/lit/ - Literature

I'm conservative but I don't mind gays, I just don't like how the current gay culture is an HIV sex orgy. If gays were normal functioning adults they could be fine, but that might take hundreds of years.

>>17837088
Why did you make the thread before the bump limit?

Horny but I'll never get pusy again

>>17837130
1)
2)

>>17837137
Why not

>>17837130
No one wants another gay anime pic in the OP

>>17837088
if it hurts when pee
they say "doctor go see."
but if it hurts when poo
then nothing they can do?

>>17837161
the last one wasn't anime though

I haven't masturbated in exactly three weeks and although I'm starting to act more erratic with women, I've also managed to double my daily amount of reading. Double-edged sword!

>>17837130
*coughs* *spits* i hate faggots and vocaloids

>>17837167
Pretty sure "doctor go see" applies then too.
You can get an ointment for hemorrhoids, or a surgery if it's a really bad case.

i feel truly alone in this journey of life. Everything i feel and think is only know to my inner mind, noone else sees me in the deapth of what i am. My true excistense is within myself, so why do we exist in a world which is seperated from reality as i precieve it? Is this only the dualistic view of the ego, and itself just brings me more sadness? Is the ego simple the key element to my drive to depression? Why think, why bother, when thinking itself gives no meaning in it. All deep thinking are useless? Why do even bother when it all will fall back to what once was?

>>17837088
nice op

Making friends and finding a relationship without the mediation of an app (soul-crushing) seems so unlikely that I'm suspecting it'll never happen. I'm so lonely and have genuinely no idea how I'm meant to meet other people. At this rate I'm likely to go my entire 20s without ever having gone out with friends.

It's time to wipe the blood of my face and pick myself up again. I refuse to be beaten by life! I will tame it. I have a chance, damn it! I won't stop fighting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVHjNoNkRB0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVHjNoNkRB0

>>17837088
Does "repressing" a memory always mean that the person in question is actively trying to forget something, or is it possible for someone to forget a traumatic event and later be completely unable to recall it no matter how hard they try?
Without going into detail, I suspect that something bad may have happened to me as a kid, but my reasons for thinking that are purely logical. I have a complete gap in my memory that I can fill with suppositions based on what I've learned as an adult, but doing so doesn't make me upset. I don't feel traumatized at all.

>>17837127
>the current gay culture is an HIV sex orgy
>current
nigga have you read the bible

paradise
pair o' dice
angel eyes

bet on regret
bet on regret
bet on regret
bet on regret
bet on regret

beaten like a dog
soft like a sore
never before

the happiness of the west, and presumably therefore hte productivity, could be increased by at least 10% if we reintroduced the squat-poo. if you've tried it you know what I mean. when you squat to poo it's like everything lines up, from the chakras of neptune all the way down to your sphincter. it is a vastly superior pooing-experience, I tell you.

Is it normal to feel like your family holds you back from who you are or who you want to be?

STEIGE AUS DEM BEEETT DREH DEN SWAG AUF SCHAUE KURZ IN DEN SPIEGEL SAG WHATUP YEAAAAAAH IM GETTIN' MONEYYY OHHHHH

>>17837127
Maybe in the US. Either way, judging cultures will always result in negative judgement, the vertical axis of cultures is more "which is less bad" rather than "which is good" as you always find degenerates in each culture (in fact, I'd argue the degenerates in general outnumber those who aren't). I know plenty of normal functioning gays, yet I know many, many more who aren't - and I can say the same for any culture I've been in touch with so far.

>>17837088
https://pastebin.com/SiNLdk1J

Could someone give this a read and tell me what you think? I typed it up this afternoon, I’m not entirely sure where it’s going yet, was just something that came into my mind after watching interstellar yesterday.

The idea of an inhabitable planet orbiting a black hole felt really intriguing to me, I’m just worried if I keep going with it, it’ll end up being something too similar to Star Wars...

Don’t focus too hard on how bad the names are, they were just some random ones I came up with to get something on the page.

I need help.

I need to let my landlord if I’m going to be renewing my lease for a full year starting July within the next 2 weeks. I don’t really like it here and I have no reason to be here anymore but at the same time, I’m 28 years old and have been living on my own for 5 years now. Financially, it makes sense to let go of the lease and move back in with my parents for a time but I’m at a point where I want to change directions with my life, on my own and I feel like I won’t be able to do that living at home with mom and dad so I don’t know what to do. I have also been wanting to really quit my job so that’s throwing a wrench into things as well.

>>17837197
this isn't a woman this is a starvation victim you low-test fag

It's hard for me to ask for help or open up to people - that includes my family and my friends. Posting here is no problem for obvious reasons being that no one here knows me and I know no one.

Often people tell me I can always contact them if I have to, if I want to talk etc. Yet, when I do find myself in a rut, I never have the courage to reach out. I either think they can't help me, or I don't want to seem weak/pathetic (sometimes both). I also don't like how people treat me differently after reaching out a couple of times like that, I don't want my weaknesses to be brought up constantly or have people tread on eggshells for the next X amount of time, stuff like that puts me in an even worse state and perpetuates the cycle of not contacting.

Anyway! Books with this feel/useful advice?
I've tried everything, and the only thing that seems to work is just somehow powering through it all and with time, all that shit seems stupid - until it comes back and then just repeat.

>>17837088
I hit my head the other day and it has been a challenging time for me, because exorcising knocks it around and makes me overwhelmed. I was told by the ER that I don't have a concussion, only an outer bruise. But I will see the doctor on Tuesday, where I suspect they may have more minor news. Clearly there is something wrong with my head, and my worry about its condition has caused me much stress.

Furthermore, my classes are going awful. I have never hated a subject more than I hate Philosophy of Law. It's an elaborate excuse to create a structure of law, which we just have to take on faith actually exists. I see no way that law exists, it's an incorporeal concept, not something that has solid connections you can point to empirically.

Book history is an awful class, although not as bad. This field of book history, based on Rodger Darton's Information Circuit, is one of the most dry, boring pursuits of literature I have ever pursued. Nothing we read is about the beauty of literature, it is all about the processes that go into its circulation, writing, use, marketing. It is like a business class, and even though the teacher is a marxist, it still feels like a business class.

I am ashamed that I can read only around 15 books maximum per year, my reading speed is the biological determinism which keeps me from achieving the level of reading I wish I could achieve. Now that my brain has likely been damaged, and I was never that strong of a reader in the first place, it only looks like small potatoes in terms of what I will be able to accomplish in my lifetime, in terms of reading. It is not easy when the thing I love, next to my girlfriend, is something I am bad at.

Time sits in the center of the mind and expands outwardly in anticipation of the future, and withdraws inwardly in recollection of the past, undulating like ocean waves in the veritable sea of memory. Thoughts, like static emerging from a radio station whose signal is weak, appear in the mind's eye as the creatures who are given birth through form, the center of the being, the observer, the one which gives shape to all - thought as a unified experience. I search for constancy, something to grab hold of, like a beloved object, and all the images slip away, and my breath becomes shallow. My mind has been taken over by pure sensuality.

>>17837554
Sounds like you need to lay everything out and see what conflicts with what. No job means no money means (I assume, unless you are one of those fags who just spends his parents' money on rent and amenities) no money for rent, which means moving back in with parents. So deciding how serious you are about leaving the job and how high up that is in the decision chain is probably a major priority, since it determines everything downstream of it. But maybe your hatred of living with your parents is enough to make you work and rent there for another year. But, maybe this is stupid and will cause you to get bogged down in the day to day, so another year goes by and you haven't started that life change you want to do.

None of these problems are abstractly answerable for all people. A lot of it depends on you. I would probably go insane living with my parents, but then again, I know I'm capable of wasting a year of 9-to-5 work because I'll be too tired every night and weekend to do anything else. Maybe the active displeasure of living with parents would actually spur me to stay proactive and get back out. But for me, the risk is minimal that I'd still be with my parents in a year, and slump into being a manbaby playing WoW for ten years. Maybe you're the exact opposite. The point being that you have to know yourself, and then lay everything out and decide which one of these things you're ultimately willing to give up, what chances you are willing to take because the other chances are worse, etc. All that has to be based on an honest self-analysis.

>>17837368
>Does "repressing" a memory always mean that the person in question is actively trying to forget something, or is it possible for someone to forget a traumatic event and later be completely unable to recall it no matter how hard they try?
I believe it can be either. I don't really remember much of my childhood in detail tho, I don't know if that's unnormal

>>17837617
I really hate the job. Problem is, I don’t really have a back up plan and the only other job I would do instead has been put on hold indefinitely. So while I want to, I feel like I can’t let go of the job no matter what. As for my parents, there’s no way they would just pay for an apartment for me and there’s no way they would even let me stay with them without a job. I don’t think I’d end up staying with them long term either way but I’m just at a total impasse where I feel stuck and no matter what I do, I’m shooting myself in the foot.

lol I never can get over the level of absolute pleb pseud that visits this board. OP your pic is upside down. Matisse might have been an absolute madman, and blind, but even he would tell you you're looking at things wrong.

I'm going through a depression that is completely flattening my intellect. I've never experienced being so tongue-tied, uncreative and passionless.

I know what the reasons are for this, obviously pandemic related, and am slowly working myself out of it. But somewhere I am afraid that something is inexorably lost. Like my intellect, creativity and passion are forever shredded and destroyed.

Some days I get positive hiccups, short-lived paroxysms of creativity, that tell me that there still is life there, somewhere deep hidden in the impenetrable layers of my unconscious. I use those abberations to maintain hope that my great gift isn't lost, that my mind isn't fully disintegrated into a point of no return.

>>17837743
>OP your pic is upside down
>pleb pseud
Just to warn you, OP has been on a weeks long battle to stop these threads from having anime pics and make them have pics which are sophisticated or some shit, so you're probably making him suicidal or psychotic.

i want to read but fapping saps all of my energy, what do?

>>17837790
>probably making him suicidal or psychotic.
Good, then maybe he'll understand entry level modernism.

Yes.
YES.

>>17837807
I quit masturbating about a month ago and this was one of the best things I've done in my life. It's a real shame that teenagers get hooked to porn early and stay addicted for life. I'm very glad I broke the cycle.

>>17837790
Don't confuse me and my sophisticated art with these pleb OPs.

>>17837088
I really would have like to had gone outside today. It's a beautiful day. But Sunday is the only day in which I have large unstructured blocks of time to write. :(

>>17837566
I just like her brown, Moorish foot, anon. Believe me I would suck her toes and lick her soles.

>>17837956
What benefits did you see? I could just turn off my sexual desire completely I'd be fine with that. The problem is I can't fall asleep without jerking off before or otherwise the horniness will pester me.

>>17837985
>Oriental sex tourism is sophisticated modernism
If you made your money in the modern era, sure. You could also get a Waterhouse with lots of mythic nymphs, and all your bourgeois peers would think you're totally sophisticated.

>>17838061
The most prominent is that I'm full of energy whereas before I was constantly tired. But aside that, I also inwardly clean, if that makes any sense. I think porn and masturbation really do corrupt the soul.

>>17838061
Also, about sleeping, this is just another symptom of addiction. The first few days would be difficult but it would be worth it.

>>17837768
Don't worry anon, I am just getting to the end of a similar episode. I have been depressed my whole life, but the last 18 months were unlike anything I've ever experienced. I didn't even know it was humanly possible to reach such levels of anxiety, it wasn't so much intrusive thoughts during many months but this burning physical sensation in my stomach and my whole body. I couldn't speak, I couldn't move, I couldn't sleep a single minute without knocking myself out 24h a day on GHB ruining all my capabilities for abstract thought, information retention, creativity etc. I was convinced it would it would never end, and if it did I would never be quite as sharp again. Ended up having to go through severe withdrawal and taking massive doses of quetiapine for the anxiety. It's been almost 2 years since it all started slipping but I can see the end now, I've gotten laid a couple times this year, I'm able to read books properly again, even philosophy. You'll make it.

Regret.
Regret is on my mind.

>>17838061
>The problem is I can't fall asleep without jerking off
Can't you find a better way to fall asleep apart from dirtying yourself with your own seminal fluids?

>>17837768
>But somewhere I am afraid that something is inexorably lost. Like my intellect, creativity and passion are forever shredded and destroyed.
they are not. it's all stored somewhere and comes back

>>17838108
Because I have a sex drive unlike you, you low test soiboy.
>>17838088
That makes sense. I get what you mean by "cleanness" too.
>>17838098
Idk, it's more that it's a distraction. You know that annoying stinging sensation down there when you feel like you need to get your rocks off?

What do you do when you hate the way you look only it’s not things like you’re hairstyle, or body weight that you hate but more like your bone structure, your nose, your eyes, things you can never change without surgery?

>>17838374
man it must suck to be ugly

>>17838374
do you hate yourself?

>>17837088
>iphone user
makes sense you massive faggot

>>17838311
The inability to control your sex drive is a sign that you are barbarian scum. You fall asleep covered in your own semen every day, lulled to sleep by your own masturbatory gesture and have the nerve to call someone else a "soiboy." You also admitted:
>I could just turn off my sexual desire completely I'd be fine with that.
Why do you lie to yourself to cope with being a pathetic worm?

>>17837161
you'd rather have the same shitty gay art we've had for 90% of these for years

>>17838533
Please go easy on the OP, he's been on a weeks long battle to stop these threads from having anime pics and make them have pics which are sophisticated or some shit, so you're probably making him suicidal or psychotic.

>>17838564
>you're probably making him suicidal or psychotic
good

>>17838506
Yeah

I'm writing a philosophy book under the guidance of a former professor of mine. I wish I could show you guys samples, but I know you're all so cancerous and miserable that you'd find endless fault with it. I wish this community was a bit more charitable and less concerned with ego-fulfillment.

Hope you guys are doing well with your work, though.

>>17838602
why?

I'm not sure if I have genuine reactions to tragedy. I can cry at other things. I knew a guy who killed himself a while back and I remember just thinking "ok, he picked that route". I wasn't moved by the death of either of my grandmothers. My mom tried pretty hard to get ahold of me, and the first thing I thought when I realized was that if something bad is happening, even to her, I'm gonna have to have a human reaction.

>>17837499
Dies hier

>>17838550
The fact that you care about what other people do with themselves is a sign that you're a loser. I bet you're some dinky little fundamentalist Christian pissant. Your God is dead.

>>17838632
I’m not sure I can put it into words. I think I’m ugly for one. I’m not happy with my past, present, or predicted future either. I don’t know. Why are you asking this?

>>17837956
i have spent the last several years in abject misery due to my inability to stop masturbating. can you tell me how you did it, and whether or not it was difficult for you?

gonna try writing instead of chasing dopamine highs. just wish writing wasn't so egotistical.

Broskis... I miss the days when videos would go viral organically and the Internet was for posting stupid memes. What the fuck happened?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nz4Rd1h9NSE

>>17838881
>What the fuck happened?
adtech happened.

>>17837088
My mouth tastes like burning

>>17837197
She looks like the guy from highlander

It feels like reality is unraveling, and the world no longer makes any sense. I have no idea what itll look like in 10 years.
Also i fucking hate women and im basically asexual but im almost 30 and i feel like i have to get married and have kids. Any advice?

>>17838881
The internet got old, popular, became full part of people's lives 24/7 and a place for people and companies to profit instead of a communication technology separate from your real life. It lost its innocence and became too big.
Also, the world itself changed and it affected the internet, which was part of the changes that happened.

I need to get a job

>>17838973
Become a monk

>>17838973
You spend a lot of time alone and/or on the internet?

>>17839097
Before lockdown, no, but ever since then ive spent much more time online

>>17837495
It's not normal, but it's really fucking common. Like being straight.

>>17837088
I think I might see a psychologist at some point just to see what it’s like, whenever I can reasonably do so. Honestly the idea of paying someone to just sit back and listen while you ramble on about whatever is really funny to me, like some sort of emotional prostitute. Maybe I’d get something out of it too, I don’t really know

I'm a major bitch rn, but I'm gonna man up and start being real, trust me.
You may caption this, cause it's true.

I think I have jungle fever. Is that the one for negros or the one for Asians? Shouldn't it be Asians because of all the Vietnamese jungle bombing? But I mean negros. Black women are attractive.

I wouldn't date a black girl because I don't want to bring a halfsy baby that doesn't know what race it is into the world so I would feel like I'm misleading her. But they sure are attractive and loud, and sometimes nice. I like that.

>>17839149
Sometimes I think of how fortunate I am not being a burger. Living somewhere, where not only black girls are passionate. And where black people in general are always nice and don't create no go zones as gypsies do to a lesser degree than basketball americans

>>17839108
I can tell you that doesn’t help

>>17839167
If you think black people in the US aren't nice that's on you.

I can’t stop laughing at these activists in my town who were trying to drum up publicity and support for their cause by getting arrested then having a publicized trial. They each ended up with a like a $50 fine and a request to not block roads while protesting lmao, they had a civil rights guy do a press conference on the court steps afterwards and it could honestly have been a stand up bit.
>fifty dollars
>pls don’t do it again

Fuck fuck fuck why do I always run away from my problems instead of facing them.

It always ends up the same way, I run away, it snowballs, and in the end I'm in a worse position than I would have been if I just faced them from the start. My entire life has been like this, I never changed and at this point I don't think I ever will, I'm just fucked, my brain is broken.

>found an auction for an 1810 print of Essays on Physiognomy
>current bid: €3
>6 days left
>€600 estimate
I need this to further my studies on the Irish race, did you know Celtic culture may have roots all the way in Sabaean culture? They are suppressing this information

>>17839324
you may read the post again. I acknowledged black chicks to be nice and said black people where I live are *always* nice. there are places in the US where I wouldn't ever wanna be and it's not white people living there.

>>17837088
>I had boobies and everyone could see them and they also had boobies and everyone saw everyone's boobies and it was so funny because we were naked and it was so funny when we touched our boobies and everyone's boobies we kept laughing at how funny it was to touch all of our boobies together it was so much fun

>>17839439
what you’re talking about is probably retarded, but enjoy this reading list

>MARDUK had three fingers in me and was working on a fourth as MARDUK worked my left nipple with the other hand and my right with his tongue, sliding around the areaola and plunging deep into the crest so as to invert it deep into my breast, sending energetic waves shimmering throughout from all of my erogenous zones, quickly becoming the entirety of my being as MARDUK fulfilled my body's every conceivable need, past present and future

>>17839456
As Heinrich Himmler pointed out early on - Ireland was the first country where the aryan refugees of sunken Atlantis settled. He was half-right, Irish are certainly an "atlantean" people born of the sea, but which seas? If we look at Irish history we can see that they're traditionally a sea-faring race, and this continued well into the 20th century - the sea faring culture persisting in areas that weren't colonised (an atlantean peoples). Along such lines we can see that mediterranean and middle eastern nations may well have come across the Irish as ships sailed up along the andalusian coasts. Indeed we have evidence that 7 Egyptian coptic monks sailed to Ireland in 625 and died there after living for some years. But it doesn't end there - across Ireland we find stone monoliths, commonly regarded as peaks of celtic culture - and yet the "T" shape so many of these monoliths have is in fact modelling the Coptic monks staffs which have a flat handle, as opposed to the anglo christian staffs that have a cross "t". From 9C we have evidence of Irish priests describing the pyramids. See picrel, an example of Coptic art - notice the weaving pattern on the right, reminiscient of what we refer to as "celtic" artistry. This middle eastern coptic influence also affected literature. The arabs have a practice of "musical speaking", as demonstrated in their call to prayer, if you then listed to traditional Irish music you can hear clear similarities: https://youtu.be/RqabDHMQczk . Not only is the style nearly identical, the language seems to bear similarities too. The Irish word shamrok of course descends from Arabic. It is thus that celtic culture was influenced by the arabs. Nonetheless, I will check out those proud rags at some point to learn what the sane have to say - I still doubt the Celts are wholly arabs, but the influence is largely ignored

I'm afraid for the future of my country, and I really want to help my family escape from this shithole asap. I have an estimate of 2~3 years before things go downhill, I need money. Sadly, I'm not competent enough on anything, so I'll try my best to learn something while I can. I'll even draw furry porn if it's needed. Perhaps I am being too pessimistic or paranoic, but I can't afford to hope for the best.

since i know everyone around here hates to work you dudes should listen to this it's free on audible plus

I have work I need to do tonight, but I can't bring myself to do it. It's like when two magnets push against each other. I just can't. I don't know why. I just want to lay in bed and do nothing, but I know I have to do something. So I cleaned up my room all nice and now I just have a clean room and still can't focus on doing fucking anything. I know I have to work so I'm not reading the book I want to read because if I'm going to read it should be the work I need to do, so then I don't do anything actually fun that would recharge my batteries and I just feel like achy death that no amount of coffee can fix and with each passing moment I still don't get any work done. UGH. WHY IS MY BRAIN LIKE THIS.

I always thought people were exaggerating when they talked about depersonalization. But now I really do not recognise myself in the mirror and the person in the mirror seems to move completely independently of myself.

>>17839565
i hate that, i have that every night when i should be programming, the thing is though if i actually open up xcode and just start working on some minor function or make a unit test for something suddenly i'm back in it, i don't know why i hesitate so long to start. i think it's because i feel like there is some part i will be stuck on, and that's sort of true, but half of programming is being stuck on something and researching how to do it, i don't have any advice, i just feel you cuz i'm doing the same thing rn

>>17837088
Do any of you write erotica? Specifically non-con?

I have a novella idea in mind and have done some research and outlining but I'm not sure where to post once get a chapter or two down.

literotica editors are inconsistent with standards for what's too non-con for them and they don't provide much feedback when they reject stories.

a03 doesn't care but is mostly for fanfic they don't remove original works, but it's likely no one would see it.

kindle has a hard 'no' to non-con, but some slips through.

wattpad is a toxic waste dump. I don't even know if they allow non-con or not, I don't want to post there.

where do you guys post erotica?

>>17839445
I live in a place that is 90%+ white, and I promise you it's just as bad as whatever you're thinking of in black neighborhoods. Especially since you're a foreigner.

>>17839565
Sounds like clinical depression.

>>17839565
Ah yes, I have the same thing, I absolutely hate it too.

>>17839657
liar

>>17839593
Thanks anon. I hope you make something really cool with your code.
>>17839677
Not a whole lot I can do about that right now other than eat better, stop drinking so much, and do some push ups.
>>17839709
It’s just gotten worse since the pandemic hit. The blurring of lines between workspace and living space too. I hate it.

>>17839516
>>17839456
>he hasn't read the book of invasions

This is it. If I write one more word, it'll be the furthest in this story I've ever been.

>>17839916
Write "boobs".

>>17839847
Yeah not having a distinction between workspace and living space can really mess you up. I've been dealing with this my entire life and it's affected me greatly to the point where when I was younger I got held back several years in high school and I almost didn't pass.

It's the worst because you get absolutely nothing out of it, atleast if you wasted your time doing something you liked you'd get some enjoyment and happiness out of it during the time you were doing it. But since you neither spend time working nor indulging in your hobbies you end up getting the cons of both with none of the pros.

Why did I join the military? What was I thinking? I don't fit in. I don't enjoy my job. I'm fit and can apply my brain as needed in my work, but my heart isn't in it.

>>17840109
hopefully biden won't start a war but he did vote for the iraq war and double down by saying he'd vote for it again lol

>>17839970
I used to be able to work and study for like 14 hours a day. I was driven and couldn’t stop working. But I think something in me kinda snapped and I’m just broken now because of the thing you’re talking about. None of the benefits.

i spilled coffee on my main hoodie man i hope it washes out

>>17840109
which branch?

>>17839550
Just buy vstax bro

>>17840257
it's about lowering your cost of living so you can load up on investments without killing yourself working

Thinking about coming clean to my mom. About my mental health, about how I'm failing uni for the second time, how I drink way too much, the other self-harm I engage in. I'm sure she suspects some of these things already. She's said at one point that she'd be willing to pay for me to go to therapy, since it was a success in her case, but so far I've had too much pride. Been trying to fix these things on my own, but I'm slowly coming to realize I'm just prolonging this shit for no good reason. I'm still scared of how my parents might react, my father is always quick to anger. My mom is the one I'm closest to by far, in large part because we share 2 psychiatric diagnoses so she's most apt to understand my struggles. Right now I'm racking my brain for the best way to dump all this info on her. But it's still daunting because I'm already such a massive failson while all my siblings are successful in their own way.

>>17837088
How much do people pay for erotica? Is it typically by the word?

>>17837088
It took me almost 3 years but I finally finished my novel. It's not /lit/'s cup of tea at all but I've considered giving it away for free on this site just so someone other than my therapist might read it. However, I don't give away anything that could reveal my identity.

>>17840326
why don't you just switch to an easier major to get it over with so you can move on with your life

>>17840403
I don't think that's getting to the root of the problem.

>>17837088
for me its present tense first person

>>17840439
For me it's switching between 3rd and 1st and back to 3rd in the same run on sentence

>>17837088
i've been ruminating on politics for so long without writing anything most of my opinions are probably irrelevent, but i still feel like i need to write them or the thoughts will be lost forever. are they valuable? maybe even future generations could use them in reference to their political situation. But that'll just leave me with nothing. I'll just end up posting cringe and everyone will be like "move on" but then i just feel like i'm falling for the "united states of amnesia" meme Gore Vidal talked aboutj
FUCK

>>17840461
no one cares about the political opinions of someone who didn't go to an ivy

>>17837088
I have a plot which, when combined with my immense talent, shall surely do for mommydom what Lolita did for pedophilia. My only thing is it's pretty autobiographical and I would absolutely kill myself if it were ever traced back to me. And also I keep getting aroused while writing it, which leads to glaring grammatical issues. And then I masturbate and hastily delete everything I've written and spend like a week skulking about in shame because I get this unnerving feeling that everyone knows about it.

What it’s like to survive a suicide attempt.

>write what’s on your mind
She's sitting on the toilet, an expression of delight on her face, her body shivers.
I like to think she has diarrhea because she ate something bad, so now she's emptying her bowels in a continuous torrent of liquid shit, purging her body of toxins.

>>17840651
But the lid is down.

Children are just a human maggots.

>>17840710
That's not the lid, it's a cushion around the ring thingy so your butt doesn't have to sit on hard porcelain.

>>17840710
>>17840725

>>17840628
I had a friend who shot himself in the face and had to have months of facial reconstruction surgery. Dude can’t really smile anymore. He had a perm mouth guard that acts as the roof of his mouth. Tons of medical debt. New outlook on life though. We were all in love with the same girl too but she’s married now to some other dude.

>>17837088
This is it. If I write one more word, it'll be the furthest in this story I've ever been.

>>17840732
>>17840732
Whoa.

>>17840729
>toilet with no lid
do weebs really?

>>17840797
C’mon, anon.

>>17840821
This is it.

>>17840824
This is what?

>>17840826
"This" was the word that he wrote to get further in the story than he's ever been.

>>17837088
>tfw over 100k words into draft and not even halfway through the plot
>starting to worry that there's way too much dialogue
>can't cut any of it because the story is partially a mystery and it's all plot relevant or required character exposition
>in fact, I'm worried that there isn't ENOUGH dialogue between two key characters to justify their relationship later on
I guess I'll just pretend to serialize this on RoyalRoad for shekels once it's done.

>>17840838
This is it.

>>17840856
If you can’t edit and cut then you can’t make it. Force yourself to cut 25% of it and then make it work, for practice.

>>17840826
It's shitpost from /wg/, they never write and its full of shitpost, and blogpost. Never about writing.

this is it, mr. frodo. the worst and most copious my work has ever been.

>>17840871
C’mon Sam.

the wounds on your hands never seem to heal

>>17840891
God, you're a waste of space. Your parents wished they aborted you.

>>17840871
that's not true. our tranny anime serial authors pump out loads of retarded work.

>>17840900
shitposting, blogposting, bitching about muh anime, etc. Animefags are the only ones even writing in /wg/ threads anyways. Much to the seething of faggots like you who contribute nothing in it.

>>17840905
yes. it's a good system.

>>17840905
Not like the next Pynchon or DFW Is going to come out of /wg/, what do you expect? Has there been any writer there that you think is actually brilliant?

>>17840929
>Not like the next Pynchon or DFW Is going to come out of /wg/,
How about having more realistic expectation next time.

>>17840929
>what do you expect?
Writers. Not shitposters nor blogposters.

>Has there been any writer there that you think is actually brilliant?
A few actually, they post on Royal Road. They have fun stories to tell. So its always nice to see their progress and updates.

>>17840905
>bitching about muh anime, etc. Animefags are the only ones even writing in /wg/ threads anyways.
Ironic that animefags are the only writers in /wg/. But what else do you expect from a bunch of pseudo intellectual larping as some writers.

>>17837088
How to center myself when overwhelmed with my ideas and start second guessing everything I thought I had settled on?

>>17837088
Anons I have discovered the deepest truth of all time and it is the only one that matters nothing else matters holy shit people are so stupid. Omggggggggg

>>17837212
Are you okay anon? I see you and care about you even if I don't fully know who or what I am, or who or what you are. Just because we don't know doesn't mean we never will. The world could be anything, and instead it seems to have love and souls who care about each other in it.

>>17837574
Have you considered talking to a pastor or priest who is okay with just listening without any obligations or expectations? It seems like you may have associations hardened up in your unconscious that aren't entirely rational, maybe a bit of paranoia about being vulnerable.

>>17837596
Give us an update on Tuesday. Don't give up hope. The brain isn't your soul, just a receiving antenna. And it is miraculously capable of healing, rerouting, working around problems. Don't stop trying.

>>17837088
Would RR let me post my weeb slayer series? it's about a guy slaying weebs, but maybe that's too far? would i have to make them zombie weebs for it to pass?

>>17837088
nobody understands me

>>17837088
I'm legitimately upset by all the anti-asian hate crimes that have been happening lately. And this is for multiple reasons.

I think the biggest part of is not the moral evil of targeting someone for their immutable characteristics like the color of their skin or physical features. That is evil. What really bothers me about is the breathtaking stupidity of it, the fact that there are people out there who are dumb enough to lash out at the nearest object that vaguely serves as an outlet for their anger and resentment. It's absolutely devastating and shocking to me to realize how stupid some people are, and terrifying to remember that there hundreds of millions of such natural born idiots and more are born every day. The true ugliness of it is not the moral evil of random racial violence, but the realization that there are people who are dumb enough to believe this could ever achieve anything.

The possibility remains that many acts of racial violence are the expressions of mental illness. This is a conclusion that is rarely appreciated. The politics of mental illness is almost never factored in. The mentally ill act out in ways that are entirely apolitical, because to act politically is to act in a way which is in alignment with consensus reality. But the mentally ill by definition do not align with common psychological norms. They act out idiosyncratic psychotic phantasies, not ideological motives.

For example the recent Atlanta shootings were most likely acts of vehement mental illness. Not racial animus. The establishment would love to make it out to be racially motivated, but this was the work of someone who was dissociated from reality and unwell.

Mental illness is not the same as stupidity, but I am more willing to belive that stupidity is more common than mental illness. So why are there so many pointless acts of violence? They can't all be expressions of mental illness. Is there such a thing as an intelligent expression of violence? Probably so. Self-defense sure fits it.

>A fortunate man finds his inspiration. For some it comes early, for most, much later. However and whenever it arrives, it is a realization, a muse, an epiphany that spurs the man to action, to the organization of his life for the pursuit of his design. As soon as he sets foot down this path, the natural encumbrances and complications that arise from practicality will ensnare the man until he is laden with compromises. Relationships or health or education or hedonism may be among these assailants, but money is almost always the first and strongest among them. These bureaucratic actors are not inherently good or evil, but are simply neutral and natural riders to the reality of daily life in the modern world. After many years these compromises will slowly alter what may have begun as an iron will, like a tree’s root slowly breaking through concrete over decades. A ship turned only a single degree from its course will find harbor on completely foreign shores from its original destination. The years pass. Here and there, the man may find time to pause, and if he listens, he will hear the faint voice of his original dream, his original inspiration echoing from the canyons of his past, but the words will be lost. The torch he held aloft when he first set out has long since turned to ash, but because his way now blazes with artificial light, and since he was never plunged into the darkness that he experienced before his initial revelation, he never noticed the transition at all. So do all men arrive at the meridian of their lives as complete strangers to themselves, transformed by such slow and shallow degree that they will never be able to find that moment where they lost who they were and what they sought from life. From here, they will coast in complacent mediocrity toward the terminus of their lives, unquestioning and untroubled, aside from those few that occasionally turn their heads, trying to hear the words of that faint, distant voice from their past.

my best friend growing up didn't have a dad

his mom would date all these scummy weird dudes and my friend (crazy fucked up kid) would always ruin it by being a maniac

the mom really liked one guy she was dating but my friend chased him off and it was a whole thing

my friend told me that the guy would have the former's mom squeeze his testicles really hard and would cum all over her or something weird like that and the very idea of that made my friend (no older than twelve/thirteen at that point) go berzerk and attack him

my friend called me crying saying that his mom beat him for that and he begged to come live with me but fuck no you can't live with me

so there they call me Downtown Darwin "Daveon Lewis" Carter jah bless

>>17841299
that last line got me, thanks

>listen to yourself
>listen to your heart
all i hear is silence. It does not want to talk with me.

>>17837088
>40k words in
>70k word estimate
>still confident
I'm doing it... I'm gonna make it...

>>17841368
>"This is it"
>"This is what?"
>"If I take one more step, it'll be the farthest away from home I've ever been"

>>17839565
been in the same rut for weeks i’ve never been this unproductive in my life its shameful really

I can hear the wind howling. Gives me a strange feeling, it's not cold or anything, but I would rather be snuggled up at home than at work.

>>17837088
OH WHAT A FEELING
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mL9Aohgd79I

gf broke up with me and then sent a vid of her kissing her best friend while on mdma. I love her so I want to stay in contact. I dont want to let her go. My head was so consumed with her.

>>17841493
hey bud i’m sorry for you. unfortunately you have to get away from her completely
>and then sent a vid of her kissing her best friend while on mdma
she sounds like a horrible person. you may not realize or agree with that since you’re still infatuated with her, but that is not normal or acceptable. you’re worth more than being subject to that
>kissing her best friend out of spite for you
>mdma
major red flags, you dodged a bullet if anything.

it’ll get easier with time. eventually you will look back and recognize how miserable she would have made your life if you stayed. chin up anon

>>17841493
Grow up.

I have never hated and never loved. I hardly feel. Only sometimes I laugh or cry, childishly, about the most stupid things. Greatness is foreign to me, life and death indifferent. Only sometimes I get scared. The world shrinks to a dot behind my eyes. That's when I have to give a speech or smile.

>>17837328
Where do you live anon, I'll be your friend

>>17841493
why did she break up with you anon?

My boyfriend broke up with me 2 months ago. I was moving away and he said long distance wouldn't work.
His birthday is coming up and he invited me to come do mdma with him for it. Which i find upsetting. Obviously he's taking advantage of the fact that it's quite an effective aphrodisiac, he just wants to get laid. He never texts or calls, sometimes I reach out and frankly it's embarrassing considering i was the one who was broken up with. How are you meant to get over someone you love?

>>17841493
Stop your bitching, you could have been this guy. You could do something productive with all the time and instead you're crying over a whore. Pathetic.

>perfectly content during the first 15 years of my life, despite having been aware of all the 'flaws' i've ever had
>got a horrible mental illness one day, for no reason at all
>it hasn't gotten better after 8 years
The quiet life is an overrated hippie buddhist illusion. If people don't suffer, then they will create their own problems. It's not something caused by muh capitalism nor american culture nor narcissist parents or any other environmental factors shit. It's literally how our brains work: We're all shitty evolved chimps originally born and designed to seek out problems and solve them instantly, and if we don't, we will suffer from anxiety and similar shit. If humans don't create their own suffering, their brains will do it for them. Even Carl Jung said something along the lines of "The foundation of all mental illness is the unwillingness to face legitimate pain."

This is why from now on I no longer seek pleasure. I want to seek out pain, because at least pain makes for a better story, and gives you a lot of pussy and sympathy.

>>17841493
Don't listen to the haters here man, but you do need to gain some self respect and dignity

another medication has absolutely ruined my sleep
time to cross it off the list

Finished reading Bel-Ami. I can see why it can frustrate people, one expects some punishment upon Duroy to balance all the shit the narcissist causes, but he just keeps climbing higher.
In a way it's a critique of women's position in society. Madeleine feels the need to marry him just so she can continue being a journalist from shadows. The money she rightfully inherited she has to share with her greedy husband because the law is on his side and he could make her lose everything. M. Walter has to agree to Suzanne marrying Duroy to avoid a scandal. Madame Walter cannot reveal the truth of them being lovers because in eyes of society she would be greater sinner than him, and her family forever dishonored. On the side that all the women are quite stupid in their own way, it's actually society that enables bastards like Duroy to succeed.

>>17838559
Most definitely

>>17837088
I want to play Minecraft

>>17841638
>My boyfriend
bro....

When did body cult overtake everything?

>>17841921
What do you mean

>>17841638
>How are you meant to get over someone you love?
Time. Girl I loved blindsided me with “Hey. I don’t love you anymore. Let’s break up.” I never spoke to her again after that. It took me at least 2 years to stop thinking of her all the time and even then I still think of her sometimes.

For fuck’s sake, life is hard.

sometimes I wish I could speedread my life

>>17841953
People becoming slaves to their body.

>>17841987
The biggest pain for me is how consuming it is. Thinking about that one person all the time.
It's easy to rid yourself of an obsession when you can replace it with something else. I miss the time in my life before I knew what it was like being that close to someone.

>>17842001
use tranny glitch

She's not replying to my message

I haven't celebrated my birthday in a decade and usually don't mind that at all but yesterday just felt so dull and meaningless that I'm starting to dread my birthdays from now on. Neither my dad nor my siblings really cared to gift me something that could mean something to me. They just gave me a few bucks via paypal. I usually don't care much about gifts but this time I do because my life has been so far detached from any meaning that I'm clinging onto the smaller things. My mom couldn't be here because she's in Syria. So all I got from her was a voicemail. I miss her a lot. I might be what people call a mama's boy.

Despite turning only 21 yesterday I feel like time is running out and I have to hurry so that I can enjoy my youth and have some fond memories that are actually worth remembering. I don't think anything that happened in my life during the last 3 years are actually meaningful or fun to remember. It's all been just a bleak mixture of media consumption and depression.

I will move out of town for uni in a few days and if I don't make some friends there or get a gf I might just give up completely and try to live in solitary comfortably. This corona shit isn't exactly helping my case though.

>>17842053
it gets better with time

I think the French is a worthless race when it comes to intellectual thought, but they're still so endearing. It's like they're overgrown children who have some sort of careless innocence and ignorance about civilisation. I love French girls especially the (pseudo-)intellectual ones.

>>17842053
You've got time to make it man, try to make the most out of the college experience. I don't know what its like right now with corona going on, but in my experience people are pretty friendly and welcoming in that kind of environment especially since everybody is on the same page. Don't be afraid to step out of your comfort zone, say 'yes' to everything even if it sounds lame at the time. You have to be open to new experiences and you might not find the right crowd straight away but don't let that put you off looking. Like I said, not sure what it's like with the virus and all but wherever there's young people I'm sure there'll be shit happening. It's worth putting yourself out there, I'm getting a bit older now and getting a lot more reminiscent than I used to be and I'm very grateful to have so many fun memories from that time. Best of luck anon, you'll make it.

>>17842085
I think you just described most of the world, maybe the french genes spread wider than we think.

>>17842110
We do live in a post-French Revolution world, but I don't think the other European races are anything like the French. They're all unique in their own regard, but French are the ones that I feel like you can't even be mad at them. They're children.

Wondering why I feel like writing that novel, short story, poem to be overwhelming.

Wondering why I have such severe age anxiety and insecurity.

>>17842085
>I think the French is a worthless race when it comes to intellectual thought

Why? I'm curious because I'm also european

>>17837500
>judging cultures will always result in negative judgement
>you always find degenerates in each culture

I disagree. Some cultures are better than others, and some groups have more degenerates than others. I don't buy this cultural relativism that seems to be the default opinion today.

>>17842178
Because their intellectual output is worthless? They have almost no good thinkers and their philosophical output is entirely inferior to the output of comparable nations.

This, too, is a good joke:

"I love my job. I hate my wife."

>>17842228
You mean in the contemporary ages or in all of their story? Because the latter doesn't make really sense imho

>>17842257
All their history, yes.

>>17842085
that would be anglo, coper.

I CANNOT get over the mental hangups over my age. It’s driven me mad with despair.

people are retarded, I am too, but wat now?

"I have to write, I HAVE to write" wrote procrastination itself while waiting for the coffee to get delivered. It knew the beginning and it knew where to go, it could've imagined every step that it had to take, but it still hanged, confused and rotating onto itself for a yet another moment. It was, surely, not a hard task, but harder still was breaking stillness.

>>17842362
>mental hangups
such as?

>>17842403
I just feel too old to do anything worthwhile with my life. I got on the treadmill while I wallowed in aimlessness and apathy and now it seems I’m having a harder time dealing with that than others who did the same. The obvious solution is “start now” and therein lies the hangup because I feel like you can’t ever really recover or erase what already happened. It’s gotten to a point that’s pretty severe. There’s another layer of this which is just profound self dissatisfaction but that’s too much to go into.

>>17842253
half the people that are driven workaholics with a strong work ethic are just trying to avoid their family

>>17837743
>pic is upside down.
Thank fuck someone else said this. I was beginning to wonder if it was someone copying Matisse's palette from the red room paintings but doing really abstract shit. The right way round it looks like the red room and the garden beyond

>>17839533
which country?

>>17837088
In a lot of traditional forest cultures boys around the age of 10/11 start having sex with their younger sisters/cousins, thereby acquiring sexual experience without incurring prematurely the burdens of fatherhood, since the risk of pregnancy for the pre-adolescent girls is low and incest is, after all, only a problem if it's frequently resulting in pregnancy, otherwise there's no intrinsic biological rationale for it not to occur in an experiential or sexual right of passage context; quite to the contrary, as it serves as a readily accessible sexual outlet for young adolescent males, who might otherwise be getting into trouble with already "taken" sexually mature women within the tribal group, especially when their husbands are away hunting or fighting tribal wars.

>>17842662
Source: studies of the Yanomami

>>17842575
>There’s another layer of this which is just profound self dissatisfaction but that’s too much to go into.
im listening. i can relate with everything you've said so far.

>>17841642
Damn. Why do women do this?

taking a break. catching up on some weaker parts in my knowledge for my degree. mixing this with reading sufi litterature. I more and more suspect the sufis are my people. I don't live up to them, I am not a great man, but we have a similar view. I am also mixing in reading from the book of Enoch, because I kind of desperately want to know about the angels and about the supposed Metatron in particular. Well, I don't know. The sufis say God has his essence (his "face") and his action (his "hands"). It seems to me that reconciling these, as a Metatron would, may be impossible, but that this metaphysic of them both being God is the most reasonable one in spite of this.

>>17842662
>In a lot of traditional forest cultures
>"a lot"
Name one, faggord.

>sexual experience
No such thing. Peepee in bagene isn't rocket science, you don't need hundreds of hours under your belt like a commercial pilot to figure it out.

My BBW fetish really complicates the whole "getting a gf" thing. On one hand, I want a skinny girlfriend because I wouldn't want to worry about her health or self esteem issues and stuff. On the other hand, I can't get sexually turned on unless a woman is overweight or obese. This is a bit embarrassing irl though and fat girls are usually super insecure about their bodies.

>>17839112
so it is, in fact, normal

>>17842736
The Yanomami

>>17842754
I feel like a huge fat girl is the only one who is allowed to "get" my porn. There's no way for me to ask her to have a "cleanse" after a while because she's completely "insane." This means I basically have to suck it up and keep going. My body is just not going to let me. So I will be a fat guy for the rest of my life. When my body stops working, it will stop working. It will get fucked up. If I am going into my first bodybuilding competition, the first thing I do is grab my ass and lick my balls. Then I'll try to get my pussy fucked by an ass fucker. But I really want my dick fucked. That's the way I feel. In fact, if I were to do it again, my cock would fuck my girlfriend, and I would be fucked a hundred times. And I actually want that to happen. The problem is that I think I need to be the guy that makes her feel better. Or at least like she needs to feel that way. As a guy who loves the idea of a body without fat, that's okay. After all, fat is NOT a bad thing, no? I mean, not in the sense that it's nice and feminine, but in a way that is so fucking good. You're not supposed to fuck those guys in their ass, or you're going TO be my boyfriend

>>17842674
I’m not sure how much there is to say. There’s an element of that self dissatisfaction which is the past, which I’ve already mentioned and which is obviously one aspect of myself. Then there’s an element of it which is just not finding myself redeemable. I don’t like the a way I look, I don’t like my job, I don’t see any way out. It’s just this crushing feeling of inadequacy, not necessarily in relation to what the world’s idea of adequate is but in relation to my own.

>>17842822
>inadequacy
did you expect to be some else than the current you? what do you want to achieve?

>>17841642
damn

>>17842736
>No such thing.
Get a fucking load of this guy.

>>17842836
No, but I guess I either did expect to be a different sort of myself or I didn’t expect anything at all. I’m not sure I was that conscious of it. I’m almost hesitant to say what I want to achieve because it’s about that but it isn’t. Yeah, there’s a lot of things I wish I started 10 years ago, which I feel like I can never really live out to their maximum now because I didn’t do that but also, there’s a me that was never even a choice which I’m not unhappy with. I realize my ranting is somewhat pathetic and vague, which is the status quo for these threads with seems, so you can just ignore me if you like.

>>17842870
I dont want to ignore you. Whats that thing you want to do but feel like its too late? Ofcourse if you're comfortable saying it.

I feel so despondent it honestly amazes me. I have nothing left. No reason to get out of bed. I might have insomnia, too. Nothing feels real anymore. I look in the mirror and the person I see doesn't feel like it's me. I want to disappear from this planet and have everyone forget me. Probably, the only reason I still keep going, is because I have 1 friend left who I love an extreme amount, and he would probably be quite sad if I went away. To me, he is like what Misaki was to Satou in NHK. But recently, for reasons that are out of mine and his control, we aren't able to spend much time together anymore, and anyways, there's an ocean inbetween us, so we can't even see eachother in real life. I am not sure how much longer I can last like this. In the first place, I feel so terrible for even feeling this way. It's so unfair and rude of me to harness my hopes and will to live onto him. I'm too scared to even tell him about this.
I wish I could change, or somehow be granted any kind of sense of purpose at all, but I just can't find anything.
Sorry for being such a bitch and blogging here, I don't have many places to go to.

>>17842905
just play some touhou and it will become better

>>17842910
Somehow, not even that is fun anymore.

>>17842866
Literally have sex, you must be the dumbest incel in the world.

>>17842899
This is a literature board, isn’t it? I want to write. Well, I do write. I’m not very good but I write. The thing is actually more than just “I want to write”. There’s a very specific way I want to write and something I want to get out of writing that’s bigger than just writing. That’s much more abstract and difficult for me to explain here right now but to be able to do it, I pretty much feel like I would’ve had to have started a decade ago. And still, there’s layers to this thing. It’s not just that which makes me unhappy with myself or where I’m going. For example, I’m really really unhappy with my appearance and not just in a “I need to lose weight” but in a fundamental like “you can never change that” kind of way. That’s just one example. Please don’t feel bad for ignoring me either. I know how it is.

>>17842803
Okay then, name two, since you said "a lot".

>>17842806
GPT3 has come a long way.

I think I am in love, but the circumstances in which it has happened have made it so that no one would believe or sympathize with me. What worries me more, though, is that I think she loves me back. Terrified that I will mess this up as I have done so with so many other things in my life, but at the same time I have never felt quite such a rush.

>>17842961
So its more of a fundamental regret regarding writing for not starting it earlier? What do you think would be different about you writing the same novel tomorrow and 10 years earlier?

With in a weeks time, nay, six days, I will have a weeklong break from school. For the first three days I will set out into the woods with a pack and rifle, to be alone.
At the thought I am excited, and even though it is temporary, I am happy.

I want to go to another planet and terraform it to roughly resemble Earth. Then i want to release simple plants, some rodents, mice and house cats. Then i want to wait a couple of million years to see how from these stem species, new species would evolve. What would they look like? Which species would occur what niche?

>>17837088
Ugh I keep drinking and then posting cringeworthy shit on this site! I mean there's worse I could be doing while drinking, at least I'm not battering my wife and child. But still.

>>17837088
My friend's grandma who literally has a triple digit age caught covid. She was going to pass any day now, but in a just world she'd just fall asleep and never wake up rather than have to suffer through something like that. Hopefully it will kill her swiftly. Thankfully--it sounds weird to say thankfully--it doesn't take much to kill you at such a fossilized age and there's no will to live trashing against the inevitable. Still sad.

>>17843101
Good argument for euthanasia here too. Only a cruel society sickened by the delusions of religion would youth in asia be seen as a bad thing

>>17843123
>youth in asia

>>17843016
That’s one of things but again, there’s a distaste for who I am not necessarily what I do or have done. These things are hard to explain because they exist in our hearts and minds and not on our tongues or fingers, you know? But to answer your question I think for one, it takes along time to get good at something and especially the type of writing I do/want to do. I also think there’s something to be said about creative work when you’re young precisely because you’re more imaginative, more intuitive, more feeling. At my age, I’m starting to feel a little bit ossified, like I can’t get in that same headspace I had as a young person. So there’s that but there’s also, like I said, where I want to take my writing and what I want to do with it. I want my life to be a story just as much as I want the stories I write to be stories. So to put it in a way that kind of makes sense, you can write a novel in which the first 6 chapters are not that great but it all comes together at the end so you have a great novel. But what I don’t think you can do is have 6 chapters of shit, write another 2 chapters of shit, and then pull it altogether at the end for a great novel. And unfortunately, life doesn’t have an editing process or a proofreading function. So ultimately, the book I want to write doesn’t seem like it can made. Again, these are all very difficult thinks to convey in a way that’s salient with another person but that’s what the difference is.

Literally tfw no gf, but I end up hating everyone I meet. I'm going to read in a bit.

Out of thread. Hmph. Don't know if I'll cut another one or wait til tomorrow.

>>17843019
Man you don't need to tote around a gun for a 3-day excursion in the woods

>>17843210
I'll be honest with you even at the risk of you getting angry at me.
Its all in your head. I mean sure there are things like being more open to the inner states or having more opportunities when you're young. From the way you see things, it seems like the only one whos limiting you is you. Theres a fear and you can deal with it. You know you can but refuse it.

>>17843274
Depends where he is. Bear country they're all waking up hungry around now.

At a certain point, there will be no one left to defend America as an institution.

When actions of a few are condemned as the actions of many, and inaction of many the responsibility of a few, what is there to gain from upholding such a system? Objectivity need not exist in democracy. It does not matter if a democratic system is truly broken in the ways described, it only matters if the people say it is.

How do you fix that which is not broken? How do you convince others that things "unbroken" must be fixed? Maybe you don't: it's the blueprint of democracy. Vote in those that will fix your perceived problems. You tackle the untackleable until your 7th term expires and everyone who voted for you is demented and dying.

The media, yes, is a problem. Local communities, politics, and experiences are supplanted by information curators who think globally, act globally. In a daily Milgram experiment, we carry out their shocks upon ourselves and bully others under the guise of being good, informed citizens.

These are the twilight years of the Information Age, but what comes next?

>>17842276
What? How about the countless nuber of french philopher who lived? Only the Germans could do better than them in this field

.>>17843274
Nonsense, its on a friends property. They know I will be there, and that I will be bringing a gun, so why wouldnt I? My skills at moving in woodland encumbered are in need of honing anyay.

>>17843210
>there’s something to be said about creative work when you’re young precisely because you’re more imaginative, more intuitive, more feeling
Perhaps. Personally I feel that I've only improved as an artist with age. When I was young I was so full of insecurity.

>>17843037
I hope you succeed in your astrozoological ambitions anon. I imagine the rodents would evolve to be smaller (as they would have less nutritonal value to the cats), and more intelligent as it would perhaps require more wits to find hiding places in an open plain compared to a house with all it's holes. Perhaps they would become adept at digging, so they would eventually be small beasts with large cumbersome heads and wide, long claws

>>17843284
I live in the South so its more cougars, wild dogs, and perhaps meth heads

>>17843310
>so why wouldnt I?
It just seems pointless and kinda tryhard to me. Especially if it's a friend's property. Like, the odds that you will need it to defend yourself seem very low. Are you gonna hunt?

>>17843037
It really seems a good plot for a Classic Sci-Fi work

>>17837088
I will make an Onlyfans account and post my naked pics to make money and buy new books. My country has shit economy and i can buy only 2 books with the amount of money i make from working for at least 10 hours. This isn’t going anywhere.
I will either marry an american or whore myself out, because I can’t take this anymore.

>>17843332
Unless I get lucky, no, hunting season is practicaly over where I am. STALKER LARPing aside, its a matter of better having one and not needing it than vice versa, and that being able to move in wilderness with something weighty and awkard is good skill to practice.

>>17843322
I live in a different country but deer hunting just ended a few weeks back, so I figured he was probably living somewhere with bears. Don't think they killed enough deer last season (probably covid and the weather being shitty) and farmers are pissed because there's more of them and fewer humans around to scare them off too.

>>17843380
Fair enough. Personally I'd rather bring a fishing rod.

>>17842959
I bet you suck in bed.

>>17843037
youd also need some fish and crustaceans

>>17843356
or you could choose not to become a worthless whore and find a different way to make money instead

>>17843396
Not him but thanks for the reminder trout fisheries are open.

count me among the filtered

>>17843503
what filtered you, fren?

>>17842996
just fumble into eachother. I mean try too play it cool and all, but you will fail and that will be good enough.

>>17843280
I’m not angry at you saying that at all but I still disagree with it. What’s in my head, I think, the diagnosis and my view of the situation which I can’t possibly convey to you in words let alone a medium like this. My life is my life and yours is yours. You can’t really understand what it is I’m talking about here anymore than I can tell you how you feel about what you had for breakfast this morning.

Working in an industrial field has made me appreciate 90s tecno beyond words

>>17843356
if you do not whore yourself out you will unironically be rewarded in the afterlife. making money off pornography will not count in your favor. famish makes things permissible but not having enough books is not a famish.

>>17843511
all of it. fuck all of it, just be filtered

>>17843532
www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7-DIrje0Fw

>>17843543
>discohead
holy kino

>>17843356
where are you from anon?

>>17843543
Good man. Fun fact, the tempo of an average KMFDM song is the exact speed you need to move at to not fuck up a vertical SMAW weld

>>17843527
I failed at trying to understand your situation. Im sorry for wasting your time.

>>17843569
>the welding shills have finally worked out how to get me in
That's better than the pay

>>17842996
follow your heart anon

>>17843573
That’s not what I mean. I just mean that I think it isnt and is (necessarily) in my head and it has to be that way. Either way, I appreciate you talking with me.

>>17843543
Attempts to not sound pretentious aside, I can now see how thoroughly industrial electronica and the like earned its name for how closely the technicalities of it as a genre sync up with machine or welding processes.

>>17843618
Lots of the dance moves of the era reflected blue collar jobs (stack the shelves, change the lightbulb) and the reason house and techno took off is because it's a beat to which anyone can dance. There's the obvious overlap of drugs and long shifts and blow out on paydays too.

anyone here ever worked as a trucker? seems like a decent and attainable living

>>17843658
There's some anon who's a trucker and listens the audiobooks the whole time.

Is there actually an increase in Asian american hate crimes or is it a meme?

>>17843645
Its really an interesting correlation, huh? Like how the enniu from East Germany and its newfound legacy of being one big Soviet sattelite industrial park lead to stuff like Die Krupps kicking off hard.

>>17843668
It could just be a consequence of an increase in Karens. It just seems racist because their victim is another race, but they'd be a shitty person even in a homogeneous ethnostate.

>>17843658
I knew a guy who did. he didn't like the pressure. driving a truck is pretty dangerous after all. the audiobook angel sounds pretty good but it's worth considering at least

>>17837088
>grey folds sneeding

>>17843677
Or Manchester being a shithole led to house and britpop.

>>17843685
>angel
angle

>>17843658
Trucks have a lot more gears than your shitbox. It's not just a jaunt down the highway.

>>17843668
Wait for WWIII and I'll show you an anti-Asian hate crime.

>>17843668
From Wikipedia:
>According to the police, Long described his actions as the result of a sex addiction that conflicted with his religious beliefs.[34][37]
>The American Psychological Association does not have sex addiction as a diagnosis in the DSM-5, following its removal in 2012.
>Long said his actions were not racially motivated.[18][19][40]
>Multiple experts have stated that race cannot be ruled out as a motive because Asian women are fetishized in American society.[45][46][47]
It's literally nothing. The guy was a mentally ill porn addict, they're blaming it on race because they don't want to talk about sex. The whole situation is completely absurd.

>>17843668
doesnt make any sense. seems more like an asian persecution complex than reality to me but as an anti racist it's my duty to let them make those claims unchallenged in the event that they are true

>>17843752
Why did they remove sex addiction from the DSM?

i wish i had been a precocious teen with literary taste, chasing the young free thinking girls around...

i was a creative and outgoing kid but as a teen i withdrew, and wrote off creative endeavor as pointless and faggotty and vain. i lost all self awareness and stopped developing socially and emotionally. i had an extremely small view of life. i didn't have the slightest clue about things like art literature or philosophy. i thought i would go on to be an engineer but really i didn't think about my future at all. i was severely depressed, i resentfully clung to my parents' right wing ideology as a defense against the liberal progressively coded social world around me (sex, parties) i felt disallowed from. my only conscious concerns were food, caffiene, and fps games. my social circle was a handful of gamers i would make 4chan type racist and suicide jokes with and decry all the "faggots" at our school.

what i shame it took until my 20's to remember who i was. highschool really broke me.

>>17843688
>house
>from Manchester
You brits really think you own dance music huh

>>17843752
If race wasn't a factor, why didn't he just shoot up a strip club or something? Why target Asian massage parlors?

>>17843752
>The American Psychological Association does not have sex addiction as a diagnosis in the DSM-5, following its removal in 2012.

Fucking hell. Is racism a mental illness?

>>17843834
>If race wasn't a factor, why didn't he just shoot up a strip club or something? Why target Asian massage parlors?

probably frequented them. they're notorious for easy prostitution.

>>17843855
Has it been established that he was a customer at any of the places he attacked? When they arrested him he was on his way to another state to do the same. You think he frequented so many massage parlors, so spread out?

>>17843849
It will be soon

>>17843356
behold woman's easymode button, and the reason they have never done anything in history

it's not that they press it all the time, it's that they press it whenever life is tough, when a man would have to use his torment to motivate himself to get out of his situation

>>17843796
I don't know, from searching around online it seems like it was the result of influential "sex positive" psychologists pushing to have it removed based on a supposed lack of evidence or effective means of treatment. It all sounds very fishy.

>>17843752
The only point at which they'll admit sex is a factor is 100 years after incels cause a thousand revolutions because they have nothing to lose from the world. Then there will be books about "how didn't we see this coming, you can't just tell the lower 40% of men to masturbate and play video games with no family and no love or sex until they die."

New thread for when this one gets to bump limit
>>17843869

>>17843668
i dont know anybody who hates asians. plenty who hate blacks, who hate whites, arabs, indians. but asians afaik are the only ones who hate asians.

>>17840732
Holy shit

>>17843888
cringe as fuck male victimhood complex

>>17843912
>you can't just tell the lower 40% of men to masturbate and play video games with no family and no love or sex until they die
This is literally not happening though

>>17843981
behold woman's easy mode defensive aura: criticize a woman for considering debasing herself and lowering herself to a sexual commodity, and some simp will rush to the rescue to defend woman qua woman from criticism qua criticism

you are why simping should be grounds for postnatal abortion

>>17843992
good tweet, post content or continue being empty

>>17844001
incel qua incel

>>17844052
the 0.25th of a joke this post contains is not worth the 0 of content it contains

>have sex
look at what actually just happened: i criticized a woman for lowering herself to a function of her anonymous sexual capital, so you said "that's cringe" (translation: you will be socially unpopular for saying this). i criticized your low effort appeal to popularity, you said "incel" (translation: you will be so unpopular you won't have sex for saying this). everything revolves around sex, pussy, social capital (to be exchanged for sex and pussy) in your mind. you have said nothing whatsoever.

i hope you're a woman. if you're a man you are the ultimate simp, you think like a woman on behalf of women for no reward when women aren't even present. but i strongly suspect woman.

note i'm not talking to you (you're retarded) but to any onlookers who might be curious about why a woman's existence is so sad when she lives it as an adjunct to the fact of her possessing of vagina.

>>17840720
children human are just a maggot

>>17843834
Manchester is a shithole even by British standards. To be fair though, the American scene was a big influence too, but the American scenes didn't get as insane as Madchester did because the first house club in NYC got shut down pretty fast for drugs while the first house club in Manchester was run by the drug dealers. Chicago vocals are a way bigger influence on house than most anything coming out of NYC for years even though NYC is in the height of its club scene.

>>17844086
Bloviate all you want, it's nothing but an ineffectual temper tantrum

>>17844158
don't try to be fancy when you're ESL

>>17844086
>you think like a woman on behalf of women for no reward when women aren't even present
this is not a healthy mindset

>>17841250
>Is there such a thing as an intelligent expression of violence
Sports and martial arts.

>>17840732
So when are you writing the book?

>>17842683
Because you let them.

>>17843888
hello anon. i think you're absolutely right. Most of my female friends also want a sugar daddy or wanna make an onlyfans account (they talk about this ironically but i know they actualy want it.)

this may sound dumb but i think men are actually smarter when it comes to such situations. when something bad happens i feel like giving up but most guys would be even more ambitious. idk women are dumb i guess. and this is coming from a woman.

>>17843557
south europe