to get to the next university. I've done it before, but it's not practical. I'd rather not be a Discord tranny tbqh

>>18610080
It wasn’t boring in college? Sure felt that way to me. I just didn’t know it was life and not just college.

>>18612233
Sometimes with my brother. Rarely with a coworker who doesn’t read much but wants to. Here. That’s it. These things aren’t worth talking about anyway. You should write about them.

>>18610877
>>18610969
It has more to do with the fact that most of the societies oppressing the Jews, and those that they had to integrate into during the diasporas, were much more open to homoeroticism. More than half the rules in Deuteronomy that you allude to (and mixed fabrics, corners of beards, etc,) are about maintaining a cultural identity in a foreign environment... and the Hebrew rules were very breeding centric, to the point where they dictated how often you had to have sex with your wife under different circumstances.

>>18610986
There's punishment for lesbians in there too, but unlike male-male homosexuality it wasn't a capital crime.

>>18611371
Anon had coitus in the middle of typing this post. Nice.

>>18612325
>You should write about them.
Everything I write is trash, so why bother?

Twitter is actually pretty nice if you stick to small, non-political figures. I follow a handful of gardeners and naturalists from around the world and my entire feed is just pictures of plants and animals. The only reminder of the horrorshow is the “recommended” viral tweets trying to cancel some literal who for not tying his shoes or something.

>>18612564
go back

I was at the coffee shop near where I live one day and there was this tanned short-haired tomboy with gym shorts and tennis bag sitting right next to me and waiting for her coffee. A high schooler I think. As she was looking at her phone she also fondled her athletic thighs for some reason almost like some fucking tease. I felt kind of sexually frustrated. Like actually angry for being tempted. Did the internet ruin me?

I am obsessed with how at some point popular science went from that the evil church tried to bann galleio on the stake for his theories to the catholic church doing nothing wrong, please don't ask about the fact they still banned any heliocentric book whenever connected to Galleio or not

Announcement: I want to die.

>>18612582
No, you're just an incel. Have sex.
t. unironic virgin

If I was gay I would actually get laid every once in a while

>>18609536
i just want to meet you all and cuddle
unironically

>>18612604
faggot

>>18612594
Good

Jurors should always be informed of the possibility of jury nullification before the onset of a trial, as one cannot expect all men to be universally informed of this. For the state to neglect this responsibility would be to impair, and thus act against, the true Justice.

Just on mere hour more of this employed drudgery, then it's time to come home to mummies din-dins and me book

Why are redditors so obsessed with overpopulation and antinatalism?

>>18612604
If I ever met any of the cunts I usually talk to in this thread I'd fucking kill them with my bare hands

>>18612606
that's MISTER faggot to you

someone post the lit discord
and yes I am trans, before you ask

>>18612623
Mister faggot
<3

society is mad gay

>>18612620
thought the upper judges off reddit had decided that worrying about overpopulation made you a fascist
but if you are never planning to have children anyway, or won't have the chance, adopting those viewpoints might make you feel morally superior for doing what you would've done anyway

>>18610877
Not all cultures have been hostile to men doing men. Look at the ancient greeks. And in the early Middle Ages sodomy was considered a minor sin and only later became seen as more major.
This is a good vid on this topic: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QgUCx3T7n1A

>>18611808
Where do you get a job like this? Always hear people talking about office jobs where you get paid to do nothing but I’ve never found one irl

>>18612643
Yeah, bisexuality was culturally acceptable in Tokugawa Japan as well just off the top of my head. It really depends on time periods and regions. As a Russian history autist homosexuality was fairly popular throughout the 19th (which is the period I'm focused on) especially in aristocrat circles, we had many fag/bisexual poets and historical figures. But during the exact same period it was not socially tolerated in, say, Britain (hence what happened to Oscar Wilde). It's all dependent on context man.

>>18612582
Yes

>>18612564
I think you should be flayed alive without any hint of irony in me saying so.

>>18612569
>>18612695
>muh secret club
:^) desu ne~

>>18612679
>homosexuality was fairly popular throughout the 19th (which is the period
It's not just popular, it's mandatory in some instances. The empress Elizabeth used make everyone noble dress in drag and speak French at her parties. And pretend they liked it.

>>18612724
k-kinda hot

>>18612724
>state enforced homosexuality

>>18612724
>The empress Elizabeth used make everyone noble dress in drag and speak French at her parties. And pretend they liked it.
giwtwm

>>18612724
just for the nobles. the commoners were executed

Have you guys ever thought or experienced something that provided with a dash of momentary -yet pure- happiness, and shortly after when it fades away you truly comprehend how deeply unhappy you are at your regular state?
This happened to me earlier today when I was taking a walk after work.
A combination of the sunrays through the trees and some flower odor made me think of myself during childhood. I was very happy for about 2 seconds and then it was gone

>>18612965
Yeah actually

>>18612679
It wasn’t acceptable so much as it was tolerated, or accepted within very specific milieu, not broadly.

>>18611808
>history of ballet
They retrained some dancers to perform one of the Sun King's performances as Apollo. It's one of the first notated dances, but the notation is hard to interpret. They had to fill it out with the history of fencing/ballet to reconstruct some of the moves too. But they also made a documentary of the whole thing from research to performance which you should be able to find online.

>>18612582
You already posted this.

>>18609580
Go ahead lol

Im done suffering

Having a panic attack.

>>18609580
u gonna get pepper sprayed and cry like a little whore

Can someone PLEASE post non-fiction and / or philosophy writers that didn't have a formal education? I need copium, and I don't want to kill an entire thread for my cope

I have randomly fallen back in love with my ex girlfriend from 2018. I had a dream that she was in and since then have been thinking about her more and more and have gotten strange reminders of her during the day. Would it be completely autistic to make up a reason to talk to her again?

>>18613299
hylic problems

>>18613314
>t. man who watched a school of life video

>>18613339
lmao how did you arrive at that conclusion?

My mom’s getting surgery for a brain bleed. Not really sure how to feel rn. Any support helps.

>>18613294

Yes, me:

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>>18613355
Just do literally anything to take up time, honestly jut autistically scribble things out if need be.

>>18609536
So yesterday during work I got approached by two young women during the day. One at lunch out in a restaurant eating and one after work on my way to the office at a gas station. They approached me in flirtatious ways and made a good impression on me. We exchanged numbers at their demands. Felt pretty good.

Go on and went back to the office to finish paperworks and leave. My boss ask to speak with me. Big blah blah blah to tell me that next week they will be so busy with work that they did prefer I stay home. He wants me to take a week off to relax since he thinks I have been overworked and he wants to create a better team without me.

In a way I am happy to have a week off and possibly passed that week with those girls outside and dating; but in a way I feel quite insulted. They basically think that without me the compagny will be more productive and efficient in the busiest time of the year. I am debating what to do. I am pondering on asking them to pay me next week even if I do not come in or else I am going to find an other job anf leave them, because I want to make money and in my field every compagny is looking for personneld.

>>18612965
Absolutely. Sometimes when I have coffee everything suddenly becomes super intedesting then when it fades later the pointless monotonous reality of my life sets in

Reading philosophy, by itself, will at best make you a very erudite parrot. Philosophy ultimately begins introspectively, as something that by nature is done alone, and the works of philosophers should be taken more as learning aides or conversations than as textbooks to passively learn from. Also, so often people confuse history of philosophy with the philosophical activity itself.

Also, Ellen Page was cute back then and I miss her.

The first publications of my first novel are going live in less than an hour. My editor says there's going to be a big marketing campaign this weekend and it's expected to perform well.

Is this what "making it" feels like? It doesn't feel like I thought it would. And no I'm not sabotaging myself by linking it on /lit/.

>>18613660
Post a link to your book please. I am curious and also good for you anon.

>>18612643
Much anti-homosexual sentiment seems to skew along certain concepts of masculinity tied to the active/penetrative versus passive/receptive role. It specifically had to do with regulating a concept of manhood, not quite boyhood. Adolescent boys were fair game assuming they were the ones taking the passive role because they were not yet men and were considered acceptable sexual objects until they grew beards (as in ancient greece). In ancient Rome it was acceptable for a free Roman male citizen to have sex with another male IF they took the dominant role and the receiving sexual partner was considered *infamis*, basically meaning of low social status such as a slave, actor, entertainer, etc. Homosexual relations between two male Roman citizens of similar social standing and age was forbidden.

This pattern seems to reappear throughout several cultures.

>>18612564
Twitter is a great substitute for rss too

>>18613639
You're promoting one extreme opposed to the other. Both are terrible. Isolated introspection and self-reflection is enormously self-congratulating if it is not substantively engaged with others because fundamentally you and your thoughts are not an island. Your wants and concepts come from culture and family and common sense and all of those are ovewhelmingly likely to be as blind and mute as a parrot if not examined through the works of others. Perhaps you do not need to ever read philosophy to have a hunger for philosophy; but to imply that the hunger can subsist on its own stomach alone without any serious resources or implements from outside is just foolish.

>>18613639
The issue then is not with the philosophers or with philosophy but with the particular approach to it that you describe. If fools think a ladder is a tree, saw off the rungs, and lug the remaining bits around in a sack as a burden, to be charred and sold for coal, the fault for the misuse should in no way rest with the ladder.

bought this on the audible great courses sale for $10. definitely one of the better quality great courses classes. whether you agree with or oppose conservatives it's worth a listen. lot's of good information and references to somewhat obscure books that you haven't heard of.

>woke up this morning
>browsed internet in bed before work instead of sleeping more
>had some sort of remote work event; literally had the experience of "okay everyone, I won't put you in to groups, I'll let you self-organise" followed by ugly loser dread that sometimes happened at school
>spent most of workday browsing internet instead of paying attention
>browsed a silicon valley type's Twitter feed and mourned my lack of crypto gains or high paying job and how I haven't yet bothered to work out DeFi
>did some work throughout the day and it was so pointless; have reached the point where I know where taking on more work would be pointless and where it could be good long-term
>have done well at my job since I started but worried that I'm not normie enough to be considered good at my job, and that people are trying to force me out for not being a normie
>finish work
>sleep for an hour and half
>go driving, drinking coffee, browsing internet in car to try and recreate the weekend feel (fail)

Currently extremely sad at how my youth and 20s had no social experiences because I'm such an ugly beta loser. Currently sad at how my ugliness alone makes people dislike me and how I'll always struggle in any endeavour because of this.

>>18614386
>sad at how my ugliness alone makes people dislike me
it doesn't; you're deluded.
your character/behavior is what does it

I must confess.
On cam sites, I pretend to be a woman. Most of the time it works, and yesterday, I chatted with this fat and hairy old guy who I roleplayed with. I was his slave to do what he wanted with. There's not much to the story, but I was tired of jacking off, so as soon as he reiterated that I was his slave, I logged off.

What sites do you guys use to get your news/political articles? Im open for anything, im looking to broaden my horizons.

>>18614690
At this point I really have no "go-to" websites. I generally go to a mainstream outlet, a couple of right and left wing ones and then try and work out what's happening both from what I see and from what they ommit. I also have no "go-to" opinion author, everyone seems to have at least one insane opinion nowadays.

>>18609536

>>18614690
/pol/

>>18614690
I don't care to read any news or political articles.

>>18612564
Internet politics is a cancer. Because of its high emotional intensity it tends to dominate conversations and take over platforms.

Taken at face value both Reddit and Twitter aren't innately obnoxious. Reddit is simply a content aggregator--it's a way for collecting and publicizing all the stuff that's on the internet. Twitter in its primary intended function was essentially a means of sharing hyperlinks alongside short microblog comments but became a hive for liberal virtue signaling.

My head fucking hurts.

>>18614284
>>18614307
I do not mean that all of one's concepts come from oneself, or that reading other philosophers is in itself useless.

Imagine a child that looks at a table and is told, “this is a table”. The child will learn about the table in its mind, based on both its sensory experience and the identification of it by the adult. This severely speeds up the process of learning if the child were to be left alone and form the concept of tables (let alone other furniture on its own), but it's only made possible because one of the pieces of this process that was provided by the child itself (in this case, by the data of its senses).

But let's imagine that the child never SEES the table, it's just the adult saying “there are tables”. “Table” might form in the child's mind, but it's dissociated from any real concept-formation process. It's a floating abstraction, shapeless, with no referent. The child may even make associations with the concept - say the adult talks “tables belong in the living room”, but the child never sees either. The child now knows that “tables belong in living room”, but all that means, to the child, is a floating abstraction connecting to another floating abstraction. It's a pseudo-concept that is entirely divorced from the entire structure of knowledge that the child actually built by itself, as there was no input that originated from the child.

Now, to understand what Kant meant by transcendental idealism, I need to understand Kant’s definition of it. But Kant’s definition of it will only make sense, be intelligible, to me to the extent that it can be connected to concepts I already have incorporated into the totality of my knowledge. And in interacting with Kant under those premises, I will inevitably have one of three conclusions: (1) Kant’s ideas clash with my already established knowledge; (2) Kant’s ideas are an apparent development of my already established knowledge; (3) I have reached my limit and my already established concepts aren’t enough to digest Kant anymore.

Cases (1) and (2) are, in essence, not as much as me passively “learning” from Kant as it is me “dialoguing” with Kant. (2) comes the closest to learning, as what’s happening is that Kant is speeding me along by doing the conceptualizing process for me. Though I would argue that this is less me LEARNING philosophy and more like me USING Kant’s philosophy as a means of furthering my own.

On the other hand, I could study Kant and essentially “learn” all the formulas by storing them as floating abstractions that have no direct link to my existing knowledge. I could make the links from one formula from another, and even, from those links, to deduce new formulas based solely on the floating concepts themselves. But, fundamentally, I’m just repeating – not as a person who did the process described in the two previous paragraphs and happened to come to the same conclusions as Kant, but as a parrot.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

>grace periods are back on the cpatchas
>instant and large jump in shitposting
It was nice while it lasted.

Does fasting actually help writing?

>>18609536

I want to have written.

>>18609536

>>18611808
What is the name of your book on ballet?

All this Q stuff is honestly brilliant, they’ve managed to create an alternate reality that’s self sustaining even in the face of significant pushback from broader society. Hope they come up with one with anime girls next, I’d sign right up

I'm a pathological liar and I can't help it, I'm terrified one day my lies will catch up to me.

>>18612582
Sexual attraction to a young woman that - in an earlier time - would have been of age isn't wrong. It's actually acting on that attraction now that we know that being biologically of age doesn't make it any less harmful for them that is wrong.

>>18613299
>I had a dream that she was in and since then have been thinking about her more and more and have gotten strange reminders of her during the day
Anon. Having a wet dream about your ex-girlfriend does not mean you need to trying cramming her back into your life. You're exes for a reason. Control yourself.

>>18615752
I was like that when I was 10 years old. Since then I grew up and I can tell you its the best feeling in the world to tell the truth. Lies are for retards. At least if you do not want to tell the truth avert the question, change question.

I worked once with a mythomane. He would lie in every discusdion about non-sense. Everybody knew and they all viewed him as a fool. Probably people see you in the same way.

>>18612620
its quite easy to control the masses with an ever-looming threat such as the pseud global warming or overpopulation and reddit is a platform quite suitable for manipulating opinions with its upvote/downvote system and clear political narrative driven managers as it's controllers.

A few weeks ago I accompanied a friend to go visit some friends of his who were staying in a swanky hotel downtown. I don't support or endorse social interaction of any kind but I had nothing else going on so I figured why not. We get there, he introduces me to them, all is well. They suggest that we sit outside (it's a nice day) and he agrees and I follow them out. I sit down next to him, and across from us sits a very pretty, very shy blonde. Next to her, easing herself into the chair, is this pale creature I made out to be a woman (my deducting of its gender was made all the more difficult by the contrast of its ugliness next to the beauty of the shy girl). As soon as she sat down I felt another presence arrive, something spiritual or psychic perhaps, as if she carried with her more than one personality to swap out with her normal one on a kind of lazy suzan behind her head. The skin on her flabby arms and doughy legs was pale, pockmarked with purple splotches like unhealed bruises. Her face was covered in garish makeup, metallic scratchy blue above her eyes and flaking crimson moist around the edges on her open-hanging mouth below her shiny button nose. Her bosom was strangely compelling; I found my mind wandering towards those sagging, veiny milkers hanging against–straining against that thin, stained black fabric. My eyes regarded them, before moving downwards, where here gut hung under her breasts like a massive third boob; I could see the indent in the black where her bellybutton was; a small hole poked with an index finger in a mound of pizza dough.

The feeling that she carried with her more than one presence grew stronger and stronger; as the conversation (which I partook little in) carried on and the traffic below us droned, my mind waged war with itself; one side trying to deduce what the strange feeling was, the other wondering about the particulars of the fat creature's alluring boobas (what color were her areolas?). Somehow, the conversation became about marriage, and then about past relationships (of which I had none) and then, inexplicably, the fat creature mentioned (with some pride) that she had had an abortion. Suddenly the words shot through my mind, inscribed with blue fire seared across the fleshy rolls of my brain. I looked at her, the words growing more resonate as if being chanted by some unseen choir; the feeling grew so powerful that I jumped up, pointed an insolent finger, and shouted:
–HAUNTED PUSSY!

>>18615806
sorry to tell ya but it looks ya got yer itses mixed up there buddy, next time be sure to be 18 before you post here ok champ?

My brother was just evicted from our home by CPS and has gone to seek lodging with a friend. My normally stoic father is literally inconsolable and is switching between sobbing in his room and pacing the yard. My mother is bottling her emotions again. My sisters are sad but felt like it had to be done. I feel like an utter failure of an older brother and now believe that it's probably a good thing I've never dated because if such a horrible thing could have happened within my family ten years ago and not been learned by me until today, I would be a horrible partner and parent. I genuinely don't know if I should just disappear or go back to school to figure out what would be the best career for actually making as many lives better as possible. The worst part is that I can't even hate my brother because he was a kid when he did it and because he's my little brother and I feel evil for not hating him. I want to wake up again but a decade ago and live it all over again so I could keep a better eye on everything before it became what it did. Everybody seemed okay just this time 24 hours ago.

>>18615830
Go back to red-dit you nigger'golem

I've made peace with the fact that I will never have sex.

>>18615865
says the golem that doesn't know the difference between it's and its lmao

>>18615877
welcome to the club!

>>18615879
I was not even the guy you were talking to. Just sanity talking 2 u

>>18609536
I own that figure. I'm very content with it. It's not in a jar.jar

I will always be highly sensitive and therefore human relationships will always be a challenge for me.
I don't know how to feel about it since I haven't even had a real friend since primary school.

>>18616063
I'm sorry, anon. I wish I could offer to be your friend, but a random behind a screen is not really going to be healthy for you. Why not try going to some events for people your age that you share interests with? An anime con, a Smash tournament, a bar, something like that.

I guess I’m probably too old to make it in the comic book industry now huh? (I’m 28).

>>18616063
Try a real job. Go work in construction. Kick in the real human inside you. UNLEASH THE BEAST. Stop being a faggot. Countless millennias of evolutions to make a little bitch? I don't think so. Get out there and make that heart pump.

Let's go anon make it count.

>>18609569
I hope the water washes away your foot print sooner rather than later bitch and it will it always does(;

>>18612594
No one cares it's just you

>>18616266
Your wanton cruelty makes me shiver
And makes me wonder if you're a nigger
Black soul, black heart
Opinion that isn't worth a fart
But then I think, "I've never heard of you
So maybe you're coping with the same reality, too.*

>>18616236
You work construction. It’s not trench warfare. Shut up.

>>18613639
Yeah she's beautiful this world is disgusting at times the jokes really do feel true like I'm in a nightmare

>>18613639
KEK she made a documentary about my country's president (Bolsonaro). That shit was pure KEK.

>>18616328
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3pautVX23lY
In case anyone is curious. Brazil is in the golden age of memes. FFS, only memes get to rule.

>>18615806
Given that the rich elite benefit from over population concentration, and stand to lose the most from climate change mitigation measures, who exactly do you think is brainwashing those folks?

>>18616236
>fix the shit work of others
>"ok let's just try the same thing with more force"
>be surrounded by alchoholics

You sound like a fag and I hope you keep working construction.

>>18616350
the cia?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Linda_Zall

>>18616299
Nice straw man. Anyway I will adressed the subject contrary to you; I worked construction when I was a teen. And it changed me for the better. It raises your test and physical hardship brings you back in reality. Now do what you want anon. Want to keep being sensible and fragile go ahead: be miserable. Suffering is life and it brings you back to it when you degenerate.

>femboy sent me nudes then later tells me he's 16
FUCK I'M GOING TO KMS

>>18616514
Did you ask him for the nudes first or did he send them unsolicited? You can't be faulted if he sent them without you asking him to.

>>18616521
He offered to send me some and I said "sure". Only after all that did he say he was a teenager.

>>18616411
Great take and unparalleled addition to the conversation. Why does it hurt so much to get tell to get off from your fat ass and get things done in reality? Does it reminds you of your parents disapointment or the fact that you are just too fucking fat to be able to tie a pair of boots?

Terrified out of my mind that I'm going to fuck things up with this girl and it's not going to work out. SHE messaged ME first, AND she told me I'm cute, so I've got a good start. But I hope something comes of it, I've had good starts before.

>>18616525
Legally speaking, you're on shaky ground. I'm pretty sure you're supposed to have verified first. That said, you also have proof that you only learned after the pics were sent. Make it clear that you don't wish to continue the correspondence, and ESPECIALLY don't let the twink try blackmailing you into anything. In fact, keep a record of all your future interactions from now that he may have, especially if they are blackmail attempts.

THE WATERS OF MY THOUGHTS RUN OUT OF THE CUP OF MY MIND. MY SPEECH FLAMES. PLEASE SHOW ME YOUR NUMINOSITY, THAT I MIGHT FIND THE NATURE OF LOVE

>>18616542
Show her your favorite shrimp hentai cartoon.

>>18616206
Yeah, I might go to an anime convention when this whole pandemic is over, thanks anon! :)

>>18616544
I deleted him and blocked him after scolding him for what he did. Fucking hate dumb shitty brats like that.

>>18616236
Well, the construction environment might be too harsh for me, since I am HIGHLY sensitive and most people don't take me seriously and think I'm a pussy.
My solution is to work in healthcare where you HAVE to interact with patients, nurses, doctors, etc., while being in a far more apt environment for my senses. That way, I won't feel too alone. (Plus the majority of workers there are women *wink wink*)
Thanks for the advice tho, anon!

>>18616631
Blessings on your excursion. Remember, try not to act overeager. Honesty is a good policy, but acting childish or making your loneliness obvious is not. Pace your breathing, roll back your shoulders, hold yourself upright, and just present yourself calmly.

>>18616650
Right on, thanks a lot!!

>>18610642
Update:
I decided I couldn't be able to move across the country for her and we broke it off
I feel like shit since we both still said we love each other and, in the end, it only won't work because of my fear of great change and moving during a time where my family is growing and changing
This is the third time we talked about me moving and I thought for sure I'd be able to do it this time, but instead I just dragged it out and made both of us feel like shit.

I feel like if I did commit to moving for her, I'd end up spending the next year stressing myself out over it and suffering in both my personal and school lives.
Relationships fuckin blow

is platonic love real?

>>18616760
Is that the kind of love where you ask a lot of questions?

>>18610877
Chicoms are more homophobic than 99% of Christians and it's not religiously motivated at all.

Honestly baffling to me that society continues to function when the average person is a complete mongoloid.

How the fuck did this whole "sigma male" shit even come about? It just cracks me up at the whole concept. It's obviously taken as an ironic joke now but did it conceptualize in a unironic manner? Or was it always a joke from the start?

>>18616768
love without sexual intimacy

>>18616760
Yes, I love my family

>>18610723
It appears that your nutbladder has broken. Don't worry; you're not the first to encounter this issue.

Just masturbated for the first time after two months. What the fuck. Was I in a spell? Everything feels different now. Why did I ever chase any women? I can't explain it. They are wonderful, but it's all so pointless. If it weren't for this biological impulsion, I'm sure I wouldn't give a damn about them at all. This is all so fucked up. Why is so much of our social interaction dictated by this retarded nonsense? It's retarded, but I wish I was asexual.

>>18616647
But what do you mean by HIGHLY sensitive?

Get your shit together anon and grow some hair on your chest. You *wink wink* about women, but do you know women do not want a trannie leftist mentally ill who thinks he is so sensitive that he won't confront reality nor tries to mold his will into physical existence with excruciating labor. Women wants a man with hairy forearms and big hands.

Last tip anon: pick up the biggest rock outside your house. Walk down your street and go toss it to the newest car you see. Get the owner riled up. Beat the shit out of him. Beat him into submission and take his wife as a price. Get arrested? No problem, from now on the only interactions you will have with anyone will be with insults. From the cop to your lawyer to the judge to your jail partner. You will never be HIGHLY sensitive anymore. You will have attained peak masculinity or have died in the jail yard.
But like they say down there: what's the point of living if it ain't to be the King. Don't be a zero anon and accomplish that true potential you have in you and molest your way to the top. We all believe in you anon. Do not disapoint anymore.

>>18614386
>woke up this morning
>bought myself a gun

>>18616700
You did the right thing, anon. If it fell through, she would have been perfectly able to move on with her life while you would still be somewhere that you literally only moved to to chase her. Take it from somebody whose friend moved to Tennessee just to go to college with his high school sweetheart. (She's married now, and not to him, and completed her degree this year. He moved back home in defeat two years ago and still hasn't even tried going back to school.) If she ever moves back, you can try again.

>>18617028
Thanks anon. It mainly sucks now because it's fresh, but I also hate that I led her on on three separate times only to chicken out at the end and make it worse for us both.
Maybe once I finish school I can see about making it work, but right now I have too much shit on my plate.

I got another page done tonight. Page 111 now. It's funny to be trying to write a romance novel with no significant other to bounce your ideas off of. I'm sure someone out there will find my idea of romance at least a little interesting.
>>18616542
Back when I was around a lot of people I got asked out because I couldn't hear well so if a girl was talking to me, she had to have had an interest in the first place. I've had it happen to me five times. Three of those times I made the mistake of hiding my wants and desires and tried to pick the "right" answer to her questions and mold myself to her. Two of those times we just drifted apart. Honesty means a lot, so it turns out. Hopefully that'll help you in some way.
>>18616631
They've got an anime convention that happens every year around where I live in September called Dragoncon. I've always wanted to go but I don't really seem like the anime type and though I like anime in general the minute someone asks me about specific shows or something I'm just gonna draw a blank 99% of the time. "I grew up in Japan as a kid on a military base." only carries me so far.
It'd be fun to go to a con if I wasn't alone though. If you have someone that wants to go too the hotels and stuff do book early and some people take it real seriously. Keep that in mind if you're planning an actual date.
I'm kind of antsy about the whole vax thing too. It seems like everyone's vaccinated already except me cause I figure if something goes go fishy with it, then I'm out but if it turns out to be safe I can just get it later on.
What if something does happen to the vaxxed people though? Like they can't have kids or get real sick. Like, look, I study death but I don't really need a close up study session on my loved ones. Hopefully this mess just blows over. I'm too busy to spend a few days messed up from that needle. I've got stories to write.

>>18617041
Grow a pair you scoundrel. She is a hooker sex wirker and does not give a shit about you. Move on.

>>18617054
But she's none of those things, retard-kun. We'd dated for years and were best friends with one another, so naturally a breakup will be difficult.
You speak like you've never had an intimate sexual relationship.

>>18617058
Sorry anon. I am just really physicaly sick right now and I wanted to let out some steam.

>>18610723
anon, and all anons in this thread for that matter. if you even have a semblence of an std, fucked someone dodgy or had any ANY symptoms get a full sexual health screen immediately

if you live in a first world country this should be for free and if not pay the 100$. the treatment for literally everything besides aids (which is practically impossible to get if not gay or african) is a single shot of antibiotics. in general STD's are incredibly over exagerated the dangers of, but i only say this because its so simple to get rid of them

beyond that dont let medical conditions fester, get that shit checked out asap and you wont die early from easily treatable shit

>>18617070
Understandable, hope you feel better soon.
I'm gonna go to bed now, I gotta get up early

>>18617078
I feel imbalance all the time (last few days) and sometimes buzzing in my ears that goes on for days. I also have a migraine and if I go to bed and sleep I fever dream in some lofty HP Lovecraft cyclonian horrors.

What should I do?

>>18617072
I'm fortunate enough to take care of myself. Yeah I can't hear well or see well and I'm a total booknerd and I'm expecting the diseases in pic related to claim me at some point I'm usually pretty clean and risk averse in that capacity.
I also need to read my posts before I hit post. It bugs me when I mess up and read it in post and it has errors. I'm gonna blame it on being sleepy.

>>18610986
Not necessarily. There are gay men and women who have lived in lavender marriages and had children with each other. There are men and women who have sex with the same sex without the spouse knowing or an arrangement being reached. Homosexuals and bisexuals (the least talked about LGBTETC. group) are capable of procreation.

Throughout history, lesbianism was not seen as sex, just like the poop hole loophole of today. Women who wanted sexual release but were not allowed to have sex, such as husband being away, husband dead, or not yet married, could have sex with a woman.

>>18617169
>Homosexuals and bisexuals (the least talked about LGBTETC. group) are capable of procreation.
Oh yeah, bisexuality throughout history is such a problem to study. The bisexuality of certain historical characters is outright ignored on account of them having had children or a family. That's interesting because historical bisexuality is a much (MUCH) more common occurrence than one would think without knowing.

>>18609536
i am just in an eh place where i kind of want to do this certain thing but don't entirely have enough motivation to do it nor do i think it will matter and no it's not suicide

when i randomly think about the thing i jot stuff down but when it comes time to actually putting it all together i go blank and feel retarded. yes it is writing something.

>>18617100
Go to the doctor. Could be a tumor. I'm not joking. I've had brain cancer a long time ago, and then recently, I brought these symptoms up to a doctor. One thing to note, I have diagnosed general illness anxiety, so I can get pretty worked up about medical matters. I brought it up to a specialist I see, absent-mindedly, unconcerned. I specifically said I wasn't worried, but my doctor got very worried, exclaiming, "But I am!" and referred me to a specialist who was also worried. From there, I had an MRI, which was my very last follow-up for my brain tumor from long ago. It was clean.

Anon, it may be nothing, but it may also be something. The important thing to note in my story is that my doctors were very worried by my symptoms and wanted to investigate further.

P.S. For me, my diagnosis is just "not sure what it is, but it's nothing to worry about." Besides the tumor, I was being investigated for Meniere's. You might want to take a look at that disorder online and bring it up to your doctor when you visit.

>>18617217
What were your symptoms? Similar to what I just stated: imbalances, buzzing in ears, migraines, trouble sleeping, light headed and I am not kidding I have a lot of nightmares (night terrors).

Well thanks anon for your answer. I will consult a doctor. The only problem is that they rare where I live. They all leave to the richer countries next to ours.

>>18609536
I don't really bother to expose myself to anything outside of what supports my strongly-held beliefs. I'll read new novels and learn about niche topics, but on most core issues I'm done exploring
Most of what enjoy I reading and watching on the internet is content that just find a thousand different ways to say same things about the same problems, only with different shades of paint, some better than the other but it all gets lost in the same haze in the end.
Ultimately I've come to realize this isn't a bad thing. Echo chambers become healthy when someone's reached a point where their views are immutable, as should be the case with all men once they reach a certain age.
Being open-minded and exploring every concept sounds nice on paper. But this means spending a lifetime taking a hammer to too many things without any purpose, jumping from one abstract and distant concept to another without ever actually grabbing their true fruits, and at the end of it being a lost teenager who's built no identity of his own. Conviction is worth close-mindedness, rather read confirmation bias than become a jack of all trades but master of none.

>>18617489
Such an idiot take that I can't even bother arguing. Besides, you won't hear any counter-arguments because you don't bother "exposing yourself to anything outside of what supports your strongly held beliefs", so what is even the point? Anyway, you are a retard.

>>18617489
based "seen-enough" anon
>>18617514
dilate

I don't think life will improve significantly so I guess I'll just write my philosophical treatise then kill myself.

I've been trying so hard and doing all the right, healthy type things they say you're supposed to do and nothing works. My head's a wreck. I'm unironically not going to make it. I'm tired and scared of myself. I know this will pass again if I wait long enough but it's what might happen in between that's fucking me up.

Marx's labor theory of value makes only partial sense at best. It's clear that the value of a commodity is what people are willing to give for it, and what people collectively are willing to give for something combined with how much there is for them to take defines a market.

>>18617563
DiLaTe

>>18618295
Unironically try meditation
t. Autist, meditation is the only thing that helps the negative symptoms

>>18616969

I mean that I sense everything 10x stronger than you do. That comment my coworker said? I think about it for days. Someone lost their loved one? I feel strong empathy for them. Something unusual in the atmosphere? I sense it right away. Someone is baking pizza? I smell it from a mile away.

It's a survival mechanism. It will be there until I die. It's been studied. I can still "grow a pair", and act without "normal", but my senses will always be exaggeratedly better and inevitable.


Thanks for the advice tho, anon, I appreciate it.

>>18617119
God damn that fucking sucks anon. I hope you make it out alright.

>>18618456
Thanks for your thoughts. I've been doing it for about 10 yrs on/off. It only helps me when things are okay enough that I'm not that desperate for the help, weirdly enough. Although, I guess I could be doing it more. Maybe that's the problem. Hmmm.

>>18612665
Wondering this as well

>>18617048
I'll keep that in mind. And yes, I'm also wary of the vaxx, there's too much hype around it, plus it's basically an experimental drug at this point. I refuse to become their laqykmyb-rat.

>>18616350
They think the elite spread fear mongering of over-population and climate change because:
>People fearing over-population means less 1st worlders breeding whislt 3rd worlders dont give a shit, and 3rd worlders work for almost nothing
>Mitigating climate change means implementing restrictions that makes it harder for 3rd world countries to get ahead

STOP BEING A FUCKING COWARD

>>18616350
>the elites benefit from overpopulation
no, overpopulation leads to the potential of more outliers and in turn, a revolt from the masses
>stand to lose most from pseud global warming mitigation measures
a simple reform will sort this out. thats why for years now, the pressure of changing habits has been placed on citizenry, that won't change--You Vill Eat Za Bahgs--and not the corporations. for more info on the "reform", check out the new "stakeholder-capitalism" speak from the technocratic aristocracy over at the WEF in their Davos symposium.
it's become somewhat of a religion to believe in global warming just because the "scientists" are all in agreement. for a refreshment on the course of history there was an event that happened in 2009 labelled ClimateGate 2.0 that showed undoubtedly these "scientists" conspire on how to keep dissenting voices/studies out of peer-review while threatening journal editors all for the purpose of keeping CO2 being the driver of climate as the leading cause and therefor United Nations solutions as a necessity.
>(Quote from Princeton physicist Robert Austin)I view Climategate as science fraud, pure and simple.

>>18618560
Ok, but pollution and sullying the oceans can't possibly be good either

>>18618480
It's not all bad. I wouldn't be so interested in the afterlife like I am if I didn't think it was coming sooner than later. So it gives me a lot of motivation to research and write.
That said I'm 35 now and I still haven't keeled over yet and besides the things I can't fix I feel pretty strong and I outperform a lot of able bodied people and I broke 100,000 net worth on my stock portfolio without 401k/house. Things are looking pretty up. If book sales ever go wild then I'm set.
I think thats why I like cheering people on so much. If I can do it so can everyone else if they just try. I legitimately believe in all of you.

sometimes I feel like becoming a terrorist. i mean, this system that we have established holds nothing for us. there is no looking forward to a lifetime surviving via the sacrifice of 2/3 of your time. i never look forward to tomorrow. I only don't kill myself out of respect for everything my parents have done for me. I might still kill myself after they die. maybe take someone in power with me. that would be cool :)

>>18618906
the system is the biggest terrorist, so why not fight fire with fire. kamikazify the population 2021. become a cult leader

>>18618906
Train yourself to become a ninja. Master the arts of stealth and subterfuge. Then start sneaking into the homes of every major figure of power in the world and leave nearly wrapped, 2 pound sacks of poop in their living rooms. The legend of the Nugget Ninja will live for forever.

>>18618906
>only don't kill myself out of respect for everything my parents have done for me
no no
actually kill yourself
it's time

Can I sleep six hours or five a day and still be alright? I'm really needing some extra time to study.

>>18619287
Supposedly sleep deprivation can permanently impair cognition

>>18613290
>>18610951
>t.foid

>>18610642
lol you threw anway something of enormous value out of cowardice imo. its not too late to change your mind.
>>18609536
im dreaming. im walking along a beach. its stony, not sandy, and i have been there before, but only in another dream.
theres an bird in distress that i come across on a rock. its dying. i have time to save it so i put it a plastic bag, but its disintegrating. no one who i come across helps me. even if i raise my voice they kind of look through me and it makes me doubt im real so i give up. the bag is getting wet. when i look in the bag, the bird is cooking, like its appearance has changed from a bird to a partially cooked piece of meat. except its head, the head is separate from the body and looks as it is supposed to. it looks at me and makes sounds. i wake up.

What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
Because what you are isn't enough.
Because what you have isn't enough.

im so unhappy, am i going insane?
something wrong with my brain?
i see a future of mostly pain

I feel overwhelmed by the question of how to start and what to write as a writer. I have a collection of stuff I’ve written but it’s mostly just like messing around. It’s all over the place. In the older days, it seemed pretty straight forward. There was a robust poetry and short story publishing industry so a writer could cut their teeth on those before expanding into novels. Now, there’s no money to be made in poetry or short stories. There’s hardly any money to be made in novels. The publishing industry itself is a much trickier thing to navigate than it used to be and the sort of things you can write are all over the place. How are you supposed to make sense of this and know where to focus your efforts? A guy’s gotta make a living too.

I can't buy my regular coffee brand, because it tastes weird around my area.

>>18619537
you can't see the future, only what's in front of you. you are only seeing your fears.

My favorite author is a meme here but niche in the real world.

Just got an hour off work to read in the park with the excuse that I need some fresh air because of my rhinitis.

>>18619357
>>t.foid

>>18615805
Smells off the toupée fallacy.

>>18609536
Homesick not for the land, but for that which lives in and around it.
Hungry not for power, but for food which nourishes.
Bored not of my life, but of that which is so tiresome to see.
Hopeful not that things will change, but that I will change things.

you make me feel special...

She's so cute, bros...
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCX7C7Gh0oHVfvj5WKov_5HQ/videos

>>18609536
Quantum immortality, free will and evil.

I like books a lot but I have a hard time finding particular books that I like a lot. Almost all of them have been just kind of good, not great.

I've been sinking into alcoholism of late. Which is a shame on many levels but I recently lost about 20lbs and nothing plumpens you up in an unseemly and unnatural way quite like the hooch. I'm not sure what is spurring this descent into liquid iniquity other than that normal sober consciousness has become intolerable in its mundane emptiness.

They always tell me to “lighten up”, “be more positive”. What the hell is there to be positive about? The only thing worse is “you should out of the house”. I’m 28 years old. I don’t need you to tell me I need to get out of the house more.

>>18616768
kek

>>18620691
Your post inspired me to pour myself another glass. Here's to dying young, anon; I hope that the lord delivers us soon, for both our sakes.

I am just finding so damn difficult to come up with a single idea I think is good and can turn into a story.

>>18620997
Oh, naive anon.... You don't "come up" with ideas. If you're lucky, an idea will come to you, delivered by the divine automatism that is the collective subconscious.

my gastrointestinal system has been off for the last couple days. not sure what's causing it, but i've also been hella tired i wonder if got exposed to the coof on fourth of july but since im vaxxed nothing major happened. i can't figure out why else my stomach feels like shit and i'm tired as hell.

>>18621012
Yeah. I have plenty of them. It’s just none of them feel particularly good or able to be turned into a full story.

>>18621019
Put them in a blender.

Today is one of those days when I feel all alone in space and time. I hope it passes soon.

>>18620997
i feel u, i've been trying to come up with a setting for a game i'm making. i have the game mechanics figured out already, but i need a setting or theme for the art, plus there is a certain amount of gamers who need some backstory and "lore" type shit to enjoy a game. it's like a need to do something familiar enough that people can place it in their mental categories, but not so cliche that it doesn't stand out

>>18621041
You are all alone. No one cares about you. Chances are, you're a nuisance to everyone around you, and even your parents and siblings despise you, only keeping it secret out of common decency.
Replace 'you' with 'me' in this post, stupid autocorrect

>>18620691
>I'm not sure what is spurring this descent into liquid iniquity
Well looks like you immediately answered your question. Christ, now I'm reminded just how good a single can of these strong beers are, how much more carefree I feel for a moment...
Also, at least if you keep this up you'll lose the weight again; it's difficult to eat and keep food down come a certain point in the process.

>>18620980
I would hope you're both enjoying yourselves with a nice cigarette too!

>>18621019
blender or just write a short story.
i noticed recently a lot of the old twilight zone episodes are based on storys not even 3,000 words which was a beautiful realization.
oh, i can just tell a single fun story to be easily read in a sitting that focuses strongly on a single idea/twist with few characters.

>>18621107
>I would hope you're both enjoying yourselves with a nice cigarette too!
Of course, anon. Just smoked one, at most two minutes ago. Anything to leave this retarded shithole called life as soon as possible.

I think westerners call Jehovah in the context of Islam "Allah" because the word itself just sounds so much more based than any other modern name for God.

>>18609616
freedom

The power of honesty and how difficult it is. I never tell big lies, but I have a bad habit of saying a bunch of small meaningless ones out of convenience or pride or whatever. The more I realize this and stop myself, the freer and less anxious I feel, but it's still a hard habit to break.

also this new captcha system blows

black tar pfizer vaccine

>>18621247
kek, I need my fix dude cmon don't hold out on me like this

How do I get an christian-anarchist mystic gf?

what's the male equivalent?

>>18616814
why?

>>18616814
We all care about and support one another, and if I had grown up around another group of people I wouldn't be who I am today.

>>18618539
>>18618560
If Thanos snapped his fingers, the resulting world wide economic depression would pretty much end civilization as we know it. There's nothing more beneficial to the economy than people, plain and simple, the more the merrier. The last thing the rich want to see is an end to their meal ticket... And while I'll give one of you that it is better that the bulk of that population be poor, given that ratio is inevitable, it's still the case the more people who can buy your products and spur investment, the better.

And it's the corporations that pay for the pollution mitigations before the plebs. The rich have to invest in all that technology to meet emission standards and pay the carbon penalties first. They pass the cost on, but it's the rich who have their bottom line impacted first and hardest. Nevermind the fact that all these global warming agreements always include something to foot the bill for the developing nations.

It's always been the cries of the average Joe, choking on the dust of the chimney sweeps as their roofs buckle under the weight of soot, that have resulted in anti-pollution regulation. The rich elite are always the ones to fight it.

I’ve gotten really fat.

>>18621398
Cock by Philip Roth

There’s only a handful of things I really want to do and I’m slowly realizing that I’m not going to be able to do any of them, let alone all of them.

Past incels didn't have porn to resort to.
Is that an advantage, or a disadvantage?

>>18609569
pretty good desu
has soul

>>18622077
Advantage. If they became coomers they had to resort to erotica and the imagination, both less mind-numbing than internet pornography.

I’m never going to write anything good am I?

I've lived alone in a remote area for close to a decade now. I don't pay much attention to society and have lost my attachment to humanity for the most part. It was difficult during the initial years. Now my weekdays consist of technical work, broken apart with walks in a forest. My meals and dwelling are austere but I don't crave anything beyond my daily bread and slice of meat. I don't read much anymore because very few topics apply to me. My weekends consist of longer walks in the forest and time keeping. I want to share these emotions with others but feel few would understand. There are only a few people around me within a 100 mile radius. There is this need for me to share these simple thoughts. I'm not sure what I will become when the need to share goes away. Perhaps that's what being human is about. Perhaps that's what love is

>>18622077
there weren't many incels before porn and masturbation became normalized in our society of spiraling degenration . Porn creates incels.

>>18622019
why?

>>18616794
personality is a joke
physical appearance, money, or status dictate this world. You can afford whatever personality suits you when you have one of those three

>>18622345
what you wrote here is good. In fact I think it is the best you have ever written

>>18609536
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JY1rdjc_Hvc
Alexander Malofeev is based af.
Saint-Saens Piano Concerto No. 2
Starts off like Bach and turns into Rach.

I didn't pay attention and drifted far from the shore. No matter how much I swim, the shore does not seem to be getting closer. In fact, I can't even see the shore anymore and don't know if I am actually swimming further out into the endless sea

This particular anime character is so cute, why did it take me a decade to realize
I don't even care about anime anymore but I'm going crazy over here. So cute.

>>18622945
can you pretend she's your waifu, even if you're not into chinese cartoons anymore? I can't get it to stick in my head

>>18623052
No, I just realized she was really cute, nothing more.
I only fell in love with an anime character once but I was a depressed teen back then and It's hard to explain now. The infatuation lasted some months but I've forgotten how I felt.

>>18622632
a personal fav. They used parts of the last movement in Mother 3's ost.

Sixty years is my limit, if everything goes well, otherwise earlier. Everything that comes after that is simply disgusting. I'm already overdue, twenty-six. Repulsive. Body full o' worms. Death dreamer, trash redeemer. No money for whores to cum in. Fucking whip me.

>>18609536
Twinks.

The world is the content of my consciousness. If I am in a room without windows, then the outside world does not exist for me. What I imagine as the outside world, the world behind the walls, is only a memory. In terms of reducing the world to what is sensually present, one must go so far as to deny even the existence of the concrete behind the wallpaper. All things are hollow. Only the outermost layer exists. Everything underneath, as far as we have knowledge of it, is only memory, and therefore not the thing, but a photography of the thing. If we cut a thing open, if we tear the wallpaper of the concrete, we expose a new superficiality - and conceal another: to study the different layers of a thing is to shift its superficiality, its void.

>>18622610
if we understand the word exactly as what it means, "involuntary celibate", then there certainly have been plenty incels long before porn.

I've been crying uninterruptedly for 8 hours

>Yarvin started going to John Hopkin's at age 15
>this is our competition on the free market place of ideas

>>18624496
based, I've done this before as well. you have two options: a) get help, b) do the Mark Fisher thingy

>>18623855
>translation: hairy ageing men, ten years from now

>>18624496
what gives?

I don't feel I get enough attention as I would like and I fear that influences my actions more than I would like to admit.

>>18624554
Well, you don't deserve attention, at all. Neither do I. We're both just commoner schmucks, and I doubt that anything that we could do, say, or write will have any impact whatsoever on the world at large. There's still an aristocracy today, and that's a good thing. We're not part of it.