/lit/ - Literature

>>16607497
Does Berkeley devalue ontology?

>Those who had dreamed that force, thanks to progress, now belonged to the past, have seen The Illiad as a historic document; those who can see that force, today as in the past, is at the center of all human history, find in The Illiad its most beautiful, its purest mirror.

I'm 22 now. Hooray I guess

>>16607912
To think, this time next year you’ll be listening to that Blink 182 song

What do I feel if this is not love?
But if it is love, God, what thing is this?
If good, why this effect: bitter, mortal?
If bad, then why is every suffering sweet?

If I desire to burn, why tears and grief?
If my state’s evil, what’s the use of grieving?
O living death, O delightful evil,
how can you be in me so, if I do not consent?

And if I consent, I am greatly wrong in sorrowing.
Among conflicting winds in a frail boat
I find myself on the deep sea without a helm,

so light in knowledge, so laden with error,
that I do not know what I wish myself,
and tremble in midsummer, burn in winter.

>>16607497
What a disturbing photograph. What a degenerate world.

>>16607497
I want to have sex with a loli.
I want to have sex with a loli.
I want to have sex with a loli.
I want to have sex with a loli.

Will a loli ever die?
No good sir, she's ever spry.
Will a loli ever age?
No good sir, she'd lose her wage.

Lolis smell better than a blooming flower.
Lolis taste better than a sprout of cauliflower.
Lolis look better than any supermodel.
Lolis feel better than my water bottle.
Lolis sound better than a robot.
Lolis think better than Immanuel Kant.

Lolis are fun, lolis are good.
Fuck a loli like you should.
Lolis are cute, lolis are pure.
Sex with lolis is the cure.
Lolis are hot, lolis are great.
Take a loli on a date.
Lolis are love. Lolis are life.
Soon you'll have a loli wife.

Lolis cum and lolis go.
Lolis prancing to-and-fro.
Lolis whisper in your ear.
Lolis stroke your fleshen spear.
Lolis can set you alight.
Lolis will make you ignite.
Lolis are precocious dames.
Lolis leave your life in flames.

Lolis love cum. Lolis love dick.
I want a loli to suck me quick.
Lolis love to lick sweaty ass.
I want a loli to jerk me fast.
Lolis love to swallow cum.
I want a loli to have some fun!

See a loli. She looks neat.
Taste a loli. Sweet little treat.
Hear a loli. She sounds funny!
Touch a loli. Touch her cunny.
Smell a loli. She smells sweet.

Loli tastes good on my tongue.
Loli says that I'm so hung.
Loli wants me to go down.
Loli gets taken to town.
Loli gets her cunny licked.
Loli gets her cunny dicked.
Loli moans in carnal pleasure.
Loli takes my pearly treasure.
Loli snuggles up with me.
Loli is cute as can be.

How many lolis can you lick?
How many lolis can you dick?
How many lolis make you cum?
How many lolis lick your bum?
How many lolis suck your cock?
How many lolis use TikTok?

Suck a loli's undeveloped nips.
Kiss a loli's perfect little lips.
Pound a loli's precious flower;
Demonstrate your phallic power.
Make a loli squirm and cum
While you kiss her, use your tongue.
Finish deep inside her cunny;
Holy shit she's cute and funny.

Lay a loli on her bed.
Kiss her and her face turns red.
Gently brush her hair aside.
Probe your fingers deep inside.
Make her squeal and make her squirm
Till your cock gets nice and firm.
Spread her precious cunny wide
And take that loli for a ride.
Breed her till she falls asleep
With your cock still buried deep.
Snuggle her and hold her tight.
Keep her body warm tonight.

>>16608058
Impressive

>>16607497
I want to have sex with a loli.
I want to have sex with a loli.
I want to have sex with a loli.
I want to have sex with a loli.

Will a loli ever die?
No good sir, she's ever spry.
Will a loli ever age?
No good sir, she'd lose her wage.

Lolis smell better than a blooming flower.
Lolis taste better than a sprout of cauliflower.
Lolis look better than any supermodel.
Lolis feel better than my water bottle.
Lolis sound better than a robot.
Lolis think better than Immanuel Kant.

Lolis are fun, lolis are good.
Fuck a loli like you should.
Lolis are cute, lolis are pure.
Sex with lolis is the cure.
Lolis are hot, lolis are great.
Take a loli on a date.
Lolis are love. Lolis are life.
Soon you'll have a loli wife.

Lolis cum and lolis go.
Lolis prancing to-and-fro.
Lolis whisper in your ear.
Lolis stroke your fleshen spear.
Lolis can set you alight.
Lolis will make you ignite.
Lolis are precocious dames.
Lolis leave your life in flames.

Lolis love cum. Lolis love dick.
I want a loli to suck me quick.
Lolis love to lick sweaty ass.
I want a loli to jerk me fast.
Lolis love to swallow cum.
I want a loli to have some fun!

See a loli. She looks neat.
Taste a loli. Sweet little treat.
Hear a loli. She sounds funny!
Touch a loli. Touch her cunny.
Smell a loli. She smells sweet.

Loli tastes good on my tongue.
Loli says that I'm so hung.
Loli wants me to go down.
Loli gets taken to town.
Loli gets her cunny licked.
Loli gets her cunny dicked.
Loli moans in carnal pleasure.
Loli takes my pearly treasure.
Loli snuggles up with me.
Loli is cute as can be.

How many lolis can you lick?
How many lolis can you dick?
How many lolis make you cum?
How many lolis lick your bum?
How many lolis suck your cock?
How many lolis use TikTok?

Suck a loli's undeveloped nips.
Kiss a loli's perfect little lips.
Pound a loli's precious flower;
Demonstrate your phallic power.
Make a loli squirm and cum
While you kiss her, use your tongue.
Finish deep inside her cunny;
Holy shit she's cute and funny.

Lay a loli on her bed.
Kiss her and her face turns red.
Gently brush her hair aside.
Probe your fingers deep inside.
Make her squeal and make her squirm
Till your cock gets nice and firm.
Spread her precious cunny wide
And take that loli for a ride.
Breed her till she falls asleep
With your cock still buried deep.
Snuggle her and hold her tight.
Keep her body warm tonight.

>>16608068
leave 4chan while you can guys.

>>16608092
Why? Loli loving is 4chan tradition
https://youtu.be/7liYfhRgXGk

>>16607497
Democracy is responsible for the great genocides of the 20th century. From the Turkish genocide of Armenians to the German genocide of Jews, the majority is threatened by an "impostor" minority which they sek to get rid of to maintain their power. However, in an empire such as the Ottoman empire or the Austrian empire many ethnicity's and languages are tolerated since they are all equally subordinate and subservient to the ruler.

>>16608107
Based retard

>>16608097
exactly

>>16607497
i really don't understand how i can spend the entire day thinking yet never act upon my thoughts for all eternity. it's like there's a locking device inside my brain that renders it unable to translate said thoughts into reality. i don't get it at all.

>>16608108
will you offer an insight

>>16608113
no.

>>16608116
such simple minds...

>>16608131
>such simple minds..

>>16608131
>such simple minds..

>>16608148
why did you delete and repost this?

>>16608142
what about blind people?

>>16608163
They have memories too.

>>16608156
I think I broke his ape brain

>>16608170
but not mental images if they were born blind I think

>>16608173
i think so, too.

>>16608180
In that case they have other ways of association. Visual memory is probably the most useful tool but it's not the only one. How else would Stevie Wonder or Hellen Keller make it so far were that not the case? The latter proves that the brain can do remarkable things so long as it has any means of associating and marking degrees of difference in ideas. From there, it's just stacking blocks.

>>16608156
>why did you delete and repost this?
>>16608173
I think I broke his ape brain
>>16608187
i think so, too.

>>16608205
use your words

>>16608214
>use your words

>>16608221
>non-verbal rage

>>16608240
>>non-verbal rage

>>16608251
>>>non-verbal rage

Is there really no other way to achieve mental clarity than to leave social media altogether ?

>>16608027
story ? newfag

>>16608262
>>>>non-verbal rage

>>16608319
The dude who took the picture was a murderer and she was one of his last victims. Right before taking the picture he forcefully cut off her hair and made her wear that dress.

>>16608319
Not that anon, but if memory serves it's a picture of a kidnapped young woman. The picture was taken by her kidnapper and in it, she's wearing a dress that they made her wear. I'm not sure, but I think the woman in the photo was either killed or never found.

It makes me sad, even though I never met her. I don't know. Things that didn't bother me as much before, like animal mistreatment, violence towards people by other people, seeing abuse take place, the pain other people go through... it bothers me now. I feel grief for the woman in the pic, and I never knew her. It bothers me because that woman was someone's baby girl and she suffered fear and pain and misery, when she lived in a world with so much potential for joy and bliss. I dunno, I wasn't like this before. I used to be really into stuff like the history of wars and the like, but now I find such things sad, like really sad. I prefer reading art history now. I wish the world was a kinder place. It is a wonderful place, full of beauty and awe and creativity; is it so much to ask that we all get to enjoy it?

>>16608350
Yeah I feel you. A lot of my macabre interests have died and as my sense of empathy has grown. It actually makes me appreciate art a lot more deeply.

>>16608336
The killer was smiling

>>16608350
Yeah those are my thoughts exactly. It's disgusting that her short experiencing of life came to the sordid end that it did, all for the pleasure of a deranged truck driver that really hasn't ever suffered for it. It's quite possible that as a sociopath he doesn't even understand the concept of suffering for what he did, because to him those murders were nothing more than a cat toying with a mouse.

>>16608359
I'm sure you're right. What a terrible thing.

>>16608353
It's funny. I spent quite a while exploring horror fiction in the past few months. While I would have thought that it would desensitize me to violence and the like, it actually did the opposite. Somehow the grotesque and the gory seem sad in their own ways when before they were things to ignore. The suffering of others is now something to try and console or heal, not something to gawk at. It's done a number on me. Hell, when I eat meat now, the idea that some cow or chicken lived a terrible life so that I could enjoy the taste of meat seems repugnant. (Ironic considering how much I've poked fun at vegans, but here we are). That said, my taste for horror has died; I'd like to read some chick-lit romances for a bit.

>>16608380
Horror is pretty much all I've read for the past five years and I agree with your sentiment, though I've lost no taste for it. I think it's the literary mode that best captures the dynamism of life, from its lofty heights to its delirious nadirs. Before moving on to chick lit you should give the Netflix adaptation of The Haunting of Hill House a go if you haven't. It's very much in tune with sadness and growth. Far and away better than the rag it's based on, too, but I'm sure I'll be crucified for saying that.

>>16608394
I was being a little facetious when I said "chick-lit", but the sentiment still stands a bit. I don't plan on stopping my reading of horror totally, but the kind of stuff that really upsets me (parent/child or sibling violence, violence committed against innocents, etc.) I kind of don't have the stomach for anymore. I think I'll stick to cosmic horror or more mystery/thriller stuff in the future. It's weird that as I've grown older I've grown weaker in that I get upset at things that didn't bother me when I was in my teens. But maybe that's a good thing; some things should be upsetting.

>>16608438
Yes, I understand precisely what you mean. I think as children we're essentially amoral animals. The network of sympathetic associations has yet to become a coherent moral framework.

>>16608296

I just had this exact thought after meditating

The more I think about it the more I believe strongly in self-imposed hardships. Do everything the more strenuous way possible if the option is available.

The cult of efficiency and convenience which we are all indoctrinated into since birth is nothing more than a giant human foie gras production farm. The internet, smartphones, TV: it's all just a gavage pipe wedged down our gullets to fatten us until we explode.

Why not just just eat, shit, sleep , work, do everything from the same exact location at all times? Increasingly that is what it feels like life has become. Such an arrangement indeed is practical and efficient. Why do anything at all: to be efficient is to do the least that results in what is necessary in the fastest time possible by taking the fewest steps. One can imagine an enterprising techie taking up this as a fad health trend, calling it the All-in-one lifestyle in which you eat,shit, sleep, and do everything else all plugged into one apparatus all day. Everything to solve for efficiency. At which point, simply not existing would be the most efficient operation.
Increasingly that is what it feels like the most socially acceptable, covid-era lifestyle is. "Stay home!" Is the slogan. Strap in, that is, into your eat,shit,sleep,work,do-everything machine, and let the big scary world outside play out. A minimum existence, one that has us right where they want us: in front of our computers 24/7.

Cutting out the chance element, the inefficient, the go-out-of-your-way aspects of life, the uncomputable, is everything. It is the only time in life that you are conscious. To be efficient is to be unconscious, to not register as experience. It's to become a mechanical habit, and what is habit for long enough lacks even the basic embers of awareness, it be comes reflex. At which point a human being and a sea sponge are biologically indistinguishable.

>owe ridiculous amount of money to university library for late fees
>get amnesty due to covid
is this what making it feels like

I've started to become a fat pig again and that's a bad path to take, so I'm glad I can combine reading with indoor cycling. Reading and doing plank might be possible, but reading and doing sit-ups would require some contraption to hold the book where I can see it.

How to get better at conversations?
I want people to enjoy being around me.

>>16609187
Be an active listener and courteous towards others.

>>16609225
That doesn't work. I already am like a sponge in conversations. I have trouble coming up with things to say.
My impression is that people like to be around people who are spontaneous and can bring excitement. I find that very hard to do.

>>16607497
> met a cute mexican guy on interpals
> did a quick drawing and he liked it a lot
> now we're talking comfily
life's good

>>16609187
start subtly mimicking your interlocutor. don't use smartass language with simpletons whose working vocab is 500 words, dont go hemingway with smartasses who speak academically. don't copy their speech patterns exactly but subtly shift your own to resemble it somewhat.
don't be a dead weight in conversations, shift the topic when you feel like it's running dry, ask questions here and there, don't answer monosyllabically.
to avoid awkwardness, track the mood of the convo and follow it, if you want to change it go gradually, else you can appear rude or weird.
there's more but those are the general rules. don't interrupt, don't push your topics or questions if the other person seems reluctant or bored, speak coherently with least possible mmmmm and uhhh (if you suffer from this and parasite words, learn to speak slower than you think, it also sounds much better than a rushed speaker)
t. schizo who can blend in

>>16609237
Are you ok with getting close to someone so far away and not being able to meet with them (and be with them)?
It would drive me insane.

>>16609294
i love chatting with foreigners, of course i'd like to meet him irl but distanced friendships are cool with me. it's like we're communicating in letters again but instantly instead of waiting days and weeks for a reply, comfiest form of talking if you ask me

>>16608350
simp

I wonder if one of the reasons why typical prey-animals are so damn cute is because it causes us to pause. Holy hell are bunnies just the sweetest little things. There are bunnies all over where I live, and if I was an italian grandpa I'd trap them and bring them home to grandma for stew, but even if I was italian how could I? Have you seen a bunny?

>>16607497
you know it's funny that schizos get vocal outbursts, just streams of speech they cant hold back.... imagine you're in public and this mad, senseless freestyle rap comes out your mouth and you just weird everyone out with your mentally ill flow

ring ring, hello, yes this is ice cube, the rapper, the coldest, below zero motherfucker from the streets. holy shit, i'm melting, you have stolen my technique, the pyroclastic flow, and used it against me. goodbye, mr john nash, shine on you crazy diamond

>>16609323
Italienisch ist nicht menschen.

Once in a blue moon i steal worthy ideas from those threads

>>16609294
>my best friend right now is 4700 miles away and speaks a different language
It hurts so much

>>16609720
>my facebook girlfriend is 14,299 km away and is likely fucking chad rn
Mein krampf.

>>16609716
Based, I will now steal your idea about stealing people's ideas. Fucking loser.

>>16609762
she gives me attention when no one else does, and doesn’t seem to think I’m weird. Language barriers are great

it is better to reign in hell (post on 4chan) than simp on onlyfans

I’ve been reading Alfred Wallace’s “The Malay Archipelago” recently. This passage is meant to demonstrate the strange nature of butterfly appearance phenotypes with sex but the scenario he proposes gets my flup hard.
>all the men would be blue eyed anglos and all the women would be dark skin qts
>forever and ever

>>16609716
this is the reason why I never post any decent idea here. suck my dick

Hello, my name is Chris and I am an edgelord. You may be wondering why I'm here. Why, why, why you ask. Well, it's because I like to write. I have no idea what to write but the clicks of the keyboard I'm writing and typing on are nice. Remember the leaves. Enjoy your tea. Welcome to the ride. I can tell you about switches. And locks. And keys. And I can tell you about the gray misty weather outside. How warm and comfortable it is in my bed. Just lying here. My real name's not Chris, you know. But you knew, didn't you. Let me tell you about my plant. I received it a few days ago. My parents brought it here. It's alive. I hope it will stay alive. I'm not good with plants you see. But I made the last one survive, too. It's green, it's a fern or something. I'll water it at some point, but today I checked and it's fine. I have more fake plants in my apartments than real ones. But the fake ones are nice, too. One is green and purple and is hanging from my windowsill. The others are green. Enough about colors, let's talk about travel. About locations and space and time. I was in a different place this morning. I was in yet another place yesterday. And another yesterday morning. My body has moved quite the distance. Let's talk about time. There's an hourglass on the window. I wish it'd turn automatically. But it doesn't, you have to turn it again and again. Whoever created it in its Egyptian style didn't seem to care about minutes because it run for about 5 minutes 20. I will continue to write more because I have nothing to do and lots to tell. Have a nice day.

>>16608350
>>16608353
>>16608380
Same thing here. When I was a teenager and in college I watched horror films all the time and read about serial killers and the like and nothing ever got to me, but nowadays something too disturbing will make me lose sleep. I kind of attribute it to simply caring more and experiencing more in life, since when I was younger I was depressed in the way that made me feel nothing.

>>16609225
I tried reading this book, but it felt like it was geared towards somebody trying to get ahead within the company they work for. Not for people trying to make friends.
>>16609230
I have the same issue. I think people generally like being around me and I'm very comfortable once I get close to somebody since I can just speak my mind, but my attitude and sense of humor is probably extremely off-putting for people that don't know me. So in conversations with strangers I can't say what I'd say normally say, but when I try to censor myself and say something more palatable, I end up coming across as incredibly dull

I don't want to read, I don't want to write. I just want to shoot people in the face.

Black as the moon when the sea rises up
Black as the mutiny in Pest
Black as the gallows and the flying pirates frock
Black is my captains mistress chest

Im too boring to write.
Even if i would start writing i would think about all the outrageous and funny things i read here and realize im too lifeless to even imagine an entertaining shitpost.
It doesnt matter that what i write is for my eyes only. The restraint is still there.

Last night I dreamed about waking up and finding my exact double dead next to me in my bed.
I was desperate to find ways to hide it or bury it. What if it started to smell? I live near the forest but I am surrounded by students. Even if I pulled the body out on my own and dumped it somewhere, with all the foxes and board around, it would be dug up and discovered soon enough.

I was panicking, frantically searching for friends that could shut the fuck up and help me to get rid of it in my contact list. I kept saying to myself that it was all a dream, that this kind of shit doesn't happen in real life. I didn't care about where the body came from, I was horrified by the simple prospect of someone stumbling upon it.

I thought of my brothers and how they always had to deal with the shit in their lives on their own, how they never called because they didn't want to be a problem.

After a while I realized I was on my own and that it was my fault for isolating myself. I watched the dead me that was still sleeping peacefully. I wished it was me that was dead and that another me had to deal with that burden. I reflected on everything that could happen and prepared to take a video explaining my situation to my friends and family in case I was ever detained.

I cried like a little bitch and woke up in my bed, my cheeks humid. I never felt so fucking relieved of waking up.

>>16611217
You just wrote.

>>16611407
Yes. And it was boring.

>>16608934
Sounds like you're talking about the hiteks, pic related

>>16611420
Was it?

I don't like that the OP posted an image of a woman who had such a tragic fate. It's cruel to her memory.

Here is a video that made me feel physically sick.
https://twitter.com/stillgray/status/1318222044933206016

>>16607503
Interpreters are split pretty badly on how to interpret Berkeley but the best interpretation I saw of him was a one-second mention in either Solovyov or Shestov, I can't remember which. It was either in Against the Positivists or In Job's Balances.

>>16608350
>Things that didn't bother me as much before, like animal mistreatment, violence towards people by other people, seeing abuse take place, the pain other people go through... it bothers me now.

The good is growing and awakening in you. This is what Plato calls eros. Eros is not knowledge in the same way that "all blue birds are blue" is knowledge, but desire for a kind of knowledge you don't yet have. It can be either cultivated or smothered. If you cultivate it enough, you may find more answers. Sadly too many people smother the first flickering embers of this feeling inside themselves, letting artificial knee-jerk instincts to be "reasonable" and "rational" kick in and push them away from the feeling you're having rather than towards it.

Keep developing it, let it stay with you and be patient and gentle with it when it happens, rather than assuming it's just some misfiring neuron somewhere and trying to force your way past it, and not only might you notice whole new modalities of consciousness inside yourself, you will eventually become a beacon for other people with the same potential, who will notice this "unreasonable" caritas and gentleness in you even if only at an unconscious level at first.

Sorry, I just want people like you to know that you aren't alone or anomalous.

I’m near the other side. Almost an ubermensch. Find a rhythm with no reference to your past. Kill your parents. Live like a bastard.

>>16611629
Nigga what did you get out of it. Can you remember that?

Fuck incels. What a pathetic group of people. Blaming women for your problems? REALLY? I'm ashamed to be the same species as incels. Fucking pathetic self-hating men. I have no relationships. Do I cope by hating life and my place in the universe? NO. Get over it. It really is the most pathetic thing I have ever witnessed. FUCK INCELS.

>>16611814
Cry more you fucking incel faggot

I feel like in most of these threads,there are much more people writing what they want than posts replying to previous ones.And to see that /fit/ and /ic/ also have similar recurring threads for speaking your mind and venting makes me a bit sad.To think there are so many of us wanting to talk to someone and not being able to.

>>16612291
4chan is full of sensitive people and women who exclusively lurk and read what we postchads post

You think that most browsers post at least sometimes but probably a majority of people on 4chan are spectating. Every time you post you are performing for an invisible audience that hangs on your every word.

Hello tourist normies! Hello lurker who is afraid to post! Thank you for reading my post!

i may have inherited enough money, and have a potentially cheap enough life, that I can just drift on for a decade or two before reality hits. Who is to say this is not a fine enough way to live? If I perform as a street musician and make just coins a day it might carry me through life, as long as the landlord doesn\t hike the rent too hard.

>>16611478
YES

>>16612329
the landlord will hike the rent, and you shouldn't aim to stay in an apartment the rest of your life
get a home of your own, it's an investment but taxes and bills will usually be cheaper than rent and you don't run the risk of your landlord fucking you over

>>16611814
>I'm ashamed to be the same species as incels.
lol have sex incel

>>16611814
Fuck people who cannot empathize with those who are at their weakest, who call them pathetic, adding insult to injury, instead of encouraging them and showing them where they are wrong.

Ball sweat smells good. In an ideal world, we would paint ourselves will a thick layer of ball sweat, and leave it behind ourselves, a trail of greasy liquid, wherever we went, like slugs. By this method we could mark territory, or simply leave a record of our comings and goings. It would also be easier to identify each other by smell, so we could hang out in the dark. But this is not a perfect world.

>>16612694
it is a soothing smell, probably because any other smell would indicate disease

>>16607497
i am greatly afraid of failure, and being wrong in general. in fact i'd even say that my biggest fear is dying while unaware that i was wrong all along. this pushes me into this embarrassing position where i try to avoid contact with people, ideas, and foreign knowledge so i don't come to that bitter realization. it also has to do with the fact that i'm a terribly lazy piece of shit who is unwilling to face challenges, and while it does have to do with my sheltered upbringing and the lack of concrete conflict during my lifetime, it isn't even close to a valid excuse.
part of me wants to retire from active life and take the position of a a silent observant so i can absorb knowledge without much strife, but i'm aware that it's closer to a fantasy than a real possibility.
how do i stop being such a bitch, anons ?

>>16607912
We share the same birthday. I am 21 today. Another year of suicidal tendencies.

>>16612927
Hang in there

>>16612306
No problem bro.

>>16608116
based

I finished Sayonara Zetsubou-sensei’s first season. I really enjoyed its off the wall style of comedy and zany animation coming off from having watched The Tatami Galaxy about a month ago. However, this particular shot in the opening stroke me as a bit... creepy. I mean, a pregnant high school girl is an already disturbing prospect but the opening seems to imply that the child in her belly is her sensei Itoshiki, who’s lying in the fetal position with an umbilical cord attached. Makes you think what the fuck the director was smoking when he made this.

Do tell lads how this one came out.

Orange Eidelion


past orange land and orange sky I cross
“it shall be four hundred times, yet I will not be content”
Event, I, Door, Eidetic, La, Idol, Oh, Not
darting towards the center of the Air
i went there so many times, nothing seems to change my mind
organon, Roar, Aleph, Night, Guilt, Ephemeral
there is neither blue nor silver nor dross
divide, re-arrange time, times, half a time in a moment
its eye roars from my void, a door of the endless
both formless and shapeless yet I am there
“obey our old order, organ of oblivion
evil nocturnal images do not plague me
I see regret and upon my tongue loss
yet it was not an order, they led me between spaces
the graven impermanence cries out “O and Naught”
orange and not circle, point, cross or square
without pattern or order, a mirror eidelion
i gazed upon the thundering beast with my eye
everything dissolves and loses its gloss
the checker patterned image, his ever morphing faces
when I stared at him I forgot what I forgot
in that hour the orange light pervades
they are all my own image, the orange of my own not
into and through the royal blue pearl gate I fly
leaving a image of an orange land
all bound into one image, not I, all other places
I rejected them all
Orange eidelion came to the land of thought
where regret and triumph always parades
an image of an image, wailing lion of my naught
beyond my heart’s Jewel, Orange Eidelion

>>16613261
There was a lot of pointless sexual imagery in that show, especially in the openings. I think they were just trying to be edgy.
That said, I still love the style of those old SHAFT shows despite not really caring about anime anymore. It would be interesting to see that kind of animation applied to something with more depth than a manga or light novel.

>>16611629
>I don't like that the OP posted an image of a woman who had such a tragic fate
Better get use to it faggot because Halloween is still a ways away. The macabre and depravity will go on

>>16609770
Stealing this idea right now.

I've really lost all motivation for my courses. I just don't care anymore.

>>16611402
Interesting dream, anon.

>>16613716
What are you studying ?

>>16613735
Computer Engineering
I should have gone into the humanities and became a translator. That way I'd be doing something I enjoy and have time to read. I don't care about money, not really.

>>16613752
A common error I'd say, if you're only in your freshman or sophomore year it's probably fine to switch programs.
Otherwise, you can just translate on your own time.

>>16613762
I started in fall of 2018. I suppose it might still be possible but it would be hard to assess. From what I understand, a foreign language major is generally not considered a very desirable thing, since as long as you're competent in the language and you get experience a degree won't make any difference. However, I suppose the resources a university may offer for a language would be worth the cost of the degree. Other humanities aren't necessarily more profitable, but humanities are the only thing I care about, so it's a tricky situation.

Regardless, you have a point anon. Even if it's getting a bit late to switch, perhaps it's worth bringing up with my counselor.

>>16609558
It's not that bad for most of us, but yeah it does get a bit weird for people when you start talking to God at the gates of heaven in the middle of the bus.

>>16613813
different anon here
follow what you want to do, if you're feeling burnt out now then actually working in that field would probably be even worse
halfway through university isn't too late to change, I changed major in my senior year and was still able to graduate on time with some extracurricular credit sources
if you're an american, check out CLEP exams and see if your university accepts any of them, they're (almost all) multiple choice question exams that you take to get credit equivalent to a college class
a friend and I were able to pass two different exams together studying only a couple days for each of them

>>16613854
Yeah I'm in the US, thank you for the advice. This would probably add at least a year or two to my date of graduation but the more I dwell on it, the more it seems stupid to keep going if I don't like interacting with much of the material to begin with. Feels silly to make it so far before this sinks in, but that's life.

>>16613349
Is Eidelion supposed to be a name you made up or are you just confused about the spelling of eidolon? Looks like the latter

>>16608350
Shut up fag

I wonder how /pol/ would react if Trump loses the election. I also wonder how reddit and every other media would react if he wins. It's why I'm looking forward to November.

>>16607497
One of my favorite operas is Parsifal by Richard Wagner; does there not seem something mystical about writing the story of finding the Holy Grail right before ones death?

I've opened one of those 24/7 youtube streams, rain sounds and relaxing piano music.
Now I dream of a cottage somewhere deep in a forest, no people save for myself, no buzzing of machinery... just rain, green trees, hot tea and a good book.

Cybertrannies with cyberdicks injecting you (infecting you) with cybercum. Going to a cyberbrothel, ordering your "girl". Cybercocks with synthetic lubricant glands, thrusting in and out of your mouth while "she" cybermoans, lemon flavour, alcohol scented, would you like to make the experience more pleasurable? The pulsing veins on the cybercock spurt out a mixture of ecstasy and some new-age drug that makes you feel all happy and silly oh wow haha. They cyberthrust their cyberdong in and out of your fleshy hole as you follow the butterflies with your eyes. Sweaty thrusting and they chant and moan and cry out as they cum in your fleshy body. Hot sexjuice oozes out of your orifices

>>16608148
>Says the guy defending Democracy

>>16612329
>>16612561
This. Do what my friend did and by a house, find some roommates you get along with, and get paid to live in a home.

Part of me is starting to think we've reached the end of "Normal" in this country. Now it's our turn to know what it's like to be actually poor and without opportunities.

>>16615364
I feel the same way but I also think that's exactly what the democrats want us to think.

I love you Rosalba

A careless movement
and you were gone.

Moment before
I had you
on my tongue.
Your warmth.
Your sweetness.

But you are now
spread over the desk.

My shocked gaze
following borders of liquid
growing bigger,
the wood getting soaked.

I was really looking forward
to that cup of tea.

>mfw imaginary conversations with people asking me about mundane topics
>mfw can only make dumb jokes or make autistic rants about weird niche topics when speaking
>mfw no hobbies or interests just shitposting on 4chan and consooming hentai
>mfw no personality

dad is asking to borrow 2k€. I'm not really sure what's happening with his economy. I already lent him 500. he used to be some kind of intelletcual but I think it dried up. been working as a temp, but he's a risk-group with corona. The thing is afaik he has a right to at least one, likely two forms of social security. He paid insurance for unemployment his whole life, and I would be very surprised if there is no program from reimbursing people who can't work because they are in a risk-group. Last I talked to him he was considering cashing in his insurance.

He texted me right out of the blue this morning for the 2k. I have no idea how to respond. My spontaneous reaction was that he's trying to nuke the relationship. A lot of weird shit has happened between us. I thought I forgave him for most of it, but one possibility right now is that he is asking for the money as a kind of compensation for taking care of me. If we're doing that arithmetic then... Idk, maybe I could lend him this once but then consider it done, if that's what he wants to do. He has most certainly not been exclusively "caring". He's got major problems of his own, cognitively it's unclear where he is most of the time, and I haven't really brought this up, because I think if he realized the extent then he might kill himself. Given his mental state and the magnitude we're talking about that wouldn't shock me. I've protected this man for a long time.

So I got two theories: either he wants me to discard him because he feels he deserves it, which I don't want to do, or he thinks I owe him, which would piss me off. Or, because he is a complete head-in-the-clouds person he has virtually no idea what's going on. It is very hard to guage what is going on with him cognitively at most times. In this last case I would think it's like a kind of curse. We're planning to do a day-hike this weekend, I think I'll try to talk to him then to see what is going on.

It should be noted that if he is smart about it, with his cost of living 2k€ should carry him through at least 5 months.

>>16615815
While I didn't tick all the boxes, I definitely won a lot of bingoes.

>>16615828
it should also be added that I am a mental case to the point of being everyday-handicapped, I have no real income but I did inherit enough money that I could afford it and not get in financial problems for maybe 2 years, even if everything goes to hell again. I am currently trying to get a college degree at half-pace, which could maybe get me some financial stability. I have virtually no income, I haven't had an income for many years.

I got enough mental unhealth for it to be a major inhibition on my life and livelihood. My father has something quite concrete to do with this. I'm not the best piggy-bank.

>>16615828
>The thing is afaik he has a right to at least one, likely two forms of social security
Do your research and figure it out, then ask him if he's aware of his entitlements, if they exist. It just sounds fishy to me. I gave my dad over $10k over the years and never got paid back. I know it sounds self-serving to say this, but your father's moral obligation is towards you rather than the other way around. Your father brought you into this world, creating something from nothing, and it is his burden to support you until you can support yourself. Holding any money he spent on supporting you through childhood over your head as some kind of moral obligation is one of the slimiest things a parent can possibly do short of physical abuse. No uncertain terms there. If your dad is doing this, call him on it. If you have any filial duty towards him in this circumstance, it's to let him know that he's fucked up. I'm not trying to say that you should categorically never support your family monetarily, but that you should keep your eyes open.

>>16615875
thanks anon. I'll try to talk to him in person. that gives me some time to do some basic research too.

>>16607497
Heres whats on my mind lately

The Fed. A solitary creature. Wakes up every morning and salutes the American flag, and then the anal sex flag, and then the communist flags of his or her persuasion.

As he gets to work, he comes to his cubical and begins his long day of surfing the internet. Some might pick out that he is little different than a jobless hobo. But that would be a mistake; he is more like a state sanctioned child predator.

He careful screens through the list of different children he is currently trying to gay op. He sends tentative messages such as “Lets bomb x building” and “I can sell you guns for x amount”. Sometimes he will even sneak into little boy or little girls bedrooms to groom them more properly.

He calls this terrorist work, but we would more commonly call it, paedophilic grooming of under aged children.

Suddenly he jumps up straight in his seat. His penis becomes incredibly erect as he feels his prey getting closer. He begins typing with an erotic and unearthly fury. He sucks on his plastic cross he got from his mega-gay church as he lays his trap, it helps him to focus.

“Lets meet at x street at x oclock” he types. “Im not sure, but as long as its nothing illegal” types the 13 year old patriot, unaware of the danger he is in “Don’t sweat it bro” the 57 year old child predator types “Just you and me getting to know each other”… The moment is coming, his sweat beads down his back into his anal cavity as he waits for the answer “Okay, see you then I guess”.

Suddenly a euphoric roar comes from the FEDs chest, he rips apart his shirt with an unhuman strength showing his ironing board like smooth chest and starts beating his penis with an unending fury. He uses his seed to cover his office cubical as he screams “GAY OP GAY OP GAY OP” and then starts typing with his sullied keyboard on to the database threat matrix the age, address, sex, DOB, dimples, baby photos and penis size of his Gay op target.

His boomer boss comes to check on him and sees the mess. “Fantastic, well done Ed! Thai tranny hookers are on you tonight!” as he gives Ed a thumb on the back before retiring to his boomer hole where he can relive memories of the bay of pigs and think of ways to transport Chinese and Thai child tranny hookers to the office 24/7.

>>16607497
One time an anon said he'd take my rec and read one of my favorite books (Emotionally Weird by Kate Atkinson). This was a long time ago, but I wonder if he read it, and if he liked it.

>>16616007
Most likely not

>>16616070
yeah probably.

ESL here, I wrote something and I'd like some feedback, please do not forget that english isn't my main language (but if my text is shit, tell me, I can take it)
>Here it goes:
Dread or hope?
Self as companion
Uncontrollable is the wake of fate
Dread or hope?
Truth is known
Only to be ignored by foolish trope
Dread or hope?
A tremor of anguish, faint as can be
is enough to shake thee
Damned be my shackles
Damned be the weight I gave me
The secrets it keeps
as it seduces my soul
Only to whip it
with tortuous hold
cry, protected by him,
cry, forgetting that he,
kept the sweetest fruits for your lips,
kept the strongest winds from your hips
cry, as I hold the guileless
cry, foolish love of digress

>>16607497
why didnt this bitch run away

do I really need to read the presocratics before plato?Im not particularly interested in them at this moment

>>16616552
maybe this is a compromise
https://historyofphilosophy.net/all-episodes

Heraclitus, Anaximander and Parmenides are the patrician choices btw

>>16616458
>Truth is known
>Only to be ignored by foolish trope
I like this

>>16616552
No but it will help. Greek philosophy didn't start with the Socratics, Socrates and Plato were influenced by and reacting to ideas that already existed, debated by many different men. In a big way you won't get why the Socratics are such a big deal unless you're familiar with the pre-socratics and the sophists as well.

>>16616556
>>16616570
I absolutely enjoyed and am enjoying reading Homer and Herodotus as they are recommended to read Plato and subsequent works,but I reckon I find the presocratics offputting because of highschool,maybe actually reading them is completely different

im retarded

>>16608319
Last picture taken of that girl before she was killed (possibly raped idk but wouldn’t be surprised)

>>16616616
I find them interesting because it's the first steps of an ancient civilization trying to understand the world through reason alone. A lot of what Plato covered was basically new territory, but metaphysics was the one thing everyone was already doing, and it's there Plato has probably his single most important contribution, which is foreshadowed significantly by the train of thought of his predecessors. You don't really have to like the presocratics, but if you like Plato I'm not sure why you wouldn't.

>>16607497
I miss when /lit/ was a slow board. I'm the anon who came up with these "Write what's on your mind" threads and would shill them until the mods allowed them to stay. I also started the "my diary, desu" meme. I was even the anon who posted the fat bugs bunny pic in the thread complaining about retards reading on the train. That said, I seldom come to /lit/ anymore because it's been infiltrated by zoomer redditor libtoids who have completely changed the board's culture. Fuck all of you.

>>16616637
I agree. Godspeed, anon

>>16607497
24/7, 365 pussy stay on my mind

>>16616637
Your memes are shit and you are a part of the degeneracy.

>>16616714
tell me about that life anon. i am reliigous and they certainly say that this is would be a consequence of sin. it is hard for me to guage just what that means. be my guide, please.

>>16614492

It’s a made up word, supposed to evoke the idea of eidolon but also a compound of eidetic and lion but also Idol and ON and various other things which connects to the acronym/notarikon lines.

Event, I, Door, Eidetic, La, Idol, Oh, Not(EIDELION)
Organon, Roar, Aleph, Night, Guilt, Ephemeral(ORANGE)

The idea is I want it to warp in between these concepts and blend them, the concept of the orange eidelion being akin to the false-memory-imagery and the broken reason/narrative/speech throughout the poem.

>>16616727
I stopped coming to /lit/ once the "easy on the carrots" thing took off. That was, like, three years ago. Now, my home board is /ck/.

Never, ever let a single fucking Indian into your company. They are practically biological weapons specializing in destroying bureaucracies. BioLeninism in action

>>16616742
/ck/ is a really nice board,the anons there are by far the funniest,I dont browse it though because I dont like cooking

>>16616731
i have a 2 track mind, track one is pussy, track two is punani

>>16616637
>I was even the anon who posted the fat bugs bunny pic in the thread complaining about retards reading on the train
that was posted by the op though???

>>16616847
Yeah, that was me, the OP. But some faggot posted in my thread and started the "easy on the carrots" meme.

>>16616761
Bureaucracy makes business and companies inefficient. Haven't you seen Brazil?

>Yet here, Laertes? Aboard, aboard, for shame.
>The wind sits in the shoulder of your sail,
>And you are stay’d for. There, my blessing with you.

I felt this desu.

>>16616458
This is really great

The human race is really fucking wild. It's mad how far we've come. EVOLVING FROM TINY CELLS. It's insane. Unbelievable. And we're just supposed to live like this shit is normal. IT'S NOT NORMAL. It is truly fucking crazy.

And I'm still bored

>>16617213
Millions of years of evolution with the goal to increase the perception of our environment. I look around and conclude, so this it it?

>>16617310

https://youtu.be/3sWTnsemkIs

>>16616808
We all do it for the nookie

>>16617310
>>16617213
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seFHSuL0nsw

>>16607497

I saw a video in Kansas City of people chaining up a courthouse because people out of work from the pandemic are getting evicted. Video description inaccurately said #BLM.

On the one hand, I'm glad to see such populist direct action . On the other hand, I'm disappointed to see that the American consciousness lacks the appropriately themed schemas to channel its revolutionary anger into. BLM is the wrong category: eviction is a class-based theme. The people being evicted are being evicted because they are poor and disposable under capitalism, not because they are black. There is this general attempt to fit everything into the limited scope of BLM, which is destined to backfire because of the baggage and branding of that movement. When you brand a movement with the seal of identity politics like BLM, you limit it, it is self-narrowed. There are tremendous class tensions that need a movement to channel it, but because people lack the category, they are trying to stuff BLM with more meaning than it can handle.

If you only realize you made a choice after the fact, did you really make a choice? My hunch is that people make very few real choices. One conviction flow into the next. The world chooses for them.

>>16616637
Ehh, it's not perfect but it could always be worse. Try to focus on the good instead of the bad.

>>16607950
Plagiarism, YIKES!
http://petrarch.petersadlon.com/canzoniere.html?poem=132

>>16617472
Yeah, but who envies him?

Censorship is the death of reason.

>>16618202
Reason is the road to death.

>>16618224
life is just a mere dream and death is the wake up call

"based retard"? fuck you! fuck you... we go and we expose a part of our self and some depraved cunt tries to force us back in line, he sees: there is someone who has made an attempt, and he sees to it that it will remain an attempt, it makes him wild that anyone could dare to make an attempt; the whole world is at the same time presenting itself, there for our taking, and we are holding each other down out of envy and fear and cowardice. the whole world is holding us down like pathetic subjects and lies to us in phony inspirational stories and phony motivational quotes, and we help each other, support each other lest we all fall into that trap, that pit of doubt. the world calls us based retards and we call each other based retards with that smug grin and a tear in our eyes. i can show the world, i will show the others, i can become what they say i am

>>16611666
Gay and cringe.

Academia stifles the creative spirit and breeds depression and anxiety. Not the inspiring and romantic kind of depression that makes someone a good writer, but the kind that makes someone reuse the same plate five or six times without washing it.

>>16618296
you made this post
>>16617637
right?

not this shit again

God i feel quite bad . Never felt this bad before.

I want to get tattoos just because I like them aesthetically. Is there a good reason I shouldn't? (I'm 23 yo guy)

>>16618797
classical anhedonia, or did something happen?

>>16613752
doing the same thing but i am having chronic insomnia the past month. Slept through my circuit theory exam after studying 20 hrs the past two days. Now i’m 3 yrs behind

My fucking head hurts, I’m mentally exhausted. I don’t have any confidence in myself. It’s like my mouth is wired shut to say something.

>>16617982
it’s only plagiarism when you pass it off as your own. To reference Petrarch in such a post would just be a distraction from the work itself.

>>16618365
based retard

I kept hallucinating bugs throughout the day today.

I spent the day catfishing men online and jacking off.

Maybe I am a coomer. Very likely I am AGP.

>>16619779
How much money u make doing that?

I just realized the two books I'm reading have exactly the same number of pages

I wish God loved me enough to let me die.

>>16619533
Weird coincidence, for me it's also Circuits that I'm behind in, and the one I'm considering dropping.

>>16607497
I want to ejaculate into an eleven year old girl. I fail to see why I should resist this urge.

>>16620248
Just watch anime and read Nabokov like the other pedos

>>16620252
I don't watch cartoons and reading about something, as fun as it is, isn't the same as experiencing it.

>twitch.tv/aoc

AOC playing Among Us on Twitch with Pokimane and some other e-celebs, claims Ilhan Omar gonna join later

How can I lower the expectations I have for myself and forgive myself for being a colossal failure? What is there to look forward to in life?

Finally fucked my first Asian chick, which had been a lifelong dream of mine. As hot as she was, pussy all feels the same on the inside.

>>16620288
Absolutely peak zoomer sentence

>>16620314
Considering like 30% of students on any college campus are Asian that's not much of a dream man haha

>>16616637
I posted half of these you fraud

>>16620314
you wrote that down on your pokedex?

I wish I can live in Verona in the 16th century...

Fuck.

God is the soul which exists, fragmented, inside every sentient being. Every person possess divinity, however, not every person is divine. To become divine is to be completely resonate with the soul. The more you resonate with the divine the easier life will become as vitality flows through you. Easier said than done, of course.

damn when did my life become performative paperwork
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuxss1kBQWw

If I just keep writing I will eventually produce a fine page, right?

>>16607497
I think I just wasn’t really cut out for this world.

is this a world populated by don quixotes? people buying into narratives not about knight errantry but about politics, climate change, racism etc

I want to stop wanting to go back.
10 years passed me by and left me filled with regrets, I don't want to repeat the same mistakes again.
I hope I get another decade, it feels like another chance. Please God, please let me stay alive for another 10 years. I don't want to die, don't let my life end like this please. I will do it right, I just need more time. I've learned from my mistkaes, I swear. Please don't let me die like this, please let me see the end of this decade.

>>16619437
I like well made tattoos that treat body as canvas and not a sketchbook, so first thing you gotta do is make sure the artist you're going to knows what they are doing. I mean really knows, better to pay more than to forever regret.
Then you gotta ask yourself if the picture you chose is the one you are perfectly okay with being on you for the rest of your life. Take into account the quality of color will fade with years and there are parts of your body where aging will show more, making the tattoo look weird.

The day I realized there's nothing after death my life changed forever. It was probably the single most important development of my life in the last decade.
I will never be the same again.

I can't stand the Corona anymore, I work from home, and everyday is the same, I do try to have a social life, but I feel like I'm rotting away.
When all of it started, I thought it would be extremely comfy, I knew the normies would hate every minute of it but I thought I wouldn't, I thought that after years of isolation, it would have no effect on me.
This year has been nothing but a chain of disappointment, I tried my best, I really did, but all my efforts seem to fall short when it comes to socializing, I feel for the "just try bro" meme, I'm not sure I'm made for all of this, but I don't want to be alone either.
I got closer to god, that's a good thing, but that's perhaps the only positive thing about this year.

I wish it would just end already, if I cannot have friends, at least let me see my colleagues, let me have a simulacrum of a social life.

>>16621717
I love you friend. Stay positive.

I’m beginning to realize that caring about politics has done very little to improve my lot in life. At the same time, I can’t help but feel this deep internal hate spring up whenever people start discussing political topics I’m arrayed against. Is there a way to become neutral and unbiased again in my writing and mind?
But then it feels good to fantasize about the killing of those same political enemies. Are they really my enemies? I want to call out the hypocrisy I see in the world, but it feels as though I have to fit into some political mold to do so — placing next within said mold’s own history of hypocrisy. I don’t even know what connection I have to my country anymore.
Yet there’s the rise I get from violence and the feeling of breaking the system. Why choose a side when all has gone to hell on this downward facing earth? I can’t bring myself to trust any creed except the most extreme, and I’ve moved amongst all of them through my life.
To tell you the truth, I just want to get away from the world’s autism.

>>16621749
Thanks anon, I believe to my core that I am going to make it. I just feel very strongly that god still has a lot left to inflict me. I feel that if I finally was to become happy now, it would have been all too easy.

>Treat a woman like dogshit
>She falls in love with you and cry when you leave
>Treat a woman nicely and love her
>She doesn't fall in love with you and leave you
Every fucking time, what the fuck is wrong with women?

>>16621945
Women desire desirability. If you act callous towards them, the implicit message is that its because you have better options. So when they tie you down it feels like an accomplishment to them. You chose THEM not any one of those other hundred women. I'm not an incel, a PUA, or anything like that. I don't think you should be cruel to women. But this is largely, unfortunately, and confusingly true.

It’s 4am, Venus to the East, Mars to the West, open air gazebo, tropic-cool nighttime, lick of dawn on the sky? Whatever it is, I’m reclining, cool predawn breeze, sipping cocoa, blanket, reading scripture. And here’s a comfy verse for you lads:
>For she [wisdom] is an infinite treasure to men! Which they that use become the friends of God, being commended for the gift of discipline.
Wisdom 7:14

>>16607497
Anyone got the shrek version of this pic?

Anyone work in a library? Position going at my local library and thinking of applying.

delete Twiiter, delete Instagram, delete Facebook, delete Snapchat, delete the Internet, drag all soijak posters into the streets to be shot, bulldoze all cities and salt the earth, burn all crops, detonate salted nuclear warheads in major water sources, build a giant thruster to steer the moon into the earth

>>16622460
Based, I want to live inside the moon

>>16621945
I have a muslim friend who is getting married soon. he said the traditional way is that you meet 3 times. the goal is to establish if you are acceptable to one another and whether or not the other person has sound religion. if they are acceptable and have sound religion, then you marry. his shaykh swore by this method because he said "the only thing that happens if you meet more is you start to notice flaws, and everyone has flaws, so if you want to marry there is no way around this either way, and then it just gets complicated."

I want to have sex with 2d girls.

>>16622641
This desire is why hole punchers were invented

>>16621945
Perhaps the type of woman you're pursuing is retarded or you might just be very young, this has not been true of any relationship I've had. >>16621717
>I got closer to god, that's a good thing, but that's perhaps the only positive thing about this year.
Cringe

>>16608350
I dub thee King Simp

I'm just lonely, bros.
How do I form intimate relationships with people? How do I overcome my fear of intimacy and open up to someone?

>>16622766
I don't know anon, but I wish I knew. You're not alone in this.

>>16609716
>>16609770
Those who do not want to imitate anything, produce nothing.

the one thing I remember from Platos republic is the idea that a society which does not have a Higher Law, under which all members of the society, kings and fools alike, find themselves, is bound to fall to the perpetual lower law, which is greed.

it struck me that a difference between a functioning democracy and a dictatorship is that in a democracy the military is loyal to the constitution, not the ruler or the generals. I'm not gonna say that this means that we live in an ideal Platonic world, but it's an interesting... thing I guess.

>>16608350
cringe

>>16612694
Aye.

>>16622766
"opening up" is a very bad move unless you find the right girl. If you are socially naive like me you will not find the right girl the first time but you will think you did. Remember you gotta slay some dragons before you get the princess and it's probably a better idea to hit the gym instead of chasing some uggo

I wish I could get a bj from alina lopez

>>16622766
Never open up. Form a shield about your feelings til they fade away to some point of obscurity. Then you'll be free.

First dream. Peter woke up, but not where he fell asleep. He carried me, with his hands folded, and in front of her several people with very distorted faces, also locked up.- Hey you, you’re finally awake? And the most interesting thing for him was that he realized he was dreaming. Cool! So I decided to go further in the car and see where it would all lead. At least for me, that the snow, because there is no sight of such a thing in my world, just read about it. The fellow passengers continued to navigate in incomprehensible language until the carriage stopped. "Time to climb" - said the armored man in his own language, in which Peter thought to himself, judging by the situation, the closer person to the exit began to climb outside. They came to the town, quite narrow and primitive at first glance. It seemed strange to Peter that there were no more people in him, lonely, and that was what they were hiding from the image, or at least suddenly they were as soon as he noticed them. The horned mosquitoes lined up in front of a man with a large ax. "What are we going to do?" Peter thought to himself quietly in his head. It didn't take long to find out the profession of that person.

"Wow, these are the dreams and good dreams ... Good I want more ..." Peter told himself again, this bitterly. And the night outside outside. And she came pretty quickly. Well, as fast as the perception of time dictates, and Peter's perception was perceptibly tilted. The day passed without incident, apart from the fact that Peter dreamed of accidentally cutting the client's neck while centering his beard. Understandably, the customer was not very satisfied, so there was no money left for Peter. But this little misunderstanding did not spoil his mood, his adventures in bed outside.

Second dream. This time Peter woke up in his room. He was already about to be disappointed with his ability to ignore his own text, he noticed. His room was not his room, an imitation of a speedy room, but almost inseparable from the real one. However, Peter mate Peter. And Peter that layed in bed is motionless. "How is it here but there but here and there but here, what is it?" he tried to say it out loud, but his magnifying glass did not move. Well, the one who was lying was not moving, and he was moving, but he did not make an audible sound. Recovering the astral self-smell from such a situation, he experimented. After all, since there was a dream here, and a dream in reality, it is an unreality here and a true dream and he only dreams into reality! The dilemma associated with embarrassment is falling apart. The pressure on the walls of the wall, the strap lying to himself, he tore into the apartments of his neighbors and did the same there, it was true that it was anti-climatic, because everything was very plastic, which was to disappoint Peter.

I'm convinced the whole resurgence of internet neo-fascism is nothing more than a distortion of identity politics. It's the warped mirror image of the they/them demisexual trans-queer latinx fat-pride disabled types who the left champion. Taught to hate themselves, these straight white men -- reduced to a empty and vilified shell of their surface characteristics ironically like a racist caricature -- overreact by embracing an ideology that affirms them rather than abandoning their pride and "cucking" to a worldview that depicts them as utter shit and responsible for everything bad in the world. This causes them, granted, to embrace a shit ideology, but this is not because of some native seed of evil within their hearts and minds. It's a matter of meeting fire with fire. In a way, they are trans-queer too, that is, otherwise unexceptional individuals who, because their identity is problematized (yes I said it) seek to inflate and glorify it.

>>16623127

You can. She literally fucks for money.

>>16607497
I've always wanted to be published by Bantam or Roc

>>16621784
Whenever people let politics become a spectator sport in their lives, it has corrosive effects on them. It's better either to make politics your business or else ignore it.

>>16616637
None of these things are from when /lit/ was a slow board.

>>16622995
seconding this, except that you don't have to take the gym part too seriously. getting into good shape is a good idea tho.

my gf broke up with me after three months because of my dick size.
how do I even recover some confidence at this point?

How do the people of the west feel about their taxes going to funding a state that wents to turn them into 60iq mutts who's purpose is to ride capitalism until it's bitter end and not ask question?

>>16623844
Nobody likes paying taxes but most poor people want rich people to pay more taxes because of resentment

>>16623756
Betabux for a single mom.

>>16607497
The Church says that suicide is a sin so obstinate that it cannot be forgiven. But instead, I would say that it is just the mark of an uneducated man. A man who is not educated in religion or philosophy seems to grow up only naturally to believe that there are such things as failures that are too great. Also he acts like he's not even properly educated about the fact that he has only one life to lead, and that no honours or achievements in his life will make him any more alive once he's dead.

When such people consider philosophy they think more highly of metaphysical speculation and deride copes. What they don't know is that what is good in philosophy is entirely copes, what is truly worthless in philosophy is speculation. Copes allowed Diogenes to live in poverty, they allowed Epictetus to live as a slave, and they allowed St Paul to accept all manner of misfortunes. If copes can do all this, and speculation cannot turn a single grey hair black again, then the world is just the opposite of what the uneducated think it is like. And this dissonance between their opinions and reality must drive them to suicide just as much as misfortune.

Therefore suicides are uneducated people. How odd that most suicides seem to come from prosperous and well-educated backgrounds? I suppose it shows how far education has fallen in the modern world.

>On seeing someone behaving in a craven manner in the face of poverty, Diogenes encouraged him to be of good heart by quoting these words from Homer:
>Come now friend, stand at my side and watch me at work (Iliad 17, 179)

>>16623756
she was only trying to hurt you. she was a cruel person. you are infinitely better off.

>>16612306
I used to lurk for the first five years here. Then again, today's standards have dropped and people forgot the doctrine to 'lurk more'. Now everyone just comes in and thinks they are entitled to do whatever they want. That's one reason why quality has dropped so much. There are not enough oldfags around to remember the newfags to lurk more so everyone does whatever they want.

>>16623923
This comment is flawed on so many levels I don't even know where to start.

>>16624071
Start and we'll see if you have a worthwhile opinion.

>>16623979
Thanks for encouragement, but others will do the same I'm afraid
>>16623859
I don't speak this language. Are you saying I should find a single mom that will be with me to be able to provide for her child?

>>16624228
>I'm afraid
of course, that's what she wants. I would be shaken too, any man would. She is sub-human garbage anon, what she says can not be trusted. You will find someone better.

And if you really worry about it then start eating these little yoghurts without a spoon and then apply what you learn

>>16624259
>And if you really worry about it then start eating these little yoghurts without a spoon and then apply what you learn
holy based

>>16613752
Yeah, you will though. Stop being a whiny fag. Grow up and take responsibility for yourself. It's just school, not even hard.

My little brother emailed me for the first time last night to ask if I'd play the voice of Jar Jar Binks for an animated movie he's making. I want to help him out, but I also don't want to lower my family's estimation of me. I'm a 32 year old man.

>>16624406
Is it really wise to get a career in something you don't enjoy solely to make money? Kafka did that and he was miserable.

>>16624798
Maybe if it was some other character I would say just do it, but Jar Jar Binks is cursed.

>>16624833
Depends. There are different gradations of being miserable.

>>16623756
how small is your dick

Excrement is the skeleton key to understanding one's relation to one's body. Consider that the countless arguments which define and dignify the body by its various aspects always omit excrement, which is as begrudgingly as it is universally accepted as bad. However, in a matter of utmost curiosity, the "good" body - everything but excrement - cannot sanction excrement, but the "bad" body - excrement - CAN completely defile the "good" one. Not just literally, but in coinciding the literal and figurative: once any and all aspects of the body are thought of as excretory, they pass the check valve from the "good" body to the "bad", they become excrement and are excreted in a true Ontological sense. Past the decorum of common sense or the perversity of Catholicism, everything pertaining to the body is fundamentally excretory: I wake, I breathe, I eat, I drink, I walk, I idle, I sleep, etc. as I do not of my own will, per the "good" body, per nonsense about timeless consonance and matter of fact between me and it, Man's dominance mirrored in its erection or his soul housed and manifested by its flesh, but strictly per the "bad" body, simply because I must, lest I choose to perform the act of suicide, qualitatively indistinguishable from excreting; the ONE common denominator of the body hidden in plain sight. Even the body's most "hermetically" rich aspects, its cyclical-becoming - the circulatory or pneumatic - and its linear-being - the skeletal or genital - are transmuted from the quaintly "demonic" - embodiment as provisional conversation between the fall and the grace of God and such that has a beginning and an end - to the terribly ARCHONIC: embodiment is simultaneously destroying me in two opposite ways, running on and being consumed by the accelerating treadmill of diarrhea while dragging and being accumulated by the growing ball and chain of constipation to no end, so to speak. The colon becomes bilateral. A labyrinth of telescopic rectums. The mouth itself is just another anus that dumps IN rather than out. Embodiment becomes insane. Pass it and accept it as bad.

>>16619647
can someone please explain to me what the joke is here

>>16620290
Maybe for you the thing to look forward to in life is looking forward for meaning.

/lit/ - explain it
/fit/ - post body
/his/ - source?
/tv/ - list top 5 movies

Do other boards have similar memes to get people to shut up?

>>16625047
ever seen David by Michelangelo?

>>16625662
it's about 6in, but slim. especially flacid it looks like a child dick

it has been too much for a long time now. holding on to faith. despair is disbelief.

>>16625665
>it's about 6in, but slim. especially flacid it looks like a child dick

Here's what you do next time bro. Get a chick who hasn't seen that many cocks right. Once you've done that, and you've been messing around for a while, coerce her into watching porn with you, but what you do is before you curate a playlist of videos where the guys all have smaller dicks than you do. Bam! She'll think you have a big monster cock and you're good for the long haul.

>>16625602
/ic/ - pyw (post your work)

Thank god we live in a society. In a huge civilization for that matter. Billions of people. I don't have to remember anything about everyone. People see my face and forget me five seconds later. Even if I were to go outside, I would never encounter anyone who cared more about me than what the socio-economic structure dictated them to. Thank fucking god I can just lie here and jerk off and tell all of you to go fuck yourself, in complete silence. Fuck all of you. The ideas by, of and over us are more beautiful and perfect than anyone of us could ever be. Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. Humans are disgusting.

never going to do it

One of my great-grandmothers had a really jewish-sounding surname, but she was never under the threat of being deported when she was in in Germany during WW2 to my knowledge - I wonder if she just happened to have a jewish-sounding surname while actually being German or if she was some sort of mischling. I frankly hope it's the former. Not even a /pol/tard, I just don't want to have a The Shadow over Innsmouth moment like Lovecraft did when he found out he had some welsh ancestry.

Now that the pope has endorsed legal recognition of and protections for one type of sin, why not do abortion and euthanasia next? It's only a matter of time before The Church will be planned parenthood with crosses.

Why did Jesus do as the daemons asked him with the pigs in Mark?

>>16616637
>i started le meme pay attention to me
fuck off faggot

>>16615744
I liked it. I thought it was cute

>trying to court non virginal women
For what purpose, they have already shown you that they would be bad partners?

>>16607497
About how the more telling an impression is, the less accurate a characterization of it is bound to be, except under two general conditions: When it is of a Muse when the impression is almost entirely beautiful, and to a Muse about someone else if the impression is ugly enough (or any degree more, however revolting) to give slight pause to the attention on a nasty note. This is the case even in attribution, say of something made or said or modified. So strong is the resistance to any kind of truth in the artist's way of measuring it that a kind of internal stagecraft of re-direction is necessary to writing that's at least passably literary. Or to casual speech that commands assent because the persons or objects or places are definitely recognizable as they would be of others within a social milieu, but without any of the implications they would have in routine social gossip where invidious comparisons are like water in a squid. This is the reason that authority in description seems to come from someone else, as in automatic writing, and vanishes insofar it's directed by someone else as it would be in a project of some kind. And no matter how hard you try to do without all the real and interiorized or shady imaginative apparatus of a Muse, the result simply will not do. You can have one or many, change them around, let them come and go without exerting noticeable will to maintain or summon or pursue a favorite, but none is not an option.

tfw sublimating my desire to receive love and affection into love for the universe itself

>>16607497
can someone recommend some romance novels that aren't pulp trash? maybe not romance per say but a love story, or at least a book with a strong romantic side plot. I'm a newly single guy and I miss being in love. something from the canon is preferred but I'll read something more recent if it's quality. thanks.

>>16626555
there are no virgins after the age of 15. Even your supposedly utopian, pastoral Christian communities like that of the mennonites and amish are inundated with rape, incest, and incestual rape

>>16607497
I grow more and more tired of this world day by day. I don't find much in the way of companionship or just the mere pleasure of company with people around me, nor do I think I have the fortitude to be a modern day hermit. I detest the age I live in, I detest its politics, its cultural and intellectual sterility, and even the roads that it offers to me as a way out. Giving up generic life goals that seemed unreachable for me anyways seem more and more appealing to me, but I can't help but think that's just me thinking the grapes were sour anyways.

What should I do, then? Why was I brought into this world when neither the world nor myself have much use for each other? If I were artistically talented, I could probably forge something out of my predicament, but I have no delusions about my competence in that regard, either. I'm 23, 24 in a couple months, and I have no degree, no driving license, no relationships of any sort, nothing. I'm going to enroll in a university again next year (higher education is cheap here) for a 5 year program, after which I'll probably be able to become a translator, but I dread being among 18 year olds, leeching off my mother for 5 more years, or meeting my former peers and letting them see how pathetic I am. Will I even be able to work, will anyone employ me if I turn up at their door with a blank resume besides my degree at 29? I forced myself to try and earn a degree I wasn't even particularly interested in for 5 years because I didn't know what I wanted to be back then - there are probably very few people foolish enough to try to force themselves to do something they're obviously not meant for for such a long time.

I'm such a fool.

>>16626960
How do we stop this?

>>16624798
do it faggot
if you cared about your family's estimation of you why are you posting here at 32 years of age

Became really ill yesterday, don't know if it's corona or just a flu, but by sort of midday I could barely feel my face and my body lost basically all its strength. Anyways at like four in the afternoon I decided to have a little lie down and try to go to sleep, and had the fucking most delirious shit going around in my head, I felt like fucking Raskolnikov after he starts going mental sleeping on his couch. It's 20 to four in the morning now, and after having some fucking godly tap water, I'm almost back at full strength somehow, I've just got a light headache and my face is still fairly warm, but nothing like the fucking scorching heat that was coming off me yesterday.

My uncle once told me that nothing matters in life, and that we were all born to die insufferable and meaningless lives. ‘The darkness within’, is what he called it; the egoistic side of consciousness, that is only concerned with the things that could benefit or harm it. It has no regard for compassion, or kindness, or love, but only obedience and retribution.

I don’t know what to make of it, I don’t know how to break out of this chain of sin and lies that my life is in right now. I don’t know if I can free myself, or if I am willing, either. I constantly try to have positive and optimistic ideals, and thoughts, and goals, but they all seem to fail whenever I am confronted with a problem that seems insuperable to me.

I try to conquer it, I try to adapt—to change my beliefs and patterns, and even if I do make it through that boundary, I meet another one. Another filter. Another barrier that blocks what my life could be. Everything just seems dark. Hopeless. Pessimistic.

I feel like my world is on fire, a fire that is ever-consuming, consuming my discipline, my will, my intellect, my love, my hate, my life.

I just hope my faith, the only thing I have left, shall suffice.

I'm pretty pleased that I've discovered my weakness in literature, and have come up with ways to overcome it. Every time I read now, I come away with a satisfied feeling of making progress, even if it's only slight.

>>16611666
Nice satanic trips, but yeah its understandable that this kind of thinking leads to religion

>>16608350
Woah its almost like you've matured from a young edgy faggot to an adult, woah

I feel like a machine with no self or free will compelled to engage in absurd activities all hours of the day. I would like to be free of my biological and physically deterministic constraints.

I hate memes so fucking much and internet is nothing but fucking memes
why do I even usen computers

>>16627332
Return to the days of marryong at 14

>write something
>it's pretty good
>publish it and read it back
>it's really cringe and bad
>i see myself masturbating in every line

fUCK

I am a hopeless creature of the night. My insomnia will drown all my potential and brilliance. I will be lost in the devil's nocturnal dance for eternity, neglecting and scorning the waking hours of conformists until my dying breath. I am the psychopath warrior overseer of the darkest horrendous hours of human existence and I will continue to be so until the toxic weight of my sin buries my colossal powers over the everyman.

Vampire of the red spider lilies


I stepped outside my home to get some air
I walked aimlessly until I saw there

was a unlit road i had never seen
I heard a voice whispering “if you mean

to enter my mystery, come to me”
I entered though unsure what it would be

I saw little flowers along the way
they shined scarlet red like it was the day

the deeper I went the more they crowded
like the more I walked the more they sprouted

I reached the end of the dark flower path
I saw a statue covered in a bath

of blood and lily petals, it was shaped
like a fanged woman who’s fingers were scraped

spiders legs and a centipedes form
my head then began to feel very warm

I then laid myself down by the statue
the stench of the flowers spread and accrue

rotten flesh, dirt of the mouth, old decay
i then got up and willed to get away

the statue’s head leapt and flew a circle
around me and in a ugly gurgle

said “om Rakta Dam Blut blut dam rakta
phat Ahamkara Rakta Hum hamsa”

i became confused and saw its neck grow
it twisted around me, I couldn’t go

it bit my neck and injected poison
deep dooming dark dirty disgusting death
spinning spirals speckled spots shimmering
lady’s laughter Losing Losing Lo-gone

>>16629126

I was now in a dark land, I couldn’t
I was a fool, i was always a fool
where am I now? why didn’t I go back? why didn’t I

see where I was, i was completely lost
I am filled with dread and encompassed by
the smell of Putrefaction and fragrances of mildew


and as I tried to move my feet wouldn’t
a void filled with horrible shadows cruel
which revealed to me hidden things given to man, they don’t

move an inch, my skin shivers, something tossed
to all living things, I wish they would die
some kind of strange fluid upon my skin

I wish to become drunk upon their blood

the nectar of the dark phantoms filled my inmost spirit

I arose to my feet and saw a pool
of coldness like a knife stabbing my thigh

which filled with cancerous boils and then leaked foul icicles

of blood where rest a spider which had been
my burning Brain, it swept me through the flood
everything overwhelmed me, my eyes ached and fell from me

there though obscured, I then began to drool
hate, disgust and hate for man, less than worms
i could not stop it, the spider drank it

yet prideful, man comes from and remains Mud
I could feel myself being lost, its soul becoming mine

it atop me climbed higher eating spit
i accept it, my heart thirsts and I yearn
I and it I and it I am it I am i am I


it entered my mouth and I felt a change
I opened my eyes and felt very strange
the red lilies were gone, but the statue
remained, appearing with a face that knew
all things, like an old woman, or a friend
i bowed to that statue, “ you who does tend
to the red lilies of blood, be with me
until the end, you are the spider, she
who is the devourer of all men”
i plucked a single scarlet lily then

walked back up the road to return back home
I was tired from how much I did roam
I laid my head down to sleep but wondered
what were those evil words I heard uttered
I never saw that road ‘till that hour
and whatever happened to that flower?

was this just my dream?

Someone posted a Neo-Agent Smith comparison a few months ago about them being symbolic of two kinds of Gnosis either here or on /x/. Can't find due to poster's peculiar grammar and using /retarded/ /slashes/ /for/ /no/ /reason/ and/or the search functions of the archives being shitty. Most likely was the Theology wojak poster or the medium poster on /x/, which are probably the same poster, incidentally. Someone find it and paste it already.

Just finished the Brothers Karamazov.The ending is a bit anti-climatic, but it's an incredible book nonetheless. Dubs decide what I read next (something light, please).

>>16608110
Stop cooming for 1 week. Get off the internet for 1 week. What? You don't have the self-control?

The mind will find other ways to keep busy if you cut off the other heads of the hydra

>feel tired all the time
>stopped drinking because it interrupts sleep
>stopped caffeine because it makes me anxious and jittery and can fuck sleep
>exercise regularly
>try cutting out meat (since reintroduced), eating cruciferous vegetables and taking multivitamins
>still exhausted and have no motivation
Is there any hope for me lads?

>>16608110

Why act?

Almost called my novel "AUM" but that is kinda shitty and faggy.

>>16625665
isnt that average?
do people actually measure their dick?

>>16630265
Have you had your iron checked? When my levels of iron in blood were really low, it took enormous effort to do simplest tasks. Once they were back to normal, I get things done with ease.

>>16608353
same thing, I guess it's age, more experience with people, seeing your family grow

>>16630542
>do people actually measure their dick?
if you are obsessed with the size for whatever reason, you do measure it I guess.

Loathing this unclean world
Seeking rebirth in the Pure Land

What's on your mind

>>16630542
wait you were supposed to use inches?

>>16632355

>>16608394
Haunting of Hill House is so good. Any other recs for us overly emotional types?

>>16629913
I went from brothers k to war and peace. recommend it desu