/lit/ - Literature

>>18084127
Old thread's still up >>18066101

>>18084127
I am becoming increasingly supportive of Syndicalism. I feel as establish local, worker-based organizations and unions that advance the demands and rights of workers through strikes, would help the America's working class against the ever increasing draconian corporations.

>>18084127
Congratulations you stupid fucking janny cocksuckers. You had to kill a good thread and get the v tuber shit in. Good job

>>18084180
Imagine being this mad

>18084189
Imagine being (You)

>>18084127
I feel no ambition at all. I'm falling all my classes in university and I don't care about my degree anymore, I can't stand a single lecture.

I'm in a dark place right now. All my writing has ground to a halt. Every attempt I made to move my social obligations out of the way has failed, and even if it hasn't I'm crippled by writer's block, self-doubt, anxiety and anhedonia

I don't know what to do except stop, but all that does is make me feel more like a failure who was never meant to accomplish anything than I already did

>>18084231
Why’d you go to university?

horse

I find fat girls to be very beautiful. I am entranced by how beautiful they are because they are fat. I could write an entire essay about all the things I love about fat girls aesthetically. The specific features they possess that thin girls do not possess, and that I find immensely beautiful and erotic.

Obviously there are ugly fat girls. There are tons of them. But there are tons of ugly thin girls, too. And I find a beautiful fat girl immensely superior, aesthetically, to a beautiful thin girl. I can't help but be drawn to them erotically and romantically. I would sculpt beautiful fat girls in marble if I had the talent, purely to try to demonstrate the extent to which I find them beautiful and compelling and irresistible.

I had a dream where doc found out i had a breast cancer as a guy so i was a put completely naked into metal box (without head and leg planes) for a chemotherapy. I dont get what the dream is trying to say.

I have this occasionally reoccurring dream about the time I was in middle school in Japan and the time I went around Akihabara. It's been more than 10 years now but it comes back once in a while, in the most vivid way possible. It's like I'm transposed there again, seeing the old classrooms and corridors. Sometimes I even see my old friends and teachers too.

I just don't get why it keeps coming back to me once in a while.

>>18084127
I'm dropping out of college. I was studying English but I spent the semester reading personal book choices rather than assigned readings. I've never been decent at school, had a 2.8 gpa in high school, so I'm done with school. I am going to teach myself proofreading or something else that I can do freelance while I'm delivering food for an Italian restaurant.

repost:

I'm a tribal member and submitting a poem for a contest involving other tribal writers. It's written in hendecasyllabic meter an is part of a larger poem. Our tribe has little in the way of recorded legend or mythos, so I'd like someday to work on that.
Either way; here's my faggy poem about a Chief pushed West

Lament of Sicopas

>From the mountain to the sea, I have wandered.
>Both people seen and places been, love banished
>Fade in time like dye on linen in the sun
>My sons ached, my daughters trembled when death came
>The West is no longer home for forlorn chiefs.
>Where then shall we go? I ask God; only friend
>Do I become a whale beached, proud and rotting?
>I would sooner see my flesh flayed, bones broken,
>Teeth splintered in winter, blood boiled in summer.
>No.
>West is no longer home, but I will fight here
>Our homes are burnt, lands left barren by devils
>The tide washes from the East, we are but shoals.
>I go to Sulk'Twu, genesis of my line
>where my father's of the House Suswami were laid.
>Buffeted by salt water, until eroded.
>My house ended. Die I will, though die unmoved.

>>18084473
Seems decent enough. Don't know if you will win though.

I try to start new fantasy novels only to compare them to other's that I've already read. The comparison always ends up short, or I find some element of the story, be in plot or characters, as mud - boring and overdone beyond belief. So, I start a novel, and I quit it immediately. Fantasy isn't really doing it for me anymore.

On the other hand, I've shifted my interests towards history, philosophy, psychology; devouring books on the topic.

>>18084473
This is really good, Anon. I like it a lot.

Albion's Sneed

>>18084176
Amazon doesn't even want to unionize bro

>>18084180
I like this WWOYM fight between normal people and the anime weirdos. You never know who is going to win next.

>>18084770
Pretty sure the people who speared headed the unionization fucked up by making it a racial issue.

>>18084127
Is it normal to feel like any sympathy or comfort from anyone is actualy them just contemptably, begrudgingly pitying you? Or is it the mark of a diseased and insecure mind as I suspect.
>>18084176
Unironicaly check out the works of Primo de Rivera and the Falange.

>>18084379
Go to the doctor

>>18085078
Why?

We speak as we are. Long sentences, short sentences, straight sentences, crooked sentences, simple sentences, complicated sentences - the sentence is the man. Our words reflect our attitude, our grammar reveals our vigor. Mastering your language means mastering yourself. Cut up sentences for a cut up man. As soon as I lose my heart, I lose my language. Whoever wants to destroy me must expect complete resistance. A mad death struggle.

I realized God sent covid to punish me, the 6 month period before lockdown was the best time of my life. Every day I went out of my way to improve my life and I reaped great results: finally had friends and almost girfriend, working out regularly, eating well, good grades. It was all gone the moment they announced the pandemic, even though I was blissfully unaware of it. I don't want to go to heaven anymore, I will kill myself within a year and hopefully go to hell and that's okay because I deserve it.

>>18085161
Just power on and ignore the pandemic. That is what I did and it worked out well.

>>18085161
if you end it this year you will never have a comeback, if you can, channel it into your writing instead.

>>18084231
Me too, but I've almost finished so it's too late to change.
If I could turn back time I would have just attended a trade school

>>18084473
Seems based

>>18085161
Don't end it all just because a chink ate a bat, you're still young

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>>18085204
This is the alternate I have that is connected more to the "epic" poem

Books for this feel?

>>18085269

>>18084775
vteens are not anime
its a fat whore or tranny behind a 3d avatar playing games and literal fucking children watching that shit

>>18085297
You really seem ignorant about anime, anon. I think it’s best if you don’t talk about it more unless you want to look like the fool around everyone

>>18085297
Tomato, Tomato

>>18084349
>horse anon
:3

What a gay world

What's the definition of truth?
Do I need to define truth in order to define truth?

>>18085269

>>18085447
There are two prevailing theories of truth in philosophy, although the pair is by no means exhaustive. These are the correspondence theory and the coherence theory.

Correspondence claims that truth is an alignment, parallelism, or conjunction between a mental representation a statement, and a fact in the world. To know a truth or for a proposition to be true means that all three of these share a certain logical homology and that varying any of them would result in a falsehood. Some extend this to include possible world (modal) semantics. So for instance a nominally true proposition is one where there is at least one possible world where it is true. So for instance one can say "if I hadn't dropped the glass, then it wouldn't have broke" and that is a true statement despite there being no actual state of affairs that realizes it.

The coherence theory claims that truth is in the logical consistency of premises. Take an an axiomatic system in math or an abstract truth in general. What does it correspond to? Nothing in the external world. Rather it is true because all of its axioms are consistent and mutually interdependent. They are only true because of the other axioms, and together they work to produce more true statements that are also consistent, up to a limit at least.

I play games to compensate my lack of self-confidence in real life.

>>18085776
Same, except I use AI generated faces on dating profiles and convince women to meet up at almost inconveniently distant places and never show up just to waste their time.

>>18085522
I read his other novel Augustus and the preface was filled with commercials for this book. Made me think the publishing company rather wanted me to have bought Stoner instead.

>>18084394
Maybe it’s the world telling you to go back

>>18085793
Why do you do this?

>>18085776
It’s just escapism for me albeit escapism I have some control over.

>>18084394
Are you by chance a very solitary person?

All dreams are the unconscious trying to bring some wisdom to you, something the conscious you have overlooked. With a dream that is being repeated over and over again, it is most that this dream is very significant to you. Likely a sign of some true meaning that you've yet to integrate into your being.

Still, in order to understand the dream you have to put it in context. Usually the dream you had this night is a response to something you encountered, felt or thought yesterday.

>>18084379
Doctor could represent a friendly authority person, or yourself telling you 'this is what is wrong with you'. Now breasts are obviously linked to the feminine, and cancer to death/suffering/disease. Breast cancer together could be a fault in your own personality, a failure of having integrated your anima. What are your thoughts on females? What are your relationships to the females of your life? Could be something wrong here with either yourself or a female around you. Again, hard to tell unless I have more context about your life and what you encountered before you had this dream.

As for the getting naked part, this could be you appearing vulnerable. It could also be a return to nature, to the womb, to the origin. Is something in your nature wrong? Are you afraid of others?

Again, take all of this with a grain of salt. I don't know you or your context and can't tell you what it means. Only hints from Jung's ideas.

yoga boga moga ooga booga me ooga you booga mahogany gangrenous gangrel gravelous groveling it's funny how there's a formula for being non-formulaic, a little bit like how the sex pistols were a marketing ploy I wonder what else hot topic is behind that we don't know about

>>18085868
Idk, its a laugh.

it's awkward when you think you've had some personal development, and so you realize that your old intuitions are wrong, because it means that you have to act on other than your intuition. right now my gut tells me that sometihng is off about a relationship, but I think the reason I think so is because the person is invading my personal sphere, but the thing is that I'm pretty sure what I need to do is to let people in that sphere. Keeping them out is the old mal-adaption, with which comes my intuition which then now could maybe be wrong. But it's my gut feeling. Once you step out of your gut-feeling you lose your bearings completely. If it's wrong then anything could be wrong. It's a tricky situation. I was in a similar situation years ago and became defensive and rejected the person. I think I should try for a different end this time.

>>18085926
>What are your thoughts on females?
Attracted to them but dont find their company stimulating mentally or aesthetically.
>What are your relationships to the females of your life?
Not that good, they mostly had a negative influence on me.
>Is something in your nature wrong?
I dont get this question, as in am i a feminine guy?
>Are you afraid of others?
Generally, very suspicious of others.

For a context, i was yesterday thinking about what would i do if yesterday was the last day in my life? I said to myself that i'd make a call and talk with parents and brother and accept my death with slight regret that i didnt understand the world or myself this whole time and i only felt like a complete stranger.

>>18085998
This makes some sense on an abstract level, but care to be more specific? How are they invading your personal sphere?

>>18085998
Your intuition is your intended lifepath. Sounds like you are meant to be a hermit and you are struggling against your nature to fulfil some social expectation you have absorbed.

>>18085826
I hope one day I will. Although Tokyo was great I would much prefer to live in the Japanese countryside.

>>18085883
I would say I am. I tend to keep to myself often and have a close group of friends rather than a large circle. As of now, it's just my dog and I living together.
Still, it's hard to find meaning besides me yearning to go back there. But to add more context, as much as I did enjoy my middle school years in Japan, I do regret being an edgy teenager who was became reclusive during those years. If I could've gone back in time I would have spent more time seeing the places around Tokyo.
As for what happened recently, my dad came to visit for a week and left. We had a talk about family and life. I am still somewhat depended on him and want to stand on my two feet. That was about it.

I hate migraines.

I study my ass off and get good grades but I can't land a job because I lack experience. My useless friend who is mediocre at everything gets a job straight away because his dad works at the company. Ba! Life is unfair.

>>18084349
i missed you, horse anon. how you doing?

>>18086241
welcome to the real world. nepotism and networking are probably the most important things when it comes to job hunting, unless you're a genius and employers will come to you. If anything, try getting a job which is even loosely related to your field and from there you'll get the necessary experience.

>>18086241
i hate that for landing a job now your resume matters less than having a carefully curated linkedin and github. i saw some kid who was mediocre as hell at coding landed a job at a sv startup cuz his linkedin and github look so good with really nice photos, and all the right bullet points and shit. discouraging that employers are so dumb that if you harangue your friends from your old dorm to "endorse" your skills on linkedin people think you actually know what you're doing.

>>18086241
Life is fair, but not for everybody.

>>18086607
odysseus was so unfair to all those poor suitors who just wanted to fuck his wife and steal his estate. cancel him.

Michelangelo was once asked how did he make such wonderful sculptures. He just said "I take a marble block and remove everything useless".
Perhaps this is why Man loves War, even if it hurts. Weapons are the most beautiful thing ever created because they only have what is useful. And in War there's nothing but Life and Death, it's the struggle between them, no matter what's your side.
War will never leave Man alone as long as Man pursuits beauty.

>>18086175
I was supposed to move last year until corona killed that.

>>18084127
I don't know if anyone remembers me but I'm the farmer anon from a month or so ago. I'm growing stronger everyday and becoming friends with my coworkers. The more I work on the farm the more I realize how sick modern work makes society in general. I think that, like a circadian rhythm, people also have a sort of biological clock that follows the seasons in their area. By working indoors and not going outside people are doing the same sort of psychological and physical damage as working night shifts. I had some issues and am finishing up a short set of CBT sessions with a therapist. I don't think I could have made the same progress as I have if I was living the same way as before. I'm thinking more clearly than ever now, my days off are longer since I naturally wake with the sun and I haven't slept this well since I was a child. I can see the sometimes literal fruits of my labor and it feels right. I think there would be fewer problems if everyone could do the same.

How do christians explain the fact that ever since communication technology and medicine advanced enough to easily verify and document such claims that there have been no irrefutable miracles? It's always things like "wow this guy had cancer but then it went into remission after he prayed with this relic (and had chemotherapy)".

Shaved my pubic hair yesterday, now my groin itches.

>>18086653
No. Cringe. You’d hide under your bed just hearing a bullet get shot miles from your parent’s suburban home.

Whenever I experience Deja Vu I am met with an intense, sinking dread that something horrific is going to blindside me. My father getting into a car accident, my friends collectively abandoning me citing an event or major slight I was unaware of, etc. Stranger still, in these moments I have been able to predict with major accuracy the events of the next few seconds, though the object of dread has never manifested.

If something bad happens to you and it's your fault, is it worse because you could have avoided it? Or is it better because you have power over it and you can potentially avoid it in the future?

I've been messing around with AI image generation from text software recently - the Big Sleep, big ups to the anon that posted it here. It's really incredible technology, the prompt for this was "cyberspace", it feels very soulful for something made by a machine. I see a transhuman chap in a futuristic knights helmet sitting to the right, his ethereal arms extending to his computer interface made of pure fibre optic cables. Around him the scenes of cyberspace are projected in his crystal cave, below him is a sea of distortion. And this is iteration 2, by iteration 50 it's all further refined. I've also done quite a few generations of pictures for prompts around "library", it definitely understands the concept of lots of books on shelves, but it doesn't as well understand the library as a public space - there's no space around the shelves. "Esoteric library" just tossed in fuzzy monsters lurking between the shelves. Makes you think of the future where AI moves beyond content curation to content creation, to me it seems all that this technology needs to nail down is precision. Very specific intelligences can handle this when they're given one type of image to generate, such as thispersonisntreal, but broad intelligences like the one I'm using have such incredible abilities in abstracting and connecting images that seem unrelated to us that it generates these vague worlds. On a side note I fucking hate my neighbours, there the mother goes again mocking her 4th ray of sunlight by wailing at it as it wails ever louder

>>18087069
The texture almost seems like something Beksinski would make.

>>18084127
I am genuinely in love with Anne Frank. She was beautiful, witty, and graceful young woman who light was snuffed out far too early.

I frequently fantasize about being Peter van Pels hiding with her.

Oh god, just imagine deflowering that sweet girl on a lazy Amsterdam afternoon, lying and learn what each other's bodies were for.

Now imagine nine months later, she's got a massive bulging stomach from carrying your child inside of her and it seems like she’s gonna pop any moment now. Her popped belly button makes it look like she's got a giant third boob where her stomach once was. She waddles around and can barely move half of the time. She's developed an insatiable craving for your dick and you've likewise developed a taste for her pussy. You’re both cooped up in an attic all day have nothing better to do besides fuck like an unsustainable third world population. You lie down on your back, she strips off her almost comically too small clothes and kneels on top of you. She grabs a hold of your rock hard cock, inserts it deep inside of her, and begins to ride you like a stallion. You feel the pressure from her incredible weight and huge round belly bearing down on you but the indescribable pleasure of her tight pussy throbbing on you cock negates any discomfort. You sink into her beautiful soul, into that secret place where no one dares to go. After 30 minutes, you and her are both moaning with ever greater intensity, you know it won't be long now. Suddenly, you feel your cock shaking like a V-2 rocket and the orgasm reaches it's climax as your cum literally explodes like an 88mm AT round inside her Sherman tank, blowing the turret right off. You and her both join as one, souls screaming from the sheer ecstasy. As the elation wears off, she lies next to you. Too exhausted to do anything else, you simply hold her in your embrace. In that moment, there is no family squabbles, no Nazis, no war. Just you and her, watching the sky turn pink with the setting sun.

You dream of the beautiful face you have found in this place. So soft and sweet.

One day you will both die and your ashes will fly from an aeroplane over the sea. But for now you are young and all you want is lay in the sun, and count every beautiful thing you can see. Love to be in the arms of all you’re keeping here with you.

What a beautiful dream that could flash on the screen in a blink of an eye.

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>>18087151
Suddenly, you awaken from your slumber to the sound of a bloodcurdling scream. You open your eyes to darkness, it takes a split second for your vision to readjust. You feel lonely and cold. Another shriek knocks you back into reality. Anne sitting next to you, clutching her belly, face contorted from pain. A foul smelling fluid lies pooled on the floor around her mid-section. Your hot dirty fuckfest has brought on labor. she cries your name, begging for help, begging for you. The noise. She’s louder than a line of Louisiana Tigers giving the Rebel Yell right now. You raise your finger to your lips to tell her to be quiet. But the agony is too much for her to bear. You’ve got to do something or else it will awaken the entire neighborhood and with it, the Nazis. Suddenly you remember the bulge in your pants. You’ve got morning wood. It’s not the best gag, but it will have to do. You stand up, squat like a slav, using her belly as an impromptu stool, grab your still cum-crusted cock, and shove it right inside her mouth. At first, she tries to scream even louder in surprise, but your circumcised 100% Kosher dong blocks her windpipe, reducing her screams to a barely audible gurgle. Suffering from unbearable pain, she bites down on her your meat with each contraction. Now you’e in pain too. With each contraction, she bites down harder, it feels like she’s gonna tear your cock right off. Eventually, the pain subsides for her and she doesn’t bite down as much. Now it seems almost as if she’s starting to enjoy it. You can feel your child kick on your testicles. Clearly it’s excited too. Suddenly, your cock starts to shake like a V-2 again, you pull it out of her mouth just in time. You bust your steaming hot and sticky load, blanketing her like an incendiary carpetbombing of Dresden. Semen stains her mountaintops (all three of them), along with her hair and most of her face. She quietly giggles from the ironic amusement of it all. You giggle too.

>>18087160
Then a look of sharp pain shoot across her face. She’s having your baby. You wish you could bear all the pain for her, but all you can do is sit and watch. You look down at her vulva, still oozing with cum from that great fucking you gave her a few hours ago. You can see a head of black hair poking out. You fear that she’s gonna start screaming again, much to your relief, it seems that she’s gotten better control of the pain, thanks to you. She begins to softly moan, it seems as if instead of experiencing excruciating agony, she’s experiencing an orgasm. You can’t help but grin as she keeps pushing. As more of the head becomes visible, her moaning intensifies. Finally a small head emerges from her vagina. You can see a face wrapped in an umbilical cord. A small pair of hands grab the head, she weakly tries to pull the head out. You put your hands around the head and begin to help her pull. Desperately, she goes into the next contraction with all of her energy, and pushed with everything inside of her. She feels everything. She feels shoulders and hips and feet all slide down inside of her and pop out in one long push, with a rush of fluid behind it, and it feels amazing. She throws her head back with a rip-roaring orgasm that penetrates the very heart of her soul.

>>18087166

You look at the newborn now lying on the floor and see that it is a boy. You have a son. Perfect, perfect in every way. He begins to stir and you realize he’s about to cry. After all that’s happened, you don’t to given away to the Germans from the wails of a newborn. You gently lift him up and place him on Anne’s semen stained mountaintops. The baby quickly finds the breast is soon sucking happily. Semen, blood, amniotic fluid, breastmilk all mix and fill the air with a strange scent that while repulsive, is also extremely arousing. You can’t resist the urge anymore. Your mouth land on top of Anne’s opposite breast, sucking first your own cum, but then her tasty milk. You look into her eyes, she’s somewhat annoyed, but too exhaust to really care. A gust of wind coming from a hole in the wall blows through, cooling both of your sweat-drenched bodies, but also disturbing the little one. You’re afraid he’ll start shivering. You look around the dusty attic for something to keep the baby warm. You settle on Anne’s fur winter jacket, having sat unused for the past two years. You know Anne will definitely not be happy that you ruined her favorite coat, but it’s for the best. She hasn’t been able to fit in it for the past nine months anyway. You carefully wrap your little one in the coat and hand him to an exhausted Anne, she continues to quietly feed him. You notice the dead silence for the first time, not even the other occupants of the Annex, mere feet away in the next room, were roused. You feel a sense of relief. You’re safe, for the moment at least. Eventually you curl up next to her quietly and begin to doze off. Your secret sleeps in winter clothes. Tomorrow, you can find a way to explain the night’s events to your parents and hope they don’t kill each other. You can somehow find a way to get your little bundle of joy to safety. But tonight, you just rest, your first night as a family.

>>18087069
Yo, are you a fellow anon from the big sleep threads on /x/?

The story I was publishing on a local magazine got cancelled for "being too introspective and dramatic". At least they asked me to write something else. One-shots this time, and focused on humour because "the reader doesn't want to be sad". I need ideas now.

>>18087151
>>18087160
>>18087166
>>18087170
>StaTE rIGhTs To WHat?
>Stat rights to love and protect, for the beauty of the Jewish woman must not perish from the Earth

>be Indian
>country goes through the largest fucking surge in a single day
>all because millions of retards couldn't help themselves from going to a festival without masks
>many more who constantly partied or went out without masks last few months are also the coof
If I survive this shit, I'm leaving this country for good.

>>18087173
Can't you put the two things together, like a dude who knows he have a couple of years to live because of an illness and seeks to fully live the time left and laugh with his friend and eventually falls in love but oh my god I have to die. Then you can put here introspection and sadness but eventually he accepts his fate remembering the funny moments he lived, a complete life.

>>18087227
That's actually a good idea. Get the standard anon who has never left his room, give him cancer or something and now he wants to compensate for the time lost. It would be funny to see him getting stoned and hiring hookers.

>>18086039
Hard to say without more context and knowledge about your personality and history, but I can make a shot.

You were thinking of death and then dreamt of death - yet in this dream you are sort of buried. The part about being put in a metal box, I take it as you being buried, dead, life finite.

The naked part and the element about breast cancer are also rather telling. It's about vulnerability, or if you like, being seen by others the way you truly are. And the breast cancer part is a reflection of the female.

You've also given an impression of being afraid of others, while also having a conscious aversion towards females. Given these minor details, I can try to give a conclusion of the dreams meaning. You may agree, you may disagree. Again, hard to say if I'm right since I don't know a lot about you.

My conclusion is this: your unconscious are telling you that something is missing. This was brought up by your conscious attitude towards death. Now, the unconscious is trying to fix it. It is telling you that you need the female. You need to integrate the female with your personality. You need to open up, find yourself a companion, and be naked before them. Not just in the physical sense, but in the emotional state. Opening yourself up. Your unconscious is telling you that this will remedy the faults with your current personality and make you whole again. If you don't, the dream is telling you a part of your potential/personality/life is going to die with you, even if you continue living.

>>18087198
Oftentimes I think back to how the plantation owners, being the major sociomonetary force of the South, fucked over their homelands bid for nationhood by only being cash croppers and refusing to invest in industrial capacity because you couldnt use slave labor in a factory, thus dooming the Confederate military to be defeated by the Unions output capacity, and that this is the other, unspoken, major reason why slavery was an atrocity.
Also post the more gruesome version.

>>18086247
life is blissful
i also started lifting for white horse summer

>>18084349
>>18087268
Hormse

God how I wish she would respond to my messages. Why do people ghost? I don't even know what I did wrong. She could have at least sent a final goodbye message instead of pretending that I don't exist.

>>18086175
I would say that the dream represents this: both a warning and also a hope of potential. It is warning you about regressing, about going back in time, about dreaming of the distant past that can never be attained. A warning about being overly reliant on a parent. You realized it consciously, and now here the unconscious is telling you through the dream that this conclusion is correct.

It's also a dream of hope. About what could be. Corona and isolation has affected you badly. Here the dream is telling you that to regress is not the way forward. Friendship is possible. Isolation can be over. You can once more have that joyous feeling you had in Japan.

Personality wise, I would say you should work on your extraversion to be more open to meeting new people. Your unconscious is telling you to seek out friendship to make your being whole again.

Just my thoughts, hard to say if it fits unless I talk to you extensively.

>>18087296
my reading spot.

>>18087304
This happens to me both with girls and guys. I only want to socialize in times of pandemics but normies are lame

>>18084127
behead vtubers and their simpathizers

>>18086779
I’m not arguing for or against but it seems to be absurd to demand natural evidence for supernatural events.

>>18087348
She wasn't a normie unfortunately. That is why I'm sad about it.

>>18087325
You truly are a warm light in this cold world, Anon.

>>18087325
That's gross. Horses are filthy animals.

>>18087379
farmpilling the miserable one horse post at a time.
>>18087383
spotted the seething city dweller

>>18087259
Interesting, i've always felt like something was missing for the most of my life but i couldnt say what it is. Not going to lie, being vulnerable in an emotional way is something i've been trying to avoid all my life. I'm just too sensitive of a person that even the slightest judgement can completely crush the spirit.
>integrate the female with your personality
ah yes, i'm familiar with anima (atleast concept wise) but "she" doesnt show to me ever. I tried approaching from lucid dreaming angle but i cannot get past the sleep paralysis no matter what.
Also thanks for taking your time interpreting this strange dream.

>>18087383
This is either bait or you never read Gulliver's Travels

>>18087304
i really want to go ghost this chick that keeps texting me these mind numbing liberal takes straight from cnn, but she's a coworker so i feel obliged to congenially reply.

>>18087377
The quirky ones often feel more entitled to attention than normies, like "look at me I'm a rare gamer girl who watches anime".
God so many anime thots in my Instagram explore section, like tears in rain

>>18087106
It is very good at generating grim images, I'm almost certain its been trained on dead people at some point
>>18087172
Yeah I pop in to lurk those threads, very cool stuff, it's interesting to see the recurring themes generated

I've started to think that not having children is the ultimate act of egoism. To not have children is to not contribute to making the world a better place. It is akin to saying 'all that matters is me, here and now'. Giving your kids a good upbringing, with love and safety, is you passing on the good karma, the good grace, that you receive from those who sacrificed to bring you into this world. To pass this kindness on will eventually make the world a better place. Having kids is not egoistic, as modern climate extremists would say, but a benefit for all of mankind. Virtue begets virtue.

>>18087471
this looks beautiful. can you geberate something horse-related? i'm a boomer with tech and my laptop is really old
i love playing with ai text generators though

>>18087497
>To not have children is to not contribute to making the world a better place.
anon, this is false and you know it. there are many ways to make the world better and raising new members of society is just one of them.
you can tutor and protect other people, children or adults, you can create pieces of art that will illuminate the lives of many generations to come, you can serve the people that already exist - or even the animals or nature, that cannot stand for their own justice.
some people will make great parents. some just aren't built for family or parenting but have their own great virtues. let each do his own good deed.

you have been visited by the goldpilled horse of divine Light

>>18087497
Despite advocating the mass sterilization of half of third worlders I see your point.
It's better to have 10 kids who will work to keep stuff going smoothly and the oceans clean than let the subhuman overbreed the virtuous.

>>18087499
Sure thing, hopefully google will be so kind as to give me a speedy gpu, I'll leave it to run and post the results in a couple hours or so. Hope your horses are doing well anon, always nice to see pictures of them in these threads

>>18087459
She was a genuinely /lit/ woman sending me effortposts every night, then it all fell apart.

>>18087622
How did you reply to her?

I'm having a hard time grasping "prakrti", but I am really enjoying trying. Guenon grew a lot as a writer between intro to hinduism and man and his becoming: the latter is a lot harder but it is also way better, hard to put down, read until I couldn't understand anything anymore. It's one of those books where you know something big is going on and you think you spot it every once in a while, but you just read on hoping it will all materialise eventually. The kind of book you re-read. But it is good, and prakrti, gunas and manifestation and how they come together and how they are aspects of Brahma: these are not easy to grasp.

>>18087537
>only half

i believe in retaining maximum human biodiversity while reducing the population as much as possible. a lot of han chinese will be euthanized under my rule

Anyone have advice on coping with BPD family members or partners? Is there any way to make myself remember that it's a bottomless black hole of irrationality and you can never "convince" them of anything?

Why do I always revert to trying to break through? Why can't I just remember when it's happening that there's nothing to do except leave.

>>18087755
yeah my mom is like that. i swear off visiting her, but then like a week or two later, i think oh i 'll just stop by for lunch. then hours later i leave demoralized like "never again". she's done so much passive aggressive shit to keep me miserable like offering to pay for me to get another degree but only if i major in art, so i can be a failed artist like her. of course i did it, but why can't i have parents that say "we'll only pay for school if it's a sensible degree like accounting".

Boss and job make me seriously want to kill myself. This place makes me feel like I’m fucking dying anyway.

>>18087755
If they’re parents, I think you unfortunately have to go with the flow or just resign to not being near them. I’ve realized that they’re never going to change after several decades of being one day and certainly not because their child is the one that got them to change. Maybe that’s part of the condition too.

>>18087700
Obviously I engaged too. It's more complicated than that. I was developing feelings for her, so I decided we should stop (her suggestion). Then I regretted and came back but now she doesn't respond. I feel very bad though, I just want to talk about books and stuff with her again.

>>18087308
Thanks for your input. Maybe it is as you say and maybe not completely. I definitely agree with the first and second part of what you said. It wasn't until 2018 or 2019 that I stopped the habit of ruminating the past. It messed me up a lot of times because I always imagined what could've been when I should've thought of what I could have done next. At the same time, while my concious and unconscious knows over reliance on parents is a bad idea, I think the fear sets my dreams to go back in time when I didn't have to worry about jobs and life. And regret wishes I could've done more.

But like you said, I am actually kind of hopeful. I've tried to be more hopeful and more determined in my life. Going through the shit I've been through I realised I can't always help the situation I'm in but it would be worse if I didn't at least try.

I'm usually more introverted in nature unless the social setting calls for me to be more extroverted. I have no issues meeting new people. I guess after my college experience I became more jaded towards people, I know they don't represent everyone but having to deal with people who tend to be stuck up yet demanding became an exhaustive aspect of my life that I didn't want any part of anymore. I might be idealistic in saying this but I'd rather meet people as they come by.

>>18086675
That sucks anon, here's hoping you do make it when this whole rona calms down.

>>18087499
>>18087592
Here's the AI generated horses. It has a pretty terrible grasp of what a horse's face looks like no matter what you tell it, but it can manage the general idea alright
Top left: horse in the style of van gogh
Bottom left: horse in the classical style
Bottom right: horse in the neoclassical style
Top right: horse in the style of rembrandt

I'm glad /lit/ memed me into reading "Stoner." Thank you, /lit/.

IRREGARDLESS

rape

>>18084127
Coming to the end of uni I feel absolutely nothing but rootlessness. My friends, family and love life has never felt more like it's drifting away and losing it's meaning. I can barely focus on my dissertation because it feels like finishing it would finally free of the shore. I really have no idea what I'm going to do or who's gonna come along for the ride.

>>18088308
I've come to realize in my 29 years on this earth that a given time, place, circle of friends, lasts about 4 years. Every time you think it'll last forever and it will be different this time, but it always changes and you are once again extremely alone and have to rebuild.

>>18088337
they say people in your life are seasons and everything that happens is for a reason

>>18084245
You need prozac and cognitive behavior therapy. Talk to your primary care provider.

>>18087537
>Despite advocating the mass sterilization of half of third worlders
You should become a philanthropist and encourage 3rd world countries to help women become educated as it's highly correlated with decreased birth rates.

>>18084127
FUUUUUUUCK literally 80% of the editorial/ associate editor positions which pay 30k-50k/year require fucking YEARS of experience. How the fuck do I get a job with my lit degree if more than half the shitty paying jobs require "at least 3 years of experience in a similar environment" for fucks sake? Boomers did this fuck you boomers now I have no choice I have to go to law school I'm never going to make it.

I'm actively trying to get the first book in my big sci-fi series published. In the past, I have tried to get a fantasy book series published, and I met with nothing but failure. I queried dozens of agents. Only two of them ever asked to see a few pages of it after I queried, and only one of them ever asked to see the whole thing. And THEN she rejected me.

I really hope I'm more successful this time around. The fantasy story was relatively minor in scope compared to this sci-fi story. This sci-fi story has been rolling around my head since I was in high school, more than ten years ago. It's grown and developed slowly and surely, like a pearl growing inside an oyster. I think it is pretty good and I would love to share it with the world.

>>18088521
>Spend the next 4 years in law school
>Get replaced by a robot

>>18088521
Fuck em, just lie. Get a burner phone, give it to your friend or use a voice changer, use that as your reference. Make a fake website if you want to go the extra mile

>>18084127
Why should something be *on* my mind and not *in* my mind? Is English inherently retarded?

>>18088595
doesn't work with background checks

>>18088585
Law school is 3 years and pretty cheap and the legal field in my country is still good whereas in the US to my understanding it is very over saturated.

Ptak, który nie był ptakiem, wylądował na parapecie papieskiego okna, na placu świętego Piotra w Rzymie, w samo południe, kilka chwil po tym jak zaczęła się modlitwa Anioł Pański. Papież nawet na niego nie spojrzał. Tak bardzo pogrążony był w modlitwie, którą wygłaszał po raz n-setny, że chyba tylko start odrzutowca mógłby go wytrącić z tego transu. Albo kardynał, który go właśnie tak mocno uszczypnął w ramię, że Ojciec Święty aż się wzdrygnął.
-Co, o co chodzi?
Wtem zobaczył przed sobą czarnego jak węgiel kruka, który wpatrywał się w niego takim wzrokiem, jakby rozumiał znacznie więcej niż to, co Stwórca przewidział dla jego gatunku. Papież machnął ręką, ale ptak niespecjalnie się tym przejął. Powtórzył gest, tym razem bardziej zdecydowanie. Znowu nic. Na placu zamarła cisza.

piszę po polsku, bo chcę powiedzieć to co myślę, a myślę zawsze po polsku

>>18088794
>Ptak
is this klingon?

>>18088818
close, polish.

>>18088603
Well I just typed out like 3 different definitions and discussion of them and I realized they were wrong when I typed them up.

>You know what's been on my mind? Frogs.
>In my mind I knew he hated frogs.

On your mind is temporal in nature and an active thought or idea about something that has been repetitiously thought about. In your mind is more an amalgamation of conscious and subconscious thought coming to some sort of conclusion.

>>18088109
i dig that. the first horse is what i see on shrooms
i like tripping at the stables, horses love when you just stand theur in the dead of the night playing with them

I suspect some neighbor is using my wifi. it gets slower sometimes and I feel I'm paying more than I should be, it has spiked. I think I'm still using the generic pre-rendered password. I gotta figure out how to change it.

>>18088908
You can check connected devices if you go to the router's settings. It's usually on the url 192.168.0.1, but you can find it written under your router if that didn't work.

>>18086779
Catholics already debunk miracles more than most Christians. They have devil's advocates whose entire job is to say "science says this isn't a miracle". Most of the things that get submitted to the office get written off as hysteria.
That's not easily apparent though from the outside, because they still allow cults. Cults in Catholicism are local beliefs which aren't right but also aren't harmful. If the locals refuse to listen to the scientist telling them the statue isn't really bleeding or moving and it's a trick of the light or terracotta getting wet and "bleeding" but they also aren't doing anything which harms the Church, they might get cult status. That means it's not something they should be excommunicated over, but it's not something the Church condones. There are plenty of them kicking about, so you can still believe in Saint Christopher helping you get home without being a heretic even though the Church says Christopher never existed, and so on.

>>18088844
Very clear, thank you and checked

>>18087325
Is her fetlock okay? Is that called fetlock in English? (Like the ankle, but on horses.)

>>18084349
I miss living on the farm so much, naturally getting up before dawn, going outside to play with animals. Living in the city is so depressing, now I get up at 12pm and never go outside because there's no point.

>>18089058
I live in the city now too and I genuinely want to kill myself everyday. The only peace and solace I have is when I go for walks in the park on rainy days.

>>18088387
I'm getting both of them already, and have been on them for years. I'm struggling because it's been years since I've felt truly inspired as a writer and this book has dragged on so long that I've run out of gas at the finish line

I’m so fucking tired all the time

>>18089058
>>18089075
I live in noweresville and it’s pretty miserable here too so. At least there’s people to observe in the city. I’ve wasted my whole life in town.

something is wrong.

TikTokers and YouTubers are the new young artists, aren’t they...?

I want to write something sad and destructive but I fear that if I actually put it into words it will put a curse on me so instead I write this.

I saw two trees split right down the middle today. The branches were splayed out and peeled back like a really big flower on the ground.

A friendly looking dog wandered out from nowhere and stared at me while I walked to my car.

I got a little booboo on the back of my right calf from a thorn.

Strange omens.

>Madness, mayhem, erotic vandalism, devastation of innumerable souls - while we scream and perish, History licks a finger and turns the page.
Ligotti

I'm afraid that my life will never be this nice again. Lots of free time, last year of uni, living at home at the moment. There are almost no short term things I have to worry about. I'm just lounging around all day, watching films, reading books and taking walks.

>>18089616
Oh just wait for retirement

>>18089616
You're probably right lol

Alright, I’ve finally assembled all of the stuff and wrote up all the structure I want to use to begin writing my next novella, wish me luck lads.

>>18089496
The dog is the one who split the trees. You are right to fear his power.

>>18089697
Good luck.
But I do not wish to condone your use of a trip.

>>18087806
Jobs suck

>>18089697
I have really high hopes mate.
But please try to give a 4chan web flavor mixed with your occult mastery.
Good luck.

>>18089912
Never tried a 4chan web flavor, contemporary settings and flavor just feels too phony when I write it. Thanks though!

>>18089789
You to!

>>18089965
>It is going to another 18th century protestant larp
For fuck sake, frater

All I have are my English finals left and I really dont feel like doing them. If I simple don’t do it then I will be left with a B but I have an A right now. I really don’t feel like it and I’m perfectly fine with a B

>>18089983
Kek, actually it’s gonna hop around a bunch of settings with the first part being a guy thinking about how much he likes the look of a rusted underpass. Gonna try to use different styles as the scenery/nights change.

>>18089965
Please use proper British English and not American English in your book otherwise it won't be a success.
>>18090009
Don't. Grind it out. Trust me. Your life plans could drastically change and if you would like to go to law school or graduate school in the future. Or even switch entire fields and upgrade your coursework to go to dental/med school those A's will be a necessity. Do not settle for a B. Don't be a lazy fuck.

>>18090027
I don’t write to publish so it’s fine, purely for the sake of my own coomsooming and sharing with friends and you guys.

You think people prefer the British English ?

>>18090026
>thinking about how much he likes the look of a rusted underpass
Kino.

>>18090042
I don't think so. I know so.

At what age should someone be ashamed at being a NEET and living with parents?

>>18090009
I don’t know how old you are but you should stay in school until you’re at least 24, before dropping out at the last moment, and preferably transferring at least once in that time so plan accordingly.

Someday I hope to find the nuggets on a chicken.

>>18090170
If you have nothing going on in your life, no prospects, then 18. If you’re trying to do some art then 25. If you’re going to university or have a job and you stay for financial reasons then there is no need to be ashamed at any age.

Holy shit, Internet is really as addictive as any drug, isn't? I just saw that I spended SIX FUCKING HOURS on my phone today. Fuck. That's a lot and I didn't even noticed. Maybe because I was without a phone over the last two weeks. Idk. I just need to spend less time online. Tomorrow I will try to cut it down to three hours.

I should be at the peak of my life, but right when I was over the anxiety and depression that had been prevented me from truly blossoming into who I am, I have fallen into a spiral of hypochondria at age 26. It was a long time coming.

My left eye has retinal holes that have since healed, but I now have a permanent black spot in my central vision. It moves with my eye and looks like a semicolon. Another barrier between my mind and the world, as if my own psychical body was punishing me. But I will press on because succumbing to my mind again (and now these physical ailments) would definitely cause me suicidal regret decades from now. I will not be crippled again.

Constant, hyper-subjective self-maintenance is a symptom of an idle mind that's not present. I can learn from this and let it be a reminder, that every time I succumb to these thoughts and focus on these black specks in my eye, I am falling into my old ways. And I refuse to do it any longer.

>>18090187
Trying to do art but I’m 27. I’ve been on my own and working for like 10 years until now.

I have a certain aesthetic in mind for a novel I want to write, but I don’t really know how to flesh it out and it’s not the kind of story I’m really hyped to write. It’s something I would like to read but I don’t know if I want to write it.

>>18089616
Same here man. I feel like I'm missing out and like I've been wasting my life by doing the same old shit for the last year. But I'll be starting grad school this fall so I know that'll change. When the world is more "normal" and I'm busy with school, work, and life in general I'll miss these days. That's finally dawned on me. The sooner you realize the grass is always greener on the other side the easier it is to enjoy what you have now.

I haven't left my house since my university switched to online learning last year because of the pandemic. Recently my dreams have stopped being of fantastical yet vaguely familiar circumstances, and have instead been replaced with a terrible mundanity.
This morning, I dreamt that I had woken up from bed, and it was only when I was preparing my breakfast that I realized my body felt warm, and that I was still asleep. Then I thought I had woken up, before noticing the familiar warmth of my bedsheets while sitting on the toilet. After this, I woke up again, and this time immediately threw my bedsheets onto the floor. The air was cold, and my body was cold, which was my only indicator that I was actually awake, and not just dreaming that I was awake.

>>18089616
Lol I wish I spent my pandemic time like this. Instead, my mental health deteriorated.

I'm probably going to suffer next year, just like I did this year. I miss being a kid and hanging out with my friends.

>>18090380
i find as i age i'm able to look at my current situation with nostalgia. even tho a ton of shit isn't great right now, when i think back about this time, i'm just going to remember the comfy stuff, so why not appreciate being in the moment now?

>>18084127
I am truly envious of the creator. None of these thoughts or feelings I am feeling right now are mine and mine alone. It's like playing a really boring game, I don't want that. I want to create a game myself

My first romantic relationship ended in flames. For a long while I thought myself a romantic, perhaps niavely so. But, all that was awoken in me was a burning, wolven hunger for physicality, and the want for her to adore me. Though we never did fuck, I ended things after realizing to which degree I had been a narccisstic, emotional black hole, and felt it was the only thing I could do not to hurt her further.
Though it will have been a year since in a few months, I no longer feel certain that I deserve or can give that soft, warm love which is gentle and kind, nor to harbor romantic sentiment for anyone again. I fear growing close to another woman.
Tonight will be one of those nights.

>>18084127
I am incapable of happiness.

>>18089697
Goodluck Frater

>>18089697
Godspeed, friend.

>>18084127
I need help. Serious mental health help. And without it I am going to die soon at my own hands. There is nowhere in my state I can check myself in if I'm not "a criminal." And the other places would bankrupt me and my family. I just need somewhere to heal for a few weeks, but if I don't have a job I'll starve. I just want some fucking help with these things I can't deal with on my own. Where the fuck do I go?

>>18090607
Where do you live? Why do you believe you need urgent mental health assistance? Suicidal ideation? Hallucinations?

>>18090607
go to your school's mental health counselor

I somehow got into one of those e-relationships on Discord and now I'm starting to freak out. We traded so many nudes and I have her face and she has a pic of my face. And she confessed that she was in love with me only after four days of talking. I don't know what to do. She is really overwhelming. This is the first time I've ever done any of this crap as well so I don't know if it's normal or what I should do or if it really means anything. If I ghosted her she would probably post everything I've sent her as revenge? I fucked up. Is this stuff real or is it just a larp? I dunno what to do. She sends really long paragraphs about how she needs me and that I'm special to her and that she nearly always cries when we stop talking. Please help.

>>18090611
>where
I'm in Kentucky
>Suicidal ideation? Hallucinations?
Yes. And honestly I don't even fucking know anymore. I don't know if they're hallucinations, or just super vivid fantasies about how I wish things would happen. I have moments of clarity, I think, but for the most part it's just all bad, and I'm the one that fucked it up. And I just keep getting worse. Every time I think I'm doing okay for a day, I wake up the next day and the thoughts and images in my head won't stop, they just keep nagging at me, visions of how things used to be, how I fucked up, then like a solid hour where I just completely lose myself and any sense of where I am. I'll just stare at my work and be in a completely different place, then wake up and start crying, looking down at my desk hoping no one noticed.
>>18090618
I'm this pathetic in my mid 30s. There is no school, and no counselor, just a boss that tries to ignore the fact that I've been crying most of the day, and am working way too slow.

>>18084127
Based anime op

>>18090641
Understood, given the sense of urgency and the fact there is a pandemic right now I would recommend teleheath. Go here and enter your city/area code https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

Or alternatively you can connect with a trained therapist right away here https://www.betterhelp.com/

You need a professional to help you through this don't settle for anything less and you definitely don't need to suffer alone. Take care hope you feel better soon.

HOW DO I GET GIRLS TO SEX WITH ME!?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

>>18090641
>>18090665
He can also try the SAMHSA helpline. It’s totally free and they can help point him in the right direction at least.
https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

>>18090641
lol i got triggered like that today, not that bad of a reaction, but i was trying to take pics for linkedin and idk i bounced some of them off this chick i know, and the only one she thought was ok was the lamest one i thought, i looked like some doe eyed kid out of a caravaggio while all the other ones looked like some aging tech bro guy which i thought would be better idk man the whole thing triggered me all day and i didn't use any of them, now i'm just in a weird mood and i already know i won't do anything productive tonight

>>18090678
Self love. Confidence. Good health. Goals and determination.
Good idea to gather friends. Some of them may know a girl for you, or their wives may know. Something like that

>>18090665
>https://www.betterhelp.com/
>answer all that shit
>NOW SIGN UP FOR AN ACCOUNT
Yeah, no, the paranoia is going to have to put a stop to that. Thank you for trying to help though.

>>18088603
the "on" means that it is acting towards rather than residing within, implying externality and distinction between thinker and thought. consider the saying that something "weighs on your mind" - this makes no sense if it is already within your mind

I want to suck on titties so badly.

>>18090735
Ok then go for the psychology today option. Just find a local therapist and contact them directly by phone. You won't need to hand over all that info just your number and name. Good luck to you friend. I have a brother with severe mental illness and it is not something I wish on anyone. Get well soon.

>>18089438
Must be. Otherwise, I don’t know who these artists are or where the hell they are...?

>>18090762
I am 25 and I sincerely do not understand TikTok or why and how people love it so much. It is mind numbing. How god damn stupid society has become. I am bitter. I do not know why this was in my news feed but this is a prime example of the cultural decay I am talking about https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1mG1P1iAnMg

Apparently the answer to your mid life crisis is making stupid TikTok videos for zoomers. I sincerely wish I was never born. Witnessing this rot sickens me.

>>18090802
Ur just bitter, I use tiktok and only see like schizophrenics and day laborers and desperate milfs its an incredible portrait of society lol

>>18090820
>its an incredible portrait of society lol
Yes and daily reminder TikTok is from China and harvests your data for nefarious purposes. They have already targeted Western consumer biometric data too.

>>18090820
>its an incredible portrait of society lol
wow, i bet that looks beautiful

>>18090802
I’m 28 and I have no social media whatsoever. I don’t understand TikTok at all but I can recognize that the kids on there are the only ones actually doing anything. All other arenas of art have been pushed into progressive pop street art and not of the kind that elevates pop art to high art or else a sad excuse for the avant-garde that is mostly a wank off fest for a small circle of academics and snobs full of themselves. It’s precisely in the fact that neither you nor I “get” the TikTokers that seems to me to suggest that they are, in fact, modern artists. It’s a form of performance art taken to the point of almost playing a role, as if one’s life and social standing were a play. And no, I’m not talking about the dance moms, who no doubt will kill the medium same as they kill all the mediums they touch. I’m talking about the eboys and egirls and the kids doing dance performances in the streets of Shanghai.
https://youtu.be/_OCBkZRwzUk
You know, I suppose it’s not really art. It is just social media but then where are all the actual artists and really, what are they doing? My hunch is they’re on TikTok...or here...

>>18090841
look upon your work....

>>18090850
I think it honestly depends on what you consider to be performance art.

>>18090859
You all know the rules.
Rolling

>>18090873
Oh no....oh no....nononononononononono DO NOT

>>18090870
Isn’t just about everything performance art these days? NEETing is, in its own way, performance art.

I want to be skinny. Not like it matters at this point anyway. I spent my whole adolescences overweight already.

>>18090901
I honestly believe it's a manifestation of collective narcissism

>>18090639
Go outside king, walk it off

I feel like I am going to die if I dont get some form of catharsis that isnt violence soon.

>>18090639
You got into a relationship with someone with insecure attachment. She is needy, emotional, and probably unstable (my guess is personality disorder maybe BPD). You haven't seen her "worst" yet. Sorry bro tough spot to be in.

oh shit, shock g died!

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBsjggc5jHM

>>18090922
It could be but does that change anything?

>>18090981
Just makes me lose hope in society further

>>18090987
Maybe you should get on TikTok and express your profound disappointment via dance routines. Personally, I admire their optimism (or their ability to hide their disappointment). You and I can commiserate on the anonymous Tartar haka dance board but guess what? The TikTokers are going to dance all the way to the grave or to the future.
https://youtu.be/T_6-ojWRRfE

>>18090970
Any advice? I don't mind her. But it is beyond emotionally draining. Especially for me. Should I just be honest or would that make it worse?

>>18090657
Anti-anime schizo is seething and probably waiting to make the next thread as we speak. I take no sides I just enjoy the battle.

Moby Dick always appeared at #1 on the top 100 /lit/ charts the last few years but for some reason I rarely see a single thread about it. It's odd.
Anyone here who read it and understands why it's supposed to be a masterpiece?

>>18091190
Look up the Hubert Dreyfus and Sean D Kelly lectures on Moby Dick. They’re kind of meme professors/lectures but it’s not bad. Basically, Moby Dick is a canonical work on par with Dante’s Divine Comedy when taken under a certain set of considerations, but those are far too detailed and complex to really get into here.

>>18091086
when i get stuck with someone like that i will respond if they contact me, but i stop initiating. eventually they will get bored and find some other dude, and think it was their idea to move on.

>>18091212
Okay, thanks.

>>18091190
Kinda hard to explain despite reading it but I really enjoyed Melville's whaling autism and how that said 'obsession' plays a part in Cpt. Ahab's quest for revenge.

I want something to fucking happen again in the West. COVID counts, but it feels like it hasn't changed things enough. Fuck, it almost feels like the current system is desperately trying to maintain normalcy and now there's just normalcy on steroids. Things felt less normal when Trump was in power.

This is why I'm so excited at the reports of coup warnings from the Spanish military and the French military. And of Russia threatening invasion of Ukraine. I'm ready for war and for governments to be toppled. I'm ready for the current order of things in the West to be broken, and not fixed. I'm ready for a new state of affairs in the Western world. I'm ready for shit to hit the fan, because right now it feels like the shit's just piling up around our ankles and waists.

>>18084127
>tfw it’s another one of those nights where you can’t sleep and all you can think about is why she left and wondering if she ever loved you at all

It’s just so tiresome man, wish these thoughts would just leave me alone

>Its another 'fight off the urge to flagellate yourself out of volatile loathing' night

>>18090723
>have neither of those
oh well, maybe in next life

I just edged for hours at the sight of my own naked body, and the thought of a strong, young and vigorous body, both inflicting me pain and taming me, and then being dominated by me.
My body, on the other hand, is weak, skinny, and pathetic, watching it, for some reason, causes me both arousal and disgust, as if there was a part of me that aspires towards beauty, and another one that rejoices itself in weakness and femeninity.
I'm so pathetic in this moment.

>>18087304
You probably did nothing 'wrong'. She just lost interest for whatever reason. Could be a range of things, might be you but it might not be. It's shit behaviour and I wish people were more mature, but it happens, often for no great reason, so I wouldn't take it personally as weird as it sounds.

>>18091421
Mature in what way?
>Oh anon, i dont find you interesting anymore and im moving to other more entertaining guy.

Realized I got molested recently.
Suddenly being hypersexual and disgusted at myself simultaneaously makes sense.

>>18091365
agp

>>18090639
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder
If you decide to pump and dump this bitch don't let her find out where you live

I've never understood how some people have such a strong interest in meditation. Sometimes I sit and do nothing, sure, that can be a good thing to help you calm down, or become clear-headed, etc. but it seems like some people believe it gives you superpowers.

>>18091190
If I had made this chart, I'd swap 1984 and brave new world. Also I'd get Harry Potter out of there. Mein Kampf isn't really a good book, but it's an invaluable historical resource. I guess it's here for the meme which I can respect.

>>18091598
>Sometimes I sit and do nothing
That is almost the opposite of mediation. Intense concentration, either on self-observation, or focus on an object of meditation (external, interntal, breath, mantra).
Chilling and zoning out would be considered a failure, and it isn't unusual to feel almost a tiredness or fatigue after mediating, especially when you are first starting to learn.

I have an unhealthy obsession with this girl I met through the internet who got depressed and deleted all of her accounts. Every time I see or hear anything I associate with her I get pulled back to one of the many late night conversations we had. Maybe I should write a poem about it, but I also feel really guilty and creepy about it.

>>18091229
>This is why I'm so excited at the reports of coup warnings from the Spanish military
I live in Spain and I have not heard anything about that.

>>18091693
I've heard of multiple different types of meditation. Either way I don't have much of an interest

Something feels wrong.
Please help.

>>18091800
you're going to have to be more specific than that, anon

>>18091805
My brain feels like its on fire and my veins feel heavy. Everything feels heavy. Im just tired, I will spare you any potential further ramblings.

>>18091229
I got into an argument with an American on reddit yesterday about the Russia-Ukraine thing. I said nothing will happen and Russia moving troops near the border is morally justifiable because of the amount of US military bases surrounding Russia. The next day (as I said nothing will happen) Russian troops were withdrawn from the border.

Covid is the biggest happening that will impact the West people just have not realized it yet. There is no full return to normal, even with a wide arsenal of vaccines and antiviral treatments. The virus will continue to mutate to the point where multiple vaccines will be needed yearly and also they will need to be tweaked yearly to respond to more virulent and dangerous variants. This will have huge implications on freedom of movement and access to education and services because you will require a vaccine passport in order to go to class, the workplace, travel international (and possibly domestic i.e across state lines). I think it is morally justifiable because bug chasing covid deniers are retards brainwashed by CCP propaganda pushed on social media to minimize the severity of the virus. This was a product of gain of function research that either escaped the lab by accident or was purposefully released. Regardless, it is going to cause long term health complications in many people and probably lower the average lifespan by a few years. Also given that the virus can infect other species such as cats, dogs, monkeys, tigers, minks, rats and others it is guaranteed that it will never go away. It can cross species (from mink to human for example). There is also the problem of looming hyperinflation. So far governments have managed to weather the economic storm via stimulus but this creation of money will have severe economic repercussions. Currently the US Federal Reserve is pursuing study on the creation of a blockchain based US digital dollar. See this article https://financialpost.com/news/economy/the-fire-has-been-lit-u-s-federal-reserves-push-for-digital-dollar-worries-wall-street

This may have severe implications on liberty because all purchases will be able to be viewed by the government and you may need to meet certain requirements in order to obtain your funds if you are on unemployment, welfare, or a student applying for a grant. In 20 years your society will probably resemble Oceania from 1984. Maybe that is a stretch but these are all things that contribute to dystopias. Couple that will mass surveillance and facial recognition and you have Orwell's worst nightmare. Good luck.

>>18091819
My head feels full of oil and my body feels as if it is slightly shifted out of this world. Let us be miserable together, anon.

>>18091833
>spanish flu killed from 17 to 100 million people
>also happened after WWI
>current covid coof
>a little over 3 million
I dunno why are you painting everything black, people got over even worse stuff without getting into orwellian dystopias.

>>18091875
I'm covered in ants and my left sock is too tight. Can I join you guys?

>>18091875
Its far better than being miserable alone.
Have you ever had that sensation where you felt like you may throw up and get a phantom taste from it? Its always like water and soil for me.
Have you ever had a song or piece of music that makes you physicaly ill to hear?

>>18091893
Of course, the more the merrier.

>>18091886
You are ignoring the economic, technological, and geopolitical context of the 21st century. You are also quoting the recorded number of deaths. Deaths are not everything and many deaths in countries without proper medical infrastructure such as India and Brazil where the healthcare systems are overwhelmed are not included in the official figure. The death count also does not include the millions that have ongoing long hauler symptoms.

>>18091899
>music that makes you physically ill to hear
For me, it's Mr Brightside.

>>18091918
For me its the Talking Heads, which is a shame. I had to get up after 2 hours of sleep to return some keys I accidentaly pocketed, and Road To Nowhere came on the radio. I dry heaved down the highway with the rising sun after twelve seconds.

>>18091937
"... with the rising sun". Poetic. It truly is a disgusting song. The combo of accordion, sax, and military-esque drum beat, sounds like a fever dream.

Say it again, almost breathlessly I whispered. Knelt down with head slightly bowed I was hesitant before her, her now the same height as me. Her, shirt rippling in the gentle breeze to intimate her slender, tight, small torso, nonexistent breasts and nipples poking just slightly through as the fabric undulated. One thousand years old, she repeated. Though a child's body and a like voice, she had been centuries alive, through experiences I would possibly never fathom. Still I hesitated. Her legs, also slender and tight, stepped toward me as if in offering. Touch me, she said. Touch me everywhere. I want you to touch me. Wherever and however you desire.

Is this explosion going to hurt my eardrums?

>>18091961
There is something to be said of the poetic beauty found in almost absurd suffering.
This Must Be The Place I enjoy, but you are correct. It is a sickening, feverish song that does not bode well.

>>18091937
For me it is ultra-hedonistic club rap. Which is funny because I don't mind party music in principle, and a hate ultra self-aware "conscious" hip hop, but some club rap feels like the denial of anything higher or good, like the idea of a Hylic or P-zombie put into music and weaponized against you to make life feel cheap.

>>18091978
>There is something to be said of the poetic beauty found in almost absurd suffering.
Well said. I think that might be the very essence of British culture.

>>18089032
yes he's fine, got a tendon infection a year ago, wears it to reduce liquid buildup

>>18091937
For me it's the Smiths

>>18091989
An articulate way to put it. Do you think that zone of music will just continue to degrade?

>>18091989
I hate the way hiphop has been going. The current trap trend will die soon and there's plenty of smaller artists to enjoy in the meantime but I just can't listen to the radio anymore.

>>18092011
For me it's the 90s/early 2000s stuff like mobb deep and delinquent habits

>>18090802
The reason is because TikTok’s algorithm is absolutely insane. When you first get the app you’re all like “is this all? really?”, but maybe you keep using it for a bit since some of the videos are funny.

Fast forward a few week and it feels like that app knows you better than you know yourself. Instagram, Facebook, YouTube and Reddit all pale in comparison to TikTok.

I ultimately deleted the app because I recognized that it was too addicting, but I can 100% understand why it is booming right now.

>>18091998
It would certainly explain British humor, at least.
And I can say that there is, too, a kindve nobility in the same circumstance, like the opposite of self pity. Perhaps even the easiest time to love oneself.
I try to think of it that way, when I next must roll down the road like Helios in his chariot, sleep deprived and ill, covered in flecks of watery stomach acid while the musical equivalent of neon plaid peels into the air.

>>18090911
Do it for future you

>>18091713
Why do I still care about her? It's the strangest thing.

>>18091365
i'm ftm and sometimes shamefully jack it to my own feminine features, at the same time admiring the growing muscles, hair, every hardnening part of the body on its way to /fit/ness and glory.
i am my own gf and bf.

>>18092042
Do you ever feel ashamed of it or do you just revel in your strange position. Genuinely curious.

>>18091713
>>18092037
I am in a similar situation anon. I hope she comes back one day.

>>18092005
>Do you think that zone of music will just continue to degrade?
I think for certain that the appetite of the masses will only continue to vulgarize. Popular, top 40, music reflects popular mating habits, so you would do better to look at statistics about dating apps and what not to get a feel for where things are headed lyrically. Songs about sexual prowess and meaningless hookups are nothing new, the trend here is more the continued deemphasis on anything recognizable as romance or pair bonding which used to be a major component of the popmusic scene but is no longer.

However I don't think all music is going to shit, but what gets pushed only gets baser.

>>18092089
That sounds about right. The future of mainstream tastes in general seems very grim, but at least there will always be niches and islands.

>>18092089
>Popular, top 40, music reflects popular mating habits
God damn it, /lit/ keeps shifting my paradigm

someone ought to compile all these "write what's on your mind" threads in one place. I'm sure you could make a scraper that would collect it all from the archives.

Is there any place for optimism in current time? Everyone is pessimistic, sarcastic, ironic, depressed or anxious.

>>18092126
>Is there any place for optimism in current time?
The majority of people are optimistic. You just need to leave the internet. And have look in your neighborhood.

>>18092126
I'm optimistic. Our social problems aren't that bad compared to other times in history, and once we get things sorted out, everything will be great.
Anyway, even if this world goes to shit, there are probably other worlds that have their act together.

Since my teens I’ve all these conflicting feelings and ideias about myself and what I want out of life, plus how to get there, and almost a decade latter I’m as stuck as before, only with the increasing panic of knowing that time is running out.

There’s all this feeling, all this vitality and will that blooms from me on certain occasions, but no direction whatsoever. Maybe that’s just wishful thinking, but I feel like I was given those things for a purpose, and every day living on this conflicting state and knowing I might never fulfil it causes me anguish.

>>18092138
We plan for an increasingly postponed future.
Then we die.

>>18092126
Of course, it just has to start with you, and that means taking on any resultant disappointment or mockery that comes with optimism and sincerity. Which forms a loop of why few are sincere and optimistic anymore.

>>18092132
I seem to see much more optimism related to consumerism and hedonism when it comes to real world. Maybe its just my eastern european dog eat dog world.

>>18092126
Be optimistic. If there isn't a place make one, that is what an optimist would do.

i sleep all day and then i wake up at night and rest

>>18092049
there's the same general shame most people have about sexual likings that are off
but overall, i associate too hard with ancient hermaphrodites and revered oddities to feel like a miserable tranny

>>18092126
this place is the stable

>>18092155
you seem kinda based

>>18092121
no

>>18092160
>young and old cat buddy movie

>>18092126
optimism is for the weak. The strong only need pessimism.

>>18092138
This is going to sound really arbitrary and unhelpful, but pick something and get good at it. One thing kills action is the belief that passion precedes action, when mostly it is the reverse. By doing something, investing time into something, you become passionate about it. However that can be passionately loving or hating, ass in gradually coming to despise or love a job, but when you started you were probably indifferent, or somewhat tempered, just glad to have your foot in the door.
A perfect example of this, and a dirty secret no one likes to talk about, is that as a parent, especially as a father, it isn't uncommon to learn to love your child rather than fall in love the moment you see them. Often they feel like they are simply a burden until they reach some level of maturity, a speaking age, where you can see the person in them they are becoming and you realize how much you love them.

You need to kill that idea that for your actions to be authentic they need to initially come from a place of all most ecstatic, revelatory, passion. Make giving a shit a habit, because so much of your life, what you are doing today, is just doing what you did yesterday because it is what you did yesterday.
If you are willing to experiment, rather than theorize endlessly, and accept gratification may be someway down the line, then your odds of actually becoming satisfied with your self will increase dramatically.

>>18092195
I'll watch a 30-45 minute movie of that.

>>18092197
You seem to have some experience on this.m, did something happen?

>>18092152
Take some night medicine, it helps me sleep at night.

>>18092205
Wouldn't that also fuck you up since you'll need to sleep thereafter?

i love revering oddities

>>18092195
thats my sister's room cat on the left, out for a walk, and a fat outdoor stable cat

>>18092209
You got to weaned yourself out of it. I’ve done it plenty of times to get my sleep schedule on track.

>>18092212
Why?

>>18092214
Do they get along? Do they fight often?

>>18092212
being an exotic outliner is bretty cool
adds an extra layer to life

>>18092218
dunno

>>18092224
How are you in anyway, exotic?

>>18092203
No.

>>18092225
How do you not know, aren't you living there?

>>18092224
I hate it. It singles me out.

>>18092197
Write more please

>>18092226
>>18092042

New thread.
>>18092239

>>18092232
you're pissing me off

>>18092221
they dont fight
if i dont let the beige cat out he will scream and his buddies with hang out the the door

>>18084127
I wish I never dropped out of high school when I was 15. My family situation at the time sucked and I was an edgy dumb kid with no direction and a dysfunctional fucked up home life. If I had a normal upbringing and stable parents I probably would have gone the standard route and attended uni with my friends at 18. I would have majored in math or microbiology. Instead, I ended up going to a shitty community college when I was 19 and taking a part time course load. Eventually transferred to decent university and completed my degree but it took longer than normal because I changed my major to lit last year and also did a minor. I did the best I could given the circumstances yet do not feel happy or satisfied at all. Glad to be done, however, I am not where I want to be in life. I had much different aspirations. Now it's either I go to law school or go do a masters/PhD but I have no desire to go into academia after talking to grad students and former professors, so law school is the more likely option. I sometimes feel like a huge fuck up and hate it. I'm already in my mid 20s and should be done with school. Instead I have another 3 years ahead of me and there is no guarantee I'll even like it or be good at it. And I wish I was born into a different family sometimes. Or even sent off to military boarding school at 14 or something. Anything to get away.

>>18090026
Based

>>18090574
I feel it. I refused three girls because I thought I could not spend my life with them because of lack of compatibility, and that would have meant ending an eventual relationship which would have hurt both more.
I still regrets them and if I could turn back time I would have gone for them. I don't probably it was just fear and self-deception.
How can I start a relationship if I believe it will fail from the start?

>>18090639
>e-relationship

>>18092147
>>18092197

Thank you both for the answers. None of them sounded arbitrary or unhelpful, and I see the wisdom in them. My happiest period during these past few years was when I divided my time between boxing, drawing and photography. I like learning new things; even the bad experiences were more due to the reactions and comments others made about what I was pursuing rather than the thing itself.
Endlessly ruminating in my head just kills any action before it even begins, so it’s really just time to choose something and focus on it.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I hope you are doing well.

>>18090723
>those redhead MILF milkers

>>18092358
>How can I start a relationship if I believe it will fail from the start?
Accept it as a learning experience and enjoy the feeling of being with a girl you like. Enjoy her company, affection, all of that. Having a beautiful woman rest her head on your chest is one of the best feelings in this world believe me. Don't be dissuaded by the possibility of failure over the certainty of bliss.

>>18091229
I really agree with you, but nothing will happen because the people above don't want it to happen.
It's exactly as >>18091833 says
I really hope automation and freedom restrictions will blow up the system but it will take decades to build up the premises of chaos.
But it will happen since no system lasts forever and the more the elite resist change, the more violent it will be the end of the system.

>>18084127
I would kill for a good sushi rn

>>18084127
another anime pedo loli entertainment shill thread for virgin coomers and discoossers.

>>18084231
I quit after 4 years of uni, simply left and started working as telephone operator for marketing research. At least I can buy bread to survive and pay rent.

>>18092724
I worked in a telemarketing firm for 2 weeks and wanted to kill myself by the end of the training session so I quit. Collected my bonus and found a better job. I don't know how you do it man.