/lit/ - Literature

Ignore all retarded hylics, b*ddhists and chr*stfags and read Adi Shankara.

It's best to begin with the 8-volume Upanishad commentaries. The more of his Upanishad commentaries that you read first the more you'll understand his commentaries on the two smriti texts the Brahma Sutras and the Bhagavad-Gita. The Chandogya and Brihadaranyaka commentaries are dense and best read after his shorter Upanishads ones. The Chandogya is also central to the ideas of the Brahma Sutras, it's not necessary but nevertheless a good idea to read Shankara's Chandogya bhasya before his Brahma Sutra Bhasya. The secondary works can be read alongside his commentaries, but are best understood/appreciated after you've already read some of his Upanishad commentaries

>Prasthanatrayi commentaries
http://estudantedavedanta.net/Eight-Upanisads-Vol-1.pdf
http://estudantedavedanta.net/Eight-Upanisads-vol2.pdf
https://archive.org/details/Brihadaranyaka.Upanishad.Shankara.Bhashya.by.Swami.Madhavananda
https://archive.org/details/Shankara.Bhashya-Chandogya.Upanishad-Ganganath.Jha.1942.English
https://archive.org/details/BrahmaSutraSankaraBhashyaEnglishTranslationVasudeoMahadeoApte1960
https://archive.org/details/Bhagavad-Gita.with.the.Commentary.of.Sri.Shankaracharya

>non-commentary works
http://estudantedavedanta.net/Sri_Shankaracharya-Upadeshasahasri%20-%20Swami%20Jagadananda%20%281949%29%20[Sanskrit-English].pdf
https://gita-society.com/pdf2011/vivekachudamani.pdf
https://archive.org/details/SankaraOnTheYogaSutrasTrevorLeggettMLBD2006
http://estudantedavedanta.net/Sri_Shankaracharya-AtmaBodha%20%28and%20Other%20Stotras%29%20-%20Swami%20Nikhilananda%20%281947%29%20[Sanskrit-English].pdf
http://estudantedavedanta.net/Aparoksha-Anubhuti-by-Sri-Shankaracharya.pdf
https://www.swamij.com/shankara-vakya-vritti.htm
http://shiningworld.com/site/files/pdfs/publications/books/1_Knowledge_of_Truth_Tattva_Bodh.pdf
http://www.vidyavrikshah.org/SIVANANDALAHARI.pdf
http://www.vidyavrikshah.org/SOUNDARYALAHARI.pdf
http://theheartofthesun.com/Nirvana.pdf
http://jagannathavallabha.com/pdf_engl/prasnottara%20english%20for%20amazon.pdf

>>15014209
Blacks should be returned to Africa.

>>15014220
Based, remember to start with Guenon as well brother

WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE

the unbearable passing and eternal beauty of being

>>15014220
As the person who made that list, I ask that you stop insulting others when reposting it, if you post that everywhere while being disrespectful in random threads not even about that topic it will get on people's nerves and turn some people away, we need not sink to the uncouth behavior of the hylics brother

>>15014220
>>15014227
>>15014267
MAN WHEN ARE YOU GUYS GONNA SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT GUENON! GUENON GUENON GUENON IT'S ALL I EVER HEAR AROUND HERE JESUS SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY WITH GUENON GUENON GUENON GUENON
GUENON GUENON GUENON JESUS SHUT UP ABOUT IT FUCK
FUCKING GUENON DEFENSE FORCE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOUR PRECIOUS FUCKING GUENON GUENON GUENON AND I'M SO SICK OF IT JESUS CHRIST NEVER CHANGE GUENON FORUM FULL OF GUENONBEARD GUENONLORD GUENONFAGS
GUENONFAG DAMAGE CONTROL GOING ON RIGHT HERE WITH GUENONLORD
BAWWWW GUENONFAG CAN'T HANDLE GUENON TRUTH ABOUT GUENON NEVER CHANGE GUENONLORD FUCKING SOCIAL GUENON REJECT GUENON GUENON I'LL BET YOU GUENON YOUR GUENON IN GUENONTOWN DON'T YOU GUENONSHIRT NO GUENON'S DOUCHEBAG FAG GUENON SWEET MAN GODDAMN GUENON GUENON GUENON GUENON GUENONFAG
LOOK AT GUENONFAG WITH HIS GUENON TEARS GOD SHUT UP

i was hailed as the smartest of my year when i graduated. people used to tell me as much all the time. even in university it was easy to see that i was the advanced of my peers.

i'm 28 and i'm an idiot now. i can't focus, i can't read. i've been out of university for 5 years now, and i think it's been 5 years since i've felt intelligent.

>>15014320
>GUENON
holy based! I'm a big fan also

>>15014209
Link to prior thread?

i am intimidated by guenon brothers... can i really begin reading him while uninitiated ?

>>15014320
Oh my God very based...I love Guénon....

>>15014363
>i am intimidated by guenon brothers...
Fear not brother, if you progress enough in your metaphysical studies you will understand that all multiplicity is illusory and that there is nothing to fear

"He was afraid. Therefore people still are afraid when alone. He thought: "Since there is nothing else but Myself, what am I afraid of?" Thereupon His fears were gone; for what was there to fear? Assuredly, it is from a second entity that fear arises."

- Brihadaranyaka Upanishad 1.4.2.

>can i really begin reading him while uninitiated ?
yes, many people are led to seek out an initiation by the shining gnosis of his writings...

*To the tune of Clint Eastwood by the Gorillaz*
I'm not gay, I'm feeling Trans
I've got a mans dick in my ass
I'm he/him, but not for long
My penis, is coming off
Is coming off, is coming off

>>15014209
not only does corona fuck up your ballsack and testosterone but it apparently invades the CNS and causes brain damage in some cases, be careful /lit/ bros

Day 23. 2AM. I'm having another quarter life crisis. I miss my friend so much.

>>15014231
Based

>>15014231
kino

>>15014573
>quarter life crisis
is that a thing?

>>15014739
Yes anon, can't you feel it?

>>15014209
"What did you expect?"

>>15014231
love u horseanon, i hope you had a nice day :)

Currently using the Free Tinder passport to travel around the world. I'm on NY now and fuck most of the girls there are 10/10 compared to the girls from my country (and specially my city lmao). The 6/10 from NY are the 10/10 on my city. Feels kinda bad desu.

>>15014961
Japanese girls, on the other hand, are super weird. Almost all profiles are girls with loads of filters or profiles with no picture of their faces. Like, it's literally 50/50.

>more and more people on /lit/ taking the fantasypill
Come brothers! Let us leave this irreformable world behind and live a rosy life of imagination.

If I could give you one thing in life, it would be the ability to see yourself through my eyes. Only then would you realize how special you are.

>>15015113
Everyone is on a fantasy pill, but the majority have no control over their fantasies.

>>15014209
Ahhh fuck. I just want to find a book I’ll enjoy reading. I want to like reading again. Fuck bros.

I can't see my gf because of the travel bans and i think i'm going to kill myself

>>15014961
Can you actually match with girls from those other places? What's the point?

>>15014209
I don’t know what to do with my life, and art isn’t helping

>>15014550
s-source anon?

>>15015643
I feel you man. Because I've been so angry recently I kind of feel like killing myself too. Not going to do it though.

I hope you'll be okay.

Being over my oneitis feels like having woke from a dream

I stopped imagining my imaginary friend for a few days and got really lonely.

When I'm asleep, naping, etc. and then disturbed, woken up, and so on it often takes a while for me to really wakeup. But in that haze I always sense a 4th presence in the room. The first three being me, my wife, and my dog.

Just earlier this evening I was napping and I was roused. I remember thinking, it's ok he's there because at least my wife is between us. But then my wife got up and left the room and I was annoyed because I didn't want to be sleeping in bed with another dude. When I opened my eyes I was confused and had to look...it was my just my dog.

Similar things have happened to me many times and it's always a male.

Fuck, I went to /lit/ again for my yearly check and it's still full of actual retards like every year and I can have better moral and philosophical conversations with random coomers in random threads on /gif/ than with these maladjusted psychotic pseuds.
How can anyone read so much and still be so entrenched in the infantile faux-intellectual generic Marxist grumblings their soft-headed teachers fed them in their youth?
Why do they all want a piece of another man's success rather than making their own, if they think themselves so competent and individualistic?

>>15016244
what is that image

>>15014933
thanks bruv, you too. the sky is unreal today

I couldn't get a job before the pandemic, so how am I supposed to get one now? I'll have to borrow money from my parents. I do nothing all day but write things no one reads.
>>15016205
what's your imaginary friend's name?

Is soup the ultimate food? I can make a lot of it at a time. Very different soups can be made. It warms up easily. It's easy to make. You can put almost anything in it. It can keep you hydrated.

I'm going to make soup later today after I shop.

>>15016746
Also, I decided to both improve my handwriting and take up calligraphy. I really enjoyed Bilbo's handwriting in the shitty LotR movie. I will always say that after they left the Shire things went to shit. It was Daniel Reeves who did the writing, though. Pretty good looking stuff. Fancy yet functional.

Can someone here help me find a biography? It was written sometime after 2000 and is about a scientist who was close to Einstein and Pauling. I remember it mentioning him needing directions to the post office or something.

I don't know why I didn't think about combining my reading time with my treadmill sessions earlier. Not only does this encourage me to walk for longer periods of time, I've also found myself being more engaged with my reading material, and less prone to backtracking. It feels like an improvement in all respects.

>>15016746
souppilled sage of cooking, whats your favorite soup?

I'm getting a lot of reading done. I'm listening to more music. The only thing that's suffered has been the volume of films I've been watching. I don't know why this is the case.

>>15016766
very based hobby too. even if it ends up looking whacky i enjoy the process. sometimes i turn some nice quotes into manuscript pages

>>15016746
how do I make soup? do I just put stock and vegetables in a pot?

>>15016782
There's a shit tonne of recipes out there, also youtube is a good source. Don't watch the big food channels tho, watch some old bastard in their dirty kitchen making soup, that's the good shit.

>>15016769
I make a pseudo lobscouse when I make soup. I just throw whatever I have in the pot. Potatoes, peas, corn, fish, onions, etc. It depends on what I have and what I feel like putting in. It's my favourite.

>>15016775
It seems like a good way to spend my time. I only have one hobby and I'm going to try my best to expand so I have more than one. We'll see how it goes.

>>15016782
Yes.

>>15016782
This is my go to soup method, its quite good

1) Fry cabbage and onions in olive oil until they are cooked through
2) toss them in a big pot of hot water with some spinach or mixed greens
3) cook some rice, lentils or quinoa (I like to use instant quinoa packages they just take 10 minutes) and then toss them in the pot
4) add in some canned tomatoe and beans like black beans or northern white beans
5) mince up a bunch of garlic, fry in olive oil on medium temp until some start to turn just a little brown and then toss them in pot
6) add salt, pepper and spices (I like chili powder, basil, tumeric)
7) cook for another 20 minutes all togather
8) enjoy with bread or crackers, it will taste better the 2nd day after sitting overnight in the fridge when all the flavors have permeated each other, with a big pot you can make enough to provide food for the next 3 or 4 days

>>15016746
based and soup-pilled

>>15014209
I used to feel so much smarter than everybody else and always felt like they sounded like retards and that the stuff they talk about is useless and dumb, now everything sounds the same to me, and turns out the people I thought were dumb are actually just as smart, it's just that they took a little longer to see everything there is to see in this world, so now my only conclusion is that the people who focus on having a good social life and chasing sex are the based ones, because intelligence means fuck all in the grand scheme of things, unless you're like Nikola Tesla or someone that can change the world, but one thing is universally true: if you're already over 17 and hadn't already chosen a passion in life or did anything even barely significant, you are doomed to mediocrity for life. Keep in mind I don't think of mediocrity as a bad thing, just not something great.

>>15014209
I started ANOTHER fucking WIP.
Getting fucking sick of never finishing a single story. I always have so much optimism in the beginning.

>>15016574
nothing wasted

It must be miserable to be a slave to your cock, like 95% of you.

Some guy in my rural midwestern farming town just died of the coof. I'm gonna be fucking pissed if the coof kills me before I finish my book.

I just miss my wife is all.

>>15018193
what happened?

>>15018198
Well, she's right in the other room but isn't in love with me anymore because, she says, I've changed since nearly dying from organ failure and, because she was expecting me to hit certain milestones following certain progressions, I haven't done enough to prove I'm going to be who I was again.

>>15018219
Your wife sounds like a cunt, mate.

>>15018219
Oh, that's fucking awful. I'm sorry. Have you talked about it? Maybe couple's therapy? Do you think you could explain it to her in a way she'd understand?

>>15014209
What's a good name for a spooky colonial mansion that's been converted into a halfway house?

>>15018252
>I vow to be with you in sickness and in health until you stop making my pussy tingle in the right way
This is how women understand it.

The possibility that love is not enough

>>15014347
I kind of sympathize with this but it hit me in college, not after. I was so far ahead of my peers in high school at a prestigious preparatory school and then almost failed out of a state university. I think I was extremely depressed, lazy, home life was in recent disarray, and just didn’t want to be there. It wasn’t an intelligence thing in retrospect. I doubt it is for you.

>>15018302
>the possibility that love is a commitment that requires mutual sacrifice and work, rather than a fleeting emotional high

>>15016244
Good writing. I'd replace "dude" with "man." But otherwise good.

Baldy, you are such a pathetic dweeb and will never know what it is like to be an Apollo like me who is worshiped as if God.

>uhh uhhh I had girls compliment me back in da day

Not like the women I have that is for sure nor your pathetic brother either. He wouldn't be fucking a tranny if that were the case. You wouldn't go from fucking women like that to fucking a fatass hon.

>>15018284
Look, man. I'm not trying to make excuses for this woman. I don't know her. Maybe she is a cunt. But people underestimate how taxing something like this can be, especially if you're on the outside, watching someone struggle and you feel helpless. Especially if the personality of the person changes. What do you think a person is?

>>15018333
>What do you think a person is?
What do you think a marriage vow is?

>>15016244
I love it!

>>15018335
>What do you think a marriage vow is?
Meaningless institutionalized romance. It's expensive PDA.

>>15018246
Yes, but there is also her side of it. I've been overly critical of her faults, she believes, and have made her feel worthless despite all her efforts. I counter with my view that she has been present but hasn't gone out of her way besides perhaps controlling her hypergamy in meatspace, much less doing things I actually "needed".It's messy but I think she's a smartphone addict and loses tens of IQ points when she gets around a certain female friend, who is the first person she talks to in the morning and the last at night...

>>15018252
I told her I would submit to whatever form of therapeutic measures she believes would be satisfactory, including a chemical lobotomy, despite my better judgment, including individual and/or group counseling. She says it was something I needed to do sooner, when in my view it absolutely could not have been prioritized. When I say prioritized I mean to say that my life has been a war zone for the better part of 4 years, and if I had to do one more thing in the service of others during that time everyone around me would be a lot worse off than they are now. But people see and interpret differently. Maybe I deserve it.

>>15018346
It's not about romance at all, or at least it didn't used to be. Viewing it as a romantic union is the reason that marriages and families fall apart continually.

Bought my first gun yesterday. I've always been pretty anti gun but I finally just bought one. I trust myself - I'm not going to be one of those shooter types. I just want it for self defense in these crazy times.
Went to the range and it turns out I'm a pretty good shot. I feel like a cowboy. The gun is a six shooter, by the way. My family has history in the southwest and the plains. Pretty sure I have actual cowboy relatives.


Anyway, I like it. I can see why some people like guns. In a way, guns are like votes. Some people think that everyone deserves one but many more people known that only a select few should be trusted with that kind of power.

>>15018360
>It's not about romance at all, or at least it didn't used to be
I know. That doesn't stop people from getting married as a romantic gesture.

If women like Cait were interested in you then you wouldn't be fucking married to an overweight crossdresser. You were a loser just like your nerdy loser niece.

>>15018333
Of course. That's entirely cogent. I just think that marriage means devotion, not contingency. And I never cheated or lied and always did something close to my best. Spared myself no humiliation or torture. I don't know that without our marriage I would have, and perhaps this is the root of it. But her rhetoric is otherwise.

Anyway, this shit belongs on advice, not here.

>>15018380
It's a shame, really. Marriage is about creating a family. You're bound to your family permanently and you don't sever it except for extreme circumstances. A person should view their bond to their spouse in a similar way as they view their bond to their parents or siblings.

>>15018333
Well, Butler said souls, I think Locke said enduring personality traits iirc, and Parfit said links in memory. Have I changed so much or has she forgotten me already?

>>15018352
>>15018389

You don't deserve to suffer or to be miserable. I'm not sure of your situation, but from what (little) I've heard I think you should consider seeking psychiatric institutionalization. It's a very scary concept, but if you're feeling so burnt out, you need a space where you can live without worrying about everyday life. A couple weeks or months where your only obligations are eating and therapy might help the both of you, but most importantly might give you enough room to decompress and de-stress.

>>15018416
Hahaha. No.

I've been thinking about death more and more these days.

You were a fucking geeky kid in a moustache. It is fucking pathetic to even insinuate any understanding with an Apollo like me.

>>15014209

I want to cold call this living war hero to write a memoir about him but I am just a chump with no street creds, never finished a book in my life

pic unrelated

They should build a statue of me and put it up on the Akropolis.

love (in its broad, divine definition) is in the air tonight

Steve Bannon is financing the largest shitposting operation on 4chan since 2016 with the latest round of Guenonposting. In May the operation is set to see its full launch, and the entire site will become another arm of Bannons traditionalist indoctrination machine.

>>15018431
Well, now I kind of feel like an asshole, but I've been myself, and if your issues have been so overwhelming for 4 years, it sounds like something has to change.

Of course, I've been in Germany, not the states, or wherever you are.

>>15018448
you won't believe how lonely and willing to share some of them are. not all, but you won't lose anything if you try.

>>15018553
I've been the financial support system in my household throughout all the misery. She's here paying "her share," but anything that has to happen has always been my responsibility. Now, without her part of the ordinary monthly bills, and with expensive medigap insurance and 1300/month in student loans tacked onto the usual burden, going off to the boobie hatch for some rest and relaxation is certain death. But placing to one side income based student loan repayment, a home foreclosure, medicare insurance and eventual third-party supplementation of medication costs which without medicare entitlement exceed 1300$/month, and the unforeseen costs associated with little ones, letting something like psychiatric institutionalization go on my record would ensure I never find legitimate work again. I can barely find it now.

Besides that, without my immediate family there is no one who could help with lodging or whatever. And I wouldn't want it anyway because it always comes at alternative and, ultimately, additional cost.

Life isn't fair so there is no sense to me in crying about it and helping hands are almost always attached to the bodies of vultures in this country. Let people make their stand wherever they can.

I'll miss her, but my god, I'm not suicidal.

>>15018352
She never actually felt loyalty for you like you did for her and there’s simply no coming back from this. I could be wrong but I don’t think I am. I would advise you to treat this relationship as if it were already completely over from this point forward. Sorry, but it’s not the end of the world. I went through something similar. It freed me up to realize more important devotions.

>>15018613
I understand. I'm sorry you're in that position. I hope things change for the better for you, anon.

>>15014231
nothing gold can stay

>>15018613
That came out disjointed. Finances are a primary concern above and beyond illness or feelings, like it or not. And there is no familial or economic support system to speak of in my case. When I think about signaling that my state of mind could be shaky, however temporarily, to a government agent it all just snowballs. You really can't get back up once you fall. That's what I think.

>>15018640
No worries. I could just go to prison instead. Always an option.

>>15018641
the essense of beauty is its briefness and fragility against the constant of pure being

>>15018628
I tend to agree. But 12 years is still along time. Still, it is what it is.

>>15018557
You think so? He has a job and a wife, how lonely can he be? On the other hand he's probably holed up thanks to coronavirus and this is my chance to get his attention when he's less busy

>>15018448
>>15018830

oh also i didnt mention this but im a little gay for him so that makes it extra awkward

>>15018964
if you want to falseflag, observe the victim's speech pattern first. very weak.

>>15015671
Remember to not allow women free access to the fridge in the future

>>15014221
>>>15014209 (OP)
>Blacks should be returned to Africa.

after all the crime and violence they caused. That is too good for them. They need to pay Caucasians reparations.

>>15014209
I will finally do it, anons. I will publish my stuff. currently designing covers. I want a kino cover, people can recognize from a mile away and makes virgins look cool.

>>15019486
only high test men can fully savour the pudgy strong milkmaid physique.

>>15019435
>falseflag
what has that got to do with anything

>>15016782
Instapot is your friend

Should I give up pornography and masturbation? Masturbation is proven to not be bad but I know pornography is. They kind of tie in to each other, however. The dopamine rush is also great for me.

>>15016771
uh oh anon be careful, I feel like you are not consooming enough and it’s making me worry

>>15019584
Dangerously based.

>>15021013
Yes and no. Move to stuff like Metart, or just watch videos of women masturbating, dancing, stripping, shaking their titties, embarrassed nudity, peeing, etc.
Instant 5000% gains in mental efficiency and psychological wellbeing, abscond from the base and buggered lies of mainstream pornography with its penile obsessions, crass power play, and hatred for the flesh and the soul. Learn to separate shyness, embarrassment, and humiliation all out from under the degredation umbrella they've been falsely gathered within. You'll find that you never needed to hate, slander, look down on, or jeer at a woman to become aroused in the first place.

>>15021013
I would much rather jerk off to porn than pursue more the extreme indignities of sexual lust. Sexual desire is a nuisance and a trap for a weak mind. It's best to eliminate it as soon as possible before it dominates your behavior.

>>15021213
tfw no qt literate wife to eliminate my sexual desires as soon as possible

I sit in vague discomfort at my desk, wasting life shamelessly. Actually that’s a lie, I am ashamed, but I’d rather not stress it too much now, I would rather just sip my tea and dig through crumbs of pita chips. I don’t have much work to do tomorrow but even that is an awful future. I want to do something all day that is both nourishing and stimulating like photosynthesis. Louise Gluck said that it was common for depressives to identify with trees, well, what about a tree with legs? Then the only part of being human I dissolve is the fleshiness to touch, and that’s honestly unimportant. The important things in life are sun rays sliding down grassy hills and pouring into a small child’s lap. It’s important that he doesn’t forget that sort of thing.

>Kafka article regarding translations says Michaek Hoffmann's collection is the best
>Order it online
>Receive it and read the word cockroach on the first page

fuck my life

>idiots on my sudoku app forum think if you have a better time than their best time you must be cheating
I am fucking seething at these idiots

>>15014221
this. oh whats that, white people are racist devils? ah you don't want to live amongst us i see, yes, yes, here is a boat ticket. it's a much nicer boat than your ancestors came here on. back you go, back back back, bye bye.
nuck figgers.
>>15016743
tfw
>>15018369
i also just bought my first fun but you should stop being a faggot about it.
>in these crazy times
mega-faggot. it's way less violent now than in the 80s and 90s. look at documentaries about nyc in those periods, it was a fucking warzone. now it's gentrified and slicker than an apple store. everywhere is getting sleek.
>feel like a cowboy
>i have actual cowboy ancestors
retarded shitlib shoots for the first time and suddenly he's self-aggrandizing. iv'e been shooting since i was a kid, just didn't bother buying my own until now. what a difference it makes. it's a tool, like a fucking flashlight. and my ancestors were in the literal fucking mafia, so what?

>>15014209
My mother is driving me crazy by insisting I come back home during this virus shitshow. If I go back home I will devolve into a primitive neckbeard state. I can't have it.

A guy on a discord server I chat in spent $500 on an anime figurine again. Holy shit I don’t understand, it doesn’t even look good (it’s made of god damn plastic). It’s especially bizarre because if you just wanted merchandise from a show you like than there are fuck loads of both official and fan made posters and prints and stuff that cost a tenth as much and actually look nice. Why the fuck do people buy these figurines???

I think Pastebin has taken away the ability for guests to search public pastes. This is annoying as fuck. I don't want to make an account, I just want to search pastebin.com. Why can't I do this any more? I used to be able to do it.

I have been writing my first book for the past few weeks. its shit, but im really proud of it so far. i also started reading crime and punishment after reading yukio mishimas forbidden colours, which i really enjoyed. any other mishima readers out there?

I had a productive day. But I'm not sure I foresee my own happiness ever again. I wish I could go back and live the same year, forever.

>>15019656
i want to kiss that woman's bellybutton

This site got a bit more tolerable once I got into the habit of hiding every thread that starts with a screencap of either a Twitter post, a news headline, or an irrelevant blog I've never heard of

>>15018327
>>15018337
i wasn't writing to write. this actually happened, but thank you

>>15022946
there are addons you can use that allow you to filter words and phrases. filtering guenon nuked half the board though

>>15022977
I already have 4chanX installed, but that's not reliable for the kind of posts I'm referring to. I can easily hide posts like ones that start with "what does /[board]/ think of" or "books/movies/music for this feel?", sure, but a lot of them use unique phrases or are just a period and nothing else. Thus I don't often have much choice but to just hide them manually. Either way, I'm glad that I broke out of habitually clicking on them and then just getting more irritated and fed up with the site.

>>15022946
Do like me, leave and come back only once every few months.

You were exactly like your stupid geeky niece. You'll never understand what it is to be an Apollo like me.

since there is no critique thread, please indulge me

When Tyson Matthew Jackson was born his mother named him Tyson because she wanted him to be fierce. She did not know a lot, but she knew that Mike Tyson was a fierce man who could bite other fierce men’s ears off, and wanted the same for her son. His father was a God-fearing man who wanted a God-fearing son with a Biblical name like Matthew. However, he was both God-fearing and wife-fearing, and so his son's middle name was Matthew.

When Tyson’s younger brother was born, his parents were again tasked with choosing a name. His mother had seen how far from fierce her first son was, and so by a stroke of what she must have thought was genius she decided to name him something tame like Matthew. His father had seen how far from God-fearing his eldest was, and so decided that his youngest should be named something fierce, like Tyson. Just before naming their second child Matthew Tyson, they realized that this was too close to Tyson’s name; that it wasn’t quite appropriate. By a stroke of what he must have thought was genius, Tyson suggested that his new sibling be named Michael Tyson instead of Matthew Tyson, which was close but not too close to his own name. His parents agreed, and named their second-born son Michael Tyson. By the time he was 8, they simply called him Mike, and by the time he was 18, his parents had almost realized it.

>>15014209
what wasted fucking potential. I was probably top of my class as far as intellect goes how that fat fucking bitch was gushing about it to my parents anyway it seemed like it how dare she give them hope. Fuck hope there is no hope everything turns bleak anyway it doesnt take more than a few years for that to become self evident old people are good example any old struggling woman was probably at some point an object for desire had a bunch of mle suitors linijng up flattering her every hair and inflating her ego until eventualy one came and swept her of her feet then they spent the next 40 years working themselves to death. They could hardly stand each other later on the love swept optimism and naiveism choked to death on the cold hard chalky gravel of time leaving nothing but the feeling of supreme emptiness and hopelessness who in turn has to be choked every day under either a hollow sense of duty for family which im starting to suspect only sprouts from the fear of the psychological terror it would cause watching something resembling your childlike self so closely slowly and painfully starve to death due to a lack of food or the pursuit of monetary gain which even in the best possible scenario will mostly remain unspent while maggots greedily devour your corpse as happily as a bird eats the seeds of the ground or debauchery which serves no purpose other than to stain and tempt a person into becoming some sort of subhuman creature that most who know secretly find disgusting and base beyond any sort of redemption in their eyes or some other shadow of something better.

I knew I was attracted to fat girls when I was 13 years old and stumbled on message boards about it for the first time. But if there was ever any doubt in my mind, it was removed when I was 16-17 and taking AP US History as a junior in high school.

Our teacher was a very pretty redhead who was also extremely fat. She was extraordinarily bottom-heavy, and she would waddle around the classroom, her huge, broad buttocks bouncing back and forth, up and down as she moved. She must have weighed close to 300 pounds just at the start of the year. And then, on top of that, a month into the semester she found out she was pregnant, so over the course of both the fall and the spring semesters she got even bigger, getting wider in the ass and the hips and of course growing a big round belly. Well, rounder.

I can only attempt to describe what it was like to sit in her classroom. I think I spent every single hour of that class with an erection. I would pointedly follow her with my eyes as she moved around the classroom, my dick constantly on the verge of bursting out of my pants. Of course my extreme arousal was mixed with a terror that she would catch me looking. I tried to be discrete, as best I could. She probably caught me more than once, though, she was quite intelligent and perceptive. She was a genuinely good teacher, too. But I look back on it and wonder why I never just flat-out ejaculated in my pants, I was so hard each day of the week.

It's a miracle I did as well in the class as I did, given how distracted I was. But I did wind up making an 'A', and I passed the AP US History test, too.

27 and I've sunk to a depth of loneliness that may be impossible to rise from. It's retarded because I've had plenty of advantages. But I'll keep fighting; there's a lot about life that I love.

Capitalism has utterly failed but people are too cucked and propagandised to to do anything about it.

>>15023385

>>15023385

Keep loving life friend. You're not alone, you never will be. Survive. Flourish. If not for yourself then for the others like you seeking hope, motivation, and inspiration. Learn, explore, grow, love, feel, experience. Never give up. Live.

>>15014231
Nice. The horse is doing the wojak gazing on the rising/setting sun.
>see white horse and sunrise/set
>instantly think of wojak meme
I guess this means my brain is broken
;_;

>>15016244
Nice digits
The other presence is possibly a ghost or some other spirit. It's probably just curious.
But what I really mean is, it's most likely Hypnagogia. :^)

>>15014221
Yeah, because that worked out so well.

Perhaps there is a cruller fate than being aware of your own mediocrity, but I personally can't think of one.

>>15024209
Certainly. Being aware of your own mediocrity and not having the willpower to do something about it.

>>15024231
If you can stop being mediocre, it means you're not mediocre.

>>15018713

Paglia says something along these lines:

‘Beauty is our defense against nature. It allows us to put a temporary pause on the violent flux of nature.’

Felt relevant

>>15024253
You can always be less mediocre today than you were yesterday.

It is indeed a strange dream.
Two men dressed in novel fashion which looks much like one from early 30' of the 20th century, being unable to steal something for reasons unknown and thus recruiting me to do it.
And how simple the job was - just enter a certain room at a certain time in a certain place, screw off the lightlamp and extract a small small capsule which contains the very item in question - a microprocessor. Why would someone store that there of all places? And you know the worst part? I could not find those two guys ever again. And im not getting paid my share either.

writer's block is like ED: you certainly have everything you need, but it just doesn't work. Luckily, just like there is a blue pill to fix that problem, I have a blue label to fix mine.

Be honest; would any of you hire an escort if you were truly desperate?

>>15024394
Yep.

>>15014267
cringe hylic pretendijg to be one of the enlightened. FALSE FLAG

>>15014220
you never read any of those. you can't answer the most basic questions concerning hinduism, traditionalism, or guénon. your behavior is purely quantitative, everything you do goes directly against the spirit of tradition. kill yourself.

Being cooped up is making me miss my ex, but I'm noticing that these thoughts only arise when I'm horny. I'm just tired of thinking about her. I broke up with her and am glad it's over, but man it sucks when she creeps back into my head.

In my dream, I was standing before a painting of Ahura Mazda when his figure suddenly came to life and revealed to me that I must conceive poetry. Few men could have claims to such high an honor. The Wise Lord himself unveiled to me in person, who am I to deny his wisdom?

Right as I’d been turning something of a fairly significant personal corner and begun feeling much more open to, and inspired by other people, a once in a lifetime lockdown sweeps the nation back indoors for weeks at a time. I will always love the sense of humour of the universe. Looking to make the most of this time with more committed introspection and meditating, we shall see how it pans out.

>>15024050
hey, i didnt see this. it makes the pic even better.
you're not deformed, just good at noticing a specific kind of pattern, similarity to wojack pics to be exact. i bet your neurolibrary stocks hundreds of wojacks.
that wojack is one of my faves, and this pepe too

>>15023571
What would you have them do?

>>15024310
good quote, but i dont contrapose beauty to nature. to me, they're inherently interlocked.
there can be unnatural beauty and ugly nature, exceptions just proving the rule.

when you try to defy nature with some manmade idea, nothing good comes out. we might be the only ones to experience beauty in its broad sense, but not the ones who invented it.

>>15025220
that's such a based approach. you didnt just gain social confidence and some petty achievements, you aquired Wisdom.

>>15015671
Have you considered that what you should do with your life is make art?

I AM GOD

i think in a couple of days i'll create a whole folder for Horses observing the sunset. finally found my niche.
i'll post the link here.

>>15023318
based

>>15025337
I’d like to write stories, but I can only come up with scattered, disconnected scenes

day three of trying to remove my politics brainrot. going ok. i made it until noon without thinking about the burger presidential election. haven’t read the news for several days.

>>15022652
What are you searching Pastebin for?

>>15022696
Reading Mishima under quarantine definitely feels extra comfy. I strongly recommend the Sea of Fertility tetralogy if you haven't read those yet.

>cant afford therapist to fix my problems
this sucks

>>15014209
Not even worried

>>15025300
Stop being cucked.

I would really like to know how to get pity sex from women

After so many confrontations with the liminality of my social being you’d think I would come up with a healthy coping mechanism. But evidently, with each grating reminder that my existence is only digestible in fragments to my peers, I can’t help but retreat bitterly into seclusion and scramble for a means to properly console myself. I’ve gotten past the misanthropy of the situation, I recognize that people aren’t meant to suit each other perfectly and I can’t hate them for it. But still the melancholy of the fact returns without hesitation. I’m not sure how I’ll know when I’ve truly accepted the unrealism of demanding everyone to understand my condition. I don’t know why I obsess so much for it, I guess when I’m excited about new people I want to strike a nice bond, and I do in little bits, but it seems a matter of time before they reach some layer of my self that’s impenetrable to their understanding. And that’s a universal experience I’m sure, we all have our different thresholds, different ends of ourselves that are hard to link with others, I guess what’s unfortunate is that my end is one I value very much. But at the end of the day I am just an insect, a mantis specifically, and I walk convincingly as any other nonhuman, but when my ruse is figured out it’s always tragic disappointment, and I need to learn to just not fucking care. Be a mantis then, be a frail green enigmatic figure, let people love you where they will and decide you’re just obnoxious, but define yourself for yourself only, and be comfortable with that, otherwise it’s just tears tears tears.

>>15027103
just be as miserable as possible

>>15024209
I don't think I'm mediocre but I do feel I am half of what I should be. In every pursuit of my own choosing I have excelled. It was only in those areas where I was forced to apply myself because of a preponderance of social or economic necessity that I managed to be merely proficient or failed. It was this latter criterion by which I have been judged. It just so happens because of my upbringing the latter is the more decisive factor in my outcomes, alienated labor, alienated subjectivity.

The saying is "make something of yourself." But just what do you make it out of? The term pulling yourself up by your own bootstraps used to denote an absurd impossibility, the human equivalent of a perpetual motion machine. Now it is used in defense of a false ideology of personal responsibility that shores up the great differential of available opportunities for the activation of human potential. To make something of yourself you must make use of what surrounds you, is offered to you.
I'm just fortunate that the baseline I am operating from is higher than many, so even diminished I still am more capable. Some people, if you made them king of the world for a day, would drive it into the dirt. I'm confident enough in myself to assert that that wouldn't be me.

A spider is born knowing how to spin its web, but nature taught it how with a million, billion lessons, written in bitter blood over the eons.

>having sex in 2020
>desiring sex in 2020
>even considering the idea of sex in 2020
cringe, sex was a 2010’s thing

>>15029167
masturbation is clearly the way to go

Today was my birthday. In some sense I am no longer youthful. Partly I'm glad to be done with it, nothing but trouble and unrealistic expectation and raging wants. Still, I desire less, feel less of the stunning shock of yearning, less of the unbounded free-floating play of the imagination. You see the trend quite clearly in retrospect. A young child will literally mistake their imaginings for reality , embodied in the strange phenomenon of imaginary friends, fervent belief in Santa and so on, which gradually sheds over the years and becomes tempered by the closing rigid ring of adulthood rationality, which shuts out the fanciful and encloses the domain of respectable subjects for one's mind around practical subjects. I don't know if I'm glad to be free of my youth because mine was cursed, or if in general youth is an affliction. But if all that is left for me is to become tired, then life has become even more of a struggle against the inevitable. Mortality sharpens year over year into a more definite and absolute certainty.

Is it impossible to form life long intimate friendships as an adult? Every example of really close friendships I know started in childhood.

>>15014209
I'm starting to think that the political left may not be all powerful, and that race may actually be inconsequential.

>>15014209
What is a virus
to a soul and spirit
Floating on the waters edge
--anon

>go to the gym
>see cute gril
>make eye contact, smile, she smiles back
>start saying hello to her when I bump into her she says hello as well, smiles
>gyms close because of Corona
>weather is nice, I go for a walk in the park
>walking down broad, busy path thronged with couples and people walking on their own
>see her
>she's with a guy, very handsome, very fit
>she sees me
>We greet each other
>I walk past

>>15029715
You can, but you need the same amount of time and contact. So its harder.

>>15029910
Should have stolen her bf.

I want to start collecting something but I don’t know what. Stamps seem kind of lame, as do coins. Books are a possibility but I tend to do that passively anyway. In Japan some people apparently collect seals from different shrines, which sounds pretty cool, but I don’t live in Japan.

Maybe I’ll get into mineralogy.

>>15014229
Nope, turns out Corona is a nothing burger after all

>>15023061
Not bad

>>15024209
Personally I think being skinned alive might be a little bit worse.

>>15026290
So what? Communism? Socialism? Anarchy? Where do we go from here?

>>15014209
I wonder how many people here respond in batches? The last four responses are mine for example. I wonder how many people actually bother responding to these threads? I'm going to say probably around 20-30's depending on the thread. Who are you people? Probably many of you are as lost and confused as I am. I wonder if we help each other understand the world, or just end up confusing each other more? If so, what keeps drawing us back here?

>>15030245
I think we should learn total self-sufficiency. Learn how to fix cars, weld shit, grow your own crops. Get away from Jewish concepts like money, especially fiat-based currency. We're seeing the start of a transformation of society, where things will either become totally swallowed up by the banks/neolibs/military-industrial-complex or everything will become totally local. We have to start learning the skills necessary to survive the transitional period. If you don't know anything about car maintenance, there are tons of free videos on YouTube. Same for welding, repairing electronics, farming, carpentry, etc. The real change is that we don't "need" to have jobs where we focus on one skill for our entire working career. If we do this right one day we'll have the free time that our hunter-gatherer ancestors had back when they only had to work 25 hours a week. It's the generalists who will inherit the Earth.

>>15030385
I don't know how well your plan could work in reality, Anon. There's a reason it takes electricians four years of apprenticeship. Things are just too complicated and take too much time for one person to do. Still, it's an interesting idea desu.

So how the fuck did a bunch of prisoners get this? If it travels person-to-person like the flu, which prisons have no problems with, how does an inmate somehow have a contact chain with a Chinese national?

It takes like three years of sitting in jail to get to prison. There's no fucking way it could spread in there from a Chinese source and why the fuck would a prison guard which works overtime every week be fucking around in Wuhan?

What prisons do get is yard time. They are let out for an hour or two every day.

The shit is spreading through the air, staying inside will only minimalize your contact not prevent it. Ur fukd queers

>>15030420
Four years compared to how many that we're alive? And you can't tell me there aren't some parallels between, say, plumbing and electrical work. Think of the Pareto principle: twenty percent of the knowledge of a field tends to apply to eighty percent of the cases. If everyone is savvy enough to troubleshoot their own electrical or plumbing or car problems, or able enough to build a house and grow their own food, then they are at a huge advantage compared to the person who can only fix cars, or plumbing, or (God forbid) IT problems. Think of how much less resources get used when people are more self sufficient. When everyone can fix a least the basic problems of society that leaves that much more brainpower to focus on the larger issues. Making everyone a generalist also gives them a perspective on the larger picture, something that is severely lacking into today's atomized society. Basically I think going back into libertarianism or socialism is moving backwards rather than forwards. I reject the idea that society determines why we should live. We should be alive for our own sake, and stay alive through our own resilience and skill. That is much more in line with what the Founding Fathers envisioned, and such a society would be much more resilient and also much less wasteful. You should see the kind of stuff that gets thrown away or donated to thrift shops because some wiring was damaged or it needed some other five minute fix. My goal in life is to one day love a year without spending a dollar. Once this happens, then I know my dream might be feasible. My goal isn't to create a perfect society, but rather to surpass society.

I think you might be retarded anon, sorry to break the news

>>15030487
Why? Because I want to escape this hell that we call "Civilization"?

Why are rats so based?

>>15030511
easily due to their precious little ears, twitchy noses, and heaps of personality

>>15030483
Basically my plan is to:
1. Erase all my debt and financial obligations to the State.
2. Acquire land, build my own home or buy one of those really cheap single wides
3. Slowly wean myself off of civilization by: growing my own food, learning to fix cars/electrical work around the house, etc. while also still working so that I can have some income while I transition to post-civ. I'll also need to find some wife who's down with it, I think if I go the whole 'sustainable, environmentally friendly' route I can score a cutie tree hugger who'd be cool with storing our shit to use as compost.

good morning, europosters! that Damian book by Hesse is great. also just finished Inferno yesterday.

>>15030442
You're goddamn dumb, /pol/.

>>15030526
I regret ever calling you "anon." Just because you're on here doesn't mean you're anon.

>>15030442
Easy, prison gaurds. Prisoners are transferred all the time, so it's just a matter of some outside contact, whether the guards, family members, etc. and then being confined in an enclosed space with a bunch of sadists works to your disadvantage.

>>15030024
I went into a geology career and while I don’t collect minerals, I still find them cool. A country is a kind of author, the geological is its magnus opus, full of signs and sphinx-like geometry. You add fossils into the mix and you have power objects at your disposal. You could collect rocks from places you find mysterious, Japanese people have it easy, depending were you live and your state laws, collecting stones might prove to be a nice hobby to initiate into landscape and country.

>remember I own a copy of Das Nibelungenlied that I dropped two years ago
>open it up
>picture of my ex that I used as a bookmark
>on the chapter where Sifreid sees Krimhild
I wish I didn't love her still

>>15016746
Soup, unless you manage it, is sodium heavy. Restaurant soup alone is salted about 3 times throughout, and that's not counting additional ingredients that are salted. It is as advantageous a food as you stated but there's a reason you can't make it a staple in your diet. Hate the drawback because I'd eat soup for entire days every meal.

>>15030911
you don't have to salt it heavily bro. just use a lot of other spices.

Kind of annoying that best thing the US has going for it is the post office and it's about to go under. Fuck profit. Fuck George Bush. Fuck privatising everything so cronies can get more billions.

>>15030245
Communism.

I'm looking for a funny video that was posted on /lit/ a couple of years ago which, if I remember correctly, was titled as a review on Thus Spoke Zarathustra but It was a long drawn out surreal video of a mental English lad and some music.

You're such a god damn moron. You're like soldier Svejk but worse. Soldier Svejk at least was kind and tried to help others, even if his plans were dumb as a brick. You're Svejk if he were rude, narcissistic and his brother got fucked in the ass by a tranny with a strap on.

>>15014209
I feel more and more divorced from reality by the minute and I'm getting real fucked up about it. I have BPD and I'm worried I'm displaying mild schizophrenic type behaviors.

>>15030442
>So how the fuck did a bunch of prisoners get this?
Prisons have employees you know? Guards, janitors, cooks, repairmen, etc.

Everyone I've seen on reddit are just neoliberals that kowtow to authority even when the authorities are the ones shitting on everything and everyone. Really fucking pathetic. "Go to this person they'll help!" I say (yes, I have posted and check in on my city's subreddit during this mess as it's surprisingly informative) that I have zero confidence in that helping because the very thing I'm talking about comes from the same official bullshit. I'm downvoted for that.

>>15031819
you ever try r/bpd or r/schizophrenia or anything like that? lots of people there willing to talk and offer advice

Lockdown proves how much of the economy is a complete meme and how much bullshit work 'has' to be done. Too bad everyone just wants to go back to 'normal'.

>>15031883
I can't stand reddit because of the "Trump is dumb" posts and the general feeling that they're "participating", "spreading the truth" and "changing something".

You're just posting internet comments and your favorite candidate got BTFO'd by someone who has the nickname Sleepy Joe.

>>15032145
I've never been on reddit at all. The interface is weird.

how to acquire autism?

>>15032170
totally agreed.

>>15032170
>Only essential businesses allowed to operate
>Mass female unemployment
Woah... really makes you think...

>>15032237
Why would you want one?

I still laugh at your pathetic attempt at a comeback.

"Uh uh you got a weak jaw. Uh"

You fucking wish you were born as me. If women like Cait or Fanny wanted you then you wouldn't be married to a fucking tranny, now would you?

I recently finished the art of war, I think it's a pretty solid read, I was reading through the prince before this, any other book like those that you recommend?

>>15014446
What the fuck.

>>15032170
Not only does it expose the fatuousness of the consumer economy, but it underscores how the actual work that actually has to be done is ignored. Why is there such a concept as "inessential work" to begin with? We need new infrastructure, various modernizations to the communications and emergency response systems, investment in crumbling public utilities and in neglected neighborhoods, all these and more that don't fit into the narrow logic of short term profitability.

“The cure should not be worse than the disease,” is the catchphrase, which is cute when it essentially means "you should go back to working your peasant job so my investments will stay afloat." "Profit over people," this quite literally is. As the Economist writes, "Eventually, even if many people are dying, the cost of distancing could outweigh the benefits.” Shouldn't not dying be considered a benefit? The virus has disclosed the tenacious class logic motivating the entire society. That is, over and beyond the more implicit legal and ideological superstructure of this class logic, tax breaks for the superich, the lobbying industry, unlimited campaign donations, and so on, is the now visible death march that workers are being told to engage in. Their expendability is made so obvious that I am tempted to speculate that this is a step too far, that it is too transparent and will not fly. Wildcat strikes and work stoppages have already shut down the American automotive industry and I would assume that a premature end to the lockdown would only result in a larger and much needed labor movement.

>>15032232
I have bipolar but if it's anything like r/bipolar I promise you that you'll find more people who can relate to you and speak more directly to your problems. You'll feel a lot less alone and far more understood.

>>15030442
Imagine being this fucking stupid

>>15032406
okay thank you

Despite being aware of the absurdity in trying to spend my time exclusively on creative pursuits, I can’t be still or mesmerized for too long without wanting to shoot myself. I get that it’s supposed to be some capitalistic spell to always want to be productive, but honestly I think that’s bullshit and a clear denial of human nature. Not that I know exactly what that is, but I can’t imagine it took several centuries of economic growth before people decided it’s important to want to get things done. Now I do see how tying yourself to the thought will cause some unnecessary tension, in fact I’m sure that’s the trap I’ve stepped into today, and I’m not sure how to undo it. It feels good to learn, create, think, discover, and all other soul nurturing things, but I haven’t figured out how to calm myself if those are absent for more than a couple hours. I’m not excessively smart or anything but I really can’t live with just watching Netflix or Anime or stabbing my eyes with social media spectacles and all their filth. But I do need to find some balance because truly it’s ridiculous to always want to be in motion, leave that shit for the sharks, I barely even know how to swim!

>>15014209
I just realised that all the friends I have had up until now have been bad people. I find it very hard to believe that this isn't the natural state of things; the vast majority of people I meet are incredibly petty, but then again the only reason I spend time with them is either for boredom or necessity. Is it healthy to not feel the need to seek friends? I have never really felt lonely, but I feel that by not forcing myself to understand people, I will never be able to fully realise my ambitions. I only really live for my ambitions. If I didn't have a grand dream I wanted to make a reality, I would probably just kill myself because there really is no other point to my existence. But sloth and pride affects me just as it does everybody else, so as much as I would like to be a man of action, inaction occupies most of my day. I am still very young, but I feel my youth fading with every passing day, and I fear that I will die old, pathetic and weak, and completely miserable at having failed at my single reason for living.

So I just looked up facebook and saw this girl I had a crush on in high school. With this fucking guy. Back than I thought it was literal destiny because of that one moment when I met her coincidentally during some work experience but I've never talked to her because I thought I would be made fun of. I would have unironically felt better if he was 9/10 chad. God I fucking hate myself

>>15032635

This is cute haha I can understand these feelings anon, but I advise you to find more purpose than ambition. A hint is that you can't truly be happy if you look for peace in transient things, chew on that if you want. And as for the friend thing goes, yeah, most people are tolerable at best, but eventually you grow out of that seclusion once you make some worthwhile connections. It's only a matter of time if you let it happen, then you'll find yourself possibly more interested in the ways of other people, but it's ultimately a bizarre thing. I don't know, but I do get where you're coming from.

>>15032659
Same thing with me,but guy is even uglier and i don't want to have pictures of either of them infront of my face ever again.
Btw i think i saw you on /fit/

>>15032659
> people dont ALWAYS choose partners based on looks alone
who could've thought

>>15033095
Wtf? Lookism and incels lied to me?

>>15033191
yes

Pretty sure I’m an asexual but the “asexual community” seems pretty cringe so I’m just going to keep complaining on a Tahitian shell carving forum instead

>>15033209
Isnt asexualism just having low sex drive?

>>15033258
Idk, maybe. They have a bunch of different sub-classes (part of why I think it’s a meme), some of which are shit like “have a sex drive but don’t like having sex”.

But I’ve always been like this, I just started considering the label once I realized I was abnormal.

>>15031239
You're talking about Q from the book club, he took most of his videos down

>>15033209
>>15033318
This has always struck me as people with a nonsexual disposition trying to find some commoditized identity which will let them slip under the LGBT umbrella.

today i came home after work and my family told me an old friend died, we were the same age 22 and i wasnt even close to him at the time.. but i feel my beliefs about death have been "shaken" ! so what do i need to read to cope with this ?

>>15014209
The trumpet sounded and I drank my wine.

>>15033366
I’d say that’s pretty accurate. I was seriously lol’ing reading posts about “ace discrimination” and shit.

>tfw nearly lynched last night for not fucking

>>15033352
Ahhh fuck, I loved that video. I even showed it to my mum, that's how much I liked it lol.

I'm pretty sure I downloaded it but I can't find it anywhere on my HDD so I either deleted it or it's name is fucked up.

>>15032825
Didn't post it there

>>15033095
That's actually why I felt more like shit

To be honest I actually don't miss her that much as a person but as a missed opportunity. Like there was a world right in my grasp, something given by god himself but I hesitated and slipped

Always thought she was cute in some plain way, and weirdly I saw her often at unexpected places. Then one day I was having work experience in Year 10 and while handing out pamphlets to nearby shops, I saw her working in at a hair shop right next to where I was working, this was a coincidence again but I took this as some kind of destiny and stuck inside my head for rest of the senior years
But I didn't approach her till the end because I was extremely paranoid about everything. This made me pretty damn nihilistic and destroyed all my self worth for a while

>>15033713
Goddddddd DAYUM she fine as helllll. Dat hair, eyes and lip combo mahh gaawwwdddd.

I estimate you have busted at leat 53 nuts to her.

>>15014220
Pbuh, truly. Rene Augustine Guenon was a Christian so this post is self refutatory but I think you deliberately did this so people would seek the truth themselves instead of merely taking your word for it.

>>15033095
If you get into situations where only looks matter, yeah you're pretty much fucked and it can drag you down.

But there are enough workarounds, so it shouldn't be a problem. For example, someone has a lonely friend that might be a good fit, there are enough girls with the "looks don't matter" philosophy etc.

t. I got a defined body from chasing thots

“There is a degree of culture where national hatred vanishes, and where one stands to a certain extent above nations and feels the weal and woe of a neighboring people as if it happened to one’s own”
—Goethe

Being a sunny spring day not unlike those being found wherever the sun’s rays aren’t covered by voluminous clouds, it did have one exception: The trees haven’t unfurled their leaves yet. Save for a few cherry blossoms, (beautiful as always) it’s as if the winter chill has crept in the barks of great pines and oaks and is keeping the little chlorophyll containers captive. I’m going to wait on the trees to give me a flash of their green glow. I’ll wait for the joy of the forest’s venerable breath.
I’m still waiting.

>>15033899
Holy shit, Kantbot's ph.d. hereby revoked.

>>15034010
Terrible diction

>>15032203
That wasn't what it was. For the record, Biden is absolute shit and I hope he does from COVID-19. American politics are trash.

>>15032170
It's almost as if society is made up and capitalism is garbage.

>>15014320
Guenon is love
Guenon is life

>>15032402
Let's be honest Americans are far too cucked for that. It's made that way by design and the only thing that will come of it is some grumbling and then more propaganda. Nothing will happen. It really sucks but it is the American way.

>>15018448
>>15018557

holy fuck, i found his email. now i just need the balls to throw him a good pitch

>>15033209
you're alright. i have a sex drive and find some things arousing, but have no desire to pursue sex irl as im not interested in relationships. one-night stands and mindless promiscuity are surely not for me.
i call it half a monkpill

Anyone has a good recs on books about neurosis?

>>15028478
I like it. I would remove either millions or billions as you don't need both. Also spiders don't have "blood" but rather haemolyph, so you might want to change that part. I think you'd like Robinson Jeffers' poem "The Bloody Sire"

>>15023168
holy blackpill

>brother and others i know off work with at least 80% pay
>still having to go to work everyday like a good little wagie because i'm a 'key' worker
IT'S NOT FAIR BROS, I WANT TO STAY HOME AND READ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'm not happy in my current career (IT). I feel I'd be happier in a marketing or advertising job, but the barrier of entry seems so high nowadays and I've already got a lot invested in IT. Part of me also wants to become an electrician/mechanic and live of the grid.

I unironically think you’re fucked when it comes to romance if you don’t marry your childhood sweetheart. No other relationship can measure up to that first one (how can it? It’s not longer special once you’ve had more than one) and no amount of normie handwringing about “experience” or “maturity” or whatever the fuck can change that. It’s all a cope.

I’d appreciate being convinced otherwise because it’s a depressing outlook, but like I said all the normie rebuttals I’ve read have just been incoherent copes.

>>15035776
If someone is out there having "fun" because of the experience, then he's not really getting laid, because he's still doing it pursuing the goal of finding the one.

You are literally whoring around to be experienced enough to be able to choose your future partner. How do you know if it's the one if you haven tried.

I sear, people don't even know how to whore around properly and want to talk about relationships, love and experience. Just go whore around without an agenda. It ain't rocket science.

>>15035829
I slaughtered some sentences.

if you haven't tried out multiple/a lot of partners*

I swear*

Hell, my conservative mom coined it batter. It's an (sexual) adventure. Don't try to make it something larger.

>>15035776
And you should be more worried about find out who planted the idea in your head that there needs to be a "special one."

I have a theory. Remember back in the old days. When there were only a few aristocrat families in town, and one had a daughter, a princess, and another had a son, a prince. Of course the princess is "the one" for the prince, because the pool of people isn't that large.

>>15035866
to find out*

what the fuck is wrong with me today

>>15035680
what the fuck up with IT people and wanting to work a trade, name a more iconc duo

just sit there and type down your if/else's, you're regret everything once you hit pension anyway

>>15035896
is up*

Is it /lit/ to be obsessed with a woman you've never met?

This isolation is slowly making me crazy. It's day 30.

Do you know who has to deal with it if I lose my marbles?

You guessed it, I have to deal with it and that's not even the worst part. The absolute worst thing is listening to this bullshit about togetherness and solidarity and the hard times we're about to face and saving lives using a hashtag and we have to be there for each other and so on, but if I go nuts I know damn well how that damn process works.

>>15035972
Don't get me wrong. I don't mind the cut-throat society, but don't fucking try to bullshit a bullshitter.

>>15035896
Romanticism of another trade job that doesn't take into account how much it fucks you up physically or mentally. Or they're chasing money like plebs. Or they're just being lied to with the amount of money that can be made so they can drive down wages because there's so many tradesmen.

Also fuck money.

>>15035922
Yes, but the most /lit/ thing is to obsess over a woman you met once or twice and never saw or head of again.

>>15035922

>>15035896
I mean I'm just helpdesk support so it's not like I'm rolling in the dough. I do feel like I'd be happier in advertising at least, but part of me feels like society a large has gotten so cancerous the last few years that I want nothing to do with it.

>>15036061
I started reading because of one of those. It helps avoid obsessing over other girls, because that slot is already taken.

When I asked myself what kind of person I want to be, her image was the first that appeared in my mind.

>>15036110
If you're in advertising you should kill yourself. If you want to be in advertising you should kill yourself.

>>15036082
what book is that?

>>15036110
read Then We Came to the End by Joshua Ferris or Something Happened by Heller

>>15036061
>>15036082
What literature addresses this unquenchable yearning? Besides Dante, of course, because I've already read him.

>>15036119
The Prestige is a 1995 novel by British writer Christopher Priest.

>>15036132
Demian

The more I feel alone, the more I hang around 4chan and other sites.

Is there a correlation? I think not.

>>15036249
No man is an island

>>15014209
I have recently started writing and nothing's been on my mind more than some of the stuff that I have written.
>The fatigue of feeling alive. The fatigue that takes over when there is no more space to breath. Your heart beats blood to a mind that beats no will to live.
>
Warmth of the hatred for this loathing life. Bitterness of the unknown that cripples my sight and renders my mental weak and unable to lift it’s abyssal black columns that holds my Colosseum standing up. My heart and soul are deep down in a vital terminal whirlpool.
>I’m stuck between the aggravating sense of anxiety to what the future holds and the depressive state of today’s agnostic state of misery yet I remember what really is one’s purpose on this earth. Nothingness never felt more comfortable since then.

In the wood where I do my running, a small pond with frog eggs in it got ruined by some people.

I cried. They were my frogs.

>>15036367
poetic

>>15036115
Why? Advertising is a valid career path in today economy

If there really was a God he would have cleansed this earth already, it's obvious the human experiment didn't work and i don't understand why he's wasting time when he can just start over with some other species.

>>15036636
If you're a faggot who should kill themselves, sure. Advertising is insidious, corporate propaganda for absolute trash. All advertisers are scum.

Every night I go to sleep imagining a cute girl is sleeping next to me holding my hand

What do westerners know of hardship? What do they know fear? Do they fear being conscripted? Do they pay bribes to keep their businesses going? Do they brave the wilderness to find food? Do they get tortured or captured for ransom while on their way to escape poverty back home? What does the average depressed white male have to fear, sitting in the warm comfort of his home with a roof above here head and a meal in his stomach? Sadly, comparing one's self to the worse off gives no solace. We are wired to wallow in our miseries, to see pain as relative, to always fix our gaze upon those doing better than us.

>>15036789
Without advertising you'd never have had the joy of biting into a Happy Meal, or running to the finish line in Nike sneakers. Apple never would've revolutionized the phone industry and you wouldn't be able to cool down with a refreshing Pepsi. Why the hate? Advertising only brings us together. It's what makes the world go 'Round :)

>>15036847
How can you say that when DRUMPF is in office?? Do you not even care about the needs of minority transgender dwarf basket weavers? This post is just oozing with privilege. I'm shaking because of how attacked I feel right now I absolutely 100% definitely even a little bit come close to trying to even a little bit assuredly good sir *tips fedora* floppity pip poppitly on the defense of all the weak and defenseless Muggles (shout out to Hufflepuff y'all) dominated by Voldemort/Trump (they're basically the same amirite) can't even

>>15036953
Congrats, your retarded post killed the thread

Does anyone else live a life of cringe? I am so haunted by my past, I just hate myself and the way I have acted. I am frozen, unable to "be myself" because I know it means looking back on it tomorrow, next week, month, year with absolute mortification. I just realized I hate myself.

>>15014320
finally, THANK YOU lmao

>>15014408
question, why do you praise the works of Guenon but always post Hindu literature? Why not post quotes of Guenon?

>>15015673
>https://www.medrxiv.org/content/10.1101/2020.02.22.20026500v1
More than 35% of covid patients in this study had neuro deficit
>https://www.theglobeandmail.com/canada/article-scientists-warn-covid-19-could-lead-to-neurological-complications-in/
easier to understand the full consequences of this here

Anonymity is a drug. More than a drug, it is a medical agent. For either the worst or the best appears in nobodyness, the very concept of ethics and with it a whole landscape of human truth is dependent on the concept of a stable and perfect identity, an unchanging selfhood that asserts itself with finality and totality at some absolute moment in time.
Nothing could be further from the actual trace of human phenomenology. Instead I experience myself at times as a pure subject of representation, far beyond individual desire or want but considering the "general shape of things", even desirously, religiously wishing to forget myself so that the truth of this raw pattern will more clearly manifest itself. The most Religious sensation I am capable of experiencing is the Scientific.
This also explains my somewhat psychopathic desire to raze those who are anti-religious scientific and anti-scientific religious by the heapful. Hindu spirituality afforded an interesting place to the forces of death and nihilisim and destruction, these forces found an additional place in budhuddist perceptions. The great Gaping Maw circling all the Spheres of Life, how can this, embodied in Hindu religion as the combat between Shiva and Vishnu, between ordered life and chaotic death. Just as death is only made sense by life and life by death, so neither side of their opposition be seen as necessarily good or bad.
Anyway what I was trying to say is that there is way to say everything which is also what makes anything worth saying.

NOTHING IS EVER ENOUGH
This very emo and also consumerist and addict statement is also a profound metaphysical truth

I do dislike the way I have spoken to people over the years but dude, get a fucking clue. I do not want to be your friend and you are only succeeding at annoying the fuck out of me. I wamt to spend time with a woman like cait or fan or doherty even but I want nothing to do with you or the tranny or your dweeby niece. Get a fucking clue and leave me the fuck alone. I wouldn't even explode so much if you just left me the fuck alone.

Can someone tell me the youtube channels name for "Q from the book club"?

Everyone wants to live in interesting times, until they don't.

I hope Johnson dies choking on his own blood. Fucking twat. Take the rest of the English with you too.

>>15039568
Mad.

>>15036800
Same anon, it’s the only way I can fall alseep

>>15039062
Its just "the Book Club." He deleted most of his videos.

>>15036847
Every bit of suffering is valid. Material and biological necessities only encompass one small part of the problem. Humans are complex creatures, and there should be no guilt or shame in feeling defeated and dejected in a society and economic system that no longer serves you. If anything, being on an eternal quest to secure food, shelter, and other simple comforts might very well be preferable to the current state of affairs, as at least such inclinations are wired into our instincts, as opposed to what one goes through now, in which instant gratification, overstimulation, and what is effectively "voluntary" servitude have twisted our senses and contorted our reason into something endlessly confusing and frustrating. Certainly, there are a certain number of people that are capable of adapting to an environment like this, but it certainly isn't the norm — depression and suicide rates among western societies and other similar regions should tell an all-too-compelling story about the existential horrors that your average person will succumb to in their menial, tenuous day-to-day life. The only solace, at least in my experience, one can find in this chaotic tempest of garbage is to embrace art, love, and beauty, as contrived as it sounds.

God Rose is such a fat piece of crap. I wish I could kikl her and mutilate her corpse. I would smash her skull in and use it as a waste basket.

>>15038420
youtube.com/watch?v=uZkp6K-PxGQ

GIVE MOLDBUG A PORT CITY IN HAIT AND LET HIM FUCKING TRY

THE HUMAN RACE IS OBSOLESCENT. ALL POPULATION MANAGEMENT SHOULD BE FOR THE INDIGENOUS GOVERNMENT.

YOU ARE AFRAID OF SPEAKING DIFFERENTLY? SHUT UP. FUCKIN TELL ME WHAT I THINK YOU BEHAVE, AND I WILL TELL YOU.

A MORE FAIR ELECTION WILL BRING US FASTER TOWARDS OUR MASCULINITY AND REAL CHANGE.

I WILL PRAY FOR INDEPENDENCE FROM HILLARY. HAIL TRUMP.

Mighty Molasses!

Dude, go fuck yourself and take your hideous tranny and your gay Bazinga man expressions with you, you hideous dweeby halfwit.