/lit/ - Literature

>>16790828
I like that picture

I want it to snow. I can invite her to go skiing.

i hit age 30 its all over bros

>>16790828
used to have that as my phone background

simpler times

>>16790940
if you hadnt change the background you'd still be living in the simple times?

>>16790943
damn...

Flesh is limiting

>>16790828
Yeah that's a pretty soothing picture all right.

finally tired
feelsokman

>>16790828
Is there November literature? Late fall, early winter, and stuff?

Study women & see that a woman wants a vapid life & to keep men competing for her, with the euphemism of courting, being a princess seduced by princes & when in bed, she wants to talk dirty, for once to be fucked raw while squirting everywhere, joyfully exclaiming ''omg this never happened to me before'', succumbing to a convulsive orgasm, the highlight of her life, the legendary vaginal holy grail heard about during the regular sex gossip at the spa with her girl friends giggling in unison.
For years she dreamed it was HER TURN damn it, yet for years she put up with subpar self-glorifying sexual partners, conveniently avoiding thinking her sex-based existence. The princess is not ready to accept that, she keeps in the back of her mind a distant fantasy of merging her double life: a state of debased Lady, all the time, where her cognitive dissonance would've no end & no beginning. No more hysteria, no more schizophrenia. It'd be pure non-duality. Diana would be proud of her enlightenement.

At this stage, women prefer to let the men do the first step, let them think they're in control & the stronger sex, as a bonus she doesn't view herself as a total slag & gets the harassment card if the orbiters are too repulsive. Men love this, falling hook, line and sinker.

Willy-nilly, the woman ends up pregnant, it's what happen after years of bending over. She debates for a few days whether to keep it, whether to tell whoever she thinks fertilized her these last few weeks.
She fancies playing the card of the helicopter mom, feeling like protecting & providing for a tiny kid, taking it in her arms, watching it move, be happy; exactly what men dream of doing to women.
Women love their kids, they are faithful to them. Women do not love men, they are not faithful to men. They don't even need to anyway. Women practice love like a banker at JPMorgan performing a cost-benefit analysis.
Bored with the helicopter mom, plus the kids grew up, she longs for the golden years of her twenties when she was kind of a looker.
She's spreading them even wider, in secret or openly, this time cutting the good girl act for she knows what she wants after all those experiences, & with little effort on her side, she still pulls it off with lots of chads eating her pussy & ass.

The menopause really kicks in & all her aging orbiters have a semi hard-on from her when she's in the nude. She thinks about a breast lift, some bottox here & there, but she feels bittersweet as the end is near. She's open about the swinger sex. Her official provider is happy to be a cuckold & happy to make her happy, to be here day after day for her & her kids.
Hardly any man looks, now that she's a young grandma, more or less jealous of her daughter becoming what she was, relentlessly perpetuating the female life.
Grandma finally dies & everybody says she was a saint. The daughter hits the wall, the teen granddaughter bleeds and is active, it's her turn to perpetuate the cycle of the vaginal existence.

I would like to be lonely in crowded place. But everything is closed.

I wish i was a bird
Flying high above the ground
So when i finally put my feet down
I would feel whole again

I wish I spent more time on my book backlog instead of playing vidya

>>16791078
Rethink your life.

>>16790828
I think I really do love her bros..
No woman has ever compelled me to sit down and write about the way she makes me feel. I'm trying to describe the feelings she's put inside my heart but nothing would come close. I want to learn how to write just so I might be able to express even a fraction of my love for her.

I'm having an exceptionally hard time in the dating pool.
So few women seem to be intelligent, or at least deep in any sense. It seems like every girl I match with is only interested in surface level media consumption and drugs
Maybe its my fault for using dating apps but I'm genuinely struggling to meet a woman with an ounce of depth and I'm not sure how to go about finding one.

Where's my loli maid wife whom i can cherish and love ?

>>16790943
no, i just associate the pretty pastel tones loved by the artist with a time in my life where unrequited love was my greatest woe

>>16791142
I though /lit/ had higher standards than this

>>16791142
you're a fucking failure in real life i hate you, stop poisoning everyones mind with this bullshit

>>16791163
a tleast anon's picrel doesn't have a dick for once.

>>16791141
Do you expect someone to show you how "deep" they are on the first date?

>>16790828
Once again I've spent too long on /lit/ when I have 999 ebooks much more informative and interdasting. why? "connecting to others"...

>>16791141
your definition of "depth" is the problem
just because you're stuck in a hole you dug in the dirt for yourself, it doesn't mean that aren't other dirt holes with different people

>>16791186
No but I expect people to at least hold a coherent conversation.
Why even text me if you're gonna answer with 'yeah lol' to everything I say

>>16791111
try tp make a level-headed estimate of whether or not her heart is good. if you find that it is good then marry her. But be honest with yourself, because you will be responsible for your choice.

>>16791214
good post

>>16791238
It takes two, dude. What you say might only warrant a "yeah lol," and texting a garbage format for having a meaningful conversation anyway

>>16791281
Yeah I suppose, but I find the trend often continues even when we go on dates.
I try to be engaging and put effort into both myself and my relationships and I just want to find someone who does the same, you know?
I have better conversations with anons on 4chan than I ever have with matches

fluffy pony(winter fur)

>>16791315
I gotta ask, what do you try to talk about on dates? If you want to get to know someone, lead with questions about her, don't go off asking about how many angels can dance on the head of a pin or whatever you think is stimulating conversation

>>16791363
Just the usual starter questions. Tell me about yourself, what do you like/dislike, hobbies, interests, etc and then questions expanding on whatever they answer with.

I just find I don't often hit a chord that they want to talk about and the conversation turns into me asking questions to keep the conversation going and them giving half assed answers as if they're not interested in engaging with me.

However when I reciprocate that effort and tell them that I'm no longer interested they always seem offput as if they didn't expect it or were enjoying my company and wanted to see more of me.

I just don't fucking get women man

I just want to be more creative.

>>16790828
When socrates searched athens to try and find a man wiser than himself, it must not have been out of humility, but fear.

Not a whole lot. I'm withdrawing from porn and drugs and I'm experiencing some major brainfog, I had no idea I could be this stupid like I can't even read a page or solve simple math equations lol. What I have been thinking about a lot is creationism and the bible and if there could possibly be a God and if that God would be the Christian God. Anyway, I'm gonna lay off thinking about this for a bit until I am able to focus again.

>>16791142
You sound like a pedo. Please stay away from children and playgrounds.

>>16791458
I don't think that ever happened. The oracle just told him he was wisest

Fuck niggers.

>>16791142
i dont think such behaviour is healthy for you anon

>>16790828
I fucking hate people who write in books! Like, Jesus Christ, if you are such a brainlet that you read, "I saw nothing, and nevertheless my sense of another presence grew steadily", and feel the need to underline and write "paranoia" next to it, go kill yourself! Holy hell! I've got no qualms about people who keep journals about what they write or jot down a thought on a piece or paper or sticky note and use it as a place keeper. But people who write in books, especially fictional stories, need to eject themselves from the wheel of reincarnation. Not even kidding. Holy fuck!

>>16791056
There's A Separate Peace, but that's genuinely gay, and I've read The Left Hand of Darkness.

>>16791214
I like this guy.

girl's

>>16790828
Time is a valuable thing.

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings, watch it count down to the end of the day, the clock ticks life away, it's so unreal. Didn't look out below, watch the time go right out the window. Trying to hold on, didn't even know I wasted it all just to watch you go.

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart. What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard.

>>16791656
The thing next to the line "I wish I'd been" is a question mark. Not kidding. The previous owner was so stupid, he/she couldn't connect the dots between whisky and wishing they had abstained from the stuff.

>>16791328
White horse anon? That your one in the background?

>>16791670
AND GOT SO FAAAAAR

kill myself

>>16791527
Go to into the privacy of your room and ask God sincerely and humbly to reveal himself to you in some way. You have to be open or else you'll never experience. Remember it has and always be GOD seeking man, not the other way around, you're intrested in him becuase hes calling you. God bless, Jesus loves you.

>>16791718
Jesus loves you>>16791763

>>16791328
Cute.

>>16791670
>>16791688
>yfw pitchfork gives Hybrid Theory a 7.6

haha

>>16791407
>I just don't fucking get women man
Obviously not

>>16791656
at the end of chapters I sometimes write a few brief bullet points, a kind of chapter summary. Only in non-fiction books though.

Sometimes it urges me to tense my face and arm muscles until my body vibrates. The back of my head is flat, my forehead bulge is pronounced. I sometimes jump from windows to cover, imagining that someone might shoot me or throw a grenade into my room (I don't seriously believe that this will happen). I am perverted, masochistically inclined, with a slight sadistic tendency. All in all, I am afraid of women. in social situations I am tense, but i can usually cover it up. Social laughter causes me big problems. My eyes water quickly when i am confronted with trouble. I do not know the answer to any philosophical question. I think in quotation marks. I do what I feel comfortable doing. Some kind of morality guides me, but I don't know exactly what kind. I try to be friendly, because it's easy to get through life with that. If I could get through life more easily with hostility, I don't doubt that i would be a hostile person. I am afraid of losing my little mind for good by hitting my head. I fear and dream that my teeth will fall out. My penis is average size. I have light male breasts. I like anal stimulation, but it is too much work.

Is this too much for my tinder profile?

>>16790828
Just going to describe what I've been thinking, but it's still probably an incomplete thought. I'm trying to be a good man. There's not a lot of them in my life but I see them around in part, like when my pa is at his best or this co-worker I once had, or I read about them in fiction or somewhat dishonest non-fiction. Principled men, men who do the right thing when it's hard. No, I guess I don't mean the right thing. I mean the exceptional thing. Self-sacrificing when no one would blame them if they did the easy thing. And they don't do it because of any benefit to themselves, but because someone had to. I suppose these men can do these things because they have reached a point where the hard thing isn't so hard for them. And to lose something or even themselves isn't that bad of thing to them. I'd like to reach such a point. It's self-mastery but more importantly self-detachment. I think some eastern philosophers describe something similar. To get to that point, I need to be detached but also maintain that compassion or equanimity which is needed to do the right thing. Love I guess. I like the word cultivation. Was it the Buddha who used it? I like the analogies in the Bible about sowing. Plant the ride seeds, and then just feed them, and work with them, and they grow bigger every day. Then, when the time is right, there you have it, the fruit of your labors. A delicious sweet potato! Id like to have that sweet potato. I'd like to be a good man. I'd like the hard things not to be hard for me, and I'd like to not be all that worried about myself, so then, when the time is right, I'll be there for those who, for that moment, the hard things are hard and are worried about themselves. And maybe, and this is kind of a stretch, someone might find me as an example and strive to reach a similar point. A chain reaction. I think that will be what I work towards. I'm trying my hand at a bit of farming.

>>16791955
Nah that's perfect, don't change a thing

I've always struggled with writing, and I think it's because I never learned to hold a pen correctly as a kid. Writing with pen and paper is an uncomfortable experience, the pen is smashed against my fingers, my arm gets all tense after a couple minutes, and then my spine starts doubling over. Eventually all the tension heads to my lower body, making me cross my legs tight enough to squash my balls. This has been going on so long that it's become a conditioned reflex, even when I'm typing something on a keyboard. I always had a hard time writing stuff for school assignments and I still have a tendency to avoid sitting down and writing stuff, even if it's something I'm interested in and want to do.
Maybe I'll just have to overcome my embarrassment and buy some of those rubber pencil grips they make for special ed kids. I don't really know what to do about all the tension, maybe take up meditation or something. I've started going to the gym regularly this year, and it's helped a little.

>>16791986
>reflexively crush your own balls every time you write
Anon, you are a special ed kid

>>16791921
Well what am I missing?
Should I just slog through these braindead slampieces until I figure it out or what?

Reactionary to the reactionary doth I study the wom.

>>16791955
What Midwest-emo could have become

It's all for nothing I'm gay and I'm dumb actually not true but it's the feeling of being unacknowledged by the pubescent despots which run my schizophrenic mind and alter reality to create hope in the bleeding heart of the proletariat scum which eat specks of dust on old rotting apples in the cellar of my discontent and wishing I was an interdimensional being of light I whisk my consciousness away from this demiurgic hellscape and into a dream of walking through indescript beatific landscapes with groups of others like me and preferably a beautiful woman or two who love me and feel physical affection which I reciprocate to the ones who don't exist except for in my bittersweet dreams

>>16791998
I actually was. I like to think I've gotten past it, or that it was a mistake brought about by my parents or the public school system, but that's a lie. Once an autist, always an autist.

>>16792070
4can psychosis. Definitely relatable but definitely that particular mental illness only found here in this stupid place with these same stupid idiots doing the same thing. Go do something crazy that will change everything in your life. No not that. But change everything.

>>16792094
Buy the rubber finger-holster.

Tomorrow work.
Save me from this nightmare.

>>16792070
This. Right here.

>>16792012
I dunno man. I think you are approaching these women in a spirit of judgement and that colors your interactions with them. You say they seem uninterested but you're the one who's bored.

>>16791214
>most people are super duper awesome and interesting. If you have a critical attitude towards popular culture and normal social behavior, then you must be an uptight loser with personal problems

Kys normie.

>>16792270
People who are critical of pop culture and normal society who are also lonely and bitter often are uptight losers, yes

>>16790828
Submitted a paper for an uni class on Friday. It's bad. I know it's bad. I wish I hadn't run out of time, but work/other classes got in the way. Now I'm alternating between regretting that I didn't spend more time on it and fretfully calculating what my grade will be after it.

She really does lift a smile on my face.
I might still be a virgin, but yesterday makes it much less important.
I slept with a women, a good friend, Jessica.
With all the restrictions going on I'm impressed with myself, especially seeing how bad I used to feel about myself, so I feel very happy that I was with her.
I'm 20 and she's 33.
I might not usually mention this, but it's one of the many things we joke about, and she keeps mentioning how she feels like a pedophile.
It doesn't take her long to stop caring after she feels weird, in part that I never feel the need to push the boundaries to any ridicilous degree.
I really treasured last night, even with all the gay jokes, in fact the gay jokes are part of the fun, esepcially that I'm as gaybaity as I am.
It was a special night for me, it really was.
I wasn't sure that I was going to see her on the day, but I ended up sleeping in the nude and making various sincere yet jokey "I'm a stud" sort of comments to her.
Whether I'll ever have sex with her isn't the point, her company is nothing sort of amazing to me. Plus she has mentioned wanting to hook me up with people too, which makes me feel weird but I like.
It feels like I've know her for ages, even though this is my second time seeing her. I assume this is a relationship cliche but it feels true and that's what is important to me.
Unless my fate compass is broken, I'll be doing MDMA with her in the future, maybe this year.
I wish you all the best.

>>16792270
If you have a critical attitude towards popular culture and normal social behavior, it still doesn't mean you're better or smarter than anyone, dipshit.
Any single fucking person who joined a human sciences course has those, just not in the same way essentialist retoric as you do.
You're not culturally or intelectually curious, you're just a elitist douchbag that wants a fuckdoll that happens to have the exact same opinions as you on everything.

"society is wrong, I'm right" is the slowflakiest of takes and gives me no wonder as to why you're on incel mode

>most people are super duper awesome and interesting
most people are fucking boring, but I'd take boring over elitist doomer everyday of the fucking week

>>16792257
Yeah maybe, I suppose that's a good point.
I just keep hoping that some girl will click but I've dated probably a dozen women and talked to 3 or 4 dozen women in the last year and none of it really felt organic.

I'll just keep looking and keep the thoughts on the anons here in mind.

>>16792363
not to out myself as the height of all autism but what is it you would get out of a relationship that is not a fuckdoll with the same opinions as you?
t. has been alone for a long, long time

>>16791683
no thats another horse, also fat&white&based
>>16791820
yes.

I think my mind is mostly filled with self-pity these days.

>>16790828
I don't want to work or improve my life. I want more degrees.

Can somebody give me that Pynchon copypasta about his wacky antics?

>>16792824
Pynchon’s my favorite writer for sure, because my favorite thing in books is goofs, gags, jokes and rambunctious behavior, and his books are filled to the brim with this. Every novel is like one of those novelty snake cans, you open the book and POP you get a face fulla snakes and you fall back cackling. The mad mind, the crack genius, to do it! And then you think “hmmm what’s he gonna do next, this trickster” and you pick the book back up and BZZZZ you get a shock and “hahahaha” you've been pranked again by the old Pynchmeister, that card. “Did that Pynch?” he sez, laughing “yukyukyukyuk”. Watch him as he shoves a pair of plastic buck teeth right up his mouth and displays em for you – left, right, center – “You like these? Do I look handsome?” Pulls out a mirror. “Ah!” Hand to naughty mouth. And you're on your ass again laughing as he snaps his suspenders, exits stage right, and reappears hauling a huge golden gong

Once scene from the otherwise merely okay movie Red Sparrow stuck in my mind. It was when the protagonist Dominika goes to Russian spy school. The headmistress is giving the students a lecture and she utters a magnificent line. "Every human being is a puzzle of need. You must learn to intuit what is missing, become the missing piece, and they will give you anything." Wiser words have never been said. It makes me wonder what the security flaw in my psychological encryption system might be: what is my missing piece? What's yours?

It reminds me by a quip from science fiction author Philip K Dick: “There exists, for everyone, a sentence - a series of words - that has the power to destroy you. Another sentence exists, another series of words, that could heal you. If you're lucky you will get the second, but you can be certain of getting the first.”

One's lips have the potential to form the shape of the key that will spring the lock of another's mind--or send it snapping shut like a bear trap.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ckJU4s5LT70

>>16792323
>I'm 20 and she's 33.
hell yeah

>>16792323
wtf is going on here

>>16793023
what man?

is

fate of my heart in the akhira desu senpai

How many books do you read at one time?
How do you pick them?

to this day it brings me the greatest joy that "shake my head to be honest family" had such memetic force that it had to be chained up and locked away in anime-speak.

>>16790828
What's on Your Mind

>>16794365
but u typed it not writed it haha

The moon is bedsheetwhite.

sneed

>>16791407
>I don't get women

Whether you believe it or not, you might as well act as if gender is completely and totally a surface-level performance. Obviously you'll be nervous in the sexually-tense atmosphere at first, but if you just (convincingly) act like you don't notice that at all and be authentic, I guarantee you will get better results.
In short, stop speaking to her like a woman, and atart speaking to them like a potential friend. Once you do that, either they'll be romantically or sexually interested or they won't be. Make eye contact or you won't pick up on the cues. But don't make much eye contact until you're more confident in your male act.

If they're interested, just go with the current, making your approach subtly for the shy ones, tentatively testing the waters, and more direct advances for the more outgoing ones.

Above all, stick to a moral code about all this. Don't be selfish, or your gender performance will fall apart and no one will look at you twice. If love is the objective, suspend your judgement and really try to listen. There is someone out there that fits your personality reasonably well, but you have to be more patient and stop trying to find an ideal person.

Good luck

just killing time
unwillingly mine

I haven't had an orgasm in three days. I thought, at first, that my dog cage would bring me a kind of restrictive ecstasy, finally taking away my power to do anything or everything. I couldn't bring myself to go the way of religion, so this is the second-best. She locked up my manhood and locked up my box. Would Rilke be proud? I could write my memoir in dried sperm and blood (I get plenty of nosebleeds at this altitude, she finds it delicious), but the newspaper she spreads for me to pee on are the only place I have to go... the act of art or excretion? It's so hard to decide. Sometimes she sticks her little foot through the bars and I suck on each toe, cleaning as best I can. My package presses against the hard plastic trap. If she would put me in a museum, I would be famous. The starving artist (except she does feed me ramen with the beef packets, cooked in collected piss). I feel so weak I have to force myself to pry my eyes open, and even if I have the energy to, its just the same bare basement.
One time she came to me without anything on. I remembered for a brief flash that I was put on this earth to stick my willy in her hole, and yet I couldn't bring myself to do it, and she just came to tease me anyways.

She'll take my internet privilege next. I hope you all are happy, I got what I had been dreaming of, and now it's too late to change course.

to be precise, what is on my mind is that I am focking confused about literally every thing

I'm so bored.

>>16794696
not that anon but thanks

>>16790881
It's really North Korean

I went on my first run in a long time this evening. I was experiencing an urge throughout the day to really work up a sweat. The run was exhilarating, and, much to my surprise, went far better than I initially thought it would have done. The urge was tempered by a claustrophobic sense of self doubt that oftentimes plagues my choices, a hindrance that I have been tentatively been working to eradicate.I wandered out of my door and warm flat with nothing but my shorts, t-shirt , headphones and of course my phone. When I took my tentative first steps of the run, I still doubted my reasons for undertaking this Heraclean task.
As I began to takedeep breathes of the hydrating, crystal fresh air and passed the turning off my road, I assumed another aspect. This newly formed ethosrevelled in the marvellous sense of power that traversing at thespeed I was, bringsoneself. I flewdown November dark streets, with orange flakes of leaves creating an autumnal padding for my fledgling strides. Exploring new lanesin my little universe was a novelty that brought me a breathtaking feeling of exhilaration. Each youthful avenue of untrodden lands sent my poundinglegs verdant energy, as I left behind my virtualic tomb and entered into the atavistic paradise of Gaia. I had not experienced being this intertwined with the physical world in what I perceived to be an age.
I am about to enter the world of slumber, to be ready to begin my accretion of capital to satisfy society in the morning. My flatmate requested my presence outside of my room at around midnight. He ledme to the living room and pointed out a blazing star, a fiery light in the ebony horizon. It was a serenely stunning spectacle, and I stumbled back to my bedwondering what sun shone that bright in Earth's vision. Sirius, the name of the star is Sirius, the Dog star, the ''scorching'' beacon in the cosmos. I enjoy the name Sirius, aesthetically it brings me immense pleasure although I can't tell why. The Hellenes had many beautiful names.

>>16794932
Ignore the awful paragraphing, I swear it was different when typing.

>>16790828
I want to go to the zoo and see an anteater. The Yume Nikki snow world OST is good.

Does anyone feel like reading makes you a bit of a pussy? Espevially philosophy, I am second guessing everything and many moral systems are kind of weak and soft, especially religious ones.
Any books for that feel? Or should I just take a break from reading and instead go out and get drunk or something?

>>16795033
When I read a lot of philosophy or religious text I ultimately feel a lack of desire. Then I'll go out and get drunk, re enter the world or hierarchies and whores and get mad at myself for being so stupid for believing wrinkly priests. This happens ever so often especially if the feeling of being a loser intensifies.

>>16791078

Fuck this
I'm tired
Have been for a long time
Please

>>16791552
Not that he needed to be told that.

>>16791763
Once out of utter desperation I actually did this and got weird visions.

>>16795033
For me this was the first few years of philosophy when I was learning about different philosophies and their shortcomings. After that initial curve you start forming your own views and end up feeling more secure than before.

>>16791141
Its a bit messy and incoherent, but I like to imagine people as chain-links in a giant vendiagram chain, which is itself another chain-link in a larger vendiagram chain. Some people just can't get along with eachother since their links don't overlap. Frog poster could be a sincere man with a deep interior world who for some reason cannot see the depth inside others. Sometimes he is right in his observations, other times he is wrong. The same applies to everyone else. There are people who would think OP to be shallow and middling yet others who can see what he has to offer. Just keep looking OP but keep in mind what >>16791214 says.

You Boomers want to know why us Zoomers don't pirate media? Because it's confusing, and you fuckers play gatekeepers to how do it.
I know how to pirate books and videogames but not movies. Seriously, what the fuck is up with file sharing? I read this guide and it tells me to get a VPN. Those cost money. I thought the point of pirating was to get media for free.

>>16795302
are you 10?

>>16795302
If you need a VPN to torrent then you live in a rich enough country to buy media.
Pirating is for second worlders.
t.zoomer

>>16795302
eh isn't that how boomers go on

>>16791328
>a barrel of grass, with four legs, and a head that can make it run around and to find more delicious grass
interesting and grasspilled

For the first time in my life, I'm satisfied with my body.

>>16795302
Fmovies wtf. Google it zoomer. Sites change over time as domains get shut down.

covid destroyed my family. probably going to have to sell the house. I saw Taiwan was having a music festival today. Thousands and thousands of people. Tens of thousands. Why couldnt we have that? Why do we only have cruelty and ineptitude?

>>16795637
That's a nice haircut. I wish my ears weren't lopsided so I could try out a haircut like that.

She left me even more broken then I was when I was with her. I was confused, lost, mad, and lonely even when we were a unit, but her presence was just what I needed. Alone again, nothing much has changed, I just miss her.

>>16790828
If I'm writing a short story that has the protagonist reading a letter written by another character, is it acceptable to present the text of the letter in italics or is there some other way that's stylistically more correct?

>>16795637
North Korea has literally never had a case of covid. Capitalism has failed!

I had to be hospitalized yesterday due to a heart attack, i'm 24 and in "good shape". Not even LARPing, i was terrified, but now i only feel bummed out. I don't even know where to go from here, nihilism is pointless even in the face of death, and to go on to live life to the fullest is even dumber.

>>16795806
Time to start exercising and stop eating/drinking garbage.

>>16795302
Getting a VPN that costs like 8 bucks a month so that you can download stuff that would cost way more than that still makes sense though from a dollars and cents perspective.

>>16795310
Who cares? If public libraries were still open he'd be able to get a lot of films, television series, and music for free anyways. I'm glad I'm not you, white knighting for multi-billion dollar media companies.

>>16790828
i really like this jesus guy, i wanna be his friend :DDD

>>16795866
The real cost of pirating is all the time you wasting hoarding bullshit you will never watch again or maybe even at all. My old gaming PC from the 2010s has a 2TB drive full of movies that I will never watch. I'd rather just cough up the 100 bucks or whatever a year for Criterion Channel than waste all my time trying to pirate obscure bullshit with 2 seeders in Eastern Europe on dialup modems and then I found out it has hardcoded Urdu subs or something. Don't waste your life to save the $10.99 a month Criterion costs.

>>16796046
You have only your own autism to blame, anon. I pirate only if there is something that I need immediately. No point in hoarding anything when you have the entire archive at your disposal.

>>16791141
you'll never be satisfied with the deep ones because they're all basket cases in need of maintenance. get a productive and happy normie and put all of this intellectualizing behind you.

I think the West is in on its deathbed.

>>16796013

>>16796124
If there is east, there is west.

>>16790828
I can’t read for more then a few minutes at a time. I remember devouring entire books in a day as a child. Nothing quite captures my interest these days like colored pixels. They’re fascinating. Books just can’t compete in my mind.

>>16790828
I'm very happy because I just went jogging and have been... no I'm kidding, I'm still bedbound and miserable. Otherwise why be here?

The natural qualities of blacks are: laziness, violence, idiocy, and destruction. The black mindset is to lounge around in their “hoods” and to collect welfare checks from the government, who is largely complacent in allowing them to act like urban apes.

>>16790828
How did the USA go from the most promising Nation on the planet to a 3rd world shit hole?
Was it the Dykes, was it the giNgers was it a bit of both?

>>16795637
Many such cases. Sad!

>>16796480
You are of slave mind now as you like to be told rather than shown.

>>16796515
When you let in people from the third world you get third world living conditions.

>>16795806
>heart attack
Due to what?

Started and finished "No Longer Human" today, eerily relatable at many points...

Once upon a time, I fell in love with the person who can't love me back. The end.

>>16796656
Was it Peter from Family Guy?

>>16795234
Not him, but can you describe them?

>>16796616
but the US already had giNgers

>>16795719
I know, anon. It gets better.

>>16792323
wish i had a mommy gf

I wish I had a friend I could talk to in my dreams

I wonder if becoming a helicopter pilot is a good way for me to escape NEETdom

I quit loli about two months ago but other porn isn't cutting it. I want to commission some that meets my needs but I can't find anyone willing to do it

I feel like I've used up the passion in my soul. I'm not cut out to be a writer anymore

>>16791986
I had the same issue. Get a fountain pen, they force you to write more from your shoulder/elbow than from your fingers and wrist. They also put ink on the page just from lightly touching it so you aren't inclined to grip tightly as a response to pushing the pen into the page. It's also fun to get into the habit of writing cursive if, like me, you've only ever written in block letters.

>>16797108
What are your needs, anon?

>>16797083
Being a shit helicopter pilot is a good way to escape life in general

>>16795637
Taiwan is pretty fucked in the coming decades though, keep your head up and you'll triumph over the uppity asians eventually

I'm trying to turn my life around by adhering to an hour by hour schedule for my week which I made yesterday, wish me luck it's going to be quite difficult, especially since I'm already browsing /lit/

>>16791111
Jack off. Have 3 other options that are of similar quality.. and if you still feel this way after having that. Id say you need to find something you "do" in life you feel as or more passionately about. A woman wants to live in a mans life.. not be it.

>>16791141
You dont look for women. They look for you. Pursue your dreams and deep goals in this world. Women are a bonus not the goal.

>>16797316
You have to be a pretty advanced autist to make that kind of thing work, but hopefully you get something positive out of the attempt even if it doesn't go to plan

>>16791081
same
I miss just sitting in cafes/ bars observing things

>>16790828
am frustratd because I know more than I can do it angers me that Im so stupid why cant I be the best im such a fag kill me please i want to do everything but can only masterbabte and look at LOL vids and anime shit im not doing my best

Accounting courses are draining my vitality and I'm stuck there because I don't have anything I'm interest in. I need to achieve at least a bachelor in that field to secure a job if I don't want to end up a failure and kms in my late 30.
I can't understand why I'm not interested in anything. F bros

>>16797653
I understand that feeling so very much, bro. shame I'm not functional like that though.

>>16797663
We are gonna make it bro

>>16791965
projecting here-
you're doing it out of an ego. You probably wont succeed unless you figure that out. You don't want to be a good man you want to be a good man who people see as a good man.
When I act really nice at work and someone notices I think oh fuck yeah I'm so great but as a joke because I know I'm unfortuantely a really nice guy not out of being a nice guy but partly to show off and partly something else I haven't figured out yet (I think it's something about appearing defenseless so people lower there guards or mean people don't see me as a threat).

>>16797689
Here's hoping, my guy. Best of luck with your courses, one day you will find something you truly love. Or at least you will fulfil the cosmic need for accountants to be empty husks, which will be esoterically pleasing.

>>16797316
that's a very brittle way of going about things. You're prone to relapse. Have you started small?

>>16790828
I dislike my job but I probably shouldn't quit. Tomorrow I'll tell them I changed my mind about quitting and will beg for my job back. Am I where I want to be by this age? No. But I've done a lot of soul searching, and I see the factors that led me into this position. I also consider the fact that we're in a pandemic, and the job market is really freaking tough in general for our generation. Ultimately I have an idea or where I want to go (Alaska). I'm still young (26) and I still hopefully have many decades to find my place in this world.

>>16790828
The internet is societally condoned crack. Something you cant escape, literally glued to your hip. I know I have a problem. I want to take a fast from the internet after this semester. I'm going to pirate some books and spend the week reading, and maybe code a bit (although that will likely require an internet connection). Its just fucking garbage that you have something that is literally designed to grab your attention and waste your time, and yet you have to interact with it for basically any job these days. I'll be so glad once I'm an electrician.

>>16796971
i wish my mom had me at 13 uwu

>>16792070
This, I'm happy in my dreams.

>>16792095
Don't forget, you're here forever

>>16792323
i'd like to think we're the intelectual elit of this board but you're dummy ass is being taking advantage of and you know it with that innocent pepe
hope you don't settle for her and push for someone better for you if this isn't a 4d bait post

>>16797355
Yeah it's more to strive for the ideal rather than instantly achieve it
I am rather autistic but I won't full on time table every second, never take breaks and freak out when something changes

>>16797721
I'm trying to wake up and go to sleep and regular times, shower every day and go outside for a little walk
Most importantly I have designated study time, and I'll read before bed
Likely will fuck it up and not keep schedule, but I hope I can build a habit of having a regulated daily routine.
I need structure in my life, the aimless drifter lifestyle of a gamer will be my demise

>>16790828
Does existential ennui fester especially here or is it something that pervades all of society and our generation? Some of my peers have found success, but it seems that most are simply drifting along, that our opportunities and hope are fading by the day.

Please tell me that I'm alone in this, that it really isn't so bad. Please tell me of your successes, so that I'm inspired to find my own.

>>16797789
No, it really is quite bad.
Millenials in the US are on track to be the first generation to have a lower standard of living than their parents
There are no communities and it's becoming more and more difficult to start a family or buy a house in the big cities where all the jobs are concentrated
Rates of alcohol and drug addiction, suicide etc have been on the rise for decades, especially with certain demographics like working class whites
1 in 4 women over 45 is on anti depressants

>>16797715
I wish you well too man, and yeah I hope I'll be able to enjoy accounting.

Learning is enjoyable but knowing is miserable.
It feels great to discover new things, but once you've seen them in full they gradually get mundane and irritating.
I don't know how to resolve this

>>16797865
Once you know then you can create.

>>16797761
I've thought about this and I can tell you that I'm not being taking advantage of.
I've just taken highlights but it flips flops on who is actually in control or not, plus we just both like each other.
You've made think about it though, so I appreciate it, I just think you're wrong.
I like her as a friend, a friend I flirt with, but a friend nonetheless.

When I am in love, I am forceful and vital. When I am not, I feel decadent and melancholic. Maybe the answer is to be in love? But that would be absolutely terrible! That would be the worst...

>>16797784
I'd like to think that Aristotle got a few things right, one being that there is virtue in moderation. A temperance of sorts could be struck, between inane discipline and inane discretion. With this goal comes the limits of reason and order, which crumble under inflexibility. Maybe these issues regarding the planned vs. unplanned life stem from reconciling a healthy relationship between rationality and irrationality. It is irrational to try to eliminate irrationality, you know?

>>16797761
>i'd like to think we're the intelectual elit of this board
meant to say website at the end there
>>16797941
I don't know your life but I don't think it's healthy to have a flirt like her either. Even if you're in control it still doesn't seem healthy. If you make it work go for it, to me it just doesn't look like a safe option. I have no experience in dating so the easy answer for me has been to find someone I'm smarter then but while that seems nice I don't like how mean and manipulative it sounds

Finally found something I can dedicate myself to. It's a little late but in four years or so I can make it

>>16798046
>don't think it's healthy
How so?
If anything is unhealthy it's the alcohol, but the relationship is perfectly healthy, just unusual.

>>16798069
I'm basing this off of normalness (the good normal not this degerate normal that's being pushed in media). You talk with a girl and you find out she's lovely and you get together and start a family. That's it. Get a great girl and have kids in a healthy relationship. Already if you don't agree with that hopefully you have some kind of profound alternative. Even then this is just me defending myself because I'd rather pursue art then find a girl ;( Truley it should all be starting a healthy family.
So now there's you, not immediately getting with this girl but even sounding complicated with who's manipulating who. That shouldn't be a thing and obviously shows no fortune for a healthy environment to raise kids. They'll grow up seeing their parents cheat, lie, and or make them lie

>>16798160
>manipulating
It's not like that, we're both incredibly honest with each other and what we want. It's more about how to get what each other wants which is slightly different.
We're not going to have kids or raise a family because it's not that kind of relationship and we know that.
I'm still figuring life out, but regardless of whatever is normal, I just enjoy being with her, and that's what matters.

"_____________We sit and talk,
quietly, with long lapses of silence
and I am aware of the stream
that has no language, coursing
beneath the quiet heaven of
your eyes"

>>16798182
could you tell me what your mindset is on not having kids?
I'll probably never have kids but I don't think that's the right way to live.

Now here's me making a novela and alreayd making assumptions out of your future but if you do decide to have kids one day and she's still the one now you have to do the complicated task of convinving her and this goes back to if she'd make a stable mother. Also if you leave her and get with someone else will you be a stable father who wont cheat going back to this old girl.
Good luck anon

>>16798213
I'm not having kids with her, but I'm not against having kids in the future.
We're friends and the time is running out for her for children, but I still have plenty of time and she wants to help with me find someone for that sort of thing.
It's not a relationship that you've seen in a novella or anything, at least the sorts of fiction I'm aware of.

>>16798231
hope things work out for you. Since this story sounds so sexually liberating I don't trust it but that's because I don't know you. You might pull off a healthy outcome

>>16790828
>draw an extentive world map for my novel
>really proud of it
>go online
>keep seeing more and more cool as fuck nature
>don't know where to put them in my map
>despair
oh no

>>16798248
Thanks for the hope.
I'm sure I'll pull something off, but even if I don't, it's much better than doing nothing or feeling sorry for myself.

>>16790934
13 days and I'm right there with you.
We're all fucked.

There's two kinds of people in this world. Those who cope and those who seethe.

>>16798250
nigga u sound cute as hell ngl

Reading Plato is an amazing experience. I'm struck every once in a while by the awareness that what I'm reading has been read for literally thousands of years. It's played a part in the development of so many people throughout time—great people, even—and has formed a nearly inescapable backdrop for the entirety of the West. There's an incredible air of both historicity and timelessness swirling around in the text. It's beautiful.

I just made myself unpopular in my japanese studies class by saying that demon slayer and my hero academia are mediocre

>>16798596
this is one of the funniest things I've heard in my entire life

>>16798299
based

>>16798299
I'm a seether myself, but I am mollified by your digits.

>>16794912
omg i love north korea now

>>16797117
This is a good idea, although I'd have to buy a new notebook as well. The ink would bleed through the paper in my current cheapo one.

>>16790828
I want to destroy this world

I thought today was going to be a bad day but I think it's going to be a great one.
I didn't get enough sleep, and I did poorly at the gym this morning. But when I was eating breakfast outside I saw an elderly janitor, couldn't have been a day younger than 80, coming over to pick up trash. Over the weekend people had left a huge pile of garbage around a garbage can; it was a total mess. So I went over and helped him pick up all the trash so he didn't need to bend down.
It had been cloudy all week, but not a minute later the cloud all blew away and there was a perfect blue sky with a beautiful sunrise.
I know nobody will read this blogpost but I feel like every day I'm closer and closer to believing in God.

>>16791763
>you're intrested in him becuase hes calling you
t. calvinist heretic

>>16798921
Good job, Anon.

>>16790828
Counting down the minutes until I have to leave for work. I'm 27 and have been living with my mom since a particularly rough patch a year and a half ago when I got kicked out of my apartment and fired from the 4th or 5th job in a row. This new job is going well. I make about 18 dollars an hour and just recently got employee of the month, but I only have 2-3 hours a day to read and write and its killing me. Everyday for the last month I have thought about quitting. I joke with people sometimes about how I'm a natural aristocrat and not made for work, but I think I believe it. I think I am going to quit soon and go volunteer part-time on a farm for free board and food so I can devote all my time to studying and writing my book.

>>16798941
What's your book about?

>>16798921
>I know nobody will read this blogpost

I wish I hadn't. It's so mundane I feel betrayed of my time.

>>16798921
>do a good deed
>feel good about
Wow god must be real, there's no other explanation

>>16798948
Its a proper philosophical system with an infallible criterion for truth and applications to all the categories of existence. I am creating a private encyclopedia in which I have most myths, every Greco-Roman drama, most major philosophical works, including economics, politics, math, etc. in autistic detailed text reductions, 3000-4000 pages so far and I am going to use much of it in my philosophical work. A critical overview of the entire philosophical canon, the history of art, myth, economics, geometry, law, politics, and it all follows from absolutely certain, necessary principles. I have about 300 polished pages so far for an extremely thorough metaphysic and outlines for various other categories.

>>16799035
>an infallible criterion for truth
>absolutely certain, necessary principles
Go on

>>16799011
Seethe harder please.
>>16798954
As opposed to jacking off to futa?

>>16799035
I take it, you'll be able to explain it to the layman without going full incoherent enlightenment-tier germanic babbling?

>>16796557
That’s absolutely true. I’d rather just be told what to do in almost all circumstances. In a way it’s it’s own kind of freedom.

>>16799100
Now you're the one seething lol

>>16796618
Dunno, i stopped smoking and drinking 3 years ago and i exercise regulalry. Must be an underlining condition i'm not yet aware of, still have tests to find out

>>16799130
Your reply to the anon was just too petty desu, there's no other explanation except that you're seething at the fact that someone might believe in God some day.

I'm gonna study the art and science of getting a lot of (You)s. If anyone wants to contribute, fee free to do so.

>>16790828
I will not pay over 12 dollars for any piece of literature.

>>16799158
Oddly specific number, but I can respect that.

>>16799141
Qhatever dude, next put the "blog post ahead, don't read if you don't care about mundane things" AHEAD of your post and not at the end. Otherwise it's a blasphemous move.

>>16799157
step one is finding the necessary mathematical programming to hit every sequence of recurring numbers

want to nap desu sempai. sort of oughta study after that if I am not too zonked. not studying enough. sure that I am not sure what I am doing in life, and that certainty matters.

Women, as befits their fairness, shall be tested in their readiness to be my queen. As I, their king, rule over all these lands, she must be of a regal nature and highest breed. She will polish my sceptre and I shall crown her with sticky whiteness across her forehead, a big ropey cum. She will attend to by kingly sack and fondle the balls with her tongue.

>>16799141
I'm not gonna deny it, I'm tired of christians. You never shut up about god and how great he is, and how he's everywhere, and belief in him is the truly rational position. But do you live a moral life? A lot of christians, especially the very vocal online ones, are twice as petty as I could ever be. They delight in the idea of their enemies burning in hell, they pick fights instead of turning the other cheek. It mystifies me that there are people who so desperately want to join this cult that they'll take a break in the clouds as a sign of divine providence.

>>16799180
It's not my post, assburger.
>>16799221
I knew you were seething deep down. You're generalising your own idea of what Christians are even though it's completely incorrect. I was happy for the anon who got a glimpse of beauty and was able to appreciate it, and the possibility that this beauty was created for us and it means something, regardless of how mundane it may seem.

haha ass burgers

>>16799243
>You're generalising your own idea of what Christians are even though it's completely incorrect
And you're pulling one of your christian tricks. There's always deniability. "Oh, those people aren't REAL christians because I said so." I've seen this shit over and over again, why should I ignore or deny it? And why must beauty be "created for us" to be meaningful? Deep down the meek christian is all ego, thinking the world exists to serve him.

>>16799299
If they're not following Christian doctrine or behaving in ways that's contradictory to the faith then it's obvious they aren't Christian, I don't make the call but it's clear to anyone with eyes.

>And why must beauty be "created for us" to be meaningful?
My point was if something is created for us, then we inherently have purpose, (following the same line of logic) otherwise there's no purpose in either beauty or our own existence.

>Deep down the meek christian is all ego, thinking the world exists to serve him.
We're taught to hate the world, not expect it to serve us. You can think whatever you want of any "Christian" you meet, at the end of the day you'll know them by their fruits.

>>16799357
>If they're not following Christian doctrine or behaving in ways that's contradictory to the faith then it's obvious they aren't Christian, I don't make the call but it's clear to anyone with eyes.
you could make the case that being christian, or any religion really, is a kind of journey, which will for many involve sin and repentance. then you could say that just because someone isn't a perfect christian doesn't mean they aren't on some level trying. whether or not they are, meaningfully, would be between them and God, which is nice, I think.

>>16799377
Like I said, I don't make the call or know the kinds of people the anon met, but I judge people by how they follow their religion, not the religion itself like he's trying to do. Perhaps he'd have a better experience living in Greece or Armenia with authentic, traditional Christians who take their faith a lot more seriously.

>>16791078
>>16791078
based
this is your future, femanons.
enjoy your mediocre existence as a hole

>>16791141
>>16791407
I recently did this to one of two guys I've met off Bumble. I liked him and we had some things in common, but he used the meme phrase "we don't deserve dogs" and talked about r/mapswithoutnewzealand and seemed school girl giddy over Biden's election. At least those are the reasons I told myself I ghosted him. In reality I I know I'm not half as interesting as I seem in the vacuum of my own head. I don't watch TV and I don't do drugs but that just gives me less to talk about, I'd be happier if I did care about those things.
After a day or two of ghosting him he sent me a considerate, face-saving "I'm not interested" text and I felt so bad that I didn't have the decency to do the same for him earlier. And now I'm doing the same to a successful guy in his 30s who wants to take me out this week but he's "socially liberal" and I know he'll just take advantage of me. I guess I feel less bad than with the first guy but I'm still ashamed of being such a wishy-washy coward.
Dating apps are so bleak but it seems like the only way to meet people if you don't marry your high school sweetheart. I'm so lonely, at this point I'd be over the moon just to have a decent group of female friends and put finding a husband on hold.

Yesterday I started to write about how I'm thankful for my dog and cat, that I have that little "family" whose needs I can take care of. But I know they're just surrogates for the human family I really want. Then I wrote out my ideal day being a mom... doing crafts with the little ones during the day, tidying up while they nap, everyone walking to pick the oldest up from school, making an afternoon snack, chatting with another mom while our kids play outside waiting for Dad to get home, then homework help and dinner, we all play cards or read to each other by the fire in the evening.
I try not to indulge this fantasy often, it makes me want to cry and there's not a whole lot I can directly control to realize it. I'm going to school for computer science so hopefully one day I can at least stop leeching off my parents, but I'm no good at it, and it's frustrating to think of the life I'd be so much better at but just doesn't seem to be in the cards for me. But then I'm too sensitive and give up to easily and can't get up the courage to tell guys what I really want when I meet them, so how can I be surprised... it's not going to fall into my lap.

Sorry to the guy I replied to if you're still in here... didn't mean to graft my domestic fantasy onto your reply. The second half is just "what's on my mind," your reply just reminded me of my dating reality.

fucking bitches taking hours answering to texts

>>16799839
Have you considered social media as a medium of dating? It's not hard to get high quality followers if you're attractive, and guys themselves would frequently start DM'ing you without you having to do anything. It was actually quite a redpill for me when I found out this girl that I barely overcame my shyness to talk to had at least tens of ongoing conversations with guys with some of whom she had sexual pasts. She wasn't even *that* attractive and just barely had 1k followers. It basically gives women hoards of men and simps in their pockets. It's a bit sickening thought.

>>16800052
>hours
>not weeks
count you'res elf lucky

>>16800272
10 hours soon, makes you wonder what she does all day

>>16800303
>makes you wonder what she does all day

She's staring at her phone all day.

>>16800313
that whore

>>16797316
My advice? If you don't want this to result in a flaming wreck, take incremental steps. Find one thing on day one you want to change and work on it. If you don't succeed after a few days, cycle to something else. Build up towards meaningful lifestyle changes rather than forcing it on you all at once.
For example, say you want to go to bed earlier. Go to be the first day an hour earlier, then work your way down to your goal. Or say you want to eat healthier. Substitute one thing, rather than your whole diet, and work towards that full replacement. Want to start working out again? Don't jump in doing a triathlon. Trying to do everything at once at maximum capacity usually backfires.

>>16800324
Probably texting Chad too

>>16800423
>Probably
>Chad and not Chads

If I had a kid I'd be a much more disciplined person. Plus that kid would get an exceptional education and in all likelihood would end up more successful than me. (Granted the bar isn't that high.)

>>16800423
>>16800454
she's a nympho and I'm just one of the guys taking advantage, it's the lack of common courtesy that bothers me

>>16800176
It seems like a good way to get attention but not a life partner. Dating apps are cynical enough as is, I feel gross trying to carry on conversations with two guys at a time... I can't imagine soliciting attention from hundreds of people. And honestly I don't really want to date a guy who uses Instagram or anything like it. Plus I'm afraid I would get caught up in the "game" of social media and end up compromising my morals and becoming someone I don't like.
I know I sound like a bump on a log, thank you for the suggestion. It probably would work but I can't bring myself to completely sell my soul to find "love" yet.

>>16800176
Its saddening that its normal for groups of girls to share their haul of men/simps in groupchats.
Am I supposed to find a girl with no friends? Or run the gauntlet of a gaggle's worth of shittesting only to lose out to the dude#14 she had been talking to a month before me anyway.
Silicon valley was a mistake.

Whats on my mind? Here let me explain...


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I read this article about a population biologist turned "mathematical historian" Peter Turchin. He has developed a research program he calls Cliodyanamics, which applies statistical methods to find patterns in history and make predictions about it. He compares himself to Hari Seldon, the scientist in Asimov's Foundation series who uses a technique he calls psychohistory to mathematically predict that the empire will collapse in the near future.

Ten years ago he predicted that 2020 would be a year of great civil unrest. Lo and behold, the prophecy came true. Conventional historians--mathematical illiterates all--hate him because he uses this one simple trick of statistical regression to devise grand theories of history while they are stuck in a purely descriptive view of historiography concerned with names and dates.

And Turchin has politically incorrect conclusions. For example, war is what fueled the development of civilization.

And what leads to social unrest is often the overproduction of elites. Too many educated people are produced and yet the number of elite positions in society remains fixed. Thus, like the spurned lawyers and journalists who organized and led the French Revolution (Robespierre, Danton, Barbaroux, Murat, Barère), if you can't join em, beat em. They rebel against the system they can't be a part of. Eventually governments keep giving handouts to keep people placid, until it goes bankrupt and the situation explodes.

I think Turchin makes a convincing case. The question is, how far are we from the point of no return?

Test

>>16800641
Truchin's book has been on my to-read list for a really long time, but I keep putting it off because I know jack shit about statistics and all the graphs are intimidating.
However, I've read some articles by and about the guy, and it seems like the idea of regularly repeating cycles is a key part of his thought. I don't think he believes in a "point of no return," just the collapse of one regime about to be replaced by something else.

I fear for the future, I regret the past and I hurt in the now.

>>16797789
I live in the southernmost part of the globe, and it's the same shit. I'm sure it would be the same should you go west, and would be nothing different moving eastboud. No generation has been more exposed to ennui than us. I just hope Armaggedon comes early

Youtube deleted Partiboi69's channel? What the fuck! There was nothing political on there. Just sick ghettotech mixes. Damn. Fuck Youtube.

What does /lit/ think of Nine Inch Nails?

>>16801243
Pretty good, but not as fun as the rocket launcher.

>>16801243
I want to like them but they really only have like five or six good songs out of decades of albums.

>>16800880
Yeah, I meant the point of no return relatively speaking. The point at which the acceleration towards the breaking point become irreversible and we have to deal with so much disruption and instability in our lifetimes.
Then again it goes back to the idea that "history doesn't repeat, but it does rhyme." It may be the same plot, but it's a different cast of characters and set of circumstances. Most historical catastrophes are relatively localized affairs, but today's issues are globalized, meaning we all fall together. It's like bacteria multiplying in a petri dish. Eventually you get to the nth generation of reproduction in which there is no more room for the population to increase and no more resources to survive, so the whole population collapses. That's us on earth.

>>16801439
>every industrialized country has below replacement birth rates but overpopulation is an emergency

i can only take so many low iq takes in one day

gotta work tomorrow so cya losers

>>16790828
I can't stop thinking about her

>>16798921
Based and wholesome. God bless you, anon.

>>16799035
But have you named the jew?

>>16790828
I went out today. It's winter here but for some odd reason, maybe it's a drought, it is terribly torrid and the sun is trying to pierce into your skin and give you cancer. I went to put some money -I had earned in the last 2 years of working my ass off in the gulf after being made redundant and sent home- in my local bank but found out that they haven't activated my the account yet and I am supposed to come back after receiving a stupid text later on.

A friend was with me so we decided to take a walk across the shore under the midday sun. Big mistake. We sat to have some coffee somewhere and then my nose started to bleed nonstop. I rushed to the washroom and spend 30 minutes there cleaning the blood off.

I came back to find my jacket which had 50% of my saving in cash missing.

I feel lightheaded. I can't sleep.

>>16790828
Y'alls is soft bois

I imagine something more horrific than an apocalyptic climate disaster which ends all intelligent life on Earth: a racial disaster in which the intelligent races (the whites and some Asian and Muslim races) are outnumbered and destroyed by the unintelligent races. The end result will be the same, in that Earth will no longer hold intelligent life; however, the latter would be more upsetting, as nature is strong and, in some sense, deserving of a total victory over man. The negro race (and other, similar races), however, is too stupid and disgraceful to be deserving of any sort of victory.

edged again, for two hours this time, failed again, hope to God I haven't sabotaged things for myself

>>16801792
Outnumbered but not destroyed. The future is a small minority of intelligent races ruling over a brown slave-caste.

>>16801792
race is a social construct

How do I ACTUALLY stop being a pussy?

>>16801792
I eagerly await the day Africa becomes a continent of advanced nations so that this lunacy can be laid to rest.

>>16801792
it's always funny to me how /pol/tards use classical art and write in true pseud fashion to undermine their self-attached intellect.
You're not a brilliant writer dude, you are the filthy parasite that is about to eat the top of my shoe. Perish.

>>16802370
sneed

>>16802182
why are niggers black then?
>>16802354
how long are you willing to wait, anon? how many millions of years? why have the people of north sentinel island, unaffected by colonization, not yet discovered electricity?
>>16802173
unfortunately, that minority will be entirely jewish
>>16802370
>You're not a brilliant writer dude
i never claimed to be one
>filthy parasite
blacks and Israelis literally only exist because the u.s. pays for their welfare
without the whites, africa would starve and israel would be taken back by Palestinians

>>16795302
All you need is a client which is a computer program to download torrents, and a website to get torrent files.

I recommend Tixati as a client. You can find them by googling 'tixati'. Download and install it.

Next, find a good website for downloading torrents. These sites are called 'torrent trackers'. There are public and private trackers.
....thepiratebay.org is a public tracker. It's a bit sketchy, because anyone can upload, and some files may contain viruses. But if the uploader is a VIP, you should be fine.
....rarbg.to is another public tracker. It's a great one, because they only let trusted people upload. I'm sure every file there is virus free.

You don't need a VPN.
You won't get caught. Law enforcement doesn't care at all.
A small number of torrents are being monitored by special companies hired by game publishers to protect their copyright. 99% of torrents are not monitored. If you get unlucky and they do catch you, all that happens is they send a letter to your internet provider, who will ask you politely to stop. Repeat offenders might have their service cancelled.

glhf

>>16802612
>why are niggers black then?
melanin

>>16802676
is melanin a social construct? does destroying this social construct turn niggers white, or crackers black?

An angry altar boy masturbates to the thought of Eve, sprawled naked in Eden’s grass, being fucked by the snake.

He’s by himself in the vestry, his pants to his ankles, the altar habit floundering madly with his fist. It’s hot in the vestry. And he tries hard to keep from making any noise beyond his wetness. He leans back and softly knocks an incense burner. He briefly stops, and decides to kneel on the ground, pulling his habit up so as to not stain it.

The altar boy, furiously twisting his cock, thinks of Eve, pictures her as a girl his age. Thirteen and titless, with the snake halfway up her cunt, squirming inside of her. He doesn’t know if she agreed to it. He likes the idea that she didn’t.

He imagines her mouth tastes like the apple she just bit, slowly bittering, milling as she chews on sin. Its a sunny day in Eden, and God watches over as his daughter unbirths the snake. In the altar boy’s mind, God’s senile cock is as hard as his own.

The reptile tries to push itself through her untouched womb, eating a hole into her abdomen, past her stomach and liver and kidneys, using its jaws to climb up, squeezing between the ribs and lungs, and then biting directly into her heart. The tail having disappeared inside of her long ago.

The altar boy pants to the thought of Eve, heartpregnant with the snake, coming to Adam with the apple, kissing him, biting him, sucking him, fucking him, chewing apple chunks and then forcefeeding them down his throat, and finally throwing the first man onto his back, on the grassy Eden knoll, straddling his face, and grinding her cunt against his mouth as the snake finds its way back outside through Eve’s womb. And as she cums, the snake shoots from inside her into adam’s mouth, and bites his tongue and holds it, and he cannot scream, or breathe, as the snake eats his tongue and crawls down his throat, disappearing into his chest cavity, as Eve’s hips slowly grind his face, his skull, his teeth, his skin, his eyes, his flesh, his brain into putty, with all the frothing blood and cuntwater and saliva mixing into the crater left where his nose used to be.

The altar boy ruins his church clothes as he thinks of Eve, bloodstained, flicking off lose teeth and brainchunks stuck to her labia from what’s left of Adam’s face. The altar boy rests in the vestry floor for a while, wondering if God, too, had to take a second to recover after such a fantastic jizzing.

>>16802681
they're baiting. ethnicities are analogous to subspecies in animals, and absolutely have scientific merit.

>>16802612
>how long are you willing to wait, anon? how many millions of years? why have the people of north sentinel island, unaffected by colonization, not yet discovered electricity?
I'll answer this in good faith. I sincerely believe that 90+% of the reason Europe has been the center of technological advancement is due to geography.
>Australia and the many islands of Oceania and the Indian Ocean lacked in resources needed to establish a technological civilization.
>The Americas lacked in livestock that allowed for work to be done without human muscle
>Subsaharan Africa had diseases that evolved alongside humanity which stymied development
>Middle East, China and India: these civilizations were rather advanced, but were exceeded by Europe. In this case I am willing to concede the values in European cultures made technological advancement faster than they did here.
Europe (plus North Africa) is isolated from the threats of Africa by the Sahara, invasions from the West by the Atlantic Ocean, and the east by vast steppe lands (the weak spot; when they were invaded it was from the east). Plus the lands are rich in metals and have the rivers needed to generate power befitting an industrial civilization. The fact that they did so and China/India/Arabs didn't is where I think the benefits of European culture come into play. But it's not racial. If in 500 AD a group of Australian Aboriginals were integrated into Southern Europe, Europe's star would have continued to rise.

>>16802681
>is melanin a social construct?
no

>>16802111
cosplay porn should be banned, just 3dpd trying to ruin something good

She had an ass like two earlobes. Long and pendulous. The kind of cheeks that could actually clap, but the sound of which would extinguish even the most desperate, depraved desires.

I thought I was above this. Lost the delusions, but motivations went with them. We aren't choosing any of this. There is no I to speak of, but their is pain. Meaningless pain. Enjoy the collapse.

>>16802718
>90+% of the reason Europe has been the center of technological advancement is due to geography
That's true in an ironic way, because evolution results in organisms better suited to their environment, and the geology of Europe was a factor in causing the genetic superiority of its native ethnicities.

ted was right and i don't know what to do

>>16802718
i agree with everything you wrote except for the part in which you claim it's not racial.
you are forgetting that if geography can have such an impact on civilization it certainly could have an impact on physiology and therefore genetics
just look at the difference in skin color between africans and europenas. that was, undoubtedly, caused by the geography in which these people lived, but it now continues in the form of genetics.
i am not certain on this next point, but i think the geography and wildlife of africa are more suited to a hunter-gatherer lifestyle, whereas the colder climate of eurpoe favored permanent encampments and farms. the difference in geography, then, necessitates a difference in physiology and intelligence to be able to survive. africans are faster and probably physically superior to europeans because that physiology survives in africa. europenas are smarter because only the intelligent can survive in a climate with more limited resources

>>16802354
Its gonna take a few thousand years and A LOT of deaths to kill off the stupid people

It's over

>>16802828
i think what's going to happen is that gene editing will some day be cheap enough and developed enough such that all future kids will be 150+ iq
however, it will probably also happen that appearances will be edited as much as internal traits
i'd assume most parents would want their kids to have blonde hair and blue eyes and white skin
just look at india and the skin whitening cream industry
or think about how all blue-eyed people share a single common ancestor. the first guy with blue eyes fucked so many bitches that it's now a somewhat common trait
or think about how many asian women want white men so they can have hapa children
it seems to me that aryan traits are very genetically desirable, and the invention of gene editing will produce as many 6 foot 6 kids as it will blonde kids

Life isn't bad but it isn't good either. Spent the last couple of days looking over the past decade of my life and i can't think of a single memory or day where i think 'damn that was a pretty good day'. It's just this stream of nothing. It's mostly my own fault i guess but i don't know how to change things. This sad boy pathetic self pity over no great suffering is part of the problem, but really what else do i have?

>>16802354
bait

>>16802804
no he wasn't

I constantly put others before myself. The one time I do something selfish they jump down my throat. You superscilious dolts can shove your sanctimonious indignation up your ass.

>>16802718
>muh geographic determinism
it's largely horse manure, and Jared Diamond is a first-order hack.
Even those specific arguments are bunk, our outright misdirection.
>Australia lacking resources needed for a technological civilisation
pfft
>americas lacking in animal muscle
utterly false, south america tamed the llama
>diseases that stymied human development
ah yes, medieval europe, that hive of hygiene and perfect immune systems. we know full well that european diseases ravaged the lands to which they were brought, claiming that subsaharan africa was somehow worse is laughable
>the other civilisations, particularly of asia
here your argument collapses even further, these civilisations came into being before europe's, and had glories when we had mud huts. They had everything that they required to become industrial, with the exception of europeans. To say that geography could produce the difference between mud huts and skyscrapers but could not produce the difference between the manners of thought of two different races that evolved in those separate geographies is a denial of reality more egregious for its obvious ridiculousness.

>>16791955
this is killer, use it

>>16802910
How?

I haven't seen someone properly refute him and there are like a dozen Ted threads on this board every week

Anybody has that old Space Taoism paste or some link about that?

>>16802976
He was right about people being over socialized. He was wrong about the solution being to end technology. the real solution is the final solution

Almost there...

They only market to simple minded women now. The charade is disintegrating. Little pieces of the American dream machine are flaking off as it contacts the internet. We've seen too much of Hollywood, for it to continue. May I never see another Tom Hanks wankfest. Gas-gas-gas the fur-enablers.

>>16803020
where, anon-kun?

>>16802804
The answer is fascism

>>16802652
I'll try this anon. Thanks

>>16803043
We're almost... at bump limit reached

you can be openly furry, but not racist. such delusions abound.

when the universe whent from being nothing to being something the reaction was already stared
and if you ran infinite simulations of it everything would happend exactly the same each time
everything you will ever do has already been determined by the things that happened before it leading all the way back to nothingness
its all planned out in advance and will be untill the end of time
when it all returns to nothing and the cycle starts anew

>>16790958
less limiting than you think

More time (you) wasted reading my dumb post on here rather than reading a literary masterpiece.

>>16803067
uh oh
then someone better tell me quickly why i'm retarded
i thought i had sleep apnea because i'm always tired and i can't concentrate and i have high blood pressure, but the problem is i don't snore
what's wrong with me then?
do i have adhd? does adhd cause drowsiness and high blood pressure?

I've come to the stunning conclusion that the field of history is for people who are too illiterate for literature or philosophy respectively.

The fine line of claustrophobic anxiety and debilitating Vastness is where I stand, cold and shivering, balancing on this mountain peak. My focus, divided between my footing and glances at the unknown. Here is where I wait before an inevitable falling. Is there a safety net or endless ness? I dare not say...
The little red ball secured warmly in my childish scribbles is all I’ve got to cling to. That, and her warm trail I follow until the toaster springs itself at last.

>>16790881
As do I.

>>16790958
Yes (and that's a good thing).

>>16795302
just use piratebay the most resilient bittorrent site as they say

>>16803181
Historians tend to be better read and way better at memorising shit in my experience. Sometimes they're limited to a period but then they generally have read more of that period than someone who specialises in the literature or philosophy of that period alone. I mean, lit studies gets you to read some of Pepys, but history will make you read all of it and make you count how many times he lists hunted game he's eaten.

>>16792363
>If you have a critical attitude towards popular culture and normal social behavior, it still doesn't mean you're better or smarter than anyone, dipshit.
Yes it does.

>>16790828
At what point does a short story become too long to be considered a short story

>>16803382
>Historians tend to be better read and way better at memorising shit in my experience.
Does it matter when they tend to uncritically repeat the narratives they tirelessly consume in their field, lacking the rigor to explain what these events they learned about actually mean in a greater context?

>>16803006
either way, i have no clue about how i should react to this knowledge.

>>16802864
>invention of gene editing will produce as many 6 foot 6 kids as it will blonde kids
more like it will produce calculator npcs

>>16803482
at least edward gibbon is worth reading

>>16803006
>solution being to end technology
>t.retard who cannot read

>>16801723
I have actually. I have copious notes on a joint analysis of Aristotle, Marx, and Gottfried Feder, the national socialist philosopher-economist that I am going to use in the book. I like to think of Jews as agents of Ahriman and typfied by the motion of certain figures.

>>16803490
Yeah but he also looks like a big baby.

hard to fathom how worthless I am sometimes

>>16800501
Sounds like you have standards, which is a good thing. Don't worry, be patient and I'm sure you'll find someone. Just go out a little more, try and participate in activities with other people, and someone will eventually come along. You just have to wait a little while, that's all.