/lit/ - Literature

>>15419243
N

>>15419243
O.

>>15419243

Daily reminders to /lit/ that neoliberalism is good, god is either false or unworthy of worship and therefore it is correct not to worship any deity at all events, and "monolingual" is completely ineffective as an insult when its target is a native English speaker.

nice bait, retard

>>15419243
Misunderstanding a joke is more damning than misunderstanding a sincere point because understanding the humor of a joke always requires a higher degree of literacy, whereas sincere points generally come explicitly packaged with everything you need to understand them.

>>15419243
G

Egg NOG

>>15419306
Something real nogs can never drink

Have you made somebody smile today?

I've always felt out of touch with people but I could really feel it now. It's not a feeling of despair but of appreciation and gratitude. I'm glad I was never sucked into the fetishism, the partying, the drugs, the irresponsible sex, the life destroying choices many make, as I grew up and into the man I've become today.
I could see the consequences of this lifestyle catching up with many during this pandemic. I don't feel the least bit of sympathy for any of them either. You all thought you could live the way you do and not face the patient doom. YOLO and all that bullshit, right? What does it matter when you feel so damn good in this current moment?

The pandemic was earned and it will be here to last and it will be even worse then cancer, then war. The effects will reach out to so many generations of people in time. Maybe it will be a learning experience, enough to change your ways. Or maybe you'll learn nothing at all and continue on with the entropy, maybe you'll be doomed to repeat the same deteriorating decisions until you have no identity, no shame, no soul, no race, and no purpose outside hedonism. This is a pivotal moment in history that will define the world. There is no going back. Make your choice/

>>15419349
No.

>>15419271
Here's a site more your speed. You could even circle jerk about how virtuous you are!

>>15419375
>I've always felt out of touch with people but I could really feel it now. It's not a feeling of despair but of appreciation and gratitude. I'm glad I was never sucked into the fetishism, the partying, the drugs, the irresponsible sex, the life destroying choices many make
I've read this kind of opinion so often that now I can't tell if people are being sincere or satirical about it.

>>15419471
I'm being quite sincere. I've never had sex or did drugs or drinked in all twenty six years of my life. Never even got a tattoo either. I abstain from all of it because it's wrong.

>>15419501
What's wrong with sex?

>>15419515
Unless it's for procreation, you're enslaving yourself to lust and to a form of control. You lose your interest in things and creativity. There has never been anyone named intellectual in history that has freely expended seminal fluids. Newton, Tesla, even Hitler, had practiced abstinence and achieved landmarks in history.

>>15419515
If you rearange the spelling it spells ex's, which sounds like the plural of "x" in the english language. and x classically means negative, bad, or dead.

>>15419243
Same thing as yesterday. I'm stuck, don't feel like doing anything that might lead to improvement of self.

I feel like I'm currently in limbo. I get my exam results next month and I feel like only if I do well will I be worthy and should improve myself. My reasoning is, why should I improve myself if I might be proven a failure next month anyway?
I'm trying to snap out of it but it makes doing nothing really easy.

I really hope I do well in the exam so I can move on with my life, I've taken it twice already.

For me, this test means everything because I studied for over 6 months for it this time, put my all into it, had friends, family rooting for me. After I came back from the exam I was distraught with my performance, and I told myself I would have to kill myself if I get a bad grade.
I really feel like I might follow through with that, it just pains me so deeply that working so hard is not going to pay off for anything, even though I like to think about myself as a decently smart guy with a good work ethic, I feel wrongly done, I really don't deserve this.

I really feel helpless, this whole thing feels like a hurdle I can't pass when so many others have done so before me, it just makes me feel fucking helpless

>>15419558
>There has never been anyone named intellectual in history that has freely expended seminal fluids.
This is not only empirically wrong but it's empirically wrong in the majority of cases

Im tapering my opiod usage during quar. im very scared of being sober. it will be soon that i will be on the week of trace dosages and effectively done. hoping that it will leave me balanced in my motivation and inspiration instead of giant waves of anxiety and elation. has anybody quit drugs? can you give me any help / motivation / tips?

>>15419613
i've quit amphetamine several times
taper slowly and understand + accept that life will not be enjoyable during the withdrawal, it'ls not an accurate example of sober life and that the suffering you go through is going to be very worth it, since you're used to being on drugs it'll feel strange but you'll get used to it, as you get used to anything else that goes on for long

it's very good to distract yourself with stuff and have someone beside you supporting you in the journey, i could never make it out alone

>>15419613
>>15419641
simple stuff like sleeping, exercise, good food is going to help as well but you probably already know that and don't need me to tell you
30mins of intense cardio a day is going to do a lot of good

>>15419558
Ah, another "my natural urge for sex is dirty and wrong and i'm going to pretend I don't want it" person.
I'm not saying you have to go full on hedonist but come on man sex is important for happiness and health.

>>15419243
i genuinely wish the left could forever leave marx and his camp behind and instead develop a cogent, future thinking emancipatory politic that wasn't bogged down by overwrought theory and the happenings of the 20th century. a guy practically has practically no choice but to become a monarchist pig farmer

>>15419575
Then name five of those so called intellectuals

>>15419655
My beliefs transcend my wants and I am strengthened by them.

>>15419672
Goethe, Schopenhauer, Wagner, Nietzsche, Jung, Einstein. All of them extremely based, highly creative as well as spiritual, and yet-- they had sex. Please stop romanticizing your copes it is rather embarrassing.

>>15419375
Please shut up

>>15419672
I'm wondering, please be honest...
How many times have you jerked it to porn in your life?

Music is playing,
Life’s not so bad

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XHHfvdAqvn8

>>15419702
>In addition, Einstein declared that his wife should not expect any sexual intimacy from him, should not “reproach” him in any way; should stop talking to him if he requested it; should leave his bedroom or study immediately without protest if requested.

Wagner's only achievements was opera and music about sex, nothing that has benefited the common man or lived on past his name.

Nietzsche's beliefs lived on past his name and resonated in some political groups, I admit that but he eventually died from syphilis. His degenerate ways eventually caught up to him.

I don't know enough about the rest. But it does not negate the correlation of abstinence and creativity.

>>15419785
Don't take that quote out of context you cretin, Einstein didn't have sex with his wife because he didn't like her, he was otherwise a massive womaniser.

>>15419641
I moved back in with my mother recently to save up to move to another city and there is no one around me, and i cannot rely on my mother for support. I have a few friends, but the problem is for me that i have kept my drug usage a secret from everyone i know for the past 4 years and believe they would feel betrayed by my revealing that ive been a drug addict this whole time, but it might feel very unencumbering to do so. I would either need to stay at their house or talk on the phone (i really dont want to admit this over the phone) as to my progress. At least during this time, its hard to find activities that fully engage me if my mind thinks i need to have a fix. the internet and jogging are alright, but stuff like watching movies or reading, or listening to music are too passive if im wanting of a fix. you have any recommendations for activities (particularly at this moment where you cannot go out much)?

>>15419785
>>In addition, Einstein declared that his wife should not expect any sexual intimacy from him, should not “reproach” him in any way; should stop talking to him if he requested it; should leave his bedroom or study immediately without protest if requested.
That was because he was having multiple mistresses lmao

>>15419810
Lmao this lil virgin really going on about being virtuous and then goes and tells a bare faced lie-one we can easily google. Massive hypocrite.

>>15419785
>I don't know enough about the rest
pseud alert

>>15419806
it's possible they already know

>>15419796
>>15419810
And he was also a jew, which I could have gone after. I'm not going to defend him. But now that you got me looking him up, I actually found something that i'll have to look into later. Maybe i'll post it later if the thread is still up.

Why did the thread about anime traits in novels get deleted? It wasn't that shitty. Or, if it was shitty, why are there still numerous threads up on the board that are substantially shittier than that one was?

>>15419887
>And he was also a jew, which I could have gone after
Listen here little virgin, I don't care if Einstein was a member of whatever group of people you don't like, you made the claim:
>There has never been anyone named intellectual in history that has freely expended seminal fluids.
This is one of the most objectively retarded things i've ever heard. There are more great men who were hypersexual than virgins. I notice you didn't answer my porn question, we all know why, I can smell your shameful habits from here.
Hell even if you want to argue there's a correlation, there's also a correlation between homosexuality and literary greatness, you don't seem to be extolling the virtues of gay sex though? Oh yeah it's just a cope I forgot.

>>15419920
Mods have weird standards. This board is just fucked in general though with the sheer amount of bad threads, no idea why i'm still here.

I live in a crowded urban city and I'm sick of noise, degeneracy* and crime. I have enough saved to put 50% down on a house and I'm researching some northern states right now including Montana, North Dakota, Wisconsin, and Michigan (upper peninsula). I know I'll love a more secluded lifestyle but I'm 28 and I want to eventually start a family and have kids. I want to have kids because I think the world is going to shit and I want to raise metaphorical (maybe literal someday) warriors who can swim against the tide and make it a better place. My first worry is that I will have very few options for finding someone to marry in these areas because they are more secluded. Do I use dating apps? Do I need to join a church community? Should I try to marry a girl where I reside now and then convince her to move with me? How do I find a girl who isn't one of the degenerates who I'm trying to escape from? If my wife is a degenerate then my kids will most likely end up degenerates as well. Do I just need to settle with a potential degenerate and accept that I might end up with shitty kids and that having shitty kids is better than no kids at all? I could also just not marry or have kids at all, accept this world for what it is, and sink into the abyss of private reading.

*including but not limited to: nanny-state dependents, sexually promiscuous, social media zombies, netflix-worshippers, fast-food junkies, corporate slaves

>>15419933
>There are more great men who were hypersexual than virgins.
If that were true, where's the intellectuals of our time? Long after sexual liberation? Is neil deGrasse Tyson one of those people?

>I notice you didn't answer my porn question, we all know why,
Why should I indulge you? Do you expect me to admit i'm actually a pervert just like the clichés in all leftist media? I'm one year, two months and counting on my abstinence streak and before this, it was seven months. I've been practicing this for years and don't plan to ejaculate again until it's into a woman ready to have my baby. My sexual habits never veered into anything beyond solo and lesbian. Like I said, my beliefs have strengthened me to the point that it transcends my wants.

>you don't seem to be extolling the virtues of gay sex though?
Why gay? Is that your fetish?

>>15420033
Okay you're getting one more reply mr shameless lying virgin, i'm bored now.
>If that were true, where's the intellectuals of our time? Long after sexual liberation? Is neil deGrasse Tyson one of those people?
Why are you obsessed with individual personalities? If you look at science and technology in general more progress is being made than ever before, if you really want le intellectuals though just go look at a list of nobel prize winners or something idk who cares.
>Why should I indulge you? Do you expect me to admit i'm actually a pervert just like the clichés in all leftist media? I'm one year, two months and counting on my abstinence streak and before this, it was seven months. I've been practicing this for years and don't plan to ejaculate again until it's into a woman ready to have my baby. My sexual habits never veered into anything beyond solo and lesbian. Like I said, my beliefs have strengthened me to the point that it transcends my wants.
I asked because you were proud of being a virgin, but I knew you were not one in spirit. Sitting in front of your computer and tugging yourself off to other people having sex is far "dirtier" than actually having sex. And your tradwife fantasy will simply not happen btw, unless you're happy to marry a woman with a lot more experience than you. Will you consider her a whore or will you forgive her because she was on an "abstinence streak"?
>Why gay? Is that your fetish?
Fucking read what I said you brainlet, i'm showing you how your thinking is baseless and can be easily inverted to argue for homosexual supremacy.

Man can withstand much punishment

>>15420123
>If you look at science and technology in general more progress is being made than ever before
I dont think so, something went wrong around the 60s or 70s. The only field that has been impressive since then is information technology

>>15420123
>Why are you obsessed with individual personalities?
Because that's what was stated in the original post. You're deflecting to the technology we have at hand. There is no more intellectuals after the liberation.

>Sitting in front of your computer and tugging yourself off to other people having sex is far "dirtier" than actually having sex
Why are you so infatuated with me touching myself? Anyways they're both the same to me. You waste vital fluids meant for creation and giving life.

>And your tradwife fantasy will simply not happen btw, unless you're happy to marry a woman with a lot more experience than you.
I'll never stop looking until I find a virgin like me. If I end up alone, then so be it. I'll never settle for anything less.

>>15419243

Cancer. Cancer.
Cancer of the soul.

Digital thought

>>15419243
Those truth which I accept as self-evident form the basis for the calculus of my reason. My own axioms being known to me, all possible conclusions thereby can be formulated. Thus, my interpretations of an experience are predictable. Somewhat reflexively, the axioms of my reason have also been acquired by experience and my new experiences are therefore interpreted by a perspective granted by a prior experience. If my mind is sufficiently keen, novel axioms can arise only from novel experiences. Hence the necessary condition of a sufficient variety of experiences for wisdom, where wisdom is the set of tautologies constructed from axioms of experience.

>>15419243
I had a nocturnal emission three nights. I was literally giving my 15 year old sister head and she had like a 4-inch cock. What the fuck does that even mean? I don't even have a fetish for traps and I'm not particularly attracted to my sister. My wet dreams are always so fucked up when I do nofap.

>>15419243
Been thinking too damn hard about God, life, morality, rights, etc. I just want to enjoy my last year as a senior, not overdose on philosophy and theology and all these big brain cerebral subjects. I think that I am reading myself stupid. Help.

Bump.

>>15420550
Read some fiction

Exhausted socius
Weaver of disparate threads gone
Fabric untouched and fraying

Plod, march alone
Exact solitary discipline
Throw a stoic stare at fate

>>15419349
I don't think I've made anyone smile in a while actually

I feel as if my mind is an infinite ocean, and I am the captain of a boat in it. There are no landmarks to gauge distance, no way to know if I've already been to this part of the ocean. I ask questions but receive no answers. I feel trapped by my thoughts. I am obsessed with a pursuit of knowledge, and feel as if whatever I know is a drop compared to the vast ocean of what I don't know. There is no way to compare my knowledge to another person, I am the only one on this ship, and I have yet to see another one. I read something, and I feel stupid because I don't understand it. On my journey to understand it, I run into things even more nuanced and specific and despite learning a small amount of information, I am met with a new seemingly infinite expanse. I am a fool if I think I will ever know the answer to everything.

>>15419375
Your personal life decisions are fine. But your smug sense of superiority is absolutely pathetic. This post is exactly why I respect people who've messed up and learned from their mistakes to become stronger people over holier-than-thou dilettantes like you. The fact you feel a sense of schadenfreude towards these "lesser" people says it all. Spend the rest of your life in your solipsistic bubble, at least you'll feel good about yourself.

I’m tired of constructing elaborate fantasies of my future and none of it happening. What do I do

>>15420204
>I'll never stop looking until I find a virgin like me
Don't worry anon, there are plenty of virgins like you on this website.

>>15420776
You're not stupid, please don't beat yourself up like that. The fact that you even want to try and learn should be enough argument against that. If you feel overwhelmed by things maybe try and take smaller bites; just study a few things at a time. I know it can be frustrating to see all of the things you want to know and experience in one lifetime, and see it all out of your reach. But nobody has ever had it all figured out.
>There is no way to compare my knowledge to another person
You could talk to us about it if you wanted to. There's probably at least one other anon who might share your interests and be able to help you figure things out and understand them better.

The negativity and depravity I’m surrounded by I know to be projection

>>15419375
teach us, master incel

>>15421211
Thank you, I know that realistically speaking even if I could understand things completely the moment I saw them it would still take several lifetimes to possibly understand even a small fraction of all that exists. But for some reason I still yearn for it. I guess attempting the impossible is just the great curse of humanity

Fuck all the faggot Baby Boomer Catholics. Fuck them and fuck all their faggot priests. They have ruined the Church, with their fucking trash art and their fucking trash music and their absolute filthy degeneracy. Fuck the Silent Generation Catholics too, they were just as faggoty. Fuck their trash. All those disgusting faggot priests. Either they were shitty or they were pedophiles. They have besmirched and defiled the grandeur and beauty of the One True Church. I hate them so much. I would love to put all the faggot Baby Boomer Catholics into a camp and just starve them to death. Fuck them. That's what they deserve.

>>15421328
Well that's not very Christian of you.

>>15419375
What? If you think anyone 'normal' is feeling any lasting sense of psychological despair or damage due to this pandemic you are out of touch. This thing will end and even if things do not return completely to normal people will continue to live their hedonistic lives as though this thing never even happened. People right now may feel agitated, perhaps upset they cannot go outside. Maybe they are developing a bit of cabin fever, or maybe they entertain some anxiety about the future. They do not at all feel remorse, despair, regret, or humiliation. They are incapable of feeling anywhere near close to the dread you feel on a daily basis. Inside, they know things will be fine - because they will be, for them.

>>15421365
Very much this. In most of Europe you can go out into nature. Some people act as if they are in despair (most of them to sell or advertise something). But all in all the only thing people worry about is business (and of course that Germany will never go broke again, because you know...).

I read some YA fantasy not expecting much but it was actually damn good. So good that even after reading 3 unrelated books afterwards I still cant stop thinking about it. Damn.

>>15420547
It doesnt mean anything. Due to hormonal release whatever images or thoughts that are occupying or were recently occupying active part of your brain just get turned into sexual nature.

>>15421318
Don't let your mortal limitations prevent you from at least trying, and please don't ever lose your sense of curiosity and wonder about the world or how things work, or whatever it is that you might be interested in.

The Karen-hate is entirely justified. Television people (creators and audiences) should go back to television. But they won't because if they had that type of grace where would we be? Enjoying global harmony and living on Mars.

pissed I didn't buy MRNA like I thought I should. I bought NVIDIA and made 80k, could have make 350k instead. Want to smash my head, I feel like not gaining something is the same as losing it, I have no fulfilment. Why cant I change my mindset

>>15421587
Should have bought ino instead.

I do not understand what the dreams are trying to say to me.

AAAAAH I GET THE WORST HEADACHES. I CAN'T ENJOY A SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE BECAUSE MY HEAD IS CONSTANTLY THROBBING ACHEING ROARING AAAAAAAGH

>>15420547
>and she had like a 4-inch cock.
Only four inches? That must have been disappointing.

>>15420547
I had a sex dream about my sister (who, it should go without saying, I am not attracted to) the other night too. Though once I'd woken up and thought back on it, I'm wasn't even sure if it HAD been my sister - though she had fulfilled the role of my sister within that dream.

Is there a school of philosophy or philosopher of the common people? I mean one that's against self-knowledge, individualism and instead pro collective knowledge, morality, etc.

how do i stop feeling slighted and so sensitive to the things workers and friends say? what is the right thing to do: let it go or correct them? i genuinely don't know what the right amount of agency to exercise here

these things that they say without giving a second thought but, particularly if it strikes a nerve, stick with me for months and months

>>15421805
You are part of the common people you described. So whatever school of philosophy you read.

>>15419243
i'm seething about being unable to create music again. of all artforms, music is the one that causes me the most pain. i am writing right now: i may not be a good writer, but i can convey a point in text whether it's real or fictional. i may not be a good artist, but i have some rudimentary drawing capability. the drawings are bad, but unambiguously drawings. with enough trial and error, i can create some basic computer programs - they may be buggy and inefficient, but they run in the end. but music? any attempt to create music through sheer guesswork yields only random noise. it isn't "bad music", it's not music at all. i lack the tools and understanding required to be even a bad musician and there appear to be no pathways to competence available to me. i cannot play an instrument, sheet music is more difficult to interpret than chinese, and i see little by the way of clear patterns in a piano-roll. every so often i think to myself that today's the day i'll sit down and i'll really understand it, i'll just keep reading until it makes sense: but i always fail in the end.

>>15421816
I'm an individual of the common people. And I read mostly contemporary philosophy of mind/science/AI research papers. I want to know whether the collective consciousness of humans is superior to individuals. And how would a swarm intelligence fare against a single AI?

Why is there still some taboo about buying condoms? Lighten up.

Happiness is neither sufficient nor necessary for a good life

>>15421945
What is a good life?

>>15421939
is there? maybe if you're a teenager. it's like buying toilet paper. oh no, the middle aged lady at the counter knows you shit?

>>15421959
A life of power and pride

>>15421978
Maybe the middle aged lady at the counter wants some dick.

simultaneously want to write a realistic and down to earth story with in-depth worldbuilding of a fake US region but that's also an off the wall postmodern horror-nightmare.
which actually sounds kinda cool when i put it like that but i'm not a good writer, i'm a hack who reads fanfiction and webcomics so it doesn't come from a place of well thought out ideas, it comes from being too creatively bankrupt to come up with two sets of characters so trying to make one set appear in everything i'd ever want to write about.

>>15422106
Isnt that Silent Hill?

>>15420547
I have a son and daughter (no siblings myself). Are these fantasies common amongst brother and sister? In 8 years is my son going to steal her panties?

>>15422136
>Are these fantasies common amongst brother and sister?
Probably. I'm not a shrink or anything but it probably just has to do with the fact that your sister (or mother) is the female (or male in the case of sisters) you're going to be closest to in the your formative years.

>>15422136
Not super common but it can definitely happen. Boys going through puberty are disgusting creatures.

>>15422136
He might sniff them few times and that should be it. Brother and sister attraction is not really a thing unless they dont live together and dont see each other often.

>>15420877
Another persons vanity runs counter to our taste only when it offends our own vanity

Lacerations

>>15422231
Don't self-harm.

Auditory hallucination time

>>15422241
listening to what?

I hate myself and honestly regret my past so much. I don’t really see a point in continuing this life aside from not wanting to put my family through the pain of losing someone else. It’s just suffering all the way down, and even if it wasn’t, I suspect it wouldn’t be redeemable enough to be valuable in itself. Sorry for the negativity, guys. Just wanted to get that off my chest.

>>15422931
You don't have to be sorry anon. Everybody here has something they regret; big or small, because of their actions or inactions. Much healthier to get it out in the open than leaving it bottled up inside.

How do I get over my total apathy for life? I’m so unhappy yet disinterested and I’m too old for this shit.

>>15419243
Seideann gaoth láidir inniu

>>15423062
Do any you guys have any idea what to do with your lives? I’m seriously lost. It’s been so long and I can’t keep feeling like this. I’m too old.

>>15419243
Spooks are taking over this board, I unironically wish mods would move schizo threads to >>>/x/

>>15424079
Nah, I've had anxiety nausea all week thinking about the fact that I have 50 more years to go. I guess I'll just focus a bit on my career and a bit on friends and family, but ultimately I know that neither will satisfy me.

I used to scamper off to some corner of the internet to plant words in some stranger's eye. It kept me sane. I did not develop any attachments doing so. I was the same person throughout. I never grew closer to the people who saw the worst of me. I remained loyal to those who demanded perfection for nothing at all. Everything was cleanly partitioned. I did not grow to rely on these spaces to function. To almost hold them sacred in some way. I would not be offended by their desecration.

>>15424151
>I guess I'll just focus a bit on my career and a bit on friends and family, but ultimately I know that neither will satisfy me.
I don’t really have either anymore and I hate my career but if you have all of that, that’s a decent place to start probably.

One of the times I was at my happiest was when I was taking a shit. It was the only time I really knew that I was doing what I was supposed to be doing, and that there was nowhere else I was supposed to be. Sitting there I used to think "Someone has to do the shitting, and that someone is me!" like a happy little go-getter.

>>15424151
seek God friend. only half the human heart is of this world, that is why you are not satisfied. God will help you unfold your heart into the other. Once you have both you will find life a blessing.

HOW THE FUCK DO I WRITE A STORY. I have ideas for where I want it to go, certain scenes and revelations but I always get stuck after the first few thousand words, I have no idea how to go from introducing characters and the setting to making the characters feel real and pursue the story.

>>15419563
don't forget X on a bottle usually indicates moonshine or homebrew wine which naturally invites devils in through the urethra and pineal gland.

>>15419243
Trying to break out of psychological hell. I seem to keep falling back in. I'll try again now.

I'm tired of feeling like trash. There's so much beauty in the world. I wish I could help it expand. Can't see it happening though, don't have an inch of faith in myself and will never be able to practice a craft, whichever it may be, to the point of creating beauty when I see myself as a failure and everything that emanantes from me as trash.

Anyway, thanks for reading my blog. Hope you all are doing alright.

I might be seeing my former oneitis I haven’t spoken to in years after doing a cringy “I love you so much, but you can’t love me so I have to go” kind of thing. Two questions:
>if I see her, do I apologize for being a retard or just not bring it up?
>what are the odds I relapse into oneitisism or otherwise have some kind of mental breakdown if I see her?

It would be in the context of us both meeting a mutual friend fyi, I’m not voluntarily meeting her alone.

>>15421365
If you read what I wrote, I said I was feeling pretty damn great about all of this. It is you that is extremely out of touch.

>D.C. Safe — a nonprofit that coordinates emergency victim services in response to requests from 17 federal and local agencies, including court clerks, police and hospitals — said its call load has doubled in the past two weeks. “We’re overwhelmed,” Executive Director Natalia Otero said. “We literally don’t have enough response-line phones to go around.”
>Since March 8, the group has handled more than 1,500 calls, according to internal logs, that run the gamut from fielding calls from emergency rooms to ordering pizza for an abuse survivor who fled her home without grabbing her wallet.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/domestic-violence-will-increase-during-coronavirus-quarantines-and-stay-at-home-orders-experts-warn/2020/03/26/04e63d6a-6d37-11ea-b148-e4ce3fbd85b5_story.html

>There have been three domestic killings in Northern Ireland since the start of the coronavirus lockdown, the justice minister has said. Naomi Long revealed the figure on Tuesday as the assembly debated legislation that will strengthen domestic abuse laws.
>Almost 2,000 domestic abuse calls were made to police in the first three weeks of April, during the Covid-19 lockdown.

https://www.bbc.com/news/uk-northern-ireland-52440662

>The chief said there's a 50 percent increase in homicides from this time last year. He also added that the city of Houston is seeing nearly one murder per day this year.
>Acevedo said it's a combination of issues that are all related to the COVID-19 pandemic.
>Domestic violence, mental health issues and drug violence are the main sources of the problem, according to Acevedo.

https://abc13.com/coronavirus-covid-19-murder-on-the-rise-in-houston-murders/6202896/

I am right and their destructive life styles have caught to them. You would have to be an infantile, sheltered, drone to deny this. This is the time of change and there is nothing you could do about it other then make your choice in which way you're going.

Do you guys think that you will most likely never find a partner for life? If so, how do you handle that?

Vaishyas of the world rise up.
FUCK BRAHMINS.

I want to make my games

"Write what you know" they say, as though the prospect about writing about being an autistic NEET shut-in from the perspective of an autistic NEET shut in isn't the kind of thought that makes you wonder whether it's really worth holding off on suicide until after your parents die.

>>15419243
The Industrial Revolution and its consequences have been a disaster for the human race.

>>15425762
Hey anon, you made me think of something D'Annunzio said: "I cannot understand why the poets of our day wax indignant at the vulgarity of their age and complain of having come into the world too early or too late. I believe that every man of intellect can create his own beautiful fable of life"
Choose happiness anon - don't forget that we're all gonna make it.

I am filled with hate

>>15426018
I've still got some plans and dreams, so there's that. Also, about your quote, have you ever read Waldo Emerson's essays? On "History" he says something quite similar to D'Annunzio.

>>15419243
Fuck you, Anonymous

Fuck every single iota of your being; fuck it. Fuck the air you breathe, the sun that shines on you, the earth under your feet. Fuck the very thought of you, Anonymous. Let this post serve as an eternal statement that sings out one thing: Fuck you.

You, Anonymous, are the thing that is most deserving of this. By merely existing, you have made the world a much darker place. Your mind by virtue is dark, and everything you touch has been tainted with the darkness of your mind.

You are dull and a fool, a fool among fools, intact. You are such a fool that even fools refuse to acknowledge your presence.

Fuck
You

Eve was forcibly separated from Adam and sent to Hell

Cain was moved; back to Earth to avoid Eve; [in Hell] and Adam was in Heaven and Eve was in Hell and Adam was in Heaven and Eve was in Hell so I had Sophia's body raped and Yave was in it at the time and it made a kid between us called um Armagedon in his mind; not her hollow womb - Athena styles

>>15425924
I often tell myself that I can always just get a Thai wife if all else fails. However, I am trying to gain an advantage by studying and working out. At best I'll be a 6.5/10 in the eyes of Stacy, but I might get a Karen if I try really hard. I don't even believe in love, I just fear being alone for the rest of my life. I've had sex once in my life and didn't like it lol.

Sometimes I envy those 18 year olds who died in a muddy foxhole in one of the world wars. Their struggle was over and perhaps they even died believing into a cause. What cause do we have?

I want to find the real me behind all these fake facades and walls of rationalization.

>>15426481
freeing the international working class from the ruthless crushing boot of the state???

unrelated, I'm back on here for the first time in years, are there critique threads still?

>>15422171
Perhaps, but I have no illusion that I'm better or worse than anyone who makes decisions different than my own. Whatever vanity I do or don't have, I don't impose on others, especially in a self-righteous way.

I’d like to take this opportunity to praise all of the gods and goddesses: Wodan, Donar, Loki and Baldr. Praise be upon Vagdavercustis, Hludane, Epona, Fosite, God of Justice, Baduhenna, Nerthus, who guides those who roam Her, Hruoda, the Matrons, who bless us with fertility, Nehalennia, goddess of the sea, and Tiwaz and Rekwaz. May the gods and goddesses remind us of our ancestors and guide us into the future

>>15426532
>freeing the international working class from the ruthless crushing boot of the state???
Don't kid yourself. The ruthless crushing boot will always be there. Only the foot on which the boot fits changes from time to time.

>>15426629
maybe I can help to save a few people, and at least I'll spend my life fighting rather than laying down and taking it

>>15426647
I want someone I like to wear the boot.

>>15426660
try Craigslist then

If you fuck him ill fucking kill myself i didnt even love you! You made me love you and your pussy was shit.
I want to bash my head in to a fucking wall reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Last night on /co/ somebody posted one of those ugly "relatable" comics about women menstruating. It turned into a big thread of FemAnons talking about their periods. It was actually really useful, I learned a lot that I can put to use writing female characters in the future.

were critique threads ever a thing on this board, or am I just confusing /lit/ with /ic/?

>>15419243
Life is good.

>>15421864
>swarm intelligence
I have done some research on this topic, and I can tell you that it's a bit of a misnomer to attribute it to collective human behavior. For the swarm to be intelligent, it has to be consistently adaptive such as with the Hymenoptera (ants, bees, wasps). The elements must be , effectively, egoless. With human groups that are not otherwise coordinated by structured communications and transaction rules, you have a shitshow, a riot, a stampede, not a collectively unified swarm. Swarm intelligence happens in spite of any intention or agency or smarts on the part of its constituent subjects. With humans someone is always trying to assert themselves and diverge from the collective. Markets are often believed to be a sign of swarm intelligence, emergent distributed problem solving, but they are far more irrational than anything a colony of ants does.

I go through the same routine every week. Tuesday is my favorite day, so is wednesday, thursday as well as friday.
These are the days I shoot heroin.
Then after friday I stop. Go about my life until the next tuesday, and continue my life, just while shooting heroin.

I've been doing this for a couple months now. I was homeless for 2 years, I used to be totally fucked off with drugs. Now I'm just doing this. A place to live, a job, and a shooting heroin schedule. I'm really scared because I know it's impossible to keep this up, and at any point everything will crumble around me.
But I can't stop.

People who cant see others as anything else than charicatures, memes and stereotypes are becoming a real problem to our overall wellbeing. Its a consquence of the way the internet works, but it can escalate into stories around some person that become so far removed from everyday reality its really not worth your time to think about or compare yourself to. Most people aren't evil and only have good intentions on a base level. But when you take anything anyone says out of context, situational or emotional, that statement becomes like a badge to characterize their whole personality. Its too easy to latch onto a single phrase and let it take over your ability to try and see things from their perspective. Maybe they're really scared, insecure, exhausted and frustrated because they're stuck in a situation they have no control over. The internet has removed the need for direct interaction to reach someone and its really unhealthy cause without facial expressions, tone of voice and the ability to respond immediately to correct misunderstanding, the person on the receiving end can let their imagination run wild as to what this might mean, what their attitude toward this person or that group might be, on and on. This is something thatll become more and more of a problem as time goes on, and we're seeing it already with american presidents and other public figures. I wish there was something i could do about this, but the more i worry and let myself get carried along, the more resentful and shallowminded i become. I need to remember that most people don't have bad intentions and just wanna lead a normal somewhat happy life, people arent charicatures.

>>15426808
Get help.

>>15426416
Pretty much the same here but I often feel like it will end up in misery anyway. I’m pretty black pilled on things like divorce and cheating, which sucks because I really believe finding a lifelong partner is one of the few things, maybe the only thing, that makes this long suffer fest worth living.

Why didn’t you guys tell me this anime and manga shit was so good? I’m way too old to be having a secret weaboo phase.

>>15426966
Thats not to say we shouldnt think before we say something, but there comes a certain point where you start thinking about everyone who might read what youre typing, and then you have to make the decision to say what you think is right, knowing there will be people disagreeing or even become angry over your seeming indifference. But thats leagues better than saying something just to get under someone's skin, or just spouting the most vile nonsense when you feel like youve been driven into a corner, cause those things can be truly hurtful to whoever reads the message without context. So, trying to be assertive without having to resort to shouting and swearing seems like a good idea going forward.

I love the smell of gasoline. I am tempted to inhale it, but I won't.

>>15425980
Gasoline is great

>>15427038
I always try to assume good intent, but some things people do and say make me feel so hurt i cant see them as good people anymore, even though ive never spoken to them directly or asked why they do what they do or say certain things

>>15427201
Its a tricky balance, like i said this online environment can turn toxic so quickly, and getting carried along in that stream of emotions can ruin your whole day. I certainly understand you can get hurt by out of context words, but try to get some more understanding first before you jump to conclusions next time, otherwise you get stuck in an endless loop of misunderstanding and overreacting

>>15427037
I've been trying to tell you that for years.

I am still waiting for my semester's grade.
It's been the longest 2 days of my life and there are still 3 to come. Surely, it won't change anything - I either succeeded or I didn't - but knowing that I did will relieve me of my deepest and most torturous mental pains.

The clock is ticking and the human turned student deep inside is screaming.

>>15427253
Scream into your pillow.

After checking out Ted Kaczynski I've become more sceptical to the narrative of progress. I want to learn about our past, especially what life was like before the agricultural revolution. Any good suggestions?

>>15427239
What if they tell me they wanna commit suicide but then it turns out they changed their mind because the consequences would be too horrible and the process of dying seems worse than anything they've experienced so far? Should i be glad they didnt turn out to be completely serious in the end, or should i hold it against them and make them feel guilty for having had those thoughts and scaring me by sharing them? Or maybe this isnt what i think at all

>>15427423
Maybe its the way in which they shared those thoughts that made it seem like a deliberate attempt to get people's attention and use it for something malicious, whilst at the same time seemingly deeply disrespecting those who lost their lives in this way. That would make them seem like a sociopath, almost. But im sure they never thought about it in this way, and were actually struggling a lot and trying to reach out to anyone cause they were too scared to talk to anyone at their school. Its gonna be hard to get rid of the consequences of this, but i wouldnt be too hard on them even though it might still feel like you've been mistreated. Those feelings are real, but they do not seem to be caused by any actually evil intent by the person you're referring to. What's the best way forward from this, i have no idea, but trying to gain mutual understanding is a first step. Then you can live your life without all the what ifs and coulds and shoulds

christ. Just coomed after 1 week of not doing it. I don't think I've ever self reflected so fast afterwards. Wtf have I been doing.
I have this urge now to just snap my laptop and ruin it. I hate what it brings. Wtf do I want to do. Wtf is this. Fuck.

>>15427615
Well don't do it again then.

>>15427615
its impossible not to coom. if you dont masturbate, your body just cooms when you sleep. just avoid hardcore porn, maybe read some erotic literature.

>>15427642
I want to reach a point where I just do it in my sleep then. I don't want this on me. Since I was like 5 I was surrounded in pornographic imagery. I hate it.

>>15427672
Stop masturbating then. They're your hands, they can't jerk you off without your commands.

How do you deal with no (You)s? I rarely get any (You)s and it drives me mad and then sadness follows.

>>15427672
everytime ive abstained from it, ive had a wetdream and wake up possessed with a fever to coom like never before, to whatever was present in the dream.

>>15427696
I quit drinking alcohol incredibly easily, I quit daily gaming in like a week of trying. I've been trying to quit porn for years.

>>15427746
here, friend :)

>>15427746

I feel so lonely. Not because I'm alone, that's fine. I feel lonely because I can't relate to anyone. I never meet anyone with similar interests or opinions. I'd be happy if I had just one, preferably a significant other

>>15427803
That would be so boring.
>hey have you e-
>yes
>do you like th-
Yes
>was your favorite part th-
>Yes
>wanna go eat at-
>yes
>do you normally order th-
>yes
What you are experiencing in the human condition, and that’s what books are best for.

>>15427746
Have a virtual hug and some love, fren

>>15427759
>>15427772
>>15427829
Thank You all

>>15419613
congrats anon, quitting opioids fucking sucks, benzos too. this is a huge change in ur life. the only thing that keeps me sober is God desu. that's the best advice i can give.

>>15427803
>I never meet anyone with similar interests or opinions. I'd be happy if I had just one, preferably a significant other
What are your interests the anon?

Gay, fakevirus lockdown
Arbery deserved it
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Arbery deserved it
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Arbery deserved it
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Arbery deserved it
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Arbery deserved it
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Arbery deserved it

>>15427966
Mostly hiking and other outdoor activities, linguistics, philosophy and literature. Not obscure at all, but I still never encounter anyone sharing my passions.

>>15420931
Go do it then. Put down the baby dummy and pick up an axe or something

>>15427803
*sip from coffe cup*
The moment you realize that the vast majority of people aren't actually real you'll start to feel better.
And by real I mean observant and sincere to themselves. So many exist through a veil that reaches over their perception and they stop seeing themselves in and of themselves and even others. This has been true throughout time but it's specifically prelevant during contemporary times as so many are now practising a form of existing outside of themselves, mostly through monitoring themselves and organising their behavior to fit the current standard. Because of so much media we now have a sort of hyper-outsideness that has been going on for more than a decade now.
When people don't split their perception between mind and everything else outside of them they get stuck inside a sort of self observing unconcious loop where they exist within word and image-pointers and their values.
What this eventually leads to are life sucking slugs attatching to their feet as they drink wine and do whatever mundane thing they do like playing some old retro game that someone in an article wrote about being good.
Lets take a very basic example from a conversation about environmentalism. Person B begins with virtue signalling, saying they've just bought an electric car and continues speaking about how everything is fucked up because we as a people need to start caring more about the environment. Person A answers with agreement, saying that we should stop producing so much and buying so much junk and new stuff when the previous object that gave the needed function isn't broken. Person B awkwardly agrees but buys a new phone every single year, lives from paycheck to paycheck and has a vast amount of blu-rays and plastic merchandise. If they get confronted about that they simply answer that they enjoy it and they're not harming anyone.
Person B isn't real, person B exists completely within an outside observation of their own meat vessel where they just virtue signal on the social plane and then fills the void by buying junk. They are nothing other than a simple machine that goes after social plasticity.
If you truly practice yourself and split yourself between mind and world you have one of the best people with you at all times and you'll be able to notice the people who are real and those who are not. Similar interest really has little to do about it, one just needs to be interested.

>>15428113
Based

>>15419613
I quit benzos. You have to just make the decision to never to do it again. It really is that simple.

>>15419243
I just want a new life out of poverty and be of value. I work and work 24/7 never stopping. I must be somebody in this world.

My hrt tiddies are coming along nicely

>>15428186
What is it like having boobs?

>>15428046
Join an outdoors club or something? Do you go to university?

>>15428186
you're another quite good example of my hypothetical person B. Of course if you would have read Foucault correctly you would already know that transexuality just as any other sexuality isn't actually real and you aren't actually transsexual.
By identifying yourself that way you are actually doing a form of self monitoring and social plane self observing loop organising. It's no coincidence this rise is correlated with the becoming of the hyper-outsideness in every pocket.
It connects with the will to knowledge you say? no, the perpetrators of this phenomena aren't systematically analyzing the foundations of knowledge at all. No, just like Guattari and Deleuze for example they aren't actually real. Foucault however was real, a person A. Although it was kinda gay of him to die from aids or whatever by sucking too much dick, whatever idc.

>>15428113
>>15428291
>anime pic
>pretentious drivel

sounds about right

>>15428304
cope, I'm willing to explain anything you didn't understand. But I believe you understood it just fine enough.

>>15428324
explain what went wrong in your life

Been reading more visual novels lately. It's making me want a cute gf that I fall in love with over the course of a few months.

>>15428329
a coper and an angry "person" too at that. Did I previously state something you disliked?
Well no matter, you've exposed yourself as not being real. No reason to talk more.

>>15428374
Well go out and find a gf or something.

>>15428239
Kind of annoying. My sense of proprioception hasn't accounted for them yet. And I have the tail end of androgenic hair on them so they look kinda gross for now

>>15428399
>Well go out and find a gf or something.
Wish I could go outside, I haven't gone outside for 3 months now.

>>15428451
Is your country still in lockdown?

>>15428468
Yeah, it's going until the 30th of this month. It's shit but I don't actually mind that much since I only go out to get groceries and go on walks anyway.

Though, corona will probably make everyone more desperate for human relationships. Even a sperg like me might have a chance at romance once everything starts opening up again.

>>15428186
don't cut off your dick whatever you do

I’m honestly a democratic socialist or whatever it’s called (I like Sanders and agree generally with pretty much everything Chapo Trap House says) and one of the biggest reasons that chuds piss me off is they intentionally try to poke at the sleeping bear that is black America and black people more globally. I don’t know how you can look at black men and not view them as pretty much superior to whites in every way. They’re stronger, bigger and more composed than us and less prone to weird cringey behaviour. Like 99% of the alt right is guys who are insecure about black “superiority” and athleticism. It’s Freudian. They’re the closest thing the planet earth has to a legit master race (definitely not a bunch of doofuses in lederhosen) and it would be best to not provoke them. Normally I wouldn’t care if the chuds did this, you know get blacks to massacre them, but sadly I’m also white and I don’t want to be lumped in with these retards.

>>15428571
you sound like a creepy reddit incel

>>15428519
>corona will probably make everyone more desperate for human relationships. Even a sperg like me might have a chance at romance once everything starts opening up again.
Turn lemons into lemonade. Good luck anon!

>>15419271
Take the other anons advice. Please don't come back.

Should I annotate directly on books I own? If not I'm a lazy ass and don't want to manage sticky notes or a notebook.

>>15428571
what level of post-ironic false flag countersignaling is this

Apologies for the self indulgence- I've written here sporadically about the same problem for the past few years, but I've convinced myself it's somehow therapeutic and helpful.

About 6 or 7 years ago when I was 23 (yes I'm fucking old), I hooked up with a girl at a party. This was not remarkable in and of itself. I haven't slept with a ton of women, but I've done alright. Since the night in question, I've slept with several and had a serious romantic relationship. Yet this still sticks in my brain.

I had a twitter account where I posted retarded nonsense before the platform became the mess it is today. I eventually started getting "likes" on my tweets from this girl who had a sizeable following (like 2-3000 followers). She was funny and cute and I was happy for the attention. I discovered that she went to the same college as one of one of my friends and that they were acquaintances.

I went down to where this friend of mine lived quite often to drink and smoke pot. One night, this girl who was liking my tweets was there. She was very pretty and I started talking to her. Within five minutes of talking we started making out. Somehow, I was very secure in the knowledge that she found me attractive for the qualities which I wanted to be found attractive for, and I perceived the same thing in her. Our bodies and lips seemed to form a perfect complement,as if they were designed to dovetail with each other in an erotic union which was somehow simultaneously innocent.

We talked for hours and took a walk around the block a few times. I got her number and we promised to talk more. When her friends were going to leave and she had to go, we shared a passionate kiss. It was the last I saw of her.

We made plans to hang out after the party, but they fell through. I was very bitter about women at this time in my life, so I did not pursue any further. A couple months later she moved back to the city she was from and transferred to school there.

I have since kept operating my twitter account posting my usual retarded nonsense. The reason why I am hung up, though, is because she will still "like" my tweets. I know it is so stupid, but every time she shows up in my timeline I am reminded of our night together. And just for a moment I allow myself to think that she remembers me as fondly as I remember her. But then I remember that our connection was mediated by the cold and mechanical apparatus of social media, and a sense of foolishness washes over me which feels ever more overwhelming.

I'm possessed by a need to write great works and do great things, but I have no idea what to write about (or where to publicize my writing) or what to do.

>>15419243
I have a pistol without grips. I have a rifle without a dust cover. Why can't I finish anything?

>>15429192
>I have a pistol without grips
Sad!

everything in the "response" to the flu is designed to humiliate and castrate me, make me a dependent bitch and pay full fee for it... college is closing down services I'm paying for and replacing them with online pictrionary and communal streaming service for the fucking spongebob squarepants movie so I can supposedly watch it with the thousand indian and chinese students remaining here
I am in hell

>>15428113
>*sip from coffe cup*
>The moment you realize that the vast majority of people aren't actually real you'll start to feel better.
>And by real I mean observant and sincere to themselves.
Why start off with a line that's so unnecessarily edgy in comparison to what you mean? Is that "sincere"? Is stating you've just drank from a coffee cup for dramatic effect a "sincere," earnest practice? Like gosh, gee, I really loved it when I got into the middle of Kant's critiques and he wrote *sip from coffe cup* between two paragraphs. It really advanced his point as opposed to being, you know, stage setting/a fraudulent tonal appeal.

>>15428291
>By identifying yourself that way you are actually doing a form of self monitoring and social plane self observing loop organising.
So in return, you're placing their likeness into said category? But no, I guess it's different for you because you only do it for others rather than self-reflect. I'm sure you're a contrarian who just loves to blame both sides while mysteriously not being on the pie chart, is that about right?

Seriously though, if you're going to talk about virtue signaling and fraudulence, why not start with the half of the US who wept over 9/11 but now compare corona's toll to the flu? Why not begin with the virtue signals that lead to armed conflict? Could it be, anon--that you are virtue signaling?

>>15419243
I really have no fucking clue who I am. I have no culture, my family knows nothing about our history, my parentage taught me little in the way of morals or wisdom, I have no discernible skills or talents, and worst of all I have no sense of self. Low self esteem and a gentle disposition has made me unassertive and unimpressive, lazy. I am unremarkable so far, and in a bid to change this I have embarked on a journey to become something. I have begun training for this, and it has become clear to me that I am chasing an ambition because of what the goal what mean in terms of character. It is a goal that would speak to who I am, assuming I am victorious. It is something only strong people do, the brave and the aggressive. And I have subconsciously chased this goal for years now, only now when I’m about to do it becoming aware of the subconscious motivation that is self definition. I do what I do to become who I wish I was. And it’s not a very safe bet either, there’s a very real chance of failure

>>15429409
What are you gonna do anon?

>>15419558
I see through you because I used to think this way. Your attraction to women and your instincts are easy to subdue when you accept you aren’t attractive to them anyway. Your convictions aren’t real, they’re a product of your inability to socialize. How long do you think you’d last if you were a wildly popular ladies man? Real morals are made from things you actually have to refrain from.

I want to write a story where somebody does something good but it just doesn't seem believable anons

got a one star review of my book on amazon... my only review so far, feels bad anons

>>15429446
I’m horribly shy about being judged, because I understand why it’s a stupid ambition, so that’s why I didn’t mention it. I’m joining the military to try out for special operations. “Making the cut” is my entire drive.

>>15429517
better than nothing even if it doesnt feel that way

How does /lit/ cope with stress and anxiety?
All of it ceases each time I try and think of how insignificant my life is compared to the span of the fucking universe, I just immediately stop giving a shit about any problem I had

>>15429632
I scream into my girlfriend's ass.

>>15429643
Does it echo/reverb?

>>15429632
At least lately it's dawned on me that "living in the moment" is just being a deflationist about emotions. The only reason for which I am angry is because I am angry, and so on. And if I feel vengeful, rather than posit some complex motive, it is because I feel vengeful. That is what makes me feel that way and is all which I would be seeking vengence upon, nothing else is. And for any other emotion, I similarly try to avoid running the feedback-loop hamster wheel ahead of or behind the present.

>>15429655
Yes, and the sound that echoes back always helps clear my mind.

>>15429664
And what is it? The sound of delicately dropping a brap on the floor? Braa-pah, brapp-ah, brappah...

>>15419375
this shit is a scamdemic LOL
do you really believe this will be a turning point in society? i can dream too, but i'll never believe it.

>>15429672
>And what is it?
No, it's usually words of wisdom. I'm not into farts.

i wish i had enough money to go racing

>>15429662
Look, I've been drinking, but brah, yeah, living in the moment is about forgetting the context. The context of the past and future. I've always thought of depression as thinking about the past and anxiety as thinking about the future, but not that I'm diagnosing anything. It's just a nice mental tool to categorize thoughts.


I just watched scooby doo on zombie island. It was as good as I remember 22 years ago. It was really dark.

If I could be confined to a realm where I am nothing, physically, and must only listen to music; I would accept my sentence with glee & gratitude

>>15429517
send us a link anon, maybe i'd like it

>>15419558
>Newton, Tesla, even Hitler, had practiced abstinence and achieved landmarks in history

But truthfully anon, do you want to be a Newton, Tesla, or a Hitler? If so, go ahead and change the world. But as it stands, you are just a mediocre underachiever who can't get laid.

>>15429517
don't let it discourage you, i once talked to a professor who had poured his heart and soul into this one big book that was the culmination of his whole career and life's worth of reflections and it got 3 shitty mocking reviews from retards and fell into obscurity immediately. i asked him if it hurts, figuring he'd brush it off since he was an incredibly stoic confident guy, but he said of course it hurts, it's one of the worst pains ever, but you keep going because you have a responsibility to yourself (and possibly the world) to say the things you need to say

>I have spread my dreams under your feet;
>Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

>>15429839
Kill yourself.

>>15429846
hit a little too close to home?

>>15429846
Like Hitler did?

I’m pretty behind in life, 2 years behind in college that it makes me feel like dumb when i see all my friends with jobs and stuff in similar fields and they try to talk about work and i have to say that i don’t have one right now and never did because i’m busy doing nothing

I wish I was married to Rose's daughter so I could torture her and make her life a living Hell on Earth. I would chain her to the kitchen stove and burn her face off.

>>15429975
you got some issues dude

>>15429984
You make my life Hell and I'll make your life Hell. You bring HER back and you know exactly who I mean so don't play dumb.

>>15422106
>i'm a hack who reads fanfiction and webcomics so it doesn't come from a place of well thought out ideas, it comes from being too creatively bankrupt to come up with two sets of characters so trying to make one set appear in everything i'd ever want to write about.
build the story into another medium other than a novel?

>>15419243
I want to fuck a girl so badly. I want to fill her with my semen, mouth and cunt. Fuck her face, let her go wild on my cock, ride like a deranged mule in heat. Oh god I'm such a horny little worm. Fuck. I'm so lonely, but I don't want anyone to intrude on my solitude, verminous scum of the earth fuckhead clods of dirt, I spit on them. I'm a turd, a venomous lonely little serpent worm-like bottom-feeder yet I'm still superior. I know it to be true, and I know it to be false, I'm an ego disaster, the Id has taken control, and I feel free. The evil in me sickens and delights, the worm food delivered through the hole in my door. I love the sounds of rage and delight, I want to be filled with the lust for life. I hate it all, I love it so, I can't let go. Staying in my room, cowering like a dog being scolded, I enjoy it here all the same. I've ventured out, I've seen a lot, and nothing seems to please, nothing sets me at ease. I'm a nervous wreck, completely relaxed, completely in tune, completely out of this world. Inside my mind I'm someone I'm not, outside my mind, I discover but nought. I want to be me, I want to live free, I feel it in my blood, I know it to be true, I know things are false, I know it's all a dream. Reality isn't as it seems, I'm all I've got, my compass is true, my compass is lost. What do I see, misery and death, decay and rot, love of life is all that I've got. Eat and beware, the curse is shared, we all are lost on this voyage of mistrust.

>>15427037
i got into it in 2018, got too addicted that i neglected real life responsibilities and made stupid choices. That’s how addicted i got

watched around ~250 anime tv series, and plenty of movies/ova

after it gets sort of boring when you finish what you like, and realize they don’t bother with writing that stuff anymore. For me, it was the mixture of SoL, CGDCT, comedy and family shows like minami-ke and non non biyori. I think i enjoyed them because of the emotional security in which nothing bad happens and everyone is safe.

also got into visual novels a little bit, the house in fata morgana is a pretty good read and i think a lot of /lit/ would enjoy it since it breaks away from the edgy teen tropes

>>15429843
thanks anon, I appreciate it

Since releasing it I've already moved on to other projects but it's still a little painful to realize that months of work has been flushed down the toilet due to a single review. The review itself was bizarrely vindictive and hyperbolic. No idea how they came across my book in the first place! Wish I used a pseudonyn now... at least that way I could share it on here.

I cant connect to anyone or anything without it feeling superficial. I know its the real me but something always just feels off. The world constantly feels alien to me. each day I wake up and forget the last. each day I wake up and feel like an old me has died and been replaced. I never know where I am or who I am. I want to go to a doctor but i know they won't do much besides prescribe anti-psychotics. Besides, I am still fully functional as a human being. I am beginning to lose interest in everything, I don't even feel lust anymore. When I agree to hook up with someone it's because I think it would be funny in a cosmic sense, not for actual desire.
I keep telling myself that it is normal what I feel and that everyone else feels it. That it's all just some elaborate act for attention. My mind is a constant haze with invisible forces pushing me every which way.
I don't even remember what made me start feeling like this, I just blame some untreated concussion from back in high school. I had a good childhood, even if my parents loved keeping secrets.
The only thing keeping me going is a general desire to 'understand'.

just trying to fix my life and trying not to lose to depressive thoughts.

The idea of me ended up alone and never having a significant other always comes back in my head, and it gives me anxiety.

>i’m 5’4 and have a bad hairline
this would make it hard to find a girl who would love me physically, but there are still women out there
>i have a 3inch dick and phimosis
this would make it hard for a girl to love me intimately. This would make it impossible for me to enjoy any intimacy as well.

I feel like it’s impossible for me to ever find another women who will love me and stay with me. I want to abandon all thoughts of sexuality, but i get horny and just masturbate. I was thinking of just finding a hooker and asking her to take my virginity but i’m embarassed of my penis size and disfunction. I’m the definition of an incel, but i don’t spend my time online arguing about women not wanting to have sex with me because i’ve never tried, yet, i believe they wouldn’t.

I remember one girl back in highschool got pretty close with me (she was the only girl in life i ever regularily conversed with and we sort of liked each other). She ended up asking me to prom, but i said no because i was scared and had too much social anxiety about my looks and how people perceive me to even go. She didn’t get upset. I didn’t have many friends growing up and never went to a party or out to hang out with friends, so i just adopted the idea that drugs and parties were a waste of time. It makes me sad because she was cheerful and cute.

I don’t even feel like an adult and i’m 20. My friends all have internships and are finishing college, and i had to take time off because i was failing too much courses and was making the excuse that i had to deal with my diagnoses of adhd

>>15430090
>I don’t even feel like an adult and i’m 20.

Sorry about all your other problems anon but this is completely normal. Your friends are the lucky if they have internships and are finishing college, but most people don't have a single piece of their shit together by 20. You're not alone in that regard.

>>15419243
/lit/ help there is a girl in my house

>>15430834
kick her out, girls are gross and filled with cooties.

>>15431117
But she's qt and reads the Aeneid.

>>15431146
dido more like dildo lol

>>15431146
is she your girlfriend

>>15431146
Of course a woman would prefer fanfiction

/qtddtot/-tier:
As an ESL, how do I get profficient enough to read Joyce?
I have a Cambridge C2 certificate and can read most books in English just fine, but Ulysses is another beast.

>>15431172
Unfortunately not. There's mutual attraction admitted by both of us but we've decided not to pursue anything because there's no chance it could work out because her Ph.D program is across the country.

>>15430090
I'm 22 and haven't finished college my guy. At least you got shit guaranteed at a young age. On the sexual side, either go straight into a hooker and she may not remember you or avoid all sexual thoughts as a monk would do. Maybe destiny had other plans for you, G-d works in mysterious ways after all.

>>15431199
is she your sister?

>>15431208
I'm 24 and I'm only just starting.

>>15431214
What, no.

>>15431194
Proficiency in English is one thing. What you also need is a general stylistic proficiency wherein you can follow shifts in style / form and approach some sense of why certain things are happening. There's a guide to Ulysses based on Joyce's notes that explains some of the concept chapter-by-chapter. You need enough proficiency to be able to understand esoteric philosophy or legalistic language in English, but that won't help unless you can catch on to that being done and work from there.

>>15419271
Blue pill in text form. Cringe.

>>15431390
>esoteric philosophy or legalistic language in English
think I'm set
>There's a guide to Ulysses based on Joyce's notes that explains some of the concept chapter-by-chapter.
So you say this is the way to go? Or do you think that maybe reading some specific books before taking on Ulysses will do? (to avoid having to be handheld by the guide - which seems a little boring honestly)

>>15431589
Ulysses Annotated has very useful information if you want more of a deep dive, but you don't strictly need all that. To some extent you can just accept that the work is deeply referential, and that if you don't understand something, it may be referencing something from William Blake or whoever you don't know. Just save this image for a basic overview. It's not a completely perfect parallel or definitive, but it can help clear some hurdles.

In terms of general readiness, I would say: You should be able to read the first two chapters simply enough. It's nothing weird or some personal failing to struggle with chapter three, but it will require an attempt to feel it out on its own terms. If you can read that, you can read the rest of the book. You will just need to continue to take each chapter on its own terms. The last chapter might give you some trouble since it will forego a lot of sentence structure you will have learned, but it would pose similar difficulty even if you were a native English speaker. You just have to roll with it.

>>15431689
Thanks. Seems like I should start with the Greeks more than anything.

>>15431875
The Odyssey is a basic parallel, and ancient Greek philosophy is a big recurring point. I think you can go far with the novel if you at least have a basic understanding of Plato and Aristotle. I also never get the idea of someone wanting to invest the time and energy into reading Ulysses, but feeling unwilling to just go ahead and read Dubliners and Portrait first. But I don't think anything more is strictly necessary. One early chapter has a long-winded theory about Hamlet, but it's not just about Hamlet but also weird debates surrounding Hamlet. It's the kind of thing where, if you know it, it makes the reading more satisfying, but I don't think you have to get every reference on the substance to reasonably understand Stephen and Bloom and follow along with the basic progression of the novel.

>>15431929
>I also never get the idea of someone wanting to invest the time and energy into reading Ulysses, but feeling unwilling to just go ahead and read Dubliners and Portrait first.
Might try that. That's why I posted in the first place, to get a reaction like this.

I've been out of work for two months. As places are re-opening, things are sorta looking up. Had an interview on Tuesday. They didn't end up taking me, which didn't surprise me as they had loads of applicants, nevertheless it was the first interview I've actually been invited to since I started looking about a month back. Had another one today that I felt went better. Handful of applicants, I live a 5-minute walk from the place, am totally flexible in terms of time, and know the neighbourhood well. Many of the patrons are from around and it seemed the neighbourhood spirit was important to the owner. Don't know if I'll get it but it sparked a bit of hope in me anyway. One more place is getting back to me by the end of the weekend. Out on the hunt again if they don't take me.
In other news my laptop's battery extended to the point where it's no longer working, and I saw a book by one of my favourites on sale, so I would really like to have a job again.

Responsibility watches from above like a hawk. Much of the time is spent holding a gun to the sky. Daily resistance and sensitivity to the demands of time is a starving man's futile battle. He sees the world as a prison, and the hawk a cell keeper. His gun only shoots blanks. He hasn't thought about his family in weeks. The bird is circling down, down, down.

is the skin on your eyelid the same type of skin as the skin on your dick?

>>15432470
Nah, doesn't have that dick smell to it

>>15432470
you skin is an organ, so