/lit/ - Literature

>>15773557
I'm black

>>15773557
But it’s still Saturday, where is it Sunday already? Are you an Australian?
But I’ll confess that I don’t think I fully understood Pynchon’s V.

I can't stop being a coomer. I manage to tone it down but the addiction still there. Every relapse I feel so bad.

>>15774971
Me. It got really bad over corona

>>15773557
i don't have a single friend but that's ok because i have more time my wife and kids

>>15773557
I'm a also a coomer. Most of what I read is erotica and most of THAT is very poor quality. It interferes with my other reading.

If you live a happy fulfilled life do you feel disappointed that you'll die?

Its 1:37 pm and ive already maturbated about 3 times today. My balls hurt and i'm basically cumming dry. I cant stop.

>>15773557
you are fat bald clown

>>15773557
http://ricepuritytest.com/
I can only say yes to thirty of these questions when I would like to be able to say yes to more than half.

>>15773557
I haven't read a book in 2 years but I post here every day

What?

I've been studying Latin for 3 years and I still can't read someone like Seneca or Cicero without a dictionary.

I really try to make something out of it all. Constant bombardment from all side, what to think, how to behave. The guilt is everywhere. I'm neither the average careerist filled with hedonist dreams nor the progressivist academic. Where do I fit? I just want us to build a better world. To adhere to universal standards, to fully commit to better ethical beliefs, to transcend this madness. But I just sit here. Alone in a room. Trapped inside grey dreams, belonging nowhere - will I, too, end up in some remote cabin, rambling about the degression of humanity and its achievments. Probably.

i mmasturbated to that again

>>15773557
I enjoy anime more than reading.

>>15775353
I fapped earlier too. I always get paranoid that my landlord has cameras everywhere. Really though, if they put a camera in the bathroom, my room, or even the fucking hallway to the bathroom, that would be morally worse than me jackin' it, so I shouldn't feel in the wrong, but I still get hella noided after I let the nut spray.

>>15773557
i gave up halfway through crime and punishment

>>15773557
I read the first chapter of Phenomenology of Spirit backwards and it made more sense

>>15773557
I nutted in my own mouth a lot at a young age.

>>15773557
I call myself a Christian but I hate going to Church.
Also one of my favorite books of all time is about gay vampires and written by a female author.

>>15775072
have you read 3 square meals?
honestly a wild ride of a space opera, even if you skip the impregnation fetish sex scenes.

>>15773557
I'm struggling to find out who I am.
Sometimes I can be cold-hearted and want to tell others to man up. Other times I'm extremely sensitive and want everyone to get along.
This effects the way I read to a point where I have two different book collections, to each side of me.
I don't think I have multiple personality disorder, I just don't really know who I am yet.
I feel like a little insufferable bitch boy when I think about it. Preaching that people should grow the fuck up, and then an hour lager listen to Meghan Trainor and slurp sugar drink sodas like a child.
I don't know which side to commit to.

>>15777479
seems like you have a set of ideals, yet fail to live up to those ideals yourself
nothing too strange

>>15775952
Try listening to the audiobook it ain't half bad.

>>15776520
Say, that reminds me, what's Ann Rice's stance on trangender rights, BLM, and #metoo? She just seems like one of those people who should be opinionated and shit. She didn't die did she?

>>15773557
I want to confess my sins to a priest but I think some of them are too bad to tell another human
i.e masturbating to bestiality porn

I am the shipwreck with its scattered and soaked wood littering the ocean like a nest of roaches.
The water smothers me patiently, and it waits to feel my body on the ocean floor.
I am the captain.
I stand on my ship, never leaving its side, for tonight I sleep in a shark's stomach.
The tears and rain both hit my face, as I lay on the deck and wait to drown.
I am the thunder, I am the storm.
Hear me roar as I deafen all.
I conduct my orchestra as loud as possible and conclude with a violent smash.
I am washing the splinters from within my heart and I scream as it pumps.
I let my lungs fill with water as the broken bath tub leaks.

>I've had a huge fetish for cheerleaders ever since I was a kid. A few nights ago, I had a dream I was back at college. In the dream, I went to the field where the cheerleaders were practicing, removed my clothes, and began furiously pleasuring myself. I'm extremely sexually repressed, and I think it's an expression of my unconscious desires to go berserk in front of a group of hot cheerleaders.
>I like the LOTR movies but I quit the books after one hundred or so pages. I couldn't jive with all the songs, diversions, family trees, etc. I'm sure they're great books, but I just can't get into them.
>>15776520
Somewhat related. I've been a Catholic my whole life, but I stopped going to church because I can't stand the rampant pedophilia/sexual abuse.

>>15775210
41, sucker

>>15778012
oh wait 41 is my score. So, I answered yes to 59, sucker

>>15775253
To be fair, the latter is the greatest writer to grace the Latin language.

>>15777641
Okay, Lautremont, too much sugar for you.

>>15773568
Not a sin
>>15774971
You can, brother. Find someone to love. We can all get out of this. I did
>>15775006
You too
>>15775013
This is probably temporary, bro. You'll find someone
>>15775072
I know where you're coming from. Little less every day and you can get out of it
>>15775077
Read Plato
>>15775085
Happens to the best of us. Change your environment; try going outside for a walk
>>15775210
Get a hooker and extract confidence from the event
>>15775244
Don't read a whole book. Go read a chapter or something before you post again
>>15775253
Don't be ashamed. You're pursuing your goal nobly
>>15775346
Are you me?
>>15775353
You can stop
>>15775365
We all have guilty pleasures brother. I laugh a lot at Rick and Morty, though I never talk about it since the fans tend to be weird smelly people who actually buy the positivist wet dream. Use anime to liven up your spirit when you need some recharging
>>15775952
Stop reading for achievements. If it didn't resonate with you, maybe you should try again years from now or just leave it be
>>15775978
You still read it
>>15776001
But this implies you've stopped. Be proud of that
>>15776520
Maybe you hate your specific church or members therein
>>15777479
Read psychology
>>15777632
Priests have seen worse. Go get your relief and pardon
>>15777641
Are you ok?

>>15778094
>Priests have seen worse
Are you sure about that, even bestiality porn and the like? I've done some pretty fucked up stuff, although I do want to change and I have changed for the most part. I've been addicted to porn since I was very young, about 8 years old, and I grew up in a bad family, so it's not like all of this stuff is completely of my own accord and will.

I’m a leftist and my favorite video game of all time is age of empires three. Also I have dog eared every book I’ve ever read

>>15773557
i jerked off to a bakaudon manga

>>15778012
>>15775210
got a score of 89

>>15778220
91. what do i win?

I hated Robinson Crusoe.

>>15778288
social isolation and mockery

>>15773557
I unironically admire Adolf Hitler and can’t tell if I’ve stumbled onto a taboo truth or if I’ve just been trolling so long I’ve become a victim to myself.

>>15778309
what specifically do you admire?
if it's his charisma or ability to inspire that's fair enough. His speeches have been studied by even US presidents and complimenting him as an orator wasn't taboo at all until relatively recently.

>>15778335
I certainly admire his life story, which is the ultimate rags to riches tale in a sense.

But I would be lying if I said I didn’t also admire his worldview, his profound love for his people and his homeland, his fearless pursuit of their good against truly terrifying global forces that promised nothing but ill to Germany if resisted, and his capacity to deliver for his people before the hammer was dropped on him. I am not gay, Jewish, or crippled, so Nazi Germany looks like a paradise to me and now that the veil has lifted on it I can’t even see why people are supposed to pretend it was anything other than bliss.

>>15778385
He was an autistic manlet looser who off'd himself

>>15778394
This is why I can no longer take knee-jerk anti-Hitlerism seriously. How people are so quick to denigrate what was clearly one of the great men of history in the crudest and lamest terms is surefire proof of brainwashing and unreason.

>>15775210
93. Ouch.

>>15778295
That's not good, sir.

I cannot comprehend grammatical rules and their specific terms, nor can I even understand poetry and its terms in a manner that is non-intuitive.

>>15778547
Fuck I already made a mistake.

>>15778094
>Happens to the best of us. Change your environment; try going outside for a walk
My environment for jacking off is in bed. I wake up, groggy,half asleep, jacking off to whatever fever dream i'm in. This has been ongoing for ten years. I walk, I lift weights, I pray, but ultimately I need to masturbate even to sleep. When I try to quit, the longer I go without doing it, the better it feels to relapse. It makes me so satisfied to blow a huge load after edging for days. I'm corrupted and perverted. I realy dont think there's hope for me.

>>15778468
Hitler was an admirable man. The moralizing of enmity was a mistake. Great and virtuous men can be respected, even if you disagree with them.

I unironically read Percy Jackson and actually like ToA and happy that next book will have some focus on Nico and his lover.

I've finished my first Ken Follett novel yesterday and I loved it.
It's night on water btw.

I have repeatedly written erotica related to my degenerate fetishes over the years. Like, I started when I was 18 and in college and I've been doing it for more than ten years at this point. I desperately need to resist the urge to continue doing it, especially because I know I'm actually fairly talented at writing things that people who share my fetishes enjoy. I've been praised numerous times for how fapworthy my erotica is, and I, myself, have occasionally fapped to my own writing. I need to cut this out, since I'm trying to wean myself off erotica and porn in general.

>>15775210
74

>>15777479
Everyone is like this. Virtue is the midpoint of two extremes.

>>15773557
I've not read a book for enjoyment in months and I have literally no idea how to motivate myself to start. I even purchased a copy of ''the stranger'' to read and I've not even opened it. The worst part is I've been stuck in a hotel for over a week in New Zealand (managed covid isolation) and I still haven't been able to start. Please help me father I really don't know what to do.

>>15775210
49. I want to kill my self.

>>15774971
>>15775072
>>15775085
>>15775210
>>15775353
>>15776001
>>15777648
>>15778136
>>15778216
>>15778577
>>15778702
This helped me a lot, read it. Apply it. Trust me.
https://pmohackbook.org/easypeasy.pdf

>>15778888
I'm reading that now actually, gonna quit soon but I've been procrastinating on the last few chapters, and I still want to get the "there's nothing to fear" part straight in my mind before quitting.
t. >>15778136

>>15775210
>http://ricepuritytest.com/
72
I just want to be a good boy

>>15778898
It really works I can promise you that

>>15775210
If I sucked my own dick do I check that I both gave and received oral sex?

>>15775210
54 faggots

>>15775210
85 because I'm not a degenerate

Deep down, I just want intimacy with the opposite sex . I know I have a terrible personality, an ugly face, and a weird lifestyle that makes getting close to anyone highly implausible, but I can't remove the desire any more than I can will myself to grow taller.
I'm pretty young and maybe things will work out in the future but I can't shake the feeling that if I'm a loser now I'll probably continue to be one.

>>15779693
>Don't be fat (diet + exercise)
>Dress nice and get a decent haircut
>Stop having a weird lifestyle or at least pretend like you dont
>Have some normal hobbies
This won't turn you into gigachad but it will help. Dont expect to have girls falling for you in droves but you can probably find one who's nice enough. Go outside. Go to bars and talk to people. Above all, remember:
>high standards, low expectations

I've fallen out of love with novels but don't want to admit it. The non-fiction only existence feels so soulless but also so good.

I only like the mass from St. Patrick's. These off-brand masses just don't go as hard. Cardinal Dolan and Monsignor Richie just have this dank style. I watched some mass from D.C. this morning, and the guy leading the mass gave off pedo vibes.

>>15773557
I'm a pervert

I'm not gay but me and my friend used to suck each others dicks in highschool.
Yes i'm aware how silly and in denial that sounds.

>>15778216
>>15778888
I hate women and have no intention to stop

>>15779452
cope

>>15775210
43. i felt so ashamed answering those questions

>>15780479
why? sounds like you’ve been spooked

>>15775210
25 lol

>>15779693
I would love to hear more about your strange lifestyle

>>15775210
>97

>>15775210
54

>>15775210
34.
How degeneate am I?

>>15780945
Just as much of a degenerate as me, I got 34 too

I do, in fact, judge books by their covers.

>>15775210
15. Am I a degenerate?

>>15781168
I never thought as clearly about what I have done. Really gets that nogging joggin. The worst thing about it is the fact that I am one of the smallest offenders in my whole extended circle. Never done gangbang stuff, strips or fucked a nigger, yet here I am.

>>15775210
30

>>15780945
>>15781168
I also got 34, guess it's not that strange to have sex around here.

>>15778702
Would you mind to post something of your writing?

>>15781214
Are you really going to put so much stock in an online "purity test?"

>>15781288
Self-reflecting doesn't hurt.

I am unironically a bisexual paedophile/ephebophile. I am mainly attracted to boys and girls aged between 12-16 and also appreciate girls as low as 3, I have jerked off to kids from my apartment window and really want to fuck one. The only reason I never have is fear of jail and humiliation for my family, if I knew 100% I could get away with it I would. I have never watched child porn except two vids that were spammed here. Dont get me wrong, I also find adult women and men attractive too.

I will probably never go through with my fantasies and I know they are not healthy.

>>15781374
it's brave of you to admit that and i just hope you're willing to get help for such problems

>>15781445
That's the thing, if I go to a therapist they will report me to the police as a danger to the community. I am 26 and have had these urges for over 10 years at least and have never acted on them, just jerked off to pics of neighbours kids on Facebook and kids outside my apartment. The shame and guilt I feel afterwards has almost drove me to suicide.

>>15781478
hmm
https://pedo.help
https://www.asapinternational.org/index.html

there isn't much i can do from this position but i found some links where you might be able to get therapy for pedophilia.

>>15781540
https://www.virped.org/?__cf_chl_jschl_tk__=3f64e0bc1ed83efb9288df740e6bded5b24e39af-1593970198-0-AS7GmVeJma74Q4-IMxFDMNIqt-IXCfZpTNMH5pIbKJsq3YJBDKYA21oPNX4txenZPmZfB-TSjjQ5dmUuF2Zq5qhwd1jvIQV3x_TxFx1W7Dl2cT0p-2cGe0oiqE_a2GjSvC78jjBdahiyoYWppctvB1htE23QrwJ4Efitp_8HbUx2KUsEBJtpxBlWdrJq1kYlndSvn_M9X_ydZ41VSS7lV0pDW8SPbpnGLwPBeCQbjdBU9kEAfIbyKq0no7LGxtW70vFPEiFJeDHkr2Jwi9aJWZs

forgot this one

>>15781478
Ask for chemical castration. It is the onyl thing which will prevent it while also giving you a peace of mind.

>>15781540
>>15781572
Thanks for these, they seem very helpful.

>>15781602
If I can't get help any other way then I will go that route.

>>15773557
Dropped War and Peace at page 120, wasn't really feeling it, the characters didn't interest me much besides Andrey (forgot his name, but it's the guy that hates his pregnant wife because she's too futile), does it get better?

My judgement on a book oddly depends on what the author looks like.
I saw an introductory to hegel on amazon, was interested until I scrolled down and saw a pic of the author.
He's your run-of-the-mill millenial hipster faggot with tattoos and shit. I decided not to buy
>>15775952
I gave up not even quarter-way reading demons
something about his writing just pissed me off
>>15775210
90

>>15782241
this is him btw

I don't enjoy the act of reading non-fiction, but it feels quite good to realize the amount of knowledge I get from it. Is like I only enjoy it in retrospective

>>15782241
>>15782252
That makes sense desu.

>>15773557
I come here to find good books I can download as audiobooks and listen.
been doing that for the last 2 years and heard about 90 book total

>>15773557
I have an irrational hatred of fantasy and sci-fi due to a friend of mine hounding me to read that crap for years. I lie about liking books I slog through just so I don't get shat on for not liking them.

>>15777641
I love $uicideboy$ too!

>>15778874
The stranger is cool

>>15781302
Only when done in an honest spirit. This test is not helpful, and says very little of a person's true moral character. You could be completely pure by these standards and still a hateful asshole

>>15781478
>if I go to a therapist they will report me to the police as a danger to the community
Not necessarily true. You have to find a therapist who specializes in this stuff though. Friend of a friend is a therapist who works with a lot of pedophiles.

>>15780628
damn you bastard, i thought i was hot shit with 95 but you beat me...

>>15773557
I read a lot of novels (right now I'm reading for example "In search of lost time) but I know very little of poetry and philosopy, and I'm not sure where should I start

>>15775210
84

I miss being in love more than anyone I ever loved, and I don't know if I haven't fallen in love in years because I just haven't been lucky enough to meet someone to fall in love with or if something cracked in my mind and the last time I fell in love is the last time I'll fall in love and it terrifies me.

Also I used to pride myself on my attention span being able to read on buses and trains and shit but now I can't read 5 pages without getting distracted by my phone or whatever.

the office (US) is a pretty funny show

>>15783312
Not an argument. Purity is still a relevant measure. Downplaying it to feel better isn't the way to go.

>>15782255
u r not alone

>>15775210
I could only say yes to one. I'm Christian.
It's so sad I'm laughing.

>>15784613
Dude, for your phone I suggest the "Forest" app. Check it out

>>15781280
It's all weight gain and fat girl related, still want to see it?

>>15775210
68

>>15786604
Which one ruined your perfect score?

>>15786604
you never masturbated?

>>15775210
100 here

>>15775210
97. Get on my level degenerates.

>>15786259
>Purity is still a relevant measure
To whom? You guys all come to this shitty website too, obviously purity can't be that important to you.

>>15773557
I hurt someone who used to be my friend. What a stupid joke it all is.

I probably don’t understand Derrida but I pretend that I do anyway

>>15775210
How the hell can you not say yes to 60%+ of this? Most of that shit just happens. Ya'll need to go outside.

>>15779693
I have all your problems except I’m normal looking. Grils are dtf for one night and then I never speak to them again. I have “friends” whom I ghost constantly. I genuinely hate interacting with these people and pray for Yellowstone super eruption

>>15788764
You can face degeneracy without getting swallowed by it. You can also abandon it after realizing your faults. And even from a pure perspective, you need to know what to fight. This "you're here" non-sense is the same kind of shit like the anti-Ted-kvetching towards his supporters for using the internet for their benefit.

>>15787648
Will check it out, thanks.

>>15775210
27. I'm unsure if this is meant to be a good score, but recalling all those memories makes me feel somewhat like a degenerate. The truth is if you've had one long term sexual partner, you could check off half of these without a problem.

>>15788848
Whatever you need to believe to keep up the illusion, bro

>>15778385
I've said this before - had the war ended on different terms, his story would be one of the most inspirational in all of history.

>>15788941
Dito.

>>15788751
I'm curious, what questions did you have to answer yes to?

I consider The Young Pope and The New Pope the best television of the last decade and look forward to the third and final season, father.

I got halfway through Crime and Punishment and I'm just bored. It pains me to pick it up. To me, it's just the ramblings of a narcissist who thinks he is above the world. But perhaps I'm a little too immature to understand it.

I love Murakami and I've read all of his books

The only way I can get motivated to do anything is by making it some grandiose conflict between me and fate, or if I have someone to beat. This is getting harder as the averageness of my life becomes more apparent and other people become more amicable and less outwardly competitive.

>>15791002
Do you also imagine fight scenes or people cheering you on or otherwise being amazed with you when you listen to music?

>>15791610
Y...yes.
Often I imagine myself coming from behind to win a sporting event or something. The few times I have won things in my life are some of my happiest memories.

>>15791634
Keep finding new things to do. Keep pushing the people you know into new and interesting things, so long as they want to do them. Having the perspective that YOU are the hero and that reality warps around you isn't necessarily a bad thing. That sort of motivation is rare, and you should use it to its fullest potential. Fuck average; everyone dies eventually, always keep that in mind.

>>15791667
Thanks anon, it really has been helpful at times while leading to an unnecessary amount of drama at others, I think I need to find friends who are on this wavelength for me to exploit it to its full potential.

>>15787652
Yes

I gave up on Portrait 90 pages in, and have no desire to read Ulysses or Finnegans Wake. Dubliners is a masterpiece no doubt, but I find the rest of Joyce dull

>>15788808
I liked this as a primer into his thought
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/11297218-derrida

>>15775210
30, but I've only had two long-term sexual partners, so don't really consider myself a degenerate.

>>15790947
But anon, that's the whole point of the novel. You should have some context of the nihilist movement emerging within the Russian intelligensia at the time before reading the book, and remember, Dostoyevksy is critiquing Raskolnikov

>>15792316
Not the person you're replying to, but what should I read to get this context? It feels like everyone on this board except me has read virtually every book in existence.

>>15792428
I got lucky by studying Imperial Russia in high school, but just read the start of the "themes" section for C&P on Wikipedia for a brief overview of Dostoy's inspiration for the novel.

>>15773557
I fapped 700 times last month.

>>15792668
you did not fap 23 times a day every day

>>15775210
9

Am I doomed for hell?

>>15775210
63, hornlets

>>15773557
I'm a female I want a cute gf so bad but they're all ugly butch dykes or retarded trannies its not fair.

>>15792717
You're never doomed before you're dead

>>15794107
I’ll be your qt gf. I’m a man though so you have to accept me for who I am

>>15794107
Butterfag is lonely too. Hit her up.

>>15775253
Try aquinas. I've heard his latin is pretty simple as long as you have a handle on his philosophical terminology.

>>15792428
Everybody on this board pretends that they've read virtually every book in existence. Most of us probably have actually read crime and punishment though

>>15792316
I know it is. It reminds me of Catcher in the Rye, which is my favourite book. However, Crime and Punishment just isn't written in a way that keeps me interested. I'm just finding it incredibly boring.

>>15795787
which translation did you read?

>>15775210
89
Also who the fuck wrote this shit - reads like those screenshots of horny Indian guys on Facebook and shit

>>15781374
Thanks for posting, Anon. Might want to go with chemical castration. If it was 20 years ago I'd say go to therapy but they'll lock you up quicker than you can blink.

>>15773557
I don't read as much as I say I do, and I'm still a coomer despite telling others not to be

>>15775210
96, stay fucked you sinners with no concept of virtue

>>15797227
Reminder that posting gigachad is an expression of repressed homosexuality

>>15786604
Based, virtus and pudicita are good don't let people convince you otherwise. Though celibacy after a maximum age of 30 is a sin

>>15797244
I have a negative view of all reaction pictures anyway. And no, I have a neutral view on homoeroticism, though I have a negative view of homosexuality

>>15794107
it's not my fault I'm an ugly dyke don't be rude please

I have an out of control femboy fetish.

>>15797728
me too but aren’t those trannies in your pic