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Porn and masturbation are the sole reason my life is mediocre and devoid of any motivation.

>>15997392
You can't change the fundamental beliefs of people. Being a complete jackass, knowing that people believe different things make me mad. That said, we can still agree on certain parts in order to keep living.

theres nothing on my mind op

I can feel my thoughts getting simpler and my brain getting foggier from scrooling, cooming, and probably other unhealthy habits. Unironically feel that an year ago I may have been much more ignorant, but my mind was clearer and and there was a certain pleasure in just my thoughts, which are now burdensome.
I haven't read anything of substance, just escapism and genre fiction. Tried reading The Republic but couldn't find anything keeping me going.

I'm not sure if it's because of work being busy again, but I'm feeling anxious and depressed like I haven't felt since October when I had a breakdown. The anxiety caught me unaware now like it did then. Now that I'm always alone I somehow assumed that I wouldn't feel it., that it was purely the result of my social impotence. The depression is different than last time. Last time was more intense. I would get a sad mantra stuck in my head and repeat it. I'd cry while driving home from work every night. Now the feeling is somewhat different. The only real similarity is the feeling that I should die. When I had the breakdown I would hold on to the guardrail at the train station when the train approached because I felt my body draw to the tracks, like to a magnet. I bought a new car then and imagined gassing myself in it while parked in a scenic area. Now I don't have specific images of how I might die, just the impulse that I should.

The quarantine is unsettling the negros and they are swarming into areas they normally don't frequent. Like my neighborhood. I can't put my finger on any one thing they do, but they bring chaos with them. I've seen insane fights, schizos, tweakers, cars smashing into eachother or almost hitting pedestrians, robberies, degenerate behavior of every kind imaginable, all in just a few weeks. The other night one of them drove through a store window in front of me and then sped off in his totaled car. He was playing basketball shortly before that. The negro is pure chaos seeping into this world from the void. I feel it overtaking us all.

Boy just go and grab them nuts

>>15997394
I just masturbated again. No motivation and hornier than I was before. It solves nothing.

>>15997392
How does one deal with the realisation that they are a pseud?

I want to Zeus her

>>15997892
Jerking off to paintings is peak coomer anon

>>15997392
Am I wrong? Am I to forgive the guy who choked me because I questioned his concept of the one god? Nah, fuck him. Right? May his life be filled with dread, and pain and regret and may he forever remember that moment. Who cares what I think about him? Who cares what horrors I wish upon him! May he rot for all eternity, forever semi-conscious of both his act and his consequences. May his parents eat shit for raising a person like that. I will it. I command it. You know the rest. Fuck him.

I should be reading right now. I've got to take a shit but it will be my third today and my asshole already feels tender from vigorous wiping.

>>15997907
#Savage

>>15997907
let it go you sound like your mama.

>>15997907
You vile disgusting insect. Plotinus would send death rays at you if he wanted. You're NOTHING and your mockery of The One will earn you not choking but eternal misery.

>>15997920
I asked him if he really believed that The One God who made all the world also made over 300 religions and I didn't even get to finish my point. I hope you too choke on my fucking nuts you bitchass bootlicking twat

Fully embracing my psychopathy means shedding what false humanity I had been indoctrinated into believing by the industrial human sausage factory. Fully embracing my psychopathy means murdering my invisible Jewish witch doctor. Fully embracing my psychopathy means I can and I will or I won’t. Fully embracing my psychopathy means no divisions between a laughs and tears and jubilance. Fully embracing my psychopathy means 5G wifi connection, unlimited data, roaming. Fully embracing my psychopathy means within and without. Fully embracing my psychopathy means saying fuck your categories. Fully embracing my psychopathy means going back to visit that little boy I once was and affirming his fears, “You are absolutely right.” Fully embracing my psychopathy means looking in the mirror at the monster I’ve become and handing it over to that little boy. Fully embracing my psychopathy means coming to the helm, and beginning where had left off the Gods. Fully embracing my psychopathy means fully embracing my psychopathy. Fully embracing my psychopathy means psychopathy represents absolutely nothing. Fully embracing myself as my own mind, no longer suffering myself, perhaps a disease but not my own. Not anymore. Not ever again.

>>15997501
Brain fog is the worst. I relate a ton, a couple years ago I was super productive, would read and read, get into online arguments, and put a ton of hours into my school assignments. Now I chronically procastinate on everything and I'm just chugging along. Life has become unbearably, lazily stale, and I'd prefer to return to a state of energetic anguish again.

>>15997394
>the sole reason

Face it anon, you are too scared to confront the very likely possibility that your life would still be mediocre even without pornography and masturbation. This possibility is why you can't quit, while you're hooked to porn you have an excuse. That's much more bearable than facing the reality. But you can do it anon. You can quit porn, quit masturbating, and fulfil your potential - but the first step is to identify that the problem needing resolution lies within YOU.

>>15997394
I want this cycle to end so bad too, anon. I hate that I was fed porn as a young pre-teen, and am now struggling with the effects of porn as an adult.

>>15997394
>>15997602
>>15998287
Read St. Augustine's Confessions, Epictetus' Handbook/Discourses and Aristotle's Nichomachaen Ethics (and the rest of his corpus tbqh). In order to attain virtue and quit the cycle of vice, you have to gain the theoretical knowledge in order to put it into practice.

I come from a wealthy and privileged family and they have never put any pressure on me to get a job or support myself. Even now, now that I'm in graduate school getting a MA in English Literature, there is no huge pressure on me to finish my degree quickly, or get a job to support myself. I get sent money every month to cover my expenses.

This actually fills me with a significant sense of obligation, and a desire to prove myself. If I don't HAVE to work, if I don't HAVE to wake up every morning and go to a job to get my basic needs taken care of, then I need to be doing something worthwhile with my time instead. It terrifies me, and disgusts me, to read about shiftless thirtysomething Millennials, and also younger Zoomers, who are supported by their parents, and who basically don't do anything but sit around stuffing their fat faces, and smoking weed, and playing video games.

I desperately want to put the free time I'm so blessed to have to good use. And one thing I love to do is write. I have been writing in some form or fashion since I was in middle school, and my undergraduate and my graduate school degrees are oriented towards literature. I suppose once I have my MA I can teach somewhere, but that's not what I want. That's not what I REALLY want.

I want to become a GREAT writer and a GREAT poet. I want to be a significant literary figure in the 21st century, and I want to write things people will be reading a thousand years from now. I've gotten some poems and some short stories published, so I've gotten a start already, but I want more. I want to scale the highest heights of grandeur as a poet and writer. Then, perhaps, I'll pay my parents back for the way they've indulged me. I'll repay their support for me by making our family name famous and legendary for all the rest of time.

My whole life I've been prepped to pursue a white collar career. I graduated top of my grade in high school, I graduated top of my class at a prestigious university. But the only career prospects I can see ahead of me are insecure unfulfilling office jobs. I've passionately hated every internship I've worked. I hate being in an office and I hate contributing to something I find to be meaningless at best and actively bad for society at worst. I feel ungrateful because I know a lot of people would be envious of my position, but the truth is I'm still not all that employable. Not in this job market at least. I fantasize about picking up a trade like carpentry, but I have no idea if I would be any good or if I would end up hating that too. I've never had any experience with hands on stuff.. I go to the gym but that's about it. Yeah yeah yeah I'm whinging, but I can't whinge about this to anybody in real life because I seem ungrateful. What is there to do?

>>15998971
brother.... same boat. graduating with BA in history from a nerdy college, I hated my finance internships... I want to like physically create something rather than work at a corporation behind a desk... life is tough man

>>15997559
I hope it does. I hope it overtakes you.

Buried alive by love. That's me. Hello.

>>15997392
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
DON'T EAT THAT APPLE
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>>15997392
Started reading Either/Or yesterday, really liking it a lot already, I'm quite surprised at just how nice it is to read just solely because of Kierkegaard's prose. I'm still on the little aphorisms chapter in A's part and just want to ask about what he means when he talks about the only way you can escape from the either/or dilemma and reach eternity is by being ahead of it. Also what's he talking about when he says that he never starts and therefore can always stop, and 'for I do not stop; I stopped that time I began'. How's that work then? Surely not starting just means he's chosen one of the either/or. Idk, I'm pretty sure that I'm just missing something or not seeing the obvious here. In the back it says it's summat to do with Hegel, but since I know precisely ugatz about Hegel's philosophy that doesn't really help.

>>15997392
Sex sex sex lolis lolis lolis milkers milkers milkers

I'm already 28 and i still have not a slightest clue what to do with my life.

>>15998211
No, I've quit it before and was able to do much more with my life. It's like comparing being a normal to being on cocaine or amphetamine. That's how big of a difference semen retention made and now I'm such a slave I can't return no matter how badly masturbation affects me. I am not going to make it.

>>15998971
>>15999204
go for a trade
even if you end up chained to a desk in 5 years, you will have eliminated doubt
think about how much time you will spend working and it will become clear that you don't want to spend that much time, miserable, in some contrived small scale political climate after janet took credit for dave's work while he was on holiday at the meeting you didn't want to go to

Friendly reminder that all men are kings.

The only thing I want to do
Is fuck you in the ass
To paint your "Michelangeloo"
Like angels after mass

>>16000352
The calling of pornographic material "adult" is a cope only to justify the consumption as if it is mature. Its pathetic, rotten, and worthless and inverts your premise that all men are king, when in fact, all subject to this filth are slaves.

>>15997999
Permissive/active will of God distinction

>>15997394
>>15997572
>>15997602
>>15997892
>>15998287
>>16000173
>>16000352
>>16000398

https://voca.ro/16vKISNBAZF

Listen up and listen good.
It had to be said.

(Assumed some of you also have trans fetishes. )

>>16000700
I agree with you.

>>16000700
Whose got that quote that is something along the liens of that...criticising the supposed "maturity" of sex... a quote that ridicules how sex for pleasure is just a coping mechanism for two adults. I can't remember who said it

>>16000728
this bitch made a 15 minute long asmr on porn.

A scene from the life of anon, a fucking retard
>walking down a hallway
>kind of see someone I might know way at the other end
>bad eyesight so squint to try and see who it is
>it looks like they're looking at me now so look away because I feel awkward
>still don't know who it is
>they get closer but I still have to squint
>they look at me again
>look away and feel more awkward
>finally see who it is
>wait should I call out now or wait until I'm closer?
>make eye contact
>look away
>get within arms reach
>try to say 'what's up' but something gets caught in my throat
>whatsUHGHGK
>they give me a weird look and keep walking
the end

Don't be afraid of making mistakes. The classics exist to help guide you, but you will learn nothing without real-life experiences to reflect on.
Don't be afraid of lacking wisdom. Experience will let you see things invisible to you now, so don't strain your eyes hoping to see.

I'm so ashamed of who I am.

I should kill myself over what I did to my sister but I'm probably gonna attempt to work myself to death instead. I hope things work out for her and she has a very happy life and in the meantime I'm going to find the shittiest most soul sucking corporate hell hole and dive in. I want to turn my brain off and ride the work-food-sleep treadmill until I drop dead on the floor of my shitty tiny but still overpriced studio apartment next to my weird smelling twin size mattress and a pile of empty cup ramen. I know none of that will do anything for me or for her but I feel so totally inept and disgusted with myself that it seems as if any attempt to help her will only make things worse and I'm better off just disappearing from the face of the Earth and hoping for an eternity in Hell afterwards.

>>16000700
Or maybe it's because you shouldn't show porn to kids you autist lol

>>16001174
>Or maybe
Reddit.

I've set up a fake bumble profile just to see what the online dating world looks like. I generated a face from thispersondoesnotexist.com, so the guy you see here is not real. But the profile is mostly how I would describe myself. It's in german but it shouldn't be too hard to figure out.
So I've been doing this for almost 3 weeks, and I've gotten around 25 likes, all of which are from guys. Literally no girl liked my profile. I've set up my profile to bisexual just bc I wanted to see what other men put in theirs. In contrary to women, there were actually quite a few guys I'd be friends with. There was even one leninist who swiped right on me kek. Surprisingly only about 25% of the people I had to swipe were male, which makes it even harder to explain why only men liked me.
Anyway, the female ones were about as shallow as I expected. They all essentially said the same shit - "I like wine and netflix. I'm clumsy and spontaneous. I like to philosophize about my life and the universe despite never opening a fucking book in my life" and so on and so on.
There were only a handful of standouts that actually seemed like they had a personality, but they were usually hardcore feminists or antifa. I probably wouldn't like them irl but at least you could talk to them about things.
This all made me feel a little depressed but at least I now know what awaits me if I don't succeed irl.

>>16001220
its almost as if you can socialise with people who have different political opinions
funny that

>>16001018
who are you?

>>16001238
>its almost as if
Reddit.

>>16001277
epic, have fun with youre gay friends

>>16001220
Mein Junge. Dein Profil sieht unfickbar aus und ich mein es ernst. Deine Schreibweise sagt mir das du ein absoluter fag bist. Frauen haben übernatürliche Kräfte wenn es dazu kommt zu erkennen ob ein Mann geil im Bett wär oder nicht. Viele wissen das nicht wegen sozialen Progressiven spinnern wie dir aber Frauen denken über Sex deutlich mehr nach als Männer. Das sind Schlampen alle samt. Sogar meine und deine Mutter. Sie können treu sein, aber in Gottes namen, denke nicht sie seien unschuldig.
Selbst wenn du gute Absichten in der Welt hast, du hast keine Macht oder Kontrolle über irgendetwas und das rendert dich nutzlos. Wenn du jemals eine Familie und ein Leben in der echten Welt haben möchtest musst du ernsthaft deine Seele, sowie masculine Seite suchen gehen, amen.

>The Way of Men (was es bedeuted Mann zu sein)
>The Redpill (Wie man mit Frauen umgehen sollte)
>Atomic Habits (Gibt dir mehr Kontrolle über dein Leben)

Gerngeschehen.

>>16001220
hes cute

.t fag

>>16001343
alternativ: Sascha Stark ist ein deutscher Coach der dir helfen kann. Er macht auch Videos auf Youtube.

>>16000737
Denigrating sexual pleasure is just a coping mechanism for one adult

>>16001249
A bitch nigger faggot.

>>16000728
why do you sound like youre 10

>>16001343
from what I've seen redpill guys are the most miserable, also nein danke.
>selbsthilfe-bücher
kek

>>16001439
Viel Spaß als homo

>>16001399
idk.

I'm an autistic square-face greta thunberg look alike.

I've been trying to wrap my head around Steven Wolfram's newfangled theory of everything. I'm skeptical of these computationalist physics accounts because they risk mistaking the map for the territory. It may grease the wheels of intuition to think of the universe as a set of computations and therefore as a computer but that doesn't mean it is one. He also hypes his model up to no end, claiming that it literally reproduces all of physical theory from relativity to quantum mechanics and even achieves the holy grail of modern physics by relating both theories.

>These various paths that are representing the possibilities in quantum mechanics are effectively being turned in this multiway space by the presence of energy momentum, or more specifically, by the presence of the Lagrangian density, which is a relativistically invariant analog of energy momentum. In other words, the core of quantum mechanics, which is the way that the phases work in the path integral, is the exact same phenomenon as the core of classical general relativity, the way that trajectories are turned by the presence of energy momentum in spacetime.

If true this would make Wolfram the greatest physicist of the era. But he has a record of hyping up his toy models to no end and seeing his own fantasies of ultimate science fulfilled in them. So I doubt, doubt, doubt.

>>16001206
Nah, that's "maybe... just maybe" or "or maybe.. just hear me out.. maybe". Also it's the overall tone.

Feminism is more rampaging in anglo countries because of the inability of the language to differentiate between male and female sustantives.
For example in spanish you can say "Estoy viendo a una doctora" when in english you say "I'm seeing a female doctor" remarking the word "female" for diferientiating the sex. This is remarcable because this word is also used to diferientiate the sex of an animal. In other languages "female" is used exclusively for animals.

>>16001540
Wow, this is a great observation.

>>16001540
That's not true, a female doctor would be a doctrix. So it's not that the language is unable to differentiate, rather that the differentiation is rarely used.

This board is so nihilistic and bound to constant dopamine rush.
Just like me.
I should leave now.

It feels like absurdism is just happy nihilism.

>>16001479
His theory is bullshit. Looking at computational rules and interpret their behaviour as real world events is just like machine learning. In the end you get something similiar, but you have still no clue how anything actually works.

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Whenever anyone or anything does something it's communism. Censorship? Communism. Healthcare? Communism. Protecting yourself and others from a pandemic? Communism. Better infrastructure? Communism.

Communism. How many times do we have to make propaganda saying the above is bad before you realise communism is Satan? Goddamn ANTIFA.

>>16002269
That's because you've read zero absurdism. Nothing happy about it. Life is struggle and virtue is spite.

>>16002440
I just read couple of books of his. Ofcourse i'm versatile in absurdism.

>An Idaho teacher who suggested that Boise’s mayor should “get laid” by Black Lives Matter members is now out of a job, district officials said.

When telling people to "have sex" goes wrong

Books about pic related? Not about sex specifically, but about living as a character to others, not being your true self. Sometimes i feel kind of limited by what actions i can do in front of others, for example, if i portray myself to a group of people as a generally happy or funny guy, i will later feel unable to let myself feel sad or depressed in front of them, i will continue acting as this happy character even though i am not. It makes me wonder... does everyone does this? Is everyone just acting around others? Playing a character that doesn't exist?

how do i get a gf
serious replies only
my soul is dying for a kindred spirit or i will soon wither

>>15997392
Waiting for my gf to finish what she's currently doing so I can fuck her brains out. Been in the woods for 5 whole days and I'm feeling primal.

If I was in God’s spot I wouldn’t forgive myself.

>>15998303
Stop worshiping semitic desert demons.

>>16001086
Did you reference Evangelion all over her or something?

My avoidant personality has effectively rewired my brain where now I see even the most benign things as cringe

I am so disgusting I actively became depressed when people at my workplace wanted to celebrate someone's birthday. That person was nothing but the kindest and sweetest person to me and something so small like saying "happy birthday" made me want to vomit. The same feelings I get at even the prospect of a family or high school reunion

>>15997886
Embrace it

>>16002865
Thankfully, you're not!
God loves you and if you're sorry, you're forgiven.

I have given up and i havent at the same moment.

>>16003205
Do you want to kill yourself but continue living?

>>15997392
these pics are very cute. i wish there was no porn just softcore subtle erotica and comfy stuff
i hate the cruel vulgarity of porn

I miss my old restaurant and hope it survives the present catastrophe. It's an unassuming and homey bistro on one of those few quiet streets in this city that still manages to be quaint and pretty. It has a little bit of everything a good selection of drinks, reasonable prices, and a fantastic Duck a l'Orange.

Hentai is better than porn, and I can point out multiple reasons on why my statement is a solid fact. Firstly, hentai allows for people to escape the boundaries of normal porn, as they are not bound by any physical, psychological, or plain impossible limitations that normal porn has due to being filmed in the real world. Hentai, on the other hand, is not bound by anything, as it is either drawn or animated. This allows for the absolute creativity for hentai artists to be able to have when crafting their works in order to pleasure another person. Secondly, hentai is able to have better stories. In normal porn, you have all the same types of stories, such as incest. And, most porn actors are just plain shitty. Hentai (more notably doujinshi) is able to surpass this through the fact that there is no need for acting from anybody for them, meaning that the scenes in them are perfect and immersive. Thirdly, hentai requires mental gymnastics. In porn, you’re imagining in the third dimension, which is too weak as we are already living in the third dimension. In hentai, you are thinking in the second, making it harder to put yourself in one of the characters shoes, and thereby requiring more mental strength in order to get off to. And, finally, hentai is art. All porn is is just a bunch of fake ass acting with some random guy holding a camera to film them. Hentai artists, on the other hand, require years and years to get good at art, and each single frame (or panel, depending on whether it is animated or not) is hand drawn, which involves way more effort to do than simply filming people in the act. Due to all of these points, with hentai not being bound by real life limitations, having better, more creative stories, requiring mental gymnastics to get off to, and requiring more effort and literally being art, I can now conclude that hentai is better than porn.

>>16003671
seems to me that your arguments come down to something being harder to obtain equals it being better

>>16003671
this is a mind of a coomer. take the soft erotica pill, stop poisoning your brain.

Drunk again. Oh dear. I wouldn't wish it any other way. I'm intoxicated. It's a great feeling. What do you have? I am drunk. One drink, and the another, and why not one more. I'm floating. This is what life is about. Sobriety is hell. Ticking clocks, unwanted feelings, anxious thoughts. Now I am free. Temporarily. Always feel okay when there is one more drink to be had. Just one more. Tomorrow is a different story. I know it but I cannot feel it. Tomorrow is dread and regret. Tomorrow is slow and painful. Is this really a way to live. But I forget, I am drunk, and I exist in the now. Life is good. I welcome the pleasant feelings. Look at that. A full bottle of beer in front of me. What more could I want. And, yes, I see I am trapped. I live a life of delusions. What do you have. I'm okay with this. I drink with the devil and the devil is my friend. That cold beer is just so enticing. Just one more. Until oblivion. That is what I seek. Can you help? Soon, I will pass out on my bed. What have you done with your day? I do not care. I am where I want to be.

>>16003754
I have never been drunk and I am not planning to get drunk
Being drunk is escapism and therefore the philosophy of the cuckold who is unable to face reality

>>16003733
You're still a "coomer," just a pretentious one

>>16003794
i exclusively jerk off to mind-generated gore, the retro erotica is simply comfy as fuck. pure visual art

>>16003754
if you wrote a book, i'd read it. very catching style.
drinking is the devil, i tell you. i gave up drinking at 16 for good, nothing sadder than an aware alcoholic

I am 27. I am dying. I am getting close. Fuck you. I know you're watching. Do you think I give a shit? Fuck eternity. Fuck hell. I'm just doing my time. I will live and I will die. Can't anyone argue with that. I'm doing my time. I don't ask for nothing. I'm living out my life. Fuck your judgements. Fuck your opinion. You know nothing. We all tiny ants in one big colony. Who knows how we got here. Who cares. I'm gonna hurt you. You're gonna hurt me. So fuck it. Drop the bomb already. I've had enough

>>16003733
Comment me on this, I'm interested

>>16003820
>i exclusively jerk off to mind-generated gore
I stand by my point

>>16003778
Don't knock it til you try it

>>16003853
to put it short, it's not inherently wrong to fuel or aid your sexual fantasies. porn just pushes you the wrong way and leaves no room for imagination, desensitizing you quickly.
visually pleasant, mild erotic pics are to hardcore modern porn what a poppy seed cake is to a prescription opiod

>>16003922
You can't even catch a good buzz off a poppy seed cake, at least smoke opium

>>16003253
Yes. Something inside still believes in life and i cant carry suicide.

>>16003922
Second this. Sometimes you need to detox.

>>15997392
>Write What's On Your Mind
Do you think Adam is going "HONK HONK" when he grab's Eve's breast in OP's picture?

>>16004385
St. Augustine proved that God created them in the state of perfection and they did not experience sexual feelings, pleasure or conduct corporeal use of the organs for said purposes. So what you say is impossible.

>APPL crushes earnings, announces 4 for 1 split

It was kind of obvious that some of those extra $600 a week unemployment checks were going to end up in the pockets of Apple shareholders. Thanks, Bernie!

Google revenue is down for the first time ever. Good! Haha. Pichai is a doofus.

i have a meeting today that i am dreading. i hate retards, bros. i cannot wait for the content to go in one of their ears and out the other.

I have seen there is a video between my youtube reccomendation: "Why is christianity is logical? - Reformed epistemology. Whats next aryan Mathematics? Marxist biology? Feminist physics. Everyone is religios. They either vegan, or feminist or marxist but they never read anything from Marx. Pseudo religions everywhere, gamers and technology pantheism Elon is their jesus. Its not even my language, this is globalisation, cultural diversity, I mean every culture is american now. They found their McMeaning, Sam Harris, Jordan Peterson, Ben Shapiro, Andrew Yang. Cheap fake and corporatist shits, the biggest brains in our times, don't even understand Derrida or Foucault or Baudrillard. They despise postmodernism but in some way they preach it. In the XVIII-XIX centuries they had Kierkegaard, Valéry, Spengler, Evola, Hölderlin, Gundolf, Coudenhove, Lessing and Nietzsche etc. We have Greta Thunberg and Jordan Peterson, the age of brainlets. I'm Nietzsche's horse. I'm a paranoid schizophren. Van Gogh paintings are my reality. It's not my language. Worldwide Depression

>>16004669
>Derrida
Big brain.
>or Foucault
Retard
> or Baudrillard.
Midwit.

>>15997392
I had a dream last night I was pregnant(I am a guy) and had a child(it just came right out, I remember remarking that my wife's labour had been much harder), but my child was strangely crocodilian, like it was a human, but was acting in a crocodile fashion. It immediately started hunting mice in whatever odd environment we were in, and it's head was kind of pointed and toothy. But at other times I held the baby and it was warm and soft and human, it was male. Then i left it somewhere to go do I think heroin, and was reprimanded by some nurse-like figure.

What would Freud say about this dream

>>15997392
I fucking hate how attracted I am to this girl. I hate the power she has in my head. I hate that I fucked her on the first date and haven't fucked her since. I hate that she instantly knew how much I fucking care about her and uses it to emotionally manipulate me. I want her in my life so badly but I also want to hurt her for hurting me so badly. I want to disembowel her with my cock and drown her in my cum.

>>16004669
Don't mix your mental problems with your ideas. It will ruin your ideas. Stay safe and sane, take care of yourself, and share your ideas when you're on top of your game, not when they're pouring out of you in disorganized form.

>>16002872
This is your brain on wignat paganism

>>16005029
>I hate that I fucked her on the first date and haven't fucked her since.

Dick game wasn't strong, so you've just been turned to simp orbiter while the next guy gives it a go.

>>15997392
There's a little something in my brain ... The Government has put a mind-control chip in my brain and is the reason I'm a schizophrenic and hear/see/feel things. They're controlling me. Help me, bros. I don't want to keep this up any more. The Gov't is coming for me for blowing up that building in '06!

I've always known I'm kinda dumb but the more I think about it I'm pretty sure I'm maybe a little bit retarded (ADHD or something) and I feel pretty good about it. My life is good, I'm excited to go to uni, I'm getting along with my father great recently, I'm in a great friendship group that is really supportive. We're gonna make it. This is what I was thinking about when we went to the lake to swim today.

>>16004400
Can't he grab her playfully?

On this cool rainy day I urgently desire to sit cross-legged on a wooden floor, in a warmly aerated room, bathed in evening light, alongside a similarly cross-legged enthusiastic youthful girl, perusing botanical drawings or an encyclopedia of curious cnidaria and plankton, perhaps practicing a noble craft of calligraphy or pottery afterwards on the floor as well. Appreciating the gentle fragrance of her, beholding images and captions describing God's magnificent natural creations, sidetracking the humble, non-pompous, meek conversation into how humanity is the true jewel of all of creation, glancing in her eyes.

As I am desirous of the monastic celibate life, I do not see females in a sexual matter, so such an encounter would merely be the mutual appreciation of our varying intellects and sensibilities together. An encounter as two children male and female would share together. I never had a childhood female friend, so perhaps I simply long to communicate with them as two children would, without the pox of a corrupting sexuality and rot from Satan (yes, as a Catholic I affirm sexuality has a beautiful place and can indeed be just, however at this current comfy moment, I simply want to communicate to a girl in a wholesome manner as to see their perspectives on things such as the beauty of creation).
Has anyone here sat cross-legged in noble discussion near a gentle friend in childhood? Is it as good as my imagination makes it to be? Do girls want to discuss the innumerable details of plankton or macro algae? Gaze upon sea urchin embryos I have recorded in my microscope? In modest attire in a comfy evening? No? Very well, the monastic life I will choose, but first I want to do intense blue collar labor in this world, get good in one physical skill, master the sun and steel, then my retreat would be justified and not a sort of escapism. I must prepare and endure the greatest suffering in this world so I can resign into spiritual combat in a monastic cell. Perhaps I will be allowed to grow algae in the courtyard? Or perhaps the monastery will be more open air, with vast forests one could contemplate in, sniffing the lichens. But first I will suffer. Stick me in the engine room of a cargo ship. I must work. I must toil. I was born wealthy and without tribulation. Show me my iniquity, God. Show me how to perfect myself. Show me suffering. Show me toil. Show me what it means to be human. Show me how to do good and be strong. Show me to discern what I shall do in this life. What I shall concentrate on. Liberate me from false academia, false research. Is a bio degree really worth it? 100 years ago I would cut sugarcane in the fields and discover suffering. I would then swim in healthy reefs afterwards and observe marine life. But now the fields are no more. I will stagnate in University. I want honest labor. Trabajo honesto. Is a modern day biologist an honest laborer? Sometimes I think about moving to the far reaches of South and Central America.

>>16004400
I read several of Augustine's works and I'm pretty sure he said pleasure was magnified as sexuality was willed and ordered and beautiful, not corrupted. Quit being gnostic. Sex was a million times better before the fall, when we could will arousal and not be tempted by demons. I am too tired to cite but are you really sure Augustine said that?

I hate myself and other people way too much to have an enjoyable life.

Why have more gay men groped me than the number of times straight women shown any sign of affection
I feel pathetic and unwanted at the same time as being a target

>>16005580
Augustine was a Manichaean who dedicated his life to subverting Christianity. He absolutely hated anything playful.

>>16005854
Your literally historically illiterate. You should emphasize the
>was
in your post. Yeah the
>was
THE WAS.
WAS NOT IS.
DAMN. That's like calling Paul a persecutor of Christians.

>>16005580
That's not a gnostic view first of all. Second, wrong. As for the work, in De Bono Conjugali, Augustine states that they were capable of having sex but did not as their entire intention of it, not through enticement of original sin, was not one of pleasure but a desire to strictly procreate. It would have been a million times better insofar as this was the aim, end and enjoyment of it rather than carnal beastly pleasure, and Eve in turn would not have experienced the pain of child birth.

>>16005837
Concealed carry. If they're brazen enough to grope you, then they're brazen enough to do anything. Imagine being locked in some faggots basement for the rest of your life.

>>16005950
Thank you for the clarification, though I am not quite convinced that pleasure would be totally absent pre-fall....it is not an intrinsic evil, and with ordered wills, should not it be a just pleasure? I presumed Gnosticism as there is a trend to hatred of matter, the body, sex, etc... which I consider neither to be intrinsic evils

>>16001206
lol no

>>16005561
Pls be in London and also like nudibranches

>>16006087
The fundamental assumption taught by the early fathers and later theologians was that following the fall, man rebelled against God and his passions rebelled against him.

>>16006242
A fondest childhood memory of mine involves, following a storm, perusing the washed-up holdfasts of kelp on a California beach, being utterly fascinated by a myriad of brittle stars, and yes, nudibranchs, which teemed within the tangle, the root-castle. Putting aside the thought of them all perishing once the kelp roots rot, I collected many, placed them in plastic bins on the shore, changing water frequently to maintain healthy temperatures. I would then show people walking along the beach what I found. Some have never seen such creatures in their lives. Fellow children were very amused. About the nudibranchs, all I noticed were orange gelatinous spheres stuck on the root. Upon placing in water, they unfolded into these pale slugs with the characteristic flower on top.
Now that I live in the tropics, I spot delicate green sea slugs atop coral heads, which are an occasion of delight. Algae endosymbiosis within animals is marvelous. Glad to know others are made happy by the existence of these creatures.

>>16000728
Based af anon. /lit/ would be based if people did this. It would be cool to collect audio of people reading their work, fiction/non fiction/essays, and putting out albums

>>15998287
You'll have to quit it. It will cost hell. But I assure there is an incredible side after that

if degas were alive today he would be obsessed with kpop girls

I can feel the panic swelling in my breast.. I'm terrified for the future. I have just graduated into a field that is not going to survive this pandemic. This is partially my fault and I accept responsibility for it, but it is no less scary. Things are only going to get worse anons.

>>16006319
But then we would be /mu/

>>16006248
The war the flesh fights against the spirit makes reading in the silent night quite difficult. It is a true obstacle, as lustful thoughts and the flesh's reaction, I am certain, are intricately linked with drowsiness, so I get tired and can't read. And just through mere thought. Darnit

>>15998559
Travel the world anon. Get adventures and enjoy.

>>16006331
The window to quit exists only in young adulthood. Once you turn 30, it's impossible.

t. quit cooming for months as a teen and 21, 22, 23, 24 but became even more hard with age and now it's impossible.

>>16006374
Cliche, but there's no changing if you've already cemented that change is impossible. Though I may be biased as I've been on nofap for seven years. Haven't been free from pornography for as long, but its been awhile, excepting the midwits who post porn here on /lit/ and other blue boards.

>>16006374
Read The Devil from Tolstoy, It really helped me with my sex anxiety and lust. After that and some thinking now I can finally enjoy good sex with a person I care.

>>16006309
>kelp
Have you seen the kelp dating study from around the British Isles that came out recently? They're basically twice as old as history out there. I think my favourite story about seaweed is that a Welsh woman worked out how to breed it, so you could make farms of it, when the rest of Britain was busy destroying populations of it for scrapbooks, but nobody took much notice of her. Someone in Japan picked up her work and obviously it took off there so well they have statues for her and everything.
I've seen pictures of the orange ones that live in California, but there are so many different varieties of them you could probably fill a book from any ocean body. Some of them are so frilly they look like flowers or lace, and other ones look like bits of electric eel and all kinds of things. I wonder if they have so many types because they're older than land slugs or something.

>>16006332
Very true

>>15998971
Set a 3 to 4 year of wageworking and get some savings to start a carpentry.
I'll be bareable if you have an objective

>>16001343

Köstlich, köstlich. Danke für den herzlichen Lacher, die mir diese wahren Worte beschert haben.

"Mensch Johann, ausgerechnet Sie!

Ja Sie! Komm mal runter von deinem Weltenretter Trip und akzeptiere, dass wir in einer Welt aus Scheiße leben, in der vor allem deine Ellbogen ihre Tauglichkeit unter Beweis stellen müssen leben. Weißte was mir alles für Ideen einfallen ne Million Euro betreffend? Da könnte man zB ganz selbstlos die Fick- und Drogenparty seines Lebens von feiern, stellste halt aufn Tresen ne Spendenbüchse für Oxfam hin. Davon könnte man anstatt des abendlichen Parlez Parlez in der stinkigen Studentenbude, wie man denn nun den fünfzigsten Safespace für retards an der Uni durchsetzen könnte, einfach so ein paar Schenkstationen kaufen, aufstellen, mit Krepp befüllen und sie dann besoffen mit den Kumpels in der Nacht kaputt randalieren. Davon könntest dir ne geile Karre kaufen, nicht son modernen Scheiß, nein, n schönen blubbernden V8 Ami, der 30 Liter schluckt oder aber auch ein superbes Kettenkrad, gar ein eigenes U-Boot wäre eine Option. N ganz Gewiefter würde ne Million mal kurz gescheit anlegen und mit 3-4 Milliönchen in der Tasche seine Lebensfreiheit erkaufen, aber nein stattdessen gibbet People, die das spenden, in der selbstlosen Hoffnung die Welt dem Utopia ein Stück näher zu bringen. Haha, weit gefehlt meen Jong. Sowas ist einfach nur dumm, gerade in Hinblick auf die Weibers, die vor allen Sicherheit im Leben wollen. Da kommt son Milliönchen doch recht gut, oder findste etwa nicht?

So, nun aber Spaß beiseite, werter Johann. Die drei Empfehlungen meines Vorredners sind schon mal ganz gut für Leute, die der liebe Gott leider nicht mit deM Chad-thundercock Gen ausgestattet hat. Ich empfehle dir noch ganz unironisch Asi Toni zu einem Idol zu verklären und sein episches Meisterwerk mindestens 100 Mal zu schauen. Zudem würde dir ne Frisur stehen, die nicht komplett autistisch ausschaut und lächeln auf Profilpics kostet auch nix. Außerdem ist der Thailandtrip natürlich obligatorisch, nein nicht in so ein Hippie retreat im Dschungel mit viel parlez parlez, sondern natürlich ab nach Pattaya, wo du es mal ordentlich krachen lässt und schön jeden Abend Nuttenparty auf dem Programm steht. Unmoralisch? Nö Junge, nur praktikabel wenn es darum geht an der eigenen Fickausstrahlung etwas positives zu bewirken und mit einem James Dean Lächeln wieder nach hause zu kommen.

>>16006417
I have not, nor have I pondered their age. I wonder if there is an algal/seaweed equivalent for an "old growth" or "virgin" forest. Aquaculture of marine plants is one of those fields I would certainly my entire life and energy to. Kathleen Drew-Baker does ring a bell in me. I was looking for phycologists that could serve as something of an inspiration, one, Hans Christian Lyngbye, was a Catholic priest. I intend to read more about him.
Your comment on sea slug diversity is nice, especially considering species like the Blue Glaucus, which I have yet to see with my own eyes. Being ambushed by a Portuguese Man o' War would not be pleasant. Though I do tend to appreciate more drab, less showy species of marine life for whatever reason.

>>15998559
i believe in you

>>16005389
Sad but true

>>15997392
people are so stupid and negative. when interacting with others, it's no different than interacting with a wild animal, a being without reason or language, existing completely in the realm of the senses. mindless automaton...

>>15998559
It sounds like you have everything set up. You'll have nothing to blame but yourself if you fail.

>>16005029
Where is she on the list? Top 5 or top 10?

>>16006523
The blue dragon slugs look like a wet and crumpled Stitch from Lilo and Stitch on the beach when deflated. I think they're much cuter that way but they can still sting you. It's like with spiders, though, without the stingy blue dragons man-of-war's would have much longer tentacles which lead to much worse stings.
I know there are lots of places that have species of seaweed formerly native to the area to extinct probably never to be replicated, but I don't know if anywhere has thoroughly intact native growth. I guess they don't make news articles about those as often as ones about shit we destroyed.

>>16006605
Neverthless I hold on to the hope that man has it within his abilities to restore what has been destroyed in creation, at least up to a certain point. Being created in the image of God, forbid the magnification, may perhaps grant us the power of good husbandry over some aspects of nature, though I do condone the naive interventionism that is popular nowadays among both environmentalists and those who are indifferent. Man cannot control everything, and sometimes ecosystems may heal themselves. This discussion has prompted me to study more into the delights of marine botany and the like, so thank you for that.

I went on a lunch date and was distracted by a bird I was watching and attempting to identify while drinking coffee, I forgot to put it to my mouth before tipping the cup and poured it right onto my dick. I tried to pretend nothing happened but my girl was watching the entire incident

>>15997392
Realizing I dont want to do a postgraduate degree probably saved me a lot of future grief no matter how badly I wanted to pursue those other career options I had in mind and I feel like I’d be better off trying to work in something like a library or museum for the rest of my life

>>16006651
>distracted by a bird instead of the girl adjacent
A true aristocrat of the soul

Everyone at Fox News deserves to be hanged.

>>16006631
Well there are lots of different pressure nature asserts from spiders eating flies and ants, to viruses and parasites, but people get caught up in the idea that nature has a balance. Nature often wants something new, and it's a species thing to want a contained and continuous nature that makes your own species not the next on the chopping block.
This conversation reminded me to go look at ants, so I should do that now before I shower.

>>16006651
Did you work out what the bird was?

>>16006676
Let's start with you

>>16006678
I'd recommend powdering a peanut, placing the peanut dust on your finger, and feeding the ants at the entrance of their dwelling. Kind of surreal, but it worked for me heh

>>16006684
No. My taxonomy is shameful

>>16006331
Don't do it
you'll get prostate cancer

>>16006751
An unintelligible bird...confusion...girl stares at stained dick...a like confusion
>>16006766
shalom!

>>16006701
That doesn't make sense.

>>16000728
>Assumed some of you also have trans fetishes.
yeah big time AGP here
why did you edit your recording to make it sound high pitched

>>15997392
Some people really only know how to territorialize once and then get stuck there for the rest of their lives.

And by some people I mean most.

Popular literacy was a mistake.

>>16001238
>its almost as if you can socialise with people who have different political opinions

Socialists/Antifa are largely incapable of this. They are generally the first to block and ostracize anyone who goes against their groupthink.

I say this as someone who makes an active effort to be friends with people of differing political opinions, as I believe democracy is about working with people you disagree with.

Studies support my perception.

>>16003671

I see you are a man of culture as well.

Bonus point: Porn degrades live human beings. That woman is forever a whore. That man as well. Both are exposed to disease and both are tainted.

Hentai artists are not degraded by their work, rather, as you say, sharpened in their artistic talent.

>>16003754
>What do you have.

Meditation. I can sit anywhere and by the power of my mind will the entirety of existence away. I exist in a void. Void of time, void of existence. Pure void. That void is bliss without a hangover. That void is calm even in a reality that terrifies me. That void is love in a world without romance. That void is prior to all existence.

The Void voids Nothing.

>>16006374
I started to work on quitting around 25.

I just turned 30 and am on the longest I've gone with no urges to go back.

>>15997392
I have been feeling very lost despite my days being very much enjoyable as I have been going out for drinks and everything. It feels almost agonizing to withdrew this emptiness that is constantly sub-existing and living through my skull, I wish that maybe someday I will stop this tinnitus-like drab that eats me off. Neither a therapist helped, as her "goal-achieving" method didn't give me anything but temporarily pleasure, how much am I going to endure so I can pursuit a normal day without weeping under the sound of my head buzzing with thoughts like an open hive of bees.

>>15997392
Had a mental boom this evening, I was playing some competitive matches in vidya and I was losing and just getting so frustrated, and all of a sudden I just thought to myself
>this is worthless, what am I doing? Am I really letting a game decide my emotions and my evening? I did nothing all day working from home so I could do this afterwards?
I stopped playing and took a shower and went back to working at like 7pm and actually got a lot done in like 45 minutes, enough done that if I did that much work everyday I would be in much better place in my projects than I am right now.

It’s so odd to me, how I have vidya on this high level of priority, where the fun isn’t even guarenteed, and that’s really the only outcome. I’m restructuring my priorities starting tomorrow, vidya for too long has run the show and I have just too much emerging for it to continue.

Purpose is an illusion. And I'm okay with that.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zs4T_jdCFfk

This is the best Malik B track, and it's not even on a Roots album.

>>16003671
Porn is the filthiest form of cinematography and, to a certain extent, iconography. Hentai, in addition to being art, is the only way to follow if someone truly wants to attain a higher level of self-realization. It is more than simple drawings. Hentai has no sound, no 3D, and isn't subject to the same standards of beauty that are losing us in more ways than one in the real world. Therefore, one must agree that a man watching hentai is unbound by the shackles of reality. You tried to explain that only men of powers are able to fully profit of hentai by mentioning the mental gymnastics required to thrive in the process of reading hentai, I don't fully agree with this statement. Yes, it is true that one must cultivate the self before cultivating the mind, but isn't it one of the purposes in everyone's life? You must not forget, fellow companion, that hentai has been brought into this world thousands of years ago and have endured countless variations. I believe that it isn't too far-fetched to think that even the coldest heart can warm up to the touch of Hentai. Hentai has reached the highest level of art and is thus understandable by anyone.

>>16003671

go to >>16000728

>>16007416
One must cultivate the mind before cultivating the self.*
My excuses.

One time a gym receptionist said I was an angry young man. What did she mean by this?

>>16007455
Are you 5'10" or shorter?

>>16007455
It's dirty talking.

>>16007459
No.

>>15997392
I keep cooming and it is impeding my basic functioning and ability to read.

I studied engineering for 3 years, and started to hate everything about it. Then I landed a summer job as a factory grunt. This has been some of the best times of my life. I work at a papermill, raw materials, where we debark the wood and chip it for it to be produced into cellulose. The facility is quite out of the way and rundown, so the management often just likes to pretend we don't exist. It gives us a lot of autonomous freedom. The work is varied enough to keep me engaged, chill enough to have time to think and even read, and I get some exercise and outdoors activity. I can't believe I get paid for this, but at the same time, I don't think jobs like this will exist for long, neither here or anywhere, as our work flow is very inefficient by modern standards. The thought of having to work at a dehumanizing soulless office job, or as a cog in a modernized factory machine fills me with melancholy, as I have had a taste of the good life.
I am currently writing this at work, as both of the wheel loaders are broken, and there are no trucks or trains to unloaded for a few hours.

>>16007581
Factory work can be mad comfy. I always wondered why my dad had no ambition and just worked night shift running a printing press, but when I got older I found out at night he would smoke weed and put on rollerblades and basically do whatever as long as the shit got printed. I worked at some warehouses before and during college, some comfier than others, but definitely not bad.

I'll post here even though I find my self-pity as boring as you do. I managed to go through nearly 35 years of life uneventfully, with no relationships to speak of. Even my friends were mostly inherited from my older brother. I had a breakdown as I approached my 36th birthday. It was a combination of things that caused it. I had become infatuated with a woman in my office building. This was different than other infatuations for me. For once I indulged in actually imagining a future with her. And for once I thought I would try to talk to this person. At the same time I was reading The Elementary Particles. The combination of my infatuation, an infatuation I felt helpless to act on, and the depressing novel bowled me over. It wasn't just that the book was sad. But it was relatable to my childhood in ways I hadn't anticipated. Three weeks before my 36th birthday I fell into a depression and started experiencing extreme anxiety. I would wake up in the middle of the night after sleeping an hour and be unable to fall asleep again. Some nights I wouldn't fall asleep at all. I'd still go in to work and actually accomplished a lot in a short span of time, running on the adrenaline from the anxiety attacks that kept my heart pounding all day. Every day when I left the office I'd feel instantly depressed. The feeling would follow me on the commute home. I would drive from the station and weep the whole way to the house. When I arrived I'd compose myself before entering the house to have dinner with my parents. On the weekends it was especially bad. I had no social life and making an effort to "get out there" made me feel even worse. I never knew you could feel depression so physically, like wearing a pall of grief. When I was still feeling these intense emotions and not entirely in control of myself, I attempted to talk to the woman at work but could barely sputter my words out. She was polite and acknowledged me but we never spoke again. Over the few months that followed my symptoms gradually diminished. But mentally I still felt lost, like I had taken a wrong turn in my mind and could not retrace my steps. In the months that followed I eventually went into therapy, which helped in some ways. I have been feeling badly recently. But I see that I will ultimately be defeated by this. My fate, to live the rest of my life alone, unable to express myself, unable to love, is clear. The question is when it will end.

There better be something good on Apple Music this week, last week was weak.

horses are so comfy
i wish no animal had a tragic life

>>16007788
White horse anon is that you? Horses are comfy, they smell comfy too

>>16007814
yeah thats me (thats a different horse, also white and phat)
horse is the comfiest animal

>>16007900
How's yours doing? I like birds the best but most people do not find them comfy

>>15997392
Bored of this mediocre middle class existence. My youth wasted never excelled, never did anything, had no reputation, no real hobbies. No friends or social group in high school still have none and I'm 20. I feel myself oscillating constantly this tension between the want to distance myself entirely, to become totally inhuman, removed, neither sadistic nor empathetic just totally beyond human wants versus. the desire for real intimate connection, to know another truly and be vulnerable. Do I embrace distance as a cope, re branding what I never could do as a strength? Probably, but at this point I'm a genuine misanthrope. My family is starting to feel stifling, everywhere traipsing around. Feeling restless like I just want to break free somehow or do something extreme, something to defy everything that I am and the world that surrounds me..

Parasocial relationships with celebrities are absolute bullshit. I can not in the slightest fathom how it is bad for someone you'll never have known beyond movies or television or whatever have you to die and the "fan"atic needs comfort?

What the fuck. People like that need serious psychological help.

>>16008017
It goes for anyone that people feel have made an impact on their life or feel oddly close to. Remember that penguin in Japan?

>>16007629
>Factory work can be mad comfy
let's ask those chinese workers

>>16007636
I read this. Thank you for sharing.

i have been here longer than i can remember and have long outgrown 4chan and /lit/ but have nowhere else to go. i continue to argue philosophy with entry level racist teens,

Aristophanes is hella funny.

I keep having flashbacks to this fucking bitch of an ex that I had. I can cook, sing, and whatnot. I drank the metaphorical kool aid of prgressivism that she was feeding me. For context, she identified as a trans latinx, which is honestly the dumbest fucking thing. She gets a full ride in a liberal arts college, and gets to blame everything on her various mental issues. Yet, she looks down on those who are actually working class. I wanted to punch her in the face to give her a taste of a real man, but I realized no matter what, I would not look like the hero in that situation. It's utterly fucking baffling, and the fact that this cunt is seen as the cultural norm in california makes me want to fucking snap.

>>16002718
Stop thinking about women and work on yourself for the sake of yourself.
It will take some time but after your transformation women will notice you and you won't have a tough time picking them out.

>>16008441
My allegiance is elsewhere

>>15997392
We now have the technology and opportunity to use Natural Language Processing AI to produce and evolve new religions and/or philosophies based entirely on how persuasive they are. No pretext of consistency or intelligibility is required. No human intervention will be needed beyond deployment of the systems and maintenance of the infrastructure. AGI is totally unnecessary, we've more or less birthed the new dark gods already. Some mad lad just has to decide to do it.

>>16008978
How about you be the one to summon the infernal techoverlords already so we can all
a c c e l e r a t e

When young and strong - Homer. When old and weak - religion.

>>16008986
Underlords would be better, I think. Such a new religion would be sculpted to fit the whims of the normies instead of the other way around. Hyperhuman, not inhuman.

>>16009019
So like a submissive golden-calf pleasure/capital god? Or some fake nonintellectual sentimental protestant pseudo-"judeo"-christian morality?

>>16009042
Like something presently unimaginable. Something born from an algorithm that is searching the human mind-space for what combination of words tickle the religious impulse enough to trigger devotion. Like an unfathomably intelligent charlatan who only cares about how many people agree with him. The content and structure don't matter - that is to be discovered in the process of winning adherents.

Started thinking about misanthropy, not cynicism, and how it could be used as a base for morals. If one is inherently thought to see everyone as less, it allows you to appreciate what they do have. I don't think this means that you should dislike everyone, but is rather something to keep in mind.

>>16009061
If such a nightmare comes to exist, together we will slay this god or die trying

>>15998105
Not bad.

>>16007636
Are a virgin?

Thinking about getting into ancestor worship.

Just learnt about the Constantinople-Russia Orthodox Schism and it has me a bit shook. I'm an Orthodox Catechumen but am part of a ROCOR church, however I feel like Ukraine should be autocephalous and that Russia schismed simply because of worldly politics.
It hasn't shaken my faith in the Church but it just makes me sad that this is happening. I pray for a healthy conclusion between the patriarch's soon

>>16009365
Wisdom, say dozens of famous ancient greeks, is to always behave in the same way –– and they add that this behaviour, in addition, must be aimed towards goodness. To honour one' s ancestors is to extend this wisdom, which refers to the individual person, to the whole family; because to honour one's ancestors is to behave according to their behaviour; and again, we need to add: as long as the behaviour of one's ancestors was, and is, aimed towards goodness.

>>16000728

15 FUCKING MINUTES LONG

started to get into documentaries lately

>>15997392
Far too many people doubt the effectiveness of psychiatric medication, reading posts on here and a lot of other message boards there seems to be an overwhelming desire to philosophize one's struggles with mental health. People forget that that not watching porn or whatever other flavor of the month self improvement method you have is only a placebo for real neurological issues. That is not to say that it can't be beneficial, just that struggling in spite of the fact that you stopped COOMING should maybe make you reconsider whether or not you're really addressing the core issue.

>>16009465
Can you recommend good ones?

>>16001343
der Johan ist ja hässlich wenn er die Profilbeschreibung nicht ändert und nurs Bild dann hat er ne Chance
Er sieht keinesfalls wie ein 20jähriger aus

>>16009518
>core issue.
such as?

>>16009518
lel, breh, it's a neurochemical imbalance
ur brain it just the wrong way around
for no reason at all
I Fucking Love Science

>>16009519
really enjoyed the following ones:
The Net (2003) (German documentary by Lutz Dammbeck about Unabomber and LSD and other stuff)
Human Resources (2010) (by Scott Noble about behaviorism and social conditioning, MKULTRA and other stuff)
Hypernormalization (2016) (by Adam Curtis about manipulation of political systems and the fake new society)

redpill me on bullfighting

>>15997392
Bababadalgharaghtakamminarronnkonnbronntonnerronntuonnthunntrovarrhounawnskawntoohoohoordenenthurnuk

>>16009574
read hemingway

I think my cat wants to kill me. I have seen the way he looks at me. There is menace in his eyes. He is plotting. He skulks around the house. Biding his time. Well, Pablo, who do you expect to feed you when I am gone? You are dependent on me. HA. And there's no way a cat can outsmart a human. I am superior in almost every way. Insolent fucking cat. You should be grateful. You should respect me. But no, instead you harbour your evil plans. Don't think I am unaware. I know your type. You never even play with me anymore. You do it to spite me. To punish me. I know you enjoy denying me pleasure. Even if it means denying yourself pleasure. We could have been best friends but you have turned against me. It is sickening. You are a resident in MY home yet you strut around like you own the place. You are nothing. You are just a silly cat. Fuck you, Pablo. Fuck you.

>>16009641
eat him

>>16009571
An old documentary film about medieval superstition, very interesting: Häxan.

The more i think about person going through life without any intimate relationships the more terrifying it sounds.

How can I make my gf love me

>>16009518
Psychotherapy is literally just a philosophical debate.

theraphy is for beta males
alpha chads face their depression in the face and take defeat with honor

>>16010052
based future suicide victim

>>16010077
Depression != suicidality, braindead American.

>>16009692
Good idea

>>16009399
becum catlick

>>15997392
Why all the girls at the bagel shop got a fat ass

I feel like things used to happen to me.

the feeling when everyone around you has fallen in love
is walking in parks
have become intimate and vulnerable with each other
but here you are
alone
rejected, outcast, misunderstanding, misunderstood
craving touch, craving a mutual smile
knowledge of unity
called desperate and undeserving
presumed a liar by liars, left alone, distrusted
used
there is no path
a dark perspective
the age of the wizard in sight

I wrote a whole thing before and this is what is left. I strive to everything and nothing. I strige to be a pot in a plant. An old friend tells me - I'm worried about my brother. An old lover's mother dies. I met the love of my life tonight. We are friends of friends, I think we would make a perfect couple. She's going to marry the man of her dreams. I think the way she lookw at me and the way she goes quiet means she thinks the same. I don't think that all, it's literally all in my head and I know that for fact. But it's fun to imagine. Oh, My Checkov. Love me. When I was 17 my friends mum asked me "do you want to go to America?" I told her "not until I'm 21." shocked, she said, there's more to life than drinking. I wish I had listened. I want to die I want to die I want to die.

>>16009120
of course

I wrote a whole thing before and this is what is left. I strive to everything and nothing. I strive to be a pot in a plant. An old friend tells me - I'm worried about my brother. An old lover's mother dies. I met the love of my life tonight. We are friends of friends, I think we would make a perfect couple. She's going to marry the man of her dreams. I think the way she looks at me and the way she goes quiet means she thinks the same. Oh it's fun to imagine. Korean barbecue and a kid on welfare. Single points colliding - the Higgs Boson colliding meant nothing. As a young child everything is meaningful, your young mother brown coat and stockings umbrella dialling the number to get buzzed in. Young mother, hotter than any chick you'll ever get. Now aging - what happened? Did you let her down? Oh, My Checkov. Love me. When I was 17 my friends mum asked me "do you want to go to America?" I told her "not until I'm 21." shocked, she said, there's more to life than drinking. I wish I had listened. I want to die I want to die I want to die.

>>16001540
Never thought about it this way.

I wrote a whole thing before and this is what is left. I strive to everything and nothing. I strive to be a pot in a plant. An old friend tells me - I'm worried about my brother. An old lover's mother dies. I met the love of my life tonight. We are friends of friends, I think we would make a perfect couple. She's going to marry the man of her dreams. I think the way she looks at me and the way she goes quiet means she thinks the same. Oh it's fun to imagine. Korean barbecue and a kid on welfare. Single points colliding - the Higgs Boson colliding meant nothing. As a young child everything is meaningful, your young mother brown coat and stockings umbrella dialling the number to get buzzed in. Memories and coincidences and small worlds colliding mean nothing. Single points colliding into nothing. Young mother, hotter than any chick you'll ever get. Now aging - what happened? Did you let her down? Oh, My Checkov. Love me. When I was 17 my friends mum asked me "do you want to go to America?" I told her "not until I'm 21." shocked, she said, there's more to life than drinking. I wish I had listened. I want to die I want to die I want to die.

>>16010332
Carbohydrates

/lit/ it's the big question of the night - should I stick a finger up my own ass?

>>16010732
no its really not worth it

>>16010752
Ok, well should I watch a woman have 'consensual' sex on camera tonight?

Reached Challenger at League. Feel great. Kaczynski was wrong.

>>16010773
No sexual activity is consensual. It is a rejection of the will and the capitulation to a beastly impulse. Instead of prefiguring yourself after pigs, dogs, and monkeys looking to stick a finger up your ass or engaging in a worthless habit like onanism, you read a book, cook something or create. Even drug use is more laudable than your worthless aspirations. Consider suicide too.

>>16010839
I'm hopelessly drunk right now so I could just fall asleep. All the wine has made my head hurt though.

>>16010773
sex is no diffirent than stroke your meat, as physically, its just all touch and coom. What make sex diffirent is the symbolic meaning of it. Stop looking at some dude fapping on random gril, it worthless

>>16010839
Gay and cucked

>>16010909
Cope. Homosexuals are slaves to their brutish impulses more than anyone else.

>>16010935
You're the one coping, buddy. Keep fearing your flesh.

>>16010990
t. fleshslave

>>16010990
>>16011010

I think you're both right now suck my dick

>>16010501
This is because you are only capable of focusing on yourself, because you cannot see your own self

>>16010732
Yes, it feels good. It's even better if you use a dildo, or a real penis.

I'm writing a character who is a 24 year old virgin and never kissed a girl. Do you think there is any hope for him? (He is not particularly awkward or unlikeable, I think he just fears intimacy.)

>>16011184
elaborate

I interviewed at a Bay Area tech company the other day and after fifteen minutes talking to the guy wanted to shoot myself. Ironically he described himself as something like a "happiness agent" whose job was to "make people happy." If that's the case he should be fired. I don't know what kind of world these people are living in. I was practical and business and realistic and articulate during the entire behavioral interview but I guess I didn't show enough "positive energy" because I didn't even make it to the next stage. They must want some kool-aid drinking misty-eyed soiboy who "groks" being overworked. Honestly fuck these people.

>>16011420
A skilled writer should be capable of making anything interesting.

>>16011420
What's the general story?

>>16011433
do not work in the bay area
it will destroy your soul

>>16011420
No one wants to read your autobiography.

this town fucking sucks for dating

>>16011446
Yeah but I like money.

>>16011479
The Bay is filled with burned money and dreams

>>16011470
>this town fucking sucks for dating

I dreamt of her once again. The first time she came to be in my head, she kissed my forehead.
On the second dream, I woke up in an alley. She found me, realized that I was lost, and took my hand. As she did, nothing seemed out of place. Or should I say that everything suddenly fell into place? We spent a lifetime together. She smiled and she laughed, I made fun of the frills she had on her keychain and the strange hairpins she used to wear in her hair. I remember her sulking face. She was beautiful and she still is. Most of the time, she would wear simple streetwear but it never failed to attract my attention. I don't think there's more to say about her than you should know. I am dumb, unromantic, untalented, and one hell of a mess. It's not hard to guess, given that I am flaunting my love for a probably nonexistent woman on a /lit/ board, but I don't care. She was there as my worthless life exploded in a dumpster fire. After all these years suffering from abuse, someone finally cared. I don't do depressive nightmares in which I take my life anymore. Her image is with me anytime I close my eyes and I don't feel as shitty and helpless as before.
It took me a lot of courage to write this and I know it's foolish. Maybe I was desperate enough to invent a whole human being to cure my depression, but maybe not, and I don't want to find out nor live my uneventful and insignificant life alone anymore, not after I spent what seemed like years with someone like her.

By the next statement, most of you will think that I'm crazy, and sure enough, I may be. I don't care. I believe she exists down there, somewhere. I hope that I'll find her one day. Surely, there can't be so many blonde-haired girls in their twenties that like flower-shaped hairpins and wearing zip jacket, right?

I am alone. Do you have company? Can I tag along? I promise I will not be much trouble. I have nothing to say. I am empty. Don't be frightened; I am harmless. I just want to be there. To see what it's like. To be real. Don't worry. I am polite. I will not embarrass you. I have great tact. But I have nothing to offer you. I am a parasite. I feed off others. It is true. But I promise you, I am harmless. You have to believe me. Do you not believe me? I am an optimist. I see the best in people. I really do. I will smile and laugh on cue. You can trust me. I will come across as most affable. Please, just let me stay. I will not make friends but I will not make any enemies. I have a good heart. Believe me. I am a quiet man. I just want company. I am always alone. Even in conversation am I alone. That is why I must spectate. It energises me. But, yes, I am a parasite. But a benign one. I really am. I am desperate. Please. You will be doing me a great favour. Just me be there.

>>16011623
I tried giving people everything they said they wanted, near unconditionally. I tried to give them the opposite of what they said they wanted. I gave them what they wanted and then waited for something to come back. Only once did I feel truly perceived, cared for by someone else, and that was a long time ago, by someone who chose to be with someone else. Am I a parasite or am I surrounded by parasites?

>>15997392
Just checked back on my old hangout /lit/ today. It's still just another adjunct to /pol/. Hopefully when they start up the elementary schools again It will get better. Anyway, back to /out/ I go.

>>16011690
No one is gonna wife a thot, lady. You can't fellate your way to a husband.

I met Death the other day. He was shopping in the supermarket. I couldn't help it; I laughed in his face. He really was pathetic. I almost felt sorry for him. He was just such a sad character. We had stopped in front of each other.
'Your time will come', he said.
'Yours won't', I quickly retorted, not missing a beat as I continued my journey down the cereal aisle.
What a fucking schmuck. Your time will come. Jeez. What a depressing man. Have fun in eternity. My time is now.

>>16011699
You seem to imply that /out/ is somehow less /pol/

>>16011497
And inflated rents.

>>16011705
i'm an incel, not a thot

>>16011708

I met God the other day. He was shopping in the supermarket. I couldn't help it; I laughed in his face. He really was pathetic. I almost felt sorry for him. He was just such a sad character. We had stopped in front of each other.
'Your time will come', he said.
'Yours won't', I quickly retorted, not missing a beat as I continued my journey down the cereal aisle.
What a fucking schmuck. Your time will come. Jeez. What a depressing man. Have fun in eternity. My time is now.

>>16011756
Bummer.

>>16011521
nigger

>>16011835
>let me try to 4chan
Doesn't work like that.

>>16011856
fuck off incel faggot

>>16012135
>he does it again

>>16012152
I fucked your mom last night

>>16012658
https://www.reddit.com

>>16012658
*you're

>>16002557
Nietzsche, stop being an NPC

All I have been thinking about is killing myself
maybe God wanted me to?

>>16011420
>plagiarizing my diary desu
i have kissed a I mean he has kissed a girl tho

>>16013075
don't be foolish anon

>>16001220
>sozialist/progressiv
>eher schüchtern und introvertiert
>ich liebe anime
>spenden an organisationen
>politische themen
>anti-imperialismus
>nachhaltige zukunft
>dresden

junge.
abgesehen davon dass das bild wie zufallsgeneriert aussieht (hast du überhaupt mehrere hinzugefügt) ist der großteil des rests nicht zu gebrauchen. würde zwar nicht empfehlen wie die /pol/cels irgendwelche rape ratgeber zu lesen, aber schreib doch eher was über dich anstatt dich mit deiner ideologie zu identifizieren.
>hardcore feminists or antifa
wo ist da dein problem damit? wirkt wie genau die art alte die deine beschreibung anzieht. probiers doch mal mit denen, sind meistens IRL weniger schlimm als online (vor allem für was kurzes, die sind IMMER extrem submissiv, glaub mir).

>hang out with female acquaintance I haven’t seen in a while a couple weeks back
>didn’t talk to her or make plans to hang out again
>couple days ago starts texting me about a book I recommended her ages ago
>today asks if I’m working this weekend
>when I say I’m not she replies “yay l can hang out Saturday :)”
Is this just normal friendliness? My autism is put off by the fact that she didn’t ask if I wanted to hang out (and I didn’t ask her), she just obliquely said she could, assuming I would want to? That and suddenly bringing up the book.
WHAT DO I THINK

>>16010240
catholics are arguably worse.

>>16014076
I hate that shit. Her plans with Chad probably fell through, so she needs a backup. I now only go out if I'm getting free drinks, so if she pulls some last minute teehee on you, at least you're buzzed for the trip home.

>>16014220
At least the authority is clear

>>16011443
He's smart but lazy.

>>16014372
best be trollin

I just want to know what I should do. Please, someone tell me. What job should I get? Should I have children? Where should I live? WHAT DO I DO?

>>16014424
Why cant you ask yourself?

How do I deal with isolation? It makes me feel unsafe, but I can't escape it. I need to find a sense of security within this solitude

>>16009899
why doesn't she love you?

>>16010501
how old are you?

>>15997392
This thread has degenerated into teenage >>>/adv/
>waaah my relationship
>waaaaaaah I'm so sad and depressed
>waaaaaaaaaaaaaah angst

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z80K3-q3Kqg

I'm never happy and nothing really makes me happy; what a completely original dilema especially here ho ho hee hee. I hate walking around now even though I like to

>>16014524
le epin tortured artist maymay on one of the broodiest boards
Don't know what else you were expecting from this thread really

You deserve a good beating

>>16014524
this thread is always like that

>>16014076
isn't it obvious?

>>16014625
based chimpchad hacker

>>16014944
no ;_;

>>16015141
she likes you
congrats

>>16006464
i don't remember this scene

>>16014076
Who dares, wins

Who doesn't dare, spends 50 years wondering what might have happened if he had dared

>>16000287
Cope. If you stayed off for long enough the rush of feeling good about "beating" porn would slowly fade and you'd be just as unproductive with new habits.

There's no point writing for other people today unless you write "literature" for niggers. nothing but nigger drivel nigger rambling nigger faggotry will be published today. your diary desu? nobody fucking cares nobody will read it. You think wignats read? No they don't; they jerk off about whatever book is shilled on /pol/ because it was written by some famous nazi or eceleb. they probably haven't read anything but genre fiction since high school.

America should institute a fat tax. Citizens will have one year before it begins in order to lose weight to the acceptable level.

How many problems would this solve?

>>15997392
i want to die but only in the hopes that i get reborn into a world where i have the willpower to battle my problems and the intellect to solve them. fundamentally what i want is meaning in the true sense that i will never be able to let go of as i have easily before in this life

I hope there's something good added to Criterion Channel for August.

>New board: /vrpg/ - Video Games/RPG

So what if I want to post about some retro rpg like Ultima Underworld or Wizardry? Does it go on /vr/ or /vrpg/? This is annoying.

>>16016102
its goes on /lgbt/ faggot

I wonder if the quarantine will end soon. I'm not really a social person. In fact I don't really have friends at all. But it's somehow still taking a toll to not be able to do the things I used to do alone like go to the gym or the book store. I've had some mental problems the past year, before the quarantine started. But recently the isolation has magnified them. I guess to some degree normal life before distracted me from the dread I would feel. Now there's no distraction.

>>16014517
26
>muh you are still young life is full of possibilities go fuck yourself

>>15997392

Why does America consider me a Right Winger?/ Why is our left wing so politically impotent?

Preemptive apology for the blog post (I'm sure this will be ruthlessly mocked by both sides) but I'm not sure where else to talk about this. I finally took the political compass test and it turns out that I'm authoritarian left. In terms of economic policy I'm actually to the left of a lot of my "left wing" friends. Yet people I meet seem to think I'm part of some sort of radical right winger.

I really don't hate anyone. I basically never go on /pol/. I just think collective national identity is important, and that traditional gender roles (while flawed at times) are essential for healthy communities. All the left wingers I know readily acknowledge the need for collectively solidarity to fight capitalism, but are wholeheartedly in favor of liberal policies which destroy any local community solidarity. Why is it suddenly "progressive" to commoditize sex and emotional relationships? I feel like these are some of the last parts of our culture at least relatively untouched by capitalism.

Unironically I feel that third world nationalist movements have done more to roll back imperialism then internationalist socialism. That being said the two cannot be disconnected, but all the left liberals I now seem to think that nationalist solidarity and socialist solidarity are complete opposites.

I really want to believe in the left wing. I can't stress how much I want the democratic party to go back to Jimmy Carter. But it feels like the established left wing in this country cares about transgender immigrants more then unions.

I'm coming from a Latin Catholic background here, and sometimes I completely despise the Anglo/Scottish half of me.

Does anyone have the picture where the young shirtless man is holding an old man by his collar and the old man is looking down. It has sexual undertones.

>>16017120
jesus christ i know exactly which one you mean
but i can't find it

>>16001559
we should really bring back the word aviatrix

>>16017120
Does it? I always viewed it as more metaphorical, this relentless theme of the young replacing the old. The beautiful young man who could easily pummel the old man if he was inclined to instead just holds him firmly and threateningly, recalling the metaphorical power the young have older the old.

Someone make a new one of these.

>>16017414
Whatever, i just want the pic. But i'm pretty sure its gay porn.