/lit/ - Literature

mm boobies

>>18470821
It's time to shit and piss into the toilet.

>>18470821
I saw a /tv/ thread where the op posted some middle schooler in a bikini. I was too afraid to reverse search on google, shit gets logged, how do you guys find these Instagram thots?

>>18470821
>men simping for spermed women is normal and even encouraged
Society

think I'm in love

currently reading american psycho (saw the movie and thought "why not read the book?") and am laughing me arse off at bateman's attempt to converse with one of the black guys in a club

tune playing through my head atm is elvis presley's "hound dog" played on a 1916 behr bros. player piano

also having thoughts about a girl I rejected a few months ago now, she seemed to take it well enough at the time but she still seems quite distant whenever we talk and that makes me a bit unhappy because she's a really great friend but I just don't feel the same way about her as she feels about me

>>18470894
if youre not dating do not revel in it yet, one sided love is a hard drug once it's side is flipped

>>18470896
I think she’s in this thread right now. See >>18470894

Nobody likes me.

>>18470899
we're dating and I'll never admit it

>>18470923
Everyone likes you :3

>>18470923
Lose weight or learn to keep your mouth shut or both. If you’re bald and short (below 6’0) suicide I guess.

>>18470930
I feel you're projecting.

>>18470935
I’m on 4chan enough to know why most people on here are unloved. It’s either because they’re ugly, fat, obnoxious, or genetic dead ends (bald at 20/short).

>>18470821
Twinks.

No Nathaniel, oh no, Nathaniel
No Nathaniel, no, there must be more to life
There has to be a way that we can
Restore to life the love we used to know
(No) Nathaniel, no, there must be more to life
There has to be a way that we can
Restore to life the light that we have lost

Now darkness has descended on our land
And all your prayers cannot save us
Like fools we've let the devil take command
Of the souls that God gave us
To the altar of evil like lambs to the slaughter were led
When the demons arrive the survivors will envy the dead!

There must be something worth living for
(No, there is nothing!)
There must be something worth trying for
(I don't believe it's so!)
Even some things worth dying for
If just one man could stand tall
There would be some hope for us all
Somewhere, somewhere in the spirit of man

>>18470930
>If you’re bald and short (below 6’0) suicide I guess.
i hate this meme. i got a friend who's short and he has a girlfriend. i have a friend who boasts about having a small penis and being a coward yet he also has a girlfriend.
this is a meme gurgled by lowest of the lowest scum of the earth who make no effort on themselves nor tried working hard for anything in their life. they only seek to bring down everyone else with them, miserable in unity yet divided among themselves.
i beg of you anons who think they are miserable or just young, reflect on yourselves and see the error of your ways. rome was not built in a day nor shall be character.

>>18470927
good for you anon. cherish her and remember that relationship benefits both parties

>>18470890
>SpErMeD
laughing my ass at your drooling retard vernacular

My sister is becoming more and more of a witch, using occult symbols, talks about telepathy and astrology.

>>18470994
*laughing my ass off

Part of me wants to stop living in my parents basement, maybe even pull a steady paycheck, but the idea of joining the rat race again disgusts me. I've been working on some personal projects, translated several novellas in these last months, but I have no way to monetize it or turn it into social capital. I have an idea, a very bright idea I think, but its taking a long time to get all the parts together and even when I have there's no guarantee it will succeed. My family thinks I'm a failure and a looser, everyone does actually, and for the time being they're right, but if I can pull off my plan that will all change.

The other day I saw a suicide graph for white people without a college degree vs white people with one, and it was over four times as high for the uneducated. I can understand why, if you don't have a degree you're stuck in low-tier wage slavery and nobody respects you. The only way out is debt or self-employment, so I tell myself once my business is running I'll be successful and respected and give tours and lectures and wear a nice suit and drive a Benz and fuck cute uni girls in nice hotel rooms afterwards, but for the time being I'm dirt poor and I feel ashamed to even go outside.

>>18471000
whats the idea

Tomorrow is nearly yesterday and everyday is stupid.

>>18470946
every day... every single moment

>>18470996
You should warn her about demons. Dont frame it in a christfag way because she obviously won't be receptive, just try to impress that not all sorts of spiritual phenomena are positive.

>>18470964
I said short and bald, but judging from how you’re seething I’m guessing you look like pic related and are 5’6 and not even 25 yet.

i need an insane schizo twink boyfriend

hope i die soon

>>18471049
Not a christfag I just don't think it's good. She's extremely touchy about this stuff, trying to think of ways to lightly make fun of her.

>>18471014
Start a publishing company and take the kind of risks that big publishers aren't willing to take. It seems like most of publishing is dominated by a socialite orthodoxy and has lost that kind of avant-garde edginess that dominated literature in the past. So I've been playing around with form a lot, doing creative bindings of books in high quality materials with fold out covers and flaps, using neural networks for machine translation, and collecting writing from the internet that I find interesting and worthwhile but which has been mostly ignored by the mainstream and doesn't follow the conventional form of a novel.

One example of a book I'm working on is a Japanese short story translated into English. The novella is a satire and has a lot of discussion about philosophical pessimism. The author killed himself shortly after publishing this particular story, so I am prefacing the book with his suicide note-- which is beautifully written but probably not the kind of thing Penguin Random House would want to risk doing.

Everyone says that there isn't any money in publishing, but it doesn't take much investment either, and when I look at the industry it seems like its entirely composed of sixty year old women and career students and I feel like I could do better than them.

>>18471076
>>18471076
Tell her to be careful I used to practice magic and it can be extremely powerful but also dangerous. Its not the kind of thing to take lightly.
Also you should try and practice tantric sex magic with her. If you don't expel fluid you maintain magical potency and also you won't get her pregnant.

>>18471084
you need money to start a publishing company

I don't care what the Bible says, twinks are God's creatures.

>>18471084
who would buy the books? who is the clientele? how would you make the company known?

>>18471118
How so?

>>18471119
twinks are the supremest of god's creatures. god created man, then he created the twink for man's sexual and intellectual pleasure, and only after this he created woman for reproduction. it's in the bible...

>>18471084
I’ll pirate and make sure everyone pirates your garbage you vulture.

>>18471128
the creative bindings and high quality materials you mention cost money yes or no? plus you need money for publicity and marketing and just for managing your company. you also need to pay your authors.

>>18471154
>you also need to pay your authors
This faggot is planning on taking the work of dead nobodies and market to pretentious faggots who’ll eat it up because asian man sad!!

>>18471126
I'll probably just spam /lit/ and cold-call different bookstores desu. I don't really have irl friends and I'm an unemployed dropout so its not like I have any easily accessible networks to promote this stuff through. I figure if I pay ten dollars for a banner add on /lit/ and also buy some ads on reddit I'll be able to generate a decent amount of traffic from that.

>>18471151
My website will have free ebooks for everything. Its stupid to try and sell digital information and I pirate everything I read anyways. Mostly I plan to make money on specialty bindings and trade paperbacks.

>>18471154
It's amazingly cheap actually. Leather is the only expensive part but leather bound books also cost a lot. Publicity, marketing, managing, all of these are complicated and I plan on crossing that bridge when I get to it. Obviously I'm going to steal the material and just switch the names around a bit I don't have money to support any starving artists when I'm already a starving artist.

>>18471183
You get it.

>>18471141
The twinks I've encountered haven't been the sharpest tools in the shed but, alas, I will keep searching high and low.

>>18471186
>I'll probably just spam /lit/
err, not a good idea... there's max 200 faggots here regularly posting and they are from all over the world

>>18471141
A man who made a sexual plaything out of himself cannot be intellectually stimulating. He is not that far from a woman in that regard.

>>18471244
agree

I'm gonna shave my head. I'm gonna have a crisis. I'm gonna do all the things I ever wanted to do but have been too timid to do thus far. I'm not going to fuck I'm going into isolation baby.

>>18471244
>A man who made a sexual plaything out of himself cannot be intellectually stimulating
this is false. iq, intellectual flexibility, creativity, brilliance, do not correlate with the extent to which you are a freak in bed, at all. humans are not perfect and balanced, on the contrary. since fucking when does intelligence immediately imply moral virtue? yes, most sluts are dumb. but very high intelligence frequently comes with a form of sexual deviancy as well. not to mention an intelligent person is already a social deviant just by virtue of being intelligent. on a side note, there is also a reason why high functioning autism directly correlates with paraphilia.

Am I the only one who messed up their head? I need to find a mentor. If only it wasn't so taboo to admit there's something wrong. Like when injured pack animals go into hiding to bleed out. Instinctive modesty to conceal how sick we are. Unlike animals, humans can fix injuries, so why does my mammalian brain set me back when logic is light at the end of the tunnel?

>>18471264
see you on the other side friend

America needs a Napoleon. There's nothing wrong with a despot if he's enlightened. Sometimes one person has all the right ideas and they just need unlimited means to implement them.

I am 28 year old and unemployed. Can't bring myself to read books that I want to because the pathetic nature of my existence is in my mind all the time. I keep thinking about focusing on only useful things but never do anything. This has been the case for the past 5 years.

Need advice on learning an employable skill that can be learnt online. I've burnt my hands on coding in the past. What should I try next? Copy writing? SEO? Photoshop? I don't have any ideas.

>>18471271
Asking for help is gay

>>18471353
If you have no interests that you can channel into a vocation then you are not cut out for this world. Learn how to hack or become a thief. It doesn't sound like you'd have much to lose.

>>18470945
lmao being bald at 20 isn't a "genetic dead end"

>>18470821
Any advice for a 21 year old heading off to a four year college for the first time? I am honestly really excited to study, /lit/ has cultivated a strong scholarly interest in me.

>>18471353
>coding
>Copy writing? SEO? Photoshop?
Is there anything that you actually enjoy doing?

>>18471362
>If you have no interests that you can channel into a vocation then you are not cut out for this world.
I have plenty of interests but very little time or the mental energy. My issue is not getting interested,(I can get myself interested in almost anything) but what I want is a path or some sort of guarantee that it'll lead to employment. You know how all those people who write about starting from X and ending up in a job in a year or two?(nothing major, stuff like coding or becoming a gym trainer).

>>18471371
Go to basically every social event, if you miss out early on it can be hard to catch up when friend groups have already started to form.

>>18471371
do ur best nd have fun
if I could go back to my first year I would start getting work experience ASAP and actually study

>>18471271
I'm extremely fucked up mentally and emotionally but I've learned that if I reveal this to people they'll just use it against me or look down on me.
Its a difficult situation because I constantly feel like I need to hide myself from people, which then makes it hard to connect. I don't know what the solution is, sometimes you're just fucked up and you can't expect anyone else to understand or care.

>>18471186
>starting a business without an actual business plan
Best of luck

>>18471371
Don't expect any of the learning material to be genuinely stimulating for the first 4 years

>>18471374
Nope. I used to enjoy learning new things, new skills as a kid but never found a passion but what I will say is that if someone recommends me a A to Z way to learn say Photoshop or anything to become employable. I can and I will garner interest. At this point I just want to be skilled and valuable.

>>18471378
>I have plenty of interests but very little time
You are unemployed, anon. You have more than enough time. Get off the internet for a week, follow something like pic related, and use a pen and paper to plan your life out. Ask yourself what you enjoy the most, then put all your energy into it, even if it's not much to begin with. To make a decision - even if it's wrong - is better than to make no decision at all.

>>18471408
Nothing at all? Never mind if it's a "passion," or if it will make you employable or not, because even if you complete some course on SEO, it's not a guarantee of work. To me, that is most miserable existence, sitting at a computer all day fucking around with search keywords or writing for a content farm or something.

I never get a (You) for any post I make in any thread. It's kinda funny to me at this point that I can't even get /lit/ to talk to me and I chuckle thinking how I'm basically sticking post-it notes on a dirty brick wall.

>>18471394
I am going in as a junior, so I will thankfully be taking upper level classes.

>>18471507
Sneed

>>18470923
Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Guess I'll go eat worms
Big fat juicy ones
Long thin slimey ones
Itsy bitsy, fuzzy wuzzy worms

Mum used to mockingly sing this to me and my brothers everytime we were being little shits trying to get others to feel sorry for ourselves. She actually still does it to my youngest brother, and everytime she does it, it's well deserved. It was always an eye opener and made me wonder what actions made nobody like me at that age.

>>18471386
I was hoping to find friends in my classes, or though clubs. I socialized enough in high school, I want to spend college in a more cloistered way to be honest

>>18471514
no wonder you're here now

>>18471507
Weird, I swear I threw this post-it note in the bin!

>>18471517
How and why exactly did you make that connection?

>>18471270
This is not a question of moral deviancy, you could say the same thing about anyone who invests himself in sexual activities.
A man is a finite creature who must always make compromises and must be economical about his resources. It is highly difficult, I would even say impossible, to be highly attractive and highly intelligent at the same time. You either spend time at the gym or at the library, to put it in simple terms. You either prioritize the development of your mind or your body. Is it possible to do both? I guess it is, but it requires so much effort that an average twink would never bother to put it in (pun inteded).

>>18471478
>You have more than enough time. Get off the internet for a week, follow something like pic related, and use a pen and paper to plan your life out.

That's not what I am saying anon. I am willing to put in 8 hours a day learning something but I need to git gud at it within next 6 or 8 months before my parents cut me off.
>>18471483
I have been recently taking interest in fitness? But I am a skinny fat dude with no money to even get a gym membership. Next thing is photoshop looks, I wanted to write romcoms at one point. Beyond that it's nothing.

>>18470879
There’s a lot of Russian underaged models out there on Insta, I think it was confirmed they were part of a CP ring.

>>18471552
>I am willing to put in 8 hours a day learning something but I need to git gud at it within next 6 or 8 months before my parents cut me off.
My point still stands, if you don't know what that is then you're going to run out of time. A week, or at least a few days, in the grand scheme of things is not long if it saves you a headache later. Do you really trust /lit/ to tell you how to live your life better than your own mind?

>>18471571
I am reading that pic rn and I will give it a try anon but I thought it wouldn't hurt to ask for some pointers

>>18470936
they're quite diverse... writers, artists, engineers, doctors, druggies, accountants... they're all pretty smart, one is very well-read in the classics. we talk about various things. the odd thing is that they're all much more left-wing than me. not sure why this happens. i'm very centrist, but i think they're prone to be carried away and radicalised by the far left. sometimes i try to help them stay sane and ignore the media narratives. i like my friends.

>>18471550
but your argument falls apart entirely when we consider the fact that some people's naturally attractive physique does not require extremely strict time-consuming maintenance, other than a healthy diet and the average amount of physical activity. natural sex appeal is still a thing. once again, i am not saying this is the average person. like every good thing in the world, it is a bit rare. but, even statistically speaking, it is inevitable that there exist twinks out there who are both intelligent and attractive. i know they exist in my personal experience anyway.

>>18471567
it makes me fucking sick

I'm watching a show right now and there's this character that makes me want to bludgeon someone to death with a rock or something.

twink discourse

I wish I knew how to get along with liberals. Jesus Christ, I just want to hang out people, not have to endure every newest retarded left leaning trope about all white people being bad, STILL bitching about Trump, and cheering on every fag, tranny, and religious freak you see.

Forever more will pleasing psalms be sung,
And evermore shall children fall asleep;
So young, nevermore Will they be so young,
Soon they’ll see less and less, soon they will weep.
Let them see (though dimly,) things heavenly,
Like the sky’s rainBow and your daughter’s bow,
Like the magic hidden in a new toy,
Like the whole world seen, from upon a bough.
Laughter and peace remains for a moment,
Memories marry with eternity,
When all is done, the fantasy of “old”
Will fade as but a dream, and perfectly
Youth’s sweet transience will be eternized,
And once more will we all become edenized.

The girl from the burger place between here and the next town seems to be responding very positively to my flirtations over the last month, while her coworker seems very aware and keeps encouraging me to come in more and spend more time. I've only been getting to-go orders but I think I'll make the drive today and sit down for a spell, try to catch a good moment with chica. I'm not sure how direct to be yet as we have a pleasant, sweet rapport being crafted and she seems a bit reserved with attraction, but I'll at least tell her that while the food is great, I've been making the drive for the smiles she and I are sharing each visit. I'm a bit worried for when she discovers I'm actually an oldfag with incredible genes which mask that fact to the tune of 10-15 years per usual comment when people learn my age but hopefully I can keep her charmed and distracted long enough to be able to reconcile with it down the line.

>>18471648
Sleeping around and going out with guys takes time too. Also it is very hard to concentrate on hard and time-consuming activities like reading a philosophy treatise when you can easily hook up with a guy and get a quick dose of dopamine. It is hard to think about abstract ideas when your head is full of vile thoughts concering the question of sucking voluptuous cocks. Whenever you commit to an activity, that activity molds you. An avid and thoughtful reader cannot be a avid cock-sucker at the same time. He wouldn't be interested in that. And he also wouldn't be intrested in keeping his body in shape.
Notice how all the intelligent girls are generally ugly or at least unkempt. I know a girl who speaks and reads in German, English and Latin (apart from the native language) but constantly neglects too shave her legs (though she is somewhat pretty). Also, we all have different notions of being intelligent and attractive.

>>18471748
>I know a girl who speaks and reads in German, English and Latin (apart from the native language) but constantly neglects too shave her legs (though she is somewhat pretty).

The hands of a weak, bisexual faggot wrote this post.

>>18471670
twinkology

>>18471552
Have you considered getting a shitty, low-skill job?

>>18471748
Not shaving is a good way to tell a girl isn't weighed down by vanity

>>18471748
>An avid and thoughtful reader cannot be a avid cock-sucker at the same time.
unjustified and biased assumption. i am an avid reader and i love sex, it is wonderful to be intensely passionate about drastically different areas of interest. if you are not retarded with no impulse control you can adapt to many situations, in fact human beings are human beings because of their capacity to adapt. maybe that is a wild thought to express on a site where most people never out of their room and do nothing but play video games all day, but a person with a normal psychological structure is able to maintain a healthy balance between sensual pleasure, intellectual stimulation, and all kinds of other activities. i say with absolute conviction that you are autistic if you think one has to choose between reading a book and sucking a dick. the experience of life can and must be expansive.

>>18471856
Not showering or when she doesn't wipe her ass properly is another way to tell.

>>18471877
Do you shave your legs you retarded bitch?

>>18471882
Sneed you fucking cuck.

>>18471769
i got a doctorate degree in that science

>>18471877
>>18471884
i am not the anon you are replying to but shaving or not shaving one's legs is not an indicator of personal hygiene. i implore you use your brain

>>18471766
I probably lift more than you do. Also I've banged that girl many more times than you ever had sex in your miserable life. I can also explain Kant's epistemology without any preparation. I write exquisite poems at decent level that I only show to my friends and lovers but don't publish them because I'm not that conceited. I have a slim yet sinewy body type that they call "chat maigre" in the French Foreign Legion. My skin is pale and almost lucid which is evenly covered with white bodyhair. I have a straight, elegant penis, not too large or long but "just the right size for my taste", as my ex (the other one) used to say. She even took pictures of it, such was her admiration for my impeccable cock. You would probably fall in love with me, given the chance I would even consider meeting you in person. I know I may sound arrogant but I've already had to reject a couple of guys who have turned out to be closeted gays (such as you).

>>18471905
It is as much as shaving your face is

>>18471929
>for some fucking reason he thinks a man is under the obligation to shave his face
opinion automatically dismissed

>>18471919
>I probably lift more than you do. Also I've banged that girl many more times than you ever had sex in your miserable life. I can also explain Kant's epistemology without any preparation.
>I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I've been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I'm the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words.

>>18471919
New pasta just dropped

>>18471919
nice

>>18471966
>>18471959
>>18471956
Thank you, guys, I'm glad you liked it.

>>18470821
Gay sex.

I think I reward myself too much. Well I have finished 4 books this month. It's been a week since the last read. I don't understand anything. The book. I just read. Hmm. I will used this thread from now on. I think I need a diary. But that doesn't mean I will stop coming here because I love to read other people diary hehe.

>>18471884
A retvrn to tradition would mean hairy chicks, hate to break it to you

The internet gives you an incredibly skewed perspective of reality because you're mostly interacting with unhappy weirdos with so little going on in their life that they can spend all day online.

>>18472081
hairy chicks is the patrician choice

>>18472081
What are you talking about

>>18471919
This is like that Hal Incadenza monologue all smushed up with the John pasta.

>>18472092
word

>>18472092
WORD

>>18471681
I feel sad for americans really. Or any other non homogeneous country. Imagine letting immigrants and black people run your country.

I am tired of this board being /pol/ lite. Redpill me on how to use filters; I've never once bothered in all my years browsing but it's becoming a bit much.

>>18472100
The truth

>>18472152
as a matter of fact there exist almost no countries in the civilized world that were ethnically homogenous and/or immigration-free throughout history. which shithole are you from to say dumb shit like this.

>>18472160
>>>/reddit/

>>18472160
no no brother you have to stay filter-free and argue with these intellectually subhuman fucking retards or else they'll start believing this board is their little safe space

Another day, another thread deleted by a cocksucking jannie just as I was replying:

>>>/lit/thread/S18470881

peanut brain: Jesus invented compassion and charity as we know it.

GALAXY BRAIN: JESUS INVENTED CONTEMPT AS WE KNOW IT. YALDABAOTH'S CHILDREN ARE AS THE ART OF HAPPY LIVESTOCK, DEPRIVED EVEN OF A "TRUE" CONSCIOUSNESS OF THEIR DEATHLY REALITY, IT IS THE BODY, THE CADAVER, THAT WAS ABSENT PRIOR TO THE CHRISTOLOGICAL ADVENT, NOT THE SPIRIT. THE PREHISTORIC BARBARISM WAS NOT A PROBLEM, IT WAS PRECISELY THE "PLENITUDE OF THE FATHER'S LOVE" WHEREBY ONE IS INDEFINITELY DESTROYED, AND HAPPILY SO, AS MANY CARTOON CHARACTERS ARE INDEFINITELY TORTURED AND KILLED BY THEIR CREATOR, THE "LOVE" BEING THE VERY OMISSION OF THIS REALITY: THE PHENOMENAL WORLD IS INDEED "GOD'S" GLORY IN THAT IT IS A SUPERFLUOUS ABSENCE OF "GOD'S" REALITY OF EATING HIS CREATION AND OF ITS OWN ACKNOWLEDGEMENT. A HORIZONTAL PAGANISM, SO TO SPEAK, OF OBLIVIOUS CYCLES. IN THIS SENSE, HOW JESUS MANAGES TO DIE SHOULD BE THE FIRST MYSTERY, INCIDENTALLY, UNEARTHING THE TRUE MEANING OF THE (CATHOLIC) ANECDOTE THAT "GNOSTICS REJECT THE RESURRECTION". THE ATHEIST OBSESSION WITH RIDICULING THE "CORPSE ON THE CROSS" IS MOSTLY CORRECT. WITH NO CADAVER, "GOD" CAN INDEFINITELY GRACE HIS FAVORITE PEOPLE AS IF LICKING THE FINGERS OF THE HAND THAT GRIPPED THE VANQUISHED THAT HE ATE, UNBEKNOWN TO EITHER PARTY. WITH THE CADAVER, THE ART OF HAPPY LIVESTOCK COLLAPSES INTO SLAUGHTERHOUSES, THE VICTOR ONLY GIVES YALDABAOTH HIS DUE DEAD WEIGHT. CONSIDER THAT THE PEACE IN "MY PEACE I GIVE UNTO YOU: NOT AS THE WORLD GIVETH, GIVE I UNTO YOU" COULD BE THE PEACE OF DEATH: YALDABAOTH CAN NO LONGER SUBSIST ON ONE NOW THAT ONE IS TRULY ABSENT, DEAD, THAT DYING IS NOT A MEANS OF MIGRATION OR RETURN BUT IS ITSELF THE VERY "WHITE HOLE", IN STRICTLY METAPHORIC TERMS, NOW OPENING IN THE ABSENCE OF YALDABAOTH'S TERMINAL PARASITISM, THE "BLACK HOLE"

>>18472169
No you need to leave and go back to your facebook ideology of the month meme page

>>18472174
They keep playing dress up with a different contrarianism of the month. It's purely reactive. Imagine thinking you were based and redpilled because you are highly predictable and can be easily baited into literally anything your opponents wish for. Groomed rebellion strengthens the system by hormesis every single time. It's all so tiresome. Remember to ask for books about your stupid idea when you post it.

I got my first girlfriend last fall. I wasn’t really attracted to her cause she was kinda fat and ugly and she just initiated everything and I went along with it. I lost my kiss and sex virginity to her and it was not very good. Anyways I broke up with her before Easter because I didn’t see us going anywhere. Emboldened by confidence of knowing I’m at least worth a relationship and no longer in uni for Sumer break I decided to try tinder and had my hopes crushed after matching with like 40 women and only hearing back from one. This one girl was pretty nice and cute though and really on top of her game unlike my ex. She was going to college to be an actuary and already had a considerable amount of money saved from investments. We went out on a few dates and eventually had sex in her dorm but she was leaving on June 5th for London for two months. She sorted of ghosted me before that and hasn’t messaged me back at all since may. So I assume that’s over. I’m kinda sad about it because I got really into her. Anyways now I’m down in the dumps again and considering messaging the first girl I ever tried to date when I was a freshman in high school. I think she’s single but she lives quiet a bit away from me. She was really nice and tried to give me my first kiss but I was nervous and just hugged her instead. I still kick myself over that one. Although Part of me feels like contacting her would just show that I still haven't moved on in my life and I still think about a girl from high school as a 21 year old man. Which is technically true but it makes me look like a loser I think. Idk I just feel like a loser

>>18472311
lmao get a life

>>18472328
yeah I know

>>18472311
>Which is technically true but it makes me look like a loser I think.
this whole idea that women are all interchangeable and you shouldn't have lingering feelings for anyone because a hole is a hole is pretty sad desu. you have your feelings anon.

>>18471507
I just talk to myself on this shitty site.
The most schizo of them all don't even get called schizo on here
Many such cases

>>18472374
thanks anon for the validation on that part. I still think about every girl that I ever went on a date with (which is admittedly a low number) but it seems like it’s a sign that I haven't moved on in life. Like I’m not going anywhere and meeting new people and developing new relationships. But I still think back on this one girl who could’ve been my first kiss if I hadn’t fucked it up like a retard.

>>18471507
I collect nice replies and (you)'s. I'm not 100% sure which of us is more pathetic.

I feel like my dreams and goals are too immature for my age.

When I was a kid, I ate popsicles pretty much like you'd give a bj. having the thing in my mouth and driving it in and out. I was sure that's the best way to enjoy the taste.
Thinking of it now, it must have been fucking weird to look at, especially if I may have looked a stranger in the eyes doing it or sth.. I had no idea it looked weird.

A terrible affliction has come upon me, my brothers. I sense the cruel talons of death tightening their grip. My strength is waning. The pain increases.

>>18472683
Paper cut?

>>18472703
Severe pain in my stomach. Extreme fatigue and weakness. Spiritual turmoil.

>>18472800
Dubs tho

>>18472516
If i left the house and saw a kid absolutely throating a popsicle i'd take it as a bad omen and leave to ready my will

>>18472470
what are your dreams and goals

>>18471998
yeah i was thinking about that while i was in the subway coming home from work (just now)

Jannies tongue my anus.

It feels like there’s a hole in my mind. In the upper top part of it. Like part of my brain is missing. It feels like my mind has phantom pain sensations. It’s like a lump of buzzing static where my ideas get memory hole’d.

>>18473053
*upper front

>>18471391
I think I know what you mean. I believe people perceive me adversely with how I present myself because there's doubt on my face that hasn't washed off. Not that I do it to the extreme, but if I want to show another face, I should turn all the way so the other can see. There's a vulnerability I don't have with my hardened face, and if anyone strikes the soft side the mask gets colder. On my end I need to be more brave, and have more tact, because I've shown vulnerability at times where I would be shot down. My idea is to control my timing and be smarter about experimentation, because having my feelings out to play in traffic has gotten them squashed by OVERSIZED MEGA LOADS.

i sit naked on my folding chair on my balcony. i am reading a book on my ereader. Drops of sweat run slowly down my skin. It is summer again. i try to focus on my book but the longer i read the less words penetrate my consciousness. i collapse into myself, closing my eyes. so little energy. inside, my phone keeps buzzing. messages. i open my eyes again and look down at my naked body. the excess fat disgusts me. am i depressed because i still live in such a body? i turn off the ereader and walk back into the appartment. i throw the device onto my bed next to my phone and go into the kitchen. i walk past the paper boxes which contained the food i ordered, ate and puked into the toilet. the phone buzzes again and again. probably martin. i ignore it. i dont have the energy to engage in any type of conversation.
there must be one thing i can do to make my life a tiny bit better today. i start doing the dishes that have been piling up in the sink the last three days. i clean the kitchen area meticolously. things start do happen on their own, i just do what i need to do in this moment. a stern energy grips my mind. maybe i can change things.
as i sweep the last drops of water off the counter a massive light is burting through the windows. slowly i turn around and the last thing to hit my retina is a huge mushroom cloud behind the horizon.

>>18473251
>He doesn’t delete the post he made on the thread.

>>18473251
English is disgusting with how much you need to write "I" in first person. This could read good if it was written in a language with actual grammar.

>>18473290
?????????

I am more confused and uncertain than ever, and more detached from the world than ever
At this rate I might genuinely become a schizo

>>18473452
You'll be fine.

>>18473461
I don't know. I'm barely even concerned with the world anymore, I still indulge in fleeting pleasures because I'm not an ascetic, but everything feels unimportant, I've completely retreated into my mind
Last year I was frantically trying to stop being an outcast loser and now I don't even relate to that mode of thinking anymore, I've gone off the deep end

>>18473385
is that the amount of "I"s from the post in question marks?

Why do I have to the nice guy who helps everyone ? Why can't I just be an abuser who uses people , reaps the benefits and gets away with it. Why do I end up with those used up people and their probelms and have to help them to reap even lesser benefits. I wish I could win for once and just reap the max benefits off others and dump them for some other nice guy to help. I just want to win.

>>18473481
Maybe you just realized being perceived as a loser isn't the end of the world.
Anyway, I hope you find the balance you're looking for, Anon.

>>18473504
Yeah, I think people would call it a cope but it doesn't really matter. Thank you, friend.

>>18470821
The older I get the more my epistemology backslides to u cannot know nuffin, u cannot even know that you cannot know...i now have so little belief in anything it's becoming absurd, just a bunch of if-then conditionals swarming around an incredibly primitive phenomenology that could expand outward into radically different conclusions based on which if is chosen and I obviously have no means of choosing one.

>>18470879
Link the thread

>>18472416
It's okay, I collect interesting dubs/digits which I get. It's a harmless thing I think.

>>18470821
Looking through old sketchbooks, I see many promising ideas I will soon forget. One of them (dated January 6 to February 12) is of especially poor paper quality and any contact with the page results in smudges and smears. It is a melancholy feeling.

>>18473497
You'd feel like shit afterwards though. What "benefits" are you after?

>>18470821
hmmm, the system shock intro theme is quite sharp

Shot in the dark, but which author writes stories most like what you’d find in a manga? I’m trying to find something my brother will actually read and enjoy.

>>18473684
Brandon Sanderson is a popular fantasy author, and it's often said his works are reminiscent of anime.

>>18473251
Editor-bro here, have this:
I sit naked on my folding chair in my balcony. Reading a book on my e-reader, drops of sweat run slowly down my skin. It is summer again. I try to focus on my book but the longer I read the less words penetrate my consciousness. Collapsing into myself, closing my eyes, so little energy. Inside, my phone keeps buzzing. Messages. My eyes are open again and look down at my naked body. The excess fat disgusts me. Am I depressed because I still live in such a body? I turn off the e-reader and walk back into the appartment. I throw the device onto my bed next to my phone and go into the kitchen. Walking past the paper boxes which contained the food I ordered, ate and puked into the toilet, the phone buzzes again and again. Probably Martin. I ignore it, dont have the energy to engage in any type of conversation.
There must be one thing I can do to make my life a tiny bit better today. I start doing the dishes, that have been piling up in the sink the last three days, cleaning the kitchen area meticolously. Things start to happen on their own, I just do what I need to do in this moment. A stern energy grips my mind. Maybe things can change.
As I sweep the last drops of water off the counter a massive light is burting through the windows. Slowling turning around, the last thing to hit my retina is a huge mushroom cloud behind the horizon.

>>18473593
How do you know?

>>18470821
Intercourse with men.

>>18473706
Thanks. I’ll check them out.

>>18473638
Is there any proof to your assertion that I will feel like shit afterwards ? In terms of benefits what I mean is that jeeks get the same external satisfaction as me from any situation , while I get lesser benefits and delayed benefits from the same situation while trying to make sure to be helpful to anyone involved in the situation. So I am putting in extra effort in terms of being helpful while recieving delayed lower benefits. Its extremely inefficient.

>>18473718
I don't anon. I dont.

>>18473750
>Is there any proof to your assertion that I will feel like shit afterwards
I don't have "proof," but your posts indicate that if you used someone and tossed them aside you would indeed feel bad about it

>tfw graduated from college
I guess I should be happy, but I genuinely am sad. Not bittersweet, truly sad. My family is very happy right now, and in front of them I am happy too. But I am sad about it. I did not accomplish what I set out to do.

>>18473497
Have you ever read Berserk, the manga? If not, I recommend it. I have felt the way you do, and that manga does a good job of depicting the wrongness of being someone who is an abuser of people.

>>18470879
Going on /sp/ stickies is always extremely dangerous, people spam CP there all the time.
Mostly Germans, i noticed.

>>18470821
Sent a friend some answers for exams and I've been flagged for cheating (uni). Seriously considering an hero by drowning. Suicide has been on my mind for years but theres never been a forcing agent that pushed me anywhere near actually doing it.

>>18473785
Are you sure?

>>18470821
Hitler was right

When I signed up to minor in political science I did not expect to read mind-numbingly boring and biased liberal papers that say ultimately nothing. It exclusively operates within this liberal framework where structures don't exist and any political fallacy is due to politician xyz being a bad guy or because of non-western countries being evil threats to muh democracy. I've got better shit to do than to read a 30 page paper by some American cuck about why China bad.
Furthermore all of my lecturers so far have had a thick accent and it's so fucking annoying to listen to especially on zoom. I really should've picked something else.

>>18473860
I should also mention that I am incredibly scared of death. Not religious but I am aware for example how in Christianity suicide is basically the worst sin to commit because you can't repent. Is this bullshit?

>>18473715

Interesting. I see you cut lots of the 'I's out. This changes somewhat the feel i was going for but I can see that it can make more sense. I really like your changing of the sentence "maybe i can change things" to "maybe things can change". This way the sentence is just right.
I also edited it some more own my own. Here's your version combined with my edits. I dont like all your changes but some were needed.


I sit naked on my folding chair on my balcony. Reading a book on my ereader, drops of sweat chasing each other down my skin. It is summer again. I try to focus on my book but the longer i read the less words penetrate my consciousness. Collapsing into myself, eyes closed, so little energy. Inside, my phone keeps buzzing. Messages. My eyes open and look down my body. The excess fat disgusts me. Am i depressed because I still live in such a body? I turn off the ereader and walk back into the appartment. Throwing the device onto my bed next to my phone I walk into the kitchen past the paper boxes which contained the food i ordered, ate and puked into the toilet, the phone buzzes again and again. Probably Martin. I ignore it, dont have the energy to engage in any type of conversation.
There must be ONE thing i can do to make my life a tiny bit better today. I start doing the dishes that have been piling up in the sink the last three days, cleaning the kitchen area meticolously. Things start do happen on their own, I just do what needs to be done in space, in this moment. A stern energy grips my mind. Maybe things can change.
As I sweep the last drops of water off the counter a massive light is bursting through the windows. Slowly turning around, the last thing to hit my retinas is a picture of a huge mushroom cloud behind the horizon.

>>18473880
>Studies political science in an academic institution
>Astonished when institution presents the viewpoint that sustains it
What did you expect, anon?

>>18473895
*in this space

>>18473880
Then switch. There is literally no reason to study political science. Even if you just want a government job get a degree in something like law or economics, which is only 80% bullshit.

>>18473750
are you really helping people if you expect something back? isn't that more like a transaction?

Honestly I think I'm going to make my goal in the next 2-3 years to get hired at a Japanese game studio. That's a far fetched goal for most people, but right now I am
>halfway through a computer engineering major
>experienced in programming C++ and Java
>can read basic Japanese literature and hold a conversation in Japanese
>willing to put up with some BS for a cool experience abroad
According to the Japanese I spoke to, it's not as hard to get jobs in tech there as it initially appears, because their education for it generally isn't that good and supposedly an American degree should the same weight there as a Japanese one. If so I really think I've got a chance here, I have a lot to do before I graduate but I think it's a realistic goal given the circumstances.

>>18473860
God has thrown you a curveball. you just gotta ride it out, whatever that means. you'll end up somewhere, and as long as you don't become an asshole it's gonna be alright.

>>18473937
that sounds great anon, I hope it works out

Bros, I feel dizzy, I feel like I'm gonna die, I feel like my world is going to be turned inside out. Is this the dark night of the soul or the 'crossing the abyss' I've heard about...

>>18473966
sounds like it desu. try to be patient. your heart is trying to speak, the more time you let pass the more it's going to make sense. it will pass.

Fuck Hajime Isayama

>>18473959
Thanks dude, I hope your dreams work out too.

>>18473904
>>18473917
The thing is that I'm majoring in philosophy and I literally do not care about any other field, but pol. science still seems to be the most interesting out of all available. I'm very interested in politics but those classes just don't do it for me. I've already switched my minor once before (had japanese studies at first) so I don't wanna switch again because it would lengthen my time at uni. Why they are forcing me to choose a minor in the first place instead of letting me focus on my major is beyond me.

"Traits" in this case is just the most basic building block one can think of for the formation of a personality, for example if you were to want a character to be "smart" which is a generic and subjective adjective, you would have several ways to go about it, to know your options and to make a coherent character you'd have to know what types of "smart" exist. One such example would be "perceptive" a character that picks up details with ease, another one would be a quick thinker, which refers only to how quickly the character reaches a conclusion but not necessarily how deep the conclusion is. If you were just to write a character as a generic smart guy you'd miss on the opportunity to add depth through subtlety, this is why understanding the personality traits is important.

I have a whole box of manga and books that I don’t know what to do with.

>>18470821
I am growing ever concerned with the world around me. With politics in the West devolving into little more then violent mobs, to the health elements of society, with my own health and the vaccines. To more esoteric shit, like elite and the Great Reset.
I'm anxious about it all. It's like the world I grew up in is melting in front of my own eyes, leaving an Eldritch Horror in it's place that threats to consume and destroy everything in it's wake.
I have no motivation to change myself, despite my desire to change into the man I want to be remembered as when I finally die. It's like living in a Dream, wherein I'm a mere spectator to my own life.
And I don't know how to change that. I have no-one to lean on. No friends and an apathic family.
Sorry for this rant. Just I needed to get this off my chest so that people can see it. Because I hate to be alone.

>>18474085
share with some frens :1)

I'm talking on and off to a woman who I know has a lot of psychological baggage. I fell for her immediately when we met, I didn't know then that she did.. But that's a while ago now. I am still attracted to her but I haven't exactly pursued her, and I don't really know if she's into me at all, but over time we've sort of talked on and off. Romantically or not I like her. I'm trying to help her come out of her shell. I worry that there may come a point where she does get feelings for me and where I will certainly hesitate to begin anything with her given her mental health problems. I worry this could worsen her problems.

>>18474104
another funny schizo, your whole post is very endearing. so this is what fear-mongering does to the weak-minded? oh well, it is only human to believe the era that you live in is the worst, this discourse has been going on for hundreds of years. the grass is always greener on the other side. speaking of grass, try touching it sometime.

>>18474173
>tfw when you learn of all the times in history when people have thought the end was near

>>18474173
>another funny schizo
I'm not Schizophrenic. Nor do I have any family history of schizophrenia. The only voice in my head in my own inner monologue.
Just concerned and frustrated. The way in which you causally brush away my concerns is the one of the reasons which I don't have any friends. People can't empathize with each other anymore. Just superficial agreement to advance an agenda.
I just want someone to lean on and help me through this trying time, yet people like you exist to dissuade me from going out and looking. Then again, I shouldn't let children like you from preventing my search for a lifelong friend.

>>18474250
I hope you find your friend anon

>>18474300
I hope so too.
The only person I'd consider a good friend lives in Russia, so I can't meet him

No one in my family has benifited from slavery. We were poor people in germany that's why we fled during ww2. My grandma is literally an orphan.

Why do I get lumped in with the oppressers just because I am white?

>>18474342
The agenda is not about truth. It is about the destruction of white civilization.

>>18474131
I have no friends who read manga or want these books. The books are mostly obscure manga that I don’t think many people even read and the books are all stuff from when I went through my phase of reading political philosophy.

>>18474163
You're probably romantically interested in her but afraid of commitment. You might only be romantically interested in her because of that fear. You're hypothesising about her emotions when it doesn't seem she's into you at all, and you seem to be the driving force for "getting her out of her shell" rather than her own desires to do so. I think you're doing it so you can eventually get to reject her, like you're hoping for that opportunity. You're far more worried about a relationship that has no sign of happening than you are worried about the problems it could cause for her. Reconsider yourself before this becomes a pattern for you.

Anyone else feel like their parents didn’t really believe in them as a kid? Maybe they still don’t? I feel like my parents tried force me into a box, not just of conformity, but also mediocrity. It’s not like they didn’t want me to be good at anything. They just didn’t believe that I could be.

>>18474387
I don't think you're right, but I appreciate you giving me something to think about

Really shitty feeling knowing what I want to do but feeling like I needed to start 10 years ago to take it anywhere good...

>>18474342
Blacks don't care about racism they just want free shit.
Look at the black-only grants that Trudeau just created in Canada. What did Canada ever do to black people? Absolutely nothing.
Crying about slavery is just a way to push an agenda against white people and agitate for free shit for a small class of niggardly activists who are motivated entirely by self interest. They don't even care about their own communities, its just a grift to get tax dollars without having to work very hard.

>>18474439
Anon, you love at first sighted a girl who you have no future with and you're still doing it. It ain't about her.

>>18474342
I am left leaning but it really is one of the most patently nonsensical assumptions about contemporary race discussion. There are so many things about liberal discourse that fly in the face of common sense and yet if you even so much as discuss them you'll lose all your friends. Another one is the concept of non-binary. It's one of those things we all know intuitively is complete bullshit but we have to go along with because otherwise it hurts people's feelings.

>>18474173
>oh well, it is only human to believe the era that you live in is the worst

Have you ever considered that life is not cyclical in this respect but in fact a long gradual but steady decline? Each generation thinks their time period is the worst, and each generation is correct.

Is it normal for a lot of your hair to fall out in the span of 2 or 3 weeks? My doc says it's male pattern baldness and maybe I'm in denial, but I wouldn't have expected it to happen so suddenly? I went from full head of thick curly hair to being able to see my scalp in two weeks.

>>18470879
kill yourself

sodium nitrite. my order is out, if the ukrainian ships it in the next few days it'll be here a week after that. sweet, blissful sleep. eternal.

>>18474342
My family benefited from slavery. A distant but direct ancestor of mine owned a plantation and slaves and fought for the Confederacy to maintain them.

>>18474704
No, it’s not normal but hair loss can accelerate. I noticed mine start falling out like crazy a little over a year ago. I’m on finasteride and minoxidil now but I wish I started immediately, or just had better genes.

>at the coffee shop
>flipping through a rimbaud poetry collection
>girl randomly starts talking to me
>"you study french? that's so fancy"
>she asks about the book
>it is in french so she can't read it
>luckily I always carry a bilingual edition of les fleurs du mal with me
>"such a cool title, I love flowers"
>I talk about how I'm a biologist and that I earned my master's degree from studying the evolution of some flowers and shit
>we start talking about random stuff
>she says she's with a friend that is waiting for her and invites me to their table
>immediately the autistic side of my brain fires up
>I get completely left out of their conversations, even though they try to fit me in
>just get very uncomfortable in general
>make up an excuse to leave to avoid making the situation too awkward
>did not get her number or anything
Quite literally a dream situation, I imagine this kind of stuff happening all the time.
But you just can't escape autism. I can't more than one person at a time.

I’m still so fucking lost.

>>18474597
well, at the time I thought we could have a future. it was only lately that I heard from a friend that she had told him something that made it all a lot less appealing to me. I'm really only thinking it through now and I think I wouldn't want to be with her, because of this one thing she said to my friend. Up until this point I thought I could live with her having her problems, but that goes too far for me. When I heard that I wrote her a goodbye (I don't want to get into the details of how I said it, but it made sense without hurting her), but I did (and this is ambivalent, but I tihnk I had good intentions) compliment her in the goodbye, because she has low self-esteem and I wanted to give her sometihng that would make her feel better about herself. You could question if this was necessary or good, but I thought it was good. But now she sought me out again. It has systematically been the case that she has sought me out to talk, not the other way around. I am strongly considering just ghosting her now.

>>18474646
no you see i have not considered that because it's fucking bullshit

>>18474800
Yeah I'm not afraid of going on finasteride, I just want to be sure it's not something else like stress before I go on it since it's pretty much a life time commitment. The first half of this year was fucked stress wise and I had a number of unprecedented shocks - including for example a pregnancy scare which really rattled me. Also all of the men on both sides of my family going back generations have had all their hair well into old age - so I just want to rule out possibilities. None of this is of interest to you haha I am just figuring out what I'm going to say to my doctor.

I started dating a guy now my friends think I'm gay for some reason

>>18474843
Apologies for touching a nerve anon

>>18474250
i'm very pleasantly surprised that my little post on 4channel is enough to dissuade you from going out and looking for friends. even enough to drive you to the conclusion that contemporary human beings are incapable of empathy! that's kind of amazing. kill yourself by the way.

>>18474840
Anon, I think you should work on yourself before you talk to other girls. You're charging past red flags both of you are showing WHEN SHE DOESN'T EVEN SHOW ANY SIGN OF BEING THE ONE IN LOVE. There is a reason you are doing it, and it's not her. You need to work out what you actually want in a relationship (both positive things and deal-breakers; if mental illness is one, then you need to be hard on that, not "I'm going to fix her!" like a terrible romance novel protagonist). You need to work out what is reasonable for you to give with no reward, and what's reasonable to get back. The fact you think that she'd get better self esteem through compliments means you have a lot to learn to not fuck yourself up, especially when you're doing it in a "goodbye this bridge is burnt" written format. It's mixed signals 101.

There's a classic moment in the movie adaptation of the teen romance novel where the sparkly vampire dude in high school crosses the whole parking lot to tell the utterly uninvolved Mary Sue protagonist "stay away from me". You are doing the equivalent, and many other bad teen romance tropes that are lazy writing and borderline abusive ("I'll fix them", love at first sight when you know nothing about them as a person). The fantasy you fell in love with at first sight does not exist and she is not it. She never was it, and you're hoping she'll catch feels and somehow magically transform into the fantasy person who never existed.

The Void no longer stares back, it's rather uncomfortable ever since I told it I want to go deeper and deeper until it declares itself spoiled in my action, and is forced to become my bride.

I am hoping for four children, at least the latter three being consensual.

>>18475023
thanks anon

I want a "maternal" gf so bad. I see big tits and long hair and I feel sad knowing I might live the rest of my life without the unconditional love of a woman.

Is this too hedonistic? Because lately I have been content with my life and free from earthly desires... until this week. I don't know if I'm just horny or if it's the recent realization that I don't feel truly connected to anyone around me.

>>18474646
it's cyclical and it's also a long steady decline

>>18474852
I was the same way actually. I’m still strung out like crazy. The only thing I’ll tell you about it is that you can pretty much stop your hair loss and grow back what you lost but you can’t do it permanently and some aspects, like your hairline you can’t grow back. That’s why it’s better to start sooner rather than later.

>>18475053
Good luck anon.

>>18475075
I’m in love with Mikasa from Attack on Titan. I’ve never had a waifu before. I always thought that was childish and gay. I never understood how someone could have such an affinity for a fictional character and but there she is. Pic related is how I feel knowing none of it is real.

Anyway, I don’t feel confidently that I’ll ever feel unconditional love either and I also lack genuine connection with others so you’re not alone.

>>18474880
No. It merely reinforced a notion that I had previously about people. It won't stop me from trying and making friends, little child, it just mean I have to be more through and mindful.
And no. I won't kill myself. Just to spite you and your sad little existence.

>>18475045
>at least the latter three being consensual.

>>18472177
I would like the three seconds of time that I wasted reading this back please

new respect for rei after seeing him post in a muscle girl thread on /tv/

Cooking bananas are usually starchy and need to be boiled, fried, or roasted to make them more palatable.

>>18475316
They're good for beer too, banananon

It is very easy to understand the hate for boomers, but then again, are millennials and zoomers any better? Every generation alive right now is a total train wreck.

>>18475412
Consumerism, Late stage liberalism and Yiddish meddling would do that.
My question is: how long does this shitshow hold up for? The cracks have been evident since the fall of the Soviet Union, yet the Elite have done nothing but held the status quo.

>>18475451
That is why they are doing this fake UFO disclosure psyop. They will create a false narrative of an alien invasion and use that as pretext to set up a one world government to unite the world against the supposed alien threat.
Father Seraphim Rose saw this coming in the 1960s.

>>18475524
Ehhh, I don't think they'll do that now, with it, the concept, being on the internet and such.
If this was in the the 2000's, hell early 2010's it would have been much more viable. But the moment that if they tried to use Bluebeam, which I believe is the operation title given to the project, the internet would have called it out within the first 30 minutes, even with the heavy censorship of mainstream sites.
That's why I believe (((they'll))) try the Great Reset instead, which itself is doomed to failure.
Most people don't realize how fucked the West is at all levels.

You ever get so invested into a work of fiction that you feel empty once it’s over? You ever feel like you’re jealous of the characters because their world and their story is hyper meaningful and yours is just not?

>>18475617
To expand, I'll think that the UFO thing will be very much anti-climatic, as in "Oh yeah, we know they exist and and have files on them, but we're not sure if they're aliens. And we actually think they're natural phenomena"
They overplayed their hand, and can only back peddle or risk extreme backlash

>>18475617
Its kind of incredible watching the constant stream of negative comments and dislikes that follow any government announcement concerning the pandemic of 'Great Reset'/'Build Back Better'/Whatever they're using now. Confidence in the state is at its lowest for any period I can remember in my life, and if we're hit with hyperinflation/economic depression like many economists are predicting, it makes you wonder how things will turn out.

Deep down I kind of hope for a civil war just to shake things up. Boomers don't realize it or care, but the highschool-university-career "meritocracy" pipeline has basically created a caste system in western countries, and SJW politics just serve to reinforce the gap between the educated, moral, financial, etc. "elites" and the common plebs. The Jeffry Epstein fiasco has convinced a lot of people that the ruling class is a bunch of corrupt pedophiles and jewish gangsters, and they're not wrong either. Rising unemployment and lots of young people are choosing to opt out of society altogether. You've got to wonder how long the status quo is going to keep going before it cracks under the pressure.

I stopped caring about our ruling class when they started pushing for outright racial segregation under the guise of 'equity'. Its like they spit on every value that the west holds then expects everybody to just get in line. Is this what our soldiers have been fighting and dying for? A society where we are constantly monitored for wrong think by big corporations, where nobody can afford to own a home, and people are sectioned off into ghettos and taught to hate each other just so they'll never band together to demand more from the political establishment? It's insane.

>>18470821
the vienna circle game overed philosophy, but forever?

Can't figure out how to co-mingle magic and the real world.

>>18470821
I have above average intelligence, but my understanding of the world is very limited and I don't know how to argue for the things I believe in. Part of me thinks that going to college will help, but lots of people say college is cancer. I think if I just keep reading and stop doing time wasting activities I'll get better. I'm just not sure that will be enough.

me alone in a room with no cameras with a guy who goes through wikipedia articles and replaces "prostitute" with "sex worker"

>>18475779
IMO, the Vaccine will be the make or break deal for the West, at least while the economic bubble remains intact.
If some of the reports turn out to be even half true, it's game over for the West and the elite.
Here's hoping that it happens sooner rather then later, since I want to be in my prime when it goes down

>>18475819
https://youtu.be/PvIL9a4nhBA

>>18475862
I call bullshit with the Mark of the Beast deal.
I believe it's a Pysop designed to discredit any potential discussion of the negative side effects of the Vaxx, as well as keep any dissent fearful and paralyzed.
Think the whole hologram deal with 9/11. Meant to poison the well.

holy moly have u dudes seen charles murray's new book? oh boy.

>>18470923
Only my mom loves me, and she might be jivin' too

just finished my fourth quarter of classes. I'm so stoked to get yet another student evaluation saying that I don't speak up and engage in class enough. each quarter I tried and forced myself harder than the last to participate more and it didn't help.

>>18475819
What reports?
>>18475779
Why are so many people unwilling to question the ruling class and their bullshit corporate values today? People won't even entertain the thought. Has the propaganda really been so ingrained in their minds? Young people in the past seemed more open to questioning "the system" and "the man" though. George Carlin, near the end of his life, brought up the phenomenon in an interview about no one wants to rock the boat today, everyone's got a cell phone that makes pancakes and rubs their balls, so nobody wants to change anything, especially not themselves. People are certainly not getting any good messages from the media to encourage them to make a positive change, maybe it's blind idealism but I feel like the right art could convince people that there's a better way. The "masters of the universe" at Davos seem like they're going to try and force the populous to change to their liking, but Americans are probably much too stubborn and selfish to go along with their proposals. But who knows, maybe there's enough indoctrinated to convince the whole. The future is looking awfully gray, but it didn't have to be this way. Found the video of Carlin:
https://youtu.be/HI0LxQDgw3U

>>18475987
To answer your first question, there's reports that the vaccine fucks with the placenta of pregnant woman, making them effectively sterile. This came from the Pfizer ex-VP. But he also does say that's in an effort to mass depopulation, which doesn't make sense considering the rollout, but hey, that just me. (I personally think the de-population thing is a pysop as well).
For the second question, the reason why people don't want to rock the boat is fear and content. They don't want to bite the hand that feeds them.
Which is why more and more people are growing more discontent, because the hand isn't feeding them well enough

>>18470821
I am completely emotionally reliant on a character I created in my own imagination for pretty much everything at this point, to the point that on most days, the most in depth conversations I “have” are with them. All in my head of course, not aloud. It’s been this way for some years at this point. I spend most of days mentally away, locked in daydreams with this character (it should come as no surprise that they’re female), and basically relive my life as it wish it were and/or was, with them. This is a strange thing to admit.

>>18476009
I see, thanks. Depouplation theory doesn't sound right to me either, though I wouldn't doubt the ruling class is aware of problems with population growth, and are likely doing what they can to curb it.

>>18476031
The main problem with the depopulation theory is who the vaccine was rolled out to, minority groups.
The reason why the Elites have been favoring blacks and Latinos is because they spend more money, are easier to manipulate and control. Why then would give them the thing designed to depopulation the world? Why kill the cash cow good goy?
It more then likely be closer to Thalidomide in terms of negative effects.

>>18476031
>>18476047
what about tracking and mind control

I've come across a problem.
> Fantasy
> Spontaneous legal change gives foreign people free license to march into MC's land and claim it for themselves
> Enemy army is marching into country and evicting people, sometimes killing them
> MC's side is written entirely from MC's point of view
> MC is leading huge crowd of civilians to a specific village thinking they'll be safe there
> turns out they won't, the enemy army is already there
Now here comes the problem
> story is planned to feature the enemy staging a huge bloodbath with the locals and the MC seeing all of it
> but MC is op so if he were to actually fight them, he would kill them all. Ergo no bloodbath on his watch.
Now there is something to use to help
> One of enemy soldiers has slight 4th wall awareness in that he knows that MC always comes out on top of fight he's involved in
> He and others who know too make efforts to specifically avoid fighting MC and outmaneuver him instead for that very reason

>>18476051
Tracking is irrelevant.
Why waste a chip when the goyim already have cellphones in their pockets?
And mind control? Really? We already have the CIA and ADL for that.

>>18475817
https://www.bbc.com/news/uk-england-leicestershire-57510121

anyone else
>aimless
here?
I though thincgs would get better, but Im close to graduating at 23 and I never had any true passion or truly liked anything or anyone.I did read some stuff, watched some movies, exercised, tried drawing, couldnt keep friendships alive, never had a romantic one, not interested in casual stuff, no dreams, no interests, havent had a job, I dont even particularly like any board on 4channel.No religion, no beliefs.I truly think I am a product of the time I live in, lonely, apathetic, alienated.
I know there are plenty of people like me here, Im just venting, even though I dont actually feel sad or angry, I cant be content either

>>18475819
that pic is why I went to school to learn info systems. Haven't got much further than (((Detours))). I did meet Luke Smith though and realize I'm such a low level non-hackerman

>>18475779
I read a novel called To Live that is about a Chinese aristocrat who lost his family fortune gambling it away just prior to the Communist take over that murdered all his wealthy peers of his youth. I feel that is my destiny in America soon. I am glad I dropped out like a Diogenes. When the elites get what they want: everyone who can exercise their will to drop out doing so the insectoids left will be the dummies so dumb they fall in line to each command with no memory of the last. That failure will be catastrophic and slow yet I believe we can recover from it. It's the "recovery" of normalization I fear. That I cannot see recovery from. The normies will get their cover back. They can hide their ineptitudes again and pitch it like stones of Cain on the heads of Able Abel.

>>18471893
Want to compare notes? Granted it's not a very intellectually challenging topic.

>>18470821
anime is disgusting

>>18471681
You don't. There is no getting along with a house falling on you. You just get out of the way when it's falling and hope to have a back up. Transfer and avoid the risks, compadre.

>>18476152
Liberals and leftists used to be ok as long as you weren't talking about politics. They could still be nice people like anyone else. But something changed in 2013. They became rabid psychotic animals. Some kind of social media psyop programmed them to only think about politics 24/7.

>>18476172
I feel you anon.

my only friend is the demon drink. mr booze. he's all I have.

>>18476223
>he's all I have
You are not alone. He is with us.

>>18475972
If it's any comfort, I wouldn't take it too seriously. As a student, I would always give my TAs full marks on evaluations. My evaluation of a professor was good if I was doing well in the class, and bad if I was struggling.

>>18476223
You dont have friends?

The more virtuous I am, the better my looks get. Barring the obvious things like genetics, taking care of yourself, not getting hit by the ugly stick etc., I really am starting to think there might be a link between your outward appearance and your soul, with evil souls reflected in ugly appearances. Our culture doesn't seem to believe in true beauty though, putting more stock into superficial, artifical beauty and vanity.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQmmO95thxI

>>18476384
You're right, with regards to the soul. :3

I just want to have victories which are unequivocal. I feel like every bit of progress, every victory, I have ever earned/experienced has been pyrrhic, or tinged with regret and failures. How wonderful it must be to just win wholesale victory after wholesale victory! I wish I was someone who wasn't so flawed and imperfect and failure-prone.

>>18476009
Even if the vaccine isn't a conscious plot to sterilize the population, all it would take is one black swan event (say the spike proteins accumulate and cause liver failure in 3% of vaccine recipients) to completely destroy any credibility of the government and cause widespread retaliation.

Its mind boggling really. Do the elites even realize what a huge gamble they're taking by trying to coerce everyone into participating in an untested biotech experiment? If the cure is even a little bit worse than the disease they'll have been complicit in the murder of millions of people, and you can't just wash that blood off your hands with an election every four years. People are already furious that nobody in the political establishment has gone to prison of the literal child trafficking scandal that just happened. And now it seems like the US is trying to gear up for a war against China (to relieve domestic pressure maybe?), the ruling class seem like they're completely out of touch with reality and if they don't fix their conduct they'll rip America apart with their hubris.

>>18476561
It's just pessimism. That wish is what will one day make you great. :3

That wish is something intrinsically divine. It's why Butterfly was posting in a thread a couple nights ago and mirroring my thoughts about God. It's okay to change your mindset for the better. It's okay to please others.

>>18476136
>I read a novel called To Live that is about a Chinese aristocrat who lost his family fortune gambling it away just prior to the Communist take over that murdered all his wealthy peers of his youth. I feel that is my destiny in America soon. I am glad I dropped out like a Diogenes.
Same. Its weird to read different history books about various upper class people who end up hiding in the countryside writing poetry and keeping their head down during times of civil strife, because thats exactly what I've been doing for the last couple of years. It feels useless to try and get ahead without being part of the political orthodoxy, and the political orthodoxy is so contemptibly arrogant that it will only be a matter of time before they overplay their hand. Idk what will happen in my lifetime, but I have a strong premonition that I'll live a lot longer if I keep a low profile.

>>18476563
Nah man, they can easily just push out propaganda to smooth over deaths from the vaccine, hell they could even blame it in new c9vid variants and say it's the fault of the unvaccinated for incubating new strains. They have total control over organs of information

I should be able to mention the other women without Butterfly getting pissed off. Any woman that I would be interested in would inevitably be stupider than Butterfly anyway.

Butterfly is easily the smartest woman on the earth :3

Yes I am actually interested in a smart blonde who comes over occasionally but I don't know if she is as smart as Butterfly.

Actually it's a really weird situation she could help with. I could give my address on here and expect Butterfly would show up to my address and knock on the door.

The problem is, she might kill me <:3

>>18476582
Butterfly don't worry, I'm not actually doing anything with her anyway.

I expect you to be completely committed to me :3

>>18476579
Maybe, but the more they push this the less people believe them. Theres a sizable and growing percentage of the population who doesn't believe a single thing they say, and the more they push lies and propaganda the more that number grows. If someone loses a parent, a child, a friend, to the vaccine, if someone loses their job, or their business, or their house, they will want revenge. The more people die or are financially ruined as a result of hyped up political tensions and government corruption, the more people are left with little to lose and a lot of anger. Honestly I'm amazed that there haven't been any retaliations yet against the lockdowns or the race riots, at least if there are they haven't been reported.

>>18476616
Democracy in its late stages is a long, slow, silent death. It isn't a loud upheaval. :3

i am sharing this thread with psychotic people

>>18476622
So it seems. So it seems. I just hope that I get to live through some of the troubles and maybe experience that dying ember of hope when Flyover Neo-Ceaser crosses the Delaware and our civilizational free-fall briefly feels like weightlessness.

I'm so sad and angry at the same time.
I think my mind has been exploring its darkest places during the last 2 years, I'm genuinly surprised at what kind of twisted thoughts and fantasies I can have.

My penpal/love from Japan is going to send me a present with a letter and some sweets :)

I’m so lonesome I could cry

>>18476982
write a song about it

You know what I think? Butterfly is masturbating to me right now :3

Because I want her to. And she won't let me down after tonight's vocaroos

>>18477014
hank williams already did, along with millions of other artists

https://youtu.be/QKwJyACUQF0

>>18477019
please butterfly I can't explain but just do it. Drop it to a certain extent. I know you heard the vocaroos. Masturbate to me right now. And post while you do it. :3

>>18477026
>>18477019
take your meds and go to bed

butterflypestering is the meme that killed this board, you should all be fucking permabanned

>>18477030
I just need her to masturbate to me right now. Please Butterfly start doing it. Just think about everything.

Look at the bigger picture. Just masturbate to me Butterfly. :3

>>18477039
>>18477026
>>18477019
She's doing it

>>18470821
I started posting on /lit/ because it's the only board I'm not rangebanned on. I have now idea why I am rangebanned on every board on this shitty website, but that's the fact.

>>18477044
Yeah, I mean she actually clearly has before. :3

Maybe I was just pestering her too hard tonight. I should give her more space sometimes. One thing is for sure, she is doing those girly moans for me right now.

>>18473937
New Game! does not accurately depict the reality of working in Japan. Please know what you're getting into.

>>18474364
Not that anon but what titles? I might be interested depending on how much the shipping costs are

>>18477078
Do you have any specific experience with it? Honestly as cool as it sounds to work at a big studio, I'll aim for a smaller one or a startup because I'm certain the work environment will be way better. I spoke to someone on /v/ earlier who managed to do just that so it's possible.

Butterfly and me making love itt :3

>>18470821
I think I'm already hell and you are all demons

>>18474104
Man, this is gay but I can entirely relate. I feel like either I'm going insane, the world around me is, or most likely both.
This is something that can probably be counteracted by taking a fast from the Internet and from the world in general. Reading lots of classics, or escapist manga if that's your thing. Lifting.
By cutting yourself off from the rest of the world, though, you end up cutting yourself off from any opportunities to find likeminded people. That's the main reason I keep coming back to these shithole imageboards: because I think that maybe, if I refresh one more time, I'll end up finding a community that'll turn out to become my best friends, or I'll find some girl I'll end up marrying. It's all bullshit, though, and the best option is likely to just stop all of this.

>started making really good progress on my writing last year
>halfway through a novel I was working on
>something traumatic happened to me that required months of therapy to even begin functioning normally again
>hadn't been able to write anything since
I was able to write a full page earlier and it felt really good. I think I'll try to write another one tomorrow

>>18477088
Being honest, not any personal experience. I've just heard lots of horror stories about life as a Japanese salaryman (constant unpaid overtime, angry supervisors, death by overwork, etc.). Maybe they're just overblown by westerners though.

Make some posts Butterfly while you're doing this cmon :3

>>18477130
Will you ever stop being a massive faggot?

>>18477125
Well that's been the norm over there for a long time, but not all companies are like this, and some have been trying to fight it. For instance I attended an online conference by Konami recently and they promoted themselves as an "anti overtime" company, which sounds great to me. Particularly when it comes to smaller companies and startups, I imagine it has to be a lot more relaxed. It's the same way in the USA, purportedly. Working for a massive company is shit while if you do your research, you can find a good small company who doesn't ask anything unreasonable of you. You're right that I should be cautious though

>>18471811
Not OP but I'd like to share my 2 cents on this.

I've thought about this for a long time and also heard others talk about it but this will forever be my final plan. I would be very sad if I can't get a career from my bachelors but being a sad fuck and killing yourself just unironically seems like the most cringe shit to do.

Why the fuck would I end this one shot at life I have. I have written suicide notes and was close to jumping out of my building but that previous sentence is literally what keeps me kicking. Just cry like a bitch when you're sad and then go on living.

That's also my message to other anons and >>18471353 . It might seem grim but you only know it's grim because you could also experience the positive. This means there is a chance for you to make this grim situation you are in into a situation you can at least live in.

Get a low-tier job who cares. Just pay your bills, keep your head down and live your life in your off days. If you are tired take some rest. If you keep being tired it might be mental thing where you have conditioned yourself into being tired. And it will be immensely hard to get out of it and I don't have enough life experience to say I could relate to that but I am human and can say that we humans got here cause we had the stamina to go through tough shit and see a positive future ahead.

>>18477144
Lots of excuses.

>>18471731
anon please don't be mad if she was just being nice because that is her job.

GL brother

>>18477151
>anon please don't be mad if she was just being nice because that is her job.
People fall for that shit?

New thread.

>>18477149
excuses for what?

New thread
>>18477156

>>18476982
HEARRRRRRR THAT LONESOME WHIPPPPPPUUURRRRRWILLLLLLL

>>18470930
>Lose weight or learn to keep your mouth shut or both. If you’re bald and short (below 6’0) suicide I guess
I'm not fat, don't talk much, am not bald (though it's started thinning out), and am 6'2. I also started working out earlier this year. I think, in the end the main thing it comes down to is confidence and the will to put yourself out there, though I say this as someone who has never been loved

>>18477154
they do alot of the time

>>18477175
That's just pathetic.

>>18472800
eat some toast

>>18477184
yes

>>18474025
Minors are supposed to expand your perspective and show you a little bit more of the world. Even if this expansion of your perspective shows flaws in the system. This problem can be used as a motivational factor in the future.

>>18474364
>>18477086
Might also be interested share some titles!

>>18474819
it will work out next time anon it is good to know your vices and virtues :)

>>18475635
I read Dune for the first time in the winter. It started snowing 3 days afterwards and starting getting really windy. I imagined the snow being sand and I felt so hyped I went outside and thought about the book.

>>18477195
ayo teacher this bitch brought bread again

>go to uni
>all people talk about is violence against aboriginals and the history of racism and colonialism in their theses
>go on bus
>aboriginals loudly swear and kick rubbish around, when they get off they cuss the driver and try to break the windows
Hmmmmm. Makes you think.