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in the National Gallery of Oslo
there is a painting called Soria Moria

People keep saying Communism is making a comeback but it’s mostly just bored and depressed people on twitter LARPing out a revolution. Not sure what people are scared about. Also most of them lie and don’t read any literature at all

>>18031347
This but with Christianity

>>18031347
Communism isn't making a comeback I assure you. The people claiming that are just as ignorant and uninformed about it and what it is as those twitter larpers.

>>18031347
I don’t think full on communism will ever come back but socialist changes are happening slowly. Could go either way if they continue but a lot of young people support it.

90% of days I wake up I feel like complete shit. This feeling usually wears off over the course of the day, but it's not a fun way to start your day

>>18031308
I think I'm becoming a neo-Romantic Existentialist. Love, beauty and aesthetics over productive capital hombres.

i made a terrible mistake and have managed to hurt someone that i love more deeply than ever before. this will haunt for the rest of my life. how do i cope with being a piece of shit ?

I will never do anything worthwile or noteworthy, I'm just another 9-5 office drone taking up space until I die

>>18031530
If it was unintentional you're still on the moral high ground

the last thing i wanted to do was to emotionally destroy a person. it was never my intention but i guess that doesn't matter. i want to kill myself.

>>18031589
>i guess that doesn't matter
It matters. It's impossible to forecast all the effects of our actions when dealing with people. The risk will always be there

Why couldn't we just stay together? What didn't work?

Even if i'd get job interview, i wouldnt be able to explain 2 years time gap.

>>18031661
Sure you can, 2 years is nothing

I hate competition.
I just want a mindless 8 hour job and living in a comfy wood cabin with books and a fireplace.
Why can't I have my corner in this world?

>>18031661
Can't you say a lie?

>>18031308
I'm so tired of sophistry. Arguments that fall apart with a minutes thought yet are held with conviction. People's tendency to focus on red-herrings or points that don't matter rather than seriously consider their positions, or engage a counter argument in good faith.
It's annoying and asymmetrical. I iron-man the arguments of others and am polite when pointing things out, but it seems no one can even acknowledge anything I say other than irrelevant examples or metaphors and, when those are gone, they resort to insults or even just plain nonsensical rambling.

No one ever comes right out with the real reason they believe something either. You have to dig to see the real reasons, which are usually silly. It's as if people know their main reason for believing things is shit, so they hide it.

>>18031661
> i wouldnt be able
A sufficiently skilled teller of tall tales can explain anything. Make something up. Everyone does. Those who don't typically had it easy. Fake it until you make.

>>18031698
War instincts and competition. People hate to be defeated and so will defend their argument just to avoid a perceived humiliation rather than seek the truth.

Only the idiots never change their minds.

>>18031308
I want an apocalypse purely for it sounding more interesting then wageslaving for the next 50 years of my life.

I guess my real gripe is not being financially free. Maybe it’s time I stumble over to /biz/.

I was recently diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome and it's fascinating how it explains why I hate Reddit so fucking much, almost painfully, yet I've been browsing 4chan since 2006.

>>18031685
I don’t want to work but if I have to work I just want a job where I can check in, do the work, check out. I can’t take the constant meetings, office politicking, and emphasis on bullshit like “strategic initiatives”, “innovation”, or whatever. This life is hell.

>>18031347
Communism as we know it is essentially an operative arm of capitalism.

>>18031698
I start from the assumption that most people are wrong about most things. I don't expect any random sample of people to be right about anything. Being right is hard, it's exceptional, and it either takes work or extraordinarily rare lucid intuitive insight. Most, or at least very many people are unhappy with their lives, disgruntled with their lot in life, and powerless to change it. It's similar to the saying "get your own house in order." If they are so aggrieved and lacking in autonomy over their own lives, clearly they lack the prescience to assert how whole economies and societies should be organized. If I read twitter or 4chan or reddit, I do so to take samples from the sea of ignorance in order to adjust my understanding of how wrong everyone is. To know what others don't know is useful information. Only someone who is rare and worthy has accurate judgement. This is not the same as expertise, because experts are often conceited and self-deceived about the comprehensiveness of their knowlege. Though expertise is a good proxy for worthiness in the absence of further evidence. Most opinions are only valuable in that they give a kind of index of the limits of someone's understanding about an issue.

>>18031601
there was a way to avoid causing harm, but i'm only seeing it now when it's far too late. part of me wants to say that i was too stressed and conflicted to make the right choice, but that's just a bullshit excuse. i am a filthy coward. i do not deserve to live any longer. i was given love and genuine appreciation yet i caused intense suffering in return. there are no excuses. i hurt somebody forever.

Also I want to add that when most people thing someone else's opinion is right, they are merely recognizing the similarity of their own style of being wrong in someone else. They find solidarity in their misunderstanding.

See how the infinite divides.

when someone complains about working a dead-end 9-5 office job in a first world country, and then another person retorts how there are homeless people everywhere, or there are children starving in somalia, or some chinese man working a factory line for 18 hours a day, how do you respond to that?

I get sad when I drop a book. Even if it's not being enjoyable, if it's a cult or a classic, I cannot but feel depressed, as if I'm not good enough to enjoy something that is generally loved. That happened with Master and Margarita.

>>18031794
You don't, that's a stupid argument.
You live an easy, safe and boring life, it's not your fault. Complaining about a boring job is, yes, completely stupid and vapid compared to what people are enduring in other countries, but that's your reality. It's not your fault you live here, your parents lived here. Should you move to Ethiopia then? Should you go to China and work in one of those factories? No, why would you? You can't even realistically make a difference in the world, whatever you do. It's important to realize how lucky you are and how sad and terrible life is elsewhere, but man I'm not even sure where I was going in the first place with all that so I'll end by saying I really enjoy tiddies.

>>18031794
you have a choice and they don't. why shouldn't you go for the best option when you can ?

>>18031794
Point out those 3rd world shit holes report being happier than people in first world countries. That 3rd world struggle is a distraction and purpose in life. You can be grateful for everything life in a first world country offers you and still be depressed, bored, and empty. Although being more mindful of those blessings can help decrease that depression a little bit if you make a consistent habit of it

>>18031742
Reddit is spergy as fuck too, just in a different way

>>18031803
People have different tastes and you shouldn't feel that way. There's no way everyone can have the exact same opinion of all the same things. If it happens all the time, like you dislike the majority of books you've read that are considered classics I guess I'd understand that. But if it just happens here and there that's completely normal and understandable

>>18031820
>getting triggered because your life is easy and someone points that out

I wonder how much I can drink today

>>18031678
>>18031697
>>18031715
I wish i could tell a truth about me being so depressed that i barely functioned for months but i cant. Theres no way without resorting to ridiculous lie?

>>18031929
Probably a lot if you believe in yourself :)

>>18031937
You can tell a half truth, you don't need to go to into full detail. Just say you took some time off to deal with some personal stuff or something vague along those lines

>>18031881
I'm not, I know my life is easy and I'm extremely grateful for it.

>>18031794
Dukka--the fundamental unsatisfactoriness of everyday life according to hindu-buddhist thought-- takes myriad forms. No matter the immediate cause, one can be just as unhappy in either of these situations. A person is not meant to pass their life by in the cushioned prison cell of a cubicle nor should they have to suffer homelessness or starvation. No matter the cause, the the effect is the same: unhappiness. Is the unhappiness of the homeless person greater or less than the one living out the falsified grey existence of a 9 to 5? That depends on the intensity of feeling of each individual. Who are you to say that I should be more or less happy about the circumstances of my life? What insight do you have that I somehow lack? Am I in control of my level of happiness, is it a decision or something that happens to me?

>>18031980
>Dukka
*Dukkha

>>18031661
a two years spiritual journey through asia

Marla Singer texted me back, I'm still in this. Now I just need to get my hands on some cialis to make sure my dick actually still works. Maybe I won't kill myself for awhile. Just be cool, man. Don't read into it too much. Just be cool.

>>18032106
Based waifu schizoposter

>>18031308
I never want to write anything other than violent fantasy stories with women protagonists shoehorned in but because women are physically inferior to men in literally every way the woman either has to spend encounters doing almost nothing or fight enemies that can somehow slaughter dozens of men but can't beat a single woman. Every time I run into this issue I lose interest in writing.
yes I know this problem could be solved if I just stopped doing it, but every time I reach that conclusion it only takes me a little while of working on a story before I go "you know, I think I could fit a female crusader into the cast" and it starts all over again.

>>18031794
A homeless person should not complain because at least he is alive

>>18031698
let me guess you're a racist and built your worldview on the foundations of images from boards and can't read a study to save your life

>>18031803
I read all of Master and Margarita. It was enjoyable but it feels obsolete because it's basically a critic of Soviet society, which is no more.

I always feel melancholy when I finish a book like something that will never return. Even if you read it again it will never be like the first time.

>>18031716
>>18031763
Accurate I suppose, but it's still disheartening. You would think people want to be proven wrong to correct themselves and become more, well, correct. It's self-improvement, and the anonymity of the site means one can do so without losing any "face" if they are the type to play these absurd ego games like most people.

>>18032145
Nope. Actually the opposite. If I cite studies for why e.g. black people aren't sub-human, they get ignored or dismissed with the excuse of "not a valid study" without any explanation as to why it's it's invalid other than buzzwords. I find those who lean on the more conservative end of politics are most subject to being sophistic prats.

>>18032188
>You would think people want to be proven wrong to correct themselves and become more, well, correct
It's one reason why I browse blue boards. Red boards are only for coom.
>If I cite studies for why e.g. black people aren't sub-human
The only effective way to heal racism is to go out and meet people of other races, so you feel that they're people because human are to a great extent irrational and need emotional feedback. It's the same reason why your data is useless.

I just can’t do it anymore.

>>18032445
You're gonna carry that weight, anon.

>>18032445
One must imagine Sisyphus happy

i despise weebs, yet they always seem to infilterate all the things that i like, ruining it with their horniness and stupidity.
why are weebs almost always like this? is it that anime turns them into this or does anime just attract them?

>>18032501
>>18032557
No. I can’t do it anymore. What’s more is I don’t want to do it anymore.

>>18031308
Whenever I am happy, I walk a tightrope suspended above fear, anger, and misery. I will, inevitably, fall. A few minutes of genuine joy and love for myself, snatched from the jaws of inordinate sorrow. All for the price of getting my hand chewed up.

>>18032289
I don't think the data is useless. I'm from a very homogenous area in terms of ethnicity, yet I didn't need much more than sources saying all races are equal to know at a young age color differences didn't mean inferiority or superiority.
Blue boards are also shit, I might add. The smaller ones are ok, but still kidn of bad.

>>18032594
Well, I’m sorry you despise me. I’ve tried to grow out of my affinity for anime, manga, and associated media but I just haven’t. I do my best to not turn everything into anime or manga.

>>18031949
Well, i had two of two year gaps. One could be about personal problems.

I’ve got 4 years to live

I’m going to quit my job, move in with a parent, and just write.

My ex is a lying, cheating, manipulating whore and I hope she dies a gruesome death.

>>18032708
there are always exceptions. by being on this board, i already assume you to be better than most people, much less weebs. regardless, my opinion of you is irrelevant no matter how much it makes me seethe.
>I’ve tried to grow out of my affinity for anime, manga, and associated media
why?

I give up. I'm done hearing it could get better, I can't remember anything, I can't focus, I feel like something bad is going to happen constantly. I feel like I have no soul. Even drugs don't do anything for me anymore, last time I got high I just wrote this extremely edgy schizo shit out about how I should hurt myself.

I'm 23 years old it's over I throw in the towel fuck this.

>>18032768
I was thinking of doing this too... I’ve made enough in crypto that I shouldn’t be a burden

>>18032788
>why?
Well, it’s like you said, isn’t it? Weebs are looked down on and I’m too old to like this stuff.

>>18032605
Well, that's okay then. I am close too. Do you have a plan?

>>18032891
I only have 3 things giving me hangups desu
1) my parents live in the boonies
2) I’m already 28 years old
3) I’m chronically suicidal and I don’t like the idea of being close to my parents in case I off myself

I’m too tired to do anything

>>18032903
>Do you have a plan?
Not exactly.

>>18032912
Oh. My hang up is I live in another country and it would be a hassle to ship all my stuff and move my bank accounts over.

If I were elected governor of a small, rural state I would legalize and even encourage fight clubs, and then go there in disguise to use my physical gainz and underlying, frustrated self loathing to do great violence upon my fellow man.

>>18031794
>who asked?
If seeing other people suffering made me feel better about myself I would watch liveleak videos before I start my day. Complaining is valid as long as your not a cunt about it. Don't gatekeep complaining lmaoo this argument is just as stupid as telling someone to be happy because there are even sadder people.

>>18032926
I have a pistol so i'm planning on watching the sunset from a mountain peak that overlooks my town before putting a hollow point in my brain. Im slightly concerned that it will be rude to make someone carry my body down but, so it goes.
How old are you? any reason in particular that makes you feel this way? I've found it very hard to articulate

>>18031661
Easy as fuck
>I had to take care of grand-parents failing health, was payrolled by parents and grandparents

>>18032966
As a Christian I beg you to reconsider.
As someone who has contemplated reasons for suicide, and if I might make a suggestion, use an FMJ round. Hollow points are notorius for flubbing skull penetration and you may just become a vegetable, even at point blank range

>>18032976
or, i had aids

>>18032966
>Im slightly concerned that it will be rude to make someone carry my body down but, so it goes.
I wouldn’t want to do that for that reason. I wouldn’t use a firearm either.
> How old are you?
28
>any reason in particular that makes you feel this way?
Yeah. A lot. I guess most of all just feeling like things get worse at the heart of things while they improve on paper. I have a hard time reconciling who I and who I’ve been with who I think I should be in order for things to be worth it.

>>18031308
I’d love to not buy a car, do all my local traveling with a bike. A grocery store and work are only a few minutes away.

But alas, a car is simply too convenient.

>>18032914
Diet and exercise
>I cant do that
consult a doctor
>I cant do that
ask someone to get you to a doctor
>I cant do that
kys

Simple as, good luck anon

>>18033002
haha thanks mate. I was thinking about that yesterday actually. When I was in the army I did hear about 9mm rounds not doing the trick. I have a ruger 357 too so maybe i'll use that.

reddit has an assortment of subreddits for 30 y.o. wine moms who hate their life venting about their manbaby husbands, their stepchildren they hate and the especially venomous vitriol they reserve for their mother in law. it's great reading if you can put up with most of the comments being something like 'gaslighting - BARF! <vomit emoji>, <eyeroll emoji>'

i get a great deal of amusement imagining the single reddit dad who has a term for drinking beer on the toilet raising his kids with the bare minimum of parenting, only to finagle some poor woman into a nanny/maid role to maximise his gaming hours in peace, broken up periodically with "sexytimes" (their term) on demand

I bought a microscope. I've wanted a microscope all my life but I could never justify asking my parents for one because we were poor, and then for years as an adult I would never buy one because it's irresponsible and not a necessary purchase when I'm on a fixed budget, so I just forgot about it. But now I have one and I can look at anything I want. I feel like I'm a little kid again.

>>18033033
yeah please dont kill yourself mate worst case learn how to collect a government check and read/watch tv/game or something
If you do kill yourself call 911 and let them know you are going to do it so you dont scar someone for life when they find your body. They will know how to get it off the mountain. Also, if you pussy out you might actually get some help.
Godspeed

>>18031661
I always say I was working at the family business for two years.

You could say coronavirus made it make more sense for you to get another job because your parent's business is suffering. A business can be anything. Just make some shit up that your mom or dad already kind of does, so they can lie about it on the phone if necessary.

>>18033033
Yeah the weight to powder ratio on 9mm just causes it to zip through soft and hard tissue. 45. or 357. has a better ratio for not overpenetrating.
But I will pray that you change your mind. This world is absolutely fucked, but there is beauty. Ultimately, though, it is your choice of an action, and yours alone.

>>18033014
Im also 28. Firearms just seem like the most effective route, I haven't looked at any statistics though. The worst part is the mess they make.
Have you told your family at all? I've come close but thought better of it. It'll either happen or it won't, no need to worry them. Are you planning on leaving a note? I don't think I will.

>>18032901
honestly i dont think thats a good reason. most people's opinions are worthless, usually based around dogma and not through any genuine consideration. they're crabs in a bucket, upset that you can be happy without all of the cope that they have to go through only for them to be mostly miserable.

that aside, is there something you feel you're missing out on because of your interest in anime?

>>18031661
>I'm bound by an NDA.
You just don't mention that the non disclosure agreement is with yourself.

>>18032912
two of those, arguably all three of those, are advantages if your goal is writing. the only thing i disagree with is your phrasing "already" as if it's even remotely too late to do any of this.

>>18033048
lol yeah those are funny to read. Its probably important to note that these could be isolated incidents and they are mostly works of fiction for updoots.
Reminder that having kids is a bad move unless you are certain you and your spouse are going to stay in love for 20+ years.

>>18033061
>>18033077
Thanks fellas, I'll probably be alright. I've been thinking that I will at least attempt going to the VA this summer to see if therapy and drugs work, but for some reason I am very adverse to it. I have a strong intuition that it won't help me. I'm worrying less and less about how it will affect my family, let alone who finds my body. It will just teach them something about life and death.

>>18033054
Thats pretty cool, you should start a themed collection of something. I would do rocks.

I feel like I've already read everything worth reading. I've spent the past 4 hours trying to find something.

>>18033148
Have you read On murder considered as one of the fine arts?

>>18032188
It's disheartening a little bit. But man in a state of nature is ignorant. We used to only give educated, master debators a platform to argue with finesse and nuance. Now any old dunderhead can spout their halfwitted opinions and garner an audience. There's a lot of literature on this "right to believe" attitude and post-truth, post-rationality internet shouting match culture.

My dog died recently. He was named McMurtry after the author, and he died only shortly after his namesake died too.
I spent my last day with him holding him and telling him he was a good boy. He knew he was dying. My stepmother told me he had laid down in a bush outside and had to be practically dragged out. He seemed so tired. When he left, he was put into the back of a car and I pet him once, then left. I moved around my house aimlessly until I came to my basement. I was turning 18 in a day. My dog, who I had since I was six, had seen both my older brothers become men and lived long enough to see me, too.
Down here all the toys and games from my childhood sat without luster surrounded by detritus and castaway belongings. It felt like I was standing in a coffin where everything I grew up with would be buried. So I cried until I was hoarse. I couldn’t believe all this was really gone, the letters to the stories I wrote with friends scrambled and all the imaginary keys to locked phantasmal castles I had dreamt up thrown away.
It was the first time I’d cried in a few years. It’s a couple months later now, and I still think about that day constantly.

>>18033083
>that aside, is there something you feel you're missing out on because of your interest in anime?
Something more mature I guess. I guess for me I actually didn’t really get into the stuff hardcore until I was like 24 or 25 which I feel like is strange.

>>18033148
Read the Beach by Garland it's really good.

>>18033080
>Have you told your family at all?
No. I can’t talk to my family about how I feel. For one, I wouldn’t want to bother to me with my problems and I wouldn’t want them to worry. For another, we don’t have that kind of relationship. I’m pretty sure my mom wouldn’t even talk to me if I said I was suicidal. She’d just say something like “that’s not funny” and brush it off. Only my dad would take it seriously and our relationship is complicated, if it exists at all. I don’t know about the note though I think they’re warranted. I’m not 100% yet. I just know how I feel.

>>18033148
There are a lot of fucking books out there, finding new books really depends on your goals for reading. Have no defined goals? Try these.
>social capital
read all of the "classics" on the recommended high school reading lists
>learn something
Check board wiki's for reading guides and curated learning lists. There are lists for philosophy, history, science, math, etc.
>become big IQ man
find college course readings for whatever courses you find interesting
>shitposting
read books that are absolutely for psueds and laugh at how terrible they are, find these by searching top sellers. This is really fun if you have friends.

>>18033113
It is a bit old to start writing and I don’t really see how living in the boonies is conducive to writing.

>>18033148
>The writer Umberto Eco belongs to that small class of scholars who are encyclopedic, insightful, and nondull. He is the owner of a large personal library (containing thirty thousand books), and separates visitors into two categories: those who react with “Wow! Signore professore dottore Eco, what a library you have. How many of these books have you read?” and the others—a very small minority—who get the point is that a private library is not an ego-boosting appendages but a research tool. The library should contain as much of what you do not know as your financial means … allow you to put there. You will accumulate more knowledge and more books as you grow older, and the growing number of unread books on the shelves will look at you menacingly. Indeed, the more you know, the larger the rows of unread books. Let us call this collection of unread books an antilibrary.

>>18033027
I've sorted my diet and exercise in recent months but I've never felt more exhausted and miserable. I have less time to do what I enjoy.

I actually saw the doctor today and he told me my blood pressure was 180/90, despite me being pretty fit. I don't know if I'm just chronically ill with something.

Thanks for the good luck.

>>18033242
Whats taking up all the time?

A logo on the hat on my hair on the skin on my scalp on my skull on my brain on the hole it the bottom of the sea

>>18033214
lifes a bitch isn't it? Are you reading anything? I've been trying to work my way up to schopenhauer to see if that helps at all.

>>18033265
I liked where this was going but idk what the last bit is about

>>18033117
>having kids is a bad move unless you are certain you and your spouse are going to stay in love for 20+ years.

Kids aren't some hobby for couples to unlock at the highest level. Having kids is a duty, especially with white birthrates being what they are and the replacement rate from immigration. You don't have to be a perfect Hallmark couple to be good parents. Your priority shouldn't be a happy romcom life, it should be having 5-6 healthy and well-adjusted white kids to stem the tide.

Whats up with all these suicidefags? Grow the fuck up poussis
>>18032780
Based

>>18033252
>Whats taking up all the time?
My job. I work as a copywriter and the combination of long hours and working from home has killed me. I usually have time to work, exercise, shower, cook dinner, socialise with the GF, then read a bit before bed. It's a trivial thing to complain about but I'm really burned out.

>>18033287
>racism, biological imperative, muh white genocide, happiness is not your priority
Holy shit Im glad I aged out of this.

>>18033194
i assume you want to stray away from strangeness because maybe part of you wants to better connect with people and feel some sense of normalcy. i imagine you haven't gotten tired of anime but tired of feeling like an outsider.
is that fair to say? i dont want to make implications about your life and thoughts.

>>18033327
Enjoy "sexytimes" with your barren polyamorous shrew.

>>18033117
I don't particularly like kids, and the choice will be more or less made for me by the way housing prices are going in my country. Unless your parents help you with the deposit, you have to choose between owning a home and having kids before 35, and the cost of childcare is a nightmare. Have to laugh at retards like this >>18033287

I have to wonder about the long-term demographic outcomes of the average person being priced out of being young parents (unless they want unstable rent situations until they're like 40). I'm late 20s and don't know a single person who can feasibly have kids any time soon.

>>18033376
>I'm late 20s and don't know a single person who can feasibly have kids any time soon.
There is never a "feasible" time to have a kid. You've been brainwashed by neoliberal junk food commercials into thinking you and your dumpy mulatto wife need to wait until you're 40 to have kids.

Some things are more important than money. You are both redditor bugmen ("updoots") though so, deaf ears.

>>18033343
Enjoy soulless existence with your sow wife and 6 ankle biters. Unless you are already rich your going to have a time of it lmao.

>>18033376
Its really sad though because like >>18033388
says having kids is a matter of muddling through it and taking a leap.

I never said dont have kids all I said was have healthy relationships before having kids.

anything you want boy i could make it happen we could fall in love boy

>>18033048
What are they for uh reference for a character I’m writing

>>18033412
Relationships are partnerships, and all partnerships have their muddles. As I already said, you've been brainwashed by TV ads into thinking marriage looks like making wisecracking faggot jokes with your mestizo wife in your kitchen with the marble island. Of course you want a healthy relationship, but your diseased mentalities are clear:
>happiness is not your priority
>I'm late 20s and don't know a single person who can feasibly have kids any time soon
Full lives with big families are rarely "happy" by the definition of a redditor. Waiting until you find that special girl to go to every Marvel premiere with you is not a good idea. Prioritize raising healthy kids in a decent location. Your wife should not be primarily be your wife, she should primarily be the mother of your kids and your happiness is secondary to that.

>>18033445
I mean you can build a fantasy that Im some reddit bugman that wants to watch marvel and live in an idealized world, but Im not. All I'm saying is that you shouldn't have kids unless you can maintain a healthy relationship for at least the duration of your kids growing up. I think your priorities will lead to a more miserable life for you, your wife, and your kids.

>>18033388
>>18033445

You're either a college kid who lives with parents or a third worlder

>Average housing deposit is $100k here, nationwide
>On an average income, would take easily over a decade for a single person to save that
>Priced out of the housing market by DINKs with double your buying power, need a working wife to really afford anything that doesn't have a godawful commute in a shit neighborhood
>Wife must continue working to service the huge mortgage
>Childcare is $100/day, per kid, a good chunk of the extra income that doesn't service the mortgage goes to the childcare

You can't make this situation work without building your earning potential or savings. Your wife won't be the mother of your kids, she'll take her maternity leave and be back to f/t work.

>>18033477
>updoots
Kill yourself, come back as a real human, and have a healthy family. Don't ever touch reddit or you'll have to kill yourself all over again.

>>18033483
I never said don't be reasonable about it. I said don't be so reasonable that you let the economy indirectly neuter you. Maybe if every aspect of the housing market exists to sterilize your wife's womb while favoring the owning class, you should stop taking that class' way of life for granted?

Or keep playing by their rules, and wait until you're 50 for some chartered accountant whose dad bought her a house when she was 24 tell you it's not "feasible" to have kids until you're 40.

>>18031308
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wd9te6ZQXpQ&ab_channel=GretaVanFleet

>>18033496
>ignore reality and costs and shit, reproduce and suffer so there's more white people
You're an absolute chud you know that? I genuinely hope you don't find love or create offspring until you become a better person.

>>18033525
If you're not white you can create more of your people instead. Just don't do it in white countries.

>>18031308
I grieve in stereo
The stereo sounds strange

>>18033496
>Maybe if every aspect of the housing market exists to sterilize your wife's womb while favoring the owning class, you should stop taking that class' way of life for granted?
do you have any practical advice? do you suggest we move to a rural eastern european village to give birth to our 6 white kids?

>tell you it's not "feasible" to have kids until you're 40.
what exactly are you advocating for, here? to raise as many kids as possible in poverty for the sake of having more kids? how old are you?

>>18031308
time is a gift given to you, given to take yourself away, yourself away

>>18032734
Damn.

>>18033426
stepparents, breakingmom, justnomil. deadbedrooms and datingoverforty have similar levels of misery and regret. cripplingalcoholism is great, just guys who've thrown in the towel on life and navigate the consequences of drinking themselves into a stupor each morning.

>>18033551
Sometimes life shocks you with alternatives to your present state that make no sense. If you're smart, you will investigate how someone could seriously pose them as alternatives in the first place if they don't make sense. Maybe what currently makes sense is the real thing that doesn't make sense.

>>18032110
I can't remember if i wrote this or not...
keep it together Nick. It's not time yet. We're almost there

>>18031308
The only fear I have greater than her mind dwelling on my faults, is the fear of her not thinking of me at all.

I think I might actually be depressed. I can't even get hard anymore. hahahaha

>>18033609
I like suicideWatch

>>18033266
I hate philosophy but I’ve been reading some poetry lately.

>>18033653
Nice, who? I bought Shakespeare's complete works recently. I committed macbeth's soliloquy to memory when I was really close to the edge. I don't know if that was a good idea or not but it was nice to revel in the meaninglessness. Maybe Hamlet would be helpful somehow?
I could never really get into poetry but I should give it another shot. Who is your favorite?

The Sound and the Fury is most likely the next book I'll read. Thoughts on it and thoughts on Faulkner? Haven't read any of his stuff yet, is he overhyped or legitimately great

i have a coworker who got the vaccine and wears two masks anytime she goes outside but is still scared to death of covid. this chick is a 40-something wine aunt, she is not in a risk group. i thought she was just playing up the hysteria for the election, but now even after trump is long gone, she's still carrying on with this shit like she really honestly believes this is some kind of plague level event. she watches tv, maybe that's why, idk.

Is my unconscious mind a separate being?

>>18031308
Why am I always humping my dryer machine? It is because she is hot and shaky?

>>18033861
What kind of dryer is it?

>>18033841
Governance and media are of course going to metagame scare tactics to get compliance, its all a numbers game and fear is part of the strategy. Its really sad that they have to scare "muh rights" people into wearing a mask. People like your coworker are casualties from this strategy.
People are going to be people though I suppose.

>>18033872
This bad gurl. Isn't she so lovely and fuckable? Just look how she poses! A real tease... I swear.

>>18033676
>Nice, who?
Baudelaire and Whitman at the moment.
>Who is your favorite?
Probably Baudelaire.
I’ve been meaning to go read some Shakespeare lately too. What do you mean that Hamlet would be helpful?

Ive been putting off starting to read the presocratics,I finished Herodotus and instead of jumping to philosophy I read Debord and now I started reading about the Situationists.And also am considering reading the three tragedians before going to the presocratics.I am afraid that I might dislike philosophy like I did in highschool,and Ive been hyping myself up to it as if it would enlighten me on existence or some shit like that.

>>18031308
I got super lucky.

I dropped out at sixteen. I always liked learning, but I was never college material. My parents said I could stay with them so long as I got a job, so I did, and I've kinda just been doing that ever since. My job is simple, it's physical, I'm mostly alone listening to music by myself. It's really nice.

I'm in my mid twenties now. I bought off my car in cash, I bought my home in cash, my credit score is fantastic and I get to help out around the house. Obviously I worked hard, at my peak probably around fifty-odd hours a week, but I never would have gotten here if I hadn't lived with my parents.

I work way fewer hours now. Most of my time is spent rediscovering the stuff that made me happy before I had to work. I forgot how much I loved music and drawing and other stuff that wasn't 'useful', it just made me happy.

From my very limited perspective I don't think it's possible to have to work and be truly happy at the same time. I had no time or energy for the things I actually cared about, I had to teach myself how to have fun again basically. I even enjoy going to work now, I like my coworkers, I like my job. Now that my bases are covered work just stopped feeling like coercion. Food's from the garden, eggs from the chicken, solar panels on the roof. I'm saving up for a nicer mandolin and a book haul, since I forgot how much I loved book collecting too.

I feel younger and healthier than I've ever been. I sleep in every day, I see stars at night, I think this is how things are supposed to be somehow. I feel so much better, anons. I hope you can join me.

Nowadays I play music for my chickens

>>18031794
I unironically wish i was the later. At least if i were a poor nigger in africa i would have more realistic and sympathetic struggles and experiences to write about, like joining a militia or fighting the wildlife.

Nobody wants to read about a white sheltered spoiled suburbanite faggot that spent 99% of it's life observing the world through screens.

>>18034026
this part

To be, or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub:
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause—there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th'oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of dispriz'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th'unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovere'd country, from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience doth make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry
And lose the name of action.

>>18034136
Just isekai the shit outta your life bruh

>>18034136
I know anon, less surrogate activities.

What to paint

>>18034167
the Pequod

>>18033425
i want you to be a goth hottie with big tiddies

>>18034141
I didn’t really think of that part right away but I see what you mean. What’s your story anyway? I know you said it’s hard to articulate but I rudely didn’t even ask. We’re just strangers speaking over the anonymous internet so I don’t think there’s much harm in spilling it.

>>18034136
>Nobody wants to read about a white sheltered spoiled suburbanite faggot that spent 99% of it's life observing the world through screens

If written about creatively, entertainingly, and insightfully then lots of people including me would. Because lots of people relate

How are people so skinny? I see them eat like shit all the time and they’re still skinny. Meanwhile, I feel like if I eat at all, I get fat.

>>18033329
I just know it’s not made with people my age in mind and I know that society doesn’t look proudly on people my age who are really into it. It just feels like another one of my childish immature flaws. I’m at an age where I’m supposed to have worked things out and I have the emotional character and affinities of a 16 year old from an anime...

>>18034368
They eat a small amount of the garbage. I spent a year eating only one cheese sandwich every day for a year and went from obese to normal weight.

>>18034368
>>18034477
I stopped eating sugar for a year. I lost so much pound while I kept eating a lot of stuff. Still during that times I ate pasta and bread because I am french but nothing sweet like candies or soft drink. And now I a lot of sugar and I am almost 200 pound.
I think sugar is not good and fat is good for you. Butter with salt is the best. With garlic on top of snails its heaven !!

>>18031347
Communism was working class. Meaning they had production jobs. Production is now completly automatized. There is no working class. There are no Communists. Service workers get taken up the ass and shat out when they are broken.
>>18031352
Loser middle class kids have always needed a LARP

>>18034559
>frenchman converting kg to pounds for the sake of the conversation
you are nice :)

So I'm at work half daydreaming up new ideas while my other half focuses on my work as a Gemini does right? Normally I keep my office pretty dark since I work alone but today my printer has decided to tell me every ten seconds that it's going to retire soon and that a replacement is on the way. Is it though? When will you deactivate? Is someone running from a warehouse to deliver the new printer today? Tomorrow? Will the delivery man challenge me to a duel to the death before I can claim victory over my new printer? Is it necessary for you to blink on and off every ten seconds to distract me? I can retire, are you subliminally putting ideas into my head?
What's your end game, printer? We've worked together for so long, yet clearly you've planned your retirement for longer than I know. How come you never ran out of ink little portable printer? Not once?
Did I ever really know you printer?

>>18033860
No, it's one piece of your overall being. How big of a piece is up to debate

How do I stop worrying all the time.

I recognized my svadharma and integrated it into daily life. Nirvana is now in every moment, and I'm very happy.

>Race relations are at a 80 year low in America
>worse than they were in the 70s ffs
> Somehow coincides will all this anti-racist posturing from the left
Really stimulates your Prunus amygdalus

>>18034650
Quiet your mind some times. Anxiety is just thinking about the thoughts you're already thinking about, infinitely. Quiet down and let the world share its thoughts with you instead of only talking to yourself.

I've been wondering how tribes live and take of themselves and each other. What do they eat to have such good teeth and jaw development? Do they have long term relationships with one person like we do? How do they not get bored? I'm also quite jealous of the Jarawa tribe becuase from the small amount of footage I've seen of them, they seem so happy and they're all really attractive imo.

Also while I'm at it, is it culturally acceptable now to conduct business over the phone while using the potty? When I was in my 20s I was talking on my cellphone and I walked into the bathroom and because of the echo she was all 'Ew are you in the bathroom?' so I instantly left and denied it to get rid of the echo but nowadays if I walk into a public restroom there's always someone having full conversations and conducting business while full on power pottying.
I just don't understand. Can't people on the other side of the line hear you?

>>18033841
>this chick is a 40-something wine aunt
How hot is she?

Ezra Pound plagiarism:

And Sophie also died drunk.
She tried to embrace a moon
In the violet-crowned city.

>>18034251
Idk man at the core of it i'm just lonely and stressed. It's hard for me to see meaning in anything because it all feels so transient. The thing is I'm not even sad, just can't seem to find a reason to push the boulder. I was in ranger battalion for a while saw some of the world and deployed a bunch, that was fun but still unfulfilling and if anything reinforced my nihilistic tendencies. Now i'm drifting through college and probably reading too much philosophy.
It's all good though man, amor fati you know? Been nice chatting with you anon, I hope you find some peace one way or another. Sometimes all you can do is wait and hope.

>>18034559
Wish I could say the same. I typically eat almost no sugar and I’m fat as shit. It really does just feel like I get fat no matter what I do.

>>18034449
why does it bother you though?

>>18034136
same...

>>18032594
"If everywhere you go it smells like shit, maybe it's time to check your own shoes." - Socrates

>>18034914
I don’t know. Everything about myself bothers me. Like I said, I’m like mentally and emotionally where I was supposed to be 10 years ago. I regret pretty much the entirety of my life.

I'm so sick and fed up with my girlfriend but I can't work up the nerve to dump her. This has basically been the state I've been in for the entirety of the year I've been with her.

>>18034728
My dad does this. I've heard my friend's dad do this too. Taking a pass while talking on the phone.

>>18034978
Just fucking do it. I've been there before and you're committing a crime against her and yourself if you're too much of a pussy to dump her. Be calm and honest with her so she gets some genuine criticism to process for the rest of her life. Be prepared to receive some yourself as well.

>>18035000
Damn it. Piss, not pass.

>>18031308
Something being unfair is sometimes a good thing. Many people equate fairness with something being better and while this is true some times, I think there is a distinction. This thought came up when discussing with my sister why my parents put more restrictions on her than me.

I am just really not enjoying The Brother’s Karamazov. I’m disappointed because this is the first of Dostoevsky I’ve read and I really wanted to like Dostoevsky.

The kingdom of heaven is going to be reunion with God. Everything earthly of me cleansed.
... Ego death.

Every religion points to this? Even the eastern shit touts ego death as the highest virtue?

>>18034966
it doesn't sound like anime is the problem, it's expectations. you're probably setting unrealistic standards for yourself that you consistently fail to meet, which would keep you in a constant loop of misery.

it might be helpful to write down what you want and the person you want to be. with each of those things, consider if it's something you think you could feasibly do and all the small steps it would take to reach acquire those things, like turning off your internet for an hour and using that time to read or write or something. the most important thing is to take it very slowly and not try to push yourself in fear of wasting time. we're talking about changing your mentality and not just a habit or two (which is difficult enough on its own).

im sure you've seen this stuff before, but idk maybe its more reassuring to see again. i know its hard to make your brain actually prioritize the things you want it to, and frankly i have no idea how you solve that.

>>18031377
Socialist changes have been occurring in mixed economies all over the world since the 1930s

>>18035063
Bk is challenging & lags at times. Try the dream of a ridiculous man. It’s super short & interesting

I ate too many spicy cashews at lunch and now my belly is sticking way far out

>>18033131
It's always worth a try, most of the people I've known who struggled with crippling depression that get help and try to take it seriously were able to end up happy. Assuming it won't work without trying is what gets you nowhere.
Also, your family and whoever finds the body won't learn any lesson, they'll likely just be traumatized and upset.

>>18035063
filtered bro

>>18035063
I like Dostoevsky but I have to admit I was slightly disappointed by Brothers Karamazov. Really good but yeah...best way to read Dostoy is to read his other works before reading BK. It's not a huge deal, but you probably would've slid in much easier with Crime and Punishment, The Idiot, or Notes from Underground

>>18033609
What's with Reddit's love for acronyms? Then again 4chan has its own lingo.

>>18035286
Those aren't acronyms, just the literal names of the subreddits which can't include spaces.

She offered me her whole world and i declined. Am i a criminal ?

>>18034586
Not him, but here in Canada we usually have a weird way of using metrics and imperial in everyday life.

At school and in science, everything is in metric, but not in real life.

Weight of people are in pounds, everything else is in kilogram and grams.

Temperature is in Celsius EXCEPT for water in swimming pools (and only for swimming) and for cooking in the oven.

Speed is always km/h.

Height of people is feet and inches.

Distances are imperial up to about I'd say 20 feet maybe and after that it's meters and kilometers. Very small measurements are in cm and mm.

>>18035337
No I mean in their posts. SO for significant other. SD for stepdaughter. Stuff like that.

>>18035360
honestly, this sounds retarded, but it's women. they love doing this shit.

>>18035360
DH for dear hubby

>>18033169
Based de Quincey recommender. One of the greatest English prose stylists to ever walk the Lord's earth.

Rodriquez makes some amazing music

>>18035373
>to ever walk the Lord's earth
but god doesn't exist.
checkmate atheist.

>>18034592
Is he getting a pension?

>>18035388
He better be. I mean TECHNICALLY I could just turn on the backlight to stop the blinking but instead I just put a piece of paper over it when I'm not immediately using it.
I hope my printer made sound investments and contributed to its 401k.

was bpdgod actually a groundbreaking online entity? or just an annoying schizo tran? What's the difference?

>>18035437
"Miya" was a collective of different people, not one person
https://twitter.com/charlottereed77
https://twitter.com/ccccaa13

>>18031661
Fuck me, I'm graduating high school this year and wanted to take a 1 to 2 year break before going to Uni, is this going to fuck me over?

>>18031937
I can relate to this

>>18032780
Don't get emotionally attached to women easily.

>>18031759
this might be the stupidest thing I've ever read

>>18035802
Not at all lmao. Especially not right now, but not ever. Gap years are completely normal and gaps in the resume are only a worry as you get older.

>>18032951
based

>>18035802
I wish I had taken a year between high school and college. Most people follow their friends or a girl into college and it almost always ends up being stupid. I did exactly that and totally regret where I went.

>>18035994
>Most people follow their friends or a girl into college and it almost always ends up being stupid.
I'm coming back to a country where I lived some 6 years ago, so I no longer really have any close friends and even the ones I grew up with there are now fairly distanced from me, but the way I see it it's going to be a year or two of just personal pursuits to educating myself on everything that I find of interest and fitness most likely

Life is empty and I can't be bothered filling it

>>18035816
You have just refuted yourself by replying, mr capitalist. Want to prove me wrong?

>>18036051
Your life is empty. Meaning and adventure is everywhere.

>>18036199
Seeing this post reminded me that things could be worse and that there is an alternate universe out there where I too became a 4chan tripfag. Thanks for brightening up my day.

>>18031698
Everyday I grow more convinced of the necessity of educating everyone about the axiom of choice and how to assess assumptions from both sides. Way too many people have these pet imaginary situations that can't be proven wrong but sounds right and they think that makes them special and I swear that's where they derive all their justification for being authoritative on every goddamn thing.

>>18031698
We could start an academic journal based upon /lit/ arguments done right.

>>18036199
*pets* relax sweetie :3

And you're right

>>18036199
Is that what your tinder profile says

>>18036384
You wish.

Sucks that most essay contests seem to be for highschoolers. First of all they can't write for shit. And i'd be killing it if they were opened up to me.

woah, if the numbers are to be believed the chinese economy grew at 18% last quarter. yeah, the united states is toast, and i say that as an american.

Slip into a blissful abyss
With nothing left to miss

>>18031347
You fuckers could lie through your teeth

Just learned my ex died. I don't know how to feel about it. I did not hate her, nor harbored any ill will at all, (although I think she hated me) and while I am surprised, I don't really feel anything. I think it's weird.

Shit now that I think about it I might have ruined two of my best friend’s lives. Not intentionally of course but I introduced them to stuff that they took to the extreme.

I love her :3

She is so nasty to you guys and you are all always childishly reeling from it.

they say 'no crying in baseball' because the misery it imparts is not the punch of a death or a breakup, when your life changes suddenly and that bliss you had for a moment is gone. its tragedy is a hollowness, not facing a change but recognizing the world as it was and ever shall be. a slider banks too far to the right and grazes the batters' toe, and in that instant a perfect game is lost with two outs left in the ninth. you look at it and you're reminded of how few perfect games there have been--23--and that so many times before and so many times after today we will see a beautiful outing ruined by a stray gust of wind or a nail dug into a seam just a millimeter too far. this misery is a hollowness--a sort of silence that seems to resonate from you to generations before, as though you're staring at the half-finished writings of some brilliant author left undone by their untimely death. we are left silent, to pick up the pieces and reorder them into something beautiful in spite of all that.

>>18036417
You thought it was a racist trope to associate Chinese people with math and programming? Look at the 488 page pdf of results 10 universities to a page 90% of them are Chinese. https://www.comap.com/undergraduate/contests/mcm/contests/2015/results/

Its fucking incredibly difficult to fit 5G into the submillimeter bandwidth and it never would have happened without Chinese programmers. 100 years ago American high schools expected students to learn Greek and Latin, England required autistic proficiency with elliptic curves in university. Jews played us hard. Blacks should've just been given their own like 10 self sufficient states with whatever they needed and not ruin education for everybody.

Antifa types have a demonic aura, they remind me of the dreadlocks guy from Children of Men, sleazy 90IQ footsoldiers for whatever ideology they accidentally ended up in, would correctively rape children if the crowd was cheering for it

Sad watching them assault random people and laugh about it. Think how messed up you have to be to enjoy attacking some random old man, whoever you are or he is

>>18036539
Beautiful, and baseball is the best

>>18036488
How did she die

>>18036034
I’m going to give you the simplest advice I wish I would’ve received and really meditated on at your age and I hope you’ll reflect on it above all else to really think about what it means

Study yourself.

>>18031308
I'm tired of trying to digitally maintain relationships with people I knew in college. They don't fuckin talk to me any more. We were supposed to go camping awhile ago, but they canceled and said they didn't feel safe because of gay corona, and then they all got together for a day and didn't invite me.

I just don't know anymore guys.

I want to take a magic pill that makes me totally forget how my life used to be.

>>18036673
Delete your social media

>>18036622
overdose

>>18033054
That's an awesome tool to have. I wish I had a microscope. So much strangeness at a small scale

>>18033477
Anon you are very well-adjusted.

>>18033054
get a telescope next

I'm in denial that I'm happy being completely alone.

I want to coom, but cannot.

>>18033518
when does that album drop? new london grammar album tonight

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pbwaq0E80hQ

>>18036908
>when does that album drop?
it's out right now

New York
vs.
Chicago
vs.
Philadelphia
vs
Boston

Which one?

>>18036769
Sorry to hear it. How long did you date and how long ago was that?

>>18031328
Fuck that song... fuck that whole album. It makes me break down crying like a bitch.

>>18037098
if ur gonna go urban might as well go all in and go nyc

>>18037133
So expensive though.

>>18037133
Also I’m wondering if I should leave the Mid Atlantic. I grew up here and have so far only lived in Mid Atlantic cities.

>>18037098
Long term? Chicago is the perfect balance if you want a mix between urban life and a slower Midwestern scene, there are comfy suburbs just a half hour drive away. Far more affordable than NYC/Boston too and it's bounced back from corona better than any east or west coast cities. Philly is filthy and the infrastructure is shit. Downtown is pretty boring. The crime problem isn't a meme but it's heavily segregated to certain areas, you wouldn't notice in the vast majority of areas. I'm moving there for college this fall and I'm looking forward to it.

>>18037202
so rent a room instead of a luxury loft. you don't have to rent the most expensive place in the city. just like you can just shop jcrew, you don't have to shop at the balenciaga boutique just because you live in nyc. it only feels expensive because there are so many super rich mfs around doing shit you will never be able to afford in a lifetime, but if you just ignore them there is still a huge city filled with millions of normal people on average incomes.

>>18037249
>Downtown is pretty boring. The crime problem isn't a meme but it's heavily segregated to certain areas, you wouldn't notice in the vast majority of areas. I'm moving there for college this fall and I'm looking forward to it.
I actually already lived in Philly and am just considering moving back. It was okay. I thought the downtown was good though.

>>18037259
i went to philly with my school's history department and we got a behind the scenes tour of some university museum there where they took out all these random kind of shitty etruscan artifacts they had in storage, it was decent. then we went to some sort of "hip" area with bars and vegan restaurants and shit. i cannot for the life of me remember the name of it. it was ok, kind of reminded me of haight street in sf more than nyc.

>>18037288
it makes me cringe to remember it though because these two kind of "cool" girls split off to go to some vegan place and then get drinks, but i just went along with the group of jorts wearing white dudes to some touristy cheesesteak place. sigh.

>>18037288
No idea where that could’ve been. Philly is one of a handful of cities in the US that are even remotely similar to NYC.
>shitty Etruscan artifacts
You sound like a real scholar

>>18037304
they were in storage for a reason dude. it's the kind of stuff that if it went up for auction, you could buy it for a few grand each.

how do I give up hope and just enjoy the ride frens

>>18037304
it might have been passyunk ave, idk

>>18037259
I've always had to rely on public transit and in Philly it was pretty bad compared to Chicago. The downtown was also more trashy and not as lively as it was there. Plus I love biking and Chicago's very friendly for biking, lots of nice biking lanes. But I only visited Philly a short while, so I'd take my opinion with a grain of salt.

>>18037304
i wonder if it they were trying to entice us to do grad school there. like if you come here, we'll let you sift through all these ancient tchotchkes and publish papers about them. they had cabinets full of the shit.

>>18037354
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3X_8b1tKQzE
philly was the best city for skateboaring on the east coast back in the day, but it seems like the government has done everything to ruin the scene there in the last decade. i don't think they realized how many amazing pro-skaters would be there skating love park and city hall every weekend. there was no other place where you could go there any time and see some pro or sponsored dude ripping.

>>18037326
You do it by having friends and helping others.

>>18037405
have to be careful with that tho, you could end up a bitter people pleaser. i think you just have to take pleasure in the comfy moments of life. "live in the now" as some ppl say.

>>18037420
I was addressing the way to fight entropy, delusion, and hopelessness, but you do you friend.

>>18037423
>the way to fight entropy, delusion, and hopelessness
but if u read what he said he axed "how do i give up hope" not how to fight hopelessness.

what does it mean when a woman says "I think you are awesome"
is this a friendzoning thing or just a simple compliment

>>18037451
depends on context as with anything woman says

>>18037516
she said it when we were saying good night over text, after I had left so it was the last word
and she had also said earlier in the same day that she was "very impressed" when she was asking me about how I had come to my perspective on something we were both interested in

>>18031308
I'm tired of everything and want to move to a small rural coastal village

>>18037543
She's wet for you

>>18037105
we didn't date for very long but she was my first kiss. last time I saw her was probably 2016.

I wanted to watch terminator 2 and eat pepperoni pizza but my bluray player is broken and my pizza is stale

I started reading history, philosophy and literature from an early age in hopes of attaining something new, fresh and exciting. Like they do so in the movies.
And eventually over the years, learning and understand more doesn't mean one has unlocked new superpowers and what not
>I understand that it means to realize the importance, significance and richness of everyday life.
>It like that one of those things, where in childhood it never seemed so significant only to realize its true importance much later in life

What makes a man an individual of high quality?

>>18037747
Unironically just being a respectful, and productive member of society.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aj4jfiqiLw

>>18036548
No worries the hidden remnant of classicaly-educated racist ellipticians will RVSTRR TV VVEST

>>18037543
>attempting to extract complex emotional meaning and character analysis from literal ASCII

feeling really burnt out. and second guessing how I spent the past year being pissed off with people for being tired and lazy. imagining myself as a cruel taskmaster or sea captain. I don't know their situations. that sulking pitiable way they walk around and the spiteful reluctant frailty in all of their movements as if to say "feel sorry for me, I can't do it, but also I can but I really really hate it >:^(((((", that expressive nonverbal whinyness which compels the well-spirited observer to become as an exasperated nanny, to rush over and take up the child's slack and complete his task for him. maybe that's due to sleep deprivation and genuine fatigue of the soul by having another job, a family to worry about, not enough money, etc. none of which are shared by me.
I thought the one really skinny guy might have been a heroin addict but maybe he's just beaten by life

when white people stop holding up america by performing every useful job things are gonna get interesting

>>18031698
>>18031716
>>18031763
>>18036312
>>18036336
>NOT MY HECKIN' ARGUMENTERINOS
>NOT MY WELL THOUGHT OUT DEBATES
>NOT MY INTELLECTUAL DISCOURSE
crybaby bitch ahaha

>>18037847
>productive member of society.
what does that even mean in current society?

>>18034661
They divide us so we don't get angry with porky. It's interesting how they engineered BLM during the most severe social and economical crisis since WW2

Too much sadness, way too much.
Suicide is inevitable.

>>18037747
will and direction

>>18036199
are you illiterate? he literally said he is too lazy to fill it. can you not read or something?

>>18038239
suicide is avoidable. just do what you love.

>>18038265
personally the things i love arent really accessible to me. sure i love reading and such hobbies but in the end its superficial and Im human, I crave family, community, being a part of something good and wholesome, and concrete and positive direction. its impossible to find or make stuff like that these days

drinking alone and listening to music for positive vibes and supplementing the need for community with 4chan can only get one so far

>>18038313
have you tried to at least make online friends? that would be better than nothing.

>>18036716
I don't have any. We have a Slack channel that was made so people could keep in touch.

>>18033819
Just finished the sound and the fury recently and I loved it, especially the second part. Will definitely reread at some point.
It's probably not the best entry to faulkner given how inaccessible it is. It's the first and only faulkner book that I read and I do think I should've started with another one (I dropped it the first time because I was just too confused about the plot).

Nah, i just realised it’s too long for a phonepost.

boring

We came by the boatload,
and were immobilized:
worshipping volcanoes,
charting the loping skies.
The tides of the earth
left us bound and calcified,
and made as obstinate as obsidian,
unmoving, save our eyes:
just mooning and blinking
from faces marked with coal.
(Ash cooling and shrinking
cracks loud as thunder rolling.)
I swear I know you. You know me.
Where have we met before?
Tell me true:
to whose authority
do you consign your soul?

>>18031308
I hardly know myself anymore.

Can't get her out of my head

>>18039076
Over the past few days, I've come to realize that I don't know myself at all and it's fucking me up.

I have lost my passion

>>18033616
What's wrong with eating bugs?
You have something against a cheap, renewable source of protein?

>>18039145
Nothing. Some 85% of the countries of the world eat bugs already. It's western societies that are the odd ones out.

>>18039151
>>18039145
And it mostly comes from Hebraic dietary proscriptions about eating "creatures that crawl" btw

You fucking whores you all lied to me

I feel the burly urge to apply violent means of coercion and chastisement chiefly towards the mentally challenged individuals who run the vaccination program of my disgraced nation. Said methods of physical injury would be chaperoned by verbal backbiting as well, the detailed description of which I intend to omit in the present declaration to respect the amicable inclination of this august virtual Agora.

>mfw reading Storm of Steel
>the author seems to actually enjoy it
is it true that humans are meant for war?

>>18033609
I used to lurk /alc/ threads on /ck/ even though I dont drink because of this, I feel kinda bad though for this cathartic reading of someones misery though

fucking goddamit

How much of a mistake it would be to tell my boss I’m quitting in July without having anything lined up yet.

>>18040428
Depends on the reasons you're leaving for I guess.

>>18040650
Just hate the job. Don’t want to do it anymore. My job is secure until my last day no matter what.