/lit/ - Literature

for me, its gentle femdom

only option is to kill yourself

>>15527167
Castration

>>15527167
i'm the same as you. I wish i commited suicide a long time ago instead of learning to live with it.

Are you capable of doing something enough times until you get sick of it? I can binge and get my fill for a while, be it porn or food.

>>15527233
No it just gets more depraved

>>15527167
NoFap for at least a month. At that point you will want to dominate and fuck any presentable woman you see. After you do that just make sure your sexual deviancy doesn't redevelop to problematic levels.

>>15527250
I haven’t been able to do nofap for longer then a week in almost 6 years. How do I do it successfully?

>>15527167
Read Alcibiades speech about Socrates in the Symposium and try to follow that.

>>15527167
Plebs are filtered by giantess vore.

I'm thinking about going on anti-depressants just to destroy my sex drive. I don't want it. It makes me feel base and gross. I'm tired of jerking off and I'm tired of sexual fantasies. I just want to live and be a person separate from this primal urge to impregnate every remotely attractive woman I see. This biological instinct is no longer useful. I don't want kids, let me be at peace.

>>15527282
Plebs are filtered by hard vore.

>>15527167
I edge for 7 hours, to everything. I turn off my lights, lay down on bed, open up exhentai, type in lolicon cumflation gangrape pregnant ugly bastard and begin to open 300 tabs, the novelty only motivates my dopamine to go higher. Finally I ejaculate out of exhaustion to a blank page accidentally and proceed to beat my dick to a pulp for the next 3 hours until sperm no longer comes out.

I read Your Brain on Porn to try and fix my problem and it covers the problem with Porn Addiction that coombrains face. If you plan on reading it, don’t expect a bunch of tips and tricks on how to not touch your dick. While it does have them they are all superficial and build up to the idea of not masturbating = more sex with women which is not why many of us need to read it. It does a really good job on explaining why we get addicted to stuff and why we feel bad about it, and how we can rewire our brains to fight that addiction.

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>>15527323
omfg u guys r sooooo crazy.... like srsly thats enough interwebz for today o_0

>>15527174

Stop it. I haven't reached that point in my life yet.

With the virus, the riots, the shitty town that I live in, this is all going too fucking slow.

But I feel nothing from this. I don't have my own room after my parents lost their jobs. My Dad's gone senile anyways. My Mom one-upped me as a surrogate husband after the mistress affair. And the only leads that I have in my life in terms of guidance are from my Math Teacher, my Writing Workshop Professor, my Orthodox colleague, and my psychiatrist. All they're all but gone now.

You can't make me feel anything from this. Don't even try. I won't get it in my life.

>>15527310
This but so I don’t imagine what it’s like to live a shrunken life stuck between the sweaty ass crack of every woman I see.

I’m not even kidding. I was suicidal in my teenage years but I guess I’ve gradually separated that element of me from what is see as me, but that part of me still seems to take control every day when I jerk off.

I think this fetish has ruined all chances with woman, I have no confidence ever when facing them because I want to be crushed literally by their ass. I’m not even bad looking wtf is wrong with me.

>>15527350
>My Mom one-upped me as a surrogate husband after the mistress affair.
Can you explain?

>>15527241
This. I've started going full into loli.

>>15527323
So what are the major out takes out of that if you could summarize it in a greentext?

>>15527167
Kill a kike or nigger bitch and coom on them.

>>15527345
idkwhattodowithlife :3

>try to quit porn
>do all right for a week using my memory of past near encounters and girls from my classes
>memories run out because I'm still a virgin with little experience and drift back to porn

Holy fuck I lowkey wish this shit was illegal so I could stop watching it, I'm god damn legitimate addict

>>15527350
>you're so silly, anon!

watch some incelcore music videos. I used to think they were cringe, but they motivate me to stay pure. Or just embrace that hedonistic lifestyle. You can program your brain to get used to anything. Keep jerking off.

>>15527366

During the winter break after my first semester, my Dad had an affair with his mistress and threw my sister and I under the bus, accusing me of looking at the mistress's kids instagram accts and calling me gay or a pedo for it.

The year onwards, my Dad kinda just became recluse after dealing so much with my Mom and it got to the point that my Mom tried to make me her husband by having me be her confidante and BS. This only happened in December of 2018 and stopped a few months afterwards. By October of 2019, after telling her that I didn't love her, she said that If I didn't love her, then love didn't matter.

Is that better for you, anon?

>>15527377
WE SHOUODNT HAVE THIS THE GOVERNMENT DHOUODBFUCKING BAN IT. WHAT KIND IF RETARDED SOCIETY THINK YOUNG MEN ARE GOING TO END UP WELL ADJUSTED WHEN YOU GIVE THEM AN OCEAN OF FREELY ACCEPTABLE PORN OF SOME OF THE MOST DEPRAVED AND AUTISTIC VARIETY THAT THEY CAN SPEND THEIR TEENAGE AMYEARS AND IBTO THEIR EARLY 20S NOW, AND I ASSUME THIS WILL CONTINUE UNTIL I MANAGE A HERCULEAN AMOUNT IF STRENGTH AND BREAK FREE FROM IT FINALLY IR GET A GF THAT CAN FUCK ME INSTEAD WHICH WOUOD BE JUST AS MIRACULOUS.

WE ARE FUCKED OUR MODERN SOCIIETY IS LITERALLY MENTALLY ILL AND IT HAS LITERALLY MADE ALL OF US MENTALLY ILL

Why TF is this on /lit/

>>15527403
Damn anon, that sounds autistic. At least your family have human emotions, mine are just comedic background characters from a Kafka novel spouting slogans.

>>15527414

Because I am autistic. I was diagnosed at 5. In addition to being diagnosed with schizoaffective at 19.

>>15527410
I want to die

>>15527377
So the good ol' government should ban everything you don't like? Why can't you just kill youself and end your suffering?

>>15527434
Porn only leads to mental illness. If you regularly jerk off to porn you are mentally ill.

Start writing and fill that niche, anon.

>>15527455
I tried that and wrote this.

>I want to be shrunken and eaten by a beautiful and voluptuous blasian woman, savoring my deliciously weak white boy taste as she slowly swallows me whole, groaning with sexual pleasure as I pass down her throat, and then licking her thick luscious lips. She will smugly look down at my tiny white boy bones when she poops them out and then look at her mighty ass and laugh ferociously knowing I have joined where I belong, as part of her chocolate oriental ass.

>Yes I do want to be a tiny speck on the asshole ring of a chubby and gassy Latina gilf. How could you tell?

>Why yes I do want to be the fart plug for a mid 30s sjw with colored hair and a massive cellulite ass, how could you tell?

>>why yes I do want to be a hundredth the size of a millimeter and have a giant Jewish woman laugh at and bully me, knowing where I am but only able to see me with a microscope, just breathing her moist air on me or just laughing hysterically with her mouth directly in front of me.

>>15527403
you married your mother?

>>15527174
>gentle femdom
Based taste

>>15527434
>So the good ol' government should ban everything you don't like?
nice strawman

>>15527475

Jesus, no. My parents are still together.

Do you have any idea what SURROGATE means, do you? What about emotional incest?

>>15527371
>variety and novelty leads to overconsumption which in turn brings densensitization from other things that would bring us pleasure.
>life’s natural rewards can no longer compete and interferes with our daily life once we see porn as a replacement for stimulation
>ruins your reward circuitry and demotivates you to approach long term goals because spending hours surfing videos and pictures to find the perfect one to finish keeps your dopamine elevated for abnormally long periods due to no physical limits
>Hypofrontality, the instant gratification with porn viewing over other activities reduces gray matter which decreases motivation. It affects your prefrontal cortex whenever you give in to it over another activity. Giving you impulse control problems and focus/attention problems
>Dysfunctional stress, your brain registers the pleasure porn gives you as the greatest so when you feel stressed (even to the minor degree) it leads to cravings and reinforces powerful sensitised pathways
>Deltafos B, is a mental switch that sets of a lot of changes in the brain. If porn is what makes your dopamine spike, Deltafos B production will increase it’s production in regard to you viewing porn now. This gives you urges to repeat.
>Decline in dopamine sensitivity leads to decreased risk taking, inability to focus (brain fog), lack of motivation, apathy
>When you remove a source of pleasure (edging/porn) your brain searches for new ways, use this to learn new activities/hobbies
>Cells that fire together, wire together. If you masturbate in a certain position at a certain time after maybe a certain activity (exercising) your brain will wire the memory and masturbating together. So whenever you are done exercising after a night workout maybe, your first thought will be to masturbate.
>The primitive part of your brain doesn’t know what porn is, it just knows it arouses you and makes you feel good so it will regard it as important
>Having a balance in your brains reward circuitry is indispensible to maintain or achieve a healthy, emotional and lifelong mental wellbeing

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>>15527403
Damn pal, you drew one bad fucking hand in the game of life.

>>15527493
i have coomed every single day this year, is the damage irreversible? how long must i not coom or look at porn to be back to normal?

>>15527489
>Do you have any idea what SURROGATE means
No i searched it up and the first thing I thought of was sexual intimacy between mother and son. You can imagine how depraved I am, right?

I listened to this song almost every day to get me through no nut november, it's surprisingly effective at keeping your libido down.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hv-ODnbbP7U

lol i've just accepted that I am never gonna get a girlfriend
just accept it and it gets so much easier. I don't feel bad about anything anymore. its just my way of getting along

>>15527167
Intermittent fasting helped me. The hunger of fasting every other day makes me not even think about cooming.

>>15527528
How does that work? Do you just not eat for a day? What’s the thought process behind it?

>>15527518
>the damage irreversible?
No, one thing that the author makes clear and consistently reinforces is that the brain is plastic (neuroplasticity). We wired our brains to enjoy porn and use it as an alternative to physical sex. The novelty from the sea of internet porn has only made it worse, but those are two seperatr problems.

You can teach yourself to not look at porn and not use it as your main source of pleasure but it takes time. The book talks something about the chaser effect, basically when you stop using porn your brain is in search for it and is wondering why you stopped it. This leads your brain to rationalize a relapse and why a lot of people give in, because your brain sees it as a need for your survival. You have to just fight it and it takes time. Try going 2 weeks semen retention and then try going a month, masturbate with your imagination but don’t look at porn at all.

>>15527515

What do you want me to do about it? Wait until the dorms reopen?

At least I'm working. But I don't know for how long.

>>15527549
>Try going 2 weeks semen retention and then try going a month, masturbate with your imagination but don’t look at porn at all.
are there downsides to never cooming? should i try cooming using my imagination once every 2 weeks?

>>15527538
Fasting generally helps boost your metabolism. It's also a good way to moderate your calorie intake. I usually do this when I see myself gaining weight (quarantine played a big part in that).

>>15527563
>are there downsides to never cooming?
Emotionally and for your mental wellbeing, there is no legitimate answer since research is almost impossible.
But not cooming leads to testicular cancer apparently?
>2 weeks
Sounds like a good plan, maybe try increasing it down the road. The urges are strong, but remember it’s your brain trying to get you to feed it porn since you caused it to recognize it as indesirable. Your goal is to try and cut your addiction to porn as one of your sources of pleasure/satisfaction.

>>15527591
>6'1" lanklet
>Need to eat like 3000 calories a day to gain weight
Trying to shove as much (healthy) stuff down your gullet as you can every day is surprisingly hard, you always feel bloated as fuck and need to shit every few hours.

>>15527489
But you have thought about it, haven't you?