/lit/ - Literature

>>15791245
I’m happy when I’m not thinking about the differences between my life and the life I could be living.

>>15791245
Right now I'm thinking of that one part of a song from The Fall where he goes 'two steps back, two doors down', and it has the fuckin piano and shit to go along with it. Can't get it out of me head and that. Also thinking about whether I've made any spelling mistakes just now. Also what kind of Captcha I'll have to do, maybe a crosswalk one, or maybe a stair one, now that would be a real treat.

>>15791245
Anyone have the original one this is based on?

The crackers I ate were way too salty, but I really wanted to eat crackers so I kept eating them anyway. To counteract it I drank several glasses of water, but I still have that salty raw mouth feeling anyway.

>>15791245
Aruba, Jamaica, ooh I wanna take ya
Key Largo Montigo, come on why don't we go
Off of the Florida keys
Etc, etc, etc

>>15791343
No

>>15791343
This is the original the other one is based on this one

>>15791245
Not the same aesthetic. Poor imitation. Even the pol pot refueling his motorcycle version is better than this.

>>15791363
This one came out in 2020 newfag, the other one has been around since at least 2019 maybe even earlier.

>tfw no gf

I love black ladies.

>>15791376
Nah the other post is like a month old check the date in the screenshot

Range is a very underrated metric on a vehicle. Most cars do not go past 300 or 400 miles on a tank. If you drive frequently or live in a rural area this is a problem. In some ways, heavy driving in an urban area is worse as that range decrease. The trend of most new vehicles is to have a small 12 gallon tank.

Ideal range is 700 miles a tank typically, although, the more, the merrier.

>>15791514
Looks like we are in agreement after all that the original with the cool smoking guy is indeed the original and this is a pitiful counterfeit.

I'm entering exam period. Haven't studied at all yet and I have no interest in doing so either. Will probably slog through it, can't make Mama sad. Not ready to commit to studying yet though.
Very interested in reading more Goethe, especially his poems. Also want to continue playing a vidya which I've started last week. Will probably do both these things once I've taken my exams.

>>15791534
No the smoking guy post is like a month old check the date on the post newfag

>>15791566
t. reddit

>>15791245
I have no friends despite being someone who relies on friends to stay sane. When I was younger I was so vulnerable and dependant on associates at school because I feared being alone. When I lost all of my friends during my Great Depression, I forced myself to cope with it. I was too stubborn to go back to my friends and I learnt to live alone. I switched to reading books all day and gaming. I now resemble an iron shell of a man that denies all attempts at a friendship from anyone and I don't know why I do it.

>>15791245
I love this picture

every single day you faggots assault my poor eyes with whores and their false asses and i’m TIRED OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>15791343
Only copy I could find

>>15791616
>2018

I wish I was living on a sailboat in the middle of the ocean, with nobody else around for hundreds and hundreds of miles.

>>15791583
thats a real ass my dude

>>15791363
yep. I can confirm this.
Once again someone wanted to whitewash true talent.

>>15791691
Baited lmoa

>>15791566
both are based on the passage about mongols in the coronameron

I'm gonna start going to prostitutes

I have this extreme curiosity about what it would feel like to put my nuts on someone's face.
What would my nuts feel?
Would it be good or bad?
Would I get something out of it?
I really wonder about that?

>>15791735
Close but it actually is based on the translation of a Homeric fragment in the one of guicciardinis dialogues

how much love is one anon to get in a life?

I subscribed to the Epoch Times which bills itself as a "Factual and Honest Newspaper." I suppose that is technically true, but one honest fact that it doesn't tell you is that it is essentially an ideological organ of the spurned Chinese religious group Falun Gong. It bends itself completely and wholeheartedly toward publishing negative stories about the Chinese Communist Party.

Don't get me wrong, the CCP is an absolute blight and the Democrat's diversion of labeling Russian hackers as the main threat to the integrity of US systems is an outright cynical lie. When the fact is that the Chinese government is hacker #1 and they honestly do deserve an entire newspaper devoted to bringing its corruptions to light. That said, I do think it's true that the more a newspaper has to tell you that it is fair and unbiased the more likely it is to be anything but.

>>15791351
https://youtu.be/DRaLpHoZA8E

>>15791376
It's a joke, retard.

>racists actually like black girls
who would have thought

what's on your mind

>>15791865
>the Epoch Times
My neighbor is subscribed to them, I found out when the paper was accidentally delivered to my house instead of his. I glanced over the headlines before giving it back to him, and assumed it was just an alternative right-wing newspaper written by Americans. I don't remember seeing anything related to China, and assumed from the title that it was published by some evangelical Christian organization.
I already knew about Falun Gong being promoted in the US via dance/acrobatics performances, but at least those were marketed as being explicitly Chinese. This seems much more disingenuous.

One day, we will all die. Thank fuck. Hope there isn't anything else. If there is it better be something decent. Otherwise I'm going to lose it. They will not hear the end. See you in court. Fucking dickheads.

I am not worthy. Please save my soul. Have mercy on me. I will repent.

Grandma's going in a home. I'm jealous. Sounds like a good life. Not for me. I got some time to go. I can do it. I'll show them. I'll live out of spite. Pathetic fucking cockroach.

No alcohol today. Bad day. Got those bad thoughts. No good thoughts. Not for a long time. No hope here.

Grumble grumble. Heavy eyes. Tomorrow is a new day. Coffee in the morning. All downhill from there. Coffee Two is always bad idea. Makes me anxious. But that is better than nothing.

Sleepy sleepy. Happy dreams. Nuclear holocaust. Peace and love

When I go to bed at night I keep thinking about violence happening to my body, it being mangled in some way
My hand blowing off, my foot pointing upward and someone vertically axe chopping it in the middle

Does /lit/ have unironically watched dead poets society? I mean, seriously.

>>15792361
The flesh is weak. The machine is strong. You were born to be a tech priest

>>15791981
>>15791865
While true that it is a Falun Gong affiliated paper, I don't think they have ever explicit lied about anything China has done. I am biased though, I hate China more than any other country.

Thomas grabbed John by the collar of this shirt with both hands.

"POOPIE!" exclaimed Thomas with the crazed look of a man who had abandoned his family out of cowardice in war. "There's POOPIE in my POOPSACK!"

John looked back at his friend as if he were dying before him, his gut wrenched as it prophetised a cascade of mental breakdowns.

"And it's full, John! It's so full and ready to be shared!" Thomas continued screaming. "We're going to CONNECT now, John."

Thomas lifted one hand off John's collar and slid it under his own shirt. A click was heard and a pipe was revealed. John's eyes welled up as they met the serpentine demon Thomas had summoned.

"My side of the bridge is built, John, now for yours..."

Thomas pulled down John's zipper. Thomas took hold of his snake and guided it to its new home.

"RECEIVE me, John!"

John, gripped in icy terror, disconnected and began an out of body experience. He watch his flesh-vehicle receive Thomas's gift. It burned his skin, must have been Indian.

"JESUS died for our sins, John! At that moment on the cross, he was the most vile, disgusting person in the whole world! Taking our sin and being crucified for it!"

The tears were running fully now, albeit on automatic. John felt them on his cheeks, but was not sad.

"You will be my JESUS. Take all my sin, John!"

>>15791922

It's true. I am a massively racist anti-semite, and yet, despite all odds, I like black girls a lot.

Explain this.

The vast majority of the times I end up going full coomer mode it’s because I happen across some random sexual image that makes my ape subconscious start rampaging. It’s really annoying. The internet should return to being text based desu, I’m not a no-fap guy but I have to think it’s bad to be able to marinate your brain in 4K videos of extreme sexual acts on a moments notice.

This isn’t in reference to the OP image, I’ve never fallen for the “thick” meme.

>>15792452
coomers can proudly objectify women of any racial background. male sexual attraction doesn’t require respect so you can happily jack off to women who you see as ethnically inferior. this is the power of coom.

i'm useless, wish I could say more

>>15792574
>he can't catch himself and rein it in

>>15792609

But I am not a coomer. What do you make of this?

>>15792628
on some level, every man is a coomer. i can almost guarantee that your mysterious affinity for black women is rooted in coom.

>>15792438
What specifically has China done to you? Whenever I see burgers complain about China it’s always either virtue signaling about Chinese domestic issues (muh HK, muh tank guy) or bitching about manufacturing outsourcing that was preformed *by American companies*. Why should I care that some companies tech got stolen and reproduced in China? Why should I care that China censors their internet? Are you worried that China is going to become dominate and start doing imperialism on the West? A valid fear I suppose, though one that’s probably fairly inevitable given the demographics of China (and India, to an extent) compared to the west.

>>15792682
Fuck em, that's all I have to say on the matter

>>15792698
Brilliant, thank you for your time.

>>15792682
i dont know about other people, and i personally dont dislike China as much as the OP you responded to, but its precisely because they steal technology that makes me dislike them

>>15792682
In my case it's just prejudice based on a horrible Chinese roommate I used to have. I don't think their government or popular culture is any better or worse than ours.

>>15792452
Simple: Muh dick

It's not strange for a man with a decent amount of testosterone to be attracted to reproductively fit women of any ethnicity. As the more visually-driven sex, we're also more titillated by the aesthetic novelty. You may also be fetishized towards black women due to some prior mental association (I think objectively, black women are less attractive on the average, and the predilection of even black men for 'light-skin' hoes with European/Asian admixture supports this).

At the same time, your decent capacity for rational thought informs you that there are long term consequences to multi-racial paradigms which are more important than indulging your libido.

It's a conflict, not a contradiction.

>>15792618
say more anon

>>15792818
It is more about being a retard, anon. Unironically.

>>15792682
Only things that bother me about China are reckless pollution, population density, and their demographic invasion of white countries (although they're preferable to beaners and nogs).

They're right about HK — liberal progressivism is the slipperiest slope there is.

If only I could read as much as I play video games.

Is there any reason to have children at this point? I'm not an antinatalist but the near future is looking grim. Either my descendants die off in some global-scale catastrophe or they're eventually subsumed into the worldwide brown 80iq slave-caste to come.

I need to stop the intersectionalist cult.

As a spic I really want to preserve the European descendants and their unique qualities
One of my goals is to eventually find a white wife and have plenty of children
Of course my children would be castizo and in doing so perhaps i would dilute the whites. I haven't quite worked out (or rather rationalized) the kinks.
The thing is though that while I like the ideal of whites I actually dislike them on a person by person basis, they're polite and likable but naive and self-hating
Myself I've never really quite fit in with most of the people around me who look like me and we admire different things.
It's strange, when I was younger it seems there were more whites around me and I was but one of a few, but the older I get the less I see them.

As the evergrowing thin fabric spiral that we call fate continues to spin itself around our lives, we become more and more blind to the reality that no one is in control.

No one cares but for their own, no one is but their own.

We to each are each other.

Beholden to no one but a thought of what we want to become.

I drank 300mg worth of DXM cough syrup, which is my first time trying this substance, but all I got were the shits which are a bizarre shade of brown. I suppose the lack of any interesting recreational effects is because of my cross tolerance to dissociatives from my previous ketamine abuse.

>>15792638

Perhaps this is true. Either way, I admit it freely. Black women are pretty good.

>>15792954
There are never gaurantees. Go rural, move to a small community that is as self-sufficient and biased against progressivism as possible. Have kids, amass resources, explain to them the reality of the human condition and encourage them to think long-term — to remain and build upon the foundation you've laid for them.

>>15791583
Why do you not like beauty?

>>15792997
Me too. Are you having troubles doing this or just anticipating it?

I’m wondering if the /lit/ quarterly will publish the next installment of my butterfly shitporn...

As a proud Customer Fulfillment Specialist Associate at Wendy’s, I hate it when people refer to
me as a cashier.

>>15792452
You objectify women. You remove the person and leave just a bunch of holes or the most obscene shit your mind can come up with. In dehumanizing them so, you also remove any kind of information related to them from your mind other than "COOOM" .
When you're a coomer, masturbation and sex (if possible) take over your mind for long periods of time in an intense way. Usually, your mind needs copes with the overwhelming fear of death that lives inside you (just by being self-aware) but at other times your mind needs to create different copes that act in different ways and influence all our behaviors. You hate other races because your minds copes by pinning all the guilty of the ills of the world on a specific group of people. It is easier to hate than to go down the rabbit hole and find out that nothing will protect you from death. Nothing will protect you from a world that exists on creatures killing creatures in the most grotesque of ways. But hating niggers is easy because they are the evil animals fucking the world up, the jews and their vile lies are making the world a fucked up place instead of the world being an inherently fucked up place It gives you a purpose to hate, it gives you an escape from a reality that dehumanizes all of us equally.
Penis in hand makes this go away, you get tits and ass warm holes yummy cummy naked desire. Your mind doesn't give a fuck about racism once it sees a much harder way of making the bad thoughts go away and of rewarding itself for spending energy.

tl;dr you're retarded

Gibberish is an art I excel in: most faggots be saying alliterative or chiasmatic dogshit like “gubba gubba” or “bloop bleep, bleep blorp”
I’m over here all: frbleskighent merthok’litiddigiggit branskwanowitz ness pan magidloa.

>>15791616

>>15792452
Read jung

>>15791245
I wish so badly that I was unemployed, but at the same time I feel like a bitch complaining about working when so many people wish they had a job.

>>15793166

Not reading your novel, bud.

Metal will redeem us all
I ASK YOU JUST PLEASE JUST GIVE US
FIVE MINUTES ALONEEE
JUST GIVE USSSS
FIVE MINUTES
I ASK YOU JUST PLEASE JUST GIVE US
I ASK YOU PLEASE JUST GIVE US
I ASK YOU PLEASE JUST GIVE US
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=fire%20minutes%20alonw%27

I mean
FIVE MINUTES ALONE UGHHH
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KdNRmHSZMc8

>>15793231
That's what the tl;dr is for, you retard.

>>15793249

The tl;dr didn't make any sense because I'm not retarded. I'm actually very intelligent.

>>15793122
>Me too. Are you having troubles doing this or just anticipating it?
I have an elaborate callout project in mind. However it will definitely jeopardize my prospects in life.

>>15793261
Yeah? Well I don't think so.

>>15793276

The only reason my suggestions would offend you is if you were a nigger or a Jew. In such a case, I don't care what you think. Q.E.D.

>>15793104
i am glad that you have accepted your coomer status.

>>15793308

I dispute it, but if it is true, so be it.

>>15793293
I'm neither of those things, and I also hate large groups of people by simple virtue of them belonging to a group "ugly" or dirty or stupid , a group always tied to low-life rats or trraits I hate.
I'm just saying it as it is pal. Watch my TED talk.

>>15793122
Big baboon butt isn't beauty, butters.

>>15793344
It really is.
Love me some big butts of all colors.

>>15793348
It's stimulating, but it's not beautiful.

>>15793348
Show me beautiful. I'm not competing with you, I just want to see other kinds of ass.

I miss PE. I miss English class. I miss looking at her face. I miss hearing her say my name. I miss watching her walk down the hallway. I miss thinking about if she would say hi to me. I miss when she asked me if she could be my friend. I miss when she started a conversation with me. I miss seeing her but never knowing her. I will never, ever talk to her again. It’s been five years. I am pathetic. Absolutely pathetic.

>>15791245
I'm utterly convinced that writing is born out of a strong totalizing vision of life (even if it's unconscious) combined with an ability to pick those abstract concepts and concretize them into meaningful referents. I'm not sure if my writer's block comes from a weakness in the former, the later or both.

All those years learning to not be an antisocial nerd, only to get bounced back here by the coof. Quarantine was a fun change of pace for a couple months but god damnit I want to go out drinking and accost girls again.

>>15791865
I have a uncle who writes for the Epoch times

>>15791245
I gone full online for working (building a scientific career), I want to move back home and stop renting this shitty place ($105US a month). But before that I must paint the faded out walls and repair a couple things. I also wish to move the bed back home, where there isn’t place for it, as the only available room is full of useless junk. I haven’t got transport to move the bed. With the pandemic I don’t want to make the effort to get the paint nor contract people for help moving stuff. There is a couple sanitary filters between provinces and it is too much hassle doing the appropriate arrangements. I know it is stupid, but I can’t sleep at night because of this, I am dragging my family. Not by much. But I don’t think things are going to stabilize for the rest of the year. Perhaps I am fearful of losing the state of life I had before the pandemic, surrounded by friends who have gone on in life, yet I became independent of the campus, getting ready to move on my own way.

>>15792628
What is this pic

>>15793381
>It’s been five years.
coming up on a decade I can't wait to die

>>15791583
Black girls got ass for days, bro, that ass is natural.

I'm noticeably happier when I'm not thinking of the ways I've ruined my life and all the potential I've squandered.

I'm not at rock bottom, but I've dropped out of school after a severe bout of depression, haven't had a girlfriend in years, and find myself, even with all the time in world, getting little reading and writing done.

My genes are begging for me to become a farmer, it all seems so bleak, but then I visit here and see it could be worse, I guess.

>>15793381
>>15793526
Me likey, me likey... Is it possible for I, a white male, to meet fine ebony women with posteriors such as this?

I've been getting more attracted to yummy black women

>>15793381
Those have to be implants/injections, right?

>>15793551
>but then I visit here and see it could be worse, I guess.
kek, happy to help

>>15793568
Visit a couple of bar/clubs in an unsavory part of your town, being from a big city there's ladies like that at every corner desu.

I can't fucking sleep. Insomnia is back and worse than ever. It's been a week since I slept normally and it's just hell. I'm afraid to think how much longer this will continue.
I must admit it's because I'm quitting benzos.
>t. not Jordan Peterson

>>15793596
I can't sleep either as of recent, but for no reason really
Last night I was awake til 6 AM, and I used these sleepless hours to READ! :)

>>15793580
Photoshop most likely. I've seen videos of her and it's not that big.

>>15793271
Uhhhm this sounds dangerous.
I was of course thinking of trying to convince people that it’s actually a class war and they use our diversity against us.

>>15793344
Oh you are so wrong. This is peak female form
>>15793381
Oh my...

> I miss hearing her say my name
I know the feeling.

>>15793698
>I was of course thinking of trying to convince people that it’s actually a class war and they use our diversity against us.

I am also a strasserist.

>>15793698
>Uhhhm this sounds dangerous.
>I was of course thinking of trying to convince people that it’s actually a class war and they use our diversity against us.
I intend to expose the inner workings of this cult and let people arrive to their own conclusions. The false class struggle will be apparent though.

>>15793795
Good luck. People lost their livelihoods for much less as the (((bourgeoisie))) does not take kindly to any who challenge it's interests.

>>15791558
Stop playing video games you fucking moron

I need to stop being a bad person and feeling pleasure on getting other people mad. Books for this feel?

>>15791368
CITIES COULD BE HERE.

I'm definitely going to hell for all this bs KEK but I unironically don't regret any of it.

>>15793595
That sounds like a lot of fun. Will you go with me? I'm too scared to go by myself.

It's impossible to imagine why tomorrow would be any different than today or next week any different than this week or next month any different than this month. Anything that happens in my life appears to be the result of other people's actions or my own actions, performed years ago. I interviewed for a job at my current employer in 2006. I've endured these years and will probably stay there until I retire or am fired. The last time I made a new friend was in 2001, in freshman year of college. One by one, they've all fallen away over the years. My single remaining friend is one I met in high school, who now suffers a physical handicap, the result of a genetic disorder. I've never had a girlfriend. None of my acquaintances or family members have ever commented on this. Like everyone else I will die alone. But I will die always having been alone.

>>15791301
you will only be happy when you live the life you could be living

>>15791301
Im happy when I'm contemplating infinite possibilities.
>>15791245
She was wild.

>>15793261
based

>>15793795
>/r/socialism
Clearly run by a liberal.
Now I know I wouldn’t be welcome there even if I tried.
> The false class struggle
The what now?

>>15793737
>I am also a Strasserist.
Ah, a regressive

>>15791616
What I don’t understand is why people the last sentence is so ducking hilarious. I don’t get it? Can someone explain?

>>15791245
Anyone have sauce of the girl?

>>15794152
Yeah, that's my gf

>>15794132
automobiles enable convenient transport

>>15791472
imagining what i could do to this whore with a single strike

>>15792682
polluted the earth and reduced the qualities of goods.

>>15791922
black women have always existed for the pleasure of their masters. both they and us wish to return to such a relationship.

>>15793166
faggot

>>15793045
why not just marry a beaner girl and stay in your lane?

>>15793365
this is an important filter concept

>>15794251
Not him but one could.... and European traditions would fall the same. If you trully blive blood is the only thing that needs to be preserved you are a fool, the unwillingness to preserve traditions and culture is what made us get to this point. If a woman is willingly to intermingle with a spic she is already lost. And he is the best one can hope for in a spic.

>which book will cure my depression
>someone explain spengler/evola to me
>where do I start with kneeche
>what books will confirm to me that race is real/fascism is great/jews rule the world
>where do I start with mishima
>omg based mommy rowling

>>15794269
i don't hate spics, i lot of people in south america are cool imo, but i want us to live separated as, i assume, most of them do too.

>>15794163
Give her a nice pat for me.

Alcohol and me do not mix well at all. It just makes me fucking aggressive and angry, and being on the internet while drinking is the worst. I glance at reddit and it reminds me of how fucking pathetic the average person is, they are resentful little pussies but I am no different than them perhaps I am just a bit more self-aware. This website also pisses me off because of all the depressed ideology fags but at least some of the people here are okay. I wonder what my future girlfriend is doing right now

>>15794132
it heightens the character's mania, it's just a tic of a thought forced out loud because of his strange character and discomfort

it's almost a non sequitur, but it adds to the character and the manic discomfort of the moment. makes him feel coked up

>>15794251
The thing is the whites are currently undergoing a demographic crisis
I couldn't bring in more mestizos, not as an American
I already have a substantial amount of European admixture anyways.

>>15791558
Call your momma in the morning and tell her you’re gonna study that day. Make yourself accountable. Plus she’ll be happy you called and are trying your best.

>>15791558
based, I got til Friday - haven't done shit

>>15794504
I casually lie to my mom all the time, in fact I will go and tell her I gotta study and I will and then not do it
I'm a bad boy

>>15794222
Diseased mind

>>15794562
faggot mind

Does anybody have tips on calming one's nerves (without drugs or alcohol)? I always feel as though my body betrays me more than my mind does. When I'm on a date for example, mentally I can be completely calm and comfortable, but inside I will feel sick and queasy, my hands will shake, I'll feel really fatigued and heavy for no reason etc. I know that nerves are normal and I'm probably unlikely to get rid of them completely, it just annoys me because I'll feel completely fine about a situation mentally but my body always says otherwise.

>>15794825
Shift your expectations for calmness from "if I am in control mentally, shouldn't my body follow suit? does this mean I'm not really in control?" to "no matter what my body does, the fact that I can choose to react means I am in control." Take pride in the fact that you are experiencing the sick and queasy feelings but keeping the ship steady in spite of them. You aren't the sum of your feelings and impulses, you are something distinct from them even when they are washing over you, as long as you can still say "no."

Try doing breathing exercises. Clear your mind and breath deliberately. Use an arbitrary mantra of a few syllables, with no special meaning to it, just to create a rhythm to the breathing. It will probably be somewhat more slowly than your current breathing at first, but you're just slowing it down to a less panicked state, not holding it for unnecessarily long periods of time. Your body wants the best for you, but it gets accustomed to working on its own and doing the best it can, if you don't regularly give it directions. It's like a dog whose master only checks on it periodically, and it develops nervous tics, panicky behavior, and shitty habits. If you do this for a while, you will start to notice that sometimes even when you assumed you were already relaxed, you were still agitated, anxious, breathing or having your heart beat quicker than necessary. Then you'll begin to notice that you can defuse an entire panic attack, tangibly calm down your racing thoughts, or put your body in a resting state just by deliberately changing your breathing and clearing your mind for a bit.

Once you exercise all these subtle methods of seeing your body as your slightly excitable friend, you will begin to notice that reflexive "instinct" behaviors can be controlled too. Most people are so tightly wound by instincts built up over years that they eventually give in and operate purely on instinct all the time. They fill awkward silences in conversations with coworkers because their instinct is simply "this awkwardness is making me feel uncomfortable, say something, do something" and they have to obey. But again, you're the captain of the ship. You can have all the impulses in the world to spaz out, and still just say "no." The more you do it, the more you will notice that this gap between instinct and agency exists, and the more you can hone your agency and make more of your actions intentional and deliberative instead of unconscious and reactive.

Exposure therapy is just this process on a low level. But you can elevate it to a conscious process of self-mastery. When you introduce this confidence into everything you do, you will feel less like an uncertain little bitch buffeted by whatever circumstances he's in and begin to feel like a man is supposed to feel, like he has a natural right to the respect of others, so he doesn't have to be anxious by default. A man is supposed to be conscious and aware but slow to react.

>>15791981
>This seems much more disingenuous.
No. They are very open about the fact that the paper is run by Chinese dissidents. They have even done short video segments on exactly such. It is part of their presentation.

>>15793500
It looks to me like a turkey's ass wearing a pair of sunglasses.

>>15794930
wow thank you for the detailed answer anon, I will take your advice

>>15791981
The Epoch Times is a very explicitly Chinese / Falun Gong paper. It must have been the edition you got your hands on, because it is really impossible not to notice.

>>15791245
blank

>>15795140
henlo robloxer

>>15794825
Propranalol

>>15794122
>Ah, a regressive

Progress is a God replacement. The struggle is a class issue. Read Otto.

>>15793737
>>15796189
useful idiot for Nazis, you'll just get knive'd once again when they're in charge

>>15791245
how the fuck do i write dialogue? i can do everything but dialogue

>>15796198
So be it.

I never thought myself as outright ugly, maybe slightly below average but i recently saw a picture of myself when i was 15-16 and i realized that im literally random character creation. I guess its true that ugly outward create ugly inside.

>>15791616
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jKxEt79T-O0

>>15794408
>>15794132
It's an expectable cliche for this kind of character, creating a semi-quasi-deep storytelling

>>15791245
I want to take my Russian girlfriend to Mesa Ridge. I want to take my Russian girlfriend to Mesa Ridge. I want to take my Russian girlfriend to Mesa Ridge. I am depraved

>>15796499
what the fuck does this mean?

>>15796517
Mesa Ridge is a name we have for something else

>>15796522
for what

>>15792682
China and India may have huge populations but they're facing a looming and almost certainly unavoidable demographic collapse, much worse than that of the West.

>>15796580
How do you figure?

I change, I am the same

>>15791245
I'm in Australia and everythings clearing up, just started job hunting but no one wants more people because no one goes outside for any extended period of time.
Just found out that my uni doesn't go back in person til the start of next year and that feels so shit to be quite honest. I hate studying online, I barely learn anything and I can't concentrate for shit anymore.

Kind of over the whole virus, just want it to go fuck itself and I just get out of the house for once and have some fun ya know. Everything feels the exact same and I've just had enough.

>>15794052
This is so fucking true it hurts anon. Was so close to actually making good and pernament changes to my life and then the coronavirus comes along and we're all isolated and out of work and I'm back to square one.

Why the fuck is life so hard?

>>15796596

>>15796916
>tfw your life was the same before and during the quarantine

>>15796926
China yes, India seems more stable.
It's shocking how low their fertility is.

My wife is starting to act like a cunt and her looks are going downhill fast.

I really want to fuck a busty big-assed nigress

>>15796958
Remember, India is far less developed than China.

>>15797201
>2020
>people are still falling for the 3DPD meme

Wondering why my sleep schedule is so shit since I exercise and eat healthy

I don't think I will ever be happy. I don't even know what I want in life. I think of Power, Wealth and love but I don't think I will ever get these things. I am no competent enough to achieve any real power, not shrewd enough to become wealthy and I don't see why anyone would love me outside of my family.

>>15797448

I understand you dude, I almost never feel happy even though i'd really like to. For example I'm happy for 5 minutes then it goes away and it's back to being nor happy nor sad. Its starting to affect me to be honest.

>>15797425
take over the counter sleep aids. changed my life, wish I started them young

frog and cat posters should be euthanized

>>15791245
That's pretty hot

>>15797554
not him but in similar sitch
i've had a few impacts to my head and have had mild ischaemic attacks in the past. I dont want to fuck my head up more

>>15793189

based

This energy will take us to the stars, I have no doubt of that! And the energy of these works will power us! Things will be so alien and different, even though some things stay the same etcetera and physics so far as we can tell are unchangeable, but what does that matter when we have variety as redemption! Then it will go down the hole!

Had to listen to my stereotypically liberal extended family gush over Hamilton recently. On the 4th of July they were all bashing the founding fathers for being racist slave owners, but now, not even a week later, they're praising the same people as portrayed by a cast of rapping black people. Utterly bizarre.

Is it weird that I feel selfish about knowledge? Some friends know I'm well read and ask me a lot of stuff that I know they won't understand so I go from the most basic to the conclusions explaining like they are 5. I think they get some of it. But what I explain to them in 5 minutes and they agree with took me fucking long time to reason. I feel like 'dude figure this shit out for yourself'.

>>15797702
MEOW RIBBIT

Have you ever taken a phantom shit? It’s when you feel yourself shitting only to stand up and find that there’s nothing in the toilet bowl. What does this mean? Where did the shit go? “Perhaps it simply floated down the toilet out of sight” you might say. But do you really believe you can produce shit that solid and with enough force to launch in through water and down the toilet bowl? Either you must have a weird diet, or something else is afoot

>>15799040
turd goblin

>>15797409
2D is trickery by the hands of "them". Do not fall for these forbidden pleasures anon.

>>15794052
there's an infinite number of lives you could be living dummy

>>15792361
me too, brother.

Why the fuck did I tell my friend, who even has a post-op cousin, that I don't get why transexualism isn't considered a mental disorder (anymore). Why in the actual fuck.

>>15799439
Interesting. For me it started in being resentful of myself and imagining being set on fire as a sort of cleansing process

I always browse this board when I have a problem with the direction of my life. I browse 4chan when I hate myself. I'm 23 but I feel like a child.

Why is Chomsky trending on Twitter? He's started tranny bashing in his senility? Now that Maxwell is in custody and not likely to be killed, he's found his inner centrist?

>>15799728
>I'm 23 but I feel like a child

This is literally the truth with anybody our age nowadays. Life's much more confusing than it was for our parents

>>15799728
>I browse 4chan when I hate myself. I'm 23 but I feel like a child.
me too

>We need to preserve the possibility of good-faith disagreement without dire professional consequences.

Signed by Bari Weiss who spent her four years as a Columbia undergrad trying to get muslim professors fired.

>>15799782
Good-faith/bad-faith usually just boils down to "any arguments that i dont want to have are all bad faith so please excuse my intellectual cowardice".

>>15791245

I don't think mentally I've aged since 17. I know a few more things since then maybe (maybe less in some areas actually) but I thought something would've happened by now to make my age feel like something that matters. In college I was surrounded by other children, at work I'm surrounded by other children. When do I get to feel like I'm not just a lost child anymore, and when do I get to meet other people who aren't children? Looking back on how I was raised my parents even seem like children now. Humans should live unt

>sleep cycle is out of wack
>going to bed at 5am waking up at 12
>decide to stay awake all night and go to bed early
>do it
>go to bed last night at midnight, knackered
>wake up at 16:00
what the fuck

>>15791245
uhhh too damn hot outside.

>>15799900
>skipped sleep because i need to do shit early on friday and i wake up at 3pm normally now
>get tired and take a nap in the afternoon, an hour or two maybe haha i got my alarm on
>wake up at fucking 9pm
you and me brother, I'll try and just go back to sleep lol

>>15791245
I have an aching in my heart, an aching for something that isn't this hellish world western society has come to be. I ache for Gods presence to return to our lands. I ache for love to enter unto my heart and the hearts of others. I ache for an adventure in a land where the connotation of my nation doesn't make people expect me to be an overall ignorant and hateful asshole. I ache to return to a time when I felt normal and as if I weren't the opposite of how I was brought up to be. I ache to not have to hide myself and constantly keep up masks in order to make people think I'm the way they are; when I'm far from it. I ache so horribly to stop feeling alone, and to finally find the cradle of my soul - the place it's meant to belong. But no matter where I search I can't find that place, and the longer I wait the more I ache.

>>15799352
t. roastie scared she might lose her free meal

>>15799822
My great grandmother lived until she was 94 and still felt like she was 18 right up until she died. I don't think you ever actually feel any different once you're fully developed.

i fucc a girl 4 times but i miss my ex yeah i sound gay big deal wanna fight about it?

also, did anyone get their litquarterlies yet?

>>15799616

why not? it is a mental disorder. your friend's cousin wont make 5 years until it selfdestructs

Was going to the park and randomly ran into some friends I didn’t know would be there, funny

get off of 4chan.

I had a bad dream. Mom and Dad were alive. I was my current age. I was really sad and angry and anxious. And no one could understand me. I was throwing a tantrum of sorts. I cut my wrists, I punched through walls with full force. Mom and Dad and my friends saw, and noticed, but didn’t really care. There were points where I was trying to communicate what hurts me so badly, but I couldn’t at all. It was a powerful “you can’t understand” type moment. And they lost interest. But my anger/frustration/anxiety/sadness continued. I kept bursting into tears. At the very end, I was on some grass, and I had been trying to explain it all to two friends (I don’t know who), but they realized they didn’t really care or couldn’t help, and walked away. And I understood that, that they couldn’t help or really care or find it interesting or whatever. And at that point I leaned forward into the grass, and I believe I died. In a far more real / full manner than is typical of my dreams. Like, they gave up, I gave up, and I killed my self. Committed to suicide. I leaned forward, and died, and then woke up. And I felt like I had been crying when I woke up, my eyes were red.

>>15799800
This is arguing in bad faith

>>15800639
suck my dick

>>15791245
Is life as shallow and cruel as it seems? Is there really a light at the of the tunnel or an objectively ideal way to live life to strive for? Or is that all just a lie we've been indoctrinated with so we all don't commit mass suicide once we realize how absurd and meaningless life is without the hope for salvation? It seems like the only reason keeping a lot people from offing themselves is the fear of burning in hell for doing so.

>>15800861
lemme help you out broheim
>Is life as shallow and cruel as it seems?
yes
>Is there really a light at the of the tunnel or an objectively ideal way to live life to strive for?
not really
>Or is that all just a lie we've been indoctrinated with so we all don't commit mass suicide once we realize how absurd and meaningless life is without the hope for salvation?
absolutely
>It seems like the only reason keeping a lot people from offing themselves is the fear of burning in hell for doing so.
meh some people but not a lot i'd bet, probably more fear of pain, hurting others close to them, and the prospect/animal drive of hoping for better

Just about everything that happens within the female body could also be interpreted as a symptom of pregnancy. This is proof that God didn't want us to fuck them overmuch.

>>15794274
Spengler and Evola are so straight forward.

I cant even see how someone would misinterpret or misunderstand them.

>>15800876
>meh some people but not a lot i'd bet, probably more fear of pain, hurting others close to them, and the prospect/animal drive of hoping for better
What if you don't have anyone and you've irreparably fucked up your life?

>>15800965
then the last option, that we're pretty well hardwired to not kill ourselves, like all other living beings
we have this stupid thing that's something like "hope things will get better" or "gotta be in it to win it" that gets in the way
but by all means, don't let me hold you back

>>15800965
Of all the people you don’t have at least one (more than likely more than one of them) is somebody there to you

>>15800965
I really doubt your life is that bad

>>15800995
I don't plan on killing myself, just pondering why we don't
>>15801164
I do have people in my life that I care about whom I know also care about me
>>15801177
My life is pretty shitty sometimes, but you're right. My life's not that bad.

I started keeping a, more or less daily, journal on January 1st 2018. Lasted until late April 2019, when I picked out a new empty one to fill. Which I just finished. I am very excited to be beginning a new one, it unironically feels like starting a new life. This time I want to fill it with good entries only and overcome my fear of things. I just turned 25 last week so this seems the most perfect time to turn my life around. First thing I'll do is break up with my gf so I can return to the fag life.

I've been wanting to bind a nice, heavy book in vein of the book of mazarbul. Then, use it for my journal for next year. Unironically thinking about learning Hebrew so I can use it to write in the book. Good idea? Bad idea?

>>15796944
Damn I feel for you man.

>>15800861
How often is this post made, in all its. variations?

>>15801291
Nice. Let your freak fag fly, my bromosexual. Fill em up to the balls.

>>15801295
Seems like a collosal waste of time

>>15801380
Several times daily

>>15791245
The Jewish people are only guilty of one crime, but it's a big one. Promoting involuntary male genital mutilation.

>>15801410
That's my life in general

>>15801291
dont be gay but journals are great
i started one around that time and it's like 700+ pages long by now
no one will read it, and that's fine. feels good nonetheless.

>>15801295
I like it. If you're into Hebrew, go for it, it won't be a waste of time. I think the fancier your journal the more effort you will put into your writing.

>>15801388
>Fill em up to the balls.
If only Corona wasn't blueballing me. Idk, it's not like I didn't know I was gay, I came out more than 10 years ago. I've been realising more and more that I'm not at all excited to see my gf, not even as a friend, I'm doing it more out of an obligation because I feel bad about making someone else feel bad.

>>15801427
How big is your journal that it can fit more than 700 pages?

>>15801416
That's very telling.

I'm pretty sure I'm a narcassistic / borderline personality, I want to become a healthy, real and open person but years of misguided trying has changed nothing at all. I want to ask is it curable? are there any characters in books which reverse their condition and could be taken as a bluebrint?

>>15794222
Based trips

I'm a racist and I hate it

I can't even bring myself to pick a book to read anymore. It all feels so utterly pointless. Passively absorbing information, and then doing nothing with it. Why even bother.

>>15794097
lol, loojesus

>>15792103
Your internal monologuing style is very similar to mine in my college years. You interest me anon. Contact me smegman#8170

>>15801496
Not a book, but BoJack Horseman portrays mental illness (narcissism and borderline tendencies) very accurately and offers some pretty valuable insight.

>>15801537
You and me both. I don't want to be prejudiced toward black folks, but I am. I want to reform myself, but it's honestly gotten worse as I've gotten older. 4chan definitely hasn't helped.

>>15801439
It was several journals, each moved to a word document upon completion.

>>15801597
same, you can morally know it's bad and invest all that energy correcting yourself 24/7 but it changes nothing.
and it's impossible to ever relax around people knowing how poisonous your unfiltered thoughts are

why is mental healthcare so absolutely horrid in the united states

>>15801537
>>15801597
Be proud you have the balls to be honest about it. You don't fix your racism by pretending you aren't racist, you admit it and work from there. It took a bad LSD trip to realize this in myself.

>>15801761
I heard only bad things about the suicide helplines too. In a country with so many guns it's really asking for trouble

I'm in love and I hate it. I've known her since 5th grade, and I've had a crush on her almost as long, but she's my best friend and has never shown interest in me, so I kept it to myself. She has a boyfriend, and every time I see them together my face and arms flush and my feet turn to lead. Her and I are juniors in high school now (plz no ban) and he was a senior last year, so I thought after he graduated I would be able to ask her to be my girlfriend. However, I just found out he is going to school online and still living nearby, so they will probably keep dating. When I first learned she had a boyfriend, I cried and felt sick all night. I thought I had gotten over the whole thing, but now it's like that but all the time. I didn't understand Sappho 31 until now. I feel sick and nauseous all the time and when I think of her I feel my heart tighten. I spend all day reading in bed, and I get tired from just a flight of stairs. I was suicidal even before I was lovesick, and now if I ever work up the energy I'm afraid I really will kill myself. I don't know what to do.

>>15801761
I don't know, but the "pills for everything" mentality is driving me insane. They don't work for me and I want something better.

my mother came into my room and tried to have a conversation with me about my depression and unmotivation
she started crying and said she can't stand seeing me so unhappy
I really need to move out

>>15801583
gb2r

Absence. The pussy is absence. The hole inside is absence. The space above your bed is absence. The space between the stall door and the wall is absence. Most of an atom is absence.

Outside is absence. The air you breathe is absence. The tunnels left by the worms as they move through dirt is absence.

I find the 17th-19th century practice of publishing huge editions of collected works, public and private, of even the most middling writers adorable. I wish it still happened.

>>15802211
I've been staying with my mother since covid hit (she works retail, lost job, I pay rent now) and I sleep in the loungeroom I'm going crazy too no privacy

>>15802003
you don't need pills man
unless you're so psychotic that you're hallucinating then an anti-psychotic is probably wise but otherwise you don't need them, they just muddle your brain chemistry more and make things more difficult in the long run
I quit all my depression / bipolar meds cold turkey about 1.5 years ago and i have never looked back

I've never asked out a woman I found attractive. I've gone out with a very small amount of women I felt nothing for because they were eager to get to know me. I'm not trying to describe myself as some hyper attractive suave man. I just have cripplingly low self esteem. I don't even feel comfortable complimenting women if they have a nice appearance. I'm just a plain loser and even though I am still very young I feel like I'm going to die at an old age as a bachelor who never had any notable relationships with women.

>I've lived so little that I tend to imagine I'm not going to die; it seems improbable
that human existence can be reduced to so little; one imagines, in spite of oneself,
that sooner or later something is bound to happen. A big mistake. A life can just as
well be both empty and short. The days slip by indifferently, leaving neither trace nor
memory; and then all of a sudden they stop.

>>15802322
t. Chooses the drink over the gun in his drawer each night

>>15801537
>>15801597
>>15801820

This is stupid. Racism exists because your basest instincts are kicking in -- notably, self preservation. You have the desire to rid yourself of dangerous people.

>>15802333
iktf bro, as i suspect many of us do

I have recently taken the 'fake it till you make it' approach and just started acting like a completely different person than i usually am - complimenting women, acting super confident, not like an asshole, but like the better version of myself that I wish I was. Kinda like that episode of Seinfeld where George acts the exact opposite to who he really is.

It's a bit tiring, but it also feels better, people like me more, I hope it will transform into a habit over time. I don't believe that you can 'change' your personality. But I do believe you can make incremental (important) improvements that allow you to fully realise the potential of your own personality. My personal tip would be to find a role model - some you admire, preferably in real life - think about why you admire them, and then adapt those traits to your own personality. When I'm out with a girl, I think to myself "how would X act in this situation" and then I act like them. I think it has to be someone you know fairly well, so that its easier to judge whats appropriate and whats not. I don't know, it works for me.

>>15802380
I kicked drinking and smoking at home at the beginning of quarantine and I don't miss it. I still do those things when out with friends though.

>>15802391
I don't think this is healthy

It's really fucking boring that gods aren't real and this material plane is all we'll ever really experience

I wish I could control my need to masturbate. I can only hold off for a day or a day and a half at most. Then it's not even that I'm intensely aroused, just a sensation that I have an itch to scratch.

>>15799040
i've definitely had small, dense turds slip just beyond the horizon of the bowl's piping, escaping my gaze.

>>15800123
>>15799822
bugmen

>>15800861
you are following a shallow direction with the rest of society and are to weak to fight it.

Why bother self-actualizing? The subjective self is a construct that will never be compatible with the establishment / broader society

There is no self to actualize

>>15802003
change your life then faggot

I feel like I don’t have a future, but I’m not suicidal either. Is this the path to mediocrity and NEETdom?

>>15802388
How are black people even dangerous lol?
Yeah some random black dude is just gonna find you in the street and kill you

>>15803055
many such cases

>>15803064
You'd have to kid yourself to believe that it is common, though.

how were samurai able to perform harikiri? how were they able to overcome survival instincts and disembowel themselves, cut their own throats etc? I think it's important to know

I feel like life is really simple. I feel like, down to biology, we are, as Epicurus says, born to health. I don’t mean things aren’t sophisticated, or that it never seems just moments away from breaking into a million dangerously sharp pieces, I just don’t think any of that matters. I don’t know how to make sense of the sufferings of others, all I do know is that somehow what needs to be done can be done and done easily. Freedom, the event within options, isn’t between doing or not doing, it’s the choice we make toward freedom and away from what would restrict that freedom. It’s easy, and it makes things easier. Why would anyone want otherwise? I don’t know. I do know we’ve been wondering this from the beginning, back to the polis. Acting out of freedom is never from a place of must, fear is a liar, as it is said. Freedom, by its very name, is free of any quality that would determine it from the outside. I am free so long as I am free to be free. It’s a dream written long ago, thousands of years ago, of the possibility of a place where all people are free and independent. But it’s not a freedom given to them, it theirs, if they want it. A truly free man earns his freedom by himself. Douglass remembers when he became free long before he broke free from slavery when he says “I was a slave in form, but no longer in fact”. My freedoms are mine, their not yours to give. Do you realize how simple and easy it is to take what’s yours? The question is, how have you convinced yourself of a life otherwise?

>>15803192
they successfully managed to convince themselves they would just respawn in a japanese woman's womb instantly

>>15803210
yeah, but even with all modern suicides it's so much more abstracted. like jumping with a rope around neck, or off a bridge, shooting a gun, poison, self immolation etc.
how were they able to kill themselves in such a direct manner where they had full control throughout?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGDryiOabek

>>15802391
What if there isn’t anyone that I admire in real life that I care to model myself after?

I have conflicting feelings of superiority and inferiority regarding twitch streamers. On the one hand, as a viewer I can sit back and feel superior as all of these trained monkeys compete with one another for my attention and twitch prime sub, but on the other hand, it's like they're all in this secret exclusive "streamer" club with each other and from their perspective I'm just a no name nobody that doesn't have the clout to join in on their 5-way discord call. It's only frustrating because I'm 100% the type of guy Alexandra Botez would be incredibly attracted to, but how would she even see me as existing without 5k people watching me on a webcam?

>>15803459
Find someone else. Get out of the internet. Or at least get on Tinder or something. Twitch is mainly for watching people and talking.

>>15803459
Is this peak fucking zoomer? Holy shit how diseased is your mind. Those people are human garbage, they don't even qualify as full humans, but the pond scum that watches them is even worse.

>compete with one another for my attention and twitch prime sub

Is this even a real post? I feel nauseous after reading this. Get off the fucking internet as soon as possible. Jesus christ this is what the upcoming generation looks like, isn't it? People who think "twitch prime sub" means something and unironically watch "streamers" in their free time. I never thought I'd be the one to say this but why don't you try going the fuck outside and not thinking in internet bullshit for a while? Your whole experience is shit, your aspirations are shit, your brain is shit.

>>15803459
is this guy joking?

>>15803459
>how would she even see me as existing without 5k people
These “people” are hungry as fuck. And if your attractive, not only will she see you but she will keep an eye on you and if your consistent she will make a move. I’ve seen it happen a lot. Keyword: attractive

>>15803438
idk bro pick someone famous fuck it choose someone fictional use youre imagination

>>15803487
mean :(

>>15803459
are you 15 years old? this is how i used to feel about kpop idols back before kpop was popular in the west

All this stuff people say about art no longer being relevant…true, it was absolutely pathetic how before science some pretty package of arranged materials was what people called the height of intellectual achievement, but stuff like writing is a reflection of our worldview so it develops in tandem with our intellectual progress, rather than being a toy left behind. Even when we leave behind language, as long as there is a place for things to be expressed, something of the sort will be there. And if it’s done, we let it go, I can certainly imagine that, I feel no dreaded need to defend it, except in this capacity: that art for me fulfills the function of the psychic “surplus”. Business, experience, engineering, daily works, and even science, are all so literal. They’re all so unsatisfyingly obvious and direct and suffocatingly literal, even when infused with understanding. If they were all that life is, we would live under a low ceiling. There has to be something more. Art represents a mode apart, a special kind of thinking that is not purely literal. That’s why I think when poetry was just the versification of prose sentiments it wasn’t actually poetic. I crave truth but also crave the full expansion of the possibilities of life and thought, which the scientific project, for all its essentialness and wonder, can’t achieve alone. The puritanism that calls these creations and imaginations a waste ironically comes from not understanding just how valuable life and our minds are.

If there is a grain of truth to the ridiculous “scientific relativism” of certain dumber postmodernists, it’s that although only specific mental models we create reflect reality, because all our models and experiences are internally constructed, experiences and models that don’t reflect reality are not *existentially* invalid. The possibilities of experience and mind really are much larger than the modelling of real-world rules that evolution has necessarily brow-beaten them into, and I am so grateful for the possibilities they offer. What I’m saying is that when you truly appreciate truth you come back around to the valuing of imagination. It’s not as if our thoughts ever can actually be apart from physics, since they function by its rules.

>>15791245
Test

I am terrified of inheriting my father's mental illness. I am worried I have it already but can't tell.

>>15803521
>tfw playing starcraft every day thinking one day if I'm good enough I could go to Korea, make it big and get a kpop gf

The delusions of teenagers are something else. It's kinda weird knowing that the more I learned about the kpop (or korean entertainment in general) it disgusted me more and more. Their contracts are borderline modern day slavery, with child grooming to boot. What rational mind can think a society that encourages young girls to get plastic surgery before they're out of high school is healthy? And just as I'm getting disassociated with it, the garbage, moralless scene blows up in the West. Just how many korean men and women are gonna have to commit suicide before the whole thing gets exposed?

>>15803595
The blindness of western faggot liberals to the horrors of kpop is a testament to how braindead they are. It is not even borderline slavery, it is slavery, legally speaking.

In the west, the worst and most exploitative forms of capitalism still have to put on a happy face when they take over a person's entire life to use them as a vehicle for selling "merch" for 20 years, then toss them out as a broken drug addict that can't adjust to the real world. In Korea, you can just apply that system ruthlessly top-down because there is no native culture to stop it. Korea "modernized" by submitting completely to the logic of capitalism, imported from the west and imposed artificially, without any of the historical concomitants that still exist to cushion its effects in the west. They are bugmen enslaved to a western-style TV commercial existence.

>>15802414
I think about this a lot because I've had friends who have pulled a 180 in personality due to getting a gf. Sometimes it's a positive and sometimes it's a negative. For example, I felt like I watched one friend mature to actual adulthood in a span of a couple of months of getting a gf. Another basically abandoned all of his friendships in favor of spending every waking hour of his life with his now wife.

So based off observation of others, I think "faking it 'til you make it" can range from meaning "transform yourself into the person you want to be" or "transform yourself into someone you think is successful," and the difference is extremely important. Wanting to make yourself a better person is a trial and error process, as is emulating someone else. The difference is that one you'll actually spend time reassessing what you want to be like as a person while the other is you forcing a cube into a round hole.

>>15803610
It's interesting to see how Asian countries reacted to the sudden introduction of all post-enlightenment ideas from the west in the span of a single generation. In Japan it made a colonial empire with soldiers so loyal there were Japanese soldiers still killing people in the Philippines in the 70s because they refused to believe Japan would ever surrender. Now we see it in Korea where the threat of communism forced their hand into a deep dive into an extreme form of corporatist capitalism, but also so accepting of ideas like feminism that they are the only nation on earth to have a Department of Women in the government (and even have a feminist cult run the country under the last president's rule). Even more baffling that of the 14 presidents of South Korea, only ONE has ever been president without either being assassinated or arrested for corruption or committing genocide. Geun-Hye's cultist background was a real shock because they thought she'd be incorruptible due to the fact that her entire family was dead, yet her medium was actually calling shots for the country.

Asian countries experienced the most extreme form of culture shock from the 1800s(Japan) to the 40s and 50s in Korea. China is also a victim of this to an extent, but it seems that closing themselves off to the world for a time did slow down the exposure to just marxism. This is also exemplified in North Korea.

>>15803634
not trying to offend but reading your paragraph, it sounded like the descriptions of what psycho/narcissists would do, I've tried doing the same thing of course but it's just manipulative and it's not you.
you won't ever truly change what you are inside like that, you will gain more confidence and skill in acting the part of who you wish you were of course, but you will just be acting that out for the rest of your life - relationships will end up shallow, never be able to relax around anyone
imo , do the exact opposite and try your hardest to become your true and open self , because from there you can actually grow as a person and build real relationships rather than having to put on a mask and trick people into liking you

I just watched porn since some weeks clean and months clean before that, goddamn I'm missing out. I'm feeling like I should just embrace coomerism.

My magnum opus on environmental predictions and human morality will most likely be censored and see me called a fascist, despite it being compatible with and enchancing all other forms of extremism.

>>15802388
Shut the fuck up racist. Go outside

>>15803691
>the 14 presidents of South Korea, only ONE has ever been president without either being assassinated or arrested for corruption or committing genocide
wait what the fuck?

>>15803797
Discrimination has been observed in orca and chimps, probanly more I don't know. It's evolutionary. If you want to remove racism (discrimination) your only hope is the transhumanism route bro.

>>15803797
>Go outside

But I've never been in this neighborhood before..

>>15803746
for my own self interest please could someone say if this is good or bad advice?

>>15792438
They released this "secret speech:

https://jrnyquist.blog/2019/09/11/the-secret-speech-of-general-chi-haotian/

which claims the Chinese are plotting to depopulate America with bioweapons and occupy the land. Almost certainly a product of intelligence (cf. the Tanaka Memorial). Falun Gong is a CIA op.

>>15800732
based

>>15800861
Yes, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, except it's a train.

>>15802388
kys

I can't get my virginity back and I have been upset about it but hey, it was years ago. I'm not going to beat myself over it, I will just be as chaste as I can. I don't think I could be with a virgin though, it would make me feel self conscious.

I need to find God. I don't know what to do with my life and I need help.

>>15804162
When you seek for something, you don't just find stuff, you transform yourself into someone who seeks the things he didn't know how to seek in the first place.

Sounds gay but that's how I found religion. It's always a work in progress too.

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All these (yous) make me feel like I’m already a controversial Internet personality. Thanks chat.

>>15802271
I love how people back in the day would bind their own books. Or the fact that it was common to write an early version of emojis in them.

>>15803883
Its a difficult call because everybody is different and as such will be approaching this self improvement dilemma with a different deck of cards in their hand. Personally, I see myself as possessing an inner self that is confident and out going - I know because sometimes I am very confident and outgoing without difficulty. This is a part of my personality - I am sure - but it is a part of me I am often unable to express due to anxiety and self consciousness or what have you. For me, self improvement is not about faking confidence, but about removing those barriers to confidence. Which is different, I think.

I would tell you to "find out who you are" but this advice is limited in its usefulness. We are complicated - as Whitman says, we contain multitudes. There may find that there is no truly consistent version of yourself. In which case, you want to find out which parts of your complex self you want to nurture - and that is self improvement.

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>>15791743
Me too brother

It's possible that I won't be able to pay rent this month or even afford food in the future. My best course of action if I rule out suicide is likely to go to prison and once I do that there's no coming back to any kind of functional life afterwards. In for a penny, in for a dime right?

I'm not from the US btw if this thread is monitored, and our prisons are pretty okay so I think I'd be able to read on the inside.

There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape, but even after admitting this, there is no catharsis. My punishment continues to elude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.

>>15804361
lmao

>>15803803
Here, I wrote this up on /pol/ when Park Geun-Hye resigned for someone on /a/. Also I fucked up there's only been 11 presidents of Korea.

https://pastebin.com/Y0BL4cTk

>>15805696
Park Geun-Hye resigned for someone on /a/?

>>15805696
Upon review, I'll have to rewrite this because honestly I just copy-pasted a bunch of wiki articles together and it's not very straightforward. This is mostly because I include some of the sentences for presidents in the section where they were pardoned by their successor.
>>15805775
OH GOD, YOU CAUGHT MY MISSED OF A COMMA

>>15805775
yeah they asked really nicely and gave him a blowjob after