/lit/ - Literature

>sat reading in my room during quarantine
>the messiness and the fact that I’ve just jerked off under the blanket is unnerving me, making me feel unclean, and causing me to lose focus
>sunny outside
>decide to drive my car down to the nearby canal/park and try to find a solitary spot to read
>find a large open field beset on all sides by forest, except for a little opening at the far end overlooking a small lake
>nobody is around
>this is perfect
>sit down on the grass and crack open my Reveries of the Solitary Walker by Rousseau
>not so far as three pages in when I hear something behind me, turn around, and see a family walking towards me with a dog
>fucking hell
>get up, climb over the small barbed wire fence, and go to the forest, hoping to find some solitude there
>it’s going alright
>ten minutes of reading with no disturbances
>look up from the book to reflect on a passage and see a red fire ant crawling on me
>for God’s sake! Is there nowhere I can read without being disturbed?
>decide to just read in the car and walk back
>5 minutes later, the same family comes back to the parking lot, only now they have lost their dog and are screaming and whistling for it to come
>wait two minutes for it to stop but it doesn’t
>drive to a different spot and begin reading there
>a car pulls up beside me not two minutes later and out of it come three yobster chavs, talking loudly and doing impersonations of Conor McGregor
>decide just to push through and keep reading, but it’s impossible
>get out of the car and walk along the canal hoping to find another solitary spot
>think I’ve found one; it’s a patch of sand on the riverbank, connected to a pathway which was completely empty when I was approaching
>sit down and read
>suddenly, cyclists start zooming past on the path
>turn around and see people walking on there and looking at me strangely
>I get up again and try to find a better place
>see the three chavs ride past me on their bikes
>oh, I can go back to the car then!
>go back
>reading again, finally able to concentrate
>maybe this wasn’t such a bad idea after all
>A FUCKING HUGE BLACK LOUD AMERICAN-STYLE GAS GUZZLER TRUCK WITH MONSTER ENERGY STICKERS PLASTERED ON IT REVERSE PARKS NEXT TO ME, TAKES AN HOUR TO TURN OFF HIS LOUD ENGINE, AND WHEN HE FINALLY DOES, GETS OUT AND BEGINS TALKING LOUDLY WITH ANOTHER GUY WHO SEEMINGLY POPPED UP OUT OF THIN AIR
>ya a’right Baz?
>ye ye what a monster ya got there pal
>ah it’s just ma’ littel toy, just ma’ littel toy
>their conversation turns to DRUGS, saying they’ve been “off their heads” all quarantine and that their dealers have been raising the prices of whatever drugs they take
>such a plebeian, disgusting, repugnant, guttural conversation ensues that I won’t even bother transcribing it
>I reverse out and just drive home
So that was my day anons. I spent over 4 hours outside trying to read and only managed to complete 1 and 1/2 chapters.

It doesn't matter how much raw talent you possess, not putting in effort and comitting fully to your work will always lead to mediocrity.

I wish you could be honest about women. It feels like a whole social edifice preventing you from telling the truth, enforced by women, of course, and by men who have been conditioned to believe a delusion in order to keep their relationship with women stable, and/or preserve their mating opportunities. It's like a delusion has coopted baser human instincts in order to maintain itself and prevent humans from fighting against it.

>>15202969
Honest about women in what way? If you’re talking about being blatantly and egregiously sexist then of course women are going to hate you. It’s not a social enforcement really it’s just a reaction of self-defence.

His name was Trommy and everyone called him Tommy. Honest mistake for the most part, but it got old after a while. By the time he was 30 he was clearly mentally ill and medicated himself to suppress his fits of rage resulting from being called Tommy instead his given name Trommy. When the news broke, it shocked no one. Trommy was a ticking time bomb. Don't name you kids Trommy.

>>15202985
exhibit a lel

>30% of 4chan users are female
>just imagine those delicate, fragile and small fingers pressing against the hard keybord

>>15202934
I simply must find a young looking but legal flattie gf who will pretend to be younger for me.

>>15202997
I just think you're looking at it the wrong way. You can be sexist if you want (just make sure to do it aesthetically) but don't be surprised when women hate you for it. It's like a black person saying whites are evil and then wondering why whites hate them.

>>15203022
any ideas how?

>>15202969
>>15202997
>Why can't I just say all women are bitches, sluts, and floozies, without women bullying me in return?
If this is your problem, and it is, you need to put some hair on your armpits and ballsack.

I think I will break up with my girlfriend, like I said I would three years ago. And two years ago. And last year.

>>15203022

Are you sure about that "must" ?

>>15203049
What's defective with her? I'll take the model off your hands, friendo.

STOP POSTING FUCKING COOMER IMAGES YOU STUPID COOM-ADDLED IDIOT. YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT’S ON MY MIND? PUSHING BOTH YOU AND THIS STUPID INSTAGRAM THOT INTO THE OCEAN. I WILL BE SHARING MY TRUE THOUGHTS IN THE WHAT’S ON YOUR MIND THREAD WHERE THE THREAD IMAGE IS MARY. FUCK YOU, YOU COOMYPANTSED RETARD.

>>15203022
Source?

I really want to hire an escort but the one I use hasn't posted in a while, and I'm too spooked to look for another one

My deadline for a project is in 2 days and I haven't even started. I feel constant anxiety about it yet I can't seem to start doing it. I have started thinking of excuses though for why I haven't done it. I feel bad to disappoint my superiors. At least it's good that in a lot of ways it's optional and doesn't actually impact anything, it's just that my academic superior is a very hard worker and is very fond of me (for some reason, others have remarked that I'm one of his favorite students).

Girls like in your picture, or more broadly what we on 4chan call 'art hoes', seem to me to radiate a sense of boundless freedom and youthful exuberance. I imagine walking through a major city with one of these beautiful girls, stopping at various cafes, talking (not too deeply) about some film or book, visiting a small clothing shop and buying some quaint hats to wear ironically, meeting up with some friends, smoking some weed, having a few drinks, going to the theatre, simply enjoying ourselves, and, at the end of the night, going to a motel room and making passionate love. I can't believe I will never get to experience this.

just fucking tired of being quarantined

>>15203098
How does one find an escort? I live near the only 'red light zone' in the UK, which means that I can go to a certain area near me and hire a prostitute legally. But I'm too scared and shy to go in person, finding someone online would be so much better.

>>15203098
What's her rate? And how do you feel after a good session with her?

>>15203137
> I can't believe I will never get to experience this
Why not?

>>15203194
Because he's a pessimist. He thinks reality is dark and oppressive.

If you're intelligent, if you truly think hard about things, you can make reality amazing.

some stuff I'm planning on turning into a central idea in a short story. The beginnings of what I call in my teaching "Character initiation", a structuring principle for life and storytelling


The process of initiation always starts with the inaccurate myth. This is a value or belief that directs your way of seeing the world, but it is a faulty way of viewing the world. Everyone goes through multiple processes of initiation in their life. One of the biggest inaccurate myths is the transition from childhood to adulthood. Everybody believes in a narrative of success as a child informed by innocence, thinking that they’re going to get a car, a house, a partner, a nice job, the works, but when we get to adulthood, we know that life doesn’t always take us on that path.

Disillusionment - This is the event in a narrative where your belief about the world is utterly destroyed. An event happens to you that directly threatens your belief system, making it no longer possible to think in your old ways. Going back to the adulthood initiation, the moment of disillusionment comes from finding a job. You don’t want to be a burden on your parents, you crave independence, so you get work, work that is so soul-crushing and hinders your dreams, that you no longer believe in the old narrative of adulthood equals happiness.

there's three more steps to it, but this is what I have so far.

>>15203202
Completely agree with you. It's amazing how many low-IQ misanthropes there are on /lit/.

I wish I could pillage, rape and murder to my hearts content but instead I have to sit here.

Today is the day i CHANGE everything (actually it's getting really late so tomorrow is the day...)

>>15203194
I am pretty ugly, very shy with women, mumble a lot, have deformed nails due to biting, have a slightly less than average sized penis which is also deformed (pinhole phimosis, meaning sex would hurt unless I wore a condom but even then I'd have to be careful), and I'm socially anxious because I don't know how to fight. I haven't had a friend in 5 years, never mind a girlfriend. I'm still in my first year of uni but my time to experience youth is waning and the prospect doesn't seem any likelier as time passes. Basically.

>>15203062
She's not really a model. It's weird. She's kind of like the two-face girl in that Seinfeld episode The Strike. In some moments I think, wow she's pretty. Other times I think, wow she's ugly. I think it has a lot to do with the mood she's in. Happy = pretty. Sad/worried/stressed = ugly.

Besides that she kind of has an annoying personality: insecure, not very ambitious, not very bright. Not that she's doing anything wrong really, but she's just not that interesting.
She's goddamn sweet though. That's what's kept me from breaking up with her I guess. And I kind of have an issue with wanting to please people. I know she'd be devastated if I broke up with her.

Any /adv/ for me?

>>15203169
Adultwork for the UK. A lot aren't seeing anyone during lockdown though.

>>15203239
it's because you are weak

>>15203169
I used some shitty website when I was wastes and 18 called cutyxguide and she was decent so I've just stuck with her when I feel like a whore
>>15203173
200 an hour, and like a king. She's a small black girl with dreads, and I have major jungle fever so it works for me. Usually start with a blowjob then fuck her until I cum then fuck her between the thighs for a few minutes before the next round. She never stops me when I go over and my dick hasn't caught fire yet, so it's been a good deal

>>15203262
It's not like you can properly do it those days anyways.

>>15203245
If you're sure you want to break up, make it quick and clean. Tell her you've got to work through some shit on your own, and you're sorry for hurting her. Be sincere about this part, and try not to focus on her flaws. Do whatever you have to do to support her, but then break up, cut contact, block phone. Don't give her any hope of getting back together. I find that if you keep talking to her afterward, it'll give her the idea to weasel back in, making the split more painful and drawn-out in the long run.

>>15203136
Try to work with a very strict time x wordcount schedule. It's the only way I managed to get my ass through uni.

I want to clean my apartment but I'm too fucking lazy, going to end up smoking weed and playing Doom Eternal all day .

Also just found out that I lost an inch of dick length over the last few years from gaining weight. FML

>>15202941
Unironically kill yourself

>>15203320
this is the only humane way to do it. cut contact 100%.

The quarantine is killing me! It's been more than a month since I last seen a prostitute. Since I was 22 I've been going there every two weeks or so. How am I supposed to concentrate on more important stuff when I feel so heavy? Why is that God has cursed us with libido. Imagine all the great things we all would accomplish without the need to fuck a wet hole every once in a while. All the energy wasted. Romanticism killed the real human experience by enforcing a impossible concept of love in all of us. Now it's our duty to break free from these chains and go back to the standard might is right, even in love.

>>15203009
i only use my delicate, fragile little hands to shitpost here

>>15203245
>Besides that she kind of has an annoying personality: insecure, not very ambitious, not very bright. Not that she's doing anything wrong really, but she's just not that interesting.
...you are aware that she's a woman, right? If you want to date a man, maybe stop dating women. You don't date women for the personalities. They don't have personalities.

I want to be productive and use this free time to actually do something but I keep shitposting on 4chan. What do?

>>15203390
>You don't date women for the personalities.
Why do it then? For sex? I've given up interacting with women outside of work.

>>15203242
i wish i knew you, i'd do all those things with you. Don't worry anon your time will come i'm sure! I also noticed that a lot of guy on here that call themselves ugly are often times kinda cute. I know it's a meme but it really is a confidence thing in many cases (i know i know, easier said than done)

I lost the love of my life (no, I wasn’t simping for anyone, I was in a relationship for three years) and I don’t know what to with myself.

>>15202934
All women had countless miles of dick inside them, literally pumped full of cock. It's fucking disgusting and this is why I will NEVER respect anyone who engages in sexual intercourse, be it male or female.

I’m a lady killer

>>15203423
That sucks. What happened?

>>15203423
Realize that romantic "love" has no purpose but to pump up your own ego. You idolize another person, make them the most important thing in the world, and for what? Just to validate yourself, to make yourself feel better. After all, the greatest person in the world has chosen (you)! This is what your "love" amounts to.

>>15203202

>>15203384
>>15203420
How I imagine that you look like:
>Black hair
>Bob cut with bangs
>B-cups
>Hairy pusy
>Cute butthole (lightly pinkish)
>Pink nailpolish
>Pale skin
>Likes to wear open-toed shoes
>Phat ass
>Smooth legs
>DSL's with plenty of lip gloss
>Likes Baudelaire, Joyce, Goethe and Boccaccio

I started a profile on a dating website a few days ago. I guess I was feeling confident after two girls approached me in the street and gave me their numbers in the last month. My phone has been buzzing nonstop like it usually does. I had to put it on airplane mode at work on Friday. I keep getting "interest" and "new message" from girls. I chat with these girls and get numbers instantly. I video chat with them and can see them swooning. One sent me a ten minute long video of her singing love songs. I make plans to meet them in person after quarantine ends. Some of them are a bit young for me but eh it's not like I'll seduce them. I'm not after that. Maybe I'll choose the most attractive, sweetest one, who has her head screwed on right with good values, who'd make a good wife and mother, and try to start a relationship with her. Still, I can't get over my fiance. I wish her and our unborn child hadn't died. I'm more alone than I could ever say.

>>15203497
i'd hit that even if she has a pp

>>15203487
What's wrong with that pooh-bear? Anyway, thread theme:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSKizLRFbTo

>>15203470
Apparently „our characters aren’t compatibile”. We lived in the same city at the beginning but we had to start living separately because I changed my university, so most of our relationship was a long-distance one.

>>15203529
Don't be sad, she was probably fucking and sucking while you were away

>>15203474
Most of the things humans do are done only because of the egoistic needs and I know it. Yeah, I can become a nihilist again (experiencing love helped with me with overcoming this cancerous ideology) but I don’t want to. People have their unquestionable needs and one of them is a need of closure, that’s it.

>>15203550
Thank god I was never in love, at least I won't become a faggot obsessed over some dumb slut

>>15202934
I heard a rumor that eatting mangoes increases breast size.

>>15203009
>>15203384
Painted my nails for the first time in a while because of this post.

No, I am a guy.

>>15203009
>30% of 4chan users are female
And 85% of those are trans women.

>>15202934
>just keep refreshing /lit/ like a robot
I should be reading or writing

>>15203662
ok schizo

>>15203529
indefinite long distance relationships never work. sorry for your loss and fuck that ho

>>15203626
i heard that sucking my dick also increases breast size, better give it a try you never know

>>15203761
Woah. Your breast must be huge.

>>15203497
surprisingly accurate (could've been based if you left out the coomer details though lol)

>>15203790
>>15203761
#REKT

>>15203790
just as your dad likes them

>>15203813
begone roastie, air your flaps out elsewhere

>>15203833
:-*

>>15203813
Why do you come to 4chan? I can’t think of any reason for a woman to come to /lit/ other than out of a twisted, Freudian desire to experience a male dominated culture. Do you like being dominated by incel losers who, despite being at the bottom of the food chain among men in terms of physicality, could still murder you with a single strike? You know this is what would happen if we fought, right? https://youtu.be/nVLJiTRjG9A

>>15203662
This. Women who use 4chan either don't want it noticed (5%), or they're tourists (15%), or they're trannies (80%). Let me help you spot the trannies.

>>15203813
>tee hee :3 silly bois~ i'm a girl ;D feminine typing mannerisms :3< hehe ^_^ squee~

This is a tranny.

>>15203887
she wants attention and feels like this is the one place where she can be the only woman. chances are she’s a discord e-thot who has an extremely shallow interest in literature and says “i’m bored hehe” ten times a day. OR he has a penis and is trying to ape natal women on 4channel, sad!

>>15203761
>>15203817
>>15203833
>>15203843
>>15203887
>>15203890
>>15203905

>>15202934
can I write in spanish?

>>15203890
Yes, cat-like displays are a red flag OwO UwU

>>15203887
>experience a male dominated culture
mostly this. It's interesting, no one here knows that i'm a women unless i tell them. It's in some way a way to experiencing being "one of the guys" wich would obviously never be possible in real life. It's entertaining.
>do you like being dominated by incel losers
how do they get to dominate me here?

another reason why i come here is simply because i don't get to talk about things that interest me anywhere else. For a long time i didn't want to see the truth but most women really are as brain dead as people describe them here. I have only one female friend that i actually respect and i cant be friends with men so i resort to conversations on the internet.

why men hate cats? only autist/child-like or low t mem like cats

>>15204050
please elaborate

>>15204050
autistic men have high levels ot t, that's what makes the autistic
>inb4 high t == big muscles
no

>>15202941
Holy fuck you sound unbearable

>>15203962
I want to beat you to death and rape your dead body with a metal pole and drop bricks on your femoid head repeatedly. I wouldn’t even torture you because that would be acknowledging your status as a subject, which women have never done for me. I’d simply throw as many strikes as hard as possible for the express utilitarian purpose of taking your life, similar to how a builder smashes a wall down. You are nothing but a whore. Your life is utterly worthless.

>>15203025
do you rush to the defense of men when you see women bitching about them, im just curious

>>15204121
The world would be a better place if you were dead. Though I was not the first one to say this to you, since that would be your dad, I just wanted to remind you.

>>15203962
why tell people that you're a woman? you're not being "one of the guys" you're being a goddamn attention-whoring retard—you don't get to talk about things that interest you anywhere else…like what? your physical appearance and dogs with flowers in their mouths? the magical experience of being a very special and unique cunt on 4chan? but you think *OTHER WOMEN* are braindead and not worthy of these EPIC CONTRIBUTIONS? very funny! please go fuck yourself and never ever talk about your shitty little body again, roastie. post if you have something of worth to say and i must stress that your cunt is NOTHING OF WORTH! thank you.

>>15204121
oh no how shocking. I've never expected to read such vile things on my favourite chinese batfarming forum! You really teached me a lesson, anon.

>>15204158
You will never be “one of the guys”, femoid. It’s obvious you’re a hole or a tranny from a mile away. Get back to discussing John Green on redit.

>>15204194
i usually never tell people here that i'm a woman, that's the point retard

>>15204213
this: >>15204158
isn't me

>>15204227
And yet it’s blatantly obvious from how you act. You will never fit in amongst men.

>>15204227
okay but right now, in this very moment, you're being stupid whore for attention—not for mentioning you're a woman, but because you ONLY did that to talk about your hole with some stupid, drooling anon and so your whole little piece about being special and anonymous and not like other girls is pointless. if you had something valuable to say about the experience of being a woman it'd be different and understandable, but you don't, so it isn't

>>15204050
what the fuck you're talking about?

https://youtu.be/euUYU0JZ9cw

@ 7:10 my man here made a solid case that cats are a man's pet

Some of those Tiktok girls are cute and that makes me uncomfortable.

>>15204251
i'm just replying. Where did i talk about my hole? As i said before this is the first time i ever actually addressed being a woman. I've been posting here for a long time, believe it or not.

>>15204227
please post feet for the lads

>>15204251
>stupid, drooling anon
>female experience is valuable
How can I tell you’re a male feminist/femoid who is getting angry at her because she just confirms /lit/‘s theories about how women are vapid sluts?

>>15204297
>slut
>vapid
what makes you think that? You're so full of blind rage that you're making things up

Whenever we're alone my 10-year-old niece keeps asking me why I don't have a girlfriend. I don't know what to say, so I just don't respond when she asks. Yesterday, we were alone working in the garage and she asked, "Do you want to die alone?"

>>15204328
kek

>>15204328
tell her "that's because i want to keep myself pure for you"

>>15204284
>>15203813
"hehehe this description of a cute girl is accurate OwO but UwU i see you said some coomery things about my pussy and my butthole lol haha…not very based hehehe" and so you demonstrate that attention is like crack to you in your inability to resist replying to a retarded and horny anon who is fantasizing about your asshole. in fact you started this all here >>15203384 because you wanted to mention your delicate hands. i find it difficult to believe that you've been posting here for a while because you decided that for all of the reasons out there to reveal that you are a woman, you did so purely to 1.) talk about the frailty of your body and 2.) indicate that you still like to SHITPOST WITH THE GUYS. please, in the future refrain from roastieposting.

>>15204375
anon just relax it's obvious that it's a bait

>>15204316
How about that you already offered to fuck a guy (>>15203420) that you don’t even know? How about your shameless flaunting of your disgusting femininity in full knowledge you are talking to a sex-starved userbase who hates women? You’ve added nothing to this thread except your holes, because that’s all you are good for. You deserve to be brutally raped and have your throat slit.

>>15204328
>so I just don't respond when she asks
should have turned it around with asking is she wants to be your gf, now you're FUCKED

>>15204251
>if you had something valuable to say about the experience of being a woman it'd be different and understandable
as if anyone would be interested in something like that, this isn't fucking twitter. If you say you're a woman on here, every discussion is automatically over, no matter what you say, you just get blind rage from then on.

>>15204392
have sex sweety :3

gender discussions on 4chan make me feel like an enlightened centrist

>>15204463
Not me, sweaty.

>>15204392
i just hate incels. The feeling of knowing i'm torturing one of those subhumans with a little glimpse of hope gives me a rush

>>15203022
you are me

>>15203077
that's clairo

>>15202934
I spend too much time on the internet

>>15204480
fuck off anyone who doesn't want women dead isn't welcome here

>>15202934
How the fuck am I meant to continue in striving for something greater? I look back and can't even seem to remember a moment I was 'inspired' or ran with a consuming 'passion' for something truly great, I can't seem to find my will and I'd rather not blame it on the circumstances on failing to inspire me but myself. I feel I've let myself be totally occupied by indolence and lethargy for the time being, spanning since a point I can barely recall. I've recognized all of this and yet I struggle for change. Each part of my day runs in the same forsaken luxury where only classical music seems to provide me with some drive, and yet I feel even that is fleeting with every replay. This barely feels human to me. There is nothing special about any of this, this is just a struggle I hope to overcome by running into the same wall over and over again until I get some sort of realization, not that I'm even running at the moment.

>>15204521
nuh-uh

How do you reconcile the conception of infinity with the reality that you are shitposting on a tiawanese ice-sculpting website?

I'm in love with my buddy's girlfriend. We are three friends for over 8 years. They are in love and I feel terrible. She once told me she didn't view me as a sexual being. I laughed but something broke in me. I never had luck with girls. When I was a kid and I watched a movie where a cliché dork geek character appeared, I always had an atrocious feeling that it would be me one day. I don't kill myself because can't even purchase a gun in my cucked country, the firearms are too pricey, and because I want to see what comes next.
I feel like I was made to spectate life, not to experience it.

>>15204799
And no one will ever see see as a sexual being as well. I remember when I lost my virginity with my then girlfriend and another girl found out when she was with me and my friend she laughed in my face and started saying she could believe it, in front of my friends no less. It Seriously pissed me off. I hate how females will just say the most fucked up things to us.

>>15204914
>I lost my virginity
stopped reading. You're not one of us.

>>15202934
the only reason i didn't punch you was not out of fear but because of how much i knew it would upset mom.
i feel like something has changed, that image of you screaming in my face about how I'm a cunt just like my father as I'm calling you out on your petulant bullshit can never be taken back.
you hate me and i love you, but i genuinely mean this.
if i weren't related to you, i would have knocked your fucking jaw out of its socket just like my dad was justified in doing all those years ago.

>>15202941
>>look up from the book to reflect on a passage and see a red fire ant crawling on me
You know you could've just sat in a different location in the woods where there aren't fireants? This looks like bait but I can understand if you have a mental disorder.

I dont know if my life can be called good if i've never been in love and loved by the same person.

What is the purpose of my life? What is the damned reason I was ripped from the emptiness of inexistance?
I just failed in my life, since the beginning. There seems to be no thing I can do well, which I can make myself proud. Is there something else to this?
If there is a God, then why would he make a waste of space and resources like me? What would be the reason? What is my purpose?

>>15204121
based

>>15205018
Bold of you to assume God would just up and tell you your purpose, instead of leaving you to find it yourself.

>>15204914
yeah right ?

>>15204389
>its a bait
its written "its bait", you fucking whore

>>15204974
Is it so bad to want to read in solitude, especially when I was reading a book specifically about solitude? Maybe I wrote it poorly, but to me it did seem annoying and weird that I was walking around for hours trying to find a solitary location with no success.

>>15204533
based

>>15202985
why do simps like you exist?

>>15202941
its ok man i get the same way, maybe its adhd or just irritability but i get very perturbed by innocuous background noise

>>15204284
>i'm just replying.

The other roastie is right, you're a worthless cunt who doesn't fit in, and this is what proves it. "What???? I'm just responding, it's not my fault I have coomer fanboys who will continue the reply chain until the entire thread is about me teehee! It's not MY fault the whole thread is a back-and-forth implicitly about my vagina :P"

Yes it is, that's the whole point. We're not in some normie discursive space where this lame excuse flies. You are being disruptive. The only people who would be disruptive in this way, let alone continue doing it after being called out for it, are
>someone who doesn't know it's disruptive, aka a newfag roastie tourist
>someone who doesn't care that it's disruptive because they don't care about the quality of discourse, aka a newfag roastie tourist

Now go ahead and reply "lmao >4chan >quality of discourse >muh sekrit club" and prove even further that you're a tourist using meme phrases from 2015 because you only browse here once in a while. You're exactly why people hate women on this site and try to suppress or exclude them, because you're a reminder of how women act all the time in every other forum, i.e. like attention-whoring responsibility-dodging community-wrecker cunts. The other bitch is yelling at you because she actually gets it and fits in.

Give up your roastie ways and try actually belonging to something for once, as an equal and not as a Equal* (Special VIP Pass: Woman). You haven't gotten there yet, tourist whore.

>>15203245
replying because i was in your position for a really long time
to your first point, my gf is traditionally beautiful, but i get raging hardons for art thots and in the more dire parts of the relationship fantasized about my friends librarian sister and the chokered up braless art whore chicks in martens and waist high jeans i see all around the city. (also made worse that we’d dated for years and she’s the only person i ever slept with)

her personality is not as annoying as the one you described. she is ambitious and works hard but lacks a considerable amount of general knowledge because she’s not from the west and her family is not really upper class. to me and probably to you it gets a bit tiresome on good days and outright offputting on bad days the amount of things she simply doesn’t know. always having to ask if she knows what / who im talking about, the reference i made, etc
for the record we had a big breakup once when we were long distance (i initiated) and i have had several periods where i had essentially emotionally resigned myself to breaking up with her. (i never could because the circumstances of our relationship and what it would mean for her if we broke up were abnormal, to say the least. also my first relationship and like you said i would hate myself for breaking her heart)

ive made peace with everything and have bought her the ring she wanted. its because
> She's goddamn sweet though.
she’s got a heart of gold. she’s a christian and she is going to be a wonderful mother. she is sweet, kind, caring. she is not spiteful or wicked. while i am sometimes annoyed at how she doesnt keep up with conversations we have with friends or people at parties, etc, our private life is a joy, and thats how we spend 99% of our time.
in the long run, i think we can be happy together, and i also know that our children will have a good woman as their mother.
if you think you cant imagine the latter with your current girl, then move on, for your own sake. if you can, it might be worth it in the end

>>15205089
I'm not assuming that. I was admiting to myself and to those reading it that I have no idea about what I should do.

>>15205114
You could've moved 1 meter to avoid fireants.

>>15202941
You should maintain your autism and sensitivity but not hate the whole world. I have a similar disposition and I hate the drug fags and the truck fags too but certain things are innocuous and sometimes you just have to acknowledge you're the oversensitive one, not that others are undersensitive.

My whole life people have told me that I'm weird because I don't want to hear people chew with their mouths open, or cough without covering their mouths, or because I get annoyed when I hear eight straight hours of leaf blowers and sperg out about how leafblowers are retarded and wasteful. Their advice to you would be the same as it always was to me, stop whining, stop complaining, you're the weird one. My advice after having lived like this for a long time is that they're 20% correct, but it's also okay to be a big autistic sperg who likes his quiet, and it's okay to be principled and hate loud gas-guzzling faggot cars and rude people. You just have to do it in a way that doesn't drive you mad.

You might like D.H. Lawrence

>>15204134
Yes he does, and in the end she gets cocked by the exact guy she was complaining about previously.

I still think about her and recently I even dreamt of her. The moment I met her I thought "she's going to by my girlfriend". At the time she already had one and, incidentally, I did as well. We lived together for 2 years as roommates, and nothing came from it. There was one close encounter:

A week or two after having broke up with her boyfriend she knocked on my door. She wanted to talk. I opened the door and we were standing face to face, though I towered over her. "Hey, I just wanted to let you know, I've broken up with A---." Despite having a girlfriend at the time, I was quite inexperienced with women, but I had a strong intuition of where this was going. Awkwardly I said, "I'm sorry, that's really too bad". And her eyes flashed up at me in a way I will just never forget and she said "No, it's really not that bad". There was a small smile on her face. I looked away and that flicker in her eyes was burned into my mind forever. I could have taken her right there. We could have started something together. But I thought of my big fat girlfriend, and I thought of her ex, who I actually liked. I thought this can't happen. These things don't happen to me. And so the moment slipped away from me. I remember watching her accept my rejection as a said "I really liked A---" and I could feel her turn cold. She played it off well but I knew, my chance was lost. To this day I cope and tell myself that I did the right thing. Yet, if it's true, why do I regret my choice so badly?

After we moved into different apartments, we still went to the same school together for another 2 years. I hardly saw her during that time, but I thought about her daily. After graduation I ran into her again. It had been about 3 years since our last encounter. I was with a new woman, the woman I am still with today. I had broken up with my big fat girlfriend about a year prior. I was shocked to see her, but she didn't seem to notice me. My heart pounded so hard. I told my girlfriend "hey, that's my old roommate" and she replied "Well why don't you go say hi?" My heart pounded harder. I thought about it and I stood up from the table. I hesitated as all I could hear and feel was my heart thumping in my chest. Then I saw her get up and an exploding sensation drove through my chest. It felt like light was bursting through my heart in every direction, the beams being irregularly redirected by the contents of my body. For some reason I remember this visual of that sensation. I thought I was going to faint. I thought I might be having a heart attack. I said hi and hugged her and began to chat. Even though I felt I was going to die I managed to keep my outward composure. We talked for 30 minutes or so, shouting over the music. I introduced her to my new girlfriend "ahh, sticking around campus for the young girls I see" she said after my girlfriend returned to our table. I nodded, as if to acknowledge it was true.

>>15205841
Truth be told, she was only the second woman I had ever been with. And this was when she gave me a second chance "I'm going to C---, do you want to come?" I knew if I went she would have been mine. Maybe not, maybe this part is just my imagination. But again, I had to reject her. I never saw her again. She moved across the country. It's been 5 years since, I'm engaged and quite happy, yet still I dream of her and think of her.

>>15205841
You write well anon.

>>15202941
This is really funny. You’re based don’t listen to the haters

>>15202934
a hat!

Why do people harass, demean and antagonize me? What have I done to deserve it?

>>15206024
You're an easy target. It's that simple. Become a much harder target, and they will stop.

>>15206048
Like stab them or something?

This afternoon, having committed myself to finishing this book, I found myself laying in my bedroom reading. As I flip to the third page my wife begins to ponder where I am. I hear her stir. I desperately try to keep my attention on the page, but her dreaded footsteps hit the stairs and even though my eyes scan the words I fail to read. As she reaches the second floor she first looks into the office, thinking she would find me there. She's perplexed, and curiously enters the bedroom to find me. I pretend she hasn't disturbed me, and act as if I'm reading along merrily, almost ignoring her. "why don't you come downstairs, dear?"

Not wanting to dredge up some argument I go downstairs. She scrolls through instagram while I try to read. She chortles, and huffs through her nose algorithmically. The third page remains unread. "oh my god, watch this!" I don't move, but she eagerly brings her phone to my face and I watch a golden retriever puppy sit in another dogs water bowl. It was cute I admit, I even laughed, but the next day I left forever.

I love having a huge penis, even when I'm at my worst i just remember that i have a big ol hog and immediately I feel reassured

Why does everyone say to be yourself? Most people would hate each other if they were "themself." Most people have deeply divided political and religious beliefs that cannot coexist at all. If people truly stood up for their beliefs, we would be in anarchy. It is a good thing that most people are not themselves.

The sad reality is that most friendships or even family units, would not exist cohesively if people truly voiced their opinions and were "themself." I feel weird calling people my friends even though I have not shared with them opinions on controversial subjects,

>>15206115
The moment someone begins to show signs of treating you like that, throw them out of your life. If you cannot avoid them, pretend they don't exist.

>>15205841
Yikes, this struck a cord. I also received advances from a girl who seems so damn good. But I have a 5 year relationship I can't just quit. I completely understand you when you say "But I thought of my big fat girlfriend" ... like she is some kind of nuisance. I feel so fucking guilty for feeling this way. Jesus. Why is love so cruel? Is it really a stupid game that's a free-for-all? Is there a point following rules like monogamy? Are people who jump the gun and have romances with whoever their heart desires happier? Do we not all end up the same old fucks anyway?

It's interesting to see how the OP image influences the posts on these threads. I once made one with a painting of Kant and there was a philosophy discussion far better than anything I've seen on this board. Now it's a woman and most posts are about cooming.

>>15206162
Problem is i dont have skills or hobbies, and know nothing in more detail than politics, but my opinions are too controversial to be expressed in fun/family settings. I do like getting drunk and talking about politics at uni parties though, that is insanely fun.

>>15206201
>But I have a 5 year relationship I can't just quit

You can though. Don't waste another 5 years if she's not the one, lad. These days people just ghost each other so breakups are relatively easy.

>>15202941
based

>>15205841
this is great, anon, the feelings you describe are vivid. I feel it too. I miss my ex daily and regret leaving her often even though I know it was the right thing to do. she was a total bitch, but there was something between us that I know I will never have again.

>>15202934
From early 2015 until the end of 2017, I was forced to go on bedrest after a case of psychiatric malpractice perpetrated by research doctors at Massachusetts General Hospital unbalanced my mind and sent me into acute multi-compound withdrawal. In that time, all of my muscles atrophied, my nervous system was damaged, and I nearly entered a coma trying to titrate off the poisions that were fed to me. I had to re-teach myself how to walk, how to eat, and how to sleep soundly again. So for the past couple years, I have been rebuilding myself. I went back to school, I got a degree and even had a relationship. I cannot drink alcohol because it acts along the same GABA pathway that triggered my collapse, I have a tremor, and my hearing is damaged from the frying of my circuitry, but that’s about it. Other than that, I am still a functioning person. Doctors tell me I should not have survived.

And now with Coronavirus, it is like the entire world is in withdrawal, like I once was. I see parallels in the way people are thinking and posting online and in social media, parallel to the way I once felt during those two years. A friend who is used to going out every weekend will put on their Instagram story how every day of the week now feels the same, and how awful it is. People are so obnoxious about it that they compare themselves to Anne Frank trapped in the attic. There are even stories of people taking their own lives because they can’t bare these couple months we’ve all been cooped up. Women especially seem to be going insane at this exposure to the concept of being alone.

When I see all that, I remember where I come from. I remember the lifetime of symptoms from being an overmedicated human being since my birth, and I remember the two years I spent alone in my bedroom; unable to walk, unable to sleep, and unable to eat as a normal man does, and I remember that state of suspended animation, when you are fighting to prevent each day from being your last.

When I first saw the ridiculous things people said about themselves in quarantine, at first I got so angry. “You can’t go out and have fun, and you are crying? At least every nerve in your body is not lit on fire.” That was my thought process. But now I see beyond that, because I realize what a terrible thing it is to be familiar with this isolation that the whole world is now experiencing. For me this COVID-19 quarantine is easy because it is familiar to me. For me this COVID-19 quarantine is wonderful because I am not bound to my bed, and my body no longer burns from withdrawal. I work four days a week remotely and spend the rest of my time conversing with friends, or running through the beaches and forests of my home. I can deal with being alone like this because it is better than where I come from. But I realize the sorrow of my own condition being experienced by everyone else.

I hope mankind can leave withdrawal, and no longer live like I once did.

>>15202941
are you me?
why not just find a better spot in the forest

>>15206162
because its good advice. most people aren't themselves. look at horoscopes -- your natal chart for example acknowledges that there are several (you)s

Sun Sign
>The sun is your identity. It is the essence that you shine out into the world.
Moon Sign
>The moon is the soul behind your identity. It is the subconscious side of yourself that you typically keep hidden and is the driving force behind your emotional reactions.
Rising Sign
>Rising sign (also known as your Ascendant) is your social personality. Your rising sign represents your physical body and outward style.

>>15204227
ok but now that I know, you are a potential mate and I have to compete with the other anonymous retards for your affection

>>15202934
>quarantine shit hits the fan
>unincloses so I head back home
>sister takes a break from her appartment in the city because she doesn’t want to be alone
>family now living together again out in rural MA like we did when I was a kid
>wake up in the morning and go for a sunrise run at the abandoned farm field down the road
>come home and make breakfast for everyone
>spend a few hours a doing remote work for paid internship
>tinker with a personal sculpture project for a couple hours and make a little more progress in The Iliad
>take the dog for a walk by the lake at sunset
>come home and mom has dinner ready for all of us
>read some more and browse /lit/ for a little while, and hop on discord to say hi to uni friends

Every day for the past month or so has been like this. We have family game and movie nights now more often too. I hope you guys are having as good a time as I am in quarantine because it’s so fucking comfy that I never want this to end.

>>15206662
Glad you recovered anon, and hopefully the world follows in your steps.

>>15206870
sounds awesome, also black poodles are based. what kind of american calls it uni though

what kind of work are you doing, btw

>>15206870
Nice

>>15206948
They are wonderfully intelligent and proud creatures, and this one is 13 years old so I’m fortunate to be with her here in the quarantine while she’s still healthy. I do editorial work for a documentary production studio. Work in that field ranges from video editing and historical archival materials research to licensing, transcription, and grant-writing, with occasional production work every now and then (lighting, cinematography, audio recording, etc). It’s fun stuff.

>>15207070
very cool. I hope your dog lasts a while. my family's had a succession of them, with some mutts mixed in for variety. Christmas should be my first time back in almost three years. there is no place like home.

i want to discuss three kingdoms but every faggot watching the show seems to be some kind of gamer underage faggot and the comment section on youtube is filled with these faggots.

>>15202934
i fucking hate you, readers. fuck you, fuck waht you want i dont even know what you want!!! how could i know what you want if i dont know what i want. Look, I'm just trying to be honest here, ok? Why does it matter if it's "good writing" or whatever gay shit you make up to make your meaningless existence have a bit more sense? I'm tired of all these stupid lies. Fuck you. Please. Fuck dude. Fuck fucky fuckity fuck fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me I really cant take thuis anymore dude. Please. Actually please. I'm not joking, please. I dont know what I'm doing, I dont know what's happening, I dont know how what the fuck vfucj fuck dude please fuck. Im serious right now, I dont know what the fuck is happening. fFucking like, i dont lknow, prison flesh dude. Haha that last bit sounded really gay. Please dont say mean things to me, please help me I think I just want friends but I dont really know.

>>15207169
Thanks. She has a reproductive cancer that we’re currently treating successfully with chemo, so the hope is that we can keep it at bay for the rest of her natural life. I care more about quality of time over quantity for her. There is no point in having an animal suffer and we’re fortunate that she’s still healthy now. Mutts are great, they usually have such a sweet temperament. I’d like to adopt a rescue, poodle or not.

It’s interesting how we’re willing to end the lives of our animal companions to prevent needless suffering, but not ourselves.

I wish the frau were here. I would gouge both of her eyes out.

I wrote this story to contain my edge in one place.

Sweet mother gentle Father sweet Mother gentle father “ the voice called out” sweet mother gentle father “ and my eyes were opened

Cold fire bitter fire. the meaningless symbol, the inverted flame.

That flame which darkened, that flame which cast backward shadows. That day which is darker than night, that Sackcloth-Sun

The pounding sensation of Blood leaking from my teeth. As blood rots it become sweet, as things rot they become sweet, age brings sweetness. The teeth are Spirit, the blood is the essence. The teeth grind away and in them is vested the power of ripping and tearing. Boundless space is empty and without difference, it is perverted by specks of stars, stars age and die, as they rot they return to the equality of Space leaving behind their slime. The Mind is the stars, the Star-slime is fiction the unstable mutant. Boundless stars becoming slime, the slime ages and sweetens joining together, blood and slime are one. I see the face which belonged to my grandfather and grandmother

I wake up” my father finally burst out laughing over the phone, he told me and he really did say “you’re just being a child, they’re both dead and you need to accept it, Death is ugly so we should avoid it, stop worrying about ugly things, get over yourself and don’t tell anyone else what you told me, it’s embarrassing” I hanged up the Phone and felt disgusts i know it was a dream and I know I felt bad about them dying why do you have to throw it in my face? What’s funny about pouring my heart out? I should go and wash my face, I’m still reeling from that dream, it was a bad idea to tell him anyways, I mean maybe it’s not his fault it’s maybe too early for such silly things. I take a bath instead, I need to get this out of my system. So I rested for a while in the Water, laying down. Allowing my imagination to remember the dream again “sweet mother gentle father” I accidentally hummed to myself, in my imagination I see a skull and I swear it felt like my own voice was different, saying “ hellebore which defeats insanity, Sweet nightshade which removes the obscurity of the colorful lights” I see the skull as my own head and it says something slurred which I cannot understand. Then it returns once more into a skull and says “life is obscurity and madness, Death is firm, Sober, a true Rest and comfort. A true release and Love. The worlds loves are lies, only one’s own flesh and blood loves flesh and blood” for a moment the skull takes the appearance of my grandfather. He speaks again “sweet child, adorable child, take my skull and return to the place of your great comfort, then you will have eyes of cinnabar and the elixir of hellebore-nightshade”

Cont

>>15207405

I feel unwell, thinking such weird thoughts, I’m not crazy I would never do anything like this, “Vide, do you not love me?” Physically did I hear this? My own grandfathers voice? Okay, okay, I’ll just go to where they’re buried and I don’t have to actually do anything, I’ll just pay my respects at night. That’s all. Crawling out of the bath I slept in waiting for night when it would feel right.

The night finally came, the cemetery was far away, it took me hours to get to jersey, I walked in, empty handed, and felt something like a mix of fear and comfort, it was just an ordinary dimly lit cemetery but I knew what I was really there to do. There’s some trees, near his spot. I leaned against the nearer tree next to his Stone. This is crazy, there was no way I would do this, I couldn’t even bring in a shovel if I wanted to. I sat there with the stone and the trees for a while, thinking about them, about my dream. That song got repeated in my head and I had to him it again “sweet mother Gentle father “ I then felt a gust of cold air, making me shiver, I didn’t notice until then but suddenly the area got a little darker. Behind the tree where I was sitting was a partially melted now extinguished black candle and leaning against the other side of the tree, a Shovel.

Could they really want this for me? Do they really love me ? A relaxation rushed over my body, so much so that I felt it hard to move from comfort, I knew this is what they wanted for they loved me. I digged until I reached the coffin, I opened it and saw my grand father’s partially decomposed body. But his skull was utterly clean, no flesh upon it, something like an inscription was upon the skull “sweet mother gentle Father” I knew then that this was from them and not my own doing, peace washed overmyself, it felt like a part of me died taking out his skull, but having it near me filled me with such closeness. I remember when I was very young we would sit in his room, his small room and I would see ugly things, I think demons in my mind. He would tell me “ do not be afraid, what you see out here is the Evil demon” pointing outside his window “what you see inside are the angels from my Grandfather and grandmother, my grandfathers name is Cold Flame, her name is Leaking Void. What you see is not different from me, Deus phantasmal, “

Standing in his grave a voice resounded out of my mouth “life and birth are one, Age and death are One, to die is to be free in spirit, to age is to become closer and closer to True Love, May my heart find rest in your name ai’ani Sunyaza”

I took the skull and sneaked out, I wanted to run but I couldn’t muster the energy. I drove in my car towards my grand father’s old home in the woods of the Catskill mountain range.

>>15207409

Three long hours I drove, yet I didn’t feel any regret or fear. I kept seeing images of me driving with my grand father, me in the passenger seat and him watching over me, he didn’t feel far at all. Whenever he would take me, we would get some candy, he would buy me a toy, never letting me cry. Finally every time I would enter his home I would see my grandmother, “come and eat, I have Salami and Chicken cutlet and zmeya” in my heart I did not consider my father and mother as my parents, they never were so sweet to me.

I finally got to the house nestled in a rough dirt road in the woodlands, a small house but Cosy, it looked like family to me. I entered the home and went to my grand father’s now empty room, I saw his empty bed, his closet with his clothes, tears and comfort, tears and comfort. I sit down on his bed and notice his old wooden drawer, I used to open and close it because it would make a funny sound. For old time’s sake I opened it. I saw two flowers, two stones, his old pocket knife and an ashtray filled with the ash of his cigarettes.

I held on to the skull again, this time imagining my grand father and grand mother there with me and with Will saying “sweet mother, Gentle Father” I saw them in my mind guiding my hands, so my flesh followed, I put the two red stones of cinnabar into the eye sockets, placed the two flowers into the skull, I placed the ash upon the flowers, juice from them leaked, very little bit visibly but much in my imagination. Hardly a drop from the two flowers.

>>15207414

(Final part of the story of Brother Vide Chair Adoucit)

I finally took his knife and slashed my palm, spreading it so that my entire left palm could be covered. I left a palm print upon the skull and also upon each of the four walls. Suddenly no longer was the juice of the flowers only in my mind, but within the flesh I saw much fluid. I drank of the Fluid, sweeter beyond compare yet rotten. I fell over upon his bed, I could no longer tell what was my imagination and what was real. Many men dressed in dirty blood and ash covered bandages and tattered black robes seemed to surround me. They stripped me naked, dipped strips of linen bandages in my blood and ash, they covered me until no part of me was without bandage. Covering even my eyes. Only my mouth was not covered. I felt something stab into my tongue and my mouth went numb. I cannot feel it at all. All I could feel and see was the rotting sweetness of My own blood and the elixir intermingling in my body, in my memory, in my imagination. All things became Dark. I felt my teeth being punctured, blood rushing out of them and the nerves making rushes of blood and pain wash over me, the pain so severe I could no longer imagine anything, and anything within my sight even my inmost became invisible to me. All I could experience and interact with was the Pain, like electric shocks, like the head exploding, like endless pressure trying to release itself. A voice ringed out, not from my mind, not from my spirit, not from my imagination, but from my flesh, reverberating out from my left hand “Sweet mother gentle father “ and all of my flesh began to sing, Sweet mother gentle father, and there was no longer anything, no pain, no sorrow, only I existing in flesh, only I existing in flesh with my ultimate Rest, the highest comfort, my true Home, my sweet mother and gentle Father embracing me in the union of our Flesh. I saw them and sang them in my flesh, and boundless other father’s and mothers who I knew truly, in my flesh I knew them. I knew this place was no where at all, there was neither sight nor sound, nor separation, nor light nor was there even oneness. All I felt was endless flesh, endless empty flesh, empty sweetness, sweet flesh and all of us dwelled within the flesh endless, endlessly did we sing “Sweet mother Gentle Father”

>>15202934

>>15202934
I had a vision that my destiny is in Alaska.

What do we live for? Nietzsche said it was to live an artistic life. Doesn't that seem kind of fleeting? Can a society be built on 'artistic lives'? Probably not.

Life is like a game of Minecraft. There is no meaning, no story, just building and discovering. I have this vision of myself wandering naked through nature, not having to worry about food or safety. That's our ultimate destiny, I think. To return back to what was, but also transcending it. I am happiest in the forest, hearing the rushing stream. The eternal moment.

What about my life? If I go the way I am thinking and if things turn out the way I am hoping, I would have a decent amount of money saved up in a few years (>100k) what then? I can only hope to create some passive income scheme and escape the drudgery of wage slavery.

I don't mind if I don't find a mate until 40, provided I'm a millionaire or whatever the equivalent will be in 15 years. What then? I want to escape society. I want to mine my own copper, iron, find my own energy sources. I know this isn't feasible and yet it's what my heart yearns for. I think a better option would be to salvage the refuse of our wasteful society and exist on the peripheries.

A mate and five children, a ranch in the mountains, preferably in Idaho or Montana, a shop to repair cars and work on electronics, that's a start. The Ubermensch will be be born in the mountains.

>>15206922
Thank you. If there’s anything my life has taught me it’s that healing takes time, and that it is never truly complete. There’s nothing wrong with that. If people understood this, if they made peace with what they cannot change this very moment, I think the beaches in America would still be closed. We are capable of great healing when we let go of where we want to be, and make peace with where we are.

>>15207502
Why won’t you escape the US and move to Europe?

>>15202934
The United States must be Balkanized. This will not come to pass for decades, but it must enter the zeitgeist now, the way independence from Britain was first discussed decades before it became a possibility.

The federal government will only become more and more overbearing, controlling, invasive. More and more our politics will be determined the liberal cities, and more and more detached from the food supply (read: bad things happen historically when this occurs).

This fracturing while seeming tragic, will only strengthen the idea of the United States as the Founding Fathers intended. What made the Greeks so undeniably influential in Western history was their ability to experiment with different governments, philosophies, etc. while still having a common tongue and culture.

The fracturing of the United States is destined and 10000 years from now the US will be as big in history as the Greeks in terms of influence and thought.

>>15207530
Western Europe is too territorialized, to quote Deleuze. It's claimed space. It's used up its creative entropy and is now in the waning period of it's history. Eastern Europe is much more uncertain, but I'm better off sticking where I know. The American West is my home.

I think the next great overture of history will occur in the Americas. Latin America is in many ways unclaimed territory, but there is so much creative potential there. When I went to Mexico City last year I was struck by the vibrating energy of everything, the pura vida. The contrast of desert and jungle makes for such an interesting juxtaposition: lush, saturated with life, but also deadly.

>>15202934
I made a somewhat /fit/ easy dessert. You take a small cup of crystal that can withstand heat and put butter to avoid sticking. Then you grab a single piece of loaf bread and break it into 4 parts.

Grab an egg and use half of it. The other half you could quickly fry it for a sandwich. Anyway, you add like a teaspoon of cocoa powder (though optional), as much cinnamon and vanilla as you want, like 2-3 teaspoons of honey (or sugar, to your heart's desire; just try the mix to see if it tastes good) and mix it all up. Add a bit of butter if you feel like you wont care for the calories.

Then cut like half an apple to pieces.

You put one part of the bread in the bottom of the crystal thingie and, with a spoon, throw some of the mixture on it, until it is as soaked as you want. Then you put some pieces of apple, then a bit of cinnamon on those apples, and a bit more of the mix. Then again you put the bread etc etc until you are out of bread. If there is mixture left you can just throw it in or do anything you want with it.

Then you can put it inside an electric oven for 25 minutes at 350F. Dont put it on the microwave, as it could break the container!!! I just had one and put a bit of pancake syrup on it and its amazing. If its still too soggy for you then you can put it in longer, or risk it on the microwave. I put it for 20 minutes then like 30 seconds on a 1100 watt microwave and the glass container I covered the top with cracked :( anyway it was really good.

I had a dream last night. I was in a summer home with my family and for some reason we were very poor. He had to ration our food to survive. Some neighbor kids came to our house which I disliked ( I can't remember why, I just felt instinctive hatred for them and just wanted them to leave) and they started asking us for food. My mom was about to give it to them because she's very kind at heart but I interjected and started shouting about how it's our food, how they don't deserve anything because we're already hungry and poor ourselves. Something to that note. I remember being very angry at the kids. And at that moment my grandpa (who is an actual socialist, my family constantly argues with him about USSR in real life, he's the only supporter of Stalin in my family) starts crying. He said something about how bread should not be property, everyone should be able to access it if they're hungry and how I was a heartless bastard. What he said really made me think. Was I a bad person? I knew we would suffer a bit more but we wouldn't die if we gave a bit of our food to the children. Should I give away my food to hungry people even if I dislike them?

It was a weird dream, to say the least. It's not often that I have such coherent and vivid dreams.

>>15207632
Maybe it's a premonition of things to come.

I dislike women and want to inflict pain on them. I hate them and want to see them all fucking die. I want to just go for a drive and come across some woman jogging and run her fucking over several times. Kill all women.

>>15207679
What's your relationship like with your mother?

>>15207688
It's not just her, it's all of you. I fucking hate all of you amd want you to suffer for the pain and harassment and insults and torture you have out me through. I hate you all. If the men of the world had any brains, they would rise up and send all women to labor slave camps.

D É G É N É R E S C E N C E

>>15207679
>>15207692
take your meds bro

>>15202934
Finished all four novels written by John Edward Williams. Where can I get his goddamn poems?
Where are
The Broken Landscape: Poems (1949)
The Necessary Lie (1965)
???

>>15207692
I'm not a woman you fucking idiot.

>>15207632
Where are you from?

>>15207701
I don't need medication. I need to see your daughter's mutilated remains.

>>15207713
IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN YOU CAN DIE TOO!!!

>>15207718
Northeastern Europe, former commiebloc country.

I really wish rose or the frau were here so I could take my anger out on them. I would stab them a hundred times in the face. Their own families would not be able to identify them.

huh, so that's why /lit/ has been so shit lately

And I am nice to those chucklefuck idiots for fuckking what?? Nothing. That's what it is for. I oretend to be nice to those fucking peabrains and they won't fucming be nice amd helpful back? Then why be nice in the first fucking place??

Seriously, how fucking hard is it to teach someone to drive and help them get a better job? How fucking hard is that? It's not much to ask. I am nice to you and this is how you repay me? I should shoot your fucking head off.

I am beyond pissed that /leftypol/ is trying to colonize this board with /his/, just leave us alone and let us write. That's all we want, do you fucks have to try and turn this place into political base too? Also applies to far right too, gtfo

Rose- I tell you wjat to do AND YOU FUCKING DO IT. Kraut idiot too. I give the fucking ordetd and you kiss my fucking feet- period.

>>15202941
Get some headphones and horse blinkers.

Why can't other posters be as smart as me? I try to elevate the discussion only for idiots to complain about women or their schizo fantasies. They are truly what's holding this board back.

If they will be a mainstay than I shall become a mainstay as well. End the Union!

>>15207826
I wouldn't have been fucking mean to them if I knew they could have given me money.

Does anybody else remember that guy who used to post in crit threads here around 5 years ago. His gimmick was that he used a lot of parentheses and (((would) double them up) like) this). He had a weird name, something Vietnamese I think, maybe beginning with T.... think his last name was Nguyen...

>>15203474
Such a critical analysis, why can't love amount to. not only a sexual attraction, but a mutual caring and deep compassion for each other, a want to be around them and engage with them, to experience life together as equals? You don't have to idolize them, but you can care for them, and they for you. You can have a partner by your side, and if each has chosen correctly, a partner for a lifetime. You have made the poor assumption that, by choosing a partner, you have idolized them to an extent at which you diminish your own standing to pump up your ego because the best person in you life loves you, but if this is the case, it was never truly love at all.

Do you accept modernity and it’s madness? It provides so much... but takes the same... I’m thinking of two vectors. The artist and magician. Modernity has deconstructed them and imbued them into a globohomo omnipresence. Everywhere and nowhere, as modernity does. The “influencer”. Ur position of Now. Do you really want to take this ride? Are you naive enough to think YOU’RE the one who can handle it?
Well, you’re in it regardless for an immediate span. Interact with that slice of time as you will.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnyzTCdxJ5I

I forget free will vs determinism is a confused antimony. I’m in my current situation for a reason.

>tfw missed my chance to kill third worlders in a pointless conflict for Jewish interests
>tfw hearing stories by Surge-era vets about killing dozens of insurgents with mortars, driving Bradleys through the walls of dude's houses, and blowing floors of buildings out with grenades
>tfw cleaning a motor pool for the rest of my enlistment

I want some fucking ketamine IV dripped into my goddamn veins NOW

I am becoming increasingly nihilistic and I don't see a way out and I'm struggling to find reasons why suicide isn't the logical response to being born.

>>15202934
Well, now boobs, thanks to you...
Fuck you, OP

brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed brainwashed

they take away even your ability to see your own thoughts

talk to me like I'm a stranger because I am

>>15202934
It’s genuinely so weird how my mind can move from a depraved, fetishistic, sexual fantasy to a wholesome, romantic ideation and not notice anything strange. The former just makes me feel guilty about the latter anyhow.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RjWKPdDk0_U
is the book better than the movie?
because the movie is fucking weird.

>>15202941
You could have stayed sitting at the first place and let the people walk past. Christ you're fucking retarded. Not based.

>>15208815
>It’s genuinely so weird how...
>...I'm in one aspect like most other man...
>...and in another aspect also like most other man
yeah, welcome to crazy town, kiddo

>>15207721
>t.

>>15208815
it's normal

>>15205604
Not OP, but I have high functioning autism & have the same issue of hypersensitivity to my environment. Thanks for the advice, even tho it was meant for another

>>15202969
You could be honest about women, then the feminist movement happened. Women are no more than little emotional girls, which is why they had the same rights as children for centuries. You could be honest about women, just to your bros. Read The Book of Pook and you will understand women.

>>15203242
I hope you are back to read this.
You need to improve your hormonal health. Your mood is entirely governed by your hormones; all emotions are biochemical in nature. Lift more, eat healthy, think about a goal you want in life to fulfill yourself in some way, work towards that goal.
Find a hobby you enjoy, develop that. You will improve yourself while enjoying yourself.
Never listen to what a woman says for “romantic” advice. Would you ask a fish how to catch it? Read The Book of Pook. There’s a free online pdf. You are only 18-19 and have your entire life ahead of you. Think about how you can change your future, not about your past regrets. For the penis thing, honestly see a doctor or a therapist to find a solution. Never give up hope on yourself when you are just beginning life.

>>15208950
explain.

>>15203420
No you wouldn’t. Your words are meaningless harlot

>>15209242
>Women are no more than little emotional girls
there are women leading entire countries, what do you do besides wasting away on 4chan?

I'm compiling a list of books to put on my nightstand
>Art of War by Sun Tzu
>Nicomachean Ethics by Aristotle
>Meditations by Marcus Aurelius
>The Prince by Machiavelli
>Nature and Other Essays by Emerson
>Thus Spoke Zarathustra by Nietzsche
>A

I know some of them look midwit-core or edgy but I know the philosophial background for each of these. Any constructive suggestions. Especially looking for what to add in this vein of thought. It's good if they have Penguin Classics edition.

Faculty member of a Top 25 University in the United States here with a PSA for those of you smart young men and women of erudite ambition that are considering college. DON’T BOTHER. This whole thing is a pandering joke. I just got out of a Zoom meeting to celebrate “Student Stories”. The featured speaker was a literal drug addicted white girl speaking in ebonics who by her own admission “caught several felonies” but she’s allegedly turned her life around by receiving one of this school’s many “save the world” scholarships. Admittedly, she’s been sober for some time and appears to have her life moderately together despite continuing to speak like she has a speech handicap and I genuinely wish her well but I just wanted to share this story so you all could see the actual mission of these universities and the quality of the person they’re elevating these days. These are the people you’ll be in the classroom with. This all comes after the Dean of the Liberal Arts college, which houses the English department by the way, sent out an email written (not spoken) entirely in ebonics. This is a TOP 25 school. The state of education is in utter disarray and I hope I can dissuade at least some of you from indebting yourselves, potentially for life, just to participate in this thing which is genuinely of absolutely terrible quality now.

>>15209291
i didn't make this but it made me think. I feel like you truly have to reach rock bottom and lower to truly reach your full potential when it comes to creativity.

>go to college for six [6] years
>finally decide on accounting
>get good job after school
>massive debt
>no free time
>hate job
>everyone in quarantine getting all the time off they want
>still wage-cucking
i hate it so much bros

>>15202941
Your life is mrbean episode

>>15202941
Brilliant

Quarantine got me reminiscing about the past a lot. Usually I try not be too nostalgic, but while locked up in home it's hard do escape that. This lead me to start thinking a lot abouy my ex-gf. I've suffered a lot when we broke up, mostly because she was the only thing that made life worth living at that point, but eventually - after a failled suicide atempted and me deciding to left the citie and move to my parents house again - I got my shit together again. Anyway, she sended me a e-mail two days ago. "Are you awake now?" said the e-mail. I answer it saying I was asleep at that time and asking how she was dealing with this quarantine bullshit. She still didn't answer. Why did she send me that message? What she was thinking at 4am that she decided to send me that e-mail? I keep asking myself. I still have feelings for her as I think you cannot stop loving someone, but only stop suffering for love. So everytime we talk to each other (which usually happens like three times a year and it never last long) I ask myself if she feels the same thing. Idk.

>>15203036
>>15203054
>>15203077
>>15204510
No idea who she is lads, sorry. I just save any legal nymphet picture I come across.

>>15202969
>I wish you could be honest about women.
why can't you?

>>15209436
I'm a STEMlord and even i wish i'd just done an apprenticeship. Every humanities major i've spoken to professes profound regret at their situation.

>>15209551
learn a trade and then what?
weld all day, work until your knees break? deal with people who think burping is the peak of comedy for 40 years?

>>15209430
Is the intention to read a bit of one of these before going to sleep every night or to impress your guests?
If it's the former then unironically it's a good way to get through The Bible. Poetry and short story collections are good for this too.
If it's the latter then you've probably already achieved your goal, maybe stick some other recognizable ancient philosophers in there.

>>15209569
Maybe i'm just being a neurotic bitch idk. I'd much rather get to do things with my hands to save up money rather than make sit in front of a computer and make Excel sheets all day just to pay off the mountains of debt i've stupidly accumulated

>>15202934
Just saw that thread about the guy looking for a post by some anon on here about Oxbridge and it made me think of one of my gf's best friends who goes to Oxford. She's not as good looking as my gf but we get along nice . I dont even know why im thinking this. It's like just because she goes to Oxford I get thoughts of her sucking my dick. My gf goes to somewhere comparable to Oxford but its like, why not try get us into a threesome or something.
God thats sick

>>15202934
I'm thinking about small shapely pubescent nubile teenager jailbait breasts with soft pink and pointy nipples! I am going to commit a crime!

>read one post
>skim the rest
Sorry anons, I just don't care enough about you to read, it's usually dreadfully boring.

>>15204227
Hello, sweetie, I'm also a girl. Sorry about the way these boys are treating you.

>>15202941
>>ah it’s just ma’ littel toy, just ma’ littel toy
absolutely based

>>15209633
STOOPPPPPPP AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH I'M GONNNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>15209692
If it’s so aggravating to you ladies to declare your gender here, then why even do it in the first place? I will never understand this.

>>15204227
>>15209692
Wow, I always thought I was the only woman on c/lit/

Hobbies? Yes, I engage in several of those trifling, little activities primarily as a means of escape. Escape from a reality where there is nothing but work, preparing for work, and recovering from work. Where "leisure" is simply a fantasy, or at best a two week vacation in the Caribbean. My hobbies are regimented so that they also resemble work, in order that I make at least some personal progress in life. Or so I tell myself. But in in the same way I do anything to escape from work, I also escape from my own hobbies and instead seek tranquilization. And so my life is spent in stagnation, doing things I'd rather not with the occasional small thrill -- a reward. In fact, the majority of my life has been spent doing things I never enjoyed at the insistence of my parents, teachers, friends, and coworkers. Society as it were. It's been so long since I could spend hours reading books I actually liked, and writing things I liked to write. Now I read things others think I should read, and I don't write at all. I don't even think.

>>15209760
You fucking moron, I'm actually a man!

FAGGOT

>have ADHD
>have ideas for youtube series (I know, I know..)
>it's mostly guides/introductions to vidya but in a comedic way
>make multiple reviews/scripts till it's 75% done
>other people are pleasantly surprised and love it
>drop it anyway
>can never finish something
>Have multiple funny skits but no way to have some 'flow' to put them together
I know this is not the standard writing /lit/ is used to, but I'd love some tips.

>>15209425
Ah yes, sweden & new zealand come to mind. Countries that have become police state shit holes with hyperliberal agendas

>>15202941
based

>>15210070
Sounds like pretty standard countries then.

>>15209578
she's got a young Neve Campbell vibe about her
I think it's the mouth

I'm really confused. I had a dream that I was making out with a girl and then I started masturbating at 4am, even though I never do. I was with a man for almost 3 years and I've been always so devoted to him and I've never like girls but honestly it's no the first time I dreamt with one, I'm scared that I'm repressing something and I actually like girls which in my family is seen really awful.

There have been times after i coomed only to feel extremely drained, i went from feeling energized to feeling something like a flat battery.

Also i noticed sometimes when im jerkin it, i see black orbs flying above me(more so when im watching porn)

Are astral entities feeding off our orgasms maybe

>>15210109
>I actually like girls which in my family is seen really awful
You live in a tranny family?

>>15202934
I want to hug a girl like that. No more, no less, just to know what the warm embrace of a woman feels like and to cherish every second of it

>>15209551
I wrote that post and I am STEM as well although the student in question and others present were not.

>>15210070
You're fucking retarded. Your own piece of shit country is one step away from being a police state.

>>15209436
They're inconsequential now but it's sort of your fault for going into the humanities anywhere other than the university of Illinois Chicago

>>15210194
it feels really amazing

>>15210105
One of the most naturally beautiful girls i've ever seen imo (She's 15 in that video though so be careful)
Definitely could have a showbiz career handed to her if she wants, but then again she'd probably get used up by perverts like me that way.

>>15210194
Wait, you've never hugged a woman? Not even platonically?

>>15209569
I wholeheartedly agree with this
>>15209593
It’s not even that I see the trades as a superior alternative. I just don’t think anyone should be eager to sell themselves into financial slavery over this or be under the illusion that it’s something which it is not. I don’t even really regret going but I do regret trying so hard to get a degree because a degree is a bit like an invisible tattoo that you can never remove and must be paid off for many years.

>>15202941
this happens to me everyday

I'd consider myself a nice person but part of me finds enjoyment in the delightful cruelty of internet meanness, epitomized in its ideals by this site in particular. The gleeful callousness of socially removed mockery, the elegance and craft of a beautifully executed troll, the unceasing ingenuity of innovative new insults. The totemic, ever-grinning troll-face casting its omnipresent shadow. It's a revelry of contempt. What horror does this speak to in man's nature that he sees beauty in such bloodsport?

>>15209569
>learn a trade and then what?
>weld all day, work until your knees break?
>deal with people who think burping is the peak of comedy for 40 years?
YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUS.

>>15210036
Maybe I should rephrase it. How do you get more cohesiveness in writing and sew together stand-alone parts?

>>15210232
Once a random girl came up to me and hugged me. I don't know what that was about.

>>15210367
read more, write more, rinse and repeat until you like the stuff that you are producing

Rose, send your daughter or her friends over so I can kill them. I want to cut their eyes out of their heads.

Where do people put their writing up online to be read these days?

>>15210367
Just try linking them best you can and ask a particularly analytical autist friend or two to point out all the holes in your story. Rinse and repeat until it's airtight.
That's what I do anyway.

>>15210424
Up your dad's gaping asshole. Check there.

>>15210408
Well, I hope you can at least find a female friend who'll hug you (After this awful lockdown anyway)

I lost my copy of Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea and I am very sad

getting strong urges to watch porn, feels weird that it's to get horny instead of watching because I'm horny

>>15210408
she was fucking with you. you have been totally fucked with. as soon as she came close you should have stormed away Naruto style.

>>15210614
Don't ruin this for me, she was Liza visiting me in my Underground, I know it.

>>15210566
>feels weird that it's to get horny instead of watching because I'm horny
had this same experience!
very strange.

>>15210566
this is the simulacrum at work

I saw a cute girl in line behind me at the post office. She was one person back in line from me, so 12 feet as it were. Well, more like 8 feet. The "6 foot" thing, nobody seems to be a great judge of spacial distance. Including the people who laid down the tape on the floor to designate the "standing spots" in line, though they only made two spots, letting everyone else to sort of just figure out where to stand.

We made eye contact when she walked in. She flashed a quick smile, couldn't find a pen on the back wall, so she walked to where I was standing, at the second table in the middle, where I was finishing addressing my package. It turns out I was using the only working pen. So when I finished the address, and put down the pen, just out of her reach (I wasn't aware the pen was the only working one), she gestured to it and smiled, asking to use it. As if it was my pen to give away. I flashed back to those two scenes in the Magic Mountain, where Hans asks both his childhood and adulthood obsessions to borrow a pen.

I smiled and joked "I can sanitize it if you want.", and she hook her head and uttered a laugh, before returning to the back table.

All that would have happened if she approached the middle table, but she actually found a working pen in the back, somewhere. It was my turn in line, I paid my postage and turned to leave. We made eye contact again, neither of us smiled. And then, I left.

Please God take me!

I am making banana bread

>>15210693
You try to be cute with the whole distance thing, but its contrived and annoying. Just like the whole rest of it.

>>15210714
I was just accounting something that happened/didn't happen to me.

>>15210703
lewd

How do you guys recommend writing two side characters who gradually get into a relationship over the story? I am kind of stumped

>>15203022
>nymphet4.jpg

Post the other 3

>>15210740
I recommend not over-complicating things and limiting your scope. Better short and sweet, than drawn out and painful.

>>15210747
I'm sending you 30 years into the past to speak to George RR Martin.

>>15210614
i swear some of guys are not even actual incels but just gays in mega denial

>>15210693
fuck off with your femoid stories no one cares

>>15210438
>female friend
kys

I'm well adapted socially despite my pseudoautism and have had multiple relationships with women over the course of my life, but I'm still obsessed with this girl I went on a few dates with my senior year of college. We never so much as held hands or anything. I'm not even sure if she was ever into me, or just overly nice and outgoing. She was without a doubt the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on, and the one who I now compare every girl I meet to. Everything felt so natural and easy. But nothing ever happened, I was too beta then to make a move, I never really even got her alone. We went out to the bars a few times and walked around the city.

I think the whole "soulmate" thing is a meme but I can't help but wonder what would have happened if things progressed differently between us. Oh well.

more rejection letters came in once again. I know what I am drinking tonight.

>>15210758
Sorry, I don't read garbage. Either way, you're not GRRM (and that's a good thing). Do you actually consistently finish what you write? And I mean at least novella-sized 20k+ word works?

If not, you have no businesses trying to be GRRM.

>>15210741
Posted the first and my favorite over here >>15209475 the third I won't upload for... reasons.
I'm not that weird right? It's not like they're that young.

>>15204227
>>15209692
>>15209859
yeah men sux

>>15210783
I wasn't that anon lol, I was just making a joke.

>>15210797

>>15209760
only to taunt incels. You thought this was you're little safe haven? Forget it femoids are infiltrated this board, flaunting their femininity to torture sex starved men.

>>15210808
kek

>>15210070
and yet they manage to do better than the US

>>15210774
>had multiple relationships with women
stopped reading. Fuck off from our board normie scum

>>15210840
kek i'm here to stay. there are many like me too, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.

>>15210070
>highest standards of living on the planet
>shithole
explain pls

>>15209569
>deal with people who think burping is the peak of comedy for 40 years?
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK this pisses me off
>le sex is funny xDDDDDDDDDD
>LOL POOPOO FART FART
goddamn boomers

>>15210845
Everyone who doesn't want women dead is not welcome here.

>>15210861
Who said I don't want women dead?

I am over the fact that companies are using the corona virus as an excuse for their piss poor customer service. They are pretending their customer service was once good before all of this happened.

>>15210811
Here's a woman more your speed bro.

I HATE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU NIGGERS. Just being honset here.

>>15210860
As well as the bragging about fucking a girl in the ass, complaining about the "ball and chain", and their fucking constant smoking murdering my lungs.

>>15210866
>I'm still obsessed with this girl
>the most beautiful girl i've ever laid eyes on
putting a roastie on a pedestal like that is proof enough that your subhuman

>>15210884
>GOD I FUCKING HATE MY WIFE
>does nothing to fix this
they're so terrible.

>>15202934
>Have writer's block
>Have a dream about a story idea (at least, part of it)
>During (lucid, empty, and more like casual thinking?...) dream think it's going to be a great idea and I'm going to develop this amazing unique character
>Wake up excited trying to recall the idea. Not all of it is still there, but I do manage to reassemble what seems like the important bits of the idea that my sleeping brain told me
>Sleeping brain :"*FFFF* *COUGH-COUGH-KEHH* hahaha.. Broo.... *kehf* Like... Okay so like get this bro... I got the best idea ever, man... like, there's this guy and, like, his family has had this uh... invisible witch lady watching over them, like, cuz they're all evil or something I dunno you figure it out... And like, okay, so you've got this witch lady and after a lot of familial generations she shows herself to the main character for some reason and you think 'oh she's just an evil witch prophecy lady who speaks in riddles most of the time', but, like WHOOOOAH BRO SHE'S NOT, like, she only speaks in riddles sometimes cuz she has like a habit or curse or has to do that because of witch rules enforced by beings associated with balance with balance who drive her insane or whatever I dunno you figure it out... And she's not actually evil she's just fake evil cuz evil is relative. And this is the first part bro. This is what I really wanted to tell you, man. So there's this scene where she's growing horns and you think it's cuz she's an evil demon thing, but she's crying cuz it hurts or something. I dunno I'm sure you'll figure it out... What's that? What makes this even a good idea and how does she fit into the rest of the story? Uhhhhhhhh... What were we talking about?"

Time to kms.

>>15210896
That wasn't me. I'm responding as a fellow male who has sex while a lot of women while simultaneously hating them.

>>15209436

>Be you
>Have steady job in field you generally enjoy
>Have to deal with some bullshit, like everyone in every job
>Tell people LOL GUIZE DON'T GET QUALIFIED JUST LIVE OFF OF PHOTOSYNTHESIS OR SOMETHING LMAO

Fuck you. You're the worst kind of academic.

>>15210904
you're a cuck that's even worse

>>15210904
Oh, why don't you just fuck off?

>>15210924
>>15210929
Love seeing you people squirm.

>be me
>have gf
>be you
>seethe

>>15210936
says the subhuman scum that voluntarily associates with femoids, playing their little jester when chad is busy

>>15210896
>your subhuman
oof

>>15210941
see:>>15210861

>>15210963
I'm assuming (hoping) you're just young. You'll understand one day. I recommend getting /fit/ first.

imagine not having sisters
i bet 99% of incels didn't have sisters or good mothers growing up
they didn't learn how to interact with girls, didn't receive attention from girls in any way, and now they're bitter
must be rough

>>15210971
>being this much of a simp

>>15210981
>s-simp!
>cuck!
>degenerate!

>>15210975
i have a sister
she's still a woman

>>15210920
You literally just assumed all of that. I hate my field and my job and I’m in debt up to my eyeballs. Besides, some people are interested in going to college for the academic experience and not the job and these are the people I’m speaking to. If you can’t see how admitted drug addicts is diluting the quality of your education which you pay for, you’re not who I’m talking to so move along.

ITT

>>15210975
It's actually quite hard to reconcile my love of my big sister with my hatred of literally every other woman. She basically acts like a man though so she didn't really teach me anything about interacting with women.

>>15210206
I’m in a STEM field.

>>15210975
>they didn't learn how to interact with girls
there is nothing to interact with, they are shells of human beings. Their only purpose is to serve men. You're in serious denial. First roasties keep infiltrating the board and now everyone's all of a sudden a leftist cuck? it's over

>>15211009
ah, i mean more along the lines of them bringing friends over and growing up around non-family girls. some guys will be weird sure but my friends that aren't the most socially balanced didn't have sisters and i bet it's a big reason why they struggle.

>>15211035
>calls others leftist
>wants some homo-erotic man-only society
idk m80 that sounds gay as hell, i'ma stick with eco-fascism.

>>15210975
It’s true. I had no sisters and no relationship with any female cousins, no female friends or anything like that. I’m terrible with women and usually can’t stand being around them.

>>15203307
i want missanthropicon to rape me

>>15211009
>She basically acts like a man though
she doesn't. She's just the only women you actually see as a human being, idiot. It could be like that with a lot of women if you just took your meds and got rid of your incel delusions and talked to them like you talk to your sister.

>>15211020
>>15211044
whoops replied to myself somehow

>>15211044
>wants some homo-erotic man-only society
no. Women are there to be wives, providing sex, looking after children and to cook/clean while obeying their husband. They don't serve any other purpose

>>15211084
yes. you want women to stay at home so you never interact with them. you want men everywhere, everything you do outside the home will be with men and only men. you only want to talk to men, work with men, go to events, games, gatherings, with men and men alone.
sounds more gay than portland

>>15211098
sounds like heaven honestly
did you ever work in an office with women in it? it fucking sucks

>>15211110
yeah i do. it's not bad because the girls we have are fine. some are annoying just as some of the guys are.
you're just in denial about being a homo my dude. you don't have to project it here though, there's a whole board for it >>>/lgbt/

>>15211119
you sound like a woman
>don't want to listen to my stupid ass talk? u gay or something? (:
fuck off, bitch! not everything is about sex, not that you would understand since that's all you're good for

>>15211098
no because in a world like that men would still fuck women and that's all we need from them. Why would i want to talk, work, go to events and gatherings with women, retard? They can't contribute anything worthwhile anyway. Islamic countries got it right, are they living in gay societies in your opinion?

>>15211148
>are they living in gay societies in your opinion
yes absolutely, you don't need to be one of the royal boyslaves to know that lmao

>>15210364
No.
>Work at the mines/oil fields for 100k a year
>Save up several hundred thousand
>Use this to built up a passive income.
>Escape the wage cuck lifestyle

>>15211145
>not everything is about sex
>it's all you're good for
???

>>15211145
>not everything is about sex
>women aren't only about sex
>REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
that's literally my point dude.
you only want women for sex and want men for 99% of your interactions. you like men we get it.

>>15211161
i like men as friends and don't think friendship is possible with a woman
the other way around for sex
not that hard to understand

>>15211161
i like human interaction that's true. Women aren't human they are fuck slaves. You're just to much of a liberal cuck to understand

>>15211174
unfortunately with that attitude you'll get neither lmao

ITT: Incels demonstrating why we can't have nice things because they ruin everything with their rampant autism

>>15211211
>you treat people humanely?
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>15211187
fuck off roastie

>>15211248
>everyone i don't like is a woman
how childish, cmon anon you can surely do better.

>>15211248
the fucking picture lmao... imagine being this deranged

>>15211157
yeah I remember saving several annual paychecks and buying golden hedgefonds from it. it was cool night on benzos and other painkillers.

>>15211278
one man's trash
is another man's cash

>>15211280
Did you escape wagecuckery?

>>15211000
>If you can’t see how admitted drug addicts is diluting the quality of your education

Admitted drug addicts like say, Sigmund Freud? Aldous Huxley? Ben Franklin? Thomas Edison? Charles Dickens? Maybe like Vincent van Gogh?
Noooo only muh good boys who listen to mommy should get to be real intellectuals. Not the heckin narcoticerinoooos.

>>15211058
She really doesn't. It's actually incredible how she's essentially a 4chan doomer gamerbro in the wrong body.
Plus if it was just "me seeing her as a human being" then i'd love my mom and stepmom as well, but I don't, because they act like women. Particularly narcissistic, vapid cunts even for women in fact.

>>15211316
in my dream I sure did. why else should a bunch of porn stars care for a personal reading plus signatures in my garden?

a woman I was interested in about half a year ago got in touch with me today. I was really interested in her, too interested really, but didn't do anything catastrophically cringy (although the interaction petered out). I hope she wants to talk to me because she wants to know about Islam. I worry she wants to talk to me because she's bored in quarantine and gets off on getting me going. If it's the latter that will pose a serious challenge form Allah: she's hot, she's smart as hell, she's creative... but I believe she is not godly, and that matters most in the end. It will certainly challenge my sabr, my patience, if this is what she wants. I asked God to nuke our conversation for me if this happens, because I worry I would fail if it were up to me.

She was all the things I mentioned, but she was also miserable. She knows that I believe in God and that I am not miserable. Ideally she wants to learn.

>>15209859
i'm pretty sure there are even more women here. It's just advised to be discrete about it, to not trigger the incels because they will absolutely derail every thread if they suspect a "femoid". It's like a shark smelling blood lmao

>>15211417
Don't we have a containment board for them or is /r9k/ full?

I fucking hate my IT job and I feel like the biggest wagecuck.
>Have to answer simple Outlook problems idiot boomers who can't be assed to do a simple Google search. Despite this they make three times my salary.
>Deal with entitled Indians who get mad when you ask them to spell their retarded names so you can find them in the system.
>Literally have to deal with a ticket, a phone call, and a chat session all at the same time and get yelled at if I miss a single step for any of those.
>The promotion path at my company is team lead or sysadmin, which sounds cool but they have literally three times the work and only get paid 40k a year (which they justify due to our low cost of living even though housing is insane here).

I'm literally getting heart palpitations from the stress. I'm actually really fucking good at both the troubleshooting and customer service, it just offends my soul to be such a cuck to the system.

>>15211539
Forgot pic

>>15209436
I agree that education is in a state of disarray. However, depending on what someone wants to (try) to do with their life and the resources available to them, they might still want to try, or have no alternative to, college.

Also, yes, they do seem to have a bias towards certain people for appearances' sake or because they genuinely want to help the "disadvantaged" but can't see the larger picture or anything like that. Probably a combination of both with a bucketful of Messianic complex complete with lusts for money, reputation, prestige, and just plain power. They care way too much about optics and protecting themselves. If you're say, a plain old boring 25 to 40-ish, ugly to average faced, introverted, low-to-middle income, non-veteran, non-athlete, straight, white, "cisgender", able-bodied, not-homeless, non-addict, non-fellonous, male who also doesn't have a pristine GPA because of your particular learning style, did not fall into a pigeon hole for a memey mental diagnosis like schizophrenia or autism (to an extant) that you can't just """arbitrarily""" be diagnosed with like depression or ADHD, then yeah colllege will be a bit harder.

But to be fair, college is still hard for everyone even with the infuriating special treatment of things like scholarships. So this person you speak of who had turned their life around (and yes, I know you wish this person the best and all that...) might not have gotten where she did for the reasons you think. Getting off drugs isn't easy; could be she's just a determined person generally and that brought her to college.
You haven't really said anything substantial here aside from her being allowed to use informal language in letters. But this isn't unexpected from so-called Ivy league unis. These unis aren't what they are because they educate well, or at least if they were that's not the case now, they are what they are because they: are able to and do pander to the right people; maintain an image and select students who maintain that image through money/influence/current-standing/whatever; pass the already-good students easily through classes they learn little from because they went to keep their average; use money and resources to selectively dole out projects etc to certain students (if they even do this. Employers and people who actually give a shit don't care about what school you came from) and pretend that it's all because they're such a great uni.
This doesn't mean that people who fall out of the niche are doomed. Other colleges care about image too, but Ivys are far worse.
>>15211000
>For the academic experience
That's kind of up to them? It would make more sense if you spoke of people who wanted a job in an oversaturated market and/or thought an English major would be a good idea. Besides the whole GPA thing, the financial bullshit, and the obvious issue if constant pandering, I have enjoyed the academic experience personally, though this might have to do with which college you attend.

>>15211556
>This doesn't mean that people who fall ...
Pretend there's a paragraph break before this.
Also:
*That said, this doesn't mean that people who fall ...

>>15211539
proud of you for slogging through anon. patience shows character. but if you are getting that stressed out by it, that doesn't sound good..

>>15210659
what do you mean?

>>15211717
I don't think I have the temperament for it. The people who enjoy the work seem naturally helpful and agreeable. I scored relatively low on agreeableness on the Big 5.

One of the happiest jobs for me was being a line cook. Sure it was stressful but I was doing actual work. I was a leader of men. This work is much too womanly for me, with the constant interruptions and requirement to always be helpful and agreeable and friendly. My coworkers, while nice, all have video game characters as their Slack logos. How can I respect them? I'm applying for the electrician program in my hometown. Maybe I'll be happier there.

>>15211973
That's the thing about being nerdy. Being a nerd can be a signal of intelligence, but it can also be a sign of mediocrity, especially as 'nerdom' has entered the mainstream culture.

IT is saturated with 100-110 IQ plebs and Indians. The only option seems to be getting government contracts where youll have to be the biggest bootlicker. It's claimed territory. Everything is claimed territory these days. I want to make money in the trades and try my luck in Latin America.

>>15211539
bruh tell me about it. being efficient doesn't pay. youre better off pretending to be a retard.

I just figured out a way to do something about 100x faster (customer requests) because I looked into it for two seconds and found a way to do bulk requests. other staff is laid off so now i do two jobs for the price of one, and im discovering all these ways to make due. i told my boss about it and it's just like "cool, now lets do this..." as if I just didn't save him a days worth of labour if some other mongrel was to do it.

pretty sure my circulation is all fucked from sitting down all day too

>>15208130
>deployed on a DDG to the middle east (got back a month ago)
>after drones took out suleimani in january shit got really tense
>we were the only big US warship in the gulf at the time and hunkered down with all the other coalition ships and boats in a predetermined spot
>our immediate superior was given weapons release authority and embarked on board with most of his staff
>higher ups all had hard ons for writing their names into the history books in blood
>everyone on the CIC watches was firing on all cylinders
>the understanding was we'd shoot any fighter that went feet wet and any missile boat that looked at us funny while outside territorial waters
there were some close calls but they never did anything toward us. just launched some missiles at an iraqi base with coalition troops on it, no deaths, trump decided he didn't want to take things any further. Iran was still freaking out and eventually shot down an airliner full of their own people. that further took the wind out of their sails and things got really quiet for the rest of our time out there.

the feeling of cosmic possibility and purpose and being subject to the whims of fate was interesting. actually a very serene feeling, for me. I wish more had happened.

I have over 3 years left. 3 years until I can really do my own thing again. the valuable things I've experienced are far outweighed by the day to day bullshit. career military, unless you're doing something really badass, is just a trap for the naive and those lacking confidence in their own ability to make it on their own. it's also full of totally useless retards, women and minorities (a venn diagram with plenty of overlap) contributing nothing and often making life immeasurably worse for the decent people in the process. i'd do it again, I've met great people and i'll be set up pretty good when I get out but they're getting what I initially agreed to give them and nothing more. I don't care what they offer

Am I supposed to feel this calm an unemotional after meditating and having a brutally honest inner Socratic dialogue?

>>15206137
I'd read the rest of it.

>>15210772
False. Ugly females who know they're not attractive enough to date you are usually humble enough to make decent companions. Of course don't go out of your way to befriend them, but if they happen to be in the same social circle there's nothing wrong with it.

>>15206662
Anon, if you wanto to make a quick buck and get published in the process, I truly advise you to write a book about your experiences. This is the perfect moment for it and maybe you'll never have it again this easily.

>>15212597
You're right, this is truly unprecedented and I'm scrambling to make something of it. I kept massive journals throughout the entire disease process, so I'm trying to figure out a way to synthesize and contextualize it with what's going on now. The medical part of it and factchecking/ making sure I'm accurate with all of that is where the true legwork comes in.

Books to help with this?