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No. Fuck women.

>>18235190

>>18235197
I'm the same way. I'm 27 and my parents keep encouraging me to be more social and I'm like "why?" I've never had a girlfriend and I have no desire for one. I'll just read books until I die.

>>18235190
A man will figure out whether he can love a woman just within their first meeting. A man can fall in love just like that. I did once. She didn't take the time to love me back.

>>18235190
love was once my heaven
but now it is my hell

>>18235190
>into a girl at uni
>talk to her, get absolute no signals whatsoever
>we say hello a couple times but at one point when she walks past me after class she doesn't look at me and i decide she's a dumb bitch
>get over it when she shows up with a retarded new haircut

>>18235239
*absolutely

>>18235190
i "fall in love" every time a cute woman talks too me and treats me nicely, however what i describe as "love" here is likely not an accurate usage of the word, as i have never truly fell in love with a woman

A little goblin, hugging a huge thigh, trying very hard to cum.

>>18235231
I cringed.
>>18235234
Holy fucking cringe.

>>18235246
>i "fall in love" every time a cute woman talks too me and treats me nicely,
Based me too

>>18235196
I think we lose sight of pure love anon, it doesn't need to come from a woman. The most beautiful love or perhaps memories are things you look back on in life are coming out from the most simplest things.
You know, the moments of a tender touch, perhaps a loving smile or that moments that made you who you are — moments of struggle.

>>18235190
It is strange that I am not allowed to tell the world about the happiest moment of my life, the time my heart was most weightless, pure light and joy. Why did she make me so happy? Why is this so wrong? I still think about her every now and then, though for a time it was every day.

cringe thread

>>18235190
It was when her careless right hand

Linger along my left hand

Traces softly

Maybe, that was love.

>>18235338
>>18235338
What's wrong with you people. You sound like a bunch of fucking fags.

Had a dream a few days ago:

> flew to Russia, where I was meeting some girl I met online, might have been there with her for a while
> she drove me to her place where she lived with her family, we were discussing meeting each other in the future
> I said I didn’t mind her seeing other people while I was gone because it was a fleeting thing anyway, she was fine with it, she just wanted to see me whenever I’d come over
> drove through her town, she pointed out the local church
> parked, before she went inside the house, we looked at each other, I sat down with her in the drivers seat, not making out or anything
> she pulled up her dress, naked from the waist down, I lowered myself until my head was side by side with her bare vagina
> no sexual desire at all, I just looked at it for a while, met her eyes again, put my cheek to her smooth pale hip and snuggled
> she looked down at me, a loving look with warm brown eyes, and stroked my hair, letting me know without speaking that she wouldn’t hurt or forsake me, and that she cherished what a doofus I am

I woke up after that, but there was something about her accomodation, how she appreciated the fact I I shed my insecurities and her returning that trust which fucked with me. I broke into tears after I thought about it again, I wept over my loneliness, first time in a while. Like the prostitute Jesus forgave after she washed his feet with her tears, I wanted to shed mine on that smooth, young skin and seek deliverance through my cleansing it. No matter what I do, my life feels like a requiem, a simulation ending soon. I exposed myself to a girl when she asked me, in a bowling alley, and I expected her to leave me with my dick in my hands with silent derision, exactly what she did, laughing back to my friend group. I’ve been harsh with meeker girls who let me near them, told them I didn’t love them and that I saw them as sexual releases, so they’d see my self-loathing and not be fooled.

>>18235190
>be me, 17, skinny pale guy with emo hair, kinda sleeping blasting burzum on his headphones first day of the last year of hs.
>before the first class starts four new students enter the room
>looked at them out of curiosity
>two dudes, one black, one balding
>two girls, one cute blonde with blue eyes and..
>OH MY GOD A CUTE WHITE BRUNETTE WITH A FERAL GAZE LOOKING AT ME
>ok play it cool
>WHAT!?
>WHAT THE FUCK?? TIME IS FROZEN?!
>*see her walking in slow motion towards me for what it felt like an eternity in heaven*

It was even better than when you see this shit in movies. I still can remember it so vividly that it gives me chills. We flirted a lot but she was in a relationship at the time and I was more concerned with fucking 16yo girls that were chasing me at the time. After HS we saw each other as friends a couple of times until the end of 2016, when she brokeup with her bf and we started dating. We dated for 3 years, 2 living together. I dont think anything in life will top how I felt with her at my side. Everything was amazing until my mental illness catch up and she found someone better than me (her boss). Even if I will never forgive that and I know that she doesnt loved me I am still grateful for the experience of love.

Its been two years since we drift apart. I've met and fucked a few cool and amazing girls but I havent felt love (or the chance of love), so I decided to stop trying with women. Ngl tho, winter without a woman is unbearable.

Sry for the shit england, I'm from Argentina and english is my third language. Fuck jannies btw

>>18235303
Don't worry fren, I understand

>>18235190
I don't remember anymore. I remember the events but my heart is barren.
No image attached because there are no memes that express how devastated I am about this.

>>18235190
>6th grade, circa 12y.o.
>hang out with my best friend who is also my classmate
>ask him, who is the hottest girl in our class
>being a little embarrassed, he tells me her name
>next day in class
>our conversation comes to mind
>turn around and check the girl in question to whom I never paid any attention
>damn she is hot, how was I so blind this whole time?
And that is how I fell in love for the first time.

>>18235361
>flew to Russia, where I was meeting some girl I met online, might have been there with her for a while
The only reason why anyone would fly to Russia.

>>18235361
>all this shit to cope for not taking a sign to coom inside a girl

Back when I was an intern at some company there was this girl. She was the coordinator of comms and Mkt. About 27, 7 years older than I was. She was very attractive but she was also really mature. I’ve not talkative while working, I used to ignore everyone and just do my shit and leave. So it hit like a bucket of cold water when out of the blue this girl spoke to me. She started asking me about random shit, we talked tinder, age, school. Really shallow stuff but entertaining.
We became friends, she was dating some 30s dude and I was living my 20s. I had a lot of respect for her. She was really environmentally conscious and was very talkative on mental health stuff.I fucking hated my job, and she confessed me she did which made me feel like I wasn’t the only one struggling with the job. A couple of months before she left we had one of those big company’s anniversaries. We danced and chatted. A lot of people were jealous because she hadn’t agreed to dance with anyone else but me. We were drunkish but nothing really happened. Next morning as I was looking on my IG I noticed she posted a story of me with the caption “the office cutie”. I don’t know why but this changed my whole perception of our friendship and realized my admiration was, in a way, love. It never went beyond that, she had a relationship and I really respect that.
She got an offer for some big company. She left but helped me leave that company and probably recommended me for the company I work in now. After that last “favor” she stopped following me on various social networks and we just cut communications.
Last year I while I was at a library I runned into her. She was with her boyfriend and we had some polite small talk on work and other stuff. Then we bid our farewells and haven’t heard of her ever since.
Still think about her every so often. Hope she’s doing great desu.

im so lonely bros

>>18235211
You really have no desire for a gf at all?

>>18235734
That's a good story.

>>18235190
It was like being a junkie. When girl was near. Super high, when girl was gone, super fiending.

>>18235303
>It is strange that I am not allowed to tell the world about the happiest moment of my life
So she was 12, huh?

>>18235343
Lmao

>>18235303
At first I thought this was an excerpt from Lolita. But your language is too plain.

That feeble emotion is not in my repetoire.

>>18235811
This, it's like the high you'd get from a Russian Roulette game.

>>18235190
He was a cute European twink. Still in love with him really. I didn't know what love was until I met him really.

I literally interact with women my own age less than monthly, excluding service workers.

I fell for a girl from yahoo chat once,
as she fell for me.
She loved me, made sacrifices for me, but I was always a dope, took everything for granted.
The more I look back, the more I see that this was what was my true chance at love, at forming a lasting bond with another.
Now, finally, I feel some moments of true maturity burgeoning in me, and all I can do is wish I had another shot. Not with another woman, the same one. I'd probably fail again, but there is ever that gnawing emptiness. The void where the statue in her likeness stood within me.
Any of you in love, don't take it for granted. Cherish it, I do, even though it fucking hurts.

>>18235940
Why don't you man up and write to her?

>>18235246
this

>>18235919
I can't remember the last time I spoke to a woman that wasn't a member of staff.

Well, I do remember, but I'm afraid I'm correct and it really has been that long.

(2 years+)

>>18235966
She fell off the map. Running from a guy she married a little after she left me. Last I heard she was just coming out of a mental hospital, and I knew that my interference could mean her very life, so I didn't pursue her, now the email address and phone numbers are all dead, so she could be as well.

>>18235190
I was young and unwise

What else may I say?

>>18236019
You shoud try reaching to her. Maybe it will turn your lives for the better. You will sorely regret not doing this in the old age. True love waits.

A month or so ago I had a dream where a girl I know held my hand for some reason out of the blue. I've had some similar dreams a bunch of others, some that I know, some fictional. Waking up from those dreams is pure misery.

>>18236040
>now the email address and the phone numbers are all dead

>>18236062
Is there really no other way? Common friends, media accounts, anything? C'mon. How hard it is to find a person in our day and age?

>>18235190
LOVE IS A CIA/DISNEY PSYOP

>>18236085
she's gone, man.

>>18236116
Well, it's your life.

>>18236116
Like literally gone?

>>18236165
what about "fell off the map" don't you understand?

>>18235940
only read the replies but i had a similar experience where i connected with an english scene girl over omegle and we got along famously, she added me over skype like two months later and i ignored it hahah why am i so based.

>>18236175
"Falling of the map" as regards people means loss of interest and contact which is easily amendable.
But I don't care anymore, you are a prick.

>>18236202
>you're a prick
why are you calling me names? because i can't contact my ex? you don't make any sense.

>>18235246
unironically this.

>>18235246
Noticed this phenom in myself where I basically abuse women I see in public as a little canvas to project my desires onto. I see a cute girl and start imaging how she's kind, a good person, intelligent, great with kids and so on
Used to do this a lot when I used public transport more

>>18235190
I've had girlfriends before, but the only people I truly ever loved are a part of my family, especially my sister (falling in romantic love with a gf is different to real love).
By the name of Allah I will never simp on a girl that is not part of my family, this may potentially include my wife in the future.

Oh guys, love is everything. Nothing makes you feel so at peace than loving somebody. You love somebody, you love the whole world.

She wrote one of her favourite poems on my cast today

>>18235811
Literally me
Except I was actually high most of the time I was with her

Good God, I used her tits as cushion and slept like this

>>18235211

>>18235851
>This, it's like the high you'd get from a Russian girl

>>18236277
>Russian
>She wrote one of her favourite poems on my cast today
I am feeling envy, anon.

>>18236277
i am going to kill you and then myself

>>18236331
That's a bit too harsh
I'm not the lucky dude btw

Honestly the cutesy phase the guy is describing in that pic just gets old for in my relationships. Im to much of a selfish solitary fuck. Or I just havent found "the one" yet

>>18235542
You must forgive her.

>>18236323
A bit cliche but, I actually got really into Dostoevsky because of her. She is reading The Idiot while I read The Brothers Karamazov.
I dont know how ''good'' it is that she is russian.
I would prefer it if she spoke german as we both dont speak english perfectly.

>>18236338
I am acutely aware that the feeling could (will) fade.
I am just trying to enjoy it while it lasts.
And aslong as it lasts it is the best thing ever

>>18235303
Little girls make me happy
Little girls make me sad
Little girls are everywhere
How can good things be so bad?

>>18236277
fuckin based and checked. keep it up you two

>>18236338
https://youtu.be/gKxfTJ3sei8
This, unfortunately

>>18236409

That show was fucked up to me. Good, but fucked up, made me feel serious

I mean just because the feeling of being in love fades doesnt mean you stop loving that person.
If everything goes right, you are still left with a person you love after the honeymoon face is over

>>18236401
thanks man. feels good to catch a break

>>18236211
just contact her bro stop being a pussy

>>18235190
My pp feels weird

This is going to be a long one, but I'm gonna try to write the whole story to at least reminisce it. Also please excuse any writing errors, English is not my mother tongue
>be me
>it's the 1st of December last year and I'm late from class
>on the way to class I see two of my friends skipping their classes; they ask me to join them but I am quite conscientious and decline
>I walk to the door of my class and put my hand on the handle
>before twisting it I get a weird sensation that I shouldn't open the door and should instead walk away
>I do as my intuition guides and go join my friends
>doesn't take long until a girl walks to where we are sitting and joins us
>never met her before, but apparently she's friends with my friends
>our mutual friends leave our company and me and her are left alone at the table
>she's quite talkative and I try to concentrate on playing Metal Gear Rising and listening to her at the same time
>we talk for an hour or so, just the two of us
>don't think much of her at the time; she's seemingly cute as hell and fun to talk to, but I had made a promise to myself not to develop a crush on anyone anymore (had gotten my heart broken before and wooing a lady felt like too much trouble)
>she also reveals that she is engaged to her boyfriend so I mind as well discard all hope at this point, right?
>our mutual friends eventually come back and the four of us drive to McDonalds, skipping the rest of our classes for the day
Fast forward to January
>me and her get more acquainted as time goes by and we see each other more and more at our place of study
>she even helps me out with an article I was writing for the local news paper
>she is so easy to talk to and we both notice that we have a lot in common
>not only is she beautiful, but also smart, and even her political views match mine
>as time goes on I notice myself hoping every time I went to school that she would also be there
Fast forward to February
>it's the 1st of February
>I'm sitting alone and studying German in this empty classroom that me, her and our friend circle always hang out in
>I notice her through the window of the room and she waves and smiles at me
>I greet her back and continue my studies
>she soon enters the room and we talk
>she asks me if anyone has written an article on me yet for the school's "year book"
>I say no since I had not asked anyone
>she says that she can write it and I accept
>she leaves the room and sits at a table next to the window
>I glance at her from time to time, and one time I catch her looking at me and we lock eyes
>she then gives me the cutest smile I've ever seen, and seemingly a bit embarassed looks away from me
>she returns to writing and I try to keep myself awhole since it felt like that smile had just melted my heart
I think that was the exact moment I fell in love with her. That smile, that damn smile, was at the time the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. But as I said, this is a long story.

>>18235685

Funny thing is, I'm not even into Russian chicks, too suspicious of them. Maybe the contrast was what made it profound

>>18235705

I don't think that's what she was trying to get me to do. It was almost like she showed me it was there, but that something more important existed with the one who owned it.

>>18235190
Being in love really is great. It’s like every negative thought just evaporates. You always think if her and it’s enough to make you happy, content. Things didn’t work out between us but to go on living for the chance I’ll experience it again makes it worth it.

>>18236277
Cтихoтвopeниe хyйня кcтaти, нo этo oчeнь милo.

>>18236499
Cont
>I'm still sitting in the class and trying to work out what the fuck is this feeling inside me
>I try to continue my studying but soon she barges into the room once more
>she takes a seat opposite to me and we start talking like we always do
>it's just the two of us in the room
>can't remember how it got to that point, but she brings up how awful it would be if one's husband or wife died prematurely (I later found out this had happened to her grandfather)
>she tells me that she's going to contact me if that ever happens to her since I'm "the only one she could get along with for the rest of her life"
>by now I'm once again in disarray inside my mind, thinking what the actual fuck she had meant by this
>I decide to jokingly ask her if she means I would be her lover then
>she says yes and we discuss what kind of farm animals we would get together if that happens
>by this point I'm starting to feel like I'm developing a crush on her
>she asks me if I have anymore classes for the day
>I say I do, but she suggests I skip them and go shopping with her
>once again my conscientious side tells me to go to the class, but on the other hand I want to spend time with her
>so, I agree and we go shopping
>before that, however, she says she wants to visit my apartment
>we drive there on her car and I show her the place
>she then demands that I would have to see her place as well
>why not, I think to myself and we agree to head there after doing our shopping
>she lives by herself in a old, quite big house in the countryside
>she shows me around her place and we hang out for a bit
>after that she drives me back to my apartment and after telling her how much fun I had had that evening we part ways
I then went and fell on my bed, because I felt so confused as to what was happening. That day was the day I knew that I could not keep my promise of not getting a crush on anyone - and I also felt that this was not a crush; I had fallen in love! To an engaged woman!

>>18236211
It's not about you not willing to contact your ex. You are a prick for eluding the point of the convesration.

I ruined it.

7 years, I thought she was the one and in most respects, she was exactly what I needed but in the end, she chose partying and the bottle over our future and I had to walk away.

Currently in love, 18. Here is my story :

>be me, in Higher school preparatory classes
>in the boarding school
>be among the first for breakfast everyday at the exact same place of the same table
>notice this girl who comes almost at the same time as me and takes a fairly close place
>she is beautiful and very well dressed
>start greeting her daily
>she returns the salute
>learn that she has my musical tastes from her roommate
>one day, be next to her in the restaurant queue
>start a conversation
>unlike most of the girls she have wit and propriety
>write down my phone number on a piece of paper and keep it in my pocket autistically
>one day have the opportunity to give it to her, telling her that her conversation is very pleasant
>she is confused but she takes it
>she sends me a message a few days later
>we plan a walk for saturday
>saturday
>go for a walk by the water
>start talking about theater and music
>she has a well developed artistic sensitivity
>fall in love
>start talking about religion
>she is a practicing Catholic
>i am a catechumen
>she offers me to accompany her to Mass
>Deo Gratias
>sunday
>follow the mass with her on her missal
>she teaches me how to use the missal
>go to the mass with her every sunday since then
>one evening she comes to my table for dinner
>sporadically have dinner and go for a walk with her, talking about ourselves, litterature, cinema and teasing each others.

Here are the main features.
I don't know if she loves me back. I compliment her sometimes and she seems to appreciate my praise, and I think my inclination is quite explicit but I don't know if she thinks I am a good friend or more than that. What should I do ?

>>18236667
I envy you.
>What should I do ?
Nothing, just continue as you are and everything will be fine, trust me, anon.

>>18235801
Correct.

>>18236700
I hate the floating state that is in the relationship until I have properly exposed my flame to her.

>>18236667
Don't get nervous about it and freak out, just be calm and normal and you'll be fine

Im not an honest anon. I keep from telling the truth. Ill try to be as honest as I can this time. Ive been in love. She was my friend. Okay, already Im being too honest. I wrote other things too, but I deleted them. This is what Ill say: Like a mouse. That was one of the things I deleted. I wanted to say that much at least. Like a mouse. You can have that much. It is: On the house. You can have that too, but thats irrelevant. Unless you put them together and say: Like a mouse, on the house. You could do that. See what I mean? Im not honest. Im not honest because we were friends for a decade and now we dont talk because I dont want to talk because she has other friends now and she mentions them to me and I want to seppuku right then and there

>>18236433
It was horrifying
https://youtu.be/tQ5vY_X1f6Y

I honestly have no idea. The closest I've ever gotten was
>>18235246
I have never seen love in real life from anyone, directed at me or not.

What's a good book/short story that can tell me what it's really like?

>>18237569
>What's a good book/short story that can tell me what it's really like?
(((Art of Loving)))

The main concept is that love is not a "thing" but a relationship. It's not that "it is here / it's not here", it's something that continuously is built and unbuilt with both people's actions

Btw this kind of love implies a true maturity and sanity of self, so it's not what you'll see from most people.

https://blogmskhnews.files.wordpress.com/2019/08/the-art-of-loving.pdf

>>18235246
This is the thing. Love is shallow. What makes it deep is something else : virtue and spirituality. Else it's just a physio-psychological friction.

>>18235734
A similar thing happened to me with one of the pharmacists at my first job. I was 18 at the time and was trying to find my way in the world, and she was nice enough to take a shine to me, despite being in her early thirties. Whenever I had a question about stocking stuff in her area, she'd go out of her way to assist me. She was genuinely one of the sweetest women I'd ever met up to that point. Can't remember how it happened, but we eventually decided to hang out outside of work, and for our first "date," she took me to a fancy Italian restaurant downtown. She snuck me a drink or two, and I was thrilled she was willing to break the rules a bit for me. This went on for about a half year, where she'd bring little gifts for me to work, and I'd write her poems and stuff in exchange. I knew, however, that I was too young for her, and that to go all the way with her would set her up for heartbreak long-term. She was of the age where she needed to start settling down if she was ever going to have a child, so I broke things off with her. Ended up setting her up with her now husband while I went off and banged slews at university. I still check on her from time to time, and she's very happy with her current life. Probably one of the only noble things I've ever done.

>>18235190
Eyes of a blue dog

every single thought would begin and end with her

>>18236375
Oh, too bad I saw this reply this late.
Now I can't remember exactly if I started reading Dostoevsky because of that Ukrainian girl (she would probably get mad if I called her Russian). Maybe I started reading him around the same time I meet her, but not directly because of her.
It's funny that you say you wish she spoke German, because "my" Ukrainian (who speak perfectly my mother tongue, too, as she grew up here) once told me "I really wish you spoke German", implying that this way we could have some "secret" language, since English is too common. I also took some Russian classes, but not really because of her (I can already talk to her in my native language, as I stated above, or in English if I wanted to), it's that Russian literature interests me. I didn't attend that class for much time though, it was in a time frame when I had 1h commute, 8 hour lesson, then 1/2h commute, 1 or 2h Russian lesson, and then 1h commute back home, I couldn't last long.

>A bit cliche but, I actually got really into Dostoevsky because of her.
You want to hear cliche?
Her name is literally Nastenka, just as in White Nights. What a fucking joke.

>>18235197
>30+26 = 56%
>almost half

>>18237906
Looking for a relationship doesn't mean you're no longer a virgin, virgin.

>>18237935
40 words and >>18237906 couldn't understand the meaning conveyed. Good god...

>>18235211
I vaguely want a gf in the sense that when I read /lit/erature I romanticize romance but practically speaking I don't deeply desire romance even though I know I'll need someone to complement my autistic ass [unless I join a monastery since that's where I wouldn't need a woman to help me with life things].

>>18236305
>Good God, I used her tits as cushion and slept like this
God I want a gf

>>18235246
this is from my diary desu

I feel like I might be falling in love right now.
>31, never had a proper relationship, spergy in general but mostly able to function in life
>have banged a few chicks over the years but haven’t maintained any kind of relationships
>coworker invites me to come have a drink with him
>when I get there, there’s a large group of his family, and the only spot is next to a nice looking girl and my coworker
>it’s a set up with his sister in law

Any way, we’ve gone a few dates and hung out several times. She’s sweet and pretty, and funny. I’m not sure I’m in love but I don’t want to screw this up. I had dinner with her and her sister the other day which kind of feels like a step toward something more serious (she’s living with her sister and my coworker as she moved to this state a month or so ago). She’s never given me any run around when I want to do something and we seem to be clicking pretty well.
Close to making it lads, I pray I don’t ruin it

>>18235190
The memories of it feel like they were apart of another world that couldn't have ever existed. I finally understood why love songs were so popular, and would listen to them when I wasn't with her, and when I was with her I actually felt like I was a named person living a life and not the shade I am now. I was finally the happy wanderer who sung of in shitty early 2000s alternative rock, Say Anything, Fallout Boy.

The end of those feelings were the end of my childhood. I was still innocent and naïve for awhile, but I've decayed so much since, and worse yet I'm not even ashamed. I am afraid I might have become proud of the degenerate I've become, I don't know.

I've forgiven her of all the ways she had wronged me, but with my grudges sieved I'm left with a strange hatred. It's as though she stole a boyish part of my soul which she took with her as payment for her time, and skipped back with it to that careless place of whimsy girls so often reside.

I want that piece back. Women make men of boys, they coax and corrupt them into the world and then run blushing to the shadows when the wolves and men come to taste and test the new blood.

>>18235254
kek

I remember when she walked in. I was young, in middle school I think, and she seemed so mysterious, so above everything. She seemed to float on a cloud. I remember getting to know her, playing chess with her and finally learning her name. We became close friends, spending most days after school at a coffee shop, talking and hanging out with each other and a couple of our friends.
I was young then, naive and stupid, and life came crashing down on me when my parents split and I moved. I was alone when I got to my new home. I had noone, and yet I remember nights lying awake just talking to her on the phone. We slowly drifted apart in those years, my fear of losing her stopping me from telling her how I felt.
I visited home every year after that, reconnecting with her, spending time with her. She reminded me of my childhood as I grew, tethered me to something I had lost. We grew up, I became older and she did too. She'd tease me about us being a summer fling and I'd shy away from it, terrified that a part of me would be lost if something as stupid and unrequited love came in our way.
We went out even after high school, visiting each other, going on trips, learning more about each other and eventually I told her how I felt, that after all those wasted years I felt it still. She smiled as she listened and I don't know how she felt. The last time I saw her we played beside one another, and again I was reverted to some earlier child, to some nostalgic figure unable to break from the norm. We stopped talking awhile ago, she tried to get in contact with me and I found myself confused on how I felt. I have a girlfriend Now I love more than life. Someone Id die for, someone I'd kill for. I have no time for childhood dreams, and I know if I saw her again I'd get caught up in that stupid nostalgia.
I've been damned by romanticism.

>>18238880
Laid beside*

>>18238704
Lucky

I am feeling neither love nor hatred only emptiness and contempt
get fucked

>>18235190
i never did
there were some girls i crushed on but never loved

>>18238704
You needn't worry.
ygmi
...just don't go full sperg bro

>>18236095
basado WIDE AWAKE chad

>>18235190
I never have. Someone help.

>>18235196
based, spending my time here has stoped me from ever falling in love, the more I think about a particular woman, the more disgust I feel

>>18235190
I was never in love. I had a crush on two girls (solely for their physical atributes) and all it took was talking to them to rid myself of said crush. There's not even anyone that I particularily like. If you asked me whether there is a person who's death would touch me I don't think I'd be able to reply.

>>18239977 (you)
wow, that's a waste of good digits. i'm sorry.

>>18235211
Having a gf never really seemed like a posssibility to me, I fantasise about it the same way I do for winning the lottery, and I don't even buy ticket

I was a full-on misanthrope. I genuinely disliked people. I turned down every girl, and I was quite popular. I was really happy with my hobbies and videogames. I was pretty much asexual, too. I hated all these things humans have - holes, nipples, wrinkles, and all of that shit. I still have an aversion towards these. After a traumatic event, something clicked, and I began to long for love, and regret my loveless past. Became quite the coomer, too. I'm now a 24-year-old chad virgin. I could go fuck a girl right now, but I'll never have that "young" love. Maybe I'm still "young". Don't really feel like I am.

>>18235196
yes

>>18240024
You can still have "young love" with 24 though.
Just find yourself an 18 year old girl, who is a virgin.

>>18240304
This would reinvigorate me. I don't really care about the virgin part; after all, she came out of a guy's balls as he spasmed in ecstasy, remained in her own mother for months, and then came out of her, her whole body tightly clasped by her walls and lips, causing her mother to orgasm and defecate. Which part of that is virgin?. Humans are inherently, innately sexual. But I do think it would be very sweet and cute for both of us to be "pure". That would be something to remember. I will try and approach the cute bespectacled bookworms at the library. Here's to hoping I won't scare them off with my magnificent autism and absolute lack of social experience.
What do nerdy girls like to read? Something like The Alchemist?

>>18240448
Hmm, no, now that I think about it, The Alchemist seems more like a basic bitch choice

>>18235246
Does anyone have the meme where the guy is trying to buy a wittgenstein book and falls in love with the checker

>>18240448
In my country the medical staff give women enemas when their water breaks.

Roasties get massively butthurt about this, seething about 'sanctity of female bodies', the evils of patriarchal medicine, etc.

I guess they prefer shitting all over themselves?

Feminists are insane.

>>18235254
Found the incel. Poor guy :'(

Lost all respect for lit after reading this thread

>>18240543
Lost all respect for you since you had respect for /lit/ in the first place.

>>18240543
You can make a thread like this on any board and get the same type of replies

>>18240554
Only people willing to blog post about love are losers, who would have thought.

>>18236004
>2 years
>think that's long
Where do you think you are?

>>18235190
>love
how does it feel bros? I genuinely cannot understand how someone from the opposite sex could love me
>>18235246
same
>>18235542
es imposible sufrir en Argentina, demasiadas mujeres hermosas
>>18235940
>made sacrifices for me
wtf she was a cultist or something?
>>18236277
>TFW no ruski gf

>>18235246
Slut

>>18235190
I haven't been in love since I was 19, I'm 29 now.

What about loving someone and wanting that person to be with someone else? I'm such a faggot.

>>18240701
uuhh
departamento basado?

>>18235190
I had really bad oneitis up and nearly killed myself which led me to give up love all together for a little while. Later on I started to develop more casual relationships with girls I found cute. In the last year of high school I nearly got a prom date. That was 2020, there was no prom. I still kind of miss her.
Today I'm aromantic, but I still jack off to anime every night or I can't sleep.

>>18235190
between the ages of 0 and 16 i was in love 4 times between the ages of 17-23 I have been in love 0 times

>>18240484
/lit/ gold

>approach counter with wittgenstein's tractatus
>female cash operator: doing some light reading? (said with perplexing levity)
>me (mask of confusion): are you alluding to the thinness of the volume?
>female cash operator/potential mate: huh?
>me (teeth chattering): do not let the weight of the book deceive you as to the weightiness of its contents.
>future wife: ok
>me: (swallows)
>soul mate: are you ok?
>me: i want you to perform the transaction now

>>18235190
Dated a girl for a bit in highschool
She was beautiful and smart and had an actual backbone
Ended up dumping her because I realized I was trying way too hard to pressure her into sex because I was a horny teen
Still think about her atleast once a week 6 years later. Sometimes when I'm feeling especially down or burnt out I imagine that if I power through it'd make me into a person more worth being close to her and capable of making her happy

>>18235211
Have sex

>>18242215
Okay, and what then?

>>18242232
probably continue to not care about relationships because sex isn't a substitute for a meaningful human relationship
sex is a meme
make friends

>>18235190
who is that?

Love is in the little gestures, the smile, the frown, the graze, the grasp, the yawn, the laugh.
Once you have it, it will never be lost, it's an endless well that flows eternal.

>>18235211
Based dubs of truth.

>>18237665
Why did you use the jew quote thing?

>>18242835
You look into the eyes of another, feel their singularity, the drive to unite as one entity in love; it is one of the most powerful, primal emotions you can have as a human. To become part of another you must give freely a part of yourself and take a part of them, it's an eternal bond of trust that cannot be broken, you hold that person for the rest of your life, even if you separate, even if the trust is defiled it cannot be lost, love can hurt or nourish but we honour a primal selves by allowing it in.

>>18235190
so many times it's ridiculous. I'm such a hopeless romantic.

>qt coworker smiles at me and says “hi anon”
>h-h-hi
>this repeats for the next two years until she leaves
>spend the entire time agonizing over it

>>18243239
Stop it

>>18242024
I laafed

I've never been in love
My current girlfriend, which is also my first, will not be the love of my life and I feel like shit right now
I don't know if I'll ever experience love
Maybe I'm just talking out of my ass cuz I'm just 20
I just feel so alone and desperate
Somebody write me a reply please, whatever

I've had one girlfriend, and I'm sure I loved her at some point. I don't even know how to describe when I "fell" in love because it was so long ago and foreign to me.

Love only arises from long-term relationships; anything instant is lust.

you fucking lonely niggers, im reading your comments laughing at you fucking losers ahahahahahah

>>18243329
What do you not like about her? Is she respectable, not retarded, and physically desirable? Do you expect your partner to be give you that magical feeling told by others here, or are you content with a suitable mate? And why are you begging for a reply from a stranger, talk with your partner you idiot. You're dumber than someone two (plus too) years younger than you. God help you. I just did.

I tried to keep it professional. Every morning I quietly greeted her in english only to be later mocked by my friends for speaking a "posh" language. I would teach her bits and pieces of spanish and practice pronounciations. But the hours were long and unlike the ex exchange student, the girls would not approach her as much as I expected. So we started talking a little. Small complaints about people and the weather. Back then I was short on money so she started bringing me food she made, as a reward for me helping her. But we were only friends, even less than that. I was just a practical and convinient translator/dictionary ....Then on christmas we were left alone for quite some time. I thought it was going to be a five minute chat, a bit of drinking and back to staring at our phones. It felt like five minutes for both of us until we saw the clock and saw that several hours went by. Time no longer was a dread.

>>18243550
i'm glad that i don't feel driven to interact with women

>>18235234
Many such times

>>18238704
lucky

>>18239977
ur parents, anon?

>>18239969
>>18235196
Don't cry about some potential loneliness after writing that.

>>18235246
I found your word : "attraction".

Girl in high school, beautiful brunette with beautiful freckles. Occasionally I would make her laugh, but I was too greasy and awkward to carry a conversation or make any moves. I also could not drive yet, this is death for a young man out in the sticks.

If a girl were to smile at me I would imagine our lives together for an entire month.

American culture has destroyed my perception of what love is. If the country got nuked tomorrow, I would walk into the light with a smile on my face.

>>18235338
yikes

>>18243550
You really showed them by pulling up some random douchebag from Instagram. You're just a much of a loser as the rest of the people on this board.

>>18235190
Love is not an emotion, it's a promise.

>>18235303
You can't kiss children you sick fuck

>>18236277
>copyright
made me burst out laughing lmao dumb ruskies

>>18236596
why didn't you start kissing her like a god damn animal until she gave up her love to you

>>18235801
its a defence mechanism, I was like that too in my teens coz I was insecure till I finally had sex

>>18236596
nice anon, kino

>>18238806
I hate love songs precisely because I have never been able to relate to them :[

>>18236667
Living the dream, keep it up

>>18244432
Certainly, to love is extremely pleasant, and it is with the dream one of the rare things that one finds ineffably pleasant in the same time that one lives them, but it is however rather painful and the incessant presence of the idea of the loved one to the mind is annoying in proportion to its absence at our sides. I believe that complete satisfaction is not of this world and that the port is in the beyond.

>>18238704
Just don't tell her you post on here and you're golden.

>>18240543
not that i ever held any respect for lit but holy fuck is this thread embarrassing to even read

>>18236608
Me too. It gets better fren :^)

>>18235190
>But what you really want is to snuggle to the wife and chat
If you're a little boy, yes. But if you're a man, what you'll really want is to be strong.

I dated a girl for about 3 months when I was 17. She was really sweet, but both of us were quiet, and we lived far a part, so we didn't see each other often. A combination of those last two things did our relationship in, and we mutually agreed that a split would be the best. I remember thinking to myself when we were dating that my life didn't feel any better after I got a gf. The main difference was that I was constantly horny around her. Now, I'm 19, and I still haven't completely moved on. I've had a couple small crushes, but they were only superficial. I think about her everyday, and I realize that this isn't healthy. This summer, I'm going to be moving permanently away from my hometown, and before I go, I need to give her the proper goodbye that I should have two years ago. I love her, but this chapter of my life needs to be ended.

>>18235833
Oooh, you're so edgy. At least listen to good black metal.

I've had one girlfriend, and she broke up with me because she loved me but I didn't love her.

>>18245771
You're so manly, you're so grown up. Here's a medal you fucking faggot.

>>18239969
>Spending time on an anime forum pretending I am smart has taught me that I dont need love
The internet was a huge mistake

>>18245985
My gf loves me but I don't love her back
Any advice? She's also my frist one

>>18245771
More like "do you want to be an insecure weirdo"

>>18246016
Depends what you are after. If you have a good relationship without going through that phase, it's arguably better.

is that guy a writer or something? He sure seems like one