/lit/ - Literature

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>reading my old poetry

>reading my try hard aphoristic diaries entries when i was 18 in my nietzsche phase where every second sentence has exclamation marks
ahhhhh fucking kill me please

reading your old philosophical musings

>read old writing
>notice you’ve become significantly more retarded

>>17406141
I'm going through my undergrad honors thesis. Please make it stop

>>17406145
That's actually the worst. I thank GOD I've never tried publishing anything

>>17406166
so sad but this. some hold stuff i look at and think "how the fuck was i ever this good??

>>17406166
This. So so painful

>>17406175
*old stuff

>>17406162
this. it's all bullshit ligotti-tier edgy pessimism

>>17406135
I could write interesting literature many years back. Now all I write is dry descriptive prose.

>>17406240
Don't cry that it happened, smile that it's gone

>>17406161
HAH. Same here but i was 16. Read the gay science 'til the madman part and wrote some suicidal poetry and aphorisms. I was sooo dumbbbb. Didn't even consider self destruction through drugs until two years after.

>>17406240
this, my writing flowed out of me a year or so ago, probably because I was so active and inspired but now I'm inactive and it takes a lot out of me to write

>>17406275
The worst part is I wrote a school essay in that obnoxious style. I got a horrible mark for it and my little pseud ass absolutely deserved it.

i definitely got more stupid over 2020 idk why prob cuz lack of social interaction plus no good exercise

>>17406293
Lol, i remember i wrote one about dantes inferno in grade 11 saying how the rings didnt make sense and they were loaded with hypocrisy that stemmed from dantes belief system - christianity rekt right? To top it off i loved guitar hero growing up and titled my essay "Through the Fire and Flames."

I never understood this pepe... why does he have 4chan and two other pepes in his eyes?

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>I have met not a savior but a man, like you or me. An Albion if ever there was one. I have made one step towards my goal but from this new vantage I see it draw away — it is further than I thought. At least now I may know. I am at any rate, a man, first of all.

I think I wrote this after going on a date lmao

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luckily i didn't let my extracurricular glutton college buddy talk me into writing for the school paper or there'd be all this super cringe marxist bitching about bush in the archives with my name on it lol fuck bush but i mean marxism is goofy

>>17406305
KILL ME LMAO I FOUND IT

All the outrageous and retarded shit you read is just another person’s cringe phase. Be patient with others and stay self-assured

>>17406382
>“now that’s honesty”
LMAOOOOOOO

>>17406382
damn you even typed it on red paper?

>>17406395
Lol i tried the best i could on an iphone to deep fry it

>>17406382
This one hurts.

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>>17406402
Now that i think of it that mightve been grade 10. A 4 is essentially an A. I killed that shit in the end.

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>>17406382
Holy kek, did your professor right that?

>>17406437
Yeah, i got rekt. She was the dumbest, hottest substitute ever.

>>17406166
Same. Reading all my old college essays and the professors writing notes in the margins about how incredible it was and encouraging me into a career of writing or journalism, and I'm sitting here ten years later thinking "who the fuck wrote this stuff, not me I'm retarded lmao" then going back to finishing my wageslave-at-home work and playing my ecchibait gacha trash phone games.

>Is it better to die alone in truth than to submit to the ignorant comfort of the masses? The question is false in itself, for the truth can not be denied once known and the ignorant know no comfort. They know only the illusion of reprieve. To dance with the common folk is to dance with those who worship shadows.

Cringe or based?

>>17406382
Bonus cringe (same guy), i wrote this one in a philosophy class in university about freud's book civilization and its discontents. Its actually the end to a phenomenal paper and i shat this passage out after an allnighter before my 11am lecture so its more forgivable.

>>17406506
can u at least rotate this shiz

>>17406385
my whole adult life is a cringe phase. i probably won't get out of until i'm retired. it does help reduce nostalgia when every memory is wack at least.

Speak for yourself, I cranked out a paper on political philosophy in 6 hours and it was good enough that the professor said I "have a beautiful mind" and waived the three day late penalty because "something this well-produced was worth the wait."

>>17406135
I recently found an essay i did for english 101 in college and the whole thing is just blatantly mocking and ridiculing how stupid i thought the instructor of the class was with soft apologetics for national socialism scattered throughout. Its no wonder that i didn't do so well in school.

My very first journal entry, came after finishing The Count of Monte Cristo.

>To know life is to cherish life
>Beauty placed into words: a form into which I could put my entire life. The day will come when beauty is mastered and but one more day would accomplish nothing.
-8 February 2006

I look back on myself and realize how fucking stupid I was. I worry that in the future I will look back on me now and think the same

>>17406135
I got into lit pretty late, at the age of 23 (26 now). In the same year i started making youtube video essays on philosophy which got me over 1k subs and a few thousand views per video. I haven't made a video in a while but i can't bear to go back and watch the old ones because my knowledge has grown so much since then and they feel so surface level.

>find flash drive full of poetry I wrote ten years ago
>at the time I thought it was worthless garbage and I had no talent
>its actually pretty good
>if I'd had more self belief I could have made something of it instead of giving up and becoming an accountant

>>17406135
>I was already based when I was 15

>>17406135
so true. But Anon, that means you've grown. to look back on your old work and cringe means you've bettered yourself.

good vibes anon :3

>tfw you read your old sketch comedy ideas and most of it is rape/jerking off based

>>17406318
Yo- you have good syntax bro, just get rid of the cringe and I believe you could write.

>Reading my old giantess vore fetish stories

>>17406135
>these statues stand they never speak
>the broken ones, brittle and weak
>they're not alive they never were
>standing still forevermore

uhhh yeah, great stuff, I was such a poet.

I marvel at them because I see how far I've grown, and have all sorts of different memories surging through my brain.

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>>17406483
Not that bad really.

>>17406483
Former, for sure.

>>17406135
I see very little stylistic change between what I wrote ten years ago and what I write now. On the one hand, it means I was pretty good for a beginner. On the other, I have barely made progress. I should write more often.

>>17408126
Post an excerpt

I have no idea what influences were in this... I'm thinking Pynchon and Beckett, but in a very dumbed down way.

>>17406135
Reading my teenage ramblings on philosophy that I thought were profound at the time

>>17406166
more retarded and depressed

Bump for cringe essay thread. Ok bros who wants to see my magnum opus history essay on Manx history?

>>17406162
>"We generalize negatively about people because it's less painful to believe that everyone is disapointing than it is to know that things could have been better"

This is why I’m glad I didn’t write anything in my teen years.

there are times when i look back and feel embarrassed because of what i wrote, and there are times when im actually impressed with my wit or technical ability--it all balances out for me

>>17409342
yes

>>17409353
how do I share it? It's 13 pages long so I doubt you want to suffer through screenshots.

>>17409315
>"It would be difficult for one to argue that people living this modern age do not, at least in the first world, enjoy the greatest material comfort of any group in human history. Indeed, the industrial revolution brought with it sweeping changes which are commonly accepted to be net positives for humanity. Nearly every major field of modern science advanced rapidly or was born in this period and industry became exponentially more productive. However, we find ourselves to be increasingly unhappy, directionless, and fearful of the future. This is due to the fatal flaw of the industrial revolution; in focusing entirely on the material it neglected the emotional and spiritual needs of humanity. And so we sit rotting in our gilded cages, gorging ourselves on the earthly delights in an attempt to supplant the sense of meaning lost in this great modernization."

I legitimately thought that this was profound

>>17406135
>Read your old writings
>It's far more soulful, genuine, and deeply felt than what you write today

>>17407032
There's an important lesson in that. Those who stop questioning if they might be stupid are the stupidest of all.

>>17409371
This. I've become a fucking machine :(

>>17409360
screenshots are fine

>>17406161
Same.

>>17406135
Be proud that you have progressed so far.

I once thought most people were kind. Now I know that humans hate other humans and it is only a complete lack of free will that brings them together. Even their mock kindness is self seeking for warm fuzzies.

>>17409383
okay here we go buckle up

I can't tell if this old aphorism is good or cringe:

>You wish for more chaos, more fire, more magic, and more “story” in your life? You wish for a “manic pixie dream girl” to arrive in the middle of your bleakest bleakness and make you finally see in color again with her mad jumping and prancing and the way that time stops when she smiles and you notice as if for the first time how the corners of her lips crease into the rosy lushness of her cheeks and the levity of her eyes? How selfish! You expect—no, need—everything done to you…have you ever considered doing everything to others? Do you deserve to have the narrative of your life made breathtaking by those exceedingly-rare shooting-star-people if you are nothing in their story and not a shooting-star yourself? I say No. You first!

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>>17409407
and then anon was a manic pixie dreamboy

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>>17409418
yeah that was unironically the point pretty much haha

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>>17409463
there it is boys

>>17406135
>tfw the first assignment for your high school civics class was to write a paper about what you thought the biggest issues in the world were, and your answers were opposition to technology, the continued existence of religion, and the denial of statistical differences in intelligence by race
I have zero idea whether I was cringe, based, or some weird quantum superposition of the two, but I'm really glad my teacher never brought it up after that.

>>17409468
How'd you end up doing on it?

>>17409407
Good.
>>17409497
You were cringe.

>>17409498
iirc I got an 88? I'm horrible at gauging the quality of my writing so I limped through university confident that I would fail but always doing surprisingly well.

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>>17409497
Good God I did a presentation on nationalism in grade 12 and I shudder thinking about how brazen I was. It was full "fuck refugees, Trump based, keep Europe White". Autism is a wonderful power.

>>17409516
University stuff is more about showing you are aware of the different positions in the field in question and how they relate to each other rather than anything you personally think.

>>17409546
Doubly so for undergrad. It's definitely hyped up to be much more intimidating than it actually is.

>>17409555
Undergrad is three years of writing '4chan et al believe x applies to y, while plebbit et all believe z applies to y; my daring synthesis is that xz applies to y'

>>17409528
a few years later you're kneeling to muslims

>>17406135
how did you get started?

>>17409602
No I just got much better at hiding unsavoury opinions.

I had a fucking gift and I squandered it.

>>17409405
>2019
That was a little more than a year ago.

>that time you tried to impress your freshmen literature class by saying your favorite poet is Rimbaud despite only having read like three poems by him and not really understanding them at all
>no one knows who the fuck you're talking about so you come off as a huge pretentious dweeb
Ah memories

>>17410232
Did... did you at least pronounce his name correctly?

>>17409407
While the point maybe fair, the way it is written is fucking dreadful, bro. Hope you got better at it.

>>17406135
Holy cringe this is relatable. I always delete word files that feel like an old me trying to sound smart FUUUUUUUUUUUCK

>>17410303
I pronounce it "Rim-Bud" because that's what he liked to do

>Reading old diary entries
>Sept 22: Nothing
>Oct 10: have not written in 10 days
>Oct 11: cannot muster the effort to write
>Oct 16: tried to write again. useless.

>>17410303
I tried but I think I butchered it still.

>>17409364

Were you reading Uncle Ted at the time by any chance?

>>17407730
based

>>17410645
Oh yeah.

>>17410531
kek

>>17409364
you're on par with big Ted

>read old essay
>This is similar in many ways to what Deleuze means by ..., and what Heidegger calls ..., and Derrida calls ....
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I HAVE TO COMMIT SUICIDE IMMEDIATELY

>that time my journal entries went from good quality prose about my daily activities to schizo ramblings about topics manifold, all over the course of a year
that time is right now, t-thanks /lit/

>>17406135
It feels good getting better

>>17406166
I think I was smarter at 15 than I am now.

>A lit room proves the existence of the observed to the observer by the mere light which bounces off it. All exists within the realm of the observer's reality. Yet the second light is taken away, and darkness consumes, the observer loses all sense of knowing. All ties are cut; your brothers; your sisters; your face; your legs; everything is gone and nothing can be proven. All becomes a guess but one. When the observer fails to observe any longer, he is left with but a significant shred of knowledge, that he--his mind, his consciousness--exists.

didn't know I used to be so afraid of the dark and so cringe

>>17409793
So in other words you're the same cringey retard. Huh.

>>17406135
I never got to write essays
In STEM you just write exams, and they suck. The professors are all antagonists and your fellow students can't relate to you

>>17406135
Back in high school we had to write a paper continuing off after the ending of 1984 and it was was edgelord murder fantasy of my OC character I made up called Scarlet. What really pains me was writing in stuttering in the dialogue and writing every minor pause with ...

Based or cringe bros?

>>17406135
Back in high school we had to write a paper continuing off of the ending of 1984. We were allowed a lot of artistic liberty and were encouraged to take it in a unique direction. Mine was an edgelord murder fantasy of my OC character I made up called Scarlet. Back when I wrote it I thought it was hot shit because I would include some trite, George Lucas tier "pottery" callback. What really pains me was writing in stuttering in the dialogue and incessantly using "..." to illustrate every pause in a character's conversation and thoughts.

Based or cringe bros?

>>17411179
Improved

>thinking about the essay i wrote on The Chronicles of Riddick with the final sentence "Because you keep what you kill." written entirely in earnest

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that's based
why are you being a little bitch boy now?

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>>17411711
also throughout high school and college i referred to the Industrial Revolution in every single essay i wrote regardless of subject. that memory is more enjoyable

>>17411754
i like that

I found an old paper from 8th grade about how guilty I was about the trail of tears because I'm White. I don't even remember writing that.

>>17412027
lmao

>>17411754
hahaha that sounds great

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>>17412068
it was very fun and quite challenging at times to make it seem natural

memory unlocked
>wrote an essay analyzing pink floyd's "TIme"

>Objectivity is analogous to the set of all real numbers and is necessarily a subset of the subjective. The set of the subjective contains all real numbers and all of their conceptual counterparts. Our perception of objective reality is thus possible but phenomenologically indistinguishable from the subjective
What do I think of this /lit/?

>>17409409
You cited the Manx Gaelic name of the island top fucking kek

>>17410358
Maybe in a way it's good to preserve the cringe -- manhood made in real time, the process of powerful recognition that the past was cringe. Therein resides growth and a move beyond bad art. Maybe this is based

>>17412302
I had to get all the citations and fluff info I could kek

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>>17409379
he is wisest who knows himself to be a fool

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>>17406307
He's looking at reaction images to the market/crypto crashing on /biz/

I wrote this spergy sphaghetti fest of a paper for my French waifu in a gender studies course
https://tmpfiles.org/dl/151114/Joan.pdf

>>17412803
Oh my god it all makes sense

>>17406135
my high school free topic essays about Evangelion

>>17412886
I had to write a 20,000 word story in grade 11 English and I think there was as section where the protagonist killed a bear with frozen shit

>>17412852
>cross dressing—a sin in the Bible
Lulwut

>>17406506
>"civilization" 3 or 4 times in one sentence

>>17406135
>when you remember that one essay where you advocated a fleet of drones to be incorporated as part of the nation’s infrastructure—lent to farmers for agricultural work and used by the state for detecting and prosecuting crime
>when the your dreams of yesterday’s past become your nightmares of today’s reality

>>17406318
godawful

>>17406506
>the end to a phenomenal paper
I doubt that.

>>17409407
I shit better aphorism. its not dringe just trivial.

>>17406135
My historical fiction essay from 5th grade
https://tmpfiles.org/download/151130/HistoricalFiction6-1-1.pdf

>>17407032
Think of it this way. If someday you look back on your present self and think the same, that only means you continue to become more intelligent.

>>17407032
the worst part is i can look at myself now and see what my future self will consider stupid but i just can't seem to snap out of it, meh

>>17410864
That’s what I was aiming for at the time. My anprim phase was a weird transition phase between being a generic liberal and being a dissident right winger.

>>17406382
Now that's nasty!

>>17409345
That's actually not bad

>>17413145
bro it's 5th grad cut yourself some slack. I was writing cringe HisFic until the 9th grade

>>17406175
This is worse than cringing at your bad old writing.
If you read what you wrote yeas ago and cringe about how bad it is, that shows that at least you are getting better with time.

You're going to be embarressed by your old writing. It's called being an English student.

>>17406483
>To dance with the common folk is to dance with those who worship shadows
This kills it.

>>17406382
Laughing my a** off

>>17406145
HELL WORLD
HELL WORLD
HELL WORLD

>>17406135
My essays have always been pretty great. I once showed up for maybe three or four classes in undergrad English, turned an essay in, then never showed up again. My professor said it was the best essay she'd ever had turned in and gave me an A in the class.

>>17412926
Audibly laughed at this one

>>17410328
I think it was pretty good. How would you write it?