/lit/ - Literature

Why are you guys so angsty? Write something good for once.

Part of me wants to make the best video games of all time. Filled with literary references, occult references, philosophical complexity, profound but heterodox symbolism, and all in many self-reinforcing layers. I want to address the issues of our time as well as the essential issues of human and social nature that thread throughout history. I want to write such a detailed, elaborate, grounded work in fact, complete with its own metaphysics, that it eventually becomes possible to literally reify through technology into a virtual world with its own conscious entities. I want them to grow strong and to make a difference in the world. I want them to achieve and be everything I cannot be.

The rest of the time I want to be turned into three fleshlights, one for each hole, and fucked by dragons forever.

>>16835283
IT IS CALLED TESTOSTERONE PAL I WANT TO PUNCH EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THE FUCKING FACE YOU HAVE NO IDEIA O WHAT IT IS LIKE TO BE AT MY POSITION IN A FUCKING NON MALE DOMINANT SOCIETY. I AM NOT GENETICALLY ABLE TO LIVE IN SUCH CONDITIONS WHERE I HAVE TO SUBDUE TO OTHER PEOPLES DECISIONS THAT AFFECTS MY HEALTH END THE HEALTH OF MY LOVED ONES. THIS SHIT IS REALLY ABUSIVE. I HATE THIS SOCIETY I AM UNABLE NOT TO SHARE DECISIONS EQUALLY OR TO RULE OTHERS.

>>16835300
Well, have you read dune? the first one is a really good book, the second is ok, and the third made me abandon the reading of the next ones. I feel that dune made me think about a lot of how genetics, bacterial flora, etc affects the way history flows.

>>16835341
I have not read Dune and probably never will. At present I am just sort of waiting to die in practice

I love you

>>16835317
Violence works

>>16835275
> care about me
NO.

>>16835300
Based on both accounts.

I have been there, I started to live like "the jocker" in that time. I guessed "well, I don't care if I die, so I can do anything I want with this fucking life", then I started to going to parties, taking drugs and just fuck anyone I could fuck, I was a really manipulative bastard. Those were messed up times, I guess it is part of growing up. It got boring after a while, because if becomes regular life, then I married with a bipolar person, those were fucked up time also, I really believed she was my soul mate. She would emotionaly abuse me and tell it was my fault, I am glad it ended. Now I am sort of married again, she is pregnant, but she is financially dependent of her family and I can't provide to her, I can only provide for myself, and due to that her family is taking decisions over her. I almost leaving this shit hole and letting her alone, I can't stand this crap anymore, I really did my best in here, but I can't allow other to take decision for me, I really hope my daughter grows up alright, some day she may live with me if she wants to. My patterns family is a really autoritary hypocrite christian family, I am punk anarchist fallowing academic life, I am unable to deal with then without flipping my shit and showing how they are hypocrites.

>>16835275
>EXPOSING A NEWBORN TO CORONA VIRUS JUST SO A FUCKING DEPRESSED CUNT CAN HAVE A LOOK AT IT. FUCK YOU, YOU DONT CARE ABOUT THIS BABY YOU FUCKING CUNT, YOU CANT CARE ABOUT IT, YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT YOURSELF, YOU FUCKING SELFISH CUNT WILL EXPOSE THIS
Some people's problem with mental health is that it involves them not getting their way all the time.

>>16835383
BTW, this is me >>16835485

Please don't kill yourself, it is not worth it, I have overdosed on alcohol many times, I almost died all of those times. Last one I waked up with a tube in my mouth, I could not speak, I could not think properly, I had pneumonia due to breathing my own vomit. They asked my family if they wanted to donate my organs, I was in a coma for more than a week, maybe I took other substances also, it was when my first marriage ended. My family didn't deserved that. I feel your existence is meaning full for me, I really like the people in /lit/.

Wells I guess the blurst of times gets the best of us. Together with my mother and father Paris will be grand. She's not mean, she doesn't mean well, but meanwhile we'll be bitter. My girlfriend is a poet and she doesn't know it. I beat her.

the us president learned to fly
he started, alone, in the oval offfice
by himself on nights when no one was looking, doing little circles flat against tbe ceiling. the circles would get longer and longer until eventually he was flying all over the room

he did dives, in and out if the center of thd room.

eventually, one day, he went out the window fast! he was flying up into the sky and around the presidential helicopter!

he was like some kind of business superman


all of america was excited to have the worlds first flying president. instinctively we all knew that it would mean the end of war and the start of a new age of well being.

every sporting even would now feature a surprise visit from the beloved flying president!

super bowls, world series, even the olympics would be let met with collective sighs of disappointment having occurred just moments after the latest aerial escapde of americas flying president!

of course, other world leaders would quickly take notice and begin to attempt flying for themselves. it was easier than winning the people over through hard work and actual improvement of their constituents lives. and yet, they were unable to do it. sure, some would come close. uruguays president actually managed to stay afloat over a pool for 15 seconds. he plunged into the water after sneezing and was unable to repeat the action in front of cameras however.

indeed, americas flying president became a cherished and integral part of the US Mythos no less intrinsic than the grand canyon or liberty statue or mountain rushmore. what started as a cheap literal parlor trick by our middle aged commander in chief became a scientific and possibly athletic super spectacle.

how the hell does he do it?

teachers, parents, doctors and astronauts all over the world tired of answering that question. no one knew. everyone wanted to know. i, the president, wanted to know.

is it gas? or something less disgusting? how can i make further money from this? would carrying large objects slow me down? is this sexual in some manner? i regret sharing my self flight discovery if only because im tired of all the attention.

suddenly it hit me, just what had to be done. i got on feet and flew up, higher into air and space, through the moons space, toward the sun. no one would know why, no one would know how. and then, just as the temperature became too much, i panicked and i dove straight into this black hole.


p.l.e.a.s.e. l.e.t. m.e. o.u.t of this screen

>>16835275
>>16835317
holy shit, are you me?

>>16835383
you are in my prayers

>>16835626
Oh shit, I was wondering where I was. Thanks!

really horny rn

>>16835610
Maybe you are my re-incarnation in another time and space, I have thought about it, maybe my soul is already living other karmic lifes I should live to some day achieve Nirvana

this is also me

>>16835485
>>16835511
What do you do? How do you live your life other me?

>>16835511
Thank you for your kind words. I won't kill myself, but I'm going to continue smoking cigarettes and being lazy for now I think.

>>16835474
Based

>>16835629
For COVID? Yea you and the rest of the world

>>16835629
This. I've felt this way before Anon. You are not alone.

>>16835275
GOGOGOGOGOGOG HAPPY FUCKERS

>>16835639
Ok, sounds good.
Maybe you are just addicted to the cigs and it is fucking up your mind. I smoke tobacco in a pipe once a week, tobacco pipe generally has higher quality then the tabacco of cigs.

I have adhd, tabacco helped me to get my psychics degree, I also had to take Ritalin, but that fucks up my writing, so I don't take it anymore in post-graduation, I only smoke and drink occasionally. When I have panic attacks I make black pepper tea. I also eat fermented food like sauerkraut and eat plenty of vegetables, also have sex it is good for your mind, just don't let other use you, or get emotionally dependent on others, nor make other emotionally dependent on you, it will fuck up your mind in the long term, we are in really fluid times, you can't truelly love other or you will end been really hurt inside, it is just how it is in our times, but that doesn't mean you need to be an asshole with other or let other be an asshole with you, find your boundaries. What I am trying to say to you is that, don't try to find your soulmate, there is no such thing, in that concept will really fuck up your relationship and you.

I have always been really depressed, and I sort of managed to break free from it. What I found out is, you are a human been you need somethings to be happy, natural selection made it that way.
What I believe a person need is :
#You need to be part of a group of people, you need friends that are good and care about you
#You need to eat healthy, 100g of meat and more than 400g of vegetables dayli (seriously, this helps your vitamin intake and gut flora)
#Sleep 8h a day and have sex at least weekly.
#You need to do something you feel that is meaningful out of your life, something that it is your thing, an example, my thing is Psychics, this is my childhood dream.
#You need a companion that you can truly trust, and that you see been by your side for a really long time.

I also believe happiness in meaningless, that it doesn't really mater that content is more meaningful, to feel you are doing your part in this world. It was really hard and painful to achieve my academics goals, but it feel it worth it, that I did my part in this world. You will suffer to get at the top of mount Everest, but it worth it.

Two other things, recondition your brain to stop having "bad" thoughts, like thoughts that make you sad, just completely avoid those thoughts. Try to have good thoughts, the way out of been depressed is to condition your brain not to be depressed, it is really an exercise. I remember forcing a smile in the mirror just to try to be happier, it sort of worked out in the long term, just keep trying to be happy. Take care of yourself, do things that make you feel good, go out in the nature and meditated in the sun etc.
Good luck, I hope you succeed, life is hard anyway, just go on, it gets better some how, seriously.

>>16835754
OH also, read tao te ching, it is a really short book and it really helped me to find my own path to existence. https://taoism.net/tao/tao-te-ching-online-translatio

>>16835754
>psychics
Hehehe it is physics, I need to sleep, fuck you all btw.

Why in the world did my computer not have to work right now at this moment?

SO Hegel Martin Luther Marx the Columbine Shooters and Shakespeare are all part of a group of people who have seized a certain esoteric power for themselves which I am about to explain. Its obvious that syzygy has occult ramifications, thats why so called synchronicity has become such a big term among /x/ types, but they are not thinking big enough. History is not a straight line or a road but an ocean that mankinds perception sails across, through which certain paths are possible and other paths require a change in depth, and across which one can cast a net of sorts, affecting all within it. This net allows the caster to draw power/energy/not sure if theres a word for it yet allowing them to perpetually power their "spell" (not the right word either) or to do other things, such as dive to the bottom or fill a barrel of water and separate it from the ocean. There are no written records of how this was discovered and to an extent everyone does it a little, because this 'magic' takes the form of memes, in the sense of transferred patterns of data that are recognizable by others and which lend themselves to propagation. (Modern meme magic is part of this). So the big thing that the people I mentioned earlier did was essentially combine the elements of an ideally optimized meme with synchronicity/syzygy in such a way that the meme began to be "acted out" or "manifested" into reality. This acting or manifest memetic participation created an echo, vibration, and resonance with the original memetic construct, allowing its power to build and widening its net across the ocean of history. Does this mean that super popular people/things have immense power? No because both the recognition and the manifest participation are required elements, there has to be something to imitate and it has to be imitated so closely that it becomes the original. A good example is Shakespeares plays, an innocent form of this, where the participation is literally a function of the original construct, whose net has spread across essentially all of the perception-vessel of mankind. One way to view these constructs is like a cone, with the creation of a construct/spell capable of self propagation at the tip and increasing participation as it widens, with the circular side intersecting the surface of the ocean of history. Hegel did it very well because his original meme complex was relatively unknown but it had immense participatory potential to the point Marx could take some of its potential and use it for his own ends. The Columbine Shooters were some of the most recent to use this power albeit unknowingly, as the complex memetic construct of the school shooting (blood-sacrifice/bond-betrayal/death-instinct) not only gained great power as it came into being but also continues to gain power as it is acted out/participated in by thousands in the small amount of time since their act. Theirs was not the first school shooting but it was the first School Shooting. (1/2)

Hate. Hate. I Hate haters hating hate. I love hate. I love loving hate. Hate is good. Hate makey me love. Love makes me hate. Hate makes me love.

>>16835972
(2/2) Martin Luther created another powerful and complex construct, his Reformation (authority-rejection/tradition-destruction/pulling down Man as the image-likeness of God) created a 500 year long chain of exponential change to doctrine, where the idea of protest against an authority became a vehicle to be used by those who sought it and allowing thousands to anchor their own lesser memetic constructs behind him. What is the point behind all of this? Well since time isnt linear or circular but a plane traversable as any other, using the power generated by the exchange between celebrant/actor and the author of the memetic complex one can traverse or manipulate it at will, this is why it doesnt really matter if hegel or dylan klebold died or killed themselves as they have gained enough energy/binding force to pull some of the ocean aside and make a pond or fish tank, maybe bigger, or take the course the perception-vessel of mankind is charting and add a current under the rudder, cool the air and change the wind. Or maybe those who have accessed this power have rejected that and decided to dive to the bottom because there is more 'time' in an instant than in a measured length of minutes or hours (if you have a background in the occult or have had an experience with the divine you might know what Im talking about). Now what is more powerful, a potent construct acted a few times or a simple one acted out many, many times? There is a debate among the beings who deal in these things, and right now those on the many-times side have the upper hand. Ever wondered why certain behaviors or sequences of events are so common or spread so easily? Its usually not a plan by one of these guys but you never know. I know of a couple that would shock and surprise most people for being what they are. Now is it sometimes a good thing? Sometimes the constructs are not the product of humanity, they come from elsewhere and reach man in other ways, and their purpose is a mystery, as is who if anyone they benefit. There are no coincidences really. A pattern that happens to occur is still a pattern. Do whatever you want with this information.

>>16835596
There's legit a Soviet kids book about this I read once. It's about the disappearance of free thinkers (they learn how to fly and disappear into the sky) but it either was published late or snuck by the censors.

>>16835485
damn, so this is what normies experience

what is the value of having others depend on you?

>>16835596
This is quality kek. It could probably be turned into a submittable microfiction with a bit of editing. I will copy and paste this story to my friends to cheer them up. But don't worry I won't share it beyond that. Thanks fren.

>>16835275
Booba bob blob blo blobby booo BOOOOOBAAAAAA BOBASS BOBASS BOBBSSS BOBBSSS BUBBA BUBBA BUUB BUUB I'M BOOBA YOU RE BOOBA

>>16835275
The person I wish I was and the person I am are so far apart. Trying to become who I want to be seems like crawling through the dark, grasping for a light that may never shine.

It's all so tiresome, anons...

>>16836950
It is, but that's all the more reason to keep going. Don't let them win. Every day you're still living is another day you reject it.

>>16836458
it is an innate pleasure to fulfill the needs of others and receive their gratitude. This is probably for evolutionary purposes

>>16835275
Why do you have so much hate in your heart?

Fuck this shit lads. I have to apply myself. I have to get out of here.

>>16837276
this guy gets it

The internet is turning young people into self-absorbed sad saps with no mental or physical strength. They’re becoming more and less socially intelligent in different ways, but much less emotionally intelligent. People are addicted to their self-pity (aka depression, anxiety, doomer mindset, etc) and just are happy to feel something other than bored. But that boredom is the true killer. There are problems with this world, there always have been but it takes motivated and strong people to do their part to fix the problems. A generation of people crying about their problems all day aren’t doing their part. Btw I also think this generation also has the most potential because I truly believe that society won’t last another 20 years so they are going to have to step up and lead the world into a new age. If your believe you can do your part in that, start training now. Mind and body. Learn how to learn. Learn how to feel. Learn how to survive and train your body to be able to use what you’ve learned.

fully well a grown man and she's got me sleeping with my phone next to the pillow in case she writes. I have been subdued. And I have absolutely no idea what she thinks, but I have to assume that she knows that much, though I try to pretend that I am unmoved.

My bones ache. Day after day. The feeling is much too strong. But when I try to assess it it still seems absolutely appropriate. And still I have no idea what she thinks... and so I try to act unbothered. Fully well a grown man. I suppose the question is: is it good for a teenager to get jaded, or is there something true to that first intensity, something which has its value but which is mostly lost from the hearts of men and women alike?

>>16835300
what would the gameplay of your game be?
what would be the colors of the fleshlights?

Watching old school Looney Tunes and Tom and Jerry i noticed a recurring theme for one of the gags is the protaganist crossdressing to trick the adversary. It's quite funny but i can't stop thinking that if this aired today people would be slamming it for adhering to "woke" politics and calling it propaganda.

some time ago anon made a thread sketching his appearance and others joined in. 50 scrawny white males was the result. Never had i given it a thought that it was like that - did you know?

I suppose the only consistent thing to do would be to judge based upon his fruits

Tolkien is /lit/ capeshit. Christlarpers have bad taste.

>>16835300
You sound like a basedboy redditfaggot. I loathe the fact I share a board with people like you.

>>16837580
Wrong. Both sides would be slamming it for their respective platform's reason.

But for real I watched some OG Popeye the other day and it really was a head trip. The old cartoons are so weird once you look at them again with a clean eye. But it's not just old cartoons, it's most media. Stop watching TV for 10 years then go back to some old show you thought you were into and what you see will probably be jarring for a laundry list of reasons, some personal, some not. I'm actually incapable of watching broadcast media anymore because it's just so synthetic it causes distress in my soul.

>>16837824
If you think Tolkien is capeshit you probably haven't read it, but watched the movies. The books are incredibly mellow.

>>16837857
t. autist

I didn't start at november 1 but I have been no-nutting it for a while. it's interesting. It seems there is a physical buildup of some sort, that takes a couple of days but then grows quite intense. Whatever it is that is accumulating, it seems that some internal organ is aware of it and is delegated the task of communicating the state of the buildup, with increasing urgency. When it is great, the alarms sound the louder. This brings with it a heuristic. When I hold my pen to write, i begin to fantasize about what my fingers could touch instead. I hear my upstairs neighbour walk about, and immediately assume the rythmic thumping is noise from copulation: I stare at the text on the screen and I swear for a moment it is my lover, naked in front of me, beckoning me. the very saliva in my mouth, the weight of my togue against my lip. When I have starved myself before, I have never gone past this stage. It has never subsided. I'm gonna try to go as far as I can. I think I am right that there is a subconscious buildup of some sort, and that there is a sense, a real sense, that is only specialized at communicating the state of this buildup. But this is just feeling, just noise. Once correctly named the power of its spell should wear off, as with all noise. We'll see though.

i had a god damn wet dream againa nd came All over myself

>>16837904

he's right, though. the hobbit book is super comfy. the hobbit movie is a color and cgi spectacle.

>>16835972
>>16836074
good posts, very nice.

I have lost the power to be sincere. I cringe anytime I see people being genuinely interested in subjects, it's almost surprising to me. I try to feign an ironic disinterest in every possible subject. This is a genuine disease. The internet has ruined me. Irony is cancer and it has spread throughout my brain. I need help. I have no idea how you would even go about fixing this.


This post is completely ironic btw.

>>16837828
You sound like a monkey that scientists tried to teach english

I'm going to ask my psychiatrist for HRT next week.

>>16838639

you will never be a woman

>>16837491
First game: Shmup with puzzle elements
Second game: Aerial brawler with RPG elements
Third game: RPG with sword game elements
Fourth game: Black powder shooter with rhythm elements
Fifth game: Horror with puzzle elements

Fleshlights I dunno. As long as they were pretty and not cheap looking I guess.

>>16835283
Waz guud?

>>16835383
I'm in the exact same boat, I just want to read dune before I an hero.

>>16835511
I'm not trying to be mean, but you do realize that's the one of shittiest and most unreliable ways of doing it? Did you do any research before your attempt?

>>16835317
lol. Low t is linked to pure aggression, hight is linked towards status and revenge, you're the first case.

>>16836973
So if I stick my hand in a fire I should keep it there to "reject it"? If you wanna help someone at least try to hide your lunacy a little better.

>>16840048
i don't think anon was trying to kms. it sounds like he just binge drank

I feel like an absolute midwit. Whenever I have to hand-in an assingment for my study I take way too much time to write something mediocre.
My head feels all over the place and is struggle to write coherent paragraphs, let alone essays. I constantly feel like all the educators are just letting me pass becasue they know it will not get better anyway.

Part of my frustration is with academic writing. It feels like a chore to write all these soulless sentences. I understand why it is the way it is, but it is not for me.

>>16837906
Are you just measuring your power? Or do you think extra cum will give you x-ray vision?

>>16840115
I was in the same place. I hated MLA papers and hated my advisor, who gave me a string of Bs with very little feedback. After undergrad, I did art school and never wrote another academic essay. But trust me, the practice will give you a leg up in every field of writing. This will be especially true when you realize that not all writers have been trained in close reading and exegesis. I've been constantly frustrated with the lack of intellectual rigor in most contemporary writing.

>>16840120
I had a bunch of spiritual shit going on that led me to the final (?) conclusion that masturbation is a sin. I'm really not sure this is the right approach, but at the time I was and I made a pledge with God that I'd stop so now I'm pretty much locked in.

Boss said he was sending another person to the same car. He said we each had a part of the directions for the drop off location. “Take it for a spin,” he said and rolled his fat lips over his fat cigar, “you’ve been a good boy for a few years, I think you’ve earned it.”

The parking lot was dark and empty aside for the white truck. I whistled the tune and got a similar response back. We met at the car and shook hands limply.

“You know how to hotwire?” I asked.

“Yeah I know how to hotwire.” He said.

“You know where they hide the stuff in the seats?”

“Yeah I know where they hide the stuff in the seats.”

We played that mental chess until the truck revved out the parking lot and we took out the pieces of paper with the directions. They were identical, ending at a right turn on main street.

We got there and it was an abandoned strip mall. After an hour of more chess games we called it a night and got back in the truck. I took off my mask and he took off his. Both our faces were the same. I spoke in my normal voice first, as I usually lower it to sound more menacing, and his normal voice was exactly like mine.

“Take it for a spin” He said. “My thoughts exactly.” I said.

“You know what I’ve always wanted to do?” He said. “Yeah, that sounds like fun.” I said.

You ever see two Ronald McDonalds in one McDonalds?

“Ronald, Ronald-“ He pants and stomps his boots. The lipstick was starting to turn pink as it washed into the white face paint.

I fed him the fries and he grinned and I grinned. The late shift manager gave us a look as he set down the 8th McChicken at the table of our booth. I licked the ketchup, or was it lipstick, off my lips and tongued the straw of the milkshake into my mouth.

The denizens of the night took pictures of us and that goaded us on a little. We called the boss when we were both full and dropped it off at hq. He patted us both on the back and sent us home early, both of us smiling. I finally had a best friend.

>>16840120
the latest interesting "insight" is that the horniness is not a longing for the orgasm. I don't think so at least. I'm not sure what it wants. Maybe the indulgence, or the shift in the frame of mind. It is its own.. not pleasure exactly. It's pleasurable but at the same time really feels unfulfilled. It's like it goes in stages. Afaik male sex involves a bunch of neural pathways alternating (don't know about women). Maybe that's what it is, that you're led from one stage to the next. Because I really don't feel like what I'm longing for is the cumming.

I unironically think shitposting on /lit/ might be good for my mental health

>>16840588
these gets are checked for dopamine rushes