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15959229 No.15959229 [Reply] [Original]

write what's on your mind, would you please

>> No.15959275

i ate too much today, my belly is going to explote and i look pregnant. The man tits don't help and i may or may not drink a lot of yogurt so my recturm doesn't have to suffer tomorrow

>> No.15959317

>decide I want to live a contemplative, spiritual life
>realize almost all my day to day behaviors are antithetical to this ideal
It’s gonna be a long road lads

>> No.15959332

>>15959229
Tired of being a skeleton twink, started excercising today, a bit nauseous but overall feel good. Been steadily gaining weight over the past year from 49kg (184cm) to 66kg, and having a default body is of no use to me.
>>15959317
I believe in you anon, Rome wasn't built in a day.

>> No.15959335

>>15959229
No, I ate broccoli today. Feels great.

>> No.15959374

>>15959229
I wish I could except I'm literally incapable of thought.

>> No.15959419

>>15959317
Listen to >>15959332, it may take a while, and you will most definitely stumble, but do not give up.

>> No.15959447

I started studying Islam properly about 18 months ago. I say properly, but what I mean is consistently, though alone. I was adviced against this (going at it alone), but I was arrogant. I consider myself a convert, I pray regularly and try to learn more every day and to do good deeds.

One major thing I got... well I don't know if "wrong" is exactly the word, but at the very least not entirely right: is the relationship between the sexes. There are a handful of instances in the Quran that are sometimes taken to imply a hierarchy. It certainly has seemed, to me at least, that the islamic world is a patrirarchal world. Now, however, I'm more and more getting the impression that if you go to textual sources, this is in doubt, and so that Islam perhaps doesn't have to be very patriarchal. Although to be fair, I still have very much to learn, and if you look at how some very well known and loved medieval scholars have treated things... but what I'm saying is, it seems like the text itself could be somewhat dynamic to societal circumstances. And there certainly does not seem to be a strict hierarchy.

Other than that I had 6 bowls of cornflakes today. Subhanallah, how can they be so cheap??

>> No.15959504

I used to write every day for 3 hours, or at least 2500 words a day. I was seeing serious progress, every year I would get 2-3 pieces into my local paper and would always get into my schools yearly publication. For some reason I took 8 months off of writing and it feels close to impossible to make it a habit again, I have my doc open and I've written 5000 words in the past 3 months. Feels like i forgot how to write, I was positive that in 10 years I was going to become a published fictional author with my novels floating out there, but now I feel like any random person. Don't know what happened to me, like I was completely zapped. Has anyone experienced this?

>> No.15959519

>>15959504
nothing wrong with being a random anon

>> No.15959565

>>15959519
yeah, I know... I learned a valuable lesson, if you stop doing something for a long time, you'll forget how to do it

>> No.15959633
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here's hoping I'll die in my sleep tonight

>> No.15959680

>>15959229
OP is French.

>> No.15959717
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15959717

'The work of art is the object seen sub specie aeternitatis'. That's what Wittgenstein said about the connection between art and ethics.

Sub specie aeternitatis: 'from the lens of God'; 'in the aspect of the eternal', it means something like that, at least according to Google. To see the world through the lens of God is to see the world rightly - to separate what it eternally good and true from superfluous bullshit.

Wittgenstein is falling into a trap he warned of at the end of his own Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus; trying to speak of a silence 'thereof one cannot speak'. We can't even begin to imagine what the world through the lens of God might be like. I was tempted to write that 'if there is a God, his perspective of the world must be beautiful in a way far beyond our imagination', but even that's presumptuous - maybe God's view of the world is grotesque by our standards, maybe he doesn't have the same concepts of beauty and the ugly as we humans do.

Art imitates it's creators and spectators. We're bigoted and shallow and cruel. Our art reflects this. How can it ever show us the world seen rightly, when our perspective on the world is inherently clouded by circumstances and the limits of our senses? Art is grotesque. It's built on human suffering and misery. For: if we had all of our desires fulfilled by the world, what need would we have to try and expand it through art?

>> No.15959728

Does it ever worry anyone that they're going to die of some random bullshit (aneurysm) before they write everything that's on their mind?

>> No.15959749

>>15959504
I'm going through this but with music. Perhaps you've become subconsciously disappointed in yourself by not having fully lived up to your expectations, and are self-sabotaging in order to prevent further disappointment?

>> No.15959754

>>15959332
Protein shake every day
some banana, protein powder, ice, peanut butter, filtered water = 10/10
t. ex skelly

>> No.15959776

>>15959749
Wow, maybe. it's funny, I always say that it'll take 10-15 more years (as is generally the case with writers) but when I release something and it only gets a handful of reads, I get very disappointed.

>> No.15959811

This board is so fucking awful.

>> No.15959822

>>15959811
The world is awful. Everyone is depressed. Everything is dreadful. Get over it, take a fucking walk.

>> No.15959831

>>15959822
It really isn't. Even in the midst of a global pandemic there is a wealth of beauty and joy. This board is completely awful on every level.

>> No.15959852

>>15959831
Yes, going to quit the internet in general too, anon. The rest of social media isn't that much better than this.

>> No.15959869

>>15959852
It's for the best, anon, good luck to you. I'm writing something about the internet atm so I don't feel ready to fully detach myself yet (excuses, excuses).

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15959870

God natt, tråden. Vi ses imorgon!

>> No.15959874

>>15959870
haha kul, fel tråd

>> No.15959893

would you actually want to/enjoy hanging out with women if you chopped off your balls and removed sex from the entire scenario? as in, not only is sex not possible, sex is so far removed that the idea of sex doesn't even play into the scenario. envision a relationship with another heterosexual man whom you have no desire to fuck.
my gut feeling is no. ive never hung out with a woman and found it enjoyable, in the long run. past the low hanging fruit of "haha yeah that movie was funny" it gets boring and uninteresting, really fast. because women are inherently boring and uninteresting. its the vagina that gives them their glow, its the vagina that makes us think talking to them is fun.
remove the vagina, and truth be told, women are boring, uninteresting, and childish.

>> No.15959933

>>15959893
Yes. Maybe I'm just lucky to know a lot of interesting women. Where are you from?

>> No.15959949

>>15959893
I know this is an unpopular opinion, but the most interesting people I know are women, the men I've seen in real life tend to be dull and angry for little reason.

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I made a painting today, I should really be reading and writing though.

>> No.15960006

>>15959933
>Where are you from?
this has always been a "more difficult than necessary" question for me because people dont actually care where youre from. theyre usually trying to ascertain some relevant information that may be useful in whatever context.
ive lived in the US for a while, but i wasnt raised in the US. an even in the US, ive hopped across several places. ive been on the west coast, the midwest, the east coast, the South, cities and rural towns. having no home base within North America makes it much easier to drift around.
>>15959949
the relevant context is that most people are "uninteresting." everyone has different hobbies and interests, and thats why finding someone who shares your "likes" psyches you up - you know this rare, or at the very least, uncommon phenomenon.
most people are boring and retarded, myself included. but women even more so.

>> No.15960042

>>15960002

This looks really cool!

>> No.15960047
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15960047

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6bVj-nTkiU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-6BPoLVTwU

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>>15960047
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xph2Phcj0LA

>> No.15960125

my problem with getting out of the drag i'm in is the feeling of imminent peril that comes from the experience of failure in any sort of context where i have really tried, whatever it be that i really tried, because rather than inconsequential because expected, it now "counts" - - "really trying" was a change in direction, from a self indulging depressive state in which i could hold on to the idea that it contained within it an unrealised potential for betterment, that is hope, to a state of earnest struggle in which state for the sheer force of will and bundling of whatever smidge of esprit or passion i could scrape from the bottom of my soul required, failure becomes unbearable. it carries within itself an unacceptable new potential for a downward change of direction, an experience of failure, which if actualised at once renders hope void, not being it seems failure at any particular thing but the actualisation of Failure in general, a change in direction that is novel and hence experienced in the intensity all novel things are experienced and unbearable, a shock which is in nature totally opposite from the old perpetuation of a depressive state in which hope can survive as potential, safe from harm

yes im a faggot how could you tell

>> No.15960137

>>15960006
So the US? I just need to have my prejudices confirmed.

>> No.15960142

>>15960077
cringe

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>>15960142
heilung is probably one of the most interesting bands of the last 10 years, pleb
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u4Ku8iwj7jo

>> No.15960186

>>15959633
here's hoping a new day brings a new day for you anon....see you tomorrow

>> No.15960240

>>15960174
gay

>> No.15960261

>>15960240
https://www.ajc.com/news/crime--law/more-get-life-prison-beating-burning-year-old-woman/UV5WGyyTuq7dy4NCIHBoON/

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15960301

>society expects me to have respect for women who don't save themselves for marriage
But why?

>> No.15960336

>>15959893
Girls are cute. That's just the way things are.

>> No.15960389

>>15960301
Because saving yourself for marriage hasn't been the norm in a long time, it's pretty rare actually.

>> No.15960421

>>15959229
God I really hate brown people so much.

>> No.15960449

>>15960301
>society expects me to have respect for women who don't save themselves for marriage
When? You mean some posts on the internet?

>> No.15960477

>>15960421
Brown people are cool and good

>> No.15960485

>>15960125
You need a therapist

>> No.15960524
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>>15960477
https://www.nj.com/camden/2019/10/nj-man-who-admitted-role-in-12-year-old-autumn-pasqules-death-is-convicted-in-home-invasion-robbery.html

>Dante Robinson and his younger brother Justin Robinson were charged with murder in 2012 after 12 year-old Autumn Pasquale’s body was found in a blue recycling bin near the Robinson’s property.

"Can u put my stuff on mh bike tmw pls," she asks. "K can u meet me somwhere close cause i cant really walk tht well," he responds. He had a childhood ankle injury that sometimes made it difficult to get around, his mother explained.

At another point in the conversation, he asked Autumn if she was single. "Ya," she replies. He told her he thought she was attractive.

"I didn't know what to do," he says. "I didn't want to hit her physically. I just threw my hands around her neck and I just choked her until she stopped hitting me. When she went limp, I let her go."

>Dante Robinson was sentenced to six months in jail and released with time served, according to a confidential source.
>Justin Robinson pleaded guilty to aggravated manslaughter, taking responsibility for luring Autumn to his house and strangling her. He was sentenced to 17 years in state prison.
>He is schedule to be released in 2030.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwtDCU3o5LI

>> No.15960569

>>15960524
White people commit atrocities too lol

>> No.15960830

last time there was a write what's on your mind thread, an anon replied to a post of mine about me missing my dad. thread's gone now, but i just wanted to say that i did see it in the end.

anon asked me if i was the same one that posted some time in the past about losing him and wanting to make him proud even if he went. it sounded very similar to a post i had made on a thread like this not that long ago so it's entirely possible it was me.

i don't know if that anon is still around here, but in case they do read this, i was very touched by your response. i always expect the worst from this board, but that one anon really did make me smile.

i even saved the response 'cause i wanted to respond to it and i know i did the right thing 'cause the thread 404'd not long after. anon asked me if he could pray for my dad. if you read this, of course you can.

i've stopped praying a long time ago, i just don't have it in me anymore. but if you want to do that, i have no problem with it. it actually makes me happy in a way, so if you see this, please feel free to do so.

i have a lot of other things going on on my mind, but i'll post them later, or if that anon recognizes me so i can respond to them properly, or in another future thread like this.

i hope everyone's having a nice day.

>> No.15960853

>>15960830
Why the fuck are you spacing shit out like that jesus fuck christ

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15960854

Islamic National Socialism is the only pathway forward

>> No.15960868

>>15960569
Your statement negates the overwhelming black on white crime, murder, rape. Good job. You hate your people and are fully brainwashed. Dishonestly and cowardliness are your defining values.

>> No.15960889

>>15960868
seek help

>> No.15960892

>>15960524
nj.com keeps referring to the murder as 'the death" lol. How evil can jews really be?

>> No.15960895

>>15960889
You are a pathological follower who would kill your won family if you were told to do so. Kill yourself unironically.

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>>15960895
>Muh Glorious White Culture

>> No.15961027

Protestors getting pepper sprayed in Seattle and it's not even night time on the west coast yet lol

>> No.15961048

The usual shit. I hate life, don't have the guts to kill myself. Just ending night shift, here's for another miserable day.

>> No.15961085

Aww shit riot poppin off in Aurora CO, peep the stream son, the ride never ends!

>> No.15961087

>>15960895
I won this family fair and square and I can kill them if I want to

>> No.15961122

Somebody just got shot at the Austin protest!

>> No.15961132

>>15961122
stream link?

>> No.15961137

>>15961132
twitch.tv/woke

>> No.15961139

About to start a Zoom meeting. Just washed two ibuprofen down with some energy drink. I am not a robot.

>> No.15961152

>>15961132
They blurred out the austin stream now but commenters are saying he might not make it

>> No.15961153

>>15959229
I'm reading Plato's Phaedo, and it's made me extraordinarily uncomfortable. Socrates says that if there isn't a physical soul that persists after death, the physical world will be consumed into existential death because the world is finite. Eventually everything will die. But that's theoretically how entropy works, which implies indirectly that there probably isn't a physical soul that reincarnates. But I'm an engineer and one of my engineer friends with a specialization in physics says that while entropy exists, it seems like there's a large amount of mass being added into the universe constantly, disrupting normal physical processes of how the universe would development. The universe could then have an indefinite end, without souls. But then the soul could be a non-physical property altogether, in which case the rules by which souls propagate through time could be entirely tangential or irrelevant to rules of matter. So Socrates is posing a question that not only can I not answer it, I know for a fact that NO ONE can answer it, and yet it's a central question to how pretty much all of existence revolves.

>>15959893
Most women aren't especially interesting but I also don't really expect much from them, so it's usually a pleasant surprise when one of them has an interesting day job or a cool hobby. On the other hand, modern men are just as boring but also horribly degenerate and poison everyone around them with their very existence. I can at least preoccupy myself with how easy women are to entertain, but working with other men is a balance between the rare one with integrity and the utter disgust and complete disappointment of "Oh, I guess John is a disgusting degenerate too, oh well then..."

>> No.15961162

>>15961152

oh they probably had to so they don't banned off twitch

>> No.15961371

>>15961153
Based post

>> No.15961392

>>15961153
>while entropy exists, it seems like there's a large amount of mass being added into the universe constantly, disrupting normal physical processes of how the universe would development. The universe could then have an indefinite end, without souls. But then the soul could be a non-physical property altogether, in which case the rules by which souls propagate through time could be entirely tangential or irrelevant to rules of matter
Or
The soul is itself that very indefiniteness embodied in all, made aware of itself in the being whose being is an issue for it?

>> No.15961424

>>15961122
>>15961027

These protests are getting out of hand. It's safe to say they have been coopted by antifa and have little to do with the police treatment of African Americans at this point. Comparisons to Weimar Germany are certainly relevant, although imperfect. In both cases, antifa made the fascist problem worse in attempting to fight it. Using violence against the American state is farcical, they are experts at it. Fascism is defined by violence, that is its element. The increasingly unhinged behavior of antifa simply emboldens the forces that they oppose and gives a scared and pandemic-traumatized public more reason to support authoritarianism. A sensible, average American views these riots as delusional.
Trump, of course, is obsessed with coming off as strong. He's more than happy to escalate. Unlike previous protests in response to the same issues, these ones have not died down, in no small part because Trump is taking advantage of them to establish marshal law. Antifa is pouring fuel on the fire and signing its own death warrant.
To think that it's all these bougie white upper middle class jobless liberal arts graduates who are the most vociferous proponents of BLM, who are now coopting the movement and driving it toward a crushing military response, is as laughable as it is tragic.

>> No.15961460

woke up in a bad mood because i remembered something from like 10 years ago that pissed me off
so i went and bought some weed edibles to put me in a good mood and now im waiting for them to kick in

>> No.15961638

>>15960830
hi, that anon was me. i’ll pray for you tonight. i’m glad it touched you, that’s what prayers are for—helping someone through a dark time and letting them know that you care. i’m on here a lot and i read these threads each time, if there’s more you want to say i’ll see it. thank you for your thoughtful response, and i hope you’re taking care of yourself. i hope you have the support you need and deserve. god bless you sweet anon.

>> No.15961684

I have nothing in my life aside from work and that's unlikely to change. I've never had a personal life and until recently avoiding even thinking about its non-existence. It's tougher now being at an age where everyone I know is long-married and has a few kids. When my brother's family was visiting my niece would ask me when we were alone why I don't have anyone in my life. I didn't know what to say, so I said nothing. It's just always been this way. I thought that therapy would help because I would gain insight and get experience talking about my feelings. But it hasn't affected the way I live my life.

>> No.15961750

>>15961684
Therapy is the wealthy white woman equivalent of football. It's not about solving problems. It's not about changing how you live your life. To change how you live your life, you need to change how you live your life. "Gaining experience talking about your feelings" is not changing how you live your life. It's useful for figuring out what needs to change, or what life you want to live. But it is not changing how you live your life, so it is not useful for changing how you live your life.
Once you've reached the point where you know what life you want to live, anything other than changing how you live your life is procrastination. This includes philosophy, self-help, you name it. It's all junk food that tricks your brain into thinking you're doing something while you're really sitting still. Change your life. Do it now.

>> No.15961806

>>15961750
Not him, but what's the point in changing the way you live if you aren't living a completely degenerate life? I've made it this far without love, but you haven't devolved into letting your body and mind rot, you have and had very close friendships, give back to my community and you still are in pursuit of virtue. What's the point in changing course past 18 really? You don't know how your life will end up, but you aren't going anywhere bad? What's the point in pursuing something that has less meaning than what all people should strive for: to be a paragon of virtue and an example to the future generations?

>> No.15961845

Are these protestors in Portland going to pull down the fence around the courthouse and rumble with the feds or not? It's almost 2AM on the East Coast. I'm not trying to be up all damn night.

>> No.15962031

How do i escape victim mentality? I feel like it paralyzes my life. I do understand its not healthy and i should hold myself responsible for everything but even knowing it doesnt change a thing.

>> No.15962058

>>15961845
Isn't it the same one they've been wobbling back and forth for a while? I remember tuning in yesterday or the day before and they were doing that shit, and running a circular saw over the chainlink

Seems like antifa LARP as always, they don't want to actually do anything

>> No.15962068

>>15960047
>tweeting American English near young children
Yer one's got no meas

>> No.15962186

>>15959633
Checked, nice knowing you Anon.

Rolling.

>> No.15962204

>>15962068
Yeah likely 1/3 "Irish" American

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Before the corona bs i was already a shutin. But at least i could meet girls at uni or in bars...now its vacation i have no idea where i can find gf.

>> No.15962317

>>15960421
Depends on kind of brown people

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15962346

Just finished Siddharta. It says a lot of truth, of which I had an idea but couldn't really put into words (Which Siddharta reflecs upon), it also has a lot of notions I have yet to understand but am sure someday will. Have a good day, anons

>> No.15962375

This is all that there is
So make the most of it
Life is a precious gift
This won't come again
Live every day to the fullest
Push yourself
Explore your limits
Do something you enjoy
Fall head over heels in love
Make great friends
Care for your family
Travel the world
Watch the sunset
Gaze at the stars in the night sky
Make your life a non-stop adventure
Dance until dawn
Express your feelings
Be creative
Explore your intellect
Be the best you you can be
Or don't
You'll just end up rotting in the ground
What's the point
Life is suffering
There's no fucking afterlife
It just goes black
This is all for nothing
Your mind and body will decay
No one will remember you
No one cares
Humans are a disease
Everyone is bored
Everyone is alone
There is no cure
Just drink yourself to oblivion
That's where you're heading anyway
Oblivion
See you there
:)

>> No.15962397

>>15962317
Brown ones

>> No.15962398

>>15959229
up too late, need to read some more and stay off vidya and pc.need to run 3 miles tommorow or take my bike out, and also live up to my commitment to memorize the russian alphabet

>> No.15962413

Due to the current global situation, I'm out of work. In spite of that, I feel kind of... okay. I'm lucky enough to be on good terms with my family & still live with them, so the money I have saved up for food and such will last me into 2021 easily. Every day is waking up at various hours of the day (N24), finding ways to amuse myself, and then going back to bed. It's a shallow life, but I'm strangely content with it.

Unfortunately, this has given me much more time to alienate my friends. I really wish I was better socially, but sometimes I'm just an annoying asshole.

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She looks so pure and pretty but apparently she lost her virginity to a Greek guy when she was 18

Damn it I feel so angry like something precious with my worldview being shattered. How do I stop judging people

>> No.15962521

>>15962447

Why are men like this? Who cares if she lost her virginity to a Greek guy when she was 18!

>> No.15962550

>>15959332
>49kg (184cm)
holy shit

>> No.15962618

>>15962447
>lost her virginity at 18
that pretty late for a girl

>> No.15962620

I hate dealing with alcoholics and bad drunks.
No I don't want to hang out with you this weekend, the one other time we hung out you got plastered and ended up in the drunk tank for underage drinking and had to be held down by 6 guys because you were trying to beat a coworker to death and ranting about killing yourself and others. Once was enough for me. The fact that you tell everyone you don't plan on drinking and then jump into it as soon as you get downtown doesn't help. I don't trust you enough to go anywhere with a convenience store because you'll just buy more alcohol the second I turn around and then tell me you're just kidding when I catch you. I know they don't check IDs in this country and you know too.
You're about to get fired anyway. Stop trying to hang out with people all the time and start worrying about what you're going to do in 2 months when you're on the streets during the COVID recession.

>> No.15962667

>>15959229
question
>How do you get a girl to catch feelings for you and want to spend time with you if you have a shit personality? They show interest at first because of your appearance but then they get disappointed and bored of you
answers from girls aged 18-20
>u cant "make" anyone reciprocate ur feelings. if u know u have shitty qualities abt urself actively try to change them and grow as a person. no one is obligated to have feelings for u! either move on or leave it alone
I can't grow much as a person due to autism and mental illness.
>i think you need to take a step back and realize that there are a multitude of things that go into someone liking you. what are the circumstances in their life? are you in a healthy place in your life that would prepare you for going into a relationship, or are you looking for a relationship to fill a void of sadness? You need to look more at the circumstances and make sure that both you and that person are in a healthy, stable place before you start seriously having those kinds of thoughts.
I just want to have sex and do substances with girls who care about me deeply.

All this makes me very impatient, negative, resentful, tired and look forward to very little in life

>> No.15962708 [DELETED] 

>>15962447
Lol if she's 18 you can almost guarantee she's no longer a virgin. That goes for any girl regardless of personality, intelligence, social class, race etc.

You're seething because you missed the boat of taking one the virginity of one of them.

>> No.15962717

>>15962447
Lol if a girl's 18 you can almost guarantee she's no longer a virgin. That goes for any girl regardless of personality, intelligence, social class, race etc.

You're seething because you missed the boat of taking the virginity of one of them.

>> No.15962724

>>15962667
These chicks tell you that and then jump into a relationship with some randie drug addict they hooked up with at the club last weekend and end up crying about it after he gets bored and start hooking up with chicks at the club again.

>> No.15962741

>>15959229
I'm so happy I have a statistically big dick, it's apparently longer than 85.19% of dudes. Thought it was just average but I guess porn warped my standards

>> No.15962748

>>15962741
Same man, 4 inches never felt so good

>> No.15962761

>>15962717
Its so abundantly clear how few women you guys know. A lot of girls lose their virginity in high school, but just as many lose it after. CONTRARY to what you'll hear on the internet lots of teenage girls are very timid with their sexuality and are very nervous about the idea of losing it unless it's with someone "they trust". Not that it matters, but don't get your perspective warped.

>> No.15962768
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15962768

I have never nor will I ever have intimacy with another human being

>> No.15962773

>>15962748
Nah dude that's bigger than only 1.58%, mine's 6.2 sorry man

>> No.15962800

>>15959229
so many I speak to lately I feel, just want their opinions agreed with. Nobody wants to hear a different opinion other than that which they believe in. If they do somehow want to discuss the disagreement in opinions, they will simply speak their opinion at you. Ears only listening to you in preparation of their own counter argument. The idea of changing their mind out of the question, for their opinion is their tribe, their identity, something which will never be shaken.

>> No.15962851
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15962851

With Poe, the description is more important than what is described. The result is a strange narrative flow. Sometimes the characters move like in a movie. We see them walking through a dark corridor. The descriptions then increase the plasticity of the scene without interrupting the flow of the scene. These descriptions resemble a temporary camera panning to a detail. Here, description and described are still in balance. If the description predominates, it breaks up the scene into individual, non-coherent images. For example, to depict the face of a man, we see a vulture, the hair of a deceased old man, the grinning mouth of a drunkard, etc. So in our imagination a collage is taking place, a sequence of images. Only at the end of this sequence of images do we form the image of the man described. We derive the man from the sequence of pictures. The mood, the aura, the scent of the sequence of pictures help us to do this. The final image of the man emerges from the mist of the collage. Finally, we see him moving again through the dark corridor.

>> No.15962863

>>15962768
You could if you tried.

>> No.15962891
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15962891

I took a break from uni for three years and feel extremely anxious about studying with freshmen something like four years younger than me.

It reminds me of time in kindergarten when the teacher dragged me into younger class as a punishment to humiliate me when I was 5 years old.

>> No.15962918

>>15962863
I dunno anon, maybe you're right and I just haven't put in much effort, but when I look back on previous relationships, almost all of them were ended by the other party. Maybe I'll meet someone I click with in the future.

>> No.15962941

>>15961153
I wish I was smart enough to understand the top half of this post

>> No.15963004

every evening after walks I come back home and feel incredibly lonely in this town, no one to be intimate with, share your thoughts with, sometimes it's a crushing feeling

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>>15959229
I've grown up in the forrest, picking beeries and mushrooms alone with my german shepard for hours on end. Now I ended up in a poozed megacity, seing my old forrest and clearings being paved up for modern architecture bugman housing, filling up with trash.

It made me realize that my past is gone forever and my children will never be able to share those memories. And for what? For soulless creatures inhabiting that place, wishing for more parking space and less insects, when they led their disgusting cats fuck up what biodiversity still exists, at most mountain biking the widening trails.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6Ck9x1wlsE

>> No.15963071

Lacking of live conversation is killing me. I want fresh souls.

>> No.15963111

>>15962031
just be yourself :^)

>> No.15963155

>>15962891
When I was a freshman there were people in their late twenties taking the same classes. No one gives a damn unless you make a big deal of it yourself. Everyone is there for the same reason so any decent person will just accept you as part of the group, if they even notice the age difference in the first place

>> No.15963195

>>15962761
Fine, by 20. Is that better?

>> No.15963245

>>15963071
Yikes

>> No.15963349

>>15963071
>I want fresh souls.
That's kinda funny thing to say anon

>> No.15963406

If you say truth they will eat you alive. You might ask, 'who they?'. It is Iife itself. Life devour life.

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>>15959229
Is this a good poem? I think I make too many references in my work. This isn't a work as much as an experimental exercise in form. Thanks for reading

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15963538

Is there any point in writing a dystopian novel today? I feel like everything has already been explored. AI bad, mass surveillance bad, totalitarian capitalism bad and so on.
What's left to write about?

>> No.15963544

>>15959229
Wish I received a 4chan pass for my birthday because I got the necessities covered

>> No.15963547

>>15963538
You could do a dystopian graphic novel with cool pictures

>> No.15963566

>>15960002
I love it, nicely done

>> No.15963590

>>15963195
Yes I would say that is fair

>> No.15963627

>>15962210
LOL

>> No.15963666

>>15961750
>just have a different personality, bro

>> No.15963794
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15963794

summa summa summa yah yah yah had a lot of bad luck recently i guess, just one bad thing after another. but i've been autopiloting that shit - total blank mode, no short term memory. wonder if it'll come down on me at some point later. god i'm bored. don't want to sleep but nothing interests me enough to keep me awake. I don't have the energy to read. I have nothing interesting to say. I guess i'll post a passage I like:

>Eileen had long thin cool white hands too because she was a girl. They were like ivory; only soft. That was the meaning of Tower of Ivory but protestants could not understand it and made fun of it. One day he had stood beside her looking into the hotel grounds. A waiter was running up a trail of bunting on the flagstaff and a fox terrier was scampering to and fro on the sunny lawn. She had put her hand into his pocket where his hand was and he had felt how cool and thin and soft her hand was. She had said that pockets were funny things to have: and then all of a sudden she had broken away and had run laughing down the sloping curve of the path. Her fair hair had streamed out behind her like gold in the sun. Tower of Ivory. House of Gold. By thinking of things you could understand them.

>> No.15963819

>>15959504
8th months is a long break. Start again, and even if it's not three hours, do it every day. For everything you do, the hardest part is starting. After the first hour, it always gets easier, but you need to stay there with your mind. It's like the gym: you need to do it often, and the first thing is always a warm up.

>> No.15963846

>>15961750
>It's useful for figuring out what needs to change, or what life you want to live.
Most people have no clue what kind of life they want to live, or what in their life is harming them.

>> No.15963907

I want to die

>> No.15963911

>>15963907
I also want to die

>> No.15963914

When I was a teenager I used to binge watch movies and tv shows and anime. That wasn't good and I regret it, but now I just do nothing. I don't even browse the internet, really. I read sometimes - I'm reading a book about Japan, it's pretty boring.

>> No.15963918

>>15962773
i'm about 6.75" but still think i'm average / only slightly average because of porn

>> No.15963954

>>15963918
mine is 13" and I still feel like it's small sometimes

>> No.15963962

>>15963954
that sucks bro

>> No.15963986
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15963986

I feel like I've lost any and all sexual impulse. I haven't looked at porn in months, not out of any self discipline but due to simply no desire. I was just browsing something and a porn ad popped up and I felt absolutely nothing. It was just flesh to me, no more sensual than the sight of my own hands. I've been seeing a girl recently and I can get it up enough to fuck her, but it's all instinct. I feel nothing sexual for her although she is a good looking woman. I don't feel very much of anything at all.

>> No.15964001

>>15963914
cool story

>> No.15964047

>>15963986
I'm sorry

>> No.15964078

Are Laibach midwit-tier?
Some of their stuff, including their trip to Best Korea are based, but some of the other stuff seems just edgy.

>> No.15964091

>>15963986
How old are you?

>> No.15964095

c++ is the patrician's programming language

>> No.15964097

>>15963986
do you feel attracted to any women you randomly might see when you walk outside?

>> No.15964100

>>15964095
Let me guess, you just started reading a book / learning a tutorial on it.

>> No.15964107

>>15964091
24

>>15964097
Barely, anymore.

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>>15959447
Sovereignty is Allah's. [H]e sets the hierarchies and lifts up those [H]e will. [H]e loves the hearts of those who love [H]im and he hardens the hearts of the scorners. [H]e cherishes those who submit to [H]im.

>> No.15964139

POEM:

At age 8 I was raped by an uncle and it turned me gay
At age 14 I was raped by my butch female gym teacher and it turned me back straight
At age 21 I tried to rape myself but I couldn't get it up

>> No.15964151

>>15964100
I began learning it seriously about a week ago
a pleasant and stimulating so far

>> No.15964167

>>15964151
>week ago
That's what I thought. No one who has actual experience (especially professional) would say that.

>> No.15964171

>>15959717
>To see the world through the lens of God is to see the world rightly
yes
.- to separate what it eternally good and true from superfluous bullshit.
Wrong. Everything is necessary, essential and just. Nothing is superfluous. Its all as it should be. G-d is eternally good, merciful, true and wise.
Your vacuity is showing through your pessimism. Cheer up. Art can be beautiful and good and right.


>Praise the Lord! / For it is good to sing praises to out G-d / For it is pleasant and praise is beautiful.
Psalm 147:1

>> No.15964195

>>15964107
no wet dreams either?

>> No.15964235

>>15961153
>But that's theoretically how entropy works, which implies indirectly that there probably isn't a physical soul that reincarnates

As I suspect you aware, judging from your use of conditional phrases, this is an unjustified assumption. All the information in your post implies just as well that there can be no reincarnation as it does imply that there can be reincarnation but only up to a point; it is possible that life altogether (and the process of reincarnating physically situated souls) has an 'expiration date', if you will. Nonetheless, it is an interesting thought to play around with.

That aside: no amount of human contact can seem to cure my sense of isolation, which comes back again and again as reliably as the sunset and sunrise. The paradoxical aspect of this is that no amount of reflecting on the ubiquity of this feeling among people generally will be sufficient to remedy it. Is there any kind of experience that can teach a man he has a rightful place in the society around him? Some seem to live and die without ever having become a stakeholder in the world at large. I suspect I will be one of them, always off to the side. There are advantages to being out of step, for sure. But I don't know that it is worth it.

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15964378

I live to see white women suffer.

>> No.15964383

i have no idea what i want to do with my life.

>> No.15964398

>>15964378
kys, unironically

>> No.15964413

>>15964398
Why? It's the only group I hate, I'm not racist or misogynist otherwise.

>> No.15964429

>>15964413
I see, you are retarded too.

>> No.15964437

>>15964429
Compared to the rest of this board I'm quite moderate.

>> No.15964443

Is putting enter on every sentence an autistic trait?

>> No.15964509

>>15962941
If you keep reading, you will be

>> No.15964517

>>15964443
Yes.
I think so.

>> No.15964528

>>15964517
Real
autists
hit
enter
on
every
word

>> No.15964553

>>15964528
Fuck!
You're good at this.

>> No.15964571

>>15964078
Anyone here knows Laibach?

>> No.15964613

>>15964378
>>15964383
The duality of man.

>> No.15964649

>>15959332
>49kg (184cm)
How can such person even stand?

>> No.15964727

I just did a quick skim of that thread on psychedelics and someone mentionned how dreams are essential to understanding one's mind, which echoes the Jung reading I've done and I find that this is a good preamble to talk about our dreams.
Last night I had a pretty stimulating dream where I was drawing stuff, constantly rearranging the drawings with an eraser and adding more details or using the scraps to do something completely different. When I woke up I felt as mentally exhausted as if I had actually done the constant drawing an redrawing of stuff. It's not the first time I dreamed of drawing these past few days so I thought that I might actually take it up as a hobby, might be kind of cathartic. I used to draw stuff when I was a kid and in high school but never took any lesson, even though I entertained some aspirations of making a living out of it as a teenager.
What are your dreams about, anons?

>> No.15964811

>>15964649
i'm 54kg 179cm it's not hard you just dont have much muscle or fat

>> No.15964837

I'm only 29 yet i've already reached the point where I cannot always trust a fart. This revelation disturbs me to no end, and has led to more than one panicked trip the bathroom to unleash aerosolized hellfire upon the porcelain

>> No.15965036
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15965036

I just vomited due to anxiety. I feel especially horrible at night and I can't even go to sleep. Morning the next. I can't fucking breathe. Every moment is a suffering and the world just doesn't go the way I want to be. No one truly understands how I feel. I can't fucking live like this yet I can't even kill myself.

>> No.15965107

>>15965036
I was like this. Remember that the despair you may be feeling is caused by high loads of cortisol. You will not be like this forever! This is only temporary, although very bad.
What may help partially is learning correct breathing and meditation, but in the long run, it's good to find things to be passionate about and pursuing them.

>> No.15965491

>>15964811
>>15959332
were you born this way? You're both so underweight.

>> No.15965616

I used to write fanfic, as part of a text-based rpg on the dbzn.net forums in 2004-6 and I tried searching through the way back machine but couldn't get to anything interesting. Just want to look at some old posts and profiles and so on. I can't even find the webpages that had the power level calculations on them.

The idea was that you'd write a battle scene and your post would be rated by a moderator. The rating (based on length of post, quality, etc) would then serve to increase your Charakters Powerlevel based on a calculation.

You'd write with other posters and we'd all write together to participate in sagas and so on. You'd have to earn money to buy a ship to travel to other planets where you could learn new techniques. You'd have to die to visit king Kai and so on.

I think this was the peak of my childhood. I just wish I could glimpse it again

>> No.15965633

I'm interested in topic regarding male virginity especially on +25 year old guys. Any recommendations?

>> No.15965634

It is completely unfathomable and well beyond my imagination that someone outside of my parents would ever seriously consider making a significant considerate act, a nice gift, a planned holiday, support and companionship that lasts longer than a few rounds of drinks
These things don't come without impetus, I fear hesitation and paranoia in the past and present may have pushed some possibilities away.

>> No.15965641

>>15965633
my dairy desu

>> No.15965650

>>15965641
why are you a virgin?

>> No.15965656

>>15965491
I'm 166cm 46kg

>> No.15965679

>>15965656
post body

>> No.15965695

>>15965650
penis hasnt peed in a vagina yet
and you?

>> No.15965801

>>15965695
I have trust and anger issues. Besides i cant be sexual with a girl.

>> No.15965810

>>15965679
What so you can masturbate to it?

>> No.15965812

>>15963986
that must be one of the most beautiful paintings I've ever seen. Where is it from?

>> No.15965819

Is there an excerpt in any somewhat famous book where a protagonist laments being a midwit / uninteresting average noone?
Ideally a monologue in a play?

>> No.15965824

>>15965810
why would you post your stats out of nowhere if you weren't proud of your body?

>> No.15965830

>>15959893
Shit question
Hanging out with interesting people is interesting

>> No.15965864

>>15962891
Bro, for various reasons (such as uni) I hang out with people 4-6 years younger than me. There are some differences, sometimes I feel out of place, but I usually have more fun and generally feel better with them than with most of my older friends that are the same age. I don't know how old are you (I suppose you're in your twenties like me) but at a certain point a small number of years don't count that much. Also I guess that sometimes they tend to forget that I'm older. I hope you will find friends that suit your tastes.

>> No.15965943

>>15962068
You deserve extinction, paddy bitch

>> No.15965952

What are the main causes of anon retardation?

>> No.15965956

>>15960941
<u tink u or soopiror!!11!
Way to miss the point faggot

>> No.15965964

>>15959229
dum, dum, dum, dummmm (trrr) (trr), dum ,dum, dum (bah)

>> No.15966086

feeling like a burnt fucking pancake

>> No.15966115

>>15966086
At least you don't feel like fucking a burnt pancake.

>> No.15966435

>>15965616
Is there anything like this that still exists on the modern net? A community of probably-slightly-autistic writers just making stories for the hell of it/

>> No.15966472

>>15966435
Furry/fanficcers fit that criteria

>> No.15966500

>>15962550
Yeah it was pretty grim, being skelly aint worth it, what with being constantly cold and looking like I just left a gulag.
>>15965491
Always had a very skinny figure, famished Irish phenotype I guess.

>> No.15966526

>>15966500
have you asked them to check you for marfan syndrome?

>> No.15966647

>>15966526
>thumb and little finger overlap on wrist
uh oh. I do have pretty long limbs and fingers, but I've been to a load of doctors and a couple of dieticians and nothing was out of the ordinary beside being stupidly skinny.

>> No.15966854

I'm tired of living in the space inside my skull. How sad. Get a grip. Everyone else does it. I know what I want to do. I got a plan. I want to pour petrol all over my body and spark a lighter. Burn, burn, burn. What a way to go. Up in flames. I'm the lowest of the low. Look on my works, ye mighty, and despair. I had it all and I turned it into nothing. Just keep whining, kid, do what you do best. You should talk to your therapist about that. How does it make you feel. I'm so sorry you feel that way. That must have been really difficult for you. I have thoughts. I have thoughts about my thoughts. I have thoughts about your thoughts. I think. I'm a thinker. What do you do. Oh, you have a life. What fun that must be. You sound very fulfilled. You have a lot of hobbies. You have relationships. What a dream. Be grateful for what you have. Don't be so hard on yourself. Fuck you. You have to choose to be happy. I choose suffering. That's the noble way to live. Love your suffering. It makes you whole. Suffer senselessly. I revel in it. I brought this all upon myself. My best decisions got me here. Jeez. You made this by yourself? Yes. And? I'm done. I'm done with this season. Fuck the sun. Fuck it. Look at me, I'm the sun. I shine light on everything and give life to all living creatures on earth. But one day, Mister Sun, you're going to implode. HA. Won't be so smug then will you. You'll be nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. What a dickhead. Fuck the sun. Roll on autumn. Bring on the dark. That's how I like it

>> No.15966882

>>15966435
Nothing that has a game-like mechanism as far as I'm aware, but fanfic is a dime a dozen. I was one of the most powerful characters because I wrote so much.

>> No.15966931

>>15959447
anon i don't know if you're still here but as an outsider i would love some more insight. in what ways is a patriarchy not implied, or perhaps even in what ways is a matriarchy or egalitarian system supported in the text?

>> No.15966943

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norio_Suzuki_(explorer)
Very based

>> No.15966946

>>15966647
>>thumb and little finger overlap on wrist
lol same, that's not too bad, but you're still freakishly thin. Do you have a kino skeletal structure or do you look like a child?

>> No.15966975

>>15966946
It's pretty kino, used to be model and I'm wise enough with my facial hair and clothing to not look like a child. Despite gaining a good 17kg I still look the exact same, just slightly less exposed ribs.

>> No.15967019

I don't understand why I get weary eyes on days when I don't do shit. I feel physically rested and emotionally complacent but for some reason my eyes seem like someone's who hasn't slept in days. Yet on days where I feel tired, my eyes look and feel completely fine.

>> No.15967063

>>15966943
>In 1972, after four years of wandering the world, he decided to return to Japan and found himself surrounded by what he felt as “fake”
interesting

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>>15965819
please

>> No.15967090

>>15960301
What if her knees are bruised from prayer and she's now deep in theosophical thoughts?

>> No.15967125

>>15967090
sucking Chads cock is a meditation for her

>> No.15967559

I like to entertain the idea of suicide. I'm not at risk of actually doing it, but at least in theory I'm not opposed to the idea of going to bed and not waking up. I'm garbage and I've been absolutely hating myself for the past 10 years for being a worthless retard.

>> No.15967670

Does the pedophile that wanted to rape a 9 years old girl still post in these threads?
Is he in jail?

>> No.15968019

>>15963907
>>15963911
You and me lads.

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15968092

Reminder that all men are kings.

>> No.15968175

>>15968092
If he breathes, he's an ABUSER!

>> No.15968275

>>15959633
Same anon

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15968279

I miss her.

>> No.15968310

>>15968279
What's worse, tfwnogf or missing her? I think that they're similar feelings. If you miss a girl, it's a type of tfwnogf. Nevertheless, tfwnogf is one of the most torturing things a man goes through.

>> No.15968325

>>15968310
Hard to say in hindsight, maybe I'd be better off if I hadn't met her. The worst part is that door is closed now because of me.

>> No.15968389

I'm so tired of politics. I've slowly come to realize that even if I were to be magically teleported to a world in which everything I've ever wanted politically came true, I would still be deeply unhappy, potentially even more so. I've been reading News from Nowhere by William Morris, which depicts a world in which everyone is happy, cultured, and physically beautiful, and utopia has been achieved, yet I know that even then I would be dissatisfied. But as much as I complain and dread the outside world, I know that no internal change could help either. Art, learning, love, religion, physical activity, all have I tried and all have I been dissatisfied with.

I think I could only be happy if I could watch rather than exist, I wish I could have been there when life began and walked the world in silence as plants and animals grew and changed, if I could watch humans evolve and create great civilizations, and then watch those civilization crumble into dust. Yet I can live only 80 years, and being born a person I am forced to always be connected in a real way to others. I wish I had no inside, only eyes and no brain, a watcher who knows nothing he witnesses

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>>15968325
>The worst part is that door is closed now because of me.
This is the worst one anon. I empathise with you wholeheartedly.

>> No.15968474

>>15968279
>>/lit/thread/S14786046#p14786058

>> No.15968475

>>15968404
Thanks, king. Take care.

>> No.15968477

>>15968389
What you are uncovering is the fundamental disquiet within all humans. It's always there - a bad stench that you catch a whiff of every now and then. All that the past few years have taught me is that it is better to have never been. This is not just because of the political environment, but a conclusion derived from observing everything in one's life. The irony is, the human is a striving being and I do so regardless. Perhaps I'm a coward. But ultimately we masquerade the awareness of this stench with an outward zeal for life.

>> No.15968484

I'm quite well overall. Only, sometimes it feels as if a melancholy casts its shadow on all around, as if the entire world suffers in kind, and it is only the doomed who do not feel it, only they think they are the liberated...

>> No.15968522
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15968522

>>15968389
Welcome to enlightenment, my child. The world is neither good nor bad, it just *is*.

>I wish I had no inside, only eyes and no brain, a watcher who knows nothing he witnesses
But that is what you are. Your mind, your thoughts, your personality are all of the flesh -- remember that your brain is made of matter. Your soul is blank, an empty vessel, only filled with life when you are living. When your body dies, your soul is empty once again, pure and blank, a singularity. And so it remains until once again it is filled with the stuff of life.

>> No.15968551

>>15968522
But what about my job?

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>>15968551
Ah, yes. Your job.
Your current desk job is more important than your soul. If you perform poorly, or mouth-off to your boss, then God will be very angry and you'll be fired from existence.

>> No.15968620

I awoke from hellish dreams feeling bad. The bed was like a coffin and cacophonous were the sounds of my beating heart. A headache was flowering behind my left eyelid which struggled to open. The memory of my dreams quickly fled from my mind upon getting out of bed. It was a new day. I still didn't have a job. I was living in a one room closet in the closet apartments which had just opened up. Every apartment in the building was a closet. I can't write. I can barely read. How am I going to make a living? It couldn't be from manual labor. I was just as incapable of that as I was at writing prose. Life was hell, and I just realized that the dream I had forgotten was my life now and that I was about to awaken once again in my bed to repeat the cycle.

>> No.15968647

>eat mostly junk food
>addicted to cooming
>absolutely no exercise
>severely underweight
>take prescription meth to cope with modern wageslavery
>take antidepressants to not kill myself
i need a reason to live. i cant find any reasons

>> No.15968690

>>15959229
Always hit the same wall writing. Get super invested early on--focused, excited,etc.-- only to sputter out and lose all confidence (or the opposite: I start out insecure then become invested but too late). At first researching interests me, but then it starts to feel paralyzing as I realize thousands of different angles and routes I could take and that I'm sacrificing writing about all those others and I most likely won't remember all the other interesting ideas I had years in the future. So in the end I always give up and feel like shit. I hate this.

>> No.15968705

>>15968620
This is beautiful anon.

>> No.15968734

>>15968522
>>15968582
Nice LARP.

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NIGGER

>> No.15968749

>>15964139
-Kurt Cobain (lazy ass bitch)

>> No.15968785

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
Been feeling this a little too much as of late.

>> No.15968794

>>15959229
>Grey mass of folds, writhing

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>>15968785
Go get drunk at a shitty death metal concert in a seedy venue downtown, and fuck the fattest girl you can find.

>> No.15968818

>>15961153
>>15961153
>Socrates says that if there isn't a physical soul that persists after death, the physical world will be consumed into existential death because the world is finite
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gCfzL9ncbKo

He taught metempsychosis -- consciousness is non-local -- once this receiver senesces, it will roam.

>> No.15968850

>>15968803
I appreciate the recommendation. Alas, my spirit is in search after meeker ends. I need to rent a cabin and stare at some trees. Only that will cleanse the rust off my soul.

>> No.15968853

>>15963538
>s there any point in writing a dystopian novel today? I feel like everything has already been explored. AI bad, mass surveillance bad, totalitarian capitalism bad and so on.
>What's left to write about?
Brave New World was vanilla compared to the present; suppose the supra-human organism is being directed toward a coomer overlord class in New World Order fashion in such a way that every last 'humanitarian' piece of ideological cope is just that -- a fait accompli to the final and permanent winners of human evolution by dint of usury and elite deviant vice, and nothing beside.

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>>15968647
stop all that shit and youl find a reason, i was all of these besides getting prescriptions for adderall and prozac. i actually frequently took adderall recreationally/to help with writing that i got from my friend however. now i dont jerk off or look at porn (1 month now) i lift weights, i started reading (im actually a /mu/ fag not /lit/) i stopped smoking and i flirt with women who smile at me, you can do it. if you stop all those things voluntarily you wont an hero, all youll do is give up and start doing them again (and then you might an hero) but ceasing this unhealthy behavior is not what causes the pain, its the fact that you cant stop even though you know its bad for you. when i stopped it wasnt fun but it felt like something i knew i could handle and that i had to do. time passes and it will become your new default and you wont be any better or worse off but at least youll be in a DIFFERENT place than in that shit and youll feel free. every man has to do this so just do it. all your fathers found a way.

>> No.15968981

>>15968855
thanks anon, this helps. i guess the main trouble for me is that i don't have a reason to change my way of life, or to continue living at all. finding a reason is my main priority right now. nihilism and pessimism are currently the rule in my life, so i gravitate to /lit/ and philosophy with the hopes that i'll stumble across a reason to live
>all your fathers found a way
my family tree is riddled with suicidal males on both sides, including my father. i think it will be a rewarding feeling to set myself apart from them though

>> No.15969075

My parents are genuinely good people, real salt of the earth types. It brings me terrible pain to dwell on how much they've had to suffer and how many times this country and culture has failed and still fails them. Now they are caught up in all this chaos and it infuriates me. If political and social conditions continue to worsen they will be trapped in the thick of it. It turns me cold. They deserve peace.

Also being one of few white families remaining in an area overrun by mainly Hispanic immigrants who are subject to frequent terrorization and disturbance of those uncivilized and thoughtless people has really "redpilled" me on the immigrant question. The Democratic politicians who cynically betrayed them for their own advancement deserve what's coming to them and the anarchic ethnic chaos they've fostered in their own cities.

>> No.15969191

>>15965812
Aida Makoto, he also did the one of the school girls seppukuing which you've probably seen posted around the chans

>> No.15969249

>>15968705
Thank you

>> No.15969459

>>15964120
Rumi is based as fuck

>> No.15969472

I want them to regret their decision

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>>15959229
Hope I can stay sober this time. It's been a struggle lately but I keeping getting back up on my feet. Here's to one more day.

>> No.15969732

>>15965036
Do you drink?

>> No.15969783

>>15969472
What decision

>> No.15969811

>>15969528
Me too. Personify your addiction in your head and treat it like a used car salesman trying to get you to buy a clunker, i.e., to use. Not today, pal.

>> No.15969824

>>15968794
The upcoming presidential debate?

>> No.15969830

>>15969811
Do you really

>> No.15969835

>>15969783
leaving

>> No.15969857

I just don't know anymore guys.

>> No.15969888

>>15959229

Suiciding next week, hoping I'll get one last fuck in before I go.

>if she tells me she loves me, i'll probably wait another 6 months

>> No.15969991

>>15959229
I met a girl off of Hinge, she actually found me and we’ve been texting for about 2 weeks now. We had a FaceTime date, and is still talking to me...idk where this is going bros, but it’s going suspiciously well and I’m nervous

>> No.15970033

>>15969888
Kek

>> No.15970039

I'm ashamed that my parents' health problems disgust me. My father has gigantic water-logged legs and feet. His feet look like they're comprised of spheres. A big sphere for the body of the foot. Smaller spheres for the toes. His legs look like smooth young oak tree trunks, with no taper at the ankle. The skin is taught on his legs and looks like it will split.
My mother had her teeth pulled out and replaced with dental implants. She has developed a habit of unconsciously clicking her teeth, which is driving me insane. Every utterance is punctuated by a click. She also started using a catheter. She no longer urinates a few times per day like a normal person. She just goes into the bathroom at the end of the day and flips a switch, unleashing a torrent.

>> No.15970084

>LETS PLAY PRETEND PWREEZ
>wait my boyfriend is calling- hello?
>... wats up?
>huh?
>let me call you back
>K bye
>COME BACK PLEEAZE
I’m right here
>NO YOURNNOT DO THE THING
what thing?
>YOU KNOW WHAT IM MEAN WAAAAHHHH
dude relax
>ITS YOUR FAULT ANON YOU DID THIS
what did I do
>STOP CMON ANON AHHHHHHHH
>hold on one sec
>hello?
>Anon #4?
>omg
>I’m good
>hahah
>oh really? When?
>yea I can do that
>k. Ha, k bye.
>I will haha
>k bye
>ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS ANON
Wtf is wrong with you
>YOU. YOU DID THIS. STOOOOOP WAHHHHHH

>> No.15970088

>>15962851
It would be fun to go through an author I like and rewrite one of their scenes as if I were using it as an example for something.

>>15969811
>the sitcom you have all been waiting for:
>Kicked Habit Salesman
>the daemon is being kicked
>by the man, who is also a salesman
>they both shrug in the used car lot
>existential dilemma is, "how can I rightly make good choices for myself when by trade I make bad choices for other people?"
>instead of being better he just drinks and the daemon helps him sell a used car at the end of each episode
just thinking about it makes me want to throw up

>> No.15970097

>>15970084
>saw a soi face at the end
we have trapped him under the screen

do your best to NEVER post soijacks again, or you will let him out

>> No.15970100

>>15970039
Honour thy family anon

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>>15970097

>> No.15970115

>>15970108
OHHH NOOOOOO

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The final month before I plan to release my album. My third in three years. I know I will remain poor but I hope at least I get some recognition this time. Anyway I can feel the final mix fatigue approaching and its mental breakdown inducing
Nothing ever sounds right. I hope to finally be free to this album and hope I get some niche following so I can prove to myself that this hasn't been a wasted 3 years.

>> No.15970159

I can only write something decent when I'm emotionally fucked or desperate, the stories which get published in the yearly magazines, or published in a handful of obscure fiction websites and my Uni, are all stories I wrote when I wanted to kill myself. Now that I'm content with life, happy with where I'm at, I feel like there's a gaping hole when it comes to writing, it's just gone, whatever brought those stories to life is fucking gone, and it's making me go insane, I'm not there yet, I haven't lost my head, I'm still happy, but I can't fucking stand this. I want to be able to write those stories and continue this career when I'm okay, not when I'm miserable.

>> No.15970214

>>15970159
I've found depression and smoking dope each slow me down in the same way that's good for writing, except the later is not miserable. I don't think the miserable part is what's actually useful.

>> No.15970250

I watched Perfect Blue, amazing movie 10/10

>> No.15970252

Wageslavery sucks. That is all.

>> No.15970258

>>15969811
thanks for the tip
>>15970088
sounds like an episode of bojack horseman

>> No.15970272

>>15970258
I bet 90% of the relevance is the flask

>> No.15970815

>>15966854
I really enjoyed reading this

>> No.15970841

> You are willing to die, you coward, but not to live.


This line fucked me up

>> No.15970937

The day i discovered pornography was the day my promising life was thrown drastically off course

>> No.15970956

>>15970937
Everything Bataille, Crowley, and Beckett wrote about I discovered by the time I was 12, after spending all night masterbating to porn (the Internet finally came home) and I sat on the roof of my house and watched the sunrise completely bewildered by this calm and serene holiness I felt after having completely immersed myself in my most basest desires

>> No.15971118

>>15959229
being a single father seems unbelievably comfy

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>>15971118
Between birth and 4, that’s golden years. There’s nothing in this world that equals, no drug or orgasm, nothing known to man, that equals being with that tiny little human being. Everyday, all day every day. The world can kiss my ass, everything else can wait. It’s literally unimaginable that some parents miss out on that time. I don’t know, but I think it’s impossible to say you love your kid if you missed out at that time in their life. That’s the secret parents don’t tell you, about their undying love and devotion to you. It’s not the big stupid loser in front of them they care about unconditionally, it’s the fact that this fucking retard was that little baby that tugged on their lip and fell asleep in their arms, and lit up with joy and laughter when they said boo! When they get older they like to have alone time, they have their own interests and projects, learn to argue, it’s cute but you start to see that individual. That infant/baby/toddler tho, those are Gods hours. After that it’s coaching and being a solid support and definitely not a burden or a headache.

>> No.15971188

>>15959229
Gonna have sex in a few days can't wait. Talking to some horny farmer girl too, sounds hot. Life is good.

>> No.15971195

>>15971118
I want nothing more than for my waifish wife to die in childbirth and for me to raise my child with a love than can only come from a place of utter and unknowable bereavement

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just read the book of Tobit and Judith for the first time and im wondering why they're not included in mainstream bibles

kinda glad im finally reading through the entire bible. i'll be able to just finally say i've read it and decide whether i think it's legit or fake

can't wait to finish it and move on to the Koran or some other religious text. kinda interested to read all about the major religions of the world

>> No.15971217

>>15971195
That sounds awful

>> No.15971403

I didn't really want to make a thread for this, so: books on stoicism?

>> No.15971571

>>15970815

Thank you 4 saying that

>> No.15971609

>>15966854
Is this supposed to be funny

>> No.15971616

>>15971609

I don't know, maybe sarcastic. Did you find it funny?

>> No.15971662

>>15964078
A fun fact about their trip to Best Korea is that the one who came up with the idea in the first place is a central figure in the French black metal scene who has worked with Antaeus, Blut aus Nord, Peste Noire among others.

>> No.15971703

If you're reading this thread go listen to Third Eye Blind right now.

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i want to open a minecraft server but there is legal stuff in the way because i know i will be making a lot of moeny and i just dont know where to start. i lvie in michigan btw if anyone wants to help me out. maybe meet up and become my accountant. i have no money so could u help me maybe.

why a minecraft server? because i am a faggot and also it is easy way to make money.

>> No.15971754

>>15965819
bump
>>15971662
Interdesting

>> No.15971764

>>15971662
What is his name actually? I can't seem to find info on this.

>> No.15971793

Just got off the phone with the suicide prevention hotline. My gun started getting heavy in my waistband so I took it out and placed it on the desk in front of me. In the light of my computer screen it took on a life of its own. I've been shot before so I know kind of the outline of the sensory experience of it. The edges of the wound burn, a bullet rests with a particular feeling inside the body cavity. As I sat there and looked at my gun I became consumed with imagining what it'd be like to project the feeling I know into my skull, to envision what it feels like to let the world just go dull and die. As I was actually fighting these pretty fucking strong impulses to pick my gun up and put one into my head to be done with the whole fucking mess, I realized what was happening and called the veterans' crisis line. Dude on the other end of the line calmed me down and listened to me and now I feel a hell of a lot better. Interesting night so far.

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>smoke weed
>go to read
>realize how much of a piece of shit I am and just sit and think about all the shit I've done
>wake up the next day and continue being an asshole piece of shit with no remorse

>>15971793
i-im sorry anon ;-;
I hope u can fix your troubles

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I hate how toxic this website or internet in general is (inb4 go to reddit or facebook, implying they are particularly better) but this is one of the closest thing to mass social interaction. I almost feel like Gollum with his Ring.

>> No.15971890

>>15969732
Coffee (I can't function without it daytime) and sometimes beer.

I also take lexapro at night. Thinking about increasing dosage again.

>> No.15971913

>>15971878
This place, specifically this board. is unironically better than most of the internet. Though, it's an exceedingly low bar.

>> No.15971936

>>15971793
I'll say a prayer for you. Stay strong man. Too many vets go out like this. It's not right. Trying to find a way to say that I hope you cultivate this moment and grow it into something you can pass on to other people who are in the situation you were just in, so that no one ever has to experience what you just did again. Not sure how to get that across, but I hope you turning back from those thoughts isn't a one off, I hope you pay it forward and it has ripple effects that ultimately solve this shit problem. No veteran should have to have those thoughts.

God bless the hotline guy too.

>> No.15971981

>>15962447
She look vain like all women above 6/10

>> No.15972086

The gym receptionist is quite cute. I wonder how old she is.

>> No.15972188

I hope I have time to read today
I hope I don’t miss my day today
I hope I don’t have a day and realize it was a waste later

>> No.15972209

>>15972188
start now pussy
turn off all electronics and sit in a room/outside where there are no distractions dont wait

>> No.15972236

I've watched my friend die after being shot in the chest which led me to drink every day for a few months but I got over it.
I watched my grandfather who was basically a dad to me die in hospital which made me really numb.
My mother in law's boyfriend died in his sleep suddenly two nights ago.
I keep thinking about death, dying and it's inevitability. It seems like it can take you at any time. I'm starting to come to the terms I can die at pretty much any moment.
Is this a normal part of getting older or what? I'm only 28 and don't feel like this is normal but at the same time find it strange how people can just ignore it.

>> No.15972335

>>15970088
I'd watch

>> No.15972405

>>15972236
>strange how people can just ignore it.
its really strange but people tend to ignore it.

>> No.15972412

>>15959229
For the past three days I've made my way to some shrubbery near a gravel pit to eat raspberries. They really do taste better when you pick them yourself.
Yesterday I heard the distinctive song of a wheatear while there. If you're unaware, the bird sounds like someone banging two rocks together underwater, a very sharp sound. I found bird poop on rocks that seemed to indicate I was not the only one who enjoyed these berries, so not to raid someone else's pantry I walked deeper into the woods and ate blueberries instead.
Blueberries also taste much better if you pick them yourself. My mother used to bake very good blueberry pies. I wonder if I could be bothered to learn how to bake one, and if it would be as good as I remember her's having been.

>> No.15972413

should i kill myself. or should i go on living. It doesn't matter anyways.

>> No.15972430

>>15959229
I just want people to stay home, so many fucking people are just not caring.

>> No.15972677

A lot of people don't have suicidal thoughts. Are you fucking kidding me. Round these people up. Immediately. I don't know what we'll do with them but we need to do something. Interrogate them. Reward them. Shoot them. I don't know. They find the idea of suicidal thoughts distressing. I don't find them distressing. They are part of the internal landscape of my mind. Oh yes, over there, the suicidal thoughts. Just where I left them. That looks like a good place to nap. Maybe they just deal with their suffering in a way that doesn't end with them thinking about throwing in the towel. Well, how noble of them. Maybe they don't suffer as much. Oh no, I don't believe that for a second. They suffer alright. They must do.

Suicidal thoughts are comforting. The blessed end of it all. How divine. Goodbye world. I'm taking one step into the great unknown. See you later. I cannot imagine not having suicidal thoughts. That seems truly ludicrous. Although it does intrigue me. It must be a quite a nice feeling. To take a deep breath and feel completely free of the urge to hurt yourself. And, they tell me, a lot of people live this way. Free of the thoughts. Round these people up. I'm serious. Check their brains. They must be missing something. I don't know what's gone wrong with them but it's disturbing. They need help. They must do. But, OK, I'll be merciful. They get a pass. Keep on living your little lives. I'm happy for you. Really. It's magnificent. It's a feat of human accomplishment. Give those fuckers a medal.

>> No.15973059

>>15972412
Never take more than half what you find.
The secret to good pastry is cold hands.
Make a peach and blueberry pie: be sure to add a tablespoon of dried tapioca to congeal the juices. Lemon juice brings out the taste of most berry pies.

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>don't feel like absolute shit for once
wtf people get this as a baseline most of the time and also actually feel good?

>> No.15973192

I should write to a girl who I met a week ago while drunk and I'm anxious as fuck

>> No.15973318

>>15973192
do it dickhead
she wont write first
or see her in person if you can

>> No.15973321

>>15973192

Do it anon! There is never a better time than right now.

>> No.15973385

oh it’s bubbling now

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>>15973318
>>15973321
I still have not do it, lmaooo

>> No.15973878

>>15970138
post an excerpt

>> No.15973907

>>15971715
How does one even make money with a minecraft server? You charge people to enter?

>> No.15974518

>>15973907
they can enter for free, but I don't let them leave unless they pay me

>> No.15974890

>>15974518
based