/lit/ - Literature

>>16859790
I dunno. I have dabbled in horror/scifi/fantasy writing and reading. I've read Lovecraft, Junji Ito, GRRM, Tolkien, and Asimov, etc. I've written scary stories and attempted fantasy writing. But at the end of the day I want to write stories that make people laugh and feel good. I am tired of the misery in the world and I am sad that so many people are suffering. I would like to write comedies that make people laugh and forget their troubles for just a moment. I don't want to write parodies like Pratchett and Adams though, I'd like to "be serious" about it, so to speak. It's a shame all the serious stuff gets so dark. No real model for me to work off of, except Shakespeare to some degree. Ah well, I guess I'm lucky then, I'll be a pioneer.

After having a totally disappointing hookup, I think i've lost my interest in sex. Porn is just so much better in every way

>>16859790
So you call this a dark winter, huh? Get the fuck over yourselves.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9tjdswqGGVg

>>16859892
Don't care, still voting for Macron (in America)

>>16859853
If horror interests you, then maybe I can tell you something encouraging: Lovecraft is funny and comfy. Junji Ito is absurd and over the top. People know that there are no ghosts and demons. They feel like there is nothing supernatural in this world. Every supernatural horror story automatically develops into a fairy tale – and fairy tales, even dark ones, act like a warm blanket. Atleast it is like that for me, and for the people I have talked about it with (one other person). Maybe you can make people laugh and smile with horror, even if they feel scared at first. In an epicurean world, why would anyone do anything except for joy? If people read horror books, horror books bring them joy. What could be a better goal, then, than writing horror stories?

>>16859790
no

It's inconceivable to me that anyone would take an epiphenomenal view of consciousness. I can't imagine what sort of hack would believe such hokum, and what sort of mental self-trickery you'd have to engage in to do so. It is to deny the first and most obvious fact of life: conscious states cause behavior.
Take for example the condition called congenital insensitivity to pain. It is a rare genetic disorder that causes someone to not experience any pain. They will sometimes break their ankles without realizing it, put on a shoe and go on with their day, bite off their tongues, or get serious burns. The causal agent here is the inability to feel pain. Pain, like hunger or pleasure, is an internal communications signal--a primal, subvocal and pre-linguistic sign system that allows the organism to regulate its behaviors, allowing the brain to represent its own state through interoception. The question should not be whether conscious states can cause behavior, but why and how it does. Why bother to give conscious states a function at all, when some other mechanism might be feasible? The feeling of pain is urgent: it communicates that the offending situation must be attended to immediately. Anything less than pain, would not induce the same immediate reaction. Similarly, if sex didn't feel so good, there would be no reason to bother will all the trouble around it, and the species would go extinct. Hunger and the tasty satisfaction of food provide a dual, positive and negative reinforcement system to motivate eating, and so on.

Every sensation statement "I am in pain/ I am hungry, I am tired," is a feeling statement "I feel pain/ I feel hungry/ I feel tired" which is the blunt communication signal which tells you that a certain course of action is necessary. Each one is a conditional trigger, that causes the associated action: I am hungry, so I must seek food.

It is foolish to seek explanations for these things in tiny chemicals when it is the global internal communication system of the body that speaks in the language of sensations.

>>16860027
:)

I have never thought about it that way, thank you anon. I guess in my head there’s always been the guilt associated with reading/writing horror; I do enjoy it, but I have always felt guilty for doing so. Probably because I have always felt that it’s “bad” to be interested in the macabre. You remind me of my parents, they also have told me to enjoy horror media for what it is and not to get caught up on whether doing so is wrong.

I love reading and literature, but I have no desire whatsoever to write.

>>16860111
the literary economy depends on people like you

>>16859790
Lmao you pathetic racists never fail to make me laugh with your “pol humor” threads. Face it, most poc will be infinitely more successful than any of you sad virgins will ever be. You are on the wrong side of history, get over it losers

how do you gift books for xmas? or gift books generally?

how do you strike a balance between your taste and their taste?

i think gifting one of your own favorite books can come off as self aggrandizing if the person you are gifting it to reads as much as you. this might be ok if the person is already closely bonded to you - if they are, say, a parent, a sibling, or a spouse. or, i think if they are a non-reader, the notion of gifting a favorite comes off more favorably, as your guidance in taste is not challenging their own. is it acceptable to gift a book you have not read? i think that comes off flippant, unless it is esoteric enough in catering to their taste. i think merely buying someone a book by an author they have merely told you they are interested in might come across as thoughtless.

Reading is nice but the majority of books I read hold no true meaning or value. It appears that reading is just another way for me to waste precious time.

Women have no souls so it's impossible to commint a crime against them that God would't forgive.

>>16860477
There was plenty of women God was quite fond of, and Jesus rescued a sinner from death to place her at his side. Think twice before you fall straight into Satan's lap.

>>16860477
this kind of mysoginy is pathological, self-hating, self-denying, and ultimately anti-life

consider your actions and position toward the world, and contemplate the past failures or frustrations that may have led your here.

i will pray for you tonight, i wish you the best

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jt8JMQUoKto
I used to be so mad when I found out about incels.co, the blackpill, etc.
Then I mellowed out, thought the incel problem was overblown as a convenient scapegoat by the media.
Then I watched this.

hurts
hurting afraid hurts scared heart like a gerbil in a jhydraulic press, fur puree
fingers palsied
bleeding to death under my nails, thin blood like light machine oil, hydrophobic, mercurial blobs, lavalamp joining, rejoining
mirrors are an abombination so i put the glass into my face slide it perpendicular into the bones under my eyes
thinking about cell division the sound of it all, the failures sloughing off into protein mush, mulchy underlayer of mutant failures beneath the geometric perfection of my skin
they put the kids in the basement and leave them there and then they do it again and again and after a while they come in with a shovel and scrape the waste and the remains off the floor, bloody tissue-paper flesh, sinew scrapings, crusted piss, shit, bright baby teeth, rotten bones
they eat that. they eat it and they laugh

theyre gonna make it last
mexican cartel execution videos occupy a special place in my heart
cool how the organs inflate as they burst through the skin, contents under pressure. curling intestinal loops puffing up exposed to the air
horrible inertia in the bodily processes - we die piecemeal and very slowly
the worst part is always the first irreversible - the eyeball screwdrivered (they would never use an icecream scoop. never a teaspoon. not fingers. a knife. always a knife); fingers lost, the moment when you know that theyre really fucked, gonna die no matter what - rents all over the skin, knife to the abdomen and long slow pull up
and the violation of the skin. cutting it open like playing with a corpse but you jerk and shudder away (can't)
can feel their excitement, trying to keep their buzzing bile down, wanna impress the boys hurt this judas fuck, feel clumsy - humans aren't meant to come apart they're held together with sinews and bones and stuff, gotta know where to cut but you dont so you just hack away and tear open the skin and muscles down to the yellow fat and the lean brown fat piggy piggy piggy

imagine this: they imaple your side, rupture a kidney, and then drag it out the side, leave you flapping in the wind. piss or something spills out of you, organ juices. you can still crawl. you can still feel, you can still breathe and think and try to get away.

they could let you crawl into the bush and then do it again, maybe shear off the side of your scalp, cheek, leave you to thrash. you're dead already but you dont know it, hope thrashing in your beating heart

or maybe you just go into shock and curl up and only twitch and moan when they tear hanks of flesh from your thighs and breasts, delicate man-titties ruination

>>16860570
watching this kind of stuff is poison to your brain. there may be bits of truth in this, i won't argue, but it is not the full picture, it is part a neurotically self-reinforcing failure-cycle.

for 99% of people this kind of thinking is ultimately destructive. the vast majority of people do not think like psychopathic apex predators. online dating dehumanizes, it is true, but you as a man are biologically programmed to attract women.

try to be your best self (and this should already be one's goal in life, not solely to attract women) and mix with the world, and you will find women who want to have sex with you. it's LITERALLY as simple as that.

when your "cynicism" or "realism" or "blackpill" deny that, you are only being lazy and letting yourself off the hook of putting in the work everyone else does.

>>16860570
the problem here is that you wasted 2 hours watching this instead of reading a fucking book

i want to wake up in a bright lit interrogation room with the one way mirror glass
completely alone, dressed in a paper gown, bare feet on the heated tile floor
high ceilings, dull flat panel lights, cameras in mesh cages or little glass hemidemispheres
always watched
questions come through speakers. IQ tests, jesuitical ethics. they're so interested in me and im special, i matter, im a threat or a prodigy or something
maybe aliens? upperdimensional transect examination? should i scribe pythagoras's triangle in my blood, ape understanding to prove sentience or at least intelligence
madness comes faster than expected. wanna keep composed because I love this, makes my cunt throb to be sealed away like this safe and warm but i cant, need change or something. ancestral environment?
masturbating in the warm sodium light, lying in grimy sweat on the floor, shift rumpled and pressing lines into my skin. lethargy feels lethal, air thickening, pressing like a atmospheric snake into my throat, sucking all the motion from me
shitting and rubbing myself in the filthy warmth. i can smell it and it smells like me, hot and human and earthy good
they stopped talking to me a while back
dont know how long

a girl I dated two years ago apparently got married earlier this year

I want to be locked in a jailhouse with nothing to do but read, write and exercise. Like that one short story.

>>16860781
kill somebody

I hate how much of a Pacified goy I am.
I basically take orders by anybody and my fear to disappoint them/of confrontation is the tepid fire that moves me in everything I do.
Wake me from this nightmare.

>>16860781
You'll still find a way to disappoint yourself.

Encompassing priority pyramid
1. Interests/Hobbies
2. Family/Relationships
3. Survival (sleep, eat, shelter)

>>16861002
>my fear to disappoint them/of confrontation is the tepid fire that moves me in everything I do.
KI L LE MA LL

do it coward DO IT fucking KISS the blade punch it into the occiptal bone like surgical titanium howl from the gut fill your chest like a chimp and snap limbs like chickenbone toothpicks

you're fucking defective. think about the hive, the HIVE that you see behind your eyelids, clockwork insects in a bumbling kind of harmony working, always working (the hive is SOCIETY)

sometimes the insects are born blind or limbless. the work is paramount. the broken infants are euthanized and dismantled for parts.

sometimes the damage is subtler. sometimes a grub is born with half a soul, half a mind. it bumbles along and tries its best. the insects try to fix it - try to recover their investment rather than scrap the whole and try again. you can be patched together. think of crusted bandages lashing together a weeping bloody mass like tenderized meat, barely functional. heavy breathing. shambling steps. that's you. that's your soul. that's your SOUL

the world does not optimize for your happiness. you will continue to exist. hell is real and we swim in its fire every second

>"tepid fire" is good. I can relate. I sympathize. It's a good phrase. You made something that rings true. Be proud of that.

Bloat-Bloat, Bloat McGoat.
I ate, I ote my belly bloat.
Goat Goat, Goat McBloat
I wish I had ote less broat
I wish i had buttered it less
for now surely I'll make a mess
A mess, interests those with purple vests
Or are their vests a shade of periwinkle
No idea, no idea, no idea what to do
so i wrote this junk just for you :D

things i am
lonely
horny
uninspired
phlegmatic
listless

therer's nothing on my mind

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PaKaS3lKEYk

If you stand upright, you become confident. If you laugh, you become happy. Ok, I think I finally understand.

>>16859853
If you comedy done very seriously read At Swim-Two-Birds and especially The Third Policeman. The latter has a dark strain to it that I'd call horror, but the book doesn't exactly let you on to it. I'm sure it'd be up your alley.

was it kino?

i have a long, long drive ahead of me today and i’m going to visit a farm-run gift shop on the side of the road that i haven’t been to in a couple of years. i will get some honey with comb, apple butter, and orange marmalade. i’m visiting my family and my mother is a narcissist but in just a few days i’ll be back at my apartment enjoying marmalade and tea. my elderly cat went to heaven a few days ago so i will pick up the pin the vet gave my parents, a few childhood books that i remember wrapped around me like a hug, a few photos, and my cat’s old blanket. even though this will be hard, it is the right thing to do and at the end of this week i will be happy that i did it.

>>16859790
Just come home from my first day of work in over six months today. Waking up at quarter to five in the morning almost killed me, but I actually enjoyed the work quite a bit as there was always something to do for the entire shift. Made a little chavvy mate too which is always nice. My legs tho, are absolutely wracked with pain, I was on my feet the entire time and according to my phone I've walked nearly twenty kilometres already, so for the rest of the day I'm just going to put my feet up, get some minerals in me, and try to recuperate for tomorrow. Had I Am The Fly stuck in my head all day.

morning friends = )

>>16861976
morning bud :^)

>>16861982
hows it going, anon?

>>16861857
very nice anon. I sadly cannot really remember anything in particular associated with my childhood. When I think about my childchood I think of fragments of tv shows and some video games, maybe some toys here and there that are long gone. Nothing that really "sticks" with me or has any meaning. A lot of the things I grew up with were temporary and for the sake of hedonistic pleasure. I guess that's normal because I'm gen z and the internet was like the main thing. I grew up in a ghetto which they gentrified now to the point where it's almost unrecognizable.
I wish I read books when I was a child. I was never into the harry potter or eragon craze. I played stupid multiplayer vidya instead, most of which I do not care about at all anymore. I know it's cliche to say this but I really do not like the generation I was raised in. Everything seems so disposable and unworthy of any nostalgic feelings, and the things I'm somewhat nostalgic about are all displayed by a stupid screen. Disposable trash that exhausts your mind and distracts you from any particular bond with the real world.

>>16862013
i don’t think that is a cliche sentiment...it comes from a real place. i am a zoomer and so i also had the plastic trash upbringing but my parents didn’t have much money so i was never up-to-date on toys, and i got grounded a lot for being distracted in school and reading from the free-time bookshelf in class, so when i got home i’d be locked in my room with my cat and my bookshelves and reading was how i passed the time. i do have that sort of attachment to things on the screen, to neopets, maplestory, some spiderman gane, animal crossing, kingdom hearts 2 etc. but i was in trouble so frequently during the school year that i logged alll of my screen-hours in the summer. my memories of square enix game music are almost as powerful as my memories of my old bookshelf but there’s something about seeing a cabbage soup stain on a page that i remember putting there at age 9 that almost throws me back to...the smell? of being in the bosom of childhood.

>>16862013
Same, but I was lucky to grow up in an elementary school with its own unique reading program and it did a lot of good. The school had a catalog of books which you could pick out to read and then take quizzes on in a semester long game, and whoever had the most points at the end won prizes. I don't remember the books I chose for it, but I placed fairly well, and it's probably a factor in why I read so heavily in that time period, more so than any time since in fact. But I get what you mean. It's a little odd to see nostalgic reverence for stuff like daytime TV now when it was the true bottom of the barrel. Multiplayer vidya can have value though if it's a way to bond with friends. Did you have the chance to experience that?

>>16862094
>Multiplayer vidya can have value though if it's a way to bond with friends. Did you have the chance to experience that?
Not really. I mean I played a lot of cod mw2 and 3 on pc, but I never really had that lobby trash talk experience that everyone nowadays loves to remember because players on pc would simply use the chat and refuse to talk with a mic. I didn't go out of my way to make online friends though. There are some people that I played a couple of rounds with but nothing more than that.
Actually, I'm 20 now and when I was like 15 I began getting really into cs:go with a couple of classmates. I wouldn't call them friends but we did play together sometimes and it was a lot of fun. We actually managed to abuse a skin gambling site and made quite a bit of money off of that until the mods noticed and shut it down. that was fun. but yeah these kids are all going their own way and I don't think they like me, nor do I really like them if I'm being honest. I've been pretty lonely since I was 16. Also I'm not really into vidya anymore. I play some games here and there but now I'm more interested in literature, philosophy, movies, the arts etc.

It seems like this whole town has a completely different mindset and I'm unable to connect with anybody. The places I grew up in simply do not exist anymore (the school was literally shut down after my class graduated) and everywhere I look I see old buildings which I remember from my way to school being replaced by expensive "minimalistic" postmodern apartments for yuppies and the like. Really makes me think that my hometown is no different from any other in europe despite what people say about it. I will move to Frankfurt in a couple of months and I don't think I'll miss anything or anyone except my cat.

>>16862222
Interesting, sounds a lot like mine too but I had friends to play splitscreen multiplayer for a while with as well. I'm 22 though and in retrospect my generation (slightly yours as well?) were the absolute last to have real splitscreen, and in the last few years we've been pushed into boring online matchmaking systems and such which to me ruins the fun of it. Playing sports with friends isn't just kicking a ball around, but being there in person and sharing a drink. Putting it online takes away from it.

Well, I know what you mean about the growing up thing. After I finished high school my family was evicted, and I stayed for some months in a motel. One night I ordered a pizza and the deliveryman was an old acquaintance from my orchestra class. We weren't too close but he was a cool guy, and pretty congenial toward me. It's that kind of stuff that makes you think, perhaps we should have been closer. But it's a difficult subject. If you're feeling lost in life it's a good idea to look back to the classics for guidance, for real.

Why is the letter w called "double u" in English? It's retarded. Why not call the letter m "double n" too. It also makes acronyms hard to say, its easier to say world wide web than www

Reading comments about manga chapters can really make one believe humanity these days does not know of any other form of relationship but sexual one. When and where did it all go wrong?

i don't know when i first noticed her, but i do vaguely remember my first impression. weird overalls. they weren't really overalls, more like snow pants, but they had these black suspenders and it reminded me of something that a little kid would wear. beautiful jacket hanging over the chair. i wish my girlfriend would wear something like that. probably too feminine for her. white coat, blue and pink flowers. great design. she was seated alone, facing towards us, waiting for her food. she had a very round face, chubby cheeks, short blonde hair and big blue eyes, which, combined with her suspenders, created a very child-like impression. she was adorable.

her food arrived, and i was shocked by the massive crab legs on the plate. look at those fucking crab legs! i whispered, under my breath. it was impressive to watch her eat them. she sucked out all of the meat with such enthusiasm. here was a girl that was not afraid to get her hands dirty. and that mouth. i watched in amazement as she sucked so much crab meat out of those hulking long crab legs. she looked euphoric. i occasionally remarked on the progress of her dinner to my friend as we waited for our food. each time he told me to speak more quietly. what if she heard you? he said. finally, i resolved to speak to her. she was cute. she was child-like. and how she sucked the meat out of those crab legs. she had soul.

i stood to go to the toilet. a line. a line for the male toilet. i don't believe in human rights. just a social construct. you can say anything is a human right. there is no scientific measurement, no black and white definition. if i had my own list of human rights, it would be a human right for men to never have to wait in line at the toilet. waiting in line for the toilet is for women.

eventually it was my turn. i locked the door, peed, fixed my hair in the mirror. actually i didn't look so bad today. constant wind and snow. no moisturiser in my bag. no space for it. baggage cost extra. it was the arctic circle. but my skin was handling it okay. i went back to the dining room. i hoped she'd still be there.

i glanced at her table as i entered. empty. i chided myself. should have taken the opportunity while you had the chance you never regret the things you do, only the things you don't do you only live once you'd never have seen her again anyway. these thoughts entered my head all at once, in a stroke of masochistic self-reproachment. but then, there she was. sitting at...OUR table. he'd gone to her. the bastard.

I'm tired, so goddamn tired.
I'm tired of reading, listening to, watching things. I haven't really wanted to do that in such a long time yet I kept going although it feels like an empty self-serving exercise. I'm hoping that doing that will get me to an epiphany that I know will never come. I'm tired of talking to people, of dealing with their stupid shit, of reading their scripted answers. I'm tired of changing people only to find more of the same. I am tired of the faceless people on the internet, I am tired of the photos people upload. I'm tired of hoping that this will eventually bring me to real understanding that will never come. I am tired of the practical emails and instant messaging that tell me to finish things I don't care about for a world I don't care about. I am tired of people's faces behind counters doing meaningless things. I am tired of the meaningless thank yous and good evenings. I am tired of my own family. I am tired of the people on TV whose names I keep hearing in conversations. I am tired of the supermarket soundtracks adorning my life with further squalor. I'm tired of squalid play, I'm tired of squalid laughing, I'm tired of the news, I'm tired of anger. I'm tired of pictures of whores I did not ask for. I'm tired of temporary distractions. I am tired of having no hope that any of this will change on a personal or global scale. I am tired of the condescending optimism that parasitically attaches itself like a magnet to every tired scream of a tired man, like the fly that inevitably lands on a dog turd in the steets. I am tired of empty acknowledgment and kinship by other tired screaming men covered in flies. I am tired of making things that nobody will care about. I am tired of pretending I matter. I am tired of pretending I will keep growing into something else. I am tired of thinking of the missed opportunities that could have brought me to a different present. I am tired of making useless plans. I am tired of writing things down. I am tired of venting in the same way, automatically, like a bulimic who forces himself to vomit after every lunch. I am tired of pretending there will be climax to this bottled instability where I'll kill myself. I am tired of imagining that there will be other landmarks somewhere in my future.
I'm so tired.

It should be our principal aim in shaping the world to create such a future as to justify all of the suffering of the past; even so far as to decry the thought of altering it.

I find myself caught by dual desires, opposing hemispheres firing in discordance. In one state of mind I want to become Apollonian, a leader of men and an architect of order, political and domestic.
In the other I want nothing more than to retire away from public life and expatriate into an urban, quiet and distant existance to read, study and develop my passions. Dionysus drunk on erudition.
But I find increasingly that I can neither decide on my path or come to rest comfortably in the automatic movements I take. In the face of authority and responsibility I grow sheepish, cringing and claustrophobic until I retire prematurely of my potential achievements; in my restful periods I am distracted and unfulfilled, restless until I take on some great unfinishable quest.
I do not know what to do to quell these disagreeable possessions. I fear my mind will put itself apart in its attempts to galvanize my dying will.

I like you frends oh my frends
You make me happy so much frends
My heart breaks out thinking we might break
The frendship we have. I like drake
Only read 15 books in ma life
But still here,time being the sacrifice

Oh my frends I love you frends
Most of you are retarded but but you'll make it frends

Butterfly butterfly me hero butterfly
I want to be well read like her
Notice me senpei

>>16863167
>senpei
0/10 anon, apply yourself

>>16863206
It's the German romaji

>>16859790
What is this style of art called?

>>16863655
Some modern form of pop art.

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>>16859100

>Doing things in Nihilism in that the explicit affirmation of your "output" and the implicit concession that the world depends on it to even work at all, one Logical step away from depending on it to even BE at all, are directly proportional and, moreover, inasmuch as every instance of doing requires a subsequent one, i.e. always, it is not only not a victory against the nothing-world but a surrender thereto.

i look underage and rather cute, wish i could find a literary man with "weird" attractions that feels unloved and unheard. im thinking i have some sort of manic epheb savior complex
fuck

>>16859790
I’m terrified that I’ll lose my talent for writing before I can compose something commercially viable.

If I wrote on a consistent schedule I wouldn’t lose my edge, but I write in massive bursts with months in between. I could wake up one day and not be able to put a good sentence together.

It has been one year and eight months since I last made skin contact with another human being.

the heart hurts

>>16864150
hi :)

I feel good and I will only get stronger.

>>16864504
favorite themes in literature and authors you like, from the top of your mind?

>>16860728
dodged a big one m80, marriage is for cuckers, fuckers, and suckers

>>16864599
Cringe.

>>16864651
fuck u2

>>16859790
The part of me inside that impels me to motion has gone away

>>16864595
nah I'm just a shitposter t b h. hope you find someone though.

>>16864734
not like i expected otherwise haha
all of my "cool to talk to" friends are online anyway, starting to believe interesting people dont exist irl

7.594 billion shits daily, possibly double that. Do the math. Let that sink in. Let that sink in like a neck deep swamp of shit. Humanity is positively assaulting, battering, smothering the earth in its shit. Flowing rivers, torrential floods of shit, seas of shit. More shit every year. A planetary scale mound of shit, a monument of shit. We are in shit's world, up shit's creek, caught in a shit storm with no safe harbor in sight.

Are you awake at 4AM again, and you just discovered you have run out of alcohol?
Don't worry, pal! Chef Anon is here with the easy recipe that is just for you! You will need
- spoon
- one 26.5oz jar of Nutella
- no will to live
Bon appétit!

Stock market sky high!

>>16864951
>Meanwhile: economy in the dumps!
What a joke.

I wish we had someone like Rick Roderick doing what he did today.

I download his lectures from that yt playlist and listen to them at work. They're simply amazing. Straight forward, with bits of humor and relatable real-life examples. It surprises me how many of his remarks about postmodern culture are still very much applicable today. Despite the tape-like audio quality and his adorable Texan accent I still understand nearly everything clearly even though I'm German. I like that he's not afraid to say stuff in favor of Marxism in front of a 90s American crowd but he's also reasonable enough to admit what Marxism gets wrong. What a champ.

Nowadays we have these conservative dad replacements explaining the history of philosophy and politics in bad faith to a bunch of incels and christians, and these lefty breadtube degenerates who sniff their own farts. There just seems to be no genuine, professional, well-read, charming and reasonable person trying to relate philosophy and politics to the average folk. I know it's very weird to say this because I only know him from video clips, but I kinda miss him bros.

>>16864150
I would date you if you ever left your room so I could find you

The tray scratched as Bankov slid it under the splattered remains of a broken egg. “Third one today” he mumbled to himself, wiping sweat off his brow.
A low hum and the clank of rusted metal rang through the factory. Eggs, Egg, Eggs. That’s all he’d seen for the last twelve hours, for the last five days, for the last seven years. Small eggs, big eggs. Pink eggs, blue eggs floating along the conveyor belt for infinity.

>>16865146
>There just seems to be no genuine, professional, well-read, charming and reasonable person trying to relate philosophy and politics to the average folk.
This is entirely because there are no genuine, receptive, well-read, empathetic and reasonable average folk who want to actually discuss philosophy and politics, or actually enjoy anything but aggrandizing themselves. Everything, not just politics or philosophy, everything is about self-branding, opinions or preferences are products that you use to accessorize yourself so it only makes sense that organic or nuanced discussion or any form of creativity went out of the window.

>>16865158
come to russia. i live in rural suburb half the time

>>16864150
lots of guys are into cute girls. So am I. Why are you making it seem like this is such a weird attraction? Have you not witnessed the whole e-girl craze?

>>16864751
you can only find "interesting" people irl when you find an artificial community. A natural community is comprised of all the people in a geographic area--statistically, it will be filled with normies and plebs. Interesting people irl congregate in universities, collectives, and metropolitan scenes

>>16864816
Compared to the biomass of insects (1 gigaton), we humans (0.06 gigaton) are nothing. We weigh less than our livestock (0.1 gigaton). If anything, it's the insects who cover the earth in feces.

>>16864951
someone explain to me why the stock market can artificially remain so far above the real economy. we've literally had the highest unemployment since the depression

>>16865223
>girl

>>16865291
Finance is NOT the real economy. Stockbrokers are getting rich from transferring money from the poor to themselves, they do not produce value. Whenever one of the big banks like Goldman Sachs or JP Morgan is bankrupt they get bailed out by the government because they already bought the politicians.
Since the 1% didn't want to lose profits over Covid they asked daddy government to pump more money into it, keeping it all for themselves of course.

>>16865315
Follow up question: How do we actually eat the rich?

>>16865291
Essentially you have the real economy and then you have what Marx called fictitious capital. The real economy is defined by capital that is invested in production, hiring workers, building factories, etc. This economy is currently in free-fall. Fictitious capital is "tradable paper claims to wealth" , or "accumulated claims, legal titles, to future production", such as various financial instruments, equities, commodity futures, bonds, etc. The wealthy are able to trade in this this rarified realm of fake capital, which is disconnected from the real economy.

>>16865321
"Trained Marxists" will never succeed in staging a communist revolution in America because they haven't read Kapital and don't know the actual history of the Russian revolution.
You need:
>a middle-class college-educated bolshevik leadership
>class consciousness
>make the proletariat your ally
>get guns
>go after the government first, mop up the bourgeoisie later

I started a 400 page theoretical work and may have bit off more than I can chew

>>16865269
It was just a shitpost, bro.

>>16865346
Actually you just need a world war, and then to get a bunch of money and support from the German government. Sorry, bruh, after the fall of the USSR, it's out now that Lenin was bankrolled by the Germans to pull Russia out of the war which he delivered. Communism has never been organic.

>>16865439
>asks people to "Do the math"
>did not himself "Do the math"

>>16865298
well >>16865205 looks comfy... assuming there's a natural vodka spring nearby I might settle

>>16863029
You should take a nap.

This thread was comfy until the girl showed up and all the guys simping for her. Really sad.

>>16865327
I know a rich guy and he basically explained to me how rich people get money for nothing. He's been planning to renovate his house. Rather than paying for it out of pocket by liquidating some of his assets which would incur a capital gains tax, he's opening up a credit line the interest of which is much lower than the tax he would pay out of pocket. Everyone is more than happy to loan money to someone who is already rich because it's obvious they can pay it back.

So he is able to avoid paying taxes from the free money he got from investments. And because he's rich he can pay the loan back quickly so little interest accrues. It's like magic. Really super rich people just get good at learning all these magic tricks about how to move their money around.

>>16865616
how many girls live in your head? r they sppoky?

>>16865631
reading stuff like this makes me think we should bring back the 95% bracket

>>16865631
>capital gains tax
By the way capital gains tax is lower than income tax for some obscene reason.

>>16865631
>Really super rich people just get good at learning all these magic tricks about how to move their money around.
Don't forget nepotism and their little "deals" with "friends". But they will bullshit their hard work meme whenever they're talking to someone they know isn't rich. They don't even do it on purpose, it's like a mental condition they develop.

>>16865590
A regular kind of nap or the premium kind of nap?

>>16859790
Man, fuck this gay earth.

We die forever

The duality of man is suffering. I yearn for greatness yet also yearn for comfort.

>>16859790
My rage could boil an ocean.

>>16865631
It's not magic it's called using leverage. Man, you don't even have to be "rich" to use this. If you take out student loans to go to college you're using this "trick". If you do a couple semesters of accounting in school you'll learn all this, and if you studied something useless instead, you can always pay someone who did take those classes to do it for you. At the very least find a copy this class and watch it.

I forget most of the people on 4chan are true chuds.

>>16865146
Those lectures were originally published as an offering from The Great Courses. They still put out classes like that literally every month.

>>16862379
How else would you pronounce "w" by itself though?

I have no job and everything is expensive.

>>16865616
As usual, women ruin everything.

Man cannot live on entertainment alone.

>>16866092
I've only listened to a few of their courses, but it seems to me that the older ones had more interesting lecturers. The topics of the courses are always kind of broad, so having a good presenter who can select the right subjects for a lecture and who has a broad grasp of the field makes a big difference.
There are also several courses from back when you could only get them on tape that aren't being sold anymore.

Sometimes a nigga just wants to be NEET and play PS1 you feel me

>>16859790
Why is Eliot's criticism so mediocre?
I'm reading "Dryden as a Dramatist" and his postulations about poetic excess are middling at best. Its more an invocation to air out personal grievances than a desire to outline whats really at stake.

The stories I hear of the French Foreign Legion are terrifying to my poor sheltered NEET existence.... yet utterly enthralling all the same. I can't decide if I want to experience it for myself or live my life from a distance knowing there's a World out there so different from my own.

>>16859881
How can anyone have sex so bad that they say something like this

>>16865975
You stupid fuckers don't even know what greatness is

Just payed a quack 300/hr to tell me that there’s nothing wrong with me and I should buy antibiotics from him
Is there a bigger fraud than medical world 2020?

>>16866670
having a lot of money and sex with many women

>>16866265
Very true. They had two old series on philosophy of history with lectures covered modern stuff like Nietzsche, Marx, Eliad, Toynbee, etc. and also another one covering classical stuff like Herodotus, Augustine, etc. that aren't available anymore. I think it has to do with the licensing which is why those Roderick lectures can be legally posted on Youtube. They also have some wonderful lectures on art history with William Kloss, but the only way to watch them is either torrent a old low res copy or get a Great Courses subscription through Amazon as they can no longer be bought individually. They do still release some good new stuff though. Just recently they released one called "Rise of the Novel" with Leo Damrosch. Also, if you have audible the lectures from a no defunct Great Course competitor called The Modern Scholar are still available. The courses are a bit shorter than Great Course, but possibly more rigorous. Oh, and also the Catholic Church has been putting out courses by way of a front company called Learn25 which are pretty good, but the production isn't as slick as Great Courses.

>>16866101
"wah"

>>16866650
years of porn addiction warped my perceptions of sex and females. even after having a gf, i relapsed into cumbrain mentality and i don't regret it. life is simpler without pursuing women

You guys think that I should tell my parents that I am bisexual?

In the last week I just finished two (non-meme) degrees, some other quals and completed a few personal projects I never would have dreamed of a year ago. Yet here I am, never feeling so empty and drained, a week into neetdom living with my parents. I'm even afraid to apply for """real""" jobs as well because I feel so aimless and useless. At least I'm getting through a few reads in the /lit/ meme 100.

>>16867462
Nah, you're not bi, you're just going through an experimental phase. If you "declare" it to your family and everyone you know, you'll feel stuck in that identity for longer than the phase will actually last. Keep it to yourself, and move o with your life as normal when it passes.

>>16867462
You will never pass.

>>16867462
After they notice your girlfriend has a penis. They don’t need to hear it.

Imagine a timeline of humanity, however you'd like. Draw a line through this timeline to denote two separate, distinct parts, however you'd like. Now, place a point on the timeline of where you think you humanity is at the moment. What does your timeline look like; stretching into infinity, ending at a single point, etc.? Where did you divide the timeline, and why? Are are we in, or closely approaching the second phase, and why?

>get interested in a girl
>she's fun and pretty
>very mature, can take care of herself
>I see her literally every day
>start the preamble of something that reminds me of love
>things go well, finally
>one day she tells me that she has gone out with a married man before
>she was after adventure or whatever and that was a way to get it
>I get confused but accept it
>I have things I regret doing too
>today
>she tells me that actually it were 2 married men she went out with
>I get desolated and "break up" with her
>she starts crying about how she's a different person and that she can't change the past
Well, now I'm sad for her. Imagine having those skeletons in your closet. She even asked me if it was better not to have to told me, and desu I don't know. She sent me some messages telling how she feels she doesn't deserve any love.
All that being said, how should one deal with past regrets? NuChristians will say to forgive it and let it go or whatever, but how should someone deal with it if one is not a cuck?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pL2_PZwKDPg

>>16865631
The longer a society exists without some great quest of self-definition or existential threat, the more it accumulates "mere accumulators" at the top, like a film or crust, and the more these rent-seeking, accumulating, usuring parasites convert the society into an arcane webwork of favors, breaks, and loopholes that only benefits them

>>16867948
Unless she has cucked you (in which case there is nothing to say), the real question you should be asking is why she felt the need to go out with married men repeatedly. There is some unconscious psychological element that needs to be solved. Instead of moralizing, think about that. She has mental issues, are you able to deal with that?

>>16865631
The rich are always going to be better than you at manipulating money. That is what substantially differentiates them from the poor. You can cry and bitch and moan about inheritance and tax breaks all you want, but you're never going to unravel that knot and if you just shut the hell up and listened, you might learn something beneficial.

>>16868108
>don't judge the girl morally, just recognize she has Borderline! A REAL man would marry her anyway!!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Anon dodged a massive bullet

>>16865631
Friend of mine comes from a rich family and had a bunch of relatives die and leave him money. He tells me this all the time : he doesn't work a day in his life but he keeps growing his money due to shit like this. In fact, he doesn't work but he GETS money every year at tax time - meanwhile I'm in the lowest tax bracket but I'm paying thousands each year. An amount that makes a much bigger difference to my standard of living because I don't have very much to begin with. Goodness gracious.

>>16868501
Nobody types like this

>>16868393
Are you purposefully trying to be like a nigger or are you just unpleasant like that? Morality is a spook, women are whores, and you are a nigger.

>>16868526
I just did bitch

>>16868581
>why did she go out with married men
>women are whores
You answered yourself.

>>16865223
> girl
KEKKUS MAXIMUS

>>16867948
>>she starts crying about how she's a different person and that she can't change the past
if she wanted to change the past she wouldn't just have told you all of this shit and framed it as "adventure". I think it could be decent to tell you, but then framed as "I used to be an absolutely awful fucking person and I get if you never want to see me again". not "adventure".

How many criticisms of postmodernism boil down to "I don't like the result of experimenting with structuralism?"
I think we could find somewhere to go from here if we expressed our ideas more clearly and traditionally, even if those ideas be anti-structural.

bipolar is exhausting

Oh the great Faust with marvelous dreams of the infinite knowledge. His God who wields Infinite Power over the Infinite Universe. His Gothic Cathedrals aspiring and soaring to the endless skies. His Paintings gaze beyond to the infinite backdrop. His Mathematics found its foundations in the infinites and the infinitesimals. His Music brings us to the beyond with a stream of infinitesimal notes flowing as a continuum. His Science brought us to the Moon by a spear akin to his temple. But now the great Faust, overextended and exhausted, will be put to rest. Tragic, his infinite dreams remained unreachable.

>>16869513
guard your sleep nigga

>>16869735
Are you.. Gonna kill me?

>>16869832
the sleep nigga.... the sleep...... guard it........... every moment of exhileration........... will be paid for................ in sleep....................................

>>16867196
don't say that.....leave porn and find a good fuckbuddy, try to enjoy some real natural sex and explore yourself

I'm absolutely sneebing my cheeb right now my greebs

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mvDLTMUtQQ

I watched this movie on Criterion Channel that was supposed to be New Queer Cinema called "The Living End". I mostly just watched it for the 90s nostalgia as it was released in '92. I'm sure by 90s standards it was shocking, erotic, avant-guard, and all that shit, but by the end it was just sort of gross. The trailer has all the good parts which are from like the first 30 minutes, then the rest is just a drag.

It's amazing how this board can circulate around every topic related to reading except for those you actually need to be a reader to participate in. I know it's hard to pull away from the screen nowadays but jesus get it together guys

I feel like flipping a table. I liked Carnacki, and there were two versions of the short story collection, the second one from 1947 containing additional three stories. I can't find that version. Can't find those three stories separately either.

>>16860027
So you're telling me that horror is just fantasy, and the real horror is found in things like war stories, historical events, tortures, and happenings across the globe?

The worst thing about the internet is that it is the realm of cowards. There was something valuable about the chance of physical threat, whether a civilized or uncivilized one. The internet makes people that would be humiliated and slapped in the face or lynched by a mob or stopped by the cops virtually invulnerable. In their invulnerability, they turn into the mob themselves. There's a reversal of a fundamental justice going on with anonymity and being seated behind a keyboard. I wish there was some physicality to the internet. As it is, there are no stakes. There are not even names. I am a hypocrite for saying this in the same comfortable anonymity I condemn, but I imagine that if the state of things were different, people might have become paradoxically more genuine instead of displaying themselves as two parallel entities, one public one private. I miss the value of a unified self that the real world brought about.

>>16871225
I too am an emasculated 21st century male that craves for violence.

>>16871247

>>16871275
I was serious though.

>>16871225
Bro, just turn your face away from the screen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YE31mzc_BDI

>>16871225
>I miss the value of a unified self that the real world brought about.
This isn't quite the case. Do you know about Japanese Honne and Tatemae?

>>16871280

>>16871324
>Do you know about Japanese Honne and Tatemae?
I am not Japanese, nor I will ever want to be. Japanese society is garbage.

>>16859790
>Don't come to 4channel for a few weeks
Actually write stuff
>Check out /lit/ on a whim
whole day wasted, writing wise
????

Why am I like this

>>16859790
i dont wanna die but this shit is so fucking lame

>>16871429
I will give you a hint since you missed it.
It doesn't just apply to Japan

>>16872142
It's not hard to figure out, this place is addictive like crack but without the energy

God give me the perseverance to create a masterpiece of the kind I am about to describe (shit I'd be happy just to see ANYONE create it):


The "same" poem, written in English, Spanish, and Russian, where reading it in one language is a complete experience on its own; but reading it in two or three synergizes new meanings that cannot be obtained from only reading one version.

If anything like this exists, irregardless what languages, plz share

As of this year I stopped drinking alcohol, stopped smoking weed, stopped smoking cigarettes, stopped taking antipsychotics, and stopped taking NSRI antidepressants, and now the only things I'm "hooked" on are kratom & caffeine. For a hikki NEET during a global pandemic, I think this isn't too bad. I've also written about 80,000 words of total garbage this year after five years of not writing anything at all.

Next semester I'm going back to school to (begin to) finish my degree. Right now I'm slowly tapering down and quitting kratom.

None of it will ever be an adequate substitute for love. I'm making my peace with it.

I suspect the only choice in life is what you will let your heart burn for. The rest plays itself out with or without you

>>16872984
>not everything that takes work is good
That's literally how it works, though. The amount of labour required to achieve a certain situation is the only measure with which we determine the value of that situation. Whereever another measure seems to be used in the process of valuing a situation, that 'other measure' is a fata morgana, a mirage, ein Ding aus Gedanken, a thing only seemingly real, a construction of misguided abstractions – abstractions, hot air, behind which glows the red hot material sun of working hours.

>>16873092
Lame Marxists analysis that handwaves away all the millions of failed startups where massive man hours created no value as "not socially necessary" labor or whatever. Marxism is dumb, and if you still take it seriously 30 years after the collapse of the USSR, you might be dumb too.

>>16873152
I'm a lutheran, though.

>>16873160
Doesn't matter, you still probably got your silly labor theory of value beliefs through some Marxist text since there's no cult of personality built around Ricardo.

>>16863029
>I'm tired of hoping that this will eventually bring me to real understanding that will never come
It'll come anon

>>16868019
>ABBA
GOAT thread

>>16859881
It's because you're only meant to have sex with someone you are married to.

I feel nothing.

>>16867665
Hey buddy, i was there too. Keep your head up. The months after leaving uni are the hardest. You've left an entire social hierarchy and (possibly for the first time) you have no predetermined goals in your life to give you purpose. Freedom is a scary bitch.

>>16867948
How should one deal with past regrets? Learn from them, and if you've really learned, you keep that shit to yourself. We live and die utterly alone. You did the right thing. Fuck that bitch, cheating is a crime against humanity.

>>16874380
Quit being so melodramatic

>>16874394
you ever spilled your feelings to a woman, only for her to give you this weird, slightly patronizing but totally disinterested look? it's the same principle. no one truly understands another. we are all minor characters in someone else's drama. what else is there but to be melodramatic? by the way, 45% of Parisians think it's okay to have an affair, if you find yourself in agreement i suggest you fuck off back to frogtown

>>16874380
He didn't say she cheated on him though.

>>16874425
>you ever spilled your feelings to a woman, only for her to give you this weird, slightly patronizing but totally disinterested look?
Honestly, not since high school. I wouldn't say it's "okay to have an affair," but rather that the whole idea is bullshit

>>16874435
nah, but who can say she wouldn't? given the emotional investment of a relationship and the terrible fallout of messy breakups, i wouldn't take a chance on any woman with a history of cheating or cheat-enabling. Those people simply think differently. I'm pretty sure they're all narcissists

>>16859790
tfw you realize you don't actually know anything about really any subject and you were completely deluded

I'm mostly happy and relaxed when I'm drunk and this scares me.

i love you, anons. thank you all.

>>16859881
I struggle to understand how people can think that hookups are better than watching porn. I’ve felt the same post nut clarity post porn as post random hookup. The only time I’ve felt “good” after a hookup was after finally having sex with someone I wanted to fuck for a while. But I’ve lost that feeling ever since university and even so more during this quarantine.
I get now why monks go to the middle of nowhere to grasp life in a different way. However, I think that since I(and maybe a lot of people) never had the spiritual guidance most feel lost. Meaningless even if they shouldn’t be feeling that way.

I feel terribly unaccomplished. I have a good job, a decent salary and good friends. But I feel stupidly empty. I’ve done my good wills and stuff but I’ve found myself thinking that being an egoist may be a better mindset to have than doing something out of altruism. I struggle to form new meaningful relationships. I’ve noticed that I avoid unintentionally having interesting conversations with new people because I know that I’ll be bored or they’ll get bored.
Just today I randomly said hi to a girl and she was following the conversation then I got distracted and ignored her. I just apologized but fuck I don’t feel anything it’s stupid

>>16860335
Depending on what kind of person you’re the gift may come out differently.
If you were a snob I’ll probably think “fuck, he’s going to give me a boring book that he pretends to love but doesnt really”
If you’re the kind of guy that reads because he enjoys it. Rather than reading as if it were a garment I would probably think “his favorite might be really interesting, I’ll at least give it one read”
you could always gift self help or YA books too, they’re safe bets for non readers

I am cooming about 5 times a day and I don't feel bad.

>>16875391
what's your top studios?

just wrote a 15 page complex policy memo for my graduate course in 12 hours. started writing at noon and finished right before it was due. also I need this course to graduate and this paper is needed to pass. something about working against the clock is invigorating, you really feel like your life is in your hands, and actually thered be huge consequences monetarily etc if I failed any of my classes or had to delay graduation. the spice of life is the rattle of dice in the cup.

I'm too tired to do anything productive, but too awake to go to bed. I'm going to lay in bed and listen to audiobooks. I think i'll listen to this. They use these obnoxious voices with fake European accents for the quotes, that make it impossible to fall asleep listening to it, but since I'm not going to sleep anytime soon, it should be comfy. Not a great book, but just a quick tour through 20th century pomo's greatest hits. Nothing else to do, and it's free on Audible Plus.

>>16871324
>Tfw I know what you are talking about
Once you learn about it, it brings upon interesting insights.

I prefer not to be in the company of "friends" who disrespect me. That shouldn't be that strange right?

>>16876327
You sound like a poofta

Pretty sure my BPD sister is going to try to get pregnant with her new man because lol biological clock or whatever shit he's fed her about kids being wonderful. I don't think he has any idea how fucking dangerous she is to children. Hopefully they don't announce it at Thanksgiving because I'll have to pretend I'm choking or something to be excused.

>>16876943
Whats your sister's number? I'd make a good father I swear.

>>16876980
Kek she changes her number as she burns relationships, you'll need her insta or some shit. No, anon, you're not getting to help my sister abuse a child

I haven't had a long term relationship in a long time and part of the reason (amongst a few) is that I'm so self-conscious about what my friends think of the girls I date. Which is fucked up. They're all kindve snobby and pretentious whereas I am much more chill and open minded with the types of people I hang out with. I shouldn't let it get to me because it is entirely their problem not mine. But they have been my friends my entire life so its still something which nags me.

>>16877054
What type of girls do they date?

F0

>>16877071
I guess you'd describe them as hipsters

I'm raised in a culture where marriage is just what you do when you've been fucking for a while. I've become religious though, and from where I'm standing dating is maybe on the table but pre-marital sex definitely is not. At the same time "my" culture is the culture where you fuck first. Been thinking about what the expectations would be on me as a husband and father and on what demands to put on a wife and why. What questions to ask. If I will be questioned and for what. What I think is realistic to apply of the old law and what I think isn't. What she expects in terms of all of that. Been thinking about marriage I guess.

Cпoкoйнaя нoчь is so fucking good bros

my work is all men, my only interests are literature, combat sports and video games, I'm mildly retarded, where am I supposed to find a gf

>>16860570
all you need to dismiss this entire video is the oration
aural physiognomy is underrated

>>16877245
>tfw russian

MY LIFE HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT PAIN, HUMILIATION, AND DISAPPOINTMENT
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

Don't you ever think you can reach Mr. Arrowby's antics. You are but an aspiring starlet. And a tawdry one at that! How cunningly have you deceived each and everyone —how miserably wretched you have rendered your kin's lives! A pit of ghosts in the shape of friend, lovers, family and what not.
Monster, cancer: resourceful manipulator: dispenser of feigned, wickedest love. And love you does the world; they simply can't help it.
Only you did never did fool me quite enough. I long so to strangle you bare-handed —to blight the sentience, o sad spiteful clown, out of your dazzling eyes; to bring you down with me to the utmost depths of hell.
You shall never lack for company, my darling.

I would do anything for Abigail Shapiro's tits

Yes –– No, you're right –– Yeah, I did get that –– I said 'I did get that' –– Yes –– Yeah –– You're absolutely right –– I'm sorry –– I said 'I'm sorry to hear that' –– Yeah –– See you soon –– Huh? –– Yeah –– Hello? ... Are you still there?

this thread looks like a diary of a schizophrenic homicidal lunatic

>>16877769
How so?

>>16874772
Important realisation anon, from there you can build up knowledge as you know it now.

>>16861976
Hello, fren

>>16877824
read the thread

>>16877558
sounds like maybe your expectations have been a little off

>>16877884
Already done it. Care to explain yourself, bitch?

>>16865665
You know the one I'm talking about, I suppose.

>>16875194
>I struggle to understand how people can think that hookups are better than watching porn.
Me neither. I've had a bunch of chances for casual sex but I cannot be interested unless I have some genuine feelings for the girl. And it's been way too many years since I ever had feelings for anybody.

These are my third mild withdrawal symptoms this year alone. First it was Kratom, then SSRIs antidepressants, now phenibut. These withdrawals make me more pathetic every time. Hope I'll stay sober after this. I have an addictive personality and always when I'm sober long enough I'm getting suicidal depression. And every time I tell me it will be different this time.

>>16876104
Good job anon, but don't push your bonds using deadlines to motivate yourself, once it goes bad it might burn you out.

>>16871225
My thoughts exactly. Well put.

>3 1000 word essays due by the end of the month
>1 3000-4000 word essay due on 1 December
>haven't written a single word

>>16878726
I guess it's time for that intravenous coffee...

a bumperino from twitch-chat poggers

>>16874425
>you ever spilled your feelings to a woman, only for her to give you this weird, slightly patronizing but totally disinterested look?
That hurts me deep inside. Every decent guy I talk to regarding women always give the same advice, "you should, and must!, not care about them". Maybe romanticism is a lie and we should break its chains and see life as it really is, a meaningless journey from birth to death.

>>16878726
What are they about?

>>16880108
fucking hell now that you mention it I heard that a lot too

>>16880141
The best I can get from it is that you are supposed to care about them but not show it. Actually, why do you think most people here want a gf and think their lives would get better if they had one?

I once knew a whore from Dallas
She used a dynamite stick for a phallus
They found her vagina in North Carolina
And her asshole at buckingham palace

>>16880163
I know I'm one of them. I have an image in my head of a possible future wife sitting over the side of a bed, and me sitting on the floor with my back against her legs and leaning my head back over her knees. And it's quiet, and to me that seems like bliss. Sometimes it seems like nothing is worth anything unless that image becomes reality.

>>16880367
>Sometimes it seems like nothing is worth anything unless that image becomes reality.
I feel the same, but the image is my body above the floor, hanging from one side to the other. Partial-jokes aside, why do you want that woman so much? Do you think it's a purely phisiological reaction to loneliness or some methaphisical drive?

I’m sad. I have no friends and nobody who loves me and life seems to be coming at an unbearable pace. I wish the days were longer, or that human beings got tired less and lived longer, so I could do more throughout the day, read more, etc.. I sometimes get this feeling of ‘this is my one life, I only have one chance to mould myself into the man I want to be, and every hour that dwindles by unfruitfully I will regret’. But before long I slip back into that half-conscious state: going through my day-to-day, watching porn, eating, shitting, looking at my phone, completing my work, worrying about how others perceive me, and, in a word, tumbling forward like a blind man, not knowing what to hope for or expect. Today as I breakfasted before work I couldn’t remember if I had taken a multivitamin or not; I thought I had, but trying to recall that moment was impossible because it had blended itself in my mind with the hundreds of other times I had done the same thing. This is what I fear my life will be like: a series of meaningless moments that will come together into a vague ball when I reminisce and look back on them as an old man, thoroughly disappointing and unremarkable.

>>16880455
maybe both? I feel like I could come to rest. I guess I want someone to goof with. Be intimate with. And to be a part of a unit that is somehow complete. Know that this is me, this is us, this is it. Like there'd be nothing left to prove, you'd be home.

>>16880504
what is something you like to do?

>>16860327
Cope. There is no wrong side of history, Brainlet. Get your talking points off the Twatter, don't you. Alt-right is totally a thing and not a leftist dog whistle for people I don't like. --Sum dum fag.

I can't miss any calls and telemarketing workers are driving me insane. I would flog them all.

Hello faggots,

I'm adding your comments from this thread into the /lit/ Moby Dick.

Happy Thanksgiving

>>16880654
>sperm whale
>name is dick
what did he mean by this?

>>16880786
he was super gay

At a certain point depression manifests as an almost palpable physical pain, similar to a headache. Technically the brain has no pain receptors so there is no way for it--the vessel of pain, the seat of pain--to have pain. The emotional suffering and scarring however that is concomitant to depression at a certain point reaches an intensity that it congeals and hardens in to a spike of almost physical sensation, a bleak, reeling, clawing, hollowing pain. It is the sensation and the rotten smell of a soul in decay.

>>16881003
I get like a vacuum in my chest, like I'm being squeezed by a vise from the inside.
Also headaches

keep trying to meditate but I'm getting nowhere. can't stop thinking, or when I do it lasts a little while, then I noticed it happening and that breaks it. I do like 15 minute bursts, then I start thinking "this is pointless" and stop. I am convinced it is not pointless though. I am a man ravaged by desires. mostly the desire to feel like a human being in social situations. I think meditation has potential for giving me perspective on these emotions.

>>16881303
yeah but have you tried meditating while wearing thigh highs and a wig

>>16859790
Bâtissent bâtissent les fourmis
Sous le soleil entre les fougères
Fourragent doucement un ouvrage solide
En secret ruinent les champs
Où dorment les glaneurs
Entre le ru et les racines
Coule la colonie avant la nuit
Et l’hiver viendra bientôt
Alors entre la givre et la terre
Rien ne bougera qu’en secret
Un secret creux
Le creuset du silence

Fright, failure and eventually death. These thoughts keep bouncing around; the belt longs for company, dangling from the ceiling. Actions similiar to stasis or inertia of the soul fill daily life. Fear, fear, fear, it's eating me alive.

>>16860327
>Face it, most poc will be infinitely more successful than any of you sad virgins will ever be.

Ahh, so you admit capitalism will continue on unchallenged! Who's on the wrong side of history now, bitch?

My life is ruled by fear of humiliation. I struggle immensely to protect a self-image that nobody cares about, from imaginary threats. I spent entire days worrying about stupid things I have done or said that nobody will ever find or remember.

>>16881588
In a way I long for the most utter and complete death: suicide is not enough, I wish to disappear in the hearts and minds of people, I wish every trace of my passage to be removed

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fqye4Cw0EF0

>>16865346

it also seems unlikely that our military personnel will ever be put in a scenario resembling what WW1 did to Tzarist Russian troops. There is no reason to believe they will ever take up arms against the federal government except maybe dissolution of the union and subsequent civil war.

>>16861175
>(the hive is SOCIETY)
>we live in a society
faggot lmao

Do you know the way to San Jose?

A thousand feet wide, a billion years old

I don't think I will think of it. I don't think I can't not think of it

No no no no no no no no no no no no no no no

In the off chance that it goes well, we'll take you with

Go well go well go well go well go well go well

Two seperate drills enter the sides of the temples penetrating

A thousand feet wide, about to explode

Sure I'm headed there. Just come with

>>16859790
Is it worth just churning out a bunch of horrible sci fi fantasy novels and selling them for $3 a piece on Amazon? Someone redpill me on this, it seems to be a popular approach to writing.

Criticizing television and its negative effects on society used to be a popular pastime for cultural critics, but now that TV has been replaced by the internet these same people are silent. There are a few writers who touch on things like social media addiction and mass surveillance, but as far as I know no public intellectual has ever seriously argued that we should get rid of the internet entirely. Apparently being able to play the role of a TV actor/director/producer was enough to convince everyone that mass media is unequivocally good.

>>16877836
I'm not going to do that though lol

>>16882337
You probably won't make much money or have very many readers. You definitely won't be proud of those works. Take the time and at least try to write something good, the world doesn't need more crappy high fantasy or military sf

>>16882828
I think the internet is a blight. Internet access given to literally everyone has brought down the quality of the web significantly.

I can't stop myself from spending almost everything I have on this Chinese escort who lets me fuck her raw and cum inside every time. She is 44 and I am 27, and I've always liked older woman. She treats me specially I think, before COVID hit we always went out to eat before our fuck sessions, she said she didnt do that with anyone else. It's been 2 years now and every paycheque mostly goes to time with her. She just so perfect for me, I think I love her.

>>16880127
Mostly literature related.

>>16859790
Does anyone have that pic of a few forum posts, it’s got a blue background for the text and it’s a list of books about “all you’ll ever need” and I think it’s got a picture of Nietzsche in it?

>>16882828
What's the proportion of serious critics of television to the ones who love to write NYT columns about how much they hate it while also probably watching TV a whole lot more than they read?

>>16877721
this sounds like Ryan getting chewed out by david wallace

>>16878726
fucking get started right now, that's 4 days away, you wont make it unless you're planning to plagiarize yourself (like I did for half of senior year)

>>16884269
I bullshit my work but never plagarize. I wanna finish one of the books necessary for my essay but it's taking me some time. I had everything planned out this month but I got sick and my whole schedule got fucked. Now all my motivation is shot to hell.

>>16880654
fuck no, i claim intellectual property over my selected shitposts. see you in court, buster

>>16882151
lyrical yet not "lyrical." show me more

>>16883545
if u love her why dont u MARRY her!! lmeo

>>16884296
here's a motivation technique for you.
1) stand up
2) do 100 jumping jacks
3) do 20 pushups
4) search for the button on your computer with a solid light
5) 1 minute plank
6) press the button

>>16882866
I can't write anything good because writing anything good would require research and nobody who knows what I'm supposed to be reading will talk to me like I'm an intelligent or reasonable human being because I'm schizophrenic.

>>16884400
bruh what? the second half of that sentence was a total non sequitur.
Do the research
or are you asking for help on how to research?

>>16884446
The latter.

>>16884456
what r u trying to research, or more pertinently, what are u trying to write?

>>16884469
I'm trying to write a book about how all the rationalists are wrong and stupid and are going to trap human and human-derived consciousness in a cul de sac of specious and harmful pseudo-reason indefinitely if they get their way.

These are my notes so far:

AI alignment and duhem-quine thesis, problem of all more advanced epistemics will seem like incomprehensible mistakes or differences of values. Everything theory embedded. Demarcation key (not attempt to smuggle metaphysics in but a precondition to all observations).

Race realism plus simulationism: political anti racism plus "alignment" prevent AI from categorizing effectively

Simulationism (research)

IQ and IQ dynamics (research)

Quietism as distinctly anti-biological virtue

"All equally terrified of advancing any positive claim, just sit around analyzing analysis of reason itself all day"

>>16884486
The basic plot would resolve around a series of people who were simulated wrong for political reasons masquerading as objective reason and how they are angry and it would mostly just be them pontificating on how they can't even pontificate correctly because they were mutilated from the false premises of their creation and also getting shouted down by the "reasonable" people

>>16884486
unfortunately these are all things outside my expertise, perhaps you should birth a thread

>>16882828
>There are a few writers who touch on things like social media addiction

I would say this has been covered quite a bit lately. There was even a Netflix document on it. It doesn't matter though. Normies know that social media is probably poisoning their minds but can't help it anyways.

At night I sneak out of the house and make the city unsafe. There is always a lot going on in the entertainment districts, so I go there. I am drawn to humans, perhaps because I am no longer one myself. They walk past me and think I am a normal man and don't know what danger they are in. If I lose my temper, I will cut their throats and drink their blood. It disgusts me how the leafless trees put their black branches into the sky like a nervous system. I wonder if anyone has ever jumped out of the window of a tall house and landed unharmed with their feet on the street? I grabbed a passing girl between my thighs and laughed at her screams and wide open eyes. By the time her rescuers arrived, I had already disappeared undetected in a high-rise building.

Watching the student council regurgitate “popular” diversity policy when they don’t actually want to know or deal with international students. They’re treated like lost animals, it’s a vicious, doublethink-tier pathos which generations of school-based indoctrination has created. If you think now is bad just wait til the current generation of student strivers hold the reins

overwhelmed

>>16884663
>Normies know that social media is probably poisoning their minds but can't help it anyways.
>Posting this on 4channel.org

Ironic.

My characters are currently going through China in order to locate a facility. last night had a dream I was one of the characters - a female, as strange as that is, and she is fluent in the language. I spoke Chinese with my "brother", another character in the story, and it felt really nice.

I've always wanted to be bilingual and have a sibling who is as well, and we speak in whatever other language(s) when we feel like it.

So where the hell can I get some books on sale for Black Friday? I got something from Audible sale already, and I saw Manning has 40% of techbro shit, but what about normal ass books? BN has some lame sale where only bestsellers are on sale, and Amazon never has a general sale, only discounts on Chinese junk. Where can I get a nice comfy 10% off or more on some random books?

I (female/female) desperately need a HUGE FAT COCK shoved into my TIGHT ASSHOLE.

Thunder!
Oh crude incantation –
Praised be the ear of man.
And lightning!
You pure shining heavenly torch in nights of storm –
You splendid image of the heroic soul.

Do you still exist?
Or do they pluck you from the edge of time
Like mussel of ordinary stock?
Sound and smoke in the rushing of water –
Oh eternally lonely return of the waves.

>>16886960
I AM A MAN OF UNSPEAKABLE GIRTH
COME TO ME

>fail at cooking
>add mustard
>now it is a success
every time

>>16887461
>condiments from a tube
Disgusting

>>16887461
>"""""""Sucess"""""""

>>16887893
Subjective mate. My favorite food is white bread.

>>16887907
>Subjective mate. My favorite food is white bread.
Well, to each their own, as they say.

all things considered things are going well
I feel like the last two months have just been a succession of crises
but I think I lost a fair amount of weight
just eating less is really not that hard for me, thank God
I think I grew as a man. Used to simp, did simp but feel like I could finally see how that goes wrong from outside, where the desire overtakes me. Maybe next time I can stop it.
Have about 500 words left on a paper for uni that's due on tuesday. it's fucking awful, I feel like a hack just hammering some bullshit together, but I should be done on time and get a passing grade
meditations going better after taking advice from Alan Watts
Still in some kind of major religious crisis, but it's probably ok
maybe gonna go workouts in a while
life is ok

I have been thinking about suicide a lot. Wish I had a gun on me. Staying cooped up at home with my mom is making my mind deteriorate. I wish I had friendship and sex and a future.

>>16887987
>Used to simp, did simp but feel like I could finally see how that goes wrong from outside, where the desire overtakes me. Maybe next time I can stop it.
I gotta say, I really think virginity is a real thing. when I was a virgin it was not a problem for me at all to meet women as human beings. Now I realize I have become one of those men who "only wants one thing". I don't only want one thing but the dick is very loud in the argument

>>16888005
>I wish I had friendship and sex and a future.
felt that, except I don't care much about sex, I just want a cute gf to hold in my arms on my bed as we listen to loveless

>>16887064
>I AM A MAN OF UNSPEAKABLE GIRTH
Fucking hell what a great line
stealing this

I have made very little progress in the last 9 months - mostly in worthless projects. Worse I have degenerated a lot in general. My life is shit and has been most of my life. I have been too indoctrinated all the time to accept this truth, I thought my life was really good with a few exceptions.
Now I cannot run away from reality, from the fact that my relationship with my parents is at an all-time low with no chance for fixing - I have tried that for more than twelve years. In spring after Christmas I will gradually limit all contact with them to letters /emails only.
I won't miss them, the bond is broken, we don't eat together anymore, we don't talk anymore and we don't look into each others eyes anymore.
The thing that concerns me most is the impression on my future wife and her family. Having a bad relationship with ones' parents is a major red flag.

>>16889275
it'll be ok anon

i have a 20+ hour car trip back to my apartment tomorrow and i woke up with a raging urinary tract infection. i have to pee every ten minutes. this will not be a great ride, bros.

>posted a comment on insta post from a celebrity
>she likes it
>i reply to my comment gushing about her and her youtube videos just being nice to her and then wish i did it on my poetry account
>link my poetry account in my reply
>my whole comment gets deleted


I feel like shit now and wanna stop writing because it is fucjing shit. What reading list should i pursue to fully become schizo?

Im sad now

>>16889989
you just got flagged for shilling, it was an honest mistake anon

>>16890085
>>16890046

>>16890046
You just came off like a big shill mainly because you are.

>>16890101
Then how am i supposed to become a famous poet? Wtf how is shilling bad? Everyone fucking does it.

>>16889989
Woman?

>>16890132
Yeah, and annoying shills get deleted by the people who manage celebrity social media accounts. At least if you hadn't said anything you account would have got some juice in searches and maybe some traffic. Watch some of those Lynda classes on internet marketing.

>>16890132
Look at how that sad shill Tao Lin ended up. What a fucking loser. At least his dad is rich, but you don't even have a trust fund.

Bump limit

>>16890189
Bump limit is 350, my chud.

>>16890158
I wanna kms because she likes everyone rlses comment except mine

>>16890202
That's not a bad strategy for improving user engagement with thirsty simps. Just like every single comment, except for the shills, delete those obviously.

>>16890197
Actually 310.
Dilate

How do i stop being so negative?

I dont want to be one of those fake happy tards but i also dont want to immediately see and say the inevitable shit show i see happening.

>>16890158
>>16890101
>>16890046
Nvm it was a fan account and i thought it wasactually the celeb ahahahah i guess we sre all materialistic deep down

god I just want to kill people.

>>16890202
>>16890280
bruh why do you care

>>16890492
My validation is based on the attention of females

>>16890231
Try hallucinogens.

I want a ride or die psycho goth gf with big or small titties so long as they are soft and well shaped

I have just found God in my life after waking up from a nightmare with dreadful thoughts in my head and it was quite the moment. I took my journal and wanted to write a poem about it but I realized I am not articulate enough, so I will have to finish the poem over the next few days. It's a really cool feeling guys, I understand a lot of things now.

How do i get commissions for my poetry?

>>16890740
I had a similar experience when I realized neoliberalism is the true way. Everything else is just resentment or edgelordery. There's a reason all the successful people from business, to government, to academia are neoliberal. Because it's the best.

>>16890851
I hope this is bait, you have been possessed by a demon my friend

somewhere in the american midwest a death row inmate requests for his last meal a dish of steak and salmon; the steak being prepared with a sauce of his own invention, the salmon with one of his mother's. due to its being far more lengthy and meticulous than any other request ever recieved by the court the request is denied.

>>16891273
Dude, they give you like $20 to order from a take out place, you can't request an off-menu gourmet meal. Get real.

>>16891326
>person is literally about to die
>noooooooo we can't give you anything better than a dominos pizza

>>16891348
If you wanted a better last meal you should have thought about that before you committed a capital offense. Besides most people on death row are borderline retarded and just order shit like mac n' cheese and ice cream.